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Fibromyalgia - An Optimistic but Realistic Support Group

2009.04.18 10:29 LisaHellen Fibromyalgia - An Optimistic but Realistic Support Group

An optimistic but realistic support group.
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Documenting the struggles of those caught in the middle of an invisible war.
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2009.11.17 08:20 IWatchTooMuchTV How I Met Your Mother

A subreddit for fans of the show How I Met Your Mother. Discussion of, and media from anything How I Met Your Mother related.
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2024.05.19 20:17 concerta18 United Airlines Destroyed My Camera Gear

This morning I landed to Chicago with United Airlines with my all my photography gear in pelican like suit case for a graduation gig. I arrive to a graduation location and open my bag to find ALL of my gear been destroyed and shoved back inside my suit case with my foam dividers ripped and parts of them missing. I couldn’t shoot the event due any of my gear not functioning. Now i’m sitting in the middle of Illinois not knowing what to do. This is my full time job and this gear is everything I have. I messaged their customer service and all they said was they’re not liable for electronic devices. I opened up a claim at the moment to have record that this has happened, but that’s all i have so far. Anyone know what i can do in this situation? Can i sue them somehow?
ps. I brought the bag in with me as carry on and they forced checked it in due not having enough space in the cabin.
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2024.05.19 20:12 BIT_314 LGBTQ issues

So we know that the LGBTQ is Lesbians, Gays, Bisexuals, Trans, and Queer. The thing is, the first 3, LGB are sexuality, the other 4 are expression. They are two completely different things being shoved into the same group. That's why the LGB and the TQ+ should be separate groups.
The LGB part is about sexuality, not gender, not none of that. I'm fine with all of it, you love who you love. But Jesus, people can't even be gay or straight with our being called transphobic. Like if they don't like pussy and they don't wanna date a trans woman. That's not transphobic.
And the whole thing with the trans community. I'm tired of being rejected from society Because I didn't know that someone was using neo pronoun: pumpkin/spice, for God's sake I didn't even know that existed. And now I'm apparently a bigot for not knowing. I'm not just going to go up to someone and be like "what's your pronouns?", I just won't do it.
Now, we got drag queens performing in front of children. That's too far, not too long ago, I saw a video of a drag queen teaching kindergarteners how to twerk, like wtf. Too far. And why are people promoting doing drag performances to children as young as 6 years old. That's messed up on a whole other level.
And the books in school about sexuality, yes they need that for like sex ed but kindergarteners and middle schoolers shount be able to go to their school library and find a book that has pictures of sex positions on it. Like keep the children out of this
The whole thing with the LGBTQ is insane, I can't go anywhere without LGBTQ pride being shoved down my throat. I'm tired of it, genuinely. I'm bisexual myself and I dread being apart of a stariotype that makes me seem like I do things that I don't and it pisses me off so much All I ask is that you leave the children out of the LGBTQ things until they are old enough and mature enough, that's all I ask.
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2024.05.19 20:11 Stephan2005 Goodbye, my twin flame

Dear D...
Before I met you, I always felt like there was something missing in my heart, ever since I was really young; there was something that no matter how much I tried to replace I could never succeed. The thoughts of this hole in my heart being existent for the rest of my life felt soothing eventually but also painful multiple times. I always felt like an outcast no matter how much I tried to fit in, no matter how close I got to my friends. When you came, all those thoughts, all those feelings got away...
When I first met you, my whole world turned upside down. The shock that flowed through felt electric, like I touched a generator that collects energy. I could feel your gaze penetrate mine and vice versa. Then we looked away and shortly aftet we persuaded each other. I was more vocal and direct, you were more quiet and stood close to me all the time. I was sensitive and tense, you were more detached and chill. The moments I talked to you felt like paradise, it felt like I was talking to a long lost friend, to a brother from an another lifetime. In our dreams the roles would be reversed all the time: I would become the quiet and cold one and you would be the sunshine boy filled with happiness and joy. And of course you were the hugger. The nerve.
I wanted to be in your presence all the time, but I was scared of the intensity as well. I could tell you were also scared of it, but everytime I was chasing, you were running. Everytime I was running you were chasing. We were never in the middle. We had different methods to cope with the connection, because we were never fully direct with each other. I would have panic attacks and cry on the corridors when no one was around and later listen to music that reminded me of you, wrote poems about you and started to draw you out of the back of my mind. It felt uncanny how much you looked just like in the drawings. You would deal with it by drinking and overthinking and later outright confess to me overnight, the last night we were together. Then we separated. I needed time to reflect, something I did for the sake of both of us. You felt hurt and I felt hurt, but we needed space. I needed space. I felt like I was too much for you, and you did not deserve me.
That is when I started to grow. To change, to try and stand up and live my life the way I used to. I thought I would go back to my heart having that hole again, and dealing with it like old times, again. But the hole was no longer there. Because you filled that place in my heart. You and only you. And the pain became more powerful. I hurt even more because the separation made me wish I was in your presence more, to just hold you and never let you go. To tell you that I love you back, but I knew you would not believe me. You would think I would only say it back out of pity, not honesty. Because you have your own demons in your head, your own voices that make you overthink. Those voices are louder then my own voice.
Then I learned about the connection. At first I left it at chance. I had moments when I was going back to you, and moments when I was leaving you. Eventually you came back, and hugged me and took a photo with me and your best friend. You asked me if things will be the same between us. I had no response. I wanted to go back to it, but I knew it would be wrong. You wanted me back but I knew you did not evolve properly. You missed me, the same I missed you if not more but as the more awakened one I had to push you away. I told you eventually that I love you back the same way you told me: through text. You denied it and thought that I was just messing with you. You stopped talking to me. I know I hurt you, but I wanted to let you know as well. I hurt you because I love you.
Months went by and I learned to not let my anger take the best of me. To not let our past define our future. I learned to love myself, use the energy you gave me, both good and bad and embrace it. You were the reflection of my shadow self, who wants to tell people sometimes to stopp bugging me and that wants to be alone sometimes and I was your shadow self, the part that you keep locked because you got hurt: the kind, loyal and naive side of you that I showcase on the outside. I kept running into you; twin flame numbers kept pestering me. Dreams kept influencing me. But I had to stay away. I could see in your eyes that you were expecting me to make a move sometimes, smile at me warmly and just stare. But you were also mirroring me; if I was away, you were also away. Then I came back to you and you felt like I was just talking to you out of pity. So you let your ego out on me again.
You cant fully grasp the connection and how this experience should transform you, not just make you feel better. That you should heal wounds, not use me as a distraction for your own pain. Our dreams were almost always manifested by you; they always appeared when I was thinking the least about you, and in them you always wanted to do something with me. You might had good intentions, but you were also taking away my energy. The energy that I would use to heal would be drained because you were taking part of it for yourself. Because you did not had your own energy to use. Because you dont want to use your own healing process and make your own energy. I learned to love myself and also to love my friends and the friendships I had with them and the blessing that comes with having such strong bonds. I learned what I want in a partner and how my life should be settled for here on out. But I know deep down that I wont love anyone as much as you. Its just not possible. They will have another place in my heart, another type of love, but no one could replace you and I know this is gonna be vice versa for you as well. From what I have seen you still did not hook up with anyone after I came in your life; for the record you ironically broke up with your girlfriend around the time I came in your life and were super curious whenever there was a girl I had a crush on.
And as much as I love you, I cant allow this. I have to block you out through every way possible. I cant force you to change for the better, but maybe if you dont have me or my energy to use, there could be a chance. We will also separate fully in a couple of weeks with me off to college and you in your last year of highschool. Maybe my full absence will help you grow, just like how I felt when I experienced the separation a year ago. Again, I hurt you because I love you. If you heal yourself you know you can find me. When you are healed just call me and I will answer. Until then you have to be put away from my mind and energy. I will be fine, I will live my life and enjoy my part of it. I will miss you every single day, but I will remind myself of how you are not healed and how you need this space for yourself. Even if this space will still make me wish to hold you in my arms, and hold you as tight as possible.
Goodbye D. Until we meet again, I hope you will have a great life ahead of you and I hope we will reunite eventually... when both of us are healed. If we dont then... I guess see you in the next lifetime.
I love you.
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2024.05.19 20:09 Fine_Construction234 Small leak drainage

Small leak drainage
Looking for DIY tips before I spend a fortune on a plumber in London
A couple of days ago I noticed that there is always a bit of water on the bottom part, which seems to be dripping onto the woodwork below (you can see that it'sdamaged). It looks like it's dripping down, along the blue arrow. I can also spin the entire middle section 360°. Not sure if it's supposed to do that lol. I can't seem to make it any tighter as it just keeps on spinning
Does anyone have any DIY tips that I can apply, before having to call a plumber?
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2024.05.19 20:06 concerta18 United Airlines Destroyed My Camera Gear

United Airlines Destroyed My Camera Gear
This morning I landed to Chicago with United Airlines with my all my photography gear in pelican like suit case for a graduation gig. I arrive to a graduation location and open my bag to find ALL of my gear been destroyed and shoved back inside my suit case with my foam dividers ripped and parts of them missing. I couldn’t shoot the event due any of my gear not functioning. Now i’m sitting in the middle of Illinois not knowing what to do. This is my full time job and this gear is everything I have. I messaged their customer service and all they said was they’re not liable for electronic devices. I opened up a claim at the moment to have record that this has happened, but that’s all i have so far. Anyone know what i can do in this situation? Can i sue them somehow?
ps. I brought the bag in with me as carry on and they forced checked it in due not having enough space in the cabin.
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2024.05.19 20:06 seeking-peace12 A life that could have been

In 2020 I got pregnant. In the middle of a total and complete planet lockdown. In the middle of a shit apartment in one of the crappiest neighbourhoods in this town, miserable, lonely and sad- I found out I was pregnant.
It was unplanned and a part of me was terrified, but a part of me was excited, at the idea of having a baby, having a family- with you. Then the excitement disappeared, because I realised that you wouldn't be happy.
I wasn't allowed to call or turn up at your house- how could i... she was living in it, wasn't she? I waited days for you to turn up at my apartment, a part of me started to think that I wouldn't see you again, that somehow you already knew and decided to bow out early. Unseen.
When you turned up, i waited the whole walk around the forest to tell you, I tried so many times, I didn't know how to say it, so I just showed you the test. Your reaction, or should I say lack of reaction just confirmed my fear. You didn't really say anything, I think you thought it was a joke perhaps?
You turned up at my house either the next day or a few days after I think. To talk. Had you planned what to say? Had you been up all night worrying that I was going to tell people? Worry that I was going to shatter the glass house you were trying to rebuild with her? It became clear that no matter how much I wanted this.. it wasn't going to happen. You didn't want it, 'it wasn't the right time' you said... i thought many things; that you didn't want to tell me you are her were giving things another shot. I even at one point thought you had gotten her pregnant.. maybe those things were true, or maybe you just didn't want a child with me. Either way you made your position clear.
I wanted to keep it. I thought of every scenario, I could raise it myself perhaps?.. but the more I thought about it the more my heart broke. Would you deny our existence?, would I have to tell lies about who the father was? I realised that if I decided to keep it, we would be on our own, that you would not be a part of it- and why should you I guess? But in the end It hurt too much, my heart broke, i don't think I would have survived that. So I phoned the doctor and I made an appointment at the hospital.
I don't know what I though when I went to the appointment.. but I didn’t expect to be handed a brown paper bag and be sent on my way. And then.. well I guess I took the prescribed pills in the prescribed order.
I just sat on the bathroom floor for hours and when I finally wasn't throwing up and feeling absolutely terrible I drove to the beach and sat their for hours as well. I felt so sad. So alone. And I was so angry, all I could think about was the fact you were with her whilst I was alone.
Then you turned up at my house.. you said you'd came round to see me but I wasn't it.. and this was your second attempt. I was glad, for the first time since I had met you i was glad I had missed you the first time.. because I didn't want to see you. At that moment you were the last person I wanted to see. I was so angry and so hurt, then you had the nerve to just turn up and ask if it was done?... I pretended to be nonchalant about it, that yeah it was done, it was what it was and that it was over and done with. And you've never really mentioned it since.
Years later i remember being in the car in our way home, I'm not sure how we got onto the subject... but it was mentioned that she had two abortions. I asked you if you were their with her for them... and of course you were. Because you were her person, and she was yours and you're their for your person. But i wasn't your person was I? I asked when these abortions occurred, you wouldn't tell me, you were very evasive and gave cryptic answers... you got her pregnant after we met didn't you? It happened after 2019? You just didn't want to tell me... at least that's how it seemed.
I accepted along time ago that I wouldn't get the answers I was looking for, but it doesn't mean I don't think about it from time to time.
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2024.05.19 20:06 Dramatic-Series6681 Am I asking for too much in my relationship?24F,30M

This will be a long one as I'm still incredible confused as to what I should do.
I'm (24F) 5 months into my first serious relationship with my partner (30M) and I've noticed a pattern that's really hurting my feelings and making me doubt my future plans with him. My boyfriend works as a Chef and are very rarely home earlier than 11pm each workday. I am well aware that working in a kitchen means having long days (I met him when I was a waitress) and I accept the amount of hours he have to put into it, I knew what I was walking into, when it comes to his Job, he also knows that, as we have talked about it (hes getting a promotion in fall so then i will see him even less and theres a high probability i will have to move across the country or to a different country next summer for my education). I also knew that my boyfriend have a long time friend which I would have to accept like a package deal if I wanted a relationship with him, I just had no idea it would be as extreme as it is. His friend (lets call him Joe 28M) is the type of person that takes rejections personal, has barely any situational awareness and doesn't understand the need for privacy in a relationship. He's used to being in a relationship himself, however as I'm my boyfriends first partner in 11years, Joe have never seen my boyfriend in a relationship before and are used to being prioritized after work. Joe and his girlfriend broke up 4 months ago, and he have moved into the city where both my boyfriend and I live separately. He now lives 7min walking distance from my boyfriend, so there's plenty of opportunities for them to see each other when I'm not around. Now we get to the part that's bothering me. A month ago I was at my boyfriends place for a week, every single day he got home from work at around 10:30-11:30pm, he gave me a quick hug and kisses and then asked if it was okay if he went down to Joe's. In the beginning it didn't bother me as I believe friendships are still important even if you're dating someone so I said it was okay. Where I messed up was when he asked me the third day in a row and I let him go even when I could feel it hurt me, I was just so scared to be seen as the villian as I wish Joe will see me as a good partner for my boyfriend. During the forth day my period is hitting me hard and my hormones and cravings are all over the place. I ask him if he could bring some snacks home and he is kind enough to do it. I greet him at the door like usual, more excited as my cravings can be fulfilled and because I was looking forward to spend time with him. He then asks if it's okay if he goes out drinking with Joe and a friend. He literally watches my excitement disappear and tears welling up as he waits for an answer (he comments on it). He mentions that when he got the message from Joe that he knew I would be disappointed (I still don't understand why he didn't just decline the invitation and stay home if he knew that) because there was a third party involved this time, I again couldn't make myself say no to him even though my heart was hurting. Through all these days not once was he home before 3am, the last day he was home at 4:45am. The fifth day (his off day and mine) was reserved for me and had been for 2 weeks. I went to school at 9am to practice for my exam and were there for way longer than usual because I was hurt and trying to control my emotions before returning to him. I also secretly wished that he would wake up and ask where I was, but that didn't happen as he was still asleep when I returned at 2pm. He woke up and asked me if I was mad, I sad no but that I was irritated and hurt. We tried to talk it out but he got defensive even though I admitted I messed up by not saying no when he asked. I asked if i should just leave and decided to go home after asking multiple times with no productive response from him, I felt we needed time apart to cool down and think things through. I contacted him in the afternoon to apologize for my reaction to the situation however I also said that I wouldn't apologize for my words as I meant what I said to him. I first got a text from him 4 days later, after I had contacted him again the day before to find a day we could talk things through and fix things. The day after his text we talk and promises each other that I will do my utmost best to say no when I can feel I need to, and he will priorities spending time with me when I'm at his apartment.
Fast forward to this week, it happened again. I'm the type to always ask permission to sleep over as it's not my home, my boyfriend said there was no need to as he always expects me to sleepover. Friday the 10th we were out shopping when his mom calls (so we could finally meet each other) and they start planning after his schedule without even considering if I have other plans, luckily enough they chose Monday instead of Friday the 17th. The day after the shopping trip Joe was hospitalized for appendicitis and needed a ride home and wasn't allowed to be alone for the first 24 hours. He also needed his medicine through a needle for 7 days which he needed someone else to do to him as he couldnt make himself, that's fair enough.. My boyfriend had to sleep at Joe's and that was the right thing to do as it was an emergency, I also expected him to sleep over the second day as I take no chances when it comes to people's health. Third day My boyfriend and I are meeting his mom so Joe have to find another to poke him, he found someone with experience to do it. Tuesday he contacts me to give him his medicine as my boyfriend is working and he doesn't trust the two friends at his apartment to do it. Alright I go and do it, we end up talking about my boyfriend and i mention that i want a a little alone time with the man i love...his response "We can do things together, thats what we did when I was in a relationship" apparently he didnt understand me and i didnt want to start an argument when his 2 friends was still there...my boyfriend joins us later and we go home at around 1am. Wednesday my Boyfriend goes to give the medicine after work, that's okay but he is first home at 3am. Thursday I join them as I'm tired of not having time with my boyfriend. Joe gets the medicine and suddenly have this idea that he and my boyfriend needs to drive out of city to visit a friend and deliver some things in the middle of the night and it can't wait (Joe aren't allowed to drive when his medicated). When we get to the car I ask if it's something that will take a long time as I'm contemplating joining them or going to my boyfriends place, Boyfriend says it's probably best I just go home to his. Again he's first home around 3am as both he and Joe fell asleep at Joe's.... Friday the 17th, Boyfriend finally has a day off and so do I, we have plans to have dinner with my mom in the evening which he agreed to 3 days prior. There's no food in the fridge so he goes grocery shopping, when he comes back Joe is with him, I didn't even get a warning so I could decide if I wanted to be there or not, I get that it's his apartment however I find it disrespectful that I don't even get a text or something. Boyfriend makes the food and while we eat he suddenly invites Joe to a concert where chill and romantic music gets played, which he also invited me to months prior, like a date...Joe suddenly asks when we think we will be home from my mom's (mind you I have told my boyfriend two times both this day and Thursday, that Joe needs to find another to poke him that day) I answer and say I don't know the earliest will probably be 10pm. My boyfriend answers and says " Oh no problem! If it's 10pm we have plenty of time to get home so I can do it, you make it sound like we will be there late."....like..I don't...seriously?! I feel like he doesn't want to priorities our relationship. When we're done eating I do the dishes as he made the food and they just leave, I finish up and go to a friend's as I am incredible hurt and needs someone to listen to as I'm again in the midst of my period and don't know if I'm being irrational or if I need to be concerned. I told my boyfriend that we leave at 5pm at the latest, he calls me at 4:15 to hear where I am, I tell him and he says that he expected me to be home when he got there. I of course seem off when I get to his place and he asks me if we need to talk. I simply reply that it's not a conversation we should take today. Whole car ride is silent, when we get to my mom's, everything seems fine and we are acting lovingly towards each other as we don't wan't to worry my family. At 11:20pm on the way home he asks if I wanna talk about it now, I again decline and tells him that it's not a conversation I wanna have while I'm on my period as my hormones are all over the place, I'm sensitive and take things personal and that -in my opinion- doesn't make a good fundamental platform to have a productive conversation. He continuesly asks and I give him the same answer again and again even telling him that I need time to think things through as I want to make sure I'm not being irrational. I pack my bags when we get to his (I'm visiting my dad so I need the stuff) and he drives me home. When we're in front of my door he gives me a lecture about how communication is important and if I won't tell him what's bothering me our relationship won't last, he even said that he thinks my friends have said something to make me like this, I told him I needed to see them and he said "thats okay, I'm with Joe"...I know that's the problem, we never just have time for ourselves....I was SO close to giving him a passive aggressive answer however I also know that won't help the situation.
The fact that both Joe and my boyfriend are together every day for hours on end when they are well aware that I'm home alone in my boyfriend's apartment, I find incredible disrespectful towards me and my free time. If I wanted to be alone I would be in my own apartment, I told him that when when we had or first argument a month ago. I feel like I'm being taken for granted, the fact that he just expects me to be at his place whenever he decides to be there, or makes plans without consulting me - especially if I'm involved in the plans- are disrespectful and unkind. He often tells me that he loves me and I'm sure he does...just not the way I need him to. I need quality time just him and I, no friends, no family just us for my love tank to be refilled..I've had none of that during this week I even told him that I needed more love and attention because of my period and its like he didn't listen and take it seriously. Yes he takes me out to dinner and makes homemade food, I appreciate it and to help him out I sometimes cleans his apartment and does the laundry as he barely have any off days to do it. However I find it hard to appreciate when we're eating out as Joe is often thirdwheeling...I've even asked my boyfriend what I need to do to make him feel appreciated and loved as I've told him my love language but I don't know his, I didn't really get an answer.. All the frustrations about this week I will talk to him about this Tuesday, if he can't be with me physically for a week I need him to at least write me each 48 hours as I'm tired of always being the one initiating conversations. I of course will also set boundaries and tell him how much quality time I need to feel loved and safe. If this is how things are gonna go every time I'm at his for a week or more, I don't feel comfortable by the thought of moving in together, we've talked about marriage and kids for the future but if these weeks are any indication for how it will be like living with him, it won't happen...I love him, I truly do and thats why this situation hurt me so much, thats why i try so hard to make him feel loved and to fix things...but I also have too much self respect to accept this behavior from him and his friend. If he don't want to priorities our relationship after his Job, we won't have a healthy relationship where both parties are happy. We both have traumas from past relationships and parents, which of course doesn't make things easier, however in my opinion it is no excuse to neglect each other's needs.
I'm sorry for the rambling, and I appreciate if you've read this far. I could use an outside perspective on our situation as friends and family often times have a biased opinion.
Thanks for reading
TLDR I feel underappriciated in my relationship and wonder if I'm asking for too much from him
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2024.05.19 20:06 concerta18 United Airlines Destroyed My Camera Gear

This morning I landed to Chicago with United Airlines with my all my photography gear in pelican like suit case for a graduation gig. I arrive to a graduation location and open my bag to find ALL of my gear been destroyed and shoved back inside my suit case with my foam dividers ripped and parts of them missing. I couldn’t shoot the event due any of my gear not functioning. Now i’m sitting in the middle of Illinois not knowing what to do. This is my full time job and this gear is everything I have. I messaged their customer service and all they said was they’re not liable for electronic devices. I opened up a claim at the moment to have record that this has happened, but that’s all i have so far. Anyone know what i can do in this situation? Can i sue them somehow?
ps. I brought the bag in with me as carry on and they forced checked it in due not having enough space in the cabin.
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2024.05.19 20:04 WIn11cent Hades 2 so far

Having played Hades 2 close to 50 nights and enough to unlock most things (except the most grindy stuff) i wanted to share my thoughts on the game thus far and what i hope to see in future patches. I am 100% sure a lot of you will have a different experience with the game and that is fine.
What i like about the game:
Melinoë feels great to play as. Her animations are smooth and i enjoy the sprint mechanic. At first i really missed additional dashes but after about 10 or so nights i prefer it the way it is.
Love the new power up system. I enjoy grinding for the parts and trying out different cards for different weapons.
The boons are amazing, again at first i thought they were all worse than Hades 1 but they are just as strong as in Hades 1. You can chunk 2k damage with the axe or electrocute your enemies so fast with the sister blades. If you want to be a tank that barely takes any damage you can do that too. I find a lot of the combinations of boons to be very interesting.
New weapons are great! (except one, you know which)
The story, characters, voice actors (narcissus is my favorite) and art are amazing, love it.
Bosses, enemies and NPCs - amazing.
Love that we can choose to go up or down, great for variety.
And so much more!
What i would like to see improved
Omega moves. It's not that they are weak but more feel awkward to use and doesn't weave into combos the same way an attack into special does. Additionally with 2 of the vows reducing your magick to 0 combined with some of the best boons that "prime" your magick you are locked out of the omega moves on higher "heat". You are also locked out of the boons and aspects that only affect your omega moves. It also feels bad when you get a hammer and it only improves your omega moves. Would love to see some changes here.
The moon boon. Why is the moon boon forced to show up in EVERY run?? I've never been happy to see that boon and will always reroll it because most of the time i can't get the moon boons to fit into any combo and i feel like they don't add anything to my current build. Would love for her to be just like any other god, if you want her to show up you equip the keepsake.
The umbral flames (weapon). The attack is slow and easy to miss and the special is just as difficult to use. This weapon also heavily rely on you to use magick and that means you need to not pick up boons that prime your magick or "waste" rewards by taking magick rewards. Clunky weapon and by far my least favorite. Would like to atleast have aspects that make the weapon less frustrating.
The aspects. I feel like most of them doesn't add much to the base weapons and it doesn't affect your combos or playstyle in any major way. It doesn't help that like half of the aspects only affect the omega moves. Would love to see aspects that change the way you play with the weapon.
Keep up the great work SG, can't wait for the story to conclude!
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2024.05.19 20:03 Dramatic-Series6681 Am i asking for too much in my relationship?

This will be a long one as I'm still incredible confused as to what I should do.
I'm (24F) 5 months into my first serious relationship with my partner (30M) and I've noticed a pattern that's really hurting my feelings and making me doubt my future plans with him. My boyfriend works as a Chef and are very rarely home earlier than 11pm each workday. I am well aware that working in a kitchen means having long days (I met him when I was a waitress) and I accept the amount of hours he have to put into it, I knew what I was walking into, when it comes to his Job, he also knows that, as we have talked about it (hes getting a promotion in fall so then i will see him even less and theres a high probability i will have to move across the country or to a different country next summer for my education). I also knew that my boyfriend have a long time friend which I would have to accept like a package deal if I wanted a relationship with him, I just had no idea it would be as extreme as it is. His friend (lets call him Joe 28M) is the type of person that takes rejections personal, has barely any situational awareness and doesn't understand the need for privacy in a relationship. He's used to being in a relationship himself, however as I'm my boyfriends first partner in 11years, Joe have never seen my boyfriend in a relationship before and are used to being prioritized after work. Joe and his girlfriend broke up 4 months ago, and he have moved into the city where both my boyfriend and I live separately. He now lives 7min walking distance from my boyfriend, so there's plenty of opportunities for them to see each other when I'm not around. Now we get to the part that's bothering me. A month ago I was at my boyfriends place for a week, every single day he got home from work at around 10:30-11:30pm, he gave me a quick hug and kisses and then asked if it was okay if he went down to Joe's. In the beginning it didn't bother me as I believe friendships are still important even if you're dating someone so I said it was okay. Where I messed up was when he asked me the third day in a row and I let him go even when I could feel it hurt me, I was just so scared to be seen as the villian as I wish Joe will see me as a good partner for my boyfriend. During the forth day my period is hitting me hard and my hormones and cravings are all over the place. I ask him if he could bring some snacks home and he is kind enough to do it. I greet him at the door like usual, more excited as my cravings can be fulfilled and because I was looking forward to spend time with him. He then asks if it's okay if he goes out drinking with Joe and a friend. He literally watches my excitement disappear and tears welling up as he waits for an answer (he comments on it). He mentions that when he got the message from Joe that he knew I would be disappointed (I still don't understand why he didn't just decline the invitation and stay home if he knew that) because there was a third party involved this time, I again couldn't make myself say no to him even though my heart was hurting. Through all these days not once was he home before 3am, the last day he was home at 4:45am. The fifth day (his off day and mine) was reserved for me and had been for 2 weeks. I went to school at 9am to practice for my exam and were there for way longer than usual because I was hurt and trying to control my emotions before returning to him. I also secretly wished that he would wake up and ask where I was, but that didn't happen as he was still asleep when I returned at 2pm. He woke up and asked me if I was mad, I sad no but that I was irritated and hurt. We tried to talk it out but he got defensive even though I admitted I messed up by not saying no when he asked. I asked if i should just leave and decided to go home after asking multiple times with no productive response from him, I felt we needed time apart to cool down and think things through. I contacted him in the afternoon to apologize for my reaction to the situation however I also said that I wouldn't apologize for my words as I meant what I said to him. I first got a text from him 4 days later, after I had contacted him again the day before to find a day we could talk things through and fix things. The day after his text we talk and promises each other that I will do my utmost best to say no when I can feel I need to, and he will priorities spending time with me when I'm at his apartment.
Fast forward to this week, it happened again. I'm the type to always ask permission to sleep over as it's not my home, my boyfriend said there was no need to as he always expects me to sleepover. Friday the 10th we were out shopping when his mom calls (so we could finally meet each other) and they start planning after his schedule without even considering if I have other plans, luckily enough they chose Monday instead of Friday the 17th. The day after the shopping trip Joe was hospitalized for appendicitis and needed a ride home and wasn't allowed to be alone for the first 24 hours. He also needed his medicine through a needle for 7 days which he needed someone else to do to him as he couldnt make himself, that's fair enough.. My boyfriend had to sleep at Joe's and that was the right thing to do as it was an emergency, I also expected him to sleep over the second day as I take no chances when it comes to people's health. Third day My boyfriend and I are meeting his mom so Joe have to find another to poke him, he found someone with experience to do it. Tuesday he contacts me to give him his medicine as my boyfriend is working and he doesn't trust the two friends at his apartment to do it. Alright I go and do it, we end up talking about my boyfriend and i mention that i want a a little alone time with the man i love...his response "We can do things together, thats what we did when I was in a relationship" apparently he didnt understand me and i didnt want to start an argument when his 2 friends was still there...my boyfriend joins us later and we go home at around 1am. Wednesday my Boyfriend goes to give the medicine after work, that's okay but he is first home at 3am. Thursday I join them as I'm tired of not having time with my boyfriend. Joe gets the medicine and suddenly have this idea that he and my boyfriend needs to drive out of city to visit a friend and deliver some things in the middle of the night and it can't wait (Joe aren't allowed to drive when his medicated). When we get to the car I ask if it's something that will take a long time as I'm contemplating joining them or going to my boyfriends place, Boyfriend says it's probably best I just go home to his. Again he's first home around 3am as both he and Joe fell asleep at Joe's.... Friday the 17th, Boyfriend finally has a day off and so do I, we have plans to have dinner with my mom in the evening which he agreed to 3 days prior. There's no food in the fridge so he goes grocery shopping, when he comes back Joe is with him, I didn't even get a warning so I could decide if I wanted to be there or not, I get that it's his apartment however I find it disrespectful that I don't even get a text or something. Boyfriend makes the food and while we eat he suddenly invites Joe to a concert where chill and romantic music gets played, which he also invited me to months prior, like a date...Joe suddenly asks when we think we will be home from my mom's (mind you I have told my boyfriend two times both this day and Thursday, that Joe needs to find another to poke him that day) I answer and say I don't know the earliest will probably be 10pm. My boyfriend answers and says " Oh no problem! If it's 10pm we have plenty of time to get home so I can do it, you make it sound like we will be there late."....like..I don't...seriously?! I feel like he doesn't want to priorities our relationship. When we're done eating I do the dishes as he made the food and they just leave, I finish up and go to a friend's as I am incredible hurt and needs someone to listen to as I'm again in the midst of my period and don't know if I'm being irrational or if I need to be concerned. I told my boyfriend that we leave at 5pm at the latest, he calls me at 4:15 to hear where I am, I tell him and he says that he expected me to be home when he got there. I of course seem off when I get to his place and he asks me if we need to talk. I simply reply that it's not a conversation we should take today. Whole car ride is silent, when we get to my mom's, everything seems fine and we are acting lovingly towards each other as we don't wan't to worry my family. At 11:20pm on the way home he asks if I wanna talk about it now, I again decline and tells him that it's not a conversation I wanna have while I'm on my period as my hormones are all over the place, I'm sensitive and take things personal and that -in my opinion- doesn't make a good fundamental platform to have a productive conversation. He continuesly asks and I give him the same answer again and again even telling him that I need time to think things through as I want to make sure I'm not being irrational. I pack my bags when we get to his (I'm visiting my dad so I need the stuff) and he drives me home. When we're in front of my door he gives me a lecture about how communication is important and if I won't tell him what's bothering me our relationship won't last, he even said that he thinks my friends have said something to make me like this, I told him I needed to see them and he said "thats okay, I'm with Joe"...I know that's the problem, we never just have time for ourselves....I was SO close to giving him a passive aggressive answer however I also know that won't help the situation.
The fact that both Joe and my boyfriend are together every day for hours on end when they are well aware that I'm home alone in my boyfriend's apartment, I find incredible disrespectful towards me and my free time. If I wanted to be alone I would be in my own apartment, I told him that when when we had or first argument a month ago. I feel like I'm being taken for granted, the fact that he just expects me to be at his place whenever he decides to be there, or makes plans without consulting me - especially if I'm involved in the plans- are disrespectful and unkind. He often tells me that he loves me and I'm sure he does...just not the way I need him to. I need quality time just him and I, no friends, no family just us for my love tank to be refilled..I've had none of that during this week I even told him that I needed more love and attention because of my period and its like he didn't listen and take it seriously. Yes he takes me out to dinner and makes homemade food, I appreciate it and to help him out I sometimes cleans his apartment and does the laundry as he barely have any off days to do it. However I find it hard to appreciate when we're eating out as Joe is often thirdwheeling...I've even asked my boyfriend what I need to do to make him feel appreciated and loved as I've told him my love language but I don't know his, I didn't really get an answer.. All the frustrations about this week I will talk to him about this Tuesday, if he can't be with me physically for a week I need him to at least write me each 48 hours as I'm tired of always being the one initiating conversations. I of course will also set boundaries and tell him how much quality time I need to feel loved and safe. If this is how things are gonna go every time I'm at his for a week or more, I don't feel comfortable by the thought of moving in together, we've talked about marriage and kids for the future but if these weeks are any indication for how it will be like living with him, it won't happen...I love him, I truly do and thats why this situation hurt me so much, thats why i try so hard to make him feel loved and to fix things...but I also have too much self respect to accept this behavior from him and his friend. If he don't want to priorities our relationship after his Job, we won't have a healthy relationship where both parties are happy. We both have traumas from past relationships and parents, which of course doesn't make things easier, however in my opinion it is no excuse to neglect each other's needs.
I'm sorry for the rambling, and I appreciate if you've read this far. I could use an outside perspective on our situation as friends and family often times have a biased opinion.
Thanks for reading
TLDR I feel underappriciated in my relationship and wonder if I'm asking for too much
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2024.05.19 19:59 AlexGamr0X0 Manchester City: Champions of England

Again. And again. And again.
For the first time in the history of the English game, the same club has won the title for a fourth consecutive season.
Fittingly, the Premier League trophy is brought out into the middle of an expectant Etihad Stadium by Paul Dickov, a man who played such a huge part in starting the Manchester City revolution 25 years ago with his late, late Wembley equaliser against Gillingham in the third tier play-off final.
One-by-one, the triumphant City squad are introduced to the crowd as they receive their winners' medals and prepare for THE moment.
Eventually it arrives with the appearance of Kyle Walker. The captain receives the trophy, joins his teammates, and thrusts their prize towards the sky and blue moon...
MANCHESTER CITY MAKE HISTORY!
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2024.05.19 19:58 A_Puddle Here's my Steam Review

SUMMARY: The negative reviews are based on some very legitimate criticisms, but the games biggest failing is simply that it didn't live up to peoples expectations, whatever those may have been, which in this day and age is pretty much true of every release. The ratio of 43% positive reviews at the time of writing is frankly ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ outrageous. This game is good, its not amazing and probably won't ever be a classic the way HW1 was due to the story, but there is a solid game to play here, and one which could make it to very good if the issues with the unit behavior and balance are addressed and the Wargames mode is expanded upon. If you are at all on the fence about the game, and skeptical of the dog pile of negativity I'd highly encourage you to double check Steam's refund policy then give the game a try, I think you'll find plenty to like.
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FULL: That said the core game play is good, with some very fixable bugs related to unit's automated behavior, mostly around pathing, engagement/disengagement decisions, and formations. Given the improvements seen from the demo (which I found so off putting it was literally unplayable for me) to release, I am quite confident that if the publishers let the devs provide the post launch support the roadmap indicates, these bugs will be fixed.
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The campaign is a very mixed bag. The mission objectives and mechanics are honestly quite good up through the first 8 levels I've played, with a few 100% fixable issues, like not letting you decide when to hyperspace out. The broad strokes of the story could have been excellent and very true to Homeworld, but the direction taken in the actual implementation of the story honestly does suck. I find Imogen kinda gross, I was sick of seeing her face in close-up before the 3rd level and generally found her unlikable, however she isn't a 'girl boss' or a DEI plant, or whatever other buzzword attacks are being bandied about, she's just a poorly written character whose (visual) portrayal is off putting and low quality. I actually found Intel pretty likable, if given relatively little good dialogue to work with. The space magic stuff is not to my taste but is definitely not the worst I've seen. Mostly the decision to make this game's story character driven is probably what did the most damage as the impersonal nature of the storytelling of the prior games was one of their strengths leaving much to the player's imagination to fill in.
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As far as Wargames go, I REALLY love the concept, and think its exactly the kind of mechanic a new Homeworld game needed as it brings the persistent fleet and up against huge odds nature of the campaign into a more replayable format with the added fun (or frustration) of human teammates and has further deepened the feeling of being one of Ender's commanders xenociding the buggers vibe the originals gave me. Love this addition to the game, and really want to see this mode further fleshed out. I've seen someone recommend tying it to some sort of persistent over world a la Hell Divers 2, and I would LOVE to see that come to fruition, and would put my money where my mouth is on that point.
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As far as the controls and UI go, anyone put off by the Demo should discard their prior impressions and give things an open minded second try. I started off with the classic controls but have been gradually implementing some of the specific modern controls (but definitely not all). As I mentioned above, the controls in the demo were so bad, that after 3 hours of struggling I wrote the demo off as unplayable and the UI as obstructive. While I still find parts of the UI a little too visually noisy, for the most part the UI is functional and out of the way, and most of my biggest complaints can be easily addressed with some UI behavioral toggles (like quadruple the time in between Intel reminding me of the current objective, make the Hyperspace out button smaller, silent, and move it somewhere other than the middle of the screen). As far as the controls go, my biggest complaints are that some things are just bugged (like military only selection is on by default can't be disabled, and makes the input key to toggle military only selection kinda pointless), the sensors view is always either too far zoomed out or too far zoomed in to be useful, I can't select ships when there is terrain between them and me, and its too difficult to select my own and enemy ships with NLIPS off. All of which is fixable with a patch or two. Despite my skepticism regarding some of the devs claims about 'learning from the lessons of the past decades how to make better RTS controls' I'm finding that they might know what they're talking about after all.
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Finally as far as art direction, ship design, sound design and effects, and other intangible atmospherics go the team responsible for that more than delivered. The Incarnate's ships (regardless of whether that faction makes any sense in the lore of this universe) are unmistakably progenitor in design and thoroughly other wordly. The visuals and lighting from the megaliths to the skyboxes are utterly beautiful and richly detailed. The sound effects, combat chatter, miscellaneous dialogue and effects are punchy, grounding, believable and high fidelity. If the rest of this game had delivered in its respective areas as well as the visuals and sound design do this game would be the best Homeworld every made.
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CONCLUSION: Is this game everything I hoped for in the decades since I first played Homeworld 2? No, and whoever was ultimately responsible for the story we got with this game should not be allowed near a Homeworld game ever again. Does it come close in terms of gameplay and mechanics? It sure does, and further patches will only bring it closer; mod support may even let the community surpass what I'd hoped for. Am I going to have fun with what has been delivered and get my money's worth in terms of hours spent in game? You bet your ass I will. I hope its not the last time I'll command Hiigarans in battle, but if it is: thank you BBI for this visit to the Homeworld.
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2024.05.19 19:55 Mizzno [H] Games [W] Cornucopia, Headbangers: Rhythm Royale, art of rally, Games (Listed Below), Steam Gift Cards

N.B.: I'm mainly looking for the games listed in the title and at the bottom of the thread. Feel free to post other offers, but if I haven't responded to your comment(s) by my next posting, I likely wasn't able to find a trade that interested me.

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2024.05.19 19:54 GlumWay5425 Can’t quite let it go….

I recently turned 26, and stopped attending church in September last year after being released as a young women’s president after experiencing a massive burnout. At the time I was starting my first job out of Uni, my landlord was selling in the middle of a rental crisis and I was on the verge of homelessness, and trying to juggle my church responsibilities.
I had no intentions of leaving but as soon as I was released I just physically couldn’t bring myself to enter the church building again. The last little while has been me deconstructing my faith and finding the courage to admit to myself things that I was scared to previously. The church isn’t true and it is a deeply flawed and problematic institution.
I was very obedient my whole life, served a mission, was faithful, I never slipped up. Now that I have lost that purpose I feel like I am floating. I strongly disagree with the restrictions the church pushes on people, but I can’t quite shake them off.
I want to be able to live my life authentically, and although I know the WoW and LOC is false, I find myself filled with severe anxiety and shame about doing anything that contradicts what I was taught e.g. dating outside the church, or getting a second set of earrings. I hate it.
I am from Australia, who are traditionally a very anti religion kind of people. Because of this, people don’t really understand how it feels to be a part of, then leave a high demand religion. I’m seeing a psychologist, but again, she doesn’t understand.
Im lying to my parents about my status in the church, I have lost all of my previous church friends, I am incredibly isolated and lonely, desperate to break away but having trouble letting go.
I would love any advice from others on how they navigated the transition away from the church and to push through the anxiety and shame that comes from the church teachings and embrace everything the world has to offer.
Sorry for the spiel lol.
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2024.05.19 19:49 XO1GrootMeester Mastery tokens

The mastery system has changed and one part is that collecting mastery tokens to unlock level 6 or 7 is no more. What if you were in the middle of the process when the change happened? I looked around in my mastery progression and can say with near certainty they were converted to marks of mastery which are very similar but no longer required blue essence or champion shards to complete the level up. For levels 9 and up, 3 levels can be easily gained per champion per split instead of 2 just a single time. After that any more levels are very difficult with the need for many s grades for a mark. When at or below level 4 it requires 9 s- ranks to get to level 10( and a half) or 2 to get to level 9( and a half)
If you already had enough tokens but decided not to upgrade than if you play a little bit the progression is near the same had you upgraded it. So no regrets for all wheter you did or did not upgrade mastery with the old tokens.
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2024.05.19 19:42 xandoodle [TOMT][Book][2010s?] Runaway Clone

I took this book out from the library at least 5 years ago and never finished it. I’m dying to know how it ends! Anyone recognize it?
It takes place in a still recognizable future where everyone is cloned at birth. The cloned are created as spare parts and imprisoned under mysterious but brutal circumstances in a prison zone that takes up an entire former US State. It seems like a factory farm.
The main character is a (middle aged?) man whose clone somehow ends up in his apartment sedated, busted up and completely feral.
A woman is helping the clone learn and adjust. I assume it’s Underground Railroad type situation?
Thank you!
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2024.05.19 19:38 Locke3330 I (23M) kicked my "partner" (21F) out of my friend group because I was upset about how our relationship turned out. Thoughts?

So this is going to be a VERY long story and I hope some of you can take time out of your day so I can get some perspective from other people as I feel some serious guilt after what happened the past 3 days.
To give some background, I was an employee at a grocery store and I became friends with a girl that I'm going to call Amy for the sake of privacy. Amy was cool and we got along great. She did mention that she had a boyfriend and it honestly didn't bother me at the time. I was just happy I made friends with a cool person at work. We would sit together in the break room and have a lot of conversations together and even add each other on sc and talk occasionally outside of work. She did kind of mention to me however that she doesn't have a lot of friends and she was trying to make an effort to be in a group of friends.
Well at the beginning of this year, she ended up quitting and I was pretty sad as she was one of the few friends I made at this job. We didn't speak again until 2 months after she quit. I have a friend group that I have known since I was in middle school and once or twice a month we get together to play video games, play board games, watch movies, etc. I decided to invite her to this friend gathering as I remembered her saying that she didn't have too many friends and I wanted to see her again. She ended up coming and it went amazing for her. She loved being around my friends, we were all laughing and having a great time. She loved all of my friends and we invited her to our discord server afterwards and she became an official member of our friend group. Afterward, I learned that the reason she quit the job was that she had a miscarriage and it destroyed her emotionally. She told me that inviting her to this friend's gathering sorta changed her life and helped her through that dark moment.
Everything seemed to be going smoothly until one day she asked to hang out with me one-on-one at my place. I agreed and she came over and we played video games and watched a few movies together. It ended up becoming super late and we decided to just sit on my couch and just chill and talk for a bit. The conversation ended up starting to get very personal/sexual and there seemed to be an awkward tension happening in that moment. She then tells me that she's actually “Poly” and is into open relationships. Hearing this, I realized that I sorta had feelings for this girl and I made a very risky move by asking her if she wanted to be together in an open relationship in a FWB way. She talked to her BF the very next day and he agreed to let her be with me in an open relationship and that's when it all started.
The first 2 months of our relationship went great. She was seeing me once a week and we were trying to make our relationship work. We started talking about our personal lives a lot more and it seemed like this relationship was going to work. All of the friend group knew about our relationship and she was still active in our discord server and everything seemed to be going well. The relationship started to get kind of serious and we both said that we loved each other. We started discussing having kids potentially in the future and trying to make this open relationship work somehow as it seemed like we both had serious feelings with each other despite her technically having a BF. I stopped viewing this as a FWB and believed that she was the girl I was going to spend the rest of my life with.
However, things started to go a little downhill in the third month of our relationship. I started to notice that she wasn't as talkative and enthusiastic about our relationship as she once was. She started to reply a lot slower to my texts and we started to get into fights. We ended up getting into a MASSIVE fight about a week ago. Long story short I tried to talk to her about our relationship and was kind of wondering why she was acting the way she was. She EXPLODED on me and started yelling at me and saying I was being so annoying by asking her constantly about our relationship. I tried to be as calm as possible as I didn't understand why she was acting this way. I said something along the lines of “If we are a couple I feel like we should talk this out as I care about you” She then said something along the lines of “we aren't a couple, we are just a FWB”. I was heartbroken when she said this after she told me that she loved me and wanted to have a family with me. It was way too overwhelming for me to handle so I decided a few days after the fight that I would break it off with her.
I sent her a text that said that we should stop being in a relationship and just remain friends. Initially, she agreed but I kind of realized as I kept snapping her and texting her I felt heartbroken and I didn't wanna talk to this girl anymore. So I ended up texting her that I don't think we should see each other anymore as it's way too painful for me. I implied that I don't want her around the friend group anymore as it's going to make me feel terrible and fuck with me mentally. She then insisted that she should stay because she was technically part of the group now and that this relationship should have nothing to do with the friends she made. I then later talked to my friend group and they all agreed that she should be exiled and that my mental health is much more important. We ended up banning her from the Discord server and cutting all contact with her.
Well, I feel horrible now. I understand I was heartbroken and still am but I feel like it was a mistake to kick her out when she told me how much of an impact this friend group had on her, especially through her miscarriage. My friend group is all on my side and thinks I did the right thing by kicking her out of the group but I want to hear other people's perspectives. and their advice. I talked with my friend group and they are reluctant to have her come back based on how she treated me in the last month but I still feel very guilty about having her lose her only friends over this.
TLDR: I became a FWB with a friend from work and after our relationship didn't work out I kicked her out of a friend group I introduced her to because I was heartbroken about it not working out. I feel guilty and think I should give her another chance to come back.
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2024.05.19 19:37 Sea-Buy4667 Feeling lost, doctors aren't helping much.

I have had a mystery illness over the past year with symptoms of constipation, nausea, reflux, discolored stool, shaking, heightened nervous system, tinnitus, anhedonia. I also lost 40 lbs of weight (but I did have diet restrictions). Some symptoms would come and go (reflux) but other symptoms like constipation are constantly there. I've become severely depressed and hopeless.
I did an endoscopy/colonoscopy and it didn't show anything other than a polyp that was removed and mild chronic gastritis. GI said it's IBS and told me to go away despite my symptoms continuing.
However, I have learned from the experiences of others that the small bowel isn't properly imaged during endoscopy/colonoscopy and the entire middle part of the small bowel (jejunum) isn't seen. I also did a regular full abdomen contrast CT Scan that didn't show anything. As for blood test, my ferritin is elevated (323) but CRP(1.7) and ESR (2) seems normal. I also did a lactulose breath test that showed I had high methane and hydrogen gas
My doctors don't know what's going on and tend to eventually get rid of me. One of them told me I can't have crohns because I have constipation which is not consistent with the frequent diarrhea pattern that crohns patients have. They also told me that crohns usually shows up on CT scan with thinning of the intestine lining but I've heard some articles say that it's not that accurate for the small bowel.
Has anybody suffered from small bowel crohns? Is it likely for small bowel crohns to cause more constipation rather than diarrhea when compared to crohns in the colon? Would an MRI be more useful?
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2024.05.19 19:36 Robsplosion Chernobyl NPP and Generators levels under-utilized in Anomaly

Hi folks! I've been playing several of the big standalone overhaul mods over the years (Call of Misery, Last Day, Anomaly). I always enjoy my long playthroughs, starting in Cordon way down South and slowly working my way North. Levels like Garbage, Yantar, Warehouses, Red Forest, Jupiter and Zaton feel so full of life and busy, with lots to explore. I tend to set up stashes there and visit those levels often, and all the while building up my gear for one big final climactic push into the Northern-most parts - The power plant and the generators - as they're always hyped up as being super dangerous and full of anomalies and artifacts. A real struggle to test the best of the best, the most veteran stalkers who will get rich or die trying...
But when I finally get there, I'm always a bit disappointed. Chernobyl NPP is a huge level, structurally interesting, but only really inhabited by Monolith soldiers around the entrance to the plant itself and in a few spots at the back. It feels like this level was lovingly crafted by the original devs as a replica of the actual site, early on in development but never used to its full potential... There are large parts that are dead quiet and it really makes me wish the level was better utilized in these big overhaul mods. More Monolith patrols, mutants, anomalies and maybe even a small hidden stalker encampment or two... something to keep me there longer than just one trip, you know?
The Generators are a different story. I understand its a level that was cut from the original games and so was never really finished. There are loads of tough mutants here, and one crazy-ass anomaly field in the middle but by the time I get here, I'm properly geared to handle the big-boy mutants and the anomaly field is just a novelty as Im all decked out in artifacts at this point anyway. I usually just do a lap, kill the mutants and Monolith by the labs and then head home. The generators themselves look pretty cool though. The large underground unfinished area is creepy, if empty.
Long story short, I wish there more to those levels, a greater challenge and something to offer for surviving.
My question: Are there any mods/addons that overhaul those levels? (bonus points if Darkscape gets some love too)
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2024.05.19 19:30 NegativeDisplay2309 Ndad is throwing away all of his money

Context: My parents are divorced (approx 5 years ago) my mum is supportive, whilst my dad is the narcissist.
I currently live away from home for university, but go back on breaks to visit. My dad before the divorce was fine for the most part, but after the divorce he begun to show some really awful behaviours, which lead to me developing anxiety. For example, telling me he doesn’t love me, telling me that he doesn’t want me to be a part of his life anymore (because I was quieter one time I visited my hometown).
He’s also done things such as blaming me and verbally abusing me when someone hit my parked car (it was parked correctly, the other person was at fault), and other things such as taking my favourite instrument away that we used to rent for years and returning it to the store for no apparent reason in the middle of my final year high school exams. One of his friends also used to message me inappropriately when I was a minor, and whilst I told my ndad this years ago he wrote it off as ‘oh x person is just like that’.
He has also spoken to my partner whilst I was not there about a married woman my dad was interested in and shown them photos, which I find wildly inappropriate. He’s also asked my partner if I had ever given them the silent treatment (I have not) and ranted to my partner about how my mother used to do this all the time to him (she did not, he has a very warped perception of my mother and likes to demonise my mother to anyone that will listen). I am super worried about the toll this takes on my partner and frequently worry about the impact this has on them.
He also doesn’t respect my boundaries, particularly when I’m with my partner. He used to just walk straight into my room and not knock, but I brought it up with him once and he got mad at me for it, and now he knocks but walks straight in, which defeats the purpose of knocking.
Ndad frequently compares me to my mother as an insult. As a result of these behaviours and other things, I feel he is becoming increasingly more mentally unstable. He is overtly racist and quite sexist, using slurs which make me deeply uncomfortable. He frequently puts money in to poor investments to lose hundreds of thousands of dollars, frequently pays women for prostitution services (he tries to hide this from me, but I am observant) and frequently falls victim to scams where women ask him for money repeatedly and he gives it away, only for them to block him and not contact him. This behaviour has been happening since as long as I can remember - the first time I saw it I was 9-10 and walked in to him on his laptop on a cheating website.
One of the more sinister things he does is take photos of me without my consent, napping on the couch for example, or just without me knowing and he sends it to these women overseas, I’m not quite sure what for.
Today there was one thing he did that I thought was pretty reflective of ndad behaviour. He made a joke in the morning which was pretty disgusting, which I responded by saying ‘that’s not funny’ and he began calling me too sensitive and telling me he can’t make jokes around me anymore.
In terms of his poor decision-making, he frequently loans people sums (we’re talking like hundreds of thousands into millions of dollars) without any sort of contract or regulation for these people to pay him back (they never do). The most upsetting bit for me across the last few years is that he previously owned several expensive houses and has sold all of them, which were well over the value of the current house we live in, at least 4x as much, yet we still have a mortgage on this place.
He has now told me he is considering renting out our current house (which, would make no sense if he was a logical person - we now only own one house and he should in theory have around at the absolute minimum 4 times its value in liquid assets, so we don’t need rental income to assist us). He is also very controlling, asking where I am constantly and gets upset if I spend significant time away from the house or at my mother’s place.
The problem I’m getting to here is because I am semi-financially reliant on him, particularly for my costs for living away from home, I’m worried he’s going to continuously keep making riskier and riskier decisions till he eventually looses this house too through spending his money on prostitution and just paying for random women’s endeavours who ask him, including university fees, travel endeavours etc - when frequently he refuses to pay for mine. I am super grateful for the opportunity that I have been given to study away, but my dad's willingness to spend money on anything and everything these strangers want over my needs and the existing mortgage, which seems to make no sense as to why we have one, makes me extremely concerned for our financial stability.
My plan for the future is to become more financially independent, but at the moment this is difficult as I live away from home. My life in my hometown with him was a major factor in me choosing to go to university elsewhere. I just don’t know what to do anymore. Every time I return home, I’m reminded why I left.
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2024.05.19 19:26 CnRhin We Were Sent to find an Ancient Weapon called Human- Chapter 2

First
Auraxium Captain Nikto Rakzes POV
Those traitors think they can hide from us in the old home system of the Elyrian? I’ll show them what happens when they cross Captain Nikto Rakzes! Nobody pulls one over on me and gets away with it. I mean how did I honestly believe that they were courier runners? Yes, they had the necessary paperwork, so I had to go by the books and let them go. But once they strayed from their route their fate was sealed. These three shall rue the day they thought they could escape the great Nikto Rakzes!
Crew of the Scav POV
“No weapons, that’s fine we can still manage. Little one I never got your name by the way.” Asked Tic-Tac from the speakers all around the room.
“My name is Lizra, Captain Lizra Riteness the Third to be exact.”
“Adorable, ok Captain Lizra, how sure are you that these ones incoming are hostile?”
“I'm Fairly certain. I just didn’t think that they would be so suspicious of us as to follow us here.”
“Well we did lie to them and pretend to be galactic couriers. And that dumbass bought every word of it too” Chucked Argall.
“Argall language. We are Tic-Tac's esteemed guests here.”
“No worries little one. That's ok, I think I have a plan that may get us all out of here. I can completely stabilize the atmosphere within the facility and then when they enter I will be able to jettison them from the airlocks. Do you think that might buy us enough time to get to your vessel?”
“We’re not going to fight them ourselves? The whole reason I was sent with you was to carry this weapon back! I was hoping to get to use it at least. But now I can’t even do that since the weapon is a fucking guy.” Complained Argall, annoyed that there still hadn’t been a confrontation that required his expertise.
“Don’t worry Induran, if they manage to stick around after we show them the door, we may have use for you yet. And your name is?”
“Argall” He grumbled, still disappointed there was no ancient weapon of destruction he could wield like some god of war.
“Argall what?” Questioned Tic-tac confused.
“Just Argall”
“Appropriate. They should be arriving any second now. I am going to go ahead and remove the atmosphere from this room so that we do not have to worry about pressure equalization when we make our move. Z-8 do you have any way to remotely pilot your ship from here?”
“We do not even need to inquire as to how you know our name, but please call us Zate from this point forward. Yes we have the ability to control the ship remotely. What do you have in mind Program?”
“I can see from the security feeds they are going to station their ship near yours. I will forward you the location of where to move your ship once I eject the intruders. I am going to illuminate the path to another exit, for you to move to. Once there I’ll pressurize the door, open the airlock, and throw you into space.”
“You’re going to do what with us!? I do not consent to being blasted into the cosmos Mr. Tic-Tac.” Replied Lizra clutching onto Argall even tighter.
“Captain, the claws”
“Yes my apologies Argall”
“Do not worry. If Zate gets the ship in position you will be propelled right into the loading bay or your vessel. When I was connected to Zate I was able to view the schematic of your ship. I will send her a visual representation of how to orient it to properly recieve you.” Tic-Tac replied matter of factly.
“Not necessary, we can visualize that without your aid computer.”
While the plan was being created the Human sat silently watching them. Throughout the entire conversation he hadn’t taken his eyes off of the small Elyrian captain in the room. His masked helmet gave away no signs as to how he felt towards the plan, or other occupants in the room. Lizra hopped down from atop Argall and made her way over to Human looking up at him. When standing on her hind legs she barely came up to his knees.
“Um, Mr Human, do you have anything to add to the plan?”
“No.”
“Will you defend us if it comes to that?”
“Yea sure…and I’m sorry.”
“Sorry? For what exactly?”
“Just that-”
As Lizra and Human were locked in their engrossing dialogue, a loud bang echoed throughout the facility that shook the walls of the research room. The trio jumped into action and gathered around the exit door as Human walked over to the small black box looking down at it.
“Just lemme know when Tic-Tac.”
“Disconnect me only when they get to safety. Any earlier and I will not have access to the facility.”
“You aren’t coming with us?” Asked Lizra looking down at the little black computer.
“We will be following shortly, I have to ensure your safe exit. We also have a few more items to grab before we make our leave.” A second later an explosion was heard down the hall, followed by a booming voice that echoed throught the base.
“This is Auraxium Captain Nikto Rakzes of The Prowler. You are in violation of Core federal code 13-7451 impersonating a galactic courier and attempting to flee from federal authorities. Cooperate and you will be handled respectfully. If you refuse to do so then you shall face severe repercussions. Such as a fine upwards of 10,000 credits. That will be all.”
“He seems to be in a better mood today,” Lizra chuckled.
“Oh we’ll see if he’s still threatening us with a fine when I threaten him with his own spine.”
Argall grunted putting his fists together.
“Ok Zate get the ship moving, I’m opening the airlocks now. Good luck everyone, see you soon.”
When Tic-Tac finished his farewell, the sounds of air rushing out of the facility sounded from the other side of the door. It opened up moments later and the three rushed out into the hall. They followed the blinking lights that guided them through the corridors. Upon reaching the exit they made their way into the small airlock and the door sealed behind them.
“7 seconds and we will have the ship in position. We hope Tic-Tac does not send us out too e-” Zate was cut off as the opposite door opened and plunged the trio untethered out into the stars. Outside they could see countless others flailing around in the vacuum of space, having also been unexpectedly jettisoned from the base. Lizra locked her eyes onto the ship and saw it on an interception course with them. Their trajectory was impeccable, sending them right into the open loading bay. Argall grabbed the small captain and wrapped his bulk around her to shield her from the impact. The three were thrown into the ship with the blast door slamming shut behind them.
“Wait, what about Human and Tic-Tac?” Lizra asked squirming free of Argall grip.
“We have established comms with Tic-Tac again, he says not to worry and to prepare for departure.” Zate said, picking themselves up off the floor.
“Right, lets get out of here before those Core clowns get their bearings again.”
“What? No, thank you Argall for saving me? No, Oh Argall are you hurt from taking that fall for me?”
“You’re expected to save your captain Argall, we need to focus on saving Human and Tic-Tac right now.”
“No problem, you're welcome captain, yes i'm fine, thank you for asking.”
Once back in the command room of The Scav they surveyed the situation. The majority of The Prowler’s crew was still floating around aimlessly outside. The Prowler itself had started moving away from the landing pads, bearing down on The Scav.
“Captain weapons lock detected. They are directing us to stand down and not to flee.”
“Or what? We get another fine?”
“We believe they might not tell us again.”
As the two ships faced off, Lizra was debating whether to give the order to make a slipspace jump or to surrender. Before she could make up her mind, she saw the form of Human launching himself from the facility below. He was not headed for The Scav, but instead towards The Prowler.
“Quick Zate tell him that’s not our ship! That's the ones that came here to attack us!”
“We believe he knows that.”
“Then what is he doing? Is he betraying us? And here I thought he was just warming up to me.”
Human was silhouetted against the bright red hull of the Prowler as he made contact with it and latched on. He launched himself from the side of the ship making a beeline for the front. Once there he dug his hands into the metal walls, climbing towards the windows of The Prowler’s bridge. Human stared into the bridge of The Prowler before raising an arm and shattering the glass of the viewport and throwing himself inside. A few stray plasma shots could be seen exiting the bridge before the ship’s metal shutters slammed shut in an attempt to stop the atmosphere from escaping.
“Remind me to ask Human to show me how to punch like that.”
“Captain weapons are no longer locked. Should we start a slipspace jump?”
“Yes, go for slipspace, seatbelts everyone! Zate open the cargo bay again.”
A minute later the metal shutters were torn open from the inside and Human jumped from the ruins of The Prowler's bridge towards The Scav. The Scav moved closer to intercept, and Zate oriented the ship to receive him in the open bay. Once Human was safely aboard, the cargo bay was closed and Zate initiated the slipspace jump. Once away from danger the crew gave a sigh of relief, Lizra unbuckling herself from her pedestal and surveyed the monitors.
“Well I’d like to see them give us that fine now. Great work everyone. And Argall? Thank you for shielding me earlier, it looked like it hurt.”
“Of course captain you’re welcome. And I’m fine thank you.”
“Oh come now, I was being genuine. I appreciate your initiative to keep me safe. I’ll put you in for some sort of medal when we return.”
“Nah I don’t need a medal. I just wanna actually do my job when it doesn’t involve moving around cargo.”
“Well then, shall we go greet Human and Tic-Tac then? I believe a thanks is in order.”
“We will stay here and notify you when we are clear of the system. Ensure Tic-Tac will not meddle with our systems again or he might find himself being the one jettisoned from an airlock.”
“Duly noted Zate, keep us on course and notify me of any updates.”
Lizra and Argall shed their environmental suits and made their way down into the cargo bay to see if Human was ok. When they arrived, there was a dent in the far wall, presumable from when they made the jump and Human wasn't properaly fastened in. He was wearing the small black box from the computer room on his back, and unlike before had a strange looking rifle in his hand.
“Ah that’s new, its a good look for you two. We’re not in space anymore so you don’t have to wear your suit around here when we're in transit.”
“I’m fine, thanks.” Human replied curtly.
Tic-Tac’s voice echoed from the black box attached to humans back, “Unfortunately he has no way of removing the suit here either way. We would have to construct the proper machines to remove it, as I do not believe they are present in this… galaxy." Tic-Tac said searching for the proper word. "But he hasn’t been out of it in a very long time, I assure you it’s not a burden to him.”
“Right, well thank you for saving us back there. So did you… um kill them all?”
“No, we merely disabled their systems on the bridge. They’re going to be stuck there for quite a while until someone can give them a ride. We have decided to accompany you to the nearest port where we can acquire our own ship and then we shall be on our way.” Tic-Tac responded.
“Wait wait wait, we went through all the trouble of getting you out of there, helped you bring Human back, and now you want to leave us already?”
“We have no desire to get involved in another conflict after having it be our sole purpose for as long as we can remember. I hope you can understand why we wish to make our own choices now.”
“Okay hold on, we helped you get off the base, and helped you wake up Human. So maybe you could at least come with us back home and hear us out. From someone a little more charismatic than myself.”
“Very well, how long until we arrive?”
“Um, maybe a week?”
“Terrific. Well maybe we can pass the time by telling me how you came to learn of us, and more about who you’re fighting. I only speak for myself saying I would love to know more. It really has been a long time since I’ve had a good conversation with someone that's not a part of myself.”
“Of course, here let me show you to the common room, you two can stay there until we make a stop.” Lizra led them to a large room in the center of the ship, adorned with various different chairs for the different species on board. She took the seat that was present for her, a round flat bed where she was able to curl up and use her long tail as a pillow. Human took off the black box that was Tic-tac and dropped it onto the table in the middle.
“Enjoy.” He spoke before leaving the room. Argall followed closely behind Human and Lizra only picked up the beginning of his sentence, asking about how he was able to break into the ship like that.
“Is he always this… charming?”
“He isn’t the nicest, you don't have to sidestep it. We have been through a lot. I’d like to tell you more, but I do not want to make him any angrier with me than he already is. He’s been through more than I could possibly begin to explain.
“Well I hope he ends up doing better. Maybe we can find a beach for him when we make a stop, I remember him mentioning that.”
“I’m sure he would appreciate that.”
“You know, I have been thinking about something rather peculiar he said to me when we were in your computer room.”
“And what might that be?”
“He apologized to me, but he hadn’t done anything that warranted an apology at the time.”
Tic-Tac was silent for a moment before speaking, “He has been trapped in his own head for quite some time. I would not dwell on anything strange he says. 909 is a man of few words, and does not come from a world that places social interactions in their list of their priorities.”
Lizra was quiet for a moment, feeling as if there was more Tic-Tac had wanted to say but decided not to. Before she could press further, the black box spoke again. “So, who is this Core you mentioned back there?”
“Oh my where to begin with that one. I guess my own species’ story would be a good place to start. About 1000 years ago we were nearly brought to complete extinction…”
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2024.05.19 19:25 Dobjinnnv “Antizionist Jews exist” means fucking nothing

Firstly, someone else having an opinion doesn't mean that you possess the ability to explain what led those people to that opinion. Like it doesn't mean you can explain anything further about Israel-Palestine than "a fraction of Jews are anti Zionist." This statement, to me, usually means "I'm antizionist, because I get off on virtue signalling. I'm too dumb to understand the politics, or bother to work it out. So this sentence is as far as I've gotten with it. Nobody will notice, right?"
Secondly, Arab Zionists exist?
And thirdly, my Jewish brother is antizionist. He knows fucking nothing about Israel-Palestine politics. When I say nothing, I mean nothing. If I asked him “What is the Likud party?” I would receive a blank stare back. A couple of months back, he told me he didn't understand how Ashkenazi Jewish ethnicity is part Middle Eastern. He is 34, I had to explain to my 34-year-old brother what his own ethnicity is lol. And I'm like why tf are you even pretending to have a real opinion about Israel like literally all of us know you don't know what you're talking about ANYWAYS this is what the vast majority of antizionist Jews are like. This what all of my brother's antizionist friends are like... because not all Jews are political experts, history experts?? The only antizionists that actually know anything are probably the craaaazy religious Jews, who are like a tiny fringe movement.
In any case, my brother and his friends, who don't understand where Jews come from. They are the "anti Zionist Jews exist" Jews 🙄
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