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2015.10.14 10:54 overactor I can't stop watching.

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2019.07.26 02:48 BonfireinRageValley Do you wonder if you are thinking things over too much?

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2024.05.19 23:44 corivander Thought my tiny fandom was dying, but it turns out most other fans just don’t like my writing

What it says on the tin, basically.
The context is that I’ve posted a couple of fics to my small rarepair fandom’s page in the last year or so and traction has been slowly waning (didn’t get much to begin with). I promote them on tumblr, I make other content like gifsets and what not to contribute to the fandom and find people to interact with. My fics themselves aren’t anything controversial or dark; I love some pretty typical romantic tropes and include a lot of my favourite ones in what I write (like hurt/comfort, a mix of fluff and angst, clothes sharing, casual intimacy etc.) and I try really hard to get characterization as on point as possible, I expand on world building details, and make sure every oneshot has layers of emotional significance and subtle character development to it, and … I think I’m good at it?
Despite this, engagement has never been the best on my work, so awhile ago I came to terms with the fandom dying being a factor for low engagement and it made sense; the source material is a couple of years old now, no new content for my ship or the characters involved, it was already a tiny fandom to begin with, etc. And I was mostly fine with this.
But a new fic got posted to the ship tag about a week ago by a fan I was aware of from tumblr (where they’re barely active btw - they haven’t updated their blog in ~2 months), but didn’t know they wrote. The fic was their first one and is a oneshot; it was readable with good SPAG (which is already a high bar for this fandom, believe me) but the story was a bit all over the place - it gave a crack treated seriously vibe, but like … without the author realizing what they were writing was crack-ish at all. I don’t know, it reads strange; it isn’t funny or emotional, things just happen and then it’s over with no resolution. Kudos to them for writing and posting it, of course, but it’s certainly nothing revolutionary.
But the thing is, people came out of the woodworks in droves to praise this fic. A blessing/curse of being in a small fandom is you get to know usernames, so because I was the only one really posting for this ship for a while I thought the only people left were the 2-3 or so who would trickle in occasionally to kudos mine, but apparently that’s not the case; there’s a whole bunch of people still around - ones I’d never encountered before, but also old usernames from before I joined the fandom years ago coming back - who’ve suddenly come alive to engage with this new fic. You’d think this new writer were a modern literary genius with the attention they’re getting for it.
It’s on track to surpass the stats on each of my fics (stats amassed over months, and in one case, years, of being up) in a very short amount of time and it’s already passed my most recent one in just a week. I’ve analyzed the hell out of it to see if I could pinpoint why - maybe it’s doing something that I’m not and I can learn from it? But I’ve got nothing. For the life of me I do not understand the appeal of it in the least, and I’m usually pretty generous with identifying these things.
It feels silly to say, but this whole thing has been a bit of a jarring reality check for me and I've lost all motivation to even make attempts at participating in the fandom anymore. I’ve been meticulously outlining a longfic I was really excited for, but now I’m feeling kind of blah about it. I’ll probably still write it because I love my ideas for it, but I don’t know if I’ll even want to post it anymore when it’s done. I was tempted to just delete my fics when I was in a bad place thinking about all this earlier this week - the moment I noticed this new fic got more engagement than my most recent one - but I opted to hide them all in a private collection that only I can see for now.
So, I suppose TL;DR: it turns out the tiny fandom I’ve been writing in for years is still a lot more active than I thought, but my fics just aren’t their cup of tea and having this realization was a bit of a slap in the face. No one owes me attention, I know that, but it still hurts to have relatively solid proof that the fandom I love so much and I, apparently, don’t see eye to eye. Or, despite being around for a few years, am still apparently on the outside of this hidden friend bubble I can't even see and looking in.
But yeah, thanks for reading! I know this was a long vent and I apologize for that but I needed to get it out somewhere lol.
So I guess my question is, has anyone dealt with something similar or have any advice?
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2024.05.19 23:39 DrHeatherRichardson Los Angeles public parking companies that keep your license plate and credit card on file and charge without your permission? Anyone have any experiences with these?

I got an unexpected charge on my credit card from a parking company. The funny thing is, I was hit in an accident three weeks ago, so my car has been in the shop and I haven’t driven it or parked any car anywhere in the last three weeks, so this certainly stood out.
I contacted the parking company and the license plate they have just charged for parking this past week is my previous leased car that I turned in to the dealer in 2023. While it wasn’t too hefty of a charge (about 13$), when I let them know this was a mistake, and I was no longer responsible for this car, and didn’t want this to be a repeated thing- they demanded that I provide them proof of my end of lease contract before they would consider refunding the charges. Again… 13$- (not days on end of parking or thousands of dollars). Ok, fine.
I had to contact the dealer to get the end of lease document, which they were super helpful with (thanks, Lexus Santa Monica). But then, when I provided the document to her, she responded that she would refund the money, but that it was my responsibility to have notified the parking company that I no longer was responsible for the car when I turned it in 2023.
Is this a thing in Los Angeles? Are we supposed to keep track of which day to day or hourly parking companies our cars have parked in? (Lolz) I don’t understand how a parking company can place an unapproved charge on a card, when it’s not a monthly account or regular contract? Apparently I’ve only parked twice with that company, the last time was in 2021. I have zero recollection of giving anyone authorization for repeat charges on my credit card for future parking. I have no clue how many bazillion parking lots I’ve parked in in the last five years…
Gah. I guess one more thing we have to be concerned with. Zombie parking charges.
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2024.05.19 23:39 Twitchs-Temp-Spot My Blue little blue sundress passenger seat princess...

You ma'am were my everything, from the moment I first saw you walking to my tow truck. I was in aww of you in that moment I was so hooked I can't explain it in any other way. I just needed to get to know the real you. Looking back I wish I could have slowed everything down a lot because we moved so fast. Opened the door for you and got you up into the truck. At first she was impressed I even would do that for her. She said it made her feel special and no one had ever done that for her. As I walked back to my door to get in time for me started to slow as I thought about a million things at once I was so drawn to her wanted everything for her and me to be amazing and guys, it really was great from my seat. She's absolutely gorgeous, sweet yet she's a pretty bad ass chick though. She's into heavy metal and rock over anything. She's my only ginger I've ever dated in my life. She's so beautiful, selfless when she knows u need something she is the first one to get it for you and she's an amazing cook, So incredibly sexy, and no matter what she broken and all was the only woman that I ever bought a real ring for wherever would and that red hair gets me now every time I find one around in my truck or my house. She loves to play with it as her nervous habit I used to say she was marking her territory jokingly but I loved watching her do it I love watching her play with it It was awesome to just be able to look over at her and see her sitting there was the greatest feeling in my life next to having my children and watching them be born. Seeing her smile was the most amazing thing I'd ever seen in my life That's what I lived for I lived for being silly with her and joking around and just having a good fucking time and spending that time with her no matter how much it was. I loved it always. Even when we fought I didn't ever stop loving her I did never stop caring about her obviously I was in it for us. Call me a wuss whatever you want I don't care I honestly have a thing with other people's hair it grosses me out when it is off the body so I'd have these piles of hair is have to immediately get out of the floor of my work truck when id open it for her to get her out of the truck lol it grossed me out but I didn't really care it was more funny that she was nervous cus we were so chill together. I quickly fell for this girl front the start and she was exactly what I said in the title. She's always going to be my blue little sundress passenger seat princess, the only women I've ever actually seen, planned, or dreamed of a future with and I've had longer relationship with kids even. But she has two sweet little girls that are amazing as well and I have become attatched to them as well throughout this 3 years. Especially because when her and I first met and went on our date I knew already that she was a mom of two but I hadn't met either one of them yet. Days after she was still with me and we spent every waking moment together in that truck. And we had a great time It just felt right. After that weekend was over we went to pick up her 3-month-old daughter. We had to go to the next town over and get her from her dad's house. As I got this little girl up into my truck put her car seat in the back of the tow truck I did what any normal person would do when meeting a baby for the first time. Started talking to her just to see her reaction to me. She was so sweet and so damn cute. She smiled so beautifully and was just so amazing it brought back all the memories for me having my kids. And that one really just cemented in the fact that I wanted to do this so much for my girl and I and for these kids cuz they were amazing. I spent my days just working away. Most the time with her by my side. There was times where yes we were not together 100% there's things she had to go do. Which was fine That's what we needed some time apart to miss each other cuz we did spend a lot of time together but honestly As long as we were there in my truck we were amazing together just hanging out while I was working spending time together and she said she loved watching me work. She loved how manly I smelled after and during a days work. Everything was great. So before her and I met I was always working and keeping to myself just trying to focus on myself but I lived in a hotel. So since her and I got hooked up together, we lived in my hotel which was not bad at all it was a fairly big hotel that offered reduced rates for long extended stays and they offered me a corporate discount. So it was fairly inexpensive as far as paying for the place but it was still extremely expensive compared to renting someplace. But it was by my own money because she had no income no job that I paid for everything. Literally everything. So as I worked 7 days a week and worked from time outta bed in the morning until well after midnight. I had no time to find our own place for cheaper living to start new direction for us. So she started searching for our own place to rent. Let's say we got distracted from that because of this damn drama that seemed to always be happening with her life. I'd always listen to what was going on with her and try to help. It's what I do in my everyday life I jump out of a truck when people are at their worst and it makes me feel a sense of joy because I get to get out of the damn truck like Superman get over to them and calm their life down a little bit slow it down for them when they're in their worst moments of the day and just take that weight off their shoulders. I get that fulfillment for my life that joy and it drives me to keep going That's the only reason I push through my days. I lived for it, soon after meeting her she became a big part of that meaning for me so much so I never even realized that it would end up costing me my career because I just couldn't do it anymore getting in that truck And as I open the door I see her there in the passenger seat with a flooded memory that comes rushing in and I get happy really quick like it's all real again and as soon as I sit down take my guys off that seat I look back over when it close the door cuz I'd always smile back at her when I got in the truck and she's not there and it breaks my heart every single time I experienced this so imagine getting in and out of that truck every day all day long and having to do that. I've been such an emotional wreck now that I literally had to go to my boss and quit my job because I couldn't safely do it and this was the job ladies and gentlemen that I prayed for at the end of our relationship I wasn't working hadn't been working for a few months because I just found out that I got cancer in my throat. So I got depressed I didn't know how to tell her my mom anybody being only 37 years old that I'm not going to be here that long Not as long as I thought so it started to destroy me and by this time in our relationship two and a half years in we had had several moves several little breakups but we'd always come back together and we always seemed great afterwards but then it always seemed like something would come up or she would lie or do something that I didn't like or that I wasn't approving of and every time I tried to talk to her about it she would just blow up at me and yeah there was lots of red flags I missed her out of a relationship I wish I could have done so many things different but stress and being what it is and everything you know I let my emotions get the best of me I let my my everything get the best of me every single time because as soon as she starts yelling it makes me louder and I just don't see anybody giving me that kind of a disrespectful stance especially when I'm trying to be calm I'm trying to just talk to them about it and then they blow up and makes me want to blow up right back So yeah my mistake but are honestly feel like it was just to cause me to do that so she could break up or we can break up and she can run away for a couple days and go get what she needed somewhere else and then come right back. That's what I feel like now. Don't know if it was all lie from delusional or what but everything I've read on here it all speaks to me so much that I honestly I really feel like I was lied to the entire time I was made to believe something that was never true This girl told me she loved me like 3 months in and I honestly felt it before that but I really think it was all just a facade now for her We found each other and we were broken pieces everywhere we started putting our lives together picking everything up putting ourselves back together and we felt more complete than anything is the way I saw our lives up until a year and a half into it though it was for me even with the little small breakups and stuff it was amazing It wouldn't trade it for the world soon as I found out I had cancer though guys It broke me I wasn't working I wasn't doing anything for myself and yeah that I regret I regret not just telling her right away because looking back now it may have helped but I doubt she would even cared She probably would have broke up with me then is how I feel now. But I never told her until almost 3 weeks after we broke up. The 17th of this month was my birthday my 38th birthday The day after is her 3-year-olds 3-year birthday. Which I didn't get to go to even though that little girl calls me dada loves me like there's no tomorrow and I love that little girl so so much she was like she was my daughter shortly after I found out I had cancer I was taking care of that little girl not working but taking care of her all day everyday for months in my house with her living here and my girlfriend living here while she worked. Then she's sitting here telling me griping at me that I need to get back working by about she can't be the only one working but then if I did that we wouldn't had a babysitter We would have nowhere for "Our daughter" She always insisted when I would say her daughter because she has a lot of hateful feelings towards her baby daddy. The other thing I forgot to mention is the fact that about 2 years into our relationship she went through a pretty major surgery for herself No one was there for her except for me I sat with her through the whole thing waited for her at the hospital I waited on her hand and foot at my place of living She laid in my bed took care of her gave her everything she needed and would do it again in a heartbeat The point is that I was there stood by her side took care of her in every way I needed to every way I could. In the first part of our relationship all the way through I'd say the first half She was always constantly wondering if I had eaten today or if I needed food or if I wanted her to cook me anything or I mean would she selflessly would do every single time she was happy to do it She loved doing it She loved being at the hotel and me coming home to a cooked meal how she would do it in her bra and underwear because just for shits and giggles you know She was the most sexually appetizing person I've been in with in my entire life number one and from day one of our relationship I never saw any other female on this planet My eyes never strayed not once they only saw her She was my everything. Fellas tell me when you fell in love If you ever felt the same because I know for me there was another woman on this planet that could ever even have compared to my woman she was so sexy so incredibly just mesmerizing for me and having her in my arms I felt complete I felt like a man I felt like I would move to heaven and earth for this woman and I was trying doing everything I could and it always just seemed like our little stupid spats and our bickering was so much more to her than it was to me because she would always end up leaving and going to her sisters. Her sister was and is so incredibly damaging for her mental state that I'm surprised that this woman has not killed herself yet She has no movement in her own life she's a stay-at-home girlfriend for her boyfriend of 16 15 16 years something like that and she is about a cow about 300 lb heifer that has always been jealous of anything the little sister gets that makes her happy that makes her have a better life than what big sister has then big sister has to sit there and destroy little sisters mental state just to bring her back down so she can feel good about her own self So anytime she ever went back there that's exactly what happened Big sister would just tear her down and break her down and it's just sick and that's where I think first mistake for us ever went was allowing her to move in there because as soon as she did seem like everything started going downhill and that's when I started finding things out about how much she was actually lying to me about stupid silly little things because her brother in-law and sister would talk to her about our relationship at night when they're all home together or whenever and they'd be giving her advice when these two are alcoholics they will not ever get married even though they've been together forever but this is just to not lose social security crap it's ridiculous there's a real fear of commitment between the two and a lot of damage between the two and it just fed right into my woman's head and I'm really truly believe it loud it her to be severely poisoned cuz she started turning into a completely different person but yet I still loved her like the day I first met her I still looked at her exactly the same I still do to this day even though she won't have anything to do with me for whatever reason I don't know I never got a reason but after everything we've been through I honestly felt like every time she made me promise never to leave her every time she made me the promise that she would never leave me no matter what blah blah blah I feel like it was all just a game to her now and a game to her family because my woman was the child that was traded off when things got too stressful for Mom she was the kid that was sent to the hospital to you know being the mental ward because it was just too tough for Mom to cope with having two kids and being as destroyed of a person as she is So of course that's led to a lot of emotional damages for my woman and for that entire family It's led to alcoholism and the other side of the family with her sister and her mom being best friends they hang out all day long and it's about the worst family situation you could think of but sadly she will still choose her family over anybody at the end of the day even though they don't choose her like that It breaks my heart to watch honestly the best thing she could do is cut them off from her life but there is a lot of times that she needed them there because she had no other option is what she felt instead of when we fought going there honestly alsoever wanted her to do is just calm down and instead of leaving stay here choose me over that bullshit fight choose me over the fucking nonsense of everything because at the end of the day none of it mattered to me I always forgave her for everything not because I wanted to be the doormat or because I allowed myself to be the doormat but because when I grew up I grew up in a Christian family That's what we do if we fight we work shit through I may not be the best Christian in the world but I know the values that I have in my family were not the same as hers they traded her off when times got tough they never showed her unconditional love so she doesn't even know how to unconditionally love her own children and it's really sad cuz honestly to this day I feel like that little girl would choose me over her own mother and that breaks my heart for her. I realize I've been rambling on for a while now but this one really doesn't sit right with me guys I've never had any issues with any breakup since this one and I know the mental state she was in when she made it and made this choice but the way she did it just recently after having promised her yet again and her promising me that we would never leave each other and to always fight for the relationship. She comes over about a 3 weeks ago we have sex been seen each other in a few days few days prior to that we went and took "our daughter" to her dentist appointment she had to be knocked out at and did great through who'd she want afterwards after she woke up me Not her mom just me to comfort her. So being the dad that I am of course I did that I gave her the comfort she needed we had a great day together but it was short-lived. My girl's been in such a bad spot mentally but she refused to talk to me about it I could never get her to open up and yes I did a lot of things wrong because I was always trying to fix her or trying to help her through it is how I see it She saw it as me trying to fix her and she said I don't need to be fixed. But I know I didn't see it that way and that may have been my mistake because she wasn't looking for advice or whatever on how to try to help her through it but she just wanted somebody to listen to her which I did I can repeat everything she's ever told me about an issue word for word I can almost predict in my head I can sit there and say okay what's she going to say. And then I can literally as she's saying it out loud I can pretty well determine already know what she's going to say while listening though just to make sure I don't miss anything It ends up being the same thing every time and it's always all about her family's issues and things going on between them. It's been this way for the last year and a half probably since she moved in there now just before this breakup she had been for a couple months looking for place for us to go cuz I want out of where I'm at now and she obviously wanted out of there and so she was supposedly looking for it for a place to go That was ours because I got a new job I sat here and prayed for a new job that I had applied for and they just weren't moving fast enough or something I guess because like 4 days before she broke up with me they called and I started working I was so happy I got back in that truck I was doing it for her for us for me for those girls everything was going the way I had invisioned it going. Then like I said two days go by she came over spend some time together We had a little quickie and then we went to her appointment with the psych doctor couple days later she breaks up with me This is how I wake up the next morning after being at work all night long in my tow truck to a text message and I'm blocked on everything every single social media outlet every everything that we had together online I'm just blocked. Knowing the mental state she was in I was like what the hell is going on now I got a short text message that said something like I can't do this anymore This is after going through her girl parts being taken out being with her the entire time waiting on her hand and foot this is after saving her daughter because her drunk ass sister drove home from their mothers house while watching the like 5-month-old baby at the time and ran the car into the fucking house in the middle of the night and we were both working shoot while she was watching her That's why she was watching her So of course I get a phone call she can't leave work and she's freaking out because her daughter was just in the car that just slammed into the house and did thousands and thousands and thousands of dollars worth of damage So what happens This guy goes and rescues the child and keeps the child with him the entire rest of my work night until mom gets off work there's lots of reasons that this woman has loved me completely and tried so hard and there's lots of reasons why I've loved her as completely as I could and tried so hard and tried getting back on track now I used her in those kids and myself to get me back to a point where I could even start to function again after finding out I had cancer and not knowing how to tell her or anybody and what hurts the most is the fact that she just gave up and just blindsided me with all of this if I feel like and it kills me but this is what I had to do because of her putting all her walls up and just stonewalling me with everything and knowing the fact that even on her Facebook she chose to not put family photos of us for up there but to put every other photo of that entire time together on there even ones that she had taken separately with just her and her girls making it look like nobody else was there the entire time She just failed to include the you know few pictures she took all of us. Which are now deleted off her phone obviously cuz she deleted everything of us together She always does that She always does it just deletes them because she never had any good memories as a child so she has an inability to just keep that stuff because it's painful to her now for some reason even if it was a happy memory She doesn't like those happy memories cuz those are painful that they're not going to happen anymore so she just erases everything and gets rid of it because it's easier for her while I'm not that type of person I'm a sentimental person I keep everything So of course when she goes gets her mind off track whatever I start to be sweet and send her you know our pictures together and things because I know she's already done deleted them which gets her nine times out of 10 and gets her right back to where she needs to be and realizing that I'm there for her that I I want her I choose her and I choose to do this together well not this time She completely stonewalled me wouldn't even respond to me for days and it was literally out of the blue So I'm freaking out because I'm thinking she's going to go hurt herself which she's tried to do a few times and she just reapped on all her medication the last time she tried to hurt herself that's what had happened She took all of her medication and thank God nothing happened but now she had you know six new bottles of pills which would have done it so I was scared for her life honestly. So I was literally just freaking out day after day night after night and all while having to work at night now with this new job in the truck that I was freaking out because I couldn't see her in my passenger seat anymore and then I was seeing her and then I was worrying about her and I was concentrating more on her than I was even able to do my job like I said I had to give it up even though I sat there and prayed for her prayed for myself to pray to get the job and it was literally a blessing because they created the position for me they didn't need to fill a position they created it for me I've been doing this job for well over 10 years of my career and I'm damn good at it Just not right now and so for the last month after everything that I found out everything that it's been said This is what I had to do guys and I I can't regret it I can't feel any type of way about it but I've been pushing and pushing and pushing on purpose because I know she's not coming back no matter what That's the way she feels but once I stop trying to fight for the relationship to fight for her and fight for those kids I know she's going to start to feel the feelings of losing me and it's going to start getting into her head so I knew if I stopped talking to her that's what would happen and she would try to slide right back into my life a month later whenever however it would happen she would come back eventually and I'm not going to be in a new place in my life where I would allow her to do that I can't So what I did was I pushed on purpose not only because she made me promise to do it but because I knew it's what needed to happen because I needed my mental state to be better and it's not right now I'm a wreck right now because of this woman because of losing this woman cuz I honestly felt like she's the one person on this planet that I would never let go. So my life is just turned into a fucking wreck on a wreck on a wreck because of her vindictive nature her mean-spirited bullshit when she gets mad She doesn't not have a filter so she uses her daughter against me how's it feel no that you'll never see "her daughter" ever again trying to dig into my heart and just cause more pain This is the type of stuff she would say to me That would just break me down to nothing. I've literally been in tears since the breakup and before that because I I think I kind of knew it was coming but I was just so depressed that I couldn't do anything I would cry every night even a month before we were broken up I would cry every night just cuz I missed her I missed her being next to me but that was her own fault that was her own doing She lied put words in my roommate's mouth that were never there and she couldn't apologize She could not be an adult and apologize to him and then it would have been fine She would have been a loud back at the house She would been able to come see me but she just is not the adult that I thought she was or that she used to be before when we first got together and and I don't understand what happened I can't see where it all just went so terribly wrong except for her moving in with her family. It has been the greatest experience of my life loving this woman but at the same time in the end it has been so destructive so I had to make sure that she would never come back So for the last month I've been pestering her coming at her yelling at her calling her all these names in the book and just destroying anything she ever had for me because I won't let her back into my life I can't cuz I know if I do it will be the death of me so I'm choosing me over the love of my life. The woman that I have lived for for this past three fucking years of my life given everything to worked my ass off so I could fucking just keep going the next day to provide what I could for us as a family mind you have paid for everything every waking moment for the first year and a half of our lives because she didn't have a job She didn't work so I paid for everything and that's everything we needed for the baby as well. That couldn't get bought with food stamps. Literally drained every bit of funds that I had saved up everything Just took me for a rollercoaster ride through hell but I chose me I choose me now And hopefully the apartment that she was finding for us the one that she supposedly went to Once she supposedly is at now I hope her I wish her all the best but I had to sit here and destroy any chances of ever being with the woman that I still to this day want because I know she comes back crawling back I knew that I would take her back in a heartbeat and I just can't do it so I had to get it done and over with for me for her for everybody because I won't be hurt like that I won't be disrespected like that I won't be turned into a monster because she tears me down with her hateful little remarks and digs into my heart that are totally unnecessary when I'm being everything I can try to be and be sweet for her She literally anytime I would try to be sweet would turn it into something it's not telling me I'm manipulating her telling me I'm doing this I'm doing that well okay so that's what I'll do That's what I thought and that's exactly what I did If I'm the monster let me know cuz I feel like it honestly but I know it's for the best. To my little blue sundress princess, the love of my life I'm Sorry I had to do what I did sweetheart I'll always love you no matter what babe Just can't have you walk back into my life and and destroy everything that I build from here on out because I'll end up killing myself and I don't want that to happen so this is goodbye even though I know you'll never read this. Just know that I see you everywhere in every place I go there's memories that fled back to me everyday that are amazing or that are bad or that are just that their memories they will fade eventually hopefully but for now they are still too real for me to just forget like seems like you want to do by going out there and supposedly live in your best life faking it just to make it for the rest of the world being that strong independent woman with that attitude exactly even though I know you're sad inside I know you just buried those feelings All the love you had for me and you're lying to yourself but that's on you now I tried I really really tried to get you to understand that that's where we were headed was the life we wanted so sorry I asked you to choose me and love me for me instead of love me for what I had or didn't have. I'm sorry I needed to do this or even felt like I needed to do this cuz I will always love you no matter what, But now my life is going to be for me and for me only for its remainder because you gave up the fight and I ended it.
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2024.05.19 23:30 davidstjarna Turning the tables in an argument

Hi I am a 25 year old man who recently got into a small harmless argument with an older man.
I just wanted to analyze it quickly and get your thoughts on this from a psychosocial perspective.
Backstory:
The beginning:
I was at the gas station, waiting for the air compressor to fill up my tyres. The lady who had the "spot" didn't drive away after she finished and got back in the car. I drove slowly up behind here, waited a little bit, then after 1 minute gave a quick honk. Another minute passed, and I got out of the car, up to her window and asked what was going on. She was texting, and finally she realized others were waiting for the spot. All good and she started up the car and said "sorry".
The argument:
I reversed my car since another car wanted to pass.
While I did this, an SUV flew around the corner like a Formula 1 car and "stole" the spot.
I was like *sigh*, what a "shark". But I guess he had been waiting longer than me. He was a man aged around 50 I guess.
Then I saw him pulling out the window scraper.
That's when I went over and was like "Hey, aren't you gonna use the air compressor". He replied with "No".
Then I said. "But why on earth are you occuping the air compressor spot when others are waiting if you do not need it."
He then instantly got angry and said "Dont you come here and lecture me! I can move if you ask nicely!".
This was said very agressively.
And then 20-30 seconds more of baloney on the "ask nicely subject", and why my approach was wrong etc.
I did not fall in to this trap and "Re-ask", I just waived my hand and walked away, with a feeling that he would move.
As we both entered our cars, he managed to slip yet another smart comment. "Some humilty can get you far".
He just couldn't resist another comment.
Analysis:
It is quite interesting how he managed to turn the tables. He set the frame that this conversation was no longer about him stealing the spot when he did not need it, the conversation was now about me being "rude" or lacking manners.
Is this a sign of manipulative behaviour, or is it a man deflecting since he could not admit that he was wrong?
He knew very well that I was waiting for the spot. I think that the fact that he "stole" the spot so quickly (he must have seen me trying to get the lady away from the spot), and also reacted so quickly in anger, shows that he knew what he did was wrong, and expected a negative response, which he himself prepared to deflect.
It is also funny that he told me to not "Lecture" him, but then he ended up lecturing me.
I think overall it is an interesting social technique, perhaps of manipulative nature.
Example:
Boss: Michael! Where is the god damn report from last week?! It was supposed to be on my desk this morning! What are you doing son?
Michael: I do not like your tone!!! Dont come here and berate me!! The report can be on your desk in 20 minutes, but you should know that screaming at your peers creates distrust and reduces productivity.
Not the greatest example, but quite a fishy technique this.
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2024.05.19 23:28 MightiestApe Fantasy or OCD?

Hey guys! i'm new here so please be supportive.
i've always been the really jealous type and recently got my gf, the girl whom i was always dreamed about.. (i'm 20). She's my third gf and we do stuffs whenever we get a chance.. i've also dealt with anxiety and intrusive thoughts in the past. but one day i was turned on thinking about my gf’s past (sexting with random guys on snapchat) and masturbated. i obviously wasn't into the fetish but it was just interesting how someone could ever get turned on by that. i thought it was kinda funny. but then i got scared that what if secretly deep down i'm into it or what if one day i look at the fetish with a new perspective and get into it. or what if i become OK with the idea my gf / future wife sleeping with other guys. This is freaking me out so much and it has affected my daily life. i think about it 24/7 and constantly have to find ways to reassure i'm not a cuck. i don't ever want to be a cuck. I keep getting images of my gf in bed with someone else and it makes me sick to my stomach and full of anxiety but deep deep deep down i get kinda aroused. idk if this is just cause i'm imagining sex and no matter who and what it's always gonna be somewhat arousing. oh and also i don’t watch cuck porn btw…but whenever i watch or hear about sex, i imagine my gf as reciever..the images are popping on my head at random times and i really don’t like that thing!!!
honestly i never want to become a cuck. do you guys think i am or will?????????
please any help will be great. also i'm looking for solutions that don't have to do with a therapy or counseling.
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2024.05.19 23:26 MightiestApe Fantasy or OCD?

Hey guys! i'm new here so please be supportive.
i've always been the really jealous type and recently got my gf, the girl whom i was always dreamed about.. (i'm 20). She's my third gf and we do stuffs whenever we get a chance.. i've also dealt with anxiety and intrusive thoughts in the past. but one day i was turned on thinking about my gf’s past (sexting with random guys on snapchat) and masturbated. i obviously wasn't into the fetish but it was just interesting how someone could ever get turned on by that. i thought it was kinda funny. but then i got scared that what if secretly deep down i'm into it or what if one day i look at the fetish with a new perspective and get into it. or what if i become OK with the idea my gf / future wife sleeping with other guys. This is freaking me out so much and it has affected my daily life. i think about it 24/7 and constantly have to find ways to reassure i'm not a cuck. i don't ever want to be a cuck. I keep getting images of my gf in bed with someone else and it makes me sick to my stomach and full of anxiety but deep deep deep down i get kinda aroused. idk if this is just cause i'm imagining sex and no matter who and what it's always gonna be somewhat arousing. oh and also i don’t watch cuck porn btw…but whenever i watch or hear about sex, i imagine my gf as reciever..the images are popping on my head at random times and i really don’t like that thing!!!
honestly i never want to become a cuck. do you guys think i am or will?????????
please any help will be great. also i'm looking for solutions that don't have to do with a therapy or counseling.
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2024.05.19 23:25 MightiestApe Intrusive images about another man having sex with my gf keeps popping in my head!!

Hey guys! i'm new here so please be supportive.
i've always been the really jealous type and recently got my gf, the girl whom i was always dreamed about.. (i'm 20). She's my third gf and we do stuffs whenever we get a chance.. i've also dealt with anxiety and intrusive thoughts in the past. but one day i was turned on thinking about my gf’s past (sexting with random guys on snapchat) and masturbated. i obviously wasn't into the fetish but it was just interesting how someone could ever get turned on by that. i thought it was kinda funny. but then i got scared that what if secretly deep down i'm into it or what if one day i look at the fetish with a new perspective and get into it. or what if i become OK with the idea my gf / future wife sleeping with other guys. This is freaking me out so much and it has affected my daily life. i think about it 24/7 and constantly have to find ways to reassure i'm not a cuck. i don't ever want to be a cuck. I keep getting images of my gf in bed with someone else and it makes me sick to my stomach and full of anxiety but deep deep deep down i get kinda aroused. idk if this is just cause i'm imagining sex and no matter who and what it's always gonna be somewhat arousing. oh and also i don’t watch cuck porn btw…but whenever i watch or hear about sex, i imagine my gf as reciever..the images are popping on my head at random times and i really don’t like that thing!!!
honestly i never want to become a cuck. do you guys think i am or will?????????
please any help will be great. also i'm looking for solutions that don't have to do with a therapy or counseling.
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2024.05.19 23:01 mikeramp72 Endgame #23

23rd: Jane Bright (Nicaragua - 6th)

A deserving, incredible Survivor endgame level character standing next to Jane Bright.
u/SMC0629:
I don't have Jane in my personal endgame, but I'm not mad at all that she made it here. She's probably the most divisive character in Nicaragua, but I personally love her. She's got a spunky attitude, has a great rivalry with Marty, great relationship with Chase, and has one of my favorite eliminations ever. Her boot is so god damn memorable, that lasting moment of the alliance telling her it's gonna be her tonight, with Jane in complete shock and despair is just perfect. One of the best characters of Nicaragua for sure.
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u/DryBonesKing:
Jane is on a very small list of players who I think has run the entire spectrum in terms of where they land in my rankings. Top ten, top hundred, middle of the pack, bottom hundred, bottom ten… I think I understand pretty much every Jane take known to humanity, cause I’ve had them. Nowadays, I tend to lean more positive on her, but I definitely still have too many issues I’m hyper aware of to let her rank too highly for me.
“What if we have Rupert’s hero edit to someone who was just really really mean, and did the bare minimum to hide it” is genuinely hilarious to me. Jane’s got good energy and her many, many, many feuds (the majority of which being with Marty) make her a great character to guide the narrative. There’s also just her boot episode, which is like… way too good of an episode for Nicaragua. I think I’m neutral-lean positive on Nicaragua, but it’s not a season that does a ton for me, but dear god, Jane’s boot and the scene of her dousing the camp fire is like so fucking metal.
She’s such a raw, powerful person. I think my biggest issue with her right now is just that, in a similar vein to Brandon Hantz, sometimes she feels a little too real at times. Like is she funny when she’s talking shit about Marty? Yes! Is the story great? Yes! But does some of what she says about Marty and his kids feel a bit too much? Yes, very much so. It’s not enough to detract from her character, but again… Brandon Hantz-tier of character. For me, that’s a pretty big compliment, but I also do not keep him in my Top 100. Same with Jane. But despite being one of the names that made Endgame that I disagree with the most, I am very curious and excited to see our resident “Least Sane Jane Bright Enjoyer” spin a tale or two about why she deserves to be up here!
Overall Rank – 138/821
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u/Zanthosus:
While I disagree with her being endgame, I understand the reasoning and defense behind it. I respect the hustle that Tom did to get her here and I’m happy for him that Jane made her first endgame.
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u/Regnisyak1:
I love that Jane is here, I am not even going to lie. Before my recent rewatch, I had Jane in the 200s, and after my rewatch, I was completely blown away at how complex her character is and the great relationships she had all season. To me, she felt real with her hatred, and the switch between the dry laugh we know her for, to the nasty person she became was endlessly incredible, she was such a great part of Nicaragua and one of the few praises I have for that season. Plus, when she finds out Chase, Holly, and Sash are voting for her, the music change and piano chord that happens there might be the piece media I have ever seen. Congrats Tom for getting her here!
Personal Rank: 73/821. 9/10.
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u/ninjedi1:
Nicaragua is such a great season due to how emotionally charged it is, and Jane is a big part of that. Jane is the sweet southern lady until she feels crossed, then she has a whole vendetta against anyone who crosses her, so it's a lot of great fun. She is not in my personal endgame, but I can always appreciate a kooky character showing up in it.
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u/Tommyroxs45:
Jane Bright:
This is undoubtedly my most anticipated write up of the rankdown, I have such a love for Jane and everything she does for Nicaragua. She has one of the best stories of all time, and just has so many moments that further it and make it cohesive. And that is what I will explain today. Jane is not just some badass southern old lady, ok well she is, but she’s also a very deep, broken old lady trying to put on a facade for herself. Her hatred towards everyone around her has its story and here it is…
The Mask
A lot like Rupert, Jane tries to paint a mask on herself as a hero and somebody who always follows her heart for the greater good. However, throughout the season we see cracks start to arise in this persona she puts on herself. She’s someone who needs a purpose and when somebody gets in the way of that, she gets insecure and bitter and that’s when we see the wrath of Jane break out.
The editors never try to pull the wool over your eyes by painting her as a hero, because they show petty rivalries with her and Marty and her boot episode meltdown. We get to see her from all angles, even if she only wants to present one. She’s insecure about herself, making her feel entitled to be treated as a queen and carried to the end due to her “heroic” manner. Once she realizes it doesn’t work like that and she actually has to play the game, all gloves come off and we get some of the most petty, uncalled for, or even bitchy moments that just have so much raw emotion.
She’s not painted as a hero while being an asshole (*cough* Ozzy *cough*) They show her as her flawed self, but they also let you make your own decision on what to feel without pushing a narrative onto you. Of course she wins Favorite Player at the reunion, so some people still thought she was a hero but you get to see this very broken and entitled person struggling. She really hates everyone but that’s not what she can show because that’s now who she wants to be and it’s such a complicated story arc throughout the season that we see the cracks grow and it’s told so subtlety but perfectly. And this is only the tip of the iceberg with how deep this old southern lady is.
Without this defining feature, she’d just be a badass southern lady but with it she becomes so much more just adding to this brilliant story building up all season until her boot episode. Her masking her real personality just makes her a much more complex character and when we see these glimpses of it, you start to realize, ohhh this is the person I’m supporting.
Even on top of the mask, there is so much more to Jane’s character…
Grief
When you watch Nicaragua for the first time, this part of her character is not inherently obvious. Grief?!? What are you talking about? She just seems like a badass until she’s a bitter old hag for being the target. While, yes that’s a very simplified version of this, there’s so much more to dissect there. The grieving of her husband, greatly plays a role in her story, and although it’s sometimes subtle you can see how it play into it so beautifully well.
In her very first confessional, what do we see Jane say?
“They think I'm some middle aged housewife that tootles around the house all day long, they’re in for a big surprise. Because that is definitely not me. I'm fifty-six years old and I'm the type person that stays busy all the time doing things. I just don't think there's anything I can't do. Winning the million dollars is real important to me ‘cause it’ll help me pay off my farm and the fact that I lost my husband, uh, in '09, it-it-it means I wouldn't have to work as hard as I do. But his spirit, I know is still with me and that's what keeps me going.”
Her husband obviously is impacting her mentally during this season, and we see this throughout the game. Every Time somebody makes a gesture that they want her out, her personal viper just breaks out. This is because she knows this is getting in the way of her dream, and the spirit of her husband that made her want to do this and she’s not letting anybody take that from her.
She’s still grieving and wants to win for her husband, and it is a very sweet story but sadly it takes a dark turn as she starts using this as entitlement for her to win. She believes she’s obligated to be brought to the end because of who she is and the loss of her husband and yeah, it’s dark but damn is it good when you think about it.
This is also why the family visit is SO important to her story in her boot episode. Right when her daughter, Ashley gets there, she starts talking about her husband and how Ashley is the one she is doing this for, to help her. This is WHO SHE IS FIGHTING FOR!
That is why it hits so hard when everyone flips on her! How dare they! She thinks. These people are voting me out right after I fought my hardest to give my daughter a better life?!? She’s one of the only I have left, this is disgusting. It’s so sad but at the same time it’s brilliantly shown not told. And what do you know, when Jane is talking about Sash’s mama raising him, she immediately brings up her daughter, just ugh how perfect does it round back to her family and her grief with loss.
Now obviously, does that make her outrage justified, I don’t know, maybe? Is she still kind of a bitch? probably! Is she a badass? Probably! That leads me to my next point.
Perspective
If you have read a lot of my other writeups on Nicaragua you would have noticed I love to talk about the perspective a lot of these characters receive on the season. Complimenting how diverse they can be seen depending on your morals or values. No character represents this better than Jane Bright.
How do I know this? Well let’s look at her placements in Rankdowns Past:
SRI - 485/501 - Seen as a bitchy, entitled, worse version of NaOnka, and someone who went way too personal in the game.
SRII - 455/537 - Seen as annoying and sour, forced fan favorite edit not giving her the trashing she deserved by the other tribemates.
SRIII - 549/575 - Seen as a narcissist and self-righteous, below the belt remarks and “a human embodiment of a rash” (that made me laugh a bit).
SRIV - 518/615 - Seen as an ultimately fascinating character, who got a dishonest edit that didn’t show her true side until the end. Ultimately ending up as an unlikable “venomous bitch” who somehow won fan favorite.
SRV - 108/653 - Seen as a great T.V personality whose kooky first half and vigorous 2nd half make for a good story and uplifts everyone around her while also being a great character.
SRVI - 127/731 (Had to be idoled to get here though smh) - Seen as a badass challenge competitor who is actually sour, who unfairly attacked Marty and is a bit too much when it comes to her toxic side to make her slightly less good.
SRVII - 185/767 - Seen as an extremely authentic personality and very entertaining to the chaos of Nicaragua, as well as having an iconic rivalry with Marty, being an iconic mother.
See the difference between one half and the other? Yeah, that shows just how well of a character she is edited as. She has so many times where she is shown to be a hero but juxtaposed with so many times she is shown as an asshole and it works off each scene perfectly. This is why we get such a difference of opinion and I think it’s told so well to where most people don’t even see it.
You have to weigh her good and bad and see based on your morals, if she’s a good person or not, and how acceptable or right was she for her constant hatred of others? I really love that as they aren’t trying to make you think a specific feeling about her. You need to come up with that conclusion yourself on how you think she is, that’s why she won the fan favorite vote in 2011 but today many call her an entitled bitch. (And yeah, she is but that’s a lot of what makes her so amazing).
Her kicking ass in challenges and being a lively spirit contrasted to her nasty demeanor to Jill and especially Marty personally attacking them and her boot episode meltdown, contribute to making one of the most wishy-washy characters when it comes to people’s opinions on her. I don’t what to be told how to feel, I want to come up with it on my own, and I feel like a lot of that has been lost in recent years of Survivor and seeing Jane and having all these different perspectives on her personality just adds so much life.
There is a reason why so many people despise her and so many people love her, she’s just edited that well to where people have had to come up with their own feelings about Jane. Not being coerced to feel a certain way, and I feel that is the best way to edit a character. What you see is what you see, not an objective stance the show is trying to put onto you, and I feel all of Nicaragua shows this but Jane is the prime example. Perspective means everything with her.
This makes her one of the most complex characters of all time, she’s either a broken woman seeking admiration, an entitled bitch, or a badass southern lady who is an inspiration. It’s all based on what you value and isn’t that what Survivor is all about, a social experiment where you weigh your values and personalities with each other to build a society.
Speaking of building a society, how is Jane’s relationships with the cast, well let’s see her main stars:
Sash: Jane and Sash’s dynamic isn’t really shown and I think that actually helps her and Sash’s story. Sash is sleazy and doesn’t really make any genuine connections and we see that in her breakdown scene. When you watch the moment she learns she’s going home and the confessional she gives, you see a direct tone shift from how she talks about Chase and how she talks about Sash. When she’s almost crying about Chase and his betrayal, she is outright vile and nasty when talking about Sash. Showing this major lack of connection between them, that she never saw him as a friend and will not hold back from releasing her rage on him.
Chase: Jane and Chase’s connection is one for the books. Both being from North Carolina and being southern types, they instantly bond and feel close to each other. Their relationship just feels more special than anyone else’s that season, that’s what makes the betrayal so much more entertaining. You literally see her about to cry over Chase, they really were close and got to know each other and just to have him stab her in the back, it’s so good. It just felt special but it wasn’t enough for him to not cut her…
Now how could you talk about relationships and not bring up Jane’s defining one…
Fartay:
Come on! This rivalry is one of if not the best rivalry in all of Survivor. They just despise each other and really are either of them in the right? Not at all, that’s what makes it so great. Marty’s a sleazeball, cocky, and a smart ass while Jane’s an entitled, bitter, old lady and they just work so well off each other. You just have personal jab after personal jab that is just so entertaining and perfectly helps tell Jane’s story.
There is really no reason why they should hate each other as much as they do but their walks of life and personalities just clash so hard that you still understand why they hate each other. Jane takes everything Marty does to heart without any grain of salt, and it makes her reactions so visceral and truly legendary. It’s what makes Jane the Jane we love to love or love to hate!
Now, I think it’s time to talk about the pinnacle of Jane. Her magnum opus if you will… her boot episode.
The Wrath of Jane Will Break Out Tonight
This is one of my favorite episodes of Reality TV. Everything about it is perfect and told in such a way to where it’s the perfect ending for such a broken character.
Building her up with her daughter coming during the family visit, talking about her and how much she wants to provide for her. Having a seed planted in Jane’s brain after she’s not taken to the reward thinking she was entitled to be brought.
Fabio winning immunity, throwing everything for a loop, just when Jane’s attitude has really started to shift and then we get to the scene. Which personally is my favorite scene in all of Survivor without a doubt. The scene where the alliance tells her it has changed and she’s going home is so brilliant. The raw awkwardness and silence next to Jane’s utter disbelief and anger. After she flips them off it is followed by again my favorite confessional of all time.
This is what she has been building up to, everything just falls about when she believed she deserved to win. Having such raw and unfiltered emotions where she’s about to break down and cry and then the turn to anger and fury bringing Sash’s mother into it, talking about how she raised a damn liar. (WITH THAT HEAD COCK THOUGH) All with very subtle sound effects or just no music at all until she gets up and makes one last hoorah by pouring water on the fire. “I started and I put it out” 🔥🔥🔥
Then we get to tribal, where Jane is just done with the bullshit and just calls everyone out for being liars and backstabbers. “The writings on the wall Fabio!” Like come on, that is TV gold, followed by the vote having Chase and Sash “cowardly” play their idols sticking it to Jane when she is already at her lowest by not even having her vote count. She leaves bitter and broken, not the happy ending she felt she deserved.
Mortgage Gate
I’m putting this here because that’s where it best fits, and this is brief because it doesn’t really affect my rankings on Jane because it’s not in the season.
I wish they did show this though, as having this added layer of controversy between Sash and Jane with real world implications would have been amazing, even if what Jane is saying isn’t true it still would’ve shown her as an ass, making up lies just to make someone look worse. I just think it’s such an interesting topic to discuss that I wanted to give it its own section. Sash is sleazy so I wouldn’t pass him to do that, however Jane is extremely bitter and entitled so I could also see her making that up, I guess we'll never really know will we… (I know Marty called the incident fake, but it’s Marty, of course he’s gonna dispute whatever Jane says, if she says the sky is blue, he’ll say it’s orange).
I'm Not Breaking My Tile!
This kind of relates to the mask section of this write up. However, I wanted to talk specifically about Jane’s challenge prowess and wins throughout the season and how much it adds to this arc. Building her up as this badass figure competing against big guys half her age and actually winning?!? It gives an excellent face to the real Jane, having this much courage to go against Chase and Fabio even after winning, not only being such a badass in that moment but showing how she’s trying to play up this persona of old challenge great.
Jane, The Tribe Has Spoken
So in conclusion, you can see that when you really glance over Nicaragua you don’t see Jane as some sort of deep character. However, when you really look into her and her actions and motives you see a broken old lady who is obviously grieving. She is such a deep and complex character that Nicaragua needed to really round out the story.
Jane isn’t supposed to be this likable hero, nor is she supposed to be a villain, she’s not edited as one archetype. However you value your morals, is how you will see Jane and even if you find her an ass, you have to admit they tell it very well. She’s also objectively entertaining, her rivalry with Marty, her being badass during challenges, cooking fish in the woods, her boot episode meltdown, and so much more are just so iconic to me and make this season what it is.
This write up obviously won’t sway everybody, but I hope that if you rewatch Nicaragua, take a closer look at Jane and her actions and see how it lines up with somebody like Rupert or Coach who are much more prevalent when it comes to these “entitled, broken, facade” archetypes. You will see a brilliant story of grief, hatred, entitlement, and a fake persona that the show knows she is trying to present.
Personally, Jane will always be one of my favorite characters of all time with amazing scenes and a story almost as complex as Ian’s. She didn’t win this rankdown, but she won my heart and has definitely earned herself a #1 spot on my rankings for this endgame.
SMC0629: 19
DryBonesKing: 21
Zanthosus: 24
Tommyroxs45: 1
Regnisyak1: 20
DavidW1208: 24
ninjedi1: 24
Average Placement: 19.000
Total Points: 133
Standard Deviation: 8.206 (2nd Highest)
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2024.05.19 22:36 krazykookooclock Heat pump teleportation and the former Queen of england.

I have a condition that can lead to having less REM sleep then the average person, I almost never dream but when I do they are absolutely insane. Here’s one of my favourites!
In this dream you could use heat pumps to teleport if you had the coordinates of where you wanted to go but there was a chance something could go awry.
Somehow there was a festival I knew about and I knew my friend (who I haven’t talked to in 3-4 years) was painting banners. I teleported to a big open grass plane and realise that I am not in the right body. I in fact turned into a wizard with a big grey beard and a purple hat and cloak. Gaining composure I headed to a neighbourhood that was built around a train station with a starbucks and a competing coffee company, I bought myself something from the starbucks and headed over to my friend on the train. When I arrived my friend was finishing up painting a banner which I think was a really ugly coloured one. I spent who knows how long that I was me just inside a wizards body and she believed me. She took me outside to work on the biggest banner for the parade when I saw a blimp that was Queen Elizabeth the second’s head stretched across it with incredibly small iris/pupils, this frightened me so badly I woke up and drew this before falling asleep again.
I thought it was a funny tale, enjoy?
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2024.05.19 22:35 mushroom_historian Someone tried to steal from a worker

yesterday after park closing i was in line at xcel and a worker was asking if anyone happened to see their water bottle. they told us what it looked like and where it was left and said they left it there when they went to close the line and came back to it gone. they were hopeful whoever took it thought it was lost and was gonna return it, but seemed upset because they knew that wasn’t what happened. i told them it wasn’t there when i passed by but that “whoever stole it can’t take it on the ride and it’ll go in the cubbies so they’ll find it”. they ended up accepting what happened and having small talk with us and told us several fun facts about xcelerator and reassured our other friend who was nervous which was a memorable experience. i don’t remember their name but they were small with short hair so shoutout to them if they’re in here!
low and behold, while i was at the top area, the person who stole it handed it over to an operator wrapped in his jacket (his laziness of not putting his own stuff in the cubbies got him caught). i think she almost dropped it or something because it came unwrapped and she just stared for a moment (matched the description) before putting it in that room with the panel. after getting off, this guy had the audacity to look around like he lost something. the other op came around and turns out it actually belonged to the girl who found it and she let the other op hang on to it since they weren’t feeling well. funny enough, the other worker across looked more offended about the situation. i heard the op apologize and they were later joking about it together.
i just thought it was a hilarious full circle moment to be able to witness and to see how professional the ops handled it. they didn’t say anything to the guy or kick him off (i would’ve) and just moved along with it.
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2024.05.19 22:21 Hot-West9928 Soul of a human 5

First_Previous
Chapter 5 halfway to first little milestone.
Foul language warning keeping strong! Still hope you enjoy.
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°So, what now?° The human asked.
°Now I´m going to sleep, today was a lot.° Mor yawned. °Good night°
°Good night, sleep well.° The human answered and began to slowly wander the compounds of Mor´s mind just looking. Which for Mor was somehow soothing and let him quickly drift off into sleep. But as sleep took him, so did the nightmares, and while he tossed and turned in subconscious movement, the human watched. Watched the nightmares, watched the boy, who will be his other self from now on, watched what the four bullies did to him, and felt a protective rage. °Those asshats will pay. This ends, right now.° the human promised the sleeping Mor.
The next morning Mor acquired some writing implements and got to write his punishment essay. While the Human was backseat writing or more backseat questioning.
°Ah, so if you use a spell, where your magic is insufficient you could die, because the missing magic energy will be subsidized with a thing you call "live energy", but those energies are more or less the same, just that the "live energy" is the magic energy getting held back for your basic functions. But wouldn´t that mean, if you trained your basic strength and endurance that your magic energy would also get stronger? But then why do the elderly have more energy than someone in their prime?°
°Could you please shut up, I need to concentrate. I don´t want to write it again. And I told you that is not how it works! Also, why would training your strength do anything? You have your body and that's it. What would you even do, to "train" a body? It´s stupid.° Mor complained.
°Wait! Is that why everyone I saw is so scrawny? You have no concept of training your body? It´s just "I have to be born right, or I can´t use the fancy pants spells I read in a book", for all of you?! How did your kin survive until now? What about hunting for food or gathering, what about natural predators?° The human exclaimed.
°What stupid question is this now, we grow our crops and everything here on our floating islands, why should we hunt or whatever? You cast a spell and all the fruits get neatly gathered where you want them. This has always been that way.° Mor explained while continuing to write.
°That´s idiotic.° The human interrupted.
°Shut it!° Mor shushed the human.
The rest of the evening was spent in silence, but just before lights out the human spoke up again.
°Got an idea how we will deal with those bullies of yours?°
°No... I don´t even want to think about that.° Mor confessed. °But it probably can´t be avoided, best get to it then. The biggest problem is Zaletha, with her illusion magic, but the last time it somehow failed. Maybe it has something to do with you? Because you have no fear of her, I was also protected? Illusion magic is strange like that, you need some kind of emotional power over your target, or it has a big chance of failing. If that is the case, then it will not take long for Ranbor to escalate their abuse. He somehow really hates me.°
°Yeah, seemed like it. Any idea why? Well, it doesn´t really matter. Still, then we need a good plan to deal with them it´s four against two, and I can´t talk to anyone but you. So more like four against one and a half? But if this girl needs to have some kind of hold against me, she will be shit out of luck. The problem then is they may do something else to keep you in line. Maybe trying to intimidate you with more physical means.° Human mused.
°Then they would get into a problem with the school because attacking another student with magic is against the rules.° Mor interjected.
°But what would stop them from claiming it was an accident while helping you train? The best thing we could do would probably ignore them and if they don´t get the hint we just loudly declare, that we don´t want to have anything to do with them.° This got Mor thoughtful. °That might work, but most might not understand, why we would not want to have anything to do with them, because it would be helpful for my social standing to liaise with the nobility.° And the human agreed. °Yes, let´s try this. What could go wrong?°
Agreeing on this plan of action, their talk went to other subjects until Mor decided it was time to sleep and rest. They would resume talking the next day, and it would again be Human to ask the first question.
°Could we use the time, while we are stuck here, for you to explain to me how exactly this magic is working?°
°Yes of course.° Mor answered. °Firstly as you already know, to cast a spell you need magic energy, but that is only the first step, you have to afterward concentrate on guiding those energies or the spell can fail. Secondly, while there are some continuous spells they are hard to upkeep, for you have to concentrate on the energy continuously. Because of that spells like body enhancement or elemental puppet spells are almost impossible for single mages.
Body enhancement more so, because a flesh and blood body is more complicated to move, by the limits of how the energy can flow. Therefore most mage teams would fall back on an elemental puppet if they needed someone to keep their enemy at a distance. But those are last option things, best to deal with anything at range of your instantaneous spells.° He explained.
°It would be really cool if we could pull something like that off, it would be something like a secret trump card.° Human joked.
°Yes it would, but how could we even start to pull something like that off, firstly the energy cost would be far too much for me and you would somehow be able to control the body or guide the magic energy and that is impossible. In the stories, the bound elemental only supplied the mage with more energy and affinities.° Mor retorted.
°That´s why I meant it as a joke. But still, the surprise on the faces of the other mages probably would be really funny. If it is true it is impossible for a single mage. Still, I think I got it, it is best to use those instantaneous spells, because you can just fire and forget them, or start casting the next one. How much concentration is required to keep a spell up?° The human asked.
°It depends on the spell, but it ranges from, almost nothing to completely occupying your attention. For example, letting a fire spell go on, would be on the lowest distraction level, while guiding an elemental puppet would be the highest.° Mor explained.
°Ok, got it.° But still the human got thinking because for them something felt off.
Mor used the time of quiet to finish his punishment report and catch up on the stuff from the missed lessons. So while the human brooded over the pieces of information, Mor got himself back on track with his studies with sporadic help from Miss Amethyne. Like this two more days have gone by and Mor was finally released from the infirmary, as good as new, according to the healing adept. But only Mor and his new partner knew, how close "new" was to the truth. Still, Mor had this bad feeling about the almost inevitable confrontation with his tormenters he would with almost perfect certainty end up in. He hoped with all his heart, that the strategy of himself and the human would work as they planned.
The next morning on the way to class, of course, it happened and he heard the call from behind him. "Hey peasant, finally up again, you have to make up for your laziness now." "Ranbor..." Mor sighed.
"Hey you worthless pawn, what kind of reaction is this? Is this how your parents raised you? Seems someone has to teach you respect of your betters again." Ranbor exclaimed and slowly Mor turned around. "Excuse me, your lordship, I believe the presence of someone of so lowly standing is no fitting company for someone as illustrious as yourself. But where sire is your noble retinue? It does not do for someone as royally important as yourself to be without them. Should I go and tell someone to summon them for you?" Mor replied trying to keep the sarcasm out of his voice, as the human in his mind giggled.
°Good one!° They not so helpfully added.
"You´re going too far this time!" Ranbor furiously stated, his ruby eyes glowing balefully with magic energy. But Mor just shrugged, turned around, and left. °Are your eyes also this creepy? It looks to me that you only have a black pupil and the rest is in whatever colour.° The human questioned Mor. °Is that different where you are from? In most cases the color fits the family, so Ranbor of course has ruby red, and mine would be of more an agate green-blue disposition.° Mor answered. °Nope, we have white, then a colored ring around the pupil.° The answer came back until they heard Ranbor behind them raising his voice. "Don´t turn your back on me, you worthless peasant!"
Which in turn led the human to giggle again °He is really creative with his curses. I diagnose a lack of intelligence.° That in turn was too much for Mor as he could not suppress an amused snort. "You´re not laughing at me!" Ranbor raged and as Mor turned around to address that pompous ass, he only saw the red and yellow of a fireball that was flying right toward him.
He felt the heat lick his skin, and the shock of the force and fury of the attack let his mind blackout. While the enclosing darkness would protect him from the pain of burning, he knew that this was too much and his end. The last thing he heard was the voice of his partner going. °Holy shit! OK, that´s interes....°
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2024.05.19 22:10 ToTheMax47 End Game Activities, Pantheon: High Ground and Linear Fusion Rifles

Hello all, this is a discussion/guide hybrid on the High Ground perk!
With all the recent talk about High Ground, I wanted to jump in and give a small breakdown of the way my mind was super optimistic when this perk was announced, but very quickly found it lacking on paper and in-game.
Apologies if I got any numbers wrong!
NOTE: There are going to be a few minor discrepancies between my numbers, light.gg and future buffs/current patch note numbers. Some of these updates haven't gone into light.gg yet (or there 'future' data), and I'm not bothered enough to go searching through TWIDs and stuff to find them.
I personally think that High Ground's only real saving grace is how easy it will be to keep activated once the perk is procc'ed, unfortunately, that's about all that's useful with it at the moment. It has a tough time getting initially activated and feels much more like an ad clear weapon rather than perk for heavy weapons in DPS.
This is not at all an extensive list, and only looks to compare the use of High Ground with other damage perks in LFRs, with a focus on Pantheon and endgame activities.

PERKS

Usable DPS options (my opinion here) for weapon perks - with a focus on linear fusion rifles - are, in not particular order: Deconstruct, Target Lock, Frenzy, Firing Line, Bait and Switch, Vorpal Weapon, Recombination, One for All, Surrounded, Focused Fury, and of course, High Ground.
High Ground - When 1 meter above enemy, 25% DMG increase (enhanced adds 5 reload speed). There's also some concern in other reddit posts that your feet must be touching the ground for this to proc, not sure if this is true.
Deconstruct - When dealing sustained damage, grant 40% DMG increase + 10% mag refill from thin air. Only works against constructs and vehicles.
Firing Line - When near allies, deal 25% P-DMG increase (enhanced adds 10 weapon readiness). Requires allies.
Target Lock - When firing on target, increase DMG, up to around 28.13% DMG increase at 100% magazine expenditure (enhanced increases DMG boost to around 40%). These stats are according to light.gg, though unfortunately they do not match basic stats show in shatteredvault. Unsure what true numbers are, or if any recent buffs/nerfs effect possible 'old' numbers online.
Frenzy - When in combat for 10+ seconds, 15% DMG increase + 100 handling +100 reload speed for 7.2 seconds (enhanced may not be currently working according to light.gg).
Bait and Switch - When dealing damage with all three weapons within 7 seconds of each other, 30% DMG increase for 11 seconds (enhanced adds 1 second to buff length).
Vorpal Weapon - Increased miniboss, boss, vehicle, and player-in-super damage. Primary weapons +20% DMG increase, special weapons +15% DMG increase, and heavy weapons +10% DMG increase (enhanced adds 5 stability or guard resistance for swords).
Recombination - Elemental skills add a stack, up to 8, with each stack additively increasing damage of the recombination weapon by 12.5%, up to 100% maximum at 8 stacks (enhanced makes stacks for maximum damage cap at 6 instead of 8).
One for All - When hitting 3 separate enemies with weapon, within 3 seconds of each shot, 35% DMG increase for 11 seconds (enhanced increases duration to 12 seconds). Buff cannot be refreshed. Slow and relatively cumbersome to activate, especially with certain heavy weapons like linears.
Surrounded - When within 8 meters of 3 enemies, 47% DMG increase that lingers for 1.5 seconds after no longer surrounded (enhanced increases by further 5%, though typo in light.gg may mean this enhanced total is actually 47% while the normal total is a bit lower than 5% under at 40% DMG increase). Hard perk to proc in many encounters.
Focused Fury - When 50% of base magazine size is registered as precision hits, 20% DMG increase for 12 seconds (enhanced increases duration to 13 seconds). Stowing or reloading resets the precision hit counter, buff remains active while weapon is stowed.
The perk with the greatest flat damage increase is Surrounded (+47%), followed closely by Deconstruct (+40% and very situational), Target Lock (+40%), and One For All (+35%).
Clearly, however, the crowd favorite is the tried-and-true, quite easily activated, +30% DMG increase from Bait and Switch.

WEAPONS

These are the legendary Linear Fusion Rifles currently available in light.gg's database: Briar's Contempt, Cataclysmic, Corsair's Wrath, Doomed Petitioner, Fire and Forget, Laser Painter, Reed's Regret, Sailspy Pitchglass, Stormchaser, Taipan-4fr, Tarantula, and Threaded Needle.
Briar's Contempt, solar - Focused Fury (20% DMG), Surrounded (+47% DMG), and Frenzy (+15% DMG) = Surrounded best, followed by Focused Fury.
Cataclysmic, solar - Focused Fury (20% DMG) and Bait and Switch (30% DMG) = Bait and Switch best.
Corsair's Wrath, solar - don't use this as it currently is.
Fire and Forget, stasis - Vorpal (10% DMG), Chill Clip*, Focused Fury (20% DMG), and Frenzy (15% DMG) = Focused Fury likely best, followed by Frenzy. Chill Clip buffs make this an interesting choice heading into Final Shape.
Reed's Regret, stasis - Vorpal (10% DMG), Firing Line (25% P-DMG), Headstone*, Focused Fury (20% DMG) = Firing Line followed by Focused Fury. Is there a way to make Headstone good here? Probably not for DPS, thought it was interesting to note for a heavy LFR.
Laser Painter, strand - Vorpal (10% DMG), and Focused Fury (?)(20% DMG) = Focused Fury, I suppose.
Sailspy Pitchglass, arc - Frenzy (15% DMG), Vorpal (10% DMG), Focused Fury (20% DMG), Voltshot* = Focused Fury and Frenzy are kind of tied here for me, comes down to how much you value the extra 5% from FF compared to 100 handling and reload speed from Frenzy. Voltshot was a funny perk in my head for a LFR, please don't take it for DPS.
Stormchaser, arc - Frenzy (15% DMG), Vorpal (10% DMG), and Firing Line (25% P-DMG) = Firing Line woo! Frenzy is also a great grab if you're running lowman or solo content.
Tarantula, arc - nah.
Doomed Petitioner, void - Precision Instrument (30% DMG), High Ground (25% DMG), Deconstruct (40% DMG), and Surrounded (47%) = Precision Instrument for me, with a tie between other three depending on encounter.
Taipan-4fr, void - Firing Line (25% P-DMG), Frenzy (15% DMG), Focused Fury (20%DMG) = Firing Line first, then either FF or Frenzy depending on encountesolo content.
Threaded Needle, void - Frenzy (15% DMG) or Vorpal (10% DMG). Frenzy is the way to go here.

PANTHEON+PERKS

In all, there are arguably better Linear Fusion Rifles to run over Doomed Petitioner should subclass not be an issue. Doomed Petitioner is perhaps the best void LFR. Whisper of the Worm (if you're not married to void, LFRs, and have the free exotic) is a better choice, and even then Leviathan's with catalyst is an incredible choice as well.
The biggest downside to Doomed Petitioner, and in turn High Ground - especially in regards to Pantheon, is its use case across encounters.
1: Golgoroth - DPS is done within the buffing bubbles on ground level below the boss.
2: Caretaker - Most of the DPS points are either below the boss or at level. The best case is floor 2 (assuming you're not hitting third floor) where you're about level with the bosses center of mass, though by no serious definition are you above the boss here.
3: Planets - DPS is generally done from ground floor, at level with boss. Sure you could probably proc High Ground off of a pillar or something else here, but if you're feet must be touching a surface, High Ground's use here is terrible given the amount of movement needed throughout DPS.
4: Atraks - Please don't use Linears here, please.
5: Oryx - This is similar to planets, though with less movement. If the "above the boss" requirement is only on where the damage point is, standing on one of the center bookshelves might be high enough. Otherwise, yeah, Oryx is a big mofo.
6: Rhulk - Same issue with height, no where to stand, and too much needed movement throughout boss DPS phase.
7: Riven - There aren't too many good places to stand here that could be considered above Riven during DPS. If the game counts it as highest damagable point of the boss, we're shit out of luck as that point it higher than even her eyes.
8: Nezarec - Again, the greatest limiter here are places to stand that are higher than the boss. If everyone running High Ground and Linears here, maybe standing up where Nez spawns could work, but then again, why aren't we just using Rockets or GL's here instead on Nez?

DUNGEONS

High Ground is a very exciting perk, but in it's current state within Pantheon, I unfortunately believe it isn't going to be much help. Even in most normal-level encounters in raids and dungeons it doesn't come in handy.
Warlord's Ruin - Maybe in final boss there's room to get somewhat higher than the ghost Ahamkara, but, eh.
Ghosts of the Deep - Hard to proc outside of high point in final boss room.
Spire of the Watcher - Again hard to proc except MAYBE in final boss room?
Duality - No real linear use here.
Grasp - Maybe final boss and maybe ogre.
Prophecy - Maybe final boss on top of the pillars on some of the platforms? Good room to use it, height wise at least, in cube-boss and first boss.
Pit of Heresy - Yeah no, nowhere here is this good I think.
Shattered Throne - Again, no real boss fights where height is ample and linear's work well.
If you find a weapon or build that High Ground works well with, please let me know, I'd love to utilize it! Also do fill me in on if there's any confirmation on High Ground working mid-air while not standing on a surface. Thanks, and hope this helps!
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2024.05.19 22:10 mahoganyblueberry 3x ghosted tells me to ask him out on a date? What do I make of this situation

So I matched w this guy on the apps, we made plans to go out but it didn’t work. I thought he was working late and had plans w his coworkers.. turns out he just went drinking after a wfh day. So anyway i told him we can do next week but he never replied to me.
I make my app again and he saw my profile because he replied oh this is funny we meet again. So I said no we never met because he didn’t reply. He said he never noticed the message. We actually met up and texted after for 3 days and he disappeared again. From iMessage text
So i unmatched him on hinge and just deleted the account. My friend helped me remake it (2 months after first matching him) and she saw him and wanted to send a like but I told her what happened. She said ok then tell him “ you’re on here” anyway he replied and said “yea, are you gonna invite me out..” and I said “you want me to ask you on a date?” He said “lmk when and I’ll come to your area” idk what that means. My friend thinks he is a cool guy for me, and my other friends agree and I’m reading too much into it. I think im a bit silly for even re matching so many times and I know this may sound childish but I need help
Just to add: I did post about this general situation as it developed but this is where it’s at now and my last thing on it
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2024.05.19 22:07 g3thic [F4A][Literate] Jujutsu Kaisen: the Roleplay!

Hello again! I’m not sure if you've read or seen my other posts about roleplays but this one will purely be about Jujutsu Kaisen!
INTRODUCTION
My name is Hina. To know more about me, I was born and raised in Japan and I have been an avid writer ever since I moved to the States when I was 11. My second language is English but I believe it’s been pretty good these days. I recently turned 22 years old and I'm female. Talking about age, I would be comfortable with you being 17+ and preferably at least 20. Roleplaying with minors isn’t a big thing for me, I apologize. I’m in the west coast, PST timezone. Let’s see.. What other information can I give you? I would say I enjoy skating, basketball, watching tv shows and anime, and reading. My favorite anime is Nana and Death Note.
ROLEPLAY
For what i’m looking for, i’d have to say basically anything in the Jujutsu Kaisen universe. Perhaps something done in the Shibuya Arc, or even the Culling Games Arc where are our characters are participating. Or maybe something entirely different. I think it would be cool if our characters were strong on their own and everything was set up in the Culling Games Arc, them having to maybe ally or something. But we can also have it be basically them fighting together to make themselves stronger and then fight new enemies as well. I’m down for ideas!
I’m also down for a Modern AU roleplay with the original characters. Maybe an OC x CC or CC x CC in that case!
CHARACTERS
I tend to use character sheets to describe my character, these usually consist of names, background, and personality. More so on appearances, I prefer using animated or drawn references than real life people. I enjoy good enough references where I get the idea of how the character would look like.
The types of characters I write are either the lone wolf type that has some sad past which leads them to want to join someone for a redemption arc or the bubbly character who is the one that brings the mood up and is usually seen as trustworthy and of that kind.
I like all types of tropes, especially enemies to lovers or rivalry. I also really enjoy opposites attract as a whole from either opposite personality or something else they would be opposites in. Enemies to lovers takes my heart, though. I love seeing the characters go past the urge to ultimately hate each other and/or go past their usual way of disliking the others lineage or upcoming.
REQUIREMENT
I think this is my last paragraph on the roleplay. It’s the most important, at least. Requirements. All roleplay searches come with them. Or at least that’s what I heard! But don’t fret, there isn’t much.
I’ve seen this as one of the most used requirements, and I agree with it. As someone who’s first language wasn’t English, I understand that you may not be great at it. But please, I do require a partner that at least has proper use of grammar and punctuation. You don’t even have to use big words or anything, just at least know where to put your periods and the placement of your words.
My second requirement is for you to be LITERATE! Please. I’m a big writer, I tend to ramble on and tend to write more than what I thought I would. (like i’m doing right now) I write multiple paragraphs from the starter until the scene relaxes. I also understand that sometimes writing big blocks of words every response is tiring or boring so I don’t expect it all the time, at least after the starter has been made and in more important scenes. Dialogue also cuts my replies shorter.
Please please please be polite in OOC! We may just be role playing together but kindness goes all ways. If we do include OOC, I enjoy talking about many things. My day, movies, games, funny moments and stories, all of that!
I think that’s the end to this wonderful journey of an ad about my search. I hope you are still here, fellow writer! I would LOVE it if you reached out to me! This wasn’t all for nothing, right!
But don’t leave yet! I do have a passcode. I know this was a jumble of words and rambling but I still have to put one in. I heard that there’s a lot of people on here that don’t read things fully and miss out on rules or information! But.. Just because you read through this all, I’ll gladly give you options on the passcode! Also please put in an introduction of yourself! Don’t think “Oh maybe I shouldn’t bother this person with too much to read”! I like seeing big blocks.
PASSCODE:
What’s your dream country to travel to and why?
OR
Who’s your favorite TV show / Cartoon / Game / Anime character?
Feel free to pick both! Now, that’s all from me. Please don’t put your request as just “Wanna rp”!
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2024.05.19 22:07 g3thic [F4A][Literate] Jujutsu Kaisen: the Roleplay!

Hello again! I’m not sure if you've read or seen my other posts about roleplays but this one will purely be about Jujutsu Kaisen!
INTRODUCTION
My name is Hina. To know more about me, I was born and raised in Japan and I have been an avid writer ever since I moved to the States when I was 11. My second language is English but I believe it’s been pretty good these days. I recently turned 22 years old and I'm female. Talking about age, I would be comfortable with you being 17+ and preferably at least 20. Roleplaying with minors isn’t a big thing for me, I apologize. I’m in the west coast, PST timezone. Let’s see.. What other information can I give you? I would say I enjoy skating, basketball, watching tv shows and anime, and reading. My favorite anime is Nana and Death Note.
ROLEPLAY
For what i’m looking for, i’d have to say basically anything in the Jujutsu Kaisen universe. Perhaps something done in the Shibuya Arc, or even the Culling Games Arc where are our characters are participating. Or maybe something entirely different. I think it would be cool if our characters were strong on their own and everything was set up in the Culling Games Arc, them having to maybe ally or something. But we can also have it be basically them fighting together to make themselves stronger and then fight new enemies as well. I’m down for ideas!
I’m also down for a Modern AU roleplay with the original characters. Maybe an OC x CC or CC x CC in that case!
CHARACTERS
I tend to use character sheets to describe my character, these usually consist of names, background, and personality. More so on appearances, I prefer using animated or drawn references than real life people. I enjoy good enough references where I get the idea of how the character would look like.
The types of characters I write are either the lone wolf type that has some sad past which leads them to want to join someone for a redemption arc or the bubbly character who is the one that brings the mood up and is usually seen as trustworthy and of that kind.
I like all types of tropes, especially enemies to lovers or rivalry. I also really enjoy opposites attract as a whole from either opposite personality or something else they would be opposites in. Enemies to lovers takes my heart, though. I love seeing the characters go past the urge to ultimately hate each other and/or go past their usual way of disliking the others lineage or upcoming.
REQUIREMENT
I think this is my last paragraph on the roleplay. It’s the most important, at least. Requirements. All roleplay searches come with them. Or at least that’s what I heard! But don’t fret, there isn’t much.
I’ve seen this as one of the most used requirements, and I agree with it. As someone who’s first language wasn’t English, I understand that you may not be great at it. But please, I do require a partner that at least has proper use of grammar and punctuation. You don’t even have to use big words or anything, just at least know where to put your periods and the placement of your words.
My second requirement is for you to be LITERATE! Please. I’m a big writer, I tend to ramble on and tend to write more than what I thought I would. (like i’m doing right now) I write multiple paragraphs from the starter until the scene relaxes. I also understand that sometimes writing big blocks of words every response is tiring or boring so I don’t expect it all the time, at least after the starter has been made and in more important scenes. Dialogue also cuts my replies shorter.
Please please please be polite in OOC! We may just be role playing together but kindness goes all ways. If we do include OOC, I enjoy talking about many things. My day, movies, games, funny moments and stories, all of that!
I think that’s the end to this wonderful journey of an ad about my search. I hope you are still here, fellow writer! I would LOVE it if you reached out to me! This wasn’t all for nothing, right!
But don’t leave yet! I do have a passcode. I know this was a jumble of words and rambling but I still have to put one in. I heard that there’s a lot of people on here that don’t read things fully and miss out on rules or information! But.. Just because you read through this all, I’ll gladly give you options on the passcode! Also please put in an introduction of yourself! Don’t think “Oh maybe I shouldn’t bother this person with too much to read”! I like seeing big blocks.
PASSCODE:
What’s your dream country to travel to and why?
OR
Who’s your favorite TV show / Cartoon / Game / Anime character?
Feel free to pick both! Now, that’s all from me. Please don’t put your request as just “Wanna rp”!
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2024.05.19 22:03 Ok-Guide-7329 Clueminati Interview Notes, Chris calls in at 3:14:00

Clueminati Interview Notes, Chris calls in at 3:14:00
-Chris says Seth and them were up at the school but they did not stop or interact with them and he doesn't know what they were doing
-Chris says he didn't do anything directly to Sebastian and he doesn't have knowledge of who could've on the 26th
-Chris says Katie went with him to the campground instead of staying at the home bc of the threats they were getting, he says they do turn all threats into LE
-Chris confirms 13-18 different dogs have been in the home several times in the first 8 days
-Chris says if he could tell people to search any areas, he said they should search: North, North West, and North East
-Chris thinks the 5 mile radius has been thoroughly checked and he's not saying nothing is in the 5 mile radius but he thinks they should start moving outside of that radius
-Chris says with the relationship between Seth and Katie, he would not let his daughter have a form of a relationship in that magnitude with a man. He says from what he understands as a fathers standpoint it was an inappropriate relationship. He says he has what they've both said and it is what it is and it sucks that the tragedy of Sebastian going missing has dug up a lot of dirt and it had nothing to do with Sebastian missing. He said he understands the digging but he doesn't
-Chris says he thinks all of the theories and assumptions out there are hogwash. He says maybe it's so simple it's complicated, a 15 yr old child walked out of the house and disappeared
-Chris says Seth has worked with LE and so have they to try to get answers and theories and get things debunked that needs to be debunked
-Chris says he doesn't know if Seth would listen to him for advice about his team, but he'd have a conversation in private with him, no cell phone or anyone around. If Katie was present it'd be the 3 of them.
-Chris says Seth has been hurting since the minute he got the phone call. He said Katie is hurting equally and Chris is hurting too.
-Chris says kids who are products of divorces get 4 parents, more family. He doesn't think him being a step dad is unequal to being a dad
-Chris says Katie is hurting and she's emotional
-Chris says there are therapists out there who've offered their time to Chris and Katie and they're gonna take advantage of that
-You can hear the dogs in the background, Chris calls it an ankle biter (Sebastians dogs are still there it seems or different ones)
  • Chris says he's not happy with Seth but it doesn't mean he isn't willing to sit down and have a discussion with him. He says there will be words that will be said bc they are human, but his issue is when people run and say things they know nothing about. He mentions websluthes and says that was a set up, and Seth went on there and said some things that have been debunked once or twice over and he said Seth was just feeding the rage. He said they could talk offline and have the conversation.
-Chris says some comments on the video of Seth going off said it'll make people stop supporting Sebastian, he didn't like that and he said please don't do that and please put the drama aside and don't forget about their son -Chris said it's doubtful they'll be at the vigil. He said he doesn't think the vigil will be 100% what it's supposed to be about. He said if was people who didn't have the intentions that they have they'd consider it. He said he'd like to get the community together and he doesn't know how to plan it, talk to all the churches and hold a massive vigil like a cohesive unit but he's not a planner
-Chris says he can't disclose information about the cameras inside and outside his house but it's been talked about by LE
-Chris says he is kind of a joker, he likes to joke around to relieve some of his tension
-Chris says he was not making fun of Sebastian and if they saw him and Sebastians interactions together they liked to joke around and do goofy things
-Host says he's not disrespecting Chris and Chris is answering his questions with respect and you can't pull honey out of vinegar
-Chris isn't gonna speak for Stephen Crabtrees false information but he said he respects him owning his mistake but he says there is nothing the public knows that all the parents know. He said LE will talk to them before anyone out there about the case.
-Chris said they aren't supposed to divulge information and they've been asked not to talk about the case information.
-Chris says LE has been wonderful anytime they've had questions
-Chris says he did not start the Chris Proudfoot is Innocent Facebook Page
-Chris says he's not in everyone's YouTube commenting and trolling and he doesn't think Seth is doing it either
-Chris says he hasnt played online with Sebastian and Seth. He's tried to play online with Sebastian but he doesn't have a tag so he can't go online and play. He said he's never played online with Sebastian at his dad's house
-Chris said personally he prefers Sebastian not play online at all
-Chris said Sebastian would never sleep in the garage and he did not pressure wash him. There's no room to lay a mattress to sleep on on his garage he said. He said that's false
-Chris says Sebastian did not text Katie's mom before he went missing
-Chris said everything him and Katie have told him has been checked out down to the T. The phone call, Katie's route that morning, the alibis, etc. He said it's all been vetted and checked by LE
-Chris says his wife was a mess and Katie called him bc she was highly stressed and talked and Chris said hold on and he got ahold of the sheriffs office and within 10 minutes of the call the police were there
-Chris says he does not believe Seth was involved with Sebastians disappearance, he said he was at work. Chris said he will never forget the conversation they had when he told Seth
-Chris admits he called and asked his mom Cathy to go to his house that morning to be with Katie until he could get home, that's why Cathy was there
-Chris says his family all track each other with life360 on their phones
-Chris says that Seth knows that Cathy was already interviewed
-Chris said this case is so simple if you take the drama away from it and the best part about it, the most unique part, is Sebastian managed to leave without leaving any evidence behind him
-Chris and Katie went to a restaurant that had flyers up before but didn't anymore. He says you just have to give them another flyer and ask them to put it back up
-Chris says let's say the avg person could walk a certain distance like 2 miles in a hour. From 12-6am he could have got that far, do the math and he could be further than everyone thinks
-Chris says he truly feels deep down Sebastian would seek help if he could
-Chris says if you found Sebastian and he is by himself and you see him, call 911, offer him food or a drink just not soda bc he doesn't like carbonation. Chris says call 911 immediately and let them tell you what to do
-Chris said if you find him to make him comfortable just talk about his family and his parents
-Chris said Sebastian is funny and very unique
-Chris said the double malt joke thing is something Sebastian and Terri loved to get together at Culver's
-Sebastian loves Debbie cakes, chocolate milk, steamed tofu not fried, Sebastian isn't a huge steak eater but he loves smoked salmon and he likes his burgers
-Chris says he's one way at Seth's house and one way and their house
-Tony had called and said his job was to control Seth and control the narrative and Seth got on an interview and said some nonfactual things and what he said opened another avenue up for more speculation. Chris said the call was a little heated but he doesn't care about his end game or his role, he would rather have a conversation with Tony offline -Chris said there are organizations that want to get involved but they without a doubt should be vetted through LE before Katie and Chris consider them being involved
-Chris says he had a conversation with Jules and he said unless LE comes to the house and says she can do it and they are there or if she brings something new he doesn't want more people coming in and out of their house. He does not discredit Jules and TBI has called and said she is legit but he says there's nothing that he knows of that her dogs are gonna do that the others didnt. He said dogs that came already came from across the states across districts even federal dogs so what will Jules dogs do that the others didn't
-Chris said he doesn't know if had a secret phone but if he did it was probably at his dad's house
-Chris says Sebastian didn't ever leave the house alone. Once he was caught crossed the street at his neighbors yards when Chris and Katie got home, once he went to the bus stop in their driveway way too early. Chris says he probably didn't run off at Seth's house
-Chris said let's not go down the road of what he felt about Seth leaving Sebastian home alone while he was at work, Seth does what he does while he's there
-Katie says for the record she does have a voice and she refuses to speak on panels and her husband doesn't abuse her
-Chris says some of the memes are funny
-Chris says this is not a hoax
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2024.05.19 22:03 TraditionalLook6462 Lack of creative juices

First time poster here! TLDR: hit wall plz send biome inspo
I've been playing since day 1 and only recently I've started really putting effort into decorating and making my village look nice. Only issue is that I am totally hitting a major wall with how I want to arrange all of my biomes 😭
I'm seeing I'm not alone in thinking that there should be a biome dedicated to a more theme park vibe which would honestly solve all of my current problems. I think I'm so hung up on making my plaza look like a theme park" when in reality it won't all fit the way I want it to.
I know I'd like to turn my meadow into more of a Toontown themed area as well as the homes of Mickey & friends plus any overflow homes. I already had the homes of Woody & Buzz in the forest and I'm leaning towards creating "Toy Story land" up there but everything else I'm stuck.
I've put about 0 effort into Eternity Isle however Aladdin items like the Magic Carpet ride could look really cool over there. I think part of my problem is I'm trying too hard to group like items together and don't care for the idea of having rides spread throughout the place.
If anyone could please post their biomes for inspiration on where your rides/homes are placed, I would be be eternally grateful (unfortunately I am not funny) 🥲 Any and all suggestions, tips, tricks, hacks, etc. are warmly welcomed!!
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2024.05.19 21:46 Lurkingfordrama My husband 23m says he’s sick of “tiptoeing around my 23f feelings” AITAH?

Okay so here’s the situation I like the young Sheldon show and it just ended in a pretty sad but expected way but I saw a video on TikTok of the character who passed away dressed as a women in the background in his own funeral which I thought was funny and explained to my SO and asked if he wanted to see I got up from the couch pretty excited before he even answered but when he did answer he responded by looking at the baby monitor rolling his eyes and saying “I want our daughter to go to sleep” so I stopped walking towards him and went to sit back down I will admit my face probably fell and that’s when he kind of snapped at me “show me the video” and when I looked at him confused he said “I was being a smartass this is what I mean by I’m sick of tiptoeing around your feelings” which in all honesty confused me more than anything and then my baby cried so I went to go get her 7mo but because our son 2m was sitting with us I didn’t want to talk about it because it usually turns into an argument when I question him about these kinds of things so if someone could tell me if I was the AH and why that would be so awesome.
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2024.05.19 21:41 clydelogan Through the Looking Glass: Taylor and Mirrors

Through the Looking Glass: Taylor and Mirrors
Let me just start out by saying I haven’t read Through the Looking Glass by Louis Carroll in about 10 years and I’ve only read it 3 times (HS AP English Lit, a Lit class in college, and after 1989). I’m by no means as versed in Louis Carroll or Alice’s Adventures as others in this sub.
I’ve talked about numerology 8 [here](https://www.reddit.com/GaylorSwift/s/PQLFND29FR) and how it connects to “Karma”. It’s also been 8 years since when we would have gotten the lost “Karma” album. To briefly recap my other post, Taylor had mentioned before she’s into numerology. In numerology, the number 8 is associated with karma because 8 is ruled by Saturn (love you to the moon and to Saturn) who is the Lord of Karma.
Now let’s get into Through the Looking Glass. Taylor Nation has been hinting at 2016 quite a bit lately. Most notably drawing attention to Taylor in this outfit at Stockholm N2 which is the reversed version of her 2016 Grammy’s outfit. In TTLG, Alice enters through the looking glass and finds a mirror world where everything is reversed.
2016 Grammys ; Eras Tour Stockholm May 18, 2024
Taking it back to 2023, we see the Lover House from the Lover music video as a background visual when she performs Lover. I will side track here to say Taylor released the Lover music video on August 22, 2019 (happy birthday to me ). The same day the music video released, she announced she is re-recording the first 6 albums because of the Masters Heist. The house we see during the Eras Tour visual is slightly different than the music video, notably, we see Taylor leaving the Lover House in her yellow closeting dress through a mirror in the Lover room.
Eras Tour Lover House Visual with Taylor going through the Mirror in the Lover room while wearing a yellow dress
I personally think this visual has many layers to it which I’m just going to lay out here:
  1. If you are a failed comingoutlor, you likely believe she was going to come out during the Lover era, but due to the Masters Heist, her plan was foiled. In the music video, her clothing in each room of the Lover house fits the colors of that room. In the tour visual, she is in a yellow dress which doesn’t fit the theme.
  2. Taylor is climbing through the mirror in a yellow dress, a nod to the first re-record, Fearless.
  3. Taylor is leaving the Lover era to go back in time.
Taylor destroys the Lover house later in the Eras Tour, I personally believe that is because she is rebuilding the Lover house the way she wants it, because it was always fractured by the lost album. I’m a Karma/Lost Album truther and I believe that was her original attempt at a coming out. This leads me to the Through the Looking Glass chessboard
TTLG Chessboard by me
In Through the Looking Glass, the book starts out with Alice playing with a white kitten and a black kitten. She notices a mirror and when she touches the mirror, she realizes she can go through it, which takes her into the mirror world version of her house where everything is reversed.
Two recent examples of Taylor using mirror imagery. In Anti Hero where she’s looking at the Evil!TayloTaylor Swift ™️ in the mirror; On the cover of the WAOLOM Phone Memo touching the looking glass/mirror
She discovers a book of poetry called the Jabberwocky that is written in reverse that you need to hold up to a mirror to be able to read it. (Hello, Tortured Poets Department. There have been posts in the sub on listening to TTPD in reverse as well as the songs from TTPD mirroring other songs). Alice leaves behind her home and enters a garden where she meets the Red Queen who tells her she can become a queen if she can make it across the countryside to the 8th rank/row that is laid out like a chessboard.
So this is where I’ve started out with the image above. I believe we are resetting the chessboard to 2016. The Red Queen places Alice on the second row as a White Queen pawn, thus combining Alice’s need to cover two of the rows (or for Taylor, two years combining Reputation and Karma/Lost Album into one double album).
Alice starts off this quest/journey by getting on a train that skips over the third row (2018) and goes right into the fourth row which is a forest where she meets a Looking Glass Gnat that teaches her about Looking Glass insects (2019, Lover, butterfly mural, butterfly pajamas in Lover MV). She goes through the “woods where things have no names” and forgets her own name and identity. She’s helped by a fawn who also forgets its identity, but when they get to the other side it remembers and leaves her (Masters Heist, *I jump from the train, I ride off alone*, the muse that she breaks up with during the Lover era (?) )
Taylor Alice comes across Tweetle Dee (Scott Brushetta) and Tweetle Dumb (Pooper Scooter) who try to provoke her (their responses to her announcement of re-recording her albums that it wasn’t going to work, etc) and point her direction to the sleeping Red King and telling her she’s a figment of his imagination (my interpretation is pointing at her conservative/homophobic fans and saying they’ll never support an out and queer Taylor or purchase her re-records). But they Tweedles are scared off by a large crow (Taylor’s aesthetic turning black and the support of other people in the industry and her fans to re-record her music).
Alice meets with the White Queen as she gets ready to move into the 5th rank, but as they cross the brook, the Queen is turned into a sheep and Alice has to paddle the boat across on her own (2020, Covid happens, Loverfest is cancelled, Taylor creates Folklore) and struggles with it (Cardigan MV)
https://preview.redd.it/6cvz3p4fqf1d1.jpg?width=4096&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=28cf5e4b93c77a2d2f4f5c4512a501bd5748b7b7
Alice then crosses into the 6th rank/row by crossing another brook (end of 2020-2021, Evermore, Willow MV)
https://i.redd.it/u70wd6amqf1d1.gif
Where she meets Humpty Dumpty who gives his own interpretation of Jabberwocky before he falls and all the (White) kings horses & all the (White) kings men try to put him together again.
Taylor releases Fearless TV (White Horse) and Red TV in 2021. Which leads to the 7th Rank/Row where Alice crosses a brook into a forest (Lavender Haze MV) and is almost captured by a Red Knight but is saved by the White Knight (1950s shit).
https://preview.redd.it/emjf9evqqf1d1.jpg?width=1198&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=da2bbc9c45a4e289cad0502d778ce01b7e5501ca
The Knight sings her a poem called Ways and Means to the tune of My Heart and Lute (Thomas Moore). Before she leaves him to cross the brook into the 8th rank/row
https://preview.redd.it/c4qqc0vuqf1d1.jpg?width=1198&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=fe67ed0386af1046510638cf34cec9b5c30bbba8
Where she automatically becomes a Queen
(2023, Eras Tour, biggest year of her career, many media outlets calling her the 2023 Queen of Pop music and saying it was the year of Taylor)
The story ends with the Red Queen and White Queen showing up and inviting themselves to a party that Alice would be hosting without her knowledge that turns into chaos and Alice shaking the Red Queen who she blamed for the chaos. She then wakes up holding the black kitten (Red Queen) and white kitten (White Queen).
Which takes us into 2024 where we’ve crossed the chessboard and Taylor has given us a black and white album, The Tortured Poets Department which has heavy Red Era/Red Muse theming.
TTLG Chessboard with addition of the rebuilding of the Lover House by re-recordings
But there’s another album with Black and White imagery in Taylor’s discography which still has to be released from the vault: Reputation (the newspaper print album cover) but this time, she’s also bringing 2016 back with her in the form of the Lost Album/Karma, which means the damage that was already existing in the Lover House will be repaired by that album coming into existence. We already knew Taylor was rebuilding the Lover house from the tour visuals and that the house was set up differently than the original one.
Burning Down the Lover House to rebuild it, but it's not complete...yet
The Lover House she sets on fire in 1989 (burning it down because the “Rep Vault is fire” aka the Lost Album/Karma) will be rebuilt with 13 rooms. Those three large rooms in the center I believe will end up turning into two rooms each, making each room equal with her 13th album, the one where she is OUT as the attic/penthouse, completing the Lover house the way she intended it. *This* is Taylor’s Version.
I hope you all enjoy, I actually dug out my laptop to make this which just goes to show how much I felt the need to post lmao bc I haven't used my laptop in over 2 years.
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2024.05.19 21:21 -Negative-Karma Where can i get sliced bop cheek?

I wanna do the funny golgotha skip but ive waited for 10000 plus turns without finding them in either of my preserved food stores in 6 Day Stilt. There's literally no information about this on the wiki lol..
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2024.05.19 21:20 Beginning_Badger_56 My ex bestfriend is on his way to turn into the next Harrison Butker

I (20M) had a bestfriend (19M) of more than 8 years, I am from a muslim country and I am gay, my best friend is also from my country, he's also queer but he is deep in the nile river.
We met when we were in 12 in school, we bacame best friends and did all things bestfriends do. At the time I knew I was gay, but I did not know if he was also gay or not.
We were classmates for 3 years and then him and his family moved abroad. For 2 years I had no contact with him. But after two years he found my contacts and we were in touch again. It was like we had always been in contact. He was my best friend. So naturally I wanted to tell him about who I was the way I told my other close friends who I could trust and I wanted to tell him about a classmate I had a crush on.
Upon telling him, he immediately denied it and said that I was not gay (as if he knows I am not). Here's how the conversation went: "Hey bestie just so you know I am gay and I like boys" "What? No way you are not gay! I also like a boy but I am not gay so you are not gay as well!!" "That made no sense? How can you like a boy a person from the same sex and not be queer?"
He went on a rant on how it is just lust and how he has not done anything with the same sex so according to him he was not "gay". The conversation came to the boiling point when I threatened to cut ties even though he had judt found me a week ago. Then he agreed to respect MY identity.
I felt bad for him so I tried as much as I can to help him come to acceptance with who he is. And to a point I was successful. He was coming to term that he cannot control his feelings and who he loves. I helped him get over a 5 year old crush on a boy that was still back in our school.
He was getting comfortable, we would joke about things and put on lil scarfs and pretend we are middle aged khalas(aunties), gossiping and cussing each other out over the phone, it was funny and harmless, might I mention that the dress up was his idea.
Unfortunately his father found out about these photos by invading his privacy, my ex friend was so scared he wanted to k word himself, after lots of convincing he stopped thinking about it. And his father told him to not dress like that again after he made some excuses. But his father was restrict on him.
After that I think he started feeling guilty for having feelings for boys. He started talking about how he will not be able to keep it a secret for long. I tried to help him as much as I could from thousands of miles away, think practically, how you cannot do this until you are not independent, cuz it can be dangerous, but to no avail he went and told his mother.
After that he slowly started mentioning how he's a top in the most random times. I did not think too much of it. Then he started telling me that he was Bisexual and hoe he also likes girls. I did not know if he was actually bisexual or was him and his mother gaslighting him into liking girls. Cuz I had never seen him talk about girls. He then became very distant.
I noticed he would block me at times and then text me back when he wanted to talk. He would only message me when he needed to talk about something that he wanted. I dont know from when but he stopped prioritizing me and how I was feeling. It was always about him. When I needed him, he was never there.
He slowly turned into an incel. Idolizing Andrew Tate. He pushed me towards the edge when he made a subtle racist remark about my ethnic group. Knowing How sensitive the topic of ethnicity was to me.
That's when I cut off all contacts with him. I could not believe my best friend of almost a decade thought so little of my ethnicity. I cut him off and went with my life and the struggles of it (which I have to tell is alot).
After 9 months he messaged me again. I felt bad for cutting him off like that so I started up a conversation with him. But to my surprise my best friend had turned into a full on incel. He told me how he is straight now. And he is homophobic. And told me he respects my decisions (which makes no sense, how can you hate gay people and "respect" my decision?). That was when I knew I had enough of him. I blocked him. I cannot believe I was friends with a guy like him. I tried to help him I guess some people do not want to be helped.
Do you think I made the right decision?
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2024.05.19 21:17 Wheres-the-Ware Living with my Childhood Abuser

I’m a female living with my grandmother and her current husband. I used to live across the country but moved back home when my grandma started presenting health problems. She is such a private person that she would never tell me her conditions until I moved in to help take care of her. It took her a year to share that she had a major cardiac event which triggered my desire to move close to her since she is the last good family I have.
My grandparents were extremely loving and supportive growing up, but my grandmother has always needed two men in her life. My mom has always joked that she is the most traditional member of our family- we are descended from a pre columbian matriarchal society.
When I was 13, my grandma started seeing her current husband shortly after her previous husband died. Grandma never married my grandfather but he stayed in the picture. This new guy, I’ll call him Peter, was super inappropriate. Right away he started bringing me gifts which mostly consisted of army clothes. He would have me dress up in them and then take pictures. My mom immediately saw the red flags and was very vocal about how creepy he was. My home life was extremely unstable, my mom and her husband would constantly fight- I’m talking screaming matches waking my siblings and I up in the middle of the night. My grandpa and grandma were the only sanctuary away from that for years until Peter was allowed into her home.
I remember one summer where we went over to his house while he was moving in, he gave me a can of some off brand drink already open. It tasted funny but I chalked it up to it being off brand. Then he told me to follow him into the basement and from there my memory just sort of fades out. The next thing I know we’re driving away from his house and I have no idea what time or day it is. I just remember coming to and thinking “that’s weird.”
After that he started taking every opportunity to touch me. I don’t mean sexually, stuff like always grabbing or rubbing my lower back whenever he would pass me in the kitchen. It almost always happened in the kitchen and it was often on my back. He would grope my thighs and tell me how muscular I was getting. When I was lifting weights in my home gym he would press himself completely against me and show me the “correct” way to do a tricep workout while I was bent over.
The older I got the more this behavior seemed disgusting and it didn’t stop until I was 23 but that was because I was never around anymore and had moved 1000 miles away. When I moved back I thought that I could let it go and at first it was nice to just be polite with Peter while taking care of my grandma. But then I got a spine injury and that quickly changed. I would lie on the floor at first for relief because I was scared of becoming addicted to pain pills. So for a month all I did was stay home crying on and off from the pain and praying things would get better. Then one day while playing a game on my laptop I felt someone watching me. It was so painful to turn at the waist that I had to crane my neck but in the doorway was Peter, staring at my ass. At first he flinched then tried to act like he was a concerned and just coming to check on me. I told him I wanted to be left alone and he stood there a while longer before finally walking away. I did start taking muscle relaxers but because of the summer heat and my constant pain I wanted to lie on the cool floor of my office. It doesn’t have a door, just a doorway that I put a curtain in front of. Well, Peter started acting creepy all over again. He would literally sneak across the house- his room is on the other side- just to peak through the curtain and stare. To him it was probably like a game, he’s an 80+ year old nasty man who blasts porn and homophobic rhetoric on his tablet. I became hyper vigilant, always stressed that he would try to barge in on my space at any moment. I would lay facing the door after the first time but he still kept doing his shuffle and slowly open the curtain even though the curtain is mostly see through.
I spent the whole summer in recovery and physical therapy but the floor in my personal space was always the most comfortable place in the house. This went on that whole time and every time I caught him- there were times I didn’t notice he was there until the last second so he probably snuck up on me several other times without me knowing at all- he would say “just wanted to check and see that you’re okay. Funny how all that “checking up” stopped when I eventually started staying in my bedroom where I can lock the door.
After that it was like being 14 again only this time instead of touching he would ogle. My chest is still something he stares at 🤮🤮🤮🤮 Then in January of 2023 I caught him going through my underwear. I had been extra careful while washing everything because I was afraid he would pull this shit but I walked away for ten minutes and when I came back he had all my lingerie in his hands. I. Fucking. Screamed. I yelled at him to put my clothes back where he found them but Peter just started throwing everything from the washer into the dryer, and then he grabbed everything out of my dirty laundry basket and threw that in the dryer too. He likes to cover his tracks so I think he was trying to make it seem like he was being oh so helpful and putting my laundry in the dryer for me. The way he was touching my underwear told a completely different story.
I love my grandma, but at 22 I tried talking to her about Peter’s behavior and what happened when I was 13. Her response was “I don’t believe that happened.” So, now at 30 I don’t even want to try talking. I just want to enjoy my what time I have left with her because once she’s gone then everyone who raised me is gone. That thought is terrifying and does not help that now when I see Peter all I want to do is scream and throw things. I want to make him cry, make him feel scared, make him run and hide in his own home for the rest of his miserable, disgusting life. Anyways, just wanted to be able to say something somewhere for once and unfiltered. if any other people out there are feeling alone and stuck in horrible situations just know that there's love for you in people you have not met and you're worth more than the bullshit you're put through.
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