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Keep in mind this is from someone who worked for this awful company for 6 years. And held a high position within the company as well.
Besides being run by awful business people they frequently lie and cook their books so the LCB won't notice illegal actions.
On multiple occasions they've forgone paying health insurance (without notifying employees). The employees found out through letters in the mail months later or when they were turned away by doctors for not actually having health insurance. Employees have gone without the insurance, but were still having the insurance deducted the entire time the company wasn't actually paying into it. Some consider this to be fraud. Especially since they were still using that money to open a grow in another state.
Artizen was also evicted from their main facility due to being unable to pay rent. Keep in mind they didn't tell anyone this was happening until the day of eviction and fired a lot of people. All after having a company wide meeting months earlier stating they would tell anyone several weeks in advance if another facility was going to be shut down. Yet another one of their many corrupt lies. They've also received countless power shut off notices from PSE due to negligent payments.
All in all supporting Artizen Cannabis is supporting some pretty awful people that look to take any advantage of their employees that they can. Even to the point were people they have in power (directors of garden operations) tell people that if they want to work for a good company they should find a new job. Buy it or don't, but they're run by awful people.

Got an adult shelter cat back in February and for the first couple months had no litterbox issues at all, I had to move in mid March and I swapped her litter box for one that she would have to climb in from the top because my new place was small and she would kick litter everywhere and that’s where the issues began. Maybe a couple weeks after she started using that she pooped on the floor next to it and then did it a couple more times.
I swapped her litter box back out for a standard high sided litter box like she had before and had zero problems for probably another 3-4 weeks until this week, I’ve been putting little pee/poop pads next to the box because I was worried this would happen and it started happening again. This week she’s pooped on the pad next to her box four times and she’s done it twice today, it’s not like it’s a full poop I’ve seen her do it where she’ll poop in the box and come out and it’s almost like there’s a little extra left in her that she evacuates once she leaves.
I’m at a loss for what to do, she was checked out by a vet back in Feb and got a clean bill of health, I mostly feed her sensitive stomach kibble since that was recommended with wet food as a treat. Since I’ve had her no matter what I feed her she always poops runny, I’m going to try adding some fiber but I don’t know if that’s connected to her more recent litter box problems. Also she’s always used the same crystal litter and nothing has changed recently, other than this one issue she is a perfectly happy and healthy cat and I don’t have any issues with her.

I do a lot of different practices and started doing Qi Gong again (I did that and Tai Chi for a couple of years with a teacher going back 25 years ago, I don't think that teacher was very advanced though).
My main teacher energy/yogi teacher told me NOT TO DO Qi Gong (as it can be way too much mixing that with his advanced energy practices so can cause severe energy congestion in his students), so I've cut down on his more advanced practices as I was having too many problems with them anyway and had developed severe kundalini syndrome (I didn't follow his instructions well and tried to fast track by doing his practices more than I should have done) so then had to stop most of the energy practices for about 10-15 years. (I was burning up so bad from within among many other symptoms, to the point where I could only sleep if I was sleeping in a cold bath and my body would seem to actually heat the water). Anyway, I'm trying to now balance things and heal myself without causing issues. I now have my energy issues in check (though my physical health basically is destroyed, though I do think the Qi Gong is helping it.. my major BP issues, it's not going up during Ba Duan Jin when usually if I'm standing it will be at dangerous levels).
I've been doing Qi Gong again for about maybe 6 months, the Ba Duan Jin helps as it very noticably softens my energy so makes the not nice energy clearing out of me move through me easier without it being feeling as uncomfortable. Two months ago I started Xi Sui Jing (but haven't really felt an energetic change with that unlike the Ba Duan Jin). What I'm trying to do is make my energy as soft/higher as possible as I'm wanting the negative energy moving through me to be neutralizing faster.. eg burn or better still I want to cause whatever it is causing the negative energy to disconnect completely from me or break down at a point before I can actually feel that energy there in my physical body
Maybe the energy coming through is past life energy, I've no idea what this negative energy surfacing in me is but I'd like to be gone or neutralized better, it appears low down in me eg navel or energy storage areas?, sex chakra, base and then moves up my bodies energy channels, I feel lots of negative energy in my left side channel running up my body and outwards till it leaves my body (so my left channel I've got a lot of attention on to break down energy and move it out of me, the energy is popping and bubbling away right now as it breaks down). So what is the best form of Qi Gong for shifting ones energy entirely not necessarily make it stronger but make the quality of the whole bodies energy much bettehigher? I'm wanting to learn another form of Qi Gong and trying to figure out what I may do next to add to what I'm already doing.

My boyfriend 25M moved to another country for higher studies. During the 1st year he stayed with his guy friend and 2 girls as his flat mates. I 25F really had a hard time during that year. I nearly cried every other day. Due to the time difference it was very difficult for me. But my boyfriend was good to me all the time and understood how I felt and gave me reassurance every time. He even came home after a year and we talked and sorted this all out. I too moved to the same country for my studies but I live in different state than his so its still long distance but at least the same time zone. Now he and, his guy friend and his gf live in a different house for their 2nd year. But their only friends are the girls they used to live with and they hangout daily for dinner and late till night. I do not like it. Even though they are only friends and I have even met them and even though they seem nice, I do not like it. Every time they hangout which is daily for hours my anxiety goes up and I go through a bad depression. Since past year I have been stress eating because of this. I even cant focus on my own studies and work sometimes. All said my Bf is loyal guy and he loves me a lot. He obviously cant isolate himself in another country and stop meeting his friends. So he of course wants to hangout with friends every now and then. I do not want him to feel lonely or isolated. I do understand his side but I dont just like it when he hangs out with the girls. I feel like this all is not good for my mental health. How should I deal with all the anxiety this causes. Am I wrong in feeling this way?

Driver’s Time: * Law is regulation. Offline for six consecutive hours after a total of 12 hours of online time. The 12-6-12 pattern continues on and on. The app will notify you 2 hours, 1 hour, and 30 minutes before the 12-hour timeframe. * The maximum effort from a driver can have nine driving shifts in a week by math. 168÷18 = 9.3 shifts within seven days * Nine shifts times 12 hours blocks = 112 hours of drive time * 112 hours of possible drive time during the 56 hours offline equals 168 hours in the week
Insurance: * After drivers are booked by passengers UbeLyft retains insurance on both driver and passengers for a trip. Many have no idea this extra cost occurs to passengers; another reason why rides are so expensive and riders no longer tip well or even use overpriced services. * Drivers still need their separate insurance (which you'd presumably have anyway) but the driver needs to pay extra for the ride-share endorsement regarding their policy terms. * Drivers are not allowed to switch states and markets for insurance and liability purposes until they move and their state license is changed to a new home state or technically out-of-state rides are approved by UbeLyft to enter the market. When a ride goes out of state, UbeLyft knows the driver is in another market and technically only provides rides going back to your home state driver's license unless you deadhead back home out of pocket. Multiple profits in multiple states disrupt the local, state, & federal taxation formulas.
Vehicle New or Used: * Avoid the $1,000 car payment and the high insurance policy. This is why all around America there are parking lots filled with new vehicles and used car lots selling out. It is better to buy used and not rent or lease a car for ride-share. Another reason why the Used car market is high priced or overvalued and that the cost of pick-up trucks or semi-trucks is high. Driver buys a 60-month term with proper vehicle maintenance and can outlast the loan terms. * Full-time: used hybrid/EV for business use and run it into the ground or until vehicle year model requirement expires. * Part-time only use your car.
Ride Production (Averages): * Pick and choose the best rides for you. Take anything over $10 per ride at no more than 20 minutes to get to them and take them to their destination. * 115 trips a week/5 days online, 2 days offline = 23 trips per day. * Try to average around 10 miles per ride * 2-3 rides per hour * In a daily 12-hour shift, the driver averages 9 hours moving the vehicle, 3 hours stopped or on break, then must complete a 6-hour break to drive 12 hours again. * Driver's full-time on average $60,000 a year taxable income, before ordinary deduction and after UbeLyft takes $60,000 or 50% of the $120k gross revenue. * The made-up “Lyft fee” Lyft brands is usually -$100.00 for each settlement value, if it is more/positive or less/negative that indicates something shady is going on with Lyft's marketing gimmicks, promotions, deceptively enticing drivers to drive more and call various extra pay an offer, bonus, challenge or incentive, etc. The truth is they are trying to game driver's pay and manipulate earnings.
Tips: * People don't seem to want to tip after covid. * You will see where your tips went in the Driver & Taxes section below. You may have caught on at insurance where UbeLyft manipulated cost and committed fraud, lying/manipulating consumers & workers.
Vehicle Upkeep & Maintenance: * $5,000 budget on Maintenance. Doing repairs/upkeep yourself can save money & cost time, whereas paying someone costs money but saves time. * $15,000 on gas * $145/mo on insurance with endorsement * $20-25 a month, unlimited washes. Vacuum vending machine to clean the interior. * $700 a year on oil changes & filter swaps. Conventional wisdom oil change & filter swap is 3,000 miles; modern cars using synthetic oil are good for 6,000 miles. * $250 Max for 1-2 transmission flushes a year * $700 to replace 1 set of brake pads and rotors for each tire * $600 to replace All-4 tires, depending on if you buy new or used. * $20 to replace the air filter change once a year * $20 to replace wiper blades once a year * $2,000 vehicle rental budget cost in case you had a replacement car in a situation of breakdown/repair cost or even vehicle depreciation if totaled, you can get a downpayment made and back on the road. * Vehicle depreciation is no problem as long as that car makes it the length of the loan. If you have a 5-year loan, save up $2k a year for a down payment on another vehicle five years from now, equals $10k down. If you maintain your vehicle well, you can get 300k miles on the odometer before trade/resale, junk/auction, or decommission. In other words, the car is a cash register with wheels - use it to squeeze profitability out of it. * If Schedule C 1099 tax deductions are done properly, at tax time your qualified deductions can result in nearly nothing to pay in taxes.
Driver & Taxes: * Passengers pay for insurance and don’t know it. Let them know that. * After deductions, you should not pay anything in taxes unless you have a different tax structure than the normal ride-share driver, which only occurs depending on the personal situation of the driver; such as family matters, other jobs, businesses, investments & other stuff like that only subject to the individual driver ultimately. * UbeLyft can't claim mileage as a deduction from the driver. Mileage for write-off includes pick-up miles, drop-off miles, and the eventual return home as long as drivers are seeking rides while hiding home; plus driving to get Fuel, Maintenance & Car Washes. * UbeLyft can't claim your insurance expenses as a deduction, they have a separate insurance fraud scam where they inflate all their cost and charge passengers - this is where all your tips, which no longer occur much anymore went - UbeLyft stole them from you and blame the passenger but the passenger can only give so much but the numbeLyft take so much. It's not the rob Peter to pay Paul method, it's a Kansas City Shuffle method in manipulating and lying to consumers. In other words, UbeLyft steals your tips, by inflating the insurance cost technically stolen from passengers, because passengers aren’t aware of the extra-extra “insurance charges” for a ride, formally pre-covid or during covid was known as driver's tips. When UbeLyft are asked about it, UbeLyft blames the dead vehicle body, manned by the human body driver they later plan to replace with robotaxis. * UbeLyft can't claim any of your vehicle expenses as a deduction. * Uber takes a 25% service fee, BUT there are other tomfoolery fees as well, Such as a Marketplace fee, Airport fees, Certain places charge UbeLyft to use their property for a Service fee, Insurance Fee, Government fees apply at Local/County/State levels in weekly statements. It comes out to a 50% service fee, not a 25% service fee. * UbeLyft manipulatively takes all the good deductions from the driver in the 25% platform fee, BUT it’s a 50% service fee and by the time the math settles come tax time, drivers see 50% rather than 25% cost in fees. Again, internally behind the scenes UbeLyft does what’s called a Kansas City Shuffle and to do that there needs to be a body, which is the driver. This is why UbeLyft has VERY HIGH driver turnover rates. When you gross $120k driving for UbeLyft, they automatically deduct 25% per ride, and at tax time it turns out they took 50% rather than 25%. In the math, The driver generated $120k gross revenue and UbeLyft claimed $60k and manipulated everyone to get it; then the driver takes the $60k from the $120k and can claim the mileage deduction. Let's say you drove 60k miles your mileage deduction would be around 40k miles so your tax liability is 20k miles and then all the other qualified deductions. In the scam UbeLyft runs globally, UbeLyft steals $1+ on all the miles and pays the driver doing all the work $1 or less per mile. * If you do UbeLyft full-time itemizing your tax deductions is generally very complicated; standard deduction is typically what almost all drivers choose; anything different depends on their overall tax situation and personal choice, as mentioned above; also, itemized deductions are more likely to trigger an audit from the IRS due to all UbeLyft fraud practices in the past as well, human trafficking, drug dealing and more ride-sharing, rental car scams, money laundering, and list goes on and on. * If a passenger pays $50 for a ride, the driver hopefully receives $25. The $50 ride would reflect passenger payments and the driver’s $25 was what the driver allegedly took home, but $12.50 after operational cost. Furthermore, without marketing gimmicks, promotions, challenges, and bonuses, drivers average $15 an hour; $30 per hour only happens if the platform knows you are a good driver or haven’t been active for a while so they use advertising/marketing money on drivers to play around. * Any given week If you’re working all week, seven days, 74-80 hours a week, your gross should be around $2,800-$3,800, then from the gross UbeLyft takes $800-$1600. You can only claim $2,000-$2,200 as taxable income unless you have ordinary qualified tax deductions to adjust the taxable income further. * Drivers spend about 3 minutes wait time per trip, with 120 rides totaling 6 hours for the week equals 4 hours downtime waiting for rides to book, total, 6+4=10 hours not driving but booked waiting on passengers. Not including fueling time, breaks, and other downtime throughout the week, not driving. * You can deduct all of that from gross not just what they pay you. All the money you pay them is a business expense but that is a part of the scamming everyone is always talking about or catching UbeLyft manipulating drivers, passengers, and third-party partners. * For certain states such as California UbeLyft, there’s the California driver benefits fee for Healthcare Stipend. If you drive more than 25 hours a week for a ride-share or delivery company, you'd be eligible to receive a stipend of $490 a month from that company. That means you'll only be paying $10 per month for your health insurance plan. If you worked 15 hours per week, you'd be eligible to receive $245 per month.
UbeLyfts HQ & Satellite Offices around the world: * Staff complaints and reports have stated they sit around all day milking the clock similar to Twitter before Elon took over and found out Twitter employees doing $400 lunches and whatnot - Had to X that all out. UbeLyft employees like every tech company typically clock in and listen to radio shop talk and complaints about how long the days and shifts with other employees or their overpaying jobs are boring. Upper management sees only numbers and lies to your face about benefits or caring about your family. They all have big egos, untrustworthy, yet they are just pointless people who are what many of us working here say "just bean counters at a desk reading reports and complaining about each other." The company doesn't care, although they pretend to care. One manager told a worker leaving the company I'm glad you're leaving, I appreciate all the money you made us, all you were here for anyway - they say the same about drivers - this goes back to the bean counting, no happiness, burdensome manipulative ungrateful upper management.

Driver’s Time: * Law is regulation. Offline for six consecutive hours after a total of 12 hours of online time. The 12-6-12 pattern continues on and on. The app will notify you 2 hours, 1 hour, and 30 minutes before the 12-hour timeframe. * The maximum effort from a driver can have nine driving shifts in a week by math. 168÷18 = 9.3 shifts within seven days * Nine shifts times 12 hours blocks = 112 hours of drive time * 112 hours of possible drive time during the 56 hours offline equals 168 hours in the week
Insurance: * After drivers are booked by passengers UbeLyft retains insurance on both driver and passengers for a trip. Many have no idea this extra cost occurs to passengers; another reason why rides are so expensive and riders no longer tip well or even use overpriced services. * Drivers still need their separate insurance (which you'd presumably have anyway) but the driver needs to pay extra for the ride-share endorsement regarding their policy terms. * Drivers are not allowed to switch states and markets for insurance and liability purposes until they move and their state license is changed to a new home state or technically out-of-state rides are approved by UbeLyft to enter the market. When a ride goes out of state, UbeLyft knows the driver is in another market and technically only provides rides going back to your home state driver's license unless you deadhead back home out of pocket. Multiple profits in multiple states disrupt the local, state, & federal taxation formulas.
Vehicle New or Used: * Avoid the $1,000 car payment and the high insurance policy. This is why all around America there are parking lots filled with new vehicles and used car lots selling out. It is better to buy used and not rent or lease a car for ride-share. Another reason why the Used car market is high priced or overvalued and that the cost of pick-up trucks or semi-trucks is high. Driver buys a 60-month term with proper vehicle maintenance and can outlast the loan terms. * Full-time: used hybrid/EV for business use and run it into the ground or until vehicle year model requirement expires. * Part-time only use your car.
Ride Production (Averages): * Pick and choose the best rides for you. Take anything over $10 per ride at no more than 20 minutes to get to them and take them to their destination. * 115 trips a week/5 days online, 2 days offline = 23 trips per day. * Try to average around 10 miles per ride * 2-3 rides per hour * In a daily 12-hour shift, the driver averages 9 hours moving the vehicle, 3 hours stopped or on break, then must complete a 6-hour break to drive 12 hours again. * Driver's full-time on average $60,000 a year taxable income, before ordinary deduction and after UbeLyft takes $60,000 or 50% of the $120k gross revenue. * The made-up “Lyft fee” Lyft brands is usually -$100.00 for each settlement value, if it is more/positive or less/negative that indicates something shady is going on with Lyft's marketing gimmicks, promotions, deceptively enticing drivers to drive more and call various extra pay an offer, bonus, challenge or incentive, etc. The truth is they are trying to game driver's pay and manipulate earnings.
Tips: * People don't seem to want to tip after covid. * You will see where your tips went in the Driver & Taxes section below. You may have caught on at insurance where UbeLyft manipulated cost and committed fraud, lying/manipulating consumers & workers.
Vehicle Upkeep & Maintenance: * $5,000 budget on Maintenance. Doing repairs/upkeep yourself can save money & cost time, whereas paying someone costs money but saves time. * $15,000 on gas * $145/mo on insurance with endorsement * $20-25 a month, unlimited washes. Vacuum vending machine to clean the interior. * $700 a year on oil changes & filter swaps. Conventional wisdom oil change & filter swap is 3,000 miles; modern cars using synthetic oil are good for 6,000 miles. * $250 Max for 1-2 transmission flushes a year * $700 to replace 1 set of brake pads and rotors for each tire * $600 to replace All-4 tires, depending on if you buy new or used. * $20 to replace the air filter change once a year * $20 to replace wiper blades once a year * $2,000 vehicle rental budget cost in case you had a replacement car in a situation of breakdown/repair cost or even vehicle depreciation if totaled, you can get a downpayment made and back on the road. * Vehicle depreciation is no problem as long as that car makes it the length of the loan. If you have a 5-year loan, save up $2k a year for a down payment on another vehicle five years from now, equals $10k down. If you maintain your vehicle well, you can get 300k miles on the odometer before trade/resale, junk/auction, or decommission. In other words, the car is a cash register with wheels - use it to squeeze profitability out of it. * If Schedule C 1099 tax deductions are done properly, at tax time your qualified deductions can result in nearly nothing to pay in taxes.
Driver & Taxes: * Passengers pay for insurance and don’t know it. Let them know that. * After deductions, you should not pay anything in taxes unless you have a different tax structure than the normal ride-share driver, which only occurs depending on the personal situation of the driver; such as family matters, other jobs, businesses, investments & other stuff like that only subject to the individual driver ultimately. * UbeLyft can't claim mileage as a deduction from the driver. Mileage for write-off includes pick-up miles, drop-off miles, and the eventual return home as long as drivers are seeking rides while hiding home; plus driving to get Fuel, Maintenance & Car Washes. * UbeLyft can't claim your insurance expenses as a deduction, they have a separate insurance fraud scam where they inflate all their cost and charge passengers - this is where all your tips, which no longer occur much anymore went - UbeLyft stole them from you and blame the passenger but the passenger can only give so much but the numbeLyft take so much. It's not the rob Peter to pay Paul method, it's a Kansas City Shuffle method in manipulating and lying to consumers. In other words, UbeLyft steals your tips, by inflating the insurance cost technically stolen from passengers, because passengers aren’t aware of the extra-extra “insurance charges” for a ride, formally pre-covid or during covid was known as driver's tips. When UbeLyft are asked about it, UbeLyft blames the dead vehicle body, manned by the human body driver they later plan to replace with robotaxis. * UbeLyft can't claim any of your vehicle expenses as a deduction. * Uber takes a 25% service fee, BUT there are other tomfoolery fees as well, Such as a Marketplace fee, Airport fees, Certain places charge UbeLyft to use their property for a Service fee, Insurance Fee, Government fees apply at Local/County/State levels in weekly statements. It comes out to a 50% service fee, not a 25% service fee. * UbeLyft manipulatively takes all the good deductions from the driver in the 25% platform fee, BUT it’s a 50% service fee and by the time the math settles come tax time, drivers see 50% rather than 25% cost in fees. Again, internally behind the scenes UbeLyft does what’s called a Kansas City Shuffle and to do that there needs to be a body, which is the driver. This is why UbeLyft has VERY HIGH driver turnover rates. When you gross $120k driving for UbeLyft, they automatically deduct 25% per ride, and at tax time it turns out they took 50% rather than 25%. In the math, The driver generated $120k gross revenue and UbeLyft claimed $60k and manipulated everyone to get it; then the driver takes the $60k from the $120k and can claim the mileage deduction. Let's say you drove 60k miles your mileage deduction would be around 40k miles so your tax liability is 20k miles and then all the other qualified deductions. In the scam UbeLyft runs globally, UbeLyft steals $1+ on all the miles and pays the driver doing all the work $1 or less per mile. * If you do UbeLyft full-time itemizing your tax deductions is generally very complicated; standard deduction is typically what almost all drivers choose; anything different depends on their overall tax situation and personal choice, as mentioned above; also, itemized deductions are more likely to trigger an audit from the IRS due to all UbeLyft fraud practices in the past as well, human trafficking, drug dealing and more ride-sharing, rental car scams, money laundering, and list goes on and on. * If a passenger pays $50 for a ride, the driver hopefully receives $25. The $50 ride would reflect passenger payments and the driver’s $25 was what the driver allegedly took home, but $12.50 after operational cost. Furthermore, without marketing gimmicks, promotions, challenges, and bonuses, drivers average $15 an hour; $30 per hour only happens if the platform knows you are a good driver or haven’t been active for a while so they use advertising/marketing money on drivers to play around. * Any given week If you’re working all week, seven days, 74-80 hours a week, your gross should be around $2,800-$3,800, then from the gross UbeLyft takes $800-$1600. You can only claim $2,000-$2,200 as taxable income unless you have ordinary qualified tax deductions to adjust the taxable income further. * Drivers spend about 3 minutes wait time per trip, with 120 rides totaling 6 hours for the week equals 4 hours downtime waiting for rides to book, total, 6+4=10 hours not driving but booked waiting on passengers. Not including fueling time, breaks, and other downtime throughout the week, not driving. * You can deduct all of that from gross not just what they pay you. All the money you pay them is a business expense but that is a part of the scamming everyone is always talking about or catching UbeLyft manipulating drivers, passengers, and third-party partners. * For certain states such as California UbeLyft, there’s the California driver benefits fee for Healthcare Stipend. If you drive more than 25 hours a week for a ride-share or delivery company, you'd be eligible to receive a stipend of $490 a month from that company. That means you'll only be paying $10 per month for your health insurance plan. If you worked 15 hours per week, you'd be eligible to receive $245 per month.
UbeLyfts HQ & Satellite Offices around the world: * Staff complaints and reports have stated they sit around all day milking the clock similar to Twitter before Elon took over and found out Twitter employees doing $400 lunches and whatnot - Had to X that all out. UbeLyft employees like every tech company typically clock in and listen to radio shop talk and complaints about how long the days and shifts with other employees or their overpaying jobs are boring. Upper management sees only numbers and lies to your face about benefits or caring about your family. They all have big egos, untrustworthy, yet they are just pointless people who are what many of us working here say "just bean counters at a desk reading reports and complaining about each other." The company doesn't care, although they pretend to care. One manager told a worker leaving the company I'm glad you're leaving, I appreciate all the money you made us, all you were here for anyway - they say the same about drivers - this goes back to the bean counting, no happiness, burdensome manipulative ungrateful upper management.

Warning, mini rant: Moved to Durango in February, thought the apartment complex I moved into was alright, my roommate and I share a 2 story complex, connected to 2 other dwellings - after 12 years of cannabis use, I decided to quit for my health, and live a straight edge life. Smelling a little weed here and there isn’t much of a problem, but the longer I’ve been here, the more I’ve come to learn that the middle neighbors are a…..little rough around the edges, and constantly have people coming and going, with cars parked all throughout the street, but I digress - the issue is that, even with all of our windows closed, the smell of weed starts to creep in, starting around 11am, and continues all the way until around 11pm. I wouldn’t mind if I got a wiff every once in a while, but since the weather has warmed up, it’s been constantly stinking of weed, I cannot sit outside on the back porch anymore to enjoy some reading.
As much as I want to go next door and let them know it’s bothering me, triggering withdrawals and irritating me, they aren’t exactly the friendliest, and having social anxiety doesn’t help. I hate to use the term trashy, but that’s one way to describe them that comes to mind.
Again, I have no problem if people use cannabis, and if I smell it here and there it’s whatever, but smelling it for 12hrs a day on my days off, and in the evenings when I get home, is getting really really old.
I’m only ranting on here because I know the landlord isn’t going to do anything, and they seem like the kind of people who’d make my life harder if I had any complaints.
Thanks for hearing me out - I feel like an a-hole for feeling this way, but it’s been really getting to be too much.

I have been self-employed for years, and have just started a salaried position. My husband has fantastic health coverage through his job, and I've had several surgeries with a few more on the horizon, as well as one of my kids being on medication and having braces. We love the coverage.
Of course my new employer also offers health benefits, but it's with a different provider. I inquired into opting out and moving the cost savings to a different area of the benefits package, but it was shot down. I'm torn between using the coverage or keeping the family together on my husband's plan. I'm also unclear if I can get an HSA without signing up for their insurance plan.
I guess I'm looking for advice on how to get the most value in this situation. Or any other benefit advice you got!

I (25 f) met this guy I’ll call him C (22 M) last August. I had broken up with my ex 5 months prior and was dating around for about 3 or 4 months. No guy took me on a date that was quite like my first date with C. C picked me up at my house and took me to this place where there was bowling and other games. He is hands down the most attractive man to ever take me out. Our first date is still to this day the best date I’ve ever been on. We hung out for 7-8 hours. He opened doors for me, something my ex never did. He complimented me over and over again. He was so kind and sweet. It felt genuine. He said he wanted something long term with me. The only issue was I lived out of state (my family lives in his state and i was home visiting). So understandably he chickened out from me. Even though I’d been actively trying to move back, he distanced himself from me. Then eventually he wasn’t so nice, leaving me on delivered and read all the time. So we stopped talking. But then a month later he wanted to try again. And then I got scared and backed out because the first time really hurt. I have never once reached out to him to bug him because I hate annoying people. Every single time it’s been him reaching out to me. Of course my dumba** wants to answer his messages. I started to ignore his messages and I was doing good moving on from him. Well then next thing I know I’m at the dealership with my mom looking at cars and he’s working there and now we talk again every now and then 🙃 is this a soul tie? Is this some sort of trial for me? This guy really told me he likes me and he could see himself being happy with me but then he says he knows there could be something better? Why do I have feelings or care for this person? I don’t have a low enough self esteem to care about his attention. I know I can’t fix him (context: I can tell he has some sort of unmedicated or untreated mental health issues, I used to be a therapist for young adults) and I don’t want to try and fix him because I couldn’t fix my ex. I learned that lesson. I’m just struggling trying to understand why I feel anything for this guy.

Quest of the Sages
Episode 1: Kill the messenger
By Jesse Gartung
The episode begins in a cave with it being dimly lit revealing paints of the history of the world before. Then a narrator who we aren’t seeing begins speaking in an old and grumbly voice. about the cave paintings.
Narrator: War, war never changes. For thousands of years the people of this world prosper thanks to a substance of condensed magic known as magite. They have used it to forge tools and weapons and even used it as an unlimited fuel source. But ever since the Great Magic Blasts. At the end of the war, our world was never the same. The magic dust has mutated creatures into more intelligent beings, while others were turned into brainless monsters. Mother nature retook the land and people have split into different tribes. One of these was the Sages of Ages, who sent out their best messenger, Cutiesaurs with a strange letter and an unknown location. All was going fine until he was intervened by the Cult of Bob who captured him and took him to Tombstone Hill.
The scene shifts to Tombstone Hill where Cutiesaurs, a creature with blue skin, wearing a space helmet, orange shirt with black spots and blue pants is tied up and held captive by the Cult of Bob. Their leader Bob, who is much taller than them and wears a dark red cape, walks up to Cutie with a Crossbow.

Bob: Well, Cutie, The Sages might have been a little careless when they sent you. You shouldn’t have crossed paths with me.
Bob raises his crossbow and the screen goes blank and a shot is heard then the main title. Then the scene shifts to Cutie waking up in a bed of an old overgrown rusty shack with a man sitting in a chair opposite of him.
The man: Hold it there fellow, take it easy. You from that crossbow. They would have decapitated you if my adopted daughter Molly didn’t intervene and brought you to me.
Cutiesaurs: Who are you and where am I?
The man: My name is Earl and this is Dead Gulch City. North of Tombstone Hill.
Cutiesaurs: Did you know who shot me?
Earl: From what I heard from Molly it was the Cult of Bob but I don’t know why they shot you.
Cutiesaurs: They were probably after my message which the Sages gave me. This letter has a foreign language that I couldn’t figure out. There was no way to figure out where it came from but they sent me to these coordinates and I can’t figure out why I was sent.
Molly: Look Doc at his chest where he was shot, His wound is completely healed.
Earl: What do you know? It has healed itself
Cutiesars: Well I have regenerative powers. They come in pretty handy.
Cutiesaurs: Thank you. Now can I leave? I need to go to the outpost pub to report to the Sages here for my report about what happened to me.
Earl: Sure let my daughter Molly show you the way.
Cutie and Molly exit Earl’s house and fades out then fades into Molly leading Cutie to the outpost pub where it is a bar completely overgrown. Where they see the owner of the Outpost Pub wiping his table. Cutie and Molly head to the owner and talk to him.
Molly: Hi Carl.
Carl: Hi Molly I see there is a new person right here. What’s this fellow's name?
Cutiesaurs: Cutiesaurs Messenger from the Sages of Ages. I am here to report why I’m here in Dead Gulch City.
Carl: Okay so why are you here?
Cutiesaurs: Well I was captured by the Cult of Bob and taken to Tombstone Hill and Bob shot me in the heart .That’s all I can tell you.
Molly: Let me tell you the rest. I was going to Tombstone Hill taking my walk when I noticed some figures and when I got closer to them I noticed who they were. The Cult of Bob nearly cut off Cutie’s head for some reason and then they noticed me and ran away. They probably thought I was a Knight. When I walked up the hill I noticed Cutie and saw his wound, and he was still breathing but was unconscious. So I took him to my father Earl.
messenger. Also, I use my helmet to hide my letters.(Cutie reaches inside his helmet before taking out a message with strange symbols) Or one of them.
Carl: That explains a lot.
Cutiesaurs: Well I wasn’t here to share stories with some strangers. I’m here to report about my delivery.
Carl: Funny that you ask about that. I got this letter saying that you have been suspended from your job because they think you are captured or worse and they also canceled their delivery.
Cutiesaurs: Great! Just great! I’ve been suspended and the owner canceled his delivery. This is the worst day of my life. Carl gave me a Fizzy Mizzy drink.
Molly: Me too Carl.
Carl: Alright two Fizzy Mizzy Drinks that will be 20 Star Coasters for you.
Carl pours two cups of Fizzy Mizzy’s while Cutie hands him 20 Star coasters.
Carl: Well congrats for being my 100th customer Cutie you get a free Crone! (Carl places an old Crone on the shelf)
Cutiesaurs: Really? A Crone?
Carl: What? It’s my mother’s and my wife says that she needs to leave so I’m giving her away.
Cutiesaurs: Okay I just put her aside for now.
Cutie pushes the Crone away with his sword then begins drinking his Mizzy while rambling about his situation.
Cutiesaurs: Great I got shot, suspended from my job, and the owner canceled his delivery, and I got the only way to decipher that map while the cult has taken my map, and now I have an Old crone. Well, it can’t get any worse.
Just then Three reptiles came into the bar, the small one that is tall and thin with lots of spikes, another that looks like a Naga, and the third one is muscular. The muscular reptile walks up to Cutie and Molly.
The Muscular Reptile: Hey there guys.
Carl: Great not them again.
The Muscular reptile: Oh yes and I see you got a new visitor.
Cutie then leans on the Muscular reptile and begins sipping his Fizzy Mizzy. Let's not overdo this.
Cutiesaurs: Yep so what are a bunch of Slithers doing here in the Bar?
The Naga: Well we are here for an important job. Let us introduce ourselves. I'm Sprong, The skinny one is Spike and our leader is Ironclad.
Ironclad: And we just need some information for…
Cutiesaurs: Something important? Yea you Slithers are all the same, threatening an entire tribe for information.
Spike: Yea we always do the same thing.
Ironclad (bonking Spike's head): Shut up Spike. But who are you, mister?
Cutiesaurs: Cutiesaurs or Cutie for short.
Ironclad: Mister Cutie. Well, let’s change things around and attack you and your pretty blonde friend.
Cutiesaurs: I’m itching for a fight (Cutie pulls out his sword.) Also, Molly is not my friend.
Molly then pulls out her bow and pulls it back then they begin to attack and Molly attacks the Slithers with her elemental arrows with good aim.
Cutiesaurs: I see you got a nice aim.
Molly: Thanks, I’ve been practicing all my life thanks to my father.
Cutie then gets strangled by Sprong Tail. He stabs him, and he begins squirting out pink slime and losing his grip with Cutie. The battle ends when Cutie and Molly fling the Crone onto Ironclad’s head and start banging Ironclad’s head with her staff.
Ironclad: You may have won this time but we’ll return stronger as you know. Remember our motto ‘The tougher the target the harder we become!’
The Slithers head out of the bar with the crone still on Ironclads head.
Carl: Thank you, guys. The Slither are always threatening our town ever since The Cult of Bob sent them to take out Marl for some reason.
Cutiesaurs: Wait, do you know where the Cult is?
Carl: No but I think Marl Knows where the Cult is.
Cutiesaurs: Do you know where he is?
The scene then fades to another old overgrown shack. Where Cutie and Molly are at the door. Cutie then knocks at the door. The plot needs some timing
Marl: Who is it?
Cutiesaurs: It’s Cutie and this is Molly.
Marl: Oh thank the forgotten for Sage of Ages soldiers!
Cutiesaurs: But we aren’t…
Before Cutie could complete his sentence Marl unlocks the door, opens it then drags Cutie and Molly in it then closes and locks the door again.
Marl: I’ve been stuck in here for a few days now ever since the Cult of Bob sent the Slithers to kill me since I was holding a message warning the Sages that the Cult murdered one of the receivers for information on some cryptic messages.
Cutiesaurs: Well that, I was going to tell you before you dragged us in. We aren’t soldiers. I'm the messenger with the cryptic message. And Molly is just a resident here.
Marl: Oh.
Molly: Cutie was shot in the heart and if I didn’t stop them they would have decapitated him.
Cutiesaurs: Which is why I am here. I am wondering if you know where the cult is.
Marl: Sadly I don’t know where they are since they move constantly. But I do think the Slithers know where they are
Cutiesaurs: Great now we have to subdue these cold blooded mercenaries since I…
Molly: Ahem
Cutiesaurs: I mean we defeated them at the bar. They will be back stronger. So we need to prepare for them. I’ll make some traps even though they won’t be advanced like the Barons.
Molly: I’ll create some arrows for my bow.
Marl: And I’ll sit around the corner and grovel since I’m a lover, not a fighter.
Cutie and Molly prepare for battle and while Cutie is polishing his sword, Molly interrupts him to ask Cutie a question.
Molly: Cutie, do you have a family?
Cutiesaurs: No I don’t.
Molly: I don’t have a family. Earl just found me and he raised me. He’s the only person that took care of me.
Cutiesaurs: Well I was raised by the Sages of Ages and when I was older I took care of myself. I don’t need anyone. I can do fine by myself.
Molly: Says the guy who was caught by the Cult of Bob.
Cutiesaurs: Listen, that was a fluke. I don't need anyone! I’ve taken myself for years without anyone's help and I’ve been fine.
Molly: Sometimes Cutie it’s okay if you have friends they might help you out.
Cutiesaurs: No I don’t like to have friends so just leave me alone!
Just then Marl looks at the window and sees an army of Slithers.
Marl: They’re here.
Cutiesaurs: Good time to wrangle up some lizards.
Cutie opens the door and Cutie and Molly race’s downhill and Cutie uses his traps while Molly uses her Arrow to ensnare the Slithers until Ironclad with two metal gauntlets appears out of the smoke.
Ironclad: Well Cutie we meet again! This time I’m ready. (Cutie swings his sword at Ironclad but he blocks them. He then beats up Cutie) Looks like it’s the end for you! (Before Ironclad could finish off, Molly shoots an electric arrow at him and shocks him, giving Cutie the chance to knock Ironclad down.)
After that, the Slithers are handed to the local police force. Cutie walks up to a captured Ironclad for some questions.
Cutiesaurs: I got a question for you, Ironclad. Where is the Cult of Bob!?
Ironclad: I don’t know since he moves around a lot so he gave me this piece of paper if we were successful in our job. (Ironclad gives Cutie the piece of paper.) I don’t understand what it is.
Cutiesaurs: Well it’s in french which means he’s in Ville des renards or the City of Foxes which I know the location of.
Molly: Really!? Well, I’m coming with you.
Cutiesaurs: What!? What about Earl doesn’t he need you!?
Molly: I spoke with Earl and he told me that you are responsible for me because you need all the help you can get.
Cutiesaurs: Fine Molly let’s go to the city of Foxes together.
Molly: Okay.
Cutie and Molly exit the town and then the screen fades to the credits.
THE END

I 24 (f) am in a turmoil relationship with my now 25(M) domestic partner .. we will call him Jace. (Backstory) Jace and I met back in July of 2022. I feel for him first , I told him and he told me to give him time to feel the same feelings. I did. He expressed to me he never felt this way about anyone before ,this is his “first real relationship” I met his family things were so easy at first , I felt like I was on top of the world. But I kept getting this nagging feeling that something was not right , but like a fool I kept ignoring it .. until I could no longer ignore it. I did the unspeakable. I went through his phone and HOLY hell did I uncover some shit (this is now 11 months into the relationship, that’s how long I ignored the feelings) his messages were full of different females , dating apps , female nudes anything you can think of it was there. This is the part of the story where I found out I was pregnant. After I found that out , I left and went home I noticed how sleepy I’ve been lately , I took a test and it was a faint line . Now this is where things get bad , I wrote a 4 page letter to him because I didn’t know how he would take it and I gave it to him. He took it well, the next night he went out clubbing with his friends and I got that annoying feeling again , I didn’t ignore it this time , as he drunkly slept I saw that a girl sent him her location, and flipped out, he disclosed to me that when he went out clubbing he met up with some girls. I broke down (side note : I never wanted children, I always wanted to be cool auntie who comes to get you out of school early and takes you to have fun) I was destroyed , I thought my life was over , I didn’t know what I wanted to do , I contemplated abortion. I broke down in tears and just kept repeating I hate you , you’re a monster , how could you. He made a vow to never do it again and i believed him. From 2022-2024 it didn’t stop, I went through with the pregnancy, my entire pregnancy I was cheated on ,I contemplated offing my self ,but with every moment I felt in my belly I knew I couldn’t do it, my baby girl never asked for this . YALL his friend even told him to cheat on me , keep in mind this is the same friend that smiled in my face , we all hung out together , partied together everything . Make it seem like we were buddy buddy. All I asked of him was to keep him out of my presence and out of my home when I’m there (if I’m not home he’s free to come over ) the hear is 2024 I have been asking this for 2 years . I said until I get an apology I don’t want him around me . I’m already having to wake up and look you in the face and face the facts and try to move on to try to make it work I can’t run away from that but what I can control is the other constant reminder to not be in my presence. So AITA for being distant and not wanting his friend around me or in my home when I’m present (ps. There is so Much more to this relationship story)

Hi all,
I have been so blessed this cycle and am currently deciding between keeping an acceptance with the University of Washington SOM and Geisel SOM at Dartmouth. I got off the UW waitlist on April 30th, and since the “Plan to Enroll” deadline was May 1, the schools (graciously) have given me until May 15th to narrow it down.
Unfortunately, I’m having a VERY hard time deciding between the two schools and was wondering what y’all thought! For more information, I’m currently interested in neurological surgery, but am completely open to other specialities if I find something else that really clicks.
UW Seattle Pros: 1. proximity to parents/existing social support. I am from Washington state and know one of my close friends from my undergrad years will also be going to UWSOM. 2. I have done a neurosurgery internship with the faculty at UW and have existing connections 3. TONS of research with lots of surrounding and affiliate institutions 4. Just built a new Health Sciences Education Building with a new anatomy lab 5. Clerkships are moving to pass/fail
Cons: 1. Class size is bigger. Total of around 270 through all sites, but the Seattle campus is 100 2. Student body is less diverse, as many of them went to WWAMI schools for undergrad. I’ve also heard around 40% of the Seattle cohort went to UW for undergrad
Geisel Pros: 1. I was interested in living somewhere else in the country. I have been in Washington state my whole life (grew up in eastern WA, went to UW for undergrad) 2. Went for Second Look and really enjoyed the students and faculty I met. They were all really approachable and collaborative. I even met a neurosurgical oncologist there who expressed that everyone is always down to work with med students 3. Dartmouth-Hitchcock Medical Center is beautiful 4. Gave me a scholarship, so my CoA will be about the same as UW in state!
Cons: 1. Rural area, but I could see myself enjoying this (I love nature) 2. Further from my parents, but my sister is an M1 at Brown and I have several friends in the Boston/NYC area 3. Fewer hospitals in the area to work with/at, but they do send students out to other states for rotations
I appreciate any and all thoughts/opinions/advice!
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TLDR; My long-term bf hurt my feelings and I lost my trust in him. This isn't the first time it's happened. I love him and we've worked through a lot. He's truly a great person, but when I need him to lean on I don't feel I can trust him. We want to get engaged but now idk if I should. I wrote an intro below but it's mostly just context so scroll down if you just want to read what I plan to show him later. It's a doozy; happy reading Reddit.
Hi Reddit. I haven't posted anything before! This is my first one! I don't think asking the internet for advice is usually good practice but I want to hear other people's thoughts about what I plan to show my boyfriend. For context, we've been together almost 4.5 years and are highschool sweethearts. He stayed with me when my family moved and we were long distance for 2.5 years. I moved in with him into his family's house. I didn't really want to because his dad isn't a pleasant person but my rent is dirt cheap and I'm a college student. Things have mostly been good and I want to get engaged this year and married after college. I left my university, my parents, my job, and a state with a better economy to be with him. But he hasn't really sacrificed anything for me. I'm not only the primary breadwinner but also homemaker. I'm getting really frustrated because I work so hard for us and try to improve the house but I don't feel the same effort coming from him (his mom passed ~5 years ago so the house is not in great shape, she was the primary caretaker of the house). He does things when I ask, but it's just a lot trying to manage all the changes of moving out at 19 to a different state while also being the only woman in the house (we live with his dad and older brother). My parent's don't give me any money, I pay all my own bills (although I'm still on their health insurance). His dad takes care of his insurance and taxes and helps pay for school. I have payed for all of college with scholarships, my own money, and grants. I work really hard because I grew up poor and I so desperately want to have a better life. He's a good person, he truly is, but I'm having doubts about the relationship. I lost my job recently, that's what has me spiraling. It wasn't something I did, they just had it out for me. It's a long story but I will say it's very convenient that when I started saying that I feel I'm being treated differently, that I got canned the next week. It's not a big deal because I was there for like 3 weeks but still, this has been stressful. I obviously had been talking about this a lot and one morning (a week after I was fired), he snapped at me and said that I wasn't helping anything by talking about this. I personally *need* to talk to get through my feelings so that really hurt my feelings and I stopped talking to him about the situation entirely. I've been thinking about this a lot and I wrote something to show him. I'll copy it below. It's written as if I'm talking to him.
{Right now, I don’t trust you. I’m writing this out because I don’t feel like anyone can hear my voice, and I don’t want to speak either. I don’t see people caring or understanding, mostly one or the other. You can care and not understand, and understand but don’t care. Most people can understand but don’t care but they pretend to. That doesn’t work on me though, I see right through it. My ability to read people is pretty precise and my ability to rationalize and analyze heightens this ability. Rumination is my enemy but it has its uses, mostly survival-related. And that’s what I’m struggling with: I see through you because it’s instinct, and it’s ruining my perception of you as a man.
When you snapped at me the other day, it was just one moment. In reality, it was an episode in an ongoing series. What you said was “Getting worked up about this isn’t helping anyone,” but what you meant was “This is irritating me and stressing me out and I can’t/don’t want to have this conversation in this tone right now.” See, you continue to put your comfort ahead of my emotional security. Instead of talking down the situation, you just wanted it to end. The moment was about you, not about what I needed to talk about. I agree, I ruminate and that would get annoying at some point. But I was in a vulnerable state, I literally just lost my job. I needed you, but in that moment I knew you didn’t want my feelings.
This has happened before, in minor accounts but in other serious accounts I’ll list right now. More recently, the thing with the engagement ring. You continued to put it off. I know you were afraid and I accepted that and tried to give you space. But why did it take you 3+ months to call my dad and have that talk? And why did it turn into me needing to have my ring picked out and designed as well as calling both my parents before you would? You continued to put up these blocks so you could maintain your comfort at my expense. I wanted your commitment, I wanted to see you act like a man, to know I can be secure in you. Instead, you showed the opposite. The other occasion was when I first went to college. I missed you desperately and needed your love so I flew back to surprise you. Not just that, I bought you flowers and made you a homemade dinner I knew you’d like. I spent that money when I didn’t have a job, that was ~$700 I made working $10/hr. That’s two weeks of work I spent on a whim to just feel closer to you. That night, I almost gave you my virginity. When I went back to NC, nothing had changed and it just got worse. I began to hate you even, but that’s really only because I hated what I did for you. It hit me when you said you “forgot” to call me. All I did was think about the day we could be together and you forgot. You admitted that you were struggling too and therein lies my point. It was more comfortable for you to block everything out than deal with it. I understand you, I really do, but I can’t condone it. All it did was hurt both of us and all that was achieved was pain and mistrust. Plus, I was so close to breaking up with you. I stayed because I loved you. I know I’ll be ok if we break up, but you won’t.
I’ll be ok because I won’t let myself stagnate or give up. I may want to, but I never have. You won’t because you let the world get to you, you let it define you. You will do what’s most comfortable for yourself, and that’s backed by data. I am above everything a reasonable person, so I’ve worked through this. But this isn’t my issue to work through, is it?
It’s not the everyday things that prove a person’s merit, it’s those few and far in-between events that demonstrate true character. I love our life together, and I know that’s true because that is the only statement I’ve typed that has made me tear up this whole stupid essay. I want to work through this because I want that life. I want your silliness, to fall asleep with you, to walk our dogs, to grow our plants, to cook, to make memories, and to have children. But how can I knowingly continue on and build a life with you knowing I can’t rely on you when times are tough? How can I give my children a father like that? Raising children will be more challenging than anything we can even imagine. I can’t make a life with someone I know will choose their own comfort over mine on a continuous basis. I’m not saying you’ve never done anything for me. I’m saying that when life is hard, you choose yourself. My future isn’t compatible with someone who does that.
We are imperfect people and I love your person as a whole, not just the parts that are my boyfriend. I love you because you are human, but I will forsake my own feelings because I know you will do the same. I cannot live in insecurity. Even knowing we will fail is a type of security. But I can’t build a life hoping you’ll one day display a characteristic that I haven’t seen. Again, I’m biased in my misery. You probably have, but it doesn’t come to mind. And that also proves my point. I need to know that you will choose me, just like I choose you. I can wholeheartedly promise that I will fail you and I will be imperfect. But I can also promise that at the very least I will always try to put your needs and situation at the front of my mind.
I take some responsibility for this situation; I have enabled this behavior because I feel guilty about making you feel bad. I go out of my way to word and mangle what I really feel so I cause the least amount of discomfort possible for you. This is one of my flaws: I can’t stand confrontation and will hurt myself to protect people hurting me. I’ll be the first to admit that I need to work on setting my boundaries but I know that I have them. That’s why I’ve gotten so upset with you in the past; I try so nicely to tell you but when things stay the same, I get angry. The more I get angry, the more I have to get over the anger, the less I feel at all. I don’t want that to happen which is why I’m saying something now. I want to build our life together but I won’t unless I feel secure. That’s really what this all boils down to: I need security. I can deal with uncertainty as long as I know I’m secure with you. I need you to act like a man.
My condition going forward is couple’s therapy: it is a must for me now. I know we have already spoken about it and looked at a specific clinic, but I need you to know it’s not something you can get out of. We have to do this, for both of our sakes. I love you. If you love me, you’ll at least try to understand. Please commit to this. If you want me to stay, commit to this. }
Thanks for reading! Hopefully I'll here from some of you soon.

We’ve had a rocky 3 years, dealing with undiagnosed and untreated mental health issues, in and out of court for anything and everything, she’s a very good victim, cps involvement, flips and tearing down of everyone around us mentally and emotionally, mudslinging to our child, you name it, but through all of it, my exwbpd had always fought to have a relationship with my child (m9), fought for parenting time, and even recently, attempted to pretend to be friends again (no thanks).
Over the past year my sons step father moved out of state, his mother very quickly latched onto and was knocked up by a new relationship, less than 4 months later step dad moved back in with his mother and they’re other two children. So there’s a new guy around often due to the pregnancy, and former step dad is still in the picture as well. They filed for bankruptcy last year after attempting to sell their house and move down south with out first clearing it with the court system here (because we have 50/50). Her plan was to attempt to steamroll through court with baseless accusations about abuse and neglect and when that didn’t work became a sad victim that has no support system where we live, and both her and husband are unable to keep employment (can’t imagine why).
That all concludes and then she hit my son in the face hard enough to leave marks. Not knowing what to do or how to approach it I notified cps and kept him away from her until a judge determined something was going on and she needed help. Several months of supervised visits later we got back to 50/50 and things seemed okay.
Until we found out her husband had left her, and she was yet again pregnant from her new supply. She dropped him off here with out explanation sometime after the holidays, refused to communicate about what happened or what was going on, so I only got my sons side which was a detailed account of her saying things like “if you loved me you would do xyz… go stay with your dad since you like him better… you’re no longer welcome at my house…” all of which was very damaging emotionally to him. I filed a motion to modify parenting time and she told foc that he asked her to come to my house so she dropped him off. They didn’t ask any further questions or listen or look at the 2 years of history leading up to that. So nothing happened, we moved on.
Over the past month, she’s started to discard our son. He’s older now and not as easily manipulated. My wife and I have a very stable household, nothing fancy, but very routine, creatures of habit, and well versed in helping my son with processing emotions, naming emotions, navigating his adhd, navigating his trauma from his mother, keeping the school life steady and under control. It started with him having a breakdown at her house and her throwing in the towel and sending him back here which had never happened before. We came to an agreement that during the school week he’d remain here for stability and she talked him out of having more time with her. He’s seen her maybe 6 hours total since the end of March, and 4 of those hours were driving to and from therapy and in therapy for an hour session each time. Yesterday he reached out to get some things from her house, she agreed but then began berating him in the 3 minutes they spent alone together.
Tomorrow is another scheduled therapy visit, and this weekend is Mother’s Day, which is supposed to be a full weekend visit.
My lawyer has all ready told me there’s not much to be done at the moment except wait things out. The challenging part is trying to assure my son that everything’s going to be okay, while he’s being rejected by his mother, who’s spent most of his life love bombing him and manipulating him. Picked him up early from school today because he had a breakdown while working on Mother’s Day gifts in class, which triggered him into feeling unwanted and unloved.
Looking for any advice whether legal or even just as additional support I can offer him. We go to therapy every week, he has a school counselor and therapist as well for when things get hard at school. My wife and I are constantly picking up the pieces for him, how much more does my boy need to take before she can complete the discard and we can focus on building him back up with out her?
TLDR exwbpd is discarding our 9yo son, how can I better help him cope with this loss, and is there anything legally my lawyer is missing that could help remove her from him faster (Michigan).

Im 16 and my first relationship lasted almost a whole year, I broke up with him right before our anniversary and regretted it almost immediately, we talked about it a week later and decided neither of us thought it was a good idea to get back together after a day or two, mostly due to everyone around us telling us not to. I know its stupid because I was the one who broke up with him and because im only 16 and "have my whole life ahead of me!" but It really feels like I lost my soulmate. My freinds all think hes stupid and silly and embarassing but I really loved him. I loved everything about him, I never felt a connection with anyone like that before. I always feel like the odd one out, like everyone secretly dislikes me and is just waiting to leave. He didnt make me feel that way though, he made me feel like it was ok to be me, stupid and all, I really loved that, He just understood me so well. Like everyone tells these horror storys of there first dates and first kisses but my first date was with him and we walked miles from our town to my house just talking, then we climbed onto the school by my houses roof to watch the sunset, finishing the night by watching the mandalorian because I hadnt seen it before and I just HAD to watch it. our second date was me literally going skiing with his whole family, I got introduced to not just his family but all there family freinds on litterally the second fucking date, he made me feel so special from the start, like we just clicked and that was it, it was meant to be. Our first kiss was after snuggling, I kissed him on the cheek and then he looked at me and pecked me on the lips, we both giggled and continued snuggling while listening to music happily. Like how much more perfect can it fucking get. We dated through a failed freind group, my dogs and uncles death, He literally took my first everything. I had liked like one or two people before him and they were crushes that nothing ever happened with, He was my boyfriend though and it felt so perfect for so long. I put my everything into him and now I feel so lost. I cant get back with him though and I understand that but it just hurts so much. He was depressed and no matter how hard I tried I couldn't fix that, I couldn't live with being cut off from the few friend's I had. It hurt to much not being aloud to hang out with friends without him getting angry. I couldn't handle him getting angry when I couldn't read his mind when he was upset, like I should just know what to do. The day I broke up with him he threw a bagel at me because He "didnt want" my "fucking bagel" even though I was just trying to give him food because he said he didnt eat and was hungry. I just didnt know what else to fucking do because my mental health was getting to a point where it was suffering just being with him, I felt so alone while being with him. I tried to tell him to get therapy but he wouldnt, I tried to get him to journal, he wouldnt. He wouldnt ever listen to my input it felt like and it was making me so tired. He put the blame of so much on me and it just brought me to a point where I couldnt handle it anymore. So I broke up with him. I dont regret breaking up with him, because I know why i did it, there were a lot of just red flags in the relationship. but Its so hard to not think about all the good in the relationship too, like i loved him so much, I wanted it to work so badly, there was so much good. He helped me in so many ways, I thought i helped him too but clearly I didnt. Now that its been like two months I thought Id be fine and ready to move on and be myself again, but I still think about him so much. like I know its not true but i have a guilt now that I possibly lost my one soulmate or something just because I couldn't understand what he was going through and how to fix it for him. I feel fine around my friends but as soon as im alone I just cry, at school I just sleep through my classes. I genuinly think im depressed but I cant talk to my parents about it because I told my mom I was feeling better for some reason and thats not true at all, if anything im feeling worse and worse by the day. I feel so dumb letting myself fall in love with someone, then letting this person emotionally abuse me to a point where Im broken without them. like I know its stupid but i dont feel like a singular person anymore, his favorite color is now mine, the bands he showed me are my favorite, I dress like him and catch myself doing gestures and talking like him. I feel like I lost myself to love, like Im just not me anymore. I put so much time into this one person that I lost the parts of my identity that used to mean so much to me, like playing guitar for example, Ive played since 2nd grade thats 8 years- 7 years from when we started dating, tell me why i have not picked up and played my guitar genuinly in a year just because it took too much time to learn a song. I chose to spend all my time talking to him, rather then practicing the hobbies that made me happy and me. I just cant get myself to do it anymore, any of it I just dont have these interests anymore no matter how hard I try, I pick up a guitar and nothing comes out of my hands, like some muscle memory is still there but the passion is just gone, its like a second fucking heartbreak because it was such a big part of me for so long. I just dont feel like me. everything just genuinely feels just so shitty on a daily basis at this point I don't know what to do. I don't know how to move on, how to be happy. I dont even have friend's to talk to about this because none of them have dated anyone that long before, none of them have ever even gotten to the point of saying I love you. None of them have experienced depression or anything like that, I cant relate to any of them and I dont want to seem weird and depressed talking to them about this sort of thing.

WASHINGTON (AP) -- President Joe Biden said Wednesday that he would not supply offensive weapons that Israel could use to launch an all-out assault on Rafah -- the last major Hamas stronghold in Gaza -- over concern for the well-being of the more than 1 million civilians sheltering there.
Biden, in an interview with CNN, said the U.S. was still committed to Israel's defense and would supply Iron Dome rocket interceptors and other defensive arms, but that if Israel goes into Rafah, "we're not going to supply the weapons and artillery shells used."
The U.S. has historically provided enormous amounts of military aid to Israel. That has only accelerated in the aftermath of Hamas' Oct. 7 attack that killed some 1,200 in Israel and led to about 250 being taken captive by militants. Biden's comments and his decision last week to pause a shipment of heavy bombs to Israel are the most striking manifestations of the growing daylight between his administration and Israel Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu's government. Biden said Wednesday that Israel's actions around Rafah had "not yet" crossed his red lines, but has repeated that Israel needs to do far more to protect the lives of civilians in Gaza.
The shipment was supposed to consist of 1,800 2,000-pound (900-kilogram) bombs and 1,700 500-pound (225-kilogram) bombs, according to a senior U.S. administration official who spoke on the condition of anonymity to discuss the sensitive matter. The focus of U.S. concern was the larger explosives and how they could be used in a dense urban area.
"Civilians have been killed in Gaza as a consequence of those bombs and other ways in which they go after population centers," Biden told CNN. "I made it clear that if they go into Rafah -- they haven't gone in Rafah yet -- if they go into Rafah, I'm not supplying the weapons that have been used historically to deal with Rafah, to deal with the cities, that deal with that problem."
"We're not walking away from Israel's security," Biden continued. "We're walking away from Israel's ability to wage war in those areas."
Defense Secretary Lloyd Austin earlier Wednesday confirmed the weapons delay, telling the Senate Appropriations Subcommittee on Defense that the U.S. paused "one shipment of high payload munitions."
"We're going to continue to do what's necessary to ensure that Israel has the means to defend itself," Austin said. "But that said, we are currently reviewing some near-term security assistance shipments in the context of unfolding events in Rafah."
It also comes as the Biden administration is due to deliver a first-of-its-kind formal verdict this week on whether the airstrikes on Gaza and restrictions on delivery of aid have violated international and U.S. laws designed to spare civilians from the worst horrors of war. A decision against Israel would further add to pressure on Biden to curb the flow of weapons and money to Israel's military.
Biden signed off on the pause in an order conveyed last week to the Pentagon, according to U.S. officials who were not authorized to comment on the matter. The White House National Security Council sought to keep the decision out of the public eye for several days until it had a better understanding of the scope of Israel's intensified military operations in Rafah and until Biden could deliver a long-planned speech on Tuesday to mark Holocaust Remembrance Day.
Biden's administration in April began reviewing future transfers of military assistance as Netanyahu's government appeared to move closer toward an invasion of Rafah, despite months of opposition from the White House. The official said the decision to pause the shipment was made last week and no final decision had been made yet on whether to proceed with the shipment at a later date.
U.S. officials had declined for days to comment on the halted transfer, word of which came as Biden on Tuesday described U.S. support for Israel as "ironclad, even when we disagree."
Israel's ambassador to the United Nations, Gilad Erdan, in an interview with Israeli Channel 12 TV news, said the decision to pause the shipment was "a very disappointing decision, even frustrating." He suggested the move stemmed from political pressure on Biden from Congress, the U.S. campus protests and the upcoming election.
The decision also drew a sharp rebuke from House Speaker Mike Johnson and Senate Republican Leader Mitch McConnell, who said they only learned about the military aid holdup from press reports, despite assurances from the Biden administration that no such pauses were in the works. The Republicans called on Biden in a letter to swiftly end the blockage, saying it "risks emboldening Israel's enemies," and to brief lawmakers on the nature of the policy reviews.
Biden has faced pressure from some on the left -- and condemnation from the critics on the right who say Biden has moderated his support for an essential Mideast ally.
"If we stop weapons necessary to destroy the enemies of the state of Israel at a time of great peril, we will pay a price," said Sen. Lindsey Graham, R-S.C., his voice rising in anger during an exchange with Austin. "This is obscene. It is absurd. Give Israel what they need to fight the war they can't afford to lose."
Independent Sen. Bernie Sanders of Vermont, a Biden ally, said in a statement the pause on big bombs must be a "first step."
"Our leverage is clear," Sanders said. "Over the years, the United States has provided tens of billions of dollars in military aid to Israel. We can no longer be complicit in Netanyahu's horrific war against the Palestinian people."
Austin, meanwhile, told lawmakers that "it's about having the right kinds of weapons for the task at hand."
"A small diameter bomb, which is a precision weapon, that's very useful in a dense, built-up environment," he said, "but maybe not so much a 2,000-pound bomb that could create a lot of collateral damage." He said the U.S. wants to see Israel do "more precise" operations.
Israeli troops on Tuesday seized control of Gaza's vital Rafah border crossing in what the White House described as a limited operation that stopped short of the full-on Israeli invasion of the city that Biden has repeatedly warned against, most recently in a Monday call with Netanyahu.
Israel has ordered the evacuation of 100,000 Palestinians from the city. Israeli forces have also carried out what it describes as "targeted strikes" on the eastern part of Rafah and captured the Rafah crossing, a critical conduit for the flow of humanitarian aid along the Gaza-Egypt border.
Privately, concern has mounted inside the White House about what's unfolding in Rafah, but publicly administration officials have stressed that they did not think the operations had defied Biden's warnings against a widescale operation in the city.
The State Department is separately considering whether to approve the continued transfer of Joint Direct Attack Munition kits, which place precision guidance systems onto bombs, to Israel, but the review didn't pertain to imminent shipments.
Itamar Yaar, former deputy head of Israel's National Security Council said the U.S. move is largely symbolic, but a sign of trouble and could become more of a problem if it is sustained.
"It's not some kind of American embargo on American munitions support, but I think its some kind of diplomatic message to Mr. Netanyahu that he needs to take into consideration American interests more than he has over the last few months," he said. "At least for now it will not impact Israeli capability but it's some kind of a signal, a `be careful."'
The U.S. dropped the 2,000-pound bomb sparingly in its long war against the Islamic State militant group. Israel, by contrast, has used the bomb frequently in the seven-month Gaza war. Experts say the use of the weapon, in part, has helped drive the enormous Palestinian casualty count that the Hamas-run health ministry puts at more than 34,000 dead, though it doesn't distinguish between militants and civilians.
The U.S.-Israel relationship has been close through both Democratic and Republican administrations. But there have been other moments of deep tension since Israel's founding in which U.S. leaders have threatened to hold up aid in an attempt to sway Israeli leadership.
President Dwight Eisenhower pressured Israel with the threat of sanctions into withdrawing from the Sinai in 1957 amid the Suez Crisis. Ronald Reagan delayed the delivery of F16 fighter jets to Israel at a time of escalating violence in the Middle East. President George H.W. Bush held up $10 billion in loan guarantees to force the cessation of Israeli settlement activity in the occupied territories.
https://www.cp24.com/news/biden-says-u-s-won-t-supply-weapons-for-israel-to-attack-rafah-in-warning-to-ally-1.6879220

I (22f) have reached a point where I just don’t know how to proceed with my life and get myself the help I need.
I feel completely frozen, hopeless and worthless. I am so depressed and anxious everyday and on a small scale I have always felt this way since I was a child. However, I have always been able to “fake it till I make it” and these feelings weren’t as intense until about 1.5 years ago where it felt like all of a sudden I lost the ability to mask my true condition and feel like I’ve spiralled ever since. I have been suicidal and come close to attempting twice but have come to the conclusion that it’s not an option for me as I cannot do that to my sisters no matter how much I don’t want to be here.
Up until a few months ago I was able to continue working but in February I quit my job (just admin/reception) as I couldn’t get through the days anymore and didn’t care if I was doing a bad job in my work. I quit with the intention of working as food delivery driver just to get by but embarrassingly haven’t even been capable of that. I just can’t find the will to do anything even though I know I need to do these things. Of course I’m also now very far behind on all bills and debt too and on the verge of having my car taken back because it’s currently leased. Yet I still don’t care, although I’m always anxious about these things I haven’t been able to do the things I need to do to fix it.
Most days now that I am unemployed consist of starting the day with horrid morning anxiety (body shakes, nausea/stomach pain & vomiting every morning for the past year), pacing around the house or laying in bed, scrolling on my phone and constantly spiralling inside my mind about my life and what’s wrong with it and dwelling on horrible memories from my teenhood (specifically relating to the physical, mental, emotional and verbal abuse my sisters (now 19, 13 & 12) and I suffered by our alcoholic mum, and while I wouldn’t say we experienced sexual abuse, there are definitely weird and inappropriate behaviours and things that happened that still make me uncomfortable to think about now). Now that I’m older, I have become aware to how much my dad neglected me and is still neglecting my sisters as I told him exactly what we were experiencing at the time and he chose to do nothing about it. All of this would be happening in my head simultaneously whilst I was trying to work and it became impossible for me to handle.
My feelings of sadness, betrayal and disappointment have morphed into silent rage that has only been perpetuated by me (and my partner of 5.5 years) moving back in with my Dad after 4 years living out of home due to our rental property being sold and us finding nowhere to live. He also wouldn’t allow us to keep our 2 dogs and 3 cats at his home even when I said I would keep them contained outside 100% of the time which I would never want to do, but he wouldn’t even allow that and I had to rehome them in January and my missing them has only gotten worse, there are five huge holes in my heart and the guilt of rehoming them is unbearable. I understand I have to respect his house rules (though we pay $350 per week to live here) but they were the only thing that made me happy and got me up in the morning, even though logically I know it’s not his fault, I feel like he took away the only things that helped me in a situation his actions drove me to be in. I know that I’m responsible for my actions now and for how I choose to act even with the things that have happened to me so this is what I mean by I don’t constantly blame him for the actions I make on a day to day basis but I cannot stop feeling like had he done more for me, I would be able to function better and be further ahead in life. I cannot get my mind out of this cycle and I know it’s unhelpful if I want to heal but it just won’t stop. I of course blame my mum just as much and more however her abuse was so black and white by the end of our relationship I have had time to accept it, I guess?
Unfortunately my two youngest sisters are still in this situation with my mum (the 12 year old is planning to live with our dad full time but is working up the courage to ask) and his words for doing nothing and having done nothing before is “fear of being the “bad guy” when we grow up and blame him from taking us away from our mum”. This is bullshit. He is an immature boy in a man’s body who had too many children and does not want the responsibility of having them. He has always maintained that having children ruined his life even though he loves us. He’s never there when times are tough, only for the good times because he doesn’t know how to handle it. We cannot depend on him emotionally ever. He never does anything except the bare minimum and nowadays it’s not even that. His attention and affection is reserved only for our step mum, his friends and his business. I have always stepped up in place of my parents to look after my sisters and will continue to do so forever, but I have pleaded with him so many times to do something drastic so they don’t end up like me and my sister (19). I have filed CPS reports myself and with previous psychologists present and there’s actually been a couple of times where I’ve been hopeful of change, one time recently my mum threatened suicide with a physical knife in front of my sister (12) and she called me to which I immediately picked all my sisters up and told my dad they would be living with him or me but definitely not our mum. To my genuine shock he actually drove and met me there too and agreed. There was a massive conversation with all my sisters and my Dad, stepmum and partner where he stated that they would not be allowed back living with her until a court/CPS/psychologist could prove it was safe for them to return and my mum had gotten the help she needed. He said he would organise supervised visits only if they asked but they chose not to see her. This is something I had been asking him to do for years and I was so relieved when this happened, it felt like a pivotal moment for all of us.
However this only lasted a couple months and my two youngest sisters went back after one of them (13) had a fight with me, rebelled and went back to mums without asking dad. The fight was unimportant, resolved quickly and we were as close as usual soon after, the real point being my dad just let this happen and so everything in that conversation was just proven to be for show as he didn’t stick to anything he said and hasn’t given a shit since, he doesn’t even pretend to care anymore. My sister (12) recently opened up to him about mental health issues, she’s told me she doesn’t care if she dies and doesn’t want to live past childhood as an adult, she asked our grandparents to stay with them for a bit as she secretly doesn’t like my dad either but my dad wouldn’t allow it and asked her to write down a list of her issues, to which she didn’t because she feels like he never helps regardless and he’s never asked her anything about it since. I am constantly in two minds that on one hand it’s not and has never been my responsibility to look after them and I shouldn’t put that pressure on myself now however the reality is they are in the same situation I was in and it’s only going to get worse as they get older and I cannot sit by and watch this happen all over again. The only thing that helps is I think it might be different for them as they have always had me in their corner and my sister (19) and I have always ensured they know it’s never their fault, but we were all alone when it happened to us and we actually had all the adults in our lives telling us we needed to look after our parents.
I also have a horrendous self image and self worth. I don’t see any good in myself, I truly believe I am secretly a horrible person deserving of nothing. Most of which can be credited to my mum (who I completely cut contact with almost 5 years ago now). I don’t know who I am, I don’t know what I like, I feel like I’m acting all of the time even when I’m alone and I’m petrified of being perceived. I never feel at peace, like I’m waiting for something really bad to happen and whenever I have something good I don’t allow myself to enjoy it fully because I know it will be taken away from me eventually. My mind is never quiet and never has been, and it always feels like an elephant is standing on my chest. The extent of my self hatred is difficult for me to articulate but I really struggle with finding the will to do anything when I don’t think I’m worth anything. I have no life and I haven’t had a life for years, it kind of feels like those years of being in fight and protection mode have caught up with me and I’m just done and exhausted with everyone and everything.
I know that the first thing anyone would recommend is to go to my doctor, however I have been through this whole process of “starting my healing journey” as such with the doctors twice already and I always end up back where I’ve started, I have been to psychologists, tried medication and so I just have no hope that I will ever get better. I’m also stuck in this loop of guilt or shame that I don’t need/deserve the help because there are people who have experienced so much worse than I have but they still do what they need to to make ends meet etc. and why can’t I do the bare minimum. I’m also just terrified to be this honest with a doctor or psychologist, it doesn’t make sense because they’re professionals but I never tell just how bad it is because i’m afraid of being judged or disappointing them, especially if I’m not making progress. This is why talk therapy has never worked for me either because my fear of being perceived or judged is so strong. It also is just unhelpful in the way that anything they’ve said to me I have already thought of and had internal conversations about it with myself so it ends up feeling redundant. Honestly the only thing that has ever genuinely helped and provided peace for me is weed and now I overuse that too and feel guilty about it.
This was so so long I apologise and even if no one has advice it was good to get all that out as I’ve never written it all down before. If you do have any advice on what I should do next and how to move forward with my life I would appreciate it so much.
Thank you.

I recently moved and my mail was still being sent to my parents house. I was out of town on a business trip and when I came back and visited my parents I saw the jury summons letter and saw that it was for last week! I tried calling to explain but the office was closed. I’ll try calling again tomorrow but I just wanted to know how bad the damages will be? Will I go to jail? Pay a huge fine? Both? :(

If you’re looking to start or continue a career that makes a difference and helps people to live healthier lives, working at The Morpheus Clinic for Hypnosis could be right for you.
We’re a small but well-established practice in the wellness field, and we are growing. Currently we are looking for a client care and office assistant to support our practitioners in responsibilities such as:

• Being the first point of contact for new clients
• Consistent followup to maintain client relationships
• Diligent record-keeping for scheduling and payments
• Basic audio, video and content editing
• Posting regularly on social media, primarily YouTube
• Keeping the office clean and tidy
• Other office- or marketing-related tasks that might arise

All necessary training will be provided, as we are accustomed to developing entry-level talent. In a tiny company like ours, you will perform many roles: In one role, you will perform new client intakes and orientations. In another, you will help our practitioner(s) with routine tasks that help them to work more smoothly. In another, you’ll work independently to help the company build its online presence during slower periods. If you enjoy staying busy with a variety of tasks, you will perform well in this position.
The ideal candidate is:

• An excellent communicator
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• Comfortable learning new technology
• Familiar with mental health and wellness
• Able to work independently without supervision
• A reasonably proficient touch-typist
• Strong respect for evidence and principles

This position will be at least two days a week, including a Saturday shift, with up to four days available. You would have to commute to our location in downtown Toronto. We are offering a starting wage of $20 per hour.
Experience in health care, customer service or as an office/executive assistant is beneficial, but not necessary if you’re a quick learner. This would be a perfect job for a recent graduate who’s looking for meaningful, rewarding work and who wants to find a company to grow with long-term at the same time that we are rebuilding our practice post-pandemic.
To apply for the position, please send your resume along with either a thoughtful cover letter or e-mail that helps us understand why you’re a good fit for the role, to [luke@morpheusclinic.com](mailto:luke@morpheusclinic.com) (addressed to Luke). Because we’re looking for a good thinker and communicator, not necessarily a candidate with experience in the field, your written message will count just as much as your resume.
Thank you, and good luck!