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2024.05.20 09:52 One-Water3767 Pantheon Riven
I could be wrong but I think riven may end up being one of the easier bosses in -20 pantheon as far as damage goes. Most pantheon wipes for decent teams aren’t from people dying, it’s from not doing enough damage to 2 phase. Riven has millions less hp than every other boss besides atraks and we’re going to be able to deal more damage to her than any other boss. We’re going to have taken spec, from whence you came and transcendence blessing on top of surges and class warfare. Then there’s also heart of the flame and revitalizing blast. Just seems like we’ll be able to take her down fairly easily as far as damage goes.
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2024.05.20 09:41 ThrownAwayAgain05 Maybe.
What’s the saddest story ever written? Well I don’t know. You probably don’t know either. Nobody really does. Everyone has a story. I realized I was a bit more self centered a while ago when someone said something smart that they didn’t even realize was smart in the moment. Driving in the middle of the highway a huge traffic jam on the way somewhere I don’t even remember. They said something along the lines of if you look around every single other person in each one of these cars has their own life, their own story, family, pets, kids. Infinitely different experiences from one another.
People like to believe in a higher power. Some don’t. Personally I’ve seen and heard things that probably sound to crazy other than be made up stories to most people but they are real for me. The things that have caused me to live this long. My whole life I’ve gotten the “short end of the stick” as the phrase goes. Well the real saying for me should be that there was never a piece of the stick for me to hold onto in the first place. The only reason the world forces me to stay alive is to keep me suffering. From the very beginning starting even before my birth I caused suffering for people to even allow for my existence. Just for me to every step of the way from being born cause more problems. Make more people suffer. And if I try to help people I cause infinitely more mental strain for myself and often fail others. Almost as if something is physically attacking my mind. Even now while I type this I feel the same unnatural headache like I’m burning up from fever. Like my body is trying to fend off an illness that isn’t there. The headache started long ago when I was in First Grade of elementary school and has never went away since. Always been there lingering waiting for something.
Now begs the question of if it’s all in my own head. Everything is my fault, right? Everything is always my fault. I am the thing that brings everything negative to this world. I am what is in the way of everyone else’s dream. I am always the bad guy, right? Because everything is always my fault. Nothing isn’t my fault. Because everything is my fault. I am what’s wrong with the world. I must be what is wrong. I doubt any of what I’m saying even makes sense. I never even intended on posting here since I just cause extreme feelings of hopelessness and sadness for others. I went to a therapist once and they said “I’ve never seen anything like this before” isn’t that a great sign. Part of me really wants to tell my whole story but it’d fall on deaf ears and blind eyes anyway. Because my story is meaningless compared to everyone else’s. I just live the same horrible days over and over again. All in my head, right? All in my head, right. Sure, it’s all in my head.
I should’ve died over a year ago now and trust me, I know I should have died because I was the one who was making sure that it was the day. And for some reason I am still here. For some reason I didn’t do it. Maybe it’s morbid curiosity to see what awful things happen next. Maybe it’s to get the things I’ve been promised for forever now. Maybe it’s only to suffer for all of eternity locked away in a prison of my own making. Maybe that’s what the world thinks I deserve. I don’t know what I did but I guess it must have been terribly wrong if I’ve had to live like this. And I have a feeling this isn’t the end. The world will force me to suffer and starve at rock bottom. The infinite void downwards into nothing but more negativity. Every day since has only been worse so the fact I’ve made it this far is probably what could be considered a miracle for the world that enjoys my suffering. Maybe I’m just crazy. Maybe.
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People like to believe in a higher power. Some don’t. Personally I’ve seen and heard things that probably sound to crazy other than be made up stories to most people but they are real for me. The things that have caused me to live this long. My whole life I’ve gotten the “short end of the stick” as the phrase goes. Well the real saying for me should be that there was never a piece of the stick for me to hold onto in the first place. The only reason the world forces me to stay alive is to keep me suffering. From the very beginning starting even before my birth I caused suffering for people to even allow for my existence. Just for me to every step of the way from being born cause more problems. Make more people suffer. And if I try to help people I cause infinitely more mental strain for myself and often fail others. Almost as if something is physically attacking my mind. Even now while I type this I feel the same unnatural headache like I’m burning up from fever. Like my body is trying to fend off an illness that isn’t there. The headache started long ago when I was in First Grade of elementary school and has never went away since. Always been there lingering waiting for something.
Now begs the question of if it’s all in my own head. Everything is my fault, right? Everything is always my fault. I am the thing that brings everything negative to this world. I am what is in the way of everyone else’s dream. I am always the bad guy, right? Because everything is always my fault. Nothing isn’t my fault. Because everything is my fault. I am what’s wrong with the world. I must be what is wrong. I doubt any of what I’m saying even makes sense. I never even intended on posting here since I just cause extreme feelings of hopelessness and sadness for others. I went to a therapist once and they said “I’ve never seen anything like this before” isn’t that a great sign. Part of me really wants to tell my whole story but it’d fall on deaf ears and blind eyes anyway. Because my story is meaningless compared to everyone else’s. I just live the same horrible days over and over again. All in my head, right? All in my head, right. Sure, it’s all in my head.
I should’ve died over a year ago now and trust me, I know I should have died because I was the one who was making sure that it was the day. And for some reason I am still here. For some reason I didn’t do it. Maybe it’s morbid curiosity to see what awful things happen next. Maybe it’s to get the things I’ve been promised for forever now. Maybe it’s only to suffer for all of eternity locked away in a prison of my own making. Maybe that’s what the world thinks I deserve. I don’t know what I did but I guess it must have been terribly wrong if I’ve had to live like this. And I have a feeling this isn’t the end. The world will force me to suffer and starve at rock bottom. The infinite void downwards into nothing but more negativity. Every day since has only been worse so the fact I’ve made it this far is probably what could be considered a miracle for the world that enjoys my suffering. Maybe I’m just crazy. Maybe.
2024.05.20 09:41 Moist-Associate-6558 Endless Ocean Head Canons (potential spoilers)
What’s the craziest/your favorite head canon to come out of any of the games just for fun? One from Zorak (?) on YouTube says that in the first one, Kat has been air dropping the animals that appear on the Gabbiano (explains how stuff like polar bears and walruses show up). I never questioned this because I was a dumb kid who was just excited to see an emperor penguin on the deck.
My own head canon is that in Luminous, most of humanity is wiped out, and the apocalypse devastated the land so badly that the only place anything can live is under the sea, but the apocalypse disrupted it, although it didn’t completely devastate it. That’s why the Veiled Sea is so weird, and the World Coral is dying (I haven’t finished the story though), although I’m not sure if the Veiled Sea is different from the story sea. You, Daniel, and the people from HQ are the few survivors. The light on the fish is basically radiation from the apocalypse, and it’s your job to clean it up (that’s why the dive suit doesn’t look like normal scuba gear) while also collecting remnants from the Oannes civilization and what was left of humanity (salvaging).
Also I’m p sure the NPC’s (and Nancy) in Blue World don’t sleep and can teleport on their jet skis. How else do they instantly show up to some remote island in bum fuck nowhere, South Pacific at your beck and call, no matter the hour? Also I think the team secretly uses mail albatrosses. How else are they getting these requests (they’re shown to be through mail, not email or text or Discord or whatever), and how else is Jean Eric sending out your photos to magazines? Then again they do have internet on that island.
All of this probably makes no sense, or someone might have thought of this already, but I just felt like looking way too deeply into a game series that at its core is swimming and looking at fish.
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My own head canon is that in Luminous, most of humanity is wiped out, and the apocalypse devastated the land so badly that the only place anything can live is under the sea, but the apocalypse disrupted it, although it didn’t completely devastate it. That’s why the Veiled Sea is so weird, and the World Coral is dying (I haven’t finished the story though), although I’m not sure if the Veiled Sea is different from the story sea. You, Daniel, and the people from HQ are the few survivors. The light on the fish is basically radiation from the apocalypse, and it’s your job to clean it up (that’s why the dive suit doesn’t look like normal scuba gear) while also collecting remnants from the Oannes civilization and what was left of humanity (salvaging).
Also I’m p sure the NPC’s (and Nancy) in Blue World don’t sleep and can teleport on their jet skis. How else do they instantly show up to some remote island in bum fuck nowhere, South Pacific at your beck and call, no matter the hour? Also I think the team secretly uses mail albatrosses. How else are they getting these requests (they’re shown to be through mail, not email or text or Discord or whatever), and how else is Jean Eric sending out your photos to magazines? Then again they do have internet on that island.
All of this probably makes no sense, or someone might have thought of this already, but I just felt like looking way too deeply into a game series that at its core is swimming and looking at fish.
2024.05.20 09:38 Glass-Toe-9957 am i the asshole my sister strangled me 2 times and smashed things at me for no reason, while my mom and dad reward her for it
so my family is toxic and even my dad calls us the circus, basically it all started when i was 12 years old when my mom was mentally ill because my twin died at 3 moths and she got depression, anxiety then my sister went ill for no reason at all completely out off the blue it was a HUGE shock to all of us she was fine and normal one day well as normal as 16 year old could be anyway im rambling so she got autism, anxiety, depression, schizophrenia and so at 12 and her at 16 it smashed and ripped apart our family anyway im now 18, to say the least my childhood was traumatic and i got depression and anxiety because of it all which made me hate myself so much that i wanted to kill myself at 14 and would cry myself to sleep every night, cut myself and tried to kill myself 5 times.
Right so fast forward 3 years after a miserable and living hell of a life jasmine came home after being put in a hospital because we couldn't keep her safe or anyone around her, she would smash things try to run away in the night by going in the road, saying she was going to Japan on a motorbike with sue which we don't have or know either, she though my mum and dad were witches and were burned at the stake, and we are terribly people who deserve that also would attack people and have hallucination's and hear DEMONS in her head.
I was 16 and one Moring it was a nice day until i went to walk into the kitchen and then for no reason at all im always nice to a fault, a recovery people pleaser so she grab m by the throat and slammed me against the wall while choking me any longer and i would of passed out and after that scary event i was in tears and terrified to live in the same house, do you know what my dad said after seeing his daughter STRANGLE his other daughter at 16 and 20 he said "what did you do chloe you must have done something" that's it not omg god are you ok do you know it wasn't the fact my sister strangled me that my dad thought i was the villain that i did something that resulted in me deserving of being strangled like WHAT.
so the point is she's smashed things at me, destroyed my things, assaulted me 5 times, sworn at me, digged at me my whole life, cut me with glass by throwing it at me. That to a point i was going to kill myself because of it so why cant my mum and dad see how nasty and cruel their daughter is she has done all the things to them as well i get its their daughter but what do you do i mean when someone is affecting and hurting your child like they always put her above their other children and do you know whats hurts ive told them how i feel but they just said don't be so stupid and silly.
they just push it under the rug and it just gotten worse over my childhood year until now i am18 but it hurts i know they would pick her every time even her nickname is princess and my dad acts like a maid and says yes to everything while i get no also we cant go no where anytime because she's not not safe alone for second so all my childhood ive gone no where and had no safety love or care, and because of it all was so traumatic my brain blocked all my memories out except for the bad ones so it like ptsd but i dont have it anyway what im saying is my mom even said im going to have to look after and my brother when there gone like what i know she's my siter but i spent all my childhood looking her and my mom and now my dads a acholic and my brother who we haven't seen in 10 years comes round a year ago because he was on the streets and that made everything 10x worse because my parents nearly got a divorce because of him. he did nothing but sleep and watch tv for 2 years then only because it tore open then wound we stitched up from everything we had to kick him out into his new place like i get it but then he thinks after abanding us he can just come back and boss us about nearly made a divorce. right so what i mean is am i forever going to be sad and tied to my family with chains because when i finally get to a place where i don't want to kill myself which took 2 years they drag me back into their web and i cant leave so am i the asshole sorry for the rant so like people have offered a nice safe place called a residential for her or the hospital she even said herself that "i hate it here and your a disgusting mother" then continued by smashing things at our parents and smacking my dad on his hand for no reason just woke up got out of bed came down and did that because she had a nightmare
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Right so fast forward 3 years after a miserable and living hell of a life jasmine came home after being put in a hospital because we couldn't keep her safe or anyone around her, she would smash things try to run away in the night by going in the road, saying she was going to Japan on a motorbike with sue which we don't have or know either, she though my mum and dad were witches and were burned at the stake, and we are terribly people who deserve that also would attack people and have hallucination's and hear DEMONS in her head.
I was 16 and one Moring it was a nice day until i went to walk into the kitchen and then for no reason at all im always nice to a fault, a recovery people pleaser so she grab m by the throat and slammed me against the wall while choking me any longer and i would of passed out and after that scary event i was in tears and terrified to live in the same house, do you know what my dad said after seeing his daughter STRANGLE his other daughter at 16 and 20 he said "what did you do chloe you must have done something" that's it not omg god are you ok do you know it wasn't the fact my sister strangled me that my dad thought i was the villain that i did something that resulted in me deserving of being strangled like WHAT.
so the point is she's smashed things at me, destroyed my things, assaulted me 5 times, sworn at me, digged at me my whole life, cut me with glass by throwing it at me. That to a point i was going to kill myself because of it so why cant my mum and dad see how nasty and cruel their daughter is she has done all the things to them as well i get its their daughter but what do you do i mean when someone is affecting and hurting your child like they always put her above their other children and do you know whats hurts ive told them how i feel but they just said don't be so stupid and silly.
they just push it under the rug and it just gotten worse over my childhood year until now i am18 but it hurts i know they would pick her every time even her nickname is princess and my dad acts like a maid and says yes to everything while i get no also we cant go no where anytime because she's not not safe alone for second so all my childhood ive gone no where and had no safety love or care, and because of it all was so traumatic my brain blocked all my memories out except for the bad ones so it like ptsd but i dont have it anyway what im saying is my mom even said im going to have to look after and my brother when there gone like what i know she's my siter but i spent all my childhood looking her and my mom and now my dads a acholic and my brother who we haven't seen in 10 years comes round a year ago because he was on the streets and that made everything 10x worse because my parents nearly got a divorce because of him. he did nothing but sleep and watch tv for 2 years then only because it tore open then wound we stitched up from everything we had to kick him out into his new place like i get it but then he thinks after abanding us he can just come back and boss us about nearly made a divorce. right so what i mean is am i forever going to be sad and tied to my family with chains because when i finally get to a place where i don't want to kill myself which took 2 years they drag me back into their web and i cant leave so am i the asshole sorry for the rant so like people have offered a nice safe place called a residential for her or the hospital she even said herself that "i hate it here and your a disgusting mother" then continued by smashing things at our parents and smacking my dad on his hand for no reason just woke up got out of bed came down and did that because she had a nightmare
2024.05.20 09:28 Greatshine000 My mental health is deuterating....
Long story short, I was laid off from my job in March. Ever since then I've been applying to tons of jobs and although I've had a few interviews, none of the jobs can sustain my living. I'm getting to a point where I'm feeling incredibly hopeless: I wake up not wanting to be here anymore, I drink every other day, and I can't get the help I need (I drank today).
Since I don't have a job I don't have health insurance, and buying it off the market is really expensive. In 2 weeks I'm going to have to tell my landlord I'm not renewing the lease and move back in with my mom. Going back to my mothers home, dishonorable as a loser and a failure. Losing my sanctuary, losing my privacy, losing my home, all because I'm worthless and nobody wants to hire me. My gf has to deal with my mood swings and suicidal ideations. I never take my anger out on her verbally (or physically) but I know my current state hurts her. She doesn't want to see me like this. Yesterday we went out to eat because she's been craving a burger from a diner. She knows I love to eat, but I barely touched my food. More than likely I sucked the enjoyment out of the day from her. I'm also drowning in credit card debt, every month I go $2000 over my limit. However, that's the least of my worries. If I die, I don't have to pay it back and I don't have dependents.
Last week I called my old college to inquire about their masters accounting program. They said I could finish in a year or 2 and sit for my CPA. However, that's an EXTREMELY hard exam, that requires a lot of preparation. How can I do that and work? What if I don't pass it and still can't get a shitty accounting job? What then? The idea of going back to school leaves me skeptical because I don't trust the value it brings. Too many people have shitty lives, therefore I don't trust it.
I'm 34, but I feel like my life is over. I feel like its too late. How could I make so many meaningless decisions? Why am I here at 34? I really hate myself. I wake up hopeless, mad at God for not stopping my heart in my sleep. I don't want another day, please give it to someone else.
Idk, what else to say but this is where i'm at...
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Since I don't have a job I don't have health insurance, and buying it off the market is really expensive. In 2 weeks I'm going to have to tell my landlord I'm not renewing the lease and move back in with my mom. Going back to my mothers home, dishonorable as a loser and a failure. Losing my sanctuary, losing my privacy, losing my home, all because I'm worthless and nobody wants to hire me. My gf has to deal with my mood swings and suicidal ideations. I never take my anger out on her verbally (or physically) but I know my current state hurts her. She doesn't want to see me like this. Yesterday we went out to eat because she's been craving a burger from a diner. She knows I love to eat, but I barely touched my food. More than likely I sucked the enjoyment out of the day from her. I'm also drowning in credit card debt, every month I go $2000 over my limit. However, that's the least of my worries. If I die, I don't have to pay it back and I don't have dependents.
Last week I called my old college to inquire about their masters accounting program. They said I could finish in a year or 2 and sit for my CPA. However, that's an EXTREMELY hard exam, that requires a lot of preparation. How can I do that and work? What if I don't pass it and still can't get a shitty accounting job? What then? The idea of going back to school leaves me skeptical because I don't trust the value it brings. Too many people have shitty lives, therefore I don't trust it.
I'm 34, but I feel like my life is over. I feel like its too late. How could I make so many meaningless decisions? Why am I here at 34? I really hate myself. I wake up hopeless, mad at God for not stopping my heart in my sleep. I don't want another day, please give it to someone else.
Idk, what else to say but this is where i'm at...
2024.05.20 09:28 popcultureSp00nie22 Thoughts on Season 1 (Some semi spoilers)
I posted in television about Maxton Hall and was going to crosspost it here, but crossposts aren't allowed apparently, so instead I'm copy/pasting my thoughts/questions for everyone here:
(Semi spoilers to follow)
Percy is the MVP, followed maybe by Alistair. (Personally, I also have a soft spot for Kieran, but that might just be me...idk.) The cast is great across the board, though
I didn't love how Jamesnever apologized to Ruby for being absolutely awful to her in the first 2 episodes. He said some terrible things to her and literally tried to destroy her, including almost ruining her chances at Oxford and then just...never even acknowledged any of that and neither did she. I get that the point is that he was literally raised to behave/think that way, but part of his growth should've been to acknowledge that and genuinely apologize for it. It was particularly egregious/noticeable when he was at Ruby's house and told her that he wanted her to know that he doesn't treat people terribly like his father does, except that he literally treated her the exact same way and worse. I literally said that out loud to the screen after he said that, because it was just like...really?! I also didn't love that she had to be the one to apologize first. I get why it worked that way in the world of the show. But it still sucks.
I also didn't love thatthey went full Ezria from PLL. Poor Lydia, she had the most insane 3 days at Oxford lol
I did appreciate how they handled consent in this show, particularly since a lot it was nonverbal.
Am I the only onewho got a vibe between Percy and James's mom for a split second before she died???!
Also, I guess James's dad took his mom's last name??! Unexpected, accidental feminism lmao
What did you guys think?
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(Semi spoilers to follow)
Percy is the MVP, followed maybe by Alistair. (Personally, I also have a soft spot for Kieran, but that might just be me...idk.) The cast is great across the board, though
I didn't love how Jamesnever apologized to Ruby for being absolutely awful to her in the first 2 episodes. He said some terrible things to her and literally tried to destroy her, including almost ruining her chances at Oxford and then just...never even acknowledged any of that and neither did she. I get that the point is that he was literally raised to behave/think that way, but part of his growth should've been to acknowledge that and genuinely apologize for it. It was particularly egregious/noticeable when he was at Ruby's house and told her that he wanted her to know that he doesn't treat people terribly like his father does, except that he literally treated her the exact same way and worse. I literally said that out loud to the screen after he said that, because it was just like...really?! I also didn't love that she had to be the one to apologize first. I get why it worked that way in the world of the show. But it still sucks.
I also didn't love thatthey went full Ezria from PLL. Poor Lydia, she had the most insane 3 days at Oxford lol
I did appreciate how they handled consent in this show, particularly since a lot it was nonverbal.
Am I the only onewho got a vibe between Percy and James's mom for a split second before she died???!
Also, I guess James's dad took his mom's last name??! Unexpected, accidental feminism lmao
What did you guys think?
2024.05.20 09:23 Short-Fudge-9060 My dad passed away after no contact for a decade
My dad and mom split up when i was a baby and i spent majority of my childhood thinking my moms boyfriend was my dad. I didnt meet my biological dad formally until i was 7-8.
People said he was my dad but i was confused because i already had a “dad” at home, i kinda just went with it but i had no idea who he really was until my grandma and him were driving me back home and i called my moms boyfriend “dad”. He was justifiably hurt but he pointed his anger at me and pushed me away further.
My grandma just wanted the best for me and allowed him around atleast a good dozen of times so we could have some type of relationship but every time would end up feeling like i was back home with my mom and her boyfriend. He would sob. Beg me to talk to him. To see him. To move in with him. I remember the pain in his eyes i cannot ever imagine putting a child through those emotions and every single time he isolated me to do that.
I barely knew him when he tried to convince me to move in the first time, he told me i could have my own room, my own dog, paint my walls, ect. It makes me sick to my stomach now looking back realizing how many times he has moved and lost his houses since then. What situations would i be put in if i was a little more desperate for a relationship with him?
Everytime i saw him he had a new girlfriend. The new girl he brought was always my “new mom” and whatever kids she brought with her were my “new siblings”.
The only somewhat good memory i have with him is when he brought me fishing in the late afternoon, we had fun and talked but if my memory is correct we ended up walking empty streets to find a bar but i dont remember going in because it was either well past alcohol time or they didnt allow child in that late.
But alas, he died this morning. He was found in his house alone wearing his favorite football jersey.
Yknow, i really didnt think i would feel much. I claimed i lost feelings for him to many people but i guess thinking about it, me checking occasionally if hes sent me another weird link or music video of facebook mightve meant something. Like that time i almost broke no contact because he sent me a photo of bbq on the grill.
But i have sobbed for a good amount of time today and nothing feels real. I was dancing on tables and fist pumping when my moms boyfriend died and i spent my whole life with him so i thought i had this day all figured out. Im scared to find out how he passed because i already have a feeling and i dont know how i would cope with that. The last time he sent me a link on facebook was Wednesday and it feels so weird.
If i could take one positive thing out of this, is that i can start visiting my grandma again without being in fear of seeing him. I can see my cousins and possibly build a relationship with their kids that i havent seen since they were babies. I dont blame my grandma for a single thing, she tried her best and kept him away as best as she could and she doesnt question my decision. She was my safe space away from my mom and boyfriends house and still takes care of me when i need help and ill always be grateful for her.
But thats about it, i have no idea where this is going to take me, just gonna go through the motions.
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People said he was my dad but i was confused because i already had a “dad” at home, i kinda just went with it but i had no idea who he really was until my grandma and him were driving me back home and i called my moms boyfriend “dad”. He was justifiably hurt but he pointed his anger at me and pushed me away further.
My grandma just wanted the best for me and allowed him around atleast a good dozen of times so we could have some type of relationship but every time would end up feeling like i was back home with my mom and her boyfriend. He would sob. Beg me to talk to him. To see him. To move in with him. I remember the pain in his eyes i cannot ever imagine putting a child through those emotions and every single time he isolated me to do that.
I barely knew him when he tried to convince me to move in the first time, he told me i could have my own room, my own dog, paint my walls, ect. It makes me sick to my stomach now looking back realizing how many times he has moved and lost his houses since then. What situations would i be put in if i was a little more desperate for a relationship with him?
Everytime i saw him he had a new girlfriend. The new girl he brought was always my “new mom” and whatever kids she brought with her were my “new siblings”.
The only somewhat good memory i have with him is when he brought me fishing in the late afternoon, we had fun and talked but if my memory is correct we ended up walking empty streets to find a bar but i dont remember going in because it was either well past alcohol time or they didnt allow child in that late.
But alas, he died this morning. He was found in his house alone wearing his favorite football jersey.
Yknow, i really didnt think i would feel much. I claimed i lost feelings for him to many people but i guess thinking about it, me checking occasionally if hes sent me another weird link or music video of facebook mightve meant something. Like that time i almost broke no contact because he sent me a photo of bbq on the grill.
But i have sobbed for a good amount of time today and nothing feels real. I was dancing on tables and fist pumping when my moms boyfriend died and i spent my whole life with him so i thought i had this day all figured out. Im scared to find out how he passed because i already have a feeling and i dont know how i would cope with that. The last time he sent me a link on facebook was Wednesday and it feels so weird.
If i could take one positive thing out of this, is that i can start visiting my grandma again without being in fear of seeing him. I can see my cousins and possibly build a relationship with their kids that i havent seen since they were babies. I dont blame my grandma for a single thing, she tried her best and kept him away as best as she could and she doesnt question my decision. She was my safe space away from my mom and boyfriends house and still takes care of me when i need help and ill always be grateful for her.
But thats about it, i have no idea where this is going to take me, just gonna go through the motions.
2024.05.20 09:20 Comfortable_Wash2966 I think I’m dying or having early onset dementia
I have been feeling very out of it for the last 3 years horrible wide variety of symptoms ever since having minimal surgery when I was 21m I’m starting to believe I have early onset dementia. Ever since waking up from surgery 3 years ago I just have not felt like myself I feel locked in the back of my mind I no longer feel connected to my surroundings or feel much excitement my body always feels weird like I’m stuck in my head I can’t feel my eyes or really focus them. My forehead feels tight, and my Neck always feels stiff and my muscle cramp up badly when working out a lot of the times in the same areas repeatedly I’m so out of it I drive in one lane of traffic the whole way to work because I feel so tired and have trouble looking straight with out my neck feeling stiff all the time. I’ve been to so many doctors had so many MRI,Blood test,CT, EEG, EMG. Been to 3 Neurologist and they have only found Hashimoto but normal thyroid levels so I feel like it doesn’t dismiss all my symptoms my mind just feel so so far gone I’ve heard of Derealization/Depersonalization but this seems to just be another beast I’ve kinda accepted death at this point. Since I don’t really know how I’m still alive I just been on autopilot the 3 years cause you know gotta keep going and what not. I’m wondering if I am insane or if I genuinely have some serve illness that’s hard to diagnosis. I know I’m very young but I’ve heard about people my age having early onset dementia so I just don’t think I’d be surprised if some how the doctor told me I had it. My symptoms and detachment from reality seems strong enough. I’ve been therpaist and pyschtriast to didn’t really help much. I’m unsure about what I should do I just been really pushing though it. I’m trying to get my family to a point where they can survive in the event that I am dying. None of them really know the extent of my symptoms and I have no intention of telling them even if I found out I am dying of horrible illness I’m just killing myself somewhere were they won’t find me since its better than leaving them with a ton of medical debt and being restraint to a bed or wheel chair I rather die than be a finical burden. I have my beneficiary in place. If it comes down to it. Honestly idk I’m just looking for any advice or reassurance since the doctors and “professionals” haven’t helped me with shit. Deep down I’m afraid I’m some level accepting but afraid the stress has been unimaginable.
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2024.05.20 09:18 Comfortable_Wash2966 I think I’m dying or having early onset dementia
I have been feeling very out of it for the last 3 years horrible wide variety of symptoms ever since having minimal surgery when I was 21m I’m starting to believe I have early onset dementia. Ever since waking up from surgery 3 years ago I just have not felt like myself I feel locked in the back of my mind I no longer feel connected to my surroundings or feel much excitement my body always feels weird like I’m stuck in my head I can’t feel my eyes or really focus them. My forehead feels tight, and my Neck always feels stiff and my muscle cramp up badly when working out a lot of the times in the same areas repeatedly I’m so out of it I drive in one lane of traffic the whole way to work because I feel so tired and have trouble looking straight with out my neck feeling stiff all the time. I’ve been to so many doctors had so many MRI,Blood test,CT, EEG, EMG. Been to 3 Neurologist and they have only found Hashimoto but normal thyroid levels so I feel like it doesn’t dismiss all my symptoms my mind just feel so so far gone I’ve heard of Derealization/Depersonalization but this seems to just be another beast I’ve kinda accepted death at this point. Since I don’t really know how I’m still alive I just been on autopilot the 3 years cause you know gotta keep going and what not. I’m wondering if I am insane or if I genuinely have some serve illness that’s hard to diagnosis. I know I’m very young but I’ve heard about people my age having early onset dementia so I just don’t think I’d be surprised if some how the doctor told me I had it. My symptoms and detachment from reality seems strong enough. I’ve been therpaist and pyschtriast to didn’t really help much. I’m unsure about what I should do I just been really pushing though it. I’m trying to get my family to a point where they can survive in the event that I am dying. None of them really know the extent of my symptoms and I have no intention of telling them even if I found out I am dying of horrible illness I’m just killing myself somewhere were they won’t find me since its better than leaving them with a ton of medical debt and being restraint to a bed or wheel chair I rather die than be a finical burden. I have my beneficiary in place. If it comes down to it. Honestly idk I’m just looking for any advice or reassurance since the doctors and “professionals” haven’t helped me with shit. Deep down I’m afraid I’m some level accepting but afraid the stress has been unimaginable.
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2024.05.20 09:18 ApatheticAussieApe So the reverse DFV Tweets... I tinfoil'd a thing.
Originally posted here
Spent like 2 hours huffing hopium-laden tinfoil on this. First couple sets of memes are just recounting the story of Jimmy from DFVs perspective.
Enjoy the foil. Gonna be a busy couple of weeks brother.
First set: ET is DFV leaving for the green planet. But he can't leave us behind so he comes back later. The rest is him lamenting having to leave, and people wanting him to come back, etc. And the talking, big big trouble if he talks POST SENATE ENQUIRY.
Second set: the Signs are the corruption. The two talking the wall Street criminals. Probably Citadel and some banks or some such, possibly relates to credit Suisse after Archegos imploded. Seeing the alien in the video is remnants of Overstock corruption, probably. The alien on the roof is our Big Brains spotting the crime happening here and now, back in 2021.
All the stuff about hanging with DFV is talking about us going to the green planet with him. If we hodl we can go too, but can we? Are we ever gonna survive? We have to be a bit crazy to pull this off.
Part 3. Goosebumps is RC showing up, bear beware, because RC is a fucking beast and you're gonna shit your naked shorts. The Kansas City shuffle and such is in relation to the interim between Jan21 and the Senate Enquiry. Probably the February $40 fuckery and March megadrop. Shawshank is DFV escaping the Senate Enquiry without prison time, but to do so he had to disappear without a trace for a while.
The Alice in Wonderland and Matrix stuff isn't us. That's DFV. That's him learning the markets corruption. That's DFV learning about DRS.
The Truman show and the bits just before are in relation to the amount of pressure they tried to apply to DFV in that time. To make him shut up, to disappear. "We can't kill him live on air", like a Boeing whistle-blower. And the crowd cheering for DFV in the bar and the bath, etc, that's us.
Part 4. SHUT UP BITCH. Yeah these are 100% meant to be played backwards. George was desperate to use the insult and couldn't, as opposed to regretting he used it if these were meant to be played forwards.
DFV talking about how we were supposed to be looking at his Twitter and using that instead of UU-SB/reddit, which was/is controlled. We're the freaks Timmy's talking about with his trumpet. The freaks who'll go through with it, because DFV can't do it alone.
Where have you been? Waiting. For this. This is all part of "the plan". He's been waiting for NOW to return. OR he's referring to us figuring out to DRS, catching him and his hints on twitter. Depends on how the later video connect up to this bit.
Final yolo update, becoming a little bit of a celebrity. People talking about him constantly, etc etc. And then RC appearing, and he loves him. RC taking over, as Thor, and then the dick memes. Chefs kiss.
Part 5: the aftermath of DFVs deep fucking in value town. People harassing him, hounding him, intimidation and coercion. All the Wall Street standards. By day he's Keith. By night he's DFV (moon night). Keith is very vulnerable, but DFV is legendary and unstoppable. Chapelle is Keith getting sick and tired of people's shit, and letting Kitty keep it real for him.
This all seems to be leading up to a big fucking game cock options exercise, at this point imo.
The scene with the upside down GME Logo, is Keith accepting that he has to come back, saying goodbye to his family and such, and going back to being DFV. Becoming degenerate again. Even if it sends him to prison, he has to be moon knight again. (That's why the Braveheart clip).
Part 6...
DFV is Chigurr. The Hedge funds begged him to stay away. Answer the phone, hedgie. It's Marge. NOTE: HEDGIE DIED BEFORE HE COULD ANSWER THE MARGIN CALL.
Dunno what the next movies called. But he's the villain, the slasher, coming to kill bears. Mention of a second, shitty fake squeeze. The requel. Probably in reference to this past week hitting $80. Shitty. Nothingburger. A real squeeze is far more brutal. Then the staying with is friend. DFV, staying with us. He's not going anywhere this time. :)
The batman meme, is him saying they're scared, and every time the price drops to ~$10, hes going to load up on shares/options. Our dark avenger will be stepping on their nuts with his whale money.
The paperwork loophole isn't us. It's the shorts. They found a loophole this past week, as usual. As stupid as the shorts seem, THEYRE VERY GOOD AT PAPERWORK. LOOPHOLES.
School spirit. The regards dancing aren't us. It's the shorts. All working in unison, together, to survive. The bear doing flips at the end and shouting YEAH! Is them. Surviving one more day. Every day, they're dancing and choreographing the whole scene to survive.
The plan, Just Up. The fighting criminals. "I need your help". DFV saying he can't do it alone. We have to regard with him. We regard with him, he is Achilles, or perhaps RC is... anyways, his Pikey reaction is him saying he's back. The AJR is effectively saying were ready to carry out the plan... "Just Up".
No infighting. "Busy couple of weeks brother." Tells us we're just getting started. Pirates meme, DFV coming back with memes. Agent K pushing the little red button is whatever the catalyst is. Tell him I'm coming, (heheh), and we're going with him, and then we ride at dawn.
Ride. At. Fucking. DAWN BITCHES!
Part 7: Shorts in a mexican standoff, Thor, God of Thunder, blows them all up before they ever get a chance to be the first to close. The image around Thor is a diamond. Diamond hands. We blow up the shorts by being Diamond hands.
"You think you're the only hero in the world?" Aka, you're not alone. There's A LOT of people and organisations actively working against the shorts with us. They're just in secret because if they get caught, Shorts will assassinate them. The music overlay is from the ending of "The Shield" TV show. We are their shield. Retail, individual investors the world over, give the good guys a platform to fight back against the corruption. And we're all running together now.
When I say run, run. Next meme, listen baby, RUN FAST FOR YOUR MOTHER. We're already running. "The dog days are over, can you hear the horses, cause here they come". Leads back to "you tell em I'm coming! And I'm bring hell with me!"
The drift. An off ramp. Then drive. We've taken a detour. And while we're here, prepare for battle, one day you'll understand. And then we pick up DFV, if the money's right ;) or perhaps it's sone other rich bastards, like John Cena?
Very next meme, green men in a world of red. GME eating the stock market. "On my challenge" "you move when I move". When GME moves, the market goes red. It's got nothing to do with DFV. That's all Jimmy baby.
The Overture. The opening to a performance. Ready Player One. We gotta go back, from 80, to 20, to go forwards. This was the Overture. This week gonna be busy brother.
GoT. The dragon, sleeping, wakes. China is a sleeping dragon. Either China crashing, Or ICAHN. Icahn closing, or Icahn going long. Or possibly copying Icahn and creating a holding company out of GME, to be revealed at earnings.
"You're still here? It's over!" The media FUD campaign after we squeeze to 1-10k and drop a bunch. "Were done when i say were done". Yeah nah, not stopping at 10k. Moon time.
Kitty awakes... to start the memes.
Not sure if DFV is saying he's Thanos, or if RC is Thanos. Either way, they've had enough of waiting. And there has most assuredly been some communication between the two.
Gonna be a busy couple of weeks brother.
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Spent like 2 hours huffing hopium-laden tinfoil on this. First couple sets of memes are just recounting the story of Jimmy from DFVs perspective.
Enjoy the foil. Gonna be a busy couple of weeks brother.
First set: ET is DFV leaving for the green planet. But he can't leave us behind so he comes back later. The rest is him lamenting having to leave, and people wanting him to come back, etc. And the talking, big big trouble if he talks POST SENATE ENQUIRY.
Second set: the Signs are the corruption. The two talking the wall Street criminals. Probably Citadel and some banks or some such, possibly relates to credit Suisse after Archegos imploded. Seeing the alien in the video is remnants of Overstock corruption, probably. The alien on the roof is our Big Brains spotting the crime happening here and now, back in 2021.
All the stuff about hanging with DFV is talking about us going to the green planet with him. If we hodl we can go too, but can we? Are we ever gonna survive? We have to be a bit crazy to pull this off.
Part 3. Goosebumps is RC showing up, bear beware, because RC is a fucking beast and you're gonna shit your naked shorts. The Kansas City shuffle and such is in relation to the interim between Jan21 and the Senate Enquiry. Probably the February $40 fuckery and March megadrop. Shawshank is DFV escaping the Senate Enquiry without prison time, but to do so he had to disappear without a trace for a while.
The Alice in Wonderland and Matrix stuff isn't us. That's DFV. That's him learning the markets corruption. That's DFV learning about DRS.
The Truman show and the bits just before are in relation to the amount of pressure they tried to apply to DFV in that time. To make him shut up, to disappear. "We can't kill him live on air", like a Boeing whistle-blower. And the crowd cheering for DFV in the bar and the bath, etc, that's us.
Part 4. SHUT UP BITCH. Yeah these are 100% meant to be played backwards. George was desperate to use the insult and couldn't, as opposed to regretting he used it if these were meant to be played forwards.
DFV talking about how we were supposed to be looking at his Twitter and using that instead of UU-SB/reddit, which was/is controlled. We're the freaks Timmy's talking about with his trumpet. The freaks who'll go through with it, because DFV can't do it alone.
Where have you been? Waiting. For this. This is all part of "the plan". He's been waiting for NOW to return. OR he's referring to us figuring out to DRS, catching him and his hints on twitter. Depends on how the later video connect up to this bit.
Final yolo update, becoming a little bit of a celebrity. People talking about him constantly, etc etc. And then RC appearing, and he loves him. RC taking over, as Thor, and then the dick memes. Chefs kiss.
Part 5: the aftermath of DFVs deep fucking in value town. People harassing him, hounding him, intimidation and coercion. All the Wall Street standards. By day he's Keith. By night he's DFV (moon night). Keith is very vulnerable, but DFV is legendary and unstoppable. Chapelle is Keith getting sick and tired of people's shit, and letting Kitty keep it real for him.
This all seems to be leading up to a big fucking game cock options exercise, at this point imo.
The scene with the upside down GME Logo, is Keith accepting that he has to come back, saying goodbye to his family and such, and going back to being DFV. Becoming degenerate again. Even if it sends him to prison, he has to be moon knight again. (That's why the Braveheart clip).
Part 6...
DFV is Chigurr. The Hedge funds begged him to stay away. Answer the phone, hedgie. It's Marge. NOTE: HEDGIE DIED BEFORE HE COULD ANSWER THE MARGIN CALL.
Dunno what the next movies called. But he's the villain, the slasher, coming to kill bears. Mention of a second, shitty fake squeeze. The requel. Probably in reference to this past week hitting $80. Shitty. Nothingburger. A real squeeze is far more brutal. Then the staying with is friend. DFV, staying with us. He's not going anywhere this time. :)
The batman meme, is him saying they're scared, and every time the price drops to ~$10, hes going to load up on shares/options. Our dark avenger will be stepping on their nuts with his whale money.
The paperwork loophole isn't us. It's the shorts. They found a loophole this past week, as usual. As stupid as the shorts seem, THEYRE VERY GOOD AT PAPERWORK. LOOPHOLES.
School spirit. The regards dancing aren't us. It's the shorts. All working in unison, together, to survive. The bear doing flips at the end and shouting YEAH! Is them. Surviving one more day. Every day, they're dancing and choreographing the whole scene to survive.
The plan, Just Up. The fighting criminals. "I need your help". DFV saying he can't do it alone. We have to regard with him. We regard with him, he is Achilles, or perhaps RC is... anyways, his Pikey reaction is him saying he's back. The AJR is effectively saying were ready to carry out the plan... "Just Up".
No infighting. "Busy couple of weeks brother." Tells us we're just getting started. Pirates meme, DFV coming back with memes. Agent K pushing the little red button is whatever the catalyst is. Tell him I'm coming, (heheh), and we're going with him, and then we ride at dawn.
Ride. At. Fucking. DAWN BITCHES!
Part 7: Shorts in a mexican standoff, Thor, God of Thunder, blows them all up before they ever get a chance to be the first to close. The image around Thor is a diamond. Diamond hands. We blow up the shorts by being Diamond hands.
"You think you're the only hero in the world?" Aka, you're not alone. There's A LOT of people and organisations actively working against the shorts with us. They're just in secret because if they get caught, Shorts will assassinate them. The music overlay is from the ending of "The Shield" TV show. We are their shield. Retail, individual investors the world over, give the good guys a platform to fight back against the corruption. And we're all running together now.
When I say run, run. Next meme, listen baby, RUN FAST FOR YOUR MOTHER. We're already running. "The dog days are over, can you hear the horses, cause here they come". Leads back to "you tell em I'm coming! And I'm bring hell with me!"
The drift. An off ramp. Then drive. We've taken a detour. And while we're here, prepare for battle, one day you'll understand. And then we pick up DFV, if the money's right ;) or perhaps it's sone other rich bastards, like John Cena?
Very next meme, green men in a world of red. GME eating the stock market. "On my challenge" "you move when I move". When GME moves, the market goes red. It's got nothing to do with DFV. That's all Jimmy baby.
The Overture. The opening to a performance. Ready Player One. We gotta go back, from 80, to 20, to go forwards. This was the Overture. This week gonna be busy brother.
GoT. The dragon, sleeping, wakes. China is a sleeping dragon. Either China crashing, Or ICAHN. Icahn closing, or Icahn going long. Or possibly copying Icahn and creating a holding company out of GME, to be revealed at earnings.
"You're still here? It's over!" The media FUD campaign after we squeeze to 1-10k and drop a bunch. "Were done when i say were done". Yeah nah, not stopping at 10k. Moon time.
Kitty awakes... to start the memes.
Not sure if DFV is saying he's Thanos, or if RC is Thanos. Either way, they've had enough of waiting. And there has most assuredly been some communication between the two.
Gonna be a busy couple of weeks brother.
2024.05.20 09:17 RTafuri I've always been a control freak. I lost control of my life 6 years ago and can't anymore
I think I'll start with some facts. I (36M) live in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil. English is my second language and it's how I made a living from 19 to 30. I got married (now 32M) when I was 28, but we started living together when I was 25.
I don't wish to put blame on anyone, not even myself. I went to this Catholic school that tried to dry away all creativity and passion I had burning inside and, out of it, all I could do was become a teacher the next year. I am really good at teaching in all aspects. I am loving yet demanding. My students always reach high level grades and certificates and we try to have a blast. I absolutely hate teaching. It was meant to be a 6-month-tops kind of gig that's been going on for 17 years this September.
I don't really know people. I've always been an introvert who lacks social skills (maybe that's why I hate teaching so much, it forces me to be social. Some days I dread even opening up my mouth to speak, but I have to go teach). I suck at networking.
I'm pretty sure I'm autistic, but I can't seem to find the path to get diagnosed. I'm pretty much broke. Financially, mentally, spiritually...
In 2018, I got fired 5 days before Christmas and I spiraled. I had always hated teaching and decided to take a year off and then start something else. I'm a freelance graphic designer, but since I know no one, I get no jobs. In January 2020, my husband and I started a small personalised mug business. It was going quite well, because I could come up with interesting stuff to put on the mugs. But then we were hit by the pandemic.
Late 2022, my mother used my English school knowledge to open a branch of her own. Many mistakes on all sides were made and we're barely open today. I am constantly battling the will to make the business work at any cost and the desperate need to never set foot there again.
It's important noting I live above my mom's house. We're Brazilian, family sticks together. If it weren't for that, maybe I'd be dead by now.
My part of the house doesn't really work. I have no power on the outlets, but wires coming from the house below. I have no fridge or stove, so I depend on mom's house to feed myself.
I'm constantly hungry with little access to food. I eat once a day. Ever since I was a baby, I always consumed a lot of food. I try to eat as healthy as possible. I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't do any drugs, I don't drink sodas or anything sparkly and I avoid fried food at all costs (I fail at that part a little).
Last November, the stress of the school drove my husband out. He had also become unemployed whe our little business failed and he worked a full year for free at rhe school and got some pretty nasty abuse from my mother. She says she doesn't do anything and likes him very much. I'm tired of always being in the middle.
I do have this... How can I say it?... "peacemaker" nature? I'm always the one mediating everyone around me, but it feels like it's my fate to be loved and surrounded by people who can't stand one another. It's tiring.
I've always liked to collect stuff. Coinciding with getting fired and everything going haywire, I found some used CDs shops and the little money I've been managing to make always sees a part of it going towards my music collection. I am proud of it, but today I am able to recognise it's an obsession. I have almost 1600 CDs in the age of streaming and I probably haven't played half of them.
I understand my collection is me holding on to the one thing I'm still somehow able to control, which means I am aware I'm bound to keep myself dedicated to it for a little while longer.
My husband and I got back together in the end of February, just in time for my birthday. It was a happy one, until I almost died from a bronchitis attack. And I mean it. The only picture of that day is of me wearing a nebuliser mask.
He's trying to avoid moving back in and I absolutely understand. But we don't make enough money to live anywhere else with our 2 elderly dogs (we've had them since they were pups, we're keeping them). He hasn't really had a place to live since April because of some issues regarding his brother (no fights with him, hubby just got the worst end of someone else's fight) and I'm trying to convince him that, as much as we both want to leave this house, it's still a roof that belongs to us and it's better than the mental damage it causes to not have a place to call home.
My mind has been this never-ending chaos and I can't seem to see a way out. The worst part is that I already spent 2 ½ years of my life in starvation and deep depression and you get used to the pain. I sometimes feel like giving it all up and refusing to ever leave my house again, especially when I consider that I got used to it. I was so bad during the pandemic that, apart from losing my new business, I didn't see it. Social isolation was already my normal.
Everything I do, I do the best I can. That's the only way I know how to be. That's why I'm a great teacher despite hating the profession so much. If I'm going to do it, I'm doing it right. And it breaks me most of the time. I do love my students, though.
It's a constant battle and I'm exhausted. I just want a way out.
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I don't wish to put blame on anyone, not even myself. I went to this Catholic school that tried to dry away all creativity and passion I had burning inside and, out of it, all I could do was become a teacher the next year. I am really good at teaching in all aspects. I am loving yet demanding. My students always reach high level grades and certificates and we try to have a blast. I absolutely hate teaching. It was meant to be a 6-month-tops kind of gig that's been going on for 17 years this September.
I don't really know people. I've always been an introvert who lacks social skills (maybe that's why I hate teaching so much, it forces me to be social. Some days I dread even opening up my mouth to speak, but I have to go teach). I suck at networking.
I'm pretty sure I'm autistic, but I can't seem to find the path to get diagnosed. I'm pretty much broke. Financially, mentally, spiritually...
In 2018, I got fired 5 days before Christmas and I spiraled. I had always hated teaching and decided to take a year off and then start something else. I'm a freelance graphic designer, but since I know no one, I get no jobs. In January 2020, my husband and I started a small personalised mug business. It was going quite well, because I could come up with interesting stuff to put on the mugs. But then we were hit by the pandemic.
Late 2022, my mother used my English school knowledge to open a branch of her own. Many mistakes on all sides were made and we're barely open today. I am constantly battling the will to make the business work at any cost and the desperate need to never set foot there again.
It's important noting I live above my mom's house. We're Brazilian, family sticks together. If it weren't for that, maybe I'd be dead by now.
My part of the house doesn't really work. I have no power on the outlets, but wires coming from the house below. I have no fridge or stove, so I depend on mom's house to feed myself.
I'm constantly hungry with little access to food. I eat once a day. Ever since I was a baby, I always consumed a lot of food. I try to eat as healthy as possible. I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't do any drugs, I don't drink sodas or anything sparkly and I avoid fried food at all costs (I fail at that part a little).
Last November, the stress of the school drove my husband out. He had also become unemployed whe our little business failed and he worked a full year for free at rhe school and got some pretty nasty abuse from my mother. She says she doesn't do anything and likes him very much. I'm tired of always being in the middle.
I do have this... How can I say it?... "peacemaker" nature? I'm always the one mediating everyone around me, but it feels like it's my fate to be loved and surrounded by people who can't stand one another. It's tiring.
I've always liked to collect stuff. Coinciding with getting fired and everything going haywire, I found some used CDs shops and the little money I've been managing to make always sees a part of it going towards my music collection. I am proud of it, but today I am able to recognise it's an obsession. I have almost 1600 CDs in the age of streaming and I probably haven't played half of them.
I understand my collection is me holding on to the one thing I'm still somehow able to control, which means I am aware I'm bound to keep myself dedicated to it for a little while longer.
My husband and I got back together in the end of February, just in time for my birthday. It was a happy one, until I almost died from a bronchitis attack. And I mean it. The only picture of that day is of me wearing a nebuliser mask.
He's trying to avoid moving back in and I absolutely understand. But we don't make enough money to live anywhere else with our 2 elderly dogs (we've had them since they were pups, we're keeping them). He hasn't really had a place to live since April because of some issues regarding his brother (no fights with him, hubby just got the worst end of someone else's fight) and I'm trying to convince him that, as much as we both want to leave this house, it's still a roof that belongs to us and it's better than the mental damage it causes to not have a place to call home.
My mind has been this never-ending chaos and I can't seem to see a way out. The worst part is that I already spent 2 ½ years of my life in starvation and deep depression and you get used to the pain. I sometimes feel like giving it all up and refusing to ever leave my house again, especially when I consider that I got used to it. I was so bad during the pandemic that, apart from losing my new business, I didn't see it. Social isolation was already my normal.
Everything I do, I do the best I can. That's the only way I know how to be. That's why I'm a great teacher despite hating the profession so much. If I'm going to do it, I'm doing it right. And it breaks me most of the time. I do love my students, though.
It's a constant battle and I'm exhausted. I just want a way out.
2024.05.20 09:08 sillybillygirl22 Hate living life
Before him, I was simply waiting to meet him. I would walk around 2 hours away from where I was living in the downtown area of the city I live in just hoping a man would come up to me and ask me out. Finally, after 2 years of aimless walking and attention seeking, he found me.
3 years later and a broken nose, multiple multiple assaults and lots of psychological and mental damage, I just wish to die.
I don’t want to have fun anymore. I don’t enjoy being around people. I don’t want to hangout with friends. I don’t want to be here anymore.
Getting out of bed is tiring and I dread it. I find it hard to smile, and when I do it’s completely forced.
I have my highs , and days I don’t think about dying, but I always come down and end up feeling miserable again. This is my normal.
The pain I feel day to day makes me cry. I don’t want to help myself even. I have no reason to get better.
I was molested as a child. There was incest in my family. I told him all of this, and he still chose to hurt me more. I gave everything and when I say everything, I mean it, to him.
It’s been 4 months no contact and I still don’t hate him. I don’t know how people move on from this and have regular lives again. I can’t comprehend what has happened to me.
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3 years later and a broken nose, multiple multiple assaults and lots of psychological and mental damage, I just wish to die.
I don’t want to have fun anymore. I don’t enjoy being around people. I don’t want to hangout with friends. I don’t want to be here anymore.
Getting out of bed is tiring and I dread it. I find it hard to smile, and when I do it’s completely forced.
I have my highs , and days I don’t think about dying, but I always come down and end up feeling miserable again. This is my normal.
The pain I feel day to day makes me cry. I don’t want to help myself even. I have no reason to get better.
I was molested as a child. There was incest in my family. I told him all of this, and he still chose to hurt me more. I gave everything and when I say everything, I mean it, to him.
It’s been 4 months no contact and I still don’t hate him. I don’t know how people move on from this and have regular lives again. I can’t comprehend what has happened to me.
2024.05.20 09:08 jenajiejing The Life Without Marriage
Xuefeng
Once one gets married and forms a family, he or she will be plunged in a life of misery. He or she will lose the fundamental freedom of being a man, not to mention the chance of attaining immortality or Buddhahood.Anyone with a family is selfish. They cannot help being selfish, because they are controlled, encumbered, and dominated by the programme of family.
How much pressure a person must bear if he or she does not get married and form a family? The pressure of parents, the persuasion of relatives and friends, the care of neighbors and colleagues, the criticism from the society all bear down on our spirit and soul like huge mountains. The physiological demand, the desire for a home, the worry for illness and death, and the difficulty to relieve loneliness all make us desire instinctively to get married and form a family.
If the above problems are not resolved, we will feel pain and suffering all the same, and we may even have greater pain and suffering if we do not get married and form a family, because getting married and forming a family is a matter of course and as easy as sailing downstream, while not getting married and forming a family is as difficult as sailing upstream. The problem is that sailing downstream leads to no other than pain and suffering, which history of mankind has proved to be unavoidable. Then we have no choice but to sail upstream.
Let's discuss and resolve these problems one by one.
First, the pressure of parents. We should be filial to our parents, but we cannot give in to our parents in the matter of life and LIFE. We know about the road taken by our ancestors all too clearly, it is a road of misery, which we should not repeat. If our parents force us to get married and form family, we must raise some conditions to them: 1. Ask our parents to tell us the significance and value of life, 2.ask our parents to tell us the nature and meaning of LIFE, 3, ask our parents to provide good housing conditions, 4. ask our parents to guarantee our happiness all our life. If our parents cannot meet these conditions, then we can tell them in definite terms that we can not get married and form a family.
As for the persuasion of relatives, friends, neighbors and colleagues, we can also respond with the above four conditions. Or we can simply respond with one question: can you help me through if I encounter plight and pain after getting married and forming a family? Please give me a written pledge. As for the criticism from the society, we can just ignore it. If pigs say something is wrong with man's life, then just let them squabble.
How can we solve the problem of physiological need? "The need for food and beauty is our inherent character. The need for sexual life is but a matter of course, otherwise the Greatest Creator would not have designed those organs and senses for us. A life without sex would be one with abnormal spirit and psychology. We will not only have sex, but also have sex of high quality and happiness. Why don't we? Only a fool would not have sex.
Without marriage, with whom do we have sex? It is impossible to do this with chicken and ducks. Contracting disease is only a small matter when compared with the loneliness and solitude of spirit and soul that can't be relieved even after the acts. One can not afford it economically, and no one would care for your living, old age, illness and death.
Can we find someone randomly to live with us? This may temporarily meet our urgent need, but does not provide long-term solution. What is worse is that we have to bear a lot of liabilities. We may commit irremediable mistakes and cause a series of chain reactions, and suffering and mystery may be endless.
My advice is to become Chanyuan celestials and have the sex life with Chanyuan celestials. On the condition that you don't go against the ethics, you can make love with whichever Chanyuan celestial you want to be with, as long as the two of you are willing to do so. You can choose the way that you like. Because we have the same belief, we share the same frequency and resonance, we are a whole, we have the same life values, we are not bound together, we don't hurt each other, we are willing to pay everything for each other, including life.
Here is the trouble!
Once people, especially our relatives, friend, neighbors, and colleagues, know that we are Chanyuan celestials and are so casual and free, we will be drowned by condemnation, insult, revile, and grief, and we will be the helpless lambs surrounded by packs of wolves, torn, bitten, trampled, and swallowed. And this will be the price we have to pay for the pursuit of freedom.
However, “one would rather die than lose the freedom". Without freedom, what do we live for? You live a life, but for whom do you live?
Therefore, to get freedom, one must be prepared to remold himself thoroughly, and to be reviled by the so-called gentlemen, “kind-hearted people", moralists, and defenders of traditional moral principles. One must be prepared to completely break with the secular world. In one word, one be prepared to die. When I am writing these heretical remarks, when I say that the god preached by the Bible is not the real god, when I reprimand family, religion, political party, and state, I have been prepared to die anytime. I have said that every day might be my last day. However, I can speak the truth for myself, I am satisfied with my magnanimity and openness. Even if I am dead now, I have no regret, because I have lived a real life.
2024.05.20 08:55 popcultureSp00nie22 Maxton Hall (Prime) Is Your New Teen Soap
Ok, let's be honest: Is it a groundbreaking show? No. Is it even groundbreaking for a teen show? No. And the subs/dubs definitely don't always do the writing any favors.
But the cast is top notch--the two leads in particular are quite good, with incredible chemistry (think The Notebook levels of angst/chemistry), and the rest of the cast is great--and the show is absolutely gorgeous (minus a few weird lighting choices in the first couple of episodes).
To be clear, Maxton Hall is definitely a soap, and definitely a teen one at that. And while it has some depth, if you're looking for something closer to real life for most people, or any sort of character study or something, this is not your show. But if you want a fun time with a strong cast and some crazy chemistry, this is your show.
FYI, since I, as an ignorant American, went in only knowing that this was a German show and was confused by this for a bit: This is a German tv show. The actors are German, they speak German in the show, it was partially filmed in Germany, but the show itself is set in England and the *characters* are English.
FYI #2, for any English speakers who have already seen the show and are curious about the book series that it is based on: The original book series is in German and has not been officially translated into English (as of now). Allegedly, there are copies of English translations of the book(s?) floating around on the internet/Reddit, but I haven't seen them and have no idea how accurate these alleged translations are.
Semi Spoilers to Follow
Percy is the MVP, followed maybe by Alistair. (Personally, I also have a soft spot for Kieran, but that might just be me...idk.)
I didn't love how James never apologized to Ruby for being absolutely awful to her in the first 2 episodes. He said some terrible things to her and literally tried to destroy her, including almost ruining her chances at Oxford and then just...never even acknowledged any of that and neither did she. I get that the point is that he was literally raised to behave/think that way, but part of his growth should've been to acknowledge that and genuinely apologize for it. It was particularly egregious/noticeable when he was at Ruby's house and told her that he wanted her to know that he doesn't treat people terribly like his father does, except that he literally treated her the exact same way and worse. I literally said that out loud to the screen after he said that, because it was just like...really?! I also didn't love that she had to be the one to apologize first. I get why it worked that way in the world of the show. But it still sucks.
I also didn't love that they went full Ezria from PLL. Poor Lydia, she had the most insane 3 days at Oxford lol
I did appreciate how they handled consent in this show, particularly since a lot it was nonverbal.
Am I the only one who got a vibe between Percy and James's mom for a split second before she died???!
Also, I guess James's dad took his mom's last name??! Unexpected, accidental feminism lmao
Did you guys watch? What did you think?
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But the cast is top notch--the two leads in particular are quite good, with incredible chemistry (think The Notebook levels of angst/chemistry), and the rest of the cast is great--and the show is absolutely gorgeous (minus a few weird lighting choices in the first couple of episodes).
To be clear, Maxton Hall is definitely a soap, and definitely a teen one at that. And while it has some depth, if you're looking for something closer to real life for most people, or any sort of character study or something, this is not your show. But if you want a fun time with a strong cast and some crazy chemistry, this is your show.
FYI, since I, as an ignorant American, went in only knowing that this was a German show and was confused by this for a bit: This is a German tv show. The actors are German, they speak German in the show, it was partially filmed in Germany, but the show itself is set in England and the *characters* are English.
FYI #2, for any English speakers who have already seen the show and are curious about the book series that it is based on: The original book series is in German and has not been officially translated into English (as of now). Allegedly, there are copies of English translations of the book(s?) floating around on the internet/Reddit, but I haven't seen them and have no idea how accurate these alleged translations are.
Semi Spoilers to Follow
Percy is the MVP, followed maybe by Alistair. (Personally, I also have a soft spot for Kieran, but that might just be me...idk.)
I didn't love how James never apologized to Ruby for being absolutely awful to her in the first 2 episodes. He said some terrible things to her and literally tried to destroy her, including almost ruining her chances at Oxford and then just...never even acknowledged any of that and neither did she. I get that the point is that he was literally raised to behave/think that way, but part of his growth should've been to acknowledge that and genuinely apologize for it. It was particularly egregious/noticeable when he was at Ruby's house and told her that he wanted her to know that he doesn't treat people terribly like his father does, except that he literally treated her the exact same way and worse. I literally said that out loud to the screen after he said that, because it was just like...really?! I also didn't love that she had to be the one to apologize first. I get why it worked that way in the world of the show. But it still sucks.
I also didn't love that they went full Ezria from PLL. Poor Lydia, she had the most insane 3 days at Oxford lol
I did appreciate how they handled consent in this show, particularly since a lot it was nonverbal.
Am I the only one who got a vibe between Percy and James's mom for a split second before she died???!
Also, I guess James's dad took his mom's last name??! Unexpected, accidental feminism lmao
Did you guys watch? What did you think?
2024.05.20 08:54 Gross010 14 and disgusted at what I was at 13.
Because of this I’ve thought about dying. I don’t think I’d go through with it, I know my problems are probably dumb and less serious compared to others on here but I just have to get them out. My porn addiction sparked up at 12 and was regular at first until it spiraled. From hentai, to futa and gay porn, to incest, to rape-ish stuff to beastiality to roleplaying stuff like this to Shota. I would roleplay with people Shota pretending I was a woman that was 18+. The worst of which probably being the first time when I was introduced to the topic. I found someone who roleplayed the topic and was curious and we spoke and roleplayed. I played as an animator girl in her mid to late 20s that stayed inside a lot. He, despite not specifying his age was probably around 5-9 in said story. Also to mention in these stories said boy usually had an unreasonably large penis for their age. Like past knees. Thankfully he had to go before it went further. And I nagged to finish it for a few weeks which grosses me out. Also with the same guy he roleplayed as a damn little like baby sheep thing with a huge cock. We got to that part there and looking back I wanna throw up. I played with this stuff a few more times with teacher x student before stopping. I’m disgusted and I want to tell my family to get therapy, my mom and sister said they’d stick by me no matter what but the worse thing they’ve seen before is just regular porn at 11. I wanna tell my sister so she can help me get therapy and then tell my mom when I’m better completely.
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2024.05.20 08:53 FromPainandSorrow 22m If you are suffering and looking for an answer, please read
First and foremost, I am not a doctor and what I say should not be taken as a cure. Get an echo, get the heart monitor for a week or two, and make sure you have been cleared of anything that is actually wrong with your heart.
I know what you are feeling right now. It's scary and I get it. You feel as though you may drop dead at any moment and it's frightening. If you are anything like me, then it won't happen. For 4 years I've had that fear every day of my life. "This is it, I can feel it", would be the sentence I would think to myself every day, but here I am.
Wanna know the secret that got me to experience these things less? Where now I feel these maybe 1 or two times a WEEK, sometimes never?
Remember that you are not suffering alone and all the people here know what you are feeling, if not worse. So please, get treatment, get your echo, get your heart monitor for a couple of weeks, start medication if needed. If you are like me and they found absolutely nothing wrong with your heart then realize that your brain is your enemy, not your heart.
Stop laying in bed in fear of what will happen to you. Get up and start small if you need to, but START. Only then will true progress begin. Start like I did. Take a walk around the block every day! Then, go on a small hike, then go on a tougher one, do some exercises at home or at the gym, go on a short jog, then go for longer. Throughout that entire time you are doing things, meditate. Tell yourself to keep going and push forward.
Many of you are around my age. Many of you found this subreddit in hopes to find answers, so let me be the one to tell you that this is it.
I hope you found what you were looking for.
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I know what you are feeling right now. It's scary and I get it. You feel as though you may drop dead at any moment and it's frightening. If you are anything like me, then it won't happen. For 4 years I've had that fear every day of my life. "This is it, I can feel it", would be the sentence I would think to myself every day, but here I am.
Wanna know the secret that got me to experience these things less? Where now I feel these maybe 1 or two times a WEEK, sometimes never?
- Exercise: if you are able, please do some exercises for at least 20-1 hour every day. You have no idea how well this worked for me. I used to be afraid of doing cardio because I thought I'd have a heart attack or drop dead from the irregularity of my heartbeat, but it helped so much.
- Meditate: it feels stupid and I hated it too, but when I really started to think of nothing, I felt as though all my problems were gone and it was just me. Take 20 minutes if you can spare them. Just close your eyes and listen to the world around you as if you exist outside of your body.
- Diet- a huge trigger for me was food. I like to eat fast and eat a lot. I found that greasy, spicy, and acidic foods made them appear faster and worse. I started to control my rate of eating and the types of foods I ate. Now they are less bothersome and can now eat most things without worrying about the PVCs
- Sleep- I used to be horrible at sleep management. Would sleep at 3 or 4 in the morning and wake up at around 12 pm. An unhealthy sleep schedule will... And I mean WILL make them worse. After a while of trial and error, I now go to sleep at around midnight and wake up at 6 or 7 naturally. You need to sleep as that's when your body repairs and heals. Take some melatonin, it did wonders for me.
- Stop thinking about dying - death is a natural thing that happens and catches a lot of people by surprise. Some less deserving than others, but you have to get this in your head. As long as you are not terminally I'll, have a REAL heart condition that has been diagnosed BY a doctor, or are doing things actively that you know will hinder your health, you will live a long life. This is probably the part that I had the hardest time accepting. Every day of my life I felt that it was my last. However, I knew I wasn't ready. I couldn't let myself get brought down by this. I cursed the universe for making go through this even though I know I didn't deserve this. I asked "why this! Why did it have to be the organ that I need the most!", but even so, I pushed through every day as to not let my younger brothers nor my parents see their own son in a casket.
Remember that you are not suffering alone and all the people here know what you are feeling, if not worse. So please, get treatment, get your echo, get your heart monitor for a couple of weeks, start medication if needed. If you are like me and they found absolutely nothing wrong with your heart then realize that your brain is your enemy, not your heart.
Stop laying in bed in fear of what will happen to you. Get up and start small if you need to, but START. Only then will true progress begin. Start like I did. Take a walk around the block every day! Then, go on a small hike, then go on a tougher one, do some exercises at home or at the gym, go on a short jog, then go for longer. Throughout that entire time you are doing things, meditate. Tell yourself to keep going and push forward.
Many of you are around my age. Many of you found this subreddit in hopes to find answers, so let me be the one to tell you that this is it.
I hope you found what you were looking for.
2024.05.20 08:51 ConsequenceSure3063 Best Cheap Fitted Hats
 | submitted by ConsequenceSure3063 to u/ConsequenceSure3063 [link] [comments] https://preview.redd.it/6g1785af3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=23eefa0d0f9b212ab668b6490d209ebf8d8df1e2 Welcome to our roundup of Cheap Fitted Hats! Are you in search of a stylish yet affordable hat to complete your look? Look no further! In this article, we'll uncover some of the best budget-friendly options available on the market, so you can make an informed decision without breaking the bank. Prepare to be amazed by the variety of designs and styles that await you. The Top 19 Best Cheap Fitted Hats
Reviews🔗New York Yankees Fitted Hat - Light Blue 59FIFTYhttps://preview.redd.it/wsq4ydfg3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=c792fd1dc50af15039700789897014ac29630338 I recently tried on the New York Yankees New Era Light Blue 59FIFTY Fitted Hat and was immediately drawn to its stylish design and comfortable fit. The embroidered logo on the front panels was a standout feature, giving the cap a bold, eye-catching look. The special patch on the side also added a unique touch to the overall design. The fitted construction ensured a snug and secure fit, perfect for both casual wear and sporting events. However, I did find that the hat seemed slightly tight at first, but it loosened up after a few wears. In summary, this cap provided great style and a comfortable fit, making it a solid choice for any New York Yankees fan. 🔗Affordable LA Dodgers Chrome 59FIFTY Fitted Hat for Style and Comforthttps://preview.redd.it/06f1wblg3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=a0012da794b6773cf89ba5948276772532b7dfab I recently tried on the Men's Los Angeles Dodgers Chrome 59FIFTY Fitted Hat from New Era for a product review and I must admit, it's a game-changer for my headwear collection. The structured construction and flat bill bring a street-ready style that just screams cool. The Los Angeles Dodgers graphics embroidered on the crown perfectly showcase my team loyalty without being too overpowering. One of the highlights of this hat is the softness of the material. It feels comfortable on my head, and doesn't irritate my skin like some other fitted hats. It's also lightweight, making it perfect for a sunny day or during those hot summer nights. However, there was one aspect that didn't seem to work as well. The size sticker on the brim had me struggling for a bit. I ended up removing it, but I had to be careful not to snag the fabric in the process. Another minor issue was that the hat was a bit tight, so I had to size up, which might not be ideal for everyone. Overall, I'm seriously impressed with this hat. It's well-made, stylish, and comfortable to wear. With my team's logo on the crown, I have a constant reminder of the Los Angeles Dodgers every time I wear this hat. It's definitely a conversation starter and I'm looking forward to sporting it with pride. 🔗New Era New York Yankees White Fitted Hat for Fan Stylehttps://preview.redd.it/0y3qarzg3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=d2606e23373ca5f9a172c74aff206be2bdcd0d8c Sporting a fresh and sleek look, the New Era Yankees 59FIFTY fitted hat in white is a perfect addition to any baseball fan's collection. The high crown and structured design give it a street-ready vibe, while the New York Yankees graphics in the same shade as the cap add a spirited touch. One of the best things about this hat is its versatility - it pairs wonderfully with the rest of my Yankees gear. However, while it's great for casual occasions, it's not the most durable and you have to be mindful when washing it, as it requires a gentle wipe down with a damp cloth. 🔗Stylish Budget Fitted Hat with Side Patch Designhttps://preview.redd.it/biqcqoch3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=3b45f2e243ddab18ce29f514cc14f078ea5a0ea5 As a fan of baseball and stylish accessories, I was excited to try the New Era 59FIFTY Side Patch Fitted Hat in Multi. Upon receiving the hat, I was immediately drawn to the vibrant colorway and sleek design. The hat truly stood out among my other baseball caps, and I felt confident sporting it at games and events. The hat's comfortable fit was another notable feature. I appreciated that it was adjustable, allowing me to customize the fit according to my preferences. The sun protection provided by the cap was also a welcome addition, keeping my head shielded from harmful UV rays while enjoying the great outdoors. However, there were a few drawbacks to this hat. At times, I found that the material was not as durable as I would have liked, and the cap showed signs of wear and tear after a few uses. Additionally, some of my friends who tried on the hat mentioned that it ran a bit small, which may have been a concern for those with larger head sizes. Overall, the New Era 59FIFTY Side Patch Fitted Hat in Multi offered a unique and eye-catching design, with comfortable adjustable features and sun protection. While not perfect, it certainly made a lasting impression on those who saw it, and I would recommend it to fellow baseball fans looking to spice up their hat collection. 🔗Arizona Diamondbacks Support Hat: Quality & Authentichttps://preview.redd.it/pdss0lwh3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=2efb7e40c01f6634459dd57c2903bfc9f6399be3 While I was browsing for a stylish hat to show my support for the Arizona Diamondbacks, I stumbled upon this amazing New Era 59FIFTY alternative authentic collection. The black color and the logo embroidered on the front really caught my eye. It felt great on my head when I tried it on, fitting perfectly like a glove. During my first outing wearing this hat, I received quite a few compliments and comments about it, and it made me feel proud to be a true fan of the team. The quality of the material and the overall feel of it is top-notch, and it has become my go-to hat for various occasions. However, one minor con I've noticed is that the hat tends to absorb sweat quite quickly, which can be a bit uncomfortable during hot days. Despite this, it remains a great choice for any Diamondbacks fan looking for an accessory that showcases their love for the team. So, if you're in the market for a new hat, give this one a try – it's well worth the investment! 🔗Affordable and Stylish New Era Blank 59FIFTY Fitted Hat in Blackhttps://preview.redd.it/9rglc14i3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=99072acf782c80fe6da84f41e1fb0b8f2bbd77c4 I recently got my hands on the New Era Blank 59FIFTY fitted hat in black, and I must say, it exceeded my expectations! The hat boasts a simple design, making it the perfect accessory for any outfit. The material is soft and comfortable, with a firm structure that holds its shape well. The fitted closure ensures a snug fit, keeping the hat securely on my head. One of the most remarkable features of this hat is its moisture-wicking sweatband. It kept my head dry and comfortable, even during intense workouts. The blend of its stylish appearance and practicality is what makes it stand out. However, there were a few drawbacks. The black color was slightly darker than I anticipated, but that didn't deter me from my appreciation for the hat. Additionally, the size might be slightly larger than advertised, but it wasn't a deal-breaker. In conclusion, the New Era Blank 59FIFTY fitted hat in black is a high-quality, versatile headpiece that I've grown to love. Its sleek design, comfortable fit, and moisture-wicking properties make it a must-have for any fashion-savvy individual. 🔗Sky 59FIFTY Oakland Athletics Hat for Game Day Fashionhttps://preview.redd.it/eovxaeji3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=118f2e7f4110b0838d95ba8ab2eb4e7fda2e1be2 Hey there fellow Oakland Athletics fans! I recently got my hands on this new Oakland Athletics Sky 59FIFTY cap from New Era, and let me tell you, it's a real game-changer! This cap is not only a stunning addition to any fan's wardrobe, but it's also incredibly comfortable to wear. First off, the design is top-notch! The graphic on the crown and the special patch on the side really made me feel like I'm part of the team. And the fitted cap feels just right, keeping my head snug and cozy while I cheer my team on. However, I must say, I do wish there were a few more sizes available for those who prefer a slightly looser or tighter fit. But overall, this cap is a solid choice for any Oakland Athletics fan looking to level up their game day style. So if you're in the market for a new hat, give this one a shot - it might just be the perfect addition to your collection! 🔗Affordable Black NBA x Staple 59FIFTY Fitted Hat by New Erahttps://preview.redd.it/ke9xjuwi3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=407aaf29a6e2f8ad01a5949a8071dbca93ea1db3 I recently had the chance to sport this New Era Black NBA x Staple 59FIFTY Fitted Hat, and let me tell you, it's a stylish addition to any wardrobe. The color and design are spot-on, making it an eye-catching piece. The fit is just right, not too tight or too loose, which is perfect for both casual wear and game day outings. One thing I noticed is that the embroidered logos are really well done, making it feel like a high-quality product. However, the hat is priced a bit lower than some other options in the market, which might make some people hesitant. Overall, I'm pleased with the hat and can confidently say that it adds a touch of class to any outfit. 🔗Affordable New York Yankees Storm Gray Baseball Hathttps://preview.redd.it/3sn3taaj3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=d488f634a2ffcd5b75e4ced1722a7fb29b147071 This 59FIFTY MLB New York Yankees Storm Gray Basic Fitted Hat from New Era is a perfect match for any Yankees fan out there. The six-panel construction with breathable eyelets ensures that your head stays fresh even on the sunniest days. Crafted with polyester fabric, it's specifically designed to minimize the risk of skin irritation. As I wore it, the crisp Yankees graphics on the crown made me feel like part of the team, adding a dash of visual appeal to my outfit. The flat bill type and gray/black color palette offered a stylish touch without being too flashy. However, there were some pros and cons to consider. On the positive side, the comfortable fit and high-quality materials made it a go-to choice for any Yankees enthusiast. But, the limited color options may not be for everyone, and some users reported that the hat didn't fit perfectly. Overall, I had a great experience with this cap, and it's definitely worth checking out if you're looking for a durable, fashionable Yankees hat. 🔗Affordable New Era 59FIFTY Side Patch Fitted Caphttps://preview.redd.it/syo2q9wj3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=64c95a9ed8f225a1b6578f50ce2ac7df11b883fc The New Era 59FIFTY Side Patch Fitted Hat has been a staple in my fashion collection for quite some time now. This stylish cap offers on-trend detailing, allowing me to make a statement whenever and wherever I go. The unique design of this hat, with its side patch, adds a touch of sophistication to my everyday look. One of the highlights of this hat is that it is extremely comfortable to wear. The adjustable strap at the back ensures a snug fit without causing any discomfort. Moreover, it provides excellent sun protection, which is always an advantage during outdoor activities. That being said, there were a few areas where the New Era 59FIFTY Side Patch Fitted Hat did not meet my expectations. The most noteworthy being the size inconsistency issue. As stated by several reviewers, the cap size might not match the tag, leading to some surprises upon receiving the product. Overall, I believe the New Era 59FIFTY Side Patch Fitted Hat is a great addition to any fashion collection. Its unique design and comfort level make it a standout choice. Just be sure to check the size carefully before placing your order! 🔗United States World Baseball Classic Grey Bottom Navy 59FIFTY Fitted Caphttps://preview.redd.it/e80r3i6k3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=7dc1fd7fb89f51b4d095551e25244400a4b95ae7 Recently, I've been using the New Era 59FFTY 2023 World Baseball Classic USA Fitted Hat as part of my daily look for supporting Team USA. The first thing that stood out to me was the quality of the fabric; it's made of 100% polyester, which makes it very durable and easy to care for. Additionally, I love the embroidered country logo on the front, as it's a subtle yet effective way to show my team spirit without being too loud. However, one con I noticed is that the hat tends to come off easily when worn in windy conditions or during intense outdoor activities. Other than that, it holds up quite well and looks great. The combination of the navy top with the grey bottom gives it a classic, yet unique, design that sets it apart from other baseball caps. It's a must-have for any Team USA fan looking to show their support in style. 🔗Stylish Los Angeles Dodgers Vegas Gold & Cardinal Hat for Adultshttps://preview.redd.it/8pn03mik3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=2e88ddc94f143c35f85ee21d16e5e2001856d5ed I recently had the chance to try on the New Era Men's Vegas Gold, Cardinal Los Angeles Dodgers 59FIFTY Fitted Hat. As a fan of the team, I was excited to rock a unique twist on their classic style. One of the first things that stood out to me was the raised team logo embroidered on the front crown. It added a level of detail that made the hat feel more special and unique. However, I also noticed that the hat's structured build, while providing comfort, made it feel a bit too tight on my head. Despite this minor issue, I loved the overall design and concept of this hat. It provided a stylish, comfortable option to represent my favorite team, making it a great choice for any die-hard Dodgers fan. 🔗New York Yankees Summer Sherbet Hat - Fitted Style with Striking Embroideryhttps://preview.redd.it/w79dz40l3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=f78d48236c8e3bf9a0496afde1824a76fa3d1dd4 Summer just got a whole lot cooler with the Men's New Era Black York Yankees Summer Sherbet 59FIFTY Fitted Hat. I must say, this hat has been a game-changer in my closet. It fits perfectly with its snug yet comfortable design, and the structured construction adds a touch of style that makes me feel like I'm ready to hit the streets. The iconic New York Yankees embroidery and the playful ice cream cone design on the side really bring the essence of summer to life. However, one downside is that it might not be the most budget-friendly option out there. But if you're a true Yankees fan and want to add a pop of color to your wardrobe, this is definitely a hat you'd want to consider. Buyer's GuideCheap fitted hats have become a popular choice for fashion-conscious individuals who want to make a statement without breaking the bank. These stylish caps are known for their versatility, comfort, and affordability. However, when shopping for cheap fitted hats, it's essential to consider various factors to ensure you get the best possible quality for your money. In this comprehensive buyer's guide, we'll explore the essential features, considerations, and general advice for selecting the perfect cheap fitted hat to match your style and budget.Fabric and Materialhttps://preview.redd.it/mgnyl6pn3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=595ac49b086f7af0ed7511bb61db67da95ce2dc6 One of the most important factors to consider when buying cheap fitted hats is the fabric and material used. Look for hats made of breathable, lightweight materials like cotton, linen, or mesh, which will keep your head comfortable during hot weather. Additionally, be sure to check the material's durability, as a high-quality hat will last longer, even with regular use. Fit and ComfortA well-fitted hat is crucial for both comfort and style. When trying on a cheap fitted hat, ensure it snugly fits your head without being too tight or too loose. The hat should sit comfortably above your ears, providing ample coverage while allowing room for your ears to hear. Comfort is another essential factor to consider, as you'll likely be wearing your hat for extended periods. Choose a hat with a soft, comfortable lining and a breathable interior material to ensure your comfort throughout the day.Design and StyleCheap fitted hats come in a wide range of styles and designs, from classic baseball caps to trendy bucket hats. Consider your personal style, as well as current fashion trends, when selecting a hat. Look for designs with adjustable straps, which will allow you to customize the fit and ensure the hat stays securely in place. Additionally, explore different colors and patterns to find a hat that best complements your wardrobe. https://preview.redd.it/9puii1bo3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=e99fd0d2738e84a8fe9af722fe7bd6b9b2ebc6ec Brand Reputation and ReviewsAlthough you're shopping for affordable hats, it's still important to consider the brand's reputation and customer reviews. Look for reputable, well-established brands known for producing high-quality, affordable hats. Check online review sites and forums for customer feedback on specific hat models, as well as overall brand satisfaction. This will help you make an informed decision and ensure you're getting the best value for your money.Care and MaintenanceTo ensure your cheap fitted hat lasts as long as possible, it's crucial to follow proper care and maintenance guidelines. Always read the manufacturer's care instructions, as different materials may require specific cleaning methods. Generally, hand-washing in cold water with mild detergent is the safest option for most fabrics. Store your hat in a dry, cool place away from direct sunlight to prevent fading and maintain its shape.Final Thoughtshttps://preview.redd.it/oc7j1b9p3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=51a5287973267d4f386d5dcbab8d8f44507b67f0 When shopping for cheap fitted hats, remember to consider factors like fabric, fit, design, brand reputation, and care instructions. By focusing on these essential elements, you'll be well-equipped to find a high-quality, affordable hat that perfectly matches your style and preferences. So go ahead and explore the wide variety of cheap fitted hats available – there's sure to be one that suits your needs and budget! FAQWhat makes a hat a "fitted" hat?A fitted hat is designed to snugly fit on the wearer's head, providing a more comfortable and stylish fit as compared to a "one-size-fits-all" hat. This type of hat is typically made of a more flexible material, which can be easily reshaped to fit individual head shapes. https://preview.redd.it/rza1jbbq3j1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=11e252dec91e01e3b3d9680cf6c993213c2a6f2c Why are these hats considered "cheap"?The hats featured in this roundup are considered "cheap" due to their budget-friendly price range. Despite their affordability, these hats still offer quality style, comfort, and durability to the user.What are some common materials used to make inexpensive fitted hats?
Do these budget-friendly hats compromise on quality?No, while these hats are affordable, the manufacturers have not compromised on quality. They offer a wide range of styles, materials, and features to suit different preferences. As long as one chooses the right hat for their needs, these inexpensive options can still provide excellent value.Can I expect the hats to last for an extended period?The durability of a cheap fitted hat depends on the specific product and the materials used in its construction. However, most budget-friendly hats are designed to be long-lasting and provide good value for money. Be sure to follow the care instructions provided with the hat to ensure its longevity.Are there any downsides to buying budget-friendly fitted hats?One potential downside of buying cheap fitted hats could be compromised quality when compared to higher-end products. However, with the right selection of budget-friendly hats, you can still find great-looking, comfortable, and durable options that offer excellent value for your money.How should I measure my head to find the perfect cheap fitted hat size?First, use a flexible measuring tape. Wrap it around the largest part of your head, just above your ears. Record your measurement in centimeters or inches. Once you have your head size, refer to the sizing chart provided by the retailer that sells the cheap fitted hats. This will help you determine the correct hat size for the best fit and comfort.As an Amazon™ Associate, we earn from qualifying purchases. |
2024.05.20 08:48 Gross010 14 and disgusted at what I was at 13.
Because of this I’ve thought about dying. I don’t think I’d go through with it, I know my problems are probably dumb and less serious compared to others on here but I just have to get them out. My porn addiction sparked up at 12 and was regular at first until it spiraled. From hentai, to futa and gay porn, to incest, to rape-ish stuff to beastiality to roleplaying stuff like this to Shota. I would roleplay with people Shota pretending I was a woman that was 18+. The worst of which probably being the first time when I was introduced to the topic. I found someone who roleplayed the topic and was curious and we spoke and roleplayed. I played as an animator girl in her mid to late 20s that stayed inside a lot. He, despite not specifying his age was probably around 5-9 in said story. Also to mention in these stories said boy usually had an unreasonably large penis for their age. Like past knees. Thankfully he had to go before it went further. And I nagged to finish it for a few weeks which grosses me out. Also with the same guy he roleplayed as a damn little like baby sheep thing with a huge cock. We got to that part there and looking back I wanna throw up. I played with this stuff a few more times with teacher x student before stopping. I’m disgusted and I want to tell my family to get therapy, my mom and sister said they’d stick by me no matter what but the worse thing they’ve seen before is just regular porn at 11. I wanna tell my sister so she can help me get therapy and then tell my mom when I’m better completely.
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2024.05.20 08:36 throwaway7272748593 someone plewse help me i’m so scared man
i think i’m supposed to be dead
about a week ago i was on vacation in florida visiting family and we went to the beach. while there i had a blast (apart from losing my prescription glasses in the ocean) and i was fine for the next few hours. shortly after i got back to my hotel room i started replaying every second on the beach. i feel in my legs nonstop the way the waves made my feet and legs feel and i have come to the conclusion its because i faked or cheated death in some way. i was supposed to die on that beach and im not supposed to be alive. since the beach every part of my life (even before i realized i shouldve died) has felt extremely odd. like just genuinely off in a way, where you wouldnt notice it without some hindsight and i think its bc i was supposed to die. therefore my entire life and story and whatever is happening on this earth is reacting strangely to me interacting with my environment, like a coding issue in a video game. i haven’t slept in days. ive become extremely paranoid, to the point of seeing snd hearing people, and i dont know what to do. i’m so scared and i cant sleep ive been up for days and i just want to be normal again please help me m
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about a week ago i was on vacation in florida visiting family and we went to the beach. while there i had a blast (apart from losing my prescription glasses in the ocean) and i was fine for the next few hours. shortly after i got back to my hotel room i started replaying every second on the beach. i feel in my legs nonstop the way the waves made my feet and legs feel and i have come to the conclusion its because i faked or cheated death in some way. i was supposed to die on that beach and im not supposed to be alive. since the beach every part of my life (even before i realized i shouldve died) has felt extremely odd. like just genuinely off in a way, where you wouldnt notice it without some hindsight and i think its bc i was supposed to die. therefore my entire life and story and whatever is happening on this earth is reacting strangely to me interacting with my environment, like a coding issue in a video game. i haven’t slept in days. ive become extremely paranoid, to the point of seeing snd hearing people, and i dont know what to do. i’m so scared and i cant sleep ive been up for days and i just want to be normal again please help me m
2024.05.20 08:36 noblueface Venting about a fight with my covid unsafe sister
For mothers day dinner i (30) had my mom (60) and sister (28) take metrix tests and took the risk of eating indian food with them. I know they were both unmasked around groups that day but i took the risk bc idk i just wanted to do something for my mom.
A comment from my mom about finding a new restaurant to go out to eat at turned into my sister and I raising our voices at each other. We both said nasty things. I tried, i did, i wasnt as loud as her and tried to logically lay out my thoughts.
what im most mad about is she accused me of enjoying "preaching" and being influenced by paid influencers (evidence being the 300 dollars i dropped on metrix tests)
Its not "preaching" to be highly concerned about genocide and eugenics when it happens!!!!!
Like, shes talking about the testimonials from individual people with LC. I believe its real and has disabled a lot of people. But she trusts media like the nyt more. She doesnt like that I bring up things like eugenics and genocide and the butterfly effect that is the chain of transmission. Its more important to "live her life."
She texted me to apologize for her side about a week ago and i thought i would have responded by now. But im still mad! Yes the stakes are that high! Yes this is the hill i die on.
We both said something to the effect of how this tension is straining our relationship to a point it cant go back from. I have seen my mom estranged from her sibling and it was brutal and I never want to go through that. I want me, her, and the other 2 covid unsafe siblings to take care of my mom and not have disgusting drama upon her aging and passing. Ive never been Close with them but have always been committed to this.
It just fucking sucks. Covid means no healing from long standing trauma, impossible to repair relationships to a point i dont feel alien, no healing, just alienation and despair. And also im sad its never as simple as sitting down to eat or drink together. It just all sucks.
I said it in anger that night but i really do wish i died a decade ago before all the horror of the last years became something id experience. And yes sister, seeing family actively make life easier for eugenicists is that kind of horrifying.
Im just so mad. Idk what anyone from this sub could say to help but i appreciate space to vent and anyome who actually reads this far. Thanks.
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A comment from my mom about finding a new restaurant to go out to eat at turned into my sister and I raising our voices at each other. We both said nasty things. I tried, i did, i wasnt as loud as her and tried to logically lay out my thoughts.
what im most mad about is she accused me of enjoying "preaching" and being influenced by paid influencers (evidence being the 300 dollars i dropped on metrix tests)
Its not "preaching" to be highly concerned about genocide and eugenics when it happens!!!!!
Like, shes talking about the testimonials from individual people with LC. I believe its real and has disabled a lot of people. But she trusts media like the nyt more. She doesnt like that I bring up things like eugenics and genocide and the butterfly effect that is the chain of transmission. Its more important to "live her life."
She texted me to apologize for her side about a week ago and i thought i would have responded by now. But im still mad! Yes the stakes are that high! Yes this is the hill i die on.
We both said something to the effect of how this tension is straining our relationship to a point it cant go back from. I have seen my mom estranged from her sibling and it was brutal and I never want to go through that. I want me, her, and the other 2 covid unsafe siblings to take care of my mom and not have disgusting drama upon her aging and passing. Ive never been Close with them but have always been committed to this.
It just fucking sucks. Covid means no healing from long standing trauma, impossible to repair relationships to a point i dont feel alien, no healing, just alienation and despair. And also im sad its never as simple as sitting down to eat or drink together. It just all sucks.
I said it in anger that night but i really do wish i died a decade ago before all the horror of the last years became something id experience. And yes sister, seeing family actively make life easier for eugenicists is that kind of horrifying.
Im just so mad. Idk what anyone from this sub could say to help but i appreciate space to vent and anyome who actually reads this far. Thanks.
2024.05.20 08:36 throwaway7272748593 i think i was supposed to die
i think i’m supposed to be dead
about a week ago i was on vacation in florida visiting family and we went to the beach. while there i had a blast (apart from losing my prescription glasses in the ocean) and i was fine for the next few hours. shortly after i got back to my hotel room i started replaying every second on the beach. i feel in my legs nonstop the way the waves made my feet and legs feel and i have come to the conclusion its because i faked or cheated death in some way. i was supposed to die on that beach and im not supposed to be alive. since the beach every part of my life (even before i realized i shouldve died) has felt extremely odd. like just genuinely off in a way, where you wouldnt notice it without some hindsight and i think its bc i was supposed to die. therefore my entire life and story and whatever is happening on this earth is reacting strangely to me interacting with my environment, like a coding issue in a video game. i haven’t slept in days. ive become extremely paranoid, to the point of seeing snd hearing people, and i dont know what to do. i’m so scared and i cant sleep ive been up for days and i just want to be normal again please help me m
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about a week ago i was on vacation in florida visiting family and we went to the beach. while there i had a blast (apart from losing my prescription glasses in the ocean) and i was fine for the next few hours. shortly after i got back to my hotel room i started replaying every second on the beach. i feel in my legs nonstop the way the waves made my feet and legs feel and i have come to the conclusion its because i faked or cheated death in some way. i was supposed to die on that beach and im not supposed to be alive. since the beach every part of my life (even before i realized i shouldve died) has felt extremely odd. like just genuinely off in a way, where you wouldnt notice it without some hindsight and i think its bc i was supposed to die. therefore my entire life and story and whatever is happening on this earth is reacting strangely to me interacting with my environment, like a coding issue in a video game. i haven’t slept in days. ive become extremely paranoid, to the point of seeing snd hearing people, and i dont know what to do. i’m so scared and i cant sleep ive been up for days and i just want to be normal again please help me m
2024.05.20 08:34 DarhkPianist Teammates that sabotage you then blame you for losing
Why do so many people in ranked not revive you when safe or wait to loot every box, especially from your kills, before doing so?
Why do they not let you loot a few items after respawning and then get mad when you die next fight because you have nothing?
Why do these teammates then blame you for not winning as if they aren't being team players in a tame game?
I feel like I'm losing my mind some matches
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Why do they not let you loot a few items after respawning and then get mad when you die next fight because you have nothing?
Why do these teammates then blame you for not winning as if they aren't being team players in a tame game?
I feel like I'm losing my mind some matches