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Hi all,
Not sure if this is the right place, but I'm an intermediate lifter but have been inconsistent during COVID. I'm looking to do a hypertrophy focused, cut/body recomposition program. Here's the 6-day PPL program I have now that's based on the equipment available at my gym:
Monday (push) --Barbell Bench (3x4-6) --High, Medium, Low cable fly (1x10-12 each) --Seated Barbell Overhead Press (3x10-12) --Standing Cable Tricep Pushdown w/ rope (3x15) --Ab machine, targeting core abs (3x15)
Tuesday (pull) --Overhand Grip Plate Loaded Lat Pulldown (3x10-12) --TBar Row (3x10) --Cable Face Pull (3x12) --Incline Dumbbell Curl (3x12) --Decline Russian Twist w/ Weights, for obliques (3x10)
Wednesday (Legs, quad/glute focus) --Abduction/Adduction superset warm-up (3x15) --Barbell Back Squat, light warm-up (2x10) --Hack Squat (3x10) --Pendulum Squat (3x10) --Seated Calf Raise Machine (3x12-15) --Back Extension with weights (3x10-12) --Standing Glute Kickback Machine (3x-10-12) --Leg Extension (3x10-12)
Thursday (Push) --Incline Barbell Bench Press (3x5-7) --Machine Supported Dips (3x10) --Plate Loaded Machine Overhead Press (3x10) --Standing Cable Overhead Tricep Extension (3x10) --Hanging Leg Raise (3x10 + hold until failure on last set)
Friday (Pull) --Machine Supported Pull Ups, mixed grip (3x8-10) --Chest Supported High Row (3x8-10) --Single Arm Cable Lateral Raise (3x10-12) --Seated Cable Curl (3x10-12) --Standing Cable Torso Rotations, obliques (3x10-12)
Saturday (Legs, Hamstring/glutes focus) --Abduction/Adduction superset warm-up (3x15) (I have a bad hip flexor, so I try to do more) --Leg Press Machine warm-up (2x12) ----Calf Raise superset w/ leg press (2x20) --Barbell Good Morning (3x10) --Dumbbell Walking Jump Lunges (3x10-12) --Hip Thrust Machine (3x8-10) --Back Extension with weights (3x12) --Seated Leg Curl Machine (3x10-12)
Sunday --Light cardio, elliptical or incline walk. Stretching
Questions: 1) If I'm cutting, should I add more cardio? I work from home, so getting steps is more of a challenge daily.
2) Should I add more to shoulder and trap exercises? I tried splitting up shoulders and deltoids, but I'm not sure if I have sufficient reps for them.
3) Do I need to do more core exercises? I read conflicting info on the amount of ab workouts needed ranging from a few specific core routines a week to none at all. I tried to do only one core exercise a day as a middle ground.
4) Should I add wrist exercises like farmer carries on Sunday? Or do the other workouts suffice in that area?
Notes: A) I was lifting regularly since 2018ish. Since the pandemic in 2020, I haven't stayed consistent due to a new job and travel. I'm starting a WFH position now so hopefully I can stay on track much easier rather than trying to accommodate with limited hotel gyms
B) I've been testing some of this workout here and there (see travel above), and I've generally felt good, tough leg days took a while to recover. I definitely feel it in my legs and chest, but less so in shoulders and back, but I'm not sure if that's normal
C) Push/Pull workouts take me about an hour, including any wait times. Leg days take about 1.25-1.5 hours simply because they're exhausting. Sometimes I skip the last leg extension/curl depending on energy. I don't want to spend more than that daily unless I'm incorporating cardio.
D) Diet will get on track too. I'm currently about 5'5 177. Looking to get to about 140ish to get back to about 7-8% body fat. I'll be eating about 1400 cals/day (metabolic rate is roughly 1900 or so) and getting 150g protein a day
Thank you! All feedback is welcome.

Hello,
I have been to Toronto last year for work; stayed at a hotel 2 weeks and had had 2 fire alarms in the middle of the night. Each and every time, the firefighters came, and there were no fire but a whole mess of people running down the stairs and hurting themselves.
Came back to my country, told this to one of my colleague who also came to Toronto a while ago, and he said he had the same thing happen to him during his 3-days stay in another hotel in Toronto.
Now I came back to Toronto for work again (for 6 months, yay), staying at a corporate housing, again another place. I've been there only one month but I have had already 3 fire alarms, including one in the middle of the night and another one currently. 2 were "False alarms" but had to wait for firefighters to come for some reason, and one is a monthly scheduled fire drill. Like com'on guys, monthly drill ?
Just curious, why so many fire alarms ? Is it something normal or was I just very unlucky ? What about this monthly fire drill ? Is there a historical reason behind all this ?
I personally find all this so stupid, while the first time I hurried to the lobby (I'm on the 32nd floor ...), now I just wait the 15 minutes until it pass while covering my ears and swearing. It has happened so often that I will assume it's always a drill or a false alarm, so whenever there will be a real fire, I'll be screwed.
Thanks

Kanye ‘Ye’ West is—or was—one of the most important artists of the 21st century. His creativity has no limits and he has proven himself successful in every creative endeavor—mainly, music and fashion. He has one of the best discographies in music history, and despite all of the worrisome public controversies and freak-outs, his legacy will probably never be forgotten.

1. Late Registration 10/10 Such a perfect album. LR is his second release, where he worked with Jon Brion to bring together the hip-hop sound with symphonies and movie-score like instrumentals; sonically, way better and more impressive than College Dropout. The themes are personal and heartwarming—Hey Mama, Roses, Diamonds From Sierra Leone—and every single song on here is worth a listen. Highlights: We Major, Drive Slow, Touch The Sky, Heard Em’ Say, Late, Hey Mama, DFSL, & Roses.
   
2. The College Dropout 9/10 His debut album made a great impression. Soulful, funny, and inspiring, TCD touches on various relatable themes: faith (Jesus Walks), hating your lame ass dead-end job (Spaceship), family love (Family Business), materialism (All Falls Down), and ambition (Through The Wire). The only downsides are the skits and some of the songs sounding dated. Highlights: Family Business, Last Call, All Falls Down, Spaceship, Slow Jamz, Two Words, Never Let Me Down, and Jesus Walks.
   
3. My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy 9/10 Late Registration had elements of movie-scores in its songs, but MBDTF feels like an actual big-screen experience. The album is entertaining from start to finish, with its guest appearances, maximal production, and storyline (the “price” of fame and public embarrassment). A great apology album that will never stop being talked about; best first listen ever. I do agree with it being a little overrated; All of the Lights kinda sounds all over the place and the album isn’t as entertaining after Runaway - but Lost in the World is his best closer. Highlights: Dark Fantasy, Gorgeous, Power, Devil in a New Dress, So Appalled, LITW, Monster, and Runaway.
   
4. Graduation 9/10 Most people think this album is overrated, and to be fair it sounds a bit dated. When I re-listen to it though, it still is uplifting and infectious; it’s like that “perfect espresso shot in the morning”. The album contains some of the best music in his catalogue - and in the hip-hop genre in general. (Flashing Lights is a perfect song.) Highlights: Flashing Lights, Good Morning, Champion, I Wonder, Everything I Am, Can’t Tell Me Nothing, Big Brother, & Homecoming.
   
5. The Life of Pablo 8.9/10 Everything about this project—especially the cover—is so Kanye. After his industrial-experimental-yeezus-phase (idk what to call it), Kanye’s music is more “modern” and “trap-based” on this album—he utilizes production from Metro Boomin; for the most part, his rapping and lyrics aren’t taken that seriously. You can also tell that this is where Fashion started to take his attention. Regardless of all the flaws and awkward moments, it keeps your attention and weirds you out—Just like Ye does himself. And just like Ye, its a paradox: we opened with Ultralight Beam (a song that begins with prayers and ends with gospel singing) and went right into FSMH, pt.1 (the song with the bleached-asshole verse). It’s funny, introspective, annoying, childish, and impressive - just like him. Highlights: FSMH, pt.1, ULBM, Freestyle 4, Famous, NMPILA, Saint Pablo, 30 Hours, Waves, FML, I Love Kanye, & Saint Pablo.
   
6. Yeezus 8.9/10 Around this time, breaking into the Fashion industry was a major challenge for Kanye, and naturally, he became more angry in his interviews. For the most part, Yeezus sounds like anger and frustration—the first seconds of On Sight alienates most non-Kanye fans. Thematically, Ye takes on a character—Yeezus—who embodies his most negative traits: arrogance, insensitivity, and hostility. It shows up in some of the lyrics too (“eating Asain pussy..”). After New Slaves, the album gets more tender-sounding and sad—you have classics like Hold My Liquor, BOTL, and Guilt Trip. It reveals that this obnoxious Yeezus character has a sap backstory. By the end, we reach a resolution with Bound 2, the most accessible song on here (greatest music video ever). Just like 808s, it stands out from the rest of his discog, and is a bit annoying, but once you get it, you get it. Highlights: New Slaves, HML, Bound 2, BOTL, Black Skinhead, Guilt Trip, & Im In It.
   
7. 808s & Heartbreak 8/10 Great. Great. Great. After a tumultuous period, Kanye, being the musical pioneer that he is, decided to ditch the hip-hop samples and beats, for 808s and auto-tuned singing, and it was polarizing to the hip-hop audience. I feel like he’s more of a songwriter - in the traditional sense - on here. This album also has an amazing 6-track run (Say You Will —> Paranoid; RoboCop ain’t it). The instrumentals are melancholy, and this is the first time we see collaborations from Kid Cudi—whose sound is definitely present on this album. Imp, Some of the songs—RoboCop, Bad News, & See You in My Nightmares—sound soooooo 2008, they were a little hard to listen to. Yet, there is still is a reason why this album has the impact that it does; along with Cudi, it lead future rap artists to become more versatile with their discographies—look at XXXTENTACION, JuiceWrld, & Lil Uzi Vert.
   
8. Ye 8/10 Ye is his shortest output, and even compared to 808s, one of his most emotional as well. Besides All Mine, there isn’t much wrong with this album; it gets straight to the point. Some problems here though: You can tell this is when he started recorded his vocals on his iPhone, his mumble verses are more present, which gives an unfinished feeling to it. Besides that, its mainly filled with great, strong songs. Sonically, it’s soulful, tender, and oddly peaceful. Theres a heavy sense of vulnerability, regret, and introspection. I think this album needs a lot more attention than it gets. Highlights: ITAKY, No Mistakes, Violent Crimes, Ghost Town (duhh), & Wouldn’t Leave.
   
9. Donda 6/10 This would be a very-fitting last release (if done correctly): at the time he divorced from Kim Kardashian and became a billionaire in the same year, which naturally attracted more attention to his legacy—this is when I started listening to his music. His life story is inspiring and releasing an album named after his late-Mother (Donda West) would’ve been the perfect closing-album. Irecent memory, I can’t remember being more hyped about a music release. This rollout was legendary—from the Reddit subs, to the instagram posts, to the listening parties. Perfect way to advertise an album. The result is messy, though. Sonically, this is like The Life of Pablo, pt. 2: constant ups-and-downs in quality, yet still delivering amazing songs. Theres also a lot of unneeded material on here too—27 fucking tracks (32 if you include all the part 2’s)—and the mixing really sticks out like a sore-thumb and ruins the experience. Guest appearances were really show-stopping—especially Don Toliver and Kid Cudi on “Moon”. It’s also his most spiritual project (he edited out the curse words); we haven’t seen this much religious faith since The College Dropout imo. Beautiful, yet messy. Highlights: Moon, Praise God, Keep My Spirit Alive, Hurricane, Come to Life, 24, Off the Grid, Pure Souls, and God Breathed.
   

Hello I might be remembered as the Shurelya's Vlad player. I haven't really played the game too much since the quality of euw low master lobbies just isn't fun, but I played a few games of this split. And I just don't see how Vlad is apparently weak. While yes obviously my adc strat won't feel as good with how strong current adcs are, I went back to my roots aka toplane. Playing Conq Flash + Ghost feels really strong. The damage output feels really good, I genuinely had games where I matched in power enemies with 1-2 items lead. My thoughts: Yes the mobility is an issue but it has been an issue since I start playing Vlad.
Damage feels identical to last split.
Influence you have on the game feels slightly weaker or similar.
Question: What makes Vlad weak in your opinion (Not asking about winrates or "because elite500 said so" but genuine points that I might've not realized on a first sight like maybe certain champs being meta)?

My old macbook isn’t connecting properly to the wifi (the wifi signal shows only 1 bar signal while my new mac and phone show 3) so when I tried the migration method it will just get stuck for hours looking for folders to transfer (the connection dot is red and shows some null text?), when I tried connecting my 2 macs using usb-c it doesn’t show in connections, and lastly when i tried using time machine, disks won’t show only “other airport time capsule”. I’m not really an expert please help :(

Long story so please bear with me
I was with my first love for 3 and a bit years, we met in late 2010 before we broke up 10 years ago in early 2014. We were young and in our early 20s back then, things just fizzled out.
I've always thought about her but eventually we went our separate ways, she got in to a relationship with another guy after me for a few years but eventually he ended up cheating on her, this was around 2017.
After her breakup in 2017 I confessed my feelings for her but we didn't go anywhere with it as she was still healing so I told her I need to cut her off at the point because I told her I was struggling to be just friends with her, to which she said that she was heartbroken that's it come to us parting ways. But we wished each other well and went our separate ways. I was really at my lowest at that point but have come a really long way since in terms of having a successful career and have improved a lot financially and mentally.
At the start of 2019, she did add me on social media but she didn't say anything to me so a few days later I ended up deleting her because I realised I still wasn't over her, I regretted deleting her afterwards.
At the end of 2019 I heard that she was engaged, she ended up getting married but then I heard she got divorced around over 2 years ago. A few monthds ago I found out that the reason for her divorce was because her husband cheated on her and was abusive towards her. They got divorced around early 2022. Her ex husband is already engaged and due to get married again this summer.
As for me I did get in to another relationship with someone else but I was also cheated on so I have been single for a few years now, I have been evolving in my career and proud of how far I've come and have recently started a new chapter in my career. I considered getting in touch with her last year but I noticed that she had cut off a lot of people from her social media so I wasnt too sure how she'd react to me adding her, I thought she'd reject me seen as she's cutting off a lot of people.
So around 3 months ago I took the plunge seen as I had nothing to lose and sent her a request on instagram, and she had accepted and also followed me back. She's been viewing my stories and a month ago I posted a life quote on my story which she liked, I haven't spoke to her yet. I posted a few pictures of myself which she hasn't liked but A few weeks ago I posted a quote on my story that said 'be the reason for someone's pain to turn into a smile', she liked that quote and also another one that I posted last week. It was my birthday a few days ago and she liked a birthday story that I posted on instagram.
I'm assuming she is single but not entirely sure. I added her 3 months ago but now she has deleted me, I was confused because she only liked one of my stories few days prior. At the time of her deletion, i was on holiday performing umrah. I would have liked to see if there was future for us but don't think she's interested now, i have messaged her after she deleted me saying 'Hi, hope your well. I probably should have said something a long time ago but I didn't, my fault. I've been praying for you, today I realise I've been deleted anyways I hope your keeping happy and healthy'. She replied saying 'Hey I'm good thanks hope you are too, that is kind of you, I didn't expect this kind of message'.
I didn't really know what to say back to her, I still don't understand why she deleted me even though days before she was showing an interest in my stories before and now she's deleted me. I just replied saying 'that's good. Sorry for catching you off guard with it, I wanted to reach out to you earlier. I'm glad your doing well though' and then she has replied back saying 'can I ask why?' I replied back saying 'It's been on my mind for a while to get back in touch with you, I didn't add you for no reason. But we don't need to if it's not something your comfortable with'. She then sent a long message as follows: 'You don’t make me feel uncomfortable. I have thought about you over the years and wished you well. I am really happy that you have also been called to do umrah and i hope it changes your life the same way it did mine. I removed you because you have my ex and his family on your instagram and I removed everyone who has any contact with them. You will have heard that I was married there for a short period of time but it was hell and now I’m out of it I don’t want them knowing anything about my life, so I removed everyone who has any link with them. I didn’t realise till that day that you did. It was nothing to do with you personally.' .
Im not actually friends with her ex husband as he is just someone that lives nearby to me and we have never spoken so I replied with this: 'I'm sorry that you had to go through that, I hope your okay and I pray god brings you ease. I wouldn't exactly say I have anything to do with them personally though, only thing I know about them is that they're from my area too. It makes sense now and it's understandable why you did that.'
She replied back again saying 'I'm great, God is the best of planners and it was the best thing for me. Even so, I removed everyone who had us both so sorry about that' and to which I replied 'That's fair enough, I'm glad to hear your doing well though and that your at peace now. That's what matters most'. She then asked 'how have you been, what's new with you?' I replied saying 'I'm not too bad thanks, life's changed a lot since we last spoke so there's quite a lot that's new lol'. after that we were speaking generally about the holiday that I'm currently on and what to do as she has been here before too and she also asked how long I'm there for and she asked who ive gone with and how long im on holiday for, it was in general a short and civilised conversation and the conversation happened whilst i was still deleted.
Towards the end of the conversation she said 'well i hope you have a lovely time 😊' and i replied with thank you and asked her when she was on holiday here, she replied saying that she went last November and the year before so then i replied saying 'oh nice, its good to go often. Need to make it a yearly thing' She ended the conversation 12 nights ago by liking that last message i sent, I don't know if she plans to message me again, What are the chances that she'll message me even if we don't follow each other on instagram anymore.
I am slightly anxious that she won't message me after this due to her deleting me because her ex is on my Instagram. Was thinking of just giving her space for a few more days, then deleting her ex and requesting her back in around in a few days bear in mind she deleted me 2 weeks ago and we havent spoken in 12 days. In the meantime i have been removing a lot of meaningless connections from my instagram and i will be removing her ex and his family too, i have also noticed that her number of following has also decreased as she has also been cutting down on the number of connections she has. I blame myself for this situation because I had the opportunity to delete her ex and his family a few months ago as I don't even speak to them, had I done that then she wouldn't have deleted me. Its been 2 weeks, should i take action or give her space?

To start, I’m looking for criticism and hole poking. So downvote if you must, but at least explain why so I can help my own understanding. Thank you!
This is from a comment I made yesterday. I’m working through my own understanding of this and an interested in feedback and criticism. But part of my view is a critique of the moral/civil/ceremonial division of the law. I understand that a division of the law is seen by both Sts Augustine and Thomas Aquinas (though a bit differently). I’m not debating the patristic tradition, but rather the underlying logic those saints used.
I also recognize there is another tradition which states most of the laws given at Sinai were given because of the golden calf incident and thus were abolished by Christ (this is found in the apocryphal apostolic constitutions If I remember correctly). But again, I question the logic.
The reason I question this logic is this: why would Matthew include the “fulfill not abolish” language in his Gospel if this statement ceased to be of importance after the ascension (when the book was written, assuming the tripartite division, in effect, abolishes 2/3 of the law for the Christian). I also question the natural law methodology for determining what is moral law. I understand a “moral” act as an act that God says is good. Since all goodness is of God, then anything commanded by God would be considered moral to obey. Thus, even minor “ceremonial” laws would be considered moral to obey and immoral to violate. This would effectively render every law of the Torah a “moral law”.
Anyway, on to my proposition. I don’t claim to have patristic evidence for this framework. But this framework does arrive at a very similar effect for the average Christian as the tripartite division does, but it gets there in a very different way, one that makes WAY more sense in my brain. So if y’all can poke holes, please do. If yall can show I’m wildly misunderstanding the tripartite division or natural law or morality, please do.
This particular area I’ve been doing A LOT (last 6-9 months) of soul searching/prayer and study on because I don’t like the “moral/ceremonial/civil” distinction. I don’t think the Torah makes any such distinction and that the distinction only works when read back onto the Torah in light of church teaching. Which is FINE and good for arriving at an answer as a Catholic. But I don’t think it’s the logic the 1st and 2nd generation church would’ve used.
We keep the whole law of the Old Testament; Christ came to fulfill, not abolish. The difference is that it doesn’t quite look the same because

1. ⁠We assume the ancient Israelites enforced the Torah EXACTLY the way it’s read. Break a law? Straight to stoning. But this isn’t how it worked. There were courts and burdens of proof. AND there was a chance for repentance. King David, a man after God’s own heart commits murder AND adultery (and tacitly admits to it when confronted) and yet he repents! By some modern folks reading he should’ve been executed according to the Torah.
   
2. ⁠Christ has come. The thing that the entire OT was building up to happened. So our understanding of things changed. The covenant with Noah didn’t negate the covenant with Abraham, but things certainly look different after Noah. Same with Noah to Abrahamic covenant. Same when the covenant is given through Moses as Mt Sinai. The old is not abrogated, but it is built upon and things after look very different.
   

So, where are all the cleanliness laws, sacrificial laws, feasts, ritual washings etc etc? Well, it’s baked into the new covenant and by extension the church. Some examples:

1. ⁠Sacrificial law: Christ IS most of those sacrifices. He is a sacrifice of thanksgiving (Eucharist literally means thanksgiving), a sacrifice for sin (by his stripes we are healed), a Passover sacrifice (through which we are spared death and brought to life), the day of atonement sacrifice (he is both goats, the goat that takes away the sin and the goat who’s blood purifies the whole camp, now understood to be the whole earth). We still have morning and evening sacrifices (Lauds and Vespers, sacrifices of praise, in the Latin tradition). We still do incense offerings even at Mass and more traditional lauds and vespers celebrations.
   
2. ⁠Cleanliness: this one is entirely wrapped up in the day of atonement. If his blood cleanses the whole world, how can something be called intrinsically unclean? This means that nothing (including food, clothing, or people) are intrinsically unclean. Rather we (and objects) are defiled by what we do (or how it is used). Thus we are still not to have anything to do with unclean things, but what exactly is unclean has changed. You can see this in the fact we purify/cleanse altars that have been desecrated.
   
3. ⁠Ritual washings: baptism, holy water before entering the church, sprinkling over people at high feasts, foot washing
   
4. ⁠Feasts: Pentecost was an Israelite holiday that we still celebrate, Passover is Easter, feast of booths is transfiguration, etc. we just have them renamed for they BECAME to us through the establishment of the new covenant
   
5. ⁠Tabernacle/temple construction: traditional church architecture still abides by the general layout. Holy of Holies: tabernacle and sanctuary. Holy place: knave. Inner court: vestibule. Outer court: the world. Through Christs redemption everyone has moved a step closer to God. Those of relegated to never being in the temple are always in the outer court. But we can all enter the inner court (vestibule). The holy place is not relegated to just priests, but the priesthood of all believers (Catholics in the knave). The priests can all now go into the holy of holies (sanctuary/tabernacle). And instead of one priest once a year going in to God, God comes out to us in the Eucharist.
   
6. ⁠As for the remaining punitive laws, most people only have issue with the penalties assigned. But we’ve already talked about under what circumstances those penalties would be enforced. Basically you had to be unrepentant. So in the Christian understanding, what is consequence of sin? Death. What is death? Well there’s physical death (separation of soul from body) and there’s spiritual death (separation of soul from God). A person who lives in sin without repentance is dying or dead (venial vs mortal sin). And when recognized by the church in a lot of cases an excommunication would be pronounced. This separation from the church, separation of a branch from the true vine. A branch separated is dead. So we don’t execute people as the church, but the church long recognized the civil government’s authority to do so. And even without that, sin is death, and excommunication is death. But it’s important to note that in NO way was the average Israelite running around pronouncing death penalties on people. They had courts and priests that did this. Same as we have tribunals and priests and bishops who do this.
   
7. ⁠Circumcision: this is fulfilled with baptism. It’s the outward sign of entrance into the people of God. Circumcision to become a part of the OT people of God and baptism for the New covenant people of God.
   
8. ⁠A lot of the specifics are alterable with time and circumstance (Jesus gives the apostles this authority with the ability to “bind and loose”). Even in the OT this happened between exodus law in the wilderness vs changes that happen with Leviticus and Deuteronomy since they’re readying to enter the promised land and not be a nomadic people in the wilderness. And even by extra biblical accounts, the specifics had changed a bit in the rituals by the time of the second temple era. Yet Jesus still tells the people to submit to the valid authority of the religious leadership of the day; he notably doesn’t tell them to interpret the Torah for themselves and correct the instructions of priests and rabbis.
   

So practically speaking, yes the triple category can still be laid out. Our ceremonial law is more governed by our liturgical books than Leviticus on a literal front, and our civil law is found in Canon law now, and moral laws (as we have defined the moral life) is still found in the OT among many other places. But all of it is still rooted in what the people of God have been practicing since Mt Sinai though.
Again, my issue with the logic used by fathers in making their determination. I have issue with the practical effect of what they are teaching, and I strongly revere their perspectives. But given there is difference in understanding in tradition, I thought it worth diving in on as something that’s always confused me.

I’m a 24 year old woman currently & two years ago, during this month, I was in an episode of what I know now as psychotic depression. this episode lasted from April 2022 to the beginning of July 2022, with severe negative emotional repercussions & life setbacks for the rest of the year (2022) & some of 2023. today, I am still dealing with ptsd from this experience.
Where it began, I have always had anxiety & depression. During 2022, however, I was very depressed about my parent’s divorce, disappointments, past trauma (what I know now is complex ptsd) & working a very stressful full time job. I was also in school full time & put pressure on myself to make the Dean’s list every semester. I was crying at work and moving slowly during my tasks. My bosses had a talk with me and asked me if I was doing okay; I shared I was depressed & going through a lot. They were supportive. I was using cannabis at this time (mostly legal THC amounts) & overall not coping well.
One day at work, I developed a migraine (usually anxiety or depression related for me) & needed to go home. My boss was not happy with me needing to leave…I was sobbing in her office. We talked & she suggested I see a therapist. I went home feeling defeated. That night, probably 2am, I woke up feeling disconnected from myself. I was pacing outside. I was an anxious mess. The anxiety never subsided~ I was going to work but barely functioning. I had to take care of 20+ children while internally panicking. I paced a lot around the classroom & during outside time. I thought people pleasing would fix this, so I began giving my boss classroom ideas & such.
Then began the delusions… which made work & life in general very difficult. I ended up taking a leave of absence from work for about a week & a half. I came back to work part time as a cleaner, still very sick & dissociated. I had chances at being a teacher again but the support was not there for me.
I reached out to my primary doctor multiple times telling them I feel off and anxious. I went to a few therapists who should have hospitalized me or at least noticed psychotic features. My doctor prescribed buspar, which felt like it was helping at first but I was still very dissociated. I was taking buspar 3 times a day for a week & then stopped because I was convinced it was making me worse. I was prescribed Abilify but of course my delusional mind thought I wasn’t psychotic, so I didn’t take them. I even went to the ER & told them I was confused and dissociated. My older brother was there to attest that I wasn’t myself. They discharged me after giving me propranolol so my heart rate from anxiety wasn’t 160bpm. I wish they admitted me. I lived with my mom at the time, she wasn’t the most supportive & yelled at me to take my meds. I feel like everyone failed me during my crisis. I spent a lot of my time researching my symptoms & posting on depersonalization/derealization forums.
~Trigger Warning~ Talk of my Delusions, symptoms & SI. * I was daydreaming about not living and didn’t think I could make it another second living like that. Living moment to moment was extremely difficult, trying to cope. * Flashbacks, dissociation, anxiety, pacing. * Delusions: * I felt I was the last person on earth. I thought maybe I was dead or god’s last person. I thought I created every thing I read on the internet. I was alone. * I thought people (mostly my bosses) were constantly monitoring me, talking about me. * I was worried I would hurt others. I didn’t want to but I felt out of control so what if I accidentally did. * I felt like my body wasn’t mine. There is probably more, I just don’t want to get into it right now as it’s incredibly triggering. I fear a mental health crisis occurring again, my therapist & I talk about this fear many sessions, & in between sessions ~ I constantly think I’m going insane. my therapist has been patient and kind.
my healing journey consisted of lying in bed for half a year~ I tried doordash, instacart & other part time jobs but couldn’t keep up while trying to process what my brain just went through. I was very flashback-y and depressed. luckily, I have a very supportive boyfriend and he was patient while I healed.
I now live in my own apartment, have had a full time job for a year that I’m being promoted at w/ supportive bosses and coworkers, I have been with my boyfriend in a healthy relationship for 2 years, & I’ve been in therapy with my amazing therapist since August and found a new doctor that listens to me and explains things appropriately. I am still scared sometimes of it coming back but with each day, I feel less broken.
Thanks for reading. ♡ don’t give up.

I grew up in a suburb of Cleveland and have been to Cedar Point a handful of times in the 2000s/early 2010s. But I haven’t lived in Cleveland now for over a decade, most of which I’ve spent overseas. It’s probably been about 15 years since I was last there.
Now I’m visiting home and I’ll be in town from now until mid June and then for another few weeks from mid to late July. I want to go back and get on all the new rides since I’ve last been (and of course the classics as well).
I’m considering going a couple days and/or buying a Fast Lane Pass or Fast Lane Plus Pass and/or staying one night in a park hotel to get the hour early entry, but there’s so many different options that I’m not really sure what’s going to be the best value for money.
I also don’t want to spend a ridiculous amount, like ideally no more than $200-250 all up (excluding food and gas, but including passes/hotel).
First off, how are the weekday crowds right now? I’m thinking with TT2 being down and grade school not being out yet, I should take advantage of the nice weather and go one day this week or next just on a normal pass and I’d still manage to squeeze in a lot. There’s also a few friends who are probably coming this week/next week, but none of them would opt for multiple nights or Fast Pass or anything.
Another question for this near future trip would be is it worth going on a Friday for the two extra hours of open time or does the crowd negate that difference?
If I’m looking to go again later, I’ll probably wait until I’m back in town in July, hoping TT2 will be open by then. Is it worth a two-day trip with one night in a hotel? (But I don’t think TT2 is one of the rides you can get on with early-entry anyway, right?) Or is a Fast Pass or Fast Plus Pass more worthwhile? (Again, neither of those work for TT2 either, right, so it would also be only to save time on other rides…?)
Once it’s proper summertime, crowd wise, is it generally better to go weekday (10am-10pm) or on the weekend for the extra hour (10am-11pm)?
Finally, 3 trips in one season is all it takes to make the season pass a better value, correct? So if I’m thinking about going 2 more times after the soon trip, I should just buy that, no…?
Sorry for the rambling stream of consciousness… 🤦🏻‍♂️
TL;DR: Are Fast Lane or Fast Lane Plus passes worthwhile? How much do the crowds now vs once schools out and weekday vs weekend change? Does the crowd negate the extra hour or two you can get due to a later park close time on a Friday or Saturday? How worthwhile is the early-entry hour if you stay in a hotel?

I moved to a new state with my husband about two months before he deployed. It has been very difficult making friends as I work from home. Even before deactivating my social media, it was very difficult making friends using social media group pages. He has been gone several months and while it hasn’t been easy, because I’m constantly alone, I thought it was going okay.
He emailed me last week, after going radio silent, telling me how much he is struggling and how unhappy he is. Shared that a lot of it is my fault. He doesn’t feel comfortable opening up to me and never will. To preface this, this happened after 5 days of no talking after a “fight”. I put it in quotes because I was genuinely trying to avoid a fight. We were talking on messenger. He was giving me one or two word answers to everything and I started getting frustrated. So I told him I was gonna let him go and to have a good night and I love him. He asked me what he did wrong and I told him nothing. He said I love you too and immediately logged off. I messaged him back explaining that it felt like I was trying to pull teeth talking to him and I know he is exhausted and stressed so instead of hurting my own feelings I would rather get offline. He never opened the message. I also sent him a screen shot about something funny his brother shared with me so he could get context about what I was asking and knew it wasn’t a big deal. But again, he never opened the message.
Five days later is when I received the aforementioned email; he was purposely ignoring me. He had promised me multiple times before that he wouldn’t do that sort of thing again (this was now the fourth time) and this one was by far the longest. I sometimes struggle knowing how to respond because when he shares that I’m upset about something, he gets the context completely wrong. For example, he thinks I get mad at him for talking to his family. That’s not true at all. I get upset that we get to talk for what seems to be a few hours online, and he’s not really participating in sharing anything. I have to ask questions, I get one or two word answers back and that’s it. I try not to push but sometimes I need the communication to feel connected. He doesn’t tell me he misses me, he doesn’t call me babe or honey (he used to) I know he is struggling, and I’m by no means saying I have it worse, but on the boat, he has explicitly told me that he doesn’t like anyone, he doesn’t trust anyone and he absolutely hates this command. I don’t really have any friends but my isolation is not quite self induced.
I responded to his email explaining my side of things, and apologizing for not creating a space for him to feel comfortable to talk to me. That’s literally all I’ve tried to do but he just seems to feel pressure when talking to me. I genuinely believe his stress, anxiety and lack of sleep are highly contributing to his emotional and mental distress. Add that he is in a combat zone and I’m sure its worse. He won’t tell me that though, usually just says he’s not at all worried or makes a really dumb joke about it.
I all but begged him to please let me know if all he needs is space, that I want to support him but the silence is torture to me. I have an anxious attachment style (he is avoidant) so I tend to think worst case scenario. So I requested that he please put my mind at ease that he’s not considering ending our marriage.
Three days later he sends me a very long email talking about how he is not looking forward to coming home, and isnt because we couldn’t get thru a deployment without fighting; that he wants to go to his childhood home to see his family. That we don’t want the same things. That I’m happy where we moved to and he is not. He only chose these orders and the last orders to be close to his family. He hates that I don’t get along with his family and that I don’t really want to move there when he retires.
Let me explain that he lives in a very tiny town where there isn’t even a grocery store. I literally would not have a career within an hour of his town. We had agreed that we could live an hour away, like one of his brothers does and it would still be close enough to his family. Also, his family has been quite rude to me. I have been mending fences with them for the sake of my husband. I don’t care where we live in the grand scheme of things, but I still need to have a job and his father and that side of the family very much abuse alcohol. They are also very ignorant and racist. My husband already struggles with over drinking. That’s not something I want to raise a family around as they can be verbally abusive when drunk, and you never know what’s going to trigger them. They have no goals nor aspirations in life, and that’s okay, but I do/ we did… I thought. My husbands goal is to retire from the service and go home. I was willing to go close (1-2 hours which he had agreed) to his home because I have a while before I can retire.
He proceeded to talk about how he was miserable with his ex wife and doesn’t want to spend six year with me, like he did with her, thinking marriage was supposed to be an unhappy union. That he stayed with her that long because he didn’t want it to fail; also because she convinced him things would get better. They never did, in fact I believe there was some infidelity on her side. He continued on about nonsense, like how he wants the mirrors in our house to stay but I wanted to change them and he has completely given up on having a say on how to update the house we bought. For the record, I left the mirrros the way he wanted. I picked paint colors I knew he would like.
Next, he mentioned how we had gotten in a fight right before moving and in haste, I told him to leave me there. he considered that we do end it then but we agreed to keep going because even though we struggle with communication, we do love each other and want to continue our marriage as overall we are pretty happy.
He ended the email explaining that he has not been happy for a while, has been struggling and while we work good together, he doesn’t believe we are right for each other. That I need to look within and figure out if I am happy in the relationship. That he doesn’t care about my answer but he is not at all happy.That he will never be able to communicate the way I want and he has made more changes for me, like attend couples counseling and anger management, than he ever would have for anyone else.
There are still a few months left to this deployment. I literally have no idea where that leaves me. I’m hurt as shit. I’m angry. I’m confused and frustrated. Not once on this deployment have I even mentioned splitting. Month two was the first time he mentioned divorce. We got past that hurdle and month three he mentioned that we should consider getting pregnant when he gets back. Then some stupid issue comes up and the cycle of being angry and fine continues. In fact, I all but beg him to not leave me when he has these outbursts. I feel stupid.
He is not one to ask for help. He clearly needs help but I have no idea what to do. It’s clear he doesn’t want anything to do with me.

Just have the last 2 setup and then the heist itself.

Hi there, car is driving fine but showing the following code. P2196 Stored - 02 Sensor Signal Stuck Rich Bank 1 Sensor 1 P2626 Pending - 02 Sensor Pumping Current Trim Circuit/Open Bank 1 Sensor 1 P2271 Pending - 02 Sensor Signal Stuck Rich - Bank 1, Sensor Last week it was showing 2 additional code, one regarding MAF sensor. I cleaned the sensor and cleared the codes, and now it’s showing these 3.
Please help.

Any suggestions for a reliable car that will last me 2-3 years? I have a budget of 4,500. I’m not sure where to start. Thanks!

I posted the same thing before but it was so long so I'm posting this again in short ik this is also long but it can't be more shorter than this!!!
In 2022 aug my college started and just after a month i became bestfriend with this girl (we will call her A) n this boy (we will call him B) After a few months A and B got committed with each other After a few months of joining college i fell in love with a girl ( we will call her C) so after a month i told this thing to A and B at that A had sm feelings for me but before she could tell me i told A that i have feelings for a girl when i told A this, she reacted normally n didn't said something like she likes me or she have feelings for me cz at same time A and B were in situationship like they didn't gave tag to themselves yet. They gave the tag after a month
Later on When I confessed my feelings to C . C rejected me indirectly
Now after 1.5 years A n B brokeup so A used to come to me n cry/ rant bout her ex(B) coz i was her only bestf n we were really close
After a month of breakup A told me that she wants to drink n let out everything she's holding inside. Firstly i denied to it but somehow she manages to convince me for it by being emotional n shit
So we went to a beautiful place we were sitting lake side n were having fun normally n was having normal talks suddenly she kisses me, at first i was stunned by this n i felt guilty cz she is my bestf's(B) ex but really i njoyed that too so i didn't tell her to stop . She asks me after kissing that have you ever felt smthg for me i said no i js see you as my bestfriend n nthg else then she reveals that before coming into relationship with B , she had sm feelings for me.
Still after 2 months of breakup, everyfkin day she used to rant bout her ex so i met her n asked for a conclusion coz i was getting hurt from this shit. I gave her 2 options 1)either we give it a tag cz the way we behave isn't less than a couple 2) we will js be normal friends until you move on
She denied to both of it n said let's just go with the flow cz she have feelings for me but at same point she isn't moved on from her past
Shit like this continued till 3 months. After breakup she made a new friends group from that group 1 guy used to like her but she said no to him
Recently she went to sm place with the same group for chilling After a day i saw her friend's ig story in that video she(A) is sitting on that same guy's laps ( that same guy who used to like her(A))
She gave me multiple justifications said she js sat there for 2 fuckin minutes n there wasn't another chair n they had to shoot a video. after that she got up from there. She accepted her mistake said ik i shouldn't have done this but i didn't thought that much n you are thinking too much deep she asking to forgive her
My mind is saying js end this shit cz she'll keep hurting n moreover she haven't moved on yet. My heart is saying forgive her n accept her
Idk what to do anymore I'm just stuck
IF YOU WANT TO KNOW ALL THIS IN DETAIL SO PLEASE READ MY LAST POST

I've been consistently dropping 1 lb a week since January, but the last 2.5 weeks I have been stuck at 145. Was told previously by the doc to continue taking 1mg as long as possible, until I hit a plateau. So how many weeks should pass before I declare it a plateau and go for a higher dose, vs maybe it's just some brief stalling?
SW 165 / CW 145 / GW 110

I personally always enjoyed them, and with the changes to siege you can hold down one point in settlement battles and not have to defend the previous victory point.
(settlement battles NOT capital battles) my only gripe is ladders and their experience with them, sapping your stamina if you use em just ruins their purpose, so I stay away from em with most factions.
(Skaven and others like em not so much) I really like the methodical pressing and fortifying of your settlements, holding back ratios of 2 or 3 to 1 odds, making use of artillery, spells, its just awesome.
The last gripe I have is the unit pathing at times is wack, and my units deciding to hoist up ladders when I'm trying to just path em through the gates. Come to think of it I also hate it when the enemy opens their gates while I'm attacking them, only to close em when my units run through, butchering them and making very difficult for me to destroy said gate because total war jank stuff.
But overall it's still something I wish they supported 😕 it's unfortunate that they dropped support for em, I hope they pick it back up as it is still a lot of great fun.
The MOD: Settlement Battles Returner, ill link it when I get home, but its super easy to find on steam.

I finished a TMS protocol last week which was going give days for multiple sessions every day from 11:00 am to 2:00 pm. They treated my right side of brain, and the last two days my left.
It was mostly to decrease my anxiety. Which it worked, I guess? But I’m hit by depression right now, and mood swings. But, right now I feel hopeless and stuck because according to him TMS doesn’t cause mood swings or depression. I asked another clinic, and they said the same thing.
Something made me feel off about my doc. Which he said that I needed to stop thinking in the past, and to let go of things. But, I wasn’t depressed when I went to him, I was anxious.
Did I make a mistake? I feel frustrated and well hopeless. I’ll see him again next week, but I don’t know what to expect. He is certified, and has also performed various sessions with patients successfully.
Did my brain responded to TMS? What the h am I supposed to say to my parents? This all could be for nothing, right? During the sessions (right side) I felt my brain stimulated and well my anxiety lowered. When they put it on the right side (2 days) I felt motivated. But, now it’s day 5th post treatment and I feel like a rollercoaster with feeling of hopelessness especially with what the dr said that Tms Doesn’t cause mood changes/swings, so I’m worried now.
I don’t think my meds are working and the doc also agrees with that, but I cannot stop taking them until I see him again. (We spoke through phone because I had a breakdown and I really wanted to know what was going on)
I’m doubting everything now, even questioning myself and this decision.