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2024.05.20 07:10 CyberArm116 Is the game worth playing now?
Look i want you to throw it in my face straight between my eyes forget about your good memories and nostalgia with this game and tell me the truth, is it worth playing?, i want to play this game with my friend but all i hearing content got deleted, and bad news
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2024.05.20 07:09 Eastern-Balance-2986 Professional HVAC worker said my furnace wasn’t that bad. See for yourself. The last few pictures are from me cleaning it.
 | I moved into a three bedroom apartment two years ago. I began noticing everyone in the house was getting sick very often. Developing asthma, constantly coughing, runny nose ext…. My son’s doctor said, “ Go straight home and check your furnace, email the pictures to the office” I was completely horrified. Dr said, “ The complex needs to get that cleaned ASAP, I will be emailing the apartment complex as well” he was shocked, very upset about the condition of the furnace . The maintenance guy for the complex didn’t know anything about furnaces. He called a HVAC company. The man brought in some kind of spray foam. Said if i am not satisfied to get back with him in a week or so. I was not satisfied so he came back looked at it again and said, “it looks about as good as it will get” he walked out the door and left. I decided to look through the lease agreement and found where it says HVAC unit, will be cleaned once a year. The apartments were built roughly 18 years ago. Highly doubt it has ever been cleaned. I decided to clean it myself after asking numerous times and getting no results. I read up on it and ordered the proper stuff to do it. I am completely fed up. I do not know how they think it is okay to have a furnace in that condition. I need to contact the property owners, they need to know and be held accountable for not having it cleaned. I can’t imagine what all the other apartments look like. Just sad 😔 The first few pictures are before it was sprayed with the foam. Second half is after the fome. You can definitely tell when you get to the pictures where I cleaned it. Spent an entire Sunday trying to at least get it decent. The damn thing just needs replaced. I cannot imagine what the inside of duct’s the vents look like. 😱 submitted by Eastern-Balance-2986 to hvacadvice [link] [comments] |
2024.05.20 07:09 pkpklong123 Review: Hotel Kabuki in Japantown
After visiting San Francisco for a friend's wedding for a weekend, my partner and I found ourselves staying in Japantown at Kabuki Hotel. Reason why I'm writing this review is because coming from out of town, we felt heavily cat-fished by this hotel and the reviews we read felt inaccurate to what we experienced. Hope folks coming from out of town to please triple check what they're getting at Hotel Kabuki.
-- How we found Kabuki --
After reading many recommendations online, including reddit that Kabuki hotel is highly recommended and that Japantown is a great area to stay. The pictures showed brightly lit rooms with modern contemporary style. We decided to book a queen sized bed room through Chase.
-- Check-In--
When we first checked-in, the lobby gave a great first impression. An updated bar, clean couches and overall, a chic open concept lounge where everyone was enjoying themselves. The host was welcoming, but unfortunately gave us the wrong room number. NBD.
-- Immediately, the bad --
On our way to the rooms, the hallways gave Berkley college dorm vibes. Lights were dimmed with exposed lightbulbs. Upon entering the room, we were suprised by two things: the size and the emptiness of it. About 40% of the room was empty space, decorated with a single chair + desk combo. Lamps were provided as the sole source of light.
Our room was located in the second building on the 3rd floor, which on paper, seems like a decent height. But in reality, it's right next to the streets where I felt closer to the homies each night. You can infer from the latter that sound proofing is almost non-existent in the room.
-- The Good --
The room was really clean despite the whole room being borderline dingy. The bathroom and shower were 2x the size than it needed to be. Water pressure was good. Hair dryer and basic toiletries were provided.
-- Ending Notes --
Check-out was quick but they inform you about additional destination fees that are only briefly mentioned during booking. These are NOT included in the price of the hotel so PLEASE beware. We ended up getting charged an extra $120 for 3 nights.
Kabuki is a standard 3 star hotel with nothing much to write home about. The pictures are definetly heavily filtered and videos online are always filmed on bright days. This is in our opinion NOT a 4 star hotel. It provides all your necessities and gets the job done. I would NOT recommend out of town folks to stay here unless you really like Japantown (which as of 05/16, the pagoda is under construction until 2026).
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-- How we found Kabuki --
After reading many recommendations online, including reddit that Kabuki hotel is highly recommended and that Japantown is a great area to stay. The pictures showed brightly lit rooms with modern contemporary style. We decided to book a queen sized bed room through Chase.
-- Check-In--
When we first checked-in, the lobby gave a great first impression. An updated bar, clean couches and overall, a chic open concept lounge where everyone was enjoying themselves. The host was welcoming, but unfortunately gave us the wrong room number. NBD.
-- Immediately, the bad --
On our way to the rooms, the hallways gave Berkley college dorm vibes. Lights were dimmed with exposed lightbulbs. Upon entering the room, we were suprised by two things: the size and the emptiness of it. About 40% of the room was empty space, decorated with a single chair + desk combo. Lamps were provided as the sole source of light.
Our room was located in the second building on the 3rd floor, which on paper, seems like a decent height. But in reality, it's right next to the streets where I felt closer to the homies each night. You can infer from the latter that sound proofing is almost non-existent in the room.
-- The Good --
The room was really clean despite the whole room being borderline dingy. The bathroom and shower were 2x the size than it needed to be. Water pressure was good. Hair dryer and basic toiletries were provided.
-- Ending Notes --
Check-out was quick but they inform you about additional destination fees that are only briefly mentioned during booking. These are NOT included in the price of the hotel so PLEASE beware. We ended up getting charged an extra $120 for 3 nights.
Kabuki is a standard 3 star hotel with nothing much to write home about. The pictures are definetly heavily filtered and videos online are always filmed on bright days. This is in our opinion NOT a 4 star hotel. It provides all your necessities and gets the job done. I would NOT recommend out of town folks to stay here unless you really like Japantown (which as of 05/16, the pagoda is under construction until 2026).
2024.05.20 07:08 ConsequenceSure3063 Best Cerakote Yeti Cup
 | submitted by ConsequenceSure3063 to u/ConsequenceSure3063 [link] [comments] https://preview.redd.it/x6rqbl25li1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=1f9085f07df14db23750b13d95f57f4cb1bb2d9a Are you looking for a durable and stylish cup to accompany you on your adventures? Look no further! In this article, we'll be rounding up the top Cerakote Yeti Cups on the market, ensuring you find the perfect fit for your next excursion. From icy hikes to hot summer days, the Cerakote Yeti Cup series offers a variety of options to keep your beverage of choice at the optimal temperature. Read on to discover the perfect cup for your next adventure! The Top 7 Best Cerakote Yeti Cup
Reviews🔗Yeti 20 oz Rambler Tumbler with MagSlider Lid - Coralhttps://preview.redd.it/dpq7yde5li1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=9f0422f6b3571ded967c65290c32fcdeada56695 I recently had the chance to try the Yeti 20 oz Rambler Tumbler, and let me tell you, it's been a game-changer for my daily routine. The moment I held this stainless steel on-the-go cup, I knew it was something special. Its durability is unmatched - I could probably drop it off a cliff and it would still be intact (okay, maybe not that extreme, but you get the point). One of the standout features of this tumbler is its ability to keep my drinks at the perfect temperature. Whether it's a steaming hot cup of coffee or an ice-cold beverage on a scorching summer day, this Yeti tumbler never disappoints. The double-wall vacuum insulation does the trick, ensuring my drinks stay just as I like them for hours on end. However, there is one aspect that could use some improvement. The tumbler can be a bit slippery, especially for those with smaller hands like myself. A bit of texture on the exterior would make all the difference in preventing any accidental drops. Another minor issue is the lid, which can sometimes become loose after a few uses. When this happens, it can cause my drink to spill out, leaving a mess on my shirt. However, I've found that a quick adjustment usually solves the problem. Despite these minor setbacks, the Yeti 20 oz Rambler Tumbler has become an essential part of my daily life. Its stylish design and impressive performance make it well worth the investment, and I can confidently say it's the best tumbler I've ever owned. With its ability to keep my drinks at the right temperature and its sleek, modern look, I can't help but highly recommend this tumbler to anyone in the market for an on-the-go cup solution. 🔗Yeti Cerakote Travel Mug: Ultimate Insulation for Cold & Hot Drinkshttps://preview.redd.it/p8x7ea86li1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=085b9b8cdb9f9006bb67d109c1f4c64dd85b31c8 When I first got my hands on the Yeti Rambler 20 oz Travel Mug, I was immediately drawn to its unique High Desert Clay design. The lid - the Rambler Stronghold Lid - was a breeze to use, with its magnet technology making it easy for both right-and left-handed users. The elevated handle was a game-changer, allowing me to enjoy cupholder convenience just about anywhere. Although I loved the handle, I found that the lid had a few drawbacks. The lid itself was not interchangeable with other Rambler Drinkware models, and I couldn't use different colored magsliders. I wish it was more versatile on that front, but it's worth considering the Stronghold Lid's function and how it fits your personal preferences. Now, let's talk about the mug itself. The Yeti Rambler kept my drinks cold for a long time, without the need to refill as often as I had to with my old mug. The outside design, with the No Sweat element, helped me to avoid condensation on the outside, keeping my hands dry. The mug didn't leak, even when accidentally knocked over, and the lid's seal was strong. One thing that stood out to me was the mug's ability to fit into a car's cupholder flawlessly, something that's not always the case in my experience. The unique combination of style, durability, and convenience made this Yeti mug a standout choice for anyone in search of a dependable travel mug experience. 🔗YETI High Desert Clay Rambler 26oz Bottle with Chug Caphttps://preview.redd.it/bxped6h6li1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=e19f0c98f106bed07933156383a4e9c05a55eab5 As a frequent adventurer, I got tired of having lukewarm drinks on my outdoor trips. That's when I discovered the YETI Rambler High Desert Clay Bottle with Chug Cap, and boy, was I hooked! The first thing you'll notice about this bottle is its build - it's made of kitchen-grade stainless steel that's puncture and rust-resistant. I tossed this in my backpack, and it didn't even scratch. The insulation works like a charm, keeping my coffee hot for hours and my ice water cold all day long. No more lukewarm frustrations for me! But let's not forget about the Chug Cap - it's designed to give you a smooth, leak-free drinking experience. However, I did find it a bit tricky to twist off initially. The cap does have a unique design that might take some getting used to. I also wish the company offered individual replacement parts for the cap lid, which seems like a missed opportunity for customization. But overall, I'm really satisfied with the YETI Rambler High Desert Clay Bottle with Chug Cap. It's a game-changer for outdoor enthusiasts like myself. 🔗Stylish Yeti 14 oz Rambler Mug for Hot and Cold Beverageshttps://preview.redd.it/2l0znue7li1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=b5cdc3d66b106c5f05667f3a203183b3ac38b2e3 Ever enjoyed a relaxing morning with your favorite hot beverage, only for the warmth to dissipate, leaving you with a lukewarm sip? Say goodbye to that frustration with the Yeti 14 oz Rambler Mug. Made with 18/8 stainless steel, the sturdy construction not only feels solid in your hands but also retains heat incredibly well. The mug's comfortable, full-loop TripleGrip handle is thoughtfully designed for wide hands, making it easy to grab and go. One of the key features that stood out in my experience is the double-wall vacuum insulation, which keeps your beverages at the desired temperature for hours on end. But the magic doesn't stop there. With the mug's no-sweat design, you can confidently take it on the go without worrying about condensation dripping down the exterior. It truly is the perfect companion for your daily adventures, be it at the office or on a camping trip. Of course, no product is without its cons. While the mug is undoubtedly durable and built to last, some might find it a tad heavier than their average mug. Additionally, one must exercise caution when handling or storing items in the mug since the triple-loop handle can become a bit of an obstacle in tight spaces. In conclusion, the Yeti 14 oz Rambler Mug is a game-changer for anyone seeking a reliable and long-lasting mug to keep their beverages at the perfect temperature. With its stylish design and top-notch performance, it's definitely a worthy addition to any coffee lover's collection. 🔗Yeti 14 oz Rambler Mug with MagSlider Lid - High Desert Clayhttps://preview.redd.it/l0toqry7li1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=2f15d552801cf6389d61d0770b1935c98258e2c3 As a coffee enthusiast, I was excited to try the Yeti 14 oz Rambler Mug with Magslider Lid in the High Desert Clay color. The moment I held it, I could feel the sturdiness and quality of the material. The double-wall vacuum insulation truly works, keeping my coffee hot for hours on end, no matter what adventure it accompanied me on. What stood out for me was the design of the lid. Not only did it prevent spills, but it also made sipping my coffee on the go much more convenient. Additionally, the DuraCoat finish and lack of sweating made it a great accessory to take with me everywhere. One thing to note, however, is that while the magnet on the lid is useful in keeping drinks contained, it's not leakproof and should be handled carefully to avoid accidental spills. Overall, I highly recommend this mug to fellow coffee lovers and adventurers seeking a durable, high-quality way to enjoy their beverages. 🔗Durable, Insulated 10 oz. YETI White Tumblerhttps://preview.redd.it/zs4ss3i8li1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=87e82eb3cace05052d231c5cc6b5156006e0ddad I recently tried out the Yeti Rambler 10 oz Tumbler in white, and let me tell you, it has been a game-changer for my daily coffee routine. The 10 oz size is perfect for a quick cup on the go, and the wide opening makes it easy to fill and clean. The vacuum-insulated body does an excellent job at keeping my coffee at the ideal temperature, even after several hours. One of the standout features of this tumbler is its puncture and rust-resistant stainless steel construction. After using it for a few weeks, I can confidently say it's built to last. The MagSlider lid is another great addition, providing a secure closure that prevents spills without compromising on ease of drinking. However, there are a couple of downsides to consider. The lid, while effective, is not fully leak-proof, so I recommend avoiding placing it in a bag or backpack with other items. Additionally, the slightly tapered shape makes it a bit less stable than a straight cup, but it doesn't cause any major issues. Overall, the Yeti 10 oz Tumbler in white has exceeded my expectations and become an essential part of my morning routine. Despite the minor drawbacks, it's definitely worth the investment for its top-notch quality and durability. 🔗Cerakote Yeti Cup: High Desert Clay Bottle with Insulating Chug Cap for Outdoor Adventureshttps://preview.redd.it/cjxjeh89li1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=2e5a983a7e888acf5243e2b4b50b6cdfb359c452 One sunny afternoon, I decided to bring along my favorite stainless steel bottle, the YETI Rambler High Desert Clay Bottle with Chug Cap, for a long hike in the mountains. The moment I held it, I could feel the quality of the material, the no-sweat exterior, and the comforting weight in my hand. It was the perfect companion for my hike, keeping my water cold and refreshing as I walked up the steep trail. As I took a break to catch my breath, I noticed that the bottle was surprisingly easy to handle with its TripleHaul handle. The handle, with its quick twist, allowed me to set it down with ease and protect the contents from spilling. The Chug Cap, being the default lid choice, proved to be convenient for filling my bottle quickly, making my hike even more enjoyable. However, after a few hours of hiking, I started to feel rather parched. I took a sip of water from the bottle, only to find that the cap was a bit hard to hold while drinking. I had to hold the cap itself in order to prevent spills, which proved to be a small inconvenience. Despite this, my YETI Rambler High Desert Clay Bottle with Chug Cap remained an excellent companion on my mountainous adventure. Upon returning home, I took the time to clean my bottle in the dishwasher, and it was as easy as promised – no more work than what I was already doing. The bottle's leakproof nature gave me peace of mind as I knew my beverages would stay inside, even when I turned it upside down. Overall, the YETI Rambler High Desert Clay Bottle with Chug Cap made my hike more satisfying and comfortable, providing me with a refreshing beverage whenever I needed it. The sturdy build and reliable insulation make it the ideal companion for any outdoor adventure. Despite the minor drawbacks, the pros outweigh the cons, making it a reliable and enjoyable accessory for my daily life. Buyer's GuideCerakote Yeti Cup is a type of tumbler designed to keep your drinks hot or cold for an extended period. These cups are known for their durability and insulation properties, making them popular among outdoor enthusiasts and casual drinkers alike. Before you make a purchase, consider the following factors to ensure you're getting the best Cerakote Yeti Cup for your needs.Material and ConstructionCerakote Yeti Cups are typically made of 18/8 stainless steel, which is resistant to rust and corrosion. The tumblers have a double-walled, vacuum-insulated design that helps maintain the temperature of your drink. Look for cups with a durable Cerakote coating, which provides protection against scratches and improves the grip. https://preview.redd.it/yy4ei4k9li1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=423318da1b1de5b804d844965466485947572a2b Insulation and Temperature RetentionOne of the main features of Cerakote Yeti Cup is its ability to keep drinks hot or cold for an extended period. The tumblers are equipped with Thermostat Chamber technology, which allows them to maintain temperature for hours. Check the product specifications for the cup's insulation and temperature retention capabilities before making a purchase.Size and CapacityCerakote Yeti Cups come in various sizes, ranging from 10 oz to 26 oz. Consider the size of the cup based on your daily needs or the number of people you plan to serve. Larger cups may be more suitable for outdoor activities where you need to stay hydrated throughout the day.Lid and Spout DesignThe lid and spout design of Cerakote Yeti Cups can impact their overall functionality. Look for tumblers with spill-proof lids and leak-proof seals to avoid spills and keep the contents fresh. Many models also feature a built-in straw, making them convenient for on-the-go use. https://preview.redd.it/eqaxok4ali1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=6cd000a1542451be9dca0aff14150f12b2c120c1 Cleaning and MaintenanceCerakote Yeti Cups are designed to be easy to clean and maintain. The stainless steel construction and durable Cerakote coating make them resistant to stains and odors. To clean your cup, use a soft brush or sponge and mild soap. Avoid using abrasive cleaners or harsh chemicals, as they can damage the coating.Additional Features and AccessoriesSome Cerakote Yeti Cups come with additional features, such as a handle or a built-in carry loop. Accessories like cup carriers, coasters, and sleeves can also enhance the overall user experience. Consider these extras when comparing different models to find the best fit for your needs.Brand Reputation and WarrantyCerakote Yeti Cups are manufactured by Yeti, a well-known brand in the outdoor and leisure industry. Yeti is known for its high-quality products and strong customer support. Check the product's warranty for any manufacturing defects or issues with the cerakote coating. A good warranty can provide peace of mind and ensure your investment is protected. https://preview.redd.it/qk9vddeali1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=57f77abb335ed6bd8ada50d4f0f87bc680a977b9 Price and BudgetCerakote Yeti Cups are available in a wide price range, depending on their size, features, and brand reputation. Establish a budget and prioritize the features that are most important to you. This will help you filter the options and find the best Cerakote Yeti Cup within your price range.When selecting a Cerakote Yeti Cup, consider the material, insulation, size, lid and spout design, cleaning, accessories, brand reputation, warranty, and price. These factors can help you make an informed decision and find a product that meets your needs and budget. Happy shopping! FAQWhat is Cerakote Yeti Cup?The Cerakote Yeti Cup is a high-performance, durable, and versatile outdoor beverage container. It is designed for use in rough and extreme environments, offering a reliable solution for keeping drinks cold for extended periods. https://preview.redd.it/jqxsiktali1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=468afa624b858e0255c1d77254d114a1491077d3 What makes Cerakote Yeti Cup superior to other outdoor drink containers?The Cerakote Yeti Cup features several key advantages over other outdoor drink containers:
What is Cerakote?Cerakote is a specialized powder coating that offers superior durability, protection, and an attractive finish. It is formed when a powder consisting of tiny ceramic-based particles is applied to a surface and then heated in a convection oven. The result is a high-quality, protective coating that resists wear, corrosion, and UV damage.Is Cerakote dangerous or toxic?Cerakote is non-toxic and safe for human contact. It has been tested and approved for use in food preparation and storage areas. Furthermore, it does not emit harmful or toxic fumes during baking, making it a safe choice for all users.What are the benefits of Cerakote?The benefits of Cerakote include:
What types of drinks can I use in the Cerakote Yeti Cup?The Cerakote Yeti Cup is designed for use with both hot and cold beverages. This includes teas, coffee, hot cocoa, and even ice water. The cup's insulation ensures that the beverages maintain their temperature, keeping hot drinks hot and cold drinks cold for extended periods.What size does Cerakote Yeti Cup come in?The Cerakote Yeti Cup is available in several different sizes, including 20 and 40 ounces, ensuring that there is a size to suit virtually any need or application.As an Amazon™ Associate, we earn from qualifying purchases. |
2024.05.20 07:08 OilOk70 AITA for wanting to abandon my husband because he came out to me?
I (33f) and my husband (34m) have been in a commitment and solid relationship since we were 18.
If you need background on our relationship read this or skip ahead:
Background: We met online in a game in two separate states. We moved in together in his state and got married in court during lockdown in 2021. Neither of us are close with our families because of their extremely conservative and religious convictions. I am romantically attracted to women more than sexually which I confessed to my husband at a later time in our relationship. I didn’t have and don’t have any interest in other women since we met. I later shared with him my spiritual beliefs and practices as a witch that I suppressed since I was caught by my mother as a teenager. I was shammed a lot for being me growing up. I grew up in a very emotionally unstable home. I also did not receive the supports I needed as a child with adhd and autism that developed anxiety and depression. There is a lot behind that but it is what it is at this point. This being said, my dad also has adhd and mental illnesses that he would display with subtle to full outbursts of anger and my mom unresolved childhood neglect and bullying and what I believe to be some form(s) of intellectual deficits which severely affected her self esteem and her almost unhealthy strong attachment to me. So I grew up to be a clusterfuck of mental, emotional, developmental and spiritual instability. I was also bullied and suffered betrayals from friendships because of various factors often due to my neurodivergent behaviors. So as to be expected, I 100% formed an anxious attachment style. Please look it up so you are familiar with this. It’s a big part of the conundrum I’m in.
(DISCLAIMER: I’m not into the evil fuckery type magic btw… I’m the kind of witch that practices moon magic with lots of love, light and blessings n all that shit - yes I’m in a pissy mood from all of this so you’ll be getting that sort of spice throughout). .
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If you skipped ahead it starts here:
My husband had slowly loosened up on his own strict conservative programming since he started seeing me become happier and more secure in myself since I started practicing my personal spirituality again and dropping my “mask” more often and being that weird quirky neurodivergent girl more openly and working so hard on myself to overcome my childhood traumas and the shame that stifled my authentic self. And that was great! Until it wasn’t for me in our monogamous relationship.
He guilted me (unintentionally) into having a threesome 2x with a woman who we ended up having a sort of friendship afterword but I was always very mentally off put by it but faked being ok for a while. After each of the 2x weeks apart, I became very emotionally numb to my husband. Like my heart literally froze and I was feeling almost like a cold-hearted bitch, even telling my husband I wanted a divorce. Mind you, he was in a bad mental state at this time in which I didn’t really know because he never truly expressed his actual emotions much. I found out later that he had been feeling pretty severe distress from his mom who has been making horrible mistakes and acting like a spoiled child begging him for money and complaining to him about her constant fights with her sister who was like a second mom to him in which he kept being placed in the center. I have my own traumas from her due to a psychiatric break she had which was slowly building that we weren’t aware of until she snapped fully disconnecting from reality and the entire time I was the center of her hostilities, likely because I was taking her baby boy from her - if you’re Hispanic, you understand this atrocity I was committing 🙄. My poor husband was under her thumb to the point he was completely sheltered and dependent on her - as a full grown man in his 20s until I literally helped him become an independent man in thought and lifestyle. So imagine that stress being in the middle and then having me add in to that with my constant complaining and irritation with his mom’s bs affecting us constantly in one way or another.
And then ADD TO THAT he was suffering severe caregiver burnout because I’ve been chronically ill since we met and still in that stage where all my doctors were telling me I was just anxious so they didn’t have to actually do their due diligence, which was then exacerbated significantly after I was in a car accident and they couldn’t figure out was was wrong for almost 2-3 years until I got the right care and back on my feet- kind of. I have been off and on disability - including a SI attempt last March - for about 6 yrs now. So my husband has been my main support for almost 12-13 years of our relationship. I obviously am not close to my parents (and because my dads a money hungry idiot I was always moving around California for his next big promotion which separated me at 7yrs old from my then 22yr old sister and her 2yr old daughter).
When he finally broke down and told me, we had a long and difficult talk with so many tears and a bit step toward healing ourselves individually and as partners. Don’t get me wrong, we had our fair share of misunderstandings and issues but we always came together stronger and closer. I thought before this significant issue that I had the most wonderful and strong marriage in the world. I mean, not only was he still there, but he helped me get back up every time I wanted to give up which allowed me so much success and the ability to purchase our 2nd home by the time we were 32yrs old. The 1st house we had to sell because of the accident and we hit rock bottom, and then we got this one a year ago and almost lost it again due to my health.
We worked to a point where we were happy again. Like the kids who met and fell in love 15yrs ago. We just had the PERFECT date day (we had 6 separate exciting things packed into that day). At the end of the night we walked around the lake by our house and sat down on a bench overlooking the water when after some time snuggling and laughing and talking about our day…. He confessed something major to me. Something that has made me feel that slipping of warmth in my heart for him once again.
He brought up the poly thing again. But this time, he said after much research and soul searching, he identifies as polyamorous. I asked him if he meant he wanted just flings or something with other people or if he meant… romantic relationships as well. With sadness in his voice he confirmed. He wanted a romantic relationship outside of me. This is why he hadn’t been wearing his wedding ring in a long time. It started during to his skin condition on his hand but when it healed he lied and said it bothers his hand whenever I’d ask after that.
I know he will always keep me as the permanent primary partner I guess they call it, but I just can’t get over this intense sense of anger, jealousy, fear of abandonment. Remember that anxious-attachment style? Well this is the WORST NIGHTNARE for someone with that type of attachment.
It feels almost like he punched me square in the chest with all his strength and this boy has some serious biceps. I love him so much and as much as I want to tell him no, that I am his wife and I will be the only one because HE is MY husband, that would lead to that awful resentment we both held for what felt like ages. You know that saying? If you love them, let them go? That’s how I feel. He has made it so clear he will always be at my side and that his love for me is everything. But he can’t deny who he is and I can’t rip that part out of him and burn it until not even ashes remain.
I know he would be a complete and utter mess if I divorced him, but I feel so devastated. He has done so much research and I asked him to give me the resources he said he’d collected for me to understand him and what this whole polyamory thing is. I love this man with all of my being. He’s my soulmate. Or I guess… was.
I don’t want to feel this way but I don’t know how I’m going to get over this right now. We talked about couples counseling but my heart and anxiety want to just throw in the towel to avoid any more pain.
****I’m so sorry for the long and possibly over encumbered post…
But, AITA for wanting to shut down and kick my loving husband to the curb? ****
Any advice for this anxiously attached, autistic wife married to a monogamous and now polygamous husband would be so appreciated.
Edit: he only wants to see a partner WE BOTH are into. But I want to punch the shit out of every imaginary man or woman who would dare steal any millisecond of my man’s affection.
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If you need background on our relationship read this or skip ahead:
Background: We met online in a game in two separate states. We moved in together in his state and got married in court during lockdown in 2021. Neither of us are close with our families because of their extremely conservative and religious convictions. I am romantically attracted to women more than sexually which I confessed to my husband at a later time in our relationship. I didn’t have and don’t have any interest in other women since we met. I later shared with him my spiritual beliefs and practices as a witch that I suppressed since I was caught by my mother as a teenager. I was shammed a lot for being me growing up. I grew up in a very emotionally unstable home. I also did not receive the supports I needed as a child with adhd and autism that developed anxiety and depression. There is a lot behind that but it is what it is at this point. This being said, my dad also has adhd and mental illnesses that he would display with subtle to full outbursts of anger and my mom unresolved childhood neglect and bullying and what I believe to be some form(s) of intellectual deficits which severely affected her self esteem and her almost unhealthy strong attachment to me. So I grew up to be a clusterfuck of mental, emotional, developmental and spiritual instability. I was also bullied and suffered betrayals from friendships because of various factors often due to my neurodivergent behaviors. So as to be expected, I 100% formed an anxious attachment style. Please look it up so you are familiar with this. It’s a big part of the conundrum I’m in.
(DISCLAIMER: I’m not into the evil fuckery type magic btw… I’m the kind of witch that practices moon magic with lots of love, light and blessings n all that shit - yes I’m in a pissy mood from all of this so you’ll be getting that sort of spice throughout). .
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If you skipped ahead it starts here:
My husband had slowly loosened up on his own strict conservative programming since he started seeing me become happier and more secure in myself since I started practicing my personal spirituality again and dropping my “mask” more often and being that weird quirky neurodivergent girl more openly and working so hard on myself to overcome my childhood traumas and the shame that stifled my authentic self. And that was great! Until it wasn’t for me in our monogamous relationship.
He guilted me (unintentionally) into having a threesome 2x with a woman who we ended up having a sort of friendship afterword but I was always very mentally off put by it but faked being ok for a while. After each of the 2x weeks apart, I became very emotionally numb to my husband. Like my heart literally froze and I was feeling almost like a cold-hearted bitch, even telling my husband I wanted a divorce. Mind you, he was in a bad mental state at this time in which I didn’t really know because he never truly expressed his actual emotions much. I found out later that he had been feeling pretty severe distress from his mom who has been making horrible mistakes and acting like a spoiled child begging him for money and complaining to him about her constant fights with her sister who was like a second mom to him in which he kept being placed in the center. I have my own traumas from her due to a psychiatric break she had which was slowly building that we weren’t aware of until she snapped fully disconnecting from reality and the entire time I was the center of her hostilities, likely because I was taking her baby boy from her - if you’re Hispanic, you understand this atrocity I was committing 🙄. My poor husband was under her thumb to the point he was completely sheltered and dependent on her - as a full grown man in his 20s until I literally helped him become an independent man in thought and lifestyle. So imagine that stress being in the middle and then having me add in to that with my constant complaining and irritation with his mom’s bs affecting us constantly in one way or another.
And then ADD TO THAT he was suffering severe caregiver burnout because I’ve been chronically ill since we met and still in that stage where all my doctors were telling me I was just anxious so they didn’t have to actually do their due diligence, which was then exacerbated significantly after I was in a car accident and they couldn’t figure out was was wrong for almost 2-3 years until I got the right care and back on my feet- kind of. I have been off and on disability - including a SI attempt last March - for about 6 yrs now. So my husband has been my main support for almost 12-13 years of our relationship. I obviously am not close to my parents (and because my dads a money hungry idiot I was always moving around California for his next big promotion which separated me at 7yrs old from my then 22yr old sister and her 2yr old daughter).
When he finally broke down and told me, we had a long and difficult talk with so many tears and a bit step toward healing ourselves individually and as partners. Don’t get me wrong, we had our fair share of misunderstandings and issues but we always came together stronger and closer. I thought before this significant issue that I had the most wonderful and strong marriage in the world. I mean, not only was he still there, but he helped me get back up every time I wanted to give up which allowed me so much success and the ability to purchase our 2nd home by the time we were 32yrs old. The 1st house we had to sell because of the accident and we hit rock bottom, and then we got this one a year ago and almost lost it again due to my health.
We worked to a point where we were happy again. Like the kids who met and fell in love 15yrs ago. We just had the PERFECT date day (we had 6 separate exciting things packed into that day). At the end of the night we walked around the lake by our house and sat down on a bench overlooking the water when after some time snuggling and laughing and talking about our day…. He confessed something major to me. Something that has made me feel that slipping of warmth in my heart for him once again.
He brought up the poly thing again. But this time, he said after much research and soul searching, he identifies as polyamorous. I asked him if he meant he wanted just flings or something with other people or if he meant… romantic relationships as well. With sadness in his voice he confirmed. He wanted a romantic relationship outside of me. This is why he hadn’t been wearing his wedding ring in a long time. It started during to his skin condition on his hand but when it healed he lied and said it bothers his hand whenever I’d ask after that.
I know he will always keep me as the permanent primary partner I guess they call it, but I just can’t get over this intense sense of anger, jealousy, fear of abandonment. Remember that anxious-attachment style? Well this is the WORST NIGHTNARE for someone with that type of attachment.
It feels almost like he punched me square in the chest with all his strength and this boy has some serious biceps. I love him so much and as much as I want to tell him no, that I am his wife and I will be the only one because HE is MY husband, that would lead to that awful resentment we both held for what felt like ages. You know that saying? If you love them, let them go? That’s how I feel. He has made it so clear he will always be at my side and that his love for me is everything. But he can’t deny who he is and I can’t rip that part out of him and burn it until not even ashes remain.
I know he would be a complete and utter mess if I divorced him, but I feel so devastated. He has done so much research and I asked him to give me the resources he said he’d collected for me to understand him and what this whole polyamory thing is. I love this man with all of my being. He’s my soulmate. Or I guess… was.
I don’t want to feel this way but I don’t know how I’m going to get over this right now. We talked about couples counseling but my heart and anxiety want to just throw in the towel to avoid any more pain.
****I’m so sorry for the long and possibly over encumbered post…
But, AITA for wanting to shut down and kick my loving husband to the curb? ****
Any advice for this anxiously attached, autistic wife married to a monogamous and now polygamous husband would be so appreciated.
Edit: he only wants to see a partner WE BOTH are into. But I want to punch the shit out of every imaginary man or woman who would dare steal any millisecond of my man’s affection.
2024.05.20 07:05 ExaminationOld6393 Tucking Properly and garments for all day tuck
TUCKING ALL DAY
A serious guide for a very sexy purpose
This guide is intended to provide information to help a person who is Assigned Male At Birth (AMAB) the instruction for a comfortable way to be tucked for long periods of time and/or to achieve the smoothest appearance. Various clothing options will be provided as well as the pro’s and con’s of each one.
Disclaimer – This guide is intended for people who are 18 years of age or older. For serious tucking only. People who are pre-Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT) or who are not going to change their hormones can experience some initial discomfort, pain, or even physical harm leading to a hernia. Consult your primary care physician at your next regular checkup, they will want to conduct an inspection of your lower abdomen for any potential signs of a future hernia. The test is simple involving some pressure being used outside your body to test for any signs of tears just below your skin. While a hernia is not likely to happen to most folks, it is highly worth a few few extra seconds at your visit to the doctor.
This guide should not be used as your only source of information. Please read the entire document before attempting the tucking method from section 2 of this guide.
Thanks, I hope this helps you get soft and smooth you wonderful people!
Section 1 - Terminology
Many people who want to tuck for extended periods of time do not want to refer to their genitalia by the medical terminology. This guide will use slang terminology instead.
Medical Term Term Used Here Definition Used Here
Testicles Berries Balls
Anus and Colon Bussy The surrounding skin is well shaven and the colon is cleaned and ready for penetration
Scrotum Coin Purse This does not include the testicles
Penis Clitty The shaft and head of the penis
Male Genitalia Meat Meaning the external portion, once the testicles are internal they are not included under “Meat”
? Grower A penis which is smaller when not erect
? Shower A penis which is approximately the same size whether flaccid or erect
Section 2 Tucking method
2-1 Tucking Intro
One of the goals of an All Day Tuck is for your Meat to stay in place and the important factors are proper coverage of the garment, sufficient compression of the Meat, and enough insulation to keep everything warm enough to remain a little moist. At times you may want to add a Boy Short panty or any women’s panty over your chosen tucking garments.
Prolonged tucking requires proper hygiene to avoid a yeast infection. It also requires a regular shave down there to avoid chaffing.
The first few times you tuck using this method there can be some initial discomfort or even pain. Do not push yourself too hard. You may want to ease into the full tuck by attempting this method but stop before following all steps. This can be similar to a little stretching before a physical activity. You will need to assess your level of pain, it should not be extreme.
At times you may want to tuck and experience difficulty because there is too much blood in the spongy tissue of your Clitty or you may not have the proper garments yet to contain a proper tuck. In these cases you can follow this tucking method and simply sit down at the edge of your bed or a chair to reduce the size of your swollen Clitty or just to hold your tuck in place
2-2 Hiding Those Berries!
You may need to crouch or lay on your side for best results. Begin by placing your dominant hand behind your back and between the legs.
Grasp the very bottom of your Coin Purse and give it a little tension by pulling gently downwards.
Maintain that light tension on the Coin Purse and bring it back towards your Bussy.
Your Berries should have risen and now be close to the base of your Clitty.
Using your non-dominant hand and spread your fingers in order to be able to manipulate both of your berries. (Live Long and Prosper hand sign From Star Trek)
Gently encourage your Berries upwards on either side of your Clitty. This is where discomfort or pain may occur.
*For novices. You may wish to focus on one Berry at a time if there is difficulty or pain. Just make a small circular motion on the underside of the Berry/Berries to encourage them upwards. There are small openings to the lower abdomen where Berries drop from in infancy. Those openings are usually smaller than your adult Berries, until they are gently stretched a little.
For those who are going to take HRT, an anti-androgen will be taken until such time as the berries cease to function. At that point they will likely become smaller, softer, and less sensitive. Tucking becomes much easier but reproductive functions will be greatly affect
Keeping your berries in the original position will increase their temperature. This will not have any feminizing effects on your body but will likely decrease your sperm production and I have no idea if it will affect production of Testosterone.
2-3 Getting The Meat Into Position
Once the Berries “pop” into position use your non-dominant hand to push your Clitty back towards your Bussy and against your Coin Purse. Note, you should still be using your dominant hand to maintain the position and tension on your Coin Purse.
The final step for this tucking method and just before you secure your tuck with appropriate clothing is to hold the tuck together by squeezing your thighs together.
The next section covers the popular clothing items used to maintain a tuck in a comfortable and sustainable way.
NO DUCT TAPE!!!
Section 3 Clothing To Secure That Tuck
Gaffs
I use many different brands and do not recommend any one over another. I will say that BBlair offers good quality and it’s Trans Owned! Gaff And Go offers gaffs with thinner waist straps. Pictured here is a transwoman who likely has less meat than average or an expert at minimizing There are many shapes and materials for modern gaffs. Stretch Satin is the most securing material and stretches less than other clothing options listed below, but has an optimal design. A stretch satin gaff is a great choice for beginners and experts alike. Some less desirable aspects are the cheaper models often do not have a narrow thong leaving to much material between the butt cheeks, they are generally 25-35 USD, and are less sexy or less like a woman’s panty.
Most of my 14 years tucking have been with Gaff panties.
No-Show Women’s Stretch Brief Panties
I have no brand opinions for these. You can just go to any women’s department and are likely to find something that works.
This is the most comfortable and least sexy option for securing a tuck, most suitable for a good night’s sleep. Multiple panties are layered with one or two being put on backwards. You may add a final layer with the panties put on in the intended position. You should experiment with panties one and two sizes smaller than recommended for your waist/hip size.
Your Meat may remain secured best if positioned a little more towards your front which can leave a little bulging with some outfits.
Even More Options – Advanced
Stripper Clothing!!! Bonus points!!!
Body Zone and The Beauty Cave offer options I have access to at a store near me. I am not endorsing these Brands over other brands, I just do not know of other brands that may work. These items are thin and stretchy unlike similar items designed for swimming, this is key.
Bikini Bottoms Method
This is great for those with less Meat or who are experienced with gaffs and with minimizing their Clitties.
Prepare your tuck and put a string bikini bottom on as a first layer. It should be located further back than intended so that the bottom of the Coin Purse and head of the Clitty will be contained. It’s okay if a little Meat sticks out over the top.
Put a second string bikini on as intended to be worn. This method may not work for everyone and will take some practice. A tie string bikini might help with it’s customizable tension.
This is the method I use for tanning and achieving porn star tan lines.
Conclusion
Compression
Comfort
Warmth
Find what works for you and have fun
SIT ON IT!!!
About the author
I was assigned male at birth. I am in my 40s now. I was deeply closeted until I was 30 years old and just ready for everything to end. I love this world and want others to have an easier time in life than I did. I love you all. See you around you sexy babes <3
submitted by ExaminationOld6393 to MtF [link] [comments]
A serious guide for a very sexy purpose
This guide is intended to provide information to help a person who is Assigned Male At Birth (AMAB) the instruction for a comfortable way to be tucked for long periods of time and/or to achieve the smoothest appearance. Various clothing options will be provided as well as the pro’s and con’s of each one.
Disclaimer – This guide is intended for people who are 18 years of age or older. For serious tucking only. People who are pre-Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT) or who are not going to change their hormones can experience some initial discomfort, pain, or even physical harm leading to a hernia. Consult your primary care physician at your next regular checkup, they will want to conduct an inspection of your lower abdomen for any potential signs of a future hernia. The test is simple involving some pressure being used outside your body to test for any signs of tears just below your skin. While a hernia is not likely to happen to most folks, it is highly worth a few few extra seconds at your visit to the doctor.
This guide should not be used as your only source of information. Please read the entire document before attempting the tucking method from section 2 of this guide.
Thanks, I hope this helps you get soft and smooth you wonderful people!
Section 1 - Terminology
Many people who want to tuck for extended periods of time do not want to refer to their genitalia by the medical terminology. This guide will use slang terminology instead.
Medical Term Term Used Here Definition Used Here
Testicles Berries Balls
Anus and Colon Bussy The surrounding skin is well shaven and the colon is cleaned and ready for penetration
Scrotum Coin Purse This does not include the testicles
Penis Clitty The shaft and head of the penis
Male Genitalia Meat Meaning the external portion, once the testicles are internal they are not included under “Meat”
? Grower A penis which is smaller when not erect
? Shower A penis which is approximately the same size whether flaccid or erect
Section 2 Tucking method
2-1 Tucking Intro
One of the goals of an All Day Tuck is for your Meat to stay in place and the important factors are proper coverage of the garment, sufficient compression of the Meat, and enough insulation to keep everything warm enough to remain a little moist. At times you may want to add a Boy Short panty or any women’s panty over your chosen tucking garments.
Prolonged tucking requires proper hygiene to avoid a yeast infection. It also requires a regular shave down there to avoid chaffing.
The first few times you tuck using this method there can be some initial discomfort or even pain. Do not push yourself too hard. You may want to ease into the full tuck by attempting this method but stop before following all steps. This can be similar to a little stretching before a physical activity. You will need to assess your level of pain, it should not be extreme.
At times you may want to tuck and experience difficulty because there is too much blood in the spongy tissue of your Clitty or you may not have the proper garments yet to contain a proper tuck. In these cases you can follow this tucking method and simply sit down at the edge of your bed or a chair to reduce the size of your swollen Clitty or just to hold your tuck in place
2-2 Hiding Those Berries!
You may need to crouch or lay on your side for best results. Begin by placing your dominant hand behind your back and between the legs.
Grasp the very bottom of your Coin Purse and give it a little tension by pulling gently downwards.
Maintain that light tension on the Coin Purse and bring it back towards your Bussy.
Your Berries should have risen and now be close to the base of your Clitty.
Using your non-dominant hand and spread your fingers in order to be able to manipulate both of your berries. (Live Long and Prosper hand sign From Star Trek)
Gently encourage your Berries upwards on either side of your Clitty. This is where discomfort or pain may occur.
*For novices. You may wish to focus on one Berry at a time if there is difficulty or pain. Just make a small circular motion on the underside of the Berry/Berries to encourage them upwards. There are small openings to the lower abdomen where Berries drop from in infancy. Those openings are usually smaller than your adult Berries, until they are gently stretched a little.
For those who are going to take HRT, an anti-androgen will be taken until such time as the berries cease to function. At that point they will likely become smaller, softer, and less sensitive. Tucking becomes much easier but reproductive functions will be greatly affect
Keeping your berries in the original position will increase their temperature. This will not have any feminizing effects on your body but will likely decrease your sperm production and I have no idea if it will affect production of Testosterone.
2-3 Getting The Meat Into Position
Once the Berries “pop” into position use your non-dominant hand to push your Clitty back towards your Bussy and against your Coin Purse. Note, you should still be using your dominant hand to maintain the position and tension on your Coin Purse.
The final step for this tucking method and just before you secure your tuck with appropriate clothing is to hold the tuck together by squeezing your thighs together.
The next section covers the popular clothing items used to maintain a tuck in a comfortable and sustainable way.
NO DUCT TAPE!!!
Section 3 Clothing To Secure That Tuck
Gaffs
I use many different brands and do not recommend any one over another. I will say that BBlair offers good quality and it’s Trans Owned! Gaff And Go offers gaffs with thinner waist straps. Pictured here is a transwoman who likely has less meat than average or an expert at minimizing There are many shapes and materials for modern gaffs. Stretch Satin is the most securing material and stretches less than other clothing options listed below, but has an optimal design. A stretch satin gaff is a great choice for beginners and experts alike. Some less desirable aspects are the cheaper models often do not have a narrow thong leaving to much material between the butt cheeks, they are generally 25-35 USD, and are less sexy or less like a woman’s panty.
Most of my 14 years tucking have been with Gaff panties.
No-Show Women’s Stretch Brief Panties
I have no brand opinions for these. You can just go to any women’s department and are likely to find something that works.
This is the most comfortable and least sexy option for securing a tuck, most suitable for a good night’s sleep. Multiple panties are layered with one or two being put on backwards. You may add a final layer with the panties put on in the intended position. You should experiment with panties one and two sizes smaller than recommended for your waist/hip size.
Your Meat may remain secured best if positioned a little more towards your front which can leave a little bulging with some outfits.
Even More Options – Advanced
Stripper Clothing!!! Bonus points!!!
Body Zone and The Beauty Cave offer options I have access to at a store near me. I am not endorsing these Brands over other brands, I just do not know of other brands that may work. These items are thin and stretchy unlike similar items designed for swimming, this is key.
Bikini Bottoms Method
This is great for those with less Meat or who are experienced with gaffs and with minimizing their Clitties.
Prepare your tuck and put a string bikini bottom on as a first layer. It should be located further back than intended so that the bottom of the Coin Purse and head of the Clitty will be contained. It’s okay if a little Meat sticks out over the top.
Put a second string bikini on as intended to be worn. This method may not work for everyone and will take some practice. A tie string bikini might help with it’s customizable tension.
This is the method I use for tanning and achieving porn star tan lines.
Conclusion
Compression
Comfort
Warmth
Find what works for you and have fun
SIT ON IT!!!
About the author
I was assigned male at birth. I am in my 40s now. I was deeply closeted until I was 30 years old and just ready for everything to end. I love this world and want others to have an easier time in life than I did. I love you all. See you around you sexy babes <3
2024.05.20 07:05 cornxoxo1 I made a mistake and may have outed myself as taking testosterone. What should I do?
Hello! I am 20 years old. I don't live with my parents but my parents pay my rent. So still incredibly financially dependent. They also pay for my college and give me allowances for grocery's and things. In fact, I use that allowance to pay for doctor's visit's and my testosterone.
I have a website, a blog I created, to post poems and other personal writings. I made it in highnschool and would share it with close friends. I shared it with my mom. She ended up turning on post notifications so that whenever I post a new entry she would be updated. It was sweet, knowing she wanted to know how I felt about things... In that way.
Then today. She often accidentally genders me correctly. (I have a brother) So I say "He is fine." Almost like i'm warming her up to the idea haha...
I've come out to my family as nonbinary when I was around 16. My mom said she would never call me He.
So today when I said "He is fine." She said "can you stop saying that. I did not give birth to a he, I am not calling you that."
I fought back only slightly. I wasn't planning on nor prepared to come out to her in that moment.
My original plan was to take testosterone and until she started asking questions, say nothing. And when she did start asking questions I planned to answer them truthfully. As by that time the changes would had already really began to take effect.
All that to say, after the incident today. I went to my blog. I wrote something. Titled "You hate me. I know you hate me. You'll hate me once you find out what I've done."
Pretty dramatic lol I know but that's the whole point. I made a space for myself to express myself however I felt necessary. I mention the exact incident (meaning she knows I'm talking about her). One of the lines are "Today I thought I should never tell you. That I practiced voice training instead and just went to the gym a bunch. That will be easier for you. You'll hate me less."
I hit publish. Feeling relieved to have gotten these negative thoughts and emotion's off my chest. As well as honestly rethinking my speak until spoken to policy. Thinking, maybe I should lie for as long as I can.
Then later today I got a notification. Someone was on my website, reading that post. I knew, I instantly remembered. She gets notifications for when I post. I try to quickly delete and block her member profile. Trying to kick her from viewing it. Nothing works. I had set it up a while back so you put in a password before entering the site after a fall out with someone who had access to it, but I guess fot previous members it bypasses that.
Then I heard her walking up the stairs. I knew.
She comes in and closes the door, she never does that, and sit's on my bed. (I'm home for summer)
She tells me that she saw my post and asks if I think that she hates me. I say no, its nuance and that I forgot she got notifications for that. That she wasn't supposed to see it. It's not enough for her. She ask's what I did. I hesitate. I say "I came out as nonbinary before and (don't remember likely giberish) that's what I did is be who I am." I didn't know what to say. I'm not a good liar.
I have only been on testosterone for 5 weeks. I have got to therapy for a couple months discussing my gender and whether or not I wanted to start hormone replacement therapy. I have been contemplating it however, for around a year before starting therapy. I did this all by myself. I decided to tell my brother (37) after going to my consultation. He had his own reservations but he told me he loved me no matter what. He still misgenders me but his hearts in the right place and right now i'll take what I can get. My dad is the quiet type. He doesn't hold a lot of power in our household and is likely quiet because of it. I know i can't rely on him for any impactful support. I also have no idea whether there would be any.
I thought about calling my brother after it happened but he is ignorant on the matter. I don't know the lengths he would go to protect me. I am unsure and that scares me. I don't have any trans friends on HRT who could advise me.
I remember at my consultation my doctor expressed real concern for whether I had a supportive family unit or not. I told him I don't think my mother would could me off or disown me (she's the breadwinner) but thats when I was under the impression that I would have full control over when and how I would tell her.
Now. I am feeling that fear a bit stronger. I am gunning for my PHD in psychology. I live in an apartment near campus. I am extremely privileged. Although, my relationship with my immediate family is extremely dysfunctional it works.
Based off what she read the likely hood is at the very least she has an inkling that I am on T. I ended the conversation by saying I wasn't ready to have this conversation right now and she wasn't meant to read that. I asked her to turn the notifications off :P (stupid, I just didn't know what to do or say).
I drafted the post and made a new website moving everything on to there. I decided I will no longer share that website with anyone. It's for my eyes only. Until I can be sure someone deserves to gain access to its contents.
Anyway, any advice on how I should handle this? Right now we are both leaving to go on separate vacations. So I will be taking my medicine with me and I won't have to worry about her possibly snooping through my things to find out if I am or not. I will likely need to hide my T when I come back. I don't think telling her now is a good idea. I have a therapy appointment next tuesday so I will also ask my therapist for advice. Support or encouragement is also welcome :)
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I have a website, a blog I created, to post poems and other personal writings. I made it in highnschool and would share it with close friends. I shared it with my mom. She ended up turning on post notifications so that whenever I post a new entry she would be updated. It was sweet, knowing she wanted to know how I felt about things... In that way.
Then today. She often accidentally genders me correctly. (I have a brother) So I say "He is fine." Almost like i'm warming her up to the idea haha...
I've come out to my family as nonbinary when I was around 16. My mom said she would never call me He.
So today when I said "He is fine." She said "can you stop saying that. I did not give birth to a he, I am not calling you that."
I fought back only slightly. I wasn't planning on nor prepared to come out to her in that moment.
My original plan was to take testosterone and until she started asking questions, say nothing. And when she did start asking questions I planned to answer them truthfully. As by that time the changes would had already really began to take effect.
All that to say, after the incident today. I went to my blog. I wrote something. Titled "You hate me. I know you hate me. You'll hate me once you find out what I've done."
Pretty dramatic lol I know but that's the whole point. I made a space for myself to express myself however I felt necessary. I mention the exact incident (meaning she knows I'm talking about her). One of the lines are "Today I thought I should never tell you. That I practiced voice training instead and just went to the gym a bunch. That will be easier for you. You'll hate me less."
I hit publish. Feeling relieved to have gotten these negative thoughts and emotion's off my chest. As well as honestly rethinking my speak until spoken to policy. Thinking, maybe I should lie for as long as I can.
Then later today I got a notification. Someone was on my website, reading that post. I knew, I instantly remembered. She gets notifications for when I post. I try to quickly delete and block her member profile. Trying to kick her from viewing it. Nothing works. I had set it up a while back so you put in a password before entering the site after a fall out with someone who had access to it, but I guess fot previous members it bypasses that.
Then I heard her walking up the stairs. I knew.
She comes in and closes the door, she never does that, and sit's on my bed. (I'm home for summer)
She tells me that she saw my post and asks if I think that she hates me. I say no, its nuance and that I forgot she got notifications for that. That she wasn't supposed to see it. It's not enough for her. She ask's what I did. I hesitate. I say "I came out as nonbinary before and (don't remember likely giberish) that's what I did is be who I am." I didn't know what to say. I'm not a good liar.
I have only been on testosterone for 5 weeks. I have got to therapy for a couple months discussing my gender and whether or not I wanted to start hormone replacement therapy. I have been contemplating it however, for around a year before starting therapy. I did this all by myself. I decided to tell my brother (37) after going to my consultation. He had his own reservations but he told me he loved me no matter what. He still misgenders me but his hearts in the right place and right now i'll take what I can get. My dad is the quiet type. He doesn't hold a lot of power in our household and is likely quiet because of it. I know i can't rely on him for any impactful support. I also have no idea whether there would be any.
I thought about calling my brother after it happened but he is ignorant on the matter. I don't know the lengths he would go to protect me. I am unsure and that scares me. I don't have any trans friends on HRT who could advise me.
I remember at my consultation my doctor expressed real concern for whether I had a supportive family unit or not. I told him I don't think my mother would could me off or disown me (she's the breadwinner) but thats when I was under the impression that I would have full control over when and how I would tell her.
Now. I am feeling that fear a bit stronger. I am gunning for my PHD in psychology. I live in an apartment near campus. I am extremely privileged. Although, my relationship with my immediate family is extremely dysfunctional it works.
Based off what she read the likely hood is at the very least she has an inkling that I am on T. I ended the conversation by saying I wasn't ready to have this conversation right now and she wasn't meant to read that. I asked her to turn the notifications off :P (stupid, I just didn't know what to do or say).
I drafted the post and made a new website moving everything on to there. I decided I will no longer share that website with anyone. It's for my eyes only. Until I can be sure someone deserves to gain access to its contents.
Anyway, any advice on how I should handle this? Right now we are both leaving to go on separate vacations. So I will be taking my medicine with me and I won't have to worry about her possibly snooping through my things to find out if I am or not. I will likely need to hide my T when I come back. I don't think telling her now is a good idea. I have a therapy appointment next tuesday so I will also ask my therapist for advice. Support or encouragement is also welcome :)
2024.05.20 07:05 throwaway472752 I regret passing the promotion to my best friend.
I know the title sounds a bit nasty but once I provide context I hope others will understand.
My best friend who I’ll call George and I have been best friends since we were kids, always had the same interests, always wanted to do the same kinda job. When we finished high school we both decided we wanted to pursue a paramedic career.
We both applied to universities and luckily got accepted into the same place. Things were literally perfect and once we completed our degree, we applied to work at the same ambulance stations and luck hit us again and we managed to be assigned to the same station. Our shift patterns were different but we were able to do overtime shifts together, and after a few years managed to get a shift pattern together, and it couldn’t have been anymore perfect working your dream career with your best mate.
Where things soured however was when a senior paramedic role opened up. This is like a team leader role where you have more clinical skills, and have your own team of paramedics you manage. I was offered the job role, and was told George was the runner up.
George told me on our many 12 hour shifts together that he would love to do this kind of role. So because A. I wasn’t really interested in moving to a manager role yet, and B. This is something George wanted to do, I decided to refuse the offer on the condition George would receive it. Which he did.
It was kept secret for a bit that I refused so he could take it but one of the other senior paramedics told him, and at first he was incredibly grateful, and things were great between us. However, 7 months ago I noticed some changes in his behaviour and attitude.
He became more distant, wasn’t as chatty, didn’t want to hang out as often. This was really weird since we literally would see each other most days. When I pulled him up on it, he just said it was because he was busy with the responsibilities of the new job.
I accepted that for a while, but yesterday things came to a head and I was upset at not seeing my best friends for weeks on end. When I pushed for a real explanation, he straight up told me we can longer have a best friend relationship because as he’s my manager, it wouldn’t be professional and would bring into query any favouritism.
I said I would happily change managers if that was a concern, however he shut that idea down and said it wouldn’t matter since he’s still a manager. Every solution I tried to make wasn’t good enough and he eventually just said we can no longer be best friends because it could jeopardise his role as a senior paramedic and to just drop it and maintain a professional relationship.
After everything we went through together and did together I’m genuinely heartbroken. I feel like I’ve just lost a big part of myself. And I know it sounds bad but I wish I never gave up that promotion if I meant I’d still have my best friend with me. Maybe I’m selfish for that but I’m genuinely sobbing over losing him.
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My best friend who I’ll call George and I have been best friends since we were kids, always had the same interests, always wanted to do the same kinda job. When we finished high school we both decided we wanted to pursue a paramedic career.
We both applied to universities and luckily got accepted into the same place. Things were literally perfect and once we completed our degree, we applied to work at the same ambulance stations and luck hit us again and we managed to be assigned to the same station. Our shift patterns were different but we were able to do overtime shifts together, and after a few years managed to get a shift pattern together, and it couldn’t have been anymore perfect working your dream career with your best mate.
Where things soured however was when a senior paramedic role opened up. This is like a team leader role where you have more clinical skills, and have your own team of paramedics you manage. I was offered the job role, and was told George was the runner up.
George told me on our many 12 hour shifts together that he would love to do this kind of role. So because A. I wasn’t really interested in moving to a manager role yet, and B. This is something George wanted to do, I decided to refuse the offer on the condition George would receive it. Which he did.
It was kept secret for a bit that I refused so he could take it but one of the other senior paramedics told him, and at first he was incredibly grateful, and things were great between us. However, 7 months ago I noticed some changes in his behaviour and attitude.
He became more distant, wasn’t as chatty, didn’t want to hang out as often. This was really weird since we literally would see each other most days. When I pulled him up on it, he just said it was because he was busy with the responsibilities of the new job.
I accepted that for a while, but yesterday things came to a head and I was upset at not seeing my best friends for weeks on end. When I pushed for a real explanation, he straight up told me we can longer have a best friend relationship because as he’s my manager, it wouldn’t be professional and would bring into query any favouritism.
I said I would happily change managers if that was a concern, however he shut that idea down and said it wouldn’t matter since he’s still a manager. Every solution I tried to make wasn’t good enough and he eventually just said we can no longer be best friends because it could jeopardise his role as a senior paramedic and to just drop it and maintain a professional relationship.
After everything we went through together and did together I’m genuinely heartbroken. I feel like I’ve just lost a big part of myself. And I know it sounds bad but I wish I never gave up that promotion if I meant I’d still have my best friend with me. Maybe I’m selfish for that but I’m genuinely sobbing over losing him.
2024.05.20 07:03 Eris_Morn34 25 m looking for friends
HI , pleasure to meet you all , as the title states I would love to have some friends to talk to here and there and actually form good friendships. A little about me , I’m an mechanic who loves to cook , game and watch anime , I have a very normal / interesting music tastes but I’m really big in to sleep token right now but I love all types of music , ( I’m also big into dance Gavin dance) . If your interested in be friends please feel free to message me , and if not that’s ok hope you have a great day.
Thank you all for reading , love you all 🫶🏾
Only 🚩 is that I love destiny 2.
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Thank you all for reading , love you all 🫶🏾
Only 🚩 is that I love destiny 2.
2024.05.20 07:02 llogiq Hey Rustaceans! Got a question? Ask here (21/2024)!
Mystified about strings? Borrow checker have you in a headlock? Seek help here! There are no stupid questions, only docs that haven't been written yet. Please note that if you include code examples to e.g. show a compiler error or surprising result, linking a playground with the code will improve your chances of getting help quickly.
If you have a StackOverflow account, consider asking it there instead! StackOverflow shows up much higher in search results, so having your question there also helps future Rust users (be sure to give it the "Rust" tag for maximum visibility). Note that this site is very interested in question quality. I've been asked to read a RFC I authored once. If you want your code reviewed or review other's code, there's a codereview stackexchange, too. If you need to test your code, maybe the Rust playground is for you.
Here are some other venues where help may be found:
/learnrust is a subreddit to share your questions and epiphanies learning Rust programming.
The official Rust user forums: https://users.rust-lang.org/.
The official Rust Programming Language Discord: https://discord.gg/rust-lang
The unofficial Rust community Discord: https://bit.ly/rust-community
Also check out last week's thread with many good questions and answers. And if you believe your question to be either very complex or worthy of larger dissemination, feel free to create a text post.
Also if you want to be mentored by experienced Rustaceans, tell us the area of expertise that you seek. Finally, if you are looking for Rust jobs, the most recent thread is here.
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If you have a StackOverflow account, consider asking it there instead! StackOverflow shows up much higher in search results, so having your question there also helps future Rust users (be sure to give it the "Rust" tag for maximum visibility). Note that this site is very interested in question quality. I've been asked to read a RFC I authored once. If you want your code reviewed or review other's code, there's a codereview stackexchange, too. If you need to test your code, maybe the Rust playground is for you.
Here are some other venues where help may be found:
/learnrust is a subreddit to share your questions and epiphanies learning Rust programming.
The official Rust user forums: https://users.rust-lang.org/.
The official Rust Programming Language Discord: https://discord.gg/rust-lang
The unofficial Rust community Discord: https://bit.ly/rust-community
Also check out last week's thread with many good questions and answers. And if you believe your question to be either very complex or worthy of larger dissemination, feel free to create a text post.
Also if you want to be mentored by experienced Rustaceans, tell us the area of expertise that you seek. Finally, if you are looking for Rust jobs, the most recent thread is here.
2024.05.20 07:00 Featherman13 Does Ash need a buff?
I actually play ash a good bit, and he's absolutely not a bad brawler by any means, his counters are just wayyy too strong atm. My only real issue with Ash is his super, and before you guys go crazy on me saying "it's for charging his rage! It's perfect for charging his rage!" Eh. It's underwhelming AF, and that's coming from an avid ash player. Sure it charges his rage, and there's a good play where you pop your healing gadget, surround someone with the rats, and you get your rage charged right back up, but that is LITERALLY the only use for his super. Charging rage is not as difficult with ash as it used to be, which means his super has gotten much less useful (it wasn't all that useful before either). Sure, occasionally you can use it to tank some shots from a Charlie or a piper while you approach, but most gadgets on other brawlers can do that better, Tara's pets and charlie's spiders specifically. Is his super really just a worse version of their gadget? With the added bonus of charging his rage (even tho you can do that easily without it, use the other gadget or use his first bash SP, both are surprisingly viable). Idk I just think they could do something to help his super, maybe the rats slow enemies for a second on contact? Honestly that's my only idea but I'm sure there are way better reworks for Ash, he's a very unique brawler but pretty boring at the same time.
So I'm kinda asking if you guys think he deserves a buff, and if so what would you guys do to his super? Also PLEASE don't just zay "he needs a HC" I know he needs an HC, every brawler needs an HC, personally I just want his super to get a change, it's probably the most useless super in the game (IMO). But if you guys really think he just needs an HC, give your idea for an HC, I haven't seen any fun Ash HC concepts so that would be pretty cool.
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So I'm kinda asking if you guys think he deserves a buff, and if so what would you guys do to his super? Also PLEASE don't just zay "he needs a HC" I know he needs an HC, every brawler needs an HC, personally I just want his super to get a change, it's probably the most useless super in the game (IMO). But if you guys really think he just needs an HC, give your idea for an HC, I haven't seen any fun Ash HC concepts so that would be pretty cool.
2024.05.20 06:59 BlackberryVirtual11 Will I ever tell you the truth?
Hello, it's me, your daughter. I've been so stressed and down for so many years, yet you see me like nothing's happened. I wish I could tell you that I need you right now, not just to talk about money. You left me with nothing, and now I carry all these heavy feelings. I wish one day you would ask, "Are you okay?" because that's the only thing I want to hear from you. I hear this from so many people that I care about, but I want it from you guys. I want you to know that I can't take it anymore. Can I rest? Can I take a break? Why is this happening to me? Why is the universe so unfair? What did I do wrong? If reincarnation is real, was I bad in my past life?
Growing up, I may not have been a perfect daughter, but I still followed you guys. Why do you make me feel this way? I love you, I really do. I can't imagine my life without you.
To my sister, who has her own family now, why did you leave me while this family is still a mess? I thought we were going to fight this together. I thought we were going to prove that even though we've been dealing with so many problems, we would still make it in the end because we are family, right? But why did you leave us so quickly? I know you're tired too and wanted to escape, which is why you made your own family. All I want to ask is, are you happy? Are you tired? Do you think leaving us was a good choice? Are you sad right now? Why, every time we catch up, do I feel like there are so many things you want to say?
This is me, sis. I'm still your younger sister. I want to comfort you, but for now, I just can't because I've been dealing with battles inside that no one knows about. I thought meeting new people would make it easier for me, that venting to my friends would lighten the load. But why is it still so heavy, so heavy that I feel numb? I ignore it and make myself busy. Why don't I have someone I can run to? Why do I feel this way when there are people around me? Am I too hard on myself? Am I?
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Growing up, I may not have been a perfect daughter, but I still followed you guys. Why do you make me feel this way? I love you, I really do. I can't imagine my life without you.
To my sister, who has her own family now, why did you leave me while this family is still a mess? I thought we were going to fight this together. I thought we were going to prove that even though we've been dealing with so many problems, we would still make it in the end because we are family, right? But why did you leave us so quickly? I know you're tired too and wanted to escape, which is why you made your own family. All I want to ask is, are you happy? Are you tired? Do you think leaving us was a good choice? Are you sad right now? Why, every time we catch up, do I feel like there are so many things you want to say?
This is me, sis. I'm still your younger sister. I want to comfort you, but for now, I just can't because I've been dealing with battles inside that no one knows about. I thought meeting new people would make it easier for me, that venting to my friends would lighten the load. But why is it still so heavy, so heavy that I feel numb? I ignore it and make myself busy. Why don't I have someone I can run to? Why do I feel this way when there are people around me? Am I too hard on myself? Am I?
2024.05.20 06:58 SincerelyMissSin Ma was it all a lie
We were best friends up until I turned 15. I was your confidante, your protector, your therapist. We were so close. You told me everything. Despite how you smothered my brother with hugs and kisses and say he was the only boy of a Latin mother over and Over. Despite you always seeming annoyed with me. We used to watch lifetime movies together and you'd tell me about your life. I didn't notice how you'd expect me to sacrifice so you didn't have to be uncomfortably I didn't understand why you'd like to pick on me
When I was a week from being 15 you told me we were moving to California so you could be with the man you had been talking on the phone to. I knew of him. You had a crush on him in high school. But you were telling me you were going to marry this guy. I was asking you why? You didn't answer me. I asked, jokingly, if your new man was going to give me a birthday present since you were I don't know uprooting our lives. You told me that him marrying you was the the greatest gift he could give me.
Ma, as soon as we got to California you didn't need me anymore. Gone were the long talks, gone were the lifetime movies gone was our friendship as you and your man were newlyweds. You and him disappeared into your own little world, whilst my brother had your man's father as companionship. I became alone. T your new man's father hated my guts on sight. And would make it very known that he did. You told me to be the bigger person ask for forgiveness try to be better until T went after your son. When it came to me I was always the one you sacrificed and I was willing to do it cause I loved you so much
We moved again 5 months later, you were pregnant with his kid. We moved to Pennsylvania after you grounded me for my grades slipping. Indefinitely you told me. I was grounded from wearing my usual clothes. Band shirts and jeans. You had me in cleavage bearing stuff that were girly, stuff you'd like. We lived in a hotel room for 3 months. You and your man hastily planned this move a week after telling me. I was depressed you were in love. You told me you didn't know me anymore and why couldn't I be happy for you like my brother
Fast forward a couple months. I'm in isolation none of you will talk to me, I'm being punished it's been a month and a half for calling your man a fucker in an email to a friend. I'm not allowed at the dinner table anymore, not allowed to eat unless I ask. The worst thing for me is thet you burned my band shirts. Even the Floyd one I loved the most, you burned them and my journals. And you and your man called me a sociopath because I cared more about my stuff then calling your man a fucker in an email shortly after we moved to California I was also grounded from listening to music Indefinitely because you were Christian now and my music didn't edify the lord
I was blamed for everything, told that it was me who had to change, doped on geodon berated every chance yall got. You beat the crap out of me after I turned 16. Forced me into a drug test when i was 17 Threw me hand cuffed in a closet when I was 18. Amongst all the times you and the family berated me and mocked me and screamed at me in what I call M bashed and more isolation and more privileges taken away Indefinitely. Or that time you told the guy I liked how I felt because I told him how your husband told me to cut myself to the bone
You and your husband loved to remind me of my parentage. You especially told me to never have children because they'd be like my father, you also told me that because of my father I had to always fight the evil side in me no matter what. My brother didn't have to but I did. Because i was like him
I took your word as gospel ma, was it all a lie. Was your " love " for me a lie? I worshipped the ground you walked on for so long. I was the perfect mirror now I don't know who I am. So please ma tell me was everything a lie
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When I was a week from being 15 you told me we were moving to California so you could be with the man you had been talking on the phone to. I knew of him. You had a crush on him in high school. But you were telling me you were going to marry this guy. I was asking you why? You didn't answer me. I asked, jokingly, if your new man was going to give me a birthday present since you were I don't know uprooting our lives. You told me that him marrying you was the the greatest gift he could give me.
Ma, as soon as we got to California you didn't need me anymore. Gone were the long talks, gone were the lifetime movies gone was our friendship as you and your man were newlyweds. You and him disappeared into your own little world, whilst my brother had your man's father as companionship. I became alone. T your new man's father hated my guts on sight. And would make it very known that he did. You told me to be the bigger person ask for forgiveness try to be better until T went after your son. When it came to me I was always the one you sacrificed and I was willing to do it cause I loved you so much
We moved again 5 months later, you were pregnant with his kid. We moved to Pennsylvania after you grounded me for my grades slipping. Indefinitely you told me. I was grounded from wearing my usual clothes. Band shirts and jeans. You had me in cleavage bearing stuff that were girly, stuff you'd like. We lived in a hotel room for 3 months. You and your man hastily planned this move a week after telling me. I was depressed you were in love. You told me you didn't know me anymore and why couldn't I be happy for you like my brother
Fast forward a couple months. I'm in isolation none of you will talk to me, I'm being punished it's been a month and a half for calling your man a fucker in an email to a friend. I'm not allowed at the dinner table anymore, not allowed to eat unless I ask. The worst thing for me is thet you burned my band shirts. Even the Floyd one I loved the most, you burned them and my journals. And you and your man called me a sociopath because I cared more about my stuff then calling your man a fucker in an email shortly after we moved to California I was also grounded from listening to music Indefinitely because you were Christian now and my music didn't edify the lord
I was blamed for everything, told that it was me who had to change, doped on geodon berated every chance yall got. You beat the crap out of me after I turned 16. Forced me into a drug test when i was 17 Threw me hand cuffed in a closet when I was 18. Amongst all the times you and the family berated me and mocked me and screamed at me in what I call M bashed and more isolation and more privileges taken away Indefinitely. Or that time you told the guy I liked how I felt because I told him how your husband told me to cut myself to the bone
You and your husband loved to remind me of my parentage. You especially told me to never have children because they'd be like my father, you also told me that because of my father I had to always fight the evil side in me no matter what. My brother didn't have to but I did. Because i was like him
I took your word as gospel ma, was it all a lie. Was your " love " for me a lie? I worshipped the ground you walked on for so long. I was the perfect mirror now I don't know who I am. So please ma tell me was everything a lie
2024.05.20 06:57 spongebobily how do i fix things with my boyfriend?? HELP ME PLEASE
hi everyone, i need your help, im begging u please help me u need to know a few things first: english isnt my first language so i hope i dont make too many mistakes, i (W16) went through hardcore drug addiction at the ages of 14 and 15. i still very much struggle to stay sober, mainly from amphetamines and xanax but ive been clean from amph for abt a year now and i was clean from xanax too. until 2 days ago.
i was outside and saw a girlfriend of mine who i hadnt seen in a while and out of nowhere while we talk, she said shes on her way to get some xanax and wanted to know if i wanna go w her (she doesnt know my history w drugs). i decided to do so (i only took one pill), and dumb me turned off my phone bc i didnt want my boyfriend (M17) to see my location. if he saw, then he wouldve understood immediately. i told him my battery was low, but he somehow got a bad feeling and questioned me for an entire day until yesterday where i finally admitted it. we fought really bad, i didnt want to admit it because im really fucking ashamed and wanted to tell him once i was ready. however i regret doing this and if i knew what this one lie would cause, i wouldn’t have done it. he said he lost his trust completely because “if i lie about this little thing, what else could i be hiding?” and hes not wrong, i get it that he doesnt trust me but i do think he overreacted a little bit because he said our relationship is over if i cant get his trust back. obviously a relationship doesnt work if theres no trust and im doing everything i can in order to be like we used to be. but i dont know HOW? i need your help with HOW im gonna fix things like WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO??? he’s been so distant ever since and we barely talk unless i start a convo first and if i do its just simple dry answers. i know he still very much loves me abd he also said that multiple times (he said if he didnt he would’ve already left me) but i feel like the entire relationship is in my hands and i dont know how im supposed to do this all on my own, my mental health is so incredibly fucked right now and i just want us to be like we used to be. im scared to ask him where he is when hes outside because i feel like he needs a bit of space but at the same time i want him to know that im here but i dont wanna go too far or too fast. i know all of this is my fault and i genuinely regret it from my entire heart but u cant chance the things that already happened. i just wanna fix this for our future because i know its him and me.
im begging you please help me, i cant do this anymore im so incredibly tired of this life i just want to fix this i already have so many things going on.
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i was outside and saw a girlfriend of mine who i hadnt seen in a while and out of nowhere while we talk, she said shes on her way to get some xanax and wanted to know if i wanna go w her (she doesnt know my history w drugs). i decided to do so (i only took one pill), and dumb me turned off my phone bc i didnt want my boyfriend (M17) to see my location. if he saw, then he wouldve understood immediately. i told him my battery was low, but he somehow got a bad feeling and questioned me for an entire day until yesterday where i finally admitted it. we fought really bad, i didnt want to admit it because im really fucking ashamed and wanted to tell him once i was ready. however i regret doing this and if i knew what this one lie would cause, i wouldn’t have done it. he said he lost his trust completely because “if i lie about this little thing, what else could i be hiding?” and hes not wrong, i get it that he doesnt trust me but i do think he overreacted a little bit because he said our relationship is over if i cant get his trust back. obviously a relationship doesnt work if theres no trust and im doing everything i can in order to be like we used to be. but i dont know HOW? i need your help with HOW im gonna fix things like WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO??? he’s been so distant ever since and we barely talk unless i start a convo first and if i do its just simple dry answers. i know he still very much loves me abd he also said that multiple times (he said if he didnt he would’ve already left me) but i feel like the entire relationship is in my hands and i dont know how im supposed to do this all on my own, my mental health is so incredibly fucked right now and i just want us to be like we used to be. im scared to ask him where he is when hes outside because i feel like he needs a bit of space but at the same time i want him to know that im here but i dont wanna go too far or too fast. i know all of this is my fault and i genuinely regret it from my entire heart but u cant chance the things that already happened. i just wanna fix this for our future because i know its him and me.
im begging you please help me, i cant do this anymore im so incredibly tired of this life i just want to fix this i already have so many things going on.
2024.05.20 06:54 sfgirlmary Monday Meeting of the Sober People Getting Shit Done Club
When I was drinking, I did shit (meaning, nothing). In contrast, now that I’m a non-drinker, I’m getting shit done. In fact, productivity has become one of my favorite parts of being sober.
Has this been true for you, too? Without the endless cycle of wasting time while drinking followed by recovering from a hangover, do you find yourself with extra hours in the day to do constructive things, such as finally finishing that book you’ve been reading or tackling that mess in the garage? If so, I invite you to join the Sober People Getting Shit Done Club.
In order to be a member of this club, you must do three things:
I’ll go first: I am back in San Francisco, to tackle a number of tiresome but necessary tasks, including getting my teeth cleaned, visiting my neurologist, and getting an infusion of my MS medication. Taking care of myself physically is one of my most important ways of being productive.
If you are sober and have been getting shit done—whether it’s a big thing like rebuilding the engine of an old motorcycle or a small thing like making that long overdue phone call to your grandmother—I want to hear all about it!
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Has this been true for you, too? Without the endless cycle of wasting time while drinking followed by recovering from a hangover, do you find yourself with extra hours in the day to do constructive things, such as finally finishing that book you’ve been reading or tackling that mess in the garage? If so, I invite you to join the Sober People Getting Shit Done Club.
In order to be a member of this club, you must do three things:
- Get something done.
- Be sober while doing it.
- Tell us about it.
2024.05.20 06:53 JudeGeorge_ Don’t ignore circumstances. Use them wisely.
People are often drawn to manifestation to make a specific change in their lives. The common ones include reconnecting with a specific person, finding a new job or making stacks of cash, but there are plenty of others. All of this is achievable as has been proven numerous times. There is, however, a problem that arises when we focus too much on one particular outcome and fail to notice all the other changes around us.
When we want something specific we naturally focus intensely on that one thing. We raise its importance and fail to notice the other things, or even other people, in the world around us. For example, when I was knee-deep in research papers studying for my psychology degree, my apartment was an absolute mess (as were my relationships!). This is a common occurrence in everyday life and it can happen with our manifestation practices too. When it does, it can cause a lot more frustration than a simple messy bedroom.
Being hyper-focused on our specific desires means we’re less likely to observe the positive changes happening in other areas of our lives on our way to manifesting our desired goal. Here’s an example to help explain what I’m getting at. Recently, I caught up with a friend who’d manifested contact with her ex-partner after being separated for long time. It took her around three months from our first discussions before he made contact with her, apologised for the break up, took responsibility for being an absolute man-child (seriously, why she wanted him back is beyond me, but the Law doesn’t judge even if I do) and asked her to meet for a coffee. You’re probably wondering why it took so long. It’s because she was so focused on her specific desire that she didn’t notice how the world around her was changing to accommodate it.
In those three months, the following happened:
We discussed how to choose better reactions and…eventually…the 3D caught up.
The lesson here is about how we react to our circumstances and how that helps or hinders our manifestations. Hyper-focusing on a specific outcome blinds us to seeing the way every cell in existence bends to create the things we want and this can lead us to inadvertently rejecting or delaying that which wants to come to us. So, how should she have reacted to those situations?
The world changes to create a context that allows our manifestations to appear in the most natural way possible. Your dream lover isn’t going to fall from the sky (very unnatural, although I know there will be one person in the comments who is in love with a professional sky diver….), but they are going to arrive when you accept you live in a world where that’s likely to occur and you’re the kind of person it’s likely to happen to.
When you go about your day, look at everything in the way you want to see it. If you’ve been waiting a long time to see your desire in the 3D world, it’s possible you’ve been failing to notice how the world is creating the perfect context for it to appear. I say failing to notice, because the change is always there. It is the law, after all, and it’s our decision to allow ourselves to witness it.
By training your mind to notice and listen to the world around you, you’re more likely to experience events like those my friend described for what they are — reflections of your emergent state of mind. In doing so, you’ll be able to choose to react to them with gratitude and satisfaction, confident in the knowing that your seed has begun to sprout and your wish has already been fulfilled. These circumstances, and all circumstances, should be used for our benefit and with the understanding that your ‘outer’ experience is always working for you.
Now go and create something beautiful.
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When we want something specific we naturally focus intensely on that one thing. We raise its importance and fail to notice the other things, or even other people, in the world around us. For example, when I was knee-deep in research papers studying for my psychology degree, my apartment was an absolute mess (as were my relationships!). This is a common occurrence in everyday life and it can happen with our manifestation practices too. When it does, it can cause a lot more frustration than a simple messy bedroom.
Being hyper-focused on our specific desires means we’re less likely to observe the positive changes happening in other areas of our lives on our way to manifesting our desired goal. Here’s an example to help explain what I’m getting at. Recently, I caught up with a friend who’d manifested contact with her ex-partner after being separated for long time. It took her around three months from our first discussions before he made contact with her, apologised for the break up, took responsibility for being an absolute man-child (seriously, why she wanted him back is beyond me, but the Law doesn’t judge even if I do) and asked her to meet for a coffee. You’re probably wondering why it took so long. It’s because she was so focused on her specific desire that she didn’t notice how the world around her was changing to accommodate it.
In those three months, the following happened:
- Two other former partners got in touch.
- Animosity with a work colleague subsided, and they’re now good friends (planning a holiday together!)
- Her sister started a relationship with someone her SP knew in University.
- She received flowers from anonymous sender on Valentine’s Day.
- ‘Not interested in these ex’s! I want my man!’
- ’My colleagues are kinder and life is less stressful. But still no word from my future husband!’
- ’My sister gets a relationship? Why not me?’
- ’Flowers are nice. But I want them from HIM not a stranger.’
We discussed how to choose better reactions and…eventually…the 3D caught up.
The lesson here is about how we react to our circumstances and how that helps or hinders our manifestations. Hyper-focusing on a specific outcome blinds us to seeing the way every cell in existence bends to create the things we want and this can lead us to inadvertently rejecting or delaying that which wants to come to us. So, how should she have reacted to those situations?
- ‘Ex partners are always getting back in touch like this.’
- ‘Isn’t it so wonderful how people forgive the past and become friends again.’
- ‘A secret admirer? There are people that love me and I don’t even realise it.’
- ‘I’m so happy for my sister. There’s enough love in the world for everyone.’
The world changes to create a context that allows our manifestations to appear in the most natural way possible. Your dream lover isn’t going to fall from the sky (very unnatural, although I know there will be one person in the comments who is in love with a professional sky diver….), but they are going to arrive when you accept you live in a world where that’s likely to occur and you’re the kind of person it’s likely to happen to.
When you go about your day, look at everything in the way you want to see it. If you’ve been waiting a long time to see your desire in the 3D world, it’s possible you’ve been failing to notice how the world is creating the perfect context for it to appear. I say failing to notice, because the change is always there. It is the law, after all, and it’s our decision to allow ourselves to witness it.
By training your mind to notice and listen to the world around you, you’re more likely to experience events like those my friend described for what they are — reflections of your emergent state of mind. In doing so, you’ll be able to choose to react to them with gratitude and satisfaction, confident in the knowing that your seed has begun to sprout and your wish has already been fulfilled. These circumstances, and all circumstances, should be used for our benefit and with the understanding that your ‘outer’ experience is always working for you.
Now go and create something beautiful.
2024.05.20 06:49 jempai Cressida, Debling, and WLW rep on Bridgerton
Personally, I hope we see Cressida end up with Lord Debling. It would pave the way for her story to wrap up neatly, with her off the market, happy, nicer, and away from her family.
If we’re being historically accurate, Debling would die on the northwest passage. Cressida would be a wealthy widow. Minding some mourning period, it would open the way for Cressida to become sapphic representation on Bridgerton.
So far, wlw relationships have only been seen in fetishized roles for male pleasure. None of the main family will change their HEAs, so it’s up to the side characters to give us the representation. Given that women are expected to get married and have kids, and need to rely on their husbands for financial security, simply eloping from society’s expectations isn’t feasible. For sapphic women in this setting, being widowed, a spinster, or having an affair are the only options. Spinsterhood does not afford the same freedoms as marriage. Affairs could ruin you, and endanger your marriage and security. Widows have the most freedom in terms of societal expectations, money, and privacy.
Plus, Jessica Madsen has been posting Creloise content on her Instagram stories, so it seems like she’d support it.
Here’s my hope: Cressida married Lord Debling in Part 2, or between seasons 3 and 4. Lord Debling leaves. Later, we find out he has perished. (I love Debling, but traveling to the Arctic isn’t the smartest.) In season 5, Cressida reappears as a widow, and has a subplot about meeting another woman in the Ton and falling in love with her. Is this likely to happen? Nope, but I’d love for Cressida to get a wlw HEA.
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If we’re being historically accurate, Debling would die on the northwest passage. Cressida would be a wealthy widow. Minding some mourning period, it would open the way for Cressida to become sapphic representation on Bridgerton.
So far, wlw relationships have only been seen in fetishized roles for male pleasure. None of the main family will change their HEAs, so it’s up to the side characters to give us the representation. Given that women are expected to get married and have kids, and need to rely on their husbands for financial security, simply eloping from society’s expectations isn’t feasible. For sapphic women in this setting, being widowed, a spinster, or having an affair are the only options. Spinsterhood does not afford the same freedoms as marriage. Affairs could ruin you, and endanger your marriage and security. Widows have the most freedom in terms of societal expectations, money, and privacy.
Plus, Jessica Madsen has been posting Creloise content on her Instagram stories, so it seems like she’d support it.
Here’s my hope: Cressida married Lord Debling in Part 2, or between seasons 3 and 4. Lord Debling leaves. Later, we find out he has perished. (I love Debling, but traveling to the Arctic isn’t the smartest.) In season 5, Cressida reappears as a widow, and has a subplot about meeting another woman in the Ton and falling in love with her. Is this likely to happen? Nope, but I’d love for Cressida to get a wlw HEA.
2024.05.20 06:48 That_Anonymous_One [F4M (24F here)] 18+ Fantasy advance-lit roleplay partner search! "The Lost Princess"
Background:
The continent of Gêde is a sprawling land of diverse biomes, vegetation, and different walks of life. Humans, animals, fairies, orcs, vampires. All sorts of creatures inhabit the land and over thousands of years, have formed civilizations, villages, and kingdoms.
There are three prominent kingdoms in Gêde. In the northwestern temperate regions lies the kingdom of [writer’s choice]. In the northeast mountain ranges of Gêde lies Sovia, a kingdom of ice and snow, which is ruled by powerful warlords and greedy kings.Sovia is inhabited by frost giants, yetis, and uldra. But the monarchy consists of a long lineage of Vampyres who have taken favor of the sprawling, mineral-rich land and everlasting arctic nights. Down towards the tropical Niraqian Sea stretches the smaller peninsula kingdom of Al-Khuna. This kingdom, fertile by the sun and sea, is dominated by humans and sun elves on land and Suvannamacchi—mermaid-like creatures—in the sea. Al-Khuna was particularly rich in spices, exotic vegetation, silks, and it was said to have had enough gold to make the sun god himself jealous of the kingdom’s radiance.
Well. that was 100 years ago.
For the last century, the royal Al-Khunian kings of the family Farashi had made some…rather critical financial decisions, mostly driven by greed, ignorance, and arrogance. It was always rumored by the other neighboring kingdoms that one day Al-Khuna would collapse under its own rule. The economy was rapidly beginning to collapse. The frivolous spending, greed, and ignorance of the late Raja, his father before him, and his father before him had plunged the land into its downfall. The entire kingdom had gone into a deep famine, and poverty was running rampant. Even as the old generations of the royal family died off and the new generations were coronated, no one could solve the famine. Drought plagued the land, and trading ports were not outputting enough goods to bring in profit. Al-Khuna was growing desperate.
The Raja should have approached the king in the northwest for help. Perhaps then, Al-Khuna might have been saved. But no. Stupidly, Al-Khuna had struck a deal with Sovia.
All Sovia needed to do was provide food and money and the Al-Khunians would sell their services in any way possible, but more conflicts were arising. The Sovians would demand services and goods that the Al-Khunians did not want to provide, but the Sovians were demanding more payment than what was originally agreed upon. Contracts were broken, and loopholes were taken advantage of. The Raja of Al-Khuna made impulsive mistakes that ultimately left too many vital parts of Al-Khuna as collateral.
A war broke out, but Sovia was too powerful. The Raja of Al-Khuna was too proud to surrender, and when he and his Rani were finally assassinated by the Sovians, every kingdom in Gêde watched as Al-Khuna fell under Sovian control.
The only ones of the Farashi line that were spared were the young Prince Adan and his baby sister Princess Iirana, who were ordered by the Sovians to be taken far away where they would not cause any trouble. It was against Sovian morals, of course, to spare children when decimating an entire country.
Prince Adan remembered the massacre, however, and as his birthright to the throne, he planned well into his adulthood how to regain control of Al-Khuna.
~
The Prompt:
"Go! GO! Into the woods!" The booming voice of the prince was nearly drowned out by the sounds of screams, cannons, metal clashing against metal, and destruction. Another battle was raging mercilessly, this time right in the heart of Al-Khuna... It started as a failed assassination attempt on the Sovian prince, who was to marry Princess Iirana—who was now 21. It was all planned out by Prince Adan to regain control of Al-Khuna. They were to arrange matrimony between Prince Veric and Princess Iirana. They were to meet during the Festival of Lights, an annual Al-Khunian traditional party held every Summer Solstice. Iirana was to seduce him, take him somewhere private, and kill him with a kiss with the nightshade painted on her lips.
The Sovian guards saw right through the plan, and all hell broke loose.
Iirana and Adan managed to flee the palace. Shouts and commands could be heard somewhere in the disarray of the battle as Sovian soldiers attempted to track and pursue them. Adan grabbed Iirana's hand and led her through the fray. They ran for what seemed like hours, and they had almost made it to the edge of the kingdom before the prince collapsed with a painful thud. "Adan?" Iirana's eyes widened at the sight of a Sovian arrow impaling right through his leg. He sucked in a sharp breath and yelled through his teeth, "Don't wait for me! Into the woods, Iirana, NOW!!"
She wanted to protest, she wanted to drag him with her, but she knew better, and she fought herself as she fled far into the forest. Far, far away from the raging battle, the screams, the clashing of weapons, and the collapse of buildings on fire. She did not look back to see what had become of her brother.
Al-Khuna was destroyed. The Sovians would make sure there was nothing left for Iirana to return to. The only direction she could go for another safe civilization was northwest across the entire continent.
And that she did.
~
The scene:
“Your Highness! My Lord!” Rowan, The captain of the Royal Guard of the northwestern castle barged into the throne room, interrupting the business his king was attending to. He never behaved in such a manner, and certainly never barged in without a formal announcement. His eyes seemed wide with confusion and urgency, and behind him, two guards were slowly escorting a female figure between them.
“Please forgive me for this sudden intrusion, my lord, but—” Rowan turned his head to watch as his armored men came closer, and the figure slowly becoming more visible to their ruler on the throne.
They had her held firm by arms, but she was not cuffed. She did not seem to struggle either, but rather allowed them to guide her where they wanted her. She was young. Human. Although like no human in this kingdom. She was dressed in a ragged gray peasant dress and black cloak. Her skin was a dark olive tone, as if kissed by the sun god himself. Her fingers and hands were adorned with swirling intricate curlicues of a faded red stain. Her feet were bare, painted with the same patterns. Her hair was thick and falling over her shoulders like tendrils of endless black night. Her dark downcast amber eyes seemed…tired. Empty. Dark circles plagued her gaunt face; it was clear that she hadn’t eaten in some time, it seemed like she hadn’t slept in…months. The tightness of her pupils resembled that of an old warrior, one who had seen death and was forever haunted by the horrors of the past.
This was not a normal girl. Not one that was from anywhere near here.
“My lord,” Rowan straightened as he spoke. “She says she is from Al-Khuna. Says she had been traveling for several months. Says she fled from a Sovian attack. They’d apparently done a massacre. Says she escaped.” He spoke rapidly, trying to recount everything that she had told the guards when she initially approached the castle. They didn’t believe her at first, but upon looking at her foreign appearance, they knew they needed to get her to the king right away for his judgment. After that encounter, however, she hadn’t said another word. The exhaustion was simply too much.
After Rowan spoke, the young woman slowly raised her head to meet the king’s eyes. As exhausted as she appeared, there was a certain look about her. There was a certain fire in her eyes that told him that she did indeed come from a powerful line. And she had seen things that only true hell could produce.
My HARD Rules:
I only roleplay on Discord.
I roleplay in 3rd person only.
Advance-lit only. I write with detail and flesh out 2 to 3, sometimes even 5-paragraph responses. I expect my partner to hold the same writing standard.
You must be 18+. This roleplay will contain adult themes like gore, violence, and possibly sexual themes.
I am in US Central Time.
Explore your creative freedom! You'll be playing the "leader" of the northwestern kingdom (you get to name the kingdom as well), whether that be king, prince, emperor, or whatever you'd like to call your character. Have your kingdom be any race you want! Humans, elves, orcs, vampires, etc., or make up your very own! They can of course have magic or any other special traits that you'd like. This is your domain to play with.
Thank you for reading this rather long prompt. If you are interested, please message or DM me through Reddit with your RESPONSE to the prompt, as if you are starting the roleplay with me. I want to see how your writing is and if you are what I’m looking for. If you are not interested, thank you anyway for your time, and happy roleplaying!
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The continent of Gêde is a sprawling land of diverse biomes, vegetation, and different walks of life. Humans, animals, fairies, orcs, vampires. All sorts of creatures inhabit the land and over thousands of years, have formed civilizations, villages, and kingdoms.
There are three prominent kingdoms in Gêde. In the northwestern temperate regions lies the kingdom of [writer’s choice]. In the northeast mountain ranges of Gêde lies Sovia, a kingdom of ice and snow, which is ruled by powerful warlords and greedy kings.Sovia is inhabited by frost giants, yetis, and uldra. But the monarchy consists of a long lineage of Vampyres who have taken favor of the sprawling, mineral-rich land and everlasting arctic nights. Down towards the tropical Niraqian Sea stretches the smaller peninsula kingdom of Al-Khuna. This kingdom, fertile by the sun and sea, is dominated by humans and sun elves on land and Suvannamacchi—mermaid-like creatures—in the sea. Al-Khuna was particularly rich in spices, exotic vegetation, silks, and it was said to have had enough gold to make the sun god himself jealous of the kingdom’s radiance.
Well. that was 100 years ago.
For the last century, the royal Al-Khunian kings of the family Farashi had made some…rather critical financial decisions, mostly driven by greed, ignorance, and arrogance. It was always rumored by the other neighboring kingdoms that one day Al-Khuna would collapse under its own rule. The economy was rapidly beginning to collapse. The frivolous spending, greed, and ignorance of the late Raja, his father before him, and his father before him had plunged the land into its downfall. The entire kingdom had gone into a deep famine, and poverty was running rampant. Even as the old generations of the royal family died off and the new generations were coronated, no one could solve the famine. Drought plagued the land, and trading ports were not outputting enough goods to bring in profit. Al-Khuna was growing desperate.
The Raja should have approached the king in the northwest for help. Perhaps then, Al-Khuna might have been saved. But no. Stupidly, Al-Khuna had struck a deal with Sovia.
All Sovia needed to do was provide food and money and the Al-Khunians would sell their services in any way possible, but more conflicts were arising. The Sovians would demand services and goods that the Al-Khunians did not want to provide, but the Sovians were demanding more payment than what was originally agreed upon. Contracts were broken, and loopholes were taken advantage of. The Raja of Al-Khuna made impulsive mistakes that ultimately left too many vital parts of Al-Khuna as collateral.
A war broke out, but Sovia was too powerful. The Raja of Al-Khuna was too proud to surrender, and when he and his Rani were finally assassinated by the Sovians, every kingdom in Gêde watched as Al-Khuna fell under Sovian control.
The only ones of the Farashi line that were spared were the young Prince Adan and his baby sister Princess Iirana, who were ordered by the Sovians to be taken far away where they would not cause any trouble. It was against Sovian morals, of course, to spare children when decimating an entire country.
Prince Adan remembered the massacre, however, and as his birthright to the throne, he planned well into his adulthood how to regain control of Al-Khuna.
~
The Prompt:
"Go! GO! Into the woods!" The booming voice of the prince was nearly drowned out by the sounds of screams, cannons, metal clashing against metal, and destruction. Another battle was raging mercilessly, this time right in the heart of Al-Khuna... It started as a failed assassination attempt on the Sovian prince, who was to marry Princess Iirana—who was now 21. It was all planned out by Prince Adan to regain control of Al-Khuna. They were to arrange matrimony between Prince Veric and Princess Iirana. They were to meet during the Festival of Lights, an annual Al-Khunian traditional party held every Summer Solstice. Iirana was to seduce him, take him somewhere private, and kill him with a kiss with the nightshade painted on her lips.
The Sovian guards saw right through the plan, and all hell broke loose.
Iirana and Adan managed to flee the palace. Shouts and commands could be heard somewhere in the disarray of the battle as Sovian soldiers attempted to track and pursue them. Adan grabbed Iirana's hand and led her through the fray. They ran for what seemed like hours, and they had almost made it to the edge of the kingdom before the prince collapsed with a painful thud. "Adan?" Iirana's eyes widened at the sight of a Sovian arrow impaling right through his leg. He sucked in a sharp breath and yelled through his teeth, "Don't wait for me! Into the woods, Iirana, NOW!!"
She wanted to protest, she wanted to drag him with her, but she knew better, and she fought herself as she fled far into the forest. Far, far away from the raging battle, the screams, the clashing of weapons, and the collapse of buildings on fire. She did not look back to see what had become of her brother.
Al-Khuna was destroyed. The Sovians would make sure there was nothing left for Iirana to return to. The only direction she could go for another safe civilization was northwest across the entire continent.
And that she did.
~
The scene:
“Your Highness! My Lord!” Rowan, The captain of the Royal Guard of the northwestern castle barged into the throne room, interrupting the business his king was attending to. He never behaved in such a manner, and certainly never barged in without a formal announcement. His eyes seemed wide with confusion and urgency, and behind him, two guards were slowly escorting a female figure between them.
“Please forgive me for this sudden intrusion, my lord, but—” Rowan turned his head to watch as his armored men came closer, and the figure slowly becoming more visible to their ruler on the throne.
They had her held firm by arms, but she was not cuffed. She did not seem to struggle either, but rather allowed them to guide her where they wanted her. She was young. Human. Although like no human in this kingdom. She was dressed in a ragged gray peasant dress and black cloak. Her skin was a dark olive tone, as if kissed by the sun god himself. Her fingers and hands were adorned with swirling intricate curlicues of a faded red stain. Her feet were bare, painted with the same patterns. Her hair was thick and falling over her shoulders like tendrils of endless black night. Her dark downcast amber eyes seemed…tired. Empty. Dark circles plagued her gaunt face; it was clear that she hadn’t eaten in some time, it seemed like she hadn’t slept in…months. The tightness of her pupils resembled that of an old warrior, one who had seen death and was forever haunted by the horrors of the past.
This was not a normal girl. Not one that was from anywhere near here.
“My lord,” Rowan straightened as he spoke. “She says she is from Al-Khuna. Says she had been traveling for several months. Says she fled from a Sovian attack. They’d apparently done a massacre. Says she escaped.” He spoke rapidly, trying to recount everything that she had told the guards when she initially approached the castle. They didn’t believe her at first, but upon looking at her foreign appearance, they knew they needed to get her to the king right away for his judgment. After that encounter, however, she hadn’t said another word. The exhaustion was simply too much.
After Rowan spoke, the young woman slowly raised her head to meet the king’s eyes. As exhausted as she appeared, there was a certain look about her. There was a certain fire in her eyes that told him that she did indeed come from a powerful line. And she had seen things that only true hell could produce.
My HARD Rules:
I only roleplay on Discord.
I roleplay in 3rd person only.
Advance-lit only. I write with detail and flesh out 2 to 3, sometimes even 5-paragraph responses. I expect my partner to hold the same writing standard.
You must be 18+. This roleplay will contain adult themes like gore, violence, and possibly sexual themes.
I am in US Central Time.
Explore your creative freedom! You'll be playing the "leader" of the northwestern kingdom (you get to name the kingdom as well), whether that be king, prince, emperor, or whatever you'd like to call your character. Have your kingdom be any race you want! Humans, elves, orcs, vampires, etc., or make up your very own! They can of course have magic or any other special traits that you'd like. This is your domain to play with.
Thank you for reading this rather long prompt. If you are interested, please message or DM me through Reddit with your RESPONSE to the prompt, as if you are starting the roleplay with me. I want to see how your writing is and if you are what I’m looking for. If you are not interested, thank you anyway for your time, and happy roleplaying!
2024.05.20 06:45 EternallyLostSoulzz I let my friends “advice” or jealousy be effect my high school romance and first crush
Friend, who is also a female was in love with me for several years an friend, who is also a female was in love with me for several years and unrequited, unspoken love it was unrequited, unspoken love, our friendship recently ended, because I wasn’t able to meet the expectations of the partner she wanted me to be for her and which I never wanted to be, I met this kid my freshman year of high school. This is when I really met him. I knew about him before then, but we met orientation day. It felt like a dream he was so cute and weird just my type haha My friend started calling him fedora kid right off the bat and I was an insecure 15 year old I tried to stand up for him, but my voice wasn’t strong enough so I turned it into a cute thing at least for me, But my friend was always making fun of him. I’m trying to get the rest of the kids in our friend group to make fun of him while also hyping me to be with him. I didn’t know what I wanted. I know I wanted to get to know him I never got the chance… at least not in person, I ended up moving across state a week after school started. We only got to talk a couple times in person. I had one of my friends deliver him a note that I wrote telling him I liked him and I thought he was cute but I was moving so I wanted to at least be able to get his socials which I received within the week hehe, anyway A couple years went by we stopped talking for a bit at one point, but then we reconnected, and then I was finally gonna go visit, I was at my friends who had just moved back from Las Vegas and we were doing pills and drinking and smoking weed, I don’t know what I was thinking I just wanted to hang out and not have so much anxiety around him…we smoked some weed after he arrived then took some Xanax and that’s where it gets fuzzy or blank, I remember cutting the pills and then it was night time and my friend was going to the bathroom with me..I hit my head concussion level hard on the corner of the counter..my head bounced and I immediately started hysterically laughing at that..so did my friend tho so I thought it mustn’t have really been that hard…the next thing I remember is chugging some whiskey he brought straight outa the bottle like it was nothing..because I must’ve felt like nothing that was bad combo but yea so the next thing I remember is being made out with and felt down, I was sexually abused as a kid, so this was really triggering for me. I was so fucked up I couldn’t even fucking move so I passed out, and when I woke up in the morning, he was wrapped around me. and the panic kicked in And the panic kicked in what happened, what happened? He was supposed to sleep on the couch! Then I feel shame and embarrassment, I was still so insecure… I don’t exactly remember how the rest of that day went, but I got out of bed I went to the bathroom I got on my phone and I called my mom and then I went outside.. he woke up sometime later and he tried to talk to me but I couldn’t. I was still frantically panicked in the pills I couldn’t think because of the after effect. I just wanted to get away or to get away so I kicked him out or I had my friend kick him out. I’m disgusted by myself. He ended up walking home. I gave him my cord so he could charge his phone and he was gone. He left probably pretty expensive leather jacket at my friends as well as another belonging. I can’t remember what it was. I left them with my friend and told her to throw them away. me he didn’t care about them. He told me I could keep them but I didn’t want them. I felt gross. He called me so many times trying to apologize and remedy shit and I was with my Las Vegas pill popping party friend and I cared too much what she thought I guess. So I ended things and went no contact. I would’ve graduated high school last year throughout the entire time we have been on and off messaging and most of the time he was sweet and apologetic painfully apologetic but my default was anger and it shut it down. A few of the later times I tried to talk to him but I couldn’t for very long and multiple times I ended up blowing up on him and going no contact again. no matter how many times I contact he was always orbiting me my socials, and my friends and family socials interact with mine once in a while and that’s usually how the interactions started, the most recent time he viewed my story and liked to post of mine and I’m at like a low low for myself right now and I just didn’t wanna deal with it so my first message I initiated this was move on or I’m gonna call the cops if I don’t kill myself instead… I’m not proud of saying that not at all.. But he was kind in response and it really made my walls crumbling down I can’t be cruel to such a kind person, we’ve been talking for like two months now I’ve apologized so many times I wish I could apologize more but no amount of apologies can take that shit back. so instead, I’m a be there for him like I promised him years ago He kind of changed my mind about killing myself so I don’t exactly know what I feel towards him right now normally I don’t really feel anything besides anger. That kind of feels like my chest is gonna explode. I’m so scared to hurt him again, though I feel like if I initiated a relationship, he could potentially be open to it. But at the same time the situation is pretty much the same it’s long-distance and im still working on myself and I really like being friends being friends is safer right now too, honestly, I don’t really know why I’m posting this here. I don’t really know where to post it I don’t know why I’m posting it either would love some insight. I’d really love that.
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2024.05.20 06:44 Welland94 Have you noticed this?
Most of the domestic abuse, gaslight, or any other post about what we as a society understand as something that is not acceptable in a relationship always always always starts with "my boyfriend is the most loving, caring gentle person that feeds the homeless and spends his free time picking trash to help out community". Then it proceeds to tell how they hurt the OP in the most terrible ways. Repeat it after me, if he hurt you then he is not a nice person, if he did you dirty then he is not a gentleman, we must stop romanizing people that harmed us.
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2024.05.20 06:41 Odd-Concentrate-1081 WIBTA if I were to distance myself from my group of friends?
Hello, this is a new account I made for this, as it's something that I've kind of been left simmering with, with no real network of support. For some context, I have autism, and anxiety, amongst a couple of other things that can affect the way I interact with people negatively, and I am receiving the appropriate professional help for that, but this is still something to factor in with how I'm feeling, so it would be irresponsible(?) not to mention it, if I'm intent on providing the full picture here.
I (18, NB) go to University, and I have a relatively large circle of friends that I have accumulated here throughout my first year, which on the surface level seems great. It seems that now we're in the final term of the year though, with stressful exams looming over our heads, people's true colours have started to emerge. I find myself in a difficult position where the behaviours of my friends have, at times, caused me to feel resentful toward them. I simultaneously feel really bad for feeling this way, and think myself a bit of an AH for being this way.
Recently, I noticed more and more that being friends with these people, for me, felt like an uphill battle that I was losing. It wasn't everyone in the group, but I would start getting invited to things directly less and less, people would go places without me, and I just felt really left out. I did try to kindly bring this up to a couple of them, and received promising-sounding apologies, but I didn't receive the changed behaviour one would hope for with a genuine apology. I would use forms of communication I learned in therapy, "non-violent" communication: you state what you see, without assigning blame, explain how it makes you feel, break that down into a need that hasn't been met, and suggest an alternative action that can be made to make sure that need is met in the future. With my friends, I feel like they've been hearing me, but haven't listened. This really hurts, as they know I have little to no support at home, so they're the only platonic support network I have, and half the time they won't even pick the phone up to talk to me.
Recently, though, it's gotten petty, and has involved someone else- and this had left a really bad taste in my mouth.
I know it isn't my battle to fight in terms of the way people are speaking about my friend, but it has bothered me, because I can't deal with childish gossip like this, especially when the person being spoken of hasn't really done anything that wrong. My friend, 'A', started seeing someone a couple of months ago, and ever since that relationship began, I noticed that my friends increasingly began to complain that they weren't there, and that they would instead spend time with their partner. If it wasn't that, it would be complaining about how much 'A' texted their partner, and not any of them. Sure, it makes 'A' seem ignorant, but they aren't being entirely fair with their criticism there. First of all, isn't it normal to want to text a romantic partner more than friends? Everyone communicates in a different way, but I would hope the person you're being the most emotionally intimate with would be spoken to more than a group of friends, surely. It just seems like common sense to me. Even so, its not like 'A' is ignorant. We're all adults doing 'grown-up' degrees. 'A' turns their phone off during work, so that they can get on with it, also perfectly reasonable behaviour. Even with this, they will still usually get back to a person within the hour the message was sent, so they're a very dependable friend, as well.
The main issue that our group of friends have had was with 'A' being a bit tone-deaf to the feelings of others, and even this wasn't that bad. One friend was complaining about a grade they got, and all 'A' said was, 'if you went to lectures and studied more, you would have been fine'. I get where they were coming from being upset by this, but they also made clear it hadn't really gone any further than this, and it's ironic to me that they complain that this friend can't understand how they hurt others, when they have been doing the exact same, if not worse right back.
This all sort of blew up in my face in terms of how I was feeling about it when 'A' invited me on a night out, and introduced me to some of their own friends outside of our shared group. They knew I had been having a rough time, and wanted to have a good night with me, making sure I was keeping my head above water and all. On the walk back though, I started thinking about some of the things that the others had been saying about 'A', and I felt bad, it felt wrong to just sit on all of that resentment(?) towards my friend, when they had only done one thing particularly wrong. I told them what the others had been saying about them, and 'A' wasn't surprised or anything, it just opened up a dialogue with them about the state of their friendships with everyone.
The jist of what they said about the others went something like this "To be honest, I'm getting bored of them, they're good people, but they never leave their rooms, never communicate, they kind of just stay holed up and watch series together, which isn't my thing. As well as that, I had an idea that they all disliked me in some way, and it doesn't really bother me to find out the truth about them either. Something that does, though, and I noticed this with you as well, is that our friends will almost take advantage of us. They'll come round for the promise of free drinks, free spaces to host parties and stuff like that, when they know we're the poorest two out of the nine of us. I mean (friend's name) still owes me money from laundry, and the same friend took two weeks to pay you back for a favour, when you needed it. I also don't like how some of the girls go on and on about being middle class, it feels a bit like a slap to the face, I'm sure you can also relate on that one."
'A' was right, it had been something that I didn't realise was bothering me, I always lamented the fact that I couldn't have the same interests as them, such as ice-skating, or dancing lessons, or theatre, because of the fact that I didn't have the same opportunities, financially, to have access to those kinds of things growing up. That's not their fault at all, but the fact that the same friends won't indulge in stuff that I do find fun, something simple, like a video games night, or a craft night, is a bit more conceited on their part, I think. Sometimes, it almost feels as if they're better than me? They have been encouraging for me to take part in the same stuff they like now that "I have the means to" (I don't), but it still feels a little patronising, like they were encouraging a toddler or a young child to play nicely.
Their behaviour toward both me and 'A' was troubling, to say the least, they would minimise problems, with the whole 'sorry to hear that, it'll get better', but make a big deal out of others' problems, it was that night that I found out 'A''s father was still sick, and I felt awful for not really asking before. They would sometimes make fun of our accents, which is more of a classist thing, we're mostly from the same country. Hell, they even made fun of 'A' for their last relationship going badly, calling them a bad partner for being uncommunicative, it cannot be any wonder that 'A' would throw themselves into this new one.
I called them out the next day when they began to talk negatively about 'A' while they weren't there, and just said that their assumptions about our friend weren't fair, and it wasn't fair to talk about them while they weren't here. I got told to calm down, and that the whole time they had been joking. It didn't seem much like a joke?
I do like these people, a lot, but I'm at a bit of a crossroads here, there are things about them that do make me a bit upset, but these same people have literally, on occasion, held my hand in the hospital before. I do appreciate these people, but I wish that they were more receptive to the things I, and other's say. It's been a shame to see 'A' pull away like this, and I'm not sure what I can realistically do to help the situation at this point, since gossip will only breed more. I'm just a bit exhausted with some of these people.
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I (18, NB) go to University, and I have a relatively large circle of friends that I have accumulated here throughout my first year, which on the surface level seems great. It seems that now we're in the final term of the year though, with stressful exams looming over our heads, people's true colours have started to emerge. I find myself in a difficult position where the behaviours of my friends have, at times, caused me to feel resentful toward them. I simultaneously feel really bad for feeling this way, and think myself a bit of an AH for being this way.
Recently, I noticed more and more that being friends with these people, for me, felt like an uphill battle that I was losing. It wasn't everyone in the group, but I would start getting invited to things directly less and less, people would go places without me, and I just felt really left out. I did try to kindly bring this up to a couple of them, and received promising-sounding apologies, but I didn't receive the changed behaviour one would hope for with a genuine apology. I would use forms of communication I learned in therapy, "non-violent" communication: you state what you see, without assigning blame, explain how it makes you feel, break that down into a need that hasn't been met, and suggest an alternative action that can be made to make sure that need is met in the future. With my friends, I feel like they've been hearing me, but haven't listened. This really hurts, as they know I have little to no support at home, so they're the only platonic support network I have, and half the time they won't even pick the phone up to talk to me.
Recently, though, it's gotten petty, and has involved someone else- and this had left a really bad taste in my mouth.
I know it isn't my battle to fight in terms of the way people are speaking about my friend, but it has bothered me, because I can't deal with childish gossip like this, especially when the person being spoken of hasn't really done anything that wrong. My friend, 'A', started seeing someone a couple of months ago, and ever since that relationship began, I noticed that my friends increasingly began to complain that they weren't there, and that they would instead spend time with their partner. If it wasn't that, it would be complaining about how much 'A' texted their partner, and not any of them. Sure, it makes 'A' seem ignorant, but they aren't being entirely fair with their criticism there. First of all, isn't it normal to want to text a romantic partner more than friends? Everyone communicates in a different way, but I would hope the person you're being the most emotionally intimate with would be spoken to more than a group of friends, surely. It just seems like common sense to me. Even so, its not like 'A' is ignorant. We're all adults doing 'grown-up' degrees. 'A' turns their phone off during work, so that they can get on with it, also perfectly reasonable behaviour. Even with this, they will still usually get back to a person within the hour the message was sent, so they're a very dependable friend, as well.
The main issue that our group of friends have had was with 'A' being a bit tone-deaf to the feelings of others, and even this wasn't that bad. One friend was complaining about a grade they got, and all 'A' said was, 'if you went to lectures and studied more, you would have been fine'. I get where they were coming from being upset by this, but they also made clear it hadn't really gone any further than this, and it's ironic to me that they complain that this friend can't understand how they hurt others, when they have been doing the exact same, if not worse right back.
This all sort of blew up in my face in terms of how I was feeling about it when 'A' invited me on a night out, and introduced me to some of their own friends outside of our shared group. They knew I had been having a rough time, and wanted to have a good night with me, making sure I was keeping my head above water and all. On the walk back though, I started thinking about some of the things that the others had been saying about 'A', and I felt bad, it felt wrong to just sit on all of that resentment(?) towards my friend, when they had only done one thing particularly wrong. I told them what the others had been saying about them, and 'A' wasn't surprised or anything, it just opened up a dialogue with them about the state of their friendships with everyone.
The jist of what they said about the others went something like this "To be honest, I'm getting bored of them, they're good people, but they never leave their rooms, never communicate, they kind of just stay holed up and watch series together, which isn't my thing. As well as that, I had an idea that they all disliked me in some way, and it doesn't really bother me to find out the truth about them either. Something that does, though, and I noticed this with you as well, is that our friends will almost take advantage of us. They'll come round for the promise of free drinks, free spaces to host parties and stuff like that, when they know we're the poorest two out of the nine of us. I mean (friend's name) still owes me money from laundry, and the same friend took two weeks to pay you back for a favour, when you needed it. I also don't like how some of the girls go on and on about being middle class, it feels a bit like a slap to the face, I'm sure you can also relate on that one."
'A' was right, it had been something that I didn't realise was bothering me, I always lamented the fact that I couldn't have the same interests as them, such as ice-skating, or dancing lessons, or theatre, because of the fact that I didn't have the same opportunities, financially, to have access to those kinds of things growing up. That's not their fault at all, but the fact that the same friends won't indulge in stuff that I do find fun, something simple, like a video games night, or a craft night, is a bit more conceited on their part, I think. Sometimes, it almost feels as if they're better than me? They have been encouraging for me to take part in the same stuff they like now that "I have the means to" (I don't), but it still feels a little patronising, like they were encouraging a toddler or a young child to play nicely.
Their behaviour toward both me and 'A' was troubling, to say the least, they would minimise problems, with the whole 'sorry to hear that, it'll get better', but make a big deal out of others' problems, it was that night that I found out 'A''s father was still sick, and I felt awful for not really asking before. They would sometimes make fun of our accents, which is more of a classist thing, we're mostly from the same country. Hell, they even made fun of 'A' for their last relationship going badly, calling them a bad partner for being uncommunicative, it cannot be any wonder that 'A' would throw themselves into this new one.
I called them out the next day when they began to talk negatively about 'A' while they weren't there, and just said that their assumptions about our friend weren't fair, and it wasn't fair to talk about them while they weren't here. I got told to calm down, and that the whole time they had been joking. It didn't seem much like a joke?
I do like these people, a lot, but I'm at a bit of a crossroads here, there are things about them that do make me a bit upset, but these same people have literally, on occasion, held my hand in the hospital before. I do appreciate these people, but I wish that they were more receptive to the things I, and other's say. It's been a shame to see 'A' pull away like this, and I'm not sure what I can realistically do to help the situation at this point, since gossip will only breed more. I'm just a bit exhausted with some of these people.
2024.05.20 06:40 Lusifero 26 [M4F] Bangalore/Kerala - Looking for a serious long term relationship
Now I know that I don’t have to hurry or rush with this post but I think it’s better if I get to the point as quickly as I can so that I don’t waste your time. So let’s begin, I’m looking for a serious long term relationship, I’m not here to waste anyone’s time. I’m looking for my one and done, the one who I’ll eventually marry, and have a life with. So I’ll tell you my dealbreakers right off the bat, because there are few, please be Hindu, and please be someone who has high moral standards and ethics, and most importantly please be someone who value loyalty above all. I want this to be a non judgemental relationship with mutual respect, I mean let’s be real no two people are the same, let’s respect each other and not judge each other for our differences.
Now I guess since the important part is done now let’s talk about preferences, I’d prefer someone from the age group of 23 - 28 for a partner I think this would be the right age group. I don’t mind where you’re from as long as you’re a Hindu I’m good. Now I guess y’all might be thinking why don’t I go for arranged marriage or anything, well it’s simple I want to build something genuine with someone before I get into marriage. Please be a virgin (It wouldn’t have been a dealbreaker but I stayed this long saving myself for the right person rejecting every opportunity I had, so it’s natural that I’d expect the same from my partner right? So I hope you’d understand). Now though I don’t mind where you’re from because for the right person I’m willing to take the extra effort to meet them I’d prefer if you’re someone who’s living in Bangalore or Mysore or somewhere in Kerala (preferably mid west Kerala).
So I’ll tell you few things about me, I’m a serial doodler by night and a senior associate working in compliance department by day. I’m 26, I’ll be 27 this year so I guess I’m a Virgo (for the Astro folks), and I’m an ENTJ(with 51% E so I’m an ambivert, I guess this is for the MBTI folks). I’m 6'1 in height or 185cm in height and about 85 in weight,and I workout not too regularly but I’m working on it. I like gaming, binging, reading, going for cinema, and being 24/7 on Spotify. So basically most of my weekends are me just chilling under a tree in cubbon park with a book or my laptop with a cup of coffee from Starbucks, now it would have been 100 times better with you by my side, we can even read the same book or watch some movie or show by sharing the same earphones. :)
I guess it’s better I tell you the rest on the fun side, for now let it be this.
So in a world where people are “exploring” I wanna find someone serious and final. I want my partner to dance through life with, someone who’s be there by my side through thick and things as I would be by hers. If you think this post resonates with you then start a chat and give me a small intro about yourself! :) I really wanna see this work out for us!
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Now I guess since the important part is done now let’s talk about preferences, I’d prefer someone from the age group of 23 - 28 for a partner I think this would be the right age group. I don’t mind where you’re from as long as you’re a Hindu I’m good. Now I guess y’all might be thinking why don’t I go for arranged marriage or anything, well it’s simple I want to build something genuine with someone before I get into marriage. Please be a virgin (It wouldn’t have been a dealbreaker but I stayed this long saving myself for the right person rejecting every opportunity I had, so it’s natural that I’d expect the same from my partner right? So I hope you’d understand). Now though I don’t mind where you’re from because for the right person I’m willing to take the extra effort to meet them I’d prefer if you’re someone who’s living in Bangalore or Mysore or somewhere in Kerala (preferably mid west Kerala).
So I’ll tell you few things about me, I’m a serial doodler by night and a senior associate working in compliance department by day. I’m 26, I’ll be 27 this year so I guess I’m a Virgo (for the Astro folks), and I’m an ENTJ(with 51% E so I’m an ambivert, I guess this is for the MBTI folks). I’m 6'1 in height or 185cm in height and about 85 in weight,and I workout not too regularly but I’m working on it. I like gaming, binging, reading, going for cinema, and being 24/7 on Spotify. So basically most of my weekends are me just chilling under a tree in cubbon park with a book or my laptop with a cup of coffee from Starbucks, now it would have been 100 times better with you by my side, we can even read the same book or watch some movie or show by sharing the same earphones. :)
I guess it’s better I tell you the rest on the fun side, for now let it be this.
So in a world where people are “exploring” I wanna find someone serious and final. I want my partner to dance through life with, someone who’s be there by my side through thick and things as I would be by hers. If you think this post resonates with you then start a chat and give me a small intro about yourself! :) I really wanna see this work out for us!
!lock