"I wanted to nab the thief while Exbo here wanted to get his buddy back. Although it was our first meeting, we fought together. That guy may have escaped, but we've decided to battle together from now on. Even if I meet new Pokemon along the way, I will still treat them the same way, because to me...Pokemon are my partners! We work alongside for the same goals, because...we are partners!"
Gold was raised around Pokemon, his home having so many it was known as the Poké House to those in the community. But after a chance encounter leads to his Pokemon being stolen and being the sole witness to a boy stealing Professor Elm's Totodile, Gold gives the police a false description of the thief before setting out with a Pokedex and a Cyndaquil to hunt him down himself. Along the way, Gold demonstrates a deceptive fighting style, often using his cue to send Pokeballs in strange directions and using other members of his team to hide the key play another Pokemon is performing, as well as an ability to nurture the full potential out of any Pokemon from as early as them being in an egg, earning him the moniker of 'the Hatcher'. With these skills, Gold would prove a key player as he faced off against the likes of a revived Team Rocket, a masked man seeking to rewrite time, and even Arceus themselves.
All feats are tagged with the chapter they appear in.

Gold

Physicals

Strength

• Shattered the Masked Man's mask with his cue¹⁷²
• With Silver, holds back a large metal boulder⁹⁸

Durability - Blunt Force

• Kicked in the face by Crystal⁴⁶⁰
• Struck in the back by Whitney's Miltank¹⁰⁵
• Kicked away by Sapphire while in a suit of armour³²⁸
• Hit back by the Masked Man¹⁷²
• Slammed into the ground by Ho-Oh¹⁶⁶
• Sent flying back from Arceus hitting the ground near them⁴⁵³
• Hit away by Arceus⁴⁵⁴
• Kicked by Arceus⁴⁵⁹

Durability - Other

• Thrown about by water as an island sized water construct strikes the Battle Tower³²⁹
• Sent flying into a distant wall by Guile³³⁴
• Bitten on the hand by Silver's Totodile⁹⁸
• Falls a distance onto a beach after his Mantine was struck out of the air by Lugia¹⁴⁸
• Struck by Masked Man's Deliberd's Icy Wind¹¹³
• Caught in Masked Man's Deliberd's Blizzard¹¹³
• Seemingly caught in Jirachi's Doom Desire³³⁴
• Seemingly knocked back by a beam from Arceus⁴⁵⁹

Speed

• Dodges an attack from a group of Bellsprout⁹⁷
• Dodges a beam from a Gyarados¹¹²
• Dodges a beam from Arceus⁴⁵³
• Dodges a spike trap suddenly appearing from a wall⁹⁸
• Saves a girl from an Ursaring strike¹⁰¹

Skill

Cue Shots - Regular

• Curves a Pokeball behind an opponent⁹³
• Hits Aipom's ball to the top of a tree, where they're then released⁹¹
• Hits a fleeing Pokemon with enough force to relocate its jaw¹⁰¹

Cue Shots - Ricochet

• While being swept away in a river in a storm, hits Exbo's ball so it rebounds off of two surfaces and gets him safely to shore⁹⁵
• Bounces a pokeball repeatedly between the walls, ceiling, and floor of a room with a single strike to make several Yanma dizzy¹⁵⁴
• Ricochets a Friend Ball repeatedly around two Pokemon before hitting a Heavy Ball at their two feet, sending both pokeballs to Gold's and Silver's hands respectively¹⁰¹

Other

• Throws his cue to block a pair of shutters from closing on Emerald³²⁸
• Drops a distance onto a board on a rough sea, maintaining balance for a short distance due to it being 'not so different' from skateboarding¹⁴⁶

Intelligence

Battles

• On numerous occasions has used a Pokemon as a distraction while a second Pokemon enacts his actual strategy in secret¹¹¹
• Returns Aibo before curving his ball around an opponent, allowing him to strike their behind⁹³
• Has the other Pokedex holders withdraw their Pokemon before having Aibo ride his skateboard with them at Guile Hideout, allowing all the Pokemon to be released directly on top of him³²⁹
• Throws Aibo in front of a charging Donphan before he uses his tail to pull himself to safety, in that brief moment successfully confusing the Pokemon and causing them to charge into a wall⁹⁶
• Goads a team of Bellsprout into stacking on top of each other, allowing Cyndaquil to take them all out at once⁹⁷
• Has a school of Remoraid attack Lugia's mouth, stopping the legendary from closing it and being able to use Aeroblast¹⁴⁸
• Calculates how long a Pokeball could endure a Dragonite's Hyper Beam, uses the fact that said Hyper Beam is not changing direction in midair to tell that its trainer isn't present to give it orders, and uses this to get the Dragonite to attack in a specific direction and allow Togbo to attack them from behind⁴⁴⁴

Deception

• Drops a straw doll from a tree as a decoy, allowing him to get behind the Masked Man to attack him¹⁰⁴
• Disappears in a smokescreen, intending to drive the Masked Man into pursuing him through a forest, while he had actually climbed a tree so he could climb back down when the coast was clear to save a trainer and his Pokemon¹⁰⁴

Other

• Modifies his skateboard with bike parts¹⁰⁵
• Hits Aipom's ball up a tree to release him before using a heavy pack as a counterweight to lift him up⁹¹
• Uses the fact Yanma have 360 degree vision in a plan to make them dizzy and have one drop a baby¹⁵⁴
• Has Aipom strike the centre of a stack of blocks, allowing the rest of his team to easily smash through the entire stack while they previously were only able to break through a few, winning him the round against a Machamp which could easily smash through stacks on his own⁴⁴³
• Memorizes all the obstacles on a course by going along it the wrong way on his skateboard, allowing him to guide his Togepi around it flawlessly when the Pokemon was blinded⁴⁴²
• Had the foresight to hold onto Emerald's broken mechanical hand, causing Archie to grab hold of it and allowing Gold to let him drop³³⁵

Gear

Pokedex

• His Pokedex shows a Pokemon's strength and attacks⁹⁵
• Identifies four Pokemon at once¹⁰³
• Identifies an attack as the Pokemon is lunging towards him¹⁰³
• Can perform trades with other Pokedex owners¹⁰⁹
• Is capable of tracking the energy of a specific Pokemon the owner has made contact with¹⁴⁹
  • Can't do this if the Pokemon's been caught by someone else⁴⁹
• When three Pokedexes in possession of their true owners are close to each other, all of them make a noise¹⁴⁶

Pokeballs

• Pokemon are held in pokeballs, which have a translucent top which Gold can see Pokemon through⁹³
• They and their Pokemon can return to Gold's hand as he wishes⁹³
• Protect Pokemon from attacks, though they can be destroyed⁴⁴⁴
• Pokemon can move their balls from the inside¹⁰⁷

Cue

• A cue, which he uses to perform trick shots with his pokeballs⁹³
• Clashes with Guile Hideout's sword³²⁹
• Used to quickly change his direction on a skateboard⁹⁶
• Throws it to stop metal shutters from closing on Emerald³²⁸
• Is collapsible³²⁸
• Holds it in his clothes, not his bag¹⁴⁵

Other

• His pokegear allows him to make and take calls⁹⁵
• A pair of goggles, used to protect him from the likes of Exbo's Smokescreen⁹⁸
  • Protect him from Sunbo's Flash¹⁰⁰
• Carries rope to climb up a pagoda⁹⁷
• Uses a skateboard to get around⁹⁵

Other

• Is given the title of 'The Hatcher' by Professor Oak, with him causing a Pichu egg to hatch the instant he touched it¹⁷⁸
  • This ability was developed due to him having lived with Pokemon he considered his family all his life, and allows him to draw out the full potential of a Pokemon¹⁸⁰
  • A Pokemon will have its personality influenced by the emotions felt by Gold as they hatch¹⁷⁹
• Guides his team into winning the Skill, Jump, Stamina, Speed, and Power Pokeathlon courses^442-443
• Despite all his skill, still cheats at pool at a games corner¹⁰⁷

Aibo the Ambipom

As An Aipom

Physicals

• Breaks a block with his tail⁴⁴³
  • When deliberately placing cracks on the centre of the top tile, Aibo could smash through ten plates at once⁴⁴³
• Holds up Gold while clutching a branch with his tail⁹¹ https://imgur.com/a/0NPzvXW
• Lifts up and throws an enormous Snowball⁴⁴²
• Thrown about by water as an island sized water construct strikes the Battle Tower³²⁹
• Struck away by a Donphan's Horn Attack⁹⁶
• Catches a nearby Sunkern in his tail so that Gold can catch them⁹⁹
• Reacts fast enough to catch Gold after the floor's broken beneath them⁹⁷
• Rapidly spins Gold's cue with his tail to enhance Exbo's fire³²⁸

Moves

• Scratch - Aibo repeatedly scratches a foe⁹¹
• Swagger - Confuses a Hoothoot, causing it to attack its trainer instead of falsely calling out that a timer's up⁹²
  • Is briefly in front of a charging Donphan before getting pulled away, with the Donphan getting confused and crashing into a wall⁹⁶
• Double Team - Creates an illusionary duplicate, allowing him to dodge an attack¹¹³
• Agility - Greatly increases Aibo's speed¹⁷²
• Baton Pass - Passes stat increases, such as that gained through Agility, to another of Gold's Pokemon¹⁷²
• Double Hit - Allows him to attack opponents on opposite sides of him at the same time with his tail, and immediately causes him to evolve⁴⁴⁸

Other

• Hears the sound of Unown through a wall in some ruins¹⁰⁰
• Has the ability Run Away⁴⁴²

As An Ambipom

Physicals

• Sent flying back from Arceus hitting the ground near them⁴⁵³
• Poked back by Arceus⁴⁵¹
• Hit by a beam from Arceus⁴⁵⁹

Moves

• Double Hit - Strikes a foe with his tails⁴⁵¹

Other

• Is level 83 and has the Technician ability⁴⁵⁶

Exbo the Typhlosion

As A Cyndaquil

Physicals

• Breaks through a wooden floor⁹⁷
• Gets bitten and scratched by Silver's Totodile⁹⁸
• Intercepts an attack which is about to hit Gold¹⁰³

Moves

• Ember - Shoots a tall pillar of fire from his back, burning Silver's hand while he's hanging on to a tall branch⁹⁴
  • Knocks out a tower of Bellsprout at once⁹⁷
  • Hits back a Primape while boosted by Sunbo's Sunny Day¹⁰⁸
  • Rapidly heats a large metal boulder, allowing Totodile to cool and shatter it with Water Gun⁹⁸
  • Creates a ring of fire around Silver to stop him from escaping⁹⁴
  • Breaks through a wall in a ruin¹⁰⁰
• Tackle - Exbo charges into an opponent⁹⁸
• Smokescreen - Covers an area in obscuring smoke⁹⁸

Other

• Used to cook food for Gold, though he increases the heat and quickly burns it¹⁰⁰
• Can't emit fire while bound up¹⁰⁰

As A Quilava

Physicals

• Alongside Silver's Croconaw and Crystal's Bayleef, stops Lugia's wing from crushing their trainers and hold it up before evolving¹⁴⁸
• Struck by Silver's Croconaw's Water Gun¹¹¹

Moves

• Ember - Works alongside Silver's Croconaw and Crystal's Bayleef to slightly deflect Lugia's Aeroblast¹⁴⁷
• Double Team - Creates an illusory duplicate, making Croconaw bite down on nothing¹¹¹
• Flame Wheel - Creates a wheel of fire around him, catching several Pokemon¹¹⁴

As A Typhlosion

Physicals

• Breaks three blocks with a punch⁴⁴³
  • When Aibo deliberately placed cracks on the centre of the top tile, Exbo could smash through ten plates at once⁴⁴³
• Alongside Silver's Croconaw and Crystal's Bayleef, continues to hold up Lugia's wing to stop it from crushing their trainers¹⁴⁸
• Thrown about by water as an island sized water construct strikes the Battle Tower³²⁹
• Sent flying back from Arceus hitting the ground near them⁴⁵³
• Hit by a beam from Arceus⁴⁵⁹

Moves

• Blast Burn - A stream of fire which, alongside eleven other Pokemon, destroys an island-sized water construct^335-336
  • Seems to knock back Arceus' head⁴⁴²
• With an unnamed fire attack enhanced by Aibo rapidly spinning Gold's cue, creates a powerful blast of fire which knocks back Guile Hideout³²⁸

Other

• Is level 84 with the ability Blaze⁴⁵⁶

Sunbo the Sunflora

As A Sunkern

Physicals

• Bounces extremely high, bringing Exbo's Pokeball up close to a flying Skarmory⁹⁹

Moves

• Flash - Emits a bright light which blinds several Team Rocket grunts and their Pokemon¹⁰⁰
• Growth - Presumably increases Sunbo's strength, though its effect has not been clearly shown¹⁰³
• Mega Drain - Presumably absorbs energy from an opponent, but it's not seen in use¹⁰⁴
• Sunny Day - Increases the power of nearby fire-type moves¹⁰⁸
• Giga Drain - Absorbs the energy of a Magcargo and a Sloking alongside Crystal's Parasect¹⁶⁴

As A Sunflora

Physicals

• Sent flying back from Arceus hitting the ground near them⁴⁵³
• Hit by a beam from Arceus⁴⁵⁹

Moves

• Sunny Day - Increases the strength of Exbo's fire attacks¹⁷²
• Solar Beam - Used off-screen⁴⁵⁹

Other

• Is level 75 with the ability Chlorophyll⁴⁵⁶

Polibo the Politoed

As A Poliwag

Moves

• Water Gun - Sends a Donphan flying back with a stream of water¹⁰⁸

Other

• Draws water from underground while using water type moves¹⁰⁹

As A Politoed

Physicals

• Breaks a block with a punch⁴⁴³
  • When Aibo deliberately placed cracks on the centre of the top tile, Polibo could smash through ten plates at once⁴⁴³
• Alongside Red's Poliwrath, breaks apart Archie's armour³³⁵
• Struck with Guile's knee³³⁵
• Sent flying back from Arceus hitting the ground near them⁴⁵³
• Hit by a beam from Arceus⁴⁵⁹
• Struck by Masked Man's Deliberd's Icy Wind¹¹³
• Caught in Masked Man's Deliberd's Blizzard¹¹³
• Dodges a beam from a Gyarados¹¹²
• Dodges a beam from Arceus⁴⁵³

Moves

• Water Gun - Harms Tyranitar with a stream of water, possibly shooting three streams at once though this could simply be representing how fast Silver's Murkrow is moving to block it¹¹¹
• Whirlpool - Creates a whirlpool at the Lake of Rage to stun a Gyarados¹¹²
  • Uses the destroyed rubble left behind by a giant Piloswine to defeat it, with Silver reasoning that it can do so because the Piloswine's earthquake shockwaves made the solids act like liquids¹¹⁰
• Double Slap - Repeatedly hits an opponent¹¹²
• Dynamic Punch - Polibo lunges forwards with a powerful punch¹¹³
• Hypnosis - Puts a crowd of Pokemon to sleep at once¹⁶⁶
• Perish Song - Instantly knocks out Masked Man's Delibird, but also knocks out Polibo himself¹⁷²
• Bounce - Used off-screen⁴⁵⁹

Other

• Is level 80 with the ability Water Absorb⁴⁵⁶

Sudobo the Sudowoodo

Physicals

• Lifts up a large piece of rubble¹⁶⁶
• No-sells Whitney's Miltank's Tackle and Exbo's Ember¹⁰⁵
• Sent flying back from Arceus hitting the ground near them⁴⁵³
• Hit by Silver's Ursaring's Fury Swipes¹¹¹
• Bitten by Ho-Oh¹⁶⁶
• Hit by a beam from Arceus⁴⁵⁹

Moves

• Focus Punch - Strikes a Rhydon, knocking it out¹⁰⁶
• Low Kick - He extends his leg forwards at crazy angles, tripping up an opponent¹¹¹
  • Seemingly used fast enough to create afterimages⁴⁵⁵
• Dynamic Punch - Lunges forwards with a powerful strike which breaks stone¹¹¹
• Mimic - Sudobo uses the move his opponent's most recently used, allowing him to trade Fury Swipe blows with Silver's Ursaring¹¹¹
• Mud Slap - Throws up mud in a failed attempt to hold off Ho-Oh¹⁶⁶
• Flail - After being bitten by Ho-Oh, sends the legendary flying away¹⁶⁶
• Rock Tomb - Used off-screen⁴⁵⁹

Other

• Is level 78 with the ability Sturdy⁴⁵⁶
• Is capable of growing to create a highly convincing tree disguise, shrinking when revealing himself¹⁰⁶
  • Tricks a Gligar into landing on him like this in order to catch it¹⁰⁷

Togebo the Togekiss

As A Togepi

Physicals

• Immediately after hatching knocks Gligar back a short distance before getting hit away¹⁰⁷
• Seemingly endures part of a Dragonite's Hyper Beam after the Pokeball took the brunt of the attack (with said beam being able to destroy stone), then takes out the Dragonite with an attack to the back of the head⁴⁴⁴
• Struck away by a Dotrio⁴⁴²
• Sent flying back from Arceus hitting the ground near them⁴⁵³
• Struck away by Arceus before being hit point-blank by a beam⁴⁵⁹
• Hit by a beam from Arceus⁴⁵⁹

Moves

• Metronome - Uses a random move, in its debut appearance hitting a Gligar with a beam strong enough to knock them out¹⁰⁷
• Double Edge - Pierces into a Tyranitar's foot, taking it down¹¹¹

Other

• Is level 81 with the ability Hustle⁴⁵⁶
• Runs at full pelt around an obstacle course, following Gold's commands to dodge obstacles⁴⁴²
• Is a delinquent from birth due to Gold taking them to Game Corners while they were still an egg¹⁰⁷

As a Togekiss

Physicals

• Flies carrying Gold⁴⁶⁰

Moves

• Double Edge - Charges into Arceus, staggering them⁴⁵⁹

Tibo the Mantine and 20 Remoraid

Moves

• Water Gun - The Remoraid all blast Lugia with streams of water, forcing its mouth to stay open¹⁴⁸

Other

• Flies through the air with Gold hanging on with his cue¹⁴⁷

Pibu the Pichu

Moves

• Enhanced by Raikou's power, releases a powerful electric blast dubbed Super Rising Thunder to attack Pryce¹⁸⁰

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Lycanthrope species is a disgusting race. And I, Delan Riley, am nothing more than a human scum in their eyes never expected those species would turn my world upside down. Since when the lycans managed to penetrate our town, like in the early 1900's we have a hierarchy, upper class = the lycans, middle class = mated humans, and lower class = the normal humans, who were basically considered scum. I endured their torment day after day, vowing to run away from them one day, until that day came and everything changed.
Dylan POV "Humans," I scowled at the principal's words from tannoy. "The Alpha twins will be celebrating their birthday tomorrow, as such, festivities are in order." Oh great, the Alphas twin children. Adrian and Arya are the worst lycans alive. I swear just because they are the alphas kids they literally get away with everything. If their birthday is tomorrow, then the wolves are going to be worse than ever. "All students will be present to greet them, two lines will be made, with humans on the left and the lycanthrope on the right. Any mated human will be at the front of the line for their year, you will all also be in order of your school year. That is all." Chat broke out the minute the tannoy was finished. "We haven't had a school gathering since the alpha king visited three years ago, before his sons coronation." Nick was right, the last time we all gathered like that was for the king and queens visit, when he decided to let the world know that he was to renounce his title to his only child, son Josh. "That sick bestard, he wants to make sure everyone is there so those idiot twins can find their mates." Yes I was mad, my fists connected with the table in front of me once more as I thought about how disgusting the situation was. You see the twins will be turning 17, so it's very possible someone in our school could be their mate, finding a mate is sacred to a wolf, the minute they say that one word your fate is sealed. They will turn your mind, morph you into being a lover of their kind, and then you'll give in.

That won't happen to me, I'm growing old to see the world as it once was, and I'm going to choose who I'll be with. No one will take that dream away from me.

Once dinner was finished, I just wanted to sleep. I'd had a very long tiring day, I quickly sat down on a small stool my mother kept in the storage closet and removed my shirt while my brother Freddy sat at the table to do his simple homework. It wasn't long before my mother came in with a large bowl of warm salt water and some cotton, this was going to sting I just knew it. She was here to help me with the wounds caused by wolves yesterday. She slowly began to unwrap the bandage from around my torso and slowed down drastically when it came to the final layer, I felt it peel off every wound and my fists clenched in pain. "Jesus!" I heard my mom exclaim once the dressing was completely removed. The air on my back was nice though and I sighed as my arm covered my once again exposed brests. "This is more than 15!" I began to hear sniffles coming from her and sighed turning round to look at her face, only to notice tears streaming down it. "Mom I'm fine, it's alright." She shook her head. "It's not alright, I'm your mother I shouldn't let these things happen. I'm so sorry. Your father would have..." here she goes again. Every single time something happened she'd always bring up dad, it really annoyed me because no matter how much we all wish he was here, he just isn't. My father was kiled by THEIR kind, almost 5 years ago when they actually managed to take over. When the lycans managed to penetrate our town my father rose up with some people from the neighborhood, to defend our livelihood, it was futile to say the least. We lost many people and I watched as my dad was ripped apart by two fully shifted wolves, I ended up shoting him to stop his suffering before they dragged me to the courtyard, i was the person to receive the first lashing of the town when I was 12! The wolves have been pretty strict with me since that day. "Stop being stvpid!" Was I harsh? Definitely! Did she need to hear it again, absolutely. "Dad is dead, we don't know what he'd do because he never knew this life. He never knew this world." I know what he'd have done, most likely attacked the guy who held the whip and got himself kiled in the process. "The best thing you can do for me, is stop crying and help me, next time don't insist on helping if you can't handle it." She began to wash my open wounds with the warm salt water causing loud winces to leave me, I knew it was necessary to prevent infection, but my god it hurt like a betch. "Some of these are really deep Dylan!" She sniffed again and my eyes rolled in my head. "I told you, I'm fine, just wrap me back up so I can get to bed." My mom was obviously more impacted by my injuries than I was, I suppose that always the case though. When it's happening to you, you've just got to get through it but when it's happening to someone you love, you just want to take their pain away. She quickly placed a fresh bandage around my waist and chest and wrapped it tightly for compression. The bowl of water that was used was now red in color, I guess from the blood my back was dripping with. "Can you keep your head down please? At least just this week. You can't take any more lashings." I simply nodded before standing up away from the stool, I walked over to Freddie and ruffled his hair in affection. "Good night squirt." He giggled and fixed his hair slightly. "Night Dilly." I smiled walking upstairs to my little bedroom, as soon as I was inside i shut the door and flopped down on to my bed on my stomach and I took a minute to cry to myself at the pain in my back, what my mom did was important but it hurt, not that I'd ever tell her. My hand covered my mouth quickly to muffle any noise I might be making. I couldn't tell anyone, I had to be strong because more and more people were crumpling these days, and my mom would break if she knew how much I was suffering. Sleep followed me shortly after, she was right though about me needing to keep my head down for the time being, I could not take another lashing! After a long night and an even longer morning, we were all finally stood in the hallway at school waiting for the twins to arrive. "Mine!" Everyone that was stood in the hallway tensed up, as we were seniors, me and Nick were stood towards the very back of the human line. All the mated people were situated directly opposite their wolf mates in their years. We stayed silent and still as Arya walked down the hall and stopped directly in front of Nick. His eyes widened in fear, unsure of wether to look up or keep his head lowered. "Look me in the eye, mate." He glanced at me slightly as if asking what he should do. "I said, look me in the eye." He slowly moved his eye line up to look at her face. I took a glance myself to see her eyes pitch black with lust. "I... can't... I mean... erm." Before he was able to mutter anything else, two wolves from opposite, grabbed him out of the line and dragged him behind Arya. "Hey!" My head shot up before I could stop myself. My mouth also forgot its place as I jumped out of line. Everyone's head shot to me as my eyes widened in realization at what I'd done. Adrian, the other twin, walked up to me before punching me right in the stomach, I doubled over instantly. Feeling the sting in my slightly healed back. "I know you... You were publicly flogged only two days ago." God I hate this guy. "I also have it on good authority, that you openly spoke out against our rules and regulations in yesterday's class." My head shot down the line slightly to see Erin, looking a little frightened, her mate, the beta to be was looking at her, nodding his head in reassurance. "You traitor, you grassed on your own kind?" I yelled at her before feeling a fist connect with my cheek. My head whipped to the side from the force, while my class members gasped. I'm so done with this treatment, right then, I wasn't in charge of my actions. My fists curled up and my stance became a lot more defensive. My head snapped up to the alpha to be, and I looked him in the eye. "You don't know the meaning of the word disrespect." I suddenly hurled my fist towards his head, which he easily dodged, but my foot came up and kicked him instead. He stumbled backwards from the force with wide eyes. "You... you Actually hit me!" He didn't even sound annoyed, more shocked. Everyone in the hallway was watching, waiting for the alpha to do something but instead he simply stood up straight, regaining his composure. "I think everyone should get back to class." He began to walk away, following his sister when I called him back. "What about Nick?!" "Simple, He's my sisters mate. He now belongs to her." Argh, he's not an object. "He's not her property." A chuckle left his mouth, before turning his back to me again. "All humans are property." A short while later everyone made it to science class, our teacher Mrs Mathews is mated to the lycans pack doctor, she also now has a four and two year old with him. She was one of the first humans to be cohered into a false relationship. "What were you thinking young lady?" I rolled my head at her before looking at the empty seat next to mine. Nick was with that stvpid wolf girl right now. Being changed, I'm so angry it's ridiculous. "I was thinking, this guy is being a prick. Did you hear him? 'All humans are property.' It's bull shet." I looked up and the whole class looked at me like I had three heads. Talking shet about wolves is one thing, but talking about an alpha is punishable by death, attacking an alpha is an even worse offense. There was then a knock at the door and in walked Erin and her band of mated bestards. "Sorry we're late Mrs." "Erin, how are things between you and bata Monroe?" She blushed, the traitor actually blushed at the mention of his name. "He spoke to me last night about trying for a baby. We need a good strong boy to take over as beta." I scoffed looking at her as she took her seat. "You guys are actually pathetic, why can't it be a girl? Those mutts are basically Neanderthals" I voiced my opinion and saw all the shocked faces around me. Calling the lycans mutts, is the same as them calling us scum. After lesson had ended the entire school was called into the hall for assembly. This is where any human who has been found to have broken the rules were punished, usually 10 lashings were goven out or something similar. "Welcome to the school assembly, congratulations to the alpha twins for finding both your mates. Now on to the business at hand, as the 5 year anniversary of the new world is coming up, we have been informed that the alpha king will be visiting our district next week, this is very exciting news. We want you all to look your absolute best, she wolves and mated females will wear exemplary dresses made by seamstress. Male wolves and mated men will wear tailored suits. Anyone who doesn't comply will be reprimanded." The Alpha King?! No one has met him yet, he took over the throne three years ago when he turned 18. He really didn't make any appearances though, great, this month is going to be a nightmare. "As for the humans, you will be given a new uniform to wear for the visit, these are to be neatly ironed and worn to the highest standard. As for the following humans, based on your attitude this past week, you will be coming to the front and facing punishment. Tony summerset?!" Tony's head shot up as he looked around, he was in the year below but he shared my views when it came to the lycans. He slowly walked up to the front of assembly, almost instantly his top was t0rn in two and he received 10 lashings. A girl named Kara was next and she too received 10 lashings. A few more people went up slowly accepting their fate then suddenly my name was called. "Dylan Riley." Inside I was terrified but I simply shrugged my shoulders, I guess I did kind of expect this. Although I'm not sure if my back can take any more damage. "You attacked an alpha, correct!" His eyes bored into mine as I bowed my head submitting to his authority. "Technically, no." Everyone in the school gym looked on in fear, as my head moved to the front row of the wolf side. Adrian sat, with a werewolf girl in the year below, her name was Jana, I guess he found his mate. Nick and Arya were no where to be seen though. Adrian gave me a shrug as if to say he didn't tell, before smirking at my comment. "He hasn't officially taken the alpha title yet, so he's just..." i looked at the principle and noticed his eyes black and his claws out, he was in what lycans call a half shift, triggered when the subject has become angered. He turned to two security wolves and gave them a nod, Almost immediately i was forced onto my knees, my arm was slammed on a table and held in place by one wolf, while my body was held in place by the other. "Ok, I don't think this is needed, I have alpha blood, a stvpid human girl can't hurt me." My head snapped to Adrian who had stood up in front of the school to stop what was happening. "Nevertheless, humans need to know their place." With that the pressure on my arm increased as our principals hand pulled my sleeve up before a long claw punctured my skin. The searing pain shoting from the fresh wound had my eyes scrunched and my fist clenched, I bit the inside of my cheek hard instantly tasting blood, however no sound left my mouth. He continued to write, using my skin as a canvas and his claws as a marker, it went on forever, my vision blurred slightly at one point as I turned my head away. After minutes of torture, he was done and the pressure on my arm eased, instantly I snatched my arm away, hissing through my teeth at the pain. I was about to scurry off stage, when I was roughly grabbed yet again, my arm being held in the air by the principal while my feet were inches off the floor, blood dripped from the wound and the pattern he had made was on show for everyone to see. Loads of people gasped, even the wolves looked slightly horrified at what had happened. "This is what happens when a human decides to speak out. I can promise, anyone who so much as says one word about our way of life, will have the same punishment." My arm was starting to seriously ache from being held in the air for so long, and the lack of blood flow to my suspended arm was causing me pins and needles, still I refused to make a sound. I held the tears back and I bit my cheek harder causing more blood to fill my mouth. "That's enough Bradley!" Adrian growled, he was still stood up and looking at the scene in front of him. His eyes hard as he stared at the principal a low warning growl erupted from his chest which had the head teacher gulping, he quickly let go of my arm causing me to crash to the floor. A small cry left my mouth as I hit the hard floor. Immediately I scrambled away, my foot just missed the high step leading to the stage and I fell, waiting for the impact of the ground, but it never came. Two strong arms wrapped around me catching my weak body causing me to look up, my eyes widened as I noticed Adrian had caught my falling form. "This isn't part of the human punishment program!" Adrian growled causing me to tense in his grip, I pushed him away from me before fixing my uniform top. The room was deadly silent, taking in the scene in front of them, while I stole a glance at my forearm. Carved into my skin by his devastating claws were two words, words that would most definitely scar my body for life. 'Human scum' "Lessons must be learned, she received lashing merely two days ago, and clearly it had no effect on her." Another growl left Adrian's chest as he stepped on to the stage, I wasn't bothered though, you would think I'd be ashamed but I simply smiled slightly. I fixed my sleeve a little so it wouldn't rub on the fresh wound before speaking. "It doesn't matter," the whole room looked at me shocked by my attitude. "I would rather be labeled human scum, than have any resemblance to your kind. I'm proud of what I am, how many of you can say that?" After my amazing little speech, I walked right down the middle between the humans and lycans and out the door. No more compliance, I'm going to get away with as much as I can without getting into too much bother. There will come a day when the lycans power will fizzle out. When it does I'll be ready, I'll be waiting for the day we take our world back. As for the best part about my plan...

No one can stop me.

"Ouch, not so hard." I seethed as the school nurse cleaned my new wound with antiseptic. "If you had of just kept your mouth shut, this wouldn't have happened." I turned to my right looking out the window at the few clouds that were floating in the blue sky. "Like I said, I'm proud to be human, and now everyone knows what I am." I clenched my fist together as the nurse began wrapping a bandage around my forearm. It had been a good few hours since the incident in the hall, and I had been forced to come to the nurces office after I had tried to clean my wound by splashing it with water from the tap, it also refused to stop bleeding. "You are impossible. Can you please just try and stay out of trouble? For one day, that's all I ask." Our school nurse is a wolf, she's one of them. However she hates the way they treat us mere humans, she thinks we should all just live in peace with equal rights. Like that would ever happen. "All I've done is stay out of trouble, but you are just going to humiliate me anyway, so what's the actual point?" "The pack were discussing a public execution, Dylan. You need to walk on egg shells from now on, not just for you but for your family as well." No ones been publicly executed in over 4 months, I'm flattered they're considering it. They only execute people who they believe are the biggest problems to society. "Well then... I'm flattered." I chuckled, before looking at the patch job. 'Huh, not too shabby.' I quickly stood up from the human nursing station and pulled the sleeve of my shirt down covering the evidence of ever being hurt. "This is serious!" I just gave her a blank look before leaving the room. On the way out I heard her call back to me. "Please just think about it." I gave a clipped nod as I walked away wondering how I'm going to tell my mom about this. Later in the evening... "Dilly why you say that?" Freddie looked up at me with a mouth full of bread. "Don't speak with your mouthful!" My mom scolded him as a bashful blush made its way to his cheeks. "Sowwy mommy." His reply was muffled as he swallowed the last chunk of food. "I said it Freddie, because it's the truth. The wolf race are a pathetic excuse for..." my mom cut me off with an extremely stern look. "Dylan! They have ears everywhere, one more word out of you and it's your room." I scowled, my hatred for the Lycan kind growing stronger as each day passes. "What more can they do to me, lash me? Beat me? Brand me? They've ran out of options." I stated slamming my hands down, then severely regretting it as sharp pain shot though my wound. "What was that?" My head shot to regard my mothers worried expression. Her eyebrows were raised and her eyes were dull and judging as she looked at me. "Nothing, it was nothing." I quickly took my plate in my hand and began to walk to the kitchen. "I'm not really hungry, and I have homework to do!" My mom caught hold of my forearm causing me to drop my plate suddenly, I watched it slowly fall before shattering on the floor. I retracted my arm quickly and turned to Freddie. "Stay there and don't move until it's cleaned up ok sport?" He just nodded with wide eyes, I turned back to my mom and noticed her curious stare on my arm. Her grip shifted to the other side as she turned it around before pulling my sleeve up. The bandage was showing and a bit of blood was seeping though after the wound had been disturbed. "What the hel happened?" My moms eyes widened as she began to fumble with the bandage. Before she could unravel any of it I snatched my arm away. "I had an accident at school. No big." I began to gather the large pieces of the broken plate up ready to put them in the bin. "What did you do Dylan?" She looked at me with pure worry and only then did I realize what the wound must look like to someone who didn't know. "For gods sake! I didn't do it to myself! I got publicly punished at the assembly alright? It's no big deal." Her face dropped instantly and she stepped towards me, causing me to step backwards. "Mom, I'm ok. So back off will you." "What did you do? I've never known them to cut someone's arm as a punishment." Her shock and accusation was evident in her voice and I sighed heavily. "I spoke against the alphas son." I may have hit him too, but I wasn't going to divulge that part to her. "It's not one big cut, mom, it's a brand, 'human scum' carved onto my arm." "They've branded you now too?!" My eyes rolled at her hurt tone as I went to get the dustpan and brush. "You're so much like your father." A sigh left her mouth as she spoke, running a hand through her hair, while I quickly swept up the little pieces of the broken plate. "You've had a new uniform delivered. It's laid out on your bed. Dylan, Please just try and stay respectful in the future, I don't want my daughter to be completely mutilated. Although you're not far off." "Gee, Thanks." I then walked over to my little brother Freddy before blowing a kiss into his neck and hearing him giggle. "So sport, how's school going?" "It's ok." He shrugged before going back to coloring a dinosaur picture in. "Well that's good, stay out of trouble, ok little man?" Heading upstairs and into my room, my thoughts wandered to the permanent graffiti scar very slowly healing on my arm. Disgusting beasts. Think they own the world because they're faster, stronger and can shift. Pah. If you ask me they are not all that.

The second I walked into my room my mouth dropped open. On my bed was some grey pants laid out neatly, which wasn't the surprising part, no, what shocked me was the grey high neck no sleeved button down shirt, every single set of uniform had sleeves except this one. They've done this on purpose those, mutts. They want the world to see my arm and know what a disgusting creature I am. They want the world to know that I, Dylan Riley, am nothing more than 'human scum'.

During the last week, I've been horrible, in class I've been loud in voicing my views, I've insulted at least everyone to some degree, I didn't care about the consequences, and I certainly didn't think about them. I haven't seen Nick at all since he was claimed, and to make matters worse today was the royal visit. Oh yes, werewolves and mated humans alike were spending every waking minute preparing themselves to meet his royal majesty, king of the wolves. Unclaimed Humans however would rather stick pins in their eyes. "Dylan, get down now... you're going to be late." She was right, I was dawdling this morning, I really couldn't be bothered today, I gave myself one last look in the small mirror and sighed when my eyes met my newly uncovered brand. It had bad bruising around the letters, and was still extremely tender to touch, it was definitely healing now though. I made my way down the stairs and came face to face with my mother who was seeing to Freddie, she was helping my brother get his coat on when she turned to me. "You ready sport?" Freddie nodded his little head at me and smiled while I quickly slid my shoes on. "Just Remember, the alpha is bad enough, Dylan, please, please don't do anything to anger the king." My mother stopped us from walking out the door to tell me something she had been telling me continuously for the last couple of days, it was almost as if the entire human population of our district was expecting me to do something stvpid. "Try and have a good day." I rolled my eyes but nodded, even I know not to push the king, he could kil me in the hallway like it was nothing. In fact I plan on staying out of his way for the entirety of the day. "We will see you tonight mom." I stated before me and my brother began our walk to school, his little hand clutched my own tightly as we went. Usually Nick would be with us, as he lives next door, well he used to, now he's residing in the main pack house. I quickly dropped Freddie off at his school and watched him get the wolfsbane neutralizer before walking into him building giving me a small wave before he went in. With my new scar on complete show, and my figure being complimented by the skin tight shirt I was wearing, I sauntered down the street to school, I gave my name and year in and took the wolf's bane neutralizer injection with no problems at all. It was finally getting into school that the problem occurred. Walking through the halls I was met by many looks, some of pity some of disgust. You see every single non mated human in the school was wearing a long sleeved version of the uniform I was given. All the Wolves and mated couples were scattered around in fancy floor length dresses or tailored suits. As I turned the corner I noticed a couple, now this couple happened to catch my eye the most out of all of them because it consisted of Arya and Nick, eating each other's faces off. "What the hel!" Nicks head shot to me as his eyes widened. He too was dressed in a tailored suit, a navy blue tie hung on his neck to match Aryas dress. Why was this happening all the time? It's always my friends that get completely brain washed. I shook my head in disbelief before turning my back on him. I heard his fast footsteps behind me as I rounded the corner. "Dylan?!" He ran right in front of me, stopping me in my tracks, making me drop my bag off my shoulder and almost causing me to bump into him. "Let me just explain..." "Has she marked you?" I mean you could almost see it in his eyes, she had marked him, and knowing the way life goes he's probably even mated with her. "Actually... Don't even answer that." I aggressively picked my bag up off of the floor and stormed off down the hall. "Dylan, just listen to me, Erin was right, it's so hard to resist your soulmate, and Arya is actually ok once you get to know her." I just kept walking, he caught up to me walking beside me but it didn't matter, I completely ignored everything and everyone. 'I'm so not in the mood today' getting into class was good though, I said hello to Mr Foley and took my usual seat. Nick sighed then took his bag off ready to sit next to me, but I snapped before he had the chance. "Traitors and mated idiots sit on that side of the room." I didn't look him in the eye as I pointed to a seat right at the front of the classroom on the opposite side. His eyes widened as he turned his attention back to me. "You can't be serious Dylan." I gave him a blank look before grabbing my book out of my backpack, I placed it on the desk then began to write the date on the top line. "I've sat in this seat for as long as I can remember." I ignored him, his voice sounded sad and shocked. "Dylan? Wait! What is that?!" Before I could react Nick had grabbed hold of my branded arm and turned it to see the letters. "Oh my God! What happened?" I snatched my arm away from him and shrugged as I continued to write in my book before grabbing my water bottle out of my bag. "The principal happened, it was my punishment for speaking out against Adrian and Arya. I wear it with pride." He just held a complete look of disbelief. "You spoke out against them?" I shrugged, what did he think I'd do. "It's no secret that I despise this stvpid new world and the mutts that control it. You were my friend, I wasn't going to let them just take you without saying something, although that is exactly what you seem to have done. Enjoy the view from your new seat!" "Don't be like that, Dylan, I'm your best friend, I'm sorry about your arm, but..." my eyes rolled inside my head at my friends words. "Anything with the word 'but' in, isn't an apology, it's a rationalization." I took a drink of water from my bottle and kept my eyes facing forward, ignoring his every attempt to try and talk to me. "Dylan?.. Dylan?... Do you know what? Erin is right, if you push us all away you won't have any friends left." He huffed before walking over to the empty seat and sitting down, I could feel him glancing up at me every now and again but I didn't respond. "Good morning class, please settle down." He looked at me then at Nick and frowned, we've never sat apart, we were friends before the new world even began. I just shook my head telling him to forget it. "So... as you know the king will be arriving in a short while, but until then lessons will go on as normal." Its funny seeing teachers in the same uniform your wearing, mr Foley and his wife are the coolest. Human teachers and doctors only have slightly more respect than we do. Because of Mr Foley's status him and his wife have better access to food and drink, Mrs Foley is cool, sometimes she even makes sure mr Foley brings some in for me. Ya know, coz I'm their favorite student. It's not in a weird way, it's just they were friends of the family before the new wold took effect. Mr Foley and my dad were buddies from high school, so it goes without sayin really. "All the mated humans will be at the front of each years line again, after that you will all be placed in status, Nick, as your mated to Alpha Arya, you'll be at the front of your line. Dylan as you have been branded..." his voice trailed off as he looked at me. "Yeah yeah, I'll be at the back of the line behind everyone. I get it." I huffed, moving my sight towards the window once more. "I am sorry." I turned to face Mr Foley again, he looked genuinely upset and that look of pity wasn't something I wanted to see. I gave him a clipped nod then turned away again. "Anyway, on to the subject matter, 'Of Mice and Men, page 64, Nick why don't you start us off with the reading."

"Of course sir." Nick began reading the book but I switched off, today is going to be a long day. After almost an hour and a half of reading comprehension, the bell chimed signaling lunch. I shot up and out of the classroom before anyone could say anything. Today, I was avoiding drama like the plague.

I wandered the corridors straight to the lunch hall. All the people I would normally hang out with we're all mated so I grabbed my lunch quickly, and sat down at the end of the human table. Let me lay the lunch hall out for you. On one side of the room you have two long rows of tables, with simple benches that make it look like prison, on the other side of the room you have multiple round tables with fancy chairs. Yup you get it. The humans sit at the prison tables and the wolves and traitors sit on the fancy tables, they get fancy food, fancy drink and most importantly they get pudding. what I would give to have some pudding. "Dylan can we just talk?" Nick quickly took the spot next to me as he set his lunch tray down. I looked at his food which had been placed on a ceramic, circular white plate. God that looked good. I sighed knowing he was going to talk anyway. "Fine, you have two minutes." I used my fork to take a bit of pasta off his plate and shoved it into my mouth. God that was good. "After I left school, I was taken to the pack house with Arya, and I really got to know her. It took a few days for me to finally accept being with her, but ever since life has been ok, and the sax... well that's a whole other story." Eww, I didn't need that mental image in my head. "I'm glad your happy." I stated before deciding I had no appetite. His face held shock before he sighed in relief. "That means a lot Dylan, I mean you know that your opinion matters to me." I cut him off before he could say anything else. "I said I was glad your happy. I didn't say I approved of what you've done. You've basically turned into one of THEM, I can't ever forgive you for that." He looked hurt, but I couldn't care less about his feelings. He placed his hand gently on my arm and went to open his mouth when a growl sounded out. All heads whipped to where it came from, Arya was stood holding a glass of soda and a plate, she was looking right at me and Nick and I would totally be dead if looks could kil. Nick quickly retracted his hand, his whole face fell and you could see sorrow flood his irises. "You sit with me now, get away from that, that... scum!" Wow, Nick was such a lucky guy. NOT. "You heard her. Get away from me, go sit with your new friends. I'm happy for you, and I understand where your coming from, but don't come up to me again and pretend you didn't betray your own kind. Don't pretend you didn't betray me." I shoved a little bit of food into my mouth before standing up and walking out of the cafeteria, leaving my tray on the table. I was walking through the hallway to the classroom, you see I decided to spend lunch with Mr Foley in his room, when I happened to hear voices in the corridor. "Is it wise for her to actually be present when the king arrives? Surely she could be placed in the dungeons, it might actually teach her some respect?" My principal was speaking to the alpha of our district, huh, if I stayed and listened do you think they'd notice, maybe they could smell me?! "Everyone is to be present, if the Riley girl does one thing out of line she will be dealt with severely, child or not. That girl has been a blight to the district since day one, she's dangerous, if she puts one hair out of place I will personally break her into submission." Oh shet, they were talking about me specifically, and they mentioned the dungeon, that's not been used in months. Normally I would have listened in more but something about the entire situation didn't sit right with me, all of a sudden, I was on edge, and simply wasn't interested in the slightest in hearing how my misery was to be enhanced. I backed up slightly before turning around and bumping head first into one of the hottest man I had ever seen. I lost my balance immediately and fell straight on to the floor letting out a small grumble in the process. His eyebrows knitted together quickly and his breath hitched in his throat as he looked upon my fallen state and gasped. "Mate!" He whispered, his eyes fixated on mine. Now, I had seen and heard that many times to know what that means, I gasped before taking a step back. 'No, no, no, no, no. This can not be happening.' He growled slightly before stepping towards me. Oh Shet!

If I was a Hedgie Minion, i would have watched Dumb Money alot for research but not Drive Angry where the Devil’s accountant motivated cops with “promotion and pay raise”
If I was a Hedgie Minion, i would be scraping the socials in the middle of the night to sew discontent and discourage people coming together
If I was a Hedgie Minion, I would NOT have seen movies like Branded, Jones Plantation, The Informers, What Just Happened or City of Lies because i’m smarter than those who organize against us always thinking we must be smarter.
If I was a Hedgie Minion, no matter what critical analysis is thrown out, i believe i’m on the right side and would never investigate my company for chicanery so I too will be like the guys in “The Wolf of Wall Street”
If I was a Hedgie Minion, i would use words like “its just business”, not realizing that is a common phrase said by bad guys in films as if to exonerate themselves.
If i was a Hedgie Minion, i would not have seen films like “Don’t look Up” and saw how underlings got shat upon by arrogant people in charge, or films like “Swimming with Sharks” where winning in life meant losing your soul
If i was a Hedgie Minion, i would think P Diddy sure is talented, Harvey Weinstein is just a pervert and not a gangster, OJ was a terrible person but not his son with rage issues and chef knives
If I was a Hedgie Minion, i would root for the Empire in Star Wars films and never look for Sith like phrases my boss would throw out like “i’ll take care of you” or “thats above your pay grade” and never ever look at the possible chicanery that i may be a part of.
If I was a Hedgie Minion, i would not understand how to think creatively, how the perceptions put upon the masses since birth are meant to stifle and control rather than empower which would help me understand the drive of people coming together to take back moneys in an overburdened and overtaxed system
If I was a Hedgie Minion, i wouldn’t talk to other minions who played the game i’m playing and lost because I am definitely smarter and besides my bosses probably discourage it.
If i was a Hedgie Minion, i would see homeless bums and not the remainder of an equation of people born into a consumer based society that fail to consume and take no responsibility for this remainder
If I was a Hedgie Minion i would never ask, “is money driving emotion or is emotion driving money?”..”should a creation of man have control over feeling, will, or intent?”
If I was a Hedgie Minion i would never think i am on the wrong side because we dont cheat and everyone wants our money that we are definitely not manipulating.
If I was a Hedgie Minion there is no way some dude on Reddit could know more than me, Even if they are a third generation accountant, who has traversed the world and works in the clockwork of Hollywood, and has observed “Old Money”, “Fast Money”, “New Money”, “Inherited Money”
If I was a Hedgie Minion, i never saw “Born Rich” or “The 1%” and put together that Jamie’s Dad constantly discouraged him making such documentaries because they are a den of piranhas that will eat them, and I sure want to be in their service because I can definitely become one of them..Lee Atwater and that “Boogieman” Documentary was all bullshit is what I would think
If I was a Hedgie Minion, i would just do what i am told, not think creatively..let Ai use me and not use it to expand upon original thoughts
If I was a Hedgie Minion..i would not understand the motivations of my enemy or think i could ever lose, and use phrases like “just doing my job”
If I was a Hedgie Minion, i would never ask “is the best that money can buy the best there is?”
But i am not a Hedgie Minion, and if you are you’re predictable, Apes are not.🍌

I (38 F) have been married to my husband (44 M) for almost 7 years now. Looking back, I couldn’t help but blame myself for not realizing I married a total stranger.
Long story ahead: I met my husband a little over 4 years before we got married. I thought he was everything i prayed for and felt so lucky. He was very sweet, caring, sex is great and i felt like i found a person that was exactly like me. Most of the time, we even think alike. We rarely fought and always had fun together. Well, that was then.
Just 2 months after our wedding, I have become pregnant. We were so happy and excited that finally, the much awaited first grandchild of my FIL was just months away to meet him!
On the 4th month of my pregnancy, i found out that my husband was keeping a secret that nobody, not even from his own circle, knew about. He has always maintained a loving and loyal character to everyone for a very long time until i exposed him to his best friend. One morning I was searching for a comb in his bag, and i found condoms in one of the pockets. I was so mad I threw the condoms in his face and kept quiet for a few days. Thoughts rushing through my brain as he gave me some of the stupidest excuses. Back then i chose to give him another chance, maybe because i still hoped that the man i married is still there and this is only a one off situation. Also, i wanted to give our son a chance to have a normal family.
Fast forward to when i was 9 months pregnant i was browsing through his ipad to research something but when i went to use the history as shortcut, i found the searches he made through his phone (synced to his ipad). I saw searches of motels around where he was the night before. I then chose to confront him about it, and he finally admitted it. A mix of total shock and confusion came over me. How can he cheat on me while i was pregnant? We had an explosive fight that night. His reasoning getting dumber and dumber. Somehow i ended up giving him another chance and thought maybe this time he will finally stop and think about our family. You see, in our country a broken family is frowned upon so culturally, the wives usually stick with their husbands no matter how painful things get in the name of having an “Intact” family.
So back to the story, after the fight i did some digging and found that my husband had a tinder profile and that’s where he usually looks for hookups even before we met, and continued even after getting married. I was so disgusted to see messages of him making deals with hookers when “no one is available”. I don’t know why but i felt like this casual hookups became an addiction of his. I encouraged him to go seek therapy and also get tested for STDs but he kept postponing and eventually never went. I tried going to my parents and asking for their advice but as mentioned, they suggested to stick with my husband for the sake of my son. I felt deceived and trapped i didn’t know what to do.
Over the 7 years of our marriage, i still catch him time and time again. Until i can no longer forgive him or myself. I thought, i just wanted to get away and leave everything behind. No more need for explanations, just get up and leave the country. I am now planning an exit strategy but it might take some time. I guess i really need an army to pray that whatever the future holds for me and my son, that things will be alright.
We are still legally married to this day because there is no divorce here and annulment is too expensive and will take YEARS, but i have stopped being intimate with him for almost a year now. I no longer care if he’s home or not. It’s sad to see my marriage slowly dying over the years, but i know in my heart that i tried my darn hardest. But sometimes we are failed by the people who’s supposed to love, protect and support us.
Sorry for the long rant. I guess i just missed my old happy self 🥲 to the ladies in the same situation as me, keep your head up. You matter, and someday we will get through this. 💝

To put it plainly, I need to divorce my wife. I don't know if I love her anymore, and I don't think she loves or is even particularly fond of me anymore. My best guess is that she keeps up appearances for the ladder part of that sentence because we have 4 kids together. We have been together for almost a decade and have been married for 5 almost 6 years now. We haven't tried couples councling at all, but to be honest, I don't think that would make a difference for either of us at this point. We have both made mistakes, and I am going to try to explain this with as much objectivity as possible. To start, as of now, I am 30m, and she is 30f. We met while both working for a moderately popular sandwich chain when I was 20, and she was 20-21. Things started as kind of a whirlwind, but she showed interest first, and at the time, I didn't have anything to lose, so I thought, "eff it I may as well give this a chance." We had lots of s*x, and things were great getting to know each other while enjoying each other's bodies. I am a little fuzzy on the exact timing on when exactly we decided to be exclusive, but if I were to venture a guess, it would be 6 or 8 months after we met. Fast forward like a year or so, and she ends up pregnant with my oldest son mind you we had talked about it at least once or twice and I had made it known getting married and having kids hadn't exactly ever been in any of my plans (not that ive ever really made plans) but that for sure wasnt apart of anything I had really wanted out of life. It wasn't that I didn't want a life partner, but the idea of getting the government involved in my relationship just didn't jive with me and that I could be happy in the relationship without it knowing that we could still be together, love, and take care of each other for the rest of our lives. I didn't want kids because I didn't want to have to raise tiny humans in this crazy world we live in, and I didn't think I would ever be able to afford them. We moved in together into our first apartment we both had our names on. We have the baby, and it was tough, but we were giving it our best shot. Now I know this next part is going to sound like I was just lying, but bare with me. Fast forward another 6 to 8 months, and she's pregnant again. The second pregnancy scared me even more than the first because I already thought I couldn't afford 1, so how in the hell am I going to afford 2. I thought I was going to lose it, but for the most part, I think I kept it under wraps (how true that is, I have no idea). I must have been doing pretty well because she started to try to reconnect with her family so that our kids could know her side of their extended family. If you're wondering why she needed to reconnect, it is because her family is deeply religious, and she is not, nor am I, which is part of the reason I think we were able to gel so well in the beginning of our relationship. She had spent the 3 years prior to meeting me trying to get out of her hometown and away from them so she could experience life on her own terms. She succeeded by marrying some guy at 18 and moving away, so when I met her, she had already been divorced once. Naturally, I heard a lot about all of that when we were getting to know each other, and it didn't bother me. Anyway, at this point, she's pregnant by me for a 2nd time, and in an effort to reconnect with her family whom she deeply cares for, she suggested we get married in an attempt to begin repairing the relationship between her and her parents as they were less than enthusiastic about being the grandparents to bastards. I loved her, thought it would make her happy, and figured what the hell I'm going to stay with this woman for the rest of my days anyway, so why not. I also liked the idea of giving my kids the opportunity to have a relationship with both sets of their grandparents. What happened next caused me to share some less than savory feelings I was having. About 30 weeks into the second pregnancy, we found out she was pregnant with not one but 2 babies. I didn't know how to act. Tried to play it cool, but couldn't, and in a heated discussion/argument, whatever the hell you want to call it, I made it known that I had wished we had abortions. For both my son, who was already there, and now since she was pregnant with 2 more. I suspect that was the seed for most of, if not all, of our future problems we've had between each other at this point because while she isn't religious, she doesn't believe abortions are morally right. I was a kid myself at the time and had no idea how great being the father of my boys would be. Just to pile on to the shit show, just before my twin boys were born, I had gotten a job doing Comercial hvac contol installation in an attempt to find a career to support my growing family. 6 months into the job, I fell off a ladder and broke my wrist in at least 3 spots in a way that required surgery. Unfortunately, as a result of the incident and also the fact that her and I liked to indulge in the electric lettuce, I was fired before I hit the ground and just didn't know it yet. So when they were born I had a broken fuckin wrist and a pissant dead end job at another sub shop because I needed to work but still had to recover from surgery. As you can imagine, this put a wildly enormous strain on us in more ways than one. Since I was no longer making the kind of money we were used to we had to move from the nice home in the nice part of town we were in to the shit apartment in the shit part of town we lived in when most of the rest of our issues happened. Fast forward another 8 months or so, we are the parents of now 3 boys, and I get her pregnant again. I know how it sounds, but life has a funny way of going sometimes. This time after the fact, I got a vasectomy to take any more opportunity to get pregnant out of the equation. Anyway, this is where I'm sure the relationship between us really started to sour because we had 2 really bad fights on 2 separate occasions where I was both punched and slapped in the face for saying things like I wished she had aborted our kids and calling her a fat cunt for no other reason than to inflict the most damage possible during the heated arguments. Unfortunately, during both of these arguments, she was pregnant with my youngest son, and in the heat of the arguments, when tensions were highest and I had been both slapped and punched, I slapped back exactly once and pushed her exactly once. These 2 incidents happened separately from each other. The push is where I'm sure her love died and to be fair rightfully so. Anyway, ultimately, we ended up moving to her hometown after my 4th and final son was born against my wishes to get closer to her family that she had been repairing her relationship with because my parents weren't as particularly involved as I thought they were going to be and it was going to be much easier to find a cheaper better home for us to live in. We end up finding a place and soldier on for the kids' sake. I wound up with a job that I still have to this day that's turning out to be a decent career and just tried to be a better provider, father, and husband every day. We lived in that home for a year with me as the sole provider, so she could just focus on being a mother since it isn't exactly easy to find child care for 4 children under 5. After that year, we found another home about 15 minutes west as we weren't in love with the previous one. 3 of the boys got to be old enough to start doing schooling, so she started to look for a job she could do in order to bring in a little extra fun money to use to splurge on ourselves and the boysas a lot of my income went towards things like bills and food. In that time, I began to get promotions at my jobs, allowing me to make more money to better provide for my family. She eventually found an overnight job at a warehouse that paid well enough to accomplish what we were trying to accomplish. For the first time in about 2 and a half years, I was starting to feel much better about our financial situation. It made me much happier overall to the point where I didn't feel so exhausted after work that I was pitching in much more at home and doing more of the lovey things I used to do with my wife. Then, about 3 months into her job on a weekend on a day/night, we were both off, and I discovered it. She had gotten that job, and for at least a month, she had been cheating on me with one of her coworkers. A couple of times without a condom. I was devastated, I'm still broken about it. She had left her phone on the counter with the screen on and the text thread with the guy open. I smoked an entire pack of cigarettes that night, not knowing what to do. I felt a mixture of numbness and a stabbing pain in my heart. I don't remember much of what she said about it. Somehow, that night, after a long while, I was able to get to bed because I had to work the next day. The next day first thing I called my boss and filled him in on what was going on. Oh, and I forgot to mention that was the Thursday of the worst week of my life so far. Earlier in the week, my wife had taken my car out because she didn't have one at the time. I get a call while I'm at work from her saying she's been in a car accident while on the way home from a job interview because she was planning on leaving the warehouse job under some false pretenses. Nothing like fucking your married co worker while being married yourself to make an awkward work place am I right? Anyway, my car wasn't totaled, but it wasn't in great shape, and the accident turned out to be my wife's fault, so there was zero insurance money to be had. Instead of getting mad at her, I just shrugged it off, made sure she was okay, and decided that in order to try and fix it, I would just take on an extra day at work. At the time, I worked Monday to Friday, so I picked up Saturday and would have picked up Sunday, too, if it wasn't for the fact that it is the only day of the week my company doesn't operate. That was Monday of that week. On Wednesday, my phone broke, so I was forced to get a new one because my being able to work depends on me having a working phone. The next day, Thursday, was when I found out she had been cheating. So yeah, it was the worst week of my life so far. I spent that weekend and the next at my parents' house an hour and a half away to try and gain some of my footing back and blow off some steam with my friends because I no longer lived near them. I think that's the most I've cried in my adult life. I wound up going back to see my boys. I have stayed because I feel trapped. I'm scared I'll end up losing a large portion of my income to her if we end up in a custody battle over the boys. Mostly impart of more recent events. I haven't been the same since I found out she cheated. I've been sad, wildly sad, depressed even, paranoid, and anxious as all hell. Needless not say, not my best self. Now, to pile on I find myself in a precarious position with cps because one of my twin 5 year Olds decided to go off screaming about not liking some TV show one of his brothers picked to watch. In the heat of the moment I gave him an open hand pop on the mouth to sort of bring him back to reality and left a pinky nail sized mark on his cheek. Which prompted a call from the school to cps when he went to school and was asked about it so he told them the truth and his mother backed him up. I find myself forced out of the home I pay for where the people i love most live because I let the stress of everything going on get to me like an idiot and acted out of anger. That has led their mother whom I was trying to forgive for the kids sake to bring up everything from 3 years ago again and now she's treating me like the bad guy again, which I guess I am. It's been a few weeks now that I've been out of my home now out of what could be a grand total of 6 months so long as I jump through the hoops before me. I fully plan on taking advantage of the parenting classes and councling I've been told will be provided so I can work on being a better father to my kids and a less angry person overall. But only being able to see my kids through FaceTime hurts and the way my wife has been treating me makes me think it might just be better for everyone if we just split in order avoid potential set backs due to our history. I don't know if it would be the right decision, but I do know I want to be the best father I can be for my boys. Anyway, that's my rant/story/ whatever. Thanks for reading if you made it this far I know it was long

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That’s ten starters ticked off in total, and another thirty hours of my life wasted! For reference, I consider a full completion in the context of this project to be finishing the main campaign, postgame, and seven treasures.
I’d say that this run was a mid-point between my Riolu run, and my Treecko run in terms of difficulty. I have to admit, Vulpix was the first starter to somewhat underperform relative to my expectations, after hearing so many stories about how overpowered Imprison is. Certainly, Vulpix is very good; but the extent to which Agility + Bullet Seed trivialised so many obstacles in my last run was naturally hard to top, and I definitely missed its absence.
Nonetheless, Vulpix is undoubtedly a very good choice of starter. Fire is a generally good offensive type that has multiple opportunities to shine, despite the abundance of water dungeons. Flamethrower in particular a rock solid STAB option that Vulpix learns relatively early at Level 24, if you don’t find a TM before then. Faint Attack is also a surprisingly good Egg move! I wasn’t expecting much from it, but for some reason in Sky it was buffed to a ridiculous 25 pp, and the fact that it can never miss is really valuable in a game where almost nothing is guaranteed. Northern Desert in particular is made more bearable when you aren’t missing twelve hits in a row against Sandshrew and Cacturne. Dig, as always, is a solid filler move that can one-shot resistant Rock types. Dark Pulse and Overheat also provide crowd control by hitting in a circle, which can save you in monster houses, and can target foes in walls, which is always valuable. It’s just such a crying shame in Vulpix’s case that tutor moves weren’t added to the game in Sky, as learning both Heat Wave AND Ominous Wind would have catapulted Vulpix to god-tier instantly.
As it stands, the main thing that makes Vulpix stand out is its access to some great hax in the form of Confuse Ray, learned nice and early at level 17, and Imprison at level 21. For those who don’t know, Imprison, which is borderline useless in the main series, basically functions like Attract from Rescue Team here, unconditionally pausing any target for 5-12 turns. This is absolutely great, since unlike confusion, sleep, or any of the statuses from the main series, there are no abilities which can block this, nor are you going to get screwed by Nonsleeper. Together, these tools can absolutely trivialise boss fights like Groudon and Palkia. In group fights, they’ll also buy you breathing room against the likes of Dusknoir, Wigglytuff, and Darkrai while you eliminate the mooks. Plus, in regular dungeons, I lost count of the number of close scrapes which Imprison got me out of. However, as I alluded to before, I don’t believe Imprison is anywhere near as broken as other tech, like Agility. Sadly, it is burdened by being a move that only hits a single adjacent target. You can’t disable groups with it, and in boss fights Intimidator can still activate to screw you; Primal Dialga in particular still managed to wipe me out, because Intimidator repeatedly stopped Imprison from working, and it frustratingly doesn’t work when he recharges from Roar of Time. If Imprison was truly the only valuable trait Vulpix had going for it, I’d place it in C-tier.
Fortunately, Vulpix is also blessed with the incredible IQ Group G. Access to the holy trinity of Stair Sensor, Trap Seer, AND Map Surveyor easily justifies Vulpix’s place on any team. Other great abilities like PP Saver, Self-Curer, Quick Healer, Exp. Elite, Critical Dodger, and Quick Striker are just the icing on the cake. Vulpix also has the distinction of possessing the best exclusive item of any of the starters, the Glowing Bow. This incredible item basically applies a permanent Light Screen to Vulpix, reducing pretty much all special damage to negligible levels if you’ve acquired a decent number of gummi boosts. Moves that could usually bring about an instant knockout from across the floor, like Earth Power and Hydro Pump, were only doing 10-30 damage. Flash Fire, meanwhile, is so-so as Abilities go. It won’t activate as much as Blaze, but has the advantage of allowing for multiple boosts without needing to be pushed into such a precarious position. In fire dungeons like Dark Crater, you’ll be getting juiced multiple times; nonetheless I’d still prefer Blaze.
Overall, I’d say Vulpix is B-tier. It has a number of qualities which are great in isolation, but nothing I’d really call game-breaking. You’ll end up with a solid ‘mon with some decent range, hax, and all the right IQ skills, but nothing that can one-shot monster houses.
Munchlax, along with Meowth, is unique in that it is only available in Sky as a partner. That is something of a negative, since most ‘mons are better when you’re actually in control of them, but as partners go Munchlax isn’t half bad. The elevated importance of STAB in this game, relative to super effective moves, makes Normal a pretty good type- your STAB can hit most things neutrally, and even foes who resist still take 1.1x damage. Body Slam is also a great STAB option, albeit one you learn late- good power, a chunky 17 PP, and the chance to inflict a debilitating status condition on anything that survives. The only major drawback to Normal is the lack of a good ranged STAB option. Luckily, Munchlax’s learnset also contains a phenomenal range of coverage moves. Pretty much any strong TM you’ll acquire is likely compatible with this beast. Water Pulse, Flamethrower, and Shadow Ball are all great ranged moves; Thunderbolt can hit foes in walls; and most importantly Blizzard is your room-clearing move, something Meowth tragically lacks. You even get some pretty goofy melee options thrown in there: Rollout, Psychic, Focus Punch, SolarBeam, the list goes on. There are so many miscellaneous moves that would be irrelevant in the main series to play with here, and doing so is incredibly fun. You even get Metronome from the start, which is 100% a meme option, but using Blast Burn in Mt. Bristle is its own reward.
Unfortunately, many of these positive qualities are undermined by the curse of a mediocre IQ group. Group E rears its ugly head once more. Yes, Brick Tough is very nice when paired with Munchlax’s noticeably impressive HP (something which the Glutton Cape will elevate even further), and it synergises fantastically with Bodyguard when he is a partner. And true, Deep Breather, Quick Healer, and Energy Saver all work together beautifully when Munchlax is made leader, eliminating the three big strains on your longevity. Nonetheless, the lack of access to any of the Holy Trinity is hard to forgive. Intimidator is great, but just comes in too late for me to care when other IQ groups basically hand you a cheat sheet.
Thankfully, Munchlax’s two fantastic abilities compensate for these deficiencies, at least somewhat. Pickup is a tremendous advantage in a game so focused on acquiring and stockpiling resources: I grabbed plenty of free gummis, reviver seeds, and other goodies over my playthrough this way (though this does unfortunately require you to forgo a held item, and didn’t activate quite often enough for my liking). Thick Fat is almost equally good, essentially giving Munchlax two additional immunities against Fire and Ice, reducing their damage to a mere 50%, rather than the standard 70%. For such a conspicuously bulky starter, this is another great boon. The only real problem on the ability front is that evolution changes Pickup to the considerably inferior Immunity, essentially forcing you to avoid evolution and leave a free stat boost on the table if you’re determined to min-max.
Overall, I’d say Munchlax’s access to Blizzard, solid type, great TM compatibility, bulk, and access to Pickup place him in the B-tier as well, although the lion’s share of that is undoubtedly the presence of a room-targeting move. It’s rather difficult to say who was better between Vulpxi and Munchlax, overall; the former allows for easy navigation and hard carries in boss fights, while the latter clears Monster Houses. Together they covered everything important, but overall I’d estimate that Vulpix’s qualities were less easily replaceable, especially since I got poor RNG and couldn’t acquire the Blizzard TM until Mystifying Forest, grumble grumble.
That about wraps it for Team Pastry! The next team I’ll be doing is a fun one: Squirtle and Turtwig. Any names for these two shelled heroes are appreciated, as are any team name recs. :)
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I posted on here after I had been told (on her way home from the physical affair).
My wife had announced she was buying tickets (she asked for and tried to use my credit card to buy them but failed and managed to use my PayPal instead, she's played most of it off so far) to go see a male friend that I wouldn't know after an argument. Ghosted me throughout the trip only to say she hasnt done anything but "[she] has feelings for them". Telling me on her way home that she did cheat and how happy she feels. Was sending messages to the AP after she got back in front of me even after seeing how much emotional distress I was in. Saying that she was going away on our anniversary date this month and when asked where "I think you know where". All for someone she had known 2 weeks prior to buying tickets.
I ended up locked in a hospital mental health ward on suicide watch because of her selfishness, callousness, spitefulness, remorselessness, and her complete lack of empathy. When I ask her to take accountability she says "I did, I told you about the affair." And is being blatently obvious in actions and implicit words that this is a discard. She doesn't want us. She's not the person I thought she was. She would sacrifice the security of her son for her own selfish gratification.
I know for a fact I contributed in part to the state of the marriage before she did what she did. Though my emotional neglect was reciprocation of years of extreme burnout, exhaustion, and sexual frustration due to a long-dead bedroom. And in my pain I stayed loyal, I loved unconditionally, I never had an affair and cheated running and taking the easy way out. I own none of the blame of her actions despite what she says. I never cut the branch from the tree while the one I claimed to love was still sitting on it, letting them fall from the treetops and leaving a broken and bleeding out mess on the floor. Walking over them with a smile.
Now looking back at our relationship all I see is me being the lapdog, getting them whatever they wanted, me being the backup bank account for them getting fast food takeaway at least once a day, draining both of our bank accounts and shaming me for not cooking (at first I didnt but for years I did, she just refused to eat what I knew how to make) then of not buying her any presents when I have no money to spend on myself let alone her, being the cleaner, her just leaving dirty dishes and rubbish scattered throughout the house left to go moldy and attract ants and fruit flies constantly, multiple piles of clothes also scattered throughout the house one of which was a meter in height, the babysitter, she used to work part time but on the day she would be off to look after him she would dump him on her parents, take him to his weekly fun activity then come home, dump him on me as I was halfway through my work day as she went to go sit in bed or nap, shame me for asking for help when looking after him as a baby while I was sick, one time left until the point I physically collapsed, being the room mate, as SSRIs killed her libido after our son was born shamed me for asking her to seek help, blame shifted that I was the problem, and guilt tripped - "I'm happy now, why can't you let me be happy?" I could never say what I felt like out of fear of reprisal. Her attempts to fix our relationship where always aggressive and caused me to mentally and physically shutdown, no words, no actions, no thoughts, only blackness in my head. Never any change of tact only further blame and shame. She wanted couples counselling a week before she left then incorrectly blamed me for not doing my part in the sign up process. She would ask if I wanted more kids but could never answer as I was (and still am) just exhausted.
I just want this pain and this emotional rollercoaster to end (not that way). I'm tired of being depressed, then of being angry, then of being numb.

Is it cheating to abuse Flames of Zamorak to get the Zulrah GM time?
^{iron btw}
As of last update Zulrah is weak to fire spells. Flames of Zamorak counts as a fire spell. It apparently was coded this way for a long long time according to Mod Ash.
The GM Zulrah time is <0:54. My PB in over 1500 kills was 0:59, WITH the pre-nerf blowpipe years ago. I heard FoZ was bugged on Zulrah and I immediately thought of trying the Tome of Fire. Doesn't work, I think.
Zulrah has a weird specific mechanic where you can't hit over 50 on it. So if you've ever ZCB spec'd Zulrah at full HP and hit a 46 or whatever, that's why.
I whip out the Tham sceptre and start autocasting Zammy flames. Insane DPS. I get the master time (under 1:00) real fast. Then I do 150+ KC and barely get under a minute. Then randomly I do a kill and hit nothing but 40s and get a new PB of 0:49.
I've completed the log. I've done all combat achievements, I have scales for YEARS especially considering how little I use my blowpipe nowadays..
Is this immoral? The bug was almost immediately noticed and it was confirmed that it will be fixed next update. Did I cheat? I have thousands of raids KC with no Tbow or Shadow. I've tried 1000 times to get lucky for the GM time and no luck. Now I've obtained it with a weird bug where 'Flames of Zamorak' counts as a fire spell.
Idk. Curious to see what people think and have a discussion.. Is it cheating to go for the GM time at Zulrah before this is patched? Why did Jagex acknowledge it and not hot fix it?

I met my now bf in March of 2019 and we became friends. We live in 2 different countries. I never considered it would go further than friends as he didn't want kids. I have an infant daughter. This also happened during Covid. I was in a relationship with my daughter's father. In June of 2020 he kicked us out of his house. I had no one to help me so a day or two later I ran out of money. I ended up returning to my daughter's father's house.
At some point we started calling each other bf and gf I were talking about starting a life together. However due to covid the borders and government buildings were shut down or we on low contact. Neither one of us could get a passport. Throughout our time together we would text, call and video. At times he would just disappear for days or weeks. We would fight about this to the point where we would be on the verge of breaking up, he would always tell me something happened and he was embarrassed or ashamed to tell me, mainly court or police related.
Fast forward to May of 2021 we were still together and it was still extremely hard to get your passport, even harder for me with a toddler since I need her dad's consent. My bf was getting discouraged and started avoiding me or making up excuses on why we weren't getting time together anymore. On September 28, 2021 he messaged me. Saying he was going to be stopping by on Friday to talk to my daughter. I was like excuse me, and he kept going. I kept telling him he was messaging the wrong person. He kept talking about a motorhome he was working on for me and so on. He asked if I was coming up to have a fire with him. I was like huh and I kept saying you are messaging the wrong person. Finally I said who the hell do you think you are taking to and they snapped him out of his rant and he said "female name" I was like no you are talking to "my name". He goes fuck and says he had been extremely busy and tired and just got confused and he thought he was messaging a customer. He is a mechanic and takes side jobs. So one of his side jobs was working on a motorhome for this woman. I was livid and stopped talking to him that night. The following day we talked and worked it out. He said he needed to head home as he was laying flooring at his ex's house (he did this often, helped other out).
All October I got no responses from anything. He mailed me saying he broke. Then half way through October he changed his passwords and booted me out of . I mailed him now saying are you breaking up with me now. He finally mailed me back said no I was trying to set up a new phone and couldn't remember my password so he change it. He then gave me the new password. He said he would email the next day, I got nothing. Finally I mailed and asked if he wanted to break up, if there was someone else I would understand but to be honest. I got a response a week later apologizing, stating there is no one else, that he has just been really busy and saying he loves me and wants to be with me.
On November 2, 2021 I received a phone call he from him. We talked for about 2 hours. Half way through he started crying says he met female in July or August that he had feelings for her. They started hanging out and was avoiding me so he didn’t hurt me. That he ghosted me all of October it was because he was trying to sort out his but they never where anything but friends. I understood because it is a long distance relationship and we had met in person due to circumstances, mainly covid.
He swore that nothing ever happened between them. That she was going through a divorce and just needed a friend. All through November and December of 2021 she was constantly calling him to hang out and saying she needed someone to talk. He was constantly blowing me off to spend time with her and help her. He would call me jealous and tell me to get over my insecurities, saying they were nothing more than friends.
My bf has something of a knight in shining armor complex if he ever sees someone in need friend or stranger he always feels the need to save that person no matter the cost, it's one of the things I love about him.
When it came to this female it felt different. When we would be talking and he would say "her name" just called she needs to talk and he would hang up, it would be the same if we were texting and I wouldn't find out until the following day that it was because his female friend.
Now in December right before Xmas he disappeared for a week, now I know during Xmas he spirals a little due to missing his dad so I worry about him. So I texted him to see if he was okay and got no response this went on for like 2 days. At this point I was extremely worried and anxious so I went on his account and looked to see if he was okay, mainly to make sure he was laying in a ditch somewhere or in a hospital or worse jail. However what I found was at his female friend's house for the entire last 2 days. The whole time while ignoring me. He ended up spending 5 straight days He didn't respond to me until I stated in a text message on the 5th day that apparently he moved in with his female friend and this is his way of saying we were finally over. He responded with no I haven't and that he was on his way home and that I need to stop being jealous of his female friend. He said he was lonely and just wanted to spend the holiday with someone.
After he promised we would spend new years together on video chat. Well come new years we were talking while he was at work. Then he stopped responding I figured he just got busy. So I waited and then messaged him when I knew he would be at home 2 or 3 hours after he got off work and he responded with my female friend called me and work and wants to go hang out at the casino so I'm going go do that I'll message you later. I now I blow up and tell him ever since he met this female and started hanging out with her it feels as if they’re the ones in a relationship and that I am the other woman. This again starts fight and leads to us breaking up for like thousandth time in the last 2 months.
After New Year's we started to talk again, we were working through the issues again and he even told me that since his truck was broke down his female friend would be driving him back and forth from work. We were spending more time together at this point and he stopped spending time with her. It seemed like he was finally hearing me. About a week or so after new year he calls me crying. Saying he needs to talk to me and he needs to clear the air about him and his female friend. My daughter's father then comes in and starts talking to me. My bf gets pissed and hangs up and I call him back this happens like 5 or 6 times and during call maybe 3 he breaks up with me with no explanation. I call him back to find out what is going on he would say he loves and that he doesn't want to break up but then he would say we are over again and hang up. After 3 phone calls like that I give up. I messaged him wishing him well and that I hope he is happy. In the morning I get a reply say what do I in my drunken state and I tell him and ask if he really wants to break up he says no the I ask about what he was talking about him and his female friend. He goes oh she had an issue with her ex. So I dropped it this conversation still bothered me though.
Things between him and I started to improve and it looked like we were working through the issues he even stopped hanging around with his female friend. He messaged her to see if she wanted to hang out on his birthday a few times and she blew him off.
In March of 2022 for some reason we start talking about his female friend. He starts complaining to me about how she ghosted him and she isn't answering his messages and now he is crying. I try to justify it and tell him that she just used him. I said I don't know why it is bothering you so much since you were just friend he finally breaks and say they he slept with her. He then back tracks and says just in the same bed during the Xmas stay. I don't know why but this always bothered me. I wasn’t sure as to why he got emotional over a female that was just his friend. It made no sense as to why he was crying over just a freind
During this timeframe there were a few red flags . On new year he mentioned that she told him he want allowed to mention me. That her son didn't like him because he thought he was trying to take the place of his father. That she just ghosted him out of no where and that he took it so hard. That she came to him and told him that she was going to start dating again. I mean those sounded all like things you would say to an ex.
In May of 2022 he bought me bus tickets to move to my sister‘s. I was supposed to leave in June of 2022. However right before this happened he tells me that his female friend contacted him and that she invited him to go out to dinner as a thank you. I was surprised that he didn’t hide it from me.
I left my daughter's father's house and had every intention of getting on the bus. However I had a nagging feeling in my mind their relationship. In the end I didn't get on the bus but I returned to my daughter's father's house both out of guilt and just that nagging feeling that he hiding something from me.
For the next 2 years we would fight and constantly break up and make up. The fights always being about me not leaving when it was paid for it and his relationship with his female friend. I ended up sending him back the money for the trip I didn‘t take that he paid for.
Since we have been together he gives me half truths or avoids me because of things he knows things will upset or hurt me so he tries pretend things do happen. The little issues we had would always lead back to the 2 main issues, his and his female friend's relationship and my not leaving. We have been able to make it for a while though even with all the fighting and breaking up. His avoiding and half truths when he is feeling guilty about something.
Now we are in February of 2024 he finally came out and admitted that back in 2021 he did have sex with his supposed female friend. He told me she broke it off because he drank too much but another time he said she called it off because mentioned needing to talk to me. He said it was a one time thing and he was drunk and lonely and just wanted some kind of human contact. He said that he fucked up and it was a mistake and that he regretted it ever since it happened and that he had felt guilty about it ever since. I can’t help be think does he regret sleeping with her or statying with me?
I asked if he would have continued to be with her and he said he wasn't sure. Now I feel like our entire relationship has been nothing but lies. He says he loves me and only wants to be with me. To that I reply you love me so much you had to fuck another female to prove it. He says he is sorry and that he doesn't want to lose me or my daughter that we are his family. However at the same time I can't help but think that he is just telling me what I want to hear.
I have been avoiding him for the last month or so yes we talk but not about really. I just don't know how to forgive him this time as I realize the next time I have to forgive it will be worse than this. It started with forgiving him for disappearing for hours after saying brb, then it was a day, then a few days, then a week, then it was a full month only to be told I was trying to figure out my feeling for another female and now it is I had sex with someone else.
We have been calling each other bf and gf or hubby and wifey for almost 5 years but we have never physically been together nor have we met in person. So can I consider this being cheated on. I mean we do love each other and we have talked about marriage and spend our lives together but at the same time it only seems like it is what it has been for the last 5 years just talk.

Is it cheating to abuse Flames of Zamorak to get the Zulrah GM time?
As of last update Zulrah is weak to fire spells. Flames of Zamorak counts as a fire spell. It apparently was coded this way for a long long time according to Mod Ash.
The GM Zulrah time is <0:54. My PB in over 1500 kills was 0:59, WITH the pre-nerf blowpipe years ago. I heard FoZ was bugged on Zulrah and I immediately thought of trying the Tome of Fire. Doesn't work, I think.
Zulrah has a weird specific mechanic where you can't hit over 50 on it. So if you've ever ZCB spec'd Zulrah at full HP and hit a 46 or whatever, that's why.
I whip out the Tham sceptre and start autocasting Zammy flames. Insane DPS. I get the master time (under 1:00) real fast. Then I do 150+ KC and barely get under a minute. Then randomly I do a kill and hit nothing but 40s and get a new PB of 0:49.
I've completed the log. I've done all combat achievements, I have scales for YEARS especially considering how little I use my blowpipe nowadays..
Is this immoral? The bug was almost immediately noticed and it was confirmed that it will be fixed next update. Did I cheat? I have thousands of raids KC with no Tbow or Shadow. I've tried 1000 times to get lucky for the GM time and no luck. Now I've obtained it with a weird bug where 'Flames of Zamorak' counts as a fire spell.
Idk. Curious to see what people think and have a discussion.. Is it cheating to go for the GM time at Zulrah before this is patched? Why did Jagex acknowledge it and not hot fix it?

Welcome to hamiumSMP!
At hamiumSMP we aim to provide you an excellent experience and therefore an excellent time. But without players, it's going to be incredibly boring. That's where you come in!
Why hamiumSMP?

• It's new, fresh and fast. We use paid hosting and we also host two proxies in Asia and North America. European players, Asian players and North American players therefore can play in the same server with little lag!-
• We're near vanilla. The only changes to gameplay on our server is some Vanilla Tweaks datapacks and a few plugins for trees, vein mining, sitting on players or stairs etc... We also have /home, /sethome and /tpa on request of previous players of hamiumSMP.
• Our staff is incredibly helpful. We are a group of staff with much experience. If you come across an issue, expect that issue to be resolved within an incredibly short period of time. Our staff also makes punishments fairly and we disallow our staff to make punishments based on their view of that person.
• Our server is very well setup. We have proper anti-cheats, proper moderation plugins, LuckPerms for permisson management, spark so we can monitor our servers performance when the server is lagging and MiniMOTD for a beautiful MOTD for our very beautiful community server.
• We allow mods such as Xaero's Minimap or JorneyMap, and we also have Dynmap installed. We also have Simple Voice Chat support on our server which we highly recommend you install as most of our server uses Simple Voice Chat, even if they don't necessarily speak. Though it's optional.
• The server is well documented, we manage a wiki maintained by our community and staff that's filled with seasonal information.

Sounds cool. How do I join?
There are a few ways you can join. The first and the best and the best way is to join our Discord server below.
https://discord.gg/tPKhcQAwxE (If it's expired, go to our website: hamium.xyz)
But we do understand people may not want to necessarily join the Discord server. For those people, we allow you to just join the server directly: mc.hamium.xyz - Europe (Temporarily Disabled) asia.hamium.xyz - Asia na.hamium.xyz - North America/USA/Canada

Welcome to hamiumSMP!
At hamiumSMP we aim to provide you an excellent experience and therefore an excellent time. But without players, it's going to be incredibly boring. That's where you come in!
Why hamiumSMP?

• It's new, fresh and fast. We use paid hosting and we also host two proxies in Asia and North America. European players, Asian players and North American players therefore can play in the same server with little lag!-
• We're near vanilla. The only changes to gameplay on our server is some Vanilla Tweaks datapacks and a few plugins for trees, vein mining, sitting on players or stairs etc... We also have /home, /sethome and /tpa on request of previous players of hamiumSMP.
• Our staff is incredibly helpful. We are a group of staff with much experience. If you come across an issue, expect that issue to be resolved within an incredibly short period of time. Our staff also makes punishments fairly and we disallow our staff to make punishments based on their view of that person.
• Our server is very well setup. We have proper anti-cheats, proper moderation plugins, LuckPerms for permisson management, spark so we can monitor our servers performance when the server is lagging and MiniMOTD for a beautiful MOTD for our very beautiful community server.
• We allow mods such as Xaero's Minimap or JourneyMap, and we also have Dynmap installed. We also have Simple Voice Chat support on our server which we highly recommend you install as most of our server uses Simple Voice Chat, even if they don't necessarily speak. Though it's optional.
• The server is well documented, we manage a wiki maintained by our community and staff that's filled with seasonal information.
  Sounds cool. How do I join?
  

There are a few ways you can join. The first and the best and the best way is to join our Discord server below.
https://discord.gg/tPKhcQAwxE (If it's expired, go to our website: hamium.xyz)
But we do understand people may not want to necessarily join the Discord server. For those people, we allow you to just join the server directly: mc.hamium.xyz - Europe (Temporarily Disabled) asia.hamium.xyz - Asia na.hamium.xyz - North America/USA/Canada

Welcome to hamiumSMP!
At hamiumSMP we aim to provide you an excellent experience and therefore an excellent time. But without players, it's going to be incredibly boring. That's where you come in!
Why hamiumSMP?

• It's new, fresh and fast. We use paid hosting and we also host two proxies in Asia and North America. European players, Asian players and North American players therefore can play in the same server with little lag!
• We're near vanilla. The only changes to gameplay on our server is some Vanilla Tweaks datapacks and a few plugins for trees, vein mining, sitting on players or stairs etc... We also have /home, /sethome and /tpa on request of previous players of hamiumSMP.
• Our staff is incredibly helpful. We are a group of staff with much experience. If you come across an issue, expect that issue to be resolved within an incredibly short period of time. Our staff also makes punishments fairly and we disallow our staff to make punishments based on their view of that person.
• Our server is very well setup. We have proper anti-cheats, proper moderation plugins, LuckPerms for permisson management, spark so we can monitor our servers performance when the server is lagging and MiniMOTD for a beautiful MOTD for our very beautiful community server.
• We allow mods such as Xaero's Minimap or JourneyMap, and we also have Dynmap installed. We also have Simple Voice Chat support on our server which we highly recommend you install as most of our server uses Simple Voice Chat, even if they don't necessarily speak. Though it's optional.
• The server is well documented, we manage a wiki maintained by our community and staff that's filled with seasonal information.

Sounds cool. How do I join?
There are a few ways you can join. The first and the best and the best way is to join our Discord server below.
https://discord.gg/tPKhcQAwxE (If it's expired, go to our website: hamium.xyz)
But we do understand people may not want to necessarily join the Discord server. For those people, we allow you to just join the server directly: mc.hamium.xyz - Europe (Temporarily Disabled) asia.hamium.xyz - Asia na.hamium.xyz - North America/USA/Canada

Could use some advice. Currently pregnant (20dpo) HCG is rising fast, but progesterone is next to nothing (0.7). My doctor at the ferility center says it doesn't make much sense I'm pregnant as my progesterone levels don't even indicate ovulation. He put me on progesterone suppositories.
We did an ultrasound today (20dpo) but didn't see anything, maybe it's too early? He said he is very doubtful this is a viable pregnancy. Like 95% sure it won't work out.
My question is, is doing the progesterone just prolonging the inevitable? Is the pregnancy trying to miscarry because maybe there are chromosomal abnormalities and here I am forcing it to stick with the progesterone?
I am really worried about chromosomal abnormalities. Especially since my follicle took extra long to release my egg this cycle. I ovulated a week later than predicted after seeing my follicle during an ultrasound in early May. Could that contribute to chromosomal issues?
Should I keep taking the progesterone or just let this run its course?
My doctor said he would recommend quitting progesterone and letting this pass as it doesnt seem viable, then try for a healthier pregnancy next time. But also said it's my choice.
We are going to test HCG levels again Monday to see if they keep rising.
Here is a run down/timeline of how this played out:
-Positive OPK on May 11th
-Period May 18th-20th
-Positive Preg test May 24th, HCG at 35, Prog at 1.0
-Blood test May 27th, HCG 666, Prog 0.7
-Blood test May 29th, HCG 1972
Thank you! I'm very conflicted.

I've been logging into "Adopt Me!" for over 2 years. I'll one day get my 1,000th day streak, a milestone I doubt anyone reached, but after what I went through, I don't think I'd play "Adopt Me!" anytime soon.
On the day where I should've gotten by 1,000th day streak, I knew something was off as the game loaded. Instead of having the familiar and cheery intro screen, I was already in the game (it just popped up). The usual iconic music was replaced by a stinging silence. I once prided as a very rich player, but I now had no bucks and only one Flare-age Neon dog named Alex, and a Luminous-age Neon cat named Lilly.
It had been a long time ago since I played "Adopt Me!" for the first time, but I couldn't bring up anytime where I had a Neon dog which I named Alex, nor a Neon cat named Lilly.
I didn't even think that was possible, because I never recalled creating a new account, and even if I did, only either a dog OR a cat would hatch from the Starter Egg, and it definitely wouldn't have a Neon cat/dog of ANY age.
I began getting worried. Had I been hacked? Had I loaded into the wrong server (I realized I had been playing alone)? Or was some other technical issue? But if it was a technical issue, how could I just get two Neon pets for free?
I looked further into my pets, and found something that was DEFINITELY not right. Why did the pets have healthbars, along with a stamina, energy, hunger, and thirst bar? Was this a survival game? "Adopt Me!" hadn't ever been a survival game- it was always an RP and pet-raising game!
Not even my avatar was the same. It was reduced to the standard Roblox Noob, when I really had a lot of Robux. Had I logged into a doppelganger account?
I looked into my 'Toys' section, and all I had were a Flashlight and Toy Sword. Had someone hacked this into a survival game? If so, what kind?
But I wasn't gonna sit around to find out. I called the Roblox support number, but the voicemail was just dead silence even as I turned up to full volume, almost as if it was off-duty.
When I looked back in my game screen, I found a note on the ground, I picked it up by pressing E, and it read:
"I know you. I know you're wondering why this game seems so out of place, and you tried to call Roblox support. A virus has just started spreading in the Nursery and much of Adoption Island has been destroyed by its hosts. The infection doesn't spread by air, but if they touch you, well, you know. Wait... someone's-" I immediately put the note down and ran my avatar back home, not thinking of looking back. But then a dialogue box opened.
LILLY: Wait! I can't keep up!
I wanted to slow down, but I was afraid of what was behind me. I realized my avatar was almost out of stamina, so I cut behind a tree to recharge. I realized Lilly's healthbar was completely red, and I dreaded to think on what would happen if either pets' or my HP reached 0. I tried carrying them both, but that left me defenseless. As I listened closely, I didn't hear anything, so it might be safe again. But I couldn't relax as a message popped up that said, "DON'T MAKE A NOISE!" with an audio recording waveform that had a bar limit. I held my breath and remained as quiet as possible, not as quiet as the game's ambience.
After quietly breathing in and out of what felt like forever, the warning message finally faded. I picked up the two pets, and snuck quietly back into my home. When I got home, though, I realized there had been a crate in there.
"Do I open the crate?" I asked myself. "What if it's infected?" I drew my Toy Sword and pressed 'E' to open it. What I found inside washed most of my worries away. Inside there was a Flame Sword, with the typical blade replaced by a 2D fire icon. I didn't know what this new weapon would do, but I wasn't gonna keep my blunt Toy Sword around.
Suddenly, a speech bubble popped up on what seemed to be behind me. "ANNA: You've upgraded your weapon." I dragged my camera around, and there was Anna, the young girl typically from the Nursery with blonde hair and a pink onesie with a rabbit tail.
"What's going on?" I typed in the chat.
I didn't expect her to respond, as she's just an NPC. But merely 3 seconds later, she replied, "I... I don't know." She responded. "But I think the source is in the Nursery."
Another chat bubble popped up from behind.
"ALEX: But what if we die, even if we destroyed the beacon?"
"We have no choice," I typed back. "It's either us, or them. But maybe, if we just work together, we could make it out alive."
As we stepped out with my volume as high as possible to sense any infected, suddenly, as we were about to enter the Nursery, the ground below us suddenly gave away, and it was dark, too dark, so dark I worried that if I were to turn on my flashlight, I would get jump scared.
I equipped my flashlight and covered my eyes and slowly pressed the left mouse button, preparing for the worst. But nothing happened. The cave was lit up slightly, and after a few tense seconds, no monster came.
But another thing made me flinch- the torches around suddenly burst alight, nearly making me spill water all over my keyboard. I could vividly hear my avatar's footsteps as I inconsistently tapped the 'W' key to try not to make too much noise.
After tapping the 'W' key on what felt like forever, we came across a very questionable door. As I selected the Flame Sword, I realized it had a series of abilities. I used 'One Slash,' which had the least required energy, but it easily sliced the hinges off and the door fell.
But we were met with a horrible sight. I expected the source to be some like reactor core, but I nearly puked over my computer screen. It was a number of masses of unknown fluid tied together by what appear to be veins. But one mass in the center seemed to be distinctive from the rest, almost as if it had an eye in it.
But I realized that all too late as the central mass began to crack, as if it were an egg. As I drew my Flame Sword open, a huge tentacle burst open from the center mass. I nearly froze. As I panned my camera back facing the door, the door was shut. I tried pressing 'E' opening the door and running, but a dialogue box popped up.
"ANNA: We can't leave yet! Otherwise, the virus would spread out of control!"
I reluctantly panned my camera back to the single tentacle, and shakily pressed the '1' key, equipping my Flame Sword again. But I noticed all too late that that single imposing tentacle was a mere decoy as 8 other tentacles popped open from the other masses.
I quickly popped open my Flame Sword move lists, and I scrolled left to right at what felt like the speed of light, desperately trying to find a good attack. I figured that "Fire Cage" would trap the thing and slow it down as I try to find a new attack.
As I thought, the tentacles were immobile and couldn't move. As I scrolled left to right amid the Flame Sword's attacks, one of them caught my eye, "Infernadius Executionis." It sounded rather powerful, but just as I hovered my mouse over the button, I quickly saw a message:
"DO NOT USE UNLESS LAST RESORT. THIS WILL UNPOWER YOUR SWORD."
But I figured I wouldn't need it as the cage seemed to be burning the thing itself. Without hesitating, I began clicking my left mouse button as fast as I could. I began thinking my finger would create a trance because of how fast I was clicking, then, as the multiple slashes piled up, I was faced with a "time-it-perfect" press circle and ring. I pressed almost perfectly, and the slashes blew the being into nothing.
There was no time to celebrate, though. Almost immediately, a hole appeared in place of the being. The place around began crumbling and a wall of very toxic materials of what seemed to contain the virus began tracing the hind wall. I pressed 'E' as fast as I could to try to push open the heavy door. But it didn't work and I clicked the left mouse button. That triggered a slice which bust the door down into two molten pieces.
As we ran out of the main chamber, we saw more infected monsters that began charging at us immediately followed by a jump scare. But I was so focused on killing the monsters I merely blinked.
I swiped my camera down and slashed, jumping into the air with an incendiary jump. Then, an idea immediately sparked into my mind. I scrolled my camera backwards and looking down about 45 degrees. As I swiped the sword repeatedly about 2 times per second, the monsters began falling like bowling pins.
But all that stopped when I hit a wall on the other side. At this point my Flame Sword was completely drained of energy and was basically a Toy Sword now. But my avatar automatically dropped it and I really couldn't fight off all of them with a mere Toy Sword.
I swiped my camera around in all directions, trying to look for some way to get out. I even spammed the left mouse button to try and see if I could escape. But it all stopped as I heard repeated gunshots behind me and I quickly swiped my camera.
It was Anna, and she seemed to now be around in her teens, with an assault rifle in her hands. Before I could type anything in chat, she spoke up in a voice bubble, "ANNA: Don't worry. I've been in Arsenal before."
Another voice bubble popped up.
"ALEX: But we still have to get out. I can smell the virus from here. If we don't get out, we'll all get infected."
My camera view began developing a red, blurry, vignette. I feared what would happen if my camera became completely opaque. I thought I heard the ceiling crack as I slashed it, so I panned up as hard as I could, and began clicking faster than I ever had.
I thought my mouse was gonna shatter, but all that faded away as the ceiling opened and the camera refreshed. Back out of the ground, the ground patched back up, almost as if nothing was there.
The sky had been clear again, and one last message appeared.
"Congratulations! You've saved Adoption Island from certain extinction, thanks to your party's hard work and determination."
This would be an experience I would never forget or unsee. As I finish this post, I want to remind you that after what I've been through, I'll likely never see "Adopt Me!" the same way ever again.
After all, who knows if the virus is really dead? Is it still buried underground? All I can hope is that another disaster doesn't happen which triggers the virus to be released again, and I REALLY hope this cruel hacker doesn't spread the virus to other games.

I’m curious how much a 2 week course of Famotidine might have impacted these results because I don’t really have noticeable GI issues. I can’t get in to my ND for 2 weeks to go over these results so hoping for some advice here.
SIgA low: 470 Anti-gliadin IgA high: >500 Firmicutes high: 4.23e11 Bacteroidetes high: 7.44e12 Akkermansia low:

Everything else in range.
Context:
2 months ago I had a vaginal yeast infection and was prescribed 2 doses of Fluconazole 200 mg that caused a severe reaction (severe diarrhea for 8 hrs, vomiting, hives on face, neck, arms, throat tightness/itchiness) so I was switched to 2 courses of Monistat in case it was an allergic reaction (never had a reaction to it in the past). Swab culture showed yeast was cleared.
However, after the Fluconazole reaction I had lingering esophagus/throat redness/itching, high anxiety, cotton mouth, dry mucosa everywhere, mouth ulcers in gums and on tonsils, and diarrhea. I had none of these symptoms prior to Fluconazole. I did a 5-day Prolon fast that stopped the diarrhea before seeing GP who suspected GERD. She had me do a 2 week course of Pepcid 40 mg/day. Symptoms (cotton mouth, burning throat, mouth ulcers) improved for a few days, then worsened. I stopped it after 2 weeks and got a 2nd opinion from a ND.
I suspected oral/esophageal thrush. ND had me do GI Map (prior to any other treatment), then agreed to start me on an anti fungal protocol while waiting on results because at that point it had been 6 weeks of a burning mouth/throat. I had 8 months of antibiotics in 2022 due to a chronic UTI (hormone related and now resolved), so suspected something was off. I also have a long history of sinusitis and use Flonase daily which can cause oral thrush (though I’ve never experienced it before). I thought I had a sinus infection in February, my ENT scoped and said it was fine, just post nasal drip.
Given the reaction to Fluconazole, ND prescribed an oral Amphotericin B “low and slow” protocol, increasing dosage over 3 weeks. Within 24 hours I had the same reaction as I had to Fluconazole, but much milder, so I proceeded. After 3 days, hives went away but I had massive yellow mucus from sinuses that subsided after 3 more days (by day 8 of treatment), but with lingering congestion and mild drainage. It’s been 14 days of treatment (2 months since this all began), and I just got the results. I’m now wondering if there is a bacterial sinus infection. Dr. doesn’t want to start me on antibiotics without seeing me but I can’t go on like this for 2 more weeks - considering an urgent care visit. But also don’t want to further mess up my gut health.
Diet the past 2 months (with a few slip ups of pizza/wine early on) - lots of veg, fish, chicken, bone broths, Greek yogurt (only dairy), berries, eggs, wild rice, quinoa, raw saur kraut. No sugar other than berries. No reactions to any foods and pretty normal stools/GI symptoms. I had a Lymphocytic Colitis diagnosis 3 years ago, but all symptoms resolved after I started doing quarterly fasts the past 2 years - my body feels great during and after fasts. Taking L-Glutamine, Glutathione, Ampho B, biofilm busters, Sacro B, and Klaire Factor 4 probiotics.
Should I worry about the GI Map results or just try to get treatment for what seems like a sinus infection? I’m still on the Ampho B but now wonder if I should stop that too since no yeast is showing up. It’s been a frustrating and expensive 2 months!
Thanks for reading!

I've recently gotten my heart broken by this girl, the one I call the love of my life. I've always been a passive redditor but I can't handle my feelings and decided to give it a chance a write this off and see what people think, it migth help?
For the last 8 years I've been in love with one of my sister's best friends.
For context: I've known this girl for about 20 years, let's call her Sophia. My little sister always teased me that Sophia had a crush on me, beck then I was 12 years old and I was not interested in a 8 year old girl. We grow up in Latin America in a country were is not taboo to date someone underage as long as the age gap is not crazy. Furthermore our relationship never became physical until we were both of age.
Fast forward 8 years later and I'm picking up my sister from school and I see her all grown up. She had drown into a beautiful young woman. I was dating my first girlfriend at the moment so I never considered anything to happen.
One day Sophia comes to my hose to "study" with my sister. The reality was that she used the excuse to meet up with her ex that wanted to ask for another opportunity. I drove her to the place were they meet and after their argument. She didn't want to be with him anymore and he was just pleading and saying he had changed etc. After this, she and I spent the rest of the day together. I had some errands to run and she accompanied me. That was the very first time we really talked. We talked about life, relationships, guys, girls,etc. We found we were really similar in a lot of things and personality wise. At the end of the day we were waiting for her parents to pick her up. She put her head in my shoulder and my heart started pumping. Nothing happened, maybe she wanted me to kiss her, but I was still with my ex and was just too new to dating to not freeze.
A couple of weeks later me and my ex had splitted due to me finding out she had being cheating in my for months. That's a story for another day.
My family got the opportunity to move to the US and we decided to go. During our last month in our home country we had many goodbye parties. In one of those a large group of friends visited to watch a movie. I was seating in the floor with my head tilted agains the sofa and Sophia was behind me. She started striking my hair without anyone noticing it. That nigth I walked her down of our apartment and we finally kissed. That was the real beginning of my forever crush on her.
Back then I had only had one girlfriend, knew nothing of dating and I was now in a new overly sexualized country. I had the time to explore new relationships and learn. Sophia and I never discussed our feelings bcs there was no realistic way for us to date long distance. We never stopped talking though, we never stopped being flirty with each other. I sent her flowers on her birthday and chocolates on valentines. Our lives continued and each dated separedly for a couple years.
My sister and I went back to our home country to visit family and for her friends high school graduation (for us high school graduation is a bigger deal than in the US, prom is a party that goes up to the next day). I helped Sophia with her graduation dress, I helped her choose one and when she bought it, I sent it to her to our home country. When I visited her I wasn't expecting getting into a relationship with her, she was still just a crush and the prospect of a long distance relationship didn't work for us.
I finally saw her at her prom reception, she looked like a Greek goddess with the white dress I had sent her. We took a photo that almost look like a wedding picture, that picture now just hurts my heart. Everything was great, I was expecting to dance all night with her. Then it all crumbled when she introduced me to her boyfriend. The had started dating just a couple of weeks prior to this. My heart broke a little. I spent the rest of the nigth in my hotel room, I couldn't see her with someone else. I couldn't blame her though, I never told her I wanted to spent that nigth with her, and other than being flirty, I had never discussed my feelings. The next day at her graduation ceremony her parents (I've known all her family for years, being friends with our family) invited me to go to lunch with them to celebrate Sophia's graduation. I had to politely decline because her boyfriend was there. They didn't know her daughter and I had history.
I ended up spending that visit to my home country with friends and even rekindle an old flame with another girl I've dated previously. Sophia and I talked only once for her to tell me sorry for not telling me she had a boyfriend, that she thought I didn't care anymore. Again we never stopped texting after this.
A year later she and her family visited us in the US. I was just back from an study abroad program in Europe. Sophia and I ended up studying both architecture. I was on my third year and she was just starting back home. Her parents were interested in me taking her to the same study abroad program as it was architecture oriented and outside students could be part of it. I was amazed of how her parents wanted (and offered to pay for part of my expenses) me to basically take a month long vacation with their dauther in Europe.
One day picked her up in her hotel (she lied and told her parents she was spending the morning with another friend). I took her to est some breakfast at IHOP. We talked again about us, she told me that she and that boyfriend had broken up. We basically catched up on each other. When we were at the car, the tension was such that it could be cut with a knives. We kissed again, the flame was still there.
During that trip we went out, went to the beach, to the malls, hanging up, clubs, etc. It was the closest thing to dating we had ever had. One day she asked me to pick her up to her friends place, she was drunk and couldn't get to her parents that way, I took her to McDonald's and bought her chicken nuggets. It was about 2 am. She started crying, she told me she didn't understand why I was so good to her, how I was the only good guy in her life that cared for her really. I stayed with her until she sobered up and left her at her parents, she kissed me goodnight kindly.
On her last 2 days in the states she stayed at our place (it was a normal sleepover since she and my sister have been friends since 6). They had a girls nigth. I just spent some times with them watching a movie. We hold hands under the sheets.
That nigth around 3 am she sneaked into my bedroom and we proceeded to have one of those nights you can only dream about, one of those nights that cements themselves in your brain. I can recall every damn second, her smell, how her skin felt under my fingers. The taste of her lips and the sound of her voice trying not to be too loud.
She and her family left the US after that. We kept texting, this time not only flirty, but actually lovingly. unfortunately little by little she stopped replying, then stopped texting first. A couple of days later she went back to her ex and again broke my heart. I felt betrayed, I felt used. I thought that finally we migth had a chance at something but she decided otherwise.
I was really hurting and out of petty, I overtalcked at a house party my sister had with some friends from our country. Basically a "never have I ever been with my sisters friend". Everyone knew we had history but never confirmed it. One of the girls at the party started the rumor that Sophia and I Have had sex. Weather it was true, or hometown learned of this and it even reached her boyfriend. I only knew of this when she confronted me about it almost a year later. She was furious, I was so angry at myself thinking I had screwed it over for real.
Years passed and I had little by little let go of her. We only talked sporadically, wishing happy birthday and stuff like that.
4 years passed and we finally started talking again. She was living in Spain doing an MBA and she wanted to catch up. We talked for hours like nothing ever happened, she told me how her life had changed, experiences she had. I was amazed how our lives had mirrored, similar life decisions, similar trauma. I honestly think we are soul mates. I confessed that I always wanted to have a relationship with her. She told me that I was the one that got away (or something similar, it doesn't translates to English).
Since I was in a relationship and she was still adamant to having a long distance relationship, we just said godbye for now. To each of us to live our lives happily and if one day our paths crossed, it migth just be destiny.
We didn't talk much until valentines day of this year (2024). She texted me asking if there was a song thst reminded me of her. We exchanged songs and kept talking. Just like always, like we never stopped caring for each other. A couple of weeks later I sent her yellow flowers ( it's a thing back home to send yellow flowers at the end of May to the girl you love). She really like them but I noticed she didn't put it on Instagram or anything, again a secret. She had always kept me a secret from her parents and from her sister. She told me that even though she loved the flowers, she didn't wanted me to be hurt by her not loving me like I loved her.
We kept texting a flirting for weeks and she randomly sent me a message with a ticket to Miami (where I live). If you don't have feeling for me, WHY WOULD YOU SENT ME THAT?. She was coming to visit some friends. We planned a road trip to Orlando and to go to Disney with her friends.
The 2 months we planned stuff, places to go, stuff to do. I made a plan to confess all my bottled feelings for her, wrote her a 4 page love letter that I sealed in an emvelop with my own wax seal (I'm theatrical like that). But in social media I started seeing signs thst she migth be dating someone... Nothing official even now. I had my suspicions but wanted to see where things were going.
I picked her up in the airport, she was as beautiful as ever, we went to a restaurant and ate and talked until 3am. Not a mention of a boyfriend. Back when we arrived at my family's house (I moved back to my parents after covid, I'm moving back out on August) we kept talking in my bedroom for hours, almost until the sun came up. We were al must cheek to cheek, nose touching. I went for the kiss but she stopped me. She told me she couldn't. I told her that I knew she might had someone but I didn't know how serious it was. We ended up cuddling the rest of the nigth.
She left to Orlando on a train and I was supposed to join her in the weekend since I work.
We stayed at a resort with her friend. I stayed at her room in the sofa. No one asked questions. We went to the parks and had a good time. In the middle of disney she got a video call from her parents, she kept me out of their sight and didn't pass me to say hello. Again I was a secret. She told me that she couldn't tell her parents that I was staying with her, that they would thing something else was happening. How could she explain that to her parents?. I was angry. If that was the case how could she explain my presence to her boyfriend back home? Was I a secret for him as well? How can you organize all this and still say you don't have feelings for me? If I'm just a friend and nothing is going on... What's IS going on?
She flew back home a couple of days ago. We haven't talked. I refuse to see her instagram. She published a couple of photos that I FUCKING TOOK of her, for the boyfriend to reply with love and hearts. I'm afraid the boyfriend is also a good guy, with good feelings. It's not his fault what she's doing to me. I'm also afraid that since this actually a good guy, he'll propose and she'll say yes. After all of this I can't imagine her ending up with someone else. I had a panic attack just thinking about that.
I know my mistake this trip was being just a simp for her. I wasn't my self, I let my intrusive thouths to take over me and just be a simp for her. Now I'm tired, heart broken, depressed. Food doesn't taste the same, I don't want to leave my bed. I've had even suicidal thoughts, even though I know deep down I would never actually do it.
Sorry for the long post but I needed to vent.

How do I even go about this??? 18F and 18M
So I’ve been with this guy for almost 7 months. We have done long distance the whole time, but he has came to my state to see me twice; onceonce for my high school graduation for a week and three months before that for another week, it was really good and we worked really well together, the first time he came in the day before he left I was using his phone to find a restaurant to go to for breakfast, and I click on safari and there is porn in the browser and we had discussed that in our relationship that we aren’t gonna watch porn because we both consider it “micro cheating”. I had no problem with this boundary and personally I would’ve had no problem if he would’ve came to me and said that he would want to still watch it. But he lied to me for 3 months about watching it, which hurt and made issues for us. But we got through it fast forward 3 more months(a lot happened) I just start feeling sexually confident and got my sex drive back. Now we are two days before he’s supposed to come in for my graduation, I’m at a friends celebrating us graduating a little drunk and log into my old snap to get my friends number and I see my bf is active… he told me he didn’t have snap. In his words “ I have no use for it, I only talk to you”, so I screen shot this and call him. I told him you have been lying to me and until, you can come clean don’t talk to me. 30 mins later he calls me back “is this about soda” UMMMM NO (soda is a dating app for 17 and 18 year olds) so I tell him no this is about your snap but now tell me about soda lmfao.. long story short he was send fake dick picks to girls on snap for a confidence booster and these were like wine size bottle cocks.. so how to I move on from this or what do I do

Me ( M29) and my Ex GF ( F27 ) 5 year relationship . Since the beginning of our relationship, my gf lived me with through her college years ,she did not pay rent , or for any meal. I’ve always made good money and bought her whatever she wanted , and we went on the best vacations . Her love language is acts of service ( gifts , thoughtfulness, etc) . I always felt connection issues, emotionally neglected in our communication style ( I’m very affectionate and she would never really want to cuddle or anything ). I hated going to bed angry at each other which I verbally communicated , she would not listen and go sleep on the couch and not talk to me . This led to me being verbally abusive in some ways , in arguments id say things like “ I’m leaving you , I don’t want to do this anymore “ but then I’d apologize . . This was a few years ago and I grew as a person within our relationship and became a very loving and attentive partner as I always have.
A couple years ago , my GF spent a whole night out and was hanging with a bartender she met out and came home and told me she needed a break . She lied to me about talking to someone else after I asked her multiple times and she finally told me the truth .
I came to my senses the following morning and told her she had to move out . She cried and begged to my mother after I would not pick up the phone . I ultimately decided to let her back in and she PROMISED me she would not go back to the bar where the guy works. Fast forward two weeks after that , one of my friends saw her at the same bar and I would have never known if he had not saw her there . She lied to me by going back there and then she lied again by saying that the bartender was not there and she just went in there “ to use the bathroom.” I kept talking to this girl and she still continued to live with me. Our arguing got worse as time went on and she broke up with me again and told me “ I need time to think and collect myself and of course I want to get back together with you.” We were still hanging out everyday even though she moved out and got a sublease for 2 months. Come to find out she was hanging out with me during the day time and going back to her house to hang out with a new dude she met ( a barber ). She told me we were single and we could do whatever we wanted . Mind you I took this girl to the Cayman Islands during this time . I even saw text messages of her texting the dude “ I miss you” etc . We happened to run into the guy while we were out and she asked me if she could give him a hug and say hello to him in front of me . She even got mad at me for getting mad at her for asking me that question. She wrote me a letter saying sorry and that she loved me and all that. I got suckered in again and still kept hanging out with her . I ended up sleeping with one of her friends friends at the time , and she made me feel like such a bad person for it . That friend at the time of hers she met through me and they are no longer friends. Come to find out , my girlfriend had had a sexual relationship with a football coach she met out before I even did what I did and she was not even going to tell me until I found out . She continued to write me letters saying sorry and how we could rebuild trust . Fast forward to this year we have been broken up for some time but started to rekindle our relationship. The whole past 6 months she has been talking to another dude while talking to me and breadcrumbing me during Thanksgiving and christmas . She even lied to me on my birthday and said she fell asleep while she was actually hanging out with the other dude . I blocked her number and went through a massive transformation. Went full no contact and began to really heal . I started hitting the gym praying and meditating . Got in the best shape of my life and used everything as fuel . I really started coming into my own.
She recently showed up at my door after a month crying and begging and even threatening to commit suicide . She even told me she had not spoken to the guy she was seeing for 3 months . Come to find out she spoke to the guy 3 weeks ago. She lied again . She said because I told her this wouldn’t work that’s why she reached out to him . I keep breaking up and getting back with her and arguing and mentioning the past still and I feel horrible. Did my ways cause her to cheat and lie repeatedly ? Looking back I got manipulated this time into taking her back and now when we talk I can’t stop mentioning the past and what she did . My OCD has flared up and all the insecurities and self work I did when I blocked her all went to none and I feel like I’m starting back at square one . I feel like I started the relationship with her since the beginning because of my insecurities . I feel betrayed , I feel like a control freak and everything above . What did I do to deserve her lying? Am I being too controlling? Just need help and advice from all this mess. She recently texted me and told me I would never hear from her again after she typed a lengthy explanation of why she texted the other guy . I never lied nor cheated on her but I feel like I lied since the beginning because I felt deep down she was never really my soul mate because of her non affection. After I always told her I needed more affection and communication and maturity . I’m not a gift giver but I always showered her with gifts , Prada shoes and trips . Feel like I never got what I needed in return . She always writes letters and cries and comes back and says sorry but it seems like I push her away. She has forgiven me for my transgressions but I can’t come to forgive her for hers . Why is it so hard for me to move on this time when I did it before by blocking her and working on myself? I feel guilty for the way I treated her early on . Just need some support and advice . Thank you All for those who have made it this far and GOD bless you all.