Describing words starting with n
Cars Filled With Garbage
2016.02.26 01:10 spidarmen Cars Filled With Garbage
We've all seen it. A car filled to the brim with trash. Some call it car hoarding. We call it, Carbage!
2014.07.04 22:18 Glorious Space X Masterrace
A subreddit for the great Space X masterrace to discuss the words of EloN and his Glorious company Space X. SMART discussion about other rockets is also ok
2008.12.09 23:59 All About Learning Modern Greek
A subreddit for learners and speakers of Modern Greek (Nέα Eλληνικά). /GREEK initially joined the collective reddit blackout of June 2023 for two weeks and after polling its users, it was decided to return to business as usual.
2024.05.20 08:45 Unable_Reach9006 How to deal with toxic sibling?
A little summary: I am 20 (F) and my sister is 26(F). When we were little, we would constantly argue and she would always be the more stubborn one and I would always apologize first. (She has never apologized to me ever.) the only times she apologizes is to blame me for her actions in the first place. For example: “I wouldn’t have gotten so heated if you didn’t do __” or “I wouldn’t have called you a bitch if you didn’t do ___” I have excused that behavior until now because I thought that was just children things. Now that we are adults though…
I’d like to think I am very patient and anytime she calls me out on my behavior I would apologize wholeheartedly. I would also try to deescalate the situation if I see our conversations getting heated. It is impossible to get through to her. She knows that she’s stubborn and will quote “prove she’s right about something no matter what”
I also try to give her some advice, instead of getting into arguments with FAMILY especially, if you don’t like someone’s tone, you could say something like “I’m not comfortable with your tone or the way you’re speaking right now”
She proceeds to say “why should I have to do that for you?” I would think that she would be more empathetic towards family (her and my dad argue easily). However she does not care about the other persons feelings after. She says “that’s a feeling I’ll worry about later. I’ll make it up later”
I also try to tell her not to start fights and she says “i don’t start fights, I finish them…”
It just really seems like she does not care who she hurts along the way of arguments. Also slightly more context, when we argue I don’t like to use curse words or name calling. She however throws them around like it’s nothing and it hurts me. I’ve tried talking to her for YEARS about this and it does not seem like she’s gonna change.
She also talks bad about others people around her a lot. Especially towards other family members who act JUST LIKE HER. And claim she does not get along with them.
I love her because she is my sister but she also makes me feel terrible after and made my childhood terrible. I am honestly so exhausted and walk on eggshells around her. Any advice on what to do?
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I’d like to think I am very patient and anytime she calls me out on my behavior I would apologize wholeheartedly. I would also try to deescalate the situation if I see our conversations getting heated. It is impossible to get through to her. She knows that she’s stubborn and will quote “prove she’s right about something no matter what”
I also try to give her some advice, instead of getting into arguments with FAMILY especially, if you don’t like someone’s tone, you could say something like “I’m not comfortable with your tone or the way you’re speaking right now”
She proceeds to say “why should I have to do that for you?” I would think that she would be more empathetic towards family (her and my dad argue easily). However she does not care about the other persons feelings after. She says “that’s a feeling I’ll worry about later. I’ll make it up later”
I also try to tell her not to start fights and she says “i don’t start fights, I finish them…”
It just really seems like she does not care who she hurts along the way of arguments. Also slightly more context, when we argue I don’t like to use curse words or name calling. She however throws them around like it’s nothing and it hurts me. I’ve tried talking to her for YEARS about this and it does not seem like she’s gonna change.
She also talks bad about others people around her a lot. Especially towards other family members who act JUST LIKE HER. And claim she does not get along with them.
I love her because she is my sister but she also makes me feel terrible after and made my childhood terrible. I am honestly so exhausted and walk on eggshells around her. Any advice on what to do?
2024.05.20 08:43 Maximum_Ride4792 Seeking Advice: completely heartbroken 29F after breakup with boyfriend 50M
Hello Reddit community, I'm going through a tough time and could really use some advice and support. My boyfriend 50M recently decided to break up with me without discussing it with me first, leaving me feeling devastated. I 29F, moved to the Bay Area from Texas over a year and a half ago to be with him, and now I'm trying to figure out how to navigate this new chapter in my life.
Since my move, I've been struggling to find a job in marketing and have been working in the hospitality industry to make ends meet. The breakup came about when I asked him about a trip we had discussed taking sometime in mid-June. When I inquired about the dates so I could request time off work, he suddenly mentioned that we're not on the same page, he's unsure about marriage, and he doesn't want kids. While I'm not currently focused on starting a family and recognize the uncertainty of the world, it was the way he communicated this that hurt the most. I simply wanted more time with him.
Adding more details to the post: He has been legally married the entire time we've been together and always claimed he was too busy to take care of it. However, as soon as he broke up with me, he expedited the divorce process. I even saw text messages between him and his ex discussing the divorce and sending music to each other. When I confronted him about this lack of respect for me and my feelings, he admitted he wasn't ready to face the truth and wasn't over his marriage ending. He's now pursuing the divorce because he can't retire in August if he's still married.
He got upset when I told him I wouldn't be moving back to Texas and expressed doubts about my ability to make it in the Bay Area. He even mentioned that he's planning to move to Chicago in October when his lease ends. I feel deeply hurt and confused by his actions and words.
I'm reaching out to you all for advice on how to navigate this challenging time and find a way to heal and move on. What steps can I take to start rebuilding my life and find a sense of direction? Any words of wisdom or support would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.
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Since my move, I've been struggling to find a job in marketing and have been working in the hospitality industry to make ends meet. The breakup came about when I asked him about a trip we had discussed taking sometime in mid-June. When I inquired about the dates so I could request time off work, he suddenly mentioned that we're not on the same page, he's unsure about marriage, and he doesn't want kids. While I'm not currently focused on starting a family and recognize the uncertainty of the world, it was the way he communicated this that hurt the most. I simply wanted more time with him.
Adding more details to the post: He has been legally married the entire time we've been together and always claimed he was too busy to take care of it. However, as soon as he broke up with me, he expedited the divorce process. I even saw text messages between him and his ex discussing the divorce and sending music to each other. When I confronted him about this lack of respect for me and my feelings, he admitted he wasn't ready to face the truth and wasn't over his marriage ending. He's now pursuing the divorce because he can't retire in August if he's still married.
He got upset when I told him I wouldn't be moving back to Texas and expressed doubts about my ability to make it in the Bay Area. He even mentioned that he's planning to move to Chicago in October when his lease ends. I feel deeply hurt and confused by his actions and words.
I'm reaching out to you all for advice on how to navigate this challenging time and find a way to heal and move on. What steps can I take to start rebuilding my life and find a sense of direction? Any words of wisdom or support would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.
2024.05.20 08:42 Zealousideal-Idea732 Help me please.
I’ve been having anxiety most of my life now however , for a couple of months this random shit has been happening to me. Pretty sure it started happening right after my break up with this one girl which depeleted my mental health state I wanted to kill myself , searching up ways since their is no gun in the house from past sucicide attempts however this is not the part of the discussion it’s the shit that happened after , for a couple of months now I’ve been getting thsi fucking itching and hot tingle ness , I have no fucking idea how to describe it , it’s genuinely just this unbearable hot sensation and it tends to get itchy it happens all over my body and like once it flares up i get dots all over my body like hives or some shit , but I’ve been working with my doctors for over 2 months on this situation I’ve sent pictures I went in to the place , etc , they’ve prescribed me this like shit for my skin this shampoo and said it could be a “pore problem” like with my skin or something. So i was using this wash they gave me this benzoyl peroxide shit I think? Pretty sure I’m just going off the top of my head , anywho they also gave me this like oil thing to put on my skin after I get out , and we also got some allergy medication since they thought it was some allergy thing , and i remember using all of it before a haircut took my shower used the wash used the oil and used the moisturizer they recommended and took a couple allergy pills , got in the car and went there and like 5 mins out from the barber shop i get the ichyness feeling and I start getting hot , and then I look at my hand and the dots are there , and once I see the dots I can’t stop thinking about them no matter what breathing exercises I do I won’t stop thinking abt the dots and once those dots are there they tend to stay till I know or well my body knows were completely out of the situation, and I’ve tried other medication prescribed from my phycatrist which she thought they where hives , and I can easily test out if I get the itchiness and hot tingless by working out since i guess working out gets me all heated up and I’m doing some type of exercise and working my body it tends to make me get the itchiness and hot tingleness not the dots but the hot sensation and itchiness , and they didn’t fucking work. I get these hot sensations and dots and itchiness in public spaces usually , like I’m assuming it’s anxiety based and well I may have some health issue but the doctors literally don’t know cause it’s a symptom of a bunch of things , I guess. But it literally ruined my life , I can’t drive I can’t work I can’t hangout with friends , like I’ll be on the game laughing randomly and I’ll get the hotness sensation and itchiness and decide to walk away and like take a cold shower , I can’t even get fuckign haircuts , it’s genuinely ruining my life and it just started like 5 months ago and my Life has not been the same , im honestly not gonna re read this im just speaking whats on my mind , it’s just fucking ruined my life and the doctors aren’t even really Helping cause I’m assuming they don’t know what it is , but it’s a hot sensation and like tingles that are quite literally unbearable , i was buying a new pc and I literally had to go out of the store cause I was starting to get the hot sensation , when I’m talking I get it when I’m out in public and I feel like people are looking at me and I’m insecure cause ion have a haircut I get the hot sensation , I honestly jsut need help and i came into here to ask about the best products I could literally use to calm down my anxiety, I have a addictive personality so I don’t want to learn towards weed cause it can also flare up my anxiety , I wanted to try cbd products or something , i just need help this is ruining my life.
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2024.05.20 08:41 bbyfog [Job Interviews] How to Respond to “So, Tell Me About Yourself” in a Job Interview
https://hbr.org/2019/08/how-to-respond-to-so-tell-me-about-yourself-in-a-job-interview
*Should I run through my job history?
*Should I share my hobbies and favorite movies?
*Should I talk about my last job or boss?
Fill the Need
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The toughest job interview question may seem like a softball from the interviewer’s perspective: “So…tell me about yourself.”*Should I tell my life story?
*Should I run through my job history?
*Should I share my hobbies and favorite movies?
*Should I talk about my last job or boss?
What your prospective employer most needs from you is a point (“I can best fill the needs of this role”), not a book report (“All about me”). But how do you get from the interviewer’s broad question to a specific and tailored proof of that point? It starts with not wasting your time — or theirs.Be More Than Your Bio
Fill the Need
Now change the wording slightly to “I’m someone who…” or “At work, my approach is…”
Pick a story from your professional life that illustrates you filling that particular need in another job, preferably one in which the setting of your story matches the setting of the business to which you’re applying. Feel free to embellish the details to strengthen the match, but don’t fabricate the primary elements. Assume they can smell a lie or gross exaggeration from a mile away, whether they can or can’t.
2024.05.20 08:41 shotxcs [WTS][TX] LWA LM4, GBB PISTOLS, LWA AKG GBB, ETC
hey everyone please take your time as I do my very best to describe the condition of everything accurately, in order to eliminate questions. Regardless feel free to reach out to me. All prices are shipped and fee'd via Paypal! Willing to negotiate on bundle purchases!
High Res Nudes: https://imgur.com/a/m1OJTjU
KWA LM4 - little beat up but functions great. only thing to complain about is the bolt catch doesn't always catch. brand new OEM nozzle just installed today. $425 as pictured shipped. $325 shipped just gun and mag.
G&P MAGPUL WOC - next is a fully custom Magpul edition WOC GBBR. Gun functions great with the included ProWin 20rd magazine. Gun is full metal and the previous owner told me it had all steel internals. One thing to note is that it is picky with magazines, It does not function perfectly with WOC PMAGS. This gun is compatible with GHK GMAGS, However it will require a bit of sanding inside the Magwell. Ive started the sanding process but I don’t have the time to finish the project. dummy peq, and red dot is untested. Comes as pictured $320 shipped
SOLDModify OTS-126** - Fired once and in beautiful condition. comes with a total of 5 short mags. 4 of the mags are leak free, 1 mag upon a full fill will spit back a little but still retains a healthy amount of gas. will include gun, x5 mags, and the red dot, the red dot is a red/green and functions great. original box can be included upon request. Looking for $340 Shipped SOLD
KWA AKG74 - works great but charging handle snapped off. Comes as pictured x2 mags 1 mag has small leak. the stock is after market so it doesn't snap into place when folded. $250 shipped
AIRSOFT GI G4- this is an old school GI G4, not 100% sure on exact model. Gun functions great and has a brand new maple leaf 70 degree bucking. Optic not included. Inner barrel is exposed due to short outer barrel but does have threads for a suppressor. $180 shipped for just the gun and mag. $200 shipped with eotech
WE Colt 1911 MEU - This gun functions amazing, includes x1 leak free mag. It's full metal and feels very good in the hand. The MEU Grips were added, Looking for $85 shipped
SOLDAPS MANTIS** - almost brand new, never left the house. x1 non leaky c02 mag. $115 shipped, will include a rear iron sight. SOLD
OPS TACTICAL 1911 - gun is effectively brand new works great x1 non leaky mag. $85 shipped
WE GALAXY - gun is brand new never used. this is the 1911 variant. comes with rmr, but rmr is untested and assumed to be boneyard. x1 non leaky mag $115 shipped
BLACK 1911 - this is the gun under the apex m4. selling as boneyard but is likely an easy fix, not sure what the problem is. does not include a mag. $40 shipped
1911 WITH WOOD GRIPS - works great, missing thumb safety. includes x1 non leaky mag. $60 shipped
KWA KM4 - As you can see this gun is heavily used, but was also purposefully worn by previous owner. The Gun works and a shooting video can be provided at request. however the gun does not shoot in full auto (not sure if previous owner semi locked it) if so it's an easy fix. the gun depending on what mag you use sometimes double fires on semi. this would make an amazing base for a build. The gun is entirely metal, upper and lower receiver and rail, making it very heavy for an aeg. wired to deans, requires a slim battery to fit in buffer. includes gun as pictured and one mag. Looking for $140 shipped
KWA KZ75 - this gun shows many signs of use but functions great. Includes a total of 5 mags all leak free. 3 of the mags are missing their baseplates but this doesn't affect their function. Looking for $175 shipped
SNOW WOLF BARRETT AEG - gun functions great and has never left the house. Cosmetic wear from storage. I was told from the previous owner it had upgrades but I was never given specifics. However I do know that it takes a 11.1v Lipo or stronger to cycle the gearbox. Needless to say it does function.Comes as pictured $260 shipped
SOLDCYBERGUN M249 FEATHERWEIGHT - gun functions great. It is not pictured but it will include the heat shield and original bipod. Only thing to note is that the two body pins that secure the stock to the receiver are gone. I have improvised one of the pins and it holds fairly firm. A replacement pin or screw is an easy hardware store fix. It additionally includes the green box mag but Ive never been able to get a consistent feed from it. Everything upon inspection looks normal but idk, maybe easy fix for someone who knows more about the platform. However the gun feeds great using m4 mags. Comes as pictured $200 SOLD
Esstac kywi - multicam double 5.56 short pouches x2. Brand new. Comes with malice clips. $45 shipped
Id like to stay as close to listed prices as possible but feel free to shoot me an offer. I will prioritize people interested in bundling multiple items I am also willing to make a deal on bundled items will give someone a deal if you take it all! CONUS only No returns or refunds Please ask questions before purchasing NO TRADES Thanks for looking!
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High Res Nudes: https://imgur.com/a/m1OJTjU
KWA LM4 - little beat up but functions great. only thing to complain about is the bolt catch doesn't always catch. brand new OEM nozzle just installed today. $425 as pictured shipped. $325 shipped just gun and mag.
G&P MAGPUL WOC - next is a fully custom Magpul edition WOC GBBR. Gun functions great with the included ProWin 20rd magazine. Gun is full metal and the previous owner told me it had all steel internals. One thing to note is that it is picky with magazines, It does not function perfectly with WOC PMAGS. This gun is compatible with GHK GMAGS, However it will require a bit of sanding inside the Magwell. Ive started the sanding process but I don’t have the time to finish the project. dummy peq, and red dot is untested. Comes as pictured $320 shipped
SOLD
KWA AKG74 - works great but charging handle snapped off. Comes as pictured x2 mags 1 mag has small leak. the stock is after market so it doesn't snap into place when folded. $250 shipped
AIRSOFT GI G4- this is an old school GI G4, not 100% sure on exact model. Gun functions great and has a brand new maple leaf 70 degree bucking. Optic not included. Inner barrel is exposed due to short outer barrel but does have threads for a suppressor. $180 shipped for just the gun and mag. $200 shipped with eotech
WE Colt 1911 MEU - This gun functions amazing, includes x1 leak free mag. It's full metal and feels very good in the hand. The MEU Grips were added, Looking for $85 shipped
SOLD
OPS TACTICAL 1911 - gun is effectively brand new works great x1 non leaky mag. $85 shipped
WE GALAXY - gun is brand new never used. this is the 1911 variant. comes with rmr, but rmr is untested and assumed to be boneyard. x1 non leaky mag $115 shipped
BLACK 1911 - this is the gun under the apex m4. selling as boneyard but is likely an easy fix, not sure what the problem is. does not include a mag. $40 shipped
1911 WITH WOOD GRIPS - works great, missing thumb safety. includes x1 non leaky mag. $60 shipped
KWA KM4 - As you can see this gun is heavily used, but was also purposefully worn by previous owner. The Gun works and a shooting video can be provided at request. however the gun does not shoot in full auto (not sure if previous owner semi locked it) if so it's an easy fix. the gun depending on what mag you use sometimes double fires on semi. this would make an amazing base for a build. The gun is entirely metal, upper and lower receiver and rail, making it very heavy for an aeg. wired to deans, requires a slim battery to fit in buffer. includes gun as pictured and one mag. Looking for $140 shipped
KWA KZ75 - this gun shows many signs of use but functions great. Includes a total of 5 mags all leak free. 3 of the mags are missing their baseplates but this doesn't affect their function. Looking for $175 shipped
SNOW WOLF BARRETT AEG - gun functions great and has never left the house. Cosmetic wear from storage. I was told from the previous owner it had upgrades but I was never given specifics. However I do know that it takes a 11.1v Lipo or stronger to cycle the gearbox. Needless to say it does function.Comes as pictured $260 shipped
SOLD
Esstac kywi - multicam double 5.56 short pouches x2. Brand new. Comes with malice clips. $45 shipped
Id like to stay as close to listed prices as possible but feel free to shoot me an offer. I will prioritize people interested in bundling multiple items I am also willing to make a deal on bundled items will give someone a deal if you take it all! CONUS only No returns or refunds Please ask questions before purchasing NO TRADES Thanks for looking!
2024.05.20 08:38 SiDtheTurtle At my wits end: neighbours flouting rules on parking, hours and planning
Not sure where to begin with this one, but I'll keep the facts.
England, privately owned houses, neighbours and I share a drive, he is renovating top to bottom. Basically while I feel there is a legal route I can Google for all of these, none of them actually accomplish anything. Summary below:
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England, privately owned houses, neighbours and I share a drive, he is renovating top to bottom. Basically while I feel there is a legal route I can Google for all of these, none of them actually accomplish anything. Summary below:
- They are building a structure under permitted development that IMO breaks planning rules (eaves height is 3 meters next to a boundary). I raised a complaint, but have to wait up to 100 days to see if they will enforce.
- They block the shared drive all day, every day. Is it all I can do to spend money sending strongly worded emails via a solicitor?
- They park on the street outside my house (opposite a school on double yellows). I report these every day but no one seems to ticket them. They start work at 6am and work 7 days a week. I understand I can raise a noise complaint but been through this writing noise diaries and submitting them to the council (did that for the previous neighbours who liked to party and fight) but all that happens is that the council says the diary, audio and video are not enough evidence.
2024.05.20 08:37 TruthOne8454 WIBTA for distancing myself from a friend who keeps saying/doing mildly insensitive things
I (20f), have a friend (19f) that I met at uni, we've been friends for a few years and are generally pretty close. I was sa'd by an aquiantance also a few years ago, I've since been diagnosed with PTSD and am working on recovering mentally and physically but still have rough days. The crux of this issue is that the friend in questions keeps doing/saying things that are triggering (in the literal sense of the word) or just upsetting relating to this. For example, we had a movie night recently and they suggested we watch a movie they'd seen before and I hadn't, and it ended up having an explicit sa scene.
It did fuck me up mentally for a bit but I wasn't upset with her because sometimes you forget what's in a movie and honestly I should have looked into it more before agreeing to watch it like I usually do, so if it was just that I'd be like no harm no foul.
However, it hasn't been just that - they also keep sharing a number of...interesting takes with me that are most likely indicative of some trauma on their part but I also don't know how to hold space for and cannot help them work through bc of my own trauma. A few weeks ago she confessed she sometimes wished shey'd been harassed more as a teenager because she felt like she was ugly and "even catcalling never happened to her she was so ugly".
Again, I get that was most likely coming from a place of trauma, but...what do you even say to that? After that, it was something about how she's avoided being sa'd by not being attractive to men. Most recently, it was her comparing having gone to the obgyn as a young teenager for a medical issue and exam to being violently raped and equating the two as being similar in terms of trauma. As someone who went through the latter, I didn't even reply to her on that one (this was over text), and there's been other incidents like this that aren't malicious I don't think but just feel really insensitive (she knows what happened and was even there for the aftermath and all) and I think in a way she's trying to convince herself that some of her own traumas are valid by comparing them, but it's having a really negative effect on me mentally honestly so...would I be ta if I start distancing myself from her?
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It did fuck me up mentally for a bit but I wasn't upset with her because sometimes you forget what's in a movie and honestly I should have looked into it more before agreeing to watch it like I usually do, so if it was just that I'd be like no harm no foul.
However, it hasn't been just that - they also keep sharing a number of...interesting takes with me that are most likely indicative of some trauma on their part but I also don't know how to hold space for and cannot help them work through bc of my own trauma. A few weeks ago she confessed she sometimes wished shey'd been harassed more as a teenager because she felt like she was ugly and "even catcalling never happened to her she was so ugly".
Again, I get that was most likely coming from a place of trauma, but...what do you even say to that? After that, it was something about how she's avoided being sa'd by not being attractive to men. Most recently, it was her comparing having gone to the obgyn as a young teenager for a medical issue and exam to being violently raped and equating the two as being similar in terms of trauma. As someone who went through the latter, I didn't even reply to her on that one (this was over text), and there's been other incidents like this that aren't malicious I don't think but just feel really insensitive (she knows what happened and was even there for the aftermath and all) and I think in a way she's trying to convince herself that some of her own traumas are valid by comparing them, but it's having a really negative effect on me mentally honestly so...would I be ta if I start distancing myself from her?
2024.05.20 08:35 Etherealmama3 Striking the match, and just cannot stop pouring the gas
TW mention of childhood trauma, fertility; ab*rtion and miscarriage
I (26, F) live with my partner (28 M) of two and a half years and our Irish twins (19 months and 5 months old) we have a long and complicated history to say the least. (10+ years) A timeline for some context would be that we met young, freshman and juniors in high school; we went to different schools, made up, broke up a few times and always kept a very tight friendship in between young spouts of infidelity and overall teen bs. In my youth I experienced many pregnancy complications, which led to some emotional trauma for me. (More context here; one miscarriage was my partner’s when we were young and I didn’t tell him— it wasn’t right, but a confusing time for me) Through everything we always came back to each other. I lived a rougher life with minimal support, while his parents fawned over him constantly, and always had a higher quality of life. (Not yucky rich people, people who worked hard and wanted their child to enjoy the benefits). His parents loved me and I kept him far away from my family’s mess. That is, until I got pregnant.
My partner and I, let’s call him Drew, were not together at the time I conceived our first child. I told him the truth- he wasn’t my only current partner and that I respected him enough to tell him outright immediately; I told him that I love him, and I would chose him, and would consider and ab*rtion even though it would destroy me. I would do it, to earn trust back, and solidify us together again, as I’ve always wanted. He said he could never let me do that, but the fact that I put that out on the table showed how much I valued him in this time. We slowly worked on us, and welcomed our first healthy baby together! It was so beautiful! He meant my family, I slowly realized again why I kept them away, but I put my best foot fwd to build a strong “family” foundation.
I felt myself treading on eggshells emotionally because I knew he was taking on a lot- id moved in with him and his parents for us to save money and get secure, he worked full time, and prepared fully for a baby he wasn’t sure would be his. (Context: we only found out our first child was his recently through paternity, we did not test @ the hospital as the child arrived premature and emotionally we clung together tho feelings may have been unresolved— Drew secretly got a test recently) I’m sure there was plenty he has not said to me as he worked through his emotions and fell so madly in love with our child so quickly, that everything went to the side. ALTHOUGH we were going out once a week, and were the happiest at this point in my opinion. I had no postpartum issues and things were moving in a positive direction!
We begin to find normal life again when BOOM! Baby #2– this time— Drew was thrilled! Bouncing around ecstatic! This pregnancy was ALSO very healthy! Very good! Both made me very sick, but I managed better than many women who get it far far worse than I did. This is where some conflict arrises. At this point with baby number 2, I want to move out. Asap. Obviously he’s breadwinner but long story short, we move out. We’ve now been here 6 months and things have gotten bad as of recent. My family lives very close by, which has caused some conflict. I start to see “expectations” being let down. With ourfirst child I was SO SAD that he didn’t get me flowers, so I’d assumed (stupid I know) that he would get some for me, and it wouldn’t happen, for example.
I feel like I’ve gotten no postpartum care after our second child. He was “exhausted” in the hospital when I was recovering and not paying much attention to me. When we got home, no real physical affection that didn’t feel sexually driven. I can’t explain it? Like he just didn’t care about me anymore? I tried explaining and felt low key bullied out of everything I was feeling, “that’s not what I meant, I’m sorry” I’d believe it, we move on. At a point it began feeling too disrespectful. Mind you, now I’m only a few weeks PP, still bl*eding from birth and really needing to feel loved, but in a different way? More emotional. I’ve only had my last child 14 months prior before his one was born, my body and brain are traumatized to say the least- at this point. Things escalate.
We get into heated arguments that I begin SCREAMING. He gets disrespectful and dismissive which sends me spiraling, and we go back and forth for a few weeks. I will explain, in detail, what I need, and still won’t get it. Or may receive a snarky remark on why I didn’t get treated the way I asked- after a while of this repeating- I finally snap. I put my hands on him. I disgusted myself. I shook in anger and he laughed in a way I’ve never seen. It terrifies me. It’s happened one other time now, which was worse than the first. This ends up happening as a result of him trying to retreat to sleep, where I feel dismissed, and frankly just gross that he leaves me in tears to sleep, that u stomp into the room and continue the argument. He will say things like “I just can’t do this I am too tired” and “I don’t care I’m too tired to care” and I continue to spiral. I emotionally abuse him when I go in and just cannot let it go, but I cannot sleep from the anxiety of an unresolved issue (especially ones where he is very mean and stomps off to sleep, something in my brain is so abandoned in that moment I almost demand him to love me like he claims he does) it is like my fight or flight like I need him to help me calm down because I love him and want to feel safe with him.
More context; this man has NEVER been mean to me. I believe this is a result of him not being watered/appreciated out loud by me, but always needing to “provide something” for me. The issue is the things he does (a lot) don’t need to be done. But the few small things I NEED done are never ever done (example, a clean bottle for the 6am feed before bed to help me a little) instead I wake up to a sink full of bottles and starving baby. Etc. so because I am SO LOW I feel unable to provide that nurture for him. When I beg for that nurture he claims to not have it for me. He doesn’t listen to me, constantly does things I ask him not to, etc. I love him so much. I just feel so hated. I feel like he has never been sorry for things in our past, nor is he sorry about how I feel now, he just wants me to shut up (he doesn’t say that, he doesn’t even yell). More context I do work FT as well as care for our children alongside him. I over extend myself to many friends and am very extroverted so he doesn’t mind me going out a few days a week for an hour or two to relax. In many ways I am SO lucky to have him!!! In others, his words and actions feel so spiteful and resentful. I feel so overwhelmed and like I am giving my all, but have no safe place to fal. I also believe I provide him that same feeling.
Tonight, I drug him out of bed again, I needed him so badly. He was too tired. He ended it with “maybe this is just who you are. Maybe I just don’t love you” then fell asleep. A few minutes later, I woke him quietly after I cried, moved him to th bed where he said “I love you”. And it just hurts.
I feel like I single handedly destroyed my best friend and the love of my life from postpartum anxiety. Please help me get better (I know I need therapy badly I am looking into it immediately) I am so lost. Please help me.
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I (26, F) live with my partner (28 M) of two and a half years and our Irish twins (19 months and 5 months old) we have a long and complicated history to say the least. (10+ years) A timeline for some context would be that we met young, freshman and juniors in high school; we went to different schools, made up, broke up a few times and always kept a very tight friendship in between young spouts of infidelity and overall teen bs. In my youth I experienced many pregnancy complications, which led to some emotional trauma for me. (More context here; one miscarriage was my partner’s when we were young and I didn’t tell him— it wasn’t right, but a confusing time for me) Through everything we always came back to each other. I lived a rougher life with minimal support, while his parents fawned over him constantly, and always had a higher quality of life. (Not yucky rich people, people who worked hard and wanted their child to enjoy the benefits). His parents loved me and I kept him far away from my family’s mess. That is, until I got pregnant.
My partner and I, let’s call him Drew, were not together at the time I conceived our first child. I told him the truth- he wasn’t my only current partner and that I respected him enough to tell him outright immediately; I told him that I love him, and I would chose him, and would consider and ab*rtion even though it would destroy me. I would do it, to earn trust back, and solidify us together again, as I’ve always wanted. He said he could never let me do that, but the fact that I put that out on the table showed how much I valued him in this time. We slowly worked on us, and welcomed our first healthy baby together! It was so beautiful! He meant my family, I slowly realized again why I kept them away, but I put my best foot fwd to build a strong “family” foundation.
I felt myself treading on eggshells emotionally because I knew he was taking on a lot- id moved in with him and his parents for us to save money and get secure, he worked full time, and prepared fully for a baby he wasn’t sure would be his. (Context: we only found out our first child was his recently through paternity, we did not test @ the hospital as the child arrived premature and emotionally we clung together tho feelings may have been unresolved— Drew secretly got a test recently) I’m sure there was plenty he has not said to me as he worked through his emotions and fell so madly in love with our child so quickly, that everything went to the side. ALTHOUGH we were going out once a week, and were the happiest at this point in my opinion. I had no postpartum issues and things were moving in a positive direction!
We begin to find normal life again when BOOM! Baby #2– this time— Drew was thrilled! Bouncing around ecstatic! This pregnancy was ALSO very healthy! Very good! Both made me very sick, but I managed better than many women who get it far far worse than I did. This is where some conflict arrises. At this point with baby number 2, I want to move out. Asap. Obviously he’s breadwinner but long story short, we move out. We’ve now been here 6 months and things have gotten bad as of recent. My family lives very close by, which has caused some conflict. I start to see “expectations” being let down. With ourfirst child I was SO SAD that he didn’t get me flowers, so I’d assumed (stupid I know) that he would get some for me, and it wouldn’t happen, for example.
I feel like I’ve gotten no postpartum care after our second child. He was “exhausted” in the hospital when I was recovering and not paying much attention to me. When we got home, no real physical affection that didn’t feel sexually driven. I can’t explain it? Like he just didn’t care about me anymore? I tried explaining and felt low key bullied out of everything I was feeling, “that’s not what I meant, I’m sorry” I’d believe it, we move on. At a point it began feeling too disrespectful. Mind you, now I’m only a few weeks PP, still bl*eding from birth and really needing to feel loved, but in a different way? More emotional. I’ve only had my last child 14 months prior before his one was born, my body and brain are traumatized to say the least- at this point. Things escalate.
We get into heated arguments that I begin SCREAMING. He gets disrespectful and dismissive which sends me spiraling, and we go back and forth for a few weeks. I will explain, in detail, what I need, and still won’t get it. Or may receive a snarky remark on why I didn’t get treated the way I asked- after a while of this repeating- I finally snap. I put my hands on him. I disgusted myself. I shook in anger and he laughed in a way I’ve never seen. It terrifies me. It’s happened one other time now, which was worse than the first. This ends up happening as a result of him trying to retreat to sleep, where I feel dismissed, and frankly just gross that he leaves me in tears to sleep, that u stomp into the room and continue the argument. He will say things like “I just can’t do this I am too tired” and “I don’t care I’m too tired to care” and I continue to spiral. I emotionally abuse him when I go in and just cannot let it go, but I cannot sleep from the anxiety of an unresolved issue (especially ones where he is very mean and stomps off to sleep, something in my brain is so abandoned in that moment I almost demand him to love me like he claims he does) it is like my fight or flight like I need him to help me calm down because I love him and want to feel safe with him.
More context; this man has NEVER been mean to me. I believe this is a result of him not being watered/appreciated out loud by me, but always needing to “provide something” for me. The issue is the things he does (a lot) don’t need to be done. But the few small things I NEED done are never ever done (example, a clean bottle for the 6am feed before bed to help me a little) instead I wake up to a sink full of bottles and starving baby. Etc. so because I am SO LOW I feel unable to provide that nurture for him. When I beg for that nurture he claims to not have it for me. He doesn’t listen to me, constantly does things I ask him not to, etc. I love him so much. I just feel so hated. I feel like he has never been sorry for things in our past, nor is he sorry about how I feel now, he just wants me to shut up (he doesn’t say that, he doesn’t even yell). More context I do work FT as well as care for our children alongside him. I over extend myself to many friends and am very extroverted so he doesn’t mind me going out a few days a week for an hour or two to relax. In many ways I am SO lucky to have him!!! In others, his words and actions feel so spiteful and resentful. I feel so overwhelmed and like I am giving my all, but have no safe place to fal. I also believe I provide him that same feeling.
Tonight, I drug him out of bed again, I needed him so badly. He was too tired. He ended it with “maybe this is just who you are. Maybe I just don’t love you” then fell asleep. A few minutes later, I woke him quietly after I cried, moved him to th bed where he said “I love you”. And it just hurts.
I feel like I single handedly destroyed my best friend and the love of my life from postpartum anxiety. Please help me get better (I know I need therapy badly I am looking into it immediately) I am so lost. Please help me.
2024.05.20 08:35 KonradsCrow The grey matter in my brain is counter revolutionary
I read all this theory, and then don’t remember any of it. It’s like I sit there ingesting all this holy gospel just for my brain to spit it out as soon as I’m done reading. I’m so cooked. I spend all these hours reading and don’t even know what a petty bourgeoisie is. And, it’s not that the theory doesn’t explain it. I either don’t remember the explanations or my lack of reading comprehension skills (literally infantile) cause me to misunderstand every paragraph. It’s as though I’m not even reading anything. I’ll spend hours with Capital and then not even understand what small commodity production is. The problems just keep stacking on top of each other. I try to explain communism to someone and their question goes “how is communism better than capitalism?” and I can’t even formulate a sentence. I just sit there fumbling around, rambling about productive forces, fetters, and crises (doing my best to remember the bare minimum of the principles of communism). It feels futile in a way. I know it’s not. I know theory is important. The theory doesn’t stick with me no matter how hard I try, though. Even when I take notes it’s still impossible to connect the dots. Everything just seems so complex and complicated and I can’t wrap my head around it. And it’s no help that resources besides theory either suck (made by liberals) or are obscure and possibly even more incomprehensible than the theory I’m trying to read. Yesterday I couldn’t even figure out the difference between exchange value and price. Instead of enjoying my dinner, I was obsessing over how market price equaled real value. Don’t even get me started on inflation. I’ve read the first seven chapters of capital, wage labour and capital, and value price and profit, and still can’t understand price. Every little term is a can of worms that I can’t understand. I can barely formulate sentences when I try to explain concepts in theory. Some phrases have chapter long explanations that seem so over bearing and other phrases have two sentence long explanations that don’t go nearly in-depth enough for me. I feel like I’m missing 80% of the puzzle. And in a way that true, I haven’t read nearly enough theory. But, it feels so impossible to get a clear grasp of one thing without knowing everything else. I can’t know everything without knowing everything else. I feel like every term I don’t know has an explanation somewhere else in an obscure article Marx wrote in 1852. I don’t know where anything is or where to find it. Everything is so interconnected and dependent upon each other. I can’t get an understanding of something without forgetting and being unable to connect it with the bigger picture. I can’t get a clear grasp of one thing and move onto the next. I can’t even go chapter by chapter, concepts building off each other. I can’t even do that much. I feel like to understand every little sentence I read, I have to already know every piece of theory that is. Every little text I read seems so isolated and incomplete without some magical complete knowledge of every word Marx wrote. I just don’t feel like a “good” (Marx forgive me for using moral judgement) communist when I don’t know half the things I claim to profess or understand most of the beliefs I hold. I feel so overwhelmed. Comrade I can’t even write a paragraph without writing “I feel like” 500 times. It seems like every big concept is so far outside of my reach. It seems that there’s not enough time to read all the theory I need to read. Sometimes I feel like I don’t know enough, other times I feel like I need to slow down and try not to over-ingest too many concepts. It’s a struggle. I can’t decide whether I want to read the theory that seems interesting to me or read the theory I feel like I need to. It sucks that reading theory feels like a chore. Most of the time it’s not even enjoyable. Most of the theory that seems interesting is too high level for me to under. So again, it feels like I have to read so much before I can even get to the enjoyable part. I suppose reading theory isn’t supposed to be enjoyable more so than a necessity. I just wish there was some way, some tactic I could use to have a more enjoyable reading experience and take more away from the stuff I do read. I don’t know. I want to better myself and read theory like a good little Marxist, but it’s so difficult. The theory is trying to bite me. And when I do take breaks from reading theory, it doesn’t help. I can’t abandon reading theory all together. That would make no sense. But, no matter how long of a break I take, the reading experience doesn’t seem to get any better. I don’t mean to complain like a five years old or an anarchist. I know this isn’t a vent space. There are subreddits for that. But this is the only real and authentic place for actual communist and not deranged liberals with an obsession with commodity production. I know I have to read theory. I know I can’t give up no matter how much I might feel like it. I’m not trying to deny that I need to read theory. I’m not some weird Stalinist who thinks they can get all their theory by watching an online video or listening to a podcast. I just wish there was a way to make it more enjoyable.
That’s all to say, do you comrades have any tips for reading theory?
Also, what’s y’all’s opinions on union hymns? Will listening to them make me some strange syndicalist, proto fascist?
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That’s all to say, do you comrades have any tips for reading theory?
Also, what’s y’all’s opinions on union hymns? Will listening to them make me some strange syndicalist, proto fascist?
2024.05.20 08:35 JMCLtheFirst I was abandoned by my closest people and I can't seem to move on...
So this is going to be a long story, but a very intriguing one (or so my friends say). Bear with me and if you could offer some advice on what to do please share. I know I'm probably just young and naive but I feel like the pain will never stop. Like I'm going to always be held back by this particular experience.
Also sorry for any grammatical or spelling errors, English isn't my first language.
So all of this begins October of 2022 when I 18 M (at the time) moved to a new city to study film. I was lucky enough to have good grades and be so passionate about this art that it kind of felt incredible to have this new beginning. I rented a small house which I decorated with my collections and all my stuff and ended up loving every second spend in it.
I'm Not very social. Thats just a fact. I've always had my school friends and some people from other activities but none of them really felt like they understood me. No sade to them, I really love them, it's just that I know my hobbies and personality are niece and weird so we don't always see eye to eye. So I wanted to overcome my social anxiety and meet new people.
For the first semester I was all alone. Completely. Spent days upon days without leaving my house if I didn't have school and even didn't have any actual human interaction if not necessary. I didn't realise how much I was hurting myself. The Second semester, someone approached me in school and asked if I could help them with the editing for their final movie, let's call him Jacob 18 M. I already was searching for a group project to join in order to pass the class so this felt like a sweet deal. The group was Jacob and 2 girls, let's call them Ellie 18 F and Hannah 18 F.
With time we started talking about more then just the movie. I was really surprised by how many things we had in common. It was the first time someone I met liked musical theatre or (and this is gonna sound sad, please don't judge me) people didn't want me to leave whenever I approached them. They invited me to things, to their homes and after school and to trips at the beach ect. We were together almost every day. Till late at night or through it. Just the 4 of us. Felt like we could rule the world.
One day i thought Ellie was flirting with me. That was a weird feeling. I'm not very good looking and had a lot of extra weight so that was pretty much the first time but my friends told me that was the case from what I was describing. I mentioned it to Jacob and he told me something I didn't expect. He told me him and Ellie were in an open relationship and were hiding it from everyone except Hannah because of his ex who was in school with us. He also confessed he once had a crush on me and that's why he approached me in the first place. He also saw Ellie flirting with me but was ok with it due to the "rules of their relationship".
I was ok with not having a romantic relationship with Ellie. She would actually become one of the closest friends I've ever had. Or so I thought.
I actually started having a crush on Hannah. She loved some of the movies I loved. Had some of my quirks so I didn't feel ashamed around her and she started watching my favourite tv show with me. During our time together everyone (even her sister and Jacob who found out I liked her) told us that when we were together we could only see each other. As if we had a unique way of communication that nobody else could understand.
I confessed my crush and she told me she felt the same way but that there where 2 problems. First that she gets very anxious about relationships, has only ever been to one and had never kissed anyone. I assured her I wasn't going to pressure anything and I only cared for her and wanted to go on a date sometime. She replied she would like that very much. The second problem she confessed was that she was in love with Jacob for months now but nobody knew. Then everything made sense. The things she did for him and all. How she acted around him. I was surprised I didn't notice it before. She told me she wanted to get over it and proceed to ask to kiss me. We kissed a lot but nothing more that night. She went home after a few hours.
The next day Hannah she felt very distant. We wanted to go to the movies with Ellie but she disappeared all day. Late at night she asked my to go for a walk since we lived near each other. Then she told me she wanted to forget everything and last night was a mistake. That her anxiety has gotten into her and although she really wanted a relationship she couldn't be in one. The next few days we talked again and she said she didn't share any of this with Jacob to have someone in the group I could talk to if I needed help. Ellie was that for her.
It was already summer so we all went to our home towns. I missed her a ton. We stilled talked and the other 2 knew something was off with me. About 2 moths later we all went to Hannah's summerhouse for vacation. We were having fun, getting drunk and all that 19-year old stuff. One night me and Hannah were watching my show together and the time felt right so I asked to kiss her. She told me no and finally told me the truth. Turns out she liked that we flirted but after kissing me she realised it wasn't anything more. Also everyone knew except me. But after all this time I had realised I was in love with this girl. I told her if she could keep all of this to herself and she said yes.
We were all still friends. But I couldn't let go. My mental health began to decent and I started feeling like they would leave me out of stuff to go hang out alone and during October I tried talking some time away to see if they would even talk to me if I didn't. They didn't even say good morning once. I tried again and again. Jacob and Ellie said we all need to talk together. They repeated the same words. Like as if it was rehearsed. I went to "the talk".
Jacob did most of the talking. He talked about boundaries and how after everything between me and Hannah the group hasn't been the same. That after I didn't tell him what happened in our vacation they went to her and forced Hannah to do so. They where all attacking me. I heard lie after lie and all followed up with "we just need some time" and that all of this was cause they loved me.
I have discussed what they accused me of with friends, family and therapists. Although I didn't not believe it at first they all confirmed it was finding little details in my day-to-day behaviour (unrelated to all of the above) and using it to kick me out. They didn't intend of even speaking to me again. Lies feed to everyone by Jacob.
I went away. I don't know if it was for the better. But for a few weeks at first and then months later, I went back to my home town. Their lies became actual blame and I got a message from Ellie saying that we are done (just one month after trying to convince me they needed time and confessing she in particular didn't even notice anything until her boyfriend accused me).
Last time I saw any of them was in December when I gave Hannah her Christmas present. I told her I wasn't trying to get her back and I would continue to keep my distance since my first priority is what she wants and I meant that. I really do love her and would do anything for her to be happy. But I miss her a ton.
It's been 5 months since then. I stopped going to school and kept my distance from anyone related to that life. I have depression and cannot think about anything else. I heard that Jacob still talk shut about me to everyone. I have realised what has happened and have discussed this with multiple common friends who have confirmed this. Jacob is Manipulating the other 2 because of the bad relationship with his parents. He knows Ellie won't do anything with anyone else despite the "open" relationship due to her luck of confidence (so it only works for him). She need him to operate in public and to deal with her extreme anxiety so he takes advantage of that and Hannah follows him everywhere with the excuse of just being a good friend.
There are so many things I couldn't include (this is a hugh post already) about more lies and proof that they where bad for me. But I can't move on. I have seeked medical help but I just cant imagine my life in the future without them. Everything is a reminder of what we've been through. Jacob used to call me his family and when I begged him for our friendship back he didn't even care. Not on my birthday, not on new years... never. I lost all of them.
I'm back now. Not sure why, whether I'm back to continue my studies or to see if I could win them back. If I could have Hannah in my life in sime form. But I'll probably see them tomorrow morning (I randomly walked behind them today, don't think they noticed me).
Please if you have any advice share it. I just want to feel happy again. Even for a second.
TL,DR: The girl I'm in love with stopped talking to me along with my 2 best friends. I can't move on and I'm supposed to face them again in school after not seeing them for months. They all lied to me and nothing seem to help. I have depression and I dont want to feel like this for the rest of my life.
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Also sorry for any grammatical or spelling errors, English isn't my first language.
So all of this begins October of 2022 when I 18 M (at the time) moved to a new city to study film. I was lucky enough to have good grades and be so passionate about this art that it kind of felt incredible to have this new beginning. I rented a small house which I decorated with my collections and all my stuff and ended up loving every second spend in it.
I'm Not very social. Thats just a fact. I've always had my school friends and some people from other activities but none of them really felt like they understood me. No sade to them, I really love them, it's just that I know my hobbies and personality are niece and weird so we don't always see eye to eye. So I wanted to overcome my social anxiety and meet new people.
For the first semester I was all alone. Completely. Spent days upon days without leaving my house if I didn't have school and even didn't have any actual human interaction if not necessary. I didn't realise how much I was hurting myself. The Second semester, someone approached me in school and asked if I could help them with the editing for their final movie, let's call him Jacob 18 M. I already was searching for a group project to join in order to pass the class so this felt like a sweet deal. The group was Jacob and 2 girls, let's call them Ellie 18 F and Hannah 18 F.
With time we started talking about more then just the movie. I was really surprised by how many things we had in common. It was the first time someone I met liked musical theatre or (and this is gonna sound sad, please don't judge me) people didn't want me to leave whenever I approached them. They invited me to things, to their homes and after school and to trips at the beach ect. We were together almost every day. Till late at night or through it. Just the 4 of us. Felt like we could rule the world.
One day i thought Ellie was flirting with me. That was a weird feeling. I'm not very good looking and had a lot of extra weight so that was pretty much the first time but my friends told me that was the case from what I was describing. I mentioned it to Jacob and he told me something I didn't expect. He told me him and Ellie were in an open relationship and were hiding it from everyone except Hannah because of his ex who was in school with us. He also confessed he once had a crush on me and that's why he approached me in the first place. He also saw Ellie flirting with me but was ok with it due to the "rules of their relationship".
I was ok with not having a romantic relationship with Ellie. She would actually become one of the closest friends I've ever had. Or so I thought.
I actually started having a crush on Hannah. She loved some of the movies I loved. Had some of my quirks so I didn't feel ashamed around her and she started watching my favourite tv show with me. During our time together everyone (even her sister and Jacob who found out I liked her) told us that when we were together we could only see each other. As if we had a unique way of communication that nobody else could understand.
I confessed my crush and she told me she felt the same way but that there where 2 problems. First that she gets very anxious about relationships, has only ever been to one and had never kissed anyone. I assured her I wasn't going to pressure anything and I only cared for her and wanted to go on a date sometime. She replied she would like that very much. The second problem she confessed was that she was in love with Jacob for months now but nobody knew. Then everything made sense. The things she did for him and all. How she acted around him. I was surprised I didn't notice it before. She told me she wanted to get over it and proceed to ask to kiss me. We kissed a lot but nothing more that night. She went home after a few hours.
The next day Hannah she felt very distant. We wanted to go to the movies with Ellie but she disappeared all day. Late at night she asked my to go for a walk since we lived near each other. Then she told me she wanted to forget everything and last night was a mistake. That her anxiety has gotten into her and although she really wanted a relationship she couldn't be in one. The next few days we talked again and she said she didn't share any of this with Jacob to have someone in the group I could talk to if I needed help. Ellie was that for her.
It was already summer so we all went to our home towns. I missed her a ton. We stilled talked and the other 2 knew something was off with me. About 2 moths later we all went to Hannah's summerhouse for vacation. We were having fun, getting drunk and all that 19-year old stuff. One night me and Hannah were watching my show together and the time felt right so I asked to kiss her. She told me no and finally told me the truth. Turns out she liked that we flirted but after kissing me she realised it wasn't anything more. Also everyone knew except me. But after all this time I had realised I was in love with this girl. I told her if she could keep all of this to herself and she said yes.
We were all still friends. But I couldn't let go. My mental health began to decent and I started feeling like they would leave me out of stuff to go hang out alone and during October I tried talking some time away to see if they would even talk to me if I didn't. They didn't even say good morning once. I tried again and again. Jacob and Ellie said we all need to talk together. They repeated the same words. Like as if it was rehearsed. I went to "the talk".
Jacob did most of the talking. He talked about boundaries and how after everything between me and Hannah the group hasn't been the same. That after I didn't tell him what happened in our vacation they went to her and forced Hannah to do so. They where all attacking me. I heard lie after lie and all followed up with "we just need some time" and that all of this was cause they loved me.
I have discussed what they accused me of with friends, family and therapists. Although I didn't not believe it at first they all confirmed it was finding little details in my day-to-day behaviour (unrelated to all of the above) and using it to kick me out. They didn't intend of even speaking to me again. Lies feed to everyone by Jacob.
I went away. I don't know if it was for the better. But for a few weeks at first and then months later, I went back to my home town. Their lies became actual blame and I got a message from Ellie saying that we are done (just one month after trying to convince me they needed time and confessing she in particular didn't even notice anything until her boyfriend accused me).
Last time I saw any of them was in December when I gave Hannah her Christmas present. I told her I wasn't trying to get her back and I would continue to keep my distance since my first priority is what she wants and I meant that. I really do love her and would do anything for her to be happy. But I miss her a ton.
It's been 5 months since then. I stopped going to school and kept my distance from anyone related to that life. I have depression and cannot think about anything else. I heard that Jacob still talk shut about me to everyone. I have realised what has happened and have discussed this with multiple common friends who have confirmed this. Jacob is Manipulating the other 2 because of the bad relationship with his parents. He knows Ellie won't do anything with anyone else despite the "open" relationship due to her luck of confidence (so it only works for him). She need him to operate in public and to deal with her extreme anxiety so he takes advantage of that and Hannah follows him everywhere with the excuse of just being a good friend.
There are so many things I couldn't include (this is a hugh post already) about more lies and proof that they where bad for me. But I can't move on. I have seeked medical help but I just cant imagine my life in the future without them. Everything is a reminder of what we've been through. Jacob used to call me his family and when I begged him for our friendship back he didn't even care. Not on my birthday, not on new years... never. I lost all of them.
I'm back now. Not sure why, whether I'm back to continue my studies or to see if I could win them back. If I could have Hannah in my life in sime form. But I'll probably see them tomorrow morning (I randomly walked behind them today, don't think they noticed me).
Please if you have any advice share it. I just want to feel happy again. Even for a second.
TL,DR: The girl I'm in love with stopped talking to me along with my 2 best friends. I can't move on and I'm supposed to face them again in school after not seeing them for months. They all lied to me and nothing seem to help. I have depression and I dont want to feel like this for the rest of my life.
2024.05.20 08:34 nephraret Medea Sand + Donella Dayne of High Hermitage(AC)
 | Reddit Account: nephraret Discord Tag: nephraret Name and House:Medea Sand, House Dayne of High Hermitage Age: 23 Cultural Group: Dornish Appearance: A woman of average height. Medea has tanned skin and long curly black hair that reaches her waist. One of her eyes, a shade of brown so dark it looks like the night sky, and the other a soft lilac. A jagged and large scar runs from the base of her neck, across her chest, and down to her left hip. Trait: Ruthless Skill(s): Ravenmaster, Scribe, Negotiator, Schemer, Rumormonger Talent(s): Oil painting, Writing, Bird Watching, Life Drawing, Calligraphy Negative Trait(s): n/a Starting Title(s): Medea Starting Location: High Hermitage Alternate Characters: Donella Dayne submitted by nephraret to ITRPCommunity [link] [comments] AC Name and House: Donella Dayne of High Hermitage Age: 57 Cultural Group: Dornish Appearance: A short, thin old woman with thin wispy black hair. Dark eyes and olive skin. Trait: Charismatic Skill(s): Scholar, Avaricious, Medic Talent(s): Embroidery, keeping her family together Negative Trait(s): Elderly, Blind Starting Title(s): Lady of High Hermitage Starting Location: High Hermitage Alternate Characters: n/a Timeline 2AC: Medea is born to the Lord of High Hermitage and a Braavosi maid of the castle named Vara. Mother and daughter are given chambers in one of the lower levels of High Hermitage, at the request of Lady Donella, pregnant at the time. 4AC: An infant Medea and her mother Vara leave High Hermitage to cross the narrow sea in Pentos, where Vara’s remaining family of her brother, mother, and grandmother lived. Having remarried into a middle class merchant household, Medea’s grandmother arranged a marriage between Vara and one of the sons of her new husband. 7AC: Vara births another daughter who is named Solara. Medea, now a young child, begins being taught by a lady’s maid in the ways of etiquette. Despite being a bastard, Vara and Medea’s grandmother still intend to try to find a match for Medea that could bring wealth to their family, or at least, an heir for another. Medea quickly learns to read, rapidly becoming a voracious reader. 11AC: A young girl of nine, Medea’s studies have been going smoothly, much to the delight of Vara and Medea’s grandmother. During a warm night, a fire breaks out in the family’s home leaving Medea’s grandmother, stepfather, Vara dead. The husband of Medea’s grandmother, Medea, and Solara are left heavily injured from the fire but alive for now. After a letter arrives for the lord of High Hermitage, Donella Dayne is the one who insists upon bringing young Medea to High Hermitage to be raised among her own children. Medea is left heavily scarred from the fire, and a fear of the flames. 16AC: Donella Dayne, a woman of grace, never showed Medea and hostility for her bastard status. She allows Medea to continue schooling, and studies with the family's septa as the rest of the daughters. Meanwhile, Medea ends up spending a lot of time in the rookery of the castle, feeling a fascination with the corvids the maester so dutifully tended to. The maester minds little at the young woman’s interest and even allows her to choose a chick from a clutch of eggs to raise as her own. She names the raven chick Whimsy. 23AC Astor Dayne dies of a heart attack. Alaric Dayne succeeds him as Lord of High Hermitage. 25AC: Medea lives with her half sisters, Cymella, and Alayne, her half brothers Alaric, Castor, and Darrion, her stepmother Donella in High Hermitage. |
2024.05.20 08:32 Additional_Papaya_66 Zero Divide - The Final Conflict SECRETS
 | I decided to do some internet diving to get to the bottom of this and this seems to be the definitive guide. Tested the colors and it works so now we'll see what galena after 12 hours. submitted by Additional_Papaya_66 to SegaSaturn [link] [comments] |
2024.05.20 08:32 Wishiwasgoodatthis AITA for posting photos of me poledancing?
I am a 30F and my boyfriend is 33M. I work an office job and he is blue collar. We have been together for roughly a year with some bumps in the road already. When it's good it's amazing, he showers me with love and praises me. When it's bad, we are always on the brink of breaking up. This time our most resent fight is about my sport, poledance. I have been training poledance since 2020 and just started competing. I'm good too and won nationals for my category in my country. So because of this I post photos and videos of myself doing my sport. Me and a friend just finished a photoshoot and I am really happy about the photos. I came home and wanted to share the result with him, all happy and proud. I was met with distaste and mean words. "Thats pathetic. You are such an attentionseeker. Did you post these to Instagram? Why do you feel the need to post such sexy photos, are you that insecure?" These where the type of comments I was met with. Really hurting my feelings. Not that it should matter but the photos where in great taste. In poledance you need to have less clothing to get good grip on the pole, so a sports bra and hotpants are the usual attire. With that said I am insecure about my body and usually tries to wear more fabric if possible. Not comfortable showing ass or cleavage, so the photos were with more clothing and the vibe was softer to show the artsmanship more then the "stripper vibe".
Me and my boyfriend had discussed our next step in the relationship but now question's if I am "fit to be a mom when I obviously need the sexual attention from other men more". So am I the asshole for talking the photos and posting them online? Would it have been more tasteful to just keep them to myself? We have really hit a wall here and I need some perspective and advice.
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Me and my boyfriend had discussed our next step in the relationship but now question's if I am "fit to be a mom when I obviously need the sexual attention from other men more". So am I the asshole for talking the photos and posting them online? Would it have been more tasteful to just keep them to myself? We have really hit a wall here and I need some perspective and advice.
2024.05.20 08:31 kinky_kelso I’ve played this for years and I’ve never seen it before. What should I do???
 | Help meeeeeeee I don’t wanna make the wrong choice lol it’s for the tech guru I believe?? submitted by kinky_kelso to Sims4 [link] [comments] |
2024.05.20 08:30 thisisthewors What makes a GOOD Distractible Episode?! (discussion)
I find myself rewatching a lot of my favorite Distractible episodes. Specifically “The Bobs and the Bees” feels like the perfect episode to me. It has a creative theme, very exciting competition, and some of my favorite humor in all of the podcast.
But like, these qualities aren’t consistent in the episodes I like. I love “Hair” and “Bread” for their discussions, but they don’t have any central game. Hair doesn’t even stay consistent to its theme! Still though, I get obsessed with the cannoli bits and the teratoma jokes that I just can’t with episodes like “Philoso-NO” and “Squid Game Too”.
I love “Chess 3” and “Bob’s Confusing Words” even when there’s no real discussion elements. Yet I like these more than “Dr. Bob’s Real Boy Test” and “The Shoe Game” for a nebulous reason I can’t really describe.
Even of the tier list episodes, “Fast Food Tier List” is one of my most rewatched episodes whilst all other tier list episodes are just so inescapably boring to me.
Of course, that’s all subjective. Some of you may disagree with me on those examples. But that begs the question: what DOES make a good episode? Are there different qualities that make episodes good? What are they? And do they stay consistent throughout every episode?
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But like, these qualities aren’t consistent in the episodes I like. I love “Hair” and “Bread” for their discussions, but they don’t have any central game. Hair doesn’t even stay consistent to its theme! Still though, I get obsessed with the cannoli bits and the teratoma jokes that I just can’t with episodes like “Philoso-NO” and “Squid Game Too”.
I love “Chess 3” and “Bob’s Confusing Words” even when there’s no real discussion elements. Yet I like these more than “Dr. Bob’s Real Boy Test” and “The Shoe Game” for a nebulous reason I can’t really describe.
Even of the tier list episodes, “Fast Food Tier List” is one of my most rewatched episodes whilst all other tier list episodes are just so inescapably boring to me.
Of course, that’s all subjective. Some of you may disagree with me on those examples. But that begs the question: what DOES make a good episode? Are there different qualities that make episodes good? What are they? And do they stay consistent throughout every episode?
2024.05.20 08:28 International-End660 AITA for beating up my stepfather after he bad mouthed me infront of everyone?
Me (21) and my mother (54) haven't had the best relationship. Ever since my dad left my mom tried her hardest to find a significant other but seeing as if her only child at the moment didn't really enjoy the company of other guys. So every chance I got I spent running off her suitors, that is until one of them (let's call him leaf) stuck for the long run. Me and leaf never had an understanding, he would always try to get my mom to abandon me and it slightly started working overtime. Then leaf brought his son (we'll call him Yoko) and it all went downhill from there. My mom put all of her attention into the new kid and I felt deserted. Now granit I wasn't a good child, I took everything that benefitted me even if it was from my own mother, but I can say over the years I tried to be better for my mom so she could be happy. Fast forward a couple years or so and my mom and leaf had a kid heaven and I wasn't too opposed with since I've always wanted a little sister and like how I told myself I would be my little sister became my light in the family, til my mom and leaf had another child prince. And like all siblings of 4 hevean stuck close to me and prince stuck close to Yoko. Then I started heading down a dark path, smoking, stealing, fighting, the works. And as any mother would my mom was disappointed in me, so I tried therapy. It helped alot and my mom seen that and let me know how proud she was that I was finally growing up by taking me on a mother son trip. Leaf didn't really much approve of it since he thought I was just a bad kid that always lead to trouble. Fast forward to the present on mothers day, the morning started off like every Sunday morning for my family, kids running and playing, good soul food in the air, and 90s hip hop rnb playing on the speaker. My grandma told everybody that she was going to get a couple family members to join in the feast she had prepared so it could all be gone and then it went on from there. My cousin and her husband came into the house cheerful as ever and I was the first person she hugged because she sees me as her baby, after that she and her husband sat down on the couch and started to make conversation with my mom and leaf. My cousin then ask "So how has Trey been doing?" And my mom looks at me and then starts telling her about my grades and how I might flunk. Then leaf chimes in with no one asking "That's what happens when people treat him like a baby, maybe if he wasn't so spoiled he wouldn't act like the way he did." I didn't say anything and just walked off back to my safe haven which was my room, since the kids all thought it was fair that the oldest had his own room dealing with the adults crap. After a couple minutes my cousin ask me to come to the living room again to talk about what's been going on with my life, and I told her about how I've been a bit depressed and really wasn't feeling like the best. My mom tried her best to lift my spirits up but her way was always tough love, I told her that I'm slowly getting there because of my girlfriend who has saved me from wanting to end it early. She told me how that was amazing and that she hoped to meet her one day, and yet again leaf decided to butt in on the conversation. "That's probably why he's failing because of that lil b-word he's talking to." I told him to respectfully stay out of the conversation and he stood up saying "or what". My mom tried to get between us and break up the potential fight telling us to calm down. My stepfather sits back down and continues to talk bad about me and my life infront of my cousin, and I could already tell my cousin was on the verge of hitting him so I told him to shut up for his safety. He gets up again and pushes me on the wall and tells me to say shut up again, so I punched him in the face. Everybody then gets up and tries to break up the fight but my stepfather is already on the floor. Then my mother decides to try beating me up because of me beating on her boyfriend, me being the mommas boy I am of course I didn't hit back so I just kinda let it happen. She tells me I'm a horrible son and that she wishes she never had me and how I should've been aborted. Me being shocked I couldn't do anything but pack my things and I left to go live with my grandpa, my mom then sends me a text message about how I was dead to her and how she wants nothing to do with me. I was heart broken and devastated. I didn't know what to do. But then sum encouraging words from my uncles lifted my spirits up a bit. I still wish I could tell my mom how much she means to me even after she called me a mistake and tell the kids that their big brother hasn't forgotten about them. But most of all I wish I could've punched on my stepfather a little more. AITA?
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2024.05.20 08:27 Majima__bruh I’m hopelessly devoted to my best friend and I don’t know what to do anymore.
I’ve met this lady her name is A a year ago. And we both really hit it off as like friends. But I still remember the first time I saw her walk into class I was like damn “she’s really pretty”. We continue talking and one day I saw her talking to a guy named M which I was like okay and then they were kinda a thing with each other. But suddenly M called things off suddenly and A was devastated and I tried my best to comfort her during those times.
But as time went on I noticed these feelings which I haven’t had in years for someone. That’s when it hit me I was in love with her. At first I was like “fuck she’s my best friend. Why must this happen to me.” But I ignored them as much as I could. Then we started seeing each other again as classes were back in session and when I saw her that’s when it really really hit me that I was in love with A. But I kept those feelings a secret but during this time she was talking to another guy let’s say N but while they were talking A would tell me that she still wanted to be with M. Which later A broke things off with N.
That’s when I told my other friends that I had feelings for A which they were supportive and they saw us good together and that there might be a chance. Then one day A and I were texting and A says “I’ve never said this but I love M.” When I read those text I felt my whole world crush around me. And from there my friend would catch A looking at me and always trying to be by my side to the point that they thought A and I were together.
But as of recently A and M started texting each other again and now they follow each other on their socials (they weren’t doing that before). So now I don’t know what to do anymore and I don’t know how much longer I can hide these feelings. It hurts too much now to bear these feelings as time continues to pass. What do I do if there is anything I can do at this point.
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But as time went on I noticed these feelings which I haven’t had in years for someone. That’s when it hit me I was in love with her. At first I was like “fuck she’s my best friend. Why must this happen to me.” But I ignored them as much as I could. Then we started seeing each other again as classes were back in session and when I saw her that’s when it really really hit me that I was in love with A. But I kept those feelings a secret but during this time she was talking to another guy let’s say N but while they were talking A would tell me that she still wanted to be with M. Which later A broke things off with N.
That’s when I told my other friends that I had feelings for A which they were supportive and they saw us good together and that there might be a chance. Then one day A and I were texting and A says “I’ve never said this but I love M.” When I read those text I felt my whole world crush around me. And from there my friend would catch A looking at me and always trying to be by my side to the point that they thought A and I were together.
But as of recently A and M started texting each other again and now they follow each other on their socials (they weren’t doing that before). So now I don’t know what to do anymore and I don’t know how much longer I can hide these feelings. It hurts too much now to bear these feelings as time continues to pass. What do I do if there is anything I can do at this point.
2024.05.20 08:25 Stage-Piercing727 Best Cheap Automatic Guns
 | submitted by Stage-Piercing727 to u/Stage-Piercing727 [link] [comments] https://preview.redd.it/8p15mz0xyi1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=76bb7d6708220ce97a8cbc717c97d5119fdb1172 Looking for a great deal on automatic guns without breaking the bank? Look no further! We've put together a roundup of the cheapest automatic guns on the market, so you can get your hands on a high-quality gun without emptying your wallet. In this article, you'll find our top picks for affordable automatic guns, along with a detailed analysis of each gun's features, performance, and overall value. By the end of this roundup, you'll have all the information you need to make an informed decision on which cheap automatic gun is right for you. The Top 7 Best Cheap Automatic Guns
Reviews🔗Authentic Toy Metal Water Gunhttps://preview.redd.it/c61k71pxyi1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=05d07654ea4e380ca0957f15d172b65e968402dc I recently stumbled upon the Toy Uzi Machine Gun, and let me tell you, it certainly caught my attention. At first glance, it looked like a cool, high-powered toy gun but as I took it out of the box, I found it to be quite different from what was advertised. Instead of a high-powered machine gun, it was just a noise-making toy. Despite this initial disappointment, once I got it into my son's hands, it became an instant hit. The toy made a ton of noise and was incredibly fun for him to play with. We were surprised by how entertaining it was, considering its simplicity. The Uzi Bb Guns really managed to capture the essence of a noisy water gun. The highlights of this toy are its ease of use and the fun that comes with its unique design. However, not everyone seems to be happy with what it actually delivers. Some customers have reported receiving products that weren't what was advertised. We hope the company addresses these concerns moving forward, as it's definitely an amusing toy in the hands of a child. Overall, it's a good choice if you want something a bit different that still provides some fun. 🔗Adventurous Military Mission Machine Gun Toy for Kidshttps://preview.redd.it/wbtura5yyi1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=9b8ee1cb2cc35140d3f7d1188d98ab98e2cda27d I recently had a chance to try out this Gun Toys for Boys Combat Military Mission Machine Gun Toy, and it was quite an experience! The first thing I noticed was the awesome LED flashing lights and sound effects it comes equipped with. It's not your ordinary toy gun – it's a fully immersive military mission toy that can keep your kid entertained for hours! In my hands, the toy felt sturdy and well-made, which is always a good sign. The scope for aiming and the gun's stand to keep it steady were thoughtful additions to the toy. But let's be honest, the highlight of this toy gun is the rotating bullet feature – it just adds that extra oomph to the playtime! Now, as much as I enjoyed playing with this Gun Toys for Boys Combat Military Mission Machine Gun Toy, I could see that it might not be for everyone. For parents who are concerned about safety or prefer toys that are more low-key, this toy gun might be a bit too intense. And while it's easy to assemble, some kids might find it a bit challenging to put together on their own. All in all, this Gun Toys for Boys Combat Military Mission Machine Gun Toy is a fascinating addition to any kid's toy collection. It's perfect for those who love an adventure and are looking for something a bit more daring. 🔗WWII Era Walther P.38 Replica Pistol by Denixhttps://preview.redd.it/fwvgbmjyyi1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=0ea0c178e6716707dac2de5ca19c733841734f41 I recently got my hands on the Denix Replicas 1081 Walther P. 38 Automatic Pistol and I have to say, it's a real treat for history enthusiasts! The detailed recreation of this iconic WWII weapon is impressive, and it's not just for show. It's heavier than one might expect, which gives it a solid feel in the hand. The pistol-like click of the slide and the smoothness of the mechanism make it a joy to handle, even if it's not fireable. However, there are some minor drawbacks, like the fact that the slide doesn't lock back and the magazine can't be removed. But considering this is a replica for display purposes rather than practical use, it's not much of a hindrance. It's a conversation starter and a great way to add a piece of history to your collection. 🔗Nickel Finish Smith and Wesson 1869 Army Revolver Replicahttps://preview.redd.it/bodiz0wyyi1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=f0208f12a4164896e7e2d9d1eca362d676accfc1 As someone who's always been fascinated by the era of the Old West, I couldn't resist trying out this non-firing replica of the 1869 Army Revolver. Featuring a sleek nickel silver finish, this replica brought me back to the iconic "Cowboy" days. Handling the replica felt like holding a piece of history, with the original's "single action" and "top break" mechanisms. It even had the added bonus of being a non-firing model, which meant I didn't have to worry about accidentally accidentally discharging it. However, the size and weight of the replica were a bit more challenging to deal with, given that it's a faithful replica of the original. Despite this, I appreciated the fact that it gave me a better understanding of the real gun without the need to purchase one. All in all, the Denix 1869 Army Revolver replica is a solid choice for anyone looking to step into the boots of a "Cowboy" in the Old West. Just be prepared to handle its size and weight! 🔗Realistic Orange-Green AK47 Plastic Gun for Kids and Adultshttps://preview.redd.it/rg8gtjazyi1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=140252e37d437c318131ca5d46379e3066696be2 My experience with this pretend AK47 Machine Gun was nothing short of entertaining. The vibrant orange and green colors definitely added a fun touch to any activity, whether it was for a party or just plain old giggles. It was easy to grip and felt lightweight, making it perfect for kids to play with. One of the standout features of this gun was the shooting sound it made while the trigger was engaged. It was a fun addition to the overall experience and added that extra element of excitement. However, I did notice that the length of the gun was shorter than the real thing, which might be a slight inconvenience for some users. When it comes to taking care of it, I found the hand-washing instructions to be straightforward and easy to follow. The cold water and mild soap combo seemed effective in maintaining its appearance. Overall, this pretend AK47 Machine Gun provided a lot of fun and entertainment for both kids and adults. With its vivid colors, exciting sound effects, and easy-to-handle design, it definitely stands out as a popular choice for dress-up activities and playtime. 🔗Safe Outdoor Toy BB Gun for Kidshttps://preview.redd.it/5oz7finzyi1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=f41ab0c91974a2042bcec5f74d1b9d75362d94c4 I recently got my hands on the latest Electronic Rifle Bolt Action from LatestBuy, and let me tell you, it's a whole lot of fun for kids aged 5 and above. This outdoor toy rifle comes with a real gun sound and a bolt action feature that makes it a perfect choice for young hunters. One of the standout features is the realistic sound it produces, making it an exciting addition to outdoor games. However, the bolt action seemed a bit flimsy, so I would recommend it for smaller kids who can be a bit gentler when using it. Overall, it's a cool toy that can provide hours of enjoyment for little ones. But, be prepared for some inevitable wear-and-tear because that's just part of the adventure. 🔗Affordable Large-Scale US-Made Military Accessorieshttps://preview.redd.it/xczbq670zi1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=2b517281b09cb9d6bb3c3292d28e24f01b3a265c As someone who's always enjoyed collecting army men, I was excited to try out these BMC Classic MPC Machine Guns in black and silver gray. The size of the weapons, approximately 3 inches long, allows for a perfect balance between detail and playability, which has been an important aspect for me in any army men set I've had. The set includes 8 black and 8 silver gray M2 Browning. 50 Caliber Air-cooled Machine Guns with removable ammo and mounted on sturdy tripods. It's a nice touch that the ammo is removable, as it adds an extra level of customization to the toys. The black and silver grey colors give the set a distinctive look that stands out from other army men sets I've seen. However, there could be some room for improvement. The set could benefit from a more sturdy packaging, like a plastic case instead of a polybag with an insert card. This would help protect the guns during transportation and storage, making them a better long-term investment. Additionally, while the size is great for play, it might hinder their display capabilities, as they may not fit perfectly on shelves or display cases. Overall, these MPC Machine Guns have been a fun addition to my collection and serve as a great example of how well-designed, detailed, and customizable army men can be. Buyer's GuideWhen looking for a cheap automatic gun, there are several factors to consider to ensure that you get the best value for your money. Remember, the price of a gun should not be the only determining factor in your decision.1. PurposeFirstly, you need to identify the primary purpose of acquiring an automatic gun. Is it for self-defense, target practice, or maybe even hunting? Your purpose will dictate your choice of firearm, and help determine if you'll need specific features and calibers. https://preview.redd.it/yclkkin0zi1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=47926e98f552ebe63ad5f6a87511f047d5851842 2. CaliberConsiderations for the caliber of the automatic gun are crucial. Lighter calibers such as. 22 LR or. 380 ACP are commonly preferred for their low recoil and cost-effectiveness. However, higher-caliber guns like. 38 Special or 9mm may provide better stopping power.3. CapacityThe capacity of the gun's magazine plays a significant role in its performance. Higher-capacity magazines mean fewer trips to the range or fewer reloads in the field. While larger capacity may be your preference, it is essential to consider the ease of loading and unloading.4. Action TypeAutomatic guns primarily come in two types of actions: blowback and recoil-operated. Blowback guns are cheaper and easier to maintain, while recoil-operated guns offer better reliability and are generally more accurate. Factors such as durability, ease of use, and personal preference should guide your decision. https://preview.redd.it/grc6n451zi1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=2ecafbcd516c8576928ab6a4c3d1b70d972b90b3 5. Brand ReputationWhile the price of a gun is a factor, it should not be the only consideration. It is crucial to choose a brand with a strong reputation, as it signifies quality and reliability. Researching brands with a proven track record in manufacturing firearms can be a helpful starting point.6. After-Sales SupportAsk about after-sales support. It is imperative to know that you can easily obtain replacement parts, repair services, or even additional magazines, should the need arise.7. Legal and Safety RegulationsLastly, ensure that the automatic gun you choose complies with all local, state, and federal laws. Additionally, adhere to proper safety guidelines and always store firearms securely, especially in the presence of children. https://preview.redd.it/pcz07si1zi1d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=c507d3aaa5248a4829eddeceac6ed3c0e0f00c86 Final WordChoosing a cheap automatic gun may seem like a daunting task. 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2024.05.20 08:25 Constant_Season1027 Developmentally normal?
My daughter turned 2 in February. She was talking at a very early age, could sing the full ABC’s and count to 20 (mostly) around 1.5 and is now practically…reading?? We love reading together and at around 2 she started pointing at the letters on the page rather than the pictures and asking “what’s dat say?” So I would sound it out for her and she can now read simple words like Boo, Mama and Cat. She can now count to 30, memorizes just about every song and is even making up her own, with rhymes! Literally everything she sees or hears she asks “what’s that?” And I explain to her, and the next time we encounter it she explains it back to me verbatim. It’s kind of blowing me away. Yesterday after ballet class instead of saying “good job” I told her “well done! Do you know what that means? That means good job!” And for two days now after I finish a task she says “well done! That means good job!” She has also started describing her dreams to me in detail every morning. Now, my family has told me I was a very clever kid. But I didn’t know two-year-olds could practically read or count to 30 or carry on full conversations using big words. I should mention she is not in daycare. Does this seem normal? I had hoped she’d stay a baby for longer 😭
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2024.05.20 08:25 adulting4kids Genres Examples
This is a regular post that's scheduled to pop up and receive different types of writing as response. Since a few of these tools are incredibly time consuming I have them on rotation for new members and those who have missed them. I have started working on responses for examples but as busy as I have been and struggling, I again turned to ChatGPT and I am again, totally excited to see these NOT compete with the human writer in creativity.
So check out the results this week and let me know your thoughts!
It's all in fun and let's prove our worth with better!
🎄⛄🎁🎄⛄🎄🎄⛄⛄🎄🎁⛄⛄🎄🎄⛄🎄🎄🎄🎄🎁🎄🎁⛄🎄🎄🎄⛄🎄🎄⛄⛄ original post below followed by ChatGPT re
We have so many different ways to express our appreciation for things. This series is an expensive list of the subgenres you can use as a writer to describe the projects you are working with.
Respond with anything you think might be missing, or comments on whatever you have that may fit one, or more, of these awesome definitions of subgenres!
This is supposed to be fun, so no rude Dolphin hate!
Prompt 1: Ergodic Literature
Title: The Maze of Whispers
In a dimly lit room, there sat an old man named Professor Bartholomew, surrounded by books that seemed to teeter on the edge of chaos. He was known for his eccentricities and fascination with ancient tomes. The assignment for the day was a peculiar one - ergodic literature. He urged us to create a narrative that required effort beyond typical reading.
I closed my eyes, picturing a world where whispers held the secrets of existence. My protagonist, Lydia, stumbled upon an old, tattered book bound with a lock of silver. As she flipped through the pages, the words whispered to her in faint echoes, inviting her deeper into their labyrinthine secrets.
Lydia soon realized that reading wasn't enough; she had to engage with the text physically. The words wove a path, guiding her through an intricate maze of passages that twisted and turned with each decision. Every choice she made altered the narrative, leading to different outcomes, each branching into new, uncharted territories.
The book's world was alive, responding to Lydia's touch, her emotions, her doubts, and her courage. It demanded her presence, her active participation, pushing her beyond the boundaries of passive reading. The more she interacted, the more the story revealed its enigmatic nature, challenging her perception of reality.
As Lydia ventured deeper, the whispers intensified. They weren't just words anymore; they were living entities, shaping the very essence of her being. She found herself in a struggle to escape the maze of whispers that threatened to consume her entirely.
In the end, she discovered that the book was a reflection of her own soul, a manifestation of her inner struggles and desires. To break free, Lydia had to confront her fears and make peace with the cacophony of whispers that echoed within her mind.
The story unfolded as a journey of self-discovery, where the reader became an active participant, navigating the maze alongside Lydia, feeling the weight of each decision and experiencing the consequences firsthand.
Professor Bartholomew applauded the class for their imaginative takes on ergodic literature, emphasizing how our narratives required readers to engage beyond the surface, encouraging a deeper level of interaction with the text. The assignment opened doors to a realm where the act of reading transcended mere observation, transforming into a collaborative journey between the author, the characters, and the reader.
This exercise challenged my perceptions of storytelling, igniting a newfound appreciation for the intricate dance between the written word and the reader's participation, leaving me eager to explore more unconventional narrative styles in the future.
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So check out the results this week and let me know your thoughts!
It's all in fun and let's prove our worth with better!
🎄⛄🎁🎄⛄🎄🎄⛄⛄🎄🎁⛄⛄🎄🎄⛄🎄🎄🎄🎄🎁🎄🎁⛄🎄🎄🎄⛄🎄🎄⛄⛄ original post below followed by ChatGPT re
We have so many different ways to express our appreciation for things. This series is an expensive list of the subgenres you can use as a writer to describe the projects you are working with.
Respond with anything you think might be missing, or comments on whatever you have that may fit one, or more, of these awesome definitions of subgenres!
This is supposed to be fun, so no rude Dolphin hate!
- Ergodic Literature: Requires effort from the reader beyond typical reading, often involving non-linear narratives or physical interaction with the book.
- Bildungsroman: A novel that focuses on the psychological and moral growth of the protagonist from youth to adulthood.
- Eco-Horror: Blends elements of horror and environmental issues, often featuring nature as a malevolent force.
- Biopunk: Explores the impact of biotechnology, genetic engineering, and biometrics on society.
- Cli-Fi (Climate Fiction): Focuses on climate change and its effects on the environment and humanity.
- Chick Lit Noir: Merges elements of women's fiction, mystery, and noir, typically featuring a female protagonist.
- Solarpunk: Envisions a future where renewable energy and sustainable living practices prevail.
- Flintlock Fantasy: Features technology equivalent to the flintlock firearm era in a fantasy setting.
- Transrealism: Blurs the line between reality and fiction, often incorporating real-life events and characters.
- Splatstick: Combines slapstick comedy with elements of horror, often involving exaggerated and gory violence.
- Crunchy Noir: A subversion of traditional noir with added elements of comedy and irreverence.
- Kaiju Erotica: Involves giant monsters (kaiju) in explicit or erotic contexts.
- Gastrofiction: Focuses on food and culinary experiences as a central theme in the narrative.
- Biopunk: Explores the societal implications of biotechnology, genetic engineering, and biometrics.
- Dieselpunk: Set in a world where diesel-based technology is prevalent, often in an alternate history.
- Bugpunk: Blends steampunk aesthetics with insect-inspired technology.
- Rural Noir: Noir fiction set in rural or small-town environments, often exploring dark themes.
- Hopepunk: Emphasizes hope, optimism, and resilience in the face of adversity.
- Mannerpunk: A subgenre of fantasy that focuses on manners, social hierarchies, and etiquette.
- Clockpunk: Features clockwork mechanisms and Renaissance-era technology in a fantasy setting.
- Atompunk: Centers around the aesthetics and technology inspired by the Atomic Age and mid-20th century.
- Dreadpunk: A subgenre of gothic horror that emphasizes a sense of dread and unease.
- Decopunk: Set in the Art Deco era, often with a focus on sleek design and glamour.
- Dying Earth Subgenre: Takes place in the last days of a dying world, often with a sense of decay and decline.
- Mannerpunk: Focuses on manners, social structures, and etiquette in a fantastical setting.
- Slipstream: Blurs the boundaries between mainstream fiction and speculative fiction.
- Cattlepunk: A western-inspired subgenre with advanced technology and cattle-centric themes.
- Oceanpunk: Features maritime and underwater settings with a focus on oceanic technology.
- Dolphin Poetry: Poetry inspired by or featuring dolphins as a prominent theme.
- Cat Poetry: Poetry centered around cats as a significant subject.
Prompt 1: Ergodic Literature
Title: The Maze of Whispers
In a dimly lit room, there sat an old man named Professor Bartholomew, surrounded by books that seemed to teeter on the edge of chaos. He was known for his eccentricities and fascination with ancient tomes. The assignment for the day was a peculiar one - ergodic literature. He urged us to create a narrative that required effort beyond typical reading.
I closed my eyes, picturing a world where whispers held the secrets of existence. My protagonist, Lydia, stumbled upon an old, tattered book bound with a lock of silver. As she flipped through the pages, the words whispered to her in faint echoes, inviting her deeper into their labyrinthine secrets.
Lydia soon realized that reading wasn't enough; she had to engage with the text physically. The words wove a path, guiding her through an intricate maze of passages that twisted and turned with each decision. Every choice she made altered the narrative, leading to different outcomes, each branching into new, uncharted territories.
The book's world was alive, responding to Lydia's touch, her emotions, her doubts, and her courage. It demanded her presence, her active participation, pushing her beyond the boundaries of passive reading. The more she interacted, the more the story revealed its enigmatic nature, challenging her perception of reality.
As Lydia ventured deeper, the whispers intensified. They weren't just words anymore; they were living entities, shaping the very essence of her being. She found herself in a struggle to escape the maze of whispers that threatened to consume her entirely.
In the end, she discovered that the book was a reflection of her own soul, a manifestation of her inner struggles and desires. To break free, Lydia had to confront her fears and make peace with the cacophony of whispers that echoed within her mind.
The story unfolded as a journey of self-discovery, where the reader became an active participant, navigating the maze alongside Lydia, feeling the weight of each decision and experiencing the consequences firsthand.
Professor Bartholomew applauded the class for their imaginative takes on ergodic literature, emphasizing how our narratives required readers to engage beyond the surface, encouraging a deeper level of interaction with the text. The assignment opened doors to a realm where the act of reading transcended mere observation, transforming into a collaborative journey between the author, the characters, and the reader.
This exercise challenged my perceptions of storytelling, igniting a newfound appreciation for the intricate dance between the written word and the reader's participation, leaving me eager to explore more unconventional narrative styles in the future.
2024.05.20 08:21 Janneman96 Help me decide which feat I should pick first
I've been playing a campaign monthly since 2019, we started at level 1. We just leveled up to level 7 which made me think about what feat I will pick at level 8. This is the mechanical side of my character:
Hill dwarf, level 7 death domain cleric. 20 wis, 19 con, 13 dex, 12 int, 11 str, 10 cha. Has skill expert, chose perception as expertise and insight as proficiency. Has the soldier background. I have a pearl of power, sending stone, scale mail and a shield, totalling 17 ac. I'm at 85 hp. I have about 400 gp, which I will probably buy some spell components from soon. I usually don't use my weapons because I have a far greater chance to succeed with my spells. As cantrips I chose Thaumaturgy, Chill Touch, Toll the Dead, Word of Radiance and Sacred Flame. My party has 2 frontliners, 2 flexible(including me) and 2 backliners. I have 25 movement speed, one party member has 35 and the others have 30, so I do slow down most of our travel a little bit.
Two feats are very interesting to me and I'm trying to decide which one I should take at level 8 and which one at level 12. The two feats are squat nimbleness(dex) and resilient(con). It will probably take years to level up to level 12. Also, the dm runs the world as-is and does not fudge. Which means the feat choice has quite the impact and I feel like they're both very useful.
Squat Nimblenes (dex) would provide me with +1 ac, +5 movement, +4/5 acrobatics, advantage on escaping grapple, +1 initiative, +1 on dex saves which are also common outside of combat, +1 on weapon attacks & damage.
Resilient (con) would provide me with +8/9/10/11 hp, +4/5 con save on failed long rests which are common, drinking alcohol, monster effects, concentration save to make mainly these spells reliable: bane, bless, shield of faith, hold person, bestow curse, incite greed, spirit guardians, banishment, holy weapon, summon celestial.
I'll probably pick one at level 8 and the other at level 12. Can you help me decide which one I should pick first?
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Hill dwarf, level 7 death domain cleric. 20 wis, 19 con, 13 dex, 12 int, 11 str, 10 cha. Has skill expert, chose perception as expertise and insight as proficiency. Has the soldier background. I have a pearl of power, sending stone, scale mail and a shield, totalling 17 ac. I'm at 85 hp. I have about 400 gp, which I will probably buy some spell components from soon. I usually don't use my weapons because I have a far greater chance to succeed with my spells. As cantrips I chose Thaumaturgy, Chill Touch, Toll the Dead, Word of Radiance and Sacred Flame. My party has 2 frontliners, 2 flexible(including me) and 2 backliners. I have 25 movement speed, one party member has 35 and the others have 30, so I do slow down most of our travel a little bit.
Two feats are very interesting to me and I'm trying to decide which one I should take at level 8 and which one at level 12. The two feats are squat nimbleness(dex) and resilient(con). It will probably take years to level up to level 12. Also, the dm runs the world as-is and does not fudge. Which means the feat choice has quite the impact and I feel like they're both very useful.
Squat Nimblenes (dex) would provide me with +1 ac, +5 movement, +4/5 acrobatics, advantage on escaping grapple, +1 initiative, +1 on dex saves which are also common outside of combat, +1 on weapon attacks & damage.
Resilient (con) would provide me with +8/9/10/11 hp, +4/5 con save on failed long rests which are common, drinking alcohol, monster effects, concentration save to make mainly these spells reliable: bane, bless, shield of faith, hold person, bestow curse, incite greed, spirit guardians, banishment, holy weapon, summon celestial.
I'll probably pick one at level 8 and the other at level 12. Can you help me decide which one I should pick first?
2024.05.20 08:19 Novel_Yak9565 My boyfriends friend says he hates N-words during games and I dont know what to do
So to give some background, I've (20F) known his friend since first grade and we were friends throughout elementary to the beginning of high school. We were on the same bowling team and had the same friend group, which is where I'm at Frankie (20M) (fake name used). Now we fell out of touch during COVID and lost contact. A few months ago I went onto a dating app and matched with Frankie and we started dating right away. I was very happy and surprised that he was still in contact with Kevin (19M)(fake name) and then got back in touch with Kevin. Frankie and I Called and texted every single day and hung out Every chance we got, especially on Discord if we couldn't find time physically. This is where we get into the story. Now Frankie wasn't supposed to let me join their call or game whatever you call it but I wanted to watch him play his games while he was with his friends to see what it's like. He didn't put up a fight about it and said OK, and we started to call while he was playing games with his friends. Then out of nowhere, Kevin starts saying I hate N-word hard r over and over and over again. Going on for almost 40 minutes. Frankie was very apologetic and asked if I wanted to leave the call and I said no, It's fine. This is up to you to talk to him about because I'm not supposed to be on this call. He informed me that they Have talked to him about this before and he just doesn't care. Kevin knows that Frankie is dating me and is plainly saying this in front of Frankie. I was also hurt that Frankie didn't say anything to him while it happened and also didn't bring up how hurtful It was when he was dating someone that is black. Kevin is also just not a nice friend at all and is always standing up The friend group and Frankie personally too. I don't know how to bring this up to my boyfriend without crying or giving him an ultimatum because this hurts deeply. What do I do? Am I the asshole if I tell him to stop being friends with him?
(Side note: I know that people say some very racist stuff during games but it was a game where it can only be your friends if they have an invite with the voice proximity thing. So I know it was him and nobody else was saying it or laughing. I also have only heard nothing but bad about him since that incident i.e him cheating on his girlfriend, leaving his mom alone for the holidays to fuck some random girl, just blowing the guys off and going Mia for hours just to say he wasn't feeling it. He was never like this before (to my knowledge) and was just a sweetheart and would go out of his way for people. Now he can barely give anybody the time except for his friend group up at his college)
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(Side note: I know that people say some very racist stuff during games but it was a game where it can only be your friends if they have an invite with the voice proximity thing. So I know it was him and nobody else was saying it or laughing. I also have only heard nothing but bad about him since that incident i.e him cheating on his girlfriend, leaving his mom alone for the holidays to fuck some random girl, just blowing the guys off and going Mia for hours just to say he wasn't feeling it. He was never like this before (to my knowledge) and was just a sweetheart and would go out of his way for people. Now he can barely give anybody the time except for his friend group up at his college)