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2011.12.11 06:12 wallaceofspades Fortnite: Save The World

The developer supported, community run subreddit dedicated to Fortnite: Save the World from Epic Games. Build forts, co-op, kill monsters, save the day, bacon.
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2017.02.15 18:43 Downvote_the_Facts Maps of Memeing

Welcome to the official subreddit for Jordan Peterson memes.
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2013.03.03 17:03 NanoCube Albion Online

Subreddit of Albion Online, a full-loot sandbox MMORPG published by Sandbox Interactive. Here you can find all things related to Albion Online, from official news and guides to memes.
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2024.05.20 09:22 Icy-Lingonberry-2574 Translation & Release Status Update/Discussion - May 19

This is the weekly translation status update thread. Use this thread to discuss translation news, issues, titles you're looking forward to, etc.
Note: This is simply a mirror from 4chan's weekly thread on the /jp/ board. All credit goes to the user VNTS there. Entries in Bold have had changes since last week
Fan Translations
Official work
MangaGamer
JAST
Age titles
Sekai/Denpa
VisualArts
Nekonyan
PQube
Dualtail
Frontwing
Fakku
Saikey Studios (mix of official/unofficial)
HyoukanOpera
MAGES. GAMES
Voltage Inc.
Aksys
B-cluster
MediBang Inc.-
Kamitsubaki Studio
Dayu Zixun
Shiravune
Dramatic Create
Kagura Games
Aniplex
Spike Chunsoft
Love Lab
DLsite
Idea Factory
CRAFTWORK
Harukaze
Moonchime
Alice In Dissonance
G-mode
HyoukanOpera
MiKandi Japan
PRODUCTION PENCIL
072 Project
F&C
Eroge Japan
Tensei Games
GRAVITY GAME ARISE
Dark [Word I can't say due to Automod deleting my posts:(]
MintLip
Cherry Kiss
**Umesoft
Other
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2024.05.20 09:07 tub-of-sour-cream i know my life is far from over but i feel like im falling apart

im 19 and in my second semester of comm college.
I wanna go to art school and study animation, i love art so so much. I wanted to apply to art school in my senior year of highschool but i didnt come up with a portfolio i was proud of to submit to schools with, so i told myself id take a "gap year" by going to cc and working on it, seeing what seemed plausible from there. I havent done anything. and worse then that, i fell into some a depression right as my second semester started. my first semester, i got all As. my second, im literally not going to pass a single class because i couldnt bring myself to do anything. if i wasnt stressed out by one thing, it was another, and its a vicious cycle of me being overwhelmed and embarrassed of myself and intimidated by everything i had to do. i kept telling myself and my advisors i would and i still couldnt bring myself to. i feel so useless and stupid and i dont know whats wrong with me. i know ive been through some bad stuff but it cant seriously have been bad enough to warrant this kind of incompetence??
and i think the most frustrating part is that this isnt the first time. its not the first time ive gotten myself excited at the thought of a new opportunity and genuinely WANTED to work towards it and ended up falling into some kind of pit ive always had to barely climb my way out of. its happened multiple times since middle school and i always mourn who or what i couldve been if i was more functional. i know im not stupid, far from it, but god i feel so stupid when im at a low like this. i cant ever seem to learn my damn lesson and i dont know what my problem is. all i know is that i dont wanna keep living like this. i hate this. its not that i dont wanna live, thankfully. mostly, i like who i am, who i can be as a person, what im capable of. but this feels. so pathetic.
i dont know what im gonna do now. so many deadlines for certain schools have passed, so many deadlines for certain scholarships have passed, things i know i couldve been at the very least a solid competitor for if i had put my best foot forward, but i never can. my options are so limited now. i got accepted to an animation program in LA, but the deposit is due by the end of this month and i dont think its reasonable for me to go. my parents keep saying "if its what you want to do, go for it" in attempt to be supportive but i dont wanna go $300,000 in debt for art school for an industry that is in shambles because of passion. i know pursuing art already is a gamble, and i want to have faith, but i dont know about "insane student loan debt" faith, even with whatever financial aid they could offer me. what about housing?? id have nowhere to be! even more money!
even if i did make that work, i wouldnt be able to bring my 8yo dog with me without being the worst owner ever. i know that sounds dumb on paper but shes everything to me, shes the reason i kept going after all these stupid depressive pits, and genuinely going away for 4 years might actually haunt me for the rest of my life. i get emotional just thinking about how shes getting older. i just dont think i can handle that heartache. what if i did manage to somehow get a place for myself, but then i just had to work all the time i wasnt studying??? she'd be alone and itd be so unfair for her and id feel awful but id feel awful without her anyways-- but i really really want to study animation in california.. i dunno.
my safe option was a school in the city i go to that has a decent enough program, and i applied, but for some reason i got notified my app was considered incomplete because my damn hs transcript didnt get through to them and it took like a month to confirm it was submitted afterwards. now, ive reached out to their admissions about the status of my app, made multiple emails and calls, and i cant get ahold of anyone who can help me and im so so scared. if i at least dont have this as an option, i literally dont know what im going to do. im so scared. the only other school i am confident ican apply to still and get into is still an art school in cali with rolling admissions, but id still have to grapple with the tuition/housing situation and i just dont know if ill be able to figure something out. i feel like a failure with nothing to show for myself.
so now im failing basically a whole semester of my classes, have no idea what the hell im gonna do for next semester, and the stress and anxiety is only multiplying exponentially, i keep stress eating and its weighing on my mind even more because ive been trying to lose weight, and have made good progress, but i keep hitting this damn plateau and its just another thing on top thats making me feel worse about myself.
i feel so mediocre. i feel like wasted potential. i know im smart and have strong ambitions but i have nothing to prove that. i just want to feel good about myself, get a job, not feel exhausted all the damn time regardless of how much i sleep, feel good enough to draw what i love consistently enough, not eat away the feelings of my stress. i want to create and learn so so much. i want to feel refreshed and love my life and i know i can get there but it feels so out of reach. im so tired of being like this.
i dont even know what i can do going forward to get myself out of this. none of my friends know just how bad i have it right now and honestly im too ashamed to admit it. im probably going to send this to my counselors, see if i can take at least some of these classes during the summer or something, but i have genuinely no idea what is going to happen with me and im so terrified that i feel eternally paralyzed. i cant even taken my damn daily vitamins. its almost like nothing even feels real to me anymore, im just existing.
at the very least, ive asked various friends of mine to hold myself accountable for going to the doctor tomorrow. i cant and dont want to live like this anymore. i feel stupid and i need help. it wouldnt even be the first time ive tried but i guess im gonna have to be serious about it this time because even if things works out, no way i wanna fumble art school and what i care about. im just so scared of everything right now. i dont know what im gonna do. i dont know what i can do. hell, all of this is just my worries about my work and myself and doesnt even scrape the surface of family troubles. i feel like im drowning and i need to apologize to every professor and counselor that has had a shred of patience with me. i just want things to get better, to not feel like im somehow broken or incompetent on a level other people aren't. i need help :(
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2024.05.20 09:04 Competitive_Tea_436 Aitah to cuss out our uncle's wife at our cousin's graduation party?

My partner ( C, male, 30s) and I ( HV, female, 30s) have been together since 2016 and we have a 5 years old son. We engaged in 2018 but decided to not go through with marriage since we love the way it is right now. I am originally from Vietnam, and I'm currently a U.S permanent resident, and it has nothing to do with being with my partner. That is pretty our situation right now.
My partner's mother (HN) has 3 younger brothers. Since HN has kids pretty early so my partner is much older than all other cousins. Ever since I've been with my partner, I've been watching those kids growing up. We've been there for them on every big occasions of their life. Birthdays, boy scouts completion, high school graduation, college graduation, wedding..., we were always there celebrating and supporting them with cash and gifts. We love those kids.
Today, we were supposed to be at a party celebrating the youngest cousin's college graduation at 6. It was just a very informal family dinner of 12 and we were officially invited with card sent to our mail. The card was written by my partner's uncle's wife, and it does require RSVP. My partner confirmed we were going through group texts with all of his uncles and cousins. At 3, my partner received an email from his uncle's wife read as follow:
"Hi C We have sent you an invitation to R's graduation dinner to your house about two weeks ago but your mom also mentioned she did not receive her invite so we are following up with the info and as well forward this to you. As Aunty, I'm sorry to say if you did receive the card invite that requires rsvp then it is etiquette to give a reply and number attending. Otherwise we take it no attendance and no spot will be prepared for you and family. As you are partially Chinese, the standards and expectations will still apply and be expected. The other part of you is a Filipino community. As all other Asian communities know Filipino they stand alone. They either include or exclude. It is their culture. As Aunty, it's a challenge not only for us to invite your family with no marital status just based on unknown relationships, this is the same with your mom and sister. We had hoped it will be different with you. It's time to take your relationship to a higher level otherwise it will be looking both are taking advantage of each other and now a son with US citizenship status without your marriage. It is advantage to HV to be US citizen without marriage. A lot of people want to come to US this way. This will always be no one knows how to address your family on the card invite. This is your life and choice. No one care enough to let you only an aunty. We will not follow up further. Sorry, I do not have your cell number. Thank you. Aunty Sent from my iPhone "
I wish I can attach the screen shot of the actual email here. This is not the first time the uncle's wife has done this to us. And she has been sending nasty email like this to almost all members of my partner's family talking about stuff like this. I'll follow up with you guys the email she sent to my partner's mom, and other uncles. Every time it happens, we let it slide since we love and respect the uncle and the cousins. At the end, she is still the uncle's wife and the cousins' mother. But this time, it's way cross the line. My partner was so livid he sent the email screen shot to all of his uncles and his mom and ask wtf is this. The uncle had nothing to say but apologize to him and said he didn't know his wife sent this. My partner asked him 'are you going to check your wife out this time or are you just going to let her continue to break our family apart?'. He was silent and said he couldn't do anything. My partner decided to show up at the party and talk to her out of her delulu. And we just did. We show up, she was just smiling up and waving to us like nothing happened. We asked her to come outside to talk or we can talk to her right there at the party. She finally had to went outside. We didn't hold our tongue this time. I told her to keep my name and my son's name out of her mouth, if she wants to keep her tongue inside there. She was acting shocked and that she didn't do nothing wrong, that the email was just a reminder. The result was she left to go inside in tears, and other uncles and cousins came out to say that was epic, that was what they wanted to said to her after all of those nasty emails. So are we the assholes?
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2024.05.20 08:53 thecentury Bagging options for my Cub Cadet XT1 50"

So last fall I was able to pick up a barely used XT1 with just over 60 hours on it for under $900 delivered. Luckily the guy was going out of town and just wanted to get rid of it. The problem is there was no bagging system on it and I've noticed that I am going to need one moving forward.
A new bagger for this rider runs around $650 which I really don't want to pay seeing as I barely paid over that for the whole rider. I'm finding a lot of 42-46 Cub bagging systems on Facebook Marketplace but I have yet to see something listed as being compatible the 50"... Are my only options either an MTD or Cub brand bagger?
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2024.05.20 08:48 Dantropy 24M Looking for someone to watch all Ghibli films with and read banned books! :3

Hey! I'm Nush! I'm looking for someone to have really long, meaningful conversations with and do fun stuff together!
I feel like I'm emotionally in a place where I can work towards building better friendships which hopefully last forever, and I'm really excited to meet new people and share experiences with!
I understand the importance of persistent effort in maintaining a friendship and I'm more than willing to go beyond whatever is expected for people I love! I'm just trying to be the friend I needed when I was in a deep, dark place. Here's a lil information about me, if I seem interesting to you, I'd love to talk to you and know you better. :D
A lil info about me!
📏- (Make a mental avatar of me) I'm 6 feet, Indian. I have dark brown eyes, short wavy black hair with brown streaks, I'm pretty athletic in my build, broad shoulders, long legs. My aesthetic constantly oscillates between nerd and stripper.
🖋 I'm an author and a poet. I like keeping things, ideas and people immortal in my work. I'd like to think of myself as a hope collector, who likes to collect abandoned hope, repurpose it, and make it into something you would want to have in your life.
🤯 The only high class meme enthusiast. This is a consequence of being on the internet for far too long. From tacky Facebook memes to Gen Z humor, you can bet I will be gasping for air.
👟 I'm really passionate about the environment, and I'm very eco-friendly. I love guerilla gardening and being a rebel against the capitalist system. I'm always open to having a healthy discussion/debate even on things I don't agree upon.
🍮 I love cooking! I'm always looking forward to learning new cuisines! I also like to grow most of my ingredients. I'd say food is one of my love languages!
⭐ I really like anime, I've had this weird generational habit of collecting different rocks (Rockhounding), I hit the gym everyday, I try to be spiritual, and read. One of my recent obsessions has been chess! I'm also fascinated by history and art.
🏳️‍🌈 I'm bisexual and an LGBT ally! I've been in the worst depression and I've made it out. Here to give away all my love. ❤️
ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ
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2024.05.20 08:47 Dantropy 24M Looking for someone to watch all Ghibli films with and read banned books! :3

Hey! I'm Nush! I'm looking for someone to have really long, meaningful conversations with and do fun stuff together!
I feel like I'm emotionally in a place where I can work towards building better friendships which hopefully last forever, and I'm really excited to meet new people and share experiences with!
I understand the importance of persistent effort in maintaining a friendship and I'm more than willing to go beyond whatever is expected for people I love! I'm just trying to be the friend I needed when I was in a deep, dark place. Here's a lil information about me, if I seem interesting to you, I'd love to talk to you and know you better. :D
A lil info about me!
📏- (Make a mental avatar of me) I'm 6 feet, Indian. I have dark brown eyes, short wavy black hair with brown streaks, I'm pretty athletic in my build, broad shoulders, long legs. My aesthetic constantly oscillates between nerd and stripper.
🖋 I'm an author and a poet. I like keeping things, ideas and people immortal in my work. I'd like to think of myself as a hope collector, who likes to collect abandoned hope, repurpose it, and make it into something you would want to have in your life.
🤯 The only high class meme enthusiast. This is a consequence of being on the internet for far too long. From tacky Facebook memes to Gen Z humor, you can bet I will be gasping for air.
👟 I'm really passionate about the environment, and I'm very eco-friendly. I love guerilla gardening and being a rebel against the capitalist system. I'm always open to having a healthy discussion/debate even on things I don't agree upon.
🍮 I love cooking! I'm always looking forward to learning new cuisines! I also like to grow most of my ingredients. I'd say food is one of my love languages!
⭐ I really like anime, I've had this weird generational habit of collecting different rocks (Rockhounding), I hit the gym everyday, I try to be spiritual, and read. One of my recent obsessions has been chess! I'm also fascinated by history and art.
🏳️‍🌈 I'm bisexual and an LGBT ally! I've been in the worst depression and I've made it out. Here to give away all my love. ❤️
ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ
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2024.05.20 08:40 wellbeneath 30 [TF4F] Online/Northeastern US - looking for long term monogamous relationship

Note: I have an androgynous/masculine appearance/style/voice. I’ve been on estrogen for close to a decade. I’ve had an orchiectomy and have no plans for further surgery. I wish I was a cis woman. Ask whatever you want, I’m not easily offended.
Hi. :) I’m 30 years old and have been attracted to women for my entire life. I am in no hurry to find someone to date. I won’t be ready for anything IRL at the start, so I’m looking for something online and primarily text based while we get to know each other.
My basic physical attributes: light skin, medium-long dark hair, a few inches above average female height, BMI of 21, broad shoulders, narrow hips - maybe not conventionally beautiful but I think I look okay :)
I’ve never had a romantic relationship, but I have experienced intimacy. I often have dreams about being in love, and I know that someday I’ll find it. I’m pretty reclusive and generally live under a rock. I’ve never been someone to post on social media or anything like that. I am not politically minded or informed about popular culture. I've never drank alcohol or smoked a cigarette.
My primary passion is gaming - I’ve been playing since 1996 and I love it as much now as I did then. It would be great to play together, even if you’re inexperienced. I also love being outside, enjoying nature (I don't enjoy the bugs though). I’m pretty clueless about most things, but I’d love to learn about whatever you’re into.
I haven’t yet found my own way in the world, and currently live at home. I couldn’t care less about your level of income or anything like that. I’m interested in you as a person, not your social status or material possessions. I’ve always felt like true love is more important than anything else - given the choice of being poor with the love of my life, or being rich with a shallow relationship, I’d take the former.
Ideally you are: 26 to 35 years old, living in or around the Northeastern US, intelligent, trustworthy, communicative, conscientious, open minded, compassionate, frugal, and humble.
We are NOT compatible if you are: not attracted to trans women, a parent, overweight, a regular drinker, a smoker, non-monogamous, or a man.
Please message me directly instead of leaving a comment. I'm looking forward to hearing from you!
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2024.05.20 08:39 wellbeneath 30 [TF4F] #Online Northeastern US - looking for long term monogamous relationship

Note: I have an androgynous/masculine appearance/style/voice. I’ve been on estrogen for close to a decade. I’ve had an orchiectomy and have no plans for further surgery. I wish I was a cis woman. Ask whatever you want, I’m not easily offended.
Hi. :) I’m 30 years old and have been attracted to women for my entire life. I am in no hurry to find someone to date. I won’t be ready for anything IRL at the start, so I’m looking for something online and primarily text based while we get to know each other.
My basic physical attributes: light skin, medium-long dark hair, a few inches above average female height, BMI of 21, broad shoulders, narrow hips - maybe not conventionally beautiful but I think I look okay :)
I’ve never had a romantic relationship, but I have experienced intimacy. I often have dreams about being in love, and I know that someday I’ll find it. I’m pretty reclusive and generally live under a rock. I’ve never been someone to post on social media or anything like that. I am not politically minded or informed about popular culture. I've never drank alcohol or smoked a cigarette.
My primary passion is gaming - I’ve been playing since 1996 and I love it as much now as I did then. It would be great to play together, even if you’re inexperienced. I also love being outside, enjoying nature (I don't enjoy the bugs though). I’m pretty clueless about most things, but I’d love to learn about whatever you’re into.
I haven’t yet found my own way in the world, and currently live at home. I couldn’t care less about your level of income or anything like that. I’m interested in you as a person, not your social status or material possessions. I’ve always felt like true love is more important than anything else - given the choice of being poor with the love of my life, or being rich with a shallow relationship, I’d take the former.
Ideally you are: 26 to 35 years old, living in or around the Northeastern US, intelligent, trustworthy, communicative, conscientious, open minded, compassionate, frugal, and humble.
We are NOT compatible if you are: not attracted to trans women, a parent, overweight, a regular drinker, a smoker, non-monogamous, or a man.
Please message me directly instead of leaving a comment. I'm looking forward to hearing from you!
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2024.05.20 08:28 APeacefulWarrior Shadow Hearts (PS2) - A so-so start to a nearly-forgotten cult trilogy

TL;DR: Shadow Hearts is at its best when its reveling in its weird scenario and unusual character lineup, but suffers from a lot of issues common to early 6th gen JRPGs - and its biggest sin is that the combat is downright boring.
Shadow Hearts is one of those franchises that constantly comes up on 'best games you never played' lists, yet despite seeing three back-to-back releases on PS2, it somehow never even hit enough critical mass to even count as a cult classic. Instead, it's largely sunk into the memory hole.
Is it due to its first true entry being a pretty mid game? Maybe.
The Good
Shadow Hearts makes a strong first impression with its genuinely unique setting - the real world, in the late 1910s. Moreover, the first half of the game takes place in China while it was under Japanese occupation. I've never seen another game to ever have that as the setting, much less one from a Japanese developer! (They don't like talking about the Imperial days.) On top of that, the game is fundamentally horror themed, with a really interesting mashup of Victorian gothic, Lovecraftian, and Daoist horror tropes.
So if you want a JRPG with a totally unique setting, Shadow Hearts definitely has that going for it.
The game also features one of the more unusual casts of heroes to show up in a JRPG. By the end, your party includes:
  • A loveable (sometimes) jerkass American as our protagonist, who can transform into demons
  • A British Christian woman who prays her way to victory while smacking enemies with her Bible
  • An ancient Chinese master of Daoist magic
  • An overenthusiastic mercenary lady who likes explosives a bit too much
  • A friendly vampire who's mostly there because he was bored from centuries cooped up in his castle
  • A Dickensian waif, complete with newsie cap
Later on, the game's action moves to a grand tour of Europe, including Germany, France, and England. You get to cover a lot of ground in this one! The artwork was clearly drawn without much in the way of reference material, more of a dreamlike reimagining of the early 20th century.
Graphically, it's nothing special. It continues the 5th Gen method of using pre-rendered backgrounds with polygonal characters on top, and CGI cutscenes for major events. Honestly, at times it just feels like an upscaled PSX game, and rarely makes good use of the PS2's power. Still, the artwork is generally nice, within this style. Plus, the monster designs are genuinely creative, with some of the most interesting creatures I've seen outside of an Atlus game.
And it features one gimmick unique to this franchise: The Judgement Ring. It's basically a QTE, with a line sweeping around a round dial, and you have to hit the X button when it passes over certain hit zones. Every time you attempt to attack, or do any other battle action, you have to hit 1-5 marks on the dial for the action to succeed. Small red areas, much harder to hit, add power to the action, much like a crit.
The Ring of Doom also gets used for various other actions, such as haggling in shops, or performing actions on the map. Basically, you'll be spending a lot of time doing precise button-presses.
Unfortunately, this is where the game's good aspects mostly stop.
The Bad
Many of the game's problems are simply due to it being an early-2000s JRPG, with many of the issues common to that time - such as battles being filled with overly-long repetitive magic spell animations that get very old, very quickly. Worse, because of the nature of the combat and its QTEs, you can't just play the game on fast-forward in an emulator. At least, not without constantly toggling FF on and off.
Making the combat worse is that it's simply boring. They don't actually do anything interesting with the Ring of Honor. It's just there to slow down your commands and punish you for not constantly giving the game your full attention. Otherwise, the combat is absolutely bog-standard stuff, with two lines of combatants taking turns wacking each other.
In theory, elemental weaknesses come into play, but their effect on battles seems absolutely minimal. Even the hero's demon transformations just grant a couple extra magic powers and extra-powerful standard attacks. The only other halfway interesting aspect is that the enemies are ruthless about spamming status effects, including ones which can make the Dial of Destiny invisible to prevent you from attacking! Which is just obnoxious, frankly.
To its credit, at least the game keeps the encounter rate fairly low. But that's faint praise.
Plus, of course, all the bosses are big sacks of hit points, leading to tedious 20+ minute battles as you whittle down their health. Attack, attack, heal. Attack, attack, heal. Attack, attack, heal. Neither side has enough attacks or buff options to actually make the fight interesting. Either you go into it with sufficient magic and consumables to survive, or you don't.
Likewise, while I love the setting and scenario, the actual plot is a silly cliche storm. A bad guy wants to destroy the world to save it. Our plucky heroes have to kill god. You've seen it a million times. I found the game was actually more interesting in its episodic moments, when the heroes wander into a town that's haunted by an evil spirit or such, and have to deal with that. By the end, the combination of the rote story and annoying/boring combat made me really hate trudging through the obligatory too-long final dungeon.
Piling onto the issues, I also really disliked the soundtrack. The main battle theme in the first half is genuinely one of the worst I've ever heard. It would have been OK as a one-off bespoke boss battle track, but it became downright grating quite quickly. Most of the rest of the tracks were unexceptional, and occasionally felt out of place (like a bouncy happy theme for a London slum?), with very little standing out.
And while the English voice dubbing in cutscenes and battles does have that early-aughts cheesy charm, it's surprisingly inconsistent on what got dubbed. Some characters even switch between English and Japanese during their battle cries!
Then on top of everything else, the game is absolutely FULL of missable content, including entire side-quests in new locations. Even important stuff like how to unlock your most powerful demons and attacks are gated behind completely unintuitive actions. And if you want to see the good ending, you pretty much have to follow a guide - not unless you're willing to religiously go back to every previous area and talk to every previous NPC, over and over after every plot beat.
In Conclusion
Can Shadow Hearts be recommended solely on its own merits? I'm not sure it can. The unusual scenario and Red Ring of Death gimmick just weren't enough to hold my interest, even with its relatively short 25-30 hour playtime, when the rest of the game design was just so mid. However, it seems that the sequels are considered much better games, so at least I'm still interested in continuing the franchise. Although I think I'll take a break before playing the next one.
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2024.05.20 08:27 LostSoul1985 CR7 feet kicking a ball: PAY approximately 200 million Euros/year. Ms feet divert Typhoons, stop earthquakes before they happen, take on the suffering of HUMANITY and SAVE the entire world...pay for above jobs: free (The BIGGEST transfer battle in HUMAN history?)

M takes credit thanks to the divine feet of Shree Krishna for Diverting Typhoon Haiyan in 2013 where M was 'traveling' in Hanoi. Typhoon haiyan was expected to hit centre of Hanoi with mass evacuations planned. (Link to Facebook status showing M in Hanoi 2013, tagged with)
M takes credit for stemming an estimated 50000 thanks to the Lotus Feet of Shree Krishna on the 30th October 2020 with works done before, during and after the Aegean sea earthquake in 2020 (Link to Facebook status showing M in Izmir on 30th October 2020, in Shanti Home Hostel)
M takes credit for Shree Krishna hundreds of miracles involving the divine birds. Viideos all over my reddit show the manifestation of Seagulls at night in Liverpool on 10th August 2023, to naking them fly one by one in Bolton 🙏
When the level of miracle hits, it hits. The above is a siddhi ultimately but M even offered his share of his house as deposit to cover testing costs last year to claim the highest paranormal prize in the world with CFIIG.
God is greater
2025: Peace on Earth. People Fed. Human to Human kindness. No animal cruelty. Joy. Bliss. God. Bhagwan. Allah. No religious wars.
Things that would help you in this life: Feed Pigeons Become Vegetarian Pray to God Pray to Krishna
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2024.05.20 08:23 fed-grasso Anyone else kinda tired of this stuff?

[sort of clickbait title]
By "tired", I don't mean coming from a place of frustration but from a place of gratitude and a little bit of "well duh, life's going to work out for me".
I'm sure people who think this way are probably no longer on this subreddit. I took a break for a while. Not sure if this is "Sabbath" and I'm not keen on labelling it, but something clicked and mentally it feels like the clouds parted. My brain feels as relaxed as it was before learning about conscious manifestation.
I have had some successes with the law and I'm not doubtful of it, but right now, I'm not too pressed to do any methods. There also isn't anything I desire TOO strongly and I've let go coming from a place of trust: I trust that my ideal lifestyle/salary and that SP will naturally come to me. I'm kinda satisfied and grateful with my life and already full in my imagination. What I'm consistent with on the daily is saying my affirmations while doing my skin care or getting dressed since I've left some post-it notes on my mirror, but it isn't something I loop at the back of my mind 24/7. If SP and my job pop up in my mind, sure, I'll affirm and only ever think in my favor, but I'm mentally relaxed. I'm not really excited about these desires because I'm simply looking forward to my day to day life.
Just wanted to see:
1) if anyone had any similar sentiments,
2) how their practices and attitudes towards manifestation and the law of assumption evolved, and
3) the status of their manifestations during/after this state of "letting go".
Thanks so much!
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2024.05.20 07:44 Cherrybells04 iqvia recruitment process

I am confused. The status of my application says process completed under Inactive, but does not have any result showing. Should I consider it failed and move forward? Or it really takes time for them to review the application?
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2024.05.20 06:54 joshsuxxxx queer gig coming up

Hey girls gays and theys of chch - if you’re in the rainbow community or an ally, and you’re keen to come dance, I’m organising a queer night at Flux soon and you’re invited!
glttr* is back for round three - it’s going to be a night of r&b cuts, 00s music and more.
If you don’t know, Ōtautahi currently doesn’t have a regular functioning gay bar … the positive side of this, is there’s so many queer nights popping up within the city, the majority of these hosted at Flux.
These nights are hosted by queer whanau throughout the city, and we’re keen to get support for these various events.
Info on the link above - tickets are $20, with limited door sales. The last couple glttr* events have been heaps of fun, so I’m looking forward to another great nice. Thanks for reading!
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2024.05.20 06:12 Worried-Map1462 Perseverance.... I wrote this story to inspire specifically for students like me who struggled or struggling right now.

Isa akong batang laking mahirap. All the kinds of bullying naranasan kona and kahit I am on my adult stage na bakat na bakat padin sa ala ala ko kung ano ang mga napagdaanan ko during my years of schooling.
During my elementary days way back mga 2004-2010, baon ko 2 pesos a day pero hindi pa araw araw may baon. Minsan nag aabot sila mama at papa ng 5 pesos ng monday and that's it for the whole week. I am too innocent in those time kasi Im proud to say na never ako nag cocomplain to my parents regarding that,siguro dahil alam kong wala din naman magbabago if I ask them kasi I know na walang wala din naman talaga sila. Minsan yung mga kaklasmayt ko pa noon tinatawanan ako pag tinutulog ko lang ng recess time namin kahit yung tiyan ko tumutunog sa gutom, while them enjoying their meals and have money on their hands to show off. They don't wanna be friend with me either kasi di ako nakakasabay sa kung anong meron sila kaya ako yung typical na batang PAPASOK sa skul ,UUPO,TAHIMIK at magsasalita lang pag kinakausap. Ang tanging alam ko lang non is disiplinado ako ng mga magulang ko kaya naman never ako nanlimos ng kahit ano or nainvolve sa gulo or na guidance sa skul, if my conflict man non sakin at sa klasmayt ko, umiiwas nalang ako at mananahimik kasi takot akong magkamali eventhough sinasabihan na nila ako "DUWAG" "LAMPA" etc.... One time may pinapa project si teacher sakin that requires money to buy it. Sinabi ko din naman kila mama pero they can't provide so pagpasok ko ng umaga sa skul, sobrang kabado ako kasi lahat sila may maipapasang project and ako lang wala. Then when my name called by our teacher sinabi ko yung totoo but the teacher just say "Baka gusto ako pa magprovide para sayo" sabay tawa. Until then naging hobby na nya akong pagtawanan infront of his co teachers at sa mga students at ako lagi inuutusan taga bunot ng puting buhok nya.🤣 well nakakatawa nalang sya sakin now pag naaalala ko
Fast forward... 2011 Highschool days... I enter highschool like elem na walang wala din. All my things are old, from bag to notebooks, yung lapis ko parang nasa 3 inches nalang ang haba kasi di ko napapalitan. Even my slippers have butas na which is naging reason ng bullying din. Yung ibang klasmayts ko laging kinukwestyon bakit daw ganun di ako mabilhan ng mga magulang ko pero di ko sila sinasagot. Just like elem days, ako yung tipo ng stujanteng tahimik lang sa upuan, kaya ang tingin ng guro namin sakin "MABAIT" pero may mga guro padin na hindi talaga ako nagugustuhan dahil sa bagay na wala ako na meron madalas mga klasmayts ko. Malayo ang skul namin sa mga bahay namin kaya nagbabaon kami ng pang lunch namin. Madalas baon ko araw araw is itlog,pancit canton na isang piraso tapos ginagawa kong pang recess at lunch na yun. Even that thing I was questioned lagi by my klasmayts but I don't answer them. I was so lonely nun kasi wala naman gustong makipagkaibigan sakin, even if may groupings, I was left alone and doing my activity alone. If you guys are wondering how's my marks in school? I was a regular student and never ako na fail sa subject ko kasi yun din habilin ng magulang ko sakin. I was so obedient to my parents even those times na pinag aabsent nila ako para magtrabaho sa bukid at para may baon ako sa school.Then the next day, I will be punished in school for being absent without telling them my reasons. I know how hard my life is kaya nangangako ako sa sarili ko na I have to finish my studies kahit anong mangyari. There are some teachers who love humiliating me in front of many students for the things I have, such meron daw ako shoes na old pero walang socks, butas ang pantalon, and ngilaw na ngilaw ang puting uniporme signs of it being old enough. One thing I am struggling about is yung yellow pad paper, yun kasi gamit namin ng highschool and most of them have it tapos ako pag humihingi ako ayaw din naman ako bigyan, kaya ang ending I'm using notebooks as alternative for it. My teacher would question it again pero same thing, my silence is my response. In those years, teachers are allowed to beat students as sign of disiplina and I was beaten as a punishments for not providing projects and unattended classes dahil sa need ko kumita ng pera para may pambaon. Pag binabalikan ko siya, awang awa ako sa sarili ko. And those people who treated me that bad, I still remember them but I forgave them. Masakit lang pag naaalala ko😭 I just can't imagine na nalagpasan ko siya na ako lang magisa at walang nasandalan even my parents. All those bullying I have received from my society, inako ko lang magisa yun at none from my siblings and parents knows about it.
Fast forward...2015- 2019 College... This one is the most legit na sobrang hirap. Pero bago pa mag umpisa ang semester nun I confront my self na kahit anong mangyari " I have to be a regular students,walang bibitiw at wag na wag babagsak sa kahit anong subjects
1st -2nd year college ko, I tried everything I can, to provide for my own tuition fees and allowances. Yes nagbibigay sila mama at papa pero hindi kasya, minsan 150- 200 lang kaya nila iabot for a week allowance, ang bording house ko laging delayed ang bayad, and my tuition is always on hold kaya laging suki ako ng special exam. Pinasok ko mag work as taga dilig ng halaman and care taker ng isang bar and grill for the night and study in the morning. I have no choice but to do it cause ayokong mag stop sa pagaaral. Kaya naman pag sumasahod ako sa part time ko, binibili ko ng mga sapatos sa shoppee and then I resell it on facebook market online around the city. After my class ng afternoon dun ko sila minimeet up sa city and there I earned money. Tho, of all the efforts and hardships na ginagawa ko still my studies is my top priority. I was so payat sa sobrang pagod, puyat at stress.lagi pa akong nag nose bleeding and I was so worried for my health pero tuloy ang laban. Again, none from my siblings and parents knows about it. I kept it all alone and di din naman sila nag tatanong kasi they thought I am doing fine dahil wala din naman silang narerecieved na reklamo sakin. BULLYING? ofcourse di padin ako nakaligtas jan, I was called "EWW ANG ITIM, MUKHANG MATANDA kasi di nakakapag ahit ng balbas at nakapagpagupit" minsan sasabihin pa nila "Huy kumain ka naman para ka nang kalansay" without knowing my whole story. One time I cried inside the confort room kasi I couldn't help myself na mainggit sa mga classmates ko nun na after class they will be having a talk about san sila mag lulunch if sa Jollibee ba, mcdo or sangyup. Samantalang ako, after class I was so busy meeting people with their orders. Minsan nadadaanan ko pa sila sa fast food having a good time while ako may bitbit na malaking basket puno ng sapatos na idedeliver.🙂 If my mandatory na event sa skul na need attendan, I used to ask people I don't know if may pwede ba akong mahihiraman ng susuotin tapos sasabihin nila try nila hanapan ako pero they then laugh at me afterwards. I feel so ashamed of doing it but I have to. So ayun na nga iniignore ko lang yung mga moment na tinatawanan ako sa looks ko, sa mga bagay na wala ako na meron sila. Basta focused ako sa acads ko nun at sa pagkita ng pera.
During my 3rd yr college. Yung part time kong work nagsara so I was forced to stop working with them na. And so yung pagbebenta ko ng sapatos nalang ginagawa ko. I was so lost that time kasi diko alam ako gagawin ko. Malaking tulong yun sakin lalo na 2yrs nalang kailangan kong tapusin sa pagaaral at mas malaki ang expenses ko na.Isang araw papasok ako ng gate sa skul and there are posters around our campus about scholarships and yung minimum qualified average. I have know idea if abot ba ng average ko dun sa offer ng scholars. so I run towards our registrar to request for a certificate of my grades. My world just stop for a while and I'm in tears kasi naabot nga. 86.04 yung average ko and the asking is 85.0.lang. moving forward, I got the scholarship and it helps me with my tuition fees. Kaya ang pinoproblema ko nalang non is bording house ko. Until meron na namang ibang offered na scholarships sa city so kahit sobrang haba ng pila,tiniis ko kasi I know it will save me. Luckily God is so good to me kaya I got them. That's why sa huling taon na pagaaral bago grumaduate, everything goes well and smooth because of those 3 scholarships. I Gave up selling shoes and focus sa exams nalang until I manage to graduate.....
July 2019.... FINALLY GRADUATED AND A CERTIFIED DEGREE HOLDER OF PSYCHOLOGY....
2024 update about me? I am now in a good path, I took a career that is relevant to my degree and still want exploring more things...
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2024.05.20 06:05 Tattoo_Cat Do I have good enough reason to feel cheated by my boyfriends family?

My boyfriend and I have been together 2 years and have decided we are ready to have a baby together. This might seem early in the relationship, however, I have been with my fair share of bad boyfriends and I know this one is the one and we will make good parents together. We actually really wanted to have a baby together within the first year however we decided to be responsible as we weren’t living together, didn’t have much money saved and just knew it wasn’t the right time. We are now both 25, we have a house together, have enough savings and feel it is absolutely the right time. We have worked hard to get to this place and are very excited for the next step. Not only are we excited to actually start a family but I have always dreamed about telling my family and how excited they will be. I was also extremely excited to tell my boyfriends family as he is the oldest and our baby would make his parents grandparents for the first time. When I first met my boyfriends Dad, he asked when the grandkids were coming, telling us he couldn’t wait to be a grandpa. He also got out his phone and showed us a video of a gender reveal involving a truck blowing the coloured smoke out of the pipes and told us this is what we would do when we had a gender reveal one day (he is a very proud truck driver from a long line of truck drivers). My boyfriend and I laughed and said that was cool and we will do it one day. Every time we rang my boyfriends Dad as he lives 5 hours away, he would always ask when his grandchildren are coming.
Fast forward a year. My boyfriend and I were still trying to conceive with no luck yet, we knew it wouldn’t happen over night. However, one night we receive a facetime phone call from my boyfriends Dad. He is sitting beside my boyfriends younger brother, we’ll call him Tom, who is 22 and says ‘guess what’. Tom then holds up a new born onesie and says ‘we’re having a baby’.
My heart sinks. And this is where all of my ugly, angry, sad emotions begin. I would also just like to disclose before I go on, that I KNOW I should not feel this way, but it’s just the way I do feel.
My boyfriends younger brother Tom has been with his girlfriend for 4 months, we’ll call her Sarah. She has an 18month old baby with someone else and doesn’t work to take care of this child. Tom lives next door to his Dad and step mom in a rental with 2x of his step brothers, absolute bachelor pad. They all work in the truck yard down the road and smoke bongs in the shed every night. Sarah moved in to the house with her child as soon as she met Tom and sure enough now she is pregnant with his child. Tom is always broke, asking my boyfriend for money all the time. He is constantly caught short for rent, which isn’t even that much considering it is split 3 ways. Tom drives a two door v8 Ute which is his pride and joy, which he will now have to sell to get a family friendly car.
My boyfriend is happy for his brother, yet I feel crushed. I want to feel happy for them.
A few months later, my boyfriend and I took some time off work to visit his dads side of the family (his parents are split). We drove 5 hours to come and stay with them as my boyfriend doesn’t see them very often. Whilst we were up there we met Sarah for the first time and her child from her previous relationship. Sarah, Tom and the child had moved into a slightly bigger ‘bar’ room out the back of the bachelor house and it was absolutely trashed. They are sleeping on a mattress with no sheets, there is clothes, toys, empty food containers, dishes, rubbish covering the floor and surfaces. Tom simply remarked ‘when you have kids, you’ll understand’. I get that, having kids is hard and messy but this was beyond that, and, Sarah doesn’t work she is home all day every day. My boyfriend commented that Tom use to be a neat freak which I found hard to believe.
Whilst we were up there it seemed all everyone could talk about is this baby. Sarah was also constantly leaving her other child with various of Tom’s family members and just going to bed. My boyfriend and Tom’s stepmum quietly said to me that she is constantly left with the child whose nappy is always full. I spent some time with Sarah who mentioned to me that she happened to fall pregnant and asked Tom if he wanted to keep it or if she should abort it. My boyfriend and I had argued over whether we thought it was a planned baby or not, my boyfriend insisting it was planned. Obviously not.
Sarah also began discussing with us that she and Tom were going to do a gender reveal. She then explained that they were going to do the same truck idea that my boyfriends Dad had showed us. I made an excuse to leave the room and I burst into tears. This made me feel like his Dad didn’t actually care if my boyfriend and I had a baby, he just wanted a grandchild no matter where it came from, and Tom did it first. Whilst we were staying with my boyfriends Dad, we also saw so many fights unfold in front of us between Tom and Sarah. Yes couples fight but they were screaming at each other, in front of the 18 month old and getting in each others faces. A very healthy thing for a couple about to be a family of 4. Not long after this trip, Tom and Sarah announced the pregnancy on Facebook and all of my boyfriends family commented on there how excited they were and how Tom is a ‘clever’ boy as there will be 5 generations since Tom and my boyfriends great grandparents are still alive. I again tried to feel happy for them but this was stifled by my feeling of anger. Since day one of meeting my boyfriend I had always put in a HUGE effort to not only meet my boyfriends family but we travelled immensely to meet all sides of family as he has family all over the place. His mum and her partner live away and we often spent lots of weekends with them which was not easy at all as his mum is addicted to hard drugs and my boyfriend is the only family member that still speaks to her. We also travelled 4 hours multiple times to stay with his grand father and visit cousins. We travelled 3 hours on Christmas Eve to spend Christmas with his cousins family and recently we travelled another 6 hour round trip to spend the day with his Nanna who is sick. Family is very important to me and also my boyfriend so I always made a huge effort to visit them with him. This is what has bothered me almost the most, my boyfriend and I have made such an effort with his family, yet, all they can talk about is Tom and Sarah having a baby. Tom and Sarah have not made nearly as much effort as us to meet any family, Sarah has met Tom’s dad and brother (my boyfriend) and that’s it. Everytime my boyfriend speaks to one of his relatives it’s always ‘isn’t it so exciting, not long now’.
A few months after this, my boyfriend and I had a triumph - we were pregnant! Followed by heart ache, an early miscarriage.
I spoke to my family who were extremely supportive and my boyfriend told his who were supportive at the time but just told us to ‘keep trying’. No one has spoken about it since, which is okay, but, I am not okay. Whilst I was feeling so hurt and upset before, it is now millions times worse. I have had good days, and bad days. One of my worst days was recently when Sarah invited us to her baby shower. My boyfriend came home from work and said ‘we’ll have to book some time off work since it’s on the Saturday and we have to travel’. We then got into an argument as I was so hurt that he just assumed I was okay to go to it. After a few days of thought I realised how important it was to my boyfriend and I had to push my feelings aside. I’m still so frustrated though because aside from all of my pain, I KNOW they would not travel 5 hours and take time off work to go to our baby shower if we had one.
So the baby shower is in 2 weeks and I’m still having the same ugly, angry, sad, disgusting thoughts swirling around my head.
Why do they get to have a baby within 4 monts of knowing each other, completely unprepared, no money, no vehicle, no house, no nothing? They didn’t plan this, she just let herself get pregnant or they were so careless not to use protection. My boyfriend and I could’ve gotten pregnant within the first months of dating but we’re not that stupid and irresponsible. My boyfriends stepbrother has moved out of the house and is living in a shed so that Sarah and Tom have more room to have a baby which I think is so completely unfair. And now the other stepbrother that lives there will have an 18month old and a new born in his house which he never signed up for. Tom and Sarah have just gotten pregnant and not thought about anyone else or how this effects anyone else. My boyfriend and I have worked long, hard hours to save for our dream and yet we’re here watching it unfold for someone else whilst we deal with the heart ache of getting so close and losing it. I work in disability which is extremely mentally draining and my boyfriend is a diesel mechanic which is physical and hard. Sarah doesn’t work, yes she takes care of her child yet they’re living in filth and she manages to palm him off most of the time anyway. Tom is a casual at his work and spends most of his pay check on weed and smokes every night. Yet, the entire family thinks they are so incredible and wow! They’re having a baby! I feel so cheated, I feel like it should be us, and I know that’s so incredibly selfish but we couldn’t have planned this more if we tried yet they simply didn’t use protection and get to live out our dream.
I’m wondering how on earth I am going to manage to get through this damn baby shower and I would love to know peoples thoughts on this, but please, be kind 😭
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2024.05.20 06:01 AutoModerator Weekly Clan Recruitment Megathread

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2024.05.20 05:31 judy_fries may naka-match ako sa yellow app pero…

*long post ahead but hoping you can hear me out
I recently matched with this guy in bumble. In our first exchange of convo, he immediately asked if I am available to meet up with him. Of course I declined bc I have plans. We didn’t talk about anything but matching our schedules to meet up (I never met up with anyone in bumble btw). Then there came a time that our schedules agreed so we decided to meet up. We transferred from bumble to phone texts/calls (this was new to me, kinda old school lol). We had calls almost every night (yes, just at night) and he rarely replies to my texts. He just calls without notice like I am a free person lol. When we plan on meeting up, he would suggest to go to his place but I always reject that idea because I’m not comfortable going to someone’s place. I would suggest to go to a mall or a park instead.
Fast forward to few hours before meeting up (we decided to meet in a mall), he took a raincheck for an urgent meeting at work. I was pretty disappointed bc it was my first meet up and I kinda expected something fruitful for us to discuss. He was sorry and also explained his side. Moving to the next day, he invited me again for a quick meet up (he also suggested his place again for crying out loud!!!) but I also told him that I’ll be meeting up with my friend prior seeing him. He agreed to wait naman and meet on a resto side of the mall that we both knew. I kept updating him my status and if I have booked otw there then he texted raincheck again just because I already ate?? But still I inisted to meet up with him to have drinks. We had a great conversation and ended the night well. I got home and as usual, he called and ended the call quickly too. Then the next day, i found out that he unmatched me in bumble.
I didn’t go deep into the details but i also understand that he is a busy person but not to the point unmatching me. I’m not also generalizing guys but are there really guys out there who are like this? Do you just stop and move on immediately or just have a last convo to properly end this?
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2024.05.20 05:27 Sad-Strike-4192 Am I the problem?

I (28F) and my boyfriend (28M) have had a rocky relationship to say the least. I have borderline personality disorder (in both CBT and DBT and on medication for almost 5 years) and an eating disorder (in outpatient treatment for nearly 3 years), so I am well aware that I am not always easy to be with and that I have done/said things that have hurt him. He is an addict, on the spectrum, and bipolar with MAYBE a year of treatment and a couple months of clean time under his belt.
In the past I’ve struggled in our relationship with the idea presented to me by friends (primarily mine), family (both his and mine), and my mental health professionals that the relationship is at best toxic and at worst abusive. He has left me a total of 5 times in the span of three years. The first time he left was to go on a drug binge with a 19 year old coworker who he was cheating on me with in my own home. Girls have always been a problem in our relationship, but as far as I know he’s only physically cheated with one girl. Typically the issues would be talking to exs, talking to girls he never really dated but did have romantic or sexual history with, doing drugs with girls, or talking badly about me to another girl. With the long history of these issues, I’ve frequently been distant or cold towards him or did things to hide ED slip ups which he says had pushed him to the actual act of physically cheating.
He spent most of our relationship writing off my concerns about a couple girls because they were also long standing friends despite having a sexual or romantic history with them. Because of this, I (drunkenly) reached out to catch up with an old friend who I used to sleep with very casually when we were both single. I only spoke to him for one night and then never again because I knew my boyfriend would be mad and hurt. He found out and broke up with me.
We have since gotten back together, and my friends and family are sort of coming around- almost against their will. In an effort to be honest I told him that while we were broken up a guy friend of over 10 years asked me out (which I declined, and he was ok with).
Fast forward to a couple months later, I didn’t block that guy, and I shared something stupid on Facebook which that guy friend commented on. My boyfriend flipped out.
I asked him to bring up concerns in a more constructive and communicative way, but we spent two days being (as he put it) “not ok”. I had plans with my family that weekend and spent the whole time trying to hold it together while feeling sick and hurt and confused because of how the text/call exchanges ended up. He told me that having that guy trying to flirt with me online “looks shady” and that I always brush off his concerns. I kept asking what I did wrong and he’d tell me nothing. By the end of the weekend I left my family’s house early and had a panic attack on the phone while he yelled at me.
I pointed out that he still has girls that have been a concern for me on Facebook and currently works with someone that he says flirts with him on the clock but I’m trying to rebuild trust and communicate with I’m uncomfortable without blowing up. He said I was deflecting and invalidating his feelings.
I’m so confused how I ended up being the one begging for forgiveness, blocking and deleting people on social media, and asking him to point blank lay out how he would like me to act in the future.
This is the first time since getting back together that I see his old mask slipping back. I had to beg him to speak to me like a human being. I had to ask him to have empathy for me- in those words. I don’t feel like I can talk to my friends and family about this without them immediately hating him again. Now I have everyone blocked that I think he could possibly have a problem with, and he seems to have calmed down.
TL;DR A guy commented on my facebook post and while discussing why I was hurt by the way my (28F) boyfriend (28M) discussed it with me, I was told I’m manipulative and invalidating.
I guess what I’m wondering at this point is… Am I being manipulative and invalidating due to still holding resentment over previous issues (like he said), and if so, what should I be doing differently to avoid this?
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2024.05.20 05:20 Infamous-Dimension-4 Appraised for 100K, Seller from Hell.

Hi there. First time caller, long time listener. We were in the process of buying our first home. Everything was going pretty smooth, went through underwriting, made it out okay. Was approved for our agreed upon price of 375K. All was fine, we were set to close on the 22nd. Had one last step, appraisal. The appraisal came back last week Thursday at 293K, the listing was for 399K. We were all shocked and bummed. We were in the middle of a final walk through and did not know what to do.
Come this weekend, sellers lost marbles and fired their realtor, contacts our realtor to take on the property for a higher price. The seller wants us to make up difference of 100K or 75K, but if we can do that we were told she would take $10,000 cash at closing play another $12,000 for closing costs. We don’t budge, we want the house for what it is worth, because this is small town Texas and houses have been sitting on the market for over year. Maybe it’s our loss? We felt pretty attacked here because we felt like the seller was making it our fault that her property was appraised so low.
Seller tries to add my partner and I on Facebook, and even gets my number from listing paperwork and texts me about negotiations. We understand this is a shock, but this has completely discouraged us from moving forward with any house. We terminated the contract with this seller tonight. We are back at square one and just lost.
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2024.05.20 05:14 hubb2001 Translation Status Update/Discussion - May 19

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Fan Translations

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Official work

MangaGamer

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JAST

  • Sisters: Last Day of Summer - June 3rd release
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  • Katahane - Progress being made again
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  • Tokyo Hero Project - Translation finished, dealing with bugs
  • Machine Child - Still being developed
  • Yomegami: My Sweet Goddess - 100% translated
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  • Mojika: Truth Rears Its Ugly Head - Picked up
  • Djibril - 100% translated, in editing
  • Masquerade: Hell Academy - Through 1st QA pass, in 2nd QA pass

Sekai/Denpa

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  • Subete no Koi ni, Hanabata o. - 50% translated
  • Sumire - Picked up
  • Sanarara R - 100% translated and edited, waiting on build
  • Glass - Picked up
  • New Glass - Picked up
  • Karakara 3 - 100% translated and edited, 70% engine work
  • Yume to Iro de Dekiteiru - 100% translated, 35% edited
  • Zutto Mae Kara Joshi Deshita - 100% translated, in editing
  • A Maiden's Serenade - In Editing
  • Hoshizora e Kakaru Hashi 10% translated
  • Hoshizora e Kakaru Hashi AA - Announced
  • Akaneiro ni Somaru Saka - 50% translated
  • Hamidashi Creative - Announced
  • Inupara - In Development
  • Nekopara After La Vraie Familie - In Development
  • Raspberry Cube - Announced
  • Wagamama High Spec OC - In Translation

Nekonyan

  • Angel Chaos RE-BOOT!- Delayed after Steam rejection
  • Dracu Riot - Waiting on Build, Release date announcement on hold until after Angel Chaos
  • Melty Moment - 80% translated
  • Fureraba Complete edition - Vita exclusive content to be added to Fureraba a couple months after the fandisc release
  • Floral Flowlove - 100% translated, 70% edited, enging port ongoing
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  • Mysteries of the Heart: The Psychic Detective Case Files - 100% translated and edited, engine work in progress
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  • Secret Project 3 - 100% translated and edited, 50% though QA

PQube

  • SINce Memories: Off the Starry Sky - Announced

VisualArts

Dualtail

Frontwing

  • Lilja and Natsuka: Painting Lies - July 25th release
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  • Everlasting Flowers - Where there is a will, there is a way - August 29th release date
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Aksys

  • Radiant Tale -Fanfare- - June 27th release
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  • Despera Drops - 2025 release

Age titles

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Fakku

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Saikey Studios (mix of official/unofficial)

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HyoukanOpera

  • Knight Case Files - Trial released, upcoming release

MAGES. GAME

  • Corpse Party II - Darkness Distortion - 2024 release

Voltage Inc.

  • Project Code Kaleido Tower - 2024 release
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  • Project Code Vampire Hunter - 2025 release

B-cluster

  • Re;quartz Raid - 2024 release

MediBang Inc.

  • Cocktail Magic - Upcoming release

Kamitsubaki Studio

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Dayu Zixun

  • Voice Love on Air - Upcoming release

Shiravune

  • AMANATSU ~Perfect Edition~ - Released
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  • An Aunt After My Own Heart - 2024 release, rejected by Steam
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  • Sacrifice Villains - Announced

Dramatic Create

Kagura Games

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Aniplex

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Spike Chunsoft

Love Lab

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DLsite

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Idea Factory

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CRAFTWORK

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Harukaze

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Moonchime

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Alice In Dissonance

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G-mode

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MiKandi Japan

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072 Project

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F&C

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Eroge Japan

Tensei Games

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GRAVITY GAME ARISE

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Dark Nyaa

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MintLip

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Cherry Kiss

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Umesoft

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2024.05.20 05:13 theconstellinguist Envy and Extreme Violence

https://www.wtsglobal.com/public_html/wp-content/uploads/2022/12/Envy-Extreme-Vio.pdf
Crossposting audience: The bad news is there does not seem to be a cure for envy. This is congruent with the recidivism statistics of maladapted/antisocial behavior in narcissists, without which narcissism and those with NPD would not be so socially undesirable. However, there are clear signs that the circuitry of envy is noticeably different than the circuitry of admiration, and that jealousy pathways are similar to addiction and expectation of reward pathways. A neuroeconomic analysis of "I won't win this one without illegal/unethical leveling" may be occurring in the envious, showing there may be insight that could resolve what has been until this point and unresolvable emotion full of frustration and pain at the perceived inferiority these individuals suffer. It is important to study and resolve this to help protect their victims from violence, psychological, and economic abuse, theft, hostage-taking of what is critical to the envied person, and unreasonable dislike that turns into hate crime on a whim. Victims deserve protection (the envious say the opposite) and so we research. Follow this subreddit for the first research-backed subreddit on envy.
Intense envy is associated with shame, depression, inferiority, isolation, anxiety, paranoia, and even violent criminal behavior.
Envy is an emotion capable of producing distorted perceptions and cognitions. Intense envy is associated with adverse states such as shame, depression, inferiority, isolation, anxiety, paranoia, and even violent criminal behavior.
The envious can become violent when they want to destroy goodness as perceived advantage, especially if they do not feel they possess goodness
There may come a point at which the envious person's goal is to harm the other's ability to enjoy the perceived advantages—the wish to destroy goodness as formulated by Melanie Klein.
Obliterative envy is the violent instantiation of envy focusing on a desire to obliterate what is perceived as an unjust, intolerable reality
The psychodynamics are discussed by which destructive envy produces or enhances a persecutory mindset and desire for revenge so powerful that lethal violence is chosen as an option. The concepts of obliterative envy and pseudo-spiritual transformation are introduced, and forensic case examples are used to demonstrate how envy produces persecutory cognitions and facilitates the desire to “obliterate” what is perceived as an unjust, intolerable reality.
Increased projection of the malicious or terrorist impulse is the sign of an escalation in the violent envious person’s ability to commit violence. As they grow more out of control in this respect, the more likely they are to actually engage in these actions.
The false logic of envy convinces the individual that they have an unfavorable and immutable disadvantage—thus, the other appears enhanced while the individual feels diminished. This depressing, humiliating position generates resentment toward the other. Depending upon developmental experience and other psychosocial factors, the individual with envy may increasingly use projection, projective identification, and experience persecutory thoughts.
The envious other wants to harm or destroy the other’s ability to enjoy these perceived advantages
There may come a point at which the envious person's goal is to harm or destroy the other's ability to enjoy the perceived advantages.
A bizarre scenario is witnessed where someone sacrifices their own life from spite to hurt the envied
. In some cases, extremely envious individuals are willing to spitefully sacrifice their own lives in an act of violence. The act may be felt as revenge for some perceived or actual injustice, but the driving emotion is intolerable envy, consciously recognized by the attacker or not.
We conclude by reviewing the challenges of detecting severe envy and preoccupation with lethality in treatment and in non-treatment settings where threat assessment protocols may be applied.
Obliterative envy is the state of mind arising from overwhelming narcissistic rage and resentment
. Obliterative envy is the state of mind arising from overwhelming narcissistic rage and resentment, leading the individual to destroy the envied other, and simultaneously himself, to negate the detested situation in its entirety. Pseudo-spiritual transformation is the state of mind by which the perpetrator's personal grievance is justified and elevated to the level of a spiritual or religious imperative.
Proximal warning signs are pathway, fixation, identification, novel aggression, energy burst, leakage, last resort, and directly communicated threat
The TRAP-18 consists of 8 proximal warning behaviors—pathway, fixation, identification, novel aggression, energy burst, leakage, last resort, and directly communicated threat—and 10 distal characteristics—
10 distal characteristics are found, however odd patterns shown in intelligence of purposefully creating these conditions should be noted for terroristic envy from the inside themselves
personal grievance and moral outrage, framed by an ideology, failure to affiliate with an extremist or other group, dependence on the virtual community, thwarting of occupational goals, changes in thinking and emotion, failure of sexually intimate pair bonding, mental disorder, greater creativity and innovation, and history of criminal violence.
Acknowledging envy declares one’s inferiority which causes shame
To acknowledge envy is to declare one's felt inferiority, which in turn triggers additional feelings of shame (Ronningstam, 2005).
Enviers can be seen in both ideation of crime and premeditated crime experience a fierce kind of sadistic pleasure when contemplating violence toward the envied
Among all the so-called seven deadly sins (pride, greed, lust, envy, gluttony, wrath, sloth), Milic (2019) argues that envy produces nothing but mental anguish and is devoid of even an initial burst of pleasure or immediate gratification. We would suggest that envy may hold within it both masochistic pleasure, and well as a fierce kind of sadistic pleasure when contemplating violence toward the envied.
Painful and resentful awareness of an advantage enjoyed by another joined with a desire to possess the same advantage can be seen
Confusion of terms has long been the case where envy and jealousy are concerned; examples abound. For instance, “I am jealous of her good looks,” is more accurately an admission of envy. Envy, in its simplest form, is defined in the dictionary as a “painful or resentful awareness of an advantage enjoyed by another, joined with a desire to possess the same advantage” (Merriam-Webster.com, 2021).
Romantic jealousy is fear of loss of mate and mate retention behaviors, and envy is seen as someone threatening to take away advantage personally
Romantic jealousy has been found to be positively correlated with feelings of insecurity, low self-esteem, and mate retention behaviors (Chin et al., 2017). Whereas in envy, advantage is perceived as belonging to the other; in jealousy, a rival is seen as threatening to take away the advantage (Anderson, 2002).
Narcissistic injury too unbearable to tolerate causes violence. A poisoning quality is specific to the violently envious
In the case of both tension states, it is a matter of degree—how much does the negative comparison lead the sufferer to experience painful feelings of inferiority and shame that result in a narcissistic injury too unbearable to tolerate? Is there the potential for narcissistic rage in its various manifestations, including violence? As the UK advice columnist Irma Kurtz wrote, “jealousy fights duels, envy poisons the soup (Kurtz, 1987).” Table 1 lists the comparative characteristics of envy and jealousy.
Insatiability, and excessive willingness to even take out themselves and their own security, even if it be financial, to take out the person they are envious of can be seen in the violently envious person. They are competitive and will do anything to stop being thrown into relief as less advantaged with the envied person.
Moreover, envy is historically and consistently referred to as hidden and insidious (Epstein, 2003; Minou, 2017). Envy may often be denied because of its implication of inferiority, unwarranted malicious temptation in the envier, and especially its potential for destructiveness. Envy increases within the sufferer the likelihood of developing depression, lowers resilience, and destabilizes self-esteem (Xiang et al., 2020). Those laboring under strong envy are insatiable, competitive, and may be willing to sacrifice their own outcomes to diminish the envied person's perceived advantage (Smith & Kim, 2007
As a result, people report greater feelings of envy and inadequacy.
Passively browsing Facebook apparently incites lots of envy in the envy prone who may try to destroy or at least erase the presence of the one who makes them feel that much envy. Out of sight, out of mind for the envier is desired for and they try to make it a reality
Even passively browsing Facebook can lead to negative social comparison, envy, social isolation and a significantly impaired sense of life satisfaction (Morawska, 2019). Younger persons who spend more time on social media are more susceptible to these effects than older persons.
Consumed with envy and shame (violence most likely) becomes over time guilt-ridden and self-punishing as they continue to avoid feelings of narcissistic inaccessibility, aka, being reminded of what they can’t or don’t have.
Klein first theorized that mature development required transition from the persecutory position (consumed with envy and shame) to the depressive position (guilt-ridden and self-punishing) in order to avoid feelings of victimization and narcissistic inaccessibility (Klein, 1975).
Envy can be a driving emotion in some who go on to commit acts of extreme violence
Those with strong paranoid and narcissistic traits have been observed to suffer from a desire to destroy the goodness they perceive they have been unjustly denied. Such individuals seek to destroy the other's ability to enjoy the whole object pleasures of love or achievement (Zizek, 2008). Envy can be a primary driving emotion in some who go on to commit acts of extreme violence (Hyatt-Williams, 1998; Knoll, 2010a, 2010b).
Narcissism starts to distort senses of justice in envy. The “justice sense” suddenly becomes distorted and no longer justice in the envious instantiation.
Other main themes associated with envy in the psychological literature involve the envious person's perception of fairness and justice, narcissism, hostility, and grudge holding (Anderson, 2002; Milic, 2019; Nauta, 2009).
Entitlement is part of envy; the envious feel that they are withholding the goodness or justice of things like “having sex with the girls in the hottest sorority”. Externalization, projection and projective identification can be seen. These individuals show impaired ability for sympathy, empathy, regret, reconciliation or gratitude which all require an ability to see someone else as human who may feel things like they do, aka, an increased disposition to commodify agents is seen.
In the P-S position, the individual's worldview is based on feelings of mistreatment and frustration at what is perceived as intentional harm, injustice, or purposeful withholding of advantages. The P-S position is associated with the use of maladaptive defense mechanisms such as splitting, externalization, projection, and projective identification. Such individuals will have an impaired capacity for sympathy, empathy, regret, reconciliation or gratitude—emotions that necessitate an ability to represent others in one's mind as whole, real, and meaningful individuals. Via projection and projective identification (an incomplete projection wherein the projected content continues to threaten the self), such individuals perceive others as actively persecuting them by withholding the goodness, justice, or fairness to which they feel rightfully entitled (Grotstein, 1981)
Not getting what they feel entitled to is a profoundly depressing and humiliating experience for those who have an excessive predisposition to commodify and then feel entitled to things that should not have ever been commodified
As a result of their perception of intolerable injustice, some may become overwhelmed with a sense of loss that cannot be mourned (Feldman & De Paola, 1994). Grief is subsumed by personal grievance. There is then the potential for hostile revenge fantasies, followed by an unwillingness to forsake a martyrdom fantasy of ultimate and final revenge. Envy may defy common sense, yet its logic can be understood. Envious persons see the object of envy as big or advantaged, while they feel small and disadvantaged. This is a profoundly depressing and humiliating experience for the envious who are left harboring resentment and injustice, emotions which are often a product of depleted omnipotent fantasies (Anderson, 2002).
Defense of projection may hypertrophy to distort their perceptions of others as greedy, spiteful, and intentionally persecutory–aka, someone very rich may start projecting on others as greedy to project off the shame they feel for greed. Or, someone who is antisemitic with lots of wealth may suddenly become fixated on Jews to relieve themselves of the guilt they feel for not helping people.
They may come to experience—whether acknowledged as compensatory or not—a “malicious glee” (schadenfreude) over other's misfortune, which can develop into an addictive like pursuit of sadistic joy over others' sorrows. Their defense of projection may hypertrophy to distort their perceptions of others as greedy, spiteful and intentionally persecutory
Social pain over a perceived failure to meet some internalized level of value is seen
in contrast to the dynamic of a negative comparison defining envy, shame is “a painful feeling of an interrupted sense of joy, relationship, status, or pride, because of exposure of one's failure to meet standards or ideals” (p. 37). The key phrase here is not meeting “standards,” which suggests social pain over a perceived failure to meet some internalized level of value. S
Shame for feeling hate then leads to self-hate, and this suffering sees no relief until they decide to commit extreme violence
A vicious cycle may ensue, in which the envier is ashamed of feeling hateful, and then hates himself for feeling such negative emotions—which make him further aware of his inadequacy. In actuality, we suggest that these powerful negative emotions—shame, envy, hatred of others and hatred of self—are so interrelated that they may all be in play in the sufferer who chooses extreme violence.
Irrational suicidal behavior often called a “psychic death” can be found on people with extreme narcissistic injury and envy.
Gilligan's interpretations may not explain all instances of extreme violence, but they are consistent with what we call the obliterative mindset. The perpetrator has lost the capacity for undistorted judgment and to sublimate aggression. The “self” is already dead. He is now ready to override the survival instinct and fully embrace a drive toward death (Anderson, 2006).
A deep sense of victimizations promotes a righteous vengeance that then aggressively devalues the other to promote the self, as they do not feel like they will compare organically without aggressively manufacturing the devaluation of the other
. In the distorted logic of severe envy, a deep sense of victimization allows martyrdom and/or righteous vengeance to devalue the other and promote the self to heroic status.
The envious person decides he is going to show the world his true self, which in the end is nothing but another terrorist, one of many people who did nothing with their lives but just kill other people out of rage, envy and entitlement
Intolerable conditions and even the imperfect self are wiped clean, leaving only the perpetrator's final judgment, which is not open to appeal. The violent extremist warped by severe envy is drawn to a statement of self-affirmation to counteract overwhelming shame. By obliterating the unacceptable reality, his sacrifice seems worthwhile to him to re-establish his sense of self. Or as the violent perpetrator Elliot Rodger wrote: “Finally, at long last, I can show the world my true worth” (E.R. Manifesto, 2014). The paradox, however, is compelling: obliterating the actual self to realize just before death the perfect and omnipotent self.
Around the time of extremism, rigidity can be seen and is palpable on the one engaged in covert or overt acts
. Beliefs in the superiority of one's cause become rigidly fixed and overvalued (Rahman et al., 2019).
Extreme imbalances of what is given from what is taken is a clear signs of extreme envy, suggesting economic abuse is motivated by envy in many cases
: “Everything is gone. What I own is just gonna be a pittance compared to what I am going to take.” The distorted logic of severe envy can be seen at play in MH's statement: “It's a kind of a community that in order for you to get ahead, you have to keep the neighbor down. It's not…you know, building yourself up on your own merit, it's tear the other guy down.” There is no ambivalence or relativity at this point for MH. His world is split into only those who are building up and those who are tearing down. Deep in his persecutory position, MH gives about as clear an explanation, in our opinion, of the logic of violent, destructive envy as can be found in such cases:
Genocidal obliteration is seen on those so envious they become violent
. When I do this, that levels the playing field in my favor, so now we've got a lopsided playing field because when I come back at you, I'm gonna destroy your side of the playing field
Addicted to revenge, they make patently unreasonable decisions
Various townspeople interviewed in the documentary note how MH had been given numerous financially appealing options, including an offer of six times what he paid for his land. The object of MH's envy was his perception of the success of several businessmen whose family had lived in the town for generations. Offers to provide MH with a financially advantageous resolution held no sway since he was fully in the grip of an obliterative mindset. Or, as the town news editor stated, “He had a way out. He had a way out to make some good money and, and go on about his life, but he chose that path for whatever reason.” Instead, he narrowed his focus and proceeded according to the dictates of violent envy and revenge.
Peacefulness after extreme painful turbulence is a tell-tale sign of premeditated homicidal action in the envious
Tied to these signs of PST is MH's statement that “a peace came over me…,” perhaps describing an almost spiritual feeling of relief after having finally resigned himself to die. Such descriptions of emotional reprieve have been associated with anticipatory and relief-oriented permissive beliefs in suicidal crises (Del-Monte & Graziani, 2020). Perpetrators of mass murder and other forms of targeted homicide-suicide have similarly described a state of peacefulness and relief that arises once they have come to terms with their own death as not only inevitable and acceptable, but planned, either by their own hand or as a “suicide-bycop.”
“I wasn’t supposed to caught”; an exceptionalism is seen on the violently envious
ambivalence. MH proceeds to strengthen and amplify his violent intent via a combination of PST and teleological thinking: “I wasn't supposed to get caught! God built me to be here to prove to you that what you have been doing for God knows how many years is wrong.”
Resolving the crisis would be an intolerable sign of weakness and inferiority (Gilligan & Richards, 2021).
This statement suggests his intensifying envy, often apparent in pathologically narcissistic states and traits (Kernberg, 1992). What MH deserves is beyond question, and now God expects him to harm the objects of his envy. The conviction of transcendent moral and spiritual righteousness is a common justification for violent lashing out by those in the persecutory position. Resolving the crisis nonviolently would require more psychological degrees of freedom and capacity for gratitude and empathy than MH possessed. To him it would be an intolerable sign of weakness and inferiority (Gilligan & Richards, 2021).
When people are happy an aggressive raging need to ruin it is seen on the envious
As poetically described by Gilligan and Richards (2021), the most direct, immediate and literal way to wipe tormentors' mocking smiles from their faces is to make them weep through violence.
Fixation is a huge sign of extreme envy and ability to commit envy-based violence
MH's PST would be associated with the TRAP-18 (Meloy, 2017) distal characteristic of Changes in Thinking and Emotion. These changes are often complex, and appear to occur in three domains: interpersonal relations become more limited and isolation increases; there is evidence of fantasy that is both grandiose and violent (often leaked through social media); and emotions shift from just anger, to also contempt and disgust for the target. We also see continued TRAP-18 evidence of the proximal warning behavior of Fixation, in this case motivated by extreme overvalued beliefs (Meloy & Rahman, 2020). Fixation, a preoccupation with a person or a cause that is accompanied by deterioration in work and love, is often the first proximal warning behavior to appear in a case of targeted violence (Meloy et al., 2021).
Last resort behavior can be seen when they think they were never going to get caught, a desperate attempt to commit violent envious action to secure the envied’s punishment for making them feel envy
Last Resort proximal warning behavior is defined as a violent action and time imperative: the person must act, and he must act now. Such warning behavior is often precipitated by a triggering event—often a loss in love or work--or one that is anticipated, and is sometimes accompanied by feelings of desperation or distress (Meloy, 2017).
Envy that powerful pushes them into the obliterative mindset, where violence occurs
Such intense devaluation of the desired object suggests envy powerful enough to push him into the obliterative mindset.
ER repeatedly used the word “envy” to describe his misery.
ER repeatedly used the word “envy” to describe his misery. He understood the difference between envy and jealousy, which he also experienced at an early age when there would be a third boy on playdates with his best friend (E.R. Manifesto, 2014).
He shows that the desire to torture is motivated by envy, showing that envy is indeed a product of envy and with it its links to narcissism
ER went to a Starbucks coffee shop there, where he became “livid with envious hatred” upon seeing a couple kissing. He proceeded to throw his coffee on them. What he actually fantasized doing was to “kill them slowly… strip the skins off their flesh.” The sight of a couple enjoying themselves brought out sadistic urges to destroy them, but not before torturing them by removing the very organ they would use to enjoy each other—their skin.
Entitlement is also linked to the torture as envy milieu saying “if I cannot have it, I will destroy it”. That is extreme entitlement
Just as MH described the true nature of destructive envy so well, so does ER, with jarring precision: “If I cannot have it, I will destroy it.
A hatred for someone from a younger generation enjoying things they didn’t can be seen in the envious
That was the day that I decided I would have to kill him on the Day of Retribution. I will not allow the boy to surpass me at everything, to live the life I've always wanted. It's not fair that he has the chance to have a pleasurable life while I've been denied it. It will be a hard thing to do, because I had really bonded with my little brother in the last year, and he respected and looked up to me. But I would have to do it. If I can't live a pleasurable life, then neither will he!
Fixation and pathological preoccupation followed by deterioration is seen on those who are capable of and/or commit envious violent action
The ER case is rife with examples of the proximal warning behavior of Fixation on the TRAP-18: “an increasingly pathological preoccupation with a person or a cause, accompanied by a deterioration in social and occupational life” (Meloy, 2017)
Envy based torture premeditation and enaction is seen on those envious who fit the description for TRAP-18
When ER saw the couple kissing at Starbucks he also wanted to kill them, “slowly.” What he actually did was throw coffee on them (and, incidentally, at great risk of physical retaliation). Such a behavior is an example of the proximal warning behavior on the TRAP-18 of Novel Aggression: “an act of violence that appears unrelated to any targeted violence pathway and is committed for the first time” (Meloy et al., 2012), and is done to test one's violent capability.
Acute narcissistic injury can trigger a suicidal crisis
An acute narcissistic injury in the patient's life could trigger a suicidal crisis in the absence of a depressed state. Ronningstam (2005) discussed the various meanings of suicidality in narcissistic patients, among them, an illusion of control and mastery (as well as preserving the perfect self), a shield against anticipated narcissistic injuries (death before dishonor), and an act of revenge: an individual may commit suicide to spite someone else.
Even envious hatred for therapists can be found, with therapists witnessing boredom with the sessions and withdrawing from direct engagement. This suggests extreme dispositional envy.
. He may pronounce boredom with the sessions or withdraw from direct engagement; his envious hatred may be hidden underneath an attitude of indifference. Alternatively, he may attempt to compete with the therapist, claiming superior knowledge or understanding (Abraham, 1927)
Envious individuals suffer from an encapsulated murderous aspect of their personalities
…most envious individuals suffer from an encapsulated murderous aspect of their personalities. If this concealed enclave is suddenly detonated by external circumstances, homicidal or suicidal violence can erupt.
Envious people see the world as zero-sum and try to reinforce back to zero-sum when people prove it is not inherently zero-sum. They will aggressively try to renormalize it back to where their envy seems less pathological and distorted.
In the zero-sum game of envy, there is a myth that if someone has something good, the other person is diminished. A major goal of therapy is to help patients see that self-esteem is not dependent on what someone else has and that their accomplishments are not connected to those of others. The therapist works to interpret to the patient that his zero-sum view undermines the chance in his life that he and others can simultaneously feel successful and gratified (pp. 128–129).
Envy influences the subject’s violent motives
s. Understanding the powerful psychodynamics of severe envy, the obliterative mindset and pseudo-spiritual transformation, contribute to the knowledge base for threat assessment practice. Threat assessment clinicians on these teams may identify the signs of envy, often subtle or revealed indirectly, and its influence on a subject's violent motives.
Desire for revenge becomes so powerful they commit revenge-based homicide or attempt it, and may even sacrifice their own lives and careers just because of the burning narcissistic envy
When the desire for revenge is powerful enough, such individuals may conclude an act of lethal violence is wholly necessary and the only logical remedy, even if it means sacrificing their own lives.
This act of extreme violence risks the lives of both self and other while providing a relatively brief period of shelter from intense narcissistic injury.
Obliterative envy describes the process by which envy, and its related mental and emotional states, are negated through an act of extreme violence. This act of extreme violence risks the lives of both self and other while providing a relatively brief period of shelter from intense narcissistic injury. Pseudo-spiritual transformation is the perpetrator's belief that violent revenge, in response to a personal grievance, is being guided and sanctified by some transcendent power, usually of personal religious significance.
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