Can u smoke ritalin

Milk: Best when from a bong

2012.11.07 02:49 Snoopy7393 Milk: Best when from a bong

A subreddit for big ole milky Bong rips, not big ole milky....other things........ Merch: https://milkingmerch.myspreadshop.com Discord: https://discord.gg/DC7ytrpQF9 Sister sub to CompetitiveStoners
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2010.06.17 06:10 tokepuppet r/saplings: a place to learn about cannabis use and culture

saplings: a place to learn about cannabis use and culture
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2008.07.29 03:14 A hookah community - Come smoke with us!

Come one come all, if you enjoy smoking hookah, making shisha or just chilling with your friends this is the place for you. /Hookah is a place to talk about all things related to hookah and hookah accessories. From coals, shisha, bowls, pipes, bases, stems, grommets, hoses, ash catchers, foil, screens, covers, gauges, filters & smoke.
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2024.05.20 08:46 Educational_Buddy223 Seeking Advice on Moving to Denmark from Turkey

Hej allesammen,
I'm seeking some guidance and advice on moving to Denmark from Turkey. My name is Tai, and I'm 22 years old (please read the p.s. part at the bottom). I'm currently living in Istanbul, Turkey. The thing I want is to move closer to Denmark because I have someone I deeply care about who lives there, and being close to them would make me incredibly happy, this is a very well thought thing and I have considered every risk from a social perspective so please, I don't want to talk about whether I should do this or not, I have decided that I want to move. I'm educating myself in 3D modeling and looking for a job that aligns with my skills and helps me achieve my goal. I'm open to other job opportunities that could facilitate my move to Denmark. Also currently I'm learning Danish and making progress, but I'm still at a beginner level. Any tips on learning the language more effectively would be greatly appreciated. I also want to add that I am very confident in my skills about learning the language, so if it's needed, I will learn it. My financial resources are limited, so I'm trying to find remote work or freelance opportunities that allow me to save money and prepare for the move, or even better I'm ready from day one to relocate to Denmark for any job I can do or any job that offers training. I'm aware that moving to another country involves navigating complex visa processes, finding employment, and adapting to a new culture. I'm much more than willing to work hard and make necessary sacrifices to be able to see my dream come true.
Some of the things I had in mind:
  1. What are the most accessible pathways for a Turkish citizen to move to Denmark? Are there specific visa programs or job sectors that I should focus on?
  2. Can anyone recommend effective resources for learning Danish quickly and efficiently?
  3. Are there particular job boards or platforms where I can find remote work or job opportunities in Denmark?
  4. Any general advice or personal experiences from those who have made a similar move?
    • p.s. I have 2 years of work experience working at a Business Debt Adjustment company in U.S.A. as a Negotiator, Closer and Customer Service Rep., I can speak English and Turkish natively and Spanish around B1 level. I'm rusty with video editing but I used to do commissions, I'm willing to get back on track with it and learn it again if there's an opportunity. I can use Figma at an intermediate level. And lastly I can use Blender well for hardsurface modelling, intermediate with animation and texturing. I also had 3.7 GPA in Uni while I was majoring both Architecture and American Studies but I had to drop out due to the incredibly high inflation rates in my country, that is the reason why I worked at that company or tried to educate myself to earn money, I didn't really have any other choice due to having a family that can't support me. I wanted to study and finish school but I could not.
Thank you in advance for any help or advice you can provide. I'm determined to make this move happen and would be grateful for any support. If you have anything to ask I'd be glad to answer, I'll do anything to be able to receive help. As I said before, this is really, really important for me.
Best regards,
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2024.05.20 08:41 KnightInNomexArmour Completely confused.

I stopped off at my local McDonalds last week. Once I got to the second window I noticed this totally smoking gorgeous blonde. I really didn't pay any attention to her at first but I did notice that she would glance, smile and look away. Several times. During the time I was waiting. She also dif the hole small talk thing..how's your night going. Blah blah blah...I left. On the way home I started thinking about her eye contact and why she would look at me and the look to the side a few seconds later. Tonight I stopped off on the way to work. She was working the window and again I notice her look at me, smile and look away. Even while she was making my coffee. I left and immediately turned around and ordered a other coffee. Once I got to her window I asked for her name. It was beyond obvious she was nervous and shy. She did tell me her first name and before I left she whispered almost to the point to where I couldn't hear her " I have a boyfriend" I left acting like I didn't hear her....can someone tell me what's going on?
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2024.05.20 08:41 shotxcs [WTS][TX] LWA LM4, GBB PISTOLS, LWA AKG GBB, ETC

hey everyone please take your time as I do my very best to describe the condition of everything accurately, in order to eliminate questions. Regardless feel free to reach out to me. All prices are shipped and fee'd via Paypal! Willing to negotiate on bundle purchases!
High Res Nudes: https://imgur.com/a/m1OJTjU
KWA LM4 - little beat up but functions great. only thing to complain about is the bolt catch doesn't always catch. brand new OEM nozzle just installed today. $425 as pictured shipped. $325 shipped just gun and mag.
G&P MAGPUL WOC - next is a fully custom Magpul edition WOC GBBR. Gun functions great with the included ProWin 20rd magazine. Gun is full metal and the previous owner told me it had all steel internals. One thing to note is that it is picky with magazines, It does not function perfectly with WOC PMAGS. This gun is compatible with GHK GMAGS, However it will require a bit of sanding inside the Magwell. Ive started the sanding process but I don’t have the time to finish the project. dummy peq, and red dot is untested. Comes as pictured $320 shipped
SOLD Modify OTS-126** - Fired once and in beautiful condition. comes with a total of 5 short mags. 4 of the mags are leak free, 1 mag upon a full fill will spit back a little but still retains a healthy amount of gas. will include gun, x5 mags, and the red dot, the red dot is a red/green and functions great. original box can be included upon request. Looking for $340 Shipped SOLD
KWA AKG74 - works great but charging handle snapped off. Comes as pictured x2 mags 1 mag has small leak. the stock is after market so it doesn't snap into place when folded. $250 shipped
AIRSOFT GI G4- this is an old school GI G4, not 100% sure on exact model. Gun functions great and has a brand new maple leaf 70 degree bucking. Optic not included. Inner barrel is exposed due to short outer barrel but does have threads for a suppressor. $180 shipped for just the gun and mag. $200 shipped with eotech
WE Colt 1911 MEU - This gun functions amazing, includes x1 leak free mag. It's full metal and feels very good in the hand. The MEU Grips were added, Looking for $85 shipped
SOLD APS MANTIS** - almost brand new, never left the house. x1 non leaky c02 mag. $115 shipped, will include a rear iron sight. SOLD
OPS TACTICAL 1911 - gun is effectively brand new works great x1 non leaky mag. $85 shipped
WE GALAXY - gun is brand new never used. this is the 1911 variant. comes with rmr, but rmr is untested and assumed to be boneyard. x1 non leaky mag $115 shipped
BLACK 1911 - this is the gun under the apex m4. selling as boneyard but is likely an easy fix, not sure what the problem is. does not include a mag. $40 shipped
1911 WITH WOOD GRIPS - works great, missing thumb safety. includes x1 non leaky mag. $60 shipped
KWA KM4 - As you can see this gun is heavily used, but was also purposefully worn by previous owner. The Gun works and a shooting video can be provided at request. however the gun does not shoot in full auto (not sure if previous owner semi locked it) if so it's an easy fix. the gun depending on what mag you use sometimes double fires on semi. this would make an amazing base for a build. The gun is entirely metal, upper and lower receiver and rail, making it very heavy for an aeg. wired to deans, requires a slim battery to fit in buffer. includes gun as pictured and one mag. Looking for $140 shipped
KWA KZ75 - this gun shows many signs of use but functions great. Includes a total of 5 mags all leak free. 3 of the mags are missing their baseplates but this doesn't affect their function. Looking for $175 shipped
SNOW WOLF BARRETT AEG - gun functions great and has never left the house. Cosmetic wear from storage. I was told from the previous owner it had upgrades but I was never given specifics. However I do know that it takes a 11.1v Lipo or stronger to cycle the gearbox. Needless to say it does function.Comes as pictured $260 shipped
SOLD CYBERGUN M249 FEATHERWEIGHT - gun functions great. It is not pictured but it will include the heat shield and original bipod. Only thing to note is that the two body pins that secure the stock to the receiver are gone. I have improvised one of the pins and it holds fairly firm. A replacement pin or screw is an easy hardware store fix. It additionally includes the green box mag but Ive never been able to get a consistent feed from it. Everything upon inspection looks normal but idk, maybe easy fix for someone who knows more about the platform. However the gun feeds great using m4 mags. Comes as pictured $200 SOLD
Esstac kywi - multicam double 5.56 short pouches x2. Brand new. Comes with malice clips. $45 shipped
Id like to stay as close to listed prices as possible but feel free to shoot me an offer. I will prioritize people interested in bundling multiple items I am also willing to make a deal on bundled items will give someone a deal if you take it all! CONUS only No returns or refunds Please ask questions before purchasing NO TRADES Thanks for looking!
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2024.05.20 08:41 Leather-Cupcake4874 React + Nodejs or React + Spring boot?

I see mostly kids doing mern projects But spring boot also can be used for backend. So with react which is better. In hackathons have u seen anyone use spring boot ?
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2024.05.20 08:40 Swimming-House-2935 Dealing with it?

I have a friend back in Illinois and he's on parole but his time has not been the greatest at all. He's bounced around quite a few times due to some homeless shelters, halfway houses, and living situations not being the best. He explained that due to his allergies he couldn't eat certain things and some shelters refused a substitute and some days he only went days of eating only bread and cookies. He expressed this to staff and they did nothing. Some of them even said to stop "letting things get to him". At some other places even broke in his lockers Long story short the guy went on the run and then turned himself in. But his reputation is completely damaged or so he says. The only work he can find is fast food places but even then he is very thought provoked on these jobs. Like either someone is trying to walk past him fast to get him startled or even get under his skin to encourage him to quite. It's almost like they want him to keep bouncing around because it's making him look so unstable. He says this is something very dark and deep because he would write his mother letters about how corrupt the system was, how they should change it and everything. I'm assuming he thought he could actually rehabilitate himself in prison but we all know what prison is truly about. I believe he's in a very difficult situation and his environment is constantly indirectly influencing him to self destruct. Whenever he works out and takes care of his body that's when so many people start to attack. When he quits smoking weed and drinking. But whenever he slips up then the vibe is completely different. It seems like he's really in a hate situation, dirty corrupt situation, and he's against himself as well. I don't think he can make it. There is so much more to this I can't go into and he didn't provide enough details. But something is really going on with my friend and I'm believing he's trapped.
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2024.05.20 08:39 Realzy_YT A fight?

A fight?
Hi, I just wanna explain how did the fight happends.
Now when I were scrolling down I saw theres a big fight going on with u/itzyy_piee and u/real_Sniper_Duel. I didn't wanna see it cause I notice I might just take sides. Well Can I explain how did it happends? I already understand!
Well I saw it seems fake that they looks fighting but not really cause I belive real sniper is not for fighting or his not fighting to the subreddit cause theres rule number 3. Well I re-search to Bing Ai/Copilot It saids here:

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  • For me itzyy is cutiekeyy? I'm not sure with it cause I'm not taking sides. I'm just thingking why did cutiekeyy wanted to defend itzyy? Cause they were friends and cousins. However Between cutiekeyy and itzyy they are not the same of identity.

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  • Second of all, I just saw Itzyy and Moon began to fight. As I've seen Moon tries to share the other members of this subreddit that itzyy is cutiekeyy. Well Itzyy also said Moon might be "overlooked" by a link of cutiekeyy. For me I'm not taking sides! But in second thought Moon might be false also itzyy. Very possible Moon can be overlooked, Moon also might be false too cause itzyy is in a different country and cutiekeyy, Also I saw cutiekeyy has no links. And now itzyy said "you might be overlooked by the links" and moon send "NO I NEVER BEEN OVERLOOKED I SEE THE LINK OF CUTIEKEYY AND ITS YOUR ACCOUNT AND YOU DELETED IT" in second thought how will she deleted it even tho she don't know what links are you talking about? Theres also a point itzyy. Why do you need to apologize fast? Also in same hours when cutiekeyy said the post in the first place in same hours you just commented quickly? That's so insane are you a robot?
  • Also another thing, I'm not taking sides. real_Sniper never do that such things also itzyy just already edited the message "I almost banned" No you aren't? the moderator is trying to teach you how to post bloxd io related content. Real sniper also never fight between a member here cause he knows what his doing! Also how'd cutiekeyy knows real sniper removed itzyy's post? How?? even Grogaton is the one who removed her post cause it's not related.
  • Also I'm not trying to say itzyy is a LIAR, No! She isn't she might just wanted cutiekeyy to remove her post cause it's shame? Yea it is, also cutiekeyy have to learn! She didn't even read the rl3 "No Fighting" But she's the one who started the fight, That's why Real_Sniper is the one who got blamed it's also cutiekeyy's fault because she just blamed real_Sniper even tho it's not the one who did it.

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  • It seems Copilot is wrong to be honest cause other LOGGED OUT accounts from itzyy were there, Also She did got banned but? She have allot of accounts? Lots... Well Bing.Ai is wrong! Also other members of reddit got un-real identities that they don't want to share on Not trying to say cutiekeyy is itzyy_piee 1 point How'd Bing ai explain that? Itzyy and cutiekeyy sounds familiar eachother cause I've thought cutiekeyy were itzyy cause I think itzyy is intentional to type the good grammar and cutiekeyy in a BAD grammar?

Hope this explain everything 😊

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2024.05.20 08:38 woah-that-sucks PHYSICS For NEET ( FAQs)-

Seeing a similar post regarding Biology compelled me to make one for physics, to clear some basic questions people have regarding physics.
1. Lets address the most imp ques, do we need to read ncert?
ans- if you were a 2 year student i would have not mind if you read it all , but i will suggest for droppers to read a) Unit dimension and error b) surface tension c) viscocity and elasticity d) magnetism and matter e) EM waves f) wave optics g) modern physics
2. points to ponder?
ans- at the end of every chapter has Summary and points to ponder, i'd recommend everyone to go through that for every chapter.
3. Any other theory part?
ans- i'd recommend to listen in class carefully and note down everything that your teacher is teaching such as-
* validity of all laws ( coloumb's law , biot savart, gauss law) - you need to have proper understanding of what these laws and formulae intent to do and get me .. sometimes questions come from direct definiton of these laws.
*you need to have a tabular notes of certain things like Conservative and non conservative forces , relation between electrostatics and magnetostatics etc.
4. can i skip any chapter / any chapter is less important?
ans- don't be a phantom please , give justice to every single chapter .. but if you think you have good control over certain chapters .. do less practice in that.
5. does LONG CHAPTER mean MORE Questions in NEET?
ans- HELL NO.! many long chapters that take months to cover, have negligible apperance in neet , classic example WAVES ( Neet 23-1Q and NEET 24- 0Q) and similarly COM and fluid motion.
This is just to tell you that , if you are not able to understand a big chapter doesnt mean its over for u
HOWEVER, it doesnt mean that you'd leave it either, not understanding waves will fuck your EMW and you'd regret it .
6. Important and scoring chapters?
ans- Modern physics is the low hanging fruit for everyone. it is easy and really scoring so is AC and Current electricity , and even Elasticity and EMW gaurantee 3-4 Q and most neglected UNIT AND DIMENSIONS.
7. is there any shortcut?
ans- NONE. in physics , just follow the same way of doing it , watch lectures solve dpp , solve your module/question bank , and move on to next chapter and keep revising the old things. More question practice for weaker chapters for u. Thats it.
8. Do i need to do any topics from deleted syllabus?
ans- i personally would say , DONT LEAVE RADIOACTIVITY , have basic knowledge of ROLLING MOTION , EDDY CURRENTS, POTENTIOMETER thats it.
dont even go for topics like , davisson germer exp, lc oscillations, earths magnetism , forced damped osscilation, cyclotron etc.
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2024.05.20 08:37 Competitive-Clock232 This dude just posted his mobile no. in the Clan Chat 💀

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2024.05.20 08:36 whodoeszxc M4F PRINCESS TREATMENT BA KAMO WHY NOT CHOOSE ME 🙋‍♂️

Hi, Ladies its been a year now since I lost my lover boy era and I've been in solidarity for quite a while now, So I think this is the time na to be my Princess perks is undivided attention morale booster will make sure that ur feelings are always known and ur thoughts are always heard.
Something bout me: Inked Working Memelord Can cook Loves to gala every weekends Can make u laugh till u forget am ugly
Something bout you. 23 and Up.
I hope andito kana
HMU with ur intros or kahet Hi na lang bahala kana 😅
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2024.05.20 08:36 Cold_Farm_9257 I want to make club

Hey I'm a 13 yr old going to high school next yr and I really want to be a lib but I'm really tall for my age RN I'm 5'8 which is tall for a 13 yr old there is a club vball place where I live that is regarded as the best vball club u can get on and I really wanna try and make that team but the team is really good u had to be able to jump float serve this yr for tryouts next yr its jump serve I have five ish months to tryout and ur prob wondering why not tryout for ur high school team
Well my high school team is really bad at vball they have the reputation of worse vball team but the high school close to my house is known as the best high school for vball but my parents care more abt education than sports so i m going to high school that's bad at sport
I really want to be a libero but I'm tall and I don't think they would want a tall person as a libero and there's this guy in my school who is better than me shorter than me and a rally good player and he can do dives and stuff RN he can kinda jump serve and I can jump serve ish but ik its bad form I normally serve over hand and I can float serve sometimes RN I'm a 65% w float serve
My questions are how can I make club thats really good 15u? Should I go to open gyms and play with grade 12 vball players but I'm scared? What should I pratice? Should I worry abt my height? What should I practice to be libero? How much can I improve by practicing everyday this summer? Does peppering w ppl improve ur skills? Can I be libero? What should my summer vball practice routine look like for my age group for a rlly good club? How hard are club tryouts? If u have any questions ask mee in the comments! Ill do updates during summer and after tryouts
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2024.05.20 08:36 PlusMann ex-flipy-cuse me?

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2024.05.20 08:35 InterestingHabit16 Colon cancer how to live longer?

My dad has stage 4 colon cancer since 2021. Everyday I am so afraid of losing him :( He is currently getting chemotherapy at Sengkang Gen Hospital. Do u know anyone who has lived long with this ca? What recommendations can you give, I want to spend many more years with my dad. I already lost my mom to CA as well.. thank you!
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2024.05.20 08:35 Etherealmama3 Striking the match, and just cannot stop pouring the gas

TW mention of childhood trauma, fertility; ab*rtion and miscarriage
I (26, F) live with my partner (28 M) of two and a half years and our Irish twins (19 months and 5 months old) we have a long and complicated history to say the least. (10+ years) A timeline for some context would be that we met young, freshman and juniors in high school; we went to different schools, made up, broke up a few times and always kept a very tight friendship in between young spouts of infidelity and overall teen bs. In my youth I experienced many pregnancy complications, which led to some emotional trauma for me. (More context here; one miscarriage was my partner’s when we were young and I didn’t tell him— it wasn’t right, but a confusing time for me) Through everything we always came back to each other. I lived a rougher life with minimal support, while his parents fawned over him constantly, and always had a higher quality of life. (Not yucky rich people, people who worked hard and wanted their child to enjoy the benefits). His parents loved me and I kept him far away from my family’s mess. That is, until I got pregnant.
My partner and I, let’s call him Drew, were not together at the time I conceived our first child. I told him the truth- he wasn’t my only current partner and that I respected him enough to tell him outright immediately; I told him that I love him, and I would chose him, and would consider and ab*rtion even though it would destroy me. I would do it, to earn trust back, and solidify us together again, as I’ve always wanted. He said he could never let me do that, but the fact that I put that out on the table showed how much I valued him in this time. We slowly worked on us, and welcomed our first healthy baby together! It was so beautiful! He meant my family, I slowly realized again why I kept them away, but I put my best foot fwd to build a strong “family” foundation.
I felt myself treading on eggshells emotionally because I knew he was taking on a lot- id moved in with him and his parents for us to save money and get secure, he worked full time, and prepared fully for a baby he wasn’t sure would be his. (Context: we only found out our first child was his recently through paternity, we did not test @ the hospital as the child arrived premature and emotionally we clung together tho feelings may have been unresolved— Drew secretly got a test recently) I’m sure there was plenty he has not said to me as he worked through his emotions and fell so madly in love with our child so quickly, that everything went to the side. ALTHOUGH we were going out once a week, and were the happiest at this point in my opinion. I had no postpartum issues and things were moving in a positive direction!
We begin to find normal life again when BOOM! Baby #2– this time— Drew was thrilled! Bouncing around ecstatic! This pregnancy was ALSO very healthy! Very good! Both made me very sick, but I managed better than many women who get it far far worse than I did. This is where some conflict arrises. At this point with baby number 2, I want to move out. Asap. Obviously he’s breadwinner but long story short, we move out. We’ve now been here 6 months and things have gotten bad as of recent. My family lives very close by, which has caused some conflict. I start to see “expectations” being let down. With ourfirst child I was SO SAD that he didn’t get me flowers, so I’d assumed (stupid I know) that he would get some for me, and it wouldn’t happen, for example.
I feel like I’ve gotten no postpartum care after our second child. He was “exhausted” in the hospital when I was recovering and not paying much attention to me. When we got home, no real physical affection that didn’t feel sexually driven. I can’t explain it? Like he just didn’t care about me anymore? I tried explaining and felt low key bullied out of everything I was feeling, “that’s not what I meant, I’m sorry” I’d believe it, we move on. At a point it began feeling too disrespectful. Mind you, now I’m only a few weeks PP, still bl*eding from birth and really needing to feel loved, but in a different way? More emotional. I’ve only had my last child 14 months prior before his one was born, my body and brain are traumatized to say the least- at this point. Things escalate.
We get into heated arguments that I begin SCREAMING. He gets disrespectful and dismissive which sends me spiraling, and we go back and forth for a few weeks. I will explain, in detail, what I need, and still won’t get it. Or may receive a snarky remark on why I didn’t get treated the way I asked- after a while of this repeating- I finally snap. I put my hands on him. I disgusted myself. I shook in anger and he laughed in a way I’ve never seen. It terrifies me. It’s happened one other time now, which was worse than the first. This ends up happening as a result of him trying to retreat to sleep, where I feel dismissed, and frankly just gross that he leaves me in tears to sleep, that u stomp into the room and continue the argument. He will say things like “I just can’t do this I am too tired” and “I don’t care I’m too tired to care” and I continue to spiral. I emotionally abuse him when I go in and just cannot let it go, but I cannot sleep from the anxiety of an unresolved issue (especially ones where he is very mean and stomps off to sleep, something in my brain is so abandoned in that moment I almost demand him to love me like he claims he does) it is like my fight or flight like I need him to help me calm down because I love him and want to feel safe with him.
More context; this man has NEVER been mean to me. I believe this is a result of him not being watered/appreciated out loud by me, but always needing to “provide something” for me. The issue is the things he does (a lot) don’t need to be done. But the few small things I NEED done are never ever done (example, a clean bottle for the 6am feed before bed to help me a little) instead I wake up to a sink full of bottles and starving baby. Etc. so because I am SO LOW I feel unable to provide that nurture for him. When I beg for that nurture he claims to not have it for me. He doesn’t listen to me, constantly does things I ask him not to, etc. I love him so much. I just feel so hated. I feel like he has never been sorry for things in our past, nor is he sorry about how I feel now, he just wants me to shut up (he doesn’t say that, he doesn’t even yell). More context I do work FT as well as care for our children alongside him. I over extend myself to many friends and am very extroverted so he doesn’t mind me going out a few days a week for an hour or two to relax. In many ways I am SO lucky to have him!!! In others, his words and actions feel so spiteful and resentful. I feel so overwhelmed and like I am giving my all, but have no safe place to fal. I also believe I provide him that same feeling.
Tonight, I drug him out of bed again, I needed him so badly. He was too tired. He ended it with “maybe this is just who you are. Maybe I just don’t love you” then fell asleep. A few minutes later, I woke him quietly after I cried, moved him to th bed where he said “I love you”. And it just hurts.
I feel like I single handedly destroyed my best friend and the love of my life from postpartum anxiety. Please help me get better (I know I need therapy badly I am looking into it immediately) I am so lost. Please help me.
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2024.05.20 08:33 hsquat00 Please update Helldivers 2

Please update Helldivers 2
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Armor
  • Magazine +50% (weapon without a bag) / Recoil reduced by 30%
  • Magazine +50% / Fire damage received reduced by 75%

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Secondary Weapon
  • Flash Grenade Launcher
  • Smoke Grenade Launcher
  • SIMON Pistol (Armor-piercing & strong knockback)

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Grenades
  • Shield Grenade
  • Landmine
  • Claymore Installation

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Support Weapon
  • Spear - Attacks heavily armored enemies
  • Machine Gun - Additional ammo bag
  • Guard Dog (Supporter) - Stores support weapons & reloads team weapons
  • Guard Dog (EMS) - Stuns lightly armored enemies
  • Ballistic shield can be set up on the ground

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Stratajam
  • Orbit - God's Rod (GI Joe - Zeus)
  • Orbit - Arc Strike
  • Eagle - Gas Strike

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Sentry
  • Can detonate all mines at once
  • Arc Mine
  • Prioritizes attacking large enemies (Rocket)
  • Prioritizes attacking small enemies (Gatling)
  • Railgun Mounted Cannon
  • Laser Cannon Mounted Cannon
  • EXO-45 Weapon Inversion
  • EXO-?? Arc & EMS

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Ship Upgrades
  • Patriot - Calls set weapon ammunition (set 480s, bag 240s)
  • Orbit - Install additional orbital turrets
  • Eagle - Increases Eagle penetration power
  • Bridge - Gas attack weakens enemy armor
  • Bay - Sync with EXO suit & mounted cannons and guard dogs (Jam throwing, combat assistance, etc.)
  • Engineering - Enhances sentry and delivered by Pelican

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Boost: Mechanized Infantry
  • Light Armor: Speed +10, Stamina +10
  • Medium Armor: Speed +20, Stamina +20
  • Heavy Armor: Speed +40, Stamina +40
  • Increases jump distance

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Boost: Elite Training
  • Reload speed increase
  • Support Weapon: +40%
  • Main Weapon: +20%

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Boost: Coolant
  • Energy type reload speed increase: +33%
  • Fire damage received reduced by 75%

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Boost: Conductor
  • Energy type charging time reduced: +33%
  • Jetpack charging time reduced: +33%

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Boost: Sight
  • Helps with visibility
  • Detects invisibility

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Others
  • Rebel bombardment begins right after Pelican escape
  • Invincible when boarding Pelican, cannot be retried after call
  • Spend credits to customize the ship
  • Spend samples to change armor color
  • Interactions with ship crew and emoticons
  • Improve ship observation deck
  • Decorate ship ARMORY
  • Ping to mention the enemy's superior class name (e.g., Stalker Titan)
  • Display route on the selection screen map (drawing)

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Enemy
  • Hot Planet: Reduced robot spawn, increased bug spawn
  • Cold Planet: Increased robot spawn, reduced bug spawn
  • Dragonfly: Disables some Eagles
  • Moth: Generates surrounding spores (e.g., Sphere)
  • Antlion: Weakens ground - area slow
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2024.05.20 08:31 frogsincrowns never done this before and shit is hard

this is my first reddit post lol and ofc it’s about my boyfriend bc i love his ass. he just turned 20 and im about to be 19(f) and we’ve been dating for 6 months now. i moved to MA for college and met him there, he went to a different school than me. he decided back in feb after a lot of back and forth that he doesn’t want to return to his school in the fall bc, simply put, it’s not the right fit for him and he was always ranting about it to me. i am so supportive of this decision bc i just want him to be happy, even if it means that we’re not in the same place anymore.
we’re both back home for the summer, which was always gonna happen but now i don’t get to quite see him in the fall like originally planned. luckily, he lives close enough to Mass that he can visit once or twice for a few days each month during the school year, but it’s still nowhere near as often as we got to see each other this past semester. instead of 12 mins away by bus, we’ll be 8 hours by amtrak, and that’s the closest we’ll be until further notice. right now, we’re 4 hours away by a $300 flight.
saying goodbye to him at logan was so fucking hard. i’m so so in love with him and it hurts so badly to just be cut off from seeing each other all the time to now only being able to see him through the phone. i know we’re not nearly as far or inconvenienced as other ld couples, we only have an hour time diff and we’ll still get to see each other fairly frequently but i can’t help but miss him desperately.
right from the beginning we’ve been really good at communicating (which is wonderful, idk if we could do this without that skill) but i feel like over ft or text it’s so easy for things to be misunderstood or misinterpreted and vibes to be off, and even though we always figure it out and end the call in a great spot, shit just sucks. the future is so uncertain, too. i know i want to marry him someday, and he’s voiced the same, and in the back of my head im terrified we won’t make it through or circumstances will change but im not gonna stop fighting for him. i knew that this was gonna be tough going into it but it’s a lot harder actually doing it lmao. how do yall cope with that? i assume it gets easier but how long did ld take u guys to get used to?
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2024.05.20 08:31 hadawayandshite Is gender identity akin to religious identity? (An analogy)

The ‘What is a woman’ question has the same logical ‘issues’ and answers as ‘what is a Christian/Jew/American’ and gender identity is akin to religious identity
Now I’m saying this a cis hetero liberal atheist (from the U.K.) so there well maybe nuances and understandings I don’t have because I’m not part of any of the groups but l thinking about (other than obviously having a nationality and my own gender identity) but whenever this discussion comes up all I can think is ‘is gender identity not similar to religious identity’?
The right wing talking point about ‘what is a woman?’ Where you can’t define it without referring to ‘women’ and thus they say it’s an impossibility….is just the same as ‘what is a Christian’ or ‘what is an American’.
They’re identities which don’t align with biology. Your nationality, religious denomination etc isn’t a biological part of you- it’s an identity you build/have based on how you feel….it can even change over time sometimes gradually, sometimes rapidly, some people believe they’re Christian their whole life but have big doubts and then one day acknowledge they’re agnostic instead etc
Trans identity is just as valid as any nationality or religious denomination
Do you think that aligns with your world view or am I missing something?
I’ve no idea what all of this would mean on a grander scale if more people adopted this view (given many atheists don’t want religion influencing public policy—-and if my logic is right you can argue that people who disagree with ‘gender identity’ are just atheists towards that view instead of religion) etc but it is how my brain seems to make sense of these things
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2024.05.20 08:30 Glad-Childhood-6226 Help!: GPU smoking (fire ) and turned very red near HDMI input

Hi guys, I was building a second PC:
Ryzen 5 2600 (5 years old)
Gtx 1660 Ti (5 years old)
2 x 8GB Corsair
PSU Gigabyte P550B 80 bronze (New)
Motherboard (B450 M Pro VDH MAX) New
  1. First I tested My PC without case fans only with CPU, RAM and GPU inside my case and it was OK, I conected my GPU to an HDMI monitor and i could enter bios.
  2. 3 hours later, I connected the case fans to my motherboard and to my PSU. I tried to boot up my pc, everything looks OK: fans spinning, lights on. Then i connected the gpu to a DisPlay monitor so i can install Windows from an USB, but i didn't see any image, So finally i unplugged the monitor from my GPU and my PC turns off inmediately O_O.
  3. I tried to boot again but i couldn't. The PC was turning on and inmediately turned off.
I tried doing CMOS CLEAR , removing the motherboard battery but it was useless.
I tried removing the GPU ... and SORPRISE the PC turn ON without GPU and was estable ( keyboard OK, mouse OK, fans OK)
  1. I thought it was a false contact of my GPU with the PCI port, so i put my GPU back on, I thought it was a false contact of my GPU with the PCI port, so i put my GPU back on, but i unpluged the power cable that goes into the GPU from the PSU , I turned on my PC again and now I saw smoke and a small fire?? coming out of my GPU, well I dont know if it was fire but it turned RED near the HDMI input . So inmediately turn off the PSU , I turned on my PC again and now I saw smoke and a small fire?? coming out of my GPU, well I dont know if it was fire but it turned RED near the HDMI input . So inmediately turn off the PSU
Now my PC can't boot when I have the GPU connected ,( My first problem). I think My GPU passed away
*If i remove the GPU my PC starts OK . * I don't know if I will repair my GPU or buy a new one. Maybe my power supply will break all the GPUs?
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2024.05.20 08:30 BearMcBearFace 1100 mile round trip. Longest so far and still as impressed as ever with it.

We’ve just done our longest round trip so far of about 1100 miles through the U.K. from Mid Wales and across to eastern Belgium right in the Dutch border. Our Kona is our first EV so naturally when we first got it we had some elements of range apprehension (wouldn’t go as far to call it anxiety), but after owning it for 2.5 years we’re pretty comfortable with driving long distances and not worrying about charging opportunities.
What has helped us is we now have a 7 month old baby, so regular breaks of a decent period are a necessity and we have lots to do during them so can get a decent charge around changing and feeding him.
Thoughts on the U.K. charging network - it’s increased in capacity by an order of magnitudes over the last year or two and finding somewhere to charge en-route wasn’t an issue at all. Being totally honest, charging in Wales is still somewhat limited, but as we have a home charger we can always have enough of a charge to get us out of Wales, but if desperate most supermarkets have a small charging bank so a slight detour can usually get you to a charger.
Once we reached Europe what shocked me was how many rapid chargers there are simply not being used. There was never any shortage of space to charge up at all. I’m not sure if this is due to a low uptake of EVs or charging / travel habits. I had read a few older blogs of people travelling through France that needed an app and a French address to be able to charge an EV, but using Octopus Electroverse we found no shortage of chargers at all and could conveniently use our Electroverse card in all countries to just add the charges to our domestic electricity bill.
One thing I was really pleasantly surprised at was the cost of charging in France. In the U.K. for a rapid charger of >150kw you’re generally looking at £0.65/kwh upwards to charge. In France it was €0.32/kwh for a 300kw charger in Lidl Calais.
All in all I’d be more than happy to take it across Europe through more countries and don’t think I would feel any more limited than if I were to be going away in an ICE. The Kona is yet again proving that the tech is here despite what many people ducked in to some weird culture war against EVs would have you believe.
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2024.05.20 08:30 prajnene X-Ray Inspection System Market Analysis, Growth, Size, And Share

The global x-ray inspection system market size was valued at USD 2.27 billion in 2022 and is expected to be worth USD 2.37 billion in 2023. The market is projected to reach USD 3.44 billion by 2030, recording a CAGR of 5.4% during the forecast period.
Security concerns are increasing across the world due to rising number of crimes such as illegal smuggling. Governments are taking various precautions and measures to ensure public safety. This factor has boosted the demand for x-ray inspection systems across airports and other public spaces. These machines are also used to verify the quality of raw materials and detect the most minute damages in the final product. The growing use of these instruments in a wide range of industries is expected to amplify the x-ray inspection system market growth.
Fortune Business Insights™ displays this information in a report titled, "X-Ray Inspection System Market, 2023-2030."
~LIST OF KEY COMPANIES PROFILED IN THE REPORT~
· North Star Imaging Inc. (U.S.)
· Nikon Metrology, Inc. (U.S.)
· Nordson Corporation (U.S.)
· YXLON International GmbH (Germany)
· VJ Group, Inc. (U.S.)
· Mettler Toledo International Inc. (U.S.)
· Ametek, Inc. (U.S.)
· Viscom AG (Germany)
· ViTrox Corporation Berhad (Malaysia)
· Test Research, Inc. (Taiwan)
Browse In-depth Summary of This Research Insight:
https://www.fortunebusinessinsights.com/x-ray-inspection-system-market-105227
~Segments:~
Rising Adoption of Digital Imaging Solutions to Carry Out Non-Destructive Testing to Fuel Market Progress
Based on technique, the x-ray inspection system market is classified into film-based imaging and digital imaging. The digital imaging segment is expected to dominate the x-ray inspection system market share as digital x-rays instantly transform the captured image into digital data, which can be viewed within seconds. Moreover, the increasing demand for non-destructive tests from various sectors will further bolster the demand for digital imaging.
Direct Radiography to Witness Robust Adoption due to Innovations in Medical Imaging Technologies
Based on digital imaging, the market is segmented into computed tomography, computed radiography, and direct radiography. The direct radiography segment will dominate the market due to the launch of futuristic scanning technologies in the healthcare sector. Direct radiography does not require intermediate processing steps to receive digital signals, making the scanning process more accurate and easier.
Rising Security Concerns to Augment Demand for Ultra-HD Scanning Technology
Based on scanning technology, the market is classified into HD and ultra-HD. The ultra-HD segment might hold the largest market share due to growing security problems at public places, transit stations, and airport terminals.
Aerospace & Defense Sector to Increase Reliance on 3D Imaging Solutions to Boost National Security
In terms of dimension, the market is classified into 2D and 3D. The 3D segment held the largest market share in 2022 as the aerospace & defense industry is becoming more reliant on 3D imaging machines to enhance public safety.
Non-Destructive Testing to Lead due to High Demand for Advanced Inspection Services
Based on application, the market is divided into PCB & passive electronics inspection, non-destructive testing, foreign contaminants inspection, agricultural, bird & animal imaging & inspection, flaw detection & dimensional inspection, leak detection & weld verification, physical properties estimation, case depth determination, and others. The non-destructive testing segment is expected to dominate the market share due to rising demand for quality inspection services from various industry verticals.
Product Use to Increase in Oil & Gas Sector with Growing Demand for Inspection of Oil & Gas Infrastructure
Based on end-user, the market is into oil & gas, energy & utilities, food processing, healthcare & pharmaceuticals, agricultural, bird & animal imaging & inspection, aerospace & defense, industrial manufacturing, automotive, and others. The oil & gas segment is estimated to dominate the x-ray inspection system market as these inspection systems are being widely used in the oil & gas sector to inspect the level of corrosion and welding issues that are a part of the oil & gas infrastructure.
With respect to region, the market covers North America, Europe, Asia Pacific, Latin America, and the Middle East & Africa.
~Report Coverage:~
The report has encompassed many factors such as research & development capabilities, optimization of operations, quality control, and raw material production. It offers important information on the market forecast, trends, and competitive landscape of the key players. Besides the abovementioned factors, the report encompasses several factors boosting the market’s growth.
~Drivers and Restraints:~
Implementation of Safety Norms to Protect Environment will Boost Market Growth
Governments and regulatory agencies across the world are rolling out a wide range of strict safety regulations to protect public health and the environment. Industry verticals have to comply with quality and safety standards to adhere to the strict norms. x-ray inspection technologies can help industries comply with these regulations by detecting flaws in structures, pipelines, and other machines.
However, shortage of skilled labor force and high machine costs might hamper the x-ray inspection system market growth.
~Regional Insights:~
North America to Dominate Market Share due to the Presence of Reputed OEMs
North America dominated the global market in 2022 and might maintain its dominance during the forecast period due to the growing base of renowned OEMs and service providers. These OEMs are producing smart x-ray inspection products and solutions to boost their customer base.
Asia Pacific held a significant market share due to the development of advanced infrastructure in key countries. These nations are increasing their investments in infrastructure projects, such as railways, highways, and power plants, which will boost the product demand and fuel the regional market growth.
~Competitive Landscape:~
Key Players to Enter into Corporate Growth Strategies to Boost Market Presence
The market has a vast presence of key players such as Nikon Metrology, Inc., Nordson Corporation, YXLON International GmbH, and North Star Imaging Inc., among others. These firms engage in various corporate growth strategies, such as acquisitions, mergers, technological innovations, partnerships, and new product launches, to expand their market presence.
~Key Industry Development:~
April 2022 - Smiths Detection, one of the world’s most renowned threat detection and security screening technology providers, won a contract through its local partner Donggok Precision Co., Ltd. As per the contract, Smiths Detection was expected to deliver a wide range of futuristic baggage screening machines for Terminal 1 of the Incheon International Airport in South Korea.
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2024.05.20 08:29 PreviousPainting5366 A spell that triggers traps?

Like before u start attacking, u can just drop a spell and all traps go off ground and air.
Just an idea, I mean I've had so many times my dragons or balloons would just barely survive clearing defenses/ structures on one part of a base, to only be blown up by a floating bomb or half my wizards get blown up by a mega mine
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2024.05.20 08:29 Greedy-Ad5851 forgiving your abusers (kind of vent)

tw: csa, neglect, emotional and physical abuse
whether you choose to or not is your decision, and most people have been through more severe situations than i have so i completely understand why the majority of people go no-contact. this is just my personal experience not advice or a discussion or anything. me, i have a pretty textbook recipe for cptsd: bpd/ocd teen mom and schizophrenic/depressive/npd teen dad. yes they have been professionally diagnosed with all of these things. when i was 3 i told everyone my dad sexually abused me and understandably my dad flipped out so i backtracked and said it was a joke. i have no idea what he did because my mom never witnessed anything and my dad refuses to talk about it without going into a rage and blaming me for my family's divorce and him losing all of his friends. ive been hypersexual since i was about a year old also so i have my suspicions about him either way. my mom got on drugs shortly after the divorce to work 2 jobs in a town about an hour over, so you can imagine i didnt see her much for my childhood-- i only had her mugshot after a police chase and picking her up after she crashed a car because she fell asleep driving to go by for a good 5-7 years. i hated her when she left. i was dead convinced she was a drug addict and a deadbeat because i didnt understand she was doing it for her kids. i lived with my grandparents during that time and they were neglectful as all get out and didn't even care if me and my sibling showered, brushed our teeth, slept at a reasonable time, or even went to school. my mom cared because she would be the one going to jail if we were truants. i was an anxious little kid and told everyone i had the stomach bug instead of going to school but i faked sick too long and my mom would come over in the mornings to drag me by my hair and beat my ass. which just made me more anxious and unwilling to go to school, or go out in public for that matter. probably the worst of my childhood boiled down to when i was 10 and my mom always shit talked my appearance and said i never took care of myself and got fat so she went to buy me new clothes. i was too anxious to even set foot out of the car and kept nervously brushing my hair to self soothe (thought i looked ugly but in retrospect girl u were fidgeting) until she took the brush out of my hand and whacked me on the head with it which caused a whole situation and her fighting to get me out of the car while i was crying. she called the cops and i just so happened to get some douche who got off to scaring the shit out of kids, because he handcuffed me for no reason just to lecture me and tell me to listen to my mom or i'd get sent to "adult prison." fun experience i guess. anyway the rest of my childhood and adolescence was my mom berating me for the smallest things and expecting me to act like a little adult and work and tend to the house AND also somehow have straight As in school, have friends, extracurriculars, and hobbies, but she's not going to financially support any of those hobbies or actually set into motion for me to hang out with friends. the few times i ever hung out with people i went to THEIR house and THEIR parents had to chaperone me around, and my family was just not involved to the point my friends wondered if i even had a mom. not even going to mention the transphobia i faced from my mom, but she took my binder that i bought with my own money and donated it to some rural christian thrift store... even thought itd be hilarious to mention the fact that theyd probably throw it out not even knowing what it was (this is long and melodramatic)
and yet... i still love my family. maybe feel obligated to, even. maybe my dad molested me and if so he's fucking disgusting for it. i don't know why you'd ever touch a baby. i don't know why he'd even have a motive to do so. he didn't really have a motive to cheat on my mom and fight her in front of me as a baby and steal her savings and drive out of state with no notice either. now he's just sad and suicidal and has been for over a decade and he's still hung up over the family he destroyed and apologizes to me anytime he sees me. to me, he's gotten his just desserts: he's a late 30s stoner who still lives with his parents and is still mad at his ex wife a decade later. i will never be close to him for abusing my mom but i genuinely forgive him for what he may have done to me and also the things he actually did to me, like calling me a slut and making me change my clothes and not wear makeup around him and telling me, his 8 year old daughter at the time, that women should be barefoot and pregnant and are also evil cheating jezebels. he still does it occasionally but his words hold no power over me and i think he realizes that so he's become more tolerant and agreeable. my mom basically destroyed any chance of me not fearing intimacy or anything short of perfection or being myself but sometimes she gets drunk and just sobs and hugs me and tells me she's sorry she couldn't do better and i wish she could have at the time when it kind of mattered substantially more to my development, but im proud of how far she's come and that she's trying to be less strict and cruel to toughen me up and make me appear relatively functional and normal, the things she couldn't be at the time. this lowkey turned me into a functional addict and gave me a really bad habit of dissociating and not listening to my needs later in life but its chillin.
after ALL of this forgiving my family for essentially giving me a shit hand at life is pretty rough. but its ultimately helped with my hypervigilance and i dont immediately read everyone's actions as if they are judging me or see me as a burden-- it just takes substantially less than the average person for me to feel that way! maybe i have not healed at all in my behaviors and still act like a sad, scared angry little kid. but i feel less wary of them at the least, and its nice for now.
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