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Hi there,
Three years ago, I (then 28F) matched with a guy (then 32M) on a dating app and casually spoke with him for a few months. Six months passed, and I flew out to meet him in his city. We got together for one week, during which I stayed at his place. A month later, we hooked up about three times.
A few weeks after, I found out he had a girlfriend (24F). I met her in person and told her about my history with him, and helped her find out who else he was chatting with through Social Media.
In the 3 months that followed, she would ask me to come meet her to hang out on a weekly basis, and I would try to tell her that I didn't think it was healthy for either of us, but regardless, I would try to support her through the grieving process (it also helped me in some ways, but hurt in more ways as I tried to uplift her while putting myself down).
After that, she moved on, as did I.
Six months passed, and I saw her Instagram and saw that she was meeting his parents. I called her and asked why she went back with him after all he had done, and she said she still loved him but was confused. I backed off and never contacted her again.
Early this year, she (now 27F) contacted me saying that she was finally over him (now 35M) and wanted to use the situation for a comedy set and wanted me (now 31F) to give her evidence of his cheating in case he sued for defamation. I never replied since I was depressed at the time and was not talking to anyone.
Since then, I've been following her social media presently to see her comedy sets, because I want to know what she is saying about me.
In her most recent comedy set, I saw a hint that she may be back with him, and this is causing my heart to hurt and I'm not sure why. I don't care for the guy and don't have feeling for him. But seeing her still be with him hurts me, and I have no clue why. I keep asking myself why it bothers me and makes me sad, but I am not able to find the reason. I don't know how to cope with these feelings of caring for someone, someone who possibly thinks very little of me and probably thinks of me as the butt of a joke. I also saw his social media, and am sure he's back to his old ways of talking to multiple girls, so it's like history repeating itself.
Please help me understand why I carry a burden of feelings for the girlfriend of a past situationship?
TLDR: Three years ago, I(28F) discovered the guy(32M) I was seeing was cheating on his girlfriend(24F), helped her uncover his infidelities, and though we both moved on, she later got back with him, causing me confusion and sadness despite not having feelings for him.

From Christmas gatherings to birthday wishes and Mother’s Day greetings it all makes me (21M) uncomfortable when it comes from a 32 year-old texting his 22 year old ex-girlfriend and her relatives.
Her younger brother (16M) recently called to wish him a happy birthday.
From what I understand about their relationship, my girlfriend (22F) first met him when she was 15 and he was 24 before they started to date when she turned 17 and they eventually moved in together when she turned 18 and graduated high school. Her family saw little to no issue with the age gap and the fact that a grown man had been having sex with a high school girl. She told me she lived with him for 4 years while he proceeded to cheat on her, abuse her, and live off of her before she moved back to our area.
Unfortunately, I hadn’t realized the proximity of their breakup to our first meeting. For example, it turned out that the dog they shared for that time had only been put down a couple of week before us meeting and, although she had broken up with him months earlier, she had continued to visit him and vice-versa in order to see the dog still. Her parents are not the most emotionally available people as well and her brother who is now 16 has had this pedophile as an influence in his life for the better part of 5 years now.
I started to feel uneasy about his connection to the family when we had only been dating a month and Christmas came around. She’d been working on Christmas Eve and the day of so I hadn’t invited her to my family gatherings but she had then mentioned to me that her younger brother asked to have her ex over for their Christmas celebration. So, she ended up cooking dinner and having him over, I felt that it was not my place to tell this family how to celebrate their holiday and didn’t want to be an overbearing and controlling partner. I above all wish she would have asked me about everything rather than telling me about it.
There’s been other instances of his influence rearing its head in our relationship as well but recently I had really put this negativity behind me. I felt me and her brother building a bond recently when I showed him some auto maintenance but I couldn’t help but still feel obsolete,unnecessary, and ultimately disgusted when I hear that her brother still wants to/feels the need to call a pedophilic child-grooming, woman abuser for a happy birthday message.
I’d raised this issue with her before and she has ceased contact with him and asking me what else I feel can be done about it. She explains that he had indeed been apart of his life for most of his formative years and he did not view him in the same way that I had due to the relationship they had so she also respects the connection that they have regardless of whether or not they’re dating and the fact that he’s never acted inappropriately around the younger brother.
I’m just not sure how to curve my reaction or if there is anything that can be done to change the situation. This truly feels like the woman I love and I think a lot of this “jealousy” comes down to me wanting to live my life with this woman free from anything that brings stress into her world but the constant reminder of a pedophile wanes on me as he continues to consistently have an impact on the people around her.
TL;DR My girlfriend’s younger brother recently called her child-grooming ex to wish him a happy birthday and it brings back feelings of inadequacy regarding my ability to be the one to provide.

22-24 was rough. Went into depression after losing two close people, gained weight, and went through covid. I bounced back after that. Now I'm 26 and got back into shape and felt much prettier and confident and social than I ever had
I met this guy on Hinge in January. He's 23. I'd always been wary of dating younger guys but he seemed cool and hot so I gave him a chance. Plus I found the idea of dating a guy in his early 20s sort of fun. I thought we had something going for the past 3.5 months, then he reveals that he was sleeping with some 19 year old for the first month that we were seeing each other and couldn't deal with the stress of hiding it anymore. Says he feels guilty and wants to start being exclusive with me, but I thought that was a given from the beginning.
Idek how to feel. On one hand I'm all for forgiveness and second chances. But now I feel like he was using me as a backup. Even though he denies it. And what's stopping him from cheating on me with another pretty sorority girl? Ugh 😔

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You can read the previous BORU's here and here. New Update marked with ****\* Thanks to u/Choice_Evidence1983 and u/Direct-Caterpillar77 for letting me know!
Trigger Warning: brief mention of murder
Mood Spoiler: happy ending
Original Post: April 16, 2023
Throwaway because I have in-laws on Reddit.
Myself (25F) and my fiancé (27M) have a 2 month old son. We are overjoyed at being parents, but most of my in-laws are refusing to even see our baby because of a decision we made concerning his name.
My in-laws have a tradition of giving the first-born son of every generation the same name. Let's say it's "Peter". This has been going on for about seven generations already, and they're very serious about it. My fiancé's eldest cousin was the latest person to get named Peter. Every one of his cousins has only had daughters so far, so our baby is the first son of his generation, and consequently should get the name.
I have no problem with the name Peter, and would've been okay with naming my son that. Unfortunately, that was also the name of my uncle, who died before I was born. I won't get into details, but it was tragic and traumatizing for my family. My father never got over losing his younger brother.
My grandmother asked the family not to name any of our future children Peter during her lifetime. My MIL and FIL knew about this promise, and at first seemed to not only be okay with us avoiding the name Peter, but also supportive of the one we chose.
However, my grandmother sadly passed away when I was 7 months pregnant. We traveled for her funeral. On our last days there, my in-laws called to offer me their condolences. Then my MIL asked me if I was willing to "think about the name Peter now."
Suddenly, they were insistent that the name we chose was awful and we had to honor their tradition. According to them, they had only agreed to make an exception for us for my grandmother's sake, and had no obligation to keep it now that she had passed.
My family agrees that while it's true we don't have to avoid the name anymore, it still doesn't feel right to use it. My fiancé agrees with me as well, but his parents spent the last weeks of my pregnancy trying to convince us to change our minds about the name.
When our baby was born and we named him what we wanted, my in-laws were furious that we had broken a 7-generation-old family tradition. Some of them hadn't previously wanted to name their sons Peter, but did it anyway for the family's sake. They said our decision was selfish, and that my family "should have moved on by now."
This has truly nothing to do with whether my family has moved on or not, it just felt like a betrayal to my grandmother and uncle's memories to even consider using the name.
My FIL offered us $1000 to change our son's name to Peter after he was born. That was two months ago, and neither of my fiancé's parents have met the baby or seen us since I was pregnant. Most of my in-laws are on their side, and this is causing a huge rift between my fiancé and his family. He assures me he's fine, but I'm starting to feel really guilty about this.
AITA?
EDIT: The tradition started, as far as I know, when OG Peter died and his son, also named Peter, named his firstborn after his father. Peter III ended up having the first son of the following generation, and did the same thing. That one died before having children, so his sister gave the name to her son, and so on. The name “Peter” is very common in my country, so none of them ever got bullied over it, and the fact that it was also my uncle’s name isn’t as unlikely as one might think.
Also, middle names aren’t used in my country. Most people get the maternal surname before the paternal one instead.
EDIT 2: It wasn't 1000 dollars. Different country, different currency. It's still a lot of money, but would probably translate to about 200 USD.
Relevant Comments:
Can you use Peter as a middle name?"
Our country/culture doesn't generally use middle names. If we did, I'd be willing to think about that, even though my son's name doesn't match "Peter"."
How many Peters are alive right now in your family???"
There are 3 living "Peters" in the family right now. Only the eldest (my fiancé's great uncle) actually goes by Peter. The other two have nicknames ("Pete", "Petey", etc)."
OOP is voted NTA
Update Post: May 24, 2023 (a bit over 1 month later)
(OOP's post was removed from AITA, and reposted on her profile. I'm using the date of the AITA post. Comments are also from AITA)
I posted this on AITA, but it got removed about an hour ago because I mentioned a violent encounter on an edit. I tried editing it out and getting it back up, but it didn't work. I'm posting here in case anyone still wants to read it.
Original
Thank you so much to everyone who commented and offered support. A lot has happened since I posted, so I thought I'd give you an update.
About a week after my post, my fiancé's parents contacted us. They apologized for their behavior, and begged to meet my son. They said they were ready to leave the naming debacle behind and truly wanted to be involved in their grandson's life.
We were skeptical, but invited them over to meet the baby. The visit went well. They began coming over almost every day during the next three weeks. I noticed neither of them ever called my son by his name, but I didn't point it out. For the first time in months, things seemed good between my fiancé and his parents.
One day, my fiancé was helping my FIL with something at our place, so my MIL and I went to the park with my baby. Some time later, I had to go to the bathroom, so I left him in the stroller with her.
When I got back, she was sitting on a park bench, chatting with a woman who was cooing over my son. I went over there and introduced myself as "(son's name)'s mom", and she said, "I thought his name was Peter."
I didn't say a word, and neither did my MIL. She followed me to the car and we went back to my apartment. On the way there, I texted my fiancé about what had happened. The moment we got there, he kicked both his parents out of our place.
He'd read my texts and confronted his father. Thankfully, my FIL is a terrible liar, and confessed immediately. Apparently, both my in-laws ONLY call my son Peter. That includes whenever they're talking about him, every time they introduce him to someone else, and even baby-talking to him on the few occasions they were left alone with him. Neither of them are embarrassed by this, and they both think they're in the right.
We're heartbroken. Especially my fiancé. Not only because his parents can't let go of their pride, but also because the name we chose for our son means a lot to us both.
I blame myself for encouraging my fiancé to allow them near our son. I was raised in a different city than all my grandparents, and always wished they could have been more involved in my life. Losing my grandmother didn't help. Pretty much every doubt I had only existed because I thought it would be important for my son to grow up with all of his grandparents around.
But now, all my guilt is gone. If they can't respect my son enough to call him by his name, they don't deserve to be in his life.
I hope they enjoyed the three weeks they had with their grandson. Because that's all they're getting until they get their heads out of their asses.
EDIT: I thought I'd clarify some things. First of all, I'm not comfortable sharing my son's name here, but I promise it's not a "yooneek" name or anything like that. It's perfectly normal and popular-ish in our country.
Secondly, I mentioned this in the comments, but while my family didn't try to dictate me on my son's name, they would never be comfortable with it. My uncle Peter passed almost three decades ago, but it forever changed everyone who knew him. My grandmother's wish might seem a bit irrational, but it was motivated entirely by grief and it didn't seem right to disrespect that just because she's not around anymore.
And to whoever PM'd me that my fiancé's only on my side to keep the peace, he didn't want to use the name either. Months before I got pregnant, he told me he hoped one of his cousins would have a son before we did, because he always hated the tradition and sympathized with my family. He's just as angry at his parents as I am, if not more. Also, most of his cousins and some other relatives have come around and apologized.
Relevant Comments:
Are they this unhinged in other areas of your life too?"
According to my fiancé, they've always been a little entitled, but I never really saw them enough to be able to say that. I will say that, though they were polite, they very clearly didn't care about me until we moved in together. My MIL pretended not to remember my name every time she saw me, and my FIL would lose interest in any conversations that weren't about him. Once it was clear me and my fiancé were in for long term, they started acting a lot more friendly towards me, but it never seemed sincere."
Have other family members come around yet?"
Most of my fiancé's cousins have come around, and his brother was always on our side. His grandmother and some of his aunts and uncles are with us too. His grandfather (divorced from his grandmother), two out of three living Peters (the two oldest) and pretty much everyone else are either still mad at us or haven't reached out to talk about it yet.
My entire family is on my side. They promised not to interfere in the naming process, but are relieved we didn't name him Peter."
One more note on the $1000 offered in the first post:
"And that's $1000 in MY country's currency. It roughly translates to $200USD." (note- OOP clarifies in a comment that she is Brazilian)
OOP drops this horrible bombshell about her uncle, the one who died before she was born:
"My uncle was murdered. My grandmother's request was motivated by trauma."
"Again; my family would be mostly fine with naming my son Peter. My dad and my aunt might have been uncomfortable, and my grandmother asked us all not to do so, but I wouldn't have been disowned if I had. It simply felt disrespectful, especially since my grandmother passed shortly before my son was born.
My uncle's death was traumatic for my family, but the name Peter is hugely common in my country."
Update Post 2: July 28, 2023 (3 months from first post)
My son is now 5 months old (almost six!). We're still NC with my fiancé's parents, who haven't seen us since May. We've both blocked them everywhere. His relatives who were on our side still are, and most of the ones who weren't haven't come around. If anything, they're even more pissed now.
I remember someone suggesting that my fiancé's family might stop using the name after we decided not to. Well, you were right. Last week, one of my fiancé's cousins announced she was pregnant with a boy. She included her baby's name in the announcement, and it's not Peter.
What followed was a string of aggressive Instagram DMs from both MIL and FIL. They both created accounts for the sole purpose of contacting me. I didn't see them until two days later. They sent me almost an hour worth of voice messages about how I'd "ruined their family".
They wish their son had never met me, that he'd see me for "who I truly am", and that I'd never gotten pregnant. Many of the messages ended with "I hope you're happy now", as if they thought they were getting the last word, only to think of something else they wanted to say. There was name calling, an accusation of me cheating, and the persistent refusal to refer to my son as their grandchild.
My fiancé and I listened to the messages together. He hadn't gotten any. As much as I tried to distance myself, I was in tears by the time it was all done. I still don't regret anything, specially after the stunt they pulled back in May, but I'm not completely free of the guilt yet. Not to mention their complete disregard for their grandson. I was already having an overwhelming week, and this just seemed like the final straw.
I must have spent close to an hour sobbing in my fiancé's arms. Once I was calmer, he unblocked his parents just to scream at them for a while. I only heard his side of the conversation, but it was more than enough. He finished the call by saying he didn't want to hear from them again.
We had a long talk afterwards. My fiancé opened up about the emotional blackmail by his family before and after my pregnancy. My in-laws were close to threatening him with anything they could if we didn't name our son Peter. I told him about my guilt, and how awful I feel for putting him through this. We reassured each other, cried a bit more, and had a mostly pleasant evening with our baby.
We contacted his cousin. The family is giving her shit for breaking the tradition again. They're being way less aggressive though, and I think many of my in-laws are finally learning to let go. We're not expecting any apologies anytime soon, but we'll be glad if they come.
Our wedding will be in September 2024, and whoever doesn't give us a sincere apology until then is uninvited. My fiancé's parents are banned either way. We came to that decision together.
Also, I'd like to address some comments on my previous update about how I was "letting my family's trauma win", or how the name wouldn't be hurtful now that my grandmother has passed.
I can't stress enough the damage my uncle's death caused. He was only 30 years old. He had a fiancée, a great career and his whole life ahead of him. I don't know many details about what happened, because I didn't want to upset my family by asking. My grandmother wasn't the only person hurt by this, my entire paternal family was. And if I remember correctly, the person responsible isn't even in jail anymore. It was more than 20 years ago, but the wound never truly closed.
So yeah, I think it's safe to say the tradition is over. The next Not-Peter will be here in January, right before my son's first birthday. It was never my intention for this to turn into such a shitstorm, but I'm so incredibly proud of my little family.
Thank you so much to everyone who shared their stories and offered advice during these last few months. I'll be forever grateful for all the support I got from y'all.
*****New Update Post: May 13, 2024 (13 months from OG post, about 10 from last post)****\*
Hey everyone, it's been a while. I hope you guys had a great Mother's Day!
I remember that last year, I promised myself I'd write a final update as soon as I felt calmer or felt the situation was closer to being solved. That actually happened months ago, but I've been busy lately.
Following my previous update, my fiancé's side of the family remained upset about the tradition being over for a few more months. They were way less intense about it, specially with the pregnant cousin I mentioned, but it was still evident.
That cousin's Not-Peter (almost a year later, I still can't think of a better term) was born in January. Our son turned one the next month. I think the fact that these two things happened so close together helped many of my in-laws let go of the tradition.
We got a few apologies we weren't expecting. Some of them were sincere enough that we slowly started reestablishing contact.
My fiancé's parents were not among those who apologized. We haven't spoken to either of them since last July. From what I've heard from some of his other relatives, however, MIL seems regretful. She has told some of them that she wishes she could be part of her grandson's life, and wonders if making his name a hill to die on was a bad decision. FIL, from what I gather, barely acknowledges my baby exists.
My fiancé knows about how his mother feels, but he says he doesn't care. And even if we did get an apology, I don't think either of us can forgive his parents. As much as we're mostly okay now, it sometimes feels like their treatment of our family ruined the first few months of our baby's life. I know that's not actually true, but I don't want them around my child.
Besides all that, things have been great. My son is 15 months old now, which I don't think I'll ever really get used to. He recently started drawing and has been expanding his vocabulary. He said "mamãe" first, by the way.
My fiancé and I are still getting married in September. We're thinking about moving abroad in a couple years (for work reasons), but we're not sure yet. We also recently got a dog (sadly, we didn't name him Peter).
This will be my final update. Whatever guilt I had about this situation a year ago is completely gone, and my life has been peaceful enough that it feels safe to say the shitshow is over.
Hugo, if you ever find this, you are the most fantastic thing that has ever happened to us. Thank you for letting me be your mom.
Thank you, Reddit, for all the love, advice and support you've given me this past year.
Relevant Comment:
Commenter: Whilst this may be your final update on the naming sage, you said you are getting married in September 2024 and MiL&FiL aren't going to be invited.
Prepare for more craziness from them at that time and good luck :)

OOP: I really do think this is over. My fiancé's parents don't know when or where we're getting married, so I'm not worried about them showing up. They haven't reached out to us in months, and we have no interest in contacting them.

I 20F have a boyfriend 21M who i date for 5 years and am romantically involved since i was 13. The real problem is: From 6 months to now i completely lost the sparks i had.
We always had difficult issues towards his jealousy and we would always talk and argue about it because it was nowhere near healthy. He complains about my friends (female and male), clothes and the places i go. I never gave him any reason to be that jealous over me, as i believe that if i'm dating someone i need to trust that person. We had a lot of fights about it and we broke up for 3 months in 2021. The result is expected: I don't have a lot of friends and lost a lot of contact with the ones i still have and i dont go out with them without him. I love to party and be surronded with people and he doesnt which i totally respect and understand.
Besides, he has some issues with his hygine. His showers lasts about 3 minutes and he comes out of still stinking af and he NEVER brushes his teeth. His gums have that white thing all across and is so red and bruisy, his breath obviously stinks. I already had a chat with him, but very lightely cause i was afraid that he was going to get upset.
I miss going out with my friends and living my life without possibly having a fight after (we were that couple to always fight in parties ik terrible) at the same time that i'm afraid i cannot reconect with them anymore and i'm alone. cause i dont have my friends, but obviously he does.
Talking about it is no longer an option because he simply cannot change. We spent a month not seeing each other and i didnt miss him or any intimacy. I'm afraid that i'm holding onto the time we are together, as we grew up together and i know he is going to be there for me cause i know he loves me. Talked with some friends and they asked me to list a couple reasons why i date him and i coudnt say one.
My routine is very tiring and i wonder if it is only stress, but i honestly dont think so. Sometimes i catch myself rooting for him to cheat or be a dick so a can end up thing easily.
Should i really break up with him? What would you do in my place? How can i bring this up without getting him too hurt?

Okay I have been playing for the last few weeks since the NG update came out and surprisingly at first the game was running smooth with mods. Ever since F4SE and related mods have been updating I have literally had the game crash on me every 5 to 10 minutes. I have scoured the internet and tried every fix I could find to no avail. Buffout 4 hasnt been updated for NG yet so I am not getting crash reports.
Here's my PC Specs:
AMD Ryzen 9 5950X at 5.6Ghz
64GB Ram at 3600Mhz
Nvidia RTX 4080
Samsung 970 Evo M.2 SSD
I shouldn't have hardware issues with this game.
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Here is my load order straight from LOOT, if I am missing a compatibility issue somewhere please let me know. I have spent 2 days making sure these are working with the NG Update. Thank you!
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Sex has always sort of governed my relationships. Longest relationship I’ve been in, the sex was pretty great… but I broke things off because sex was the only thing keeping us together in the end. I struggled to leave because I was afraid I would not find anyone who could do the things that he did in the bedroom… but it was so toxic I had to go.
Then I was single for 5 years. I had a few random hookups but nothing special. The sex was nothing memorable. I started to accept that maybe sex wasn’t everything, so I began developing attachments to people based on their personalities, despite the fact that the sex was garbage and disappointing.
I ended up dating and getting engaged to someone who I had zero sexual chemistry with, all the while telling myself I didn’t need it. We didn’t have sex at all... I just told myself that’s the way it was. But towards the end I couldn’t take it anymore. I realized how miserable I was and I had to end it.
I left and after that I didn’t even try dating for a full year. I was so fucking jaded and tired of not being able to connect with anyone on that deeper level that I craved…
And then I met you.
I started off by just getting to know you and falling for your personality. We had a lot in common and we got along so well. I liked you so much that I was honestly terrified of having sex with you because if it was bad I was going to be so disappointed.
But holy fucking hell did you surprise me that first time… And it just keeps getting better and better every time.
You have your shit together. You don’t do dumb and impulsive shit. You’re not a mean and violent drunk. You’ve shown me from the start that you’re not interested in dating other people, and I don’t get the feeling that you’d cheat. You’re smart and creative and soooo fucking attractive… and god… the sex. The sex is honestly up there with the best, if not the absolute best I’ve ever had. Sure, we’re still a little awkward, but I only see it getting better.
How could I not fall for you? I really hope I’m not delusional and that you see a future here too. I hope I make you as happy as you make me… and if not, I hope you tell me if there’s anything I can do to change that… and if for whatever reason you don’t feel the same, please don’t string me along. Let me down sooner rather than later.

Curious to hear thoughts and ideas about what others think is missing in the today’s poker industry. Feel free to bring up anything that comes to mind.
I’m a software engineer and part time poker player. As I’ve become more experienced, putting in a lot of volume on the tables online and live, as well a lot of time studying over the years, I’ve definitely started to notice inadequacies across different aspects of the poker industry. I’d like to start working on solutions that address these gaps at some point, but I wonder if others have similar opinions, or if there are other pain-points and opportunities they believe to be more important or impactful.
Feel free to dm me if you’d rather not comment here. Appreciate all perspectives folks might have!
Teasers:

• Something that just seems obvious but nobody is really doing it, or maybe a select few are doing it but not very well. Maybe it’s something that businesses in other industries do for their customers?
• Easier way to record hand histories? Online poker has this covered for the most part. For live poker there are some products out there but the process is still super manual. What if you had an automated way of recording hand histories and the ability to load those hand histories into a sim with a single click.
• Stats related to results/performance. I personally wish that TheHendonMob.com offered better sorting and filtering options related to live tournament data. For instance I can see the 2024 Money List and the All Time Money list for the world, as well as the US, but I can’t look at the 2024 money list for a given state or city. There’s an all-time money list for the state, but what about this year? What about stats related to specific card-rooms? We can see the biggest earners for live tournaments in one place, and stats for online wizards on a different site, but what about a database that combines both so we can see who ranks the highest across all formats?
• Sources of information. I use PokerAtlas but the process for targeting upcoming tournaments is often times tedious and inefficient due to a lack of available search filtering/sorting functionality, as well as the fact that many big tournaments far off in the future aren’t posted for a certain venue until the start date is approaching in the next couple weeks.
• Player recognition. Some players want the lime light, and want to be recognized for their accomplishments while others prefer to remain in the shadows. Would you appreciate being recognized publicly for major accomplishments?
• Availability of real data insights. MDA has been growing recently, especially with the rapid advancements in AI. Do you wish there were more free/low-cost data insights available? I know I wish there was more data related to live poker. Chewy is working on a software product that processes and analyzes data from hands played on live poker streams to derive data driven insights but a lot of players conceal certain tendencies when they’re live.
• Retail products that just don’t seem to be available. Anything at all. I always have a backpack or a crossbody because playing 8+ hours is a regular thing for me, and I also hate having a bunch of stuff in my pockets. Maybe some people want a kangaroo pouch on their sweater where they can securely carry all their stuff without having to have a bag. Don’t think I’d wear a sweater with a kangaroo pouch personally, but maybe others would, maybe a secret pocket somewhere in your hoodie, pants, hat, tube sock etc to hold your cash would be nice to have? Money-clips, or cool rubber bands? Better card protectors? Stylish articles of clothing that cover your neck/face to protect against live reads?
• Seems like the vast majority of poker apparel brands are failures. Imo most of them are super cringe, and have “I’m a degen” written all over them. Do you wish there were some quality, and perhaps subtle clothing lines that you could where in your daily life and at the poker table? Something that was like the Nike of poker.
• Gaps in learning material/resources. There are a ton of products out there, but we’ve all run into scenarios where we were either overwhelmed and not even sure where to start, or the material just wasn’t organized in a way that felt effective.
• Issues you have to deal with on a regular basis when it comes to the casino, card room or online platform you use to play? Do the reward systems suck? How about the marketing? Does the website look reasonable or does it look like Craigslist, and is it updated on a regular basis?
• A supplement or drug that enhances focus and reduces anxiety?

We met online in 2022 and then we changed over to chatting on discord, and have been since 2022. Things were great in the beginning and we would always talk/message/ and voice call. He would always want to call me, we would game together and sometimes watch movies. We have a 14 hour time difference so i understand it's difficult due to work, our busy schedules. (We aren't official, we are just still talking? flirting? whatever the situationship is we both like each other)
In the beginning things were cute, there was some flirting, banter, and a lot of jokes, it was exciting and fresh. Over the past year i guess or so, i feel like things have slowly changed, i guess we have gotten comfortable with each other, and it makes me quite anxious because he doesn't really flirt anymore? he mostly just jokes about things constantly which is fine, but i want to feel like he still likes me and thinks i'm pretty. I've talked to him about how i'm an anxious person and that i sometimes need to be reassured, and i spoke about love languages (he cut me off and said love language is BS) and i just replied... is it..? and then we kind of just talked about something else.
I have noticed on discord, there's an update where it will say 'chilling' when someone is in a server, i've noticed this happens at around 12am almost every night for him, and he only replies to me at 3am when he goes to sleep. (he doesn't reply during his entire daytme.. probably due to work? who knows) I admit it's probably wrong for me to be a stalker, and knowing that he's in a server or group call with someone or people, i haven't told him i can see it (i just can't see what group/server he is in) but it makes me SO anxious that maybe he's talking to another girl and is keeping me on the backburner since we have never met irl yet? We talked over call two weeks ago, and i explained that i am nervous maybe he doesn't like me anymore, and he said he still does and if he didn;'t he wouldn't be talking to me? (like that means anything special i guess?) i dont know. This may be strange, but we just don't flirt really, i always call him cute, or handsome, and say i miss him but he never says ' i miss you back'
We DONT and have never talked sexually to each other. He said ages ago it's because he would rather do all of this in person, when he meets me, such as taking me out on dates, or doing "sexual things" together. which i understand. i'm not a sex craved person and i want it to be special. plus, always talking about sex constantly makes me feel like im just there as an object? idk.
I don't know whether to brush it off and let him have his fun maybe he's gaming with his buddies? and maybe i should just give him some space/time alone as whenever he comes onto discord it's at night time, and i'm at work usually and i always try to message him on my lunch break, or just grow up and stop being so paranoid. my biggest fear is wasting my time for someone who just uses me. I have also been cheated on in previous relationships because i was too stupid to see red flags and was hopeful they cared about me like i did with them.

Title. I am a 22 years old guy and have been dating a girl(LDR though) and somehow I have been facing pressure to get myself into arrange marriage in next 2-3 years. Now unlike other guys I am not complying to my parent's wish and have been rebelling like anything not just about marriage but about other things as well such as career and all. One thing that I never will do is get into arranged marriage as you guys must know the arranged marriage situation is now worse and I will choose to remain single for the rest of my life instead of getting into arranged marriage as I have seen many people in my family and neighbors where they got into arrange marriage but they are not happy as some of their wife cheats and in one case a wife murders her husband by plotting with her ex and case has been going on since 2013(Hail Indian Judiciary system).

I’ll start off by saying I don’t know if im insecure because my ex used to cheat on me. but I feel see like my current boyfriend isn’t treating me right. (We’ve been dating for 11 months now) when we first started dating I had a look on his phone and he messaged other girls to have sexual interactions with while me and him were seeing eachother. then it went to some girl at the gym he knew he had matched with on tinder (she was hot he says) he looked her up on instagram chat to see if they had spoke on instagram? then his ex messaging him and he was entertaining it and deleted the messages. then he went to Bali for a boys trip. apparently some girl was trying to crack onto him and his friends had to remind him he had a partner. And last but not least. he told me he didn’t want to watch porn anymore because he felt guilty (I never told him to stop he said it) so I took his word, only to find out he still did it. He’s now stopped but he still looking at sexual girls on reddit, twitter and onlyfans. Because he’s “curious” I’ve tried to bring all of this up and he gets defensive and angry or flips it onto me. It makes me feel very poorly about myself especially when me and him have sex quite literally everyday. but he still needs to look at others. if we go out in public he always has a look at other girls. when he kept stuffing up I know I shouldn’t of but I stood on his level and would like guys photos so now he always flips that onto me. im 21. he’s 25. I’ve tried my hardest to make this relationship work but im the one that always feels like I can’t talk to him about this because he gets so angry and has tried to break up with me twice because of me sharing my emotions and I get angry and upset because he can’t seem to understand how this effects me. am I too sensitive?

So, this is going to be long winded. I don’t have anyone in my life I can comfortably talk to about this, so I’m just going to get it all out here. I met my ex about 5 years ago, we dated for a bit over two and a half years overall. At first things were pretty great, honestly have never felt so into someone before or since then. We got along, had amazing conversations, and overall, we just really clicked. Unfortunately, her ex-boyfriend was harassing both of us during all of this which was stressful for obvious reasons. He was abusive to her when they were dating, definitely not a good dude. It didn’t ruin things for us though, we just went along and dealt with it when we had to. Usually it was just an occasional message from him saying stupid shit or something like that, nothing super horrible. After maybe 8 or so months, I found out she cheated on me with that ex. Nothing physical but the conversations they had were personal. Looking back on everything, it seems it had a lot to do with aforementioned abuse, nothing continued between them after me and her broke up. Several months after, we saw each other in public and talked a bit, then we hung out with mutual friends together. We hung out alone after that, and eventually rekindled our relationship. We went on for a while after that, I felt okay about things for a while, but eventually the thoughts about what happened inserted themselves into my mind more and more. It became unbearable, and to preserve my as much as I could, I left. I don’t think I explained my perspective on things very well when it all happened, and immediately tried to cope and fill the void in me with relationships, they never lasted, and only made my life messier. I’ve spent a lot of time over the last several years being more mindful, and trying to heal from various things. Generally, I’m just trying to be a better person overall. Lots of areas of my life have been drastically improved thankfully. I am a busy guy travel a good amount and have a job I enjoy. However, I CANNOT stop thinking about my ex and our relationship. I have thought every thought i could ever have about it. I am not upset at her, I understand what I should have done differently on my side. I forgive her (for real this time) and look at her side with more understanding. Lots of these things came with time and healing more from the experience. I worked on many things with my therapist. But for the life of me I cannot stop thinking about her and our relationship, I can’t help but miss her. In relationships since then, I can’t help but think of her. It makes me feel like a real piece of shit. I have accepted and know fully that we will not be getting back together, she has her own life she is living, and I’m not going to selfishly interrupt her life in any way. I genuinely wish I could let go and continue with my life.
Because of all this, I feel like a weirdo and creepy. Even though I’m not inserting myself into her life, it just makes me feel like I’m somehow doing something wrong thinking about her as much as I do.
All of this has also made dating difficult for obvious reasons.
Anyways. I’m not expecting any solutions but this has been very hard to deal with the last several years so I needed to get it off of my chest.

My friend (18f) and I (16f) have gotten close around a few years ago. We were both part of a larger friend group and would often all hang out. Two of our friends (16m and 16f) had dated for two years but recently broke up. My friend has always claimed to have a big crush on the guy, even before our friends have gotten together. She would talk about it sometimes but never openly expressed it to him or anyone else. I knew she liked him, but not as much as she actually did (I believed it to be a puppy crush). This girl also dated around a lot, and had gone through literally every guy in our age range, basically leaving me and the rest of us with nothing (if you don’t want her seconds). She had not ever gotten a chance to get with this guy, but had dated all of his friends.
A few months ago, one of our friends had a get together with all of our friends. We were all there and the guy was also invited. I had not seen him in a very long time, and we sat to catch up. For context, we were sitting in the middle of the couch next to each other, while others were sitting on the couch as well. This was in the middle of the room and not in any private area whatsoever. Me and this guy were simply just talking and catching up, but when I looked up, I saw my friend staring at me from across the room with another friend of hers. She was giving me the nastiest looks and started giving me the finger. I was so confused as to what was going on as I hadn’t done anything. I looked at my phone and saw text messages from her saying “fuck you” and things of the sort. The guy also took notice and was also confused as to why this was happening.
Now my friend and her friend were storming in and out of the house making a scene. I confronted her and asked what the problem was and she didn’t give me a response, only a dirty look. My other friends stepped in and told them that they need to cut it out and that they are embarrassing themselves and making a scene. While my friends were dealing with them, me and the guy went outside to talk. He was upset, but I was even more upset. I didn’t know what to do or say until he just leaned in and kissed me. I immediately felt guilty but I liked it a lot. It was like a scene out of a movie. We went back in the house and I sorted it out with my friend, and that was that.
We continued to talk more often and I genuinely felt a connection with him. We would always sneak a kiss in every time we saw each other at events, but never more than that. That was until that friend who got mad at me for talking to him, grad party, where I went down on him for the first time. I can admit, this was not a good choice or the best thing for me to do, and I do feel guilty and really bad about it, even though no one knows. Since that, we kicked it up a notch and we would start sneaky linking, doing everything besides the deed. All of this went on for about a year until he ultimately “cheated” on me in front of my face at my own graduation party and everything just stopped. We aren’t really friends anymore and don’t see him ever.
Back to my friend. She had no idea about this and I have my reasons for not telling her. First off, I don’t think that I’m obligated to tell her about everyone I hook up with, things like that I feel are okay to keep private. The second and more important reason is I knew she would have reacted very badly. I remembered the way she acted towards me that one night at the hangout, before we ever did anything. Her reaction that night was enough to turn me off from ever telling her and sharing intimate details about my life. We had a terrible falling out for about two years about a separate matter not related to this. However she must have found out from an ex friend of mine that me and this guy were seeing each other, because I had heard through the grapevine that she was telling others I was sneaky, manipulative, and a good liar due to the situation.
We have moved past this and are now friends again, but I often think about it sometimes. Was I in the wrong for not telling her even though I didn’t know she liked him? Was I being a bad friend? Ultimately, AITA?
Edit: this happened 3 years ago, I also never wanted to date the guy and she also never had any intent of dating him, just crushed I guess? She also only brought up “crushing on him” once or twice our entire friendship and never acted out of the ordinary when we all hung out. She was often together with another guy as she was never single, that was just her personality. This was my beginning period of exploring and I just came out as a lesbian a year and a half ago

I’ll start off by saying I don’t know if im insecure because my ex used to cheat on me. but I feel see like my current boyfriend isn’t treating me right. (We’ve been dating for 11 months now) when we first started dating I had a look on his phone and he messaged other girls to have sexual interactions with while me and him were seeing eachother. then it went to some girl at the gym he knew he had matched with on tinder (she was hot he says) he looked her up on instagram chat to see if they had spoke on instagram? then his ex messaging him and he was entertaining it and deleted the messages. then he went to Bali for a boys trip. apparently some girl was trying to crack onto him and his friends had to remind him he had a partner. And last but not least. he told me he didn’t want to watch porn anymore because he felt guilty (I never told him to stop he said it) so I took his word, only to find out he still did it. He’s now stopped but he still looking at sexual girls on reddit, twitter and onlyfans. Because he’s “curious” I’ve tried to bring all of this up and he gets defensive and angry or flips it onto me. It makes me feel very poorly about myself especially when me and him have sex quite literally everyday. but he still needs to look at others. if we go out in public he always has a look at other girls. when he kept stuffing up I know I shouldn’t of but I stood on his level and would like guys photos so now he always flips that onto me. im 21. he’s 25. I’ve tried my hardest to make this relationship work but im the one that always feels like I can’t talk to him about this because he gets so angry and has tried to break up with me twice because of me sharing my emotions and I get angry and upset because he can’t seem to understand how this effects me. am I too sensitive? we are building a house together and when we’re good we are great! it’s ever since he’s moved into my family house the bad has happened. I haven’t been perfect either but I’ve never stood this low to make him feel insecure.

I’ll start off by saying I don’t know if im insecure because my ex used to cheat on me. but I feel see like my current boyfriend isn’t treating me right. (We’ve been dating for 11 months now) when we first started dating I had a look on his phone and he messaged other girls to have sexual interactions with while me and him were seeing eachother. then it went to some girl at the gym he knew he had matched with on tinder (she was hot he says) he looked her up on instagram chat to see if they had spoke on instagram? then his ex messaging him and he was entertaining it and deleted the messages. then he went to Bali for a boys trip. apparently some girl was trying to crack onto him and his friends had to remind him he had a partner. And last but not least. he told me he didn’t want to watch porn anymore because he felt guilty (I never told him to stop he said it) so I took his word, only to find out he still did it. He’s now stopped but he still looking at sexual girls on reddit, twitter and onlyfans. Because he’s “curious” I’ve tried to bring all of this up and he gets defensive and angry or flips it onto me. It makes me feel very poorly about myself especially when me and him have sex quite literally everyday. but he still needs to look at others. if we go out in public he always has a look at other girls. when he kept stuffing up I know I shouldn’t of but I stood on his level and would like guys photos so now he always flips that onto me. im 21. he’s 25. I’ve tried my hardest to make this relationship work but im the one that always feels like I can’t talk to him about this because he gets so angry and has tried to break up with me twice because of me sharing my emotions and I get angry and upset because he can’t seem to understand how this effects me. am I too sensitive? we are building a house together and when we’re good we are great! it’s ever since he’s moved into my family house the bad has happened. I haven’t been perfect either but I’ve never stood this low to make him feel insecure.

Hi, it's been a long time and my other posts here got deleted so I give up in trying to post a final update and forgot about this site but today I saw that someone posted it on a site and I think is good to post an update because. I saw that there are people who keep sending me private messages asking how I'm doing. (I deleted the first post to Edit a few things)
I'm finally divorced, I thought it would take at least eight months to complete but it was faster than I thought since in my country it takes the signature of only one person for the divorce to be completed. She started making things complicated for me when she realized that we were really going to part ways, she even made up that I had cheated on her when I had only said that we were going to divorce because of differences, that way no one would ask, not even her parents who now think that I'm the one who cheated but I don't care. But as I always say; I got tired of trying to understand her and her actions.
I was very afraid that she might keep the house because she doing a lot of things because she wanted the house, but I didn't wanted to deal with her anymore so I just gave her a few of the furniture and appliances in the house even though I paid for everything, it doesn't matter, she was a housewife so after all she deserves her share in the divorce and I know her, She would have kept insisting and I was so feeble-minded at that point that I just wanted to stop seeing her forever, to be free of her.
I guess she came out of the closet herself because now she's dating an older woman and living with her as far as I know, I don't know if she lied to me and I don't want to know it, I don't want to know if that woman is another lover she had, I don't want to know how much they know each other, I don't care, I don't want to hurt myself with that. It's her life so at least now she's being herself. My sisters wanted to go and beat her up when they found out but I told them not to go or she could take advantage of that in the divorce. I found out about a lot of other things she did behind my back but I don't want to talk about it, just that I'm a big fool.
I hope she can finally be happy, since I know she wasn't happy with me and I wish happiness for myself too.
About her best friend, I really have no idea what happened to her, my sister knows that woman's wife and to this day they upload photos together with the baby. My sister couldn't talk about it to that woman's wife because, well, she doesn't have any proof and my wife always totally denied cheating on me with her.
I've been feeling good, I'm not going to lie and say it's easy, I think people on Internet have more empathy for my ex than for me when I talk about this haha but I think now I don't care anymore and I rather this je that way because I reject being a victim, I have my family and friends being my biggest support. I used to hide a lot of things from my psychologist because I knew that he would tell me that those things are wrong and a big part of me didn't wanted to hear the truth but a few months ago I was totally honest with many things that happened in my marriage, he scolded me a little but has helped me to see all the abusive things that I suffered, even if it was not something physical I think that mentally they damaged me a lot. I'm not going to play the victim because I refused myself many times to get out of there and keep trying like a fool. I don't see myself as a victim, I've been a victim before and I don't want to feel that way again
I've been going out with my friends to clubs, having married so young I lost part of my youth because I had to work, study and keep a house so I've been really enjoying partying. Less than a month ago I started dating a girl, it's nothing serious but we enjoy each other's company. It's weird to be with a woman who makes me feel ¿appreciated? And she doesn't look at me with boredom when I talk, I'm really quiet (Some people called me sexist for saying that being quiet is a good thing, but I never saw it as a flaw) but she's too talktive so It's always good to have a talk with her. My ex-wife and I had almost no intimacy, I have a trauma and it was hard for me to feel comfortable being intimate and now looking back, I thought my ex just wanted to make me feel comfortable but now I see that she used my trauma as an excuse to not touch me. Every time I tried to get comfortable, she would just say, "You know? Let's stop this or you'll have nightmares later.", I was very stupid too to believe all that, she just didn't wanted to touch me. But thanks to this girl I've started to enjoy myself and feel comfortable.
Not many things happened honestly and I doubt many people would mind about this but I tought it doesn't demage me to post an update, after giving the appliances and furniture to my ex, she just totally stopped talking to me. I've been focusing on myself, I feel like I'm too young to be divorced anymore but I feel good, I feel like this has been my biggest sign to start again and I want to move forward for myself and my family. I think I learned a lot about this as painful as it still is.

I’ll start off by saying I don’t know if im insecure because my ex used to cheat on me. but I feel see like my current boyfriend isn’t treating me right. (We’ve been dating for 11 months now) when we first started dating I had a look on his phone and he messaged other girls to have sexual interactions with while me and him were seeing eachother. then it went to some girl at the gym he knew he had matched with on tinder (she was hot he says) he looked her up on instagram chat to see if they had spoke on instagram? then his ex messaging him and he was entertaining it and deleted the messages. then he went to Bali for a boys trip. apparently some girl was trying to crack onto him and his friends had to remind him he had a partner. And last but not least. he told me he didn’t want to watch porn anymore because he felt guilty (I never told him to stop he said it) so I took his word, only to find out he still did it. He’s now stopped but he still looking at sexual girls on reddit, twitter and onlyfans. Because he’s “curious” I’ve tried to bring all of this up and he gets defensive and angry or flips it onto me. It makes me feel very poorly about myself especially when me and him have sex quite literally everyday. but he still needs to look at others. if we go out in public he always has a look at other girls. when he kept stuffing up I know I shouldn’t of but I stood on his level and would like guys photos so now he always flips that onto me. im 21. he’s 25. I’ve tried my hardest to make this relationship work but im the one that always feels like I can’t talk to him about this because he gets so angry and has tried to break up with me twice because of me sharing my emotions and I get angry and upset because he can’t seem to understand how this effects me. am I too sensitive? we are building a house together and when we’re good we are great! it’s ever since he’s moved into my family house the bad has happened. I haven’t been perfect either but I’ve never stood this low to make him feel insecure.

(Warning long read ahead)
Hi! For the sake of privacy I won't refer to anyone in my story by there real names I will go by these fake names I'll use. Anyways let's begin.....
So I recently got over a rough break up with my ex and in order to move on I downloaded the dating app Tinder. I swiped right on a couple of people but I ended up meeting this really sweet guy named Sasuke. He was super sweet and he helped me out with my situation that I was in. He saw that I was in a rough spot so he offered his home to me so that way I can bounce back and be able to grab my own apartment again after my ex destroyed my credit with a derogatory mark. So after meeting him on February 16th and only knowing him for like 3 days I moved in. Best sleep I had in a while right. After like the 5th or 6th day I decided to have the sexy time with Sasuke. It was good but I feel like I moved to fast on doing it with him but it's too late for regrets now.
So during that first week he was showing me affection. Giving me hugs and he gave me a kiss before I went to work at my job. After the sexy time happened I noticed he beginned to change... He would say that affection is based on actions and saying I love you to you isn't really a true way to show ones love for one another. I was like cool so how do you show affection to another person and he was like its based on actions and what you do for a person. Again he's not completely wrong but the problem with that way of thinking came out way later...
After a month of dating which he took me downtown Atlanta and I was always allowed to ride with him he says that I was his girlfriend. I was surprised because he never gave me a title until now and it took me off guard but I was happy that he called me his girlfriend. We dated each other for like 2 months and we did have our arguments along the way. When I wanted a hug or a kiss he would shove me off of him. If I said a opinion he didn't like he was quick to punch me in my arm or slap my thigh or whatever the case maybe. He says love is based on actions right so I told him having a hug or kiss is a action so why couldn't he do it??
He always says that I force my trauma onto him but I never had any real trauma happen to me??? He would always tell me fuck my feelings when we argue and that he has all of this bad stuff that happens to him (Ex: physical abuse or being stabbed ect don't wanna name all the trauma) so why do I feel entitled as a woman to complain and say he hurted my feelings when he had all these things happened to him and you don't see him crying about it. He was basically telling me to suck it up and deal with it on my own because it's not his responsibility to cuddle me which I'm not asking for I'm just asking for him to CARE a little about my feelings.
I often would ask him why did you open your house up to me if you felt uncomfortable with someone staying with you??? Because you could have just left me alone at my friend's house. He would always say oh I felt bad I felt like you needed the help which btw he constantly throws in my face that I never took advantage of his kind gesture because I didn't have to pay anything to stay here I just needed to work on myself and get me another apartment again.
At this point the arguments intensified because he never showed me affection and he always shoved me away from him and I felt lonely... I always wondered why his girlfriends cheated on him and why the other two dumped him but maybe that's the reason why because the lack of affection?? Regardless he always says fuck my feelings and never seem to cared about them. When it was his birthday and I bought him a crap ton of balloons and cake he was like I told you I don't like that shit so why did you do it??? He never once said thank you for what I did btw until I asked him about it later.
We argued again yesterday and apparently it was enough to warrant him dumping me because I was too soft and sensitive and he doesn't have time to cuddle me which I'm not asking for again I'm just asking him to CARE A LITTLE. He looked me dead in my face and said that all people inherit violent tendencies. He said if he threw his mom down a flight of stairs imagine what I could do to you and he looked me seriously in my eyes when he said that. I feel like he was mentally and verbally abusive but physical I'm not sure because we wrestled and play fight but sometimes he would hit me in the face or shove me through a room ECT and never apologized for it because he says he always warns me about the consequences of us play fighting.
But overall I was just trying to see if this is worth me saving?? Should I try to make amends and continue to date him or should I run for the hills like my friends are telling me?? He did threaten to beat me way worse then his mom so that is a red flag and when I got up this morning I looked to my left and saw a whole bunch of woman on his phone which might explain why he doesn't want to work it out with me because he was cheating which I may be reaching on. When I tried to dump him in that first month because we were two different people with showing ways of affection he told me to try and work it out and don't give up on us and when I tried to apply that same logic to the situation he just said he couldn't do it anymore in order to protect his money and not go to jail for beating me he said it was necessary. So should I stay or should I go?
(If you have any questions I'll answer them in the comments this is getting long lol)

hey im a 20 year old dude from canada i need friends ive been through a bad breakup and i need ways to distract myself while still being social because i end up just feeling alone and empty since i dont really have a social circle after a prior physically abusive relationship isolated me from all my friends i grew up with and made many people hate me due to my abusers manipulation. now i have friends which im grateful for but my social circle is not very big at all and very isolating really because im not like a hugely important friend to anyone who to me is a close friend, thats not to say they dont care but people obviously have their own busy lives and i just happen to not be a significant part of them which is normal and ok im just lonely because i used to have friends i felt very very close to and now i really dont feel like im particularly close to anyone i could go months without talking to essentially anyone who im close to without it mattering much except maybe my brother cuz hes like the closest friend i have rn
here are some of my interests:
-competitive gaming(rocket league is a big one but ill play mostly anything if it doesn't have an anti cheat that doesn't work on linux)
-casual games
-vr
-progressive politics and the dynamics that have pushed the world away from said politics
-writing and storytelling(books poems etc)
-computers and electronics(i use arch btw🤓)
-biology and psychology/psychiatry(am autistic/adhd and have tourrettes, and ocd symptoms as well as c-ptsd)
-general scientific topics(space, chemistry, ai really anything)
-Animals as a whole (i have a pet rabbit)
-audio and headphones
-repairing electronics/DIY as a whole(soldering, microelectronics, fixing phones, building custom keyboards or speakers etc)
-speedrunning
thats majority of my interests i can't particularly remember anything more at the moment. if youd like to be friends you can dm me on here or leave a comment feel free to talk about anything i said in general too obviously or like ask anything idk what people really post here. the next part is gonna be a bit of a rant about my relationship that ended since its why i feel lonely rn and i feel particularly bad rn and ig this is a good place for support. feel free not to read it though since writing it is helpful for my processing regardless altho i appreciate any support at all too
my ex broke up w me around a week or two ago she was a funny person w a similar sense of humour to me and a similar belief system but she had many toxic traits. she was diagnosed w bpd altho thats not what necessarily caused these issues she's much more disordered than simply bpd. she used to get drunk and yell at me about how she thought in the future id blame my trauma from my physically abusive ex on her as originally i had thought my physically abusive ex was that way because of her saying she had undiagnosed bpd, but she obviously was more disordered than that too and i knew by that point already (her saying i would do that was just a way to justify her later making me out to be crazy for criticizing her behaviours like she has done to many people before me).
my recent ex cheated on her last ex with me and would talk horribly about him while justifying it making me not really process how disordered what she was doing was at the time. by the end she had done a lot but ig one thing that stands out as pretty outlandish was she got mad at me after asking if i would kiss the ground she walked on if she was god and worship her and i said yes at first but she wanted to make sure i really would and when i explained i dont know but probably not because im not religious she got upset and disappointed which is obviously a pretty weird and narcissistic thing. she broke up with me because i criticized her behaviours, this happens to a lot of people who criticize how she acts apparently which is validating but it left me extremely lonely because i essentially lost my best friend because i couldn't keep my mouth shut. and ik thats self blame since she literally actively isolated me from my closest friend by accusing that id wanna date them if we broke up etc and yelling at me and just getting jealous across the relationship even as i was already isolating but its still hard not to feel disappointed and sad that i lost someone so important to me and blame myself for not just letting her do as she wants without criticism. she started to hate me by the end though so ill never have that friendship again anyway and thats just something i have to grow to be content with in time.