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2015.09.16 09:42 whangadude Maps without New Zealand on them
Maps without New Zealand on them. This place is all about the meme and fact about how we're missing from so many maps. it's not that serious. Please don't post a Risk board, it's done too often.
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2024.06.01 06:57 elsielolo question about my fever
Hi! medical question
So, it’s my first time getting a uti right, i went to the ER yesterday because i had a fever for two days and that’s when they told me i had a uti and prescribed me some anti-buotics which i have been taking when i got them after the er yesterday. tho when i got to the hospital yesterday it’s like my fever was gone and i felt entirely better even tho they didn’t give me medicine or anything they just did a urine sample. that’s until i got into bed last night and it’s like the fever magically appeared again and i was really hot and felt freezing and then i took some medicine for the fever and went to sleep. i woke up hot and with the fever still but when i got out of bed and through the whole day i felt normal again, until tonight when i got into bed again to go to sleep and i started feeling the fever again. idk why it keeps coming back but i’m getting anxious from it and idk why i’m getting the fever constantly but only at night when i’m getting ready to sleep. i also just got my period today so i’m fighting two battles rn with the period and uti. can anyone explain the thing with the fever and if or when it’ll go away or if it’s something i should check again at the hospital? :) thank u. i’m 19f
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So, it’s my first time getting a uti right, i went to the ER yesterday because i had a fever for two days and that’s when they told me i had a uti and prescribed me some anti-buotics which i have been taking when i got them after the er yesterday. tho when i got to the hospital yesterday it’s like my fever was gone and i felt entirely better even tho they didn’t give me medicine or anything they just did a urine sample. that’s until i got into bed last night and it’s like the fever magically appeared again and i was really hot and felt freezing and then i took some medicine for the fever and went to sleep. i woke up hot and with the fever still but when i got out of bed and through the whole day i felt normal again, until tonight when i got into bed again to go to sleep and i started feeling the fever again. idk why it keeps coming back but i’m getting anxious from it and idk why i’m getting the fever constantly but only at night when i’m getting ready to sleep. i also just got my period today so i’m fighting two battles rn with the period and uti. can anyone explain the thing with the fever and if or when it’ll go away or if it’s something i should check again at the hospital? :) thank u. i’m 19f
2024.06.01 06:36 lIlI1lII1Il1Il Unrealistic expectations and the inability to communicate without judgement have destroyed me
TL;DR: Family is my biggest stressor. No communication, just unspoken expectations and judgment. Haven't seen extended family in 14 years because of toxic relationships and unmet expectations. Close family doesn't understand my mental health needs. Feel more connected to friends than family. Wish my immediate family was supportive, but doubt they'll change.
I wake up every day of my life, and I dread the fact I have to continue living. My biggest stressor has been family. They show their love for me in many ways, but more important than cooking food or paying for bills is having a healthy relationship. The fact that there is no communication infrastructure has destroyed my family. Nobody feels like they can talk to the other without feeling judged. Expectations are levied invisibly. You can feel it when these expectations are violated, even when not a single word was spoken.
I haven't seen my extended family for 14 years. Some of my loved ones died, and I didn't see or talk with them before they passed away. It breaks my heart. Yet, I can't go because the relationships I have with them are toxic. Family drama is rife, and they likely see in me a failure and a disappointment, someone who didn't fulfill their dreams to be a doctor or engineer. Why would I want to see someone who doesn't accept me for who I am?
The same with my close family. I wish I could communicate to them that I'm really mentally ill, and that I need my space from time to time. I wish they could understand the concept of choice, and that they don't feel disappointed if I don't say yes all the time. I wish they would tell me, "Hey man, we support you and love you no matter what. You're trying your hardest, and we can see that." Nope.
One thing I've learned is that my immediate family doesn't have to be my "close" family. There's nothing close about my relationship with them (besides DNA). I felt a lot closer to strangers who became friends, people I vibed with a lot, people I genuinely couldn't wait to see and whose company I enjoyed. I hope I could have both: an immediate family that is close to me. But when will things ever change, esp. with people who have been dead set in their ways for decades??
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I haven't seen my extended family for 14 years. Some of my loved ones died, and I didn't see or talk with them before they passed away. It breaks my heart. Yet, I can't go because the relationships I have with them are toxic. Family drama is rife, and they likely see in me a failure and a disappointment, someone who didn't fulfill their dreams to be a doctor or engineer. Why would I want to see someone who doesn't accept me for who I am?
The same with my close family. I wish I could communicate to them that I'm really mentally ill, and that I need my space from time to time. I wish they could understand the concept of choice, and that they don't feel disappointed if I don't say yes all the time. I wish they would tell me, "Hey man, we support you and love you no matter what. You're trying your hardest, and we can see that." Nope.
One thing I've learned is that my immediate family doesn't have to be my "close" family. There's nothing close about my relationship with them (besides DNA). I felt a lot closer to strangers who became friends, people I vibed with a lot, people I genuinely couldn't wait to see and whose company I enjoyed. I hope I could have both: an immediate family that is close to me. But when will things ever change, esp. with people who have been dead set in their ways for decades??
2024.06.01 04:55 FancyInvestment397 DuckyLuck Casino - Honest Review in 2024
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2024.06.01 00:41 No_Butterscotch_6321 Newbie in a pickle
I started to build a wordpress site in Dec. 2022. A family issue pulled me away, requiring most of my time. No complaints. But after 18 mos, I have a DR of zero. I have around 30 articles and I get around 35 new visitors a month which I know is pitiful. Circumstances have changed and I'm ready to tackle this now: My first order of business is to write some guest posts for backlinks. My questions:
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- Will google penalize me for having no links for 18 months and if I start getting them now, can I still become an authority in their eyes? Or should I start a new website from scratch (I already bought a new domain name) and close this one down?
- My desktop speed score is 96 and my mobile score is 67. I have done a lot of reading about how/why mobile is lower but this seems REALLY LOW. Will google penalize my site and keep my DR down even after I get backlinks for having such a poor mobile score?
2024.05.31 22:56 RealHorse5855 need to get a job and car
I used to have a car and a job. But I was working as a line cook that didn’t pay well and I had to deal with unending verbal harassment. It started with sexual harassment and groping then they hired someone else who screamed at me every chance he got. I got fed up and decided to look for another job as soon as i quit and i couldn’t find work for months. by the time i landed a job my car had been repossessed for nonpayment and they wanted the remainder of the cars entire expense to get it back.
Couldn’t afford that so i tried ubering back and forth and because uber is unreliable where i live, i kept showing up late and lost my new, good paying job. Not to mention I live too far to walk to a job, the only local jobs that I could uber to don’t pay well enough to keep me afloat, and most of my paycheck would be just getting to and from work. I can’t afford internet or a computer to work from home either. As a result, I found someone who desperately needs a sitter for her baby, and has been kind enough to pick me up and drop me off, but she can’t afford to pay me more than $6/hr.
I’m just tired of being miserable, broke, and carless. I miss being able to run errands without emptying my whole wallet. I miss being able to visit friends and go places. Nowadays Im stuck at home and it’s caused my depression to plummet to hell. Does anyone have any idea what I should do?
TLDR; lost car and job, no jobs within walking or biking distance, can’t afford car if I’m having to use uber everyday
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Couldn’t afford that so i tried ubering back and forth and because uber is unreliable where i live, i kept showing up late and lost my new, good paying job. Not to mention I live too far to walk to a job, the only local jobs that I could uber to don’t pay well enough to keep me afloat, and most of my paycheck would be just getting to and from work. I can’t afford internet or a computer to work from home either. As a result, I found someone who desperately needs a sitter for her baby, and has been kind enough to pick me up and drop me off, but she can’t afford to pay me more than $6/hr.
I’m just tired of being miserable, broke, and carless. I miss being able to run errands without emptying my whole wallet. I miss being able to visit friends and go places. Nowadays Im stuck at home and it’s caused my depression to plummet to hell. Does anyone have any idea what I should do?
TLDR; lost car and job, no jobs within walking or biking distance, can’t afford car if I’m having to use uber everyday
2024.05.31 22:13 Proud-Smoke-5983 I need advice ASAP
I need advice
Hey guys I arrived in Germany on March last up on request on my employer for doing Ausbildung in nursing, which was supposed to start in 1st April but after arriving here my employer informed me that my classes will only start on 1st September and I have to work as an intern or so until then which I was fine with. But since then it's radio silence. I did all my paper work but hasn't heard from the emigration office after I scanned my thumb and stuff. My employer first provided me with proper accommodations but after just 1 months moved me to a room with 5 people( including me).They also paid me for the month of April but that's that . They did not pay me in May . I know I haven't worked but it's not my mistake is it?. I ask almost every 2 weeks when I can start working , she just says some paper work is not done. I was expecting to get some money in May ( of course paying me the full amount is out of question because I haven't started working). There is no proper communication,they dont inform me shit . I hear things from my roommates ( they knew I wasn't getting paid in May but no one informed me from the office).The accommodations is also crammed and dirty with 5 people sharing a room and I basically don't have a bed yet( I am sleeping in the common kitchen sofa).To be honest I am living rent free thank her I guess ? But they charge 500 per bed for others . How am I supposed to live ? I have bills to pay , my parents told me they will cover this months expense but I can't expect them to cover next month?. I have no power or voice here to ask for better accommodations or pay as I am not working.I am looking for an exit and have interviews with reputable firms lined up( not making a mistake again). I have a meeting with her on Monday what I say to improve my situation here ? Like 1. Am I legally entitled to something here?
Thank you everyone for your advice . Many asked me to take legal action against them but here are some reason why I think it's gonna be not so good for me .
Well 1.I won't have place to live 2.I don't have the means to financially support myself , I do some people I can rely on but I came to Germany to be independent and don't want to be a burden 3. I can go back to my parents or ask them for financial help but I rather die 4.i don't know if I will get hired in the future if I have an ongoing case 5. I don't know for sure how long it will take for me to get justice ( in my country it may take years ). 6. I'm not sure if I am gonna win the case and get any compensation worth the Hussle 7. Hiring a lawyer is expensive and I am basically broke 21 year old.
If anyone have a legal background. Could you please give me some advice.
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Hey guys I arrived in Germany on March last up on request on my employer for doing Ausbildung in nursing, which was supposed to start in 1st April but after arriving here my employer informed me that my classes will only start on 1st September and I have to work as an intern or so until then which I was fine with. But since then it's radio silence. I did all my paper work but hasn't heard from the emigration office after I scanned my thumb and stuff. My employer first provided me with proper accommodations but after just 1 months moved me to a room with 5 people( including me).They also paid me for the month of April but that's that . They did not pay me in May . I know I haven't worked but it's not my mistake is it?. I ask almost every 2 weeks when I can start working , she just says some paper work is not done. I was expecting to get some money in May ( of course paying me the full amount is out of question because I haven't started working). There is no proper communication,they dont inform me shit . I hear things from my roommates ( they knew I wasn't getting paid in May but no one informed me from the office).The accommodations is also crammed and dirty with 5 people sharing a room and I basically don't have a bed yet( I am sleeping in the common kitchen sofa).To be honest I am living rent free thank her I guess ? But they charge 500 per bed for others . How am I supposed to live ? I have bills to pay , my parents told me they will cover this months expense but I can't expect them to cover next month?. I have no power or voice here to ask for better accommodations or pay as I am not working.I am looking for an exit and have interviews with reputable firms lined up( not making a mistake again). I have a meeting with her on Monday what I say to improve my situation here ? Like 1. Am I legally entitled to something here?
Thank you everyone for your advice . Many asked me to take legal action against them but here are some reason why I think it's gonna be not so good for me .
Well 1.I won't have place to live 2.I don't have the means to financially support myself , I do some people I can rely on but I came to Germany to be independent and don't want to be a burden 3. I can go back to my parents or ask them for financial help but I rather die 4.i don't know if I will get hired in the future if I have an ongoing case 5. I don't know for sure how long it will take for me to get justice ( in my country it may take years ). 6. I'm not sure if I am gonna win the case and get any compensation worth the Hussle 7. Hiring a lawyer is expensive and I am basically broke 21 year old.
If anyone have a legal background. Could you please give me some advice.
2024.05.31 21:12 Independent-Chip7028 Supply while pregnant
Does your supply always drop after getting pregnant again? I’ve always loved the idea of 2 under 2 and after having my little one my heart is already aching for another! We’re not trying but I can’t be on birth control and if it happens we wouldn’t be mad at all, I just worry about my supply. I see online so many posts about it effecting it negatively and dropping almost instantly and that alone is keeping me from wanting another even though I want another so bad right now. LO is 3 months and my goal is at least 6 months of breastfeeding although a year would be so nice.
Edit- not sure if it matters but LO is exclusively breastfed on demand and I do not pump
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Edit- not sure if it matters but LO is exclusively breastfed on demand and I do not pump
2024.05.31 20:33 taylorswift13221989 I am a girl who has a crush on another girl who has a boyfriend
I (15f) started going to a church a while ago, (around january) and saw a girl I thought was cute. I didn't speak to her for a while, just kinda observed from afar. Some stuff happened and I had to leave the church for a month or two. I had completely forgotten about her because I was going through a lot. Before I went back to the church, I had a dream about her and remembered her. It all kinda spiraled from there and I ended up developing like a HUGE crush on her. Her boyfriend found my instagram around a month ago and I found out he was her boyfriend. I was pretty sad and was like yeah I can't like her. I stopped trying to talk to her and THOUGHT I was over her. Yesterday, my youth group had a volunteering thing me and her took part in and we ended up hanging out for most of the day. TURNS OUT I STILL LIKE HER. Now I can't get her out of my mind again and idk what to do. I don't wanna be a homewrecker or anything. She looks at me a lot and it drives me actually insane. (Oh also silly little fun fact we both got baptized together on good friday this year! i remember my youth pastor being like yeah two of you guys are gonna get baptized and the other person ended up being her and i kinda-sorta freaked out!!!!) she literally asked for my number yesterday. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO and had to rant about it somewhere. also, i like never have dreams about people, even if i like them, BUT FOR SOME REASON SHES HAUNTING ME AND I CANT ESCAPE HER EVEN IN MY SLEEP. im going just a little crazy! can someone please tell me if i should continue having a crush on her, and if not how to get over her?
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2024.05.31 20:25 snoopy_penguin 18M (UK) Looking to make friends
Here's a bit about me:
My name is Sami and I am currently 18 years old in my last year of high school. I am a full on introvert who loves to spend most of my time just being alone and just enjoy the nature around me. When I am not doing that, I love to game, watch movies and anime, hike, draw and just try out new hobbies from time to time. I tried sewing recently and I am thinking of trying to get into reading. If you want to know more than I am more than happy to tell you in DMs
What kind of a person am I looking for:
I am looking for someone who just wants a friendship out of me and nothing else. I will happily support you if you aren't at your best but don't expect me to be your therapist. I am also not looking for a relationship or anything like that so if that is your intention, I suggest you don't bother contacting me. I will be looking through your profile and if I see something I don't like (Especially anything NSFW), I will gladly let you know that I don't wish to be affiliated with you. I know my requirements seem a little bit harsh but if you think we can get along, do hit me up and we can see from there. If you have read this far then I wish you a very nice day and good luck with your search on finding friends!
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My name is Sami and I am currently 18 years old in my last year of high school. I am a full on introvert who loves to spend most of my time just being alone and just enjoy the nature around me. When I am not doing that, I love to game, watch movies and anime, hike, draw and just try out new hobbies from time to time. I tried sewing recently and I am thinking of trying to get into reading. If you want to know more than I am more than happy to tell you in DMs
What kind of a person am I looking for:
I am looking for someone who just wants a friendship out of me and nothing else. I will happily support you if you aren't at your best but don't expect me to be your therapist. I am also not looking for a relationship or anything like that so if that is your intention, I suggest you don't bother contacting me. I will be looking through your profile and if I see something I don't like (Especially anything NSFW), I will gladly let you know that I don't wish to be affiliated with you. I know my requirements seem a little bit harsh but if you think we can get along, do hit me up and we can see from there. If you have read this far then I wish you a very nice day and good luck with your search on finding friends!
2024.05.31 20:11 Dr-Dr-Th Experience with Dual GPU Stability?
I have gotten very into massively-multi-monitor setups and I've been running into issues with caps on the number of monitors supported per GPU (not related to the number of ports- daisychains and splitters don't help). As far as I know, that's a driver-level issue and not something that I can solve.
In the past, I've experimented with a few different setups and they've had serious stability issues whenever I've used two different GPUs from the same manufacturer. Setups with cards from two different manufacturers haven't worked at all for me, although I was using a Matrox M9188 which isn't exactly a normal piece of hardware.
Right now I'm considering trying an iGPU instead of a dedicated GPU for the second card, or looking at getting two identical cards, probably AMD since they support 6 monitors per card instead of nvidia's 4 monitors per card. Does anyone have experience with the stability and usability of these setups? Or know of any multi-GPU setups that have solid stability between two different cards?
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In the past, I've experimented with a few different setups and they've had serious stability issues whenever I've used two different GPUs from the same manufacturer. Setups with cards from two different manufacturers haven't worked at all for me, although I was using a Matrox M9188 which isn't exactly a normal piece of hardware.
Right now I'm considering trying an iGPU instead of a dedicated GPU for the second card, or looking at getting two identical cards, probably AMD since they support 6 monitors per card instead of nvidia's 4 monitors per card. Does anyone have experience with the stability and usability of these setups? Or know of any multi-GPU setups that have solid stability between two different cards?
2024.05.31 19:26 Excendence Quality men's simple ~15mm hoop sterling silver earrings?
I've been wearing these https://www.etsy.com/listing/554431266/sterling-silver-hoop-earrings-small-hoop?ref=yr_purchases almost 24/7 for 3 years and I was wondering if there was something slightly more elevated. I love them dearly, super comfy and the perfect size, but you can see the hinge if you look closely from the front. Maybe it's just capitalism driving me to want something new though 😅
I recently ordered these https://www.etsy.com/listing/1370696012/sterling-silver-hoops-925-sterling?ref=yr_purchases in 12 and 18mm and I think the thinness of the hoops threw me off but I didn't really like either as much as the ones I already had. Giving them to some friends!
Been looking at these for a while: https://mejuri.com/shop/products/tube-medium-hoops-silver and the reviews mostly look promising but they're a little thicker than I'm used to and 16mm instead of 15. Maybe I'll like that more though?
Sorry to play goldilocks, I just wish there were an easier way to try on something so nuanced! Price can be stretched a little since I'm hoping to get a pair that I can wear to weddings and the beach and grocery shopping and sleep every day for at least the next 3 years but in general sterling silver doesn't seem to get too bad! Thank you :)
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I recently ordered these https://www.etsy.com/listing/1370696012/sterling-silver-hoops-925-sterling?ref=yr_purchases in 12 and 18mm and I think the thinness of the hoops threw me off but I didn't really like either as much as the ones I already had. Giving them to some friends!
Been looking at these for a while: https://mejuri.com/shop/products/tube-medium-hoops-silver and the reviews mostly look promising but they're a little thicker than I'm used to and 16mm instead of 15. Maybe I'll like that more though?
Sorry to play goldilocks, I just wish there were an easier way to try on something so nuanced! Price can be stretched a little since I'm hoping to get a pair that I can wear to weddings and the beach and grocery shopping and sleep every day for at least the next 3 years but in general sterling silver doesn't seem to get too bad! Thank you :)
2024.05.31 19:09 Erevan307 Planning out a campaign based around a time loop for later down the line, what are ideas to look into and possible things to avoid?
As the title says, I am planning a campaign based around a time-loop to run sometime in the future.
The current idea is as follows, the players wake up already in the time loop, and they don't know what is going on. The goal would be to defeat the BBEG, and along the way there would be other goals they can choose to complete to make the battle easier. As soon as one of them dies from failing death saving throws, the time-loop gets reset. When the loop resets, most things would also get reset, except their exp, any side goals they have completed, and if they received an item from completing a side goal, they get to keep said item, so that they have some sort of progression and can feel like they are actually accomplishing something.
Another idea I have been throwing around in my head is that some things would change between loops, not drastically, but enough to be noticeable.
This campaign is still in the early stages of being worked on so this is all i have right now. Are there any other ideas I could look into and is there anything I should avoid to try and make this as fun as possible for the players?
I will answer any questions to the best of my ability.
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The current idea is as follows, the players wake up already in the time loop, and they don't know what is going on. The goal would be to defeat the BBEG, and along the way there would be other goals they can choose to complete to make the battle easier. As soon as one of them dies from failing death saving throws, the time-loop gets reset. When the loop resets, most things would also get reset, except their exp, any side goals they have completed, and if they received an item from completing a side goal, they get to keep said item, so that they have some sort of progression and can feel like they are actually accomplishing something.
Another idea I have been throwing around in my head is that some things would change between loops, not drastically, but enough to be noticeable.
This campaign is still in the early stages of being worked on so this is all i have right now. Are there any other ideas I could look into and is there anything I should avoid to try and make this as fun as possible for the players?
I will answer any questions to the best of my ability.
2024.05.31 17:14 jokermobile333 Confusion regarding the prime95 stress test in Omen Transcend 14 - Intel Ultra 7 155H - it's clock speed can boost up to 3.3 GHz only and reaches 98c .. according to Notebookcheck
According to Notebookcheck review on HP Omen Transcend 14 -
"When initiating Prime95 stress, the CPU would boost to 3.3 GHz, 83 W, and 98 C for the first few seconds before falling and stabilizing at 3.0 GHz, 65 W, and 71 C. HWiNFO reports wide and erratic temperature differences between the DTS and Enhanced sensors, but both are provided nonetheless in the screenshots below. Regardless, the CPU can maintain decent Turbo Boost speeds despite the small size and light weight to rival the Ryzen 9 8945HS."
the Intel Ultra 155H advertises it's turbo boost to be able to go up to 4.6GHz whereas as per Prime95 stress test results, whereas omen 14 can only boosts up to 3.3 GHz from base clock 1.4 GHz and that too reaching 98c temps, which in my opinion is just not good enough for the price. Basically it's not even better than i7 13th gen and amd ryzen 7's u based processors.
And also how is this better Ryzen 9 8945HS ? Omen 16 Ryzen 9 7940HS is similarly priced to omen 14 but it's leagues ahead in performance.
I was eying for Omen 14 as it was portable for work and can do some light gaming on the side all the while cooling really well and being quiet. But the cpu not being able to go beyond 3.3GHz is a huge deal breaker. Want to use the laptop for Revit software which mainly works on a single core requiring atleast 3.5Ghz base clock for smoother performance. At that price it does'nt look like attenable for my use case ...
Any thoughts ?
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"When initiating Prime95 stress, the CPU would boost to 3.3 GHz, 83 W, and 98 C for the first few seconds before falling and stabilizing at 3.0 GHz, 65 W, and 71 C. HWiNFO reports wide and erratic temperature differences between the DTS and Enhanced sensors, but both are provided nonetheless in the screenshots below. Regardless, the CPU can maintain decent Turbo Boost speeds despite the small size and light weight to rival the Ryzen 9 8945HS."
the Intel Ultra 155H advertises it's turbo boost to be able to go up to 4.6GHz whereas as per Prime95 stress test results, whereas omen 14 can only boosts up to 3.3 GHz from base clock 1.4 GHz and that too reaching 98c temps, which in my opinion is just not good enough for the price. Basically it's not even better than i7 13th gen and amd ryzen 7's u based processors.
And also how is this better Ryzen 9 8945HS ? Omen 16 Ryzen 9 7940HS is similarly priced to omen 14 but it's leagues ahead in performance.
I was eying for Omen 14 as it was portable for work and can do some light gaming on the side all the while cooling really well and being quiet. But the cpu not being able to go beyond 3.3GHz is a huge deal breaker. Want to use the laptop for Revit software which mainly works on a single core requiring atleast 3.5Ghz base clock for smoother performance. At that price it does'nt look like attenable for my use case ...
Any thoughts ?
2024.05.31 16:27 blueberrylover6 Why does my dad ruin everything
I have autism and I think my dad does too. On special occasions and big days he always is very grumpy, like when we were young, going out for picnics or going to a museum, he would walk very far ahead and try rush the day along, on Christmas, he would never get up to open presents, wouldn’t like to open his presents infront of us, he never thanked us and the presents never seemed good enough for him, he would finish Christmas dinner before us, sit far away and wash up before anybody was done, he started the hoover and tried to get my mam away from us to do chores for the horses. He always complains if he has to go out for dinner, he complained at my brothers graduation and even insulted my mothers weight at her college ceremony.
He also never wants to come on family holiday (which is fine) or when he does, he doesnt like to participate in thinhs that we do.
Is this a sign of autism or something else? i dont need to be told to cut him off or whatever, because thats not happening, i just want to know what this is and how to help the issue.
Could it be something to do with his being anxious something will go wrong, so he just ruins it himself to be in control? Can anybody relate?
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He also never wants to come on family holiday (which is fine) or when he does, he doesnt like to participate in thinhs that we do.
Is this a sign of autism or something else? i dont need to be told to cut him off or whatever, because thats not happening, i just want to know what this is and how to help the issue.
Could it be something to do with his being anxious something will go wrong, so he just ruins it himself to be in control? Can anybody relate?
2024.05.31 15:17 JustBuAlt System requirement bypass issues with 5600XT and Ryzen 5 3600
So for context my game works fine running on a Ryzen 7 1700X, with a NVIDIA GTX 1080, and 32 GB of ram. However my friend recently got into the beta and is running with a Ryzen 5 3600 and a 5600 XT and doesn't meet the requirements. I've seen and showed him the videos of how to bypass it but he is having no luck so I was wondering if anyone was able to get these two to work and if you had to do something specific for it to work apart from what's in tutorials like this one https://docs.google.com/document/d/1R463kGmaK8nfcdq-OXMkPXnpjdE8oDscXpIRrRIi9Is/edit and he tried following this video with the pinned comments https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NpvhZwXGjpM and still is having no luck. It could be something he missed on his part but after watching him it seems like he did everything correct. Only thing I can think of is the names in the regedit need to be specific not just "Ryzen 7800x" and if thats the case can someone copy and paste the gpu name and cpu they used in regedit possibly or any other solutions?
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2024.05.31 13:38 PhoenixsFitness Should I wait a year or move this year.
I’m debating if I should wait one more year to move to Florida. I’m clearly not happy here and I would be a lot happier in Florida. I could take off right now and fix my SSI in Florida if I really wanted to. I need to save up at least $1,200 which would take me 15 months from now starting on June 1st. I need to check if this apartment has a deposit as it said N/A. So hopefully it doesn’t but I bet it will. So just in case I need to save up to $1,200. For the rent, deposit and one way flight. If they try to stop me from moving, Then I will leave. I have a rep payee. I really just want to be in Florida right now. I would feel so much happier. I only get $80 a month but I’m going to ask for more since I did get $125 last month. I’m hoping to get that amount again every month so it’ll only take 10 months to reach $1,250. Either way I’ll have $1,200 once I move. I plan to save up everything and not spend money.
I just googled so I would be moving next September 1st!! Probably a few days after so I can get my check. If I get more money, I’d be leaving in 10 months from June 1st which is April 1st, 2025.
I’m so exited to finally move to Florida!!
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I just googled so I would be moving next September 1st!! Probably a few days after so I can get my check. If I get more money, I’d be leaving in 10 months from June 1st which is April 1st, 2025.
I’m so exited to finally move to Florida!!
2024.05.31 11:52 Upbeat-Explanation37 Spike after a osteopath neck adjustment
So the culprit of my multiple-sound tinnitus is TMD 100%. Started shortly after a dentist heavily misaligned my bite and my TMJ respectively. I have it since January 2023. For almost a year I only had the high pitched static/ringing which at some stage almost disappeared, but then came the morse-code beeping alien sounds in both ears differently, so this is when I went to a TMJ specialist and started splint therapy, which seems to be helping a bit with the beeping sounds. By the time I started the initial ringing was almost unnoticable, only when veeery quite and had to you know search for it. But then my doc wanted me to go to a Osteopatt to align my neck. Well I didnt want to really, but somehow I did and then a day after the procedure my old ringing/static T came back worse than ever!!! It has been more than a week now and it seems not getting better. I sleep with a loud fan plus music and still can hear it within my head. Has anyone had spikes from chiropractors or osteopaths? Will it get back to baseline? I feel terrible and blame myself that I went to this osteopath.
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2024.05.31 10:31 Training-Bluejay-125 Fitness Journey // Personal Trainer
I'm a college student at Berkeley and I'm looking to begin going to gym. Life has been pretty difficult these past years and I think I've reached a point in my life where I've realized that I need to create some drastic changes in my life. I have always wanted to focus on my body but having developed an eating disorder from stress and depression, my relationship with my body has never been healthy. I think going to gym and working toward something good for myself will do me good. I have been thinking about getting a personal trainer for myself, just to get me started as I am very intimidated to start going on my own. I guess I more so also just want some kind of mentor to really help me with this process. I know that a personal trainer can be pretty pricey, but I am willing to invest how ever much if it means being able to turn my life around. If anyone knows people who are really good personal trainers or is willing to help me please let me know. I have access to the University's Gym, the RSF, but I'm not sure if the personal trainers they provide there are a good fit for me. If anyone has had experience with personal trainers in the RSF, please feel free to let me know about your experience(s).
Thank you.
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Thank you.
2024.05.31 09:02 KittyCatCrunchie How does the game decide what pokemon your rival gets?
I know this seems kind of pathetic given where other people are getting to and is probably just a skill issue on my part, but I wanted to ask anyway.
Does the rival make their team to specifically dunk on your team? Because that's what it really feels like to me.
I was running a really good team combo of Shinx, Abra and Drillbur and she miraculously acquired a lv 18 solrock with insane base speed, rock throw and zen headbutt between the level 16 cap battle (wattrel and fennekin) and the level 24 cap battle. Obviously I wiped because it just outsped and rock threw or psychiced everything to death with OHKOs.
That's fine, it happens. The next time I decide to leave drillbur and try for something that could hit wattrel well (since my rival uses wattrel like 80% of the time) so I still take abra and shinx for neutral damage but also but also dont really have anything that knows rock moves yet. So beholden by solrock trauma, i take rowlet. Everything is fine, second rival fight she has wattrel and litten, easy win. Third rival fight she has a level 18 Dracozolt. What? Wipe.
Next round goes similar, i take cottonee for the starting fairy coverage in case of more dragon schenanigans, abra for big stab confusion hits and froakie for coverage against fire for my cottonee. Everything fine, wattrel and snivy easy win at second fight blah blah. I manage to get myself a nuzleaf with rollout for that rock coverage. My party is at level 14 max with one 16 in cottonee to get to razor leaf. Next rival fight, bam, level 18 skarmory, outspeeds everything OHKOs my nuzleaf so cant even get one rollout off. OHKOs frogadier and kadabra even but they've gotten it down to one third and I'm forced to send out cottonee who Obviously dies immediately. Not one KO from me.
This has happened for the last 6 runs, qhe just pulls out something with insane stat distro that outspeeds my whole team and that i don't have a move for or am very weak to.
Is that by design and I'm just losing cause I suck or is this a horrible run of rng? Cause honestly idk what more to do, I get as many lures as possible for the extra xp, try keep my party at 4 to maximise xp given to essential members, snag as many rare candies as possible and make sure I'm healed before her battle every time. I'm always 4-5 levels under her no matter what and then she pulls out some kind of targeted attack against my team.
Tl;dr my rival always wipes me at the third fight because she just seems to have acquired a third mon custom to mane my team melt at 4 levels higher than my team. (Solrock, skarmory, dracozolt etc). Is that intended? Am i just that bad at PR that I cant beat her or is this horrid rng?
What do I do, guys? If I'm just that shit, what can I do to improve?
Thanks
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Does the rival make their team to specifically dunk on your team? Because that's what it really feels like to me.
I was running a really good team combo of Shinx, Abra and Drillbur and she miraculously acquired a lv 18 solrock with insane base speed, rock throw and zen headbutt between the level 16 cap battle (wattrel and fennekin) and the level 24 cap battle. Obviously I wiped because it just outsped and rock threw or psychiced everything to death with OHKOs.
That's fine, it happens. The next time I decide to leave drillbur and try for something that could hit wattrel well (since my rival uses wattrel like 80% of the time) so I still take abra and shinx for neutral damage but also but also dont really have anything that knows rock moves yet. So beholden by solrock trauma, i take rowlet. Everything is fine, second rival fight she has wattrel and litten, easy win. Third rival fight she has a level 18 Dracozolt. What? Wipe.
Next round goes similar, i take cottonee for the starting fairy coverage in case of more dragon schenanigans, abra for big stab confusion hits and froakie for coverage against fire for my cottonee. Everything fine, wattrel and snivy easy win at second fight blah blah. I manage to get myself a nuzleaf with rollout for that rock coverage. My party is at level 14 max with one 16 in cottonee to get to razor leaf. Next rival fight, bam, level 18 skarmory, outspeeds everything OHKOs my nuzleaf so cant even get one rollout off. OHKOs frogadier and kadabra even but they've gotten it down to one third and I'm forced to send out cottonee who Obviously dies immediately. Not one KO from me.
This has happened for the last 6 runs, qhe just pulls out something with insane stat distro that outspeeds my whole team and that i don't have a move for or am very weak to.
Is that by design and I'm just losing cause I suck or is this a horrible run of rng? Cause honestly idk what more to do, I get as many lures as possible for the extra xp, try keep my party at 4 to maximise xp given to essential members, snag as many rare candies as possible and make sure I'm healed before her battle every time. I'm always 4-5 levels under her no matter what and then she pulls out some kind of targeted attack against my team.
Tl;dr my rival always wipes me at the third fight because she just seems to have acquired a third mon custom to mane my team melt at 4 levels higher than my team. (Solrock, skarmory, dracozolt etc). Is that intended? Am i just that bad at PR that I cant beat her or is this horrid rng?
What do I do, guys? If I'm just that shit, what can I do to improve?
Thanks
2024.05.31 08:56 thedancingbutterfly Changing my life at 35
I know this question has spawned million-dollar industries. And yet, I write here. I am a 35 year old Asian woman, grew up in a small town in India with lots of physical and emotional abuse from both my parents. Parents were ostracised from the society, especially by my mother's parents for class differences in my father's background and for 14 years, they did not see each other at all and actively tried to put my father behind bars initially. Both my parents had hand to mouth salaries and we were poor. My father used to beat up my mother and my mother took it all out on me. At times, my father did it too. My mother gave birth to my brother, who could barely survive for 5 minutes, as we could not afford good healthcare for her and the child, and he passed away. That broke us all, although we didn't realise the intensity of it then.
Cut to 2 years later-my sister was born and my parents' lives changed- father re-started his business after being laid off from his previous job and my mother became a good mother to my sister and "maternal grandparents" and my mother's family entered our lives. Things changed for my parents but not for me. I became my sisters babysitter, got treated like an adult more so than before at the age of around 7-8. The only way I could get my parents' love and not get beaten or abused was by being brilliant in academics. They did put a lot of their resources into my education. Losing 1 mark to the class- topper got me beration and humiliation, waking up my mother from her sleep by accidentally dropping something while playing, got me kicks and deep red marks on my back. At 13, I attempted suicide.
Since then, my mother did not raise her hand on me, but I was completely broken by then. I thought I had hit my rock bottom, but there was more to come. I went away from that jail-like environment at my parents' to pursue my studies and became quite reckless (at that time, I thought I was being rebellious). Started dating at 17- he was an abusive alcoholic boy. We were in a relationship for 8 years and used to hit each other and eventually broke up. I dated another person for another 4 years as a rebound to the previous one, my grades started coming down and by 25-26, I was lost in a maze. Picked up anything that my parents suggested or my peers did, I had no sense of what I wanted or what I did not want. My mother wanted me to be a professor, I had a government funded fellowship- which I left, probably just to get back at her and not do what she wanted me to.
My mother controlled everything about my life, including my body-how long my hair should be to what I should be wearing, how my body should look like, who I should date, how I should conduct myself like a lady but not too much- the appropriate amount (strangely, I still cannot fathom what is that level of appropriateness to her-anything I do seems to miss that mark). So I went from being an academic, to chopping my hair off, to trying out as a filmmaker- where I started everything from the scratch- networking, doing unpaid gigs to prove my worth, to gradually getting paid, and even doing a short-term course with my own money. This was only to realise in 2 years, that the filmmaking industry is not my thing. Btw, parents' emotional abuses, favouritism towards my sister (who I really loved then) and reminding me at every point that I am somehow worthless- kept on going. I got married at 31 to a person I was initially infatuated with and later started loving (yes, I am quite messy that way). He has his own baggages, but seems like a nice guy, who probably actually loves me (that's my trust level people- I can't trust my own instincts).
Thank you so much if you are still here and reading this, it means a lot to me.
2020: when I got married, I took a sabbatical from the job I was in. I was not happy doing it anyway-bad boss, low pay, and not something I liked doing. For the next 2 years, I was sinking into deep depression and realised I needed to work on myself. I got into therapy, changed therapists quite a bit, started meditating and was diagnosed with a mental health condition (misdiagnosed with Borderline personality disorder and generalized anxiety disorder). I was put on meds by a psychiatrist and I was heavily suicidal by then- so suicidal that I just couldn't shake the thought off.
I was still in contact with my parents then and every phone call (which were quite mechanically regular btw, esp with my mother, bode my deepest fears of feeling unsafe, being hurt, and how she did not love me. With my dad, it was about hearing how difficult his life is, money issues, health issues-never about genuinely asking me how I felt or how I was doing. Yes, technically that question was asked, but I could never say how sad I feel. Even if I did try at times, it was met with dismissal at best and humiliation at worst. My mother did not even bother to ask that question. She called me to dump her daily dose of gossip. I am not even exaggerating- she called her 4 sisters in circle everyday and exchange gossips with each other, mostly about her sis-in-law. This was the sisters' rituals too. The sisters have dumped her now. My mother was always estranged from her mother, who favoured her sisters (it's intergenerational).
So after a certain time-period, my mother has a new set of such people with whom she does this and it has become quite a regular phenomenon. It's strange for me now to even remember that she once used to write and love poetry. In the meanwhile, I started to see how my sister is a lot like my mother and as adults, we don't really align at all. My last straw came when I lost my father (metaphorically) in the process. I started to see how he was an enabler to everything all this while, if not the instigator (he was alcoholic when he frequently hit my mother for a good 15-20 years).
2021- after that 1 year of some inner work and perpetually asking what I want to do professionally, I got a hunch that I want to do something in mental health, especially trauma and suicidality (yes, right from my own backyard. I was quite surprised that it took me so long to realise this). I got into a mental health organization and did as many online mental health courses as I could. I wrote academic papers in mental health and got published too.
After 2 years in that organisation, I have now decided to go back to school at 35 to train as a psychologist. I will have to start from the scratch here and my husband is financing it entirely. I have also enrolled myself into a dance class. Dance used to be my first love as a child and a teenager. I had to leave it for my parents. They saw it as a barrier to me excelling in academics.
I have gone no-contact with my parents and sister since the past 3 months. I feel better that there is no one to torment me everyday, yet there is a lot of guilt for having to do this when they are growing old. But I know that if I let them in my life, I may actually end up in an abyss and they may eventually kill the last fight I have in me.
The problem is even after knowing what I want to do, I have long episodes of breakdown, where I can't seem to rebound. I am a chain smoker, cannot drink anymore after years of abuse, but quite messy with my health in general. I don't have discipline, quite disregulated with my emotions, have a massive fear of failures, have a lot of rage, grief, and most importantly, I don't love, or even know myself. I see my peers doing well at this age, some have even bought their own houses. And here I am - not even earning a penny. I know this comparison isn't helping at all, yet I can't seem to shake it off completely.
This is coupled with people (including my parents, which is why I cut them off) mocking my decision of wanting to restart my career. They like others, think I am wasting my time, money, resources and that I am basically a good-for-nothing wreck. But I know somewhere, I am not a wreck. I am broken, but I am trying to find my way out. And that in itself is not linear and tends to be messy.
After years of bawling, carrying that gut wrenching pain of feeling like a victim with no hope, I really feel I want to change now. I really do. I want to be a person who I can be. I want to start afresh. All I want to say is please help.
P.S. i should have been saying all this to my therapist (s), yet I am writing this here. I have not yet found anything groundbreaking with my therapists, which is why I am probably here. I can't thank you enough for reading this through.
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Cut to 2 years later-my sister was born and my parents' lives changed- father re-started his business after being laid off from his previous job and my mother became a good mother to my sister and "maternal grandparents" and my mother's family entered our lives. Things changed for my parents but not for me. I became my sisters babysitter, got treated like an adult more so than before at the age of around 7-8. The only way I could get my parents' love and not get beaten or abused was by being brilliant in academics. They did put a lot of their resources into my education. Losing 1 mark to the class- topper got me beration and humiliation, waking up my mother from her sleep by accidentally dropping something while playing, got me kicks and deep red marks on my back. At 13, I attempted suicide.
Since then, my mother did not raise her hand on me, but I was completely broken by then. I thought I had hit my rock bottom, but there was more to come. I went away from that jail-like environment at my parents' to pursue my studies and became quite reckless (at that time, I thought I was being rebellious). Started dating at 17- he was an abusive alcoholic boy. We were in a relationship for 8 years and used to hit each other and eventually broke up. I dated another person for another 4 years as a rebound to the previous one, my grades started coming down and by 25-26, I was lost in a maze. Picked up anything that my parents suggested or my peers did, I had no sense of what I wanted or what I did not want. My mother wanted me to be a professor, I had a government funded fellowship- which I left, probably just to get back at her and not do what she wanted me to.
My mother controlled everything about my life, including my body-how long my hair should be to what I should be wearing, how my body should look like, who I should date, how I should conduct myself like a lady but not too much- the appropriate amount (strangely, I still cannot fathom what is that level of appropriateness to her-anything I do seems to miss that mark). So I went from being an academic, to chopping my hair off, to trying out as a filmmaker- where I started everything from the scratch- networking, doing unpaid gigs to prove my worth, to gradually getting paid, and even doing a short-term course with my own money. This was only to realise in 2 years, that the filmmaking industry is not my thing. Btw, parents' emotional abuses, favouritism towards my sister (who I really loved then) and reminding me at every point that I am somehow worthless- kept on going. I got married at 31 to a person I was initially infatuated with and later started loving (yes, I am quite messy that way). He has his own baggages, but seems like a nice guy, who probably actually loves me (that's my trust level people- I can't trust my own instincts).
Thank you so much if you are still here and reading this, it means a lot to me.
2020: when I got married, I took a sabbatical from the job I was in. I was not happy doing it anyway-bad boss, low pay, and not something I liked doing. For the next 2 years, I was sinking into deep depression and realised I needed to work on myself. I got into therapy, changed therapists quite a bit, started meditating and was diagnosed with a mental health condition (misdiagnosed with Borderline personality disorder and generalized anxiety disorder). I was put on meds by a psychiatrist and I was heavily suicidal by then- so suicidal that I just couldn't shake the thought off.
I was still in contact with my parents then and every phone call (which were quite mechanically regular btw, esp with my mother, bode my deepest fears of feeling unsafe, being hurt, and how she did not love me. With my dad, it was about hearing how difficult his life is, money issues, health issues-never about genuinely asking me how I felt or how I was doing. Yes, technically that question was asked, but I could never say how sad I feel. Even if I did try at times, it was met with dismissal at best and humiliation at worst. My mother did not even bother to ask that question. She called me to dump her daily dose of gossip. I am not even exaggerating- she called her 4 sisters in circle everyday and exchange gossips with each other, mostly about her sis-in-law. This was the sisters' rituals too. The sisters have dumped her now. My mother was always estranged from her mother, who favoured her sisters (it's intergenerational).
So after a certain time-period, my mother has a new set of such people with whom she does this and it has become quite a regular phenomenon. It's strange for me now to even remember that she once used to write and love poetry. In the meanwhile, I started to see how my sister is a lot like my mother and as adults, we don't really align at all. My last straw came when I lost my father (metaphorically) in the process. I started to see how he was an enabler to everything all this while, if not the instigator (he was alcoholic when he frequently hit my mother for a good 15-20 years).
2021- after that 1 year of some inner work and perpetually asking what I want to do professionally, I got a hunch that I want to do something in mental health, especially trauma and suicidality (yes, right from my own backyard. I was quite surprised that it took me so long to realise this). I got into a mental health organization and did as many online mental health courses as I could. I wrote academic papers in mental health and got published too.
After 2 years in that organisation, I have now decided to go back to school at 35 to train as a psychologist. I will have to start from the scratch here and my husband is financing it entirely. I have also enrolled myself into a dance class. Dance used to be my first love as a child and a teenager. I had to leave it for my parents. They saw it as a barrier to me excelling in academics.
I have gone no-contact with my parents and sister since the past 3 months. I feel better that there is no one to torment me everyday, yet there is a lot of guilt for having to do this when they are growing old. But I know that if I let them in my life, I may actually end up in an abyss and they may eventually kill the last fight I have in me.
The problem is even after knowing what I want to do, I have long episodes of breakdown, where I can't seem to rebound. I am a chain smoker, cannot drink anymore after years of abuse, but quite messy with my health in general. I don't have discipline, quite disregulated with my emotions, have a massive fear of failures, have a lot of rage, grief, and most importantly, I don't love, or even know myself. I see my peers doing well at this age, some have even bought their own houses. And here I am - not even earning a penny. I know this comparison isn't helping at all, yet I can't seem to shake it off completely.
This is coupled with people (including my parents, which is why I cut them off) mocking my decision of wanting to restart my career. They like others, think I am wasting my time, money, resources and that I am basically a good-for-nothing wreck. But I know somewhere, I am not a wreck. I am broken, but I am trying to find my way out. And that in itself is not linear and tends to be messy.
After years of bawling, carrying that gut wrenching pain of feeling like a victim with no hope, I really feel I want to change now. I really do. I want to be a person who I can be. I want to start afresh. All I want to say is please help.
P.S. i should have been saying all this to my therapist (s), yet I am writing this here. I have not yet found anything groundbreaking with my therapists, which is why I am probably here. I can't thank you enough for reading this through.
2024.05.31 08:43 Battle-Left My partner and I are trying polyamory and I don’t know how to feel about it
My partner (35 amab ADHD they/them pansexual) and I (29 afab AuDHD she/they bisexual) are exploring/re-entering polyamory and I don’t know how to feel about it.
I used to be in a KTP poly dynamic for years and loved it. But when my hinge and I broke up I had moved to rural America and polyamory wasn’t really an option for awhile. When I finally moved back to civilization and polyam as an option again I found that my compersion muscles had atrophied somewhat. I dated around for awhile and would disclose to the people I was dating that I was still interested in polyam as a possibility someday.
When I met my partner they were recently a recently divorced cis gendered veteran with a kid that wasn’t really in the picture. When we started dating and defined our relationship we agreed to be monogamous, as that was the comfort level of my partner at the time.
Since then we’ve moved in together, adopted 3 pets on top of the 2 I had brought to the relationship, we got engaged and are planning on getting married in just a few months. Over the last few years my partner has come out as pansexual as well as non binary. They’ve said that the safety and encouragement I provided in our relationship gave them the courage to pursue their authentic self.
Well about two years ago my partner met someone at a party and exchanged numbers. A few months later my partner and I went to a fetish retreat and they got to see polyam and non monogamous relationships in action and realized it was an actual possibility. After years of us having a monogamous relationship and getting engaged under that assumption, they wanted to explore polyam and jump in feet first with the person they had exchanged numbers with at the party the few months before.
Logically, this should be fine right? I’m the one who wanted to be polyam to begin with, so why not jump in? I was deeply unhappy. I cried every night for weeks. We got all of the books. We listened to the podcasts. We joined the Facebook groups. I felt so deeply ashamed that I couldn’t just. . . Be excited for them in their journey. We hit the brakes for a minute there, had some emotional talks, and came back with a plan of slow re-entry.
My partner suggested that I try dating too, to make things easier. So I have been. I’ve been casually dating someone and in some ways it makes things somewhat easier, I greatly enjoy spending time with them and the friendship that has blossomed there, but my heart doesn’t really feel into it. I’ve been completely transparent with the person Ive been seeing about where I am emotionally and they are happy to just continue to see where things go.
When my partner goes on dates I keep myself busy. I see my own friends, go on my own dates, crochet, sew, watch movies, play games, ect. But when my partner gets home from the date and I see them I just get. . . Sad. My partner can feel it and keeps telling me that they don’t want me to resent them someday.
One of our biggest struggles is with our intimacy right now. My libido is either through the roof or non existent, and it hinges on my mental health and hormonal cycles. But since my partner has been dating other people, I find myself less and less interested in intimacy. It’s not just with them either, it’s across the board. I rarely have interest in self pleasure anymore.
It has been a year and a half now of daily self work, self assessment, setting boundaries, examining my attachment style, self soothing jealousy, learning how to support each other in hard discussions and emotions, and so much more. But I’m still so sad when my partner comes home from a date. So far my partner has not had any physical intimacy with the person they are going on dates with, but I know that’s something they are interested in doing and the very thought devastates me.
Rationally I know it’s wrong, they can do whatever they want as long as they are being safe. Them having physical intimacy with someone else does not mean they will love me any less. I know all of these things. But the feelings surrounding it are so overwhelming I don’t know how to breathe.
I love my partner deeply. They are my best friend. We live together and every night we go to bed it feels like a sleepover. We fall asleep whispering and giggling like school kids. I want to get married to them, share my resources with them, have them as witness to my life, and be by my side when we are old and grey.
I just don’t know where to go from here. Honestly I’m tired of feeling sad. Im tired of working on the heavy feelings around polyam when we are already working on heavy feelings with so many other aspects of our life.
I’m not sure why I wrote all of this out, or even what kind of response I’m looking for. Maybe reassurance that hard work pays off and someday it won’t hurt so much? Maybe someone saying “hey this sounds like my life and everything turned out ok!”
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I used to be in a KTP poly dynamic for years and loved it. But when my hinge and I broke up I had moved to rural America and polyamory wasn’t really an option for awhile. When I finally moved back to civilization and polyam as an option again I found that my compersion muscles had atrophied somewhat. I dated around for awhile and would disclose to the people I was dating that I was still interested in polyam as a possibility someday.
When I met my partner they were recently a recently divorced cis gendered veteran with a kid that wasn’t really in the picture. When we started dating and defined our relationship we agreed to be monogamous, as that was the comfort level of my partner at the time.
Since then we’ve moved in together, adopted 3 pets on top of the 2 I had brought to the relationship, we got engaged and are planning on getting married in just a few months. Over the last few years my partner has come out as pansexual as well as non binary. They’ve said that the safety and encouragement I provided in our relationship gave them the courage to pursue their authentic self.
Well about two years ago my partner met someone at a party and exchanged numbers. A few months later my partner and I went to a fetish retreat and they got to see polyam and non monogamous relationships in action and realized it was an actual possibility. After years of us having a monogamous relationship and getting engaged under that assumption, they wanted to explore polyam and jump in feet first with the person they had exchanged numbers with at the party the few months before.
Logically, this should be fine right? I’m the one who wanted to be polyam to begin with, so why not jump in? I was deeply unhappy. I cried every night for weeks. We got all of the books. We listened to the podcasts. We joined the Facebook groups. I felt so deeply ashamed that I couldn’t just. . . Be excited for them in their journey. We hit the brakes for a minute there, had some emotional talks, and came back with a plan of slow re-entry.
My partner suggested that I try dating too, to make things easier. So I have been. I’ve been casually dating someone and in some ways it makes things somewhat easier, I greatly enjoy spending time with them and the friendship that has blossomed there, but my heart doesn’t really feel into it. I’ve been completely transparent with the person Ive been seeing about where I am emotionally and they are happy to just continue to see where things go.
When my partner goes on dates I keep myself busy. I see my own friends, go on my own dates, crochet, sew, watch movies, play games, ect. But when my partner gets home from the date and I see them I just get. . . Sad. My partner can feel it and keeps telling me that they don’t want me to resent them someday.
One of our biggest struggles is with our intimacy right now. My libido is either through the roof or non existent, and it hinges on my mental health and hormonal cycles. But since my partner has been dating other people, I find myself less and less interested in intimacy. It’s not just with them either, it’s across the board. I rarely have interest in self pleasure anymore.
It has been a year and a half now of daily self work, self assessment, setting boundaries, examining my attachment style, self soothing jealousy, learning how to support each other in hard discussions and emotions, and so much more. But I’m still so sad when my partner comes home from a date. So far my partner has not had any physical intimacy with the person they are going on dates with, but I know that’s something they are interested in doing and the very thought devastates me.
Rationally I know it’s wrong, they can do whatever they want as long as they are being safe. Them having physical intimacy with someone else does not mean they will love me any less. I know all of these things. But the feelings surrounding it are so overwhelming I don’t know how to breathe.
I love my partner deeply. They are my best friend. We live together and every night we go to bed it feels like a sleepover. We fall asleep whispering and giggling like school kids. I want to get married to them, share my resources with them, have them as witness to my life, and be by my side when we are old and grey.
I just don’t know where to go from here. Honestly I’m tired of feeling sad. Im tired of working on the heavy feelings around polyam when we are already working on heavy feelings with so many other aspects of our life.
I’m not sure why I wrote all of this out, or even what kind of response I’m looking for. Maybe reassurance that hard work pays off and someday it won’t hurt so much? Maybe someone saying “hey this sounds like my life and everything turned out ok!”
2024.05.31 08:43 surgycal Pixel 5 is a bad dream
I just moved to Pixel 5 from a Motorola Moto X4 a phone that did and had everything for me and I've been using it since 2017 until last week when literally the screen fell apart and split in half. I thought to myself, ok time for an upgrade and what better phone than a similar one in size and shape with great features that stands out from all the samsungs and apples.
And don't get me wrong, all was great after first starting it, installed my apps. But then night came and it updated itself from Android 11 to Android 14.
Now my keyboard is gone and I can't find any working solution on the internet, I spent the last 2 hours googling and scrolling all forums and tried all of those, nothing worked, updated play store, cleared cache, etc, etc, etc.
How tf can they screw it up so bad with just and Android update?! I wanna return this crap, I'm so mad!
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And don't get me wrong, all was great after first starting it, installed my apps. But then night came and it updated itself from Android 11 to Android 14.
Now my keyboard is gone and I can't find any working solution on the internet, I spent the last 2 hours googling and scrolling all forums and tried all of those, nothing worked, updated play store, cleared cache, etc, etc, etc.
How tf can they screw it up so bad with just and Android update?! I wanna return this crap, I'm so mad!