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What will you be doing with this PC? Be as specific as possible, and include specific games or programs you will be using.

• Plan is to use it as development machine as well as gaming PC. Developement will include machine learning and android application development. Games will include Cyberpunk and RDR2.

What is your maximum budget before rebates/shipping/taxes?

• 2500 EUR
• If smooth 4K gaming cannot be achieved in this budget I can go up to 3000 EUR

When do you plan on building/buying the PC? Note: beyond a week or two from today means any build you receive will be out of date when you want to buy.

• Hopefully within a month

What, exactly, do you need included in the budget? (ToweOS/monitokeyboard/mouse/etc)

• I already have monitor, keyboard and mouse. Budget is only for the Tower.

Which country (and state/province) will you be purchasing the parts in? If you're in US, do you have access to a Microcenter location?

• Parts will be purchased in Germany.

If reusing any parts (including monitor(s)/keyboard/mouse/etc), what parts will you be reusing? Brands and models are appreciated.

• Monitors:
  • Samsung UHD Monitor U28R550UQP 28 Inch 60Hz
  • ACER Predator XB253QGP 144Hz
• Mouse: RAZER Basilisk V3 Mouse
• I have a Philips 4K 120Hz TV. I would like to try some gaming there. But this is not a must.

Will you be overclocking? If yes, are you interested in overclocking right away, or down the line? CPU and/or GPU?

• No plans to overclock now. Might do in the future.

Are there any specific features or items you want/need in the build? (ex: SSD, large amount of storage or a RAID setup, CUDA or OpenCL support, etc)

• CUDA support

Do you have any specific case preferences (Size like ITX/microATX/mid-towefull-tower, styles, colors, window or not, LED lighting, etc), or a particular color theme preference for the components?

• Full tower

Do you need a copy of Windows included in the budget? If you do need one included, do you have a preference?

• No

Extra info or particulars:

This comes after the MSI Series today which i will not spoil for anyone so go ahead and watch the series if you want to know what happened.
As to this post i just wanted to discuss a few opinions i had about the western regions vs the eastern region as it seems the west is just years behind the east which is crazy especially after the east dominating the game for 13 years since they joined the competitive scene in season 2.
I feel like there are some key issues and differences between the western teams and the eastern teams.
The first issue i see is that regions like NA and EU seem to only have one competitive team which absolutely hurts them because they go to international tournaments and get smashed by eastern teams that play in a competitive region where they are consistently under pressure and always playing vs top players.
NA and EU have really weak teams when you look at 2nd seeds down which comes down to organisations that play in the leagues. It feels like the pro players in the lower seed teams don't improve at all and they are happy just being along for the ride. They only know how to play 2/3 champs max and they don't expand. The orgs need to change their process and start becoming more competitive. Could this be due to the fact that there is nothing for them to lose if they finish last ? like they just come back next split and take the 10th seed again without any improvement.
While i understand that riot put in place rules to make sure that orgs in the LCS/LEC can financially support their player etc i feel like the older system where bottom two/three teams should be demoted to the academy leagues and let academy teams promote to the main tournament. This will give the teams a kick to actually push for wins and practice harder rather than just spamming games for no reason.
Another issue is that the player champion mechanics and champion pools are years behind the east. If you look at the eastern players they can pull out almost any champion and play it to the best of it's ability where are the west player can't do the same. When you watch pros play on streams they just spam games and don't really consider improvement at all.
I feel like the pros should be given champions by the coach that they need to play and learn how to become great players on multiple champs rather than just 2/3. Each team should have a few analysts that help players review individual game play in solo queue as well as team games and help them improve champion mechanics. This would help the players actually improve as it seems they always lose out on the smallest of things that turn the tide of the games.
Another issue is that western teams only team fight and win those fights when it's set up perfectly for them which is almost never the case as the perfect opportunities are rare in this type of game. The eastern teams are always willing to take a fight and they trust their individual skills and the skills of their team mates to win a fight from behind. Western teams stand no chance when from behind and they slowly beed out. I feel like working on team play and practicing team play, position etc needs a lot more work from the western teams.
Player pool for each role again makes it hard to the top teams to perform internationally. For example take the likes of APA or Caps who are strong midlane players. They have no real competition that would let them consistently play vs players at their level or the level of fakechovy etc while they perform on the internationall stage individually the rest of the team doesn't because their roles are not as competitive in EU the bot, jungle and toplane roles have next to no competition as they are dominated by 1 player.
Maybe EU/NA need to import better coaches from the LCK and the LPL and let them structure how the team trains and plays to be more like the east ?
for 13 years the western style of play has not work and it's still not working. You cant tell me that what the western teams are doing is correct otherwise they'd win international tournaments or at least they'd always get to the top 4 slots. NA especially has soo much money pumped into it but they can't compete ?

Choosing the right Customer Relationship Management (CRM) software is crucial for enhancing customer interactions and streamlining business processes. Here are the top 10 CRM software options, their types, key features, and practical use cases to help you make an informed decision.

1. Salesforce:
   • Type: Cloud-based
   • Features: Customizable dashboards, AI-driven analytics, and extensive third-party integrations.
   • Use Case: Ideal for large enterprises looking to automate sales and marketing workflows.
2. HubSpot CRM:
   • Type: Freemium
   • Features: Email tracking, sales automation, and pipeline management.
   • Use Case: Perfect for small to mid-sized businesses wanting an easy-to-use, scalable CRM.
3. Zoho CRM:
   • Type: Cloud-based
   • Features: Multi-channel communication, sales automation, and advanced analytics.
   • Use Case: Suitable for businesses seeking a comprehensive CRM with strong social media integration.
4. Microsoft Dynamics 365:
   • Type: Cloud-based
   • Features: AI insights, sales forecasting, and seamless integration with Microsoft products.
   • Use Case: Best for organizations already using Microsoft services looking for deep integration.
5. Pipedrive:
   • Type: Cloud-based
   • Features: Visual sales pipeline, customizable workflows, and activity reminders.
   • Use Case: Great for sales teams focused on pipeline management and deal tracking.
6. Insightly:
   • Type: Cloud-based
   • Features: Project management, workflow automation, and mobile access.
   • Use Case: Useful for businesses needing both CRM and project management capabilities.
7. Freshsales:
   • Type: Cloud-based
   • Features: Lead scoring, email tracking, and AI-based deal insights.
   • Use Case: Ideal for growing businesses requiring advanced lead management features.
8. SugarCRM:
   • Type: Cloud-based/Open-source
   • Features: Customer journey mapping, custom reporting, and robust API integrations.
   • Use Case: Suitable for businesses needing a highly customizable and flexible CRM solution.
9. Nimble:
   • Type: Cloud-based
   • Features: Social media integration, contact management, and smart agenda.
   • Use Case: Best for small businesses and freelancers looking for a simple, social CRM.
10. Bitrix24:
    • Type: Cloud-based
    • Features: Task management, document sharing, and internal collaboration tools.
    • Use Case: Great for companies looking for an all-in-one CRM and collaboration platform.

Read full article: https://www.softude.com/blog/best-crm-software-types-features-and-their-use-cases
Selecting the right CRM software can significantly enhance your customer relationship management efforts, boost sales, and improve overall business efficiency. Evaluate these top CRM options to find the perfect fit for your unique business needs.

This is definitely a long shot but with the 2 album theory, the number 21 is mentioned in SKINNY and BLUE which are the opening and closing tracks of the album, do you think there might be an announcement on the 21st?
(Btw I LOVE this album and by no means NEED any more I just thought it was something to point out)

“If someone curses their father or mother, their lamp will be snuffed out in pitch darkness”
Here’s my question: There are SO many points in scripture that dictate honoring the father and mother. HOWEVER, I need help understanding how we can come back from “dishonoring” our parents if they’re truly awful, deceitful, treacherous parents that only wish to control, or hurt their children. My husband is estranged from his parents who have spent the past five years punishing him for marrying me. To the point that they’ve falsified court documents, lied under oath, (& more) to remove custody of his child from his previous relationship, etc. they continue to preach their holiness and alliance with God but behind closed doors contact my husband to taunt him and gaslight him. They always used his service in the army as a way to get attention and admiration from others and now they use their ruined relationship to garner pity from their “audience”.
Please help me understand where the line is. I do whole heartedly believe and feel (& see and experience) Gods blessings in our lives daily. In fact in the past five years we’ve been endlessly tortured by my husband’s parents and his ex wife, we have grown more in blessings every year. Ten fold. More money, beautiful home, food, more children (the best blessing of all of them), great friends, wonderful community, etc. so and all of the hate his parents and their associates direct toward us, we continue to thrive. But it weighs on my heart that we have “dishonored” them.
Help me make sense of the feelings please. We live to please God and raise our children to follow Jesus. I’m struggling with this piece. Thank you.

CONTEXT:
My boyfriend and I (F) have been dating for almost 9 months. When we first started dating, I started spending more time with him rather than with my friend group (lets call it friend group A), which is a bad move on my part to be honest but I have strict parents and not enough time in the day to hang out with both of them. It's not like I completely ditched them, I tried to split my time half half but it was really difficult to. None of them really had a problem with this except my best friend (Also F). Now, again back then we just started dating, and I was blinded to see that I was ditching my best friend. SO again. That's my fault.
A few months after we started dating, my boyfriend and I hung out with some more people as well, and soon we became something close to a friend group (friend group B). (btw: I hadn't ditched friend group A, I still spent time with both of them.) Friend group B consisted of most of my bgs friends, though I'm pretty much friends with his friends so it was fine for me. One day, I invited my best friend to join friend group B because she was closer to 2 of the friends in friend group B than A anyways. Everything was going pretty good with friend group B until my parents thought they were bad influences and told me to stop hanging out with them. Of course, I listened because well, they're my parents and I didn't want to make them mad. I ended up going back to friend group A, sometimes visiting friend group B mainly to see my bf, but here's the funny part. My best friend didn't come with me.
Now, I get that she was closer with some of the people in friend group B than A, and I wanted to be happy for her, because she seemed happy, but I was already really unhappy getting forced to leave friend group B, and it just sucks she didn't seem to care. We barely talked because we never saw each other anymore, and when we did see each other it seemed awkward or forced, nothing like how "best friends" are supposed to act. I always tried to muster up the courage to speak to her about it, but I was always scared it would ruin our friendship, even if it was dangling by a thread. As I couldn't do anything about it, I decided to just leave it alone, and perhaps things will just fall into place one day. Oh how wrong I was.
So I left it alone. I just hung out with friend group A and minded my own business, and I was completely out of the loop of friend group B, beside the occasional visits. When these visits happened, I noticed my boyfriend and my "best friend" starting to get kinda close. They knew a lot about each other and each others weird 'eras' (eg. my "best friends" old anime phase) and had a lot of inside jokes. I, being the one who introduced them to each other, of course tried to ignore it and be happy for them since I HAD originally wanted them to be friends, but now I was really regretting it. Soon enough, I noticed them texting constantly (snap number one best friend for 2months+ goes crazy), playing video games together (even with my "best friends" little sister like what!?!?!), and hanging out and going to lunch together (okay this was usually with friend group B as well but I thought it was weird my "best friend" was able to go out so much since she had strict parents like I did (even stricter actually) and we went out like once a month, but suddenly she was able to go out with friend group B so often?) Also, whenever I went to go visit my boyfriend and friend group B, I would see them interacting and felt like I was being left out. (Honestly I felt left out of friend group B entirely but that's another story) To be fair, these activities were pretty "friendly" but I just felt like there were some weird areas (I wont get into it since this is getting way too long). Or maybe I'm just a really really jealous person (actually that might be it).
I thought about two solutions. 1. I tell my boyfriend how uncomfortable I feel around the two of them, and make him cut her off, but this could risk my best friend getting mad at me idk. (Okay I'm making this whole thing out to be like my best friends an evil villain and im sure shes not (or she wasn't I'm not sure anymore) but I'm just really uncomfortable with what could be going on behind my back. I do trust my boyfriend, I'm just worried about how much my "best friend" has changed and if she'll backstab me). Also I'd feel really controlling even though I know he would 100% understand, it just feels weird to me if that makes sense? Like he has told me to cut contact with people and I've had no problem with that but I've never told anyone to do that before and I'm scared he'll get offended I don't trust him. And they're so close I feel like I'd be ruining their friendship? I DONT KNOW OKAY I have no idea what to do. 2. I tell my best friend everything she's done and how it really hurt me and try to make her understand. Yeah that seems like a better solution so I did just that. I told her everything that pissed me off and how I felt uncomfortable around them. She seemed to have understood (key word: "seemed to") and apologised and felt the same way as I did about our friendship drifting. She also emphasized how she and my boyfriend were "not that close anymore", but I definitely disagree with that (also agreed by another close friend in friend group B). And though she "seemed to" understand and said she would change, I do see changes in our friendship and out dynamic, even if its not a big one, but I don't think she understood JUST HOW uncomfortable I was with her and my boyfriend, because I didn't see a change there.
So the conclusion is, my boyfriend is really close friends with my best friend (now ex best friend ig) even if they don't admit it but its fairly obvious. I'm trying to be okay with it since I introduced them to eachother because I wanted them to get to know eachother, but I'm really struggling to not break into tears everytime I see them talking or sitting together or honestly everything they do together... I have no idea what to do to stop feeling like this. Am I making it sound really serious when its not? What do you guys think? What should I do?!
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PS: sorry this is so long, I haven't talked to anyone about the true depth of this but its seriously unhealthy. this is my first reddit post so if i should make any changes let me know! also let me know if you guys have any questions! thank you !!!!

Hi !
I will keep this as short as possible without sacrificing too much detail.
What is TC Motorfest ?
TCM is a game made by Ivory Tower and published by Ubisoft, it is a 3rd game in well known by now franchise called The Crew. Now short history about franchise. First The Crew was released in 2014 and it was something fresh to the racing scene. It had and still has one of the biggest racing games maps and it was a scaled down version of whole USA. Game was focused more on a social side where to fully enjoy it you had option to play in a crew with friends hence name The Crew. Fast forward to 2018 where we get sequel called The Crew 2 (very original). It took same formula from the crew 1 with same map but added ton of disciplines and was starting to adapt festival vibe from horizon games. It had some downgrades from first crew game mainly in graphics but it didn't stop it to become most successful crew game. After long 5 years we finally got new crew game. It was more of an spin off as it didn't continue with having numbers in its name and adopted a Motorfest name. It is also full 180 from previous 2 games. It takes place on much smaller map based on Hawaii but with smaller scale it is also much more detailed. Graphics also got updated massively compared to the 2nd game. Physics were redone where cars now feel more like cars and not toys on plastic tracks. Audio was also massively improved. With Motorfest they gone full into the festival theme to the point it feels similar to horizon games. They interduce playlist system as a way to progress the game. It is basically themed events like for example donut media, Japanese street racing, Prosche history, Hoonigan and much more. Game still focuses on social aspect where you can join other peoples crews and explore together.
Why I want it ?
Simple I am a fan of these franchise. I played first and second crew game and I done 100% of both game and even aced all events. They are very fun games for completionists and generally fun chill games for scratching and open world itch besides horizon series.
About 90% of first and second game I completed with my close friend but for now in motorfest if i get it I will play solo until he gets better pc.
Also I heard it is good fun on a wheel so why not.
Why I can't get it ?
Well I don't have any means to pay for it. Reason is that I don't use credit cards. If I want to buy a game I usually grind cs2 cases or doing small jobs on the internet but I don't have time to do that as it takes very long time to actually get any meaningful amount of money.
Also I am saving money to do some much needed renovation to the house.
Game: https://store.steampowered.com/app/2698940/The_Crew_Motorfest/
Profile: https://steamcommunity.com/id/NeX457
Thank you <3

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Last year, I moved into a charming old apartment building, excited for a fresh start. The rent was affordable, and the neighborhood seemed friendly. Everything was perfect—at first.
The first few weeks were uneventful. I settled in, decorated my space, and started to feel at home. Then, strange things began to happen. It started with small, easily dismissible occurrences. My keys would be in a different spot than where I remembered leaving them. Lights flickered despite the building’s supposedly excellent electrical work.
One night, as I was about to fall asleep, I heard faint whispers coming from the living room. I brushed it off as my imagination, but the whispers grew louder and more persistent over the next few nights. They seemed to be in a language I couldn’t understand, a low, rhythmic chanting that sent chills down my spine.
Determined to get to the bottom of it, I asked my neighbors if they had experienced anything unusual. Most of them gave me uneasy looks and quickly changed the subject. One elderly lady, however, pulled me aside and told me about the history of my apartment. Decades ago, a family had lived there, and the father had gone mad, claiming he heard voices. He ended up taking his own life in the very living room where I now heard the whispers.
Feeling both terrified and skeptical, I decided to stay up one night and record the sounds. As midnight approached, the whispers began again. I sat in the dark with my phone recording, heart pounding in my chest. Suddenly, the temperature in the room dropped, and I could see my breath forming clouds in the air. The whispers turned into a guttural growl, and I felt an icy hand brush against my arm.
That was enough for me. I packed a bag and stayed with a friend for a few days. When I returned to the apartment to collect the rest of my things, I played back the recording. To my horror, the whispers were clearly audible, but they were speaking in a language I understood. The translation chilled me to the bone: "Leave this place. He is coming back."
I moved out the next day and have never looked back. Sometimes, late at night, I still hear those whispers in my dreams, reminding me of the haunted apartment that I once called home.

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Odos smart but dear god, why didn’t he think of getting a mould he could hold up to his face area to creates realistic face.
You’re telling me that he wouldn’t have had the idea to go to a sculptor to create a face he likes, create a resin mask or something, and just use that to form a humanoid face? Could get separate ones to change it up, special ones to make proper looking ears or mouth.
Did it really never occur to him to just open an anatomy book and learn about the muscles??
I mean seriously, imagine if he learned to mimic a bunch of different races? Real time disguise.
Hell. Could absorb a face/mask into his goo-body and hold it just behind his face, with a Thin layer of „Skin“ on top to create a realistic feel with bone/skin.
This has genuinely bothered me. It’s such a simple solution to his problem, how tf does mr Sherlock homes figure this one out.

As the title indicates, I’m at a turning point in realizing my identity.
I could go into many details and provide many examples, but here’s the gist:

1. I was extremely early in my cognitive development, and I was identified early on
2. I always felt very detached from my peers. I used to think that their games were immature and uninteresting (at like 5 years old. wtf was wrong with me lol)
3. I struggled socially, inadvertently making my friends/ peers feel small. They said I was mean and impatient. I never meant to be… an example of this is group problem solving. I’d find a path quickly, and they’d take much longer. They’d offer an incorrect suggestion. I’d say something like “no, why would we do it like that? This (my answer) is literally the correct answer. Why are we still on this subject? Let’s move on.”
4. An adult anecdotally attributed my struggles with peers in genpop classes to the difference of “gifted” vs “typical”
5. I was so distressed about not being able to connect with people easily, or presenting as “arrogant”, that I wholly rejected my “gifted” identity. 6.I did everything I could to shame the giftedness out of myself
6. Any time anyone suggested I was gifted, intelligent, or something alike, I made sure to identify what made them think that, and suppress that behavior. I was MORTIFIED of being mean and arrogant. I’ve shed many tears over how just being myself could hurt others.
7. Because of this, I thought there was something fundamentally and innately “broken” about me.
8. I truly started to believe that I wasn’t cognitively capable of understanding challenging concepts.
9. I do have ADHD, but wasn’t diagnosed until I was an adult. Upon reflection, I attributed my adhd struggles to my notion of just not being “smart” enough. Not disciplined enough. Not good enough.
10. I often “forgot” about being identified at gifted as a child. Of course, not literally, but I would make excuses like “oh that was just a mistake, I was too young to be identified”, etc.

Now, as an adult, I’ve been wondering why I have certain struggles with my peers:

1. I feel understimulated most of the time. (Going back to “arrogance”, I have a hard type even typing this out because I feel like it makes me seem full of myself) I used to have a propensity for stirring shit up or being a “class clown”, and I didn’t understand why I acted that way. I hated it about myself. I made my teachers’ lives so much more difficult. I saw myself doing this in real-time, and couldn’t resist the urge to do something exciting. I am ashamed of this.
   
2. I am very good at properly reading small / subtle pieces of nonverbal communication. When I would talk to people, I could identify how they ACTUALLY felt about something, and acted on their metacommunication rather than what they appeared to WANT to communicate to me. Like if a person claimed to have enjoyed something, but nonverbally indicated otherwise, id continue the conversation as if they’d just told me that they didn’t like the thing. I’d also consider why they could want me to think something other than what they verbally said, so I’d figure them out from there. If/then type of reasoning. This often resulted in people feeling “called out” and embarrassed. This was never my intent.
   
3. I’m incredibly impatient. This distresses me a lot. I don’t ask for help or delegate tasks because I can usually do it more correctly and more quickly. I don’t think it’s a ‘control’ thing, I think it’s an efficiency thing. If someone could show me that they could complete the task to a similar or better level of accuracy and performance, I’d happily let them. It’s just easier this way, especially when projects build off of one another.
   
4. I make people close to me feel stupid. I feel so bad for my partner. Truly, I feel absolutely awful. A phrase that often leaves my mouth is something like: “why did you do /this/ when we have /these/ variables? You could’ve just done /other thing/ and it would’ve solved the problem, and helped with /another thing/ a lot more efficiently.
   
5. I (before somewhat coming to terms with being ‘gifted’) would think people talked down to me or thought I was stupid. This is a big one. Me, thinking I’m of average or just below average intelligence. I genuinely felt like people thought I was stupid and incapable. I had this perception that they would over explain everything to me and go into extreme detail because they thought I was dumb. Turns out, I just caught on very quickly and logically filled in the blanks myself, and got the point of their message before they were done. This is huge. I wholeheartedly thought that people thought so little of me, they believed they needed to explain things to me in great detail for me to understand. I thought that if this was a common perception of me, it must be true. In turn, I felt worse and worse about myself.
   
6. I have an insane memory. I remember EVERYTHING. Visually, spatially, tactically, etc.. my memory is actually very precise and accurate. As you can imagine, this causes a lot of issues within my interpersonal relationships. Someone will claim something, and all I need to do is “open then file” in my brain and recall what actually happened. This results in a lot of “well actually no that’s not exactly how it happened” :(
   
7. My friends keep telling me I’m autistic. To be clear, I don’t believe there is anything wrong with holding the autism label. But I’m not sure it fits me. I also believe that this label is thrown around too loosely. My friends are absolutely convinced… But their perception appears to be social struggles + mild detachment = autism. I just don’t think this is true. I don’t fit the diagnostic criteria well enough, especially developmental delays. I was VERY early in my development. I also had no trouble reading people as a child… I just wasn’t interested in the same things that they were. I can read people well as an adult, too… I just get into trouble when I read them too accurately lol. I’m also not/have never been inflexible in routine or interests. I absolutely DO have special interests, but I’m also open to anything at all. I just happen to like what I like a whole lot. I prefer to NOT have a strict routine, either.
   
8. I feel incredibly lonely most of the time. I don’t feel seen or understood. Conversations with people seem superficial and slow. People tell me I don’t seem interested in what they have to say, and it makes them feel bad :( this really blows.
   
9. I probably value ‘correctness’ a bit too much. I don’t think I put enough weight into people’s feelings when they’re in conflict with “right and wrong”. I am sensitive to people, it’s true, but I more so value what is objectively correct. Idk if this makes sense. I find myself not being sensitive enough to one’s feelings if they were objectively wrong. Idk. I feel like an asshole about it though.
   
10. I assume people think the same way I do. I often move quickly and leave out small details. I tend to get frustrated with having to revisit the same concept. Edit- I feel like such an asshole typing this stuff out. I’m really sorry. I feel like a narcissist.
    

Now, I am coming to terms with this identity of mine. In some ways, it has made my life easier, as I now understand why I do/have done a lot of the things I do/ have. On the other hand, it feels icky and arrogant. I still feel awful for making people around me feel bad. I’m trying to reconcile “fitting in” with not disabling myself. Coming to terms with myself means confronting this sense of shame around “giftedness”. Any advice would be helpful (besides therapy. I’m working on this step lol).

I’ve been meaning to tell you this for a while now, but I couldn’t muster up the courage to tell you in person, in the fear of losing our friendship — in the fear of losing you. It’s been bothering me quite a bit, and I can no longer hold it in. So I am writing it down.
Remember when we were at the office at 3am? We were talking about our past relationships, and you mentioned that someone confessed to you even though you were already IN a relationship. I didn’t see the point of doing that. I thought it would just burden the other person you’re confessing to (bc what are they supposed to do, right?) I guess I spoke too soon.
I am telling you this not because I want to burden you. You don’t have to do anything with this information. I just want to get this off my chest. I just want to be able to move on to the next chapter of my life without being haunted by life’s what ifs or what could’ve been.
I may have started to have this feeling the night of when we first had our heart-to-heart convo. It took us 4 hours, but to me it felt like just a few minutes. This was the time that I realized that you were certainly more than just a pretty face. You told me your stories, the good and the bad ones — and you got my heart since then. You are beautiful inside and out. And I hope you see yourself the way I do. Do you know that you’ve been my favorite phone notification? When I see your name pop up, my heart suddenly jumps, and I drop everything just so i can read your message right away lol krazy I know
Months came by, and we got to know each other better. I was hoping this feeling would pass if i just got myself “desensitized” by hanging out more often with you. I even tried to go out on dates with other people in the hopes of dismissing whatever this is i am feeling for you. Jokes on me. The more I got to know you, the deeper I fell for you. And the more I went out with other people, the more I realized that it’s you who I like. I guess the heart wants what it wants.
One thing I like about this encounter is that you made me realize things not just about you but about myself too. I learned that I am capable to give love that knows no gender (yes I’ve come to explore my sexuality bc of you), no limits, no hesitation — love that is calm and tender, love that doesn’t ask anything in return. I didn’t know I was capable of that. How I wish I had the chance to show you this kind of love without having to hide it behind the facade of being just “friendly”. Damn, if only you knew how l feel for you. And the risk I’m willing to take to show you the love that you deserve.
But I can’t. And I shouldn’t. Because you’re already with someone else.
And that would be unfair to you, to your SO, to me. So I’m doing the right thing. I know I should.
Know that this is hard for me, but I need to let you go. You’re right. Timing is everything. And right now, timing is just not in our favor.
So forgive me if from now on I will choose to do the right thing — something I should’ve done long ago that maybe if I did sooner, I wouldn’t have put myself in this situation too deep. Forgive me if I shall distance myself from you. Forgive me if I could no longer be the friend that I promised you could always rely on.
I have to do this. I have to do this even though it hurts to know that I will miss you a lot. I will miss your random sharing of reels, your messages during the ungodly hours, your rants, your sweet messages that often catch me off guard and make my heart melt. I will miss your good speaking voice, your smile, your laughter, your mood swings, your ootds, everything about you. I will miss our night outs, our work together, our roadtrips, our late-night heart-to-heart talks. I will miss you. Damn i already miss you. I miss you so much that it hurts.
Even so, please know that I’ve always been wishing for your happiness — even if it’s not with me. You deserve all the wonderful things in life. You really do. I hope you live your best life.
Good bye, G.

So one random day about 2 years ago a random Turkish Facebook account messaged me and started calling me, at first i thought it was some scammer but turned out to be just 2 chicks messing around and i just played along with it. With one of them i just started talking and we kind of clicked, but I've never taken it too seriously, this is the main girl, we'll call her H. To be completely honest i was just a trash guy that felt nothing towards H, however she fell for me and really started caring about me. H sent me nudes, as she said for the first time in her life and she was the initiator of all conversations. Looking back it feels like H always was head over heels in love with me without ever seeing me.
Fast forward about a year and a half, i started gaining a liking towards H as well, we started video calling like every evening. She would get mad when i chose gaming with the boys or going out and not gave time to her, it was really wholesome and one evening she surprised me, she told me that she got accepted into an Erasmus program in Italy, she was finally coming to Europe and we can meet each other. Honestly - I didn't believe that we would ever meet at first, but i started asking her around about her past relationships just feeling out her.
So allegedly H had one past relationship with a Spanish guy it was long distance as well, we'll call him M. She was madly in love with him, they've met in Istanbul once, only had two "very romantical kisses" and nothing else, yes she's still a virgin. That relationship ended abruptly when M's brother found out about that and apparently M was engaged and had a fiancé. H was absolutely heart broken, M's brother called her, started calling her names and told her the full story. She felt betrayed, lost and fell into a deep depression. This is a year before me and her started talking at all.
She came to Italy, everything was fine, she'd tell me about all the people she would meet, tell me about guys that were into her, honestly nothing out of the ordinary, because she is really beautiful and has this calm and collected aura around her. But what bothered me - she would tell me when she found guys handsome. The weird things started happening from then on, since she was Muslim in Italy was the first time she tried alcohol and there were a couple of club nights where she got so wasted she couldn't remember the night before, but she was always with a friend of hers that i trusted and that knew about our relationship, lets call her B.
There was one time that she went out to the club with her student friends and an incident happened - a guy left a hickey on her neck. She told me that while crying the next morning and she told me that it was abrupt and she didn't realize that that was happening, allegedly she was just dancing in the club with him, not romantically she said and he just went in for it from behind her. Allegedly she pulled him off with B and B told him "she's not a girl like that". H came out to me, told me everything about it, i trusted in her that that was a dumb mistake.(Remembering this now kind of makes me feel mad for not giving this that much thought)
Everything turned out ok, we continued talking, no more incidents happened, i didn't shit on her for that incident and i was happy that she was honest and actually as a person that has been more years in relationships in my life than not - i communicated from the beginning that honesty and truthfulness is my top priority in a partner. Honestly i was even a little snake in terms of that i never told her anything i didn't like that she said from the fear that she would close up. So i don't think i created an atmosphere where there would be a motive to keep any secrets, no matter what happened.
We continued talking and H kept pushing me to come to Italy and i will admit - that was way beyond my comfort zone, i told her that i would and that i need time to organize things. Things took a while and eventually she said "i'm sick of waiting, i'm coming to Lithuania myself". And guess what, she bought the tickets with a weeks notice for me. She was coming with her friend B that i had to drive to Latvia for her to meet up with her other friends. Basically after day 2 there would only be the 2 of us left, just me and H.
The day comes and i drive to pick them up from the airport i was anxious and nervous as shit. She comes out of the airport running to me, hugged me for a long time and it felt good. That's when i realized that i really like this girl. But i still have my doubts, i still think of the different cultures, how would she talk to my mother if we ever get married, what culture would our children be, how would i talk to her parents? Basically i didn't see long term viable at that point, in this i'm a piece of shit, because she was in this state of delusion that i'm her everything and i'm her last man ever.
So we live together for that week, we have good adventures, i show her and her friend around the city, outside of the city, they love everything, they're super happy. At night me and H are in the same bed, we kiss and it gets naughty, but at the back of my head i have this guilt of not seeing a future with H, so i don't commit to taking her virginity and we play around with everything around it and she was passionate as shit.
The time i spent with her was very lovely, it was honestly so refreshing and it kind of brought a new light for me, i started imagining the future together but still with many doubts. It is time for her to leave, she's clinged on to me, doesn't want to let me go, is really sad that she has to leave, but eventually she does and she has to leave to Berlin to live there.
Everything was fine, one night i went to play pool with a buddy that lives in the UK, for context he used to date a Chinese girl, we got a little drunk and high and i started talking about H, told him all my doubts and he kind of debunked them with his prior relationship. He basically left me feeling like maybe i should commit to H. He outlined that i do have a lot of prior trauma due to having so many relationships, having been cheated on, having been left for other men and basically i have a very thick shield and never let anyone close. That is very true and i knew the answer was to try to commit and so quietly i did.
H went to Germany, first she went to a city where her friend lives, they both had a good time, she sent me snaps and kept me updated, it was really nice, we continued calling each other. Now this is where the situation started, when she took the train to Berlin, she came in on Monday. She lived in some sort of camp seemed like, she disappeared for that day, in the evening she tried calling me and i called back in an hour. She looked normal to me and i tried asking her what did you do that day. At first she changed the topic, then i asked again - she said they went on a group trip, it was super fun. Then i asked again what happened, she told me this strange story about a guy that she called handsome to her friend in Turkish and was talking about him a lot. After a while the guy turned around and answered to them in Turkish, which made her feel really bad. Then i asked another time, what happened next - she said she got blackout drunk and doesn't remember anything....
Hmmmm. You got blackout drunk like a couple hours ago and now you seem normal talking to me... Alright, i got my suspicions up and reminded her that honesty is number one for me, she said she understands and is 100% honest with me.
Alright, the next day rolls around, LITERALLY THE NEXT DAY AFTER HONESTY CONVERSATION, she sends me a snap of her having lunch with her friend and some guy. I don't think much of it and in the evening we video call, i ask her about the day and she doesn't say anything about no guy, that is pretty weird knowing her past honesty. I directly confront her about it and tell her "What are you talking about, you sent me a snap with you and him at the table", she starts pulling all sorts of bullshit and says she only took pictures of food and sent me those pictures. Lo and behold the tables are black glass and there's a reflection of a dude sitting on his phone at the table. At first she start pulling more shit "I don't see anyone, maybe it's a waiter, i don't know what you're talking about" and i tell her stop acting stupid.
She then starts crying and says that she promised a friend to keep that guy's presence there a secret. Allegedly he's getting an unlawful marriage with his fiancé that neither his nor his fiancé's parents can know about. Wow, what the actual fuck? Who would've i told, going to lunch with guys in secret is normal? Anyway, i told her that she broke my trust and i'm not sure if there's possibility of recovering this. She started begging while crying and said she'd do anything to fix it and that it was a stupid mistake. Alright, i tell her that it will need time, but that she will have to be 100% honest with me. Another talk about honesty.
Next day rolls around and i'm suspicious, i started checking her instagram activity and snap location(very not healthy, i know). i see instragram last active 7h ago and same in snap, all gucci - she asleep. Next time i check - instagram activity has been turned off and snap last active 9 hours ago? I confront her as soon as she gets on snap, which is about 6 hours from the first check. We call and she says she wasn't on insta and she didn't turn off shit. I asked her to share screen and show me - she was messaging B 5 hours ago :)
So i told her that the first mistake i was willing to work through, even though we had a convo literally a day before it. But now this.... I told her that i can't see me trusting her ever again and now she's crying and begging me for days, she gave me all her social media passwords unasked, she said she can delete everything and disappear from everyone's lives except mine. She's basically non stop begging me for forgiveness and saying she'll do anything to fix it and that she will never forget me if she looses me.
She then proceeded to trauma dump me how her father was never present in her life, she never even touched his hand, how she would get beaten by her father side aunts and grandmother, they allegedly kept her starving while her father was not present. They had to hide food because that would get taken away from them and shit. And call me whatever, but at that point, i heard that voice lying though it's teeth, i just did not know what to trust and if this is a manipulation tactic to become a victim.
So this is the part where i need advice, i left it off by saying we'll be friends from now on, we can keep contact and if you ever earn back my trust maybe something will come of it. But I'm very conflicted, i don't know if i can ever trust her again, her behavior after we met turned really shady. What would you do in this situation? AITAH if i leave her?
I left some context out because it turned out way longer as is, ask in the comments if any questions arise.