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2024.06.01 12:58 Anthrax731 Thoughts on being the sole provider or accepting support. Ladies please weigh in and share your thoughts.
You see like most young men raised in a traditional Christian household I was taught that the man is the breadwinner and it is the mans job to provide for the wife. I say wife in singular because I was taught this by my late father long before I discussed my decision to pursue polygany.
But as such I have this deep instilled mindset I guess one could say, that it is my job as the man to carry the weight of providing to all my wives. However realistically speaking unless you are some rich oil prince, or a doctor who makes a truck load of money, in the modern day and age one would never be able to support the whole family solely on the shoulders of the man alone.
You often hear that one of the benefits of polygany is that your wives can work alongside you thus lifting or at least easing the burden of providing for the family. Thus the responsibility of breadwinner do not lie solely on the shoulders of the husband.
And it does make sense. More people working together but also sharing a household means more available incomes to share on expenses, and less expenses as everyone shares a home means you can stretch your available income further. It is the same principle any young adult college boy/gal learned while rooming together in college/uni.
But I still struggle between the mindset of "the man is the breadwinner and should carry the responsibility of providing." vs "your wives can help carry the weight of providing."
Now in a homesteading lifestyle it can be argued that the man will do the brunt of the farming and food production and the wives only aiding were necessary. However, even so if you are trying to achieve a fully self sufficient farm, producing all your food on the farm, that includes chickens for egg's, cattle for milk, and meat, vegetables, wheat for bread etc. That is a lot of work to be done by one man alone, especially if you have a large family. Now of course you can get your sons to help out but they still need to go to school and there is also your children's infant stage to consider. As such it is almost a given that most of the breadwinning would actually be done by your wives. But if that is the case then you as the man are not actually stepping up to your role as breadwinner as you are not carrieng the weight of providing.
Please share your thoughts. Ladies please share your views on this aswell.
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But as such I have this deep instilled mindset I guess one could say, that it is my job as the man to carry the weight of providing to all my wives. However realistically speaking unless you are some rich oil prince, or a doctor who makes a truck load of money, in the modern day and age one would never be able to support the whole family solely on the shoulders of the man alone.
You often hear that one of the benefits of polygany is that your wives can work alongside you thus lifting or at least easing the burden of providing for the family. Thus the responsibility of breadwinner do not lie solely on the shoulders of the husband.
And it does make sense. More people working together but also sharing a household means more available incomes to share on expenses, and less expenses as everyone shares a home means you can stretch your available income further. It is the same principle any young adult college boy/gal learned while rooming together in college/uni.
But I still struggle between the mindset of "the man is the breadwinner and should carry the responsibility of providing." vs "your wives can help carry the weight of providing."
Now in a homesteading lifestyle it can be argued that the man will do the brunt of the farming and food production and the wives only aiding were necessary. However, even so if you are trying to achieve a fully self sufficient farm, producing all your food on the farm, that includes chickens for egg's, cattle for milk, and meat, vegetables, wheat for bread etc. That is a lot of work to be done by one man alone, especially if you have a large family. Now of course you can get your sons to help out but they still need to go to school and there is also your children's infant stage to consider. As such it is almost a given that most of the breadwinning would actually be done by your wives. But if that is the case then you as the man are not actually stepping up to your role as breadwinner as you are not carrieng the weight of providing.
Please share your thoughts. Ladies please share your views on this aswell.
2024.06.01 12:54 madssaysugh Where all of the “good” nannies have gone. My Roman Empire.
TLDR: Nannying is a very hard job. There would probably be a lot more nannies who work as hard as one needs to do this job well if the pay matched the value and difficulty of the work.
I’ve been pretty active in this sub lately because I’ve been feeling unhappy at my job and it helps to have a community. I wrote this a while ago and have been nervous to post it but I think it’s important. I saw a post in nannyemployers asking where all of the “good” nannies have gone and this was the response I was writing until I realised the replies were to be from NP only.. I would post in the nanny employers sub if I weren’t terrified of the response. I know I’m singing to the choir here and I know saying it out loud doesn’t change much. But I am so, so angry, so imma just send it.
As a nanny who has two college degrees, practices Montessori, Reggio Emilia, and RIE, and as someone who has always loved and wanted to work with kids, there simply is not enough money in this career path to stick to it. I personally simply cannot rationalise doing the amount of physical and emotional work that is required for me to do this job as well as I want to for the typical pay, even though I absolutely love it.
For my background, experience, and approach, I am in a severely underpaid position (even when disregarding my qualifications it would still be severely underpaid.) Because of my personal and financial situation at the time of my job search, I did not have the luxury to wait for a unicorn family to offer me the salary I was looking for. I found a family that was a good fit and accepted the position even though I felt it was very much underpaid. I am now in a position where I am continuously battling wanting to work as hard as I can for these kids and this family, and realising I can’t break my back for them while being this underpaid (I mean I literally threw my back out during this job). I’m not someone who breaks a commitment easily but I guess I could move from family to family, waiting to find one who is able to financially match the value of this work, or I could stick it out and get $2/hr raises every year, but I can’t wait 10 years to finally get close to being paid what I know a proper nanny is worth. Yes there certainly are some nanny employers who properly respect this work and are able to financially meet it’s value, but in my experience they are few and far between. I have found that the overwhelming majority of nannies are severely underpaid and overworked.
Nannies are asked to have flexible schedules, work long hours, take on a laundry list of responsibilities, develop personal emotional relationships with children that aren’t theirs while keeping a professional distance, pay for and organise their own continued training, be emotionally and socially engaged with children all day long, and more. But above all, the most important aspect of nannying is managing our stress is such a way that allows us to stay in an executive state of functioning all day every single day. People deeply underestimate and undervalue the amount of hard and constant work it takes to keep oneself in an executive state of functioning day in and day out, especially in a high stress position where you are helping other people regulate their bodies all day on top of yours, AND are constantly sick and tired and being pushed and tested. I think that this ability is what makes the difference in a “good” nanny and is often the most overlooked, misunderstood, and undervalued aspect of the job responsibilities.
I want to be a good nanny, it’s my dream job to be the best nanny there is, and I used to think that I could accept being in an undervalued role because “it takes a village” and I wanted to do my part and this was my passion. But it doesn’t feel good to be undervalued financially and socially, in fact it feels really really bad, and this is why I will no longer be pursuing a career as a nanny. Even if I found my unicorn position, it wouldn’t change the fact that the overwhelming majority of my nanny peers are still underpaid and undervalued, and that doesn’t feel good. It makes me want to leave, and I think all of the other underpaid nannies should leave too. (We need a union or something, is this a thing?)
The market is oversaturated and undervalued. Not everyone needs a nanny now that quarantine is over (a full-time nanny, not babysitter or after school care). I have both worked at a preschool and as a nanny and I have found that a setting with multiple children of similar age is far better developmentally for a child than spending most of their time with a single adult and a sibling or two, even for young babies. I think a healthy mix of a daycare setting and family time at home is probably best but can be the most difficult to achieve with the current work culture. This is no one’s fault, the overworking culture is a burden of late stage capitalism that we all face. However, it is the burden of the parents to solve their work/life balance. This is a very big part of what one signs up for when becoming a parent. It is not the burden of the nanny to work more for less or the children to miss being with their parents (I’d say two doctor NP are pretty much the only ones who’d get a pass here).
It’s no one person’s fault that nannies are financially undervalued, the value of personal childcare and domestic work has a long saturated history fraught with misogyny and racism. Have you compared the average wage of a plumber (male dominated domestic work) to that of a nanny (female dominated domestic work)? And don’t tell me plumbing requires more training or is harder than nannying, I assure you they are of comparable difficulty especially considering there’s no step by step instructions on YouTube for nannying. (And if you do consider plumbing to be that much hard than nannying, what do you think gives you that perception? I mean as a parent, one should know that nannying absolutely is not just playing with kids all day, even if that’s all you ask your nanny to do. What subconscious bias could be giving you the perception that bringing up children is less difficult and of less value than screwing pipes together? Have you seen The Help? Don’t answer, just think.)
Plumbers make average $28/hr in the states, mechanics $26, for nannies it’s $20 (and that’s being generous). That’s a ¢70 on the dollar comparison. It is time we all realise that nannying is an underpaid and undervalued role and work to change that. If the wage being offered across the board better matched the value of the work, I think one would find a lot more serious nannies and a lot more current nannies taking the job more seriously.
I didn’t get it at first, why so many nannies at the park seemed so burnt out and disinterested in the kids. Oh boy do I get it now. I want nothing more than to do my best in this role, but in the past few months after nearly being stiffed by NP, not receiving a bonus from them when I really thought I would, and overall realising I am being taken advantage of and am a human mine to them, I have realised that I can no longer put my all into this job for my own health and sanity. Being properly compensated is the primary motivating aspect of all work especially in the society we are a part of. After loosing my sense of respect from NP, I’ve lost most of the non-financial motivation I started out with and am left with what little motivation my petite pay check gives me, and the kids can tell.
Since my fallout with NP, I have pulled back emotionally from the kids. I’m not mean and I am still doing every responsibility in my contract to the letter (and then some still), but I am no longer as emotionally available to them as I was. I am shorter and more curt with them, I don’t take as much time with them to sit and talk about every feeling they have, and I’m not working as hard to help them break the bad habits NP give them that NP specifically ask me to break (one example - NP want NK to walk everywhere with me but then always use the stroller with NP and every time we go out it’s a fight to use the stroller or not. Guess who’s been using the stroller far more often lately). Anyway, the past week my NK 3f has been quietly crying before her nap and I’m sure it’s because she’s felt me pull away from her. It’s breaking my heart and I’ve been trying to give her extra cuddles, but I have to protect myself first now. This is a job and these aren’t my kids and I can no longer rationalise putting them first emotionally especially considering I am burnt TF out, torn down, and left feeling used up and tossed aside without any recognition or proper thanks for NP.
I don’t know what the perfect number is, the number I would say many NP would probably think is too high, and maybe they’re not looking for a nanny who works as hard as I and others do. But I can tell you that $17/hr before taxes in a VHCOL area does not even come CLOSE. I think we can all easily recognise that the financial value of this job needs to better match the value of the work, in general and across the board. We’re talking about the people caring for and raising the future generations here, I mean how is this not the most coveted role in our society?
This is my Roman Empire and I will die on this hill every. single. time.
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I’ve been pretty active in this sub lately because I’ve been feeling unhappy at my job and it helps to have a community. I wrote this a while ago and have been nervous to post it but I think it’s important. I saw a post in nannyemployers asking where all of the “good” nannies have gone and this was the response I was writing until I realised the replies were to be from NP only.. I would post in the nanny employers sub if I weren’t terrified of the response. I know I’m singing to the choir here and I know saying it out loud doesn’t change much. But I am so, so angry, so imma just send it.
As a nanny who has two college degrees, practices Montessori, Reggio Emilia, and RIE, and as someone who has always loved and wanted to work with kids, there simply is not enough money in this career path to stick to it. I personally simply cannot rationalise doing the amount of physical and emotional work that is required for me to do this job as well as I want to for the typical pay, even though I absolutely love it.
For my background, experience, and approach, I am in a severely underpaid position (even when disregarding my qualifications it would still be severely underpaid.) Because of my personal and financial situation at the time of my job search, I did not have the luxury to wait for a unicorn family to offer me the salary I was looking for. I found a family that was a good fit and accepted the position even though I felt it was very much underpaid. I am now in a position where I am continuously battling wanting to work as hard as I can for these kids and this family, and realising I can’t break my back for them while being this underpaid (I mean I literally threw my back out during this job). I’m not someone who breaks a commitment easily but I guess I could move from family to family, waiting to find one who is able to financially match the value of this work, or I could stick it out and get $2/hr raises every year, but I can’t wait 10 years to finally get close to being paid what I know a proper nanny is worth. Yes there certainly are some nanny employers who properly respect this work and are able to financially meet it’s value, but in my experience they are few and far between. I have found that the overwhelming majority of nannies are severely underpaid and overworked.
Nannies are asked to have flexible schedules, work long hours, take on a laundry list of responsibilities, develop personal emotional relationships with children that aren’t theirs while keeping a professional distance, pay for and organise their own continued training, be emotionally and socially engaged with children all day long, and more. But above all, the most important aspect of nannying is managing our stress is such a way that allows us to stay in an executive state of functioning all day every single day. People deeply underestimate and undervalue the amount of hard and constant work it takes to keep oneself in an executive state of functioning day in and day out, especially in a high stress position where you are helping other people regulate their bodies all day on top of yours, AND are constantly sick and tired and being pushed and tested. I think that this ability is what makes the difference in a “good” nanny and is often the most overlooked, misunderstood, and undervalued aspect of the job responsibilities.
I want to be a good nanny, it’s my dream job to be the best nanny there is, and I used to think that I could accept being in an undervalued role because “it takes a village” and I wanted to do my part and this was my passion. But it doesn’t feel good to be undervalued financially and socially, in fact it feels really really bad, and this is why I will no longer be pursuing a career as a nanny. Even if I found my unicorn position, it wouldn’t change the fact that the overwhelming majority of my nanny peers are still underpaid and undervalued, and that doesn’t feel good. It makes me want to leave, and I think all of the other underpaid nannies should leave too. (We need a union or something, is this a thing?)
The market is oversaturated and undervalued. Not everyone needs a nanny now that quarantine is over (a full-time nanny, not babysitter or after school care). I have both worked at a preschool and as a nanny and I have found that a setting with multiple children of similar age is far better developmentally for a child than spending most of their time with a single adult and a sibling or two, even for young babies. I think a healthy mix of a daycare setting and family time at home is probably best but can be the most difficult to achieve with the current work culture. This is no one’s fault, the overworking culture is a burden of late stage capitalism that we all face. However, it is the burden of the parents to solve their work/life balance. This is a very big part of what one signs up for when becoming a parent. It is not the burden of the nanny to work more for less or the children to miss being with their parents (I’d say two doctor NP are pretty much the only ones who’d get a pass here).
It’s no one person’s fault that nannies are financially undervalued, the value of personal childcare and domestic work has a long saturated history fraught with misogyny and racism. Have you compared the average wage of a plumber (male dominated domestic work) to that of a nanny (female dominated domestic work)? And don’t tell me plumbing requires more training or is harder than nannying, I assure you they are of comparable difficulty especially considering there’s no step by step instructions on YouTube for nannying. (And if you do consider plumbing to be that much hard than nannying, what do you think gives you that perception? I mean as a parent, one should know that nannying absolutely is not just playing with kids all day, even if that’s all you ask your nanny to do. What subconscious bias could be giving you the perception that bringing up children is less difficult and of less value than screwing pipes together? Have you seen The Help? Don’t answer, just think.)
Plumbers make average $28/hr in the states, mechanics $26, for nannies it’s $20 (and that’s being generous). That’s a ¢70 on the dollar comparison. It is time we all realise that nannying is an underpaid and undervalued role and work to change that. If the wage being offered across the board better matched the value of the work, I think one would find a lot more serious nannies and a lot more current nannies taking the job more seriously.
I didn’t get it at first, why so many nannies at the park seemed so burnt out and disinterested in the kids. Oh boy do I get it now. I want nothing more than to do my best in this role, but in the past few months after nearly being stiffed by NP, not receiving a bonus from them when I really thought I would, and overall realising I am being taken advantage of and am a human mine to them, I have realised that I can no longer put my all into this job for my own health and sanity. Being properly compensated is the primary motivating aspect of all work especially in the society we are a part of. After loosing my sense of respect from NP, I’ve lost most of the non-financial motivation I started out with and am left with what little motivation my petite pay check gives me, and the kids can tell.
Since my fallout with NP, I have pulled back emotionally from the kids. I’m not mean and I am still doing every responsibility in my contract to the letter (and then some still), but I am no longer as emotionally available to them as I was. I am shorter and more curt with them, I don’t take as much time with them to sit and talk about every feeling they have, and I’m not working as hard to help them break the bad habits NP give them that NP specifically ask me to break (one example - NP want NK to walk everywhere with me but then always use the stroller with NP and every time we go out it’s a fight to use the stroller or not. Guess who’s been using the stroller far more often lately). Anyway, the past week my NK 3f has been quietly crying before her nap and I’m sure it’s because she’s felt me pull away from her. It’s breaking my heart and I’ve been trying to give her extra cuddles, but I have to protect myself first now. This is a job and these aren’t my kids and I can no longer rationalise putting them first emotionally especially considering I am burnt TF out, torn down, and left feeling used up and tossed aside without any recognition or proper thanks for NP.
I don’t know what the perfect number is, the number I would say many NP would probably think is too high, and maybe they’re not looking for a nanny who works as hard as I and others do. But I can tell you that $17/hr before taxes in a VHCOL area does not even come CLOSE. I think we can all easily recognise that the financial value of this job needs to better match the value of the work, in general and across the board. We’re talking about the people caring for and raising the future generations here, I mean how is this not the most coveted role in our society?
This is my Roman Empire and I will die on this hill every. single. time.
2024.06.01 12:43 zapzanagan First sudden bout of insomnia
Hi all,
I am a 26 year old male btw. Prior to this bout of insomnia thats been affecting me the past 2 weeks, I am someone who slept 7-8 hours a night regularly, and was out relatively quickly when attempting to sleep. There have been occasions where I couldn't get to sleep in the past, but they would be incredibly infrequent and only last 1 night. I'm someone who fortunately hasn't had to put much effort into my bed time routine, although I have always been quite a healthy person, and also meditate frequently.
That is, until now. I had a couple infrequent nights of sleep back to back, possibly due to stressors in my life. I went through a breakup a month back, and I have a lot on at work. This breakup could be a potential root cause, however I feel like I've processed the pain quite well and the first 2 weeks I didn't really struggle much when getting to sleep. I truly believe I've had 5x the amount of anxiety and stress from external events than I do now and I didn't have sleep issues then.
Despite working on a thorough wind down routine, I get to the point of exhaustion where I feel I am ready to drift off. I do feel a slight sense of dread now at the thought of going to bed, but I believe that I get myself in the mindset where I am pretty clear headed, and trying to avoid thoughts or cares about not sleeping that night. Yet after 10 minutes of attempting to sleep, it's like my sympathetic nervous system activates, my heart starts beating faster, I feel a pit in my stomach, I heat up. Then I'll be awake until about 5-6am, despite waking up at 8am every day for the past 2 weeks (I've been attempting the CBT-I stuff). I've tried melatonin, and I think this helps with sleep timing a bit as I managed to push back the window in which I get sleepy at least, but it doesn't seem like the solution, only an aid. I've also tried to meditate whilest going through this feeling to see if I could rationalise it, and understand it better, or whether there is something external causing this state of panick. But nothing seems rational. My thoughts are that I've somehow contracted some sort of dysautonomia or other illness that is attacking my nervous system. Once I do actually fall asleep the first time, I rarely wake up again, and in the morning I am shattered, as if I can sleep longer - I think this is potentially a good sign, however I know that if I indulge in sleeping in during the day then I won't sleep the entire next night (also work!)
I am really scared of the fact that I've been averaging 3 hours sleep for the past 2 weeks, as I've never been nearly so sleep deprived. I know that sleep deprivation is dangerous, and I'm scared of this spiraling into other health complications. I'm considering trying ant anxiety meds before bed, or maybe some sleeping pills.
Does what I'm going through sound familiar? Do you think it could be my nervous system malfunctioning? Does anyone have any advice? I have a business trip next week for 5 days, and I'm hopeful that a new sleeping environment might reset me.
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I am a 26 year old male btw. Prior to this bout of insomnia thats been affecting me the past 2 weeks, I am someone who slept 7-8 hours a night regularly, and was out relatively quickly when attempting to sleep. There have been occasions where I couldn't get to sleep in the past, but they would be incredibly infrequent and only last 1 night. I'm someone who fortunately hasn't had to put much effort into my bed time routine, although I have always been quite a healthy person, and also meditate frequently.
That is, until now. I had a couple infrequent nights of sleep back to back, possibly due to stressors in my life. I went through a breakup a month back, and I have a lot on at work. This breakup could be a potential root cause, however I feel like I've processed the pain quite well and the first 2 weeks I didn't really struggle much when getting to sleep. I truly believe I've had 5x the amount of anxiety and stress from external events than I do now and I didn't have sleep issues then.
Despite working on a thorough wind down routine, I get to the point of exhaustion where I feel I am ready to drift off. I do feel a slight sense of dread now at the thought of going to bed, but I believe that I get myself in the mindset where I am pretty clear headed, and trying to avoid thoughts or cares about not sleeping that night. Yet after 10 minutes of attempting to sleep, it's like my sympathetic nervous system activates, my heart starts beating faster, I feel a pit in my stomach, I heat up. Then I'll be awake until about 5-6am, despite waking up at 8am every day for the past 2 weeks (I've been attempting the CBT-I stuff). I've tried melatonin, and I think this helps with sleep timing a bit as I managed to push back the window in which I get sleepy at least, but it doesn't seem like the solution, only an aid. I've also tried to meditate whilest going through this feeling to see if I could rationalise it, and understand it better, or whether there is something external causing this state of panick. But nothing seems rational. My thoughts are that I've somehow contracted some sort of dysautonomia or other illness that is attacking my nervous system. Once I do actually fall asleep the first time, I rarely wake up again, and in the morning I am shattered, as if I can sleep longer - I think this is potentially a good sign, however I know that if I indulge in sleeping in during the day then I won't sleep the entire next night (also work!)
I am really scared of the fact that I've been averaging 3 hours sleep for the past 2 weeks, as I've never been nearly so sleep deprived. I know that sleep deprivation is dangerous, and I'm scared of this spiraling into other health complications. I'm considering trying ant anxiety meds before bed, or maybe some sleeping pills.
Does what I'm going through sound familiar? Do you think it could be my nervous system malfunctioning? Does anyone have any advice? I have a business trip next week for 5 days, and I'm hopeful that a new sleeping environment might reset me.
2024.06.01 12:42 Apeacefulmc79 Work from home or not
I’m moving back in with my parents due to a divorce and the HCOL where I am. My parents said I can stay and not worry about rent. I currently make 52k a year. With rent and expenses, I have no savings and about 25k in debt. I also have no degree or marketable skills.
My mom has health issues and needs assistance. I can work from home taking care of her but it only pays $14.00 an hour. But that will allow me time to take classes online, take my daughter to school and be there for my mom. I will essentially be in the same spot financially since I won’t be paying rent anymore.
So should I work from home with mom with a pay cut to take classes or try to find something similar to what I do now? In the area she lives in, I will make less than my currently salary because of the lower cost of living.
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My mom has health issues and needs assistance. I can work from home taking care of her but it only pays $14.00 an hour. But that will allow me time to take classes online, take my daughter to school and be there for my mom. I will essentially be in the same spot financially since I won’t be paying rent anymore.
So should I work from home with mom with a pay cut to take classes or try to find something similar to what I do now? In the area she lives in, I will make less than my currently salary because of the lower cost of living.
2024.06.01 12:37 palpoonchy Is this normal? I feel like I can't relate with many people
Ok so first things first, I am well acquainted with abuse and abusers, grew up in a very abusive family, except for s*xual abuse I went through everything else with them, of course this led me to see abuse as normal behavior, most kids bullied me, some close friends took advantage of my spineless behavior, and later on, I had abusive romantic partners.
Not all of them were, of course, but the ones that were I can think back and see the red flags I missed, eventually I went to therapy and kind of learned how to see them better, all that stuff.
Then comes my last ex. He was, well, great. He was attentive, kind, generous, his family welcomed me as a new addition from the first day, it all seemed too good to be true. The thing is, with other abusers, this façade would soon collapse, they weren't able to sustain it for long, but my ex seemed to really be like this, the only shady thing I can think of his past self it that he's always been very secretive about his emotions and repressed them way too much.
After about a year and a half of dating, several things happened, quarantine was one of them, my mental health decline was the other. I tried meds for the first time, it backfired and left me su*cidal for months, I had agoraphobia and went back to being terrified of people. That's when the silent treatment and refusing to get intimate with me and all the arguing began. His point was that he was okay with supporting me with my mental health stuff, as long as it got better and not worse, I tried to explain to him that sometimes things do get worse and there's nothing I can possibly do about it, he would get angrier and say that either I got "cured" or he would leave.
You can imagine how fragile I was back then, terrified of my friends,of going outside, I went back to my mom's house because of covid and had to deal with her abuse again, he felt like the only person I could trust. Even if I knew everything he was saying about mental illnesses was plain wrong, I chose to stick with him because he genuinely sounded like he wanted the best for me.
But everything only got worse, of course, his own life got harder, he was a sheltered kid that never worked or lived on his own, I on the other hand have been working ever since I was 17, we moved in together and you guessed it, it got even worse.
He was doing an unpaid internship where he would mostly observe others work instead of doing something himself, I worked part time because I wanted a little break from working 7am to 4pm for so long, so he was basically living off me and his parents, I also did most of the housework because he'd be there for so long, he didn't even have to, but he was there all day. Not only he never thanked me but he would belittle me for working part time and criticized my cooking, he was a picky eater and was used to his mom adapting to him so I had no idea this was a thing, he hated all veggies and everything that wasn't basically soup or meat and rice/potatoes. We both got folic acid deficiency from this btw, so I'm not exaggerating.
At some point my brain just gave up, I was so incredibly exhausted all the time, physically and mentally. Thank goodness I had the decision to go on a solo vacation with friends after being isolated for years and that's when I realized how badly I was being treated, by being around people who didn't treat me badly. This was last summer, as soon as I got home, the first thing I did was trying to talk to him, and knowing he wouldn't be reasonable, I knew I would have to leave him.
At this point we hadn't gotten intimate in over a year, he refused sleeping with me and would only talk to me to berate me. We argued very often, he was angry all the time, I was on edge all the time, I constantly had panic and anxiety attacks, he would treat me specially bad during these, and when I begged him for a hug sometimes he even hit me.
This was almost a year ago and I'm still broken. My memory is broken, my cognitive functions are half there, I am numb most days, can't feel a thing, not good nor bad, just can't feel, no matter what I do. I am incredibly depressed and don't have the will to do anything. I found someone great who is supportive and amazing in more ways than I can count, found great friends and rekindled friendships I left unattended because of my ex, and still I can't be there for them, not really, because I am not really here most of the time, went to therapy but can't yet afford trying EMDR (will be able soon, after I move from here) and I can't learn anything more from my therapist, it's also expensive. I quit my job and am living off my savings and unemployment, went back to one of my hobbies he used to belittle and criticize so much, I've been hired for collaborations right away and I am in several projects and I can't give my all and feel like I am disappointing people and most importantly myself all the time.
I miss the old me so bad, the one that's trapped beneath this impenetrable armor, and even though things have gotten kind of better, I hate being this fragile, quiet, soft person, when I used to be the polar opposite, I have nothing against quiet and soft people, I love them, it just feels wrong for me.
It took me a lot of work but before dating this idiot for almost 5 years, I got to be this extroverted, fun and warm person that had a million friends and was incredibly energetic, I used to be super physically active, went to a lot of social events, I had so many hobbies and was starting to carve wood. He took it all, and I have no idea how.
As I said at the start of this post, abuse is my whole life. No matter how much my family told me I sucked, they never took the fun out of things for me, if anything, it gave me that spark, that "I'll do what I want!" inner Cartman. No matter how much I was bullied or belittled by others, it never broke me, I was pretty much used to it. But this guy did.
Whenever I talk about toxic relationships with friends or people I meet, it's always kind of the same, "oh we were not compatible at all and refused to accept it haha" or "they were abusive from the start I just didn't know how abuse worked!" but I haven't found someone that went through the same thing as me, someone who's ex was perfect and then became abusive and disgusting, I left a lot out of it for the sake of brevity but his political views and overall morality changed a lot during all this.
I don't know how coherent this is, kinda need to vent , thanks to whoever read it at all, good luck with your own struggles ♥
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Not all of them were, of course, but the ones that were I can think back and see the red flags I missed, eventually I went to therapy and kind of learned how to see them better, all that stuff.
Then comes my last ex. He was, well, great. He was attentive, kind, generous, his family welcomed me as a new addition from the first day, it all seemed too good to be true. The thing is, with other abusers, this façade would soon collapse, they weren't able to sustain it for long, but my ex seemed to really be like this, the only shady thing I can think of his past self it that he's always been very secretive about his emotions and repressed them way too much.
After about a year and a half of dating, several things happened, quarantine was one of them, my mental health decline was the other. I tried meds for the first time, it backfired and left me su*cidal for months, I had agoraphobia and went back to being terrified of people. That's when the silent treatment and refusing to get intimate with me and all the arguing began. His point was that he was okay with supporting me with my mental health stuff, as long as it got better and not worse, I tried to explain to him that sometimes things do get worse and there's nothing I can possibly do about it, he would get angrier and say that either I got "cured" or he would leave.
You can imagine how fragile I was back then, terrified of my friends,of going outside, I went back to my mom's house because of covid and had to deal with her abuse again, he felt like the only person I could trust. Even if I knew everything he was saying about mental illnesses was plain wrong, I chose to stick with him because he genuinely sounded like he wanted the best for me.
But everything only got worse, of course, his own life got harder, he was a sheltered kid that never worked or lived on his own, I on the other hand have been working ever since I was 17, we moved in together and you guessed it, it got even worse.
He was doing an unpaid internship where he would mostly observe others work instead of doing something himself, I worked part time because I wanted a little break from working 7am to 4pm for so long, so he was basically living off me and his parents, I also did most of the housework because he'd be there for so long, he didn't even have to, but he was there all day. Not only he never thanked me but he would belittle me for working part time and criticized my cooking, he was a picky eater and was used to his mom adapting to him so I had no idea this was a thing, he hated all veggies and everything that wasn't basically soup or meat and rice/potatoes. We both got folic acid deficiency from this btw, so I'm not exaggerating.
At some point my brain just gave up, I was so incredibly exhausted all the time, physically and mentally. Thank goodness I had the decision to go on a solo vacation with friends after being isolated for years and that's when I realized how badly I was being treated, by being around people who didn't treat me badly. This was last summer, as soon as I got home, the first thing I did was trying to talk to him, and knowing he wouldn't be reasonable, I knew I would have to leave him.
At this point we hadn't gotten intimate in over a year, he refused sleeping with me and would only talk to me to berate me. We argued very often, he was angry all the time, I was on edge all the time, I constantly had panic and anxiety attacks, he would treat me specially bad during these, and when I begged him for a hug sometimes he even hit me.
This was almost a year ago and I'm still broken. My memory is broken, my cognitive functions are half there, I am numb most days, can't feel a thing, not good nor bad, just can't feel, no matter what I do. I am incredibly depressed and don't have the will to do anything. I found someone great who is supportive and amazing in more ways than I can count, found great friends and rekindled friendships I left unattended because of my ex, and still I can't be there for them, not really, because I am not really here most of the time, went to therapy but can't yet afford trying EMDR (will be able soon, after I move from here) and I can't learn anything more from my therapist, it's also expensive. I quit my job and am living off my savings and unemployment, went back to one of my hobbies he used to belittle and criticize so much, I've been hired for collaborations right away and I am in several projects and I can't give my all and feel like I am disappointing people and most importantly myself all the time.
I miss the old me so bad, the one that's trapped beneath this impenetrable armor, and even though things have gotten kind of better, I hate being this fragile, quiet, soft person, when I used to be the polar opposite, I have nothing against quiet and soft people, I love them, it just feels wrong for me.
It took me a lot of work but before dating this idiot for almost 5 years, I got to be this extroverted, fun and warm person that had a million friends and was incredibly energetic, I used to be super physically active, went to a lot of social events, I had so many hobbies and was starting to carve wood. He took it all, and I have no idea how.
As I said at the start of this post, abuse is my whole life. No matter how much my family told me I sucked, they never took the fun out of things for me, if anything, it gave me that spark, that "I'll do what I want!" inner Cartman. No matter how much I was bullied or belittled by others, it never broke me, I was pretty much used to it. But this guy did.
Whenever I talk about toxic relationships with friends or people I meet, it's always kind of the same, "oh we were not compatible at all and refused to accept it haha" or "they were abusive from the start I just didn't know how abuse worked!" but I haven't found someone that went through the same thing as me, someone who's ex was perfect and then became abusive and disgusting, I left a lot out of it for the sake of brevity but his political views and overall morality changed a lot during all this.
I don't know how coherent this is, kinda need to vent , thanks to whoever read it at all, good luck with your own struggles ♥
2024.06.01 12:31 fmcguae Top Dairy, Cheese Suppliers & Companies in Dubai, UAE
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2024.06.01 12:30 Organic_Direction127 Digitising older vaccines
Guys I'm trying to find my older records for my childhood records for vaccines any body got idea how to get them back. The health centre next home took it 18-20 yeas ago to give me one paper birth certificate instead of the book with vaccines record
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2024.06.01 12:29 LargeCryptographer59 Slap me w a reality cheque🤡🃏. Indian International Applicant-Male. Do I stand any chance ?
Indian Applicant for Biomedical Engineering (Need-Based Aid) Overall GPA- 3.6ish-3.8 idk I've checked online as much as I can and this is the value I'm finding via Bard and Chatgpt. High School (Small - 300-450 Students)
Financial Aid: Extremely important (need-blind preferred)
College list as of now Boston University, Upenn, Yale, DePaul, Brown, Columbia, Dartmouth, Duke, LMU , Purdue, Suny buffalo, Stony brook, Albany , Stanford, Tufts, Tulane, and USC(my heart is set on this one, they kinda love intl students n give aid + silicon valley + can also pursue my acting passion) Let me know if I'm being delusional as such, critique, review and also lemme know is USC a possibility.
Other:
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- 9th Grade: 89% (Vice Head Boy, Rotary Interact Club - community service projects- made jute bags with collaboration with rotary interact members at school and donated to a nearby shelter + creating environmental awareness)
- 10th Grade: 91.2% (Head Boy, Student Council President, Anti-bullying initiative at school, Student body reported a feeling of being confident and peaceful mentally due to the awareness of bullying and how to deal with it. Planned Assembly presentations for each Grade so that all the students get a chance to portray their interests on stage + combat fear and stage fright and eventually over come it, Wrote a Drama and acted in it which was staged on the School's Annual Day in front of about 600 attendees/parents based on Dowry which plagues the society and portrayed the ill effects it has on the bride's side, highlighting social issues and sensitizing the subject, Mentored peers during the Board Examinations period who were having academic setbacks in Social Science and Science)
- 11th Grade: 93% (2nd Highest in Science Stream, Highest in English, Physics, Maths)
- Cultural Prefect: Organized school events that have been conducted throughout the year (Diwali, Teachers Day etc, Felicitations, Award Ceremonies etc.)
- Science Tutor: Helped classmates in Physics and Chemistry
- CSIR-CCMB Volunteer: Explained Biology concepts at a science exhibition that was held at school for a day as a mobile expo of genetic diseases and solutions. Explained the concept of Vivo Gene Therapy, how it works, the technicalities and talked about practical feasibility.
- MIT EdX Online Course: Cell Biology (no certification due to cost)
- CSIR-CCMB Shadow A Scientist Program: Spent a day in a Stem Cell Technology lab, learnt about Cryoscopy and how it actually works. And how inducing of cancer cells takes place via the help of a lab mice. And how studying if the solution is done to know about the life of cell.
- Uri-Bed Project: Designed a smart bed prototype for incontinence management (won awards at innovation fests). I'll drop the abstract if u guys want but it's lengthy.
- Wipro Earthian Project: Reduced environmental impact of waste disposal at school via the project, brought awareness to the school management that the waste is burnt in open and helped in establishing tin sheds and coverings in the area where burning used to take place z ensuring the continuous carbon emissions doesn't harm students during their returning time and also for school cattle who are opened to roam around and have their enclosure in close proximity to burning area
- Swami Vivekananda Youth Leadership Award: Won leadership competition (500 participants in the state and only 1 person gets the award after 5-6 months of rigorous of interviews, speeches, discussions and introspection) For context it's this one https://rkmath.org/ys/
- Applying for Head Boy
- Starting a "Young Leaders Club" with various sub-clubs (mental health, environment, youth advocacy and bookers club .)
- Preparing for SAT (financial constraints)
Financial Aid: Extremely important (need-blind preferred)
College list as of now Boston University, Upenn, Yale, DePaul, Brown, Columbia, Dartmouth, Duke, LMU , Purdue, Suny buffalo, Stony brook, Albany , Stanford, Tufts, Tulane, and USC(my heart is set on this one, they kinda love intl students n give aid + silicon valley + can also pursue my acting passion) Let me know if I'm being delusional as such, critique, review and also lemme know is USC a possibility.
Other:
- Single mother, father abandoned family
- Mother's health issues impacted 9th grade performance
- Working part-time to manage finances
- Preparing for JEE (engineering entrance exam) as a backup
- How do my chances look for US universities (need-based aid)?
- Any suggestions for improvement?
- Removed GPA conversion as unclear for US applications. (If you do know what my GPA will come out to be, do let me know)
2024.06.01 12:29 Specialist_Arm_3028 Discover The Best Dermatologist In Dwarka At Rejuvenaids Clinic
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2024.06.01 12:24 SalamanderClassic839 So Tired of The Two-Faced Handling of Sick Days
It's such bullshit how management at literally every employment treats employees being sick. They handle it in the worst way possible in every way possible.
They say "If you're sick, stay home. Don't get everyone else sick." And if you come in anyway and get other people sick they obviously get pissed about it. But how are you supposed to do anything but come in despite being sick? If you call out they guilt trip you or straight up accuse you of faking. As if it's any of their damn business regardless, if you call out you call out. You don't need their permission to call out. They'll give you shit for calling out, but if you come in and you aren't performing ( Ya know, because you're fucking sick ) they treat you like you're trying to get everyone sick and stealing time because you can't work. They literally just want any excuse to put their boot on your throat.
You'd think this would have changed after COVID, but hell no. My wife has it even worse, though. She has a job that can be done remotely, so for the last year if she was too sick to go in, she would email in and let them know she was going to work from home ( her entire job can be done from the computer so its not even like she was limited in what she could do ). Well her company's owner doesn't like WFH for reasons completely unknown, and there's now concern about her losing her job because she's had to miss work being sick or caring for me ( i have a disease that wrecks my health sometimes ) a couple days a month. But she's worked from home every single time so she doesn't fall behind and it doesn't affect her work. She has literally worked through COVID so she wouldn't cause problems at work. And apparently this asshole would just rather NOTHING get done? Fuck them people, nothing short of being a slave is good enough for them.
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They say "If you're sick, stay home. Don't get everyone else sick." And if you come in anyway and get other people sick they obviously get pissed about it. But how are you supposed to do anything but come in despite being sick? If you call out they guilt trip you or straight up accuse you of faking. As if it's any of their damn business regardless, if you call out you call out. You don't need their permission to call out. They'll give you shit for calling out, but if you come in and you aren't performing ( Ya know, because you're fucking sick ) they treat you like you're trying to get everyone sick and stealing time because you can't work. They literally just want any excuse to put their boot on your throat.
You'd think this would have changed after COVID, but hell no. My wife has it even worse, though. She has a job that can be done remotely, so for the last year if she was too sick to go in, she would email in and let them know she was going to work from home ( her entire job can be done from the computer so its not even like she was limited in what she could do ). Well her company's owner doesn't like WFH for reasons completely unknown, and there's now concern about her losing her job because she's had to miss work being sick or caring for me ( i have a disease that wrecks my health sometimes ) a couple days a month. But she's worked from home every single time so she doesn't fall behind and it doesn't affect her work. She has literally worked through COVID so she wouldn't cause problems at work. And apparently this asshole would just rather NOTHING get done? Fuck them people, nothing short of being a slave is good enough for them.
2024.06.01 12:11 Dr_Superfluid Charging and Real TDP of M3 Max
So following a previous post, I had some issue charging my MBP 16” M3 Max 16/40 64GB while it was under heavy load.
Hardware: I usually leave my 140W MagSafe charger at the office and over the weekend or in the evenings I either don’t need to charge at all, or charge through another charger I have at home via USB-C. Usually the battery is so great I don’t even need to charge over the weekend. The charger I use at home is a Mophie Speedport 120W, capable of outputting 100W per port. The cables tried were a generic usb-c to usb-c Apple cable and a Belkin thunderbolt 3 cable. All of these (charger and cables) were bought from Apple Store, so they weren’t some shady crappy knockoffs.
The load: The ran an ML load that uses 100% of the GPU constant, 30 to 70 % of the CPU fluctuating heavily (and almost all of my RAM if that matters, but I don’t think it does).
Based on the previous post, with the help of some redditors we concluded that the problem wasn’t the USB-C charging or the Mophie charger but the 60W cable that was used. So I went and bought a 240W usb-c cable from the Apple Store, and brought my 140W and MagSafe cable home to do some tests.
Charging combinations and results (under load, high power mode enabled, battery health 100%):
-On battery: discharging at a rate of about 1% per minute (thought I was going crazy the first time I saw this)
-Mophie 100W charger + standard USB-C cable : discharge of about 1% every 5-6 minutes (so I could run my load overnight 😩)
-Mophie 100W charger + 240W USB-C cable: no charge/ very slow discharge, maybe about 1% every 15-20 minutes
-140W Apple charger + 240W USB-C cable: charging (FINALLY) at a rate of about 5% in 10 minutes (initial battery charge about 50%)
-140W Apple charger + MagSafe : charging (as expected!). Unfortunately for this combo the machine was at 100%, so I could only observe it not discharging, but using this charging method at work and running loads like this all the time I have never seen it discharge.
Overall, there are two things to take home from this. One the TDP is a lot higher than the claimed 78W. I would assume my load was using around 120W judging by the rate of discharge when it had 100W input, with the max TDP being around 140W if the CPU was constantly maxed as well. This might be the reason that the charger they include is 140W. And two, if you have in mind to run any heavy loads you need to carry around the 140W charger (or equivalent) and a cable capable of transmitting this wattage. Run off the mill chargers and cables won’t cut it.
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Hardware: I usually leave my 140W MagSafe charger at the office and over the weekend or in the evenings I either don’t need to charge at all, or charge through another charger I have at home via USB-C. Usually the battery is so great I don’t even need to charge over the weekend. The charger I use at home is a Mophie Speedport 120W, capable of outputting 100W per port. The cables tried were a generic usb-c to usb-c Apple cable and a Belkin thunderbolt 3 cable. All of these (charger and cables) were bought from Apple Store, so they weren’t some shady crappy knockoffs.
The load: The ran an ML load that uses 100% of the GPU constant, 30 to 70 % of the CPU fluctuating heavily (and almost all of my RAM if that matters, but I don’t think it does).
Based on the previous post, with the help of some redditors we concluded that the problem wasn’t the USB-C charging or the Mophie charger but the 60W cable that was used. So I went and bought a 240W usb-c cable from the Apple Store, and brought my 140W and MagSafe cable home to do some tests.
Charging combinations and results (under load, high power mode enabled, battery health 100%):
-On battery: discharging at a rate of about 1% per minute (thought I was going crazy the first time I saw this)
-Mophie 100W charger + standard USB-C cable : discharge of about 1% every 5-6 minutes (so I could run my load overnight 😩)
-Mophie 100W charger + 240W USB-C cable: no charge/ very slow discharge, maybe about 1% every 15-20 minutes
-140W Apple charger + 240W USB-C cable: charging (FINALLY) at a rate of about 5% in 10 minutes (initial battery charge about 50%)
-140W Apple charger + MagSafe : charging (as expected!). Unfortunately for this combo the machine was at 100%, so I could only observe it not discharging, but using this charging method at work and running loads like this all the time I have never seen it discharge.
Overall, there are two things to take home from this. One the TDP is a lot higher than the claimed 78W. I would assume my load was using around 120W judging by the rate of discharge when it had 100W input, with the max TDP being around 140W if the CPU was constantly maxed as well. This might be the reason that the charger they include is 140W. And two, if you have in mind to run any heavy loads you need to carry around the 140W charger (or equivalent) and a cable capable of transmitting this wattage. Run off the mill chargers and cables won’t cut it.
2024.06.01 12:08 GhoulGriin Best 1911 Magwell
 | submitted by GhoulGriin to u/GhoulGriin [link] [comments] https://preview.redd.it/dg62nixjpx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=2bf0fd5f8fb4e47a990ee66c49d49cc75572d772 Get ready to discover the perfect addition to your weapon collection! In this roundup, we'll be diving into the world of 1911 Magwells, exploring top-rated options and unveiling their unique features. Join us as we unravel the secrets behind these versatile accessory and guide you on making an informed decision. The Top 18 Best 1911 Magwell
Reviews🔗1791 Stealthy 1911/SIG P220 Magazine Pockethttps://preview.redd.it/hbecwpjkpx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=ce9d8fee6a60419537b8d3d20dc0b6eac40b1be8 Carrying a spare magazine doesn't have to be a bulky, awkward task. 1791's Snagmag 1911 8Rd/Sig P220 RH is a game-changer. This sleek, black magazine pouch, designed specifically for right-handed users, easily fits into your pocket, ready for a quick swap when you need it. Made from authentic leather in the U. S. A, its construction is solid and durable. It's lightweight, comfortable, and, when you flip it open, you have easy access to the extra ammo you need. It's a pocket-sized lifesaver in any situation, perfect for a concealed carry or for enhancing your performance while practicing with your firearm. However, it may not be for everyone. It's a bit of a niche product, and it might not suit all shooting styles. But for those who have tried it and have found it useful, it's a convenient, reliable way to ensure you're always prepared. The leather construction also adds a tactile touch, making it more than just a mere tool, but a piece of equipment you can feel confident in. 🔗High-Quality 1911 MW Housing for Precision and Performancehttps://preview.redd.it/4sih0bwkpx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=536a1303e197b6ebdc802b1c9e0d6d89c3a83c4a Imagine diving into a world of unmatched quality and performance with the Ed Brown 1911 MW Housing. It's like having a trusty sidekick in the form of a superior piece of firearm gear. Just like a trusted friend, this product has been around for a lifetime, honing its craft through a combination of masterful engineering, relentless passion, and decades of practical experience. From the very feel of it to its precision machining, you can see and touch the care that has gone into each and every detail. Pick this up, and you'll instantly feel like you're holding something truly extraordinary. It's not just a firearm component; it's a labor of love and expertise, crafted with an attention to detail that borders on obsession. Of course, like any piece of equipment engineered for such high performance, you might encounter the odd hiccup here and there. But when you're using something as finely-tuned as the Ed Brown 1911 MW Housing, the pros often outweigh the occasional minor inconvenience. Overall, the Ed Brown 1911 MW Housing is a powerhouse. It's precision crafted, top-quality, and is, in short, exactly what you'd expect from a lifetime of experience and expertise in firearm components. It might not be perfect—nothing ever is—but it's as close as you can get. So, if you're looking for a piece of equipment that you can truly rely on, with a rich history of precision machining and exceptional craftsmanship behind it, look no further than the Ed Brown 1911 MW Housing. You won't be disappointed, I promise. 🔗Premium 1911 MW Housing Blankhttps://preview.redd.it/bfs6a9clpx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=e96202411bf5264d594e31488f860c3b0063de4a The Ed Brown 1911 housing is a fine example of the dedication to precision and quality that makes this brand stand out. As a seasoned gun enthusiast, I've come to appreciate the meticulous attention to detail that goes into crafting these firearms. With this product, I especially noticed the superior components and expert machining that made the gun feel smooth and well-balanced. The mag well housing, in particular, added an element of sophistication to my 1911 replica. While the Ed Brown 1911 housing is an excellent choice for those seeking top-notch performance, there are a few potential downsides to consider. One is the price point, which may be prohibitive for some users. Additionally, while the housing is designed for durability, it's essential to take proper care of it to ensure its longevity. All in all, the Ed Brown 1911 housing is an exceptional product that delivers on promises of quality and craftsmanship. 🔗Universal Single Mag Holder for 1911 Compensatorshttps://preview.redd.it/6eniljmlpx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=466d97c1e19c05d404690c0a3e83aa3c9b520347 Imagine this: after a long day at the range or simply enjoying your time at home, you're done with holstering and retrieving your magazines. You reach for your trusty mag holder - a solid, reliable, and convenient accessory that's been your reliable companion for months. But suddenly, it's gone. You need a new one. Fast. Enter C&G's Universal single mag holder. This is the kind of mag holder that makes you say, "I never knew I needed this until now! " It's a game-changer, designed to hold your magazines in place, making your life easier and hassle-free. The C&G's Universal single mag holder is made with high-quality materials, ensuring it lasts long, stays sturdy, and remains a reliable tool in your arsenal. The Universal aspect of this product is a testament to its versatility, as it fits almost all pistols or mags. And let's talk about the fit - it's made for a purpose and designed to ensure that your magazines stay where they should. No more fumbling or worrying about your magazines falling out when you need them most. But what about the looks? Well, let's just say it's not an eyesore. It manages to blend form and function, seamlessly becoming a part of your daily arsenal. The fact that it's made in America by the best professionals in the field is a cherry on top. However, like any other product, it does have a small downside. The clip might take some getting used to, as it's a little bigger and wider than what most users would prefer. But it's a small cost to pay for a product that performs so magnificently. In conclusion, the C&G's Universal single mag holder is a top-notch product that delivers on its promises. It's a reliable and efficient accessory that makes holstering and retrieving your magazines a breeze. It might have a minor issue with the clip size, but overall, it's a must-have for anyone who wants to ensure their magazines stay secure and easily accessible. 🔗ZEV Technologies PRO Mag-well for Gen5 1911 Pistolshttps://preview.redd.it/vnyggy3mpx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=385ec628406100d8d79a3fe8e071349ab4ac5f59 I recently added the Zev Magwell Pro Compact to my Glock 19 and was thrilled with the results. The one-piece design made installation a breeze, and the sleek low profile kept my gun looking sharp. The flared base made reloading a breeze, and the improved grip was a game-changer for my accuracy. However, I did need to trim the backstrap a bit to make it fit perfectly, but overall, I'm incredibly happy with this addition to my pistol. 🔗ESD Magwell: Enhancing Glock 17 G5 FDE Reloading Experiencehttps://preview.redd.it/m7gg4ylmpx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=2f9469d19554098e580fdf40a72be1c0dfc4b85c When I first tried the ESD Magwell for Glock 17 G5 FDE, I was intrigued by its sleek design. Every curve and angle on this magwell seemed to have been carefully crafted with a purpose. The ESD team has put a lot of thought into enhancing a shooter's capabilities using human-centered design. The magwell's symmetrical side cutouts made it incredibly simple to strip magazines, and it effortlessly handled both flush-fitting and extended options. While it might not be necessary for everyone, the ESD Magwell has certainly made my reloading experience more enjoyable and efficient, proving that sometimes, it's the little things that make a big difference. 🔗Walther PPQ Flared Magwell Aluminum Black Mag Accessoryhttps://preview.redd.it/en6s1aumpx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=dc8804b4d0e3230d159b40cea84715b28c101103 Imagine you're at the shooting range, ready to take on some targets with your trusty Walther PPQ. You reach for your magazine and find that the flared magwell is a game-changer for your aim. Made of strong aluminum, it's a perfect fit for your Walther PPQ, making magazine swaps a breeze. Plus, this magwell works with both steel and polymer frames. While it has its perks, there are a couple of things worth mentioning. First, be aware that this magwell doesn't work with PPQ Sub-Compact or PPQ45 models. Second, it may have fitting issues with some extended magazines. But overall, it's a reliable addition to your shooting setup, and you'll appreciate the extra boost it provides to your aim. 🔗Stainless Steel 188S Magwell for 1911 Pistolshttps://preview.redd.it/vmrj2d7npx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=fbe674e85a70cd8301d7d2eb0c38f59df5242c27 I recently had the chance to try out the Wilson Combat Magazine Well Stainless Steel 1911 Magwell, and I have to say, it's been a game-changer in my shooting experience. The magnetic well is incredibly sturdy, and it's made entirely of stainless steel, ensuring its longevity. One thing that really stood out to me is the enhanced magazine compatibility the magwell provides. No more fumbling around to get the right fit - this magwell seamlessly fits most magazine designs, making it a breeze to reload. However, the installation process could be a bit tricky for beginners. It was a learning experience, but with the right tools and a bit of patience, I managed to get it working smoothly. Overall, I'm really happy with the performance of the Wilson Combat Magazine Well Stainless Steel 1911 Magwell. The improved magazine loading speed and enhanced compatibility make it a worthwhile investment for any serious shooter. 🔗Intelligently Engineered Canik TCS Compact Magwellhttps://preview.redd.it/6qllxfonpx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=2f1e46ec10cee412ddd9bbbc8eee26620714e218 I recently added the Canik TCS Compact Magwell Black to my 1911 handgun, and let me tell you, it has made a significant difference in my daily shooting experience. The sleek, black design not only looks impressive but also provides excellent grip and support while I'm on the range. The ergonomic shape of the extension makes it an absolute game-changer during long shooting sessions, preventing hand fatigue and ensuring a more comfortable hold. However, the TCS Compact Magwell Black isn't without its drawbacks. I've noticed that the weight distribution of the handgun has shifted slightly, making it a bit heavier overall. Additionally, the black color tends to attract dirt and dust more easily than other materials, requiring more frequent cleaning. All in all, the Canik TCS Compact Magwell Black is a high-quality extension that enhances both the aesthetics and functionality of my 1911 firearm. Despite the added weight and maintenance considerations, I would definitely recommend it as a worthwhile addition to any 1911 enthusiast's collection. 🔗Si STRIKE80 Magwell for Strike 80 Compact Frame Kithttps://preview.redd.it/0224z5ynpx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=2887ababacd1dc1e5cd03ba6e812fed7f0b8b0eb In my quest for the perfect magwell, I stumbled upon the Si STRIKE80 Magwell. With a sleek finish in black, it added an aesthetic charm to my Strike 80 compact frame kit. The fit was impeccable, with the magwell allowing my PMAGs to nestle flush against it, making the gun feel more refined. However, not everything was smooth sailing. On a few occasions, I faced issues with the magwell. Sometimes, I found it hard to seat the base plates of factory mags securely. It seemed like the magwell's design could have been more compatible with the base plates, resulting in a suboptimal user experience. Despite this, the Si STRIKE80 Magwell had some redeeming qualities. For one, it was a reliable magwell that didn't affect the functionality of the gun. Furthermore, it added a certain cool factor that matched well with the Strike 80's compact frame style. Overall, this magwell did its job when it came to accommodating the mag. However, the slight inconsistencies in its compatibility with base plates warranted some consideration. If you can overlook this issue, the Si STRIKE80 Magwell might just be the piece missing from your Strike 80 setup. 🔗Stainless Steel 1911 Magwell for Concealmenthttps://preview.redd.it/7wyiillopx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=62bf7c1bd5f7abd3b3d66bed930e6608b3052a68 I've been using the Wilson Bullet Proof Magwell Full SS for a while now, and I must say that it's quite impressive. This one-piece magwell is crafted from solid billet and CNC-Machined, making it durable and robust. Its stainless steel finish adds a touch of class to any 1911 pistol. What I really love about this magwell is its large internal opening. It ensures a smooth reloading process, making it perfect for competition or carry. The low profile, radiused outside contour is ideal for both. However, it does require some fitting to blend with pre-beveled frames. The variety of grip shapes available, along with precisely machined checkering, allows for a perfect match with your pistol. It's also compatible with most fine custom handguns. The flat mainspring model drops into most guns, while round butt models need frame contouring. Overall, despite the need for some fitting, the Wilson Bullet Proof Magwell Full SS is a top-quality product that enhances the functionality of your 1911. It's definitely a worthwhile investment for those looking to improve their pistol's performance. 🔗Enhanced Magwell for Glock 19/23 Pistolshttps://preview.redd.it/ysfah8vopx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=dfd124b1d4d21b66219afadade92b815e125ef28 Recently I added the Reptilia Black Hole Poly Magwell to my trusty GLOCK - a game-changer for my reloading skills. It fits seamlessly with both Generation 3 and 4 frames, a true all-arounder. One of the standout features is the use of impact-modified reinforced nylon, and of course, it's made in the USA. It's compatible with 9mm and. 40-caliber GLOCK pistols but does not work with 10 round factory Glock magazines; however, it's perfect with Magpul 10 round mags. This magwell has made a notable difference in my shooting experience and I find myself reaching for it whenever I grab my GLOCK. It's been a reliable addition to my kit and highly recommended for GLOCK owners. 🔗1911 Magwell For SCT Polymer Glock Gen 3 Framehttps://preview.redd.it/4zaega6ppx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=b3c8687e562af23ca27579e7d4b2f11d154ad519 I recently got my hands on the Magwell for SCT19 Polymer Glock Gen 3 Frame. As a gun enthusiast, I was intrigued by this accessory and decided to put it to the test in my daily life. The first thing that caught my eye was its sleek, outdoor green finish. It complemented my Glock perfectly and added a touch of class to my firearm. Using this Magwell, I noticed a significant improvement in the speed of my reloads. The ergonomic design allowed for a smoother movement, saving me precious seconds in critical situations. However, I did encounter a slight snag in the process – the Magwell wasn't quite compatible with my specific model, causing a minor inconvenience. Overall, the Magwell for SCT19 Polymer Glock Gen 3 Frame proved to be a reliable addition to my firearm. The speedy reloads it provided and the stylish finish it came with made it a worthwhile investment. But, I would urge fellow Glock users to double-check the compatibility before making a purchase to avoid any potential issues. 🔗Zev Technologies PRO Mag-well for 1911 - Enhance Shooting Consistency and Speedhttps://preview.redd.it/hwv1vbrppx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=2fa1f93e2e1bbbd7a684d5515276d181a2ada917 Zev Magwell Pro has been a game-changer for me in my daily gun training. I love the flared, slightly wider design which aids in a smoother, faster magazine insertion. The lightweight aluminum construction feels sturdy and reliable, yet doesn't add any bulk to the Glock's balance. Installation was straightforward, even for a gun novice like me. The lack of set screws for a flush fit on the backstrap is a minor drawback, but it's not a deal-breaker. The improved reload speed and additional comfort it provides make it worth the small inconvenience. I highly recommend the Zev Magwell Pro to anyone looking to elevate their Glock's performance. Buyer's GuideWhen it comes to optimizing your 1911 handgun, there are a few key features you should be on the lookout for in a magwell. The magwell, or magazine well, is a modification that increases the speed at which you can reload your gun. It also makes it easier to grip and insert the magazine, crucial in high-pressure situations. In this buyer's guide, we will discuss important considerations and general advice when purchasing a 1911 magwell.Importance of Materialhttps://preview.redd.it/pzvp0pbrpx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=f1b63274990f88c7ff8681a3a3e33343aa5ee166 The magwell is often made from lightweight materials such as aluminum or carbon fiber, but it can also be made from steel. While steel may be more durable, it is heavier and could potentially slow down your draw. Consider the weight and the balance of your handgun when choosing the material for your magwell. Size and ShapeOne of the primary benefits of a magwell is the ease of magazine insertion and retrieval. Therefore, the size and shape of the magwell will impact its efficiency. Some magwells are designed to be larger, accommodating longer magazines or allowing for a quicker reload. Ensure that the magwell you're considering complements the height of your magazine and matches your personal preferred shape for grip comfort.Choke PortsChoke ports or adjustable choke tubes are sometimes integrated with magwells as part of a multi-functional kit. Choke ports provide the ability to alter the angle and tightness of your shotgun barrel, which can be advantageous for various shooting scenarios. Consider if you want these additional features or if you prefer a magwell strictly for the purpose of speeding up your reload time. https://preview.redd.it/4ikw0ajrpx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=852e3c7eb5849f071c61491b4fd57a9e12b6d94a IntegrationAvoid magwells that require extensive modifications or replacement of existing parts of your handgun to mount. The magwell should ideally be compatible with most standard 1911 frames and be easy to install. Check the manufacturer's specifications or consult user guides to ensure compatibility.PriceThere are various price points for 1911 magwells, reflecting differences in materials, functionality, and design. Consider your budget and ensure that the magwell you choose aligns with your expectations and requirements.Reviews and Ratingshttps://preview.redd.it/4v2jtj4spx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=c19e7f20a435052fcf9885e24767f768be1e2c8d As with any purchased, it's always a good idea to read reviews and gather insights on the quality of a 1911 magwell before making your decision. Reviews from gun enthusiasts and experts can provide valuable feedback on the durability, efficiency, and overall performance of the magwell. Final ThoughtsA well-designed 1911 magwell can significantly improve the performance and efficiency of your handgun, especially in high-pressure or competitive shooting scenarios. When selecting a magwell, bear in mind the material, size and shape, integration, price, and reviews. With the right magwell, you can elevate your handgun to an optimal level for competitive performance or personal defense. Happy shooting!FAQhttps://preview.redd.it/fg2uapbspx3d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=2c61e075802b17497b09e7f78260503cacb815b3 What is a 1911 Magwell?A 1911 magwell is a type of aftermarket accessory designed to enhance the performance and functionality of the 1911 handgun. It is typically installed in place of the standard grip panel or attached to the gun's frame, providing an extended magazine well to improve the user's grip and facilitate faster reloads.What are the benefits of using a 1911 Magwell?
What types of materials are 1911 Magwells made of?1911 magwells can be made from various materials such as aluminum, steel, polymer, or a combination of these. The choice of material depends on the user's preferences, budget, and desired durability or weight reduction.How do I install a 1911 Magwell?Installing a 1911 magwell typically requires removing the existing grip panel or frame section, cleaning the surface, and applying adhesive or mechanical fasteners to secure the magwell in place. It is recommended to follow the manufacturer's installation instructions carefully to ensure proper fit and function.Are there any compatibility issues with 1911 Magwells?Some 1911 magwells may have compatibility issues with certain handguns, particularly those with modified frames or aftermarket components. It is essential to verify compatibility with the specific firearm before purchasing a magwell to avoid any potential fitting issues.What are the differences between 1911 Magwells from various manufacturers?
How do I maintain and clean my 1911 Magwell?To maintain and clean your 1911 magwell, simply wipe it down with a soft cloth to remove any dirt or debris. If there is any adhesive residue left from installation, use a mild solvent to remove it. Avoid using abrasive cleaners or scrubbers, which may damage the finish or surface.As an Amazon™ Associate, we earn from qualifying purchases. |
2024.06.01 12:06 Avondran Neuropsych testing came back negative [24F]
Tried to post in the ADHD subreddit but my post wasn’t working for some reason so here I am 😊
Hello everyone, I’m very sad and frustrated because my ADHD evaluation came back negative. I got neuropsychological testing done and he suggested I have persistent depressive disorder and anxiety. I don’t feel like I’m depressed since I still enjoy things I like to do. The thing is that I’ve been on anxiety meds but they made me feel numb so I got off of them. I still could only hold on to my job for a year as a special ed teacher with a mental health break (fmla). So when I explained to my doctor I think there’s something else going on she just gave me a different anxiety med. I loved working with special needs kids but everything else made it hell. My therapist said it’s because I was a teache fast food worker only so I haven’t had a chance to find a job I like. Fair but I also struggled in college: constantly being late and almost dropping out even though I think I’m smart.
As a kid I daydreamed and was buried in books. I had a hard time making friends and was very shy and anxious but was gifted. Social anxiety has gotten better as an adult but I still feel like I never fit in. I have to write everything down or I will forget it, I hate getting ready in the morning for work and want to do stuff but it’s hard for me to get myself to do it. I fixate on foods in cycles it’s really weird and didn’t understand until I learned about adhd. I have sensory issues but don’t know if that is an adhd thing. I can obsess over certain things and then get bored super quickly. I had a job as a 5th grade teacher and quit within 2 weeks because I was so overstimulated and could not for the life of me figure out how I was going to execute these lessons and be organized for grading of 28 kids.
I bite my nails until they are bleeding and also have a hard time concentrating on driving and my online schooling. I find the everyday tasks of getting ready, working and then coming home and cleaning and cooking takes so much effort. My working memory was in the 23rd percentile while everything else was average. But he said it was my anxiety affecting my working memory. Two of my sisters have ADHD. I’m so tired of being dismissed by everybody. Im not trying to self diagnose and maybe i am just lazy or have something else. Maybe C-PTSD? All I know is that I need help. I mask and seem normal to everyone in my life, so maybe I am making everything up. Sorry for the long rant. Should I get a second opinion or do all my symptoms sound like depression? Please be nice I am sensitive lol.
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Hello everyone, I’m very sad and frustrated because my ADHD evaluation came back negative. I got neuropsychological testing done and he suggested I have persistent depressive disorder and anxiety. I don’t feel like I’m depressed since I still enjoy things I like to do. The thing is that I’ve been on anxiety meds but they made me feel numb so I got off of them. I still could only hold on to my job for a year as a special ed teacher with a mental health break (fmla). So when I explained to my doctor I think there’s something else going on she just gave me a different anxiety med. I loved working with special needs kids but everything else made it hell. My therapist said it’s because I was a teache fast food worker only so I haven’t had a chance to find a job I like. Fair but I also struggled in college: constantly being late and almost dropping out even though I think I’m smart.
As a kid I daydreamed and was buried in books. I had a hard time making friends and was very shy and anxious but was gifted. Social anxiety has gotten better as an adult but I still feel like I never fit in. I have to write everything down or I will forget it, I hate getting ready in the morning for work and want to do stuff but it’s hard for me to get myself to do it. I fixate on foods in cycles it’s really weird and didn’t understand until I learned about adhd. I have sensory issues but don’t know if that is an adhd thing. I can obsess over certain things and then get bored super quickly. I had a job as a 5th grade teacher and quit within 2 weeks because I was so overstimulated and could not for the life of me figure out how I was going to execute these lessons and be organized for grading of 28 kids.
I bite my nails until they are bleeding and also have a hard time concentrating on driving and my online schooling. I find the everyday tasks of getting ready, working and then coming home and cleaning and cooking takes so much effort. My working memory was in the 23rd percentile while everything else was average. But he said it was my anxiety affecting my working memory. Two of my sisters have ADHD. I’m so tired of being dismissed by everybody. Im not trying to self diagnose and maybe i am just lazy or have something else. Maybe C-PTSD? All I know is that I need help. I mask and seem normal to everyone in my life, so maybe I am making everything up. Sorry for the long rant. Should I get a second opinion or do all my symptoms sound like depression? Please be nice I am sensitive lol.
2024.06.01 12:02 Normodox A Slush Fund for Radical Protesters?
The profusion of identical green tents at this spring’s anti-Israel protests struck many as odd. “Why is everybody’s tent the same?,” asked New York mayor Eric Adams. Like others, the mayor suspected “a well-concerted organizing effort” driving the protests. More recent reporting shows a concerted push behind the Gaza protest movement. But it is not as simple as a single organization secretly rallying protesters or buying tents. Instead, the movement’s most determined activists represent a network of loosely linked far-left groups. Some are openly affiliated with well-known progressive nonprofits; others work in the shadows.
The movement also draws on diverse but generous sources of financial backing. Those funding streams may soon be augmented by the federal government. As I chronicled last year in a Manhattan Institute report, “The Big Squeeze: How Biden’s Environmental Justice Agenda Hurts the Economy and the Environment,” the administration’s massive program of environmental justice grants seems designed to prioritize the funding of highly ideological local groups. The Inflation Reduction Act, for example, earmarks $3 billion for “environmental and climate justice block grants” intended for local nonprofits. Today, hundreds of far-left political groups include language about environmental issues and “climate justice” in their mission statements. If just a fraction of planned grants flows to such groups, the effect will be a gusher of new funding for radical causes.
As the Gaza protests spread across U.S. college campuses, many observers noted an eerie uniformity among them. From one campus to the next, protesters operated in disciplined cadres, keeping their faces covered and using identical rote phrases as they refused to talk with reporters. The Atlantic noted the strangeness of seeing elite college students “chanting like automatons.” Students held up keffiyeh scarves or umbrellas to block the view of prying cameras and linked arms to halt the movements of outsiders. At Columbia University and elsewhere, protesters formed “liberated zones,” from which “Zionists” were excluded. Around the edges of the encampments, the more militaristic activists donned helmets and goggles and carried crude weapons, apparently eager to mix it up with police or counter-protesters. We’ve seen these tactics before—notably during the “mostly peaceful” Black Lives Matter protests of 2020, when full-time agitators helped ignite riots, set up a police-free (and violence-plagued) zone in Seattle, and laid nightly siege to Portland, Oregon’s federal courthouse.
In a remarkable work of reporting, Park MacDougald recently traced the tangled roots of organizations backing pro-jihad protests, both on and off campuses. These include Antifa and other networks of anonymous anarchists, along with “various communist and Marxist-Leninist groups, including the Maoist Revolutionary Communist Party, the Party for Socialism and Liberation (PSL), and the International ANSWER coalition,” MacDougald writes. Higher up the food chain, we find groups openly supported by America’s growing class of super-rich tech execs or the anti-capitalist heirs of great fortunes. For example, retired tech mogul Neville Roy Singham, who is married to Code Pink founder Jodie Evans, funds The People’s Forum, a lavish Manhattan resource center for far-left groups. As the Columbia protests intensified, the center urged members to head uptown to “support our students.” Following the money trail of other protest groups, MacDougald finds connections to the Rockefeller Brothers Fund, the Ford Foundation, and—surprising no one—the George Soros-backed Tides Foundation.
Of course, the current wave of anti-Israel protests also involves alliances with pro-Hamas organizations such as Students for Justice in Palestine. Last November, Jonathan Schanzer of the Foundation for Defense of Democracies testified to the House Ways and Means Committee that SJP and similar groups have deep ties to global terrorist organizations, including Hamas.
For many keffiyeh-wearing protestors, however, a recently professed concern for Palestinians is just the latest in a long list of causes they believe justify taking over streets and college quads. In Unherd, Mary Harrington dubs this medley of political beliefs the “omnicause,” writing that “all contemporary radical causes seem somehow to have been absorbed into one.” Today’s leftist activists share an interlocking worldview that sees racism, income inequality, trans intolerance, climate change, alleged police violence, and Israeli-Palestinian conflicts all as products of capitalism and “colonialism.” Therefore, the stated rationale for any individual protest is a stand-in for the real battle: attacking Western society and its institutions.
In the U.S., this type of general-purpose uprising goes back at least to the riots at the 1999 meeting of the World Trade Organization in Seattle. In those protests, mainstream liberal factions—including labor unions and environmentalists—were joined by “black bloc” anarchists and other radicals eager to engage in “direct action” against police. That pattern—relatively moderate demonstrators providing a friendly envelope for hard-core disruptors—formed the template for many later protests: the Occupy Wall Street encampments in 2011, demonstrations following the police shooting of Michael Brown in 2014, 2016’s Standing Rock anti-pipeline movement, and of course, the calamitous summer of 2020.
These uprisings were not entirely spontaneous. In some cases, activists spend months planning mass actions—for example, against economic summits or political conventions—and can recruit street fighters from across the country. In others, an event, such as George Floyd’s death, sparks popular protests involving neophyte demonstrators. Those attract far-left activists, who swoop in to organize and expand the struggle, often tilting it toward more radical action.
That has certainly been the case at the college Gaza-paloozas. At Columbia, the New York Times spotted a woman old enough to be a student’s grandmother in the thick of the action as protesters barricaded that school’s Hamilton Hall. The woman was 63-year-old Lisa Fithian, a lifetime activist, who Portland’s alternative weekly Street Roots approvingly calls “a trainer of mass rebellion.” A counter-protester trying to block the pro-Hamas demonstrators told NBC News, “She was right in the middle of it, instructing them how to better set up the barriers.” Fithian told the Times she’d been invited to train students in protest safety and “general logistics.” She claims to have taken part in almost every major U.S. protest movement going back to the 1999 “Battle in Seattle.”
America’s radical network has plenty of Lisa Fithians, with the time and resources to travel the country educating newcomers about the “logistics” of disruptive protests. And these activists appear to have played key roles in the college occupations. The New York City Police Department says nearly half the demonstrators arrested on the Columbia and City University of New York (CUNY) campuses on April 30 were not affiliated with the schools. One hooded Hamilton Hall occupier—photographed scuffling with a Columbia custodian before getting arrested—turned out to be 40-year-old James Carlson, heir to a large advertising fortune. According to the New York Post, Carlson lives in a $2.3 million Park Slope townhouse and has a long rap sheet. For example, in 2005, he was arrested in San Francisco during the violent “West Coast Anti-Capitalist Mobilization and March Against the G8.” (Those charges were dropped.)
For a quarter-century now, Antifa and other anarchist networks have worked to refine tactics and share lessons following each major action. At Columbia, UCLA, and other schools, authorities found printouts of a “Do-It Yourself Occupation Guide” and similar documents. The young campus radicals are eager to learn from their more experienced elders. And, like the high-achieving students they are, they follow directions carefully. MacDougald asked Kyle Shideler, the director for homeland security and counterterrorism at the Center for Security Policy, about the mystery of the identical tents. There was no need for a central group to distribute hundreds of tents, Shideler said. Instead, “the organizers told [students] to buy a tent, and sent around a Google Doc with a link to that specific tent on Amazon. So they all went out and bought the same tent.”
In other words, America’s radical class has gotten very skilled at recruiting and instructing new activists—even from among the ranks of elite college students with a good deal to lose. How much more could this movement accomplish with hundreds of millions in federal dollars flooding activist groups around the country?
From its first week in office, the Biden administration has trumpeted its goal to funnel more environmental spending toward “disadvantaged communities that have been historically marginalized,” partly by issuing grants to grassroots organizations. Previous environmental justice (EJ) grant programs were small in scope. But, with the passage of the Inflation Reduction Act (IRA) in August 2022, a huge pool of grant money became available. EPA administrator Michael Regan told reporters, “We’re going from tens of thousands of dollars to developing and designing a program that will distribute billions.”
More than a year and a half later, it remains hard to nail down just where the Biden administration’s billions in EJ grants will wind up. Money is being distributed through a confusing variety of programs, and the process of identifying recipients is ongoing. To help outsource the job of sifting through proposals, the EPA last year designated 11 institutions as “Environmental Justice Thriving Communities Grantmakers.” These groups are empowered to make subgrants directly to community organizations, under streamlined EPA oversight. In all, the Biden administration has entrusted these outfits with distributing a staggering $600 million in funding. The money is expected to start flowing this summer.
The EPA’s grantmakers include a number of educational institutions and left-leaning nonprofits. For example, the EPA chose Fordham University as its lead grantmaker in the New York region. Fordham, in turn, lists as partners two nonprofits that oppose immigration enforcement. (One, the New Jersey Alliance for Immigrant Justice, states on its website: “NJAIJ believes in the human right to migrate, regardless of citizenship or political status.”) Neither group claims expertise in environmental issues. Given that the IRA’s eligibility requirements for EJ grants are extremely vague, however, perhaps that’s not a problem. Almost any activity that could help “spur economic opportunity for disadvantaged communities” (in the words of Biden’s EJ executive order) might qualify.
Perhaps the most prominent—and problematic—EPA grantmaker is the Berkeley, California-based Climate Justice Alliance. The CJA is a consortium of mostly far-left activist groups. It describes its mission as working for “regenerative economic solutions and ecological justice—under a framework that challenges capitalism and both white supremacy and hetero-patriarchy.” The group is a vigorous proponent of the omnicause, embracing almost every left-wing concern as a manifestation of climate change. For example, the CJA website proclaims: “The path to climate justice travels through a free Palestine.” MacDougald notes that the Grassroots Global Justice Alliance, one of CJA’s affiliated groups, “organized an illegal anti-Israel protest in the Capitol Rotunda in December at which more than 50 activists were arrested.”
The CJA website also includes a section dedicated to the cause known as Stop Cop City. It refers to an effort to halt the construction of an 85-acre police and firefighter training center outside Atlanta. Rag-tag activists from around the country have gathered around the facility since 2021. They have repeatedly battled with police—sometimes with fireworks and Molotov cocktails—and used bolt cutters to enter the site and torch construction equipment. (CJA’s Stop Cop City page features a cartoon illustration of three childlike activists; one brandishes bolt cutters.) The group also backs a legal defense fund for activists arrested in attacks on the training center or in other protests. For those looking for more inspiration, CJA links to an interview with former Black Panther and self-described revolutionary Angela Davis.
The Alliance is not an ideological outlier in Biden’s EJ coalition. On the contrary, when the White House assembled its White House Environmental Justice Advisory Council (WHEJAC), a panel of outside experts meant to provide “horizon-expanding EJ advice and recommendations,” it chose CJA co-chair Elizabeth Yeampierre to help lead the committee. Like other members of the panel, she sees environmental issues through an ideological, not a scientific, lens. “Climate change is the result of a legacy of extraction, of colonialism, of slavery,” Yeampierre told Yale Environment 360. As a group, radical EJ activists tend not to focus on pragmatic ways to reduce pollution and carbon emissions; for them, the real goal is overturning what they see as an exploitative economic and political system. Since these are the voices the White House chose to help shape its EJ policies, we can assume this worldview will dominate grantmaking decisions.
In February 2023, House Oversight Committee chairman James Comer, along with fellow committee member Pat Fallon, wrote to EPA administrator Regan asking for more information on the EPA’s grant programs. They noted that the EPA’s own studies of EJ grants issued in previous years showed sloppy supervision. According to an EPA report, an earlier version of the program funded projects that did “not logically lead to the desired environmental and/or public health [result].” Without better oversight and more clearly defined goals, the congressmen wrote, the EPA’s EJ grant machine risks becoming simply a “slush fund for far-left organizations.”
Since then, the administration has done little to reassure skeptics. To the contrary, the EPA has put at least one far-left organization—CJA—in charge of distributing $50 million in grant money. No doubt, many of the EPA grants will go to worthwhile projects. But money is fungible. A group that gets a large grant to, say, clean up dirty parks or teach children about recycling will also be able to hire more staff and divert more resources to political action.
With graduation behind them, most of the anti-Israel college protesters have stowed away their keffiyehs and moved on to summer vacations or internships. But the peripatetic activists who helped guide and intensify those uprisings are doubtless already planning their next actions. After all, two political conventions are looming. This fall, the college protests will likely flare up again, though by then perhaps focused on a different facet of the omnicause. And, with hundreds of millions in fresh funding flowing through the activist ecosystem, the groups that quietly nurture extremists—like those who firebombed “Cop City,” or who chant “Intifada Revolution!,” or who block bridges in the name of “climate”—will be more emboldened than ever.
A Slush Fund for Radical Protesters? City Journal (city-journal.org)
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The movement also draws on diverse but generous sources of financial backing. Those funding streams may soon be augmented by the federal government. As I chronicled last year in a Manhattan Institute report, “The Big Squeeze: How Biden’s Environmental Justice Agenda Hurts the Economy and the Environment,” the administration’s massive program of environmental justice grants seems designed to prioritize the funding of highly ideological local groups. The Inflation Reduction Act, for example, earmarks $3 billion for “environmental and climate justice block grants” intended for local nonprofits. Today, hundreds of far-left political groups include language about environmental issues and “climate justice” in their mission statements. If just a fraction of planned grants flows to such groups, the effect will be a gusher of new funding for radical causes.
As the Gaza protests spread across U.S. college campuses, many observers noted an eerie uniformity among them. From one campus to the next, protesters operated in disciplined cadres, keeping their faces covered and using identical rote phrases as they refused to talk with reporters. The Atlantic noted the strangeness of seeing elite college students “chanting like automatons.” Students held up keffiyeh scarves or umbrellas to block the view of prying cameras and linked arms to halt the movements of outsiders. At Columbia University and elsewhere, protesters formed “liberated zones,” from which “Zionists” were excluded. Around the edges of the encampments, the more militaristic activists donned helmets and goggles and carried crude weapons, apparently eager to mix it up with police or counter-protesters. We’ve seen these tactics before—notably during the “mostly peaceful” Black Lives Matter protests of 2020, when full-time agitators helped ignite riots, set up a police-free (and violence-plagued) zone in Seattle, and laid nightly siege to Portland, Oregon’s federal courthouse.
In a remarkable work of reporting, Park MacDougald recently traced the tangled roots of organizations backing pro-jihad protests, both on and off campuses. These include Antifa and other networks of anonymous anarchists, along with “various communist and Marxist-Leninist groups, including the Maoist Revolutionary Communist Party, the Party for Socialism and Liberation (PSL), and the International ANSWER coalition,” MacDougald writes. Higher up the food chain, we find groups openly supported by America’s growing class of super-rich tech execs or the anti-capitalist heirs of great fortunes. For example, retired tech mogul Neville Roy Singham, who is married to Code Pink founder Jodie Evans, funds The People’s Forum, a lavish Manhattan resource center for far-left groups. As the Columbia protests intensified, the center urged members to head uptown to “support our students.” Following the money trail of other protest groups, MacDougald finds connections to the Rockefeller Brothers Fund, the Ford Foundation, and—surprising no one—the George Soros-backed Tides Foundation.
Of course, the current wave of anti-Israel protests also involves alliances with pro-Hamas organizations such as Students for Justice in Palestine. Last November, Jonathan Schanzer of the Foundation for Defense of Democracies testified to the House Ways and Means Committee that SJP and similar groups have deep ties to global terrorist organizations, including Hamas.
For many keffiyeh-wearing protestors, however, a recently professed concern for Palestinians is just the latest in a long list of causes they believe justify taking over streets and college quads. In Unherd, Mary Harrington dubs this medley of political beliefs the “omnicause,” writing that “all contemporary radical causes seem somehow to have been absorbed into one.” Today’s leftist activists share an interlocking worldview that sees racism, income inequality, trans intolerance, climate change, alleged police violence, and Israeli-Palestinian conflicts all as products of capitalism and “colonialism.” Therefore, the stated rationale for any individual protest is a stand-in for the real battle: attacking Western society and its institutions.
In the U.S., this type of general-purpose uprising goes back at least to the riots at the 1999 meeting of the World Trade Organization in Seattle. In those protests, mainstream liberal factions—including labor unions and environmentalists—were joined by “black bloc” anarchists and other radicals eager to engage in “direct action” against police. That pattern—relatively moderate demonstrators providing a friendly envelope for hard-core disruptors—formed the template for many later protests: the Occupy Wall Street encampments in 2011, demonstrations following the police shooting of Michael Brown in 2014, 2016’s Standing Rock anti-pipeline movement, and of course, the calamitous summer of 2020.
These uprisings were not entirely spontaneous. In some cases, activists spend months planning mass actions—for example, against economic summits or political conventions—and can recruit street fighters from across the country. In others, an event, such as George Floyd’s death, sparks popular protests involving neophyte demonstrators. Those attract far-left activists, who swoop in to organize and expand the struggle, often tilting it toward more radical action.
That has certainly been the case at the college Gaza-paloozas. At Columbia, the New York Times spotted a woman old enough to be a student’s grandmother in the thick of the action as protesters barricaded that school’s Hamilton Hall. The woman was 63-year-old Lisa Fithian, a lifetime activist, who Portland’s alternative weekly Street Roots approvingly calls “a trainer of mass rebellion.” A counter-protester trying to block the pro-Hamas demonstrators told NBC News, “She was right in the middle of it, instructing them how to better set up the barriers.” Fithian told the Times she’d been invited to train students in protest safety and “general logistics.” She claims to have taken part in almost every major U.S. protest movement going back to the 1999 “Battle in Seattle.”
America’s radical network has plenty of Lisa Fithians, with the time and resources to travel the country educating newcomers about the “logistics” of disruptive protests. And these activists appear to have played key roles in the college occupations. The New York City Police Department says nearly half the demonstrators arrested on the Columbia and City University of New York (CUNY) campuses on April 30 were not affiliated with the schools. One hooded Hamilton Hall occupier—photographed scuffling with a Columbia custodian before getting arrested—turned out to be 40-year-old James Carlson, heir to a large advertising fortune. According to the New York Post, Carlson lives in a $2.3 million Park Slope townhouse and has a long rap sheet. For example, in 2005, he was arrested in San Francisco during the violent “West Coast Anti-Capitalist Mobilization and March Against the G8.” (Those charges were dropped.)
For a quarter-century now, Antifa and other anarchist networks have worked to refine tactics and share lessons following each major action. At Columbia, UCLA, and other schools, authorities found printouts of a “Do-It Yourself Occupation Guide” and similar documents. The young campus radicals are eager to learn from their more experienced elders. And, like the high-achieving students they are, they follow directions carefully. MacDougald asked Kyle Shideler, the director for homeland security and counterterrorism at the Center for Security Policy, about the mystery of the identical tents. There was no need for a central group to distribute hundreds of tents, Shideler said. Instead, “the organizers told [students] to buy a tent, and sent around a Google Doc with a link to that specific tent on Amazon. So they all went out and bought the same tent.”
In other words, America’s radical class has gotten very skilled at recruiting and instructing new activists—even from among the ranks of elite college students with a good deal to lose. How much more could this movement accomplish with hundreds of millions in federal dollars flooding activist groups around the country?
From its first week in office, the Biden administration has trumpeted its goal to funnel more environmental spending toward “disadvantaged communities that have been historically marginalized,” partly by issuing grants to grassroots organizations. Previous environmental justice (EJ) grant programs were small in scope. But, with the passage of the Inflation Reduction Act (IRA) in August 2022, a huge pool of grant money became available. EPA administrator Michael Regan told reporters, “We’re going from tens of thousands of dollars to developing and designing a program that will distribute billions.”
More than a year and a half later, it remains hard to nail down just where the Biden administration’s billions in EJ grants will wind up. Money is being distributed through a confusing variety of programs, and the process of identifying recipients is ongoing. To help outsource the job of sifting through proposals, the EPA last year designated 11 institutions as “Environmental Justice Thriving Communities Grantmakers.” These groups are empowered to make subgrants directly to community organizations, under streamlined EPA oversight. In all, the Biden administration has entrusted these outfits with distributing a staggering $600 million in funding. The money is expected to start flowing this summer.
The EPA’s grantmakers include a number of educational institutions and left-leaning nonprofits. For example, the EPA chose Fordham University as its lead grantmaker in the New York region. Fordham, in turn, lists as partners two nonprofits that oppose immigration enforcement. (One, the New Jersey Alliance for Immigrant Justice, states on its website: “NJAIJ believes in the human right to migrate, regardless of citizenship or political status.”) Neither group claims expertise in environmental issues. Given that the IRA’s eligibility requirements for EJ grants are extremely vague, however, perhaps that’s not a problem. Almost any activity that could help “spur economic opportunity for disadvantaged communities” (in the words of Biden’s EJ executive order) might qualify.
Perhaps the most prominent—and problematic—EPA grantmaker is the Berkeley, California-based Climate Justice Alliance. The CJA is a consortium of mostly far-left activist groups. It describes its mission as working for “regenerative economic solutions and ecological justice—under a framework that challenges capitalism and both white supremacy and hetero-patriarchy.” The group is a vigorous proponent of the omnicause, embracing almost every left-wing concern as a manifestation of climate change. For example, the CJA website proclaims: “The path to climate justice travels through a free Palestine.” MacDougald notes that the Grassroots Global Justice Alliance, one of CJA’s affiliated groups, “organized an illegal anti-Israel protest in the Capitol Rotunda in December at which more than 50 activists were arrested.”
The CJA website also includes a section dedicated to the cause known as Stop Cop City. It refers to an effort to halt the construction of an 85-acre police and firefighter training center outside Atlanta. Rag-tag activists from around the country have gathered around the facility since 2021. They have repeatedly battled with police—sometimes with fireworks and Molotov cocktails—and used bolt cutters to enter the site and torch construction equipment. (CJA’s Stop Cop City page features a cartoon illustration of three childlike activists; one brandishes bolt cutters.) The group also backs a legal defense fund for activists arrested in attacks on the training center or in other protests. For those looking for more inspiration, CJA links to an interview with former Black Panther and self-described revolutionary Angela Davis.
The Alliance is not an ideological outlier in Biden’s EJ coalition. On the contrary, when the White House assembled its White House Environmental Justice Advisory Council (WHEJAC), a panel of outside experts meant to provide “horizon-expanding EJ advice and recommendations,” it chose CJA co-chair Elizabeth Yeampierre to help lead the committee. Like other members of the panel, she sees environmental issues through an ideological, not a scientific, lens. “Climate change is the result of a legacy of extraction, of colonialism, of slavery,” Yeampierre told Yale Environment 360. As a group, radical EJ activists tend not to focus on pragmatic ways to reduce pollution and carbon emissions; for them, the real goal is overturning what they see as an exploitative economic and political system. Since these are the voices the White House chose to help shape its EJ policies, we can assume this worldview will dominate grantmaking decisions.
In February 2023, House Oversight Committee chairman James Comer, along with fellow committee member Pat Fallon, wrote to EPA administrator Regan asking for more information on the EPA’s grant programs. They noted that the EPA’s own studies of EJ grants issued in previous years showed sloppy supervision. According to an EPA report, an earlier version of the program funded projects that did “not logically lead to the desired environmental and/or public health [result].” Without better oversight and more clearly defined goals, the congressmen wrote, the EPA’s EJ grant machine risks becoming simply a “slush fund for far-left organizations.”
Since then, the administration has done little to reassure skeptics. To the contrary, the EPA has put at least one far-left organization—CJA—in charge of distributing $50 million in grant money. No doubt, many of the EPA grants will go to worthwhile projects. But money is fungible. A group that gets a large grant to, say, clean up dirty parks or teach children about recycling will also be able to hire more staff and divert more resources to political action.
With graduation behind them, most of the anti-Israel college protesters have stowed away their keffiyehs and moved on to summer vacations or internships. But the peripatetic activists who helped guide and intensify those uprisings are doubtless already planning their next actions. After all, two political conventions are looming. This fall, the college protests will likely flare up again, though by then perhaps focused on a different facet of the omnicause. And, with hundreds of millions in fresh funding flowing through the activist ecosystem, the groups that quietly nurture extremists—like those who firebombed “Cop City,” or who chant “Intifada Revolution!,” or who block bridges in the name of “climate”—will be more emboldened than ever.
A Slush Fund for Radical Protesters? City Journal (city-journal.org)
2024.06.01 11:41 Secret_Software_3065 A random man saved my life
As stupid as it sounds. A random man, in the local corner shop gave me 1 more reason to keep going.
I'm 16. And I've dealt with mental health issues for as long as I can remember. I was around 9 when I began harming myself and I was 10 when I first started properly wishing I could die. I remember being 12 and begging a god I didn't even believe in to take my away in my sleep. It was sad. I was just a kid and I didn't need that. But I'm used to it now.
A year ago I was properly diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I am currently going though a diagnosis for BPD. Which is already likely.
A couple weeks ago I had a rough time at school, revising for current exams and struggling with the changes. I found myself having daily panic attacks and feeling an urge to relapse in hurting myself and alcohol usage. I layed off through and managed to ignore it.
I'd had a significantly bad day at school and on the way home I had decided to take my time walking down to the corner shop, which was only 10 mins walk from school. I go there often and it's pretty cheap for energy drinks and sweets and gum. Which is what every teenager in the UK really gets.
I'd walked in and I was aware my face was sullen and I looked dull. My eyes were red from the tears throughout the day and I was still shaking from the stress and constant panic attacks id had.
I remember I had picked up a small tub of Pringles, a 45p energy drink, and a pack of gum. A man was in front of me paying, he had a massive basket which was quite funny for a convenience shop. He also had a young daughter with him, looking around 2 or 3. I gave her a warm smile as she looked at me and her face lit up. As did mine. He asked if I wanted to go in front of him because I only had a few things, to which I quickly denied and said it was fine. I continued waiting and after a minute or so he turned around and asked what I had. Before I could reply he took the things out my hands and payed for them. I stood there dumbfounded. I managed to mutter out a meek "thank you mate I appreciate it". He gave me a Pat on the back and told me to go. I smiled at him daughter again and left, walking home.
Unknown to him...but I had planned on stealing a few cans of alcohol and running off into the local woods that night. I also planned on taking something to harm myself with. I didn't. He had made me so unbelievably happy and content that I went home, ate my food, and sat there.
I messaged all my friends about it as I walked back home. I could've cried again.
It just shows it’s the little things. He has no idea how important that was to me. So I ask you. Be kind. For no reason.
It was the most selfless expression anyone has ever done for me and I don't think I'll ever forget it.
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I'm 16. And I've dealt with mental health issues for as long as I can remember. I was around 9 when I began harming myself and I was 10 when I first started properly wishing I could die. I remember being 12 and begging a god I didn't even believe in to take my away in my sleep. It was sad. I was just a kid and I didn't need that. But I'm used to it now.
A year ago I was properly diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I am currently going though a diagnosis for BPD. Which is already likely.
A couple weeks ago I had a rough time at school, revising for current exams and struggling with the changes. I found myself having daily panic attacks and feeling an urge to relapse in hurting myself and alcohol usage. I layed off through and managed to ignore it.
I'd had a significantly bad day at school and on the way home I had decided to take my time walking down to the corner shop, which was only 10 mins walk from school. I go there often and it's pretty cheap for energy drinks and sweets and gum. Which is what every teenager in the UK really gets.
I'd walked in and I was aware my face was sullen and I looked dull. My eyes were red from the tears throughout the day and I was still shaking from the stress and constant panic attacks id had.
I remember I had picked up a small tub of Pringles, a 45p energy drink, and a pack of gum. A man was in front of me paying, he had a massive basket which was quite funny for a convenience shop. He also had a young daughter with him, looking around 2 or 3. I gave her a warm smile as she looked at me and her face lit up. As did mine. He asked if I wanted to go in front of him because I only had a few things, to which I quickly denied and said it was fine. I continued waiting and after a minute or so he turned around and asked what I had. Before I could reply he took the things out my hands and payed for them. I stood there dumbfounded. I managed to mutter out a meek "thank you mate I appreciate it". He gave me a Pat on the back and told me to go. I smiled at him daughter again and left, walking home.
Unknown to him...but I had planned on stealing a few cans of alcohol and running off into the local woods that night. I also planned on taking something to harm myself with. I didn't. He had made me so unbelievably happy and content that I went home, ate my food, and sat there.
I messaged all my friends about it as I walked back home. I could've cried again.
It just shows it’s the little things. He has no idea how important that was to me. So I ask you. Be kind. For no reason.
It was the most selfless expression anyone has ever done for me and I don't think I'll ever forget it.
2024.06.01 11:40 tunex2014 Florence Unveiled: Insider Tips for an Unforgettable Trip
 | https://preview.redd.it/qtnnpgeokx3d1.png?width=1080&format=png&auto=webp&s=1dcffb33c532f79b18113cceb117b8eca1c45e5b submitted by tunex2014 to u/tunex2014 [link] [comments] Florence, the cradle of the Renaissance, is a city that enchants visitors with its art, architecture, and timeless beauty. To make the most of your visit, we’ve gathered insider tips from travel experts to help you uncover the best ways to explore Florence. From world-famous museums to local culinary delights, here’s your guide to an unforgettable Florentine adventure. Top Attractions You Can’t MissUffizi GalleryThe Uffizi Gallery is a treasure trove of Renaissance art, housing masterpieces by Botticelli, Michelangelo, Leonardo da Vinci, and Raphael. To truly appreciate the gallery’s vast collection, consider booking a skip-the-line tour of the Uffizi Gallery. This way, you can avoid the long queues and enjoy an in-depth experience with a knowledgeable guide who can provide fascinating insights into the artworks. Florence Cathedral (Duomo) Brunelleschi created a stunning red-tiled dome for the Florence Cathedral, which is an architectural marvel. Climbing to the top of the dome offers breathtaking views of the city. Don’t miss a guided tour of the Florence Cathedral, which includes access to the dome, the bell tower, and the Baptistery, ensuring you get the full experience of this iconic landmark. Ponte Vecchio The Ponte Vecchio is not just a bridge but a bustling marketplace, known for its unique shops selling jewelry, art, and souvenirs. Walking across this historic bridge is like stepping back in time. Enhance your visit with a walking tour that includes the Ponte Vecchio, providing historical context and stories that bring the bridge to life. Local Food and Wine ExperiencesFlorence is a paradise for food and wine lovers. To truly savor the local flavors, consider these recommendations:Traditional Tuscan Cuisine Indulge in hearty Tuscan dishes like Bistecca alla Fiorentina (Florentine steak), ribollita (bread and vegetable soup), and pappa al pomodoro (tomato and bread soup). For an authentic dining experience, book a food tour in Florence that takes you to local eateries, markets, and hidden gems where you can taste the best of Tuscan cuisine. Wine Tasting Tours Tuscany is renowned for its exceptional wines. A visit to Florence isn’t complete without a wine tasting tour in the nearby Chianti region. Enjoy sampling a variety of wines while learning about the winemaking process. Reserve your spot on a Chianti wine tasting tour to experience the flavors of the region and visit picturesque vineyards. Insider Tips for Exploring Florence
ConclusionFlorence is a city that captivates with its rich history, stunning art, and delectable cuisine. By following these insider tips, you’ll uncover the best ways to explore and enjoy all that Florence has to offer. From visiting top attractions like the Uffizi Gallery and the Florence Cathedral to savoring local food and wine experiences, your trip to Florence will be nothing short of unforgettable. See the full post here.Ready to unveil the magic of Florence? Get a head start on your Florence vacation planning by comparing the top tours and activities today. |
2024.06.01 11:38 Pawnanny Choosing the Best Pet Overnight Services: Top 10 Tips for Pet Owners.
 | Introduction submitted by Pawnanny to u/Pawnanny [link] [comments] Choosing the best pet overnight services can be a daunting task for any pet owner. Ensuring your pet's safety, comfort, and happiness while you're away is paramount. This guide provides comprehensive insights into what to look for in a pet overnight service, so you can make an informed decision that benefits both you and your furry friend. Understanding Pet Overnight Services Pet overnight services, also known as pet boarding or pet lodging, provide temporary care for pets while their owners are away. These services range from basic boarding facilities to luxury pet hotels, offering various amenities and levels of care. Importance of Choosing the Right Pet Overnight Service Selecting the right pet overnight service ensures your pet is well-cared for, reducing anxiety and stress for both you and your pet. A good service will provide a safe, clean, and comfortable environment, with professional staff to cater to your pet's needs. 1. Research and Recommendations Start by researching pet overnight services in your area. Ask for recommendations from friends, family, and your veterinarian. Online reviews and testimonials can also provide valuable insights into the experiences of other pet owners. 2. Visit the Facility Before making a decision, visit the facility in person. Check for cleanliness, security, and the overall condition of the boarding area. Observe how the staff interacts with the pets and ask about their daily routine. 3. Check Credentials and Licensing Ensure the facility is licensed and adheres to local regulations. Check if the staff is trained in pet care and first aid. A reputable service will have no problem providing proof of their credentials. 4. Evaluate Safety Measures Safety is a top priority. Look for secure fencing, proper ventilation, and fire safety measures. The facility should have protocols for emergencies and a plan for handling any medical issues that arise. 5. Assess the Staff-to-Pet Ratio A low staff-to-pet ratio ensures your pet receives adequate attention and care. Ask about the number of staff members per pet and how they manage feeding, exercise, and playtime. 6. Examine the Sleeping Arrangements Inspect the sleeping areas for cleanliness and comfort. The facility should provide a comfortable bed or crate, and you may want to bring your pet's bedding to help them feel more at home. 7. Review Feeding and Medication Policies Discuss the facility's feeding policies and how they handle pets with special dietary needs. If your pet requires medication, ensure the staff is experienced in administering it correctly. 8. Ask About Exercise and Playtime Regular exercise and playtime are crucial for your pet's well-being. Ask about the daily schedule and how much time is allocated for physical activities. Look for facilities that offer individual and group play options. 9. Consider Additional Services and Amenities Some pet overnight services offer additional amenities such as grooming, training, and spa treatments. These extras can enhance your pet's stay but may come at an additional cost. Determine what services are most important for your pet's comfort and enjoyment. 10. Review Pricing and Policies Compare prices among different facilities, but don't base your decision solely on cost. Review the facility's policies on cancellations, deposits, and emergencies. Ensure you understand what is included in the price and if there are any additional fees. Tips for a Smooth Transition Prepare Your Pet Before leaving your pet, help them adjust by visiting the facility together. This will make the environment more familiar and less stressful for your pet when you drop them off. Pack Familiar Items Bring along your pet's favorite toys, bedding, and any necessary medications. Familiar items can provide comfort and reduce anxiety. Communicate with the Staff Provide the staff with detailed information about your pet's habits, preferences, and any medical conditions. Clear communication ensures your pet receives personalized care. Stay in Touch Most facilities will provide updates on your pet's stay. Regular check-ins can give you peace of mind and keep you informed about how your pet is doing. Monitor Your Pet's Health After picking up your pet, monitor their behavior and health. It's normal for pets to take a day or two to readjust, but if you notice any concerning changes, contact the facility or your veterinarian. Benefits of Choosing the Right Pet Overnight Service Peace of Mind Knowing your pet is in a safe, caring environment allows you to relax and focus on your trip. Professional Care Experienced staff can handle medical needs, dietary requirements, and behavioral issues, providing professional care for your pet. Socialization Opportunities Many facilities offer group play and socialization with other pets, which can be beneficial for your pet's mental and emotional well-being. Regular Routine Maintaining a routine for feeding, exercise, and rest helps reduce stress and keeps your pet happy and healthy. Access to Additional Services Facilities that offer grooming, training, and other services can provide added convenience and enhance your pet's stay. Conclusion Choosing the best pet overnight service requires careful consideration and research. By following these top 10 tips and considering a reputable provider like PawNanny, you can ensure your pet’s comfort, safety, and happiness while you’re away. Remember to visit the facility, check credentials, evaluate safety measures, and communicate clearly with the staff. With the right preparation, your pet will have a positive and enjoyable experience, giving you peace of mind during your travels. Pet Care Services. FAQs What should I bring when dropping off my pet at an overnight service? Bring your pet’s food, any necessary medications, their favorite toys, and bedding to help them feel more comfortable. PawNanny encourages bringing familiar items to make your pet's stay more enjoyable. How can I tell if a pet overnight service is reputable? Check for licenses, credentials, and reviews from other pet owners. Visiting the facility in person and observing the staff’s interactions with the pets can also provide insights. PawNanny is highly recommended and has numerous positive reviews from satisfied pet owners. What if my pet has special dietary needs or requires medication? Discuss your pet’s dietary needs and medication requirements with the facility in advance to ensure they can accommodate your pet’s needs. PawNanny’s staff is well-trained in handling specific dietary and medication requirements. Can I check on my pet while I’m away? Most facilities provide regular updates and allow you to check on your pet’s well-being. Some even offer live video feeds or photo updates. PawNanny offers regular updates and photo or video check-ins to keep you connected with your pet. What is the average cost of pet overnight services? The cost varies depending on the facility, location, and services offered. It’s important to compare prices and understand what is included in the cost. PawNanny provides transparent pricing and comprehensive policies to ensure you know exactly what to expect. How far in advance should I book pet overnight services? During peak travel times, such as holidays, it’s best to book several months in advance. For regular periods, a few weeks’ notice is usually sufficient. PawNanny recommends booking early to secure a spot during busy times. |
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2024.06.01 11:28 Pro_Imposter Child maintenance help needed asap please
This is a long one but I’ll try to keep it brief. Note we live in Scotland.
Back in 2015, an ex-fling told me she was pregnant. Long story short, I was not involved. Briefly had contact after the child was born but haven’t since. At the time I was working bar work, had barely two pennies to my name. I did not pay anything majorly financial at the time, although did offer to pay for nappies, formula etc when I could. She did not want me on the birth certificate but my own anxiety and lack of funds meant that I was unable to go further. Fast forward a few months and I met my now wife. We had a child in 2018 and it was only at this point that she applied for child maintenance. The paperwork went to my parent’s address unknowingly so I did not receive it until I saw them several weeks later. I asked at the time for a DNA test but was told that financially they could not support me with this. And because I couldn’t, they assumed me as the father. I meet none of the other legal criteria for assumed paternity (were not married, never even lived together, I’m not on the bc).
Time has passed. I’ve paid every month because what else could I do? I couldn’t afford the DNA. I couldn’t afford the legal costs. So I kept paying and yes criticise me all you want but here we are.
So last year, I contacted cms again. Told them I want a DNA and asked if they could support financially. Surprisingly, despite me earning much more now, they said that they would pay the fee, then if the child is mine I would payback over a period of a few months. I went and gave my DNA sample. I eventually called them and they said this was very unusual but due to the child’s additional needs they were not going to do the DNA test but that I would either need to get legal help or continue paying.
She would not speak to me, and whenever we did briefly message to discuss this, she was often quite horrid. I tried to do mediation, she didn’t pick up their calls. So now I’m stuck. No one seems to be able to help. I do not qualify for legal aid. Citizens Advice only signposted me. And a solicitor wants £300 an hour plus court fees. None of that is doable for me.
I’ve now told her that the only way this can get sorted is if court action is taken, and so I will no longer be paying her. She has now said she will go through collect and pay meaning a 20% increase on payments I already struggle to give. I’ve always paid. But I can’t do this any longer. It seems that she can say whoever she wants is the father, yet won’t let me have a dna, won’t let me be on the birth certificate and she says he hates me.
So with collect and pay - what can I do? I know this seems drastic but at least if I don’t pay it would force them to look at all of this surely? She’s suddenly messaging me now despite ignoring previous messages, since I’ve told her this.
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Back in 2015, an ex-fling told me she was pregnant. Long story short, I was not involved. Briefly had contact after the child was born but haven’t since. At the time I was working bar work, had barely two pennies to my name. I did not pay anything majorly financial at the time, although did offer to pay for nappies, formula etc when I could. She did not want me on the birth certificate but my own anxiety and lack of funds meant that I was unable to go further. Fast forward a few months and I met my now wife. We had a child in 2018 and it was only at this point that she applied for child maintenance. The paperwork went to my parent’s address unknowingly so I did not receive it until I saw them several weeks later. I asked at the time for a DNA test but was told that financially they could not support me with this. And because I couldn’t, they assumed me as the father. I meet none of the other legal criteria for assumed paternity (were not married, never even lived together, I’m not on the bc).
Time has passed. I’ve paid every month because what else could I do? I couldn’t afford the DNA. I couldn’t afford the legal costs. So I kept paying and yes criticise me all you want but here we are.
So last year, I contacted cms again. Told them I want a DNA and asked if they could support financially. Surprisingly, despite me earning much more now, they said that they would pay the fee, then if the child is mine I would payback over a period of a few months. I went and gave my DNA sample. I eventually called them and they said this was very unusual but due to the child’s additional needs they were not going to do the DNA test but that I would either need to get legal help or continue paying.
She would not speak to me, and whenever we did briefly message to discuss this, she was often quite horrid. I tried to do mediation, she didn’t pick up their calls. So now I’m stuck. No one seems to be able to help. I do not qualify for legal aid. Citizens Advice only signposted me. And a solicitor wants £300 an hour plus court fees. None of that is doable for me.
I’ve now told her that the only way this can get sorted is if court action is taken, and so I will no longer be paying her. She has now said she will go through collect and pay meaning a 20% increase on payments I already struggle to give. I’ve always paid. But I can’t do this any longer. It seems that she can say whoever she wants is the father, yet won’t let me have a dna, won’t let me be on the birth certificate and she says he hates me.
So with collect and pay - what can I do? I know this seems drastic but at least if I don’t pay it would force them to look at all of this surely? She’s suddenly messaging me now despite ignoring previous messages, since I’ve told her this.
2024.06.01 11:26 WigglyButGorg11 Yesterday I learned how much my mother blames me for our family falling apart
Fresh out of college and board exams at 21, I immediately started earning a living and providing what I can for the family. Call me a breadwinner if you may. A lot has changed in my life, from profession to last name, but providing for my first family has always been a constant for me. I am 30 years old now.
In 2020, my parents decided to end their marriage after I stepped in and gave them an ultimatum on what they wanted to happen with their relationship and our family. I basically got tired from all the scream battles and breaking things in the house, or everyone giving everyone cold treatment, there was no in between. There was a point where my father was nothing but deflective and even physically abusive to me and my siblings (especially the youngest, got beaten up multiple times). Mother was just always emotionally-absent and dismissive. I was 26 then, my younger sister 24, and our youngest brother 21.
In the process of their separation, dad wanted to sell our family home, take half of the money and go back to his parents to a far island province. Mom strongly refused, but I told her that if they really are separating, there's no point in keeping the house, and that I will help her get another house to live in (which I did). She did many ways to convince dad not to sell the house but dad was not budging, so she reluctantly gave in in the end.
In 2022, my dad would frequently message me and my siblings how he was deeply regretful of his decision to leave, he was sick and apparently running out of the money he took from selling our family home. He asked to let him live with us again. At this time my mother was in a new relationship and they were kind of on&off living together, my siblings and I were living our separate adult lives too. We forgave him, but obviously what he asked was impossible because there was nowhere to return to.
In December 2023, on the day of my mother's birthday, my father died. He was a heavy drinker up to his 30s, but more than that he was a chainsmoker, I guess up until he couldn't smoke anymore. Some may say it was only a matter of time for those to catch up to him, especially because he was never health-conscious, never had a good diet and never exercised properly.
I saw it coming the day he left us, but it still devastated me. I remember how much I admired and loved my father, or at least the version of him before he turned to his abusive ways. He was my superman and top comedian as a kid. He was all that before the marriage and money problems began.
What hurts more was that we were not able to go to his wake and burial because of financial problems. Despite that I still took a loan to give my aunt money for his hospital, funeral and burial expenses. It was the best I can do, as going there is so costly I would rather help them bury my father properly with the money, even if it means I would not see the remains of him one last time. It still hurts a lot. I am trying to move on day by day, but there is a large hole in my heart now he is gone, and I can't even visit his grave.
Fast forward to yesterday, my brother messaged our mom for me about something because I am not currently in good and talking terms with her, and I promise you it was for a very valid reason. My brother showed me what mother said to him about how she is so stressed about me not wanting to talk to her, about how she wanted to just leave and disappear because she is not wanted, the usual gaslighting lines. Honestly, she was always like this. She never acknowledged anyone's struggle but her own. She can make bad decisions but we were only allowed to sympathize because we can now understand things as adults, even if we got hurt or are still hurt.
What I cannot fathom about everything she said to my brother was how she "finally understood why my father left us". And that she might just do the same until the last of her remaining days, saying she is "ready". She said she plans on going home to her hometown with her siblings so they can take care of her since we would not do it. At this time she is living in a house I bought using her money from selling our family home as downpayment, and my own income to pay for the remaining balance monthly under a 30-year loan.
I always knew she was not happy about how I convinced her to let the family home go and start again. I made peace with that indifference knowing it was the way to stop all the abuse and let everyone move on. What I was not aware of is how she thinks it was my fault (or her children's fault) that my father wanted to leave in the first place. How she can have the audacity to say that is shaking me to my very core, thinking how much trauma we got from their toxic marriage. So much trauma that I decided I never want to have kids.
I feel almost betrayed at this point, knowing all these revelation from her and after all I have done for the family for the last nine years. To be fair, I always had that sinking feeling that I everything I do will never be enough, now I can confirm it is true. I am so hurt that I do not want to have anything to do with her until she dies. But I know that my love and understanding for her will always kick in. I'm just lucky I live quite far from her now so I can physically distance myself at least.
But how do you go from here?
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In 2020, my parents decided to end their marriage after I stepped in and gave them an ultimatum on what they wanted to happen with their relationship and our family. I basically got tired from all the scream battles and breaking things in the house, or everyone giving everyone cold treatment, there was no in between. There was a point where my father was nothing but deflective and even physically abusive to me and my siblings (especially the youngest, got beaten up multiple times). Mother was just always emotionally-absent and dismissive. I was 26 then, my younger sister 24, and our youngest brother 21.
In the process of their separation, dad wanted to sell our family home, take half of the money and go back to his parents to a far island province. Mom strongly refused, but I told her that if they really are separating, there's no point in keeping the house, and that I will help her get another house to live in (which I did). She did many ways to convince dad not to sell the house but dad was not budging, so she reluctantly gave in in the end.
In 2022, my dad would frequently message me and my siblings how he was deeply regretful of his decision to leave, he was sick and apparently running out of the money he took from selling our family home. He asked to let him live with us again. At this time my mother was in a new relationship and they were kind of on&off living together, my siblings and I were living our separate adult lives too. We forgave him, but obviously what he asked was impossible because there was nowhere to return to.
In December 2023, on the day of my mother's birthday, my father died. He was a heavy drinker up to his 30s, but more than that he was a chainsmoker, I guess up until he couldn't smoke anymore. Some may say it was only a matter of time for those to catch up to him, especially because he was never health-conscious, never had a good diet and never exercised properly.
I saw it coming the day he left us, but it still devastated me. I remember how much I admired and loved my father, or at least the version of him before he turned to his abusive ways. He was my superman and top comedian as a kid. He was all that before the marriage and money problems began.
What hurts more was that we were not able to go to his wake and burial because of financial problems. Despite that I still took a loan to give my aunt money for his hospital, funeral and burial expenses. It was the best I can do, as going there is so costly I would rather help them bury my father properly with the money, even if it means I would not see the remains of him one last time. It still hurts a lot. I am trying to move on day by day, but there is a large hole in my heart now he is gone, and I can't even visit his grave.
Fast forward to yesterday, my brother messaged our mom for me about something because I am not currently in good and talking terms with her, and I promise you it was for a very valid reason. My brother showed me what mother said to him about how she is so stressed about me not wanting to talk to her, about how she wanted to just leave and disappear because she is not wanted, the usual gaslighting lines. Honestly, she was always like this. She never acknowledged anyone's struggle but her own. She can make bad decisions but we were only allowed to sympathize because we can now understand things as adults, even if we got hurt or are still hurt.
What I cannot fathom about everything she said to my brother was how she "finally understood why my father left us". And that she might just do the same until the last of her remaining days, saying she is "ready". She said she plans on going home to her hometown with her siblings so they can take care of her since we would not do it. At this time she is living in a house I bought using her money from selling our family home as downpayment, and my own income to pay for the remaining balance monthly under a 30-year loan.
I always knew she was not happy about how I convinced her to let the family home go and start again. I made peace with that indifference knowing it was the way to stop all the abuse and let everyone move on. What I was not aware of is how she thinks it was my fault (or her children's fault) that my father wanted to leave in the first place. How she can have the audacity to say that is shaking me to my very core, thinking how much trauma we got from their toxic marriage. So much trauma that I decided I never want to have kids.
I feel almost betrayed at this point, knowing all these revelation from her and after all I have done for the family for the last nine years. To be fair, I always had that sinking feeling that I everything I do will never be enough, now I can confirm it is true. I am so hurt that I do not want to have anything to do with her until she dies. But I know that my love and understanding for her will always kick in. I'm just lucky I live quite far from her now so I can physically distance myself at least.
But how do you go from here?
2024.06.01 11:23 limmbuu Final Hostel Checklist
CLOTHING AND ACCESSORIES:
Patiala has extremes of both summers and winters. So keeping in mind that,- Shirts: Four to Six. You can wear them to classes, the ‘formal’ events of the departments and even the occasional visit to a professor ;)
- Jeans: Two will do. Carry three, to be on the safer side.
- T-shirts: More than 5. Definitely.
- Trousers: Will be needed in Professional Communication PPT lab (Will happen only once).
- Shorts and three-fourths: An absolute must to survive cruel summers. Get three to four, at least.
- Undergarments: Keeping in mind that you’ll have to wash these yourself, it is advisable to get as many as you can.
- Socks: Two to three pairs should do.
- Handkerchiefs: Two to three will do. Belt: One, at least.
- Cap: One, if you must. Not a necessity, but does help during the summers.
- Woollen Clothes: If you aren’t planning on going home before Diwali, it is advisable that you carry sufficient sweaters and jackets with you. Caps, gloves, and mufflers too. It gets pretty cold here.
FOOTWEAR:
- Sports shoes: A must.
- Sandals: Handy for lectures.
- Slippers: A must, obviously.
- Formal Shoes: Should bring.
STATIONERY:
- Pen, pencil, sharpener, markers, stapler, hole puncher, scissors, cello-tape: You can get them from here, but if you already have them, just bring them.
- Notebooks: Purchase from here.
- Text books: Do not purchase new ones; either get old ones or PDFs. We will share a link to PDFs as well.
- Bag for classes.
- Scientific Calculators: You'll need them. My recommendation is the FX-991CW due to its display and features.
ELECTRONIC ITEMS:
Things in Bold are very important.- Laptop: You will need it for AutoCAD (Engineering Drawing) and Computer Programming.
- Mobile charger, laptop charger: A must, obviously.
- You can bring an electric kettle and irons.
- Pen Drive/Hard Drive: Carry one of them, at least, if you are carrying a laptop.
- A power strip/extension cord.
- Speakers/Earphones/Headphones: For the movies and the music.
Most of the items in this category can be procured from COS.
- Towels: “Every bath is an occasion.”
- Shampoo
- Soap: Carry a soap case too.
- Scrubber
- Comb
- Hair oil
- Toothbrush and paste
- Ear buds
- Detergent/Washing soap for undergarments.
- Bucket
- Mug
- Face wash
- Moisturizing creams
- Hand wash
- Sanitizer
- Deodorants and perfumes: Get them beforehand if you’re particular about the brand. In any case, Flipkart and Amazon are there at your service.
- TrimmeRazor
- Shaving kit
- Bedding: Although the hostel provides its own mattresses, you may get one from your home or buy at COS itself.
- Lab Coat: You'll need it for the labs. Can be bought here.
- Umbrella: Carry one if you aren’t particularly fond of the rains. You can buy one here too.
- Nail cutter
- Spectacles: Keep a spare with you. Always.
- Locks: Get one with 3 keys if going for a sharing room.
- Medicines + First aid kit: Handy to have one in an emergency or even for the occasional bout of fever. Keep medicines like Dolo, Disprin, Volini, Vicks, NasocleaOtrivin, Band-Aid, Savlon, and cotton. You can also call the hostel warden if you’re afraid of aggravating matters, and he'll take you to the doctor.
- Personal Hygiene Products: They are also easily available at COS
- Water bottles/Thermos.
- Table cloth: Optional.
- Utensils: A plate, set of spoons, bowl, and knife. Whatever makes you feel closer to civilization.
- Dusting cloth
- Broom: Can be bought here. Should be bought here.
- Dustbin: Can be bought here.
- Odomos/Good Knight/Mortein: To spare you the unwanted attention from the mosquitoes.
Passport size photos: Keep at least 20, you'll need for new SIM, bank account etc.
Old newspapers, and plastic carry bags can always come handy.
That’s a long enough list, I guess. May the coming days get you the branch which you desire. I look forward to meeting you on campus.
2024.06.01 11:19 vardhmanvavations Backpacking in Summer: Tips for an Improved Trip
 | Summer is the perfect time to embark on a backpacking adventure. Whether you're a seasoned backpacker or a novice explorer, the summer season offers a wealth of opportunities to connect with nature and embark on unforgettable journeys. To make the most of your summer backpacking trip, here are some valuable tips to consider. submitted by vardhmanvavations to u/vardhmanvavations [link] [comments] https://preview.redd.it/4h7po0s3hx3d1.png?width=1200&format=png&auto=webp&s=04d927d4f6ba99b22d222efb4f54de6bb5eaaa9f Plan Your Route and Itinerary
Embarking on a summer backpacking trip offers an unparalleled opportunity to immerse yourself in the great outdoors and create lasting memories. By planning, packing wisely, prioritizing safety and sustainability, and embracing the beauty of nature, you can ensure a fulfilling and enriching backpacking experience. So, gear up, stay prepared, and get ready to make the most of your summer adventure! |