Hey there, I'm Mark, 25M. Remember me?
Here's what I'm looking for: a best friend to share some interests with, hopefully to learn more and become a better person. Tell me about yourself a bit when you respond, and let's carry on from there.
Books: I like books! I find myself buying more than I'll ever read. "So many books, so little time"- Frank Zappa. I began my book enthusiasm, when I was a pre-teenager, by reading Tintin, Archie comics and short stories of Sherlock Holmes. Over the years I moved to techno thrillers (Michael Crichton) and fiction (Agatha Christie, Lee Child, Stephen King) to now where I'm engrossed in non-fiction (history, science). My current area of interests involve non-fiction accounts of espionage, spying and covert operations. I've begun to read a book about Soviet Union. Who knows where the tide of interests will go next.
Music: I like rock music. Queen. Pink Floyd. Led Zeppelin. Tom Petty. Eagles. Black Sabbath. Some non-rock artists whose selected tracks I like: Adele, Eminem, Lady Gaga. Compositions by John Williams are always a pleasure to listen to (Jurassic Park, Star Wars, Indiana Jones)
Niche topics: I am a devoted watcher of YouTube channels featuring content with regards to spaceflight, military food, weird and obscure science concepts, and interesting historical events. Furthermore, I'm a huge fan of Conan O'Brien (Team Coco forever!!), Johnny Carson and David Letterman. I'd love to talk about rockets, military food, weird incidents, catastrophes, physics, humour and much more! Seinfeld and Curb your Enthusiasm are my go-to shows!
I am recently on a reading streak of Perry Mason novels (completed 20 out of 85)!
Fun fact: I like to watch clips of Hell's kitchen, or Gordon Ramsay cooking while I'm having a meal (because I find it appetizing for some reason). Lately I've discovered a Youtube playlist where they describe making of food in big batches, which is awesome!
I'm looking forward to hear from you! Let's be best friends(?). If you have any questions (related to the above subject matter or otherwise), feel free to ask. I'd encourage you to ask some weird question at the first instance to lighten up the conversation 😂
I'm done typing this, and I'll be eagerly waiting for your response!!
P.S: There's a chance that I may be asleep or busy with something when you respond. Don't worry, I will respond to you, without fail.
This is a SFW friendship which I'm looking for.

I'm trying to take the Alex placement test, so I can register for my classes, but I can't get the lockdown browser to work.
I've tried it on both my personal Chromebook and my school chromebook, and neither will let me use it.
On my school chromebook, when I download it I have to get admin permission to even use it, so it never opens when I try and take the test. I tried using the extension, but it said the extension wasn't compatible.
On my personal chromebook, I tried downloading it and it didn't work. I tried to use the extension, but it says that my Chrome needs to be updated. When I go to check for updates though, there's no option to.
I was wondering if this was a common issue or if I was just stupid. If anyone knows of any solutions for this or where to go to for help, that would be greatly appreciated.
TLDR: I can't get the lockdown browser to work on both of my available computers.

Hello everyone! Just returned from a trip to Denver to a full mailbox.
u/hachikohime - thank you for the advice, and I loved the fact that I have beaten adverse times 100% of the time!
u/isar-love – I love the flower person on the card you sent! I agree, going to a packed theater is a really cool experience. My favorite was John Wick 4, it felt like everyone (including me ^-) wore a suit to that showing.
u/jdoodle7 - I'm so glad you enjoyed your trip to DC! I need to make a visit to the Postal Museum again. My mom found a photo of me as a kid in front of the Postal Seal and I want to recreate it to surprise her.
u/Keqani - thank you for the advice, I will remind myself to follow my own timeline :)
u/melhen16 - thank you for the postcard facts and happy Postcard Week!
u/neverbeentooz – the card you sent is now on my desk, I’ll refer to the advice it gives daily.
u/OnericOstrich – thank you for the beautiful card and I LOVE the address labels and stickers you included! Your message was also quite heartfelt and thank you for sharing some kindness. It is so appreciated!
u/pinkpenguin – the card arrived safely! You never know when a card will get through or if it will be sidetracked, but I’ve learned to trust the process. I love the decoration and happy belated Pi Day!
u/SNERDBOFF - thank you for the President Obama card! A fun fact I've learned about him is that one of his favorite spaces is Quill at the Jefferson Hotel. It's truly a beautiful space.
u/Sufficient_Letter883 - the dog made my day! Have you heard of MoKo the Teddy Bear Dog? She is adorable and her adventures are broadcast on YouTube.
u/thecaledonianrose – thank you for the warm message, this community always takes care of its members, the advice you gave was so timely.
u/tiredpantyhose – the pop up dogs were adorable and this is one of my new favorite cards :D

(Unfortunately couldnt find the game in subreddits/suggested answers previously)
The game has a small spaceship that navigates thru advanced technological environment, (like a circuit/ruins). I cant seem to recall if it was a race. The graphics are somewhat at par with asphalt 3. The whole environment had a blue-silver color theme. The spacecraft they first give you is silver color, looked somewhat like a cylindrical submarine. It looked like it could fit only 1-2 people. 3rd person pov like asphalt games.
Other notes:
There is no "shooting mechanic" as far as i can remember. All i did was avoid obstacles and go as fast as possible. There was no "pilot getting into the vehicle" or "bad guys." No notable characters. Just simply a spaceship and the track. There was no free-roam.
I played it somewhere between 2005-2010 more or less.
There mightve been other unlockable spacecraft. It isnt tempest 2000, N2O, Tunnel, theres no flashy music mechanic. It isnt on wikipedia lists or other game lists. It didnt need to be downloaded from java (it came predownloaded with the phone).
Thanks in advance it has been bugging me for several months

I’m 18m and recently converted back to Christianity. I grew up in a Greek Orthodox household in Australia but as I was growing up we started to go to church less and less and stopped embracing Christian values and my mother, my brother and I slowly became atheist. My father remained somewhat Christian but he stopped talking to us about it and he stopped enforcing it upon us.
For the past 2 years I’ve been constantly fighting my own demons, I’ve been struggling with lust, anger and suicidal ideation as well as using substances (such as weed, alcohol and cigarettes) in order to escape my problems but for the past 2 months now (especially in these last few weeks) I have gotten better after rediscovering Christianity. I rediscovered it after arguing with my mate about it who also recently converted to Christianity and I was using all the typical atheist arguments against Christianity. I didn’t understand it as I was arguing with him but a few days later as I was sitting in my room on my computer late at night feeling depressed as usual asking myself what is the point of this world I suddenly had a voice in my head telling me that god is the only option. This was so unusual because I was always vocal with my friends about my views on religion. After this I watched a few YouTube videos about the bible and the history of the church, as well as Jesus’s love for human kind despite all our flaws. I went to bed feeling extremely fulfilled and ready to embrace the lord every chance I get.
The next day I felt motivated to talk to more of my Christian friends and ask them questions that I yearned to know the answer to. They filled me in on quotes from the gospel and started to consistently send me Christian posts. A few weeks later my family, some family friends and I went on a holiday and at one of the locations we went to one of the family friends suggested that we stop by at a Catholic Church. My father and I decided to join in and go with them and it was an incredibly fulfilling experience since I was open minded about the church. After this I have been gone to church again since and I have a newfound passion for learning about Christ. I have accepted Christ into my life and I pray several times each day. I’ve even been studying the bible every night before I go to bed (I’m currently reading the gospel of John) and I feel so fulfilled accepting Jesus Christ as my lord and saviour. Even my parents have admitted that i am such a more positive person now and they haven’t even fully understood how much I’ve incorporated Christianity into my life. I’ve also inspired my dad to start embracing Christianity again and together we discuss bible verses, go to church together and he teaches me history about Christianity as well. I am learning new things every day and feel so happy learning more things about Jesus Christ our lord and savior everyday. Life seems so much happier now and I can embrace every single moment. I’ve stopped struggling with anger, depressing thoughts and I am no longer as lustful as I used to be and am actively working through it. The lord truly does work in mysterious ways. God bless you all
TLDR: Rediscovering Christianity and learning about Jesus Christ has saved my life

This week I wrote an autobiographical account of my history with sleep paralysis, RLS, and hypnagogic hallucinations.
I was not sure where to share it. I added it and deleted it from a few subs. The only place it ended up was the creative writing sub, though.
And this appears to be the right spot! There are several themes but the hypnagogia is the focus. So it's quite long and probably no one reads it and that's fine. I just wanted to find somewhere to put it in case my experience could benefit someone.
⚠️ ⚠️ WARNING first part is scary and a bit gory... ⚠️ ⚠️

Childhood

The first time that I encountered sleep paralysis was when I was nine or ten. I woke up screaming, my mind gripped with the sensation of searing pain radiating from my left big toe. Though my mouth wasn't moving, I could hear my own blood-curdling cries, echoing through the darkness. An eerie orange glow spilled into the room, illuminating a sinister cauldron at the base of my bed, around which stood three squat witches. Their dark, smoky faces shifted and morphed constantly, eyes glowing red like embers recessed deeply into the shadows of their crawling flesh, jagged teeth gnashing along with their discordant laughter as roaches crawled from their mouths and disappeared into their black straw hair.
Each witch held their own dainty knife and fork, shaking along with their trembling bony hands, and one was slicing expertly down the center of my big toe with the impossibly sharp blade of their knife. I struggled to move my arms and legs, feeling as though I had freedom of movement, but my physical body remained paralyzed. Unfathomable terror washed over me as I realized that I couldn't scream for help; my mom wouldn't hear me, and I was powerless to stop these witches from feasting on my toes.
I lay there, unable to break free from the oppressive paralysis, forced to endure the excruciating pain as my toes were sliced off and consumed. The air buzzed with the witches' terrifying, joyous laughter, as if they delighted in my agony more than the taste of my flesh. Eventually, my body in a full state of terror jarred itself awake, heart beating more wildly than I had ever experienced, my lungs struggling to gasp more than the tiniest breath. After perhaps a full minute of gathering myself, I drew a deep breath and screamed into the night.
My mother came, of course, but was unable to understand the depth and terror of my experience. Her own reality did not include anything close; for her, it was an exaggeration born of childhood fear, and she became exasperated after a time with my refusal to admit that it was a dream, despite being an extremely caring parent.
The witches appeared to me several times between the ages of 10 and 15, their ghastly faces returning to torment me with each episode of sleep paralysis. Every time, I would be trapped in that terrifying limbo, my body frozen while my mind drowned itself in screams of agony and horror. I knew that they would feast on my toes, the slicing of their knives relentless, inexorable. They would smack their lips and toast each other with my blood-covered flesh as I watched.
During those years, restless legs syndrome (RLS) also began to plague my nights. As soon as I began to drift off to sleep, a discomfort would arise in my legs, like there was a swarm of fat round beetles exploring, searching for an exit. A quick kick would settle it down, but it would rise again in a cycle of building tension, acutely uncomfortable climax, and brief relief of a second or two would follow before it began again. My mother, again meaning well but busy and unfamiliar with RLS, told me it was leg cramps and made me eat more banannas. This didn't help.
It became an increasing problem, stealing precious sleep that my young body needed to thrive. The frustration of RLS merged with the terror of a potential visit from the witches. Without medication, I would lose entire nights to the relentless discomfort.
By the age of 15, the sleep paralysis episodes had occurred at least 10 times, each leaving me with the gut-wrenching memory of being eaten alive that I would carry all the next day in my gut like a sack of bricks. As I lay sleeping, every single night, I wondered if they would visit, and braced myself for an encounter.

Early adulthood:

I can't remember how many times the witches visited before I finally stopped panicking. It was after countless God awful nights when I finally accepted that no matter how terrifying or painful the ordeal felt, I would be whole once it was over. I had survived the agony a hundred times before and could endure it again. One night, when the eerie glow of the cauldron illuminated their shifting faces, I felt a calm settle over me. I saw the witches, but for the first time, I wasn't afraid.
They noticed my defiance, their laughter fading into an uneasy silence. Without fanfare, they stood up, collected their cauldron, and retreated into the darkness of my room. Though I still saw them occasionally at the foot of my bed, they became more present than threatening. Sometimes, at the start of an episode, they'd appear briefly before disappearing altogether. They had become inconsequential, and I couldn't even be sure if they were there half the time.
In my early 20s, I discovered that I could almost guarantee a bout of sleep paralysis simply by sleeping during the day. At first, nothing particularly unusual happened, but the paralysis always returned whenever I dozed off, particularly between the hours of 11am and 2pm. I was often sleeping during the day because by then, the restless legs syndrome (RLS) had grown so severe that many nights passed without sleep at all. My body felt like it was full of angry snakes now instead of beetles, desperate to escape. The sensation soon crept upward from my legs to my arms. The cycles of build up, climax, and agonizly brief relief increased in frequency and magnitude. I would often resort to sitting in the shower, flipping the water from icy cold to scalding hot all night, simply to keep myself alert enough to avoid the twitching and spasming until the blessed relief of dawn arrived.
With the daytime paralysis came a variety of hallucinations. Sometimes the witches stood at the foot of my bed, other times they'd disappear, leaving behind benign apparitions like tickling gnomes. There was nothing threatening about these visions, and I began to find a strange sense of comfort in them. I would relax into a dark place where I felt my own energy burning like a sun, present but without physical form. In this state, I felt euphoric, fully aware yet separate from myself. I started taking naps during the day and eagerly anticipated this odd experience.
Yet at night, my sleep remained troubled as RLS tormented me. Eventually, I began taking ropinirole to manage the symptoms, and it brought much-needed relief, helping me reclaim my nights and giving me several years of mostly not worrying about RLS unless I forgot to take my medicine, or the odd night where it bothered me but was still less severe.

New experiences:

I spent several years relishing those euphoric moments of peace, where I could feel the pure energy of being alive without a personal history or identity. In those moments, everything else faded away, and all that remained was a brilliant, infinite energy. My waking life was absorbed by study of comtemporary and historical teachings of non-duality, and with my family and progressing my career as a software developer. I was absorbing Eckhart Tolle and Gautama, Meister Eckhart and Seuhn Sang and integrating their teachings into my daily life. The feeling inside of me that reality ultimately made no sense had found an expression, and I dug in every waking moment for a clue as to the true nature of experience. Given this context, I especially looked forward to and found solace in the experience of being impersonal, boundless energy.
In my late 20s, I also experienced a new type of sleep paralysis hallucination. One day it began that there were no visions or hallucinations; instead, I simply lay in a state of paralysis, aware of the room as a darkened and monochrome version of itself. I entertained myself by trying to move my arms and legs against the paralysis, and developed the idea that I had two bodies; my physical body lay on the bed, while my energetic body struggled and flailed. It was like my energy body could move separately, creating a phantom limb sensation. I felt my energy arms and legs extend out, yet my physical body lay still. As my energy body reached further from my physical self, it would snap back as if held by a rubber band.
Intrigued, I began experimenting with this phenomenon, managing to build enough momentum to "pop" out of my body one afternoon. Suddenly, I found myself looking down at my own sleeping form, resting on my back and breathing gently beside my wife, who was playing a game (probably Candy Crush) on her phone in the bed. It was surreal, and I wasn't sure whether I was hallucinating or truly perceiving my own body from a different perspective. Regardless, it was a revelation, and I felt a new sense of exploration as I gazed down at myself.
That first time, I found myself drifting through the house, checking on my two young stepdaughters as they slept. I had recently married, and it was a quiet weekend afternoon with everyone napping peacefully. Once satisfied, I ventured outside, where I took to the sky and flew around the neighborhood, spying on my neighbors. Though it felt like I was limited in speed, I seemingly had no constraints on the continuity of this hallucination. Everything appeared as a perfect physical representation of Earth, and I could travel without interruption.
The landscape was strikingly accurate, but it appeared in monochrome hues — grays, blacks, and whites — with no bright colors. Letters and numbers were unreadable, reduced to blurred nonsense. Despite these distortions, the sensation of soaring above the rolling hills and rooftops was pure euphoria. I sped along at hundreds of miles per hour, basking in the freedom of movement, and immersed in the stunning view that stretched out below me. There did seem to be some sort of very generous limit to how far I could travel, but I thoroughly explored within the boundaries for hundreds of miles around my home.
Over the years into my early 30s, I tried to pursue this opportunity of flight and exploration every chance I could. But during that time, my restless legs syndrome also became more relentless. In the past, no matter how agonizing the night had been, dawn would bring relief like a cold bath washing over me. I would sit outside and watch the sunrise, and the sensation of snakes slithering through my body would finally calm down, perhaps due to circadian rhythms and dopamine regulation. The cycles now began to climax in totally involuntary movement, spasms that caused me to tense my whole body and draw in a sharp breath every time. It would be 5 seconds of rapid buildup, spasm, a second or two of relief, repeat.
Eventually, even the dawn failed to provide respite, and I struggled during night or day whenever I relaxed too long or became even a bit drowsy. Napping became impossible, depriving me of the euphoric dreams I had learned to look forward to. I switched from ropinirole to pramipexole, hoping for relief. The medication helped me sleep five or six hours a night on good nights, but I still missed one or two nights of sleep entirely each week and rarely could nap during the day, because I took the medicine only a couple hours before bed.
Even though my restless legs syndrome worsened, one out of every ten times, I'd still manage to avoid twitching and drift into that state of peaceful paralysis during the day when I dozed off involuntarily. I gradually lost interest in pursuing out-of-body travel and instead sought every time the burning energy of the sun inside of me — the sensation of being infinitely powerful and formless simultaneously. I would retreat into this boundless feeling whenever I had the opportunity.
During these rare occasions when I could sleep during the day, I stumbled across a third type of experience. It felt like I was being sucked into space at impossible speeds, zooming past the planets of our solar system and beyond until I reached a darker patch of space. This spot seemed like a vast, corrugated sewer pipe that swallowed me whole. I rocketed through the universe, traveling at what could only be the speed of light. Eventually, I would break into the atmosphere of some unknown world, drifting down to its surface sometimes, others crashing painfully into terrain. Sometimes, I would hear a loud sound like an explosion in mid travel, and suddenly aterialize on another distant world without any sort of entrace.
These journeys were exhilarating, and each new landscape presented a mystery, revealing worlds unlike anything I'd ever seen.

The Traveling Years:

One of the first journeys I had involved zipping through space before drifting down through a hole in the top of a greenhouse. The world was painted in shades of orange and brown, its dirt swirling in powerful winds like clay cyclones. The greenhouse itself was dirty and grimy, almost opaque with crusted dirt, and filled with dense green plants — ivy and other dark green foliage that covered every inch inside. Outside, the orange sky churned with the swirling clay, making visibility nearly impossible.
I made my way down a ladder and emerged outside, where I found a man and a boy standing beside a white pinto horse. They both wore hardened leather over rough potato sack-like clothing, their long hair dotted with bone jewelry, their noses and eyebrows profusely pierced with other fragments of bone adorned with feathers. The man seemed to be instructing the boy on something to do with the horse. I approached them cautiously, fully aware of my lucid dreaming state and retaining all my memories, reasoning, and thoughts. Everything about the scene was vivid, from the clay dust swirling around to the squinting struggle to see in the wind.
Unlike the man and the boy, I had no long hair, no mouth covering, and no leather visor shielding my face from the swirling clay-dust. As I tried to speak, it seemed like they couldn’t hear me, and I wondered if I might be invisible to them. Unconcerned, I reached out to pat the horse on its nose, but before I could make contact, the man swiftly drew a long knife from his belt and stabbed me. He struck again, and the intense pain and feeling of my own scalding hot blood streaming down my pants legs snapped me awake.
Not long after my experience in the greenhouse, I found myself learning more about the worlds I could explore, though the opportunities remained rare. One day, I was transported to a beautiful blue tropical world, crashing into the dunes of a pristine white beach. There, I encountered three women, each towering over me at seven or eight feet tall. Their long black hair framed their pale faces, with blood-red lips striking against their alabaster skin. But what stood out most were their fingernails — long and crimson, curling back upon themselves dozens of times like spiraling ribbons. They were two or three feet in length and added a surreal menace to their presence.
They asked me my name and the name of my father, along with other odd questions, and seemed absolutely intriqued with me. There was a certain sort of heavy molasses quality to their voices that was more than sound and impossible to describe. It had the effect of making me feel drowsy and stupid and slow to move.
As I stood there, they began touching me with their nails, tracing them across my body in elaborate, almost ritualistic patterns. I felt my energy drain with every stroke, a profound exhaustion seeping into my core. The sensation was so intense that I woke up feeling completely drained, my limbs heavy and my spirit sapped.
Another time, I appeared without explanation after my space travel in a cavern brimming with glowing fungi and luminescent crystals. I wasn't myself in this world but instead had taken the place of someone else. My father stood beside me, guiding me through the luminous landscape. He taught me how to identify the bizarre and fascinating flora surrounding us — lessons that etched themselves into my mind and last to this day despite the surreal, made-up nature of this world. The glowing crystals and fungi cast eerie shadows across the cavern walls as my father explained the properties and uses of each.
In real life, these experiences would last for about five to eight minutes, but in the dream realm, the passage of time was different. What seemed like mere minutes could stretch into hours or even days, and in rare cases, the dreams spanned much longer.

RLS becomes terrible:

I had a new busy career, an infant daughter, two active growing stepdaughters, and a wife with a hectic job, and I struggled hard through the years between 35 and 39. Each night was pure torture, as restless leg syndrome robbed me of sleep. Days of sleep deprivation left me barely functioning, often teetering on the edge of collapse while the disease gnawed away. The unrelenting discomfort made it impossible to fall asleep, even as my body craved rest. I had no choice but to continue, as I had yet to find a doctor that knew how to move past the ropinirole and pramipexole stage of treatment, and these medicines had almost entirely ceased to be effective for me. My love for my family drove me to conceal the intense effort that day to day living had become. I managed to keep up with my career by farming a prescription for Adderall. I don't have ADHD, so it had the effect on me of methamphetamine and allowed me to push through the God awful existence that life had become.
The toll became overwhelming. I couldn't escape the agony, even after days of desperate attempts to sleep. More than once, I ended up in the emergency room after going four or five nights without sleep. For some people, this will seem like an exaggeration; I assure you, it is not. I would be nonsensical, having conversations with people tha weren't in the room, drifting in and out of intense 1 second dreams before snapping awake with painful spasms. At the hospital, they would give me percocet, and the painkillers provided brief reprieve from RLS for some reason, allowing me one solid night’s sleep, but the relentless cycle quickly resumed, leaving me struggling once again.
Eventually, I found a neurologist who prescribed Neupro patches that provided temporary relief. For a few months, I managed to sleep more consistently, but the patches quickly lost their effectiveness. It wasn't until I added methadone to the treatment that I finally found more lasting relief.
During those difficult years, I immersed myself in non-dual philosophy. In that crucible of suffering, my conviction solidified: my true nature was more aligned with the energy hallucinations I experienced than with a body made of skin, bone, and brain. That transcendent energy, more real and enduring than the physical form I occupied, became my identity in daily life, watching peacefully as my body and brain navigated the situational complexity of life.
Approaching my 40th birthday, I found that I could sleep at night and dream during the day. My life was in good shape, I lost 60 pounds without effort, and I felt fundamentally and imperturbably peaceful. Suddenly, life was in the palm of my hands, every moment pristine and still and perfect. I felt weightless without the burden of needing to endure trauma every night.
Most importantly to this story, I worked from home and could nap on my lunch breaks.

Rapid learning through iteration:

Rarely, I would fail to nap at all due to RLS. Sometimes I would simply doze off and wake up 10 minutes later to my cell phone alarm. But three out of five times, I would travel.
I visited dozens of worlds in a matter of a few short months and quickly was able to confirm some rules that I had suspected were true from my previous adventures.
One rule is that no one I know in real life ever shows up in the travelling dreams. No matter the place or circumstance or strange beings that I encountered, there was never a familiar face.
Another rule was that no dream person ever had a name or a father. The absence of both seemed to be an unspoken universal truth among these dream world inhabitants. Once I had internalized the significance of this, I began introducing myself to most beings that I encountered as "John, son of Michael." It left a strong impression. My name and lineage seemed to set me apart, bestowing an almost mythical quality upon me that earned me a peculiar reverence among all that I met. This knowledge became the key to navigating the dream worlds with confidence and a consistent purpose of discovery.
I learned accidentally of a unique ability during my travels: a form of telekenesis that allowed me to project force from the palms of my hands. This development led to many episodes of paralysis spent ignoring exploration and instead hilariously and painfully attempting to master this ability for the purpose of travel. Over time, I refined my skill, learning to fly much like Iron Man, but solely through the focused propulsion from my hands. Without stabilization from my feet, I had to carefully control the angle of projection and the amount of force applied to control my trajectory and speed.
Mastering this ability took significant practice, but eventually, I could navigate obstacles with ease and travel great distances in short amounts of time. I also no longer crash landed, thankfully. Importantly, I could harness this power to overcome any threatening beings that I encountered. Previously, my best option was to hide or flee, and that did not always work out. Now I had this amazing sense of fearlessness and confidence that simply cannot be rivaled by real world experience. Every time I heard the buzzing sounds and felt the WUM WUM WUM of energy as I prepared to launch into space, I embraced the journey with eager anticipation, confident in my ability to protect myself and learn about whatever strange world awaited me.

To Present Day:

As I grew more confident in my ability to travel almost at will, I began to incorporate spirituality into my experimentation. One day, on a whim, I expressed to the universe that if there were a being that had my best interests at heart and loved me fully, then I gave them permission to guide my dreams and lead me to greater truths, even if they were uncomfortable. This openness led to a new experience immediately, and I began to preface many of my journeys with a similar, simple prayer.
That first time, I fell down instead of up -- into myself, into the infinite dimensionless darkness where I could spin and burn and bathe in the euphoric sense of my own eternal nature. But my peace was quickly interrupted by an intense feeling of pressure at the base of my spine, though I couldn't have pinpointed where the body was that the spine inhabited. Very, very slowly, with a CRUNCHA CRUNCHA CRUNCHA noise for every milimeter of ground gained, it crawled upwards towards my head.
As it climbed, the energy below it intensified, growing exponenentially as the surface area covered grew. It wasn't painful, exactly, but it was terrifyingly intense. That first time, I managed to stay calm long enough for it to reach my shoulder blades before it became unbearably frightening and I jerked myself out of it, sure that I would die if I allowed it to continue upward. Over the last few months I have vowed to myself that I would endure any level of discomfort to see what happens at the end, but I keep chickening out. I have let it go as far as the base of my skull, at which time my head started vibrating so much that I could feel my teeth chattering violently even in my paralysis.
Another time recently when I made this prayer, I went to space as usual, but when I entered the atmosphere of a lush Earth-like world, my telekenesis failed me for the first time ever. Instead, I was pulled like in a slow tractor beam down beneath the perfectly round canopy of a giant, unfamiliar kind of tree. I felt a great sense of calm and peace and simply meditated there for quite some time, maybe 9 or 10 hours of relative time, before I heard a voice from behind the tree.
The man who stepped out from there had his face hidden in shadows. He wore a long dusty leather coat and a huge cowboy hat that shrouded him. As I write this, I find that I am not yet prepared to write about what he said to me, or how I responded. But when we had spoken, he walked solemnly over to me and lay his hand upon my head, and I jerked awake in a state of perfect bliss, despite some conflicting emotions surrounding our conversation. I call him Cowboy Hat Man, and maybe I will write more about him later.
A third time with the prayer, right before I sped off to my normal adventures, I felt a cat jump onto my bed and snuggle against my left leg, purring. It curled up there, and I assumed that it was my actual cat in real life, although it would be very uncharacteristic for him. I actually thought to myself, "Wow, I guess Buddy Socks is my spirit guide today." However, when I awoke, I realized that my door was shut and the cat was not in the room. On that trip, I went to a world that was reminiscent in quality perhaps to 15th century Europe, except on a world where the surface was far more underneath water than on Earth.
I followed the invisible cat to an old man and asked him, "Do you know the truth?" He answered, "No." I followed the invisble cat to young boy and asked him, "Do you know the truth?" He also answered, "No." It was an odd one, really.
Every time I do this, I am setting an alarm for ten minutes. Sometimes the dreams last days in relative time, but I have never yet failed to wake up before that alarm goes off.

Present Day (like seriously earlier this week is what me want to write this):

I lay down eagerly for my lunch break nap, hoping to avoid the disappointment of an off-day. I flew into the atmosphere of a world that seemed to made of rock, with nothing growing on the surface. However, I caught glimpse on the surface of a bright spot, and when I descended, I found that somehow there was a relatively thin crust of sorts around a hollow inside-world.
I lowered myself slowly through a great opening in that crust, down into a lush jungle. It was beautiful but uncomfortably humid, and I quickly found a cool and dry cavern complex to explore rather than dealing with sweat and unfamiliar insects.
As I navigated through the cavern system, able to see somehow with dim light despite no obvious light source at times, I broke out into a very large open cave with a huge exit out into the jungle. I saw that it was dawn and realized that I had spent the night, however long it was on this world, in the caves.
Suddenly, my four year old daughter, Curly, with her naturally bleach-highlighted rings of long blonde hair and bright blue eyes, drifted slowly over my left shoulder and out towards the exit. She moved at a brisk adult walking pace, her back to the cave opening, her expression curious yet slightly concerned. She called out, "Dada?" in a tone that suggested wonder and slight confusion, but no real alarm in the presence of her father.
Reacting instantly, feeling my gut clench solid into a fist of rock, I used my telekinesis to close the gap between us and gathered her into my arms. She wrapped her legs around my waist and settled her butt onto my forearm, a ritual that we have practiced every day of her life. The force gripping her evaporated instantly, and suddenly, my darling girl was there in my arms, as real as any physical embrace. I could feel the tickle of her hair on my neck, the beautiful warmth of her skin, and was enveloped in her familiar scent.
Initially, I was filled with white hot rage, fueled by my instinctive reaction to the thought that some idiotic dream world inhabitant had decided to mess with my family and harm or kidnap her. But as I held her and she nuzzled her nose into my neck, the anger gave way to sheer amazement. For the first time in a decade of navigating these dreamscapes, someone that I knew from my waking life had entered the dream. This was a rule-defying moment that really rocked me, a serious breach of the established norms of these experiences.
A group of maybe 8 or 10 small winged goblins flew down from out of sight above the top lip of the exit and fluttered into the room, laughing in a very non-threatening way. They radiated a sense of innocent mischief, and my fear and anger subsided and gave way to annoyance. I whipped my right hand out and blasted a huge hole in the cavern wall to my right, startling Curly into a yelp. Unphased, I raised my voice and demanded, "Who is your King? I am John, son of Michael, and this is my daughter and she WILL NOT BE TOUCHED AGAIN."
The goblins scattered, their merriment giving way to concern that I might blast them into dust. Behind me, a deep chuckle seemed to rise from the ground itself. A voice echoed in the cavern, neither kind or cruel, full of what felt like wisdom, though that doesn't make sense in the waking world.
It spoke: "I am Eloxman, and I am their King." At hearing him announce his name, my head whipped around in the dream and in real life so hard that I woke immediately with a sprained neck that is still bothering me. I looked at my phone and saw that there were two minutes and fourteen seconds remaining in my ten minute window. I lay on the couch in shocked disbelief: Curly was in my dream, and someone had a name. As I replayed it over and over in my head, I realized that Eloxman was still speaking. I think he may have been preparing to provide the name of his father.

The End:

Sorry, that's actually it. I am going to just see if this continues somehow, but if it does not, then I might get creative with it and make up my own ending. I hope that you enjoyed this if you read this far!

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List your top 10 most scrobbled tracks, top scrobbled album, and artist with the most scrobbles that start with the first-person pronoun in English, I. It's okay if it's part of a contraction (I'm, I've, I'll, etc.) but no other words that start with I. Okay to post more than 10 if you have a tie.

1. I Won't Back Down - Tom Petty (16)
2. I'd Run Away - The Jayhawks (15)
3. I've Loved These Days - Live at Carnegie Hall - Billy Joel (13)
4. I'll Be Back - The Beatles (12)
5. I'll Never Fall in Love Again - Dionne Warwick (12)
6. I Can See the Pines Are Dancing - A.A. Bondy (14)
7. I Love You, You Imbecile - Pelle Carlberg (11)
8. I Melt with You - Modern English (11)
9. I Started Something I Couldn't Finish - The Smiths (11)
10. I'm Not Part of Me - Cloud Nothings (11)
11. I'm Writing a Novel - Father John Misty (11)

album: I Love You, Honeybear - Father John Misty (70-36)
artist: I Am Kloot (17)

So, I know DnD requires a lot of improv acting and I am usually pretty good about that. I am usually able to act on the spot and expected my players would come up with unique things they want to do. However, I was not expecting how my improv would be their favorite parts compared to the planned stuff.
For example, in one of our previous sessions, the party split up to find information on a smaller boss of the campaign. When my paladin and fightemonk went to check a warehouse, they found gnomes working to transport crates to different ships. Basically, it was like a shipping yard. I made it gnomes because I felt like it, but I expected them to spend like five minutes here at max. Want to guess what really happened?
My paladin player ended up talking with the gnomes, asking for names, family history, etc. I had to improvise and I decided to make one of the gnomes a hill billy kind of person. I have a southern accent naturally, so I just dialed it up to play in character. My paladin then tries to convert the gnome to her religion, making me surprised, but I said the gnome would think about it. Playing into the southern theme, I gave the gnome the basic name of John.
Later in that same session, my players come to a city center where some people are performing at a fountain for gold. Despite already meeting the intended NPC, my party started to call for John to make a new appearance since he is nearby anyway. This improved character ended up becoming an icon to my group and when he performed, my party cheered. The one thing I did not expect was for my party to become more attached to a character I made on the spot compared to a NPC I have planned for over a year.
I think they love him because of my southern accent and how he has a really optimistic view on life. Needless to say, this gnome will probably come back in the future.

I spent some time in my transcripts looking for Alex talking about dreaming, and found these instances where dreams are something more. He doesn't want to say he's psychic, but he uses the old term 'having the touch', which he shares with his mom.
[2004-07-16]

I'm in the dream state, and I'm having some particularly vivid dream about the New World Order, and I wake up, and, you know, I'm sweating, and I just sit up in bed breathing deep, and I'm just like, they really are kidnapping millions of children. They really are. Putting cancer viruses in the vaccines. They really are putting this stuff in our water. They really did fund Hitler and Stalin. They really did put Fidel into power. They really are behind all this. This really is real. I'm really standing against this. What have I gotten myself into? But it's not even a fear. It's more of just a realization.

[2004-11-05]

PJW: I was having a dream about a member of my family talking to me about something, and I'm awoken to the sound of my cell phone, and it's that exact same member of my family talking about the thing I was dreaming about.

[2005-01-19] - Quoting Hurtubise on X-ray device defying all known rules of physics

I had a dream about a year ago, as to most of my other inventions, just a dream, and I saw it, saw the whole casting and everything. I had a dream about these three times, but the third time I had it in my head and I started to build it through the wall.

[2006-05-19] - Caller dreaming about future:

Caller Okay, do you want to hear about my dream about the future? In the dream, things got so bad that communities were surrounded with giant-sized box fences to protect themselves from
AJ I've got to let you go. But before I go to Tom and others that are holding, let me just comment on this. I don't go off of dreams.

[...]

But at the same time, I talk about dreams. About 10 years ago, It may have even been longer than that, probably 12 years ago, before I even got into this movement and got on the air. Well, to be accurate, I was politically involved 14 years ago, got on the air about 11 and a half years ago. There you go. But before I was on the air, I had this dream where I was going to visit my aunt and uncle in Fredericksburg. Now, at that time, they had lived in San Antonio and had just moved to Llano. They didn't live in Fredericksburg. I'd only been to Fredericksburg a few times in my life. Didn't have family there at the time. And you're driving into Fredericksburg, and there are Mexican troops with some other type of white European troops searching all of the cars. And in the dream, I've got a family with me. Now, I didn't know my wife then. I didn't have children with me. In the dream, and it was one of those dreams where you wake up sweating. It was like, man, that dream was important. I've had very few of those, and frankly... We're good to go. We're good to go. And in the dream, it's a checkpoint, I can't get out of it, and the car's rolling to a stop, I'm stepping out with an assault rifle in my hand, and then I wake up from the dream. I mean, I know this is the enemy, I know I can't let them get my family, and the car's rolling to a stop, I'm pushing the door out in front of me, I'm bringing up an HK-91. Now that's serious, folks. And you wake up from the dream, I had it several times, and... In the dream, you see Mexican troops with people pulled over. They've got army trucks. They're putting people in them. And then now, fast forward, three years ago, they sign a joint forces agreement with Canada and Mexico, Associated Press. Foreign troops to, quote, be used to deal with natural disasters and American terrorists patrolling the U.S.

[2007-05-18]

One time I had a dream about a mugging, and with a guy wearing a particular, uh, pink and green striped shirt. The very person then, a few months later, popped out of a corner and assaulted me. And I was so stunned that it was happening, it was, it was bizarre. I've had a few other cases like that. You know, like I knew the day my grandmother died, I said, we gotta go see her, and then the phone rang and she was dead, and it just happened unexpectedly. You know, things like that happen to everybody. But I used to have this dream where there were Mexican troops running a checkpoint with our own police in America. And see, they break the ice. And that dream used to... I used to have it a lot. It really freaked me out. And then, one time I was driving through a town and I said, I've been here. This is a... And family indeed did move there.

[2007-07-12]

I literally yearn to spend time with my family. I yearn to just go fishing and hiking and hunting. I just love to go out to some farmhouse for a month with a truck full of tents and guns and bows and arrows and oil paints and watercolors and toys and just hang out with my family.
I literally dream about it all the time, folks. But I cannot stop. I don't think I'm even going to see my family today. I have to just stay here.

[2007-08-06]

I literally dream about living in a shack somewhere, a shotgun shack off the back of a river, and working down in some tiny town pumping gas, folks,

[2008-11-30]

All I do when I go to sleep is dream about this stuff. I eat, drink, and sleep it. It's diabolical. We've got to come together. We've got to stop it.

[2009-06-17]

And you image the house and you have dream after dream where you're in the house. And this is a dream I had when I was like nine. And then years later, I'd always remember the dream. I see him building that very house on the hill. And it didn't click. I was like, why is that house so interesting to me? And then later that night, I was in there with a girlfriend in the neighborhood and I'm looking out the windows that hadn't been finished yet out onto the, you know, hills and woods and have the realization, wow, I've had this dream so many times and then remembered the full dream. And it wasn't deja vu. It was because I'd remembered it.

[2009-10-21] - About grandfather Jerry Jones, before knowing he was died

I had a dream about his death last night. So for all of you out there that don't believe in something after death, you're very, very foolish. And I don't know what planet you're living on.

[2009-10-21]

I had a dream about the Grim Reaper. I saw the Grim Reaper for the first time in my life. I witnessed it last night. And then I had a comforting dream after that and was there with others that experienced something similar. I'm sure of it.

[2010-01-26] About NWO

I dream about this stuff. I wake up thinking about it. I constantly have epiphanies and incredibly advanced understandings, and then later I read white papers written by top globalists That are as if it was written by me, but with the evil twist of that they're just openly stating it and saying it's good.

[2010-04-13]

I can't quit desiring to warn people. It has overtaken me. It's all I do. It's all I think about. It's all I dream about when I'm asleep. Because I understand how dire the straits are and how serious the costs are.

[2010-06-22]

I dream about the New World Order. I dream about legislation. I dream about the enemy's next operations. I dream about executive orders.

[2010-06-29]

I know this, what we pray for, what we dream about is what our mind then imagines and then what we manifest. In 1900, Max Planck, as I started the show talking about, the German physicist envisioned nuclear quantum and atoms and splitting the atom. And by 1934, other physicists had already written out nuclear reactors. They never split the atom yet. And then by 1939, they split the atom, and you know the rest is history. That's what the human mind can do.

[2011-02-24]

This is Glenn Beck taking all the hardcore research I do where I work 18 hours a day and even dream about this information when I'm asleep and I put it together with my team that bust their butt and then I watch him take it and twist it and manipulate it so they can control the left and the right in this synthesis setting up this world government.

[2011-11-01]

He's talking and I'm remembering all this because you're having a dream about the CIA injecting people with live polio and claiming that the program Was supposedly to get DNA, so you could find out if Bin Laden was staying there, when that has nothing to do with it, like Bin Laden was out there getting vaccinated.

[2012-10-31]

I dream about work. I dream about research. I work while I sleep. Last night I had dream after dream of managing people in the office.

[2012-11-22]

No exaggeration, 18 hours a day and even dream about it. Because once you get obsessed with something and you've got a decent brain, the world opens up.

[2012-12-30]

In fact, it's gotten to the point where I dream about politics, and I dream that I'm video editing and researching.

[2013-04-26]

I dream about this stuff. I can't play outside with my kids or go fishing. All I'm thinking about is news and the New World Order. And then I do so much research, I get on air and can't even talk about it all because I just know too much.

[2013-05-07]

As many people do, things that you're focused on, you dream about. [..] I eat, drink, and sleep Veritas. I want Veritas.

[2013-05-07]

And when you study reality, when you study governments and political systems like I do, no exaggeration, 18 hours a day, I even dream about political situations in the New World Order.

[2013-09-12]

I can't do... I dream about this stuff. I'm in the shower thinking about it. I can't shut it off.

[2013-12-03]

Man, I tell you, getting ready for the news is just something that's an ongoing, pretty much 24-hour-a-day process for me because I even tend to dream about politics and geopolitics and issues and what's happening in the world.

[2015-05-15]

I'll tell you one of my most recurring dreams. It's basically different variants, it's not really a dream it's a nightmare, of the 1982 or whatever it was remake of the thing put out by John Carpenter but it's not set in, it's not set in Antarctica. It's just set like in neighborhoods, and then I've got my family, and people look like they're normal, but they're not, and the entire biosphere, the entire genetic code of the planet, the trees, the grass, everything has been overtaken, and then my children get overtaken. And absorbed right in front of me, and it's just intense grief and pain watching my family killed in front of me. And I have that dream, different variants, all night long, about once a week. And what it is, is my brain getting me ready to just deal with losing everything. So that I don't fear when I'm conscious and awake. But when I sleep, I do. That's the kind of stuff I dream about. Then I have political dreams where I'm just like at work reading news articles and having political understandings and it's like I'm working while I'm asleep. I have those type of dreams. I have dreams where I'm video editing. I have dreams where I'm carrying the trash out. I have dreams where I'm fishing. I have dreams where I'm back with one of my grandfathers, You know, camping. I basically have a wide spectrum of dreams. I have dreams sometimes where I'm like, it's in all this vivid color, and it's like you're on a space station, but it's nothing like you've ever seen or imagined. There's just all these beings of light, and like space bridges, and interdimensional gates, and of course it's, you could say it's human imagination, whatever, it's fantastical. Those are the type of dreams I have.

[2015-12-22]

I dream about this stuff. I live it always. I know it's real. It's all out in the open. And, man, these people that are taking over are really bad.

[2016-07-20] - Fighting globalists

I dream about it. I live it constantly. I'm hyperventilating on air thinking about it.

[2016-08-17]

I just dream about work all, I mean, the entire night I'm just working.

[2016-09-12]

I had a dream about a month ago, I told people around the offices that were, she's had a debate with Trump and like falls over, it's like going like this, and they just go, we're liberal, we have to give it to her now, and she fell over.

[2016-11-07]

I dream about it. I jump out of bed. I run around like a crazy animal just wanting to fight. I'll be at midnight just doing more.

[2017-10-08] - CIA asking Stanley Kubrick how he knew about Plan R & B52 decoders

And he had to tell them, I just had a dream about it.

[2018-08-21]

And I've been having a dream about volcanoes and earthquakes and meteors hitting the earth.

[...]

I don't get into this a lot, but I do have the, you know, what they call the touch. I don't think, most people that claim they have it are con artists, and they can't control it. No one can control it, in my experience. In fact, the way to control it is not to control it.

[2019-03-24]

I had a dream about Jeff Bezos, like, last week. Because I have, like, these dreams where I'm doing PowerPoints, I'm giving speeches, I'm doing... I like work during my dreams. Sometimes it's my best work time. And in my dream, I'm sitting there talking to Jeff Bezos, and Jeff's like, I ship stuff in from all over the world and have millions of employees here in the U.S. and you say I'm the worst big tech giant.

[2019-05-13]

So the strangest thing about this last night, I had a dream about this last night. I woke up at 3 a.m. and couldn't go back to sleep. I had this dream. I had this dream where I was interviewing the medical doctor that worked at four state prisons overseeing medical wards.

[...]

Now you know what was funny about the dream? My eyes popped open at 3.02 a.m. And I went, that's not a dream. I interviewed that doctor.

[2020-07-08] - Caller dreaming about Alex

Caller Well, two and a half years ago, I had a prophetic dream about you that was in Technicolor imagery and whatnot.
AJ By the way, I had a discussion with Tim Fruge this morning about dreams the last few nights, and he said it's like cartoon Technicolor.

[2020-07-09]

I dream about the lockdown and the New World Order now. I don't even have regular dreams anymore. My wife doesn't. It's all we talk about.

[2020-08-24]

When I go to bed at night, I dream about fighting the globalists and how to stop them.

[2020-12-17]

I only dream about this stuff 90% of the time, used to 5% of the time. I have basically no life other than this. It's all I do. And I still feel like I'm not doing enough, but I'm not going to quit.

[2021-07-08]

I used to dream about fantasy stuff and, you know, things didn't make sense. Now my dreams are all like work. When I'm asleep at night, it's like how to raise my children better. Where should I move? What should I do during the collapse? What am I gonna... How do I get right with God? And last night, it seemed like 20 years I was asleep. And I was just praying to God and talking to God and just... I think all of you are going through that right now because We're going to look back, as I said a year ago, on that as the good old times.

[2021-09-15]

This is all I dream about. You know, I used to have dreams about interesting things, boring things, wild things. Now I just dream about this. I'm at the office all day in my brain, when I'm awake, when I'm asleep, because it's just so incredible that we're just sitting here on air while they censor everybody and sue the Gateway Pundit and sue One American News and Newsmax and sue us and they say the goal is to bankrupt us.

[2021-12-23]

I had a dream about you last night, but I couldn't remember the dream when I woke up. When I got up, I said, I got to get Zelenko on today. And then I said, what was the dream about? I couldn't remember. And then I just remembered that I said to myself, well, Zelenko kind of says the same thing every time he's on, just like you do. It's not an attack. It's true. Same emergency message. But I said, no, today's going to be different. And then I intended to come in here. And talk about depopulation, talk about the UN, talk about Schwab, and talk about... She wasn't even by name, but those same groups, and then here you said it. This is amazing. And I'm not trying to be weird about it, it's just true, so I feel like I should have said that.

[2021-12-23]

I had a dream about him. Couldn't remember what it was like. Get Zelenko on. Usually he can't come on short notice. He could today. So this is meant to happen.

[2022-01-13]

I had a dream about Stuart Rhodes last night. God is my witness, before God, all my children. And I had a dream about Stuart. You know these dreams were all foggy but he was key and I wanted to love him and he wasn't bad and I'd been wrong even though I hadn't set it on air and I need to reach out to Stuart and get him on air but Stuart's a jerk and arrogant and he'll think you're just manipulating him and he's paranoid but that I needed to reach out to Stuart. And here we are. The sixth sense is real folks. We're all connected to the universe and God. We're all psychic.

[2022-01-13]

By the way, I've never had a dream about Stuart Rhodes. Had one last night. Woke up at 3 a.m. Went back to sleep. More Stuart Rhodes dreams. I mean, this is some big stuff going on, folks.

[2023-04-25]

I had a dream about him four or five days ago. It was a dream like, I'm around a table with Ted Gunderson and Red Beckman and Bob Fletcher, literally having a discussion about how to defeat the New World Order. And so I went to the producers and I said, call Bob Fletcher, see if he's still alive. And he is. And so he's coming on the show tomorrow.

[2023-06-16]

I dream about the New World Order all night long. I roll out of bed thinking about it when my feet hit the ground, and I make a lot of mistakes.

[2023-09-12]

I had this incredible dream where my mother's mother, my grandmother, Benny Hamlin, was there. She just said, I love you so much. We're so proud of you. Whether you think that was really me meeting her in heaven or whether it was my brain building, that didn't matter. She was there and she said, give me your hand. I held her hand. She said, we are so proud of you. I never had dreams like that until I fought evil. Now, every night I have dreams like that. I get to see my grandparents, and people I don't even know, they go, I'm your ancestor. I get to meet these incredible people.

[2023-10-30]

And all I dream about now, basically, is wargaming all this. I mean, I'm literally at work while I'm asleep, constantly. I mean, I've just shifted into a mode, and that's how I know all this stuff. Because the subconscious is much more powerful than the conscious. And my subconscious is totally turned over to beating these people. And that's where we're getting all this advanced intel.

[2023-11-20]

And committed now in my every waking hour and when I'm asleep, all I do is dream about this now. How to beat the enemy.

[2023-11-21]

And finally, I've seen what I dream about every night, but even more intense and more powerful.

[2023-12-08]

30 minutes ago and said, hey, I've had experiences where I haven't seen somebody in 10 years, well he can tell the story, and I have a dream about him, and then I see him the next day. We all have those experiences, and that shows you there's a lot more than what we just perceive and see visually, and that's where God comes in.

[2024-04-15]

And about two years ago, I had dream after dream where God said, you need to stop working 18 hours a day. You need to spend time with your family. You need to keep doing what you're doing. But you have committed your mission. You have been successful. And I was just given a feeling of total peace. And I said on there two years ago, I have completed my mission. Jack Posobiec retweeted it.

[2024-05-05]

When I go to sleep at night, I just dream about fighting the world order. Trying to work problems out. Researching my dreams. It's basically all I do other than spend time with family.

First of all, if you're happy with Foundry, Roll20, Owlbear Rodeo, or whatever else, I'm not here to tear down your favourite tool, keep using the thing that works well for you.
... However, if you want to be able to run an RPG online without having to download any programs, make your players sign up for new accounts or learn a totally new interface, without paying anyone a cent, Google Sheets may be a good option for you, and I'd like to show you how to use it.

Character Sheets

This is the primary use. If you're playing a game with any moderately sized fanbase, you have a good chance of being able to find a Google Sheets character sheet for your game of choice that someone else has made. For example, it was trivial to find sheets for these games by searching "[Game] Google Sheets" online:

• Pathfinder
• Mothership
• Call of Cthulhu
• Traveller
• Old-School Essentials

However, not every game has been covered. Fortunately, RPG designer and graphic artist momatoes has created a thorough and accessible style guide for creating character sheets. This takes some time to learn and do, but once you've made it, you don't have to do it again until you start playing another game.
If you're the type of person who enjoys automated character sheets, there is no VTT that can provide the same amount of depth and variability that the functions of a spreadsheet can, many of which are well documented with instructions on how to use them. I find implementing these functions to be painless when compared to something like scripting a Foundry module. I recommend learning how to use the SUM function at a bare minimum as it can do a lot of heavy lifting, but if you don't mind typing things in by hand, then you really don't need any function knowledge at all.
Here is a folder of the character sheets I've made (please don't request the ability to modify these sheets, make a copy for yourself instead). Be warned, many of them aren't totally in line with their respective rulesets due to the fact that I often make at least a couple of houserules to any game I play, but feel free to use them as-is or modify them for your game of choice. They aren't perfect, but they were totally fine to play with and have never caused me headaches, which I cannot say for any other digital character sheet.
This is not a demanding skill to learn, and if you participate in lots of online play, the amount of reward you get out of it will more than make up for the effort put in. If you can whip up a simple character sheet in 20 minutes or a more in-depth one in an evening, you can run any game online without needing official support on any platform, and you'll save yourself and your other players from ever needing to use a form fillable PDF again (I have gotten ludicrous amounts of praise for making basic character sheets like these in games where the GM doesn't want to bother with a VTT).

Maps

This is the other big one. You're not going to get fog of war (easily, at least) or measuring stick tools, but it's almost trivial to set up a map, whether it's for battles, travels, or dungeons.
Make a new sheet and either remove all of the rows + columns except for one and expand them to a reasonable size, or merge all of the rows and columns together. Then, upload your map into the big cell by navigating Insert > Image > Insert image in cell.
Once you have the map set up, you can add the PCs and potential adversaries by navigating Insert > Image > Insert image over cells. Resize them to their appropriate size, and voila, you have a functional battlemap.

Other things

There is a randomization function, but it isn't perfect. The numbers it spits out will be different to everyone looking at them, since it registers locally, not on the side of a server. You basically have to trust that your players aren't lying. It works fine enough as a dice roller (some of my older sheets still have "dice" sections on them), but I prefer letting people simply roll dice at their desk or using a dice bot in Discord, which you're probably using to communicate with your players anyway.
Make a reference page with the core rules of your game. You can do this by hand (like I did for Scum & Villainy), or if your game comes with a rules reference, you can simply copy and paste it in (like I did with Land of Eem).
You can right-click any cell to insert a note on it, which contains nested text that will pop up whenever you hover your cursor over that cell. This is incredibly useful for a variety of purposes, including putting rules reminders on various parts of a character sheet, containing the details and page reference for character abilities, or detailing the contents of a container a character is carrying.
Check boxes and dropdowns can be inserted into cells from the Insert panel, which are quite helpful for things like limited abilities, tracking small-numbered resources, and so on.
I feel that this one is obvious, but just in case anyone isn't aware, you can have multiple pages in one spreadsheet, adding a new one is as easy as right clicking and duplicating an existing page, or using the + button at the very bottom left of the spreadsheet. You can have your entire campaign in one spreadsheet by using multiple pages: one for your map, one for each of your player's character sheets, a rules reference, as well as anything else you might want, like dedicated pages for Blades in the Dark clocks or player notes.
You can turn gridlines off by toggling View > Show > Gridlines. They can be helpful to have up while you're making a character sheet, but they're not nice to look at during play. Similarly, you can hide the whole bar interface at the top by toggling View > Full Screen.

Wrapping up

I hope this was useful to anyone reading; Google Sheets aren't the perfect universal TTRPG tool, there are VTTs that do some things better, but I've been using them for a couple of years now and I've found them to be just the right fit for my needs, and maybe they'll be a good fit for you, too.

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