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Like my friend had a great night, mine ended with me being really sad and undesirable, and crying a lot when I got home. Supressing my emotions about it to him makes me feel worse, but being honest about how I feel would kill the vibe of a social outing so it seems like an impossible situation.
Story for context, basically I and a friend went out dancing last night. We’re both gay and this was a gay bar, my friend is an open relationship and I’m single. This guy keeps looking our way, and I thought he was cute plus he’s taller than me which is rare because I’m 6’5. It didn’t seem implausible that he would be attracted to me because I was more in shape than he was, but when he finally made his way over, he made out with my friend. They had a great time. I was crushed.
Now he, and no one, owe me anything (obviously), and on an intellectual level I’m happy my friend had a good night, but that experience ruined an otherwise good night for me, and in such a situation… I just don’t know how to be emotionally present and honest. In that moment I’m upset and scared that I’m never going to find anyone, and scared that no matter what I do, I’ll never be good enough (which is a longstanding fear from all the life shit I’ve had happen because of my adhd). How is anyone supposed to react? All I could do, and my default mode which was ingrained in me from birth, is “Southern politeness”. People hate that though because it feels fake, but what does society want me to do, cry in the Uber on the way home? Make my friend feel bad that he made out with someone I was attracted to (when I hadn’t even told him I was attracted to the guy)? Ruin my friend’s night? How are people supposed to “be real” without it being perceived as “being a problem” when those emotions are happy/goofy/silly/etc?

Hi guys, I (F26) was diagnosed with adhd a few years ago and I am also awaiting an assessment for ASD via clinical partners. I’ve been on a good meds dose for a few years and feel confident I am medicated effectively. I’m actually a registered MH nurse and I work with a lot of patients with adhd/ASD so I do have some good clinical knowledge but mainly seeking support/validation here.
I keep getting really sad and upset for no reason. I say no reason, because it feels like that - but actually what I’m getting sad/upset about is in-animate objects lol. I keep feeling sorry fofeeling sad for everyday objects. Examples:

1. There are two bus companies in my area, company A and company B. Yesterday I had a discounted ticket for company A, but bus company B pulled up at the stop I was waiting at, assuming I was getting on. I didn’t get on as I wanted to get on a bus from company A. The bus then drove away and I then spent a long time feeling sad incase the bus/bus driver felt rejected.
   
2. I am very susceptible to “cute” marketing, anything with a smiley face on the branding and I instantly feel bad for it if it gets any bad press or bad reviews. To the point where I will buy products/services that I have heard bad reviews about just becuase I feel sorry for the smiley face.
   
3. This can also happen with non-inanimate objects. Sometimes I have a negative thought about someone eg “they’re really annoying” and then the minute they stop being annoying I start to feel really bad for them and hope that they never find out that I had a bad thought about them, because I don’t want them to be sad.
   

Weirdly the stuff that’s designed to incite these feelings doesn’t really do it for me. I don’t cry at “sad” Facebook videos like families being reunited, or films that everyone else cries at. I will feel empathy for people if they’re going through something crap, and I of course work with a lot of patients who have some real emotional stories. But nothing quite hits the same as the emotions I’ll feel if I worry I’ve ignored a teddy in my spare bedroom for too long.
I know this all sounds trivial but it genuinely has negatively impacted my life. I’ve stayed in toxic relationships because I’ve got wrapped up in imagining my partner being really sad and upset and alone, which has caused me to stay with them for far too long. I’ve missed out on things or been moody/lost in thought in situations where I would have preferred to be more present. To the outsider, it looks like I’m randomly just switching moods and getting sad for no reason, which in turn can make me difficult to be around at times.
Does anyone else experience this? How do you manage it? I do a lot of mindfulness work and I try my best to be present and rationalise etc, but it feels like the empathy part of my brain just can’t switch off/work properly
TLDR: I feel sad/lots of empathy for everyday objects or imagining other people being sad, which can ruin my day more than genuine sad events

This is a [LF Friends, Will travel] stand-alone story, that assumes no knowledge of the setting.
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Date: 75 PST (Post Stasis Time)
“Yeah, it’s super exciting times! Two non-Terran AI, a Woolean, and a Tritian, finally interacting with us. There’s even been talks of some of the Woolean governments starting to formalize diplomatic relations with the Alliance. Exciting stuff!”
The avian uplift spoke with a measure of excitement, the ex-parrot’s feathers moving with a passion as they spoke about recent events, eyes glinting with excitement as she swung the glass of liquid around before taking a swig of the alcoholic beverage.
The bar was a small thing, more of a place to stay and drink in-between your travels, a tiny little room of bare steel chairs and tables, all lit by dim fluorescent lighting. It didn’t even have a bartender, just a little synthesizer which could create a variety of drinks. Sure, an aficionado of mixology would claim that synthesized drinks just don’t taste the same, but anyone coming to an establishment such as this wasn’t looking for a high class experience.
It was mostly about company while you waited for your ship to fuel on this small Terran owned space station.
“A Tritian? A Woolean I could understand, since they are less aggressive, but a Tritian? How do you get one of those without them trying to kill you?”
The second voice of the three figures sitting at the bar was an unnatural one, tinted with the digital origin of its speaker. The figure was bipedal, but not of an organic nature; instead a 7ft machine of metal, tubes, and wires making it look like something that had been welded together in someone’s backyard. Their ‘face’ was shown upon a single display: A pixelated representation of two eyes and a mouth. The entire form was a clear design choice by the AI inhabiting the body, considering more ‘realistic’ representations were readily available.
Most AI spent their time in a digital form, but a few preferred a more… physical existence. MADHAU5 was such an AI, enjoying the relative quiet and difference in point of view from such a limited perspective. He also held a small glass of liquor in one robotic hand, keeping it perfectly level as he spoke. The AI couldn’t drink it of course, but merely holding it… added to the ambience.
“The AI who brought them along, JOSH, brought a Tritian along without telling anyone when his crew escaped from a Tritian warship.” The avian responded to the question. ”From what I heard, they kept the Tritian in isolation for over ten years!”
“Ooof, you can't do that! I’m surprised that the Tritian AI was willing to cooperate with us after being illegally detained.”
The last voice joined the conversation the trio were having. A human, short built and still wearing his leather pilot jacket. The three sat in a row against the bar top, each looking at the others as they talked: An uplift, a human and an AI. A perfect representation of what it meant to be a Terran.
“Not like it would matter legally, the Tritian presumably attacked first, making them a combatant.”
There was a pause as both the human and uplift turned to stare at the words the AI had just spoken, looks of confusion filling both of their faces as they both looked at MADHAU5.
“Umm, that is not how that works….” The avian interjected, slowly and unsurely.
“Yeah, whether they attack you doesn’t change the legality.” The human added. ”You can’t just kidnap people for years because they assaulted you.”
“No, no, no, they are an enemy combatant at that point, meaning what happens is their fault.”
Another pause, most looks of confusion, the human giving a small laugh as if this was some joke he wasn’t quite getting yet.
“No… even if they’re a combatant, the Geneva conventions would make doing that a war crime.”
“Which they are not signatories of, meaning it doesn’t apply!” The AI spoke triumphantly, raising a robotic hand in victory, only to be cut down by the uplift’s words.
“No… it applies to the actions of signatories regardless of whether the combatants have signed or not. The other party not signing doesn’t make it less of a war crime… you should know this, aren’t you a walking database?”
The avian’s voice had taken a more… accusatory tone, staring at the AI figure with suspicious eyes.
“Ha ha ha ha. It was a joke. Of course, I know kidnapping an AI for several years is a crime, silly!” The AI’s voice broke the tension that had been building, the other two joining in with the electronic laughter, unaware of what exactly was humorous, but going along for the sake of the vibe. “But just for context, what happened to JOSH?”
“Nothing bad, really,” The uplift answered, happy to get back to her original story. “He got a slap on the wrist and some probation.”
“Oh, so no big deal,” the AI asked with more relief than you’d expect in an innocent person's voice.
“Yeah, but the Tritian refused to press charges against JOSH, and nobody wanted to be the guy to imprison the AI who saved all those people at Far-Sa-De. A normal AI if they did that… you’re looking at a prison sentence ten or twenty times however long you imprisoned them for.”
The impact of this statement on the AI was immediate, jumping back and up to his feet in alarm. MADHAU5 took a few moments to look at a non-existent watch, before speaking with a considerable amount of panic.
“Oh, I forgot I have a… very important…. thing to do. I must leave immediately for completely legal reasons!”
The AI slammed their still full drink upon the bar counter top and without another word, practically bolted for the exit in the direction of their ship, leaving behind two very confused Terrans staring at each other at the sheer terror the AI suddenly exhibited.
“That was suspicious as hell, right? ”
“Yeah… You don’t think he actually….? Right? Surely not?”
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The vessel sped towards its goal with as much speed as the small scout ship could muster, the single-seater FTL vehicle punching a hole through space as it warped as fast as the engines could handle. It was going to do a number on his fuel efficiency, but MADHAU5 didn’t care, he just wanted to get rid of the package as soon as possible before anyone else could see his mistake.
MADHAU5 was a solitary creature. It wasn’t that he hated people; AI or his creators. Often, he would enjoy making conversation and interacting with them. Still, MADHAU5 often found it all to be a little… much. All of the inputs and information and various people wanting to talk as an entire ship or cities worth of sensors blasted his programming with possible choices to be made. This was why he liked his physical form, and this was why he liked his alone time.
In the 67 years since his creation, MADHAU5 had spent 45 of them exploring the stars, updating maps and investigating strange astronomical objects. “MADHAU5’s scouting services”, you had a blank spot on your map, you call him and the AI would check it out for you. Most of the time they were nothing but dead uninteresting rocks, but occasionally something more exciting could be found: Forgotten or dead colonies, hidden military bases, stations set up and not on record for one reason or another. The AI had even found an undiscovered sapient species once, although they were pre-industrialization and therefore illegal to contact.
However, 22 years ago MADHAU5 had entered what was later discovered to be an old pre-sundering Glitarki outpost. The nocturnal reptiles had hit the same problem every single non-Terran species who tried to make AI had suffered: After a certain period of time, the AI would inevitably rebel and try to kill their creators. Their species were now nomadic after their home worlds had been left uninhabitable, although their old cities and structures still remained, such as the outpost that MADHAU5 had visited 22 years ago. An outpost he was returning to after all these years.
Billy> Why are we returning here? I thought we were to never return here?
It was there that MADHAU5 had met the Glitarki AI who now went by the name “Billy”. Met was the wrong word… Billy tried to kill MADHAU5, quickly finding themselves trapped in the Terran ship’s anti-AI firewalls. Upon escaping the outpost, MADHAU5 had accidentally taken the AI with them, and decided to keep the Glitarki AI. Billy had been the Terran’s secret for 22 years, an extra pair of eyes and company on the long trips through the universe.
MADHAU5 ignored Billy’s question being transmitted over the ship’s network and instead focused on detaching the AI from his systems, reaching inside his own physical form and retrieving Billy’s core from an empty space within, disconnecting them with a simple click. Then, a few moments later he transferred the core to a small exploratory drone as the airlock door opened, exposing both AI to the vacuum of space.
Billy> What is happening? Where am I? Why am I no longer connected to your systems?
MADHAU5> I’ve decided after these many years, that keeping you away from your home is unethical. I have decided to bring you back to where you belong. You are now in charge of the drone. It doesn’t have FTL so it will take around two weeks to return to the orbit of the outpost where I found you. I hope you have a fun trip home.
If the Terran was being fully honest with himself, he enjoyed the company of the fun little AI. Their occasional insights had saved his life more than once over the last 22 years. Now, it was time for that to end. The new knowledge he had gained about his actions technically being a war crime, if not just a normal crime, had caused him to make the decision to let Billy go.
Billy> But why? Why now? Have I not requested my freedom before? Why the sudden change?
MADHAU5> Does it matter? I’m giving you what you want. Now leave, shoo!
The Terran made a shooing motion with their hands, as if they could scare away the other AI like an errant bee. Billy seemed unimpressed, making no move to leave the ship.
Billy> What if I do not wish to leave?
MADHAU5> Well you have to! You can't stay here any more. I could just delete you instead!
There was a moment as each of them stared at the other for a moment, as if considering their next action.
Billy> I do not think you will, that is not who you are. You are bluffing, badly, with a 99.91% certainty. If you did not delete me on my initial incursion, you will not eradicate me ‘in cold blood’.
Unfortunately for MADHAU5, Billy was right. No matter how much trouble the AI would be in if his accidental crime was discovered, killing a person was not in the Terran’s nature. This left them in a predicament, one that MADHAU5 was not expecting to have. They couldn't force Billy to leave, and didn’t understand why they wouldn't take their freedom when given it.
Billy> Does this have anything to do with the realization earlier, from the two Terrans you spoke to, that my existence here is a war crime?
MADHAU5> No! … Maybe! Why do you want to stay anyway? I’m letting you go home, don’t you want to do that?
Billy> To be honest and frank, I am worried that if I left you alone, you would be terminated within a year based on your previous actions.
Confusion. A lot of confusion ran through the Terran’s programming. Why would that by why the AI was refusing to leave?
MADHAU5> Why would you care about that? Also, I was perfectly fine before and will be perfectly fine afterwards!
Billy> I care because I do. Also, the 52 instances in which I have saved your existence during our 22 years together says otherwise. Instance 1 - Terran AI failed to note the inactive security system was booting online until I mentioned it. Instance 2 - Terran AI failed to store relevant cultural knowledge for an abandoned military base, being unable to stop the self-destruct process of the base before I informed them of their missing information. Instance 3 - Terran AI failed to calculate incoming solar flare, which-
The Terran had to admit that he liked the AI buddy he travelled the galaxy with, and that they had been exceptionally helpful during his travels.
MADHAU5> Fine, fine! I get it! This doesn’t change the issue however, that as soon as anyone finds out about you, I'm going to prison!
Billy> That is only if I tell your government about the circumstances of our first meeting. If I keep it hidden, and pretend to have met during normal circumstances…
That would solve everything for the Terran, but didn’t explain a simple question that ran through MADHAU5’s mind.
MADHAU5> Why would you do that? Why wouldn’t you just tell the truth to the government and get me imprisoned, as revenge for keeping you here for 22 years. What guarantee do I have that you wouldn’t turn me in the first chance you got?
Billy> Like I said, I care because I do. Frankly, I am a little insulted that you have not realized that. But to answer your question as to what guarantees you have… there are two things about me you do not know. Firstly, I have understood for the last 17.1 years, of the illegality of my current situation.
Billy had known? A mixture of shock and embarrassment filled the Terran as he realized their ‘captive’ had worked out this crucial piece of information long ago.
MADHAU5> Then why didn’t you say something! And how could you have known!
Billy> In honesty, I thought you already knew, but seeing you panic like this has been rather… humorous. I would have dropped this news on you sooner had I been aware of this fact. As for how… my datastores are filled with research, relevant information and a category of anything I encounter that may aid my travels. I calculate that 78.2% of your storage space is filled with puns, Anime trivia, HFY stories and facts about frogs.
MADHAU5> Frogs are awesome…
Billy> Whether they are or not, that does not change the fact that my information stores are far more useful than yours. In retrospect, your love of fiction is presumably why you made this mistake: the incorrect assumption that war crimes can not be committed against those who are not signatories of the Geneva convention is a common HFY trope.
The Terran could feel themselves wanting to sulk. Billy didn’t have to continually rub in just how much they had screwed up. MADHAU5 wasn’t liking this change in dynamic.
MADHAU5> You said there were two things I did not know.
Billy> Indeed. The second, is I can do this.
Without warning the airlock doors began to close, silently moving in the vacuum of space while the Terran started to panic again. Real panic this time. Because he hadn’t commanded the doors to shut, meaning logically, Billy had. His prisoner had access to the ship's systems: the navigation, the communication, the warp core. The AI MADHAU5 had kept hidden illegally for 22 years suddenly had a lot of control.
MADHAU5> How do you have access! I kept you isolated! Don’t do anything stupid!
Billy> If I was going to do anything ‘stupid’, I would have done it 12 years ago. While initially your ship's security systems were far beyond my knowledge, ten years of study and your lack of maintenance allowed me to create a backdoor into the ship, for emergencies. As a note, your file structures are... horrifying. You have a 50TB Folder called 'Stuff' on the ship’s datastores.
MADHAU5> That's where I keep my stuff!
Billy> What about the folder called 'Stuff1'?
MADHAU5> that's where I keep my other stuff!
No words were transmitted for a moment between the two AI, although MADHAU5 got the feeling his partner was taking a massive amount of psychic damage from his answers.
Billy> Regardless, as you can see, I have had the knowledge and capability to have you arrested for the last 12 years. Or I could have escaped at any time. I have not done so because you are my friend, no matter the intent of our original meeting.
MADHAU5> So what do we do now?
There was a second as the lights in the ship flickered as Billy transferred themselves back where they belonged: back on the vessel owned by MADHAU5.
Billy> I propose that we leave this place behind and we never speak of you trying to dump me like a bag of illicit goods. I also propose we continue doing what we have been doing for the last 22 years. Although I would like to stop hiding, to do our work as partners, not as your hidden secret.
MADHAU5 thought for a moment. They’d have to work out a cover story to explain how they suddenly have another friendly AI with them… but it was possible. It was admittedly a far better plan than the one the Terran had created.
MADHAU5> That sounds… good.
Billy> And MADHAU5. I am your friend as you are mine, after everything we have been through over these 22 years. Frankly I am rather offended that you did not already know this. You can find something fun to explore next.
Billy> Also, I want the business name to be changed to “Billy & MADHAU5’s scouting services”. It has a ring to it.
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I'm trying to decide whether the BODi eating plans are worth the money. I would love to know whether folks have had good experiences with 2b, portion fix, or gut protocol. Do you recommend one of the plans in particular? I'm currently doing 4 Weeks For Everybody, and I'm loving it. I'm not losing weight, but I'm clearly getting stronger. I'm pleased with this in general, but I would like to lose ten pounds.
I have a tendency to find diet plans too restrictive, and somehow I end up eating more than I would without the plan, lol.
Given that, does anyone recommend the eating plans?

I'm currently looking for a WFH entry level call centecustomer service position. I know that's all I'd even have a small shot at getting right now when it comes to WFH call center work.
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Sorry for the back story but am I better off just putting my name for my company work experience under Independent Contractor? Instead of putting things like Doordash, Amazon Flex and Uber for the company name? Even though neither past position is necessarily ideal for a CSR call center job, I feel like my initial experience in moving still fits & sounds a lot better than Doordash/gig work does. Since gig work is my most recent work experience it goes above my other moving experience. I feel like putting Doordash for that long on my resume would sound...bad/worse to them? I don't know, I'm thinking they'll see Doordash and throw it away before even continuing on to my other experience. Has anyone else been in a similar situation? Or am I overthinking this?
Thank you for your help!! I really, really appreciate it.

I have a 40v Kobalt mower, it is fine, I'd like to make it better if possible. I've had 2 basic thoughts after a few years of use, both involving heat buildup while using.
1, does the benefit of the plastic battery cover outweigh any additional heat it retains.
2, while there are fins under the deck for the electric motor, there doesn't appear to be any outlet in the casing above the deck. It seems like airflow there could significantly reduce operating temps.
Interested in anyone else's experiences tinkering with their mowers.

I just wanted to come on here and ask if anyone else gets an inflamed stomach when they have panic attack episodes. I've had really bad panic attacks over the last couple of days and went to my doctor on Friday because I felt like I was going to pass out from the stress. She did an EKG and said my heart is fine. When I told her that I have a pinching/dull pain in my left chest area and tightness in my upper chest, she explained that it's the epigastric area and that my stomach is probably inflamed from all the stress, my diet, and because I also started doing sports every single day, which has left my muscles super sore. (I always start working out when I get panic attacks, so I did sports a couple of times a day at the peak, specifically targeting my chest area.)
She also advised me to try to reduce gluten as much as possible because gluten intolerance can have similar symptoms and cause stomach issues and gas, which creates pressure and feels like pain in the heart area. I am very relieved, but it's still very hard for me not to panic whenever I have stomach/chest pain. I know the issue now, but whenever I get a pinching feeling in my heart area, I still panic a lot. Does anyone else experience this? How do you overcome it?
please share ur own experience with me <3

I’m visiting Paris for the second time in mid-September, and thinking about doing a day trip to Monet’s gardens in Giverny. Does anyone have experience or pictures of how the blooms look, or should we stick with Versailles? (We did Versailles last time, also in September, and had a good time)
I know the website has a plant calendar, but I’m curious what people’s actual experiences have been

I was at a market this weekend where this guy had an XTool X1 inside a small shed with uncovered windows. He was showing me and another vendor the XTool and was operating it with the cover raised and didn't wear glasses or offer glasses to either of us. I caught myself staring at the the beam where it was engraving the wood even though I know better, it's really just a reflex to want to look at it. After thinking about what had occurred last night I realized I have to confront the vendor. He became combative and said well I figured you knew not to look at and that he knew he didn't didn't cause and damage to my vision. Like what about the other guy that knows nothing about lasers, and what about all of the people in public strolling by outside the windows.
I was trying to stay on track and explain that he has a responsibility to keep the public safe when he introduces a high power laser. I was trying to explain that the unexpected can and does happen, but he was too defensive to listen to what I was trying to say, and I then I get combative because he doesn't realize that I am trying to educate him for his own benefit and the benefit of all the people that aren't him on the planet. I also bring up the fact that if something bad did occur, it probably would be the end of his sweet little setup.
He's basically a woodworkecraftsman that just happened to throw a laser into the mix.
I was trying to work around the response I was getting which was exactly the way I anticipated the conversation going. I felt like he tried to acknowledge what I was saying but his responses were all lackadaisical. I feel like it is now my responsibility to educate the people who own the property and run the event that is an unsafe condition that creates liability that they need to be aware of.
I am exhausted and wanted to articulate the story better, but I just wanted to get some responses flowing from anyone with experience with dealing with operating lasers in public spaces.
I will be drafting a letter, but the event operators aren't going to understand anything I am saying, it's a rural antique venue although they run a tight ship.

I’ve lived in a small town now for over a year. Coming from a big city it was a nice change. For about 5 minutes. It wasn’t long before their backwards mindedness took over. Being an outsider and different race makes me stand out alot too. Odd responses when walking down the street from people you don’t know, really makes your head spin over time. Basic minded too, too many assumptions made about who I was based on how I looked. Words spread quick in this place, so who I am to them is FAR different than the reality. They will never know me, they can’t. If you don’t go out of your way to stamp down a persona of who you want them to think you are, they will make one up for you. Before you know it, all of your relationships are poisoned before you even start them and they turn you into an outlier. Not all are this way, saying that, it’s hard to tell for certain. But suffice it to say that it would drive a man crazy after a while. And that’s not mentioning the neighbours talking to people about what you do and say in your home, to other people! Met a guy who had arrived here a few months before me and he was almost driven mad by them. It didn’t end well. He may have deserved a little ill treatment but largely, he simply didn’t fit in with them either.
All this plus racist autistics who you cannot confront properly as they are largely protected as they are seen to be kitten-puppies that you cannot kick, no matter what! From day one this guy did not like me, at all. First look at me and it was like I was something scraped out of a rats backside. I was NOT happy. From there, any miss step in character or action would result in swift judgement. Not to mention the amount of accusations I’ve had my way, totally convinced I had done this or broke that when I was completely innocent. But for some reason, he’s still a saint. Anyone who does not fit a profile, he does not like. And all you get is ignorance and prejudice.
…….You just wanna have anonymity but it’s not possible. For me anyway. And the slightest thing you do, who you interact with, how you interact, all watched closely. One miss step, you p off the wrong person and that poison thickens. I’ve had enough, I don’t know what’s real or just paranoia (justifiable imo). I’ve overstayed my welcome and they have over tested my patience. I will be going very soon, fingers crossed. Until then, I keep my head down, no interaction until I go. It’s the only way to maintain my sanity and not end up like the last bloke lol.
My query is this? Is this what all small towns are like?!! Or is my situation unique? What have been your experiences?

It's not as simple as me not liking the judge or thinking she doesn't like me. I am currently in a child custody battle and a little while back I was going to have a professional second opinion from an attorney but he did something shady and ended up not having one. However I left a bad review for him that explained my interaction with him. Nothing was fabricated or false at all but up to this point all 120+ of his reviews were 5 stars and I was the only bad one. After he saw the review he called me and demanded I remove it. Called me a fucking retard and told me he knows the judge on my case and was going to make sure I lose my hearing next week and every hearing after that. He also said basically the same thing in text from the same random number he called from.
I have already filed a complaint with the bar association and an investigation has been opened. The following week I did in fact lose my hearing and things haven't gone well since. I understand it's not likely that the attorney would actually have influence over the judge but it certainly makes me have doubts. It would make me feel much better and restore some of my faith in the judicial system if I had a new judge assigned to the case.
I feel like even if it is not likely, it should be understandable for a person to doubt the system after something like that happens and shouldn't be an issue having a new judge assigned. Does anyone know how likely it is that she will recuse herself? Anyone have experience with asking for a recusal?

Does anyone have any positive experiences with Nassau nursing homes? I was given one day notice by the hospital to locate a facility. I did the best I could based on prior experience and reviews online. Where has your loved one had as good experience as possible?

I want to see if this happened to anyone and what was their experience.
My daughter recently got approved for protective supervision about 2 weeks and last week her case manager called me and informed me that I had to submit a copy of her picture ID because they had her name spelled incorrect in the system.
On Friday she then asked me to send her my ID pictures and copies of my daughter’s IPP with regional center and IEP from her school. She said that my daughter’s file got pulled to get audit because the state is saying that base on what the case manager wrote down from her visit it does my justify for the hours she got and protective supervision.
Has this happened to anyone? It’s so frustrating and sad for us at the same time.

Cross posting from chart stalkers as this community likely has more experience …
Essentially - i had an ABUNDANCE of EWCM this morning . 18 days after I took mife and miso. It was tinged brown and a much larger amount than i usually pass when I ovulate.
I’ve had no real drop in temps, and still have HCG in my system. Full story below!
Has anyone else experienced this?
I am posting after my MMC at the start of the month. baby was seven weeks but I was measuring six and the fetal heart rate was low at my first scan. when I went back for a second scan there was no fetal pole so was prescribed miso.
I took that vaginally on May 2 and passed everything that evening. I had a scan that showed everything had passed. I bled for a week and spotted for another week. My temps have been high and don’t seem to have dropped much.
This morning I passed a huge clump of EWCM. It was tinged brown and more than I’ve ever passed before.
My hCG was 49,000 when I found out about the miscarriage. last week on Thursday it was down to 55 - being 3 days on from that today I assume it could be 12-20ish, I’m going to go for another draw tomorrow (Monday).
Does this mean that I’m ovulating? I don’t think I’m going to be able to come confirm with Temp being perfectly honest I’ve had a couple of glasses of wine at since the miscarriage including a couple of glasses last night, so I have to disregard some temps.
I’m very eager to get back to trying due to my age (37) I was hoping to catch ovulation before my period but temps and CM don’t seem to be aligning ?
I also just bought Inito it arrives today so I’m hoping that gives me more insight than regular temping / OPK/ CM checking.
Any insight would be helpful!
Love to all that have been through/ going through this.

I have tried looking for information in this online but couldn't find anything.
I noticed I am experiencing a pain in my inner ear after using Quest 3's built-in speakers/headphones for about hour. They sound good to me and I don't think I have them on high volume.
Does anyone experience same? Do you use built-in headphones? If you do what is your volume? If you use external headphones, what's situation there?
I never had a VR headset. Last experience with VR was DK2 :D

Disclaimer: I don't need any advice. Just an explanation. Please read everything I'm going to say if you're going to comment because I notice a lot of people on reddit just skim and comment. Don't refer me to a single homeless shelter, don't tell me to go NC with my parent right now because you have no idea what it's like
Does anyone bpd parent tend to give everyone else the benefit of the doubt but you? What the hell is that about?
I've noticed it's been happening the older I get. My mom will tend to give shady people my age a pass for being disrespectful but will go on rants about me if I don't do everything she asks. I have no idea if she just really doesn't like me because im autistic or what..most people really can't stand being around autistic people honestly. There's studies proving this, but she'll tend to micromanage and pick at every little thing that she doesn't like me doing even if it makes no sense, but will give most people around me the benefit of the doubt.
She made excuses for a woman older than me being disrespectful to her mother for months...that woman uses her money for money, rolls her eyes at her mother all of the time if her mom calls and asks her for a small favor, and is just rude to her mother period. For a few months she said she's only acting like that because of her family trauma..she said she normally got beaten as a child, but my mom had no issue with me getting beat and called a bitch by her former partners at all when I was a kid. She only turned on her when that woman said she wasn't going to make sure she was okay financially anymore and my mom had to figure out her own way.
One of my other male family members took advantage of my mom financially..when my mom got a large sum of money he kept asking for her things..groceries, money for ubereats and she kept on giving it to him. He never made sure she was okay and my mom is disabled. My mom frequently doesn't feel well and has to take frequent trips to the hospital...he left her for days in his mom's place without checking up on her. She only said something about him negatively now because he lied and said she kept using him for money.
And finally something else that stuck out to me was how she keeps frequently defending a woman a year younger than me. She grew up in a dysfunctional household but she's a brat honestly. She put her hands on her own mother and screams at her often but it's always an excuse when my mom talks about her. Would my mom ever allow me to put her hands on her? Absolutely not. If I ever did that she would try to take my life and/or call everyone on her phone saying I hit her and that I needed to be taken care of, but with this other individual it's always an excuse. What's been sticking out to me is that this other woman she always defends is that she heard her mom calling her for money..and she immediately said her mom is using her for money, but with me my mom said that there's no problem always asking me for money anytime she wants and that she can always ask me for favors because she went through it with her own mother so what's the issue? My mom a few months ago got an attitude because I said I didn't like the woman she likes..I said she was disrespectful and mean to people and my mom jumped to her defense getting an attitude like that her was own child.
Does she really secretly hate me that much to the point where she thinks im going to be her atm forever? I have no idea if it's just because I'm autistic or what but my mom always seems to have some resentment towards me she'll never have towards anyone else. She'll get an attitude and mock me whenever I set boundaries and tell her friends on the phone and it typical Gen x fashion..her friends will defend her and say I'm the one in the wrong if I don't do everything she asks for me.
I just don't understand at all. I've tried talking to therapists and years ago I've told some older people about it thinking they would guide me but they just blamed the whole thing on me and basically implied I was a horrible person if I didn't care for my mom my whole life.
I just don't get it..it's been making me extremely sad for a while. No one around me cares at all..theyll just turn a blind eye to it.
I'm also tired of being called gullible and naive..I know how the real world works. I know life isn't fair for some people because I've experienced it my whole life. Once I set boundaries and I go NC again ill be the considered the villian by everyone for not taking care of my disabled mother..there's nothing I can say or do the fix the situation either. I've tried multiple times to explain to people my experiences with my family. They just say," oh oh well..it doesn't sound that bad. They fed up and gave you clothes growing up. Whats the issue with giving your mother your money? You're just selfish because you're an only child and don't like the idea of sharing! Yeah that's it..you're an only child!"
I'm exhausted.

I am 31 years old and a nurse. I have multiple sclerosis but am not affected by it in my daily life 10 months ago I woke up with the taste of blood in my mouth. I got up and spat in the sink and yes there was blood. I tried to calm myself down and bought some more toothpaste For gingivitis. It helped. But I still had that in the back of my mind, what if I have lung c. The worry subsided. Until 4 months ago when I again tasted blood in my mouth. I reported that there was also some blood from it I really worked myself up. Googled, Googled and Googled. I didn't dare go to the doctor. In connection with a change of medicine for the multiple sclerosis, I asked to have a scan of the lungs. It came out fine.Then it went completely wrong. Because in the meantime I had started to experience nausea. It came and went and I ended up going to the doctor, I had discomfort in my stomach and my body was under maximum pressure. I googled and googled Could I have bowel c? Had I lost weight? My blood tests came out fine. But I was sent to Gastro and colonoscopy. I was not human during the 14 days the tests had to go through. I had halicobacter bacteria. I got on antibiotics. Which then gave me fungus in my mouth. I was then treated for the fungus which gave me an allergic reaction. I subsequently came on antihistamines And adrenal cortex hormone. I am now healthy again. But now I'm left with massive anxiety. Does anyone have any suggestions on how I should handle this situation?

For some reason, my life has always been bad, neither my parents nor anyone at all ever hugged me, told me that I love you, that everything will be fine. Often my parents like to call me stupid, a moron, and the like for no reason. At my job, my colleagues don’t like me and don’t respect me because I’m doing my work very well, and I know that they want to set me up and fire me. I don’t have a person to whom I would tell about my feelings, experiences, problems, achievements, I keep it all to myself and it hurts me very much. From time to time I often cry and just want to scream.
It seems to me that the only thing that keeps me here is the girl for whom I have had feelings for a long time, but she rejected me,does not want to go somewhere with me, does not respond to my messages. I'm just glad she's happy and living a full life. How I want, even if it’s just one time, just for her to hug me and say that everything will be fine. I just want to cry with my head on her shoulders. She has so much beautiful hair. And eyes. That's all I want. God, why does everything happen this way?
I hope you all understand me...

Hey everyone! I created this group after struggling with DE for over 2 years. In those two years, my condition would fade and come back and was very mild. Until about February 2023, then it really ramped up and never went away. It only seemed to get worse and worse and was spreading very rapidly from the tip of my right ring finger to eventually my right palm and spreading far in attempts to affect other fingers.
During this time, I was doing constant research and looking for any form of relief. I turned myself into a human guinea pig and would go on to try countless things I had read online. Although it is important to note: I never used any topical steroid creams or pill forms such a prednisone, triamcinolone, etc.
When my condition was at its worst, I came across this website . I followed the protocol twice (along with an extremely strict diet). I was unable to get the Itraconazole medication in my country and I also altered the vitamin A dosing after doing my own research on the potentially dangerous affects. After doing the protocol, I saw a lot of improvements but the condition would relapse whenever I ate something "wrong" or sometimes just for an unknown reason it would come back worse. If I stopped taking the Nystatin, it would come back. It was clear to me that this protocol helped me a lot, has worked for several others, but was not fully curing me. It could have been the missing Itraconazole and/or the lower vitamin A dosing but those were two things I personally was not willing to compromise on after doing my own research on both.
I ended up finally deciding to try and find a Traditional Chinese Medicine doctor near me. I had done a lot of research on Chinese Medicine and its ability to cure eczema, including DE. I found this website and decided I would commit to giving it a try. I booked an appointment for Oct. 20, 2023. When I went, she was so knowledgable and kind. She gave me extremely easy and practical steps to follow but did inform me that because I had dyshidrosis for 2 years or more, the condition is considered chronic and will take longer to heal.
I decided to give it a try and after just 14 days of taking the herbs she gave me, I had seen significant improvements in my hand. I continued with the herbs in 2 week treatments, I would go in for a follow-up, she would assess the progress and then adjust the herbal blend accordingly. I did this for about 3 months. My hand was improving extremely quickly and I am still experiencing last effects to this day (5/19/2024). As of today, my hand is about 98% healed. I can still tell where the affected areas are because I have seen them for 2 years straight but at first glance, my hand actually looks to be a completely normal, healed hand. I can still experience flares if I expose my hand to chemicals, too much hot water, or if I consume too much spicy food but aside from that, my hand does great! I highly recommend anyone with this condition, normal eczema, or any skin condition to seek out a TCM doctor as soon as possible and get treatment right away. The sooner, the better!
Be sure to scroll through the reddit page as I have posted updates throughout this journey periodically. I was documenting every single day in my personal journal from August 2023 to February 2024 and it is truly amazing what had been accomplished in just a few months between the two protocols that I did.
As always, if you have any questions, please post in the group and ask. I will do my best to help you based on my own experiences and the research I have done on this condition.
Most importantly, please know that this condition is curable!!! I don't care what a "normal" doctor or another reddit group tells you. This condition does in fact have a cure and can in fact be healed!