Fever, ear pain, and jaw pain

Hey I am trying to decide between browns or silent pinks. Trying to decide between with the best switch that will cause the least amount of strain. I got the glove80 with white clickies (60g force) and the actuation force plus always bottoming out due to low profile destroyed my hands. Pain I never felt on my fingers/palms ever in my life. And I come from MX Blues full size keyboards...
Would very much appreciate a response to these question: 1. How have the Pink Silents felt in term of the 35g Actuation Force (to light, just right, annoying?)? 2. Have you been pressing the keys constantly by accident by laying hands on keyboard? 3. Do you find yourself bottoming out more often (hitting thr key till it hits the the bottom) and feeling the impacts cause any strain? (GLOVE80 DID THIS TO ME A LOT) 4. Do you feel it doesnt affect you typing fast? (Does the key come up again fast enough?) 5. Do you feel the 35g have reduced any strain you might have had before? (I know not everybody suffers from switch actuation force)

At this time, I ask myself: Was any of this worth it? To be the symptom of your dysfunction, and perhaps I did deserve it? The wreckage of a situation: a meaningless form of purpose. I find myself questioning whether to endure it.
I am waiting emphatically, hoping for conclusion, only realizing much too late, this all must be illusion. The ticking clock, my only friend, what manner of delusion? I can only wait and concentrate on this extracurricular extrusion.
My mind is just a whisping flame, begging to be extinguished. Memories are commonplace, but none of them are English. Cropping fields and waging deals, not hoping for completeness. Resting hearts make less marks than those we wish to bleed with.
Essentially, my only goal is to continue feeling sane. Yet presently, it seems to be, the only sensation will be pain. Whether seeking help, or trusting self, inconsistencies remain. Failing forward, or falling up, the outcome is the same.

Hey all..
Probably about a year and a half ago, I was recreationally using nitrous oxide. During this time, I was so ignorant of the consequences and probably too naive to even care. I am now dealing with the consequences..
I remember going on a night out, going to sleep and waking up in a completely different body. My symptoms were - pain at the base of my skull whenever I moved, clicking in my neck, extreme fatigue, muscle weakness, dry skin and very pale, incredibly pale and borderline depressed.
I went to see my Dr, I was fairly open about this. She sent me to A&E and we commenced B12 loading for about one month.. She also sent me for an MRI scan because the clicking in my neck and general spinal pain / sensations were crazy. MRI scan came back absolutely fine. We stopped all treatment after my dosing sessions.
A few months later - all my symptoms came back despite completely discontinuing any recreational use of nitrous oxide. I feel haven’t felt the same since - I’m living with these symptoms and I’ve quite frankly had enough as I feel as though these symptoms are holding me back in life.
I ordered a box of 10 x 1000 mcg of hydroxocobalamin injections and I’m starting from scratch.
I know the journey to recovery is long - but any advice would be useful.
I’ve also been told my iron is low..
I’m really overwhelmed but committed to recovery.
How do I make this clicking in my neck go away? It’s driving me crazy.

Finding's after CT ABD+PEL W CON:
IMPRESSION: 18 x 13 x 11 mm lobulated soft tissue nodule in the right lower quadrant small bowel mesentery. Although this most likely represents a reactive mesenteric lymph node, an early mesenteric carcinoid cannot be excluded. Lab tests to rule out carcinoid tumor, described above are suggested including urine collection for 5-H IAA measurement
FINDINGS: LOWER CHEST: No pleural effusion or pericardial effusion is identified. Lung bases are clear. ABDOMEN/PELVIS: HEPATOBILIARY: No focal hepatic lesions are demonstrated. The gallbladder appears unremarkable.There is no evidence of significant biliary dilatation.
SPLEEN AND RETROPERITONEUM:The spleen is normal in size. No focal splenic masses are demonstrated.The pancreas appears normal without evidence of mass or inflammation.No adrenal masses are demonstrated.In the distal small bowel mesentery near the ileocecal artery and vein there is a small lobulated soft tissue lesion measuring 18 mm transverse dimension with a craniocaudal dimension of 12.6 mm and an anteroposterior dimension of 10.9 mm. Differential diagnosis includes an enlarged mesenteric lymph node (most likely) or small mesenteric carcinoid (less likely) . In favor of an enlarged lymph node is the presence of other scattered mildly prominent lymph nodes in the small bowel mesentery. This does not have the appearance of mesenteric adenitis but could simply represent reactive mesenteric lymph nodes to a current gastrointestinal illness. I recommend performance of lab tests for detection of serotonin, chromogranin A and urinary 5-HIAA to exclude carcinoid or other neuroendocrine tumor. Additionally, a follow-up CT the abdomen and pelvis in 3-6 months is suggested to determine if this soft tissue lesion remains present or regresses in the interval. Spontaneous regression would indicate a benign reactive lymph node.
The inferior vena cava is unremarkable. The aorta is normal in caliber. BOWEL AND PERITONEUM: There is no evidence of abnormal bowel dilatation or bowel wall thickening. There is no evidence of significant free fluid or free intraperitoneal air. The appendix is normal. PELVIS:The bladder appears unremarkable. No pelvic masses or abnormal fluid collections are demonstrated. No pelvic or inguinal adenopathy is evident. MUSCULOSKELETAL AND EXTRA-ABDOMINAL SOFT TISSUES: Within normal limits for age.
I'm 32M (Just turned 32 yesterday actually).
I know this is a lot but it's been quite the year for me:
I had an awful bout of covid in March/April and actually had to go to the ER (had scans because my lungs, chest and ribs were killing me) - they were all clear and then a covid test came back positive. Also had awful coughing fits almost constantly for over a week.
Then in late April (around the 24th) I had a chunk of a rotted molar fall out (wasn't able to financially take care of a cavity previously), went to the dentist and was put on a round of antibiotics for infection (3x a day for 7 days) - bad fatigue /brain fog started around this time and was only recently getting a little better. Had that tooth pulled on May 3rd + and am over a few weeks in recovery at this point.
Saw doc for checkup back in January and had elevated/high blood pressure (which runs in my family). At this point I was 214lbs and eating awful everyday...I'm talking fast food, ice cream daily, junk food, no veggies, etc.
Immediately overhauled my diet (which looking back I don't think was a good idea - should have eased into things) and went from a sedentary lifestyle to eating lots of vegan options + exercising almost daily. Started drinking way more water. Dropped down to 186-189lbs in about 3 1/2 months.
Saw doc a few days ago and was down to 172lbs - give or take a few pounds (42 days after last weight check). I am now trying to course correct a little and up my calorie intake because I don't think I've been getting proper nutrition (enough protein specifically + calories per day). Still physically active.
I got the CT scan in the first place because of off and on pain I've had since Covid19 (on the opposite side of where the nodule was found mind you)
I have a family history of Crohn's disease (mom said at least 6 people) and IBS/gut issues (my mom and grandma and several aunts) - immediate family is on meds for their issues. We also all have hemorrhoids.
Also had a colonoscopy when I was 15 because of tummy issues I was having
I have no symptoms like bloody stool, vomiting, diarrhea
Except now I'm extremely anxious (diagnosed anxiety disorder) so that's for sure effecting my stomach. Also haven't slept much the past few days.
I just wanna know if anything I've experienced this year could explain this..and also a better understanding of the findings. It appears the surrounding organs and everything else is fine. I think?
Trying not to google too much. I'm making an appointment with Oncology tomorrow

I went to the ER yesterday because my penis and scrotum numbness that I've been having the past month has been getting worse. My genitals and pubic area are so numb now that I can't feel anything and have zero libido with total erectile dysfunction. ER doc was worried about cauda equana syndrome at first which I don't have any problems in my lega he didn't think I needed an MRI scan. So he called a Urologist and explained my symptoms. The urologist on the phone said he thinks I have peyronnies and now I have to call tomorrow for an appointment to see him.
I don't know if this is peyronies or not. I'm leaning toward it being hard flaccid due to how I got it. My symptoms started 4 weeks ago when a doctor stretched and squeezed my penis hard during a routine exam. I had sharp pains in my penis for the first week and numbness and erectile dysfunction have been constant ever since.
Does anyone know if I have peyronies or not? I'm really worried.

I just got broken up with again. I can’t really take this anymore. Why is it happening? What is wrong with me. I’ll change if he wanted me to I don’t want to be alone anymore I’m breaking my real life is suffering because I keep throwing myself into online to numb the pain of being alone and yet it Makes it worse. I want to give up I can’t take it anymore. Why do I always end up alone.

I am 30f and live alone, never had a real relationship, addicted to masturbation and fantasy, obese, mentally and chronically ill, and autistic. I struggle making ends meet and have a dead-end job in customer service. I want to better myself but because of my chronic autoimmune issues I never feel well enough to balance both work and school because working full time takes so much out of me. I sleep in until it is time to roll out of bed and get read for work. I have no energy or drive to do anything for myself. All I do is jerk off and think about sex and wish I was married.
My family is mad at me. Men are repulsed by me. I can't make friends or keep them. Yes, I am in counselling and have a long way to go before I can be a person who people want to get to know. But right now I feel like the most worthless piece of excrement. I go on Facebook and see all my old friends and acquittances sharing pregnancy announcements, engagement pictures, wedding photos, baby bump photos, sonogram pictures and feel the most painful jealousy knowing that will never be me because I am not likeable.
There is something about me that turns people off, both men and women. I can sit in a group full of people talking and no one ever engages me or looks at me. When I try to speak up or throw something in the conversation people ignore me or act like they didn't hear me. I feel invisible among people and it is the most painful feeling. I don't know what it is about me but people just don't respond well to me. I think it is my anti-social personality, but what they don't know is I am anti-social for a reason because I have been hurt by people very much in the past and don't want to be hurt again.
I was sexually harassed by a professional last year and threatened to take my review down of the BBB or else they would take me to court and sue me for libel. They did not believe my story and I never felt so invalidated and violated in my life. Men are attracted to me at first and want "me", but that is about it. No one wants to love me or know me. I could go to any bar in town and find someone to sleep with tonight--but that is where it ends. I feel empty and like a husk people just use or want to play with to suit their needs. It makes me feel absolutely worthless.
I am obese and use food to escape from loneliness. It is the only comfort I have.
I can't afford the things I need. I can't drive and never got my driver's license due to illness in the family after I get my permit and never had anyone who had time to teach me. I can't afford to see the endocrinologist which I have been needing to for a long time for my pituitary tumor that I was diagnosed with in 2015. I have not been on medication for it in years and it's probably grown and my periods are extremely heavy and I am growing facial hair now (which makes me feel disgusting and unfeminine). I haven't been to the dentist in years and went this year after I got my tax refund and found out I need over $10,000 in dental work my workplace insurance can't cover. So I have teeth rotting out of my head and a tumor in my head that is wrecking havoc on my hormones.
I feel like a waste of space and life. There are children dying of cancer who deserve the air I am breathing more. There are mothers who have children who deserve the air I am breathing more. There are people who have purpose and lives to lead who deserve the air I am breathing more. I ask myself, why did God create someone like me if He knew this is all I would ever amount to be? I am sure even He is repulsed by me as well.
I feel dirty, cast out, unwanted, disgusting, un-likeable and useless. I feel like at this point I am just waiting to die. The only thing that is keeping me wanting to stay is my cat who depends on me.

I have had a traumatic childhood, but i only started evidently noticing i have issues when i became an adult
Since 2019 i have not been triggered but i have recently been triggered again. It seems that anything related to what i deem as betrayal or someone who hurts me, throws me into this rage/ depression which lasts for ages until i take antidepressants to numb it
During those rages, the thoughts are very dark and i continuously feel pain in my chest
It also seems only family is able to trigger me, i dont do well with friends and never keep people close so i struggle in that area anyway and have no one i feel can help
Ive tried therapy multiple times but it hasnt worked (i dont want to talk about my childhood & i usually just stop showing up) and i dont really trust their level of expertise
I just need some advice, has anyone felt something similar? Are there any things i can do to help myself?

I get period pain in the usual lower stomach but it also goes down my inner thighs and into my knees, everything I find says it is endometriosis but I'm really sure I don't have endometriosis(not been checked by a doctor). Can you get pain down thighs and into knees with just normal period pain?

I've been using cosentyx for about 5 years for Ankylosing Spondylitis and Psoriatic Arthritis. I think its finally nolonger working. My back is hurting. I took a round a steroids less than 2 weeks ago for pain. Now, the pain is getting to be overwhelming. My back, between my shoulder blades is killing me. Any suggestions to help with the pain? I am not good at this. My thought is to over do it on my muscle relaxers and gabapentin. I know that might not be wise... The pain also doesn't help me think straight. Any suggestions, please share!

The beginnings of neuropathy almost 10 years ago was my wake up call. I can admit that throughout my teens and my young adult life, I was a horrible diabetic. When it started, even having my bed sheets touching my feet was uncomfortable. The burning and tingling was almost unbearable. Both my PCP and endocrinologist said that once my blood sugars were under control that it would stop the progression. My a1c has been under 6 for the last 4 years but it feels like the neuropathy is only getting worse. I have tried Gabapentin, Lyrica, and ALA supplements. I don’t have the burning or tingling anymore but my feet have become painful. No matter what shoes I wear they begin hurting my feet within a couple of hours. I used to love taking my dogs hiking several times a week. Any advice or suggestions on getting some relief?

After 6 months since I broke up with her i started liking a girl that i knew from before but we didn’t keep in touch for years. Everything was going well and etc until she said something that i dont know if it triggered some trauma or sth but i went in this state again like it is happening again i experienced all the pain from before i dont know how to even explain it but my response to this girl was to be very rude which is not something i would do. After experiencing this i just ghosted her for a few days after that i contacted her again she was mad obv and she gave me a lil bit of the cold shoulder and i dont know if its the trauma or not but i fucked up big time. I just snapped over her text told her why is she even texting or calling me and that she is such a waste of time which from what i was told by many of our mutual friends really hurt her I tried to fix the things but i believe i made them worse because she was distant the next time i talked with her and i did the same thing as last time. I feel much regret cuz she was with me with many things and she is actually very good for me but i believe the only thing i bring to everyone is sorrow and i am just hurting people. IDK what to do really

I’m upset because my parents failed me, of course I want revenge for all the pain & hopelessness it caused me.
I was deceived, fully & completely. I was made to believe sacrifices were made for me when we moved to a new country for a better life, but in reality my life was sacrificed. I was made to believe just go to school, suffer and I will make it, but I was fooled, I was never going to succeed with what happened to me with all the domestic violence, poverty & generational trauma.
And worse yet, when I was abused, neglected, deprived, and failed miserably, I was blamed for my failures, of course they weren’t going to take responsibility, of course I am to blame!
Did anyone experience something similar?? I feel my life is a reflection of our generation being failed by our governments and all world/business leaders…

On April 13, I was receiving treatment in a mental health facility. Because of a foot injury, I was confined a wheelchair my whole stay. I also have low vision. For example, I can’t read the cover of a DVD.
I asked for help using the laundry facilities. The tech was so disrespectful and dismissive of my visual impairment during the process I told her she didn’t have to yell at me. I told her I have a visual impairment and I wasn’t doing anything wrong.
Later on, I was rolling by the nurses station and the tech yelled across the room, “what’s wrong with your eyes?” repeatedly until I answered. I explained the issues, and I admit that I wasn’t too gracious about it.
Time to move the clothes from the washer to the dryer. I’ll omit a lot of the details so this doesn’t get too long, but basically she browbeat me into putting my clothes in the dryer. I had to reach forward so far I fell out of my chair. My head hit the corner of the door enough to put a divot in my forehead. it turned me, and I fell on my back, hitting my head. My back and neck were also injured on the right side.
I was denied seeing the doctor for three days. When I did see her, she told me that I had an untreated concussion for three days. She gave me painkillers and a lidocaine patch for my neck. She told me the facility ignored the falling and concussion protocols. My headache went away after two or three days, and my ears stopped ringing two days after that. My back also recovered, mostly. The fall exacerbated an old injury, and I still feel it now.
Is this actionable? I did recover while I was in the hospital, so there are no lasting injuries and, I guess, no damages.I did suffer a lot of pain and definitely a lot of suffering and distress. I know this is not an injury case. I think it’s something called a premises violation.
Thank you for reading. There are so many more damning details. but I left them out because brevity is my thing. Yeah, this is actually the shortest narrative I could make.
I live in the state of Washington. This took place in Everett, Washington, just outside of Seattle.

I’m moving from dorm to dorm as I’m a summer housing employee/student; my dorm is closed and literally filled with trash and the new dorm should be ready on Wednesday and I’m dreading it. Hopefully i don’t end up in the er but all I have is tramadol and a muscle relaxer which isn’t enough.
My plans are to spread organizing/cleaning, packing, and moving into separate days, leave my icepacks, back roller, and heating pad out, and sleep well to avoid joint pain, muscle spasms, weakness, and fatigue for this move.
What tips do y’all have for moving?

I have had braces since this Thursday so at the time I am writing this I have had braces for 4 days and wow I am so uncomfortable. I cant chew without EXTREME pain and im starving. It takes my hours to eat dinner because of the pain. I can only really eat ice cream, mashed potatoes, oatmeal, etc. And sure its good but sooo boring and bland. I am getting super sick of it. It feels impossible. I just want to eat😢

These are OUR VALUES. 1.First and foremost, we are a society which creates and discusses SOLUTIONS TO RECOGNIZED ISSUES AND CHALLENGES. 2. If the organization or individual is not hurting anyone, not destructive to the environment and is not causing undo harm then we don't care. 3. We support Responsibile and verified Gun ownership. America's Founders gave the explicit right for citizens to bear arms. We know and have recognized the unconscionable pain guns can cause and the process is far too easy. We support background checks, registration and licenses. (We never heard someone registering a car then yell they're going to take my car!") 4. Immigration system is broken. We should absolutely fix it to allow the orderly immigration of as many people as possible. What? Estimates show the average Tax contribution of that group is in excess of $3400/ year. Look, we have unprecedented inflation, need workers and quite frankly could use the tax revenue. 5. Truth and accurate interpretation. Often there is one Truth but multiple perceptions of that truth. Honest discussion. 6. Abortion. The belief that our Citizens are perfectly capable of making this decision for themselves. 7. Support Term limits for all elected officials and hold those public servants accountable. Public Service is a privilege not a career. 8. Financial Responsibility is paramount. Stop the greed and celebrate those who excell with integrity.

(20F) on Friday I started feeling sick and then on Saturday I woke up gasping for air and I could only sleep for an hour. Walking and getting up or even moving an inch renders me gasping for air. I spent the last of my digital money in my bank account which was $40 (I only have cash in a piggy bank now) to uber myself back and forth from the ER and they did tests on me and I came back for pneumonia. They gave me antibiotics.
It hurts to breath, I cant sleep, my chest, back, throat, and head hurt and my chest is so tight that I'm afraid to sleep because I'm breathing “manually” and it hurts to much to breathe to sleep and I'm afraid I'll stop breathing in my sleep. I can't eat and I've been throwing up and every time I move AN INCH my heart rate shoots over 200 and I'm gasping for air. Doctor just told me to take ibuprofen and they just told me basically I just have to deal with it even if I can't sleep. I've been using my moms inhaler, sudafed, mucinex, ibuprofen, Tylenol, and vaporub and nothing really helps.
Anyway I have been throwing up and heavily panting every time I walk and my dad keeps coming into my room to scream at me. “I'm so sick and tired of your shit you need to get out.” “I can't sleep because of you” and he's been drinking and now he's not going to work today because of me.
If I make any noise he will come into my room to cuss me out to which I apologized for being sick, and he laughs at me every time he walks by my room and if my door is open he scoffs at me.
This is top 3 of the worst pain I've ever felt before I used to get beat and bruised on the head.
I feel so disgusting and like a worthless pos because I know I am, I asked my sister if I could come stay in her back room but she said no because she doesn't want to get sick. Or if I ask for any help she ignores me. I don't have anywhere else to go and I don't want to go to a shelter until I get better because then I will make others sick!
I tried going back to the ER but I don't have a ride so I was about to call an ambulance but my mom doesn't want me to.
I have another sister that I was texting but she was asleep whenever I messaged but I don't want to go there and make them sick again or be a burden. I don't have any doctor or nurse I can contact because its the weekend.
What do I do??? Nothing helps the tight feeling in my chest! I can't breathe!!!!

Does anyone else get pain in their hips during their period? I had this pain during a miscarriage 5 months ago and during labopushing ith my son who’s now nearly 3. It stopped about 2 weeks after birth and came back during the tissue passing of my miscarriage..now it comes back every month during my period and it’s so painful I can barely walk or participate in activities/chase my 2 toddlers
Everything I’m reading points to endometriosis, but I don’t have the classic symptoms and don’t know how to bring this up to my doctor. Should I be seeing a PCP or an OBGYN? Has this happened to anyone else here? What was your outcome?

First of all, English isn't my first language so I (F, 25) apologize if things are oddly phrased.
There is this friend I've known for almost a decade. We were really close, he was like my best friend and I was his. We've been there for each other during tough time. About 4 years ago, I've ghosted him during a few months. I felt terrible about it and we eventually reconnected, even though he was really hurt and I felt really guilty. We got close again but never as much as before. About a year ago, I did it again. After thinking a lot about this, I think it's because I was seeing our relationship dying and couldn't stand it. We were both putting less effort in it but it doesn't mean I should have do this and I'm sure it could have been just a low phase. I also know there is something deeper which makes me ghost people I love. I know how awful and cruel I am for doing this. I feel terrible. I know I am miserable and need to sort this out with therapy.
I would like to reconnect with him and know if he's doing okay but I know I shouldn't because I already hurt him twice. That being said, I want to apologize to him. I'm not delusional and I know I also want to do this because the guilt is eating me. However, he deserves an explanation and I truly want him to know it is not his fault and there is nothing wrong with him. But should I reach to him to apologize and tell him all this or should I leave him alone and let him forget about me? What would you prefer?
I genuinely ask because I just don't want to hurt him anymore. I know it is too late, but I'm looking for ways to make it less terrible for him because I still love him. I'm thinking getting an apology might help him get a closure, but it might also awaken the pain?
Thank you for taking the time to read me.

My friend has HD.
Her grandmother had it, her mother had it, her siblings have it, she has it.
She's in her early 40s and her symptoms are getting bad.
I wish I knew how to help but I just don't.
The physical symptoms are easy to manage.
It's the delusions she suffers from that I cannot help her with.
We live in the UK and it's almost impossible to get her real help, her GP is trash and the council don't answer my emails.
Approx 6 years ago we lived together as roommates, she was okay, a little off balanced but not unable to help herself.
Im a spiritual person and believe a positive mindset can benefit everyone. I introduced her into meditation and mantras, yoga and told her about good energy. I thought it could help her stay positive.
She's gone off into a toxic spiritual spiral and is in deep. I feel guilty for introducing her to this. I feel like I opened the gates and she's not completely off the wagon in la la land.
I know the HD is causing her delusions and hallucinations. I know it's just her brain but I don't know how to help her. She believes she's a star seed who demons are chasing.
She lives alone, I'm trying to get her a support worker but the systems in the UK are broken and everything is a struggle.
She spends all her money on things she doesn't need. When she speaks to her doctor she tells them she's fine. She believes she's okay when she speaks to them but when she's alone shes a different person.
Even I'm starting to question what's real. Is it for attention? Does she believe these things?
She had a car accident and had her license suspended. But she believes that she can still drive with out being a danger.
She smokes weed. I can't stop her. I know it's causing more issues with her mind.
How do I help her?
How can I make life easier for her and help her stay grounded in this reality.
At least once a week she has some sort of delusional episode...
Demons chasing her, giving birth to alien babies, believing she's healed herself through people she meets online who take advantage of her vaunrable self.
I work 9-5, have a family and home I need to make my priority. I live far from her. I cant be there for her all the time. Her family abandoned her and she has nobody but me.
If I could clone myself and give her my clone I would! But I can't. I blame myself for thinking some spirituality and positive thoughts could help her but I feel like I have caused damage to her.
Does anyone know of any charity in the UK that can help her?
Is there anyone I can contact to help her get some help?
I just don't know how to help.
The friend I once had great times with is now someone I can't recognise. It pains me to see her suffer and I feel useless for not being able to help her.
Your words are needed and appreciated. X