Hi everyone. I'm new to the group and am seeking advice. I'm 49 yo male here. I've always been a Christian. I follow God's word, have written church choir music that's been performed, sang in my church choir, and always keep Jesus in the forefront of my mind and spirit. However, I've run into a problem. I have severe anxiety that I really can't control and my doctors prescribed me a low dose of Klonopin which is a Benzo (basically a tranquilizer). At first it was amazing. I was so calm and could do things I normally couldn't do. I stopped vomiting before having to go to work and felt good in general. However, something happens when taking this medicine. You build a tolerance and need more and if you don't get it you start to get really sick. I knew I didn't want to up my dose because I didn't want to be in that trap. However, I was left feeling like I was going crazy with heightened anxiety worse than previously on the medicine. I then wanted to come off it but learned you can have seizures and die if you don't do a LONG taper off it... like months to years of a taper. So I began to taper and got sicker and sicker with withdrawal symptoms. It was hell on Earth. When I say this I'm not kidding. I took my last minuscule piece of the Benzo April 12th. It's been a little over a month since. I shake uncontrollably, vomit a lot, can barely function, have been in the ER 3 times, have insomnia when I've never had problems sleeping, and the anxiety is amplified beyond belief. However, the scariest part, aside from the torture of this medication making me sick, is that there are no longer any emotions or passions left in me. I contemplate giving up but I'm a father of 3 children and a husband. I feel totally dead inside. Nothing in the world interests me and everything seems dreadful. I pray and pray but I feel like it's just talking to myself. In this situation it's unbelievable to me that God could just continue to be silent and let me do all the work of praying and trying to stay strong. I feel nothing spiritually due to these benzos. They've ruined me. The science behind it is that the GABA in my brain can not get through the broken receptors that provide the mind with calmness, passions, and the ability to defend against stress/anxiety. I guess I just have to wait for those receptors to heal so I can feel myself again which can take months to years. I'm not sure I'll make it that long. So that's why I'm here pouring my story out to you. Any word of advice for me from fellow Christians? Any bit of hope?

I have been testing long enough that my three usual fingers are worn out harder to get blood from and you can actually see the spots that I have pricked multiple times. I started pricking my pinky finger here and there to give the others a rest but not always because it definitely hurts more. But I have noticed something weird my pinky finger numbers are around 20-30 points lower than my other ones. Two examples one being I tested on my pinky and got 69 which seemed really low so I do my usual finger and it was 80. Today I tried one of my usual fingers but even with the lancet turned up it was a huge pain getting blood out and my reading was around 138 around the 2 hr mark and I know squeezing your finger can cause higher numbers so I did my pinky because I never have to squeeze it and my number was 111. So my question is am I ok to use the pinky to get my numbers or is it technically cheating since I know by experience it gives way lower numbers than my other fingers?

For reference, my family says I have a gift at getting friends. I never believed them. I always had some difficulty finding friends that shared interests and weren’t brain dead fakes. On about December 28th of 2023, I found a streamer a streamer who does Nintendo games. I don’t know about you but Nintendo was a big part of my early childhood and it was nice finding nostalgia and common interests. I quickly befriended the streamer and most of the viewers which was astounding to me considering I couldn't find other friends groups.
Fast forward to around late March 2024. One of the people I befriended left. I didn't think much of it and that he just needed some time to himself. For context, I’m a nice person and an empath from what my family and few friends say. I always put others first and put myself down if it means that others are ok. This along with me being protective of friends when they needed it gave me a mothefather figure status. I also get worried about everything which helped that I guess.
Anyways, three and a half weeks since their departure pass. I DM them and apologize if I did anything wrong. No answer. That was odd. I brushed it off. They come back at four weeks. I say hello and apologize again. I also let them know they had me worried. No reply. This was in a live stream too. Everyone else all said hello, welcome back, missed you, etc. He responded to all of them. I was upset but brushed it off again.
Two weeks pass and I reach out privately again. I ask if they were ok. 15 minutes later and I get a response. They said they were depressed, needed to find themselves and wanted to take their own life. They also included that it was because of things I did and personal life. I apologize, leave the server and give up the streams for a bit for him to calm down.
When I joined back after a month, he was fine. He was perfect and happy. Just like before he left. Odd isn’t it? I ask him what I did wrong. No clear answer. All he said was it was jokes I was making. That doesn’t make sense because the people he was talking with were making the same jokes as I did.
So I’m here. A month and a half after all this drama. They’ve made me want to quit everything that makes me happy because it makes them happy and reminds me of how I had to give up some of my only friends and put myself down so ungodly low that I tried taking my own life TWICE. They knew about my situation with friends too.
I want to say they made it up. Then I’m called a horrible person. I want to make amends but nobody but my good friend who had NOTHING to do with this will listen. I’m scared to come back and talk with some people because I’m scared that they might have told them lies about me. I never thought I would be sharing a story on Reddit but this is my last resort for advice. This probably isn’t the right channel and tag but oh well. I’m sorry if someone relates to this story and please reach out if you know what I should do or if you have any words of encouragement.

Short version anxiety induced hypertension. Especially white coat variety. In 2020 gained 30lbs on Metropolol on absolutely the lowest dose available and had bad orthostatic hypotension. The weight came on suddenly. Stop meds because of the uncontrollable weight gain. 2024 having massive medical issues that required surgery BP spikes again and I elect to go on meds pre surgery. Within a week on Lisinopril I put on 10lbs OH starts again. Within four months I've gain 20lbs.
I tried to talk to my PCM pointing out the sudden weight gain after being weight stable for so long. Also the OH returning. He started me on 30mg. He only was willing to drop me to 20mg. My BP is normal even a bit on the low side. My "high BPs" before meds were 150/90 range depending on how worked up I was during an appointment. Depending If I was having an active anxiety attact or not.
My PCM is not inclined to allow me to stop. He mentioned he also doesn't know what else I can try since I'm having the same issues on both Beta blockers and ACE inhibitors. Any advice on how to get a doctor to listen or any options that would be better in terms of weight gain and OH side effects.
My diet is good. My exercise seems not to be a factor. Since I was highly active in 2020 and now since I'm recovering from surgery not active for obviously reasons. The only consistent contributing factor is the meds.

I am the moderator of two recently created subreddit communities, Music_Playlist_YT and Word_of_The_Day_Affir. In an effort to promote these new communities, I followed the guidance provided in the moderator help section, which suggested sending invitations to users with common interests as a way to attract new members.
Over the course of four days, I sent out approximately 10-20 invitations per day to users active in 3-4 related subreddit communities. However, after a few days of following this approach, I noticed that the membership count on both of my subreddits had frozen, and the daily activity levels had dropped significantly.

Concerns and Clarification Needed

1. Invitation Frequency: I aimed to keep the number of invitations within the suggested range, but I'm now concerned that 10-20 invitations per day may have been excessive. Could you please clarify the appropriate frequency for sending invitations to promote a new subreddit?

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2. Potential Consequences: I fear that my actions may have inadvertently violated Reddit's rules, leading to the freezing of membership counts and reduced activity on my subreddits. If this is the case, I sincerely apologize and would appreciate guidance on how to rectify the situation.
3. Subreddit Status: Could you please confirm whether my subreddits, Music_Playlist_YT and Word_of_The_Day_Affir, have been temporarily suspended or if there are any other issues I should be aware of?
I am committed to following Reddit's guidelines and promoting my communities in a responsible manner. Your clarification and assistance would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you for your time and consideration.
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For reference, my family says I have a gift at getting friends. I never believed them. I always had some difficulty finding friends that shared interests and weren’t brain dead fakes. On about December 28th of 2023, I found a streamer a streamer who does Nintendo games. I don’t know about you but Nintendo was a big part of my early childhood and it was nice finding nostalgia and common interests. I quickly befriended the streamer and most of the viewers which was astounding to me considering I couldn't find other friends groups. Fast forward to around late March 2024. One of the people I befriended left. I didn't think much of it and that he just needed some time to himself. For context, I’m a nice person and an empath from what my family and few friends say. I always put others first and put myself down if it means that others are ok. This along with me being protective of friends when they needed it gave me a mothefather figure status. I also get worried about everything which helped that I guess. Anyways, three and a half weeks since their departure pass. I DM them and apologize if I did anything wrong. No answer. That was odd. I brushed it off. They come back at four weeks. I say hello and apologize again. I also let them know they had me worried. No reply. This was in a live stream too. Everyone else all said hello, welcome back, missed you, etc. He responded to all of them. I was upset but brushed it off again. Two weeks pass and I reach out privately again. I ask if they were ok. 15 minutes later and I get a response. They said they were depressed, needed to find themselves and wanted to take their own life. They also included that it was because of things I did and personal life. I apologize, leave the server and give up the streams for a bit for him to calm down. When I joined back after a month, he was fine. He was perfect and happy. Just like before he left. Odd isn’t it? I ask him what I did wrong. No clear answer. All he said was it was jokes I was making. That don’t make sense because the people he was talking with were making the same jokes as I did. So I’m here. A month and a half after all this drama. They’ve made me want to quit everything that makes me happy because it makes them happy and reminds me of how I had to give up some of my only friends and put myself down so ungodly low that I tried taking my own life TWICE. They knew about my situation with friends too. I want to say they made it up. Then I’m called a horrible person. I want to make amends but nobody but my good friend who had NOTHING to do with this will listen. I’m scared to come back and talk with some people because I’m scared that they might have told them lies about me. I never thought I would be sharing a story on Reddit but this is my last resort for advice. This probably isn’t the right channel and tag but oh well. I’m sorry if someone relates to this story and please reach out if you know what I should do or if you have any words of encouragement.

LAST MAN STANDING 14 saw four of our nine users succumb in the most low iq NRL way. Who in their right mind tips a Warriors game, I ask you? They've been in the competition since 1995 and since then, the only predictable thing about the Warriors is their unpredictability.
The rest of our tipsters took their chances and came out on top, leaving us with 5 users still standing into Round 12.
Give me your tip by PM or in reply to this post please! Before the first game of the round lest I give you the punno game
Progressive results

round	users	correct	wrong	% correct	with a life	no life	now dead	% dead
r1a	575	68	507	12%	68	507	0	0%
r1b	792	249	365	41%	25	267	500	63%
r2	292	196	37	67%	18	185	89	30%
r3	203	68	111	38%	8	70	125	62%
r4	78	24	47	34%	2	28	48	62%
r5	30	18	11	60%	0	20	10	33%
r6	20	20	0	100%	0	20	0	0%
r7	20	12	8	67%	0	12	8	40%
r8	12	11	1	92%	0	11	1	8%
r9	11	9	2	82%	0	9	2	18%
r10	9	9	0	100%	0	9	0	0%
r11	9	5	4	56%	0	5	4	44%

BASIC RULES

1) EACH WEEK, go to the GOOGLE FORM above and submit your single tip. That's one team, that you think will win their game that week. A single team, out of the entire round. Surely that's easy as! If your team wins, WOOHOO! You're through to the next week. If they don't, you're OUT OF THE GAME!* A draw is a loss, as far as this game is concerned. All decisions are final and the result as it stands at the end of any extra time is the result we use. ONE TIP PER PLAYER PER ROUND!
2) THERE WILL BE ONE LIFE available to you until the start of Round 10. That means, you can tip incorrectly once only prior to Round 10 and you won't be eliminated. That gives us all a chance to see what's going on with each of the teams and also allows for users to start late.
3) Once we get to ROUND 16 then it's new rules whereby you cannot tip the same team twice. We will cover that when we get there. Until then, you can tip Melbourne every week if you want to.
4) Whoever is the last man standing wins the /NRL Reddit jersey of your chosen size.
5) If everyone happens to get it wrong on a particular week, then we move on to the next week as if nothing happened.
6) We are tipping State of Origins independently of the round matches.
7) ANY QUESTIONS LET ME KNOW

Tips by user

all users had used their life by round ten, no asterisks required

user	tip	result
0_Kids_Three_Money	Melbourne	✔️
Malaxage918	Dolphins	✔️
Proxima_Centuri	Newcastle	✔️
imaginationASDF	Cowboys	✔️
Kilo-papa-uniform	Melbourne	✔️

Expired users

luser	tip	lol rekt
Eastern-Tip7796	Panthers	❌
randomologist99	Panthers	❌
Zero_Focks	Panthers	❌
nangarranga	Panthers	❌

Sorry, this is a bit of a rant.
I'm not sure what's happened to the drive-through menu at the place I go to, but it's down to about four burger meal choices, and the ones that are left no longer have numbers by them anymore. So, I can't say "give me a number three", for example. I have to say the so and so burger with such and such. It seems like a non-issue typing it out, but I don't like it. Every other classic fast food place still has a numbering system for their dozen meal options.
Also, the robot voice. Never been to this sub, but I saw some other people also complaining about that. McDonalds and Burger King went down that road recently too, and I'm not a big fan. If I'm going to use an app, I'd rather just do one of the food delivery apps.
The price is getting a little crazy. Carl's Jr was always more expensive. Never minded it because that is their thing - higher quality, but I have been noticing the uptick in price.
Also, they've started doing that thing where they ask you to pull around and park in the parking lot until your food is done. Not a big deal if the line is long, but it happens to me now even when nobody is behind me and the food is only a minute or so from being done. Is there some sort of timer that the employee's are trying to make look better?
Nothing major overall. Not saying I'm mad or that I'm "never eating there again". It's just a collection of strangeness I can't help but notice. Thanks for reading my rant.

A common thing you hear in diet circles is: "Nutrition research was done with Grain fed beef/butter, but those results don't apply to Grass fed, which is super healthy!"

• What do the studies say?
• Design: In a double-blind, randomized, 12-week, parallel intervention study, 38 healthy subjects replaced part of their habitual dietary fat intake with 39 g fat from test butter made from milk from mountain-pasture grazing cows or from cows fed conventional winter fodder.
• Results: No differences in blood lipids, lipoproteins, hsCRP, insulin, glucose or glucose-tolerance were observed.
  • https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3720277/
• There are not even any human trials comparing grass fed beef to grain fed beef, so I could disregard their claim just based on that. But I will compare them anyway:
  • An 100-gram serving (a little under four ounces) of grass-fed sirloin contains 65 milligrams of omega-3 fats, loin has 40 and rib-eye has 37. So even that 65-milligram amount is only about 22 milligrams more than that for regular beef and still far below levels in low-fat fishes such as tilapia (134 milligrams) and haddock (136). Salmon has 1,270 milligrams.
  • Grass-fed beef provides only .02 mg more of Vitamin E per serving than grain-fed beef, so if you’re concerned about your vitamin intake, you will be much better off looking towards carrots, almonds, and fortified products.
  • ALL beef cattle are grass-fed and raised on their mothers until they are weaned at about 7-10 months of age. There is a common misconception that cattle should not eat corn. But corn is a type of grass.

Hi,
Context 1, Early June
I was medically withdrawn from school (selective, large university) in September of 2022. It started, in early June of that year, with me having my first cold when I travelled for a weekend event, in three or four years, and the cold was so bad, I was so confused and tired I almost boarded the wrong flight home (like I walked down the bridge and almost entered the wrong plane to God knows where, until I turned around and a flight attended had to give me like a very kind pep talk).
It started with a strep throat during that weekend, then I began to cough so hard I felt dizzy, and I didn't stop coughing until December of that year. It was the worst cold I've had in my life, and I think it was made worse by the additional focus on hygiene during COVID (face masks etc.), which might have weakened my imune system. It was my first time going out without wearing a mask, and I happened to catch a cold.
Context 2, Late June/July
When I returned, I was alone in my off campus apartment, my body would itch (and this didn't make sense because there aren't any insects like mosquitos or I guess even ants in this area since it's so arid), I would sweat when I slept in my air conditioned room, I would have to walk a mile from my off campus apartment in the Arizona like heat and climate of July and August while having a cold. When I entered my over-cooled central AC apartment (I would have to leave windows and doors open to make it warmer) from the 95+ degree weather (I'm from a cold area of the country, but I grew up in several continents, and I'd never experienced this much heat), my stomach would begin to hurt from the instant change in temperature. I had to do really important work stuff that I couldn't miss, so I took different medications which caused my chest to hurt. I didn't want to go to the hospital because I was on the opposite side of the country, and I didn't know what would happen since I'm completely unfamiliar with how medical things are handled, and I had never stayed overnight in a hospital before, and I knew what I'm experiencing would probably warrant an extended stay.
Context 3, July/August
I then stopped eating, sleeping, and drinking water. Someone began spam texting me implicitly illicit texts (I would block the number, but another one would appear from another number, so like a dozen different numbers, and the texts weren't like a bot or automated, it would include photos and mention things I did recently e.g. go to the bar, it didn't ask for money or to download an app, it felt like someone I could have met or known irl was harassing me, perhaps as just a joke), and I barely give my number out and change it around once a year, so I was just so upset someone I knew gave my number to someone, or is doing this. Because of the delirium from the cold, I the began to send like weird (but not in any way, threatening or harassing, texts to mostly my friends who also attended the school) to figure out who gave my number or was behind the harassing texts. I had also experienced another issue with on campus, irl, harassment from a previous roommate that I had to report to campus safety multiple times, and I guess perhaps just because of the delirium, considering the digital harassment, I had become super persistent about my physical harassment that occurred just the semester before, and then an academic dean seriously offered to help, but then this led to a meeting with several deans. A day after this meeting, I emailed one of the deans to say that I am crying, and I was emailed at 8am to do a pysch evaluation at 11am in the morning. Because I hadn't slept the night before, and I had a feeling this would be a consequential meeting, in addition to having to walk 1 mile in the afternoon heat to this meeting, I asked to reschedule and then I was told no. Then I was sent a Maxient involuntary medical withdrawal letter.
Context 4, Now
I've been to about half a dozen pysch doctors (even one that's a lecturer at a leading medical research university), and about four therapists, since, and I haven't been diagnosed with anything definitively. My current therapist who is a former (or current) professor in psychology, and I've met with since late November of 2023, still doesn't have a diagnoses. I present extremely well, and I'm usually more social and normal than most people, so I guess you would have to look really deep to find something. I know that I probably have a sleep issue, so after meeting with a sleep doctor, I'm trying to setup a sleep study. In the meantime, I've been prescribed medication to combat day time sleepiness. Other related medical issues include the fact that my dad has Cushing syndrome, and I'm pretty confident I have it, or at least a cortisol issue (I have the visible/physical signs, as well as persistent high blood pressure, and other symptoms). Then, I also have several skin issues, that I'm also treating as well.
To be extremely honest, I'm kind of grateful I experienced this because I understand my body more, and how to seek help when my body is overwhelmed. Also, I kind of knew there would be an job crisis issue in April of 2022 since interest rates were rising and it would lead to less investments, therefore less jobs, so I've kind of enjoyed using this time to relax, travel, and learn new things. However, I'm starting to become anxious that I won't be able to return at all.
Question
Which leads to the question and title of my post, do time limits on withdrawals or leaves of absence apply to medical withdrawals or leaves of absence? My grades are pretty good, and I have no disciplinary issues, so I can still transfer, but I would still like to get back in, to be extremely frank, I would like to get back in first before transferring (just to tie up some loose ends to make a stronger transfer application). The way the communication (emails) from the schools non academic deans are worded, it's being made to seem as if I can't return at all (unless I reapply through admissions/the common app) regardless of if a doctor clears me. The way the letter is worded, it seems like I need to be cleared by a medical professional. My adivsor, whose a non-educational lawyer, said I would onyl be approved to return if I take medication for 6-12 months. An email with a non-academic dean said this as well.

During a Red Dead Redemption playthrough, Rob Wiethoff claimed that the way John lies on his back with one leg straight and the other bent—a pose he called the "Number Four" position—was done on purpose as an homage to his real-life wife Tayler Wiethoff, which he made sure to capture in motion-capture "as many times as he could."
When John falls to the ground in the mission "The Last Enemy That Shall Be Destroyed," it becomes much easier to see this Easter egg happening in a cutscene.

Hello everyone. Thanks for reading my long post. I haven't posted on reddit before so this will be my first time. I am beginning to feel like either I have some really terrible luck when it comes to supervisors or maybe I am just not cut out for this field. I graduated my masters program 2 years ago and I have bounced between a few different private practice clinics until I landed in this current one. I have been at this current clinic for almost a year now and this is the 2nd (IMO) terrible supervisor I have had. I have had one supervisor and owner of a clinic who really trusted my judgment and made me feel very supported. My 2nd supervisor was pretty "lais a fare" with their supervision and so I went for supervision with a really old lady who... just kind of talked about psycho-ed stuff the whole time with some random clinical stuff tossed in there. I also had a supervisor in my graduate program who I don't mention but she was very much on par with this current supervisor as being the worst people/therapist/supervisor I have ever had but I don't mention her very often. Now for my 4th (long term) supervisor.
When we first started, she began sending notes back with silly errors that did NOT make any sense. She would send a note back because she said that elopement meant that the patient was running away to get married and its not a clinical word... I did argue and re-submit my note and she just signed it. I have consistently gotten feedback on about 80% of my notes about the most silliest of things: don't use past tense but use reported here, you used the word "too" here and that's a judgement, i would use "assigned task" here instead of assignment. really silly feedback like this. Now... to throw out some professional humility here.... I really don't think im the strongest note-taker. I sometimes use pronouns incorrectly or will forget to use a comma pretty frequently. maybe even misspell a word.... but this supervisor is so strict that i recently found out that "three months worth of work" is enough to get a note sent back due to grammatical errors. THE MONTH IS THE OWNER OF THE AMOUNT OF WORK TO BE DONE AND THEREFORE IT NEEDS AN APOSTROPHE!.... this is unbelievably frustrating for me. Se even said that its inappropriate to use "however" to start a sentence. which i was using however to provide contrast between presenting assessments and reports.... I recently found out she has been watching me take my clients to and from my office through the cameras. I mentioned a mother came back for no more than 3 minutes to talk about some issues her child was having.... and she said "1 minute and 4 seconds". And, she will send clinic wide notifications about someone "me obviously" putting a chic-fil-a coffee cup with some melted ice in the office being rude because she is the only one cleaning then took out my cup and put it in the sink with the 1/4 inch of ice water in the bottom. She watches me on cameras leave every day and has mentioned that I should not be using the big trash bags for my office trash-can (I don't I use the small ones) and I had to explain to her that I was being nice and took out and replaced the stinky break room trash bag and put my office one it it. She even mentioned to not park in the front spots because those are for clients because I parked there a few times.... she literally parks there 3 times a week... and now i just found out that she has removed EVERYONES PTO! I don't take PTO very often... she offered a week and I was like "oo that's nice! I can finally do a week long back-packing trip I've been planning". I even talked to her about it 6 months ago she said I can use my PTO to go on my trip and take some sick leave to do some wedding BS I have to do the following month. Now.... gone..... says I literally cant even.... but is placing adverts up on indeed offering PTO to new hires.... now... she's coming after my clinical judgement on multiple levels...
(this part I kind of wrote as a rant sorry) Suicide assessments... do we do chronic or acute? nah... neither... its based on her judgment. 2 months is maybe u can stop doing assessments.... 3 months? who knows..... right to self-determination? sure... they can find a new therapist if they don't like coming twice a week.... (next week) then put them once a week if they are complaining... why are you doing DBT skills for mindfulness if they come in with conflicts about their spouse? you need to do psycho-ed on communication.... expressing anger is dangerous unless you do some weird reiki shit or goose-fraba.... yelling or intense exercise (tip) reinforces the anger and will make you more angry... u just goose-fraba it.... yelling is abusive.... but when another Therapist says her client represses her anger and to just let it out and let the Th get yelled at as an out for the client "OHHHHH that's great!!!"... like c'mon really? she even told me to have my WIFE (albeit she's a therapist also) look at my notes and give me feedback! which I do kind-of.... I ask her specifics like do we use however to start a sentence? and she's like omg what? yea I do this all the time... and then she googled it and is like yes? wtf?
Now... for context.... I am currently looking to move to a new state.... I still have my LPC-A for 3 more months until I can test for my independent (that's not my state license but to keep it low-key lets use that..) but I cannot transfer my LPCC-A license to the state. I am purchasing a home (just put an offer in today actually and I'm feeling so overwhelmed) that me and my wife have dreamed of... but if I quit I wont be able to get the loan... I really want to quit and find a completely virtual job and complete my licensure in my state then have it transferred and be completely done with this state and everyone in it. I am so emotionally drained and feeling like i don't know what to do. She is super passive aggressive in her communication style but very authoritative. its her way or the highway. She reminds us all the time that she doesn't even draw a paycheck from the clinic (which I used to do program management at my last job and I see the numbers we generate and the amount we pay and there's no way I'm alone not pulling in 10k a month and only getting paid 3k). I am about to cry writing this. SHE EVEN SHIT TALKED MY GRAD PROGRAM TO MY FACE DURING SUPERVISION!
Am I just being overly sensitive and this is pretty normal stuff and should drop the field? Or is this pretty crazy and out of the ordinary and I should run fast and find a virtual job. Any advice for ANYTHING will be helpful as I feel like I'm loosing my mind.

After trying to create a 3.5 game with West Marches vibes, and failing, I picked up the DCC core rulebook and a half pound bag of dice. That was a year ago.
Finally got everyone together. And by everyone, I mean 3 out of the six who had committed to joining. We power on.
I had the map blown up onto an architectural print and didn't bother hiding anything. I might make that effort in the future, but I was just rolling with low effort.
The first death was when a character tried to knock down the entrance. (Sidenote; this is my partners character and I just finished the second Pern book on her recommendation before leaving to meet the session and I really expected her to figure it out).
A second character rolled an 18 on a lockpick, and I'm pretty sure I ruled incorrectly, but I didn't have faith in them waiting two hours and faith in myself to make it rewarding.
Two more died to the statues. They tried to marionette the corpse of their fallen comrade, so I had them make a personality roll as a bluff. Would've let them get away with a DC 10, but they rolled a 2 with a +0 modifier. The character wasn't used to the dwarf's proportions and leaned too far into the room, then took his last breath pinned to the wall.
The statue had three victims. The party never searched the room because they were too scared. A pair of characters ran into the burial chamber, but left the door open. The rest went towards the scrying chamber.
I skipped initiative rolls here. The statue made its first attack, then we went clockwise. The skeletons got added at the bottom, and Sssisssauraaaag went after the players who opened his door, since their turns were over and he "immediately attacks without hesitation or parley."
The statue fired at the character in the burial chamber still in view, burning him immediately. The other closed the door in time for it to absorb the last fireball, them started fighting the skeletons. One got a bite, but rolled low enough damage. He finished it off and moved on to the pool room.
The other two fought Sssisssauraaaag, combining one character's oil with another's Firestone to ignite it. 1d6 per round until a successful reflex save to get the oil off or put it out; basically same as the statue. Here they did learn about aliens before joining the character in the pool.
Unfortunately, a player had to leave here but we finished it out with the three remaining characters.
The character in the pool put out his torch when the statues began lurching towards him, and I think I gave away their menace but they were still just around. He started removing the gems immediately and the player understood water was draining.
The other characters went downstairs, passed the table without cooking, and found the clay army with water dripping on them. They ran back upstairs and picked the stones until the floor buckled.
One character had a chain, so they tied the lightest character on the end to continue plucking out the diamonds. Well he rolled a 4 strength check, and the chain slipped out of his hand. the dwarf to fall to his death, but the clay army was no more.
They put the crystal ball on the depression of the table and goatfaced man talked to them.
Next, I want to run Sailors on the Starless Sea. We'll have two leveled characters and hopefully two new players who get their four 0-level.

Here are my numbers:
14dpIUI: 94
16dpIUI: 174
18dpIUI: 477
24dpIUI: 3805
My numbers started low and seem to be just barely doubling.
I got a scan at 5w3d (this dating according to my fertility clinic) same day as my most recent beta. A gestational sac was seen measuring 5w5d, apparently. A yolk sac could be seen roughly 50% of the time and no fetal pole.
My next scan is on Thursday, when I guess I'll be 6w3d. I'm terrified. And even if we see a fetal pole and there's a heartbeat, I'm terrified this is heading for a later loss. Am I being way too negative? Or should I really be prepared for the worst?
Thank you 🥺

Young attendings: how much is your house worth?
I’m close to one-year out of training. I’m W2 at my group and make roughly mid-400s, which is 75% of partner pay with guaranteed compensation-equivalency after 2 years. I expect mid-500s during my second year, and roughly low-to-mid 600s after two years. My wife works part-time making 80k.
I’m in a medium-to-high COL city in a hot market. Not NY, LA, SF, but probably the next step down.
We’ve been looking at buying a house over the last month are so. Our main priority is buying a nice, updated home in the best school district in our city.
Based off the numbers I’ve plugged into calculators, I have our absolute maximum budget around 1.25 million. We have roughly 180k in savings (not including retirement). Like most students graduating these days, I have a massive amount of student loans. Assuming 7% mortgage rate and factoring in state property taxes and homeowners insurance, a 1.25 million dollar house would be close to $10k/month, which seems like a hefty amount, but still under that 26% of monthly income that everyone talks about.
Are there any other young anesthesiologists out there buying 1.25 million dollar houses and paying that much monthly, or am I crazy? Particularly interested in hearing from the folks in HCOL areas who are also trying to buy their first home with 7% interest rates.
Thanks!

Shout factory had a recent sale. Several 4K discs were as low as $18.50 each with most being around $19.99. I joined the website the 2nd day of the sale and began browsing. I put together a wishlist of several movies I was interested in. I decided on four movies that I wanted and went back to the website the next day. Three of them were sold out. I then watched the website every day hoping they would go back in stock before the sale ended.
I can't help but notice that every single 4K UHD disc that they marked as "Sold out" went right back into stock the first day that the sales ended and the prices jacked back to $35-$40 each.
This means they most likely didn't sell out, they just limited the number of sales to a specific number, then sat on the rest of the library.

Here's a very short summary of what a "Worker" on 2Captcha does; Click start, wait for a captcha to appear, and do your best to solve them. Don't worry, the captchas are very simple and easy. For example, you're tasked to choose which of the 6 choices has the number 14 (7 times) while taking into account the short time allotted for each task. I used to hate this one since the time was shorter back then and you have to find the right answer 20 times ( o ___ o ) And it wasn't just a few dice per option so it was confusing and irritating to be honest XD Thankfully, they added more time for the tasks YAY! either that or I just assumed they gave us workers more time due to the frequent and similar complaints :P
If you want to increase your earnings with 2Captcha you may (but I believe it's more appropriate to say SHOULD XD) install their software. But if you're afraid to download and install anything on your pc or mobile phone, it's absolutely FINE since you still have the option of working through their website or even on Telegram. I just prefer using their apps for both windows and phones.
I've already mentioned in one of my previous post about 2Captcha having an auto earn feature when using their software. I actually haven't tried it on Telegram etc. since you know, I prefer the apps haha Even though auto earning is not guaranteed for ALL captchas, it still helps you earn little by little. In time, your $0.00015 balance will grow and turn into $1 or maybe even up to $10 and so on. It is very possible to earn such an amount BUT of course, it still depends on your diligence and what kind of captcha you'll need to solve.
I am still not very active due to personal issues so my overall earnings is less than $5. It's not much right?! But for me, it still helps with my expenses in a way.
There are lots of options when you cash out but my preferred method is through Payeer (minimum withdrawal amount of $0.50). I love testing out apps or sites that have very low thresholds :> At least they pay, unlike the other sites or apps that promised high amounts of money for your time and will not even let your withdraw your money. But that's for another discussion XD
Withdrawing your earnings' pretty easy once you've already set up your chosen method of payment (wallet type), enter the amount you wish to withdraw, and then request for a payout. You'll then see your payout list just below that to keep track of your transaction. They even send an email right after so you're sure the payout request will be processed. Did I mention that the wait time for your money is very fast??! Because it is! I once received my payout in less than 30 minutes but the payout request processing still varies :>
Feel free to comment or message me if you want see my other withdrawals or payouts~
Thank you for taking the time to read this post of mine! I hope you'll have a lovely day or night~ <3

Almost done configuring my new T480. Finished getting Manjaro installed and all of my usual binds set up and I finished getting firmware upgrades installed. The only thing left is an issue where the laptop takes forever to wake up from sleep when I either suspend or close the lid.
I have absolutely no clue what's causing this. The device boots from cold faster than it wakes from sleep. Not only this I was going back to my t430 with an almost identical install and the t430 wakes from sleep almost the instant you open the lid?!?! so what the hell is going on?
The only differences between the two machines are the t480 has the stock nvme and the t430 has a samsung sata ssd. additionally the t480 has a dual install with windows 11 installed on a separate partition as this was the os the device came with. I figured it was nice to have a free copy of windows 11 and I figured I'd leave it installed in case I ever need it for something but I mainly run to manjaro. Noteworthy - win11 wakes from sleep instantly so it's just a manjaro issue
I've tried various bios tweaks as well as any and all updates. here's the output from dmesg, it didn't seem like there was anything in it that seemed wrong to me but I'm not terribly familiar with it.
[ 30.742491] PM: suspend entry (deep)
[ 30.758666] Filesystems sync: 0.016 seconds
[ 30.795379] Freezing user space processes
[ 30.796818] Freezing user space processes completed (elapsed 0.001 seconds)
[ 30.796823] OOM killer disabled.
[ 30.796824] Freezing remaining freezable tasks
[ 30.797923] Freezing remaining freezable tasks completed (elapsed 0.001 seconds)
[ 30.797987] printk: Suspending console(s) (use no_console_suspend to debug)
[ 30.959478] e1000e: EEE TX LPI TIMER: 00000011
[ 33.984127] ACPI: EC: interrupt blocked
[ 34.267382] ACPI: PM: Preparing to enter system sleep state S3
[ 34.276772] ACPI: EC: event blocked
[ 34.276775] ACPI: EC: EC stopped
[ 34.276777] ACPI: PM: Saving platform NVS memory
[ 34.276856] Disabling non-boot CPUs ...
[ 34.278870] smpboot: CPU 1 is now offline
[ 34.281938] smpboot: CPU 2 is now offline
[ 34.284786] smpboot: CPU 3 is now offline
[ 34.289129] smpboot: CPU 4 is now offline
[ 34.292000] smpboot: CPU 5 is now offline
[ 34.294575] smpboot: CPU 6 is now offline
[ 34.297244] smpboot: CPU 7 is now offline
[ 34.299784] ACPI: PM: Low-level resume complete
[ 34.299830] ACPI: EC: EC started
[ 34.299831] ACPI: PM: Restoring platform NVS memory
[ 34.300493] Enabling non-boot CPUs ...
[ 34.300612] smpboot: Booting Node 0 Processor 1 APIC 0x2
[ 34.301311] CPU1 is up
[ 34.301409] smpboot: Booting Node 0 Processor 2 APIC 0x4
[ 34.302087] CPU2 is up
[ 34.302179] smpboot: Booting Node 0 Processor 3 APIC 0x6
[ 34.302870] CPU3 is up
[ 34.302965] smpboot: Booting Node 0 Processor 4 APIC 0x1
[ 34.303770] CPU4 is up
[ 34.303869] smpboot: Booting Node 0 Processor 5 APIC 0x3
[ 34.304570] CPU5 is up
[ 34.304671] smpboot: Booting Node 0 Processor 6 APIC 0x5
[ 34.305372] CPU6 is up
[ 34.305486] smpboot: Booting Node 0 Processor 7 APIC 0x7
[ 34.306224] CPU7 is up
[ 34.309097] ACPI: PM: Waking up from system sleep state S3
[ 34.403451] ACPI: EC: interrupt unblocked
[ 35.899610] ACPI: EC: event unblocked
[ 35.904937] i915 0000:00:02.0: [drm] [ENCODER:94:DDI A/PHY A] is disabled/in DSI mode with an ungated DDI clock, gate it
[ 35.904944] i915 0000:00:02.0: [drm] [ENCODER:102:DDI B/PHY B] is disabled/in DSI mode with an ungated DDI clock, gate it
[ 35.904948] i915 0000:00:02.0: [drm] [ENCODER:118:DDI C/PHY C] is disabled/in DSI mode with an ungated DDI clock, gate it
[ 35.906438] xhci_hcd 0000:3c:00.0: xHC error in resume, USBSTS 0x401, Reinit
[ 35.906441] usb usb3: root hub lost power or was reset
[ 35.906443] usb usb4: root hub lost power or was reset
[ 35.914797] nvme nvme0: 8/0/0 default/read/poll queues
[ 36.147790] usb 2-3: reset SuperSpeed USB device number 2 using xhci_hcd
[ 36.290127] usb 1-7: reset full-speed USB device number 2 using xhci_hcd
[ 36.554476] usb 1-8: reset high-speed USB device number 3 using xhci_hcd
[ 36.714317] pcieport 0000:00:1c.6: PCI bridge to [bus 03]
[ 36.714342] pcieport 0000:00:1c.6: bridge window [mem 0xe8100000-0xe81fffff]
[ 36.714407] OOM killer enabled.
[ 36.714414] Restarting tasks ...
[ 36.714462] pci_bus 0000:06: Allocating resources
[ 36.714492] pci_bus 0000:3c: Allocating resources
[ 36.714777] pcieport 0000:00:1d.2: PCI bridge to [bus 3d]
[ 36.714791] pcieport 0000:00:1d.2: bridge window [mem 0xe8000000-0xe80fffff]
[ 36.714926] pci_bus 0000:06: Allocating resources
[ 36.714955] pci_bus 0000:3c: Allocating resources
[ 36.714959] mei_hdcp 0000:00:16.0-b638ab7e-94e2-4ea2-a552-d1c54b627f04: bound 0000:00:02.0 (ops i915_hdcp_ops [i915])
[ 36.717221] done.
[ 36.717275] random: crng reseeded on system resumption
[ 36.739340] usb 1-9: USB disconnect, device number 4
[ 36.793575] PM: suspend exit
[ 36.794770] Bluetooth: hci0: Bootloader revision 0.0 build 26 week 38 2015
[ 36.795821] Bluetooth: hci0: Device revision is 16
[ 36.795832] Bluetooth: hci0: Secure boot is enabled
[ 36.795836] Bluetooth: hci0: OTP lock is enabled
[ 36.795840] Bluetooth: hci0: API lock is enabled
[ 36.795843] Bluetooth: hci0: Debug lock is disabled
[ 36.795846] Bluetooth: hci0: Minimum firmware build 1 week 10 2014
[ 36.812008] Bluetooth: hci0: Found device firmware: intel/ibt-12-16.sfi
[ 36.862688] usb 1-9: new full-speed USB device number 5 using xhci_hcd
[ 36.907395] e1000e 0000:00:1f.6 enp0s31f6: NIC Link is Down
[ 37.004928] usb 1-9: New USB device found, idVendor=06cb, idProduct=009a, bcdDevice= 1.64
[ 37.004933] usb 1-9: New USB device strings: Mfr=0, Product=0, SerialNumber=1
[ 37.004936] usb 1-9: SerialNumber: a6fd98866605
[ 38.819185] Bluetooth: hci0: Waiting for firmware download to complete
[ 38.819733] Bluetooth: hci0: Firmware loaded in 1960657 usecs
[ 38.819879] Bluetooth: hci0: Waiting for device to boot
[ 38.833015] Bluetooth: hci0: Device booted in 12905 usecs
[ 38.833077] Bluetooth: hci0: Malformed MSFT vendor event: 0x02
[ 38.838330] Bluetooth: hci0: Found Intel DDC parameters: intel/ibt-12-16.ddc
[ 38.840929] Bluetooth: hci0: Applying Intel DDC parameters completed
[ 38.841918] Bluetooth: hci0: Firmware revision 0.1 build 19 week 44 2021
[ 38.844049] Bluetooth: hci0: Reading supported features failed (-16)
[ 38.844064] Bluetooth: hci0: Error reading debug features
[ 38.844073] Bluetooth: hci0: HCI LE Coded PHY feature bit is set, but its usage is not supported.
[ 38.896544] Bluetooth: MGMT ver 1.22
[ 40.364061] wlp3s0: authenticate with c0:94:35:6d:6a:3d
[ 40.377318] wlp3s0: send auth to c0:94:35:6d:6a:3d (try 1/3)
[ 40.384511] wlp3s0: authenticated
[ 40.385984] wlp3s0: associate with c0:94:35:6d:6a:3d (try 1/3)
[ 40.393515] wlp3s0: RX AssocResp from c0:94:35:6d:6a:3d (capab=0x1011 status=0 aid=3)
[ 40.406831] wlp3s0: associated
[ 40.443106] wlp3s0: Limiting TX power to 30 (30 - 0) dBm as advertised by c0:94:35:6d:6a:3d

**WARNING** long post. Feel free to skip the background information if need be
BACKGROUND:
I am a software engineer at a major bank. Relative to my counterparts on my team, I am the "most junior", but I have three years of experience. This is important to know as it may offer some insight to our team culture. I landed this job in November 2023 and was placed with my team in January 2024. The team consisted of two women, including myself and five men. I work at our NYC office with three of the other men, one of which is our team lead, let's call him Anderson. The other woman coworker lives in FL and the other two men are in India. I am the only black person on the team, and the rest of my coworkers are of Indian descent. This, too, is important to note.
From day 1, I was intentionally assigned low level administrative tasks while my coworkers were purposefully trained and briefed on other, technical tasks. The first week with my team, I mentioned to my team lead that I felt it important to learn the technical tasks that my teammates were learning, even if these technical tasks were not going to be my responsibility, because there would not be anyone to take on the technical tasks if someone was on vacation. My team lead told me to focus on the work he assigned to me.
Still determined to learn the technical tasks, I scheduled trainings with my offshore counterpart so that he would train me instead. This meant that I had to sign in to work after hours to be trained. I was now trained on what my "work buddy" knew, but still not fully trained on what the rest of the team knew how to do. Suddenly (not suddenly), my other woman coworker, let's call her Sandra, went on maternity leave and I was assigned her work. My team lead expressed his frustration with me not knowing how to do her job, and told me to figure out how to learn the things she was doing.
What is interesting to point out here is that during the first few weeks on the team, my team lead would assign our other senior engineer to train Sandra and answer all questions that she had. I was not granted this opportunity. Instead, my Slack messages went unanswered (I have all of this documented) when I had questions and after another two weeks, my team lead quietly reassigned Sandra's work from me to another senior engineer instead. He never explained why he did this, or gave me feedback on the work I was doing.
As the weeks went by, my team lead called me into a meeting to gauge my knowledge on querying our databases. He asked me to find a few items, which I could not find because for one, I had NEVER interacted with the databases before, and for two, I had no understanding of the database architecture or the data flow for our app. Nevertheless, I decided to ask clarifying questions to help me better understand the data so that I could write appropriate queries. My team lead responded to this with yelling "you are an engineer and you don't even know SQL", to which I responded that my knowledge of SQL was sufficient (part of my technical interview was based on writing complex queries), but I needed to understand exactly what he wanted me to find. He ended the meeting and never followed up on the information he was looking for. I still do not know what task, if any, that he was trying to assign to me.
I decided to follow up with him and explain to him that I could sense his frustration, and I asked him to define clear expectations for me and the team, and provide official training that focused on our application architecture and other technical areas that we needed to focus on. He told me that no amount of training would fix the "fact" that I did not know SQL and that it is the team members' job to train themselves.
Nevertheless, after that meeting, he assigned me with handling all onboarding for new projects moving forward. I have taken the liberty of advocating for my team members to ensure that we are all properly trained and provided with ALL resources needed to do our job well. Since then, the team, and myself has expressed more confidence in our ability to do our work. We are even at a point where senior team members reach out to me when they cannot find resources and either ask me to provide documentation, or ask me to reach out to other engineers to schedule meetings to provide trainings. Here is where I am concerned that I might be experiencing hostility at work. Please provide objective feedback and even constructive criticism if need be:
MAIN POINTS:
-my team lead uses language in his interactions with me that creates a false narrative. For example, he accuses me of "not caring" about my job, not "being collaborative", and not paying attention. One example is where I was tasked with migrating a google guice project to springboot. We had four weeks to get the work done and each week during standup, I brought up to my team lead my plans to make changes to the service. Each time, he would redirect my attention to administrative tasks. The third week of the sprint, literally in the middle of a Slack conversation of me telling my team lead that I planned on making some code changes and him instead telling me to do something else, our senior manager called a meeting with the team and yelled at my team lead for not getting any work done related to the code refactoring. After the meeting, my team lead followed up with me and berated me for not having work done. This is all documented in Slack and I remember being very confused as he had literally told me to do other tasks. As a result, my team lead removed me from the code refactoring project and used this to further justify his belief that I do "not care" about the work. Keep in mind that these interactions are documented.
-my team lead constantly verbally berates me in my interactions with him. One example is when I was typing up a document on a zoom call and I was sharing my screen with him. He kept rushing me and was saying things like "come on man I have other things to do", "ughhh hurry up", "you need to move fast!". Two things here: he yelled at me for moving fast because he said he could not see what I was clicking on when I moved fast. Then he yelled at me when I slowed down. There was one time he yelled at me for clicking a back button instead of the home button on the screen...he told me that I was not listening to him or paying attention...I am confused by this because the point of his instruction was for me to return to the home screen. There was another time where I misspelled a word in the middle of him berating me, and then he berated me even more for misspelling the word...
-my team lead has unclear expectations and gets angry at me when I do not do things he wants me to do. One example is when he wanted me to watch a 40 minute training video, summarize the points in the video, and schedule a follow up training with the person who lead the training so that the team (me) could ask questions. He asked me to get this done within an hour. He also wanted me to upload some recordings to Sharepoint. But this task was just another task to complete and not time-sensitive. After the call, I watched the video and made a summary and got back to him with an update in 45 minutes instead of the hour. He responded to my message 20 minutes after I wrote him by hopping on a call with me and yelled at me for not having the videos uploaded. Again, he accused me of "not caring" about my job. When I explained to him that the videos were not uploaded because I was focusing on the other, time sensitive task, he said that that task was not as important as having the videos uploaded and "people" were asking him about the videos in the Sharepoint space....this was a lie because it has been a week and the only person who accessed the uploaded videos was...you guessed it...me :)
-my team lead just berates me in general. He berated me for collaborating with a team member to explore a new internal application. He said that there was no need to get on zoom with the coworker because we should have already known everything...the app was new and I was the only one who understood how to navigate it after exploring it with the team member...oh...need I mention that he then asked me to train the other team members on the new app's UI next week?
-my team lead expressed his frustration at not having access to certain resources when I was on bereavement.The documentation was incomplete and I had to take a sudden leave due to a death in the family. Upon my return, he asked for the documentation and said that he find an "excuse" to tell his manager as to why the documentation was incomplete and that I was "on vacation"
-my team lead "warns" me not to "disappoint" him when he assigns me with tasks. When I ask him to define what a "disappointment" is and for us to agree on what is acceptable, he ignores me.
-my team lead tells me that "people" ask questions about my work and one day he is going to make our department head "deal" with me. The department head is known for being a hot head who yells at people. But he (department head)has NEVER yelled at me in any interaction I had with him, no matter how frustrated he may have been.
I want to make an important note here that my team lead does NOT speak to other people like this and he ONLY does this over zoom. I work 3x days in office and on the days where he speaks to me in person, he does not even make eye contact with me and he speaks so soft I can barely hear him sometimes. My team lead has never provided any feedback on my work. As a matter of fact, he uses my documentation and my explanation of technical tasks as if they were his own.
I am considering taking my concerns to our senior manager, who apparently is a well respected, "big boss" at work, but also MY direct manager and I happen to have a great relationship with him. I want to be as objective as possible in my complaint but in the meantime, I would like to explore areas where maybe I can improve to minimize my team lead's verbal assaults on me

I had an idea for an eldritch blast build that uses a ton of self-healing in order to use Vital Sacrifice feat's blood boon as often as possible, adding the 2d6 necrotic damage on top of their hexed eldritch blast.
In terms of healing, Celestial warlock get's a pool of d6 equal to their warlock level + 1. As a bonus action, they can a number of them up to their charisma modifier and restore that much health to any creature within 60 ft. As a bonus action, this competes with both Hex & Vital Sacrifice, but as long as we have a blood boon going in to combat, we can cast hex the first round, use vital sacrifice for 2-3 rounds, and then Healing Light every 3rd or 4th round to pick us back up.
Pact of the Chain has Gift of the Ever-Living Ones, which makes it so any dice rolled to heal our warlock count as having rolled their max so long as the familiar is within one hundred feat. This is huge, as an imp familiar can just turn invisible and do nothing, and we get double the average hp from dice effects.
Race doesn't seem to matter much, but Dhampir seems thematically appropriate, plus they can get some healing through their bite, and spider climb will help gain vantage points for blasting from. The bite doesn't get buffed by Gift of the Ever-Living Ones, since the die is determining damage and the damage restores an equal amount of hit points.

• I'll not that variant human and custom lineage would give you a free feat so that you can have the 2 feats that feed this build by level 4, but if your DM allows starter feats, I'd go with the more flavorful option.

The Remarkable Recovery feat also makes it so when we regain health due to a spell, potion, or class feature, we regain an additional number of hit points equal to our constitution modifier.

• This means that a single die from Healing Light will restore 6 + our constitution modifier every time we use it, which keeps up with 2-3 uses of Vital Sacrifice.
• Hit Dice are a class feature, so when you expend one, you regain 8 + twice our constitution modifier hit points, which is now twice the average hp restored by a hit die.
• It doesn't buff the bite attack, since it's not a spell, potion, or class feature.

Periapt of Wound Closure is an uncommon item, that makes it so that when you expend a hit die to regain health, you double the number of hit points it restores. This is a bit fuzzy, because if remarkable recovery's extra hit points are considered from the feat in response to using the hit die, you regain hp equal to 16 + three times your constitution modifier. However, if remarkable recovery is considered to increase the number of hp the hit die restores, you regain 16 + four times your constitution modifier hp.
And finally, Periapt of Wound Closure stabilizes you whenever you are dying at the start of your turn. Remarkable recovery heals you a number of hp equal to your constitution modifier whenever you are stabilized. So combined, whenever you start your turn dying, you wake up with a small handful of hp. This can go off every round of the whole damn day as long as nothing manages to kill you outright by hitting you twice or exceeding your hp max.
If you felt like it, you could use a Doublet of Dramatic Demise, a common magic item which makes it so instead of falling unconscious at zero hp, you are incapacitated with a speed of 0. The draw back is that nat 1s on a death save are instant death, but with the Periapt of Wound Closure & Remarkable Recovery combo, you never roll death saves for this to be a problem. You don't gain much from this, but it does mean that enemies don't have advantage to hit you from being unconscious, and if they do hit you, it's not automatically a crit, so it's only 1 failed save.
At this point, we only technically need 3 levels of warlock. A 4th makes getting a feat for the build faster, but if you're starting at a higher level that might not be an issue.
More warlock levels also means more healing dice from Healing Light, but apart from that, warlock doesn't seem like it stands to give anything to help much with the build. Level 6 gives you resistance to radiant damage, and lets you add your charisma modifier to one damage roll against one target of a spell you cast that deals radiant or fire damage, but to be honest you aren't casting many of those.
Level 10 gives you a slightly worse version of inspiring leader.
Your level 14 feature might not even work with Periapt of Wound Closure on, since it's triggered when you need to make a death saving throw at the start of your turn. It's effect it better than periapt, but it's once per long rest so choosing between the two still seems to favor the periapt.

(Using pseudonyms of course). Currently in a relationship with my partner, Kate, who also has a meta, Molly, who I’ve known for years. Both Molly and I are similar in many ways— we both hold down full time jobs, are relatively introverted, and share domestic responsibilities with our partner.
Kate also has a number of other comet-type relationships, but those relationships did not develop further for a bunch of reasons, e.g. one of them has a primary partner he invests a lot of time to, another one is uncomfortable about emotional intimacy, another one is both uncomfortable about intimacy and constantly wanders around the world, etc.
Recently, Kate met Ella, they are not currently partners but it is a budding possibility. Ella is a trust fund kid, living in a huge estate, with her lgbt-supportive parents (which is extremely rare where we live), and she has essentially unlimited time and money. She does not work nor study, and is trying to make indie films. In practice, she is constantly throwing big parties that Kate is invited to (I should mention that hosting parties is also something few people in this country do, for the lack of space and parental permission), she shows up to nearly every social that Kate throws, and she is constantly asking Kate for dates. I should mention Kate is uncomfortable with how strong and fast Ella is coming on, so Kate has been turning down the majority of the offers to see Ella 1-on-1.
Upon reflection, I think my insecurities stem from how different I am from her. I am low-contact with my unsupportive parents. I hold down a full time job and pay rent, but the cost of things + the entry level job means I recall the time my partner bought me some gas station snack to tide me over until payday. The NRE has worn off between myself and Kate, and we sometimes discuss the ‘boring’ things like how to fix up the apartment and how to reduce the utilities bill and things like that. Meanwhile, Ella seems to be carefree and tenacious in the kind of way that people with unlimited resources and no responsibilities are. It doesn’t help that I used to be almost like her when I was a student (I had rich parents I was closeted to, back then) and I had met Kate then.
Frankly speaking, I think I have simply been having poly on ‘easy mode’, but now I’m confronted with this possibility and I’m wondering how to get pass my own fears that this new ‘perfect’ person will tempt away the majority of my partner’s time and emotional investment. Any advice?