Dost ki behan

Hello dosto , . Me Dehradun Uttarakhand se hu lekin life me kahi nahi hu ...
Saalo beet gye par me wahi hu jaha tha mere kai dost kuch na kuch kar rahe hai magar ab unse me khud baat nahi karta shayad sharam aati h mujhe ...
Bachpan se mera koi goal nahi tha jo dusre bache kehte wo bthaadeta ki muje b yahi banna hai taaki teacher ko kuch bolkar seat pr beth jaau ...
. Lekin 12 th aane tak mere andar mimicry aur acting ka bhoot aaya 11 se 12 tak me sochta tha MR.FAREWELL banunga aur ban b gya 12 th me hahaha. Maza aaya tha.. mene 12 th k baad papa se kaha ki muje actor banna hai tab wo Mumbai me hi rehte the hotel me kaam krte the .. .
Unhone kaha ki pagal mat bann kuch padhle aage laakho log ese hi pade h idhar..meri sabse badi galti hui ki mene socha to MASS COMMUNICATION tha but then i ended up choosing BSC. AGRICULTURE jisme mera interest nahi tha lekin chalagya qki dost mere school ke jaare the mene socha me akela na pad jaau .. .
And that was the day jaha se sab kuch badalne wala tha ...college me bhi mene mimicry karke sabko hasaya mujhe apne aap ko stage pr perform krna pasnd tha ki log muje dekhenge aur taaliya bajayenge sab sochte ki Intro me kya kahenge aur mera fix tha sabko hasana hi to hai ... .
Years passed aur me college jaata raha ghar aata raha kuch nahi socha bss jesa chalra tha chal ra tha kabhi khud se koi extra efforts nahi daale kuch efforts nahi kiye qki shaayd mera interest tha hi nahi agriculture me ...Ek time tha jab mujme bohat confidence tha i felt special about myself me sochta tha ki talent hai mujme qki sab kehte bhi the ....college me anchoring krna aawaze nikalna actors ki it was all fun
. I had my youtube channel usme b mere 16k subscribers the in 2019 aaj bhi hai sabhi dost kehte h me paagal hu par jese jese me bada hua 18 saal se college gaya tha changes aaye mene videos ye sochkar daalna chorda kyuki muje khud lagne laga me bachkani harkat krrha hu ...
par me galat tha par sab kehte banaya kar mera interest usme b kam hone laga kyuki kuch dost college life me kehte GF tabhi banti h jab tum serious rehte ho aur me itna bada chutiya socha ki me ye mimicry wali harkat chordunga serious rahunga to Gf bnaegi par mene wo b kabhi nahi kia ...qki wo meri personality hi nahi thi ...GF bhi nahi bani aajtak 10th me thi ek usne b 2 hafte me bola ki it's not working haha bachpana
. 2022 me i graduated uske baad internship kuch hoti h uska pta chala agriculture field me kya kaam hota h so called HYDROPONICS ki internship ki but dhire dhire pta chala agriculture me private jobs me field work hai aur tagda field work hai din bhar dhoop ka kaam hai
aur salary 10-12k ...mene nahi kia job 15 din me company chord di aur ghar aagya mene mummy papa se kaha me private nahi kr skta ..qki agriculture private sector me u are treated as labour aur jo ki sach hai aur environment bhi aisa hi rehta h aapko majdooro k beech uthna bethna khana sab krna hota hai ...
. Par meri expectations esi nahi thi me darr gya muje kuch pasnd nahi aaya me ghar aaya aur mene kaha me government exams k liye padhunga ...
Aur gharwale b khush huye chalo kuch to socha ...but after one month mere mummy papa ki death hogyi me kayi mahino k liye kuch krne laayak nahi raha i was in trauma ki ab kya karu ..
...sab kuch achanak se badalgya from last year September me aaj tak mummy k sath tha.. papa 2020 se hi aaye the humare sath yaha humara restaurant tha lockdown me khola tha everything was good ....
. College time me bhi i never stayed outside of my state humesha ghar pr raha maa k aanchal me bahar ki duniya nahi dekhi mene ache se ...aur ab lagta hai me kuch nahi hu i am nobody aur ye bhi sochta hu kisike liye kya hi karunga jiske liye karna tha wo to ab hai nahi ....but i have a sister aur Lic aur baaki paiso se uski college ki fees jaati hai par me isolated rehta hu ....uska to hojayega kuch na kuch wo brilliant hai
. Ab mere saare sapne tuttgye kabhi sochta hu haath pair katjaate mere to sarkari naukri lag jaati disability kote me...jo meri mummy ko sapne dikhaata tha bade bade me tv pr aaunga ye wo mummy kehti mera dil kehta h ayega par ab lagta hai kahi kuch naukri miljaye to karlu ...par mera mann nahi krta kuch karne ka ...
. Der se uthta hu consistency nahi h mujhme har 15-20 din 1-2 mahine baad mera kuch aur karne ka mann krta hai kabhi padhta hu kabhi OLA chalata hu form bhare the CPO ke exam hai June last me din raat padta tha me april tak fir chord dia qki postponed hua exam to me relax hogya ab aajkal sochra hu business karu ...par 40-50000 me business b nahi ho skta ....
. Aaj security guard aur kuch ese dhundra tha job...actor banne ka khwab tha lekin reel bannane ki b aukaat nahi rahi ab kuch nhi muje pta nahi konsi chiz rokti h me sochta hu log mujhe judge karenge ki ye to chutiya hai me kuch nhi krta aajkal k iss daur me jaha sab Ai ka use krrhe h kuch kr rahe h kama rahe h aur me bss consumer bankr rehgya hu..... .
Agriculture field mujhe pasnd nahi aur ab futti kodi nahi mere pass ki kuch aur course karu ya kahi aur jaau .....ek langda aadmi bhi haath se cycle chalaakar gutka kurkure bechta h me uss laayak b nahi hu ..mazdoor b din me dhyaadi to karta h .... .
Itna bhi mat padho ki chote kaam krne me sharam aaye aur muje kisi dost se help b nahi maangni hai ...infact me ab apne best friend ka b phone nahi uthata jo 9th se lekar college tak mere sath tha aur usine meri reference b dilaai thi company me ...me apne unsuccessful hone ka ticket b uspar faadra hu ..qki usike piche mene ye course kia ..
. Par kamaane wala to 10-12 fail b crorepati hote h ..mere me hi kaabiliyat nhi hai me kisi kabil nahi hu bss bol sakta hu I AM A LOSER .....I AM A LOSER .....
Mere goals nahi h ab saare dost kuch na kuch krrhe h aur me bss calculator me khyaali nunbers daalke calculate karta hu ki itna hoga paisa to per year kitna hoga 10 saal me kitna hoga ..but present me account me 40-50000 pade h wo bhi mummy ke account me the whi hai mene to aajtak OLA chalakar 5000-6000 hi kamaye honge ....aur haa uss company se b 6600 mila tha jaha me 15 din me bhaag gya tha....
. Na computer chalana aata mujhe dhang se i am lost unsuccessful and a nobody .... Haridwar pass hi h idhar se 80km kuch nahi hua to whi ashram me chala jaunga ...
. Par me to ab bhagwan ke aage na haath jodta na kuch athiest hogya hu kya hi hua wo sab krke bhi mummy b to karti thi fir kyu nahi bachaya ...
. Shaayd mummy papa se dekha nahi jata mera aane wale kal ka ye berozgaar aur nithalapan to bhagwan ne socha ki isko chord do akela aap log ajao ...
. Ye bhi me bass likhra hu likhe jaara hu kyuki samjh nahi aara mujhe kya hai aage ka plan kya karu kya nahi darr bhi lagta h ki kya me esa hi rahunga 23 ka hogya hu par jab dekhta hu koi 27-28 ka hai aur wo b kuch nhi krrha hai to dil me sochta hu arey ye to 27-30 ka h fir b kuch nhi kar ra me to 23 ka hi hu but me b wo age me jaara hu....kabhi ye nahi sochta 19-20 saal ke bhi to laakho crore chaap rahe hai
... No expectations no action no result only regret

Hello dosto , . Me Dehradun Uttarakhand se hu lekin life me kahi nahi hu ...
Saalo beet gye par me wahi hu jaha tha mere kai dost kuch na kuch kar rahe hai magar ab unse me khud baat nahi karta shayad sharam aati h mujhe ...
Bachpan se mera koi goal nahi tha jo dusre bache kehte wo bthaadeta ki muje b yahi banna hai taaki teacher ko kuch bolkar seat pr beth jaau ...
. Lekin 12 th aane tak mere andar mimicry aur acting ka bhoot aaya 11 se 12 tak me sochta tha MR.FAREWELL banunga aur ban b gya 12 th me hahaha. Maza aaya tha.. mene 12 th k baad papa se kaha ki muje actor banna hai tab wo Mumbai me hi rehte the hotel me kaam krte the .. .
Unhone kaha ki pagal mat bann kuch padhle aage laakho log ese hi pade h idhar..meri sabse badi galti hui ki mene socha to MASS COMMUNICATION tha but then i ended up choosing BSC. AGRICULTURE jisme mera interest nahi tha lekin chalagya qki dost mere school ke jaare the mene socha me akela na pad jaau .. .
And that was the day jaha se sab kuch badalne wala tha ...college me bhi mene mimicry karke sabko hasaya mujhe apne aap ko stage pr perform krna pasnd tha ki log muje dekhenge aur taaliya bajayenge sab sochte ki Intro me kya kahenge aur mera fix tha sabko hasana hi to hai ... .
Years passed aur me college jaata raha ghar aata raha kuch nahi socha bss jesa chalra tha chal ra tha kabhi khud se koi extra efforts nahi daale kuch efforts nahi kiye qki shaayd mera interest tha hi nahi agriculture me ...Ek time tha jab mujme bohat confidence tha i felt special about myself me sochta tha ki talent hai mujme qki sab kehte bhi the ....college me anchoring krna aawaze nikalna actors ki it was all fun
. I had my youtube channel usme b mere 16k subscribers the in 2019 aaj bhi hai sabhi dost kehte h me paagal hu par jese jese me bada hua 18 saal se college gaya tha changes aaye mene videos ye sochkar daalna chorda kyuki muje khud lagne laga me bachkani harkat krrha hu ...
par me galat tha par sab kehte banaya kar mera interest usme b kam hone laga kyuki kuch dost college life me kehte GF tabhi banti h jab tum serious rehte ho aur me itna bada chutiya socha ki me ye mimicry wali harkat chordunga serious rahunga to Gf bnaegi par mene wo b kabhi nahi kia ...qki wo meri personality hi nahi thi ...GF bhi nahi bani aajtak 10th me thi ek usne b 2 hafte me bola ki it's not working haha bachpana
. 2022 me i graduated uske baad internship kuch hoti h uska pta chala agriculture field me kya kaam hota h so called HYDROPONICS ki internship ki but dhire dhire pta chala agriculture me private jobs me field work hai aur tagda field work hai din bhar dhoop ka kaam hai
aur salary 10-12k ...mene nahi kia job 15 din me company chord di aur ghar aagya mene mummy papa se kaha me private nahi kr skta ..qki agriculture private sector me u are treated as labour aur jo ki sach hai aur environment bhi aisa hi rehta h aapko majdooro k beech uthna bethna khana sab krna hota hai ...
. Par meri expectations esi nahi thi me darr gya muje kuch pasnd nahi aaya me ghar aaya aur mene kaha me government exams k liye padhunga ...
Aur gharwale b khush huye chalo kuch to socha ...but after one month mere mummy papa ki death hogyi me kayi mahino k liye kuch krne laayak nahi raha i was in trauma ki ab kya karu ..
...sab kuch achanak se badalgya from last year September me aaj tak mummy k sath tha.. papa 2020 se hi aaye the humare sath yaha humara restaurant tha lockdown me khola tha everything was good ....
. College time me bhi i never stayed outside of my state humesha ghar pr raha maa k aanchal me bahar ki duniya nahi dekhi mene ache se ...aur ab lagta hai me kuch nahi hu i am nobody aur ye bhi sochta hu kisike liye kya hi karunga jiske liye karna tha wo to ab hai nahi ....but i have a sister aur Lic aur baaki paiso se uski college ki fees jaati hai par me isolated rehta hu ....uska to hojayega kuch na kuch wo brilliant hai
. Ab mere saare sapne tuttgye kabhi sochta hu haath pair katjaate mere to sarkari naukri lag jaati disability kote me...jo meri mummy ko sapne dikhaata tha bade bade me tv pr aaunga ye wo mummy kehti mera dil kehta h ayega par ab lagta hai kahi kuch naukri miljaye to karlu ...par mera mann nahi krta kuch karne ka ...
. Der se uthta hu consistency nahi h mujhme har 15-20 din 1-2 mahine baad mera kuch aur karne ka mann krta hai kabhi padhta hu kabhi OLA chalata hu form bhare the CPO ke exam hai June last me din raat padta tha me april tak fir chord dia qki postponed hua exam to me relax hogya ab aajkal sochra hu business karu ...par 40-50000 me business b nahi ho skta ....
. Aaj security guard aur kuch ese dhundra tha job...actor banne ka khwab tha lekin reel bannane ki b aukaat nahi rahi ab kuch nhi muje pta nahi konsi chiz rokti h me sochta hu log mujhe judge karenge ki ye to chutiya hai me kuch nhi krta aajkal k iss daur me jaha sab Ai ka use krrhe h kuch kr rahe h kama rahe h aur me bss consumer bankr rehgya hu..... .
Agriculture field mujhe pasnd nahi aur ab futti kodi nahi mere pass ki kuch aur course karu ya kahi aur jaau .....ek langda aadmi bhi haath se cycle chalaakar gutka kurkure bechta h me uss laayak b nahi hu ..mazdoor b din me dhyaadi to karta h .... .
Itna bhi mat padho ki chote kaam krne me sharam aaye aur muje kisi dost se help b nahi maangni hai ...infact me ab apne best friend ka b phone nahi uthata jo 9th se lekar college tak mere sath tha aur usine meri reference b dilaai thi company me ...me apne unsuccessful hone ka ticket b uspar faadra hu ..qki usike piche mene ye course kia ..
. Par kamaane wala to 10-12 fail b crorepati hote h ..mere me hi kaabiliyat nhi hai me kisi kabil nahi hu bss bol sakta hu I AM A LOSER .....I AM A LOSER .....
Mere goals nahi h ab saare dost kuch na kuch krrhe h aur me bss calculator me khyaali nunbers daalke calculate karta hu ki itna hoga paisa to per year kitna hoga 10 saal me kitna hoga ..but present me account me 40-50000 pade h wo bhi mummy ke account me the whi hai mene to aajtak OLA chalakar 5000-6000 hi kamaye honge ....aur haa uss company se b 6600 mila tha jaha me 15 din me bhaag gya tha....
. Na computer chalana aata mujhe dhang se i am lost unsuccessful and a nobody .... Haridwar pass hi h idhar se 80km kuch nahi hua to whi ashram me chala jaunga ...
. Par me to ab bhagwan ke aage na haath jodta na kuch athiest hogya hu kya hi hua wo sab krke bhi mummy b to karti thi fir kyu nahi bachaya ...
. Shaayd mummy papa se dekha nahi jata mera aane wale kal ka ye berozgaar aur nithalapan to bhagwan ne socha ki isko chord do akela aap log ajao ...
. Ye bhi me bass likhra hu likhe jaara hu kyuki samjh nahi aara mujhe kya hai aage ka plan kya karu kya nahi darr bhi lagta h ki kya me esa hi rahunga 23 ka hogya hu par jab dekhta hu koi 27-28 ka hai aur wo b kuch nhi krrha hai to dil me sochta hu arey ye to 27-30 ka h fir b kuch nhi kar ra me to 23 ka hi hu but me b wo age me jaara hu....kabhi ye nahi sochta 19-20 saal ke bhi to laakho crore chaap rahe hai
... No expectations no action no result only regret

drop lu ya na lu mei confusion hai
thodi background dedeta hu pehle.
17 M, maine 11,12th specific jee adv ki prep kari thi, roz coaching(fiitjee kalu sarai mei achha batch tha) aur school mei bhi jee oriented padhai thi, allen vagera se teachers uthaye the.
par roz school coaching aur metro mei pura din nikal jata , self study aur modules ,books bhot hi kam complete kiye.
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pehle fiitjee ke sab phase tests mei 200+ aajate the , jab mains 1 ki date aayi to tension hone lagi aur mocks mei marks nahi aayi and mains 1 mei cutoff bhi clear nahi hui (40+40+40 marks)
fir jab sab classes khatam hogai thi to maine self study pe focus kiya specifically phy and chem,
to mains 2 mei cutoff to ho hi gayi(80+41+46) 5s2 96%ile
ab maine self study continue rakhi adv tak par revision achhe se nahi ho paya aur ab 100 marks bhi nahi banre
gharvale bolre private mei lele , dost bolre ki potential hai terme drop lele.
please koi guide kardo
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drop lu ya na lu mei confusion hai
thodi background dedeta hu pehle.
17 M, maine 11,12th specific jee adv ki prep kari thi, roz coaching(fiitjee kalu sarai mei achha batch tha) aur school mei bhi jee oriented padhai thi, allen vagera se taachers uthaye tha.
par roz school coaching aur metro mei pura din nikal jata , self study aur modules ,books bhot hi kam complete kiye.
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pehle fiitjee ke sab phase tests mei 200+ aajate the , jab mains 1 ki date aayi to tension hone lagi aur mocks mei marks nahi aayi and mains 1 mei cutoff bhi clear nahi hui (40+40+40 marks)
fir jab sab classes khatam hogai thi to maine self study pe focus kiya specifically phy and chem,
to mains 2 mei cutoff to ho hi gayi(80+41+46) 5s2 96%ile
ab maine self study continue rakhi adv tak par revision achhe se nahi ho paya aur ab 100 marks bhi nahi banre
gharvale bolre private mei lele , dost bolre ki potential hai terme drop lele.
please koi guide kardo
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Dost kayaoğlu'nun kötü yorumlarından sonra tereddüt etsem de bu oyunu oynamak istiyordum. Oyun değil sinema deniyor ve eleştirinin odak noktası oyun kavramı üzerinden ilerliyor, bana hava hoş nitekim sinema kültürüm vardır ve sinemada önem verilen ana unsurların oyunda da olmasını isterim. Bu hissi scorn oynarken oldukça aldım ve tatmin oldum, çok bilinmeyen niş bir oyundur tavsiyemdir.
Atmosferi, sinematografisi, hikaye anlatımı ve dövüş mekanikleriyle (her ne kadar eleştirilse de alışılagelmedik akıcı mekanikleri var) güzel bir oyun. 7 saatlik güzel bir yolculuğa adım attım kendisi sayesinde.
Önerim oynamayı düşünen varsa olumsuz kritiklere kulak vermesin. Anlamadığım şu ki Türk Youtuber kitlesi oyunu gömerken Metacritic skorunun 81 olması. En azından manzaraların tadını çıkarmak için bile oynanır.
Kimler bu oyunu beğenmez? Moruk oyun dediğin sürekli sana bir şey sunacak sağdan soldan 9576 toplam questi olacak ek içerik olacak, durağan olmayacak; ana amacım hikaye değil oynanış, sinematografisine ve atmosferine önem vermeyeceğim diyenler bu oyunu sevmez.

Main bohot jyada negative sochta hu bc har chiz main kuch na kuch negative dhund he leta hu is sab ke chalte main padhai nhi kr para mere life main sab koi bohot positive aur supportive hai like main esa bolun ki jaisa relationship with parents, girlfriend, relative (dost nhi hai) ke sath chhate hai waisa hai mera fir bhi meri negative overthinking ke wajah se main padhai pe focus he nhi krra paraha hu 11th acchi nhi thi meri aur test main marks nhi aare uske wajah se yaar main 2 weeks se sir class pe jo teacher padhate usko bhi catch nhi krra paraha aur iss sab ke karun aur nhi padh pa rha main kya karu? please help me (I'm not joking 🙏 serious comments Krna please)

So, my current schedule is like wake up at 6 am and sleep at 11 pm but I wanna completely change it into sleeping at 4 pm and waking at 10 pm , why cuz yaar din me bahot distractions hote hai padhai nahi hoti, dost message kar te hai, mummy errands ke liye bhej deti hai, papa kuch kaam de dete hai, siblings pareshan karte hai, and top of all I don't like studying in the morning, I like studying at night, in complete silence , I have private room but sala pata nahi kya khujli hota hai family members ko mere room me aa jate hai bar bar , dimag kharab ho gaya hai , pls help ? Last year I used to sleep at 8 pm and wake up at 1 am which was quite nice because I was very very productive at night, pata nahi kyu raat me social media use karna ka Maan hi nahi karta , par problem ye tha ki 4-5 hrs tab sota tha isliye acche se nahi padh pata tha , isliye ab 6-7 hrs sounga din me bas yaad sleep schedule kaise change Karu , my parents said that they don't have any problem with that.

So, my current schedule is like wake up at 6 am and sleep at 11 pm but I wanna completely change it into sleeping at 4 pm and waking at 10 pm , why cuz yaar din me bahot distractions hote hai padhai nahi hoti, dost message kar te hai, mummy errands ke liye bhej deti hai, papa kuch kaam de dete hai, siblings pareshan karte hai, and top of all I don't like studying in the morning, I like studying at night, in complete silence , I have private room but sala pata nahi kya khujli hota hai family members ko mere room me aa jate hai bar bar , dimag kharab ho gaya hai , pls help ? Last year I used to sleep at 8 pm and wake up at 1 am which was quite nice because I was very very productive at night, pata nahi kyu raat me social media use karna ka Maan hi nahi karta , par problem ye tha ki 4-5 hrs tab sota tha isliye acche se nahi padh pata tha , isliye ab 6-7 hrs sounga din me bas yaad sleep schedule kaise change Karu , my parents said that they don't have any problem with that.

Hey Chandigarh people 21 Male this side
So the post id regarding the Changing behaviour in Chandigarh people so don't wanna blame a certain community or group but as far as i remember Chandigarh was a place jhn hr koi kisna kisike through ek dusre ko janta hota tha we all used to live in a harmoney and peaceful way and even Chandigarh ki ldkiya bhi ache nature ki thi na nkre dikhati thi na kuch attitude tha but i have been observing the new trend that's going on that promotes being rude and selfish, i mean i could be wrong but i guess lately Chandigarh is becoming more like south delhi place with attitude and things sare apne dost yaar the Chandigarh me chaahe aap jante ho ya na jante hi ek dusre ko but now it's just changed ...
Enliten your thoughts guys really wanna know is it just me ?

I am currently visiting my dadi's house and everything is fucked . The reason towards the hatred I have for myself was because I didn't get born as a boy aur uski wajah se abhi tak koss te hai mujhe. The day I was born my dadi's first words were ladka hoti toh accha hota. Today she asked my parents to try for another child even tho me and my elder sister are already present and just for a boy child. My mom got angry and she argued with her , I got myself involved when my dadi started giving my mom gaali so i stepped up and asked her about it. Her only argument towards my question was beech mein mat bol baade baat kar rahe hai 😭😭. She even had the nerve to say that agar abhi chota bhai hota toh chup kara diya hota. All of this fucked my brain cause the thing I have bottles up and avoided my whole life which was hating my gender made me feel so vulnerable and pitied. Mental health pehle baar buri haalat mein hai aur jee prep bhi karna hai . Sorry baas Dil kholna tha kahi , already dost se baat ki but abhi bhi shaant nahi lagh raha tha .

Toh aj meri mummy mereko jabardasti chitkara le gye counselling ke liye so jaise taise krke ham pahunch gye waha and then pehle toh school enka jaha conselling thi sala college bana rkha tha school pakka ammer log hi jate honge jaise banaya huya tha and then ek ghanta wait krke meri turn aye and maine fir CSE prapt krne ke baad stock market ma paisa laga diya dost ke kehne pe aur 40₹ ka profit bhi krliya so firr jab ma bahar ja rha tha maine socha bc koi hot ladki hi nhi dikhi maza nahi aya and then i saw her … bhai kitne pyari aur sundar thi vo ladki 😖 man toh poora kr rha tha to rizz that level 10 gyat ek toh ma bhi casually agya tha tshirt pajame aur crocks pehenke bhai agar meri mummy pass na hote ha ma uska number nikalwa leta ufff i saw her for 10-20sec uske dekhke meri allen ki baat yaad agye
2 saal pehle ki baat h jab maine allen ma admission li thi and ma hostel ja rha tha class lagake i saw a girl in flower like dress bhai uski ankhei bhi billi jaisi thi mereko vo mysterious girl uske baad kabhi nhi dikhi and aaj laga ki vo vohi ha yrrr kash ma uske sath baat kr pata uff zindigi bhi kitne ajeeb h agar vo ladki yeh mssg dekh rhi h toh neeche bata dena ( intense cope)

So today I just got out from gym in rohini sector 7 tabhi bc ek pink colour t-shirt 45-46 saal ka aadmi aata hai badi feminine si awaz mei kehta hai yaha koi gurdwara hai kya mene bola merko nhi pata mai sector 7 mei nahi rehta toh mai apni bike pe tha usne bola ki akele ho ya kisi dost ke sath I told dost ke sath hu then woh 2 min wahin khada rha meri bike ke paas aur apne handbag se phone nikala aur mere shoulder pe haath rkh ke kehta acha mrko na apna number dedo mene bahana bnaya aur bola ki Mera dost bulara hai merko udhr mai aata hu mai paas ke society ke gate mei chala gya 8-10 min wait kra ki ye chala jayga woh wahin khada rha fir Mai waha gya bike leke ghr jane lga tha saale ne chest pe touch kra aur kehta yaar aapne number nahi diya apna mene bola bhaisaab kya kr rhe ho kaha haath lgare ho fir usne dick pe haath rkha mere aur bolta yaar apna number toh dedo please mene zor se udhr usko bhenchod bnau yaadhe teri filam aur khainch ke thappad maara woh fir merko kehta yaar mai aapki bullet pe ghumna chahta hu bss ( bike pe kehra tha woh ) mene ek aur thappad mara uske aur kaafi gaali di waha log ikathe hogye aur merse puchne lge kya hua tabhi ek bnda uss se puchra tha kya hua usne uss bnde ka dick pkd liya aur fir sbne milke usse bohot maara
Bc mai ladka hu lean muscles hai mere 6 foot ka hu aur upar se deep voice hai fir bhi woh chep ho rha tha aise patani chote bacho ke sath kya krta hoga
Edit - Jisko maan na hai Maan lo jisko nahi maan na mt maano Jo sach h woh sach h

Broken hu bhai 😭. Life me first time aisi cheeze jhel raha hu, school me kya sahi tha bhai, like everything was sorted, you didn't need guidance, help, luck, best books, to pass exams, infact you could do all the extracurriculars and still top your class.
This is wayy too different bhai, wayy too much. Too confusing, i guess it's just me for being in a tier 2.5 city that i didn't have so much exposure before JEE. Olympiads ke naam pe to sirf SOF janta tha lmfao aur school bhi nalle the, kuch kaam ke nahi yeh catholic schools.
Like thori si cheezo se kitna difference aa jata hai, like if you don't get the right guidance, the right teachers, and the right stuff for you, you are genuinely fucked in this ratrace i mean that's what it is at the end, we are responsible for the competition in which we are suffering. Whenever i take a step, mai sochta hu, is this the right one? Kabhi maan lo decide kar bhi liya, to kisi aur dost se puchta hu tu kya krrah, to agar uska path different hua, to meri phat jati hai, should i do this too? Am i doing this wrong?
Pata hai main problem kya hai? I have never faced true failure. That is the whole problem ki meri itni kyu fat rahi hai, dar lagta hai ki kya hua agar JEE nahi nikla to, how will everyone react, what if mere dosto ka nikal gaya, iska matlab if i took that decision, mera bhi nikal sakta tha!.....i am so scared.
I have never prepared like this, i always had a procedure, a series of actions i did before i completed a chapter, now it just feels like i am.....what am i even doing? Sab ghich pich ho rakha hai...... UFFFFFFF.
HAH, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA..HA.HA.HA....itni si baat ke liye mai dar raha tha...roflmao. (The copium ain't working, abhi bhi dar lag raha hai, i can't see the light at the end of the tunnel )
Yaar 11th me kitna happy go lucky tha mai bhai, planning, exectuing, failing, still having hopes things will go good........no point in thinking about all this, thank you if you listened to my rant. To protect your mental sanity, remember, these are just thoughts in your brain, they hold no power over real world facts, the fear is just a self preserving emotion, it does not have to be necessarily logical everytime. So you don't need to follow it, this is a advice to both me and you.

Broken hu bhai 😭. Life me first time aisi cheeze jhel raha hu, school me kya sahi tha bhai, like everything was sorted, you didn't need guidance, help, luck, best books, to pass exams, infact you could do all the extracurriculars and still top your class.
This is wayy too different bhai, wayy too much. Too confusing, i guess it's just me for being in a tier 2.5 city that i didn't have so much exposure before JEE. Olympiads ke naam pe to sirf SOF janta tha lmfao aur school bhi nalle the, kuch kaam ke nahi yeh catholic schools.
Like thori si cheezo se kitna difference aa jata hai, like if you don't get the right guidance, the right teachers, and the right stuff for you, you are genuinely fucked in this ratrace i mean that's what it is at the end, we are responsible for the competition in which we are suffering. Whenever i take a step, mai sochta hu, is this the right one? Kabhi maan lo decide kar bhi liya, to kisi aur dost se puchta hu tu kya krrah, to agar uska path different hua, to meri phat jati hai, should i do this too? Am i doing this wrong?
Pata hai main problem kya hai? I have never faced true failure. That is the whole problem ki meri itni kyu fat rahi hai, dar lagta hai ki kya hua agar JEE nahi nikla to, how will everyone react, what if mere dosto ka nikal gaya, iska matlab if i took that decision, mera bhi nikal sakta tha!.....i am so scared.
I have never prepared like this, i always had a procedure, a series of actions i did before i completed a chapter, now it just feels like i am.....what am i even doing? Sab ghich pich ho rakha hai...... UFFFFFFF.
HAH, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA..HA.HA.HA....itni si baat ke liye mai dar raha tha...roflmao. (The copium ain't working, abhi bhi dar lag raha hai, i can't see the light at the end of the tunnel )
Yaar 11th me kitna happy go lucky tha mai bhai, planning, exectuing, failing, still having hopes things will go good........no point in thinking about all this, thank you if you listened to my rant. To protect your mental sanity, remember, these are just thoughts in your brain, they hold no power over real world facts, the fear is just a self preserving emotion, it does not have to be necessarily logical everytime. So you don't need to follow it, this is a advice to both me and you.

I don't know how I fucked it all up this much.... from 99.7 in session 1 to wasting 2 months to getting 91.2 in boards ,98 in session 2 to getting 260 in bitsat to now getting 156 in adv... ye downfall ruk hi nahi raha... Roz parents ko disappoint kar raha hu abh har samay sirf ye sabh khatam karne ka mann kar raha hain, papa itne supportive hain tabh bhi main kabhi unko kabhi khush nahi kar paaya... abhi 11 ko UGEE ka interview hain usme bhi pata hain lauda kuch nahi kar paunga personality toh 4 saal se exist hi nahi karti... mere har dost ke mere se 30-40 marks zyada aa rahe, abh last 5 din se sirf yehi soch raha hu ki apne aap ko accidentally kaise maardu ki parents ko bura na lage

Let me start my story , pile u hoogaya ha sunana chahta hu , So last year I started jee prep in 11th class , I joined Bansal classes in my locality and pehle ache teachers the waha jo sachme acha padhate ha advance ka , but bacceh chutoye the unhe aata nahi tha smaj , tph aadhe change kar diye teacher , jo neet ka bhi nahi padhate the , In the mean time mere 10 results aaye thank god 98% score kiya tha, Confidence mila toh coaching ma physics chemistry chhod diya sirf maths waha se , Physics Saleem sir se aur chem bhi PW se hi !!! Here is the twist , I am a extrovert kinda guy , mere sab dost the tution ma but I added one girl , Lets name her SK. We started talking in June , pehele ehle chats pe har din baat hoti thi , I was more into studies toh mera zyada time waha nahi jaata tha , Ahista ahista we became really very good friends , After a month or two we started talking on calls after 2.00 Am , tab tak ma padh raha hota tha , and everything was going well , mera syllabus thoda peecha tha tution ki bakhchodi ki wajah se but It was going fine , Then I got really atttached to her like anything , she too was Ig . Then I fell in love with her I said this to her in november , She said nahi ma bhi nahi chahti yeh sab aur tum bhi focused raho , but we were normal aftere that . Now in decemeber things started getting tense , mujhe syllabus khatam karne ki bhi tension uske saath bhi theek nahi jaa raha tha , meri gaand phat gayi thi literal . Then Maine struggle kar raha hu har din , waha se us ke satah bhi thodi ladaaiyan . Then I asked her" tu mujhe chhodegi toh nahi , ma gussa bhu karta hu kabhi and Abhi ma 100% nahi de raha ", she replied "jisse rehana hota ha woh rehta ha 1000 ladaiyon ke baad bhi, aur ma bhi toh gussa karti hu" . I was so happy at that point!! She was really understanding and loving towards me , She really took care of me and I love her . But again a twist , we had a major fight in January and after struggling for 2 weeks SHE LEFT ME . No it was not mutual , I wanted her to stay with me till the end butt noo. I didnt stop her from going but I tried once , I went to tution(Which i left in mid ) just to meet her , but she refused to talk and Then called me on my phone and said I am happy without you , You hurt me and all , Then I lleft it . I dont try now . I let it be . Uske baad I completed my Organic ttill advance level of 11th . Physocs ma 2nd part thoda weak rha , But hoagya , Maths me bhi mains se adv ke beech ka hogaya . Now continuing my 12th , going well but Kabhi kabhi woh sab yaad aata ha phir chud jaati ha . TOh bass yeh the aaj ke randi rone

Mei apne emotions pe control nhi kar pati frustrated jldi ho jati hun,gussa jldi aa jata ,ro jati hun. koi chotti baat pe mei itna soch leti hun ki headache hone lgta hai...
Meri markssheet Milne Vali thi aaj or bhdwe principal ne group mei message nhi Kiya mere papa ko call kiya hoga kal ab papa aaj subh bta re ki Jana hai or ,maine kha kl bhi to ja skte hn Haan bolre frr maine apne dost se bola ki kl jaynge uske baad pta chla ki Aaj Jana tha urgent kyunki ab school close hogye hn 1 months ke liye or sab Jake aagye ek baar bhi kisi ne mujhe nhi pucha or vo dost vo bhi Jake aagyi ab merko akele Jana pdega.. Or mera ro ro ke halat kharab hai..merko itni jarurat bhi nhi hai kyunki drop leri hun lekin tab bhi (Ab vo merse akele mei puchenge kya Kari)
ek or hamara Indian education system ye hi hai kya ki hamare no. Kitne hai vo aapki Puri personality decide kar deta hai ??? Aapko kitni knowledge hai ussse mtlb nhi hain bas no. Ache aane chaiye.. Padne ke alava kisi chij mei bhi ache ho to vo gya maa chudane tu pdai kar

Let me start my story , pile u hoogaya ha sunana chahta hu , So last year I started jee prep in 11th class , I joined Bansal classes in my locality and pehle ache teachers the waha jo sachme acha padhate ha advance ka , but bacceh chutoye the unhe aata nahi tha smaj , tph aadhe change kar diye teacher , jo neet ka bhi nahi padhate the , In the mean time mere 10 results aaye thank god 98% score kiya tha, Confidence mila toh coaching ma physics chemistry chhod diya sirf maths waha se , Physics Saleem sir se aur chem bhi PW se hi !!! Here is the twist , I am a extrovert kinda guy , mere sab dost the tution ma but I added one girl , Lets name her SK. We started talking in June , pehele ehle chats pe har din baat hoti thi , I was more into studies toh mera zyada time waha nahi jaata tha , Ahista ahista we became really very good friends , After a month or two we started talking on calls after 2.00 Am , tab tak ma padh raha hota tha , and everything was going well , mera syllabus thoda peecha tha tution ki bakhchodi ki wajah se but It was going fine , Then I got really atttached to her like anything , she too was Ig . Then I fell in love with her I said this to her in november , She said nahi ma bhi nahi chahti yeh sab aur tum bhi focused raho , but we were normal aftere that . Now in decemeber things started getting tense , mujhe syllabus khatam karne ki bhi tension uske saath bhi theek nahi jaa raha tha , meri gaand phat gayi thi literal . Then Maine struggle kar raha hu har din , waha se us ke satah bhi thodi ladaaiyan . Then I asked her" tu mujhe chhodegi toh nahi , ma gussa bhu karta hu kabhi and Abhi ma 100% nahi de raha ", she replied "jisse rehana hota ha woh rehta ha 1000 ladaiyon ke baad bhi, aur ma bhi toh gussa karti hu" . I was so happy at that point!! She was really understanding and loving towards me , She really took care of me and I love her . But again a twist , we had a major fight in January and after struggling for 2 weeks SHE LEFT ME . No it was not mutual , I wanted her to stay with me till the end butt noo. I didnt stop her from going but I tried once , I went to tution(Which i left in mid ) just to meet her , but she refused to talk and Then called me on my phone and said I am happy without you , You hurt me and all , Then I lleft it . I dont try now . I let it be . Uske baad I completed my Organic ttill advance level of 11th . Physocs ma 2nd part thoda weak rha , But hoagya , Maths me bhi mains se adv ke beech ka hogaya . Now continuing my 12th , going well but Kabhi kabhi woh sab yaad aata ha phir chud jaati ha . TOh bass yeh the aaj ke randi rone

If somebody remembers, a week ago I made a post where I explained the situation of a very good friend of mine (Lets say KK), I'll attach the link for those who don't know, and I have somewhat of an update regarding his situation.
Ok so our school announced that we can take our school passing certificate, character certificate and LORs from the school on 30th May and all students were to appear between 9 30 to 12 30. I reached the school at about 10 40, and I collected my certificate, waiting for some other friend(Lets say SV) to arrive.
Then, while I was having a small chat with others, KK arrived, and as soon as he saw me, he ran away (avoiding all sorts of confrontation like I said), and that didn't bother me much because as everyone suggested, I gave up on him. Now because SV is a common friend for both me and KK, he tried to bring him back, so that we could talk it out and end it, but I was not in a mood for that, so I just left and came back to my home.
Also, if it couldn't get any worse, his parents have also given up on him. His parents said to him "If you have any respect for us, please stop talking to her" and he refused to stop talking to her. When I heard about this, I was honestly speechless.
His younger brother, who is our major insider source LOL, also gave this idea to his parents to permanently block discord.com and instagram.com where they majorly talk from his laptop, but his parents said that they think if we do that, he will leave the house given how desperate he is.
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