Ang istorya ng mahiwagang bulsa

Di ko maalis sa isip ko ung pa-ngiti ngiting tingin mo sa byahe, nahuhuli mo rin ata akong sumusulyap tingin, mga 3 days ko na iniisip anong pangalan mo. I regret na hindi ko nakuha kahit man lang pangalan, kahit sabay pa tayo ng binabaan. Ang tanging naiwang alaala sa kin yung ngiti mong nakakasilaw, gaya ng suot mong shirt na dilaw, muli ka sanang matanaw, at magkalakas ng loob na tanungin ang pangalan mo.

Im currently QA wfh, we were 4 QAs in this account, few months ago, tinanggal nila ang 3QAs or in floating status since yung workload namin is binigay na nla sa supervisors, sla na mismo mag audit ng calls. They retained me bacause I was trained for other 2 LOB. Just this month, my sup informed me that Ill be removed as well by the end of the month. My collegues that has been removed told me that HR will offer a vacant position as agents. This week for sure, mgmeeting with HR and sup. Ano kaya pwede kong itatanong?

Hello po! Nakita ko po tong subreddit na to, and want to ask advice from people in the science field who transitioned to working in the corpo setting.
For context po, sa testing lab po ako ngayon, pero mababa lang po sahod kahit licensed na. Nagtry din po ako mag apply sa ibang laboratories pero bigo pa rin. Ngayon, since mga hs friends ko ay nasa corpo at mostly naman ng mga kablock ko sa college ay nag med, wala ako masyadong mapagtanungan. Mahirap po ba magtransition from lab to corpo? Natatakot po kase ako na hindi maging in line yung pinag-aralan ko sa trabaho ko at mahirapan ako mag adjust.
Iniisip ko rin mga gastusin kase retiring na ang parents ko at madalas na lumalabas yung mga sakit nila. Send help po! Thank you!

So kahapon yung friend ko nag withdraw dito sa BKK ng pera yung 1st and 2nd second transactions nya okay naman may nilabas si ATM ba cash. Yung third tranaction nya walang lumabas na cash tapos yung nakalagay sa screen bank not responding daw pero nabawas sa yung pera sa account nya. Yung na research namin is maibabalik naman daw ang pera after 2 days. Anyone who experienced the same? Naibalik ba ang pera nyo after 2 days?

Hello, gusto ko lang sana mag kwento wala kasi ako mapag sabihan nito. Meron kasi akong bestfriend na kababata talaga kami as in mga 11yrs old ako nun sya naman 10. Ngayon po Si girl ay (26yrs old na) Ako pala (27 yrs old na). Nagulat nalang kasi ako na itong ai friend biglang naging cold na sa mga reply.
Ako kasi yung tipo ng tao na “Andito lang ako para sayo, tuturing kitang halos kadugo ko na buong buhay ganun.” Hangang sa itong si friend pag nag chchat kami usap ganyan may times na di na nya ako siseen halos months na. Pag mangangamusta ako napanno na ba sya ganyan simple lang sagot ganun.
Hangang sa kinatampo ko yun :( Ng di ko nalang din sinabi kasi di narin ako pinapansin na. Wala naman ako gingawang masama sayo ganun. Gusto mo ba mag grow ng di nako kasama ay okay lang naman sakin. Ako andito parin para sayo. So ito na yung kinasama ko ng loob. Si friend ay tuluyan na akong ginhost as in wala na di nako sinees at tuluyan na di nag paramdam.
Sobrang sumama loob ko na di nako mag fifirst move kasi lagi nalang ako. Mamatay man wala akong ginawang masama guys. Sinama ko pa sya sa Bohol kahit na ang nanyre halos sagot ko lahat jusko alam ng bf ko yan. Nagparamdam sya nun kasi nagtrtravel kami at boom ayun nagulat nalang ako sinama namin sya sa bohol.
After nun wala na ano satingin nyo habulin ko pa o wag na?

Dati we were so fond of a local brand, Barosso sold at Landers. Very tasty, siksik and puro laman pero ngaun mas prefer ko na ang Purefoods kasi ung Barosso may kasama nang tubig at malaking tipak na LARD 😅 sayang ang ganda pa naman ng packaging at lasa and knowing local brand sya haaayyy

Hanggang kailan po ang hulihan ng van from Imus to Cavite? Wala na namang van ngayon sa The District huhu hiraaaap 🥺

21 yrs old ako currently nag aaral parin sa university so me and my sister in law had a fight before pero di ganto kalala she’s being so rude towards my mother. Lagi syang nag paparinig sa socmed ng kung ano ano sa mother ko and pinalagpas ko yun kasi lagi ko naman nasa isip na be the bigger person or wala akong mapapala kung pumatol pa ako. Before may mangyari samin may narinig na ako sakanila ulit yes po nag karoon kasi ng fiesta samin nung March nanuod kami ng munimuni nun kasama yung pinsan kong babae sobrang fan sya ng munimuni ako naman sakto lang nakikinig sakanila ganun lang. Yung sister in law ko at yung asawa ng pinsan ko ang sabi ay pinilit ko daw ang bf kong manuod ng concert (which is never kong gagawin kasi sanay naman akong mapagisa lagi) and gaya gaya daw ako sa pinsan kong babae na fan ng munimuni ganun (take note galing to sa pinsan kong nakainuman ko nasisiraan din ako) kasi ewan ko baka feeling nila since k-pop fan ako k-pop lang pinakikinggan ko.
So ayun i still talk to them treat them nicely kahit ang dami dami kong naririnig na balita na sinisiraan nila ako etc. Well we still have a beef kasi di sya nag lilinis ng bahay (take note bahay to ng nanay ko and di sya nahihiya na ganun kakalat ang bahay kahit nakikitira lang sya) kahit cr manlang sana ang linisin di magawa naka dorm kasi ako malayo ang bahay namin sa university lingguhan ako umuwi samin and every time na uuwi ako need ko mag linis ng bahay kasi as in parang binagyo ang bahay i have allergies kaya ayoko ng magabok na bahay yung cr namin mukang public cubicle na sa dumi we have yellow walls sa cr at dahil di na siguro nalilinis naging orange na we have blue tiles na nagiging brown na yung damit nila hinahayaan lang nila sa cr na mabasa hanggang bumaho na lagi ko naman sinasabi sa kanila na tagtagin nila ang damit nila sa cr nakasi ang baho but ang ginagawa lang nila ay wala so even na umuuwi ako dati ang nililinis ko na lang ay cr at nilalagay ang damit nila sa mag sulok bahala na sila. Even at my brother nagagalit na ako kasi it always triggers my allergies pag umuuwi ako but parang wala lang sakanila yun.
So eto na dito na nag simula yung di ko pag pansin sakanilang tatlo. Before all of this happened me and my cousin drink one on one we talk a lot then naalala ko na i shared something to her na hindi na kami nag iinuman nung asawa ng pinsan ko because she did something and say something that offended us. March 28 nag swimming kaming mag pipinsan at kasama namin yung nakainuman kong pinsan ko (btw she’s just 16 or 17) still not legally allowed to drink kasama din namin yung ate nya. I tried so hard na makisali sya samin without drinking or anything pero di talaga sya nakikisali a few day after ng swimming namin nakita ko silang nag paparinig sa fb and day mga first week ng april yun. I shrugged it off kasi hindi ko naman alam kung sino nanaman pinaparinggan nila pero napansin ko isa sa shared post nila ay “gaya gaya” daw so i think ako to. Inintay kong kausapin nila ako kasi baka gusto lang nila since they never heard my side. Days turns to week na ganun parin sila para silang high school war freak na aabangan ako sa gate haha.
So ayun lumabas lahat ng pinagusapan namin nung nag outing kami (nag karoon kasi kami ng labasan ng sama ng loob ng mga pinsan ko kasi nag iinuman na kami) na pinag kataka taka namin kasi lahat ng kasama sa outing namin ay hindi naman close sa kanila para mag share ng ganun so naisip namin na baka yung pinsan namin na nakasama ko sa inuman ang nag labas as in lahat nang yare nung araw na yun. She also mentioned na hindi naman daw sya nag enjoy nun na kasama kami (di ko alam kasi baka di sya pinayagan uminom ng ate nya) she also mentioned kung sinong mag kakatabi.
Then my other sister in law talks to me na ayun nga sinisiraan na ako nung pinsan ko sa isa kong sister in law at asawa ng cousin ko ang sabi ko daw ay wag na daw sya pumunta dun sa tindahan ng sister in law ko kasi sinisiraan lang daw naman sya nun which is never kong sasabihin kasi kumikita sya dun ng pera pake ko ba sakanya kung gusto nyang sumama dun or not kasi hello di naman ako ang nag papa-sweldo sakanya. I think madami pa syang dinagdag kasi as in gigil na gigil sakin yung dalawa. Eto namang asawa ng pinsan ko hindi ko alam kung bakit nagagalit sakin e ang sinabi ko lang naman ay ayoko na syang makainuman because of something she did and say she really disrespectful toward some people she always say na prangka sya no she’s so disrespectful na umaabot sa punto na kahit di nya kilala kung ano anong sinasabi nya. They disrespected me at social media call me names (well sanay na ako na mahilig silang mang body shame at mang lait talaga). They also make fun of me saying that i stink im very hygienic person so hindi ko alam kung saan nila nakuha yun e sila nga tong gumagamit ng sabon pang hugas ng private area nila tas pang hugas pa ng muka nila. Hanggang ngayon di parin nila ako kinaka-usap about dun pero sa lahat ng nakita kong mangungutya nila sakin sa socmed i had enough no more bigger person bahala na sila. And for my cousin na kung ano anong paninira ang ginawa sakin and now nag papaawa na hindi ko daw sya kinakausap haha hanap na syang kakampi nya and i hope i really hope na worth it lahat ng pinag gagawa nya.
Btw she really had a guts na mag patulong sakin sa research nya after lahat lahat ng mga ginawa nya sakin one of them said na b0b0 ako so bakit di sya mag patulong dun. And it’s funny na sabihan ako ng b0b0 e hinahanap nga nya ang RRL sa chatgpt HAHAHA
Abyg dahil di ko na nga pinapasin sila until now?

hi po! nag upload po company ko ng 2316 sa payroll site po namin and ang weird lang po kasi yung tin ko dun is di naman po yung tin ko. pero nakatanggap po ako ng tax refund nung january? baka di pala binabayad ng company yung kaltas na tax ang laki pa naman magkaltas lalo na withholding kasi mali tin ko sa 2316? nagsabi naman na po ako sa hr na mali tin ko kasi di pa po naayos.

I’ve submitted a request 4 days ago. Processed naman na and for appointment scheduling. The problem is sobrang down ang energy ko. I have almost no motivation to work, going 3 weeks nang absent sa work. Coupled with anxiety na I can’t even look at my work phone. I’m suffering from depression, losing weight and sleep. But I don’t want to lose my job, breadwinner ako but right now I really can’t. I feel so exposed, vulnerable, and almost naked sa harap ng ibang tao. I need immediate help or some sort of medication.

every day feels heavier..
so I have this guy (let me call him Dee) from last year and up until now every time we meet, we know that we gonna do the nasty.
Dee and I just always meet and fuck every time and after that dun kami magkkwentuhan about our recent life update. We never knew in the first place na we had common interests and same beliefs. That was the time na I showed a little more affection than before but I think I was ghosted na.
Long story short we met a couple of times after he was out for whole month and I was hesitant na kasi I want serious relationship at this point and I'm craving for love and attention. But I miss him so I said yes, after the deed, we shared recent life happenings and we were scrolling on tiktok watching cute couple video when he blurted out "ganito sana tayo kaso ayaw mo ng label", I know he was just teasing me at this point kahit ang sakit na kasi I really want us to have serious relationship na. I was also picturing the idea na we will go to some romantic date na walang sex and all.
After we check out sa hotel, it was 12am na at this point, he says "wow ang glowing mo yiee" pertaining to the after-sex-glow, I just rolled my eyes kasi alam ko na I was not on my best look, my hair was just in a bun and baby hairs are all over the place. We decided to eat sa nearest fast food because we're both hungry. While waiting for the food, I noticed na he was so close to me, knowing Dee na ilap sa mataong lugar, I teased him by resting my head on his shoulder and I was suprised na he allowed it. Damn, I was getting emotional kasi we looked like we are a legit couple. I was praying inside na sana totoo na kami talaga in real life and hindi lang for meet and fck. After our meal we bid goodbyes.
Nung nasa bahay na ako, I prayed to God immediately. I was hoping and praying na if he doesn't want me to be part of his life, someone else will.
I also said to my self na for one last time, before we stop everthing sana may meet up kami na hindi mag llead sa sex.
And so we had our last meet up, we ate and laugh and surprisingly, hindi kami nag check in. After that, we hang out and hugged each other and I was panicking deep inside kasi I was thinking "Lord, eto na ba yun? Last na ba 'to huhu" and so we separate ways na. I looked back, saw him walking away and that was the last time I saw him.
It was a month ago, never got any sms or pm from him since then. I was ghosted.
Yesterday, I was decluttering and arranging my things when I saw the dispo na supposedly I will give sa kanya the last time we meet kaso nakalimutan ko. He's aware of it, and so I message him kahapon kung gusto pa ba nya and if not will give it sa iba na lang. Lol, that was just an excuse, gusto ko lang talaga sya makausap. But he didn't reply.
He viewed my stories, alam ko na online sya.
Haha, that's what you get gurl, delulu ka kasi. Now I'm thinking I belong to this group of ladies na always desired, but never pursued.
And I think ayoko na ulit makipag meet kasi never naman may nangilala. I was willing to give cupid a second chance but looks like I owed karma and I paid it in full (hopefully, kasi ayoko na magka utang tama na yung pain pls)

after many months of thinking , reevaluation, and asking for sign binuhos na ni lord lahat sakin.
totoo nga no, once you asked him for his guidance darating yung mga signs nya.
nung september pa lang I asked god to give me a sign if the man i’m with is cheating, he give me a sign, i found out that he’s trying to contact his ex (on a dummy account they’d both created).
tapos kung sino sinong babae sinesearch at nirereact-an nya walang respeto kahit kaming dalawa na nasa DP nya
pero bago pa to, i found him reacting on posts of many girls na naka ons , fubu and nakainteract nya on early stage of relationship.
nung nahuli ko sya ng september dineny nya pa, sabi nya di na daw nila nabubuksan yung account tinry nya lang daw icall
i forgive, and god might say “ay tanga”
tapos ayun sunod sunod ang panaginip ko na nagchecheat sya hahah totoo pala
then second,
nung december na sobrang cold na nya, i said to lord please bigyan nyo po ako ng sign kung magloloko na sya, or hindi sya para sakin, then dang! kinabukasan nakita ko tinatawagan nya pa nga talaga ex nya nung time pa na nagkita kami hahahah and nung gabi bago yun he said na makikipaghiwalay sya sakin pag nag iglesia ako. e alam naman nyang di ko gagawin yun.
then third ito na yung last namin na paghihiwalay, binuhos na ni lord lahat kung pano sya nagcheat at siniraan ako sa ibang tao kasama sa pamilya nya hahahah.
fucked up. siya lang sineryoso ko pero wala e, i need to move on. nung nakita ko yung last sign bigla akong natauhan. hindi ko kaya makisama sa lalake g sinungaling at cheater.
well, naging mabuti naman sya sakin, like he’s gentleman and giving gifts and paying for dates always but hindi yun reason to cheat coz sobrang bait kong gf sa kanya, at di ko naisipan magcheat.
pero ayun hahahah salamat kay lord.
moral lesson: unang pagchecheat pa lang iwanan mo na, hindi yan matitigil hanggat di mo iniiwanan
mahalin mo ang sarili mo, di porke nagcheat sayo yung tao, ibig sabihin pangit ka na look at ms. kathryn bernardo. :)
be strong we can make it.

Part 1: https://www.reddit.com/OffMyChestPH/s/rZznjBrMXb
This is the second night with her.
Since maraming nag request ng update here we go. This one is a long read(you guys asked for this)
So a lil sumthing about me. I'm not really a nice guy. I wouldn't call myself a bad dude either but I'm the type of dude na I won't let my sisters to date. I'm not the ideal.
So yep, sinundo ko s'ya hotel n'ya. That was 5pm. She's so awkward talaga as ever. I tried opening the door for her pero naunahan n'ya ako. She didn't know kung saan kame pupunta but plinano ko na pupunta kame sa cat cafe since I know how much she loves cats dahil majority ng captured pictures n'ya sa phone ay mga pusa n'ya na observe ko nung first date namin.
Oh and before the date lininis ko talaga yung kotse ko carwash/vacuum. Even bought a new cabin air filter.
Anyways during the trip I was just asking her abt her day and the previous day. Wala parin s'yang idea sa pupuntahan namin. Pero nung nag papark na kame nakita n'ya yung cat cafe and nanliwanag yung mata n'ya. Iba rin yung ligaya na naramdaman ko pag nakikita ko ren yung saya n'ya. She got excited and we stayed there for an hour hahah. Bought her a t-shirt and crocs charms na souvenir ng cafe. I also like the fact na she's willing to pay her part everytime we spend something. But I've never let her spent anything while she's with me. So tapos na kame don. And after non di n'ya parin alam kung san na kame pupunta little did she know we're going to another cat cafe na mas maganda. Buttt di kame umabot kase closing na nung dumating kame don hahah nasa mall yon and medyo crowded. So I initiated to hold hands dahil I wanna keep track of her dahil nawawala s'ya sa peripheral vision ko at medyo mabagal s'yang maglakad talaga or mabilis ako hahah. Pati pag holding hands ang awkward n'ya na di marunong. So we walked around the city again while planning kung san pupunta. And while crossing one of the roads tinangal n'ya yung Crocs dahil madudulas daw s'ya. Maulan kase so basa yung kalsada. So naka paa s'ya hahah weirdo. Kaya biglang binuhat ko na lang s'ya patawid hahah and I bought her a new set of tsinelas since pudpud na pala yung Crocs n'ya kaya pala sinabe n'yang madulas. So di n'ya rin pala magagalit yung charms na binili ko hahah 😅 and after that we went to the beach na malapit lang. I just watched her. Then we talked again while sitting on the sand honestly we struggle to communicate like normal and go deep. She's very bad at talking in person. And also the fact that she's nervous. But we ended up sharing our life back in highschool.
Oh I also took photos of her through out the date dahil I know she's also bad at taking pictures but she likes taking pictures of her and stuffs. And I know how it sucks to be by yourself all the time and only have one form of picture taking(selfie). I'll share it here(yes I'm just flexing how ethereal she is)
Well, after the beach we ended going to the arcade para mag escape room kame pagkatapos. We had fun even though she's really awkward and quiet. Sinabayan ko ren kaweirdohan n'ya by sniffing her armpit after every game namin kahit anong laroin namin 😆
Tapos somehow nakahanap ako ng rose flower na naiwan ng ibang costumer and I was smooth with it dahil inaamoy ko yung kili kili n'ya then I suddenly gave her the rose. Gosh, her reaction... She was really blushing. Apparently it's her first time receiving flowers from someone in person. Tagal den namen sa arcade kaya di na naabutang bukas yung susunod na pupuntahan namen.
Kaya deadset na kameng makahanap ng alak pero it was very late na at that point it basically just became a night ride with a lil purpose. We were just looking for places na bukas pa to look for alcohol. There's a cute interaction I had with one of the places we went pero di namin nagustohan. We were at the parking lot and naka upo lang sa kotse ko looking for the next place to go. And may matandang lalaki na pinababa bintana ko para makipag usap tungkol sa kotse ko at kinompliment n'ya at pinag usapan namen yung car and at the end of our convo in compliment rin ng s'ya nung matanda. Ang ganda n'ya daw pero tinawag n'ya s'yang asawa at girlfriend ko hahaha that felt so good even though we were together she got shookt ren dahil di ata s'ya sanay maka tangap ng compliments hahah
But yeah it was just an hour two of me driving and her on my passenger sit while hugging my Gengar plushie. I never take anyone on my passenger seat besides my plushie so she's basically my first passenger princess.
When we gave up to look for alcohol we just went sa 711 to get siopao and water. We finished the night at the beach again to talk and smoked a cigarette cause she wanted to try it hahah
I guess she wanted to get drunk so she can come out of her shell a lil bit? Kase when we tried talking she can't come up with anything. To describe her, she's basically not normal. She admits it too.
She suggested that I can just talk and she'll listen. Which is I'm no way used to at that time I was also kinda vulnerable and was gonna get emotional with her pero I told her na she can ask me anything then we can start from there.
She asked me the most unhinged thing and caught off guard. Aling betlog ko daw yung mas mababa 😭 and I guess it's one of the things I like about her. Like who tf asks that under the moon light in the beach after a date?
So I was expecting her to have an emotional conversation with me when that's not her. So I just watched her do her thing that makes her happy. We went through her phone hahah this time sa discord and ig n'ya. She was just yapping while showing stuffs and was just mesmerized the whole because that's how she expresses herself. And the more ko na narealize kung gaano talaga kame mag kaiba. I'm also very surprised na she doesn't really talk to other guys. We did that until inaantok na s'ya and that was around 3:30am. So sinamahan ko lng s'ya hangang sa elevator ng hotel. I didn't get to hug her or smell her armpit cause she rushed in dahil sobrang antok n'ya na.
Man, when I tell you. That was the longest 35 mins drive back home I ever had. I caught myself tearing up sa mga stop signs/red lights from the overwhelming emotions I'm having.
So anyways this is just some of the thoughts and details that I have to share of that night; like I said I'm not the best dude but I surprised myself that night. I had my phone on do not disturb because I wanted to enjoy the moment. Opened every door for her even sa car. Minimal physical contact like holding hands but not all the time and I cherished every single moment of it. I ALWAYS asked how she's feeling every chance I get. I asked her what her boundaries are so I won't ever make her uncomfy. Which she didn't answer for some reason that I'll never know. I observed her and wanted to learn her. Never had her spend money the whole time she's with me.
Hmmm. I really went beyond and surprised of myself. My main objective of that night was just her happiness.
Honestly I was just scared of asking her what she feels about me... Part of me thinks na it's only platonic on her side or that she's not as emotionally invested as me. Which is fine by me but it stings. Kase I never really know her intentions from the yellow app wether she's looking for a friend or something else. Also caught her stalking my profile sa bumble so baka crush nyako hehe(delulu). And there's also the underlying bittersweet fact na we both know there's an ending to it. Uuwi ren s'ya in a couple days. And as for me I know from myself na I never do LDR. But still, I wanted to do my best for her. Even though I know we are not the endgame. I want to be her standard. I want to give her the best couple nights she can have so she'll have something to remember for a very long time on her life. She somehow made me a better person that night. So yeah guys I'll have to cut this post since I'm getting kinda teary na. There's so much more I wanted to share but words cannot describe it so yeah I did the best I can to share ;))
Oh and yes, we're going on a date again later tonight ofc ;))

I (late20sF) have been crushing or probably i am already in love with a colleague. Never been in true/serious a relationship ako. (I tried dating my friend once, it didn't work. Relationship lasted for a week because it felt weird. She was a friend and naging crush ko naman nung highschool ako, pero nung naging kami na, i didn't feel anything romantic so I ended our relationship.)
At my late20s, 3x lang ako nagkaron ng romantic feelings na overwhelming para sakin kasi I do not know how to handle it. First one was with a guy classmate in highschool. My feelings for him lasted for almost 3 years gang sa nagfade nalang. 2nd was with a girl I met. Eto ang malala kasi inabot ng 5 years bago ako totally maka move forward. After neto, I thought di na ko makakafeel ng anything romantic for someone, not until makawork ko si girl 3. Di ko alam when ako nagstart makafeel ng ganito for her. Ang alam ko lang, she'd always reach out to me, mag ask ng help, or ng thoughts ko about something. Hanggang unconciously napapansin ko na din siya and after almost a year naming magkawork, gumaan na din loob ko sa kanya. Lumalim pa lalo nung naging connected na kami sa socmed.
In-add niya ko sa social media. Ganon pa din, siya pa din ang unang nagre reach out. There's a time na nagkasunod sunod yung convo namin. I would think, what if same lang kami ng nararamdaman? But i pushed that thought away kasi ayokong mag assume, isa pa wala naman halong anything landian yung talks namin. Deep convos about anything lang. So ayun, after ng convo na yun di na siya ulit nag reach out sa socmed. Di na din siya nagrereact sa stories or memes ko. I am thankful na workmates pa din kami kasi kahit papano connected pa din ako sa kanya.
Why am I sharing this here? Kasi di ko na alam gagawin ko. Gusto ko lang ilabas, I don't like sharing my issues with friends because pagsisisihan ko lang din afterwards. Last year, nung alam kong malalim na feelings ko for her, to the point na lagi na siyang laman ng isip ko, instead of telling her how I feel, I looked for an escape, a distraction sa nararamdaman ko. For a while, it worked pero lately nagreresurface na naman. Ang malala pa niyan, di na kami nag uusap ngayon, unless may itatanong siyang work related lang. I miss her pero di ko alam pano mag reach out sa kanya. 90% siguro ng interactions namin, siya ang nag initiate. Minsan naiisip ko, napagod nalang siguro siya mag initiate nang mag initiate ng convo with me. Somehow naiinis ako sa ugali kong hindi kakausap ng tao pag hindi ako kinausap. I would probably look for another way to escape since dun naman ako magaling.

This.time.is.the.worst.
Paano ko nasabi? Kasi I am at a point in my life na I am already beginning to progress in my life. Eto na ako sa level na, maliit man, pero may nakikita na akong progress sa buhay ko na matagal kong pinaghirapan at pinagtrabahuan lalo nung early 20s life ko.
Paano ko nasabi? Kasi I am at a point in my life when I need my partner the most. Mag isa ako sa isang dayuhang bansa. Kumakayod, naghihirap, nang sa gayon eh umasenso sa buhay. Literal na mag isa ako. I feel homesick. I feel lonely.
Paano ko nasabi? Kasi ako ang tumapos. Nahirapan akong piliin magtira ng pagmamahal sa sarili ko, to a point na pakiramdam ko naging selfish ako. Pinilit ko kumapit, pinilit ko lumaban. Pero ang hirap. I called for help. I cried for help. Mahabang pag uusap ang naganap pero walang napuntahan.
You know what made it worst? I honestly believe na mahal nya ako pero bakit ganon? Bakit sa dami at tagal kong lumaban, nung ako na yung bumigay, pumayag lang din sya. Ang dali kong pakawalan? Ang dali ko bitiwan? Bat naman ganon.
Ang saklap ng buhay. Ngayon ako ang masama dahil ako ang nang iwan. Ngayon ako yung di totoong nagmahal kasi hindi ko natanggap kung sino na sya ngayon.
People think I am happy. I am having the best time of my life.
Sure, I am content with the life I have right now. I got lucky. I got blessed with beautiful and wonderful friends who are helping me heal the heart they did not broke in the first place.
Pero from time to time, napapabreak down pa din tlga ako. Ang hirap. Ang hirap.

Hulog na yata ako sa'yo. Bakit kasi araw-araw, binibigyan mo ako ng rason para magustuhan ka? Alam ko na hindi dapat, kasi hindi puwede....hindi puwede kasi parang naglalaro lang naman tayo dito, 'di ba?
Hinding hindi mo malalaman, kasi hinding hindi ako aamin sa'yo. Hahayaan na lang kitang kusang umalis, kasi hindi ko kayang umalis kahit ang sakit-sakit na.

Hi guys! gusto ko po sana mag pasalamat sa mga redditors here na tumulong sakin about a week ago. i am so grateful po dun sa tumulong. and kanina lang nilibre pa ako ng food nung isang redditor. you can check my previous posts po.
Actually i made a terrible mistake that could lead to losing my job. the mistake in judgement was so bad proffessionally and so embarassing that i could not put it in writing.
i only have 24 hrs but i already lost all my resources in fixing this . and with that being said. i will do the self exit/deletion later and i think that is my only way out. sorry po sa inyu ha na nawaste ko ang efforts nyo. but fixed na po ang mind ko. im so grateful to have met you redditors.

I'm just gonna rant how incompetent the cybercrime unit in our area is. Context is yung fb account ng family member ko is na hack and then yung hacker nag chat sa iba-ibang tao asking for money ranging from 3k-6k and unfortunately a relative of mine fell victim to this kampon ng impyerno.
As advised by some relatives na mag punta sa PNP to their cyber crime unit to report the crime so we went there. The moment na we explained what happened ang sabi agad is there's almost no chance na they can do anything about the money that was sent and ang gawin nalang talaga is mag send ng report or email from the app that was used to transfer the money.
So we mentioned na is there anything we can do nalang on how to locate or identify the hacker since we identified the hacker's ip address from the fb and he said na there's also no chance to track it cause as he said even if alam nila baka lang daw hindi exact yung since posible ang ip address will only re-direct to the internet provider's location etc. and that if ever man is wala daw ganyan sa Ph yung mag track ng ip address and I was like 'wtf?'. As far as I know even if that is the case there is still a chance to locate using the ip address, even countries outside ph have successfully done so multiple times and this officer didn't even take note man lang yung ip or any information that could possibly identify the hacker.
Also, may number na gi provide yung hacker from gcash and also binago niya din number sa fb so we mentioned those to the officer if possible na those two numbers could be identified din. In my mind I already knew na there's a chance that these numbers aren't even theirs and were possibly stolen or bought but still, SIMS ARE REGISTERED HERE IN THE PH!!! So maybe they can identify the hacker in that way, but this guy said the things that were on my mind and said that wala rin talaga silang magawa and the only thing they can help is pano iretrieve yung account which for me is basic knowledge and we already did so because it's easy nowadays to retrieve accounts with just the help of google!
So out of curiosity I asked anong course ni officer because I thought if you were to get into the cyber crime unit is that you must be an IT/CompSci or any computer related course to get in so I expected na yan yung sasabihin niya but he said he's a criminology graduate and that he also previously mentioned that the cyber crime unit division in our area was just established back in 2019. Like useless talaga...
Also the officer was so icky kasi nag mention siya na there were cases na hackers also blackmail you if ever they found a scandal on your phone and this one time there was this 15 year old girl who fell victim to this and compared her to a c0rn⭐ like wtf? He even assured us na it was normal for them to watch those things so they aren't bothered in the slightest about those kind of videos pero kahit ano pang explain niya wala akong tiwala the way palang na how he described the girl.
In the end they couldn't do anything and told my relative who was the victim that sent out the money to the hacker to just report it to the different station within the barangay and dun nalang magpa blotter... Can't even imagine old people who are not knowledgeable about technology who fell victims to such hacks and scams na sabihan na walang magagawa ang estasyon sa kanila.
So f these security measures na inemplement ng gobyerno eh wala namang silbi sa huli!!