Me and him have had such a weird friendship/relationship (whatever you call it) and my over dependence is driving me over the edge
For the past 2 years I’ve loved this man like a dog. I’d follow him everywhere, comfort him, let him tell me what’s on his mind. Everything. About a month ago he spiralled a bit, causing me to spiral in my own way because my happiness really does depend on his happiness and how he views me.
I know that’s crazy unhealthy but it’s just been the way I’ve worked around real ‘crushes.’
He decided he wanted to change. I helped him, gave him advice and pulled him out of the pit he drove himself into. He’s “changed” and now I can just sense him driving himself away from me and it hurts. After all I’ve done for him and all I promised him, stuff we’ve promised eachother? All hanging on a ledge.
I’m probably being over dramatic but after sensing his last spiral I can’t help but wonder if his next will end with him cutting me out of his life.
He’s a good guy. I don’t know what’s happend with him. I know he wants to change for the better, I’m helping him to. But I know in the end I’ll end up discarded and I’ll rot.
Circle of life? Probably.

I've had ingrown hair growing sideways under the skin of my legs for some time now. Instead of growing out straight, the hairs grown longways under my skin. Some of them have two or three hairs in one follicle. When I try to remove the hair, it tears my skin. I have so many sores and purple things under my skin, I don't know what to do. The doctor said "just give it time" but thick, dark hairs are growing through the sores and they hurt so bad when trying to sleep on that side. I wonder if I can get laser now or do I have to wait for the sores to completely heal.

I've been trying to create a metal etching using photoresist film, but the UV light keeps penetrating the black ink on my transparency, causing the entire resist to cure. I've tried both a print shop's design and one I printed myself, but neither blocked the UV light effectively. How can I print a transparency dark enough to prevent this issue?
I'm currently using a Canon iX6820 inkjet printer

A loud blast in gulfs the small life less camp, a bigger explosion hits the barn and a huge rock hits it's roof. Rushing to the scene five fire fighters in one truck, as Soon as they arrive three start to grab the hose and the last two prepare the water by turning the small wheel to run the water.The last turn and the rushing water comes flying out pushing the men back, they lift the hose aiming for the barn.Three hours later the fire has rested, the barn covered in black ash lays lifelessly on the ground in the black charred dirt, the men sift looking for victims. An hour later they hit and find something massive at first one thought it was a burnt up ash of a cow, but then they found a massive rock! The fore men cautiously take a look to find it was still very hot and still smoldering in the ground. The men call the police and anyone who could help them identify this unearthly rock.The police arrive with a few towns people who were professors at the nearby college, looking and studying the rock one professor came to conclude that it wasn't a rock, but a huge meteorite that made its way from space to earth. As soon as the professor told the people they decided to remove it, two hours later a crane arrived to pick up this massive meteorite the tow truck backed up and the man hoped out wrapping the old rusted chains around it giving it a tug to check the chains, he gets in the truck and presses the accelerator gently. Not bearing the meteorite suddenly becomes engulfed in flames once more, the people who were standing there are now apart of the black silted dirt that surrounds the rock, two of the firemen call for backup and drives away giving it room.The meteorite then moves forward towards the small pool of water near the barn, touching the water the meteorite suddenly explodes killing the remaining people surrounding, the helplessly bodies charred and smoldering lay as if they were two the barn.The meteorite then shifts into the earth turning into a smaller lengthy slithering object. Twenty minutes have past and the backup arrives, the firemen hop out looking at a field covered in ash and the charred bodies of their friends, the fire truck still on fire burns away into the deep smoke filled darkness of the night. Holding a small memorial a couple days later the town mourns the loss of it's fellow friends and fire fighters and the sons of the men as they are carried in
there small wooden caskets with a red white and blue flag with fifty stars.The wife's of the men weeped until their eyes were dry. Lowering into the ground the caskets moved slowly into the layered brown dirt, the fire men speak to the town leaving peaceful words. The next day the firemen are called to a small brushfire near the towns edge were the cemetery and the church are located, speeding down the dirt road they arrive to find that the fire has not yet reach any structures, rushing out they grab shovels and pix axes to dig trenches around the main structures, on doing so the fire grows bigger each second.The wind picked up carrying the flames towards the helpless men and the church, the pine trees surrounding the church suddenly catch fire as if they were fuel, the men trapped run into the church hoping for a miracle. Praying and sitting the men wait, wait for their last breath into the fire. The church now on fire starts to collapse with giant beams falling into the middle, one of the men is struck and killed instantly as the other men watch, crying the other men are inflamed and burning with their suit melting. Running the men fall laying on the ground charred and killed. The town now mourns the loss of more men and the loss of their church, standing near the water on the other side of town they let the caskets peacefully float and flow down the river bobbing down and up traveling towards the wooden bridge.The community now devastated does whatever possible to prevent more fires. Couple quiet and peaceful months later the wells dry up, people now only now have one source of water and it's the old shallow river, the river used for transportation has never been consumed of by humans.The townspeople do not like to drink from the river because they have seen the animals that have done so and died because of the contaminated water.Taking the water the towns people boil and make sure the water is crystal clear, floating down the Rivera small boat arrives with a black small tank to store the water for the people. Only having enough to last them for a couple weeks. Two weeks later three people have died of dehydration and worse the river has dried up.The townspeople call for help but no one responds. Curious the sheriff leaves to go out to the other town, reaching the end of the town crossing into the other county the sheriff is suddenly stopped by a gunshot to his tires, rushing from behind a small tree and foliage three camouflaged soldiers in uniform yell and tell the sheriff to stop.The sheriff walking out of the vehicle tells the soldiers
not to shoot and that he is the sheriff, uncaringly the soldiers then shoot him in the knee making flesh and bone fly off and exposing the muscle and bone that is now destroyed by the bullet, crying and laying on the ground the sheriff crawls toward the soldier asking why he shot him, the soldier then answers with his gun firing once more in the sheriffs skull splitting it and exposing the oozing brains that soak into the dry ground. Worried the townspeople wait for the sheriff to return with more water, they wait for three hours before sending a search party with two people, two young men in their early twenties load up into the truck, the men grabbed two guns one .308 lever action rifle and the other a 16 gauge shotgun, following the tire tracks of the sheriffs vehicle they finally come across his vehicle. Getting out of the truck the two men cautiously step out and walk up inspecting the vehicle, stepping into the blood soaked ground the men find two bullet casings marked m.i. USA NATO .223, recognizing the case one man says that this is a military weapon that this case was fired from the other man in disbelief agrees and searches more for more clues. Looking at the car one man sees that one bullet pierced the tires, but looks for the location of were the other one has hit.The blood that they stepped in is now almost soaked into the ground.The men look once more and them crawls back into the truck driving forward toward the car. Inching closely to the vehicle a loud boom and a shriek of a bullet comes piercing through the window into the passengers jaw splitting and tearing the flesh from his mouth.The lower jaw is now gone, teeth now litter the floor and on the dashboard with flesh and blood covering the seat.The passenger shrieking in pain cant speak, he mumbles and makes noises that is unrecognizable, the driver panicking ducks and slams the gas crashing into the vehicle, flying through the windshield the driver slams into the back of the car breaking the glass perching his flesh on his face.The driver then crawls into the vehicle hoping not to get shot, soldiers rush to the truck to find a moaning guy who half of his jaw is gone, they forcefully yank him and throw him to the dirt covered ground, his clothes covered in dust he now knows he is not gonna live very long. The sun is now setting on the small town of the twenty three people that is left, clouds start to build up and it now begins to rain, people rushing out of there homes grab any kind of device to catch the rain in, thirty minutes pass and It is now dark and a light drizzle still falls.The parents of the two sons wait till its eight the expected arrival time of the men. Eight comes very slowly with the parents waiting eagerly to meet there children once more. Eight thirty passes and no
signs of any vehicle or their children come.The parents now worried begin to panic and and wait a little more.While waiting the parents fall into a deep sleep not waking until ten the next morning.The chickens pecking at the ground begin to die slowly due to starvation, the ants slowly eat and surround the dead chickens in swarms.The townspeople now all awake begin to make plans to search for all of the people that are missing, the mayor of the town decides split into four, three people stay in town and five groups of four are made each taking a side of the town. Slowly walking away you can hear the voices of the people calling out the names of the loss. Footsteps cover the ground following the tire tracks, each person inspecting every part of the surroundings as much as possible.Thirty minutes later they get a glimpse of a smoke cloud up ahead, smelling burning rubber the black thick smoke surrounds the group, covering up their noses and mouth they search both vehicles. One person yells out to the others that he found one man on the ground burnt to a crisp smoldering. Dragging the body the flesh melts into the persons hand burning and stinging his flesh, unable to drag the body anymore the group panics and runs toward the town, running through the thick dead grass and bushes a small beeping noise alerts the group, the leader suddenly is instantly vaporized into a cloud of flesh and blood, realizing that they have ran into a minefield.The people seeing the aftermath of the mines begin to freak out and spread. Returning to the small town the four groups meet back up to discuss what they have found.They begin to count to make sure all twenty three are there, but they see four are still gone, waiting they here yelling from afar. Hearing the yelling all of the groups run out too see what the noise is.A dust covered man runs out of the dead dry grass towards the group, once reaching the group the man falls to his knees and cries and mumbles. Curious of why he is crying the people start to question him. Two days later three more people have died of starvation, the town not knowing what to do decides to dig and find water.The mayor calls for a meeting at the center of the town, all of the townspeople gather and listen to the mayor.The mayor speaks about digging and where they should dig, after the long pointless speech the townspeople gather digging supplies such as shovels pix axes and more, traveling to the location the people begin to chomp away at the rock hard sandy dirt.
Five hours later a man in his early thirties hits a hard piece of metal of some sort, curious they begin to dig around it. Reaching one side they decide to leave it a dig around it, but one man curious still wants to dig it out. It was now dark and no water has been found, without the water no one will be able to work any longer, but one man still out working is still trying to dig up the huge metal round rock. Giving up he shoots his anger towards the rock hitting it as hard as he could with the pic axe, as soon as he hit it the third time the rock began to move, freaking out the man began to run but was struck by a piece of limestone going through his abdomen killing him.The rock is now gone a afar where no one will reach it again. The next morning the townspeople awoke to find the body of the man and also the weapon, the limestone was small and rectangular in shape. Inspecting the body one man believes it was one of the townspeople that killed him, another man also agrees and begins to investigate. Rushing towards a small house outside of town the two men slam open the door and barge in, the man laying in his bed is grabbed and beaten, the man questions the men, the men answer by telling him that he is a murderer, puzzled the man tells them that he is not, but sure they take him out to the center of the town. Coming out of their homes the townspeople are surprised and also believe that he is the murderer. Five men and one woman look for anything they can burn, finding sticks and logs they begin to stack them into a bed, the bed now made is the final resting place for the accused murderer. Walking towards the bed the murderer begins to cry and shout out, but no one cares, once laying on the bed the man is bound by his hands by a small rope. Struggling on the bed another man lights a torch and throws it under the bed, catching on fire the wood slowly burns, the man now covered in flames is heard from far away yelling and crying with screams of pain. Smoke covers the town and the smell of burning flesh smothers the noses of the people around.Two hours later the bed is now completely burned down, all that is left is a small pile of ash and a burnt bones of the man. Digging a hole the townspeople push the ash in and bury him to be lost forever. With now fourteen people left in the town the mayor gives up, he waits in his small dirty house alone for any hope.Two days past and no signs until one man is seen digging in the dried up river, the mayor catching a glimpse of him steps outside to get a better view, stepping out side the mayor stands watching from
afar.Twenty minutes pass and the man begins to yell, the mayor hearing and seeing him rushes towards him as fast as possible. Getting closer the mayor can see a small pool of water beneath the mans feet, in joy the mayor calls the townspeople telling them to dig again. Only three people show up by the river telling the mayor that the others are to tired and need water to work, grabbing the shovels the people begin to dig, the mayor runs to his house and grabs buckets to fill. One hour has past and the mayor now has five buckets of water, preparing the fire to boil the water a small woman stands waiting for the fire to spark off, the fire finally catches and is burning furiously, grabbing the water she begins to boil one bucket at a time. People now begin to show up waiting for there chance to finally taste some liquid.

Disclaimer: I’m sorry, it’s really long.
My husband (28M) and I (29F) got married in December, a couple of years back. I’d known him since school, and we reconnected on March of the year we got married. Most of the relationship was long distance, since he lives in a different continent, but he did visit me during this time, and we stayed together for a couple of months. It was magical, and we decided to go ahead and get married.
At the time of our wedding, he was on student visa, and had just completed his course. He didn’t have a job, and was applying for jobs then. I didn’t think much of it, since I’d been working for 5 years then. I assumed I could support him till he got a stable job.
Fast forward to the wedding, his parents refused to attend because they had a disagreement with my parents over the dowry. They wanted $49k as dowry, which my parents and I thought was unreasonable. He also agreed, it was indeed unreasonable. But since his parents refused to attend the wedding, he asked if I could also not invite my parents, and if it could be just the two of us at the wedding, because he’d feel awkward as no one was present for him. (it was a court marriage) Although I didn’t like this idea initially, I agreed, because I wanted him to feel happy, as it was supposed to be our day. Then he started negging me to the point, where he chose my wedding dress, down to the Color, hairstyle, cut and everything. I didn’t think much of it, to be fair.
He flies down here, we get married, and he flies back in a week.
I was supposed to travel to the country he was at, on a dependent visa. Due to diplomatic issues between the countries, my visa gets delayed over 8 months. And we didn’t know when I’d get the visa. So, my parents suggested he come here instead, so we could be together, as he did not have a job at the time and could look for one here instead. To which he agreed, but him and mil had “demands” 1. We’re to buy him a car that costs no less than $30k since we need transportation 2. We’re to either buy a house worth $90k of their liking, at his hometown, where neither my parents or I stay, or get that money deposited in a joint account that him and I’d share, so we’d have no difficulties to “settle in”
Although I find it ridiculous, my parents agreed since they couldn’t see the distance taking a toll on us. I start looking for jobs at his hometown and secure one that pays well. It had been 2 months, but he still wouldn’t even book his tickets.
Eventually, I got the visa 10 months after our marriage, and I moved in with him and his parents. It is very awkward, since he doesn’t earn, because of which, his parents have to spend for us. Everyday, he says he’s trying to find a job, but is either playing games on his phone or asleep. I ask him to help me apply for my employment documents, which he refuses to, because he suddenly wants me to be a stay at home wife. Although I worked very hard to build my career, and it breaks my heart, I agree if it’s what makes him happy. But suggest that, I’d work till he finds a job, as I’m not comfortable with his parents spending on us. But I can’t do much, since I need a work permit, and he refuses to give me his credentials to apply for the same. This causes several fights between us.
2 days after I moved in with him, mil and husband start asking about the money and the car, we’d discussed. I told him, it was only if he were to move there, which he did not. This enraged both of them, and they’d constantly call my parents up and fight over it, making me pick sides, and if I backed my parents up, they’d starve me for a day.
Two months later, I get pregnant. Mil, for some reason walks into our bathroom, sees the pregnancy test on the counter, does not say a word to me, and proceeds to call doctors to find out how to get an abortion, in front of me. Since it was illegal in the state we were at, she proceeds to call my parents and tell them we need a $100k for the hospital expenses, at the time of child birth, since I did not have an insurance. Or I could fly back to be with my parents, and he’d come visit the child and I, every year, which I found offensive.
Eventually, when my parents didn’t agree to both of it, they said I need to go home and get an abortion. When I refused, they proceeded to starve me for 3 entire days and my dad booked a ticket and helped me escape the hellhole.
After I got home, they’d constantly call and harass me, saying, don’t get the abortion, just give us the money and we could raise the child together. When we didn’t agree, because we genuinely don’t have that kind of money, and I don’t want to raise a child all by myself, I went ahead with the abortion.
There were complications during the surgery because I was too far along, and hence I was on bed rest for over a month after it. In this time, he calls and demands a divorce, since his mother has found him a “good girl” to marry.
I felt like my world fell apart, and ended up in therapy for feeling suicidal. We eventually, had no choice but agree to a divorce.
As soon as we mentioned alimony, he said he loves me very much and does not want a divorce. He calls my parents and apologises, saying he was blinded by rage, and did not mean it, and that he wants to reconcile. Both him and mil apologise to me, for how they treated me. My parents encourage me to give it another shot, and I agree. However, I want it all in writing that, he’ll never ask my parents for money again, either he’ll come here, or I’d move there, but we get a place of our own and not reside with parents and this is to happen within 6 months. Although he agrees to these terms, he refuses to give it in writing, because it’s “disrespectful”. I do not want to reconcile, because him refusing to do it is sus.
So, I tell him I’d go ahead with the divorce, to which he says, he has no money to give as alimony. When I said that is not my problem, he faked a heart attack, which went away, the moment I asked for medical documentation.
I end up choosing mental peace and say, I want no alimony, and just want to get him out of my life. The minute I say that, he becomes extremely lovey doves and is begging me to remarry him after 2 years of the divorce. I said, ABSOLUTELY NOT.
Now he’s calling all the relatives and mutual friends and painting me an asshole over it. AITA for not wanting to do anything with him and choosing my mental peace over everything?
I apologise again for the super long post.

I have an appointment with my GP on Tuesday, but I’ve never been for my mental health before. What can I expect? And is there a way to approach it, as I don’t know what treatments options will be available?
I’ve been struggling with feelings of anxiety and panic attacks which make it difficult for me to leave the house. I struggle with simple things such as going shopping, using the bus (or any transport) because in these situations I become overwhelmed and hyper fixated on the idea that I’m in a situation I can’t control and something bad will happen which causes me to have panic attacks. This was happening consistently and has reached a point where I feel I can barely leave the house out of fear of having panic attacks.
This has had a huge impact on my everyday life, relationships with people, and my work. I work in a role that is 3 days from home and 2 days in the office, however I’ve not been in the office for at least 6 months and I have used countless reasons/leave to justify me not being there which I just can’t sustain anymore.
I am constantly either feel frustrated and snappy or on the brink of breaking down. The smallest thing will set me off, whether it be a piece of work that needs dealing with or realising that the milk has gone off when I want a coffee in the morning.
I’m feeling really isolated and I just sit inside all the time doing nothing. I have no desire to upkeep the house anymore or work on hobbies around the house, I spend my weekends in bed just zoned out or mindlessly scrolling through my phone.
I’m at a complete loss and I have finally reached out to my GP. I am worried that all of the above will be dismissed or not taken seriously. I also don’t know what treatment options there are or what I want from the appointment. What was your experience when visiting the GP for the first time for your mental health?

I 38f am looking for something spicy. Social media and tv just doesn’t entertain me like it use to. Life is feeling empty and I’m constantly feeling undervalued and unappreciated. I just need an escape from reality. I don’t want to go to library to find something. I have social anxiety so I don’t get out much. I feel like it would stress me to worry about going, having to search around, then having to bring it back on their time. I know I’m weird 😩 Anyways, I’m hoping you all can help me find a book by my birthday 5/22. I want to treat myself and escape reality so I’m looking for a good first book to start my future collection. Looking for dark fae romance. Main character being a woman. Bonus points but not required if the title and/or cover are discrete. I can buy a cover if I have to. Not trying to have anyone in my business. I don’t want the characters to be under 21 cause I would like there to be a lot of spice. Maybe something where the woman is made to feel desired. Some sub/dom kink is fine. I don’t shame. Any ideas

I'm trying to complete some work in my basement and my table saw and mitre saw continually trip my arc fault breaker. When only using one saw at a time, the breaker trips and when reset it indicates an arc fault (I'm assuming that's what the little light on the breaker means). The breaker is a Siemens 20A arc fault. If run from a non arc fault breaker via extension cord, they do not trip. I have searched google multiple times for help to no avail. I get general information regarding nuisance tripping, but nothing helpful.
I was able to use the tools yesterday without issue. The only thing I think it could be is humidity. I've read that damp environments can cause arc fault trips, and makes sense scientifically to me. Today's humidity is in the 75% range. If it is dampness causing the trips, what can I do? If anyone else has other advice I'd greatly appreciate it

my dad used to be the breadwinner of our home, but he overworked himself and got a quad heart bypass. for the past 8 years, he's been sitting and rotting. from the moment he wakes up, he turns on the tv, connects to youtube, and does close to nothing. i mean, he'll clean our cars and do the laundry. but he doesn't know how to clean properly and doesn't cook unless asked to.
my brother (21M) and i (19F) encouraged him to start doing something light for work like ube uber eats, but he says that he doesn't want to use our family car. my dad would drive me wherever i needed, how could it be any different for ube ue? you're just getting paid to do it. our guess is that its not a "respectable" job, so he doesn't wanna do it. as if destroying your body from lack of physical activity or brain function is any better :(.
my mom has worked tirelessly for the past decade, from the day he got hospitalized to now. shes worked 16-hour work days, everyday, days off on a blue moon. i can tell shes tired, but she keeps pushing and she is understanding of his condition.
when he got hospitalized, we were in poverty. all savings and college funds were gone. we went to the grocery store to LOOK at things. we were so poor, i was scared that if i spent money from my first paycheck, we wouldn't be able to eat.
i was having symptoms of anxiety when i took out my student loans because i knew nobody would help me pay for it. the morning of my 16th birthday, i woke up and applied to jobs that had i had lined up, i was just waiting for the day i was legally allowed to work. when i turned 18, i was afraid of losing government benefits because i was a legal adult.
i work relentlessly because im consistently afraid of having no money.
on top of doing nothing, he is a pain to live with. im constantly walking on eggshells. no point in conversing cause hell turn the conversation to himself or into a lecture. cant hang out with friends with a call or text about where i am even if i tell him, but when i stay home, he gets mad at me. he doesn't let me date because i need to focus on school, even though my mom said he didn't do the same at his age. he's a hoarder and spends my moms money on random shit from salvation army. we already live in such a small apartment, but keeps adding unneeded things. you cant walk through the home without dodging or contorting to get by.
i cant help but imagine how a bit easier our life would be if my dad just made a little money. if he let go of "respectable job" thing and tried to help even a little bit. hell, when i started working i made $13/hr because it was better than nothing.
i can't afford to move out. im going to nursing school this year and have taken out a huge loan. i go to school for an escape. i just need to feel like there is someone who understands how i feel. im not good with confrontation either, we were beat heavily as kids so i know what will happen when he gets mad.

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"I am going to be 48 years old in a few weeks. I have been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder since I was twenty years old. Much of my life, I have met all of the criteria of this disorder, and I have had a long, hard road ahead once it dawned on me that it was true. I have a fundamental dysfunction in my personality. I cannot cope with the world because at my core, I am unable to maintain stability as a functional adult for long periods of time due to my impulsive nature and my ability to forgive and love unconditionally. I don't know how to reconcile those traits with a healthy and successful life. My relationships are 'ride or die,' with me as the enabledoormat/reactionary drama queen. I tend to date men who need constant, obsessive attention and servitude, with them being the dominant to my submissive, their ego to my down-to-earth, and they are the Narcissist to my Borderline. I don't want to romanticize like so many JokeHarley memes, but this has been the way that it has gone for far too long.
My upbringing wasn't even close to being abusive. I was the only child, and my parents stayed married. I was sheltered, with no physical or sexual abuse; both of my parents were good people who loved me. It wasn't easy; we lacked money but never love. We struggled, but there were so many things that were different than for most people, in cool ways and in ways that were not cool. But never was I considered 'normal.'
One of the challenges of being Borderline is the difficulty in being our own therapist. Not because of this new 'favorite person' misinformation, but because we struggle with justifying anything. We see very little wrong with the way we are; we just need to know how we can make others understand that it's okay that we are intense, unpredictable in a predictable way, and humanly sensitive to everything that affects us. We insert ourselves into everything so we can let it all affect us. We claim that we didn't realize that we're supposed to change because we see no problem with the way we are; it's other people who are concerned, and we are not concerned with what people think (except when we are). So why do we have to change? It's our life, the one that is unmanageable and dysfunctional, and giving us unhoused vibes. This is still our life, and it's not easy to get through that we need to act accordingly because we don't care about your self-esteem; why do you care about ours?
So, we are often pushed into admitting that we can potentially be a little bit much. We are painted into the roles of the serial killer and the horrible Narcissistic Personality Disorder twin flame that nobody trusts because we follow our hearts (and we tend to hold grudges). Our dynamics are different, but we all follow astrology. Our sign is 'complete psycho' most of the time. I have been trying to figure out how to make it so we can get along with the world and it is not our enemy...but people keep messing up the whole situation.
People with borderline personality disorder may exhibit fear of abandonment through intense and unstable relationships. They might go to great lengths to avoid real or perceived abandonment, such as clinging to others, becoming quickly and intensely attached, or displaying extreme reactions (anger, panic, or depression) when they anticipate abandonment.
Abandonment fears can lead to impulsive actions to prevent separation or worse, therefore it's important to seek professional help for a comprehensive understanding and support. Additionally, individuals with BPD may engage in frantic efforts to avoid abandonment, such as making frantic, impulsive gestures to maintain a connection, even if those actions are not in their best interest. They might experience intense feelings of emptiness when alone and may go to extremes to fill that void. These behaviors can strain relationships, making it challenging for individuals with BPD to establish and maintain stable connections with others. Therapy, particularly dialectical behavior therapy (DBT), is often recommended to help manage and address these challenges.
Patterns of instability in borderline personality disorder (BPD) refer to consistent and recurring disruptions in various aspects of a person's life. This instability typically manifests in the following areas:

1. Relationships: Individuals with BPD often experience tumultuous relationships marked by extremes of idealization and devaluation. Their attitudes and feelings toward others may change rapidly, contributing to a cycle of intense, yet unstable, interpersonal connections.
   
2. Self-Image: BPD can involve an unstable sense of self. Individuals may struggle with a fluctuating self-identity, feeling uncertain about who they are, their values, and their life goals. This instability in self-perception can lead to a lack of direction and purpose.
   
3. Emotions: Emotional instability is a hallmark of BPD. Intense and rapidly shifting emotions, such as anger, anxiety, and sadness, can be challenging to regulate. Mood swings may occur in response to external events or perceived threats to relationships.
   
4. Impulsivity: Impulsive behaviors in areas like spending, substance abuse, reckless driving, or unsafe sexual practices are common in individuals with BPD. These actions often stem from a desire to alleviate emotional distress or avoid perceived abandonment.
   

These patterns of instability can significantly impact a person's daily functioning and relationships, making it crucial for individuals with BPD to seek professional help for effective management and support. In the context of borderline personality disorder (BPD), impulsivity refers to engaging in behaviors without careful consideration of the consequences. Individuals with BPD may display impulsive actions in various areas of their lives, such as:

1. Spending: Reckless and impulsive spending, often beyond one's means, is common in individuals with BPD.
   
2. Substance Abuse: Engaging in impulsive and risky behaviors related to substance use, including alcohol and drugs.
   
3. Sexual Behavior: Unplanned and impulsive sexual encounters, sometimes without regard for potential consequences, can occur.
   
4. Reckless Driving: Impulsive and risky driving behaviors, such as speeding or dangerous maneuvers.
   
5. Self-Harm: Engaging in impulsive self-harming behaviors as a way to cope with intense emotions.
   

Impulsivity in BPD can be driven by a desire to alleviate emotional pain, boredom, or to avoid perceived abandonment. Developing coping strategies and emotional regulation skills through therapy, particularly dialectical behavior therapy (DBT), can be beneficial in managing impulsive behaviors associated with BPD.
Identity disturbance in borderline personality disorder (BPD) refers to a pervasive and unstable sense of self. Individuals with BPD may struggle with a coherent and consistent understanding of who they are, which can manifest in several ways:

1. Self-Image Fluctuations: A person with BPD may experience rapid shifts in self-perception, ranging from feeling exceptionally positive to extremely negative about themselves. This can occur within short periods.
   
2. Uncertainty About Goals and Values: Individuals with identity disturbance may have difficulty establishing and maintaining long-term goals or consistent values. They might struggle with defining their life direction and purpose.
   
3. Chameleon-Like Adaptation: Some individuals with BPD may adopt different personas or behaviors in different social situations, often as a means to fit in or avoid rejection. This can lead to a lack of stable and authentic self-expression. Intense Fear of Abandonment: The fear of abandonment can exacerbate identity issues, as individuals may shape their identity based on the perceived expectations or desires of others, leading to a lack of a stable core sense of self.
   

Addressing identity disturbance in BPD often involves therapeutic interventions, such as dialectical behavior therapy (DBT) or psychodynamic therapy. These approaches aim to help individuals explore and develop a more stable and authentic sense of self.
Dissociation in borderline personality disorder (BPD) refers to a coping mechanism where individuals disconnect from their thoughts, feelings, memories, or sense of identity. This disconnection can occur as a response to stress, trauma, or overwhelming emotions. Dissociative experiences in BPD may include:

1. Depersonalization: Feeling detached from oneself, as if observing from outside the body.
   
2. Derealization: Perceiving the external environment as unreal or distorted.
   
3. Amnesia: Gaps in memory, especially related to stressful events or periods of intense emotion.
   
4. Identity Confusion: Momentary lapses in awareness of one's identity or feeling unsure about who they are.
   

Dissociation serves as a way for individuals with BPD to manage distress, particularly when emotions become too overwhelming. However, it can interfere with daily functioning and contribute to difficulties in relationships. Therapy, especially approaches like dialectical behavior therapy (DBT) and trauma-focused therapy, may help individuals develop healthier coping mechanisms and address dissociative experiences.
Certainly, here are some examples of dissociative experiences that individuals with borderline personality disorder (BPD) may encounter:

1. Depersonalization: Feeling as though you are watching yourself from a distance, almost like being an observer rather than an active participant in your own life.
   
2. Derealization: Perceiving the external world as strange, unreal, or distorted. You may be on a heavy trip off mushrooms and wandering around the closet park in the middle of the night feels different when you are over 40. It hits different, and you can get in a lot more trouble than experimenting teenagers. You're not holding a job long under these circumstances.
   
3. Amnesia: Having periods of time where you cannot recall significant details or events, especially those associated with heightened emotional states or trauma. If you are being sedated for trying to call the same number over and over at three am because you desperately need to move to
   
4. Identity Confusion: Brief moments of not recognizing oneself or feeling uncertain about personal identity, values, or goals. Taking in the attributes of your signiotg
   

It's important to note that dissociative experiences can vary widely among individuals, and not everyone with BPD will necessarily experience these examples. If you or someone you know is experiencing dissociation or other symptoms associated with BPD, seeking professional help from a mental health practitioner is crucial for appropriate diagnosis and support.
Suicidal ideation in borderline personality disorder (BPD) involves persistent thoughts about death, dying, or the desire to end one's life. Individuals with BPD may experience varying degrees of suicidal thoughts, ranging from fleeting notions to detailed plans. Some aspects of suicidal ideation in BPD include:

1. Frequency and Intensity: Suicidal ideation can be a chronic feature, with thoughts occurring regularly or intermittently. The intensity can range from vague thoughts to detailed plans.
   
2. Impulsivity: Individuals with BPD may be prone to impulsive behaviors, and this impulsivity can extend to suicidal acts or self-harming behaviors during periods of emotional distress.
   
3. Sense of Hopelessness: Suicidal thoughts in BPD can be linked to a pervasive sense of hopelessness, often fueled by challenges in relationships, identity, and emotional regulation.
   
4. Coping Mechanism: For some, suicidal ideation may serve as a coping mechanism, providing a perceived escape from emotional pain or a means to regain control.
   

Addressing suicidal ideation in BPD requires immediate attention from mental health professionals. Therapeutic interventions, such as dialectical behavior therapy (DBT) and cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT), can be effective in helping individuals manage intense emotions and develop healthier coping strategies. If you or someone you know is experiencing suicidal thoughts, it's crucial to seek help from a mental health professional or a crisis hotline immediately.
Mood swings in borderline personality disorder (BPD) are characterized by rapid and intense changes in emotional states. These fluctuations can occur in response to various triggers or even without apparent cause. Key aspects of mood swings in BPD include:

1. Intensity: Emotions can shift from one extreme to another rapidly, with individuals experiencing intense feelings of joy, anger, sadness, or anxiety.
   
2. Instability: The duration of mood swings can be brief, lasting only a few hours or days. This instability contributes to the challenge of predicting or managing emotional states.
   
3. Triggered by Interpersonal Events: Mood swings in BPD often correlate with interpersonal stressors, such as perceived rejection, criticism, or the fear of abandonment.
   
4. Impact on Relationships: The intensity and unpredictability of mood swings can strain relationships, as others may find it challenging to understand or respond to the rapidly changing emotional landscape.
   

Therapeutic approaches, particularly dialectical behavior therapy (DBT), focus on helping individuals with BPD recognize and regulate their emotions, providing skills to manage mood swings effectively.
The term "Cluster B" refers to one of the four personality disorder clusters outlined in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5). Cluster B personality disorders share certain features, including dramatic, emotional, and erratic behaviors. This grouping includes the following personality disorders:

1. Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD): Characterized by instability in relationships, self-image, and emotions, along with impulsive and self-destructive behaviors.
   
2. Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD): Involves an exaggerated sense of self-importance, a preoccupation with fantasies of unlimited success, and a lack of empathy for others.
   
3. Antisocial Personality Disorder (ASPD): Characterized by a disregard for the rights of others, impulsivity, deceitfulness, and a lack of remorse after harming others.
   
4. Histrionic Personality Disorder (HPD): Involves a need for attention, dramatic and seductive behavior, and intense emotions that may be perceived as shallow.
   

These personality disorders within Cluster B share some common traits, such as difficulties in forming and maintaining relationships, impulsivity, and emotional dysregulation. However, each disorder within the cluster has distinct features and diagnostic criteria. The clustering is a way to organize and understand patterns of personality pathology for diagnostic and treatment purposes.
Diagnosing borderline personality disorder (BPD) typically involves a comprehensive assessment by a mental health professional. Several tools and methods are used to gather information, including:

1. Clinical Interviews: A mental health professional conducts thorough interviews to assess the individual's symptoms, emotional experiences, and history of relationships. These interviews may involve discussions about mood, identity, impulsivity, and interpersonal difficulties.
   
2. Diagnostic Criteria: The assessment often involves evaluating the individual against established diagnostic criteria, such as those outlined in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5). Meeting specific criteria is essential for a formal diagnosis.
   
3. Structured Interviews: Mental health professionals may use structured interviews designed to elicit specific information related to BPD symptoms. These interviews help standard ize the diagnostic process.
   
4. Self-Report Questionnaires: Individuals may be asked to complete self-report questionnaires designed to assess various aspects of personality, emotional experiences, and interpersonal functioning.
   
5. Collateral Information: Information from family members, close friends, or other relevant sources may be considered to gain a more comprehensive understanding of the individual's behavior and relationships.
   

It's important to note that a diagnosis of BPD should be made by a qualified mental health professional based on a thorough assessment. Early diagnosis and intervention are crucial for individuals with BPD to receive appropriate treatment and support.
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Disclaimer: I’m sorry, it’s really long.
My husband (28M) and I (29F) got married in December, a couple of years back. I’d known him since school, and we reconnected on March of the year we got married. Most of the relationship was long distance, since he lives in a different continent, but he did visit me during this time, and we stayed together for a couple of months. It was magical, and we decided to go ahead and get married.
At the time of our wedding, he was on student visa, and had just completed his course. He didn’t have a job, and was applying for jobs then. I didn’t think much of it, since I’d been working for 5 years then. I assumed I could support him till he got a stable job.
Fast forward to the wedding, his parents refused to attend because they had a disagreement with my parents over the dowry. They wanted $49k as dowry, which my parents and I thought was unreasonable. He also agreed, it was indeed unreasonable. But since his parents refused to attend the wedding, he asked if I could also not invite my parents, and if it could be just the two of us at the wedding, because he’d feel awkward as no one was present for him. (it was a court marriage) Although I didn’t like this idea initially, I agreed, because I wanted him to feel happy, as it was supposed to be our day. Then he started negging me to the point, where he chose my wedding dress, down to the Color, hairstyle, cut and everything. I didn’t think much of it, to be fair.
He flies down here, we get married, and he flies back in a week.
I was supposed to travel to the country he was at, on a dependent visa. Due to diplomatic issues between the countries, my visa gets delayed over 8 months. And we didn’t know when I’d get the visa. So, my parents suggested he come here instead, so we could be together, as he did not have a job at the time and could look for one here instead. To which he agreed, but him and mil had “demands” 1. We’re to buy him a car that costs no less than $30k since we need transportation 2. We’re to either buy a house worth $90k of their liking, at his hometown, where neither my parents or I stay, or get that money deposited in a joint account that him and I’d share, so we’d have no difficulties to “settle in”
Although I find it ridiculous, my parents agreed since they couldn’t see the distance taking a toll on us. I start looking for jobs at his hometown and secure one that pays well. It had been 2 months, but he still wouldn’t even book his tickets.
Eventually, I got the visa 10 months after our marriage, and I moved in with him and his parents. It is very awkward, since he doesn’t earn, because of which, his parents have to spend for us. Everyday, he says he’s trying to find a job, but is either playing games on his phone or asleep. I ask him to help me apply for my employment documents, which he refuses to, because he suddenly wants me to be a stay at home wife. Although I worked very hard to build my career, and it breaks my heart, I agree if it’s what makes him happy. But suggest that, I’d work till he finds a job, as I’m not comfortable with his parents spending on us. But I can’t do much, since I need a work permit, and he refuses to give me his credentials to apply for the same. This causes several fights between us.
2 days after I moved in with him, mil and husband start asking about the money and the car, we’d discussed. I told him, it was only if he were to move there, which he did not. This enraged both of them, and they’d constantly call my parents up and fight over it, making me pick sides, and if I backed my parents up, they’d starve me for a day.
Two months later, I get pregnant. Mil, for some reason walks into our bathroom, sees the pregnancy test on the counter, does not say a word to me, and proceeds to call doctors to find out how to get an abortion, in front of me. Since it was illegal in the state we were at, she proceeds to call my parents and tell them we need a $100k for the hospital expenses, at the time of child birth, since I did not have an insurance. Or I could fly back to be with my parents, and he’d come visit the child and I, every year, which I found offensive.
Eventually, when my parents didn’t agree to both of it, they said I need to go home and get an abortion. When I refused, they proceeded to starve me for 3 entire days and my dad booked a ticket and helped me escape the hellhole.
After I got home, they’d constantly call and harass me, saying, don’t get the abortion, just give us the money and we could raise the child together. When we didn’t agree, because we genuinely don’t have that kind of money, and I don’t want to raise a child all by myself, I went ahead with the abortion.
There were complications during the surgery because I was too far along, and hence I was on bed rest for over a month after it. In this time, he calls and demands a divorce, since his mother has found him a “good girl” to marry.
I felt like my world fell apart, and ended up in therapy for feeling suicidal. We eventually, had no choice but agree to a divorce.
As soon as we mentioned alimony, he said he loves me very much and does not want a divorce. He calls my parents and apologises, saying he was blinded by rage, and did not mean it, and that he wants to reconcile. Both him and mil apologise to me, for how they treated me. My parents encourage me to give it another shot, and I agree. However, I want it all in writing that, he’ll never ask my parents for money again, either he’ll come here, or I’d move there, but we get a place of our own and not reside with parents and this is to happen within 6 months. Although he agrees to these terms, he refuses to give it in writing, because it’s “disrespectful”. I do not want to reconcile, because him refusing to do it is sus.
So, I tell him I’d go ahead with the divorce, to which he says, he has no money to give as alimony. When I said that is not my problem, he faked a heart attack, which went away, the moment I asked for medical documentation.
I end up choosing mental peace and say, I want no alimony, and just want to get him out of my life. The minute I say that, he becomes extremely lovey doves and is begging me to remarry him after 2 years of the divorce. I said, ABSOLUTELY NOT.
Now he’s calling all the relatives and mutual friends and painting me an asshole over it. AITA for not wanting to do anything with him and choosing my mental peace over everything?
I apologise again for the super long post.

Before anyone jumps in here offering solutions -- I'm the head moderator of /interstitiacystitis and have had this disease since 2007. I know all available treatments (https://www.ichelp.org/ic-bps-treatment-guideline/), and spoiler alert: There's been no major medication breakthroughs since the 90s with Elmiron, something that only works in a small amount of people and is $500 a month. Pelvic floor physical therapy is currently the most effective treatment we have. And that's what this post is about.
I also have endometriosis found incidentally, could maybe be causing extra inflammation, but bladder pain is the only thing that I deal with.
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My IC pain is currently under control and I'm at 0 pain as long as I don't eat any food with flavor or take any medication outside of Claritin or a very, very small percentage of various drugs that don't flare me.
People get sick. As we age we get health issues that pills can fix easily. But I can't. I can't take anything without severe, quality of life ending bladder pain. Antibiotics flare me terribly, but those are temporary and I have to take off work for the duration (1 or 2 weeks) that I'm on them. It's a great strain on my career. I can't have sex, because the risk of missing a week or more of work due to a UTI is too great.
I'm making it okay with these severe restrictions on my quality of life. It's not perfect, but its livable.
But at some point, statistically, I will end up with something chronic that needs daily medication for the rest of my list. Statins, blood pressure medications, hormonal treatments for menopause, cancer treatment, thyroid medications, and so many others that are simple pills that stop you from dying or facing permanent disfigurement.
I can't take any of these. These all flare me and death would be preferred to the hell of feeling like I'm about to piss my pants 24/7 and agonizing pain that feels like my urethra is being raped by a searing hot ice pick held over a flame for the rest of my life.
No one has advice. No medical professional has any suggestions. There's absolutely no research into helping IC patients take life-saving drugs. I'm stable and pain free for now, and that's really all that they focus on. Doctors tell me I'll have to face the issue when I get there and try not to worry about it now, but I don't want to die young.
I'm in my mid 30s, and at the first onset one of these issues I'm dead. I don't think I'll make it to 50 because some of these things run in my family. My fellow ICers all share the same sentiment.
I repeat: There has been no major treatment breakthrough since the 90s.
The current medication that I'm on keeping me pain free isn't even for IC. It's an endometriosis drug that would likely help the pain of a lot of women with IC with or without endometriosis, because a lot of our pain has a hormonal component to it. But there is 0 research into the hormonal component of our disease. A lot of IC patients who get pregnant go into remission for years, but there is 0 research into why and how to replicate that effect with hormonal treatments. It seems like such a simple direction to go in, but instead research funding keeps getting sucked into shit like Mindfulness and Yoga for Pain With Interstitial Cystitis and Peppermint Oil for the Treatment of Interstitial Cystitis /​ Bladder Pain Syndrome.
The endo drug that I am on causes osteoporosis, so I can only be on it for two years and I have just reached that mark. The replacement medication, containing progesterone, flared me and I cannot take it. Without medication I will return to daily severe pain that is incompatible with life. The OBGYN (but honestly its more of the insurance company using this as an excuse to not cover the drug) is more concerned about osteoporosis that will happen 10-20 years down the line rather than severe pain that will immediately end my life as I know it and not make getting to the next 10-20 years worth it.
This post is a cry for help for awareness of this disease and other chronic pelvic pain conditions in women that get no funding, no research, and no help. This is going to kill me.
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Our detached garage got broken into and they stole my wheelbarrow. Not super expensive or valuable in a monetary sense, but extremely valuable to me as I love to garden do lawncare but struggle with pain, so it allows me to do so much more.
We're looking into better locks and I hung a very obvious very witchy ward on the door handle. In the meantime, I need to craft a spell that gives me my money back. Literal payback so I can buy a new one relatively quickly.
Any ideas are appreciated but in general I try to avoid buying things. I'm stocked up on essentials like Florida Water, candles, and your basic herbs, etc.

My cat female, 1.5yrs old (video attached) got on her regular heat cycle a couple days ago. I haven't been able to get her spayed as i can't find a vet i trust (I live in India, extremely poor vet services around me). I am continously trying to find a vet I can trust to get her operated. but for now, i really need your help.
While on heat, she gets extremely vocal, starts rubbing her face on my leg, the normal. She finds it soothing when I pat her bum (on the back just above where the tail connects). I was doing the same when all of a sudden she started biting and bunny kicking me. This has happened a bit before so I didn't worry.
https://reddit.com/link/1cvw7xe/video/3wo4efp0qf1d1/player
But all of a sudden, she got extremely violent, biting scratching and bunny kicking with intent. And the next second starts rubbing her face on my arm. This got me surprised.
Then I noticed she started twitching when I touched her hind legs. I have attached a video but the while recording, it seems the intensity of the twitch reduced.
She is now asleep on her normal spot but I am worried as fuck about the twitching specifically

I'm an Egyptian, and when some smart nationalist MENAstanis see a comment where I criticize the stupid political regimes in their countries or criticize some social aspects of them I find them swear el-Sisi as response, dumbasses think they would offend me and make me cry by that. I think many people outside Egypt really need to understand that el-Sisi is literally the most hated person in the country without any bit of exaggeration. He is dictator who lacks charisma to dangerous levels, he reached his position through a coup against the first and last elected president of the country, I dislike the Muslim Brotherhood but facts are facts regardless of our feelings. This isn't only for Turkish and Khaleeji nationalists but also for those who are wondering why Egypt doesn't help the Palestinian cause. Egyptians are so zealous about the cause to the point that I see many Egyptian folk insult the Egyptian people for not starting a revolution against "zionist Jewish" Sisi and going to fight for Palestine after that. People here do their best to help but there isn't really much that can be done under an authoritarian regime that doesn't want you to do shit.

I have (or had?) this freind who is completely engulfed by red pill content I think It was going on a for a while, and i had told him off many times. I allways thought this was just a phase , but when people came up to me and started saying even they feel uncomfortable around this guy, (this including men) i started avoiding talking to him to slowly reduce contact as even I felt I can't change someone unless they decide to
Few weeks ago, he started messaging again, so I just used to give common replies and didn't talk much. Then he started saying " I feel very lonely and i I am haunted by it"
As a former freind, i may avoid and everything but I get very wary if someone says anything that might be affecting their mental health. Because I have been through depression and loneliness and i never want even my worst enemy to go though it
So I chatted along , turns out it's because everyone is influenced a lot by the west and he wants everyone to think like him. 🤦🤦‍♀️ I asked again n again how does it relate to ure mental health? Why r u affecting such a trivial things affect ure mental health when there so many problems in your own life! This is nothing but a kind of brain suicide
4 paragraphs about sanatan dharm and Ram Raj I said that it's totally upto us how we make ourselves better. We can't go around changing people to live like treta yug because things cannot go back. It was a healthy debate till he asked my opinion,
I said i beleive in live and let live, if ure belief system, no matter what it is , even if it's a cult , if works for u, and ure happy with it, it aligns with ure own values, great. But if it tried to harm me or my believes , then i don't support u. I am also a devout worshpper of lord Shiva, but i believe my religion is very personal to me, i don't expect or want everyone to follow me or pray to lord Shiva like me.I am content and peaceful under his wing. His reply: Do u think I am some kind of evil religious fanatic who tries to convert people ?
Strike 1.
I said just , no. And just stopped replying. 3 more paragraphs. But these particular lines infuriated me to the core : Femisim and LGBTQ shit has destroyed family identity and sanity Of marriage. Femisim is just an idea to keep women perpetually victims of their own actions
Strike 2. I still kept my composure coz I did not wanna engage in shitty debate with a person with such views. I just said humans are responsible for every ficked up shit out there. Not the values created to make the world a better place. And I just said stop hating women so much. Even men haven't made everything all better.
Why do u hate men so much ?
Strike 3
I simply ignored and talked him out of the topic and simply closed it off cause I decided to deal with this shit later. In evening I lashed out because that's when it just completely bubbled up after an entire day of boiling point. It burst out so bad!! His stupid view on religion, his morcha against women He kept saying, it's not related to u. I respect u too much I just meant women who stay unmarried and gave father less children and spread corrupted ideas to hate men etc . Fertility issues are also occuring
My mind just went ballistic at this point. I am suffering from pcod and blaming my fertility issues on feminism is just whole other level. And then fatherless children point. I had an ex who was fatherless (he passed away very young ), time and situation moved us apart but he is the most respectful person i know and I have seen how much it pained him to lose his father. How much heavy his family burden was. It just felt so much insensitive and maddening that I just lost my shit.
I then just completed my angry murderous shouting and stopped talking. After some point pr the next day he said sorry . I said a sarcastic sorry from all women fraternity and all godesses above for ure loneliness. Sorry for being born as the wrong gender which makesbure life so much tough. We brought the Western culture, made all the wars happen, and even destroyed sanatan dharm.i will now kill everyone who isn't thinking like u.
Blocked him after some point. End of friendship. And end of my mental sanity for a week. I lashed out on every man in my life over petty reasons. Because i guess this did affect me much more than i thought it would. I doubted every person of hating me because of my gender. It was attack on my beleives and my identity. I pity my poor boyfriend who had to go through this shit with me. Of course he was the one who saw the most of my monster rampage.
I am praying and meditating harder to let go of these things. But advice to all people out there... If u think some religion or idea destroyed ure culture. Ure wrong. It's mostly the humans. Please stop attacking someone because they follow something that doesn't match with you exactly. Just live. And let live.
Sharing to get closure. Feeling bad to lose a freind but relived to lose the human he has turned into. I hope he makes better choices and some day someone would be there in this world to get him the help he needs. Because I just can't freking take it anymore of his shit.

https://reddit.com/link/1cvw7of/video/29o1uktvpf1d1/player
My PC shuts down when there is a power fluctuation or power cut. I am using a UPS and it still keeps on happening.
Suppose I turn on the fan or AC which makes minute power fluctuations, my PC shuts down sometimes even from that. If there is a power cut, sometimes it stays on, sometimes it goes dark immediately while on UPS.
In the video you can see I cut the power of UPS but as soon as I turn it on, it shuts down. The CPU and all other things are still on but it seems the graphics card goes off.
I thought there was a problem with my UPS so I ordered a new one which is 680w because my PSU is 500w. But it did not solve the problem.
I think the issue is with my PSU, it is not able to relay power that quickly when there is a power disturbance. Considering I am using a UPS.
Let me know what do you think, what might be causing the issue. I already spent money on a new UPS which cannot be returned. So any help would be appreciated.

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Automaton Antiquity	BroodMother	$10	3
Directive of the Sunbound	Clockwerk	$10	1
Sight of the Kha-Ren Faithful	Drow Ranger	$15	3	1
Souls Tyrant	Shadow Fiend	$25	2
Verdant Predator	Venomancer	$10	1
Tribal Pathways⠀	Warlock	$15	1

U = Unbundled Price

Cache 1. 2019	Hero	Euro Price	Stock	Reserved
Echoes of the Everblack	Abaddon		0
Priest of the Proudsilver Clan	Chen	$15	1
Forbidden Medicine	Dazzle	$15	1
Soul of the Brightshroud	Death Prophet	$15	1
Scorched Amber	Dragon Knight	$15	1
Glimmer of Sacred Hunt	Drow Ranger	$25	1	1
The Arts of Mortal Deception	Enigma	$15	2
Pursuit of the Ember Demons	Huskar	$20	1
Riddle of the Hierophant	Oracle	$15	1
Poacher's Bane	Tidehunter	$15	1
Curse of the Creeping Vine	Undying	$15	1

Genuine Weather Effect can be traded without delay.

Genuine Weather	USD Price
Ash
Rain
Snow
Moonbeam
Spring
Aurora
Harvest
Pestilence
Sirocco
Full Set	$28

PayPal payments must be in the form of Friends & Family to prevent fees & chargebacks.
**Offer applied to sets that costs 10$ each or less, The cheapest set is for free.
***(Discounts Do Not apply to Weather Effects)***

I live in workout clothes as it’s the comfiest to do activities daily with my 2 y/o. I recently just had a baby and am looking for some staples that I can throw on daily (especially during the hot summer) I am still sporting the mom pouch and have a bit more excess love on my hips too so mainly looking for items that can be flattering to a postpartum momma! The boyfriend shorts looked comfy, but the reviews weren’t that great. Would love some recommendations (especially from moms and pp moms) I’m a size 8 in Lulu leggings and am fluctuating in M/L in tops.