A year ago today my mommy past away poem

WELCOME TO THE_PACK

2016.04.13 22:39 no_turn_unstoned WELCOME TO THE_PACK

THIS IS THE PACK WE'RE FUCKEN BAD ASS AND WE MAKE BOMBASS MEMES!!!!! CUM CRANK YOU'RE HOG IN ARE DISCORD MFER https://discord.gg/3WqqfRM !!!!!!!!!
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2011.09.03 03:39 kyzf42 Welcome to 2014!

In this age of rapid change, a decade is an eon. Remembering the events of a mere ten years ago is every bit as important as remembering the distant past. This subreddit was initiated in 2011, shortly before the ten-year anniversary of 9/11, and has been quietly documenting news, pop culture, and miscellany from today's date with the tens digit de-iterated ever since.
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2015.01.21 20:27 freshWIP My Own Accountability

A place for me to post daily to keep a record of my progress of my goals. Mainly earning a livable wage from self publishing ebooks, learning german/japanese/french, and exercising.
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2024.06.02 18:30 Narrow-Raisin5839 Asus monitor VG279Q3A keys locked and won’t unlock?

ast year I purchased the ASUS VG278q 1080p 27” monitor and about two weeks ago I started to get a pop up on my screen that says “Keys Locked visit the Quick Start guide for configuration.
This pop up would come on the screen for like 30 seconds at random times then go away for anywhere from 2minutes to a couple of days. I didn’t think of anything of it at first until it started to pop up more frequently to the point of annoyance. Then I realized the menu buttons on the monitor wouldn’t work. I looked up a fix and it seems to be a feature. So I tried to disable this function by pressing the X button for 5 seconds like the manual said and it didn’t work. I can no longer access the OSD... I can’t seem to find any support on this issue, or other people having the same issue. I was hoping for a factory reset option that I can do without going to the OSD.
help me plz plzz
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2024.06.02 18:29 theFloat-plane I don’t think I’m ready for a relationship but I really want to be for this guy

Last fall I started focusing on myself and growing to become a better person. More motivation, better educated, healthy, more self-aware. I made so much progress and I am truly a completely different person from the one I was a year ago. I was content being single and working on myself. I met a guy a couple months ago and it’s been great. For the first month everything felt so perfect but then my past traumas started resurfacing. Now it feels like I’m just waiting for him to cheat (even though he’s not that kind of person at all), or get bored of me. My moods are all over the place and it’s affecting him. He’s such a sweet person and I don’t want him to have to deal with my traumas. We’ve talked about it a couple times. I want to be better for him and I want to make him happy but I feel like I’m just stressing him out because of my mood swings. I don’t want to ruin what we have because it truly has been such a beautiful time. I haven’t told him this yet but I think I love him.
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2024.06.02 18:29 spacemancoco Help!! First time updating and configuring a proffie 2.2 board, so confused...

So, this is my first time trying to setup a proffie saber. since there has been so many updates and changes to proffieOS and Fett263's configuration tool and bladestyle editor, every walkthrough I find for updating my board to OS7 and adding presets to my board is very different. I don't want to ruin my board by screwing this up, so I have a number of questions:
(For context, the board is currently running proffieOS 6.5 and has very few "good" soundfonts installed, and I'm not too concerned with editing/creating bladestyles, I'll just use those that come with particular soundfonts I have found.)
**If there is a current, easy to follow guide or video somewhere that will walk me through the most up to date way of doing this, that would probably answer all my questions. Fett's videos are hard to follow and his guides seem to leave parts out or assume you already did something that he never explained...**
  1. Do I need to connect my proffie board to my PC to do all the updates with Arduino or can I just use an SD card reader and do everything through that, then put the card back in the saber?
  2. Should I be adding soundfont files to the SD card BEFORE I have Arduino install and configure OS7 or AFTER? Or does it not matter?
  3. The whole "functions" aspect for presets is horribly confusing. And there doesn't seem to be any explanation at all that I can find. Some of the bladestyles I try to paste into the presets give me errors saying that I can't use functions unless I set them up. So i ended up just removing all the lines that start with // in the style code. That seemed to work, but am I ruining the style by doing that?
  4. Most guides I've found show using Arduino to actually go in and manually edit the presets and styles by copying/pasting directly into the code. But that seems redundant if you are using the configuration tool to generate the entire config. Am I missing something? Do I need to be using a text editor at all? If I use the config tool, do I need to do any manual editing in Arduino? In Fett's video at https://www.fett263.com/updating-your-proffieboard.html for step 4 he does it all manually, but other videos he uses the helper tool. Also most of his linked videos are from 1 - 2 years ago, which makes me think they're outdated. I'm just...confused.
Any help or guidance would be greatly appreciated!!
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2024.06.02 18:29 Capital-Register4788 AITAH for showing up to my step-son’s soccer game knowing his mother hates my presence?

TLDR will be on the bottom, this is fairly long.
For context, I (34F) showed up to my step-son’s (4M) soccer practice because he, and his other siblings (16F) and (11F) asked me to go. I had a weird feeling about going knowing that their mother (39F) hates my presence. She has been diagnosed with BPD but states “I was misdiagnosed” and does have narcissistic tendencies when it comes to me and my partner (her ex husband 40M).
My partner works off shore and stated the kids requested I go (recently the bio mom blocked them from talking to me so I can only talk to them through my partner). I have never approached her in a negative way. I attempted to build a relationship with her from the beginning and the entire time throughout our conversation she had already built an image of me in her mind that I could not convince her wasn’t true. So I stick to facts within our interactions, the few we have.
I have been in her kids’ lives for going on 4 years now and they love me, their mother and stepfather are both diagnosed with cluster B disorders and are in denial but have all the behaviors (gaslighting the kids, not communicating, withholding event information, manipulating court order interpretations, etc) for context and I am in the field of psychology and qualified to recognize behavior patterns.
Back to the issue at hand, and if anyone has questions for clarification etc. I will answer. I showed up to the park where the kids were practicing soccer, I was walking by myself ahead of everyone else, the kids see me and run and hug me, but their mother comes up behind me and shoos the kids away with her new husband and says “You don’t need to be here. Please leave!” I looked at her and say “This is a public park, what is the issue?” She says “You wouldn’t understand the issue and (your partner) states he does not want to talk about it!” And I asked “Does it pertain to me being here right now? At the park? I’m not sure how a past conversation pertains to this moment?” She retorts with “Just give us this practice, please!” Again I’m confused and asked, “Again, ‘give you this practice?’ This is the only one I have shown up to because the information of his soccer games and practices was not passed to us for a month.” Now getting I am adrenaline dump from the lack of communication. At that time her husband (NPD, 6’2” man, I am 4’10”) and stands there quietly glaring at me with his arms crossed when she states “I don’t want to start and argument or cause a scene” I looked across the field at the kids who were staring at us and I told them both to have a nice day and walked back to the car.
I decided to stand on the fence line and watch them play from afar, which made their mom, and step dad visibly upset (pointing at me, flailing their hands around). The kids texted their father and were very upset and embarrassed at their mom and didn’t understand why she felt she need to “bully” and “start drama”. Two days later (yesterday) I went to the soccer game with my partners’ sister and we brought the kids snacks, etc. Bio mom was very nice and had a way different attitude in front of the other parents but made sure the other kids weren’t there. Except for her new baby (I cannot have kids and she has said to the kids that ‘God did not let me (their bonus mom) have kids for a reason’ and while she was pregnant, made it a point to flaunt her belly (which she admitted she did) and now I’m assuming “the baby” as well. Not clear if she’s flaunting the baby, but that’s my assumption.
They (bio mom and new hubby) were also angry that we showed up to the 11yr olds’ baptism recently because they intentionally withheld the information (they admitted they did, but gaslit the children) we found out through my partners’ mom who was asked about it by bio-moms’ new husbands’ ex wife. Husbands ex-wife and partner’s mom, as well as bio mom were in a church group together and have been friends for about 6 years. Bio mom obviously unsubscribed to the friendship when she married new hubby. Bio mom and hubby stated “we were heathens” to sum it up and that they “let the wolves in the church to sit next to their children”. So apparently they didn’t want us to “taint the church”. My partner and I have done nothing inappropriate with our children, we both have great jobs, live in a nice house, we don’t yell or berate the kids (as they report their mother does to them often ESPECIALLY if they want to see their dad more). My partner fights for his kids and has to constantly because bio mom violates the court orders or “interprets them in her own way” so partner deliberately gets less time and it’s very sad to watch.
My sister (who is also BPD) says I don’t understand I am “crossing a boundary” and “unless I am a mother, I wouldn’t understand”. Her own grown children do not talk to her for a reason. So, AITA for showing up to support my step-son in a public place even though my very presence is crossing a “boundary” with mom? Am I not seeing it because I am not a “mom”? Can someone give me an unbiased explanation because I genuinely want to know. Being told “You wouldn’t understand because you’re not a mother” is very upsetting to me, so if there is a way that could be stated in a nicer way if that is the issue I politely ask to keep that in mind. I want to support my step kids, but I also don’t want drama and I know the more they see their mother act out, the more damaging it is for their relationship with her, which is also not what I want.
TLDR: Borderline bio mom doesn’t like me and sees my presence at public kid events is “crossing a boundary” even though I am there to support the kids at the kids’ request and told me to leave the public soccer practice. I only show to support the kid’s and try to avoid bio-mom. I was told because I couldn’t have kids and am not a “mother” I don’t understand how it’s crossing a boundary to support my step-kids.
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2024.06.02 18:29 enocere01 Flank/Obliques Swelling

Flank/Obliques Swelling
Hi everyone, I'm 23 years old and I just had a TT with a very minor flank lipo about 4 weeks ago. Everything seems to getting better week by week but I wanted to post a genuine question here, with the hope that someone had a similar situation. Basically I know all of the long swelling period coming post-op but my little concern is about the overall torso shape. The first photo was took over 1 year ago and I was pretty shredded at that time so consider some of that definition faded away for other reasons, while the second photo has been taken this morning. As you can see in the latter I have more like a "hourglass" shape and I was wondering: is this only related to swelling? Or is it maybe caused by the skin redistribuition? Will it get better or maybe like it was before the operation? Thanks to everyone! Feel free to make any question you want!
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2024.06.02 18:29 TBRayMIAFin Is it Weird to not have a Relationship with your Parents.

I 36F came out to my parents when I was 24. I always knew I found women attractive and had many crushes, but in high school and college, I was so distracted by friends, activities, and sports, I didn’t think much of it - I was just loving life.
Back to age 24, I met my then GF through a friend and we clicked. The relationship was very intense, I think partially because it was our first, and she refused to make things official unless I came out to my parents. She was obsessed with the idea, actually. Looking back, it was totally wrong of her, but at the time, I was so “in love” and caved, even though I wasn’t ready.
My Dad took it well as I suspected. My Mom, however, was very cold and distant, and proceeded to act as if we never had the conversation. She didn’t want to hear anything about my GF, what we did for fun on weekends, etc. Here are some comments she made during our two year relationship:
My then GF ended things after two years, partially because of my Mom. Though it was a toxic relationship in general, looking back.
For the next two years, I was single and casually dating around. My Mom and I had many arguments during this period about my sexuality :
Eventually, I met the love of my life by happenstance at a conference and moved three hours away to be with her. She has a wonderful, accepting family, and I more than love my life here, which is now boarding on nine years . 😍.
However, in those nine years, I have seen my parents 9 times, and at one point, did not see them for 3.5 years. My Partner has only met them once, very briefly before my Dad needed major surgery. We do text monthly and talk on the phone for Birthdays and Holidays.
A part of me feels guilty about this (more so for my Dad), but I cannot move past my Mom’s hurtful comments as she has never apologized, attempted to understand, or think she’s done anything wrong. All she ever says is “I was shocked, I had a different life in my mind for you, you’re so pretty. So many guys really liked you.” The thought of my Partner and I ever spending a Holiday with my family causes me much anxiety and fortunately, she is understanding and not demanding of a relationship with them.
When my Mom becomes upset about our lack of time together, and I try to explain why I am not comfortable with a closer relationship, she deflects, stating I am hurting my Dad, Sister, who are upset I don’t have relationship with my niece.
Are any of you in similar situations? Sometimes, I wonder if I am the problem when I see so many happy LGBT families.
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2024.06.02 18:29 saturn2marss (16NB) Genuinely Confused About Friendship (17M)

Here’s portions of a rant/poem I wrote to explain my friendship with my ex, who also happens to be my best friend. I’m working on distancing myself emotionally because our friendship is very confusing.
“friends. we’re friends. but are we really friends? in your words, have we become the ‘friend couple’? I understand that you are joking, but at what point must the jokes stop? At what point do we stop confusing the people around us? In your world, we’re just friends.
well, in my world friends don’t pretend to kiss each other well, maybe they do but in my world, friends don’t yawn then stretch their arms around one another friends don’t talk about their supposed lovechild
friends don’t call each other for hours at time every single day friends don’t stick together when already one hurt the other friends don’t become best friends after dating, and never go back to that state again friends don’t laugh while watching “10 things I hate about you”, then stare into each other’s eyes deeply friends don’t play fight friends don’t do seemingly romantic things friends don’t act in the way we do friends don’t have everyone around them confused on their status”
this seems unhealthy but our relationship is genuinely pretty healthy with everyone I’ve talked to about it. It’s my emotional regulation and processing struggles that are messing things up.
tdlr; my bff who’s also my ex-partner n I have a rlly jokingly flirty + confusing relationship and I’m struggling to manage it mentally bcs we act like we’re more than friends sometimes but then he’s explicitly told me he sees me as a friend n would never date me again 🤷
*I know it seems like red flags but bro is actually almost the only person who’s stuck by me this past year when I lost multiple friend groups. even after we broke up n stopped talking for a bit, he still stayed there for me n we’re closer now more than ever. it’s just me overthinking everything tbh
my question basically is what is y’all’s impression of what’s going on? like am I losing it genuinely?
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2024.06.02 18:28 CuteCactusxox Any mechanics on here??

Looking for insight as I’ve taking my car to garage multiple times and so far no-one can seem to find or resolve the problem.
KIA SPORTAGE 14 plate.
When driving at speed (40+) the car starts to make a helicopter type sound and the breaks shudder. This is intermittent though, it last for the first 5-15 mins driving at speed then goes away.
I’ve had tyres replaced, rear break pads replaced, front break pads checked & were okay’s and rear wheel bearing replaced 2 months ago.
Equally, unsure whether it’s related or not but I cannot get the tyre pressure warning light to go off either. The car has previously had alignment issues, but this was resolved at the start of the year and have had it checked since at a secondary garage who felt there were no issues with this. This garage recommended the rear break pads to be replaced but this hasn’t fixed the issue.
Anyone got any suggestion as to what the issue could be? I’ve spent a small fortune on this car over the last few months!!
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2024.06.02 18:28 kernelrider $400 Upgrade Worth it? Update - Flight Review (+bonus: longest flight in the world)

$400 Upgrade Worth it? Update - Flight Review (+bonus: longest flight in the world)
A while ago I asked this sub if it might be worth upgrading a leg (SIN-DEL) of my work trip from economy for $400 - now I'm back and can report that it was absolutely worth it. Here, then, is the first part of my promised flight reviews from my work trip to Singapore and India. I must warn you that while I did my best to capture key moments of the flights, I am not much of a photographer and was stressed out/drunk for most of the time surrounding these flights. I will start with some bonus content on the first leg of my journey, but you can scroll down if you want to read the main part of this post - that is, my review of the upgraded leg on Air Vistara!
The first leg of my trip began at JFK T4, after a cheap ride on the LIRR from Penn Station. I was booked on Singapore Airlines Flight 23 in business class. I could choose one of 2 lounge options upon check-in; the Primeclass lounge and the Air India lounge. I chose the Primeclass lounge, but ended up using my Priority Pass to visit the Chase Sapphire lounge instead, which has far better catering, bathrooms, and seating options. The lounge was right across from security, which I cleared reasonably through the business/first lane quickly despite the fact that the Pre-Check lane was closed.
The Etihad/Chase Sapphire Lounge in JFK T4
The Chase Lounge Burger
After a burger, gin and tonic, and many servings of champagne, I headed down to the boarding gate where the A350-900 on which I would spend the next 18 hours was parked. I was the second last passenger on board. Unfortunately I had too many drinks at this point to remember that I needed to take a photograph of the aircraft and my seat for this review.
Once on board, I was offered a sparkling juice and a hot towel. I could have chosen champagne, but that would have been no different from the lounge.
Singapore Airlines Welcome Drink
After takeoff, the crew offered another welcome drink and I chose the same option again, which was served with some mixed nuts this time.
Singapore Airlines Mixed Nuts
Around 40 minutes into the flight, the crew began the first meal service. They offered to take my order prior to departure, with the options being chicken, fish, and noodles. I was not particularly inspired by the offerings, and having had dinner in the lounge and feeling quite tired given the 11PM departure time, I opted to go to bed right away in the fully flat bed. I did ask for, and received, an amenity kit together with some slippers, socks and eyeshades. The major drawback of this seat is that you have to stuff your feet into a tiny footwell under the seat in front of you while sleeping; this was not particularly comfortable initially, but I found that sleeping on my right side made the problem of the footwell much less awkward - I did manage to get a solid 8 hours of high-quality sleep.
After I awakened, I logged on to the WiFi which was free of charge for business class passengers and anyone with an account with SQ's Krisflyer program. I managed to load my email, but unfortunately the WiFi was so slow it was borderline unusable for browsing, perhaps due to the generous access policy where essentially everyone on board had it for free.
Around this time, the crew were beginning to roll out the second meal service. It was morning in New York and nighttime in Singapore, so I have no idea whether to call this dinner or a suspiciously dinner-like breakfast. My table was set in preparation for meal service.
Ready for Breakfast/Dinner!
Main Course!
I was served a shrimp starter and a FA came around with a bread basket from which I got a piece of garlic bread. For my main, I selected a curried beef with rice. It was served with a glass of Charles Heidsieck champagne. The food certainly wasn't fantastic, but it did the job. For dessert, there was a choice of cheese, fruit and cake. I chose all three, and regretted none of it.
After dinner, I tried to do some work but was frustrated by the slow internet connection. Needless to say, my firm's Anyconnect VPN did not work with this inflight connection. I chose to go back to bed with short bouts of sleep, ordering drinks periodically to keep myself hydrated.
In summary, for the longest flight in the world, this was a relatively painless experience. Major pain points included the tiny footwell, the overly wide seat which made many lounging positions awkward, being woken up by the crew starting the second meal service, the strangely complicated process of converting the seat into a bed and vice versa, and the quality of catering out of JFK, which is not quite on par with what I had come to expect of Singapore Airlines.
--- Here begins the main part of my post.
After a couple of busy days in Singapore - and some precious family time (yes, I am from Singapore), it was time to move on to Delhi on Singapore Airlines' joint venture with Tata, Vistara Airlines. I was booked in economy class on this flight, due to corporate policy mandating coach on all flights under 7 hours. The online check-in opened 5 days (!) before my flight, and along with it came an offer to upgrade my seat to business class for slightly over 30 thousand rupees ($400). Given their impending merger into Air India, this was one of the last opportunities to experience their business class product; eventually, this (along with very helpful comments from this community!) was what made me pull the trigger on the upgrade using my own money.
This flight from Singapore to Delhi was operated by Vistara's flagship A321neo aircraft, with 3 rows of lie-flat business class seats in a 2-2 configuration. The business class cabin was sparsely occupied, and consequently all passengers had 2 seats to themselves. Upon boarding (from a bus gate!!!) I was greeted by the crew and offered a welcome drink (I chose the mango lassi). Instead of the hot towel served on Singapore Airlines, I was offered a refreshing cold towel which was much appreciated after being in the sweltering Singapore summer heat (and boy, was I in for a surprise on arrival in Delhi!)
Vistara A321neo Business Class Seat
Vistara Food and Drinks Menu
I was offered 2 separate menus for food and drinks. I will let the pictures speak for themselves.
Vistara Food Menu
Vistara Drinks Menu \"The Cellar\"
Vistara Drinks Menu \"The Bar\"
Beautiful Day for a Flight
After takeoff, we headed north over Malaysia; it was a beautiful day for a flight, with nice fluffy marshmallow-shaped clouds all around.
Vistara Business Class Meal
Meal service began shortly after takeoff. I had the Indian option, which was excellent.
Vistara Cocktail
Throughout the flight I was served a number of excellent cocktails which I enjoyed greatly. This one was served during my meal.
After my meal, my seat turned into a fully flat bed with the push of a button. No need to fiddle with latches and flipping down the seat backs - Singapore Airlines should take notes!
Vistara Bed
This was a daytime flight so I wasn't very tired, but I still managed to get some great sleep over the Bay of Bengal. I woke up just as we approached the shoreline of the Indian subcontinent.
View of India's Shoreline from the Window
IFE map at this point in time
On this flight, business class passengers had a 50MB WiFi data allowance. I blew through mine in minutes just downloading my email and sending a couple of texts.
Before long, the aircraft was pulling into the gate at Delhi Airport -
Delhi Airport Gate Arrival... ?
  • or so I thought! We ended up disembarking by airstairs for yet another bus ride. The moment I left the plane, the New Delhi heat hit me. The temperature in Delhi was pushing 120 degrees that day, but I hadn't quite reflected on what that meant until I got the full brunt of it. Put simply, the heat was punishing, and that would remain the case till the end of my stay in Delhi. My colleague who greeted me at the airport joked that Delhi was "hell with the lid taken off".
Disembarking for another bus ride - hooray!
The excellent hard and soft product on this flight was worth every penny of the upgrade and quite frankly I'd be more than willing to fly this cabin on a long haul flight. This was also one of the last opportunities I had to try out Vistara's business class product, and I'm glad I took it. Strangely enough, this was also my first premium cabin experience on a narrowbody aircraft outside the US in 20 years, and one thing I can say is that it was a much greater experience than my business class flights on widebodies. Maybe it was Vistara, but maybe the smaller cabin gave the crew much more space and time to provide a very attentive service to every single passenger.
Well, I guess that's a wrap for my flight review! I may post a review of my return trip later if I have time, but then again it might be too much trouble. I travel so much for work sometimes I wonder if I should double as a travel blogger - but I'm also a lazy bugger most of the time. Oh, well. Safe travels, everyone!
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2024.06.02 18:28 smaxlab How do you feel about people who have lived in the U.S.A. most of their lives voting in Mexican elections?

I'm curious about this because my wife is Mexican-American and she has family voting in today's election. The thing is, these family members have not lived in Mexico for the past 30 years. One of them was born in Mexico but moved to the U.S. when she was a baby.
I think I would feel uncomfortable if there were so many people who were born in the U.S. but chose to live another country most of (or basically all of) their lives deciding who the leaders are. Why should they have a say in who the President is when the policies ultimately won't effect them?
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2024.06.02 18:27 aerith-khaleesi Questions/Theories about Zanarkand, Sin, Tidus, Jecht

I also have X-2 spoilers if that’s okay to discuss:
I found myself watching YouTube videos again of FFX-2 today and memories flooded back like crazy. Replayed X a few years ago to do everything (ultimate weapons, battle arena, etc.) so that was fun. And now I find myself digging back into the story and thinking up questions I might have known the answers to or never thought to ask as a kid.
So Jecht and Tidus are dream versions of ? and Shuyin (I assume Shuyin’s father lol) from real Zanarkand. The war happened a thousand years ago from the time of X (Yuna’s life). Yu Yevon turned the real people of Zanarkand into fayth to preserve it.
Tidus didn’t actually travel 1000 years into the future from my understanding. He just existed in a world without time. Perhaps living his life over and over until a cycle broke (Jecht becoming sin and impeding dream Zanarkand prompting Tidus to travel into the real world).
How did Jecht end up breaking that cycle and ending up in real Spira? Also correct me if I’m wrong but the fayth couldn’t “wake up” (even though Jecht who is a dream becomes sin) because of Yu Yevon. Maybe it was explained and I didn’t realize so if anyone can jog my memory that would be great.
Now Shuyin died in real Zanarkand but his memory was preserved (he was a hot shot blitzball player everyone knew him) and so Tidus existed as a version of him. Lenne was also famous for being a songstress and summoner and she died but there is no dream version of her. Her essence and memories were preserved in the dressphere (Yuna wearing it made Shuyin think it was Lenne and such but there is no relation between the two). I just found that interesting.
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2024.06.02 18:27 Distinct_Schedule_57 one 3 day old kitten(one kitten litter) have disappeared over the night.

Good morning all
Like a week ago a pregnant kitten show up at my home, I decided to feed her until I get her a home or keep her as an outdoor cat(not my favorite option at all, statistically they rarely make it past 2 years). The mama cat delivered only one kitten like 4 days ago. I prepared a space in my laundry room(which is directly and freely accessible to the yard but is a safe enough place for a cat) for her and the kitten during the last 4 days she had been feeding the kitten and the kitten seemed to be healthy. This morning the kitten was not present and a few minutes later an adult orange tabby entered the laundry room(never had seen this cat before on the area). There was no signs of predation, the mama cat looked relaxed and unconcerned, so I thought maybe she moved it to another place. Like an hour or more later mama cat was looking and missing the kitten her demeanor change to sad and searching for kitten. I been looking all corners this morning to no avail. What could had happened to the kitten? could the orange tabby got it? could still be alive hidden by mother cat? Is kinda heart breaking seen her looking for it. Appreciate any guesses or advice , have a good and safe weekend everyone. Thanks
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2024.06.02 18:27 tomatoduck7 I’ve been learning synesthesia for two years now. Is this experience worth anything?

I started learning piano a few years ago since it sounded fun and was something to do. I didn’t really want to have lessons as I wanted mostly to do it on my own time and learn songs I wanted to. So I played things by ear. I already learned some cello when I was younger using the Suzuki method (though barely learned sheet music and even if I had I forgot) so I can play things very well by ear with enough practice, and I know basic music theory. But as things got harder, I found synesthesia and the visual learning aspect and memorization of it came so much more easily to me. So I started playing that, along with some hand techniques and things like that so I could play them more easily and efficiently. And I’ve been learning increasingly harder songs as I went on, and I’ve gotten to the point where I can even play some ragtime with enough practice. So essentially I know how to play the piano very well, but apparently without knowledge of how to read music it’s hard to get any farther than this, and in any other circumstance this prior knowledge is useless, or so I’ve heard ever since I found this sub. There is a lot of debate, but the general consensus seems to be that if you want to be able to learn piano well, synesthesia is counterproductive. I’ve also been writing my own music that sounds pretty good, but I am unable to actually write it down anywhere and can only visualize it in keys rather than musical notation. Basically what I’m asking here is, if I were to learn sheet music:
  1. would sheet music be as infinitely more useful as y’all say?
  2. Is what I have learned of piano in the past two years completely useless other than the motor skills?
  3. have the methods I have used messed with my perception of piano? will it be harder to understand sheet music or require a different technique of learning after having prior experience with synesthesia and none with sheets?
  4. Is it possible to learn sheet music without a teacher?
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2024.06.02 18:26 Giant_Acroyear Random Bits of NoP Fanon Lore Scraped up from the Discord

So, we need a scenario, where some Skalgans are rescued before the Federation gets too far into their plan.
As discussed on the discord today... shout out to my fellow idea-mongers!
Suppose there is a faction of Farsul, The Hidden Path, that disagrees with the Kolshians' plans for the galaxy, after observing the activity performed on/with the Krakotl.
This faction goes into silent rebellion, and works in secret to preserve all sapient cultures, as they are, by abducting just enough of each to ensure genetic viability and delivering them to a hidden colonies.
And they have been doing this ever since.
Now you have a viable undiscovered source of many of each type of every race, with pre-federation culture intact.
...commence with the hijinks you envision.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 02/29/2024 1:00 PM Mileau is all Mesas, with Slot canyons in between; the mesas all extend above breathable atmosphere.
I made that sht up. No one has ever described the surface of Mileau except me. Hah!*
uktabi (Clear Skies, Foxholes) — 02/29/2024 1:08 PM its canon now mileau has a thin atmosphere and a fast spin. it throws off basically all atmosphere except for what gets trapped in the slot canyons. idk anything that im talking about
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 02/29/2024 1:13 PM THe canyons are 2-3 km wide, and llike 10 km deep; agriculture happens in the canyons that run "east" to "west". Most of the food grows on tree vines that climb up the walls of the canyon; these have trunks bigger than redwoods at the base. WHen you look at Mileau from above, the entire surface looks like a dried lake bed.
uktabi (Clear Skies, Foxholes) — 02/29/2024 1:15 PM if theyre photosynthesis, plant life in canyons would probably have HEAVY bias in evolving to compete for sunlight
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 02/29/2024 1:15 PM hence the growing up the walls.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 02/29/2024 1:16 PM the north south canyons are barren. most of the water lies underground, and it's movement forms huge cave systems at that level.
uktabi (Clear Skies, Foxholes) — 02/29/2024 1:16 PM they'd probably have all sorts of like, choking out competitors. specialized tendrils that try to choke out competitors. evolutionary arms race and all
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 02/29/2024 1:17 PM so, there is also cave ecology going on at a grand scale as well.
uktabi (Clear Skies, Foxholes) — 02/29/2024 1:18 PM hmmm are dossur adapted to low light environments?
The ☴☴° — 02/29/2024 1:18 PM I think that they would have some.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 02/29/2024 1:19 PM Yes. But also... Mileau's star is a very large one, so the habitable ring is 5 times further out; the cycles are 5 years long, and winter is a full year. so they have a long hibernation period every 5 years.
uktabi (Clear Skies, Foxholes) — 02/29/2024 1:20 PM a cave system being a consistent environment despite seasons might help temper that though
The ☴☴° — 02/29/2024 1:20 PM Large stars have exponentially shorter lives, just a warning.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 02/29/2024 1:23 PM It's not like it's Y-Scuti.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 02/29/2024 1:24 PM THey eveolves to remember everything they hear while they "sleep" so, if you were to search the ventilation systems at the School of the flora, you'd find dossur sleeping near every vent by the lecture halls. "They are in the walls" is a true statement.
The ☴☴° — 02/29/2024 1:26 PM They'd better have good taste in poetry. As they drive next generation's minds into predator disease.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 02/29/2024 1:26 PM This is why they've come from stone-age to space age in under 100 years. THey pick up every class, all day long. then they go test out at the end of the semester, CLEP style, and run off with a degree after 8 months. they also record everything, and take the recordings back to Mileau; the next round of sleepers is in a cave containing thousands of Dossur there. It's a knowledge factory.
Mecha Kid (Solar Wind, Spec Ops) — 02/29/2024 1:31 PM Suddenly happy I never defined the surface features of Mileau in Spec Ops Also, concussions are a bitch, right @Julian Skies (Blackriver Cases) ?
Julian Skies (Blackriver Cases) — 02/29/2024 1:33 PM Acroyear's version of the dossur would find like souls in the Consortium
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 02/29/2024 1:34 PM Since Mileau has so little livable space (from the Federation's perspective) the Federation ignores it. Most of the land receiving sunlight is completely dedicated to raising the crops, and the Dossur live in tiny caves drilled into the mesas.
Ben_KenoBEEG (NoA) — 02/29/2024 1:38 PM I just realized, could the Dossur possibly have a planet with over 100 billion people on it, considering their size and how little of a carbon footprint they leave
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 02/29/2024 1:40 PM they've only come up from the stone age in the past 100 years or so... having spent most of that time eliminating the natural predators of Mileau... (which happen to look a Lot like... Krakotl).
"The silver mountain descended from the heavens on pillars of white fire... and death himself rode in it."
dankboy9000 — 02/29/2024 1:43 PM Ah yes, the Man on the Silver Mountain
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 02/29/2024 1:43 PM More like the bird. in any case, the Dossur have harnessed the winds that flow through the canyons as an energy source, and have started building Giant solar farms on the mesa tops, now that they have space technology.
dankboy9000 — 02/29/2024 1:46 PM Arizonacore
Spectralstorm — 02/29/2024 1:59 PM Dossur "re-education" programme where they just yell "predators are bad" over and over while the dossur are hibernating
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 02/29/2024 1:59 PM It's another fic, that's all. The feds don't know that this is how it works. It's part of the Dossur conspiracy. That's why no one has ever seen a Dossur that's not ginger colored. In my head-canon, there are also white ones, brown ones, blond ones, spotted ones, roans, and of course... black ones! and... FLying ones!
The ☴☴° — 02/29/2024 2:08 PM This is why they attacked Mileau.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 6:12 PM I have this image of the Dossur colonizing every park and forested area throughout the federation... ...in secret, of course.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 6:09 PM Have we been told how many colonies there are? I know of at least one, where Veln originated from.
Thirsha (Tight Money) — 11/30/2023 6:10 PM no
Killsode-Slugcat — 11/30/2023 6:26 PM the planetary thoughts Egg has is that there's big oceans on the dayward side that evaporate and then send water back to the nightward side where its then frozen, depositied on glaciers that then progressand melt, creating rivers that feed back into the oceans thus sustaining a full water cycle of course, there's also spots of rain along the way, and if there was a mountain range in the right spot it'd be rained on nearly non-stop on the dayside
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 6:23 PM I also Recall a beach scene from another Fic I read recently, but I don't remember it. It was up near the burning.
Verified Threat to Fish (LiH) — 11/30/2023 6:29 PM Yeah, based on pure physics, the twilight and green likely get a ton of precipitation from the night. The day and burning get few to no rainstorms and are probably sustained by the rivers and desalination of the oceans
Killsode-Slugcat — 11/30/2023 6:29 PM well, not sure if they'd get it from the night god the weather patterns would be alllll over the place @Brick we really need your help on figuring those out.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 6:30 PM I think there's mention of Heavy Monsoon activity due to the wobble.
Brick — 11/30/2023 7:17 PM What was the question
Killsode-Slugcat — 11/30/2023 7:17 PM ah, the weather patterns of VP, and how the hell the atmopshere moves
Brick — 11/30/2023 7:18 PM My god
Killsode-Slugcat — 11/30/2023 7:18 PM since uh, if there's constant wind coming from the sunward side, atmosphere somehow has to get to the sunward side to replace it.
Brick — 11/30/2023 7:18 PM Without geography Uhhhhhhh
Brick — 11/30/2023 7:18 PM Not quite according to the paper I posted earlier the surface flow would come from the night rather than the day
Killsode-Slugcat — 11/30/2023 7:19 PM going with the idea that the water cycle is power by oceans near the sun side the bring water to the night side where its then deposited and flows back to the oceans?
Brick — 11/30/2023 7:19 PM Surface flow favors convergence at the hot side ad divergence on the cold side meaning the surface flow overall would be from the cold to the warm but at upper levels it's reversed But this is overall geography, location of oceans, planetary rotation and more would make this much more complex
OmegaMon02 (NoC,TTS,MiM,GE,PoT) — 11/30/2023 7:20 PM Air cools on night, blasts the venlil, warms in the day, travels on top of cold wind, big wind storms deep into the day and night
Brick — 11/30/2023 7:20 PM Were it so easy...
Beyonce what I can think about without a pencil, paper and other things.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:21 PM SO, on Skalga... not much daily rotation.
Brick — 11/30/2023 7:21 PM In terms of tropospheric dynamics I really can't say right now On the other hand If VP is on a tilt That raises a whole set of other issues For example places where the sun sets for half a year and raises for the other half It is not easy to make any educated judgments without having a cannon geography.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:23 PM THere's the whole Paw wobble bit, but I don't think you'd get much variation off of it.
Brick — 11/30/2023 7:24 PM Yeah axis wobble is something on MUCH longer time scales up towards thousands of years iirc
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:24 PM it feels like the axis of the planet points at the Sun for the most part.
Brick — 11/30/2023 7:24 PM Meanwhile a tilted spin axis will cause seasonal sunsets that last different amounts of time beyond certain latitudes The axis of the planet has nothing to do with the sun, at one point it will face away from the sun and half a year later it'll.face towards That's why we get seasons and differential day length on earth
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:25 PM right, but with Skalga being tidally locked...
Brick — 11/30/2023 7:25 PM Nothing to do with it That is a manner of rate of rotation not axial tilt The rate of revolution is equal to the rate of rotation meaning one side faces the star at all times But a tilted axis can cause the area to essentially shift up and down
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:28 PM so depending on the tilt of the access, those parts of Skalga would have day, and night cycles that last for about half the year.
Brick — 11/30/2023 7:28 PM Yup Think of how the solstices work on earth. Provided you're at a latitude that experiences them just, more extreme The further into the light side you go the shorter the "night" lasts
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:30 PM 👍 We were considering what the sizes of the oceans were.
Brick — 11/30/2023 7:30 PM Weather is dictated a lot by geography as well as overall circulation I haven't figured out if there would be a jet or something different
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:31 PM yes, windward and Lee sides of mountain ranges would make a difference. I was thinking heavy monsoon winds.
Brick — 11/30/2023 7:32 PM Yes while the windward side would be very dry the leeward side would experience in my current opinion almost constant rain It really depends on how well heat exchanges But I can't get too deep into this now. Btw this is what I study at university.
Btw this is what I study at uni
Brick — 11/30/2023 7:32 PM Perhaps I got my terminology backwards I am become atmospheric scientist.
Brick — 11/30/2023 7:33 PM Good chat sorry to jet.
Julian Skies (Blackriver Cases) — 11/30/2023 7:35 PM Bahaha, jet!
DankTerminus (SINYL, NOPAW(?)) — 11/30/2023 7:35 PM Hey, being near water is not the same as being IN water.
Verified Threat to Fish (LiH) — 11/30/2023 7:35 PM I mean the planet is like this ☀️ 🟥🟨🟩🟪🟦 (I'm trying my best) cold weather brings rain or snow. So @Brick is right, lots of rain moving from twilight to green. Less in day.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:36 PM depends on what the source of the water is. if there are oceans on the day side, that would provide moisture in the upper levels. where the convection moves in the opposite direction.
DankTerminus (SINYL, NOPAW(?)) — 11/30/2023 7:37 PM oceans have to exist at some point if there's enough water to sustain global-spanning life.
DankTerminus (SINYL, NOPAW(?)) — 11/30/2023 7:38 PM Also, I have a reason for each of the coastal locations. Muller's Bay is found upon illict activities. Stepping Stones basically had no choice but to exist due it being an island chain. Mellowgale is an rare mountainous type of coastal, hence the Greek vibes.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:39 PM the day side may have giant, untapped aquifers. not much written about it, so I don't really know. but I could see the venlil living under ground in the hotter parts.
Verified Threat to Fish (LiH) — 11/30/2023 7:41 PM I can see that a nice portion of the rivers from colder half flow underground. Could sustain lots of people and crops
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:41 PM sort of a Coober Pedy situation. for about the same reasons.
DankTerminus (SINYL, NOPAW(?)) — 11/30/2023 7:42 PM imagine having the Green double in size during the timeskip due to humanity interventing. oof, both good and bad.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:42 PM depends on what kind of geo-engineering is done, if any.
DankTerminus (SINYL, NOPAW(?)) — 11/30/2023 7:43 PM mostly geo-engineering for preventing Sahara-ification.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:43 PM yeah, permaculture water harvesting would definitely be a thing. if they can build a planet encircling maglev, they could build some major pipelines runninlg along the meridians as well.
DankTerminus (SINYL, NOPAW(?)) — 11/30/2023 7:45 PM They DID build an maglev ring, you're right.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:45 PM with the right kind of valves and insulation, they could use antifreeze to act as a giant heat pump.
Verified Threat to Fish (LiH) — 11/30/2023 7:45 PM I bet they have biiiig wells to use for cities or for watering plants.
Animesh — 11/30/2023 7:46 PM Wait. Is the entire venlil prime just The Line (tm) project?
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:48 PM Possibly. I don't know the full particulars on the Line, so can't answer that. but I could see them doing a lot of Al Baydha-like projects. btu again, that is dependent on the landforms, and where the water flows to and from. I mean, BiasMushroom has Frozen Mountain set up as a city in the Nightside, close to the terminator. it you get some form of heat loving trees with deep, deep roots, then it's possible that they might shade areas of the burning enough to be survivable. so that gets back to the questions about where the water bodies are.
Verified Threat to Fish (LiH) — 11/30/2023 7:56 PM I think they could form in the day but dry up in the burning.
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:56 PM yes, but what about under the dayside, where the aquifers may be.
Verified Threat to Fish (LiH) — 11/30/2023 7:57 PM Probably near rivers but could realistically be anywhere I mean, there are aquifers all over earth so really it's hard to disprove any specific location
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:57 PM a lot of it depends on how the water flows, and what geological formations there are. a karst type of situation could lead to lots of caves with chimney windows and underground jungles.
Verified Threat to Fish (LiH) — 11/30/2023 7:58 PM Hell in the southwest US, sandstone cliffs and mountains are aquifers. They are stuffed full of water. Without specific info, it's really up to us to decide. Which is neat!
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 7:59 PM a hard layer of earth over a soft limesone layer, with water flowing, would lead to huge cave systesm. there could be entire, undiscovered biomes like that, possibly housing pre-federation Venlils.
Verified Threat to Fish (LiH) — 11/30/2023 8:03 PM Perhaps. Though I worry for how they'd live
Giant_Acroyear (Dossur?) — 11/30/2023 8:04 PM if there's flowing water, then there's probably fungi, and things eating the fungi. Anyway, I leave the speculations here, for your consideration.
Thirsha (Tight Money) — 11/30/2023 9:08 PM massive cave systems with underground rivers and a lot of life that lives in the dark but due to the presence of predators, venlil are afraid of them and since they are hell to clear out, the exterminators try to keep the predators in the caverns instead only killing them when they wander too close to the settlements.
I hope you have enjoyed this as much as I have!
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2024.06.02 18:26 _angievm Would I lose my island if I changed the account that owns the game?

I bought the game through an Instagram account because I couldn’t afford it. They sent me a Nintendo account with the game and I played through my profile. Today, I couldn’t log in. I contacted them and they told me that that account wasn’t working anymore. They had a 5-month warranty period in case that happened, but I bought the game like a year and a half ago. I would have to either buy the game from them again or buy it through the nintendo store. Would I lose my island by doing so?
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2024.06.02 18:26 dRaspberry Over the moon happy rant

My daughter has been diagnosed with "severe" ADHD
She's started medication this week, and we are blown away at how much she's able to be her genuine self now. She's said how she doesn't have bouncy balls all over her head anymore. She's able to focus on tasks, play with her brother and even helps around the house. She's still got her great outgoing nature, and ability to make people smile and laugh. Still has energy, and overall a happy 7 year old child.
Today, we had our first ever sit-down meal in a public food court that didn't involve discipline, or any screaming. We enjoyed our meals, shared great conversations together. It was amazing to feel like a "normal family"
If I have one wish, it's that anyone experiencing any form of mental challenges receives the help they need. These services should not be so difficult (and expensive) to receive.
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2024.06.02 18:25 nohopeforhomosapiens Toddler, Lego, Boomer

Alright, I didn't know what to title this. My son just had his birthday yesterday and turned 3. For a long time I have been waiting to gift him his first Lego set. I remember playing with them for many years. I actually asked on daddit about best options but only a few people replied and they suggested I get Duplo instead given his age. Well, we talked it over and decided to buy Duplo and hold off for a while on the Lego.
Cue my stupidity. My mother knew very well how much I wanted to give him a Lego set. My own old Lego are in her barn very far away. I was talking to her last week and I said we decided to do more Duplo for now (he already had some we bought second-hand a year ago). She was trying to figure out what to give him for a present and I mentioned Duplo, and a few other things he is interested in.
She had a box sent from Amazon to our door. I didn't open it because I always let my son open his own gifts, it's never been a problem before, and I knew it was a present. Didn't know what it was.
On his birthday yesterday, he got to open all his gifts. The gift my mom sent? Yep, Lego.
So my kid had a bunch of Duplo, Lego, and a cog-work style building set that my biological mother sent. Adoptive mom knew how much I wanted the Lego to be given by me. I'd said so many times. I fucking loved my Lego and I wanted to be the one who gifted it to him.
Anyway, he loves the Lego set, and he hasn't touched the Duplo. I should've listened to my gut on what to buy him instead of listening to reddit. I should also have not mentioned it to mom because I know all too well that mentioning things to boomers results in them foiling a surprise. If he only had the Duplo and lost interest, I would've bought him Lego the next day. Now the gift I most wanted to give is forever given to him by someone else.
This is such a stupid thing, but god damn it made me so mad. The worst part is I don't even have the right to be mad. I know what she did and why she did it, it's in her personality, but I can't go around complaining she bought my kid a toy he likes. This, by the way, is a person who takes pretty much zero interest in my son generally... she didn't even call him on his birthday.
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2024.06.02 18:25 caclementine Angina?

Left a message with cardiologist office for an appointment, but I wanted to jump on here to get some opinions. I apologize ahead of time if my information is all over the place.
44 years old, female, 5’5 height, 197lbs, diabetic (5.3 a1c) metformin, low dose statin for high cholesterol, and on meds for high blood pressure.
A couple weeks ago I was gardening, and while pulling a hose I noticed a soreness in my left breast and left arm. I stopped and it immediately went away. I thought maybe it was my position with the hose, but I started to worry. 3 days ago I was climbing a ramp at a football game and had the same dull sore feeling in my left breast and left arm. Stopped as soon as we got to our floor. The feeling was like I had worked out the day before and was mildly sore.
With all these years of high bp, high cholesterol (I just got on statin 3 months ago because we were unsure if we were going to try for another kid), an controlled diabetes, I guess I was not surprised this is happening right now. I have no immediately family history of heart disease, however I did have an aunt that passed away from a heart attack while she was in her late 50s.
I’ve been down the rabbit hole reading about possible stable angina, blockages, this and that. I did perform a stress test 10+ years ago and I had gotten the ok. Could it be anything else? I haven’t been able to sleep well or eat well since the second time it’s happened.
Btw I regularly climb stairs in our house, and can walk all day at amusement parks without any problems. Thank you for reading.
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2024.06.02 18:24 Sea-Macaroon-4669 Do I have colon cancer

I (26f) have a history of cancer in the family. Currently waiting on my gene test results as we speak. I have been having stomach issues the past year or probably even longer than that. I chopped it up to maybe it’s my medication (i was on bromocriptine for a pituitary tumor). But I got off of it months ago and it seems my bowel issues have gotten worse. I poop once a week. There have been times it’s been over a week. When I do poop, it’s not a full bowel movement. It’ll be very thin stool & not much comes out. I’m bloated and gassy all of the time. But sometimes my body won’t let me pass gas. I have minor blood in my stool but nothing consistently or a lot to be worry some. Everyday my rectal area will throb. When it goes past a week of me not using the restroom, I’ll take 2-3 laxatives and it doesn’t work. I do it very rarely because I don’t want my body to build resistance. I saw my dr for the first time about this issue and he recommended miralax daily. I’ve been taking it and haven’t seen any improvement. I eat lots of fruit, veggies, and fiber. I also consume lots of probiotics & drink my prebiotics. I have a colonoscopy in September.
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2024.06.02 18:24 AnalyzeAthletics Trying this again.

For the past year, I've been attempting to go "No Surf". It's been a challenging task for me, constantly relapsing back to where I began. Lately, I've attempted to keep Instagram and Reddit off of my phone (typing this on PC), but it's been a challenge. I'll log onto Instagram on my phone's browser, hop off after a few minutes, and repeat the process. Every time I delete Reddit, I re-download it after a few hours or so as I enjoy the content posted here - most of it's valuable advice I need or seek, though there's a few niche communities I'm a member of. While I do think I can break my addiction to Instagram, how can I break my addiction to Reddit? Is it okay to continue using it on PC from time to time? I also have an app for sports news on my phone - should that get deleted too?
Today, I woke up and finally decided using my Kindle again. It's been laying dormant for nearly a month now as reading books wasn't the first thing on my mind. Felt great to start reading again - that's a hobby of mine's which is done often or rarely depending on how addicted I am to social media. I did play a video game today, though it's the only game I play for an hour or so each day - should I quit playing that? I plan on watching sports later - that will stay. Once this background check is complete, I'll be working a part-time job and searching for certificates that will allow me to stand out in the workplace in addition to an ongoing remote internship I'm with, so that'll help me stay entertained as well. In my free time, outside of reading, I plan on exercising, playing sports, and just enjoying the time I have with family.
I'm really hoping this time around I can find success. I have a plan, I just need to stick to it and know I can.
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2024.06.02 18:23 Gun-_-slinger Joy Alas!

My route to grad school was very strange to say the least. In the fall term I was seriously debating if I wanted to go and I ended up failing a class which discouraged me from even applying. This past term I was able to get my grades back up and apply to only 1 program initially. I later applied to a second program who promptly rejected me on the basis of “lack of pre requisite knowledge/preparation” keep in mind I’m applying for Mechanical Engineering and even tho my undergrad isn’t ME, I completed 90% ME courses so I’m basically a ME.
Finally got accepted today to the program I initially applied to after they ghosted me initially!
Btw the LOA says it’s a 2 year program but the calendar says it can be completed in 1 year. Does it mean if I finish early they’ll just keep me hostage?
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2024.06.02 18:23 Prestigious-Wash-618 My Experience

I experienced an intense porn addiction throughout early high school, leading me down a path of unspeakable deviance and despair. I knew my lifestyle was wrong, yet breaking free seemed impossible. I felt isolated and extremely outcast, and became convinced that if there was a hell, I was destined for it. No one knew what I was going through, because I forced myself to put a smile on all the time, hiding this area of my life as much as possible. Though I was raised Christian, for most of my life God was merely a concept to me; I didn't understand His Love, but a part of me longed to know if He truly existed. In my quest for truth, I prayed fervently, yearning for a sign of His presence. I remember crying out to God every day for years, yet largely feeling nothing. I vividly recall one desperate prayer, where I said something along the lines of "God, if you're real, show me. I want to serve you but don't know if you're real. Grant me you're healing, strength, and joy, and I will serve you the rest of my life. When you reveal yourself to me may the song Above All play so that I know it's you." Months passed with no response, and I began to lose hope, contemplating abandoning my faith altogether.
Some time goes by, and I attend a church service on Sunday. The church had just finished a 20-day prayer fast, and had a visiting speaker who delivered a message I will never forget. He opened up with saying how there is someone here who has been sinning in sexually deviant ways, and how they have felt condemned to hell and isolated, having no one to confide in but God, and that God has heard their cry, and is giving this person strength. Before he was even finished saying the words "God is giving this person strength," I felt a strength so real I can't begin to describe. I knew it wasn't a physical strength (though it felt like I could do any physical thing in that moment), but a spiritual one. Instantly my whole being felt alive, and all my typical doubts and questioning suddenly became impossible in that moment. The speaker proceeded to say that God had also seen my swear, and that I should not make vows to God (the day before, for the first time I vowed to God I would never again give in to my depravity, and broke the vow that same night). After saying these things (and other things that made me know I was the one he was speaking of) he called people up for prayer. The only time I ever went up for prayer was if my parents forced me, so I reasoned that if I went up this time on my own volition, my parents might think he was talking about me. In light of this, even though I felt called to go up, I decided not to, and asked God in my heart to find another way to reach me. After the speaker prayed for others that went up, he paused for a moment with an expression that seemed taken aback, and then proceeded to ask everyone to pray for the person next to them. My dad was sitting next to me, but because my dad didn't know my situation, I wondered what we would speak over me. He whispered a prayer over me in words not of English, yet somehow I felt I knew the language, only could not comprehend it in that moment. After everyone was done praying, the church moves on to praise and worship, and the first song that plays is Above All. As soon as the song started playing, I instantly recalled my previous prayer months ago where I had requested this. Throughout this experience, not only did my body feel radiant with spiritual strength, but also Love. Love was what I dominantly felt, but it didn't feel like any love I was used to, but one that was unconditional, and indescribably deepemystical. No love (or any feeling for that matter) I had felt up to this point came even close to what I felt in that moment. I remember at one point my body even began to quiver, no matter how much I tried to stifle it. At this point, all doubts about God's existence were gone with the wind, for I recall experiencing a deep knowing that extended beyond my human understanding.
The following week was the best week of my life. All my addictive tendencies and perverse thoughts were completely gone. Not a single depraved thought entered my mind. Not only this, but I distinctly recall the amount of joy I felt in those days. I had the biggest smile on my face which I could not hide, and all my depression was wiped clean without a trace. There was also this intense feeling of deep connection with everything, even nature. One experience in particular that sticks out to me to this day was when that week I was waiting at the bus stop like I usually do, and I began to stare at the tree in front of me. This is the same tree I had seen a million times before, but as I stared at it this time, suddenly the tree became vivid before my eyes, full of intense life and color--colors and beauty which didn't seem physically possible. In that moment I remember saying to myself, "nature is praising God with my soul", and didn't think much of it in the moment, as it appeared to be an obvious, unquestionable reality. I remember going to class that day and having multiple friends and teachers pull me aside and ask what was wrong with me, and that I had a different "glow" about me, and that they haven't seen me with this much joy before. I felt reborn, like I was truly seeing life for the first time. I felt complete in God/Love, and it was the most beautiful thing I've ever experienced. After the week had passed, I suddenly felt like my "normal" self again--not in terms of feeling depressed and returning to my depravity, but rather that it felt like my mind was in control again instead of the True mind. I now had to consciously work to control my thoughts, find joy, etc., but it was easier to do still, given that I remembered the state from which I previously came. I remember feeling that life on earth was simultaneously pointless while also not. All of this happened a decade ago, so lots has happened since then, but this is an experience I will never forget. I still struggle with life of course just like everyone else, but I'm in a much better place now then where I used to be, simply because of God's Love. Any time life tries to get to me, I look back to this time in my life.
I say all these things not to boast in myself, but to boast in God. There is nothing inherently more special about me, nor was any of what I experienced my own doing. I simply decided to put my faith in God because that was all I had, and God answered, giving me what I needed at the time, and I am confident he will do the same for anyone in similar circumstance who places their faith in Him. I'm also slowly growing past the point of arguing with people about this or that when it comes to God. If you want to know God, seek Him, and He will answer. On that day, all arguments will be brought to nothing, for if God is Truth, will He not eventually answer you in the Truth of Himself? If you have any questions feel free to dm me, and I'd also love to hear any comments. Other than that, thanks for taking the time to read :)
With peace and love,
Anonymous
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