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2024.06.02 19:57 Impressive-Copy2229 I’m really bored man
Hi im rohit im in college but its holidays and im really bored af
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2024.06.02 19:55 NomadicNarwhal7 "Bakit 'di ka nag-law school?"
Just another after 10 pm thought. I really just want to get this off my chest. What if tinuloy ko mag-law school? (WARNING: Long read)
Almost 1 year na since my graduation. Most of my blockmates from college are done with their final exams in law school. I wish them nothing, but success and happiness. Hopefully, they'll all be regular 2nd year law students next school year.
Ngunit minsan may mga gabi kung saan ako'y napapa-isip; what if nag-law school din ako? Makakaya ko rin kaya? Masaya rin kaya ako sa desisyon ko kapag? Kay raming pumapasok na paano kung tuwing pagsapit ng gabi. Kadalasan, hinahayaan at i-tinutulog ko nalang. Minsan, katulad ng gabing ito, ay para kinakain ako ng aking mga naiisip na para bang 'di na ako makahinga kung saan ayaw manlang manahimik ng aking utak sa pag-iisip ng mga paano kung 'di ko magawa-gawa.
For some context of why and how I feel like shit rn. Here's a very short summary of my past: Ganado pa ako sa buhay noong 1st year college e. Determinado akong mag-law school kayat dali-dali akong nag-enroll aking pre-law course. Nakakainis din ang mga Pinoy e no? Once nalaman nilang pre-law course mo e automatic na ang tawag sa'yo e "atty". Same rin kapag engineering ka. Tawag ba naman sa'yo "engr". Masarap pakinggan lalo na't karamihan ay nanggagaling sa mga tao tunay nga naman na nagbibigay suporta at nagmamahal sa'yo. Ako naman 'tong lumaki ang ulo na parang feeling abogado pero sa huli ay 'di rin lang pala nag-tuloy. Huli ko lang namalayan na may added pressure rin pala ang mga ganon.
Then the pandemic happened. I lost all hope. Truth be told, if 'di nangyari 'yung pandemic baka nag-shift ako. Dahil alam ko sa sarili ko na bagsako ako sa 3 majors subjects ko noong 1st year 2nd sem. But I got saved by the bell. Instead of failed, dropped o INC, PASSED ang nakasulat sa grading report ko. Hanggang nagtuloy-tuloy na. From 2nd year, nag-3rd year to 4th year GRADUATING student real quick.
All kinds of shit went down noong nag-4th year na ako. I've already lost hope noong pandemic. Noong 4th year na ako?, I just didn't give a damn anymore. Bagsako kung bagsako, pasado kung pasado- bathala na. And then, boom! Pasado ('wag niyo na po akong tanongin on how I managed to pass. 'di ko rin po alam).
I got a job after graduation. Made some money, paid the bills, helped around the house and got to buy the shit I wanted at the time. But the most important thing that job gave me was clarity and realization. "I'm not built for law school", kako sa sarili ko. I finally accepted it and moved on. I resigned after 5 months. Kumuha ng educ units sa may local university namin 'cause I got bored and I wanted to feel in college again ( I know, it's stupid and immature. Don't you think I already know that?). Took the CSE and passed. Kakatapos lang ng semester, and decided i'm not gonna pursue that LPT.
Now, I'm a certified tambay. Nilalakad ko palang ang mga papers ko for employment so at least I'm not going to be a certified tambay in the nearer future.
And now, here I am. In bed, reminiscing and thinking about my what ifs in life. What if nag-law school din ako?
Masaya siguro na mahirap. Mostly mahirap, but worth it naman sa huli. Alam ko naman sa sarili ko na 'di ko kaya 'yung sakripisyo at dedication compared to other law students out there. I've been reading less and less, mostly because whenever I do my brain multiplies in being annoying and not shutting up of its thoughts. Rather than reading, improving my mind, I've been playing too much video games. Too much basketball, too much of this too much of that. Way too much distractions. Eventually, mawawala ako sa focus if I did decide to go to law school.
"Bakit mo sinasabi agad na 'di mo kaya kung 'di mo pa naman sinsubukan?" Y'all have a point there, but kilala ko sarili ko e. I know I cant give up playing video games and playing sports. Hanging out with friends doing God knows what in the middle of the night. Ayaw ko rin sinasakripisyo ang tulog para lang mag-aral. Tamad ko nga raw mag-aral e sabi ng mga high school prof ko (pakyu sila may degree na ako). Overall, I'm lazy. I get distracted too easily. I give up too early, and try to do less most of the time. I'm impatient. I'm incapable of adapting learning strategies and style benefiting a law student. I have all of these negative capabilities. Obviously, 'di talaga nababagay. Pero what if? Wala naman sigurong mawawala saakin kung mag-what if lang ako. Eventually, I'll stop siguro. Soon, magiging okay rin ako. But for now, what if?
What if tinuloy ko mag-law school?
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2024.06.02 19:46 Brilliantmind1997 26[F4M] #Atlanta, Georgia - Seeking a long term monogamous relationship (serious inquiries only)
- Do Not message me just to ghost or block me! That behavior will NOT be TOLERATED!Think it through before you message me!! I don't want to get emotionally hurt again.*
If you're the type to be inpatient then don't bother messaging me! It's a waste of time if you do! Greetings future partner ❤️ I'm still searching for you. I have to be honest and say that I am losing hope trying to find you.Please be somewhere. I want my search for a partner to be over. I'm seeking adventure in my life with someone I can call a forever partner. I'm tired of the loneliness and the sheltered lifestyle that I've lived. It would mean a lot of you could read through this post so that I could make sure we are compatible. Even if we start off as friends that would be fine.
Here's to new beginnings and new connections.
PLEASE make sure you READ through the WHOLE POST also please be respectful when messaging me * *If you're the type to be impatient, block, or ghost easily, then save both of us the trouble and DO NOT message me! I'm not trying to come off as mean but I'd much rather you not message me if you're the type of person to do that. If something isn't working just let me know. We're all adults. Greetings, I am seeking a long term relationship monogamous with the end goal being matrimony. I am not one for playing around and being used casually as it doesn’t suit me personally. Ideally I'd prefer a man that has his life already in place so that I can be able to share life with him and for him to take care of me. I would expect my future man to have a financially stable job and be able to support me and our future family. I wouldn’t be opposed to being a housewife. There are few reasons why I would like to work or work part time: 1) Being abandoned with nothing, 2) I want to feel fulfilled and not bored. Happy to discuss possible dynamics, I'm flexible. I would love a synergistic partnership where we are both able to mold our minds and fill our hearts with warm affection. I will be there to support you throughout your journey and celebrate every moment with you. I want you to be proud of you just as you are with me. I want to show you that you are truly cared for and appreciated by gestures of love such as massages and other forms of entertainment. I would expect the same from you as well. Even if we are both working adults we can still make our relationship work in the best way possible. I have seen this come out well for people who are dedicated and willing to make their relationships work. For a strong relationship to occur I would expect effective (transparent) communication from you. If you are going to be busy just be honest and let me know you won’t be able to talk to me.Also, if you need your space both mentally and physically let me know. I understand that we all have our lives to attend to but it is incredibly important for people in a relationship to be transparent when circumstances arise in a timely manner in order to avoid future conflict. If this relationship isn’t going to work I would expect you to tell me and not ghost or block me before giving me a reason why. We are all adults so I would expect nothing but maturity. Starting out I don’t want the pressure of sex to be pushed onto me. I’d rather let time tell in all of its glory.
Now onto my true introduction
My name is Angie and I'm from Georgia in the United States. I've been lonely for quite some time and find it hard to find a soulmate in IRL. What I'm looking for is someone who I can connect with and have wholesome conversations with. I want to be able to treat my future soulmate well just as much as they do me. The biggest part of a long lasting relationship is the ability to communicate openly without worry. I'd love it if my significant other has a dark sense of humor and continues to crack me up non-stop. As cheesy as it may sound I long for those late night calls and cute texts. I want for us to drive out the very best in each other; become our support system. A little bit about me is that I grew up in Florida and not too long ago moved to Georgia. I'm currently in college to become an RN but I'm also passionate about cosmetic chemistry and nutrition so I may seek to build my own business in the future. I'm passionate about science and theoretical applications especially within the medical field. I'd appreciate it if my partner is open minded about varying topics and welcomes healthy conversations. Appearance wise I'm open to seeing if we have a connection and feel as long as you are well groomed and practice basic hygiene you are good. Although, I must say that attraction is key in a relationship so I will have to go off on that as well. To add on, I enjoy playing video games, exercising (I've been slacking off lately), cooking and baking (vegan), playing board games, reading, exploring nature, playing sports (basketball and soccer) for fun, and trying new experiences. I love heavy metal and rock music, but also listen to other genres too. I love RPGs, FPS, and simulation games. I hope to save up and travel someday. It would be nice for my partner to be able to set up our travel itinerary.
My Physical Description:
I am a black woman who’s twenty five years old (almost 26 in December) with Afro-Carribean, Japanese and Swedish ancestry. I’d still consider myself black presenting since that’s more along the lines of what I appear as phenotypically. I have dark brown curly hair (Mainly 3c type curls) and brown eyes. I am 5 '4 on the thicker spectrum (not at all obese but thick boned and have thunder thighs). I am trying to exercise more to become fit. I used to weight lift when I was younger but since then have lost lean muscle mass. Having a partner that is willing to work out together sometimes is rather rewarding. A man who has drive and appeal is incredibly sexy. I would also like to point out that I am curvy and noticeable in certain aspects (I’ll leave it up to you to decide).
*You have to be MINIMUM 21 to date me *
If distance is an issue and you aren't willing to commit then DON'T MESSAGE ME!! If you will be too busy to pursue a relationship then DO NOT contact me!! * *Again, No ghosters or blockers!! Seeking a person who seeks a relationship with God and/or is open to one MUST be free from venerial diseases (must be willing to get tested) Bonus points if you're vegan Ideally I would like someone that is taller than me (I’m 5’4) I prefer a man that is fit or trying to be. I'd prefer someone who is fiscally stable and able to support the both of us* A big red flag for me is smokers. It isn't good for your health nor is it sexy to me.* It's important for me to point out that I want children in the future and need someone who may want that as well. If you're interested in how I look and want to know more about me, message me. Although I don’t make it a huge deal, I do prefer White and East Asian men. But I do love all types of men and welcome them. As stated before I emphasize communication and would prefer you to be honest and say if something is wrong instead of ghosting or blocking without stating the reason. Fair warning if I can be socially awkward sometimes and don't know what to talk about so please be patient with me as I'm learning to be better conversation wise.
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2024.06.02 19:44 Brilliantmind1997 26 [F4M] Georgia,USA -Seeking a long term monogamous relationship (serious inquiries only)
Do Not message or add me just to unfriend me or ghost me. That will not be tolerated so DON'T WASTE MY TIME Greetings future partner ❤️ I'm still searching for you. I have to be honest and say that I am losing hope trying to find you.Please be somewhere. I want my search for a partner to be over. I'm seeking adventure in my life with someone I can call a forever partner. I'm tired of the loneliness and the sheltered lifestyle that I've lived. It would mean a lot of you could read through this post so that I could make sure we are compatible. Even if we start off as friends that would be fine.
Here's to new beginnings and new connections. PLEASE make sure you READ through the WHOLE POST also please be respectful when messaging me * *If you're the type to be impatient, block, or ghost easily, then save both of us the trouble and DO NOT message me! I'm not trying to come off as mean but I'd much rather you not message me if you're the type of person to do that. If something isn't working just let me know. We're all adults.
Greetings, I am seeking a long term relationship monogamous with the end goal being matrimony. I am not one for playing around and being used casually as it doesn’t suit me personally. Ideally I'd prefer a man that has his life already in place so that I can be able to share life with him and for him to take care of me. I would expect my future man to have a financially stable job and be able to support me and our future family. I wouldn’t be opposed to being a housewife. There are few reasons why I would like to work or work part time: 1) Being abandoned with nothing, 2) I want to feel fulfilled and not bored. Happy to discuss possible dynamics, I'm flexible. I would love a synergistic partnership where we are both able to mold our minds and fill our hearts with warm affection. I will be there to support you throughout your journey and celebrate every moment with you. I want you to be proud of you just as you are with me. I want to show you that you are truly cared for and appreciated by gestures of love such as massages and other forms of entertainment. I would expect the same from you as well. Even if we are both working adults we can still make our relationship work in the best way possible. I have seen this come out well for people who are dedicated and willing to make their relationships work. For a strong relationship to occur I would expect effective (transparent) communication from you. If you are going to be busy just be honest and let me know you won’t be able to talk to me.Also, if you need your space both mentally and physically let me know. I understand that we all have our lives to attend to but it is incredibly important for people in a relationship to be transparent when circumstances arise in a timely manner in order to avoid future conflict. If this relationship isn’t going to work I would expect you to tell me and not ghost or block me before giving me a reason why. We are all adults so I would expect nothing but maturity. Starting out I don’t want the pressure of sex to be pushed onto me. I’d rather let time tell in all of its glory.
Now onto my true introduction
My name is Angie and I'm from Georgia in the United States. I've been lonely for quite some time and find it hard to find a soulmate in IRL. What I'm looking for is someone who I can connect with and have wholesome conversations with. I want to be able to treat my future soulmate well just as much as they do me. The biggest part of a long lasting relationship is the ability to communicate openly without worry. I'd love it if my significant other has a dark sense of humor and continues to crack me up non-stop. As cheesy as it may sound I long for those late night calls and cute texts. I want for us to drive out the very best in each other; become our support system. A little bit about me is that I grew up in Florida and not too long ago moved to Georgia. I'm currently in college to become an RN but I'm also passionate about cosmetic chemistry and nutrition so I may seek to build my own business in the future. I'm passionate about science and theoretical applications especially within the medical field. I'd appreciate it if my partner is open minded about varying topics and welcomes healthy conversations. Appearance wise I'm open to seeing if we have a connection and feel as long as you are well groomed and practice basic hygiene you are good. Although, I must say that attraction is key in a relationship so I will have to go off on that as well. To add on, I enjoy playing video games, exercising (I've been slacking off lately), cooking and baking (vegan), playing board games, reading, exploring nature, playing sports (basketball and soccer) for fun, and trying new experiences. I hope to save up and travel someday. It would be nice for my partner to be able to set up our travel itinerary.
My Physical Description:
I am a black woman who’s twenty five years old (almost 26 in December) with Afro-Carribean, Japanese and Swedish ancestry. I’d still consider myself black presenting since that’s more along the lines of what I appear as phenotypically. I have dark brown curly hair (Mainly 3c type curls) and brown eyes. I am 5 '4 on the thicker spectrum (not at all obese but thick boned and have thunder thighs). I am trying to exercise more to become fit. I used to weight lift when I was younger but since then have lost lean muscle mass. Having a partner that is willing to work out together sometimes is rather rewarding. A man who has drive and appeal is incredibly sexy. I would also like to point out that I am curvy and noticeable in certain aspects (I’ll leave it up to you to decide).
*You have to be MINIMUM 21 to date me *
If distance will be a problem and you aren't willing to make it work then DON'T MESSAGE ME!!
If you will be too busy to pursue a relationship then DO NOT contact me!! * *Again, No ghosters or blockers!! Seeking a person who seeks a relationship with God and/or is open to one Must be free from venerial diseases and must be willing to get tested(will discuss) Bonus points if you're vegan Ideally I would like someone that is taller than me (I’m 5’4) I prefer a man that is fit or trying to be. I'd prefer someone who is fiscally stable and able to support the both of us* A big red flag for me is smokers. It isn't good for your health nor is it sexy to me.* It's important for me to point out that I want children in the future and need someone who may want that as well. If you're interested in how I look and want to know more about me, message me. Although I don’t make it a huge deal, I do prefer White and East Asian men. But I do love all types of men and welcome them. As stated before I emphasize communication and would prefer you to be honest and say if something is wrong instead of ghosting or blocking without stating the reason. Fair warning if I can be socially awkward sometimes and don't know what to talk about so please be patient with me as I'm learning to be better conversation wise
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2024.06.02 19:07 DisastrousPin4893 I had an “experience”
this is a forwarded story with minor adjustments to keep it SFW
It was graduation day, i wasnt feeling extremely amazing, not because school was about to end but because i had done almost nothing in perspective of college. I was bored from the speeches and went to the boys bathroom and what i saw effed me up. I saw the captain of the swim team changing his shirt and saw him topless. I dont know why but i think about that moment everyday. What should i do?
any suggestions or advice will be appreciated as it will be forwarded
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2024.06.02 18:32 Additional-Bug-5939 WIBTAH for asking if my 345 lb boyfriend's tiredness could be related to his weight?
I have an online boyfriend whom I've been talking to for over two years. He messaged me first, and it took off from there. A month ago he said he thinks we're fine the way we are, I live on the other side of the world and travelling seems like a lot to him right now and him travelling in the future isn't that likely. He's a plump person, and he was working part time when he first began speaking to me. He seemed a lot more lively back then, both on his Reddit account and on online chats. He gradually became less and less active, and now it's gotten to the point where he is often too tired to talk, or even post on his Reddit account. Even when he has a week off work, he doesn't seem interested in talking or posting on Reddit, and says he feels tired one way or another. He's been working full time for a while, plus he had college on top of this too.
Pretty often he'll go two or three days without talking and he warns me that he's going to feel too exhausted to talk after work. He usually works from five am till around one pm, but even on days where he works from nine till five he's exhausted. I dunno if this is normal or not, I just read a news article saying that being overweight can make you feel tired all the time, and I love him, so I really just want what's best for him..wibta for suggesting this could be to do with his weight, not just his work hours? Early on he told me that his weight is genetic because he eats less than his brothers but they're skinny, even though he's taller than both of them. His brothers are both skinny while he's been chubby since he was a teenager. Early on I asked him if he tried losing weight and he said not really, since he's not having any health problems due to his weight. He's five foot eleven and 24. He works a quote, mind numbingly boring job that involves making and wrapping tortillas. When I ask him when his next free day is, he'll often respond with, when I'm dead. I've asked him at least twice these past couple months if there's anything he wants to talk about but he says he's fine. Sometimes I feel like I'm having to carry the conversation, he'll give replies that are a few words, and he just doesn't seem as lively as he used to be. I've seen recent photos of him and he does look tired, with bags under his eyes that weren't there when I first met him. His weight looks like it's stayed the same in the two years we've been talking.
He knows he's fat, he's even called himself that. I actually have a preference towards bigger people but if it is starting to affect his health, I don't want him to be unhealthy.
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2024.06.02 18:27 Some-Statistician114 WIBTA for asking if my 345 lb boyfriend's tiredness could be related to his weight?
I have an online boyfriend whom I've been talking to for over two years. He messaged me first, and it took off from there. A month ago he said he thinks we're fine the way we are, I live on the other side of the world and travelling seems like a lot to him right now and him travelling in the future isn't that likely. He's a plump person, and he was working part time when he first began speaking to me. He seemed a lot more lively back then, both on his Reddit account and on online chats. He gradually became less and less active, and now it's gotten to the point where he is often too tired to talk, or even post on his Reddit account. Even when he has a week off work, he doesn't seem interested in talking or posting on Reddit, and says he feels tired one way or another. He's been working full time for a while, plus he had college on top of this too.
Pretty often he'll go two or three days without talking and he warns me that he's going to feel too exhausted to talk after work. He usually works from five am till around one pm, but even on days where he works from nine till five he's exhausted. I dunno if this is normal or not, I just read a news article saying that being overweight can make you feel tired all the time, and I love him, so I really just want what's best for him..wibta for suggesting this could be to do with his weight, not just his work hours? Early on he told me that his weight is genetic because he eats less than his brothers but they're skinny, even though he's taller than both of them. His brothers are both skinny while he's been chubby since he was a teenager. Early on I asked him if he tried losing weight and he said not really, since he's not having any health problems due to his weight. He's five foot eleven and 24. He works a quote, mind numbingly boring job that involves making and wrapping tortillas. When I ask him when his next free day is, he'll often respond with, when I'm dead. I've asked him at least twice these past couple months if there's anything he wants to talk about but he says he's fine. Sometimes I feel like I'm having to carry the conversation, he'll give replies that are a few words, and he just doesn't seem as lively as he used to be. I've seen recent photos of him and he does look tired, with bags under his eyes that weren't there when I first met him. His weight looks like it's stayed the same in the two years we've been talking.
He knows he's fat, he's even called himself that. I actually have a preference towards bigger people but if it is starting to affect his health, I don't want him to be unhealthy.
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2024.06.02 18:16 JohnBierce Writing Advice: Economic Progression Fantasy
Progression Fantasy is still a very young subgenre, so I think it fair to forgive it a few growing pains, but...
It's got an economics problem. A real economics problem.
Namely: While there have been quite a few attempts at writing economic progression fantasy, where the MC progresses not just in personal power, but in economic strength (wealth, etc)- remarkably few of them impress me. In fact, the only one that I will outright declare a win is Kyle Kirrin's Shadeslinger. (Which, I should note, is not an attempt to build a functioning "real" economy, but instead to build a functioning videogame economy- a challenging task of its own, and one Kirrin does fantastic at for the purposes of his narrative.) (Also Frank is the best, long live Frank.)
Now, I've hardly exhausted the whole of economic progression fantasy, there's tons of examples I haven't read- but the failed attempts I have read, numbering quite a few, tend to have some fairly similar failure states. (I won't name any of them- I don't generally like speaking ill of other living authors' works,just their politics.)
This is of especial interest to me because I'm literally in the midst of writing an economic progression fantasy. I enjoy reading and writing this stuff! (Though, I should be clear, my upcoming series does not have a commerce-based progression plot- rather, it has a magic system deeply integrated into its economy. Also, it's socialist sword and sorcery.)
So here's a non-exhaustive list of failure states for writing economic progression fantasy, and tips for writing good economic progression fantasy/litrpg. And, while I'm very much a socialist and anti-capitalist, this advice is intended to be useful to anyone writing economic PF, regardless if they share my political and economic leanings. (Though I'm still gonna trash-talk capitalism a bunch lol.) And remember: I call them pitfalls, not rules, because these are not things you're forbidden to do, these are things that are
harder to do.
Pitfalls: - Trying to write the protagonist's organization like a startup, the whole series: Startups can only behave like startups while they're small. Once a company gets big, attempts to continue functioning like a startup will just make the whole thing crash and burn. When you're small, just going "oh, Richard down the hall knows how to fix that" works fine. Once an organization grows in size, Richard down the hall cannot fix the issue for hundreds or thousands of people- there need to be standards and practices in place. And unfortunately, the transition between small agile startup and robust, reliable large business is a REALLY tough one to navigate, and is a spot where corporations frequently fail. This difficulty unfortunately extends to writing about the transition as well- something not helped by an absolutely ridiculous culture of praising startup values at levels ranging from the large mature corporations to schools to national governments! (I blame the VC industry for this silliness- they were largely responsible for an ecosystem where startups could wholly concern themselves with making themselves look good for potential buyers among the large tech firms, rather than care about profitability in any way, shape, or form. This silliness then spread, and... ugh, don't get me on a rant about VCs, it's a stupid industry full of stupid investors who are investing other people's money (often from pension funds) and getting disproportionate rewards on their rare few wins, while being sheltered from their losses, all while ignoring actual due diligence.)
- Trying to write capitalism into a pseudomedieval setting: Medieval Europe was not capitalist, full stop. It was a feudal economy with its own distinct economic systems, often of shocking complexity and international scope. Do you need an accurate medieval economy in your progression fantasy? Probably not, it would be a lot of work to adequately explain it to your readers while logically modifying it to the demands of your magic system. At the same time, however, importing capitalism is a much more demanding challenge, because it relies on certain technologies and social structures that tend to be absent from pseudomedieval fantasy. (I'm importing capitalism into my current pseudomedieval work, but I'm doing it purposefully, and knowing what I'm doing, with a strong (at least for a layman) understanding of both capitalism and medieval economies.
- Mistaking commerce for capitalism: When you go to the corner shop and buy a soda, you're not engaging in capitalism, you're engaging in commerce. In fact, most of use do not actively engage in capitalism in our day to day, though we often act as cogs in it. When I write a book, it's not capitalism, it's labor. When I buy lunch, it's not capitalism, it's commerce. Defining capitalism positively is a trickier endeavor, but generally speaking, you can see it as leveraging capital- high value goods that amplify labor value, like industrial machinery, real estate, or some intellectual property.
- Going too fast in the late stages: Lotta economic PF and LitRPG picks up the pace of economic growth after a slow initial start, which... just doesn't feel right. Large scale expansion is difficult and slow in the real world, and is a much different challenge than the early stages.
- Insufficient delegation: A PF MC that doesn't delegate in their economic organization as it gets large is gonna fail hard, and if they don't and somehow still succeed, it's not gonna read right to readers familiar with economics or the function of large firms.
- Treating economic systems as too stable, especially capitalism: Economic systems screw up on the REGULAR, almost regardless of system. Having an economic system that's just been stable for centuries (hell, for decades) is deeply unrealistic. (Capitalism is especially prone to this, love it or hate it. (You should hate it.) Both socialist and capitalist analyses of capitalism tend to center on crises of capitalism, for good reason. Keynsian economics (or as left and right wingers alike enjoy calling it, for different reasons, Socialism Lite), is almost entirely built around strategies for avoiding, minimizing, and recovering from crises of capitalism.)
- Falling for the Tragedy of the Commons: Look, coordination problems are damn tricky, and a lot of communities have failed at commons management. It's a real challenge with real failure states! But the Tragedy of the Commons in its modern form? Was completely non-empirical, just a bullshit thought experiment white nationalist Garret Hardin made up to advocate for eugenics. There are PLENTY of clever ways small communities manage to share common resources- in fact, this was basically how medieval economics worked! Villages shared most of their grazing land and much of their agricultural land, and had shared common coppicing rights in local forests. (With variances for region and feudal system.) The lords were very seldom managing peasants in their fields. (Why would they want to?) If you want to deep-dive into how small to mid-sized communities can safely manage their economic commons, I highly recommend Elinor Ostrom's Nobel-winning book (For Nobel in Economics values of Nobel) Governing the Commons.
- Power scaling wrong: Wealth is power. Any power you give a character in progression fantasy? You gotta take into account when giving them challenges, so you have them at the power level you want them. Lotta folks slip on this one.
- Having protagonists make money too easily: A lot of protagonists- especially isekai protagonists- just wander into a pseudomedieval society with an absolutely bottom shelf business idea and get filthy rich with it, to the point where it's kind of absurd how easy it is for them. You really think none of the locals wouldn't have thought of that? Avoid low-hanging branches, folks. (I'm reminded of a scene from the terrible 2001 move Black Knight, where Martin Lawrence tries to fend off his execution by showing a medieval crowd a lighter. "I make fire!" To which a bored peasant replies "We have fire.") Many technologies that would be nominally feasible for pseudomedieval societies would fail due to lack of support infrastructure- semaphore towers, for instance, would have been technologically feasible all the way back in the Roman Empire, but their optics technology sucked- without spyglasses, they would have had to place the towers way too close together, making semaphores economically unfeasible.
- Having the protagonist become filthy rich without changing their role in society: Large amounts of money warp the hell out of social relations around people, in quite a few ways.
- Making your currency system too clean and neat. A pseudomedieval currency with fixed decimal
- Falling for "one neat trick": Pretty much ANY time someone advocates for a single cure for all economic ills, it's... probably bullshit. "Going back to the gold standard will fix all our problems!" "Giving control of the economy to genius CEOs will fix all our problems!" "Executing all landlords will fix all our problems!" "Lower all taxes and corporations will flood to the state of Kansas despite Kansas sucking!" It... never really works out. (Though persecuting landlords is super tempting, ngl.) That said, if instead someone is advocating for a single solution not as a "fix all problems" sort of thing, but as a "this will massively improve a lot of different problems" sort of proposal, it's okay to be more open minded and offer their arguments more time and brain space. (For instance, Thomas Piketty's advocacy for a return to powerful progressive income taxes in Capital in the 21st Century? He doesn't present it as a cure-all, but rather as a difficult to implement policy that would have significant impacts on wealth inequality, and offers an extreme degree of evidence. Agree or disagree with him, he's certainly not trying the "one weird trick" approach. (Though I should note that it's hard to disagree with the sheer scale of his evidence.)
- Trying to to design an economy based off a niche economic theory, like Georgism, for your PF world without sitting down and doing your research first: Really do your best to understand how it could go well, disastrously, or weirdly. It could work out fine, even great, in some situations- a PF system where magic power is based off magical "ownership" of land that supplies the owner with mana, for instance, could integrate well with Georgism, but you've really got to know what you're doing to stick the landing. (This sort of speculative worldbuilding is the one time you shouldn't bully Georgists. They're just so... bullyable.)
- Treating humans as rational economic actors: Bad idea. Humans are irrational as hell, lol.
- Basing literally any of your ideas off those of Ayn Rand: lol. lmao.
Tips: - If you promise economic fantasy, deliver economic fantasy! Same thing as any other narrative promise- you don't keep it, your readers will feel betrayed.
- It's okay to create the illusion of an economy! Seriously! You don't need to plot out an elaborate economic system, you can just leave hints and clues that let the reader puzzle it out to the degree they wish. Just keep what hints you do describe logically consistent and well thought out! Like: What products can be found at the market? How far away do they come from? Is bargaining common, or are there consistent prices? Do consistent weights and measures exist, or is that always a source of frustration for folks? Are taxes in coinage, in product/produce? And if they're in the latter, is it a percent tax (one third your wheat crop!) requiring expensive monitoring and enforcement, or is it a flat rate (two bushels an acre!) that can punish farmers for bad crops but is much cheaper?
- Don't necessarily try to make your MC the leader of a large firm! You can, it can be fun, but there are plenty of other, often easier and more satisfying, paths to writing economic fantasy! Like, how does someone in the middle of a democratic revolution against a magical monarchy experience the economic shifts?
- Remember: a government's ability to control an economy, to whatever degree, is strictly limited by the amount of information they have about that economy! Legibility is power!
- Read quality economic fantasy outside PF and LitRPG. J. Zachary Pike's Orconomics, Seth Dickinson's Masquerade series, etc, etc.
- Read more about actual economics. Basic economics texts are great here!
- Then read a bunch of stuff critical of basic economics, because economics as a science is full of crap. For instance, there's STILL folks teaching that coinage and commerce arose out of barter, despite the fact that evidence of barter has never shown up in a pre-coinage society! Pre-coinage societies almost universally use complex social credit and debt systems. (Read David Graeber's Debt: The First 5000 Years for more on this. Fantastic book, has inspired quite a bit of SF/F.)
- If you stumble across a disagreement between theoretical economics and empirical economics, side with the empiricists! If theory disagrees with reality, theory needs to be the one to bend. (In general, empirical economists are just in a whole different league.)
- If you stumble across a disagreement between economics and anthropology, or economics and history, or economics and literally ANY other science... probably side with the other science. Economics is in a fairly rough state these days, folks, for... long, complicated reasons ranging from philosophy of science issues to good old fashioned corruption.
- And, ABOVE ALL ELSE: Spend the time to figure out HOW your progression system will affect the economy! Doesn't need to be perfect, but you need to consider how magic will affect things like: Food production, shipping and logistics, crop yield, bank vault security, counterfeiting (illusion magic's impact on the economy? Potentially huge!), healthcare quality and access, public heath measures (even more important than healthcare!), the presence or absence of insurance industries, how the use of various materials like gemstones as magic components would affect their price, magic's impact on ursury/credit, its impact on contract enforcement (if tracking magic is stronger than concealment magic, it gets a lot harder to renege on a debt, and vice versa), its impact on capital accumulation, its impact on precious metal supply (divination magic or transmutation magic could absolutely flood the market for gold and or silver, crashing its price!), and much much more! You don't need to answer all of these specific questions- rather, you just need to give the reader confidence that YOU have spent time considering how inhabitants of your world would try to make a living with magic.
Again, this isn't meant to be an exhaustive list! It's just a few pitfalls and tips, in no particularly coherent order. If you want to write really good economic fantasy, of any subgenre, you need to do your groundwork, do your research, and be ready to stress test the hell out of your worldbuilding.
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2024.06.02 18:03 Pristine_Tell_2450 My problems are way to many. I want to fix them. Any tips for what am going through?
Self esteem, self confidence, social skills, codependency, people pleasing, chasing other's approval, validation, attention, idk how to make friends, i feel like i have a boring personality, feel like no one cares about me or likes me, i base my self worth on external factors. Like how many friends i have or conversations i have or how many girls are interested in me which are none, and this makes me feel worthless or not good enough or feel like i have nothing to offer. Or what im offering isn't valueable.
I think i have value, i just dont know how to connect to others. And i want to stop using people just to get approval validation or attention so i "feel good enough" i know they arent made so they can make me feel better about myself.
Also my negative thoughts probably affect this. Feeling unlikeable, unlovable, uniteresting, this leads to me trying to prove myself to others which doesn't lead to meaningful conversations or relationships and this leads to self hate and thinking something is wrong with me, or that im worthless just because i dont have "friends, gf"
Often my relationships/friendships are one sided, and this sucks. I know its my problem since its like this with most people. Maybe what am offering isnt what they want. I know people just care about what they want. Maybe i try to be what i think "they want" this is probably why i was a "fake nice guy" trying everything to get others to like me. This made me to not have my own personality, like a chameleon being whatever others want, or like an invisible servant who one one cares about or likes or remembers or values
I know i need to stop chaisng external validation and focus on internal validation. I know i need to stop viewing getting "friends" as a goal or ultimate need. I know even if i got those it would be short term gratification. Because i was just interested in getting their "validation, approval, attention" to prove to myself that im "cool, funny, interesting, valueable, good enough" and wasn't actually interested in getting to know them.
I want to build my own personality, i want to stop acting like a clown where i try to put up a performance for others so they "like me", but i also dont want to be boring, i know no one wants a friend thats boring or doesn't provide any positive value.
I want friends where i dont have to chase and its a two way friendship, not always me "doing the chasing"
I want to focus on these, i feel like i need to improve on these areas
Self esteem
Social skills
Stop being boring and invisible
Stop chasing people and stop people pleasing
My Values
Focusing on my hobbies and interests and passions
I want to take action, i want to improve. I want to stop wasting time planning things and storing knowledge and actually take action on the advice i have gotten and make a change.
Im 22M, 2 years in college and still dont have friends I know i need to stop trying to prove myself by getting external things
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2024.06.02 18:03 Pristine_Tell_2450 My problems are way to many. I want to fix them. Any tips for what am going through?
Self esteem, self confidence, social skills, codependency, people pleasing, chasing other's approval, validation, attention, idk how to make friends, i feel like i have a boring personality, feel like no one cares about me or likes me, i base my self worth on external factors. Like how many friends i have or conversations i have or how many girls are interested in me which are none, and this makes me feel worthless or not good enough or feel like i have nothing to offer. Or what im offering isn't valueable.
I think i have value, i just dont know how to connect to others. And i want to stop using people just to get approval validation or attention so i "feel good enough" i know they arent made so they can make me feel better about myself.
Also my negative thoughts probably affect this. Feeling unlikeable, unlovable, uniteresting, this leads to me trying to prove myself to others which doesn't lead to meaningful conversations or relationships and this leads to self hate and thinking something is wrong with me, or that im worthless just because i dont have "friends, gf"
Often my relationships/friendships are one sided, and this sucks. I know its my problem since its like this with most people. Maybe what am offering isnt what they want. I know people just care about what they want. Maybe i try to be what i think "they want" this is probably why i was a "fake nice guy" trying everything to get others to like me. This made me to not have my own personality, like a chameleon being whatever others want, or like an invisible servant who one one cares about or likes or remembers or values
I know i need to stop chaisng external validation and focus on internal validation. I know i need to stop viewing getting "friends" as a goal or ultimate need. I know even if i got those it would be short term gratification. Because i was just interested in getting their "validation, approval, attention" to prove to myself that im "cool, funny, interesting, valueable, good enough" and wasn't actually interested in getting to know them.
I want to build my own personality, i want to stop acting like a clown where i try to put up a performance for others so they "like me", but i also dont want to be boring, i know no one wants a friend thats boring or doesn't provide any positive value.
I want friends where i dont have to chase and its a two way friendship, not always me "doing the chasing"
I want to focus on these, i feel like i need to improve on these areas
Self esteem
Social skills
Stop being boring and invisible
Stop chasing people and stop people pleasing
My Values
Focusing on my hobbies and interests and passions
I want to take action, i want to improve. I want to stop wasting time planning things and storing knowledge and actually take action on the advice i have gotten and make a change.
Im 22M, 2 years in college and still dont have friends I know i need to stop trying to prove myself by getting external things
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2024.06.02 18:01 Pristine_Tell_2450 My problems are way to many. I want to fix them. Any tips for what am going through?
Self esteem, self confidence, social skills, codependency, people pleasing, chasing other's approval, validation, attention, idk how to make friends, i feel like i have a boring personality, feel like no one cares about me or likes me, i base my self worth on external factors. Like how many friends i have or conversations i have or how many girls are interested in me which are none, and this makes me feel worthless or not good enough or feel like i have nothing to offer. Or what im offering isn't valueable.
I think i have value, i just dont know how to connect to others. And i want to stop using people just to get approval validation or attention so i "feel good enough" i know they arent made so they can make me feel better about myself.
Also my negative thoughts probably affect this. Feeling unlikeable, unlovable, uniteresting, this leads to me trying to prove myself to others which doesn't lead to meaningful conversations or relationships and this leads to self hate and thinking something is wrong with me, or that im worthless just because i dont have "friends, gf"
Often my relationships/friendships are one sided, and this sucks. I know its my problem since its like this with most people. Maybe what am offering isnt what they want. I know people just care about what they want. Maybe i try to be what i think "they want" this is probably why i was a "fake nice guy" trying everything to get others to like me. This made me to not have my own personality, like a chameleon being whatever others want, or like an invisible servant who one one cares about or likes or remembers or values
I know i need to stop chaisng external validation and focus on internal validation. I know i need to stop viewing getting "friends" as a goal or ultimate need. I know even if i got those it would be short term gratification. Because i was just interested in getting their "validation, approval, attention" to prove to myself that im "cool, funny, interesting, valueable, good enough" and wasn't actually interested in getting to know them.
I want to build my own personality, i want to stop acting like a clown where i try to put up a performance for others so they "like me", but i also dont want to be boring, i know no one wants a friend thats boring or doesn't provide any positive value.
I want friends where i dont have to chase and its a two way friendship, not always me "doing the chasing"
I want to focus on these, i feel like i need to improve on these areas
Self esteem
Social skills
Stop being boring and invisible
Stop chasing people and stop people pleasing
My Values
Focusing on my hobbies and interests and passions
I want to take action, i want to improve. I want to stop wasting time planning things and storing knowledge and actually take action on the advice i have gotten and make a change.
Im 22M, 2 years in college and still dont have friends I know i need to stop trying to prove myself by getting external things
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2024.06.02 18:00 Pristine_Tell_2450 My problems are way to many. I want to fix them. Any tips for what am going through?
Self esteem, self confidence, social skills, codependency, people pleasing, chasing other's approval, validation, attention, idk how to make friends, i feel like i have a boring personality, feel like no one cares about me or likes me, i base my self worth on external factors. Like how many friends i have or conversations i have or how many girls are interested in me which are none, and this makes me feel worthless or not good enough or feel like i have nothing to offer. Or what im offering isn't valueable.
I think i have value, i just dont know how to connect to others. And i want to stop using people just to get approval validation or attention so i "feel good enough" i know they arent made so they can make me feel better about myself.
Also my negative thoughts probably affect this. Feeling unlikeable, unlovable, uniteresting, this leads to me trying to prove myself to others which doesn't lead to meaningful conversations or relationships and this leads to self hate and thinking something is wrong with me, or that im worthless just because i dont have "friends, gf"
Often my relationships/friendships are one sided, and this sucks. I know its my problem since its like this with most people. Maybe what am offering isnt what they want. I know people just care about what they want. Maybe i try to be what i think "they want" this is probably why i was a "fake nice guy" trying everything to get others to like me. This made me to not have my own personality, like a chameleon being whatever others want, or like an invisible servant who one one cares about or likes or remembers or values
I know i need to stop chaisng external validation and focus on internal validation. I know i need to stop viewing getting "friends" as a goal or ultimate need. I know even if i got those it would be short term gratification. Because i was just interested in getting their "validation, approval, attention" to prove to myself that im "cool, funny, interesting, valueable, good enough" and wasn't actually interested in getting to know them.
I want to build my own personality, i want to stop acting like a clown where i try to put up a performance for others so they "like me", but i also dont want to be boring, i know no one wants a friend thats boring or doesn't provide any positive value.
I want friends where i dont have to chase and its a two way friendship, not always me "doing the chasing"
I want to focus on these, i feel like i need to improve on these areas
Self esteem
Social skills
Stop being boring and invisible
Stop chasing people and stop people pleasing
My Values
Focusing on my hobbies and interests and passions
I want to take action, i want to improve. I want to stop wasting time planning things and storing knowledge and actually take action on the advice i have gotten and make a change.
Im 22M, 2 years in college and still dont have friends I know i need to stop trying to prove myself by getting external things
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2024.06.02 17:59 Pristine_Tell_2450 My problems are way to many. I want to fix them. Any tips for what am going through?
Self esteem, self confidence, social skills, codependency, people pleasing, chasing other's approval, validation, attention, idk how to make friends, i feel like i have a boring personality, feel like no one cares about me or likes me, i base my self worth on external factors. Like how many friends i have or conversations i have or how many girls are interested in me which are none, and this makes me feel worthless or not good enough or feel like i have nothing to offer. Or what im offering isn't valueable.
I think i have value, i just dont know how to connect to others. And i want to stop using people just to get approval validation or attention so i "feel good enough" i know they arent made so they can make me feel better about myself.
Also my negative thoughts probably affect this. Feeling unlikeable, unlovable, uniteresting, this leads to me trying to prove myself to others which doesn't lead to meaningful conversations or relationships and this leads to self hate and thinking something is wrong with me, or that im worthless just because i dont have "friends, gf"
Often my relationships/friendships are one sided, and this sucks. I know its my problem since its like this with most people. Maybe what am offering isnt what they want. I know people just care about what they want. Maybe i try to be what i think "they want" this is probably why i was a "fake nice guy" trying everything to get others to like me. This made me to not have my own personality, like a chameleon being whatever others want, or like an invisible servant who one one cares about or likes or remembers or values
I know i need to stop chaisng external validation and focus on internal validation. I know i need to stop viewing getting "friends" as a goal or ultimate need. I know even if i got those it would be short term gratification. Because i was just interested in getting their "validation, approval, attention" to prove to myself that im "cool, funny, interesting, valueable, good enough" and wasn't actually interested in getting to know them.
I want to build my own personality, i want to stop acting like a clown where i try to put up a performance for others so they "like me", but i also dont want to be boring, i know no one wants a friend thats boring or doesn't provide any positive value.
I want friends where i dont have to chase and its a two way friendship, not always me "doing the chasing"
I want to focus on these, i feel like i need to improve on these areas
Self esteem
Social skills
Stop being boring and invisible
Stop chasing people and stop people pleasing
My Values
Focusing on my hobbies and interests and passions
I want to take action, i want to improve. I want to stop wasting time planning things and storing knowledge and actually take action on the advice i have gotten and make a change.
Im 22M, 2 years in college and still dont have friends I know i need to stop trying to prove myself by getting external things
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2024.06.02 17:58 Pristine_Tell_2450 My problems are way to many. I want to fix them. Any tips for what am going through?
Self esteem, self confidence, social skills, codependency, people pleasing, chasing other's approval, validation, attention, idk how to make friends, i feel like i have a boring personality, feel like no one cares about me or likes me, i base my self worth on external factors. Like how many friends i have or conversations i have or how many girls are interested in me which are none, and this makes me feel worthless or not good enough or feel like i have nothing to offer. Or what im offering isn't valueable.
I think i have value, i just dont know how to connect to others. And i want to stop using people just to get approval validation or attention so i "feel good enough" i know they arent made so they can make me feel better about myself.
Also my negative thoughts probably affect this. Feeling unlikeable, unlovable, uniteresting, this leads to me trying to prove myself to others which doesn't lead to meaningful conversations and this leads to self hate and thinking something is wrong with me, or that im worthless just because i dont have "friends"
Often my relationships/friendships are one sided, and this sucks. I know its my problem since its like this with most people. Maybe what am offering isnt what they want. I know people just care about what they want. Maybe i try to be what i think "they want" this is probably why i was a "fake nice guy" trying everything to get others to like me. This made me to not have my own personality, like a chameleon being whatever others want, or like an invisible servant who one one cares about or likes or remembers or values
I know i need to stop chaisng external validation and focus on internal validation. I know i need to stop viewing getting "friends" as a goal or ultimate need. I know even if i got those it would be short term gratification. Because i was just interested in getting their "validation, approval, attention" to prove to myself that im "cool, funny, interesting, valueable, good enough" and wasn't actually interested in getting to know them.
I want to build my own personality, i want to stop acting like a clown where i try to put up a performance for others so they "like me", but i also dont want to be boring, i know no one wants a friend thats boring or doesn't provide any value.
I want friends where i dont have to chase and its a two way friendship, not always me "doing the chasing"
I want to focus on these, i feel like i need to improve on these areas
Self esteem
Social skills
Stop being boring and invisible
Stop chasing people and stop people pleasing
My Values
Focusing on my hobbies and interests and passions
I want to take action, i want to improve. I want to stop wasting time planning things and storing knowledge and actually take action on the advice i have gotten and make a change.
Im 22M, 2 years in college and still dont have friends I know i need to stop trying to prove myself by getting external things
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2024.06.02 17:27 Xxminiman115xX Air Force Veteran Starts to Realize How He Can't Force Things From THE CLEANER
| https://preview.redd.it/8ehcq8iba64d1.png?width=1279&format=png&auto=webp&s=48b59c538c6c816b987ac411dbdca3dd419d8ae2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gHPEaf8IwDw LINK TO THE STREAM OF ME KICKING MY DEPRESSIONS ASS Okay, Hello again I hope nobody minds me putting these little updates but this game is starting to make me realize things about myself and change my perspective on life, and I'd like to share that. When I started this almost a week ago I honestly thought I was going to give up the first day. I have felt pretty numb for awhile and video games, my motivation for college, to go to the doctor etc. was low and I had a whole month where I just slept until 5pm because I wanted to avoid that another day came. I was scared to face tomorrow because I was tired of the hand that life had dealt me and I just wanted to put the littlest amount of effort into everything ,but my dogs regardless of how sad you are you have to take care of your animals. I didn't think I could learn to have that fire again to make me think I could be anything. Then I died against the first boss and said no I almost first tried that I got this. Then I killed that ugly ass pelican ship thing, then 6 hours later I was cutting through Beletrus. I started having the tiniest bit of confidence again, and I got up at 8am. I've gotten up almost everyday this week in the morning and I have been productive. Instead of feeling overwhelmed by the challenges of tomorrow I am excited to conquer them! I dont think I would be doing this without this game. Dying and not giving in and not giving up in the game is helping me not want to unalive myself anymore and I believe I can start to get better as long as I DONT GIVE UP. Then the Cleaner happened. It wasn't really a hard fight I might've been stuck for thirty minutes ish but not because of bad game design or the boss was too hard. No, I WAS THE PROBLEM. My buddy turned on the stream and instantly was like "why are you just hitting him straight on why don't you look for the weak point?" And Damn did I laugh at myself. I spent the whole fight CHARGING ahead because of 1 overconfidence and 2 I was impatient and trying to force the win so I could end stream and spend time with my Fiance. I WAS TRYING TO FORCE IT. I focused on that in my head because as u/Armored_Souls put it "How you do one thing is how you do everything." I can't tell you how many things I have tried to force to work and tortured myself over because I was trying to control things I had No control over. Instead of rushing and trying to force things I NEED TO BE PATIENT AND OBSERVE and make a plan. I can't just rush and buy something I should wait a few days and see if I REALLLLY need it. Don't try to Force a relationship when both people want different things in life. I can go on and on but the TLDR of this is Fighting the Cleaner and realizing I could easily kill him If i had just stopped attacking and looked at him for more then two seconds while I flew ahead firing a mini-gun. I need to be patient and look for more weak points in life so I can make things a bit easier on myself. Get those free reward apps you go to dunkin or your grocer store or whatever and its free stuff you'll eventually get. Shop around online and look for sales. Learn skills that will make life easier even if its boring. Anyways, I love this game I'm streaming a bit this morning if anyone wants to watch me battle my spicy sad in my armored core. submitted by Xxminiman115xX to armoredcore [link] [comments] |
2024.06.02 16:56 Warm_Finding_6745 bading na walang social life
so helo, ako ulit. rant lang ako saglet (minsan lang to) so ayun. I don't know ha if ako lang to but, medyo boring din ba lives niyo?? like I'm not joking and I'm not here to ask forb sympathy kasi I'm a fun person naman to be with and I don't keep myself stagnant- I have hobbies and travel 'pag may time and money. kanina nga we attended the funeral ng relative namin, and it was also my time to travel na rin sa small city malapit dito samin kasi nga lagi lang ako nasa bahay these days, or kaya dun sa isa naming house (but like di ako magala pag nasa province ako ih); also valid naman kasi I have reached the age where minsan nalang or halos wala talagang may nag-aaya lumabas (huhu). anyways, my point is, is your lives mundane like mine? like, are there times din ba na halos wala kayong ka chat? wala masyadong kaibigan na nag-aaya lumabas. walang ganap ganun. Ang frustrating kasi minsan. single na nga ako, 'yung friends ko hindi pa 'yung tipong friends na nag-aaya. like, introvert kami lahat (I mean to an extent). kapag walang nag-aaya wala 'ding ganap. siguro isang reason din kung bakit ganun is magkalayo mga bahay namin (like isang baranggay ang pagitan)
ang boring kasi ng life recently. wala akong ka m.u, walang ganap, walang lahat. minsan lang din gumala, and wala pang may nag-aaya. walang friends ganun. and before you say na "maghanap ka kasi ng work" ganun, I actually have a list of works that I have already applied to and I'm just waiting for a callback (paunahan ganun) tsaka kakatapos ko nga lang work last May 13th so yeah. I mean bawi ko na rin to sa self ko kasi I worked agad after college (para ma distract self ko ganun)
pero yeah, life's boring and mundane. gusto kong lumandi kaso parang di pa ako physically, mentally and emotionally ready to do so. I jogged nga kanina mga around 5:00 pm kasi Sunday and na realize ko na okay lang naman ako mag-isa, ang 'di kolang keri minsan ay yung thoughts na "I could be living the best life right now- partying, meeting new people, having fun, going out; pero why is my life like this? ang plain... ang mundane"
don't get me wrong ha, I love my life. Sometimes, it just aches me to think na what if I have lived a different life? what if di ako na heartbroken that bad around this time last year? is there an alternate universe where I am living my best life? if there is one, then I'm happy for the me in that universe.
TLDR: rants of a 23-year old gay kid na walang social life :))
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2024.06.02 16:48 urguyryry Life side quests?
I'm getting bored. I love learning but sometimes that can be expensive. What are some sidequests you have done in life ? Does NOT have to be super serious or have to deal with what you actually do in life. I have a college degree, but that's not what I'm talking about. Some sidequests I have done is... getting my CDL with a passenger endorsement(i dont own a bus), getting my M1 endorsement, boating license( I don't own a boat) getting ordained, became a twich affiliate (not active anymore ) cpr certified lol.. im in construction sales.. these things do not benefit my work life. It's just a fun side quest. What's your "oh that's cool you did that "
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2024.06.02 16:36 SilverRoutine9695 Losing my relationships
For context I 23F have 2 sisters 21F and 19F, we’ve been very close my whole life. I stayed living with them at my parents house through college because of covid and honestly I’m from la and it was just too expensive to move out at the time. I decided to move to NY for a couple of years to try something new and my relationship with my family is pretty much nonexistent
I try and check in with them and call just to chat. I’m by no means bombarding them, I know they have their own lives. But they rarely answer and when they do it feels like I’m boring them. I try so hard to stay updated on their lives but they have no desire to talk to me. I’ve used all my vacation time and money on going to visit and spend holidays with them, but often when I do I find out they’ve made other plans with people even knowing I was coming for weeks and we have limited days together. The one time my sister 21F visited me (with 2 of her friends) I dropped everything to plan their visit and spend time with them.
It hurts me so much, I cry often because I miss them and at the same time I feel like if I were to move back our relationship wouldn’t be any different. Not being in the same house seems to shift their priorities a lot, and I know this is part of growing older but none of us have our own families yet or even serious relationships. I wasn’t expecting this shift to happen so soon. And most of all it does not seem to bother them one bit, which makes me feel desperate and pathetic.
Has anyone experienced this? I feel like I lost my best friends and they don’t even care, and the more I reach out to get no response or an unenthusiastic one, the worse I feel. I’m likely moving back this year regardless, but I worry about giving up my life here and returning home to have nothing.
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2024.06.02 16:35 OooohMylanta The House of Je Ne Sais Quoi / All Stars : Interviews Challenge
| Interview with the Fanpire The screen goes black again, and everyone thinks it’s time for like a bathroom break or something, but Captain Fanny is insatiable. *SHE NEEDS MOOOOOORE* Captain Fanny : TOBIAS! Put on the next movie! Tobias : My Nude Eminence! The next brief hasn’t even got into production yet! Captain Fanny : What a load of crap! FIND ME SOMETHING ELSE! Tobias : I’m afraid the only thing to do is… Captain Fanny : Go in there myself? I know that you fool! BEAM ME UP, TOBY! And put me in a good movie with lots of sexiness that is also uncomfortable in ways you cannot quite put your finger on. Tobias : As you wish!! ***************** Tobias pushes buttons or pulls levers or says chants or whatever, and all of a sudden, Captain Fanny finds herself sitting on a velvet couch in a fancy pants parlor of some old fashioned manor wearing something very poofy. To her right sits Brad Pitt before Brangelina RIP. To her left sits Tom Cruise before Peak Scientology. Captain Fanny : This is a very sexy situation. What say we remove these antiquated garments and relax eh? They all three get naked like real quick, and when Tom and Brad start to bear their vampire fangs, Fanny realizes that it must be time for interviews. She remembers interviews. She did one, and it was criminally underrated. Probably there was a miscommunication of some sort since her first language is Nudeptunian. She hears a din of voices coming from the next room and senses that the seven remaining models must be in there, waiting to each have her turn at a proper Fanny grilling. Not like eating “grilling,” alas, like interrogation “grilling.” Keep up. Captain Fanny : HEY! The one that killed her daughter or whatever! Get in here! Serafina opens the parlor door, and looks mildly shocked at the sight of a naked Fanny with two naked vampires, but not like super shocked because she is also frequently naked. Captain Fanny : No one wants to read more than they have to, so let’s cut to the chase! Do you think you were robbed in Cycle 1 when you got eliminated at the Top 4 and everyone said you were robbed afterward and were like yeah basically we were wrong? Serafina : Not really, no. Captain Fanny : SURPRISING!!! Humility will take you nowhere in this game. Who should win this game other than yourself? Serafina : Duchess. She has the goods. The grit. And the cola. Captain Fanny : Are you saying she has food? This interests me greatly. Speaking of food, if I were to barbecue you up, what should I use as a marinade? You frequently look very slimy to me, which I find appetizing, so you should know what works with your skin as far as marinades go. Serafina : You see that urn on the mantel? You can sprinkle some of my daughter’s ashes. Captain Fanny : I could get down with that! Haha! I’m done with you! Begone! Bring in the lobotomized one. Tom Cruise : She’s not lobotomized; she just has amnesia. Captain Fanny : How the hell do you know that? Tom Cruise : I’m Tom Cruise. I know everything and also nothing. Nayiem stumbles in, confused as ever. Captain Fanny : Shut up and don’t waste my time! You weren’t robbed in Cycle 2 because your player quit. She is the WORST. I know her. Why do you think she would do such a heartless thing and leave you frozen in cryospace without so much as a proper goodbye? Nayiem : Okay but like why can't that mean I was robbed tho? I was robbed of a player who LOVED ME LIKE I DESERVED TO BE LOVED. I was also robbed of a proper skincare routine. Do you have any idea what cryospace does to your pores? Captain Fanny : It means it because I say it means it. You’re very irritating. Who should win this game? You can’t say yourself because I’m pissed af at you rn. Nayiem : I believe that if an Echo was still alive, then we couldn't kill it, but since she's already dead... then we could just take the skin awf... and make a coat. And then we could give that coat to Egg because that hen is unstoppable. Captain Fanny : Well I swallowed the Echo one whole, and I’m going to swallow the Egg one too you’ll see. If you were to run into Benny Medina at a party, and he asked what your super self name was, what kind of hors d’oeuvres would you offer him to distract from the fact that your super self name is, in fact, very dumb? Nayiem : Who are you calling a hor? You can call my super self name "in fact, very dumb" but don't you ever call me a hor. I would push Germ into the pool and make a run for it. Any ninja named Benny can't be that fast. Captain Fanny : I didn’t call you a hor; I said you have hor STYLE. Begone! I’m hungry. Let’s do the Egg one next. BIRD THING! COME HERE! Egg walks in gingerly and Brad Pitt is into it. Captain Fanny : Hello, you. I’m going to eat you soon. Egg shudders. Captain Fanny : Enough of the foreplay. No one wants to read that shit! Tell me bird person do you think you were robbed in Cycle 3? Egg : I was more robbed on this cycle before echo gave her life to me. it's not my fault that the girls here don't know pellets about birds nor the bible and it isn't my job to teach them! they wouldn't know how to do a brief correctly if it pecked them in the asshole Captain Fanny : No it is your job to lay eggs for my consumption. Enough talk about butts. Who should win this thing? You can’t say yourself because that’s cheating. Egg : I would say beta, but she's so trashed all the time she wouldn't appreciate it. seriously, she thinks this cycle and cycle 3 are one and the same. she's just that far gone. i have risen from the ashes twice before, the crown is mine. FCO be damned. you didn't ask who the weakest is so I'll just say if this were a nest we would all work together to shove the weakest hatchling out because it's pointless to keep them around when they're just stealing feed from Mother's beak. Captain Fanny : I’ve made it quite clear that I wantsvery much to eat you, but I am curious as to what kind of eggs you might lay for me first. Describe these eggs in tantalizing detail or I will murder you now. Egg : My eggs are thick and covered with a bloody mucus. sometimes, after mating season, they come out unbreathing with eyes hair and a nose. what the peep is that about?? Captain Fanny : DELICIOUS! NOW BEGONE! Who is next? We did the bird one. Let’s do the cat one and see what happens. COME IN HERE RIGHT MEOW! Sarin enters in a huff of dander. She’s under a lot of stress, and so she has been shedding extra. Captain Fanny : You made it all the way in Cycle 1. One person might say you were robbed of the win. WHAT SAY YOU? Sarin : I don’t think I deserved the win but I do think I deserved more than 1 vote (ty egg or whoever you were at time). Sometimes I wonder if Jenna keeping me alive to constantly think about my one vote was actually a form of slow torture rather than death Captain Fanny : It’s obviously torture don’t be an idiot. Speaking of torture, other than yourself, who do you think should win All Stars? Sarin : Wanda Sue Captain Fanny : Ooooh snippy are we? Cool your jets, cat woman. We’re not done yet. Now I hear that cat meat is very stringy and gross. What should I do to tenderize your musculature before I fry you up and consumes you? Sarin : I actually take 5748484 years to mature and you don’t have that much time so you should probably just eat someone else. Also PETA doesn’t care if you eat humans Captain Fanny : It’s fine, I also prefer birds anyway. BEGONE!!! Ughhh this is taking FOREVER. Let’s move on. Bring in the drunk one. Beta enters, nearly sober, as the last of her alcohol was used for a daring escape during the last movie. This is frustrating. Captain Fanny : I’m getting very tired. Rub my feet while I ask you questions. Beta does it but doesn’t know why. Captain Fanny : Tell me, red foot rubber, do you think you were robbed in your original cycle, which was the third cycle, which wasn’t my cycle but was the one before my cycle? Beta : Yes. I did splendidly in my final week. I mean, come on look at my Queen of Hearts picture. Also, someone took my copies of Playgirl from my bed so I was definitely robbed in that sense too. Captain Fanny : Stolen porn is a travesty. Who would win this cycle then? Not you. You are also a travesty. Beta : Raven from Season 2 Rupaul’s Drag Race. She got runner-up twice. Such a travesty Captain Fanny : What a sneaky dodge. Must be those librarian bred intellectual reflexes of yours. Speaking of librarians, if I were to make an alcoholic drink called “The Librarian,” what would be the ingredients and why? Beta : Grenadine, holy water, & my father’s tears from the day he found out I was gonna be born a girl Captain Fanny : Sounds emotional. I’ll pass. BEGONE!!! Only two more thank GOD. WANDA. BRING IT ON. Wanda Sue saunters in with all the confidence of an animal with a lot of confidence idk what kind. A mule maybe? Captain Fanny : Look at you sauntering. Tell me, do you think you were robbed in Cycle 1? Wanda Sue : I’m not sure because I didn’t follow the first cycle anyway. But in short; no because then I wouldn’t be able to compete again (now). Captain Fanny : This is odd! How are you two people but only on person??? Who should win this game? If you say yourself, I’ll have Tom here smash you over the head with a candelabra. Wanda Sue : Serafina without a doubt. No one else matches her knowledge and inspo matching skills. Captain Fanny : Sounds like you two should get together and have one last going into the apocalypse love affair kind of situation. You’re named after a grandmother who knows how to castrate bulls. How might you cook up Rocky Mountain Oysters (aka bull testicles) so that Captain Fanny might enjoy them? Wanda Sue : I don’t understand the question and I won’t respond to it. Captain Fanny : Disrespectful! Begone! I WANT THE CURRY ONE!!! Duchess slinks in, looking fabulous. Captain Fanny : I hear you have a food factory. Do you think you were robbed in Cycle 2? Duchess : When that Odessa hoe stayed over my wonderful ass I knew the start of Apocalypse was coming. Yeah only it could save us from tasteless boots that my wonderful presence received that day! Captain Fanny : Apocalypses! Tastes! Boots! Who should win this whole thing? Not you. Never you. Duchess : I think my iconic ass should win of course. I can pull off a fantastic underdog story winner! Cuz who else? Beta? Serafina? Boring and they can pull off Oryx once... Only favored hoe Egg can be my competition cuz games always love to drag a good Virahya into game goodness gracious. Captain Fanny : Virahya certainly knew how to get dragged, that’s for sure. If I were to eat a diet of only Sonic Curry from your father’s factory, what would happen? Duchess : I remember Captain Fanny in my house... She then said: "Bitch that's just a Sonic Curry diet!". But oh well we tried together. It turned into a big blue poo. Captain Fanny : Big blue poo you say? Well they don’t call me Captain Fanny for nothing! BEGONE!! INTERVIEWS ARE OVER! TOM! BRAD! LET’S BANG!!! < THE END > Voting will close this Tuesday, June 4th at 11:59PM MST. You can vote in the comments, via DM or with The Form. submitted by OooohMylanta to NextTopModelPhotos [link] [comments] |
2024.06.02 16:31 Throwmeawayfortoday9 Why am I (25F) always portrayed as a drunk? Maria (25F) was drunk!
I am the aforementioned “professor” in a BORU post about me related to posts in subreddit. I decided to post a response after this event was brought up again with a mutual, Maria. We’re both hanging out as I type this. She and I have both hung out with “boyfriend” (Bob) in group settings and think there are definitely two sides to this story. My main gripe is being portrayed as a drunk and a man-stealer. Below is the original BORU post that I found while browsing one day. Also, someone did find me after reading this post due to how specific it is. I am responding pararaph by paragraph so you do not need to read the original post, feel free to.
The title in BORU is below as I cannot link other subreddits. (Was able to link, after the fact)
Do I (28F) need to worry about my boyfriend's (24M) friendship with his professor (25F)?
https://www.reddit.com/BestofRedditorUpdates/s/7mIcJp6t7n My bf (24M) became friends with his former professor (25F), sometime last year - I don't know what to make of it. They seem to be friendly and talk consistently every week, and from what he tells me, it's usually very surface level. Sometime last year after the course ended, my bf, his professor, and some of his male classmates went somewhere to eat together. My bf brought up that he was going to be attending an event (plastic modeling show), and his professsor showed interest and invited herself to the event and asked if she could stay at his airbnb with his friends. My bf and his friends were all OK with it.
I was an instructor for one class/semester that BF (Bob) attended. I have no say or sway at the school and have not taught since then. I taught a class related to my profession. I did not get to know Bob personally until after the class was over. On the last day, he expressed that I was a great instructor and gave me a miniature he built as a show of gratitude. I also made miniatures (a different type though) and was intrigued that someone else was into this hobby. We stayed in touch. Later, I invited a few students for a meal (girls and guys) and the boy students were the only ones who RSVP’d yes. Bob did mention an event. I did not invite myself, I said me and my friend Linda were interested and may go too. Later on, Bob invited me to join their group’s airbnb because I was looking at hotels. A previous event trip fell through for my and Linda’s friend group and I felt bad she couldn’t go on a trip in the USA before she had to go back to her home country. This trip was to replace that experience. Bob invited us to the airbnb and Linda and I shared a room with 2 beds, Maria ended up coming on this trip as well, which the group was also okay with, and stayed in the same room with me and Linda
I unfortunately couldn't attend the event, but from what my bf told me, he and a few of his friends met up at their airbnb. That same day, his professor comes to my bf's airbnb and tagged a few of her girl friends along (I believe they all stayed in the same place). The next day, they go to the event, went to a bar afterwards and got drinks. A lot of them (except my bf) got pretty drunk and my bf took the liberty of being the designated driver for his professor and her friends. His professor won some model kit from the event, and even in her drunken state, asked my bf if he could stay up with her to work on the kit together. From what my bf tells me, nothing else happened that night.
Respectfully, I had one cocktail and then his friend bought everyone a shot. That was the extent of my drinking. I wasn’t drunk, Linda wasn’t drunk, and no one else in the group ended up being drunk., Maria was though. Maria underestimated how strong the drinks were and she was the DD and we did not have enough time to sober up once she felt the alcohol hit her. She couldn’t drive, I didn’t want to drive her dad’s car, and Linda doesn’t have a US driver's license. Bob offered to drive the car with me, Linda, and Maria back to the airbnb. The other car was driven back by his friend who was not drunk and drove sober. At the airbnb, Bob asked what i would do with the model kit I won, I said i am not familiar with this type of miniature and so I would sell it on facebook marketplace. He said it was actually easy to build, he had built that one before, and he could help me build it right then as all their tools for building were still out on the table. I said he didn’t have to but he insisted and I accepted his help. I was also still not drunk. Next to us in the living room, Maria and 2 of the guys were watching Ouran High Scool Host Club and Cowboy bebop. We all stayed up until 2AM building or watching anime. For half of the trip, me and the girls split off and did our own thing. We did not stay with the group the entire tip because our intent was to piggy back a small girls weekend while also seeing the event.
After the event, everyone from that group created a group chat and they continue to plan and talk about future events together. Since then, my bf and his friends had met up with his professor and got to meet his professor's fiance at an anime convention and it sounded like they all got along well. His professor continues to express interest in other events and it sounds like she may be attending another event with my bf and his friends in the near future.
I trust my boyfriend and don't think he is hiding anything from me. Honestly speaking, I think it's hard for me to understand their friendship as it is his professor. I've had a conversation with him on this, and he's let me know that I have nothing to worry about. I would like to hear other's opinions and see what ya'll think of this friendship? Is this something I need to be concerned about or is it really nothing?
Thank you all!
\Edit: the professor was my bf's former professor. She is classified as an adjunct faculty and works as an accountant as her full time job (which explains why she is a young professor).*
\My bf has not graduated college yet and is still a student at his university.*
Bob and his group went to an anime convention. I and my friend group also went because I was not aware there was one near me until Bob mentioned it. My friend group, I thought, got along well with his friends and it was a great first con experience. I and a few of my friends expressed interest in future events. I think she is hung up on this professor titleship but I was an instructor whom students called professor but I was very clear this was a side gig and I was had a career. I was never in any position of power at the school, I was a contract employee used to fill an open course section at an undesirable time. For the majority of the time I knew Bob, we were equals who were only 1 year apart in age and shared a similar hobby.
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You should go to one of the events with him:
"I do struggle with social anxiety so it makes me uncomfortable to be sharing a space with a lot of unknown people. I am hoping to go to the next event though since it's local."
Her relationship with students is grossly unprofessional:
"I'm totally with you - I am also quite confused of her choice of "friends". I am not sure why of all places, does she choose to share an airbnb with her former student and to be drunk with them. She is classified as an adjunct faculty, so she is a professor but is part time (she works full time as an accountant). The whole situation feels weird to me."
Clarification:
Commenter: You say “his professor” what is their specific academic connection? She taught him once years ago and now they’re roughly equals and friends? Or she’s his primary support for a PhD? Or what?
OOP: The first option - she taught him last year and now are now friends. He is no longer in a course with her. I totally understand how it's possible for students and their professors to be friendly, but i've never heard or seen of a friendship where you consistently talk and hang out together so casually.
So she's no longer his professor- they are two adults of the same age and power level:
"It kind of gives me the same vibes like if a student graduated HS and is friends with their young teacher (obv not the same thing, but a student-teacher relationship is there). I think as a teacher, you should still uphold that level of professionalism and mentorship, even if you are no longer the student's teacher.
I also want to note that they are technically not "equals" since they're both in relationships. She can't be acting however she wants with former students."
I respect that they view my actions unprofessionally. I did not view it as such since I was no longer an instructor and have not been since. I taught a 4 month course one day a week. I would not be friends with an 18-22 year old I had nothing in common with.
Update: my boyfriend and I had a more heart-to-heart talk regarding his teacher and he recognizes that it crossed some of my boundaries. He believes that she may be behaving the way she does because when she hangs out with her fiance's friends, she gets bored with them (and may possibly be seeking attention from other people?). Several weeks later, my boyfriend had a conversation with his college instructor regarding their friendship and told her how I didn't feel comfortable of their friendship and how he thinks they should keep communication at a minimum. She brought up how she understands because her fiance also had an issue with how she chose to share an airbnb with my bf. She mentions to my boyfriend that she sees him as a brother and that's why she feels really comfortable with him, but that she will try to respect my boyfriend's wishes of keeping conversations at a minimum.
I did not know it had crossed any of their boundaries at the time until the phone call. I treated Bob the same way I treated all of my friends but I do understand and respect that not everyone has the same view of friendship. My friend group went through a period where we would talk about going to stuff and then no one does any work to follow through. The event Linda and our friends were going to attend that never happened is a good example. I didn’t want lazy friends being the reason why I did not experience things. Bob did follow through on going to things. My husband’s concern was that it was a group of guys we had not met yet in person and we were all girls. I told him that if I thought any one of them was giving off weird vibes, we would immediately leave and get a hotel. As for the phone call, he did call to tell me basically the same and my understanding was that we should talk less because she does not like the closeness. At the time, we were messaging every day and I did make an attempt to reduce the frequency to once a week.
Well, even after that talk, she continues to still message my boyfriend weekly on random life updates. And because she is also part of my bf's chat in discord, one of his friends invited her to attend another plastic modeling show (it occurred recently) and dinner. Since she accepted the invitations, I chose to attend as well so that I could personally meet her. The dinner occurred first and it was very uncomfortable because she practically ignored me the entire night. When she joined us at the table, she greeted my bf but didn't say anything to me (even my bf noticed and got annoyed, but then introduced us). She got increasingly drunk throughout the night and was saying random stuff about my bf to his friends like "he could've been the best student in my class but it's cause he missed some assignments" and "[bf's name] gave me a 5 star review on rate my professor!". She ended up not going to the show, but my bf had a chat with his guys and they told him that they want to respect my feelings too and make it a guys' night next time.
I would like to hear other's opinions and see if you also think she is acting suspicious?
One thing left out is that during the phone call between Bob and I, I asked Bob if his GF would want to ever talk to or get to know me, or all 3 of us hang out, and he said he asked her and she said she did not want to do that and she was uncomfortable at the thought of meeting me. I did stop messaging him frequently and only did so once a week to ask how his job search was going and to let him know the status of a big event in my life. I thought that was what was requested, less interaction, not no interaction. Maria and I went to this dinner because everyone from the airbnb trip was going to be there (Linda did not go). What is not mentioned is that Bob and the GF arrived 40 minutes into eating. I nodded in their direction when they came and said hey in their general direction, not specifically at Bob or her. I did not talk to either specifically because (1) GF does not like me and him talking and I was not about to directly talk to Bob in front of her (2) she said she did not want to talk to me or get to know me and never retracted that statement. I learned Bob and GF thought it was a slight against them that I only said hey to Bob but I didn’t direct it to anyone and I was trying to play it safe. Had I known she came to personally meet me, I would have tried to talk to her. After learning why she came, I was surprised she did not talk to me even though she came to meet me. As for the alcohol, except for them, since they arrived late, everyone had 2-3 drinks already because it was happy hour. Me and Maria made friends with the bartender who gave us discounted cocktails. I even bought a drink for GF so she could get the discount and then pay me back. It is true I said those jokes but I said them in jest and these were jokes already made previously. To be fair, she did not try to talk to me at all, nor did she try to talk to Maria. Later that week, Maria called me to catch up and mentioned the dinner. She commented that GF made no effort to get to know us and thought GF went to monitor him and me. In essence, she ignored me and Maria and Maria and I ignored her. I did not go to the show because I had a prior commitment.
Relevant Comment:
She wants to have sex with your boyfriend. She's crossing major boundaries. Has he stopped conversation with her?
"I wouldn't be surprised if that is her intention cause there's def some shady people out there. I agree, she is crossing some professional and personal boundaries, and I think it's quite unusual behavior for any teacher to act like that. Yes, he has stopped communicating with her. She was consistently messaging him until last week...so hopefully she got the memo.
As mentioned in her post, I did view Bob as a brother. He lived similar experiences to me but I felt like he was where I would have been had I not moved out from my parents when I did. I wanted to see him professionally thrive and accomplish his goals of getting a car and moving out as those were things I strived for but had already attained. As for the 5-6 times we met up, it was in group settings and he met all of my friends and my husband as well. This post, to me, makes it seem like I was always hanging on to Bob but there were many instances of me and my friends breaking off to do our own thing. My husband and Linda’s husband were both okay with us going to the airbnb at the time and later on met and got to know Bob too. Each time we met, if I drank, I had 2 drinks and one time I had 3. I am not sure how Bob told these events to his GF so it may just be lost in translation but the only person who ever got drunk at a meet up was Maria and it was once. I do not agree with her stating that I was constantly drunk for each meet up or always asking/inviting myself to things. He invited me to join his airbnb group (i asked if Linda and Maria could join me), I did ask to join his group for another event until my friend group arrived (which included my husband, Linda, and Maria), and his friend invited me to the group dinner (Maria attended). To this day, his GF has never said a word to me or Maria (she did not say hi, only waved to us), nor us her. When I offered to order and bring her cocktail from the bar, I believe Bob was the one who responded to my offer. I only found out about what she was thinking via this BORU post. Linda, Maria, and I haven’t talked to Bob since, this was a cathartic write with Maria as it is very jarring to randomly find a post about yourself and then also have someone find you from that post.
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2024.06.02 15:02 SharkEva [Final Update] - AITAH for not coming to terms with the fact that my wife cheated on me 14 years ago before our marriage?
I am not the OOP. The OOP is u/Strange_Tadpole_3749 posting in AITAH Concluded as per OOP 1 update - Medium Original - 5th March 2024 Update - 6th March 2024 Update 2 - 4th April 2024
1 New Update Update 3 - 31st May 2024
AITAH for not coming to terms with the fact that my wife cheated on me 14 years ago before our marriage? I(35M) am married to my wife(37F) for 11 years and together for 14. We have a beautiful 7 years old daughter and our marriage has been great without any major problems until last year. Last year, I learnt that my wife cheated on me before our marriage. One of her friends became religious and confessed her actions to me which had me confront my wife.
She was shocked that I learnt it and apologized profusely about her actions. However, she said it's not something important now because we have been going strong and have a family together. She told me I should come to terms with it since it happened 4 months into being exclusive and she was a stupid girl out of college back then. My mind told me the same. It happened 14 years ago and we are happy right now. I decided to forgive her and continue our usual life.
Reality was not that great. My mental took a big hit. I realized it's not something that happened 14 years ago for me. The cheating happened for me when my wife confirmed it. I was less confident, could not have sex with my wife. I just could not get an erection for her. This turned into feeling disgusted being around her.
I even took a DNA and STD test secretly. Thankfully, our daughter is mine and I am clear of STD. Then a year of intense individual therapy started for me. I realized I needed to change somehow. I was not the same person I used to be. I also communicated my feelings to my wife and after pushing a bit, we started going couples counseling too. However, at the end of everything I decided to proceed with divorce. Here are my reasonings:
She not only cheated back then but lied to me for 14 years. She did not confess the action herself. Even though she apologized, she dismissed the fact by saying it's not important anymore
Young me was robbed of having a choice. Cheating was(and still is) one of the biggest deal breakers for me. If I knew it back then, I would have broke it off. I am happy with my life and I am glad that our daughter came to world. She is the light that shines the brightest for me. One of the biggest reasons I keep living but I still was robbed of a choice back then.
IC and MC could not our problems and my feelings towards her. It also started affecting family life which could affect our daughter. I think our daughter would be better off having us as co-parents instead of living in a broken family environment where consistent arguments are present.
Sex life is basically dead for me. We do have sex but I feel like those women on film/series that just lay and look at the ceiling waiting it to be over. The only difference is that I am a man. I do not even want non-sexual gestures anymore.
Last week, I had a sit down with my wife and explained everything I wrote here in detail, my feelings, reasonings and some other private things. I have been talking to a lawyer for the last month and papers are almost finalized. 50/50 custody, 50/50 assets sharing and as amicable as possible. I explained everything thoroughly and clearly to her.
She freaked out and had a panic attack. We spent the night at ER. She is begging me to reconsider and not throw away 14 years. However, even though I would like to stay it will results in us being roommates and a broken family environment for our daughter.
Am I in the wrong here?
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kgbjay This isn't about being an asshole or not. You're not able to deal with something and it has changed your view of someone.
CatmoCatmo That’s the thing. OP has tried everything they can to make it work. He didn’t throw his hands up and walk out. He tried. He really tried. But you can’t make yourself have emotions you don’t have, nor can you let go of one’s you’re currently feeling. There’s no right or wrong here.
awyllt This isn't an asshole or not question. You aren't able to love her the way you did before, you no longer trust her, your relationship is dysfunctional, therapy didn't help. Calling you (or her - after all, she's the cheater) an asshole will solve absolutely nothing. All you can do now is to make the separation as smooth as possible for your daughter.
JBaecker Someone else wrote this in a thread months ago and I still remember it. “The affair happened 14 years ago for you. It just happened for me!!” Like she’s had 14 years to process and lie about it and then to just…let it go. For OP, this just happened. He’s still dealing with all of it. And not just the affair, but the 14 years of lying by omission too. It’s brand new to him. Also OP, NTA.
OOP: It happened on a girls' trip they went together. It was confirmed by my wife. Her friend told me she could not hold the secret of a sin anymore and decided to confess.About 4 months into being exclusive/couple(girlfriend and boyfriend). So, it's not before being boyfriend/girlfriend.Paper is basically an agreement with blank sections including custody, asset sharing and other marital things. I proposed my side to her and she is free to consult with a lawyer to propose her side. Both sides meet and come to an agreement. Then this agreement is proposed to a family court(in case of amicable divorce) to get appointment for the court case. I let her know beforehand that I am considering divorce and getting the draft agreement ready so she should also consult with a lawyer.
SquareSpare8723 How's your wife dealing with all of this? Has the anger presented itself yet or is she still in denial? OOP: She has barely eaten since the ER visit and still in denial.
**Judgement - NTA*\*
Update - 1 days later
Firstly, I want to thank everyone for their ideas and input about my situation. Some people reached out to me on Reddit chat to state their opinions and we had long talks. They have been incredibly helpful and I want to thank them especially.
Some people asked if we went to counseling together. Yes, we have been visiting a counselor for over a year now on top of my individual therapy. I understand blowing up a marriage for something happened 14 years ago is not logical. However, my feelings towards my wife got even worse after counseling and therapy.
It started with not being able to trust her, converted to not wanting sex, then not wanting non-sexual gestures and finally I am not even comfortable to be in the same space as her. We have been less than roommates in the last couple of months. I do not hate or resent her but I just cannot shake off the feelings.
I would say I forgave her but it's not about forgiving anymore when there are no feelings and love. I do not want my daughter to grow up in such an environment. I know how hurtful it can be. I experienced a similar situation with my parents only the genders reversed. Living in such an environment breaks you as a child and teen. I would have much preferred if my mother just divorced my dad instead of staying for my sake.
These being said, I had a long talk with my wife this morning. She has not been eating much since visiting ER and I am concerned for her wellbeing and safety. Some Redditors who reached out suggested considering separation before proceeding with the divorce and see if my feelings would change. That is very logical actually.
I proposed this idea to my wife and she was happy to hear it. I have an upcoming business trip to Netherlands next week and I am planning to extend my stay and stay with my sister once I am back. Wife abruptly suggested one sided open marriage and I can do what I want on that business trip if it'll save the relationship, make us even and change my feelings.
I rejected because it has nothing to do with that. Even if it changed something for me, it would devastate her knowing I cheated on her in the future. It's not something easy to get over and not an easy decision.
That is all the update. We'll try separation for a while and depending on the result I'll make my decision. Thank you for all the help and opinions.
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orizons190 It’s telling how quickly, just because you stood up for yourself, she went from “telling” and what feels like dictating to sudden panic attacks and “begging” instead. Would it have been different if she had gone straight to begging and contrition earlier? Hmm
unijackthedaw Avoid falling for her self-abuse charade, which is intended to make you feel sorry for her. It's an attempt at manipulation.
horizons190 I understand blowing up a marriage for something happened 14 years ago is not logical
It is absolutely logical. As you said it yourself, it didn’t happen 14 years ago, the lies continued up to present day.
**Update 2- 1 month later*\*
I have a short update about the situation. I got back from the trip and decided to divorce my wife in the end. The last straw was when my daughter told me I look more lively and happier after I came back. I realized I am better off without my wife and just co-parenting our daughter with her. I still feel incredibly uncomfortable around my wife.
My wife did not take the news well and is going down the spiral. I called MIL and FIL to have them take care of her. She caused some problems. She sent threatening messages to her friend who told me about the cheating. I had to beg her to not sue my wife as I want my daughter to have a mother present in her life. Though, she'll be probably taken to mental ward. She is not well. Last time I saw her, I felt scared looking at her eyes.
Our daughter is with me now and we've started the divorce process. My lawyer told me if my wife to be taken to mental ward, there is a good chance that I can get better than 50/50 custody. One should be happy hearing that but I am just devastated how it'll affect our daughter.
Many Redditors told in the comments that dating life after 30s as a man is not good and I'll be probably forever alone as no-one will want me. First thing is: I do not care. Our daughter is my first priority and dating is the last thing I have in mind right now. Second thing is: I am confident in myself in every regard to finding friends and a partner.
I think this sums up my update. I will be back maybe in a year considering how long divorce process takes when it's not amicable. Thank you.
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Tricky-Stock-7248 I'm going to say it, a man in his 30's that takes care of his look and looks healthy sometimes is way more attractive than any boy in his 20's that's just beginning to understand how life works I hope it works for you, I've come from a family when my mom cheated my dad WITH HIS BROTHER and then he cheated back with her cousin, believe me, no child deserves to be raised in a family like that, your daughter is better with only one parent that's calm than with two beligerant parents that decided to stay together "for the sake of kids" Your life won't end by now, I would leave my husband too if I'd find out he cheated on me when we were just beginning as a couple, cheating has no expire date I hope you get better and find happiness
Update 3 - 2 months later
It's been almost 2 months since my last update. People have been asking about an update and here is one.
My soon-to-be ex-wife is doing much better. As far as I know, she is on anti depressants right now and started her own therapy. Also, she has a good support system around her so she is fine. Our daughter was with me most of the time and we spent a lot of quality time together. We have been taking her to a therapist, too. She is taking the separation much better than we expected. She is into drawing/painting and we have been practicing together. She has won 1st place award in a local competition in her age group and I am super proud of her. As smart as always :')
For the divorce, my wife agreed to an amicable divorce. We gave the documents to the local family court and will have the court seeing next month as scheduled. 50/50 financial assets and 50/50(80/20 at first) custody. She wanted to see our daughter only on weekends until she is in a better place. After that, we'll convert to 50/50. It's more desirable for me to be honest. I want to have our daughter an equal time with her mother.
I am staying at our house currently. I'll buy the share of my wife from her and she'll stay at her parents for now. They are very close to our house so it's good. My wife is planning to rent a separate place around the same area in the future. Time is passing and life is going on somehow. I am also in a much better place mentally and emotionally. I am on amicable terms with my wife and as long as we are not living together, I do not feel uncomfortable as I did in the past. Not much drama just life is being life and everything finding its own place with time.
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SunSpot666 Congratulations, especially about the daughter not being traumatized. OOP: Thank you! She took the divorce/separation much better than we expected.
Noc1c Really boring update, which makes me happy
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