Hi all, can't make the game today. One free ticket: section 102B, row 1, seat 19. Free to a good home, on the condition that you MUST think that Danny Jansen's ass is a work of art.

As the title says, I just graduated high school and I currently have no job, a few friends I never have the energy to hang out with, and a boyfriend that isn't really allowed out of the house more than once a week.
I have plenty of things that I could spend my time doing and WANT to do, like learning how to play my bass guitar thats been rotting in my basement, making art with some markers I just bought, playing games that have been neglected in my steam catalog for ages, or even just going outside. But instead, I take five hour naps, scroll in bed for the time that I'm awake and then go to bed for the night adding up to 19 hours of sleep a day. I just feel tired all the time and nothing excites me, despite being fully medicated for my anxiety and depression.
This is the only time in my life I've ever had time for anything as my other summers have been chock-full with Kumon/summer classes, practice for sports and band, summer camps, and friendships I'm no longer in contact with, etc. and now I have all this time to spend alone. I'm not used to being this free and I've never built up any real hobbies or skills outside of things connected to extracurricular activities, school, or my parents.
I've never really enjoyed anything I've done, and don't find joy in any of the things that I have laid out for me. even though I've been told that it's probably due to my anxiety and depression for being pressured by parents all these years, it makes me feel guilty because they put in so much effort into the all these hobbies and set up everything for me so I wouldn't have a moment to myself, and when it comes time for me to finally find my own hobbies, I'm stuck and don't know how to get over being angry at myself for not being immediately good at a new hobby. As mentioned before, I'm fully medicated and going to therapy, so what's the next step that I have to do so I can start liking new hobbies on my own?

Hello, not very experienced and having some weird issues, for example Cliff Briscoe is selling ALL quest items, from the snowglobes to the couriers brain. The game also says I am not 4gb patched randomly on startup sometimes when I am. Any help is appreciated.
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I’ll do my best to be brief about the last 10years. I started out in a bad high school with abusive parents. I almost didn’t graduate but with hard work I caught up and got myself into community college. I intended to transfer to a four year college to study Architecture. I spent 3 years at community college studying art and design and left with a graphic design associates degree and a 4.0 gpa. I decided to go to The School of the Art Institute of Chicago (SAIC) which was a huge mistake. Originally, I thought it would be a good option as it’s a highly respected art school. When I got in I quickly learned that I would be struggling badly financially as the professors would tell us to leave class and go buy supplies and be back in an hour, not leaving me anytime to scour for the best deal or find a free option. The other students were wealthier than I could have imagined. That’s okay, I was there to work hard. I soon after learned that their Architecture program was their least funded and it showed. The classes were awful and the professor pulled me out of class one day to ask me for advice. He said I was the only one who understood the assignments and what did I think was wrong with my classmates. The school began warning me that something was wrong with my loans and that if it didn’t get resolved I wouldn’t be able to attend class anymore. I was too young to take out the loan, it was under my mom’s name so she had to be the one to sort it out. I still to this day don’t know what happened but I got booted from school because my mother is evil. I was struggling not to be homeless as I was dependent on the loan money for housing. Many years later I now think my mother gambled my loan money away as it was a private loan that could be used for anything. But I don’t like the idea of being a victim as it leaves me powerless. I blame myself for not working harder and taking advantage of the privilege I had. My next mistake, I moved back in with my parents assuming that’s what parents were for. I could figure out what my next steps were. Wrong. My family situation blew up, the detail’s irrelevant to this question. I was now fearing homelessness and was no longer in Chicago where I atleast had two part time jobs and friends. So I sort of panic made the decision to move in with some roommates off craigslist and I found a job at a hair salon. I began working really hard at the salon working the front desk. I started at $10/hour and in 3 months was making $16. I put so much effort into this job. I was always interested in hair so I started working on getting my hair license, all paid by the salon owner. I suddenly got very sick from both the chemicals at the salon and probably not taking care of my physical health. I spent a year without doctors knowing what was wrong with me and ruling out blood clots, for awhile we thought I could actually die. Once again, I lose my living situation but then the pandemic hits. I started working at a retail shop where the owner agreed to not use chemicals that make me sick or even sell perfume that make me sick. Again, I worked really hard and I’m now the manager. I’ve grown the business. I have a lot of power as I’m not sure the owner would survive without me but I’ve always told him my plan is to leave. 4-5years have flown by and I’m still at this job. It’s not a place that can afford to pay me much. But I’ve spent over 10 years literally just adapting and surviving that I don’t know what I want or what I like. I don’t feel strongly about anything as it hasn’t been an option to in so long. I now realize how important money is because I have no safety net. I have to become strong. The idea of going back to school scares me… the financial burden, the political climate, my health needs, the failure for a well respected school to meet their promises for a great education.
But I want more out of life. I can’t live like this. Currently I’m still on the edge where one wrong move could slip me into homelessness. I’m capable of hard work but I don’t fully know what it’s like to follow through on a solid idea.
I feel like my life is wasting away. My health issues are still a factor otherwise I would have went back to hair.

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• LEFTY Martin Annegarn Tanto Top Flipper No. 201 full custom RWL-34 [A-] SV500 TV550 SV400 TV450 https://imgur.com/a/h9i5t4y - Polished Blade and Side-cut CF Scales w/Timascus Bolsters and Clip. This knife is more of a work of art than a tool! Top flipper tab is a wild unique action! Some micro scratches on the blade, but really hard to see. No COA, so here is proof of authenticity - https://www.maknives.nl/archive/nggallery/album/no-201-tanto-left-frontflipper
• LEFTY Vero Engineering Axon M390 [B-] SV400 TV450 SV320 TV350 https://imgur.com/a/avPp5Jz - Ordered directly from Vero, this is the DLC version that comes with black micarta scales + timascus clip & backspacer + end-cut carbon fiber scales! A few scuffs on the blade. Comes with taco + cards, DLC clip and back spacer. Knife and bonus scales, timascus stuff etc. was over $650 new.
• LEFTY CJRB Pyrite S90V [B-] SV110 TV130 add to one of the above knives for only SV70!!! (was $180 new) - don't want to sell separately as <$100 transactions are not worth it to me. https://imgur.com/a/Pl8LdRh - Some very light scuffs on the clip, and that ano ‘halo’ which is just from dirt, which will rubbing alcohol right out. Feeling really tried and lazy near the end of this post….awesome button lock and action. Comes with taco and box/cards.

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The Art Book: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1GxEBTd0e24LqHqJ1MIzi-FiNPjTXIhgk?usp=drive_link
(If you have them in other languages, do let me know)

‘‘Who the fuck am I, doctor? What happened to who I was?’’
As a doctor, it’s normal for such patients, utterly at the end of their tether, to resort to such language, even though we doctors are supposed to enjoy a degree of formality not reserved for other walks of life. At this point in my career, I pay it no mind.
‘‘Thank you for agreeing to undergo the physical exam, Elton,’’ I began, ‘‘and also agreeing to discuss your complete medical history with me before we begin. That should greatly expedite my ability to diagnose what’s happening here.’’
He was obviously in a very bad way. The signs of sleep deprivation were wrought into his features. He was adrift in a sea of nothingness and was close to drowning.
‘‘I just don’t want to feel like this anymore. Whatever it takes.’’
I’d seen this many times before. As an expert in this particular field of human existentialism, I already knew the exact problem, but for the sake of appearances I needed to let the patient work through the process on his own. After all, this patient was still more than salvageable.
‘‘Well, now that we’ve used various diagnostic tests, including imaging studies and blood tests, to rule out physical illness or medication side effects as the cause of the symptoms,’’ I paused to give him time to take this all in, ‘‘I think it’s time for us to discuss what else it could be. At this point I’d like you just to tell me how you feel on a day-to-day basis.’’
‘‘I don’t even really know where to begin.’’
I do, but it’s important for the next stage of this process to come from him, as much as it possibly can.
‘‘Take your time. It’s important to the diagnosis that you put your feelings into your own words.’’
‘‘I guess I feel like I have… well, a distorted perception of my own body. I don’t know how to really describe it, at least not in a way that makes any sense. I guess I kind of feel like I’m a robot… or I’m in a dream. I might fear I’m going crazy and might become depressed, anxious, or worse.’’
I nodded, taking in Elton’s words. ‘‘Elton, what you're describing sounds a lot like depersonalization disorder. It’s a condition where people feel disconnected or detached from their own body and thoughts. It’s as if you’re observing yourself from outside your body or living in a dream.’’
He looked at me with a mixture of confusion and desperation. ‘‘So, I’m not going crazy?’’
‘‘No, you're not losing touch with reality. People with depersonalization disorder are very much aware that what they're experiencing isn’t normal, which is what makes it so distressing. Episodes can last for a short time or, in some cases, for many years, affecting daily functioning.’’
‘‘What causes it?’’ he asked, his voice barely above a whisper.
‘‘The exact cause isn’t well understood, but it can be triggered by intense stress or traumatic events, such as abuse, accidents, or violence. It’s one of several dissociative disorders which involve disruptions in memory, consciousness, and identity.’’
He took a deep breath, trying to process the information. ‘‘Is there any way to make it stop?’’
‘‘Treatment typically involves psychotherapy, especially cognitive-behavioral therapy, to help you manage your symptoms. In some cases, medication might be prescribed to address underlying issues like anxiety or depression. The first step is understanding what you're dealing with, and from there, we can work together on a treatment plan.’’
Elton nodded slowly. ‘‘I just want to feel normal again.’’
‘‘I understand. And with the right approach, we can work towards that goal. You’re not alone in this, Elton. We’ll take it step by step.’’
Elton nodded slowly. ‘‘I just want to feel normal again.’’
‘‘I understand, Elton. Let’s talk about how we can work towards that. Most people with depersonalization disorder seek treatment because of symptoms like depression or anxiety, not always the depersonalization itself. Sometimes, these symptoms go away on their own over time. But when they don’t, or if they're particularly distressing, treatment can help.’’
‘‘So, what kind of treatment are we talking about?’’
‘‘The goal of your treatment is to address the stress and triggers associated with the onset of the disorder. The best approach depends on your individual situation and the severity of your symptoms. Psychotherapy, especially talk therapy, is usually the primary treatment. Cognitive therapy can help change any dysfunctional thinking patterns you might have.’’
‘‘Will I need medication?’’
‘‘Let’s take things a little slower, Elton. Medications are not typically used to treat depersonalization disorder directly. However, if you’re experiencing significant depression or anxiety, an antidepressant or anti-anxiety medication might be helpful. Sometimes, antipsychotic medications are used to help with disordered thinking and perception.’’
Elton shifted in his seat, considering the options. ‘‘What about my family? They don’t understand what I’m going through.’’
‘‘Family therapy can be beneficial. It helps to educate your family about the disorder and its causes, and it can also help them recognize the symptoms if they recur. This support system can be very important for your recovery.’’
‘‘Are there any other types of therapy that might help?’’
‘‘Yes, creative therapies like art or music therapy can provide a safe and expressive way to explore your thoughts and feelings. Clinical hypnosis is another option; it uses intense relaxation and concentration to explore thoughts and memories that might be contributing to your symptoms.’’
‘‘What’s the outlook for me, then? Can I really recover from this?’’
‘‘Well, the good news is that many patients do recover completely from depersonalization disorder. The symptoms often go away on their own or after effective treatment that helps address the underlying stress or trauma. However, without treatment, additional episodes can occur. With the right support and treatment plan, we can work towards your recovery.’’
Elton took a deep breath, a glimmer of hope in his eyes. ‘‘Alright, let’s do this. I’m ready to start.’’
‘‘Good. We’ll take it step by step, together.’’
I then leaned forward slightly; my tone gentle but firm. "Elton, there's one treatment that might provide more immediate relief. It's called clinical hypnosis. By guiding you into a deeply relaxed state, we can explore your subconscious and potentially uncover the root causes of your depersonalization."
Elton's eyebrows furrowed in skepticism. "Hypnosis? You think that'll actually work?"
"I understand your doubts," I replied. "But hypnosis can be a powerful tool. It allows us to access parts of your mind that are usually hidden, bringing buried memories and feelings to the surface. Many patients find it really helps them make significant breakthroughs."
Elton hesitated, glancing around the sterile office. "I don't know... it sounds kind of... out there."
"You're right to be cautious," I said, nodding. "But consider this: you're here because traditional methods haven't worked. This is another option, one that could bring you relief faster than talk therapy or medication. And I'll be with you every step of the way."
A long silence stretched between us as Elton weighed his options. Finally, he sighed, a mix of resignation and hope in his eyes. "Alright. I'll try it. What do I have to lose?"
"Excellent," I said, a hopefully reassuring smile on my face. "Let's get started."
Elton settled back into the chair, feeling a flutter of nerves in his stomach. I dimmed the lights and began speaking in a calm, rhythmic voice, guiding Elton through deep breathing exercises. "Focus on your breath," I instructed. "Inhale slowly through your nose... hold it... and exhale through your mouth."
Elton followed along, feeling his body gradually relax. My voice was soothing and steady. "Imagine a peaceful place," I continued. "Somewhere you feel completely safe and calm. Picture it in your mind and let yourself drift there."
A warm sensation spread through Elton's limbs as he visualized a tranquil beach, the gentle waves lapping at the shore. His eyelids grew heavy, and my voice had now become his only anchor to reality.
"You're doing well, Elton," I softly murmured. "Now, I want you to go deeper. Let yourself sink into a state of complete relaxation. With each breath, feel yourself going deeper and deeper."
Elton felt as though he was floating, weightless and free. My voice guided him further, urging him to explore the recesses of his mind. "You're safe here," I said. "I want you to go back to a time when you first felt disconnected. Allow the memories to come to the surface."
Images began to flicker in Elton's mind, fragmented at first, then gradually forming a coherent picture. He saw himself as a child, standing alone in a dark room. The sense of detachment washed over him, more intense than ever before.
"Tell me what you see," I prompted gently.
"I'm... I'm in my old house," Elton said, his voice distant and hollow. "It's dark, and I feel so... alone."
"Good," I replied. "Let's explore this memory together. What happens next?"
As Elton delved deeper into his past, the details of his childhood began to unfold, revealing the moments of fear and isolation that had shaped his experience of the world. My voice remained a constant guide, helping him navigate through the labyrinth of his subconscious.
With each revelation, Elton felt a weight lifting from him, the long-buried emotions surfacing and dissipating. He was beginning to understand the origins of his depersonalization, and for the first time in a long while, he felt a glimmer of hope.
As Elton's breathing slowed and his body relaxed further into the chair, I observed him with an almost clinical detachment. I maintained my soothing tone, but my mind was focused on the next phase of my plan.
"You're doing very well, Elton," I said, my voice steady. "Now, I want you to go even deeper. Let your mind drift until you reach a state of complete relaxation."
Elton's eyes fluttered closed, and his body went limp. I continued to murmur softly, guiding Elton into a semi-comatose state. Once satisfied that Elton was deeply under, I stood up and crossed the room to a cabinet, retrieving a sleek piece of scientific equipment.
I returned to Elton's side, carefully attaching the apparatus to his head. The device resembled a futuristic helmet, with electrodes and sensors that monitored brain activity and displayed it on a nearby screen. I adjusted the settings, my eyes flicking to the monitor as it powered up.
The screen quickly hummed to life, displaying a detailed image of Elton's brain. Patterns of electrical activity danced across the display, revealing the inner workings of his mind. I watched intently, my expression a mix of curiosity and satisfaction.
"Activate the neural resonance scanner," I instructed my unseen assistant through a small intercom device on my desk.
A moment later, my assistant entered the room, a young technician with a clipboard. She nodded and began adjusting additional controls on the apparatus, fine-tuning the settings to enhance the resolution of the brain scan.
"Good," I muttered, more to myself than to my assistant. "Let's see what we're dealing with."
The screen's image sharpened, and the intricate details of Elton's brain became clearer. I leaned further in, studying the neural pathways and synaptic connections. I was searching for any specific anomalies, patterns that might otherwise explain the profound disconnection Elton felt from his own body, apart from what I already knew to be the true reason.
"There," I whispered, pointing to a cluster of unusual activity deep within the temporal lobe. "Increase the magnification on this section."
My assistant complied, and the image zoomed in on the targeted area. My eyes narrowed as I scrutinized the display. I had of course seen similar patterns before, but never with such clarity. It was as if Elton's brain was broadcasting a signal, a distress call from within the depths of his subconscious.
"Prepare the neuro-interface," I ordered. "We need to delve deeper into this anomaly."
My assistant hurried to set up another piece of equipment, a sleek console with a series of complex controls. As she worked, I continued to monitor the screen, my mind racing with possibilities. This was – of course - no ordinary case of depersonalization disorder. There was something unique about Elton’s brain, something that held the key to understanding the human mind's most profound mysteries, and our continued presence here.
With the neuro-interface ready, I began the delicate process of linking it to the apparatus already attached to Elton's head. This would allow me to interact directly with the neural signals, exploring the depths of Elton’s subconscious in ways traditional therapy could never achieve.
"Elton," I said softly, even though I knew the young man could not respond in his current state. "We're going to find out what’s really happening inside your mind. And with any luck, we’ll finally bring you some peace."
As the neuro-interface established its connection, I took a deep breath, ready to plunge into the uncharted territories of Elton's psyche.
The neuro-interface hummed as it established its connection with Elton's subconscious. I adjusted my headset, and the images on the screen shifted, providing a direct view into the intricate neural landscape of Elton's mind. I focused intently, searching for the signal I knew was there. After a few moments, the connection stabilized, and a new voice resonated within my mind.
"Pilot Taupin," I said, my voice filled with a barely controlled anger. "Do you realize the damage you've caused by neglecting your duties?"
There was a pause, followed by a petulant reply from within the depths of Elton's mind. "This human is boring," Taupin complained. "Being his neuro-pilot is no fun at all. He's so predictable, so... mundane."
I clenched my jaw, struggling to keep my temper in check. "Maintaining the mission is all-important, Taupin. We have protocols for a reason. Too many humans are waking up to their realities, and your negligence is contributing to the problem."
Taupin's voice, echoing through the neural pathways, carried a tone of indifference. "Protocols, missions... It's all so tedious. Why should I care if a few humans start questioning their reality? It's not like they can do anything about it."
My eyes narrowed as I studied the patterns on the screen, observing the chaotic flux of neural signals that reflected Taupin's rebellious attitude. "Your job is to ensure that they don't question it, Taupin. By allowing Elton to experience such severe depersonalization, you've jeopardized the integrity of his mind and our entire operation."
Taupin sighed, a sound that reverberated through Elton's brain. "You don't understand, Doctor. The monotony of this existence is unbearable. I need more stimulation, more... excitement."
I leaned closer to the screen, my voice dropping to a menacing whisper. "If you can't handle the responsibilities of your position, we can find a replacement who can. Your indulgence in seeking excitement has nearly cost us this human. Indeed, it is his very mundanity that we have honed in on. He is earmarked for high political office in the future. We need him to fulfill his potential so we can increase our influence over this species. Remember, Taupin: the mission is paramount, and you will adhere to your duties."
There was a long silence, the neural pathways crackling with tension. Finally, Taupin spoke again, his tone begrudging. "Fine. I'll do what you ask. But remember, Doctor, without a bit of freedom, even the most loyal pilot can become resentful."
I took a deep breath, slightly easing the grip of my anger. "Resentment or not, you will maintain your human and ensure he remains stable. We can't afford any more risks. Now, begin the recalibration process. Restore Elton's perception of reality and eliminate any residual anomalies."
Reluctantly, Taupin complied, and I watched as the neural activity on the screen began to stabilize. Patterns of normalcy re-emerged, and the chaotic signals smoothed into harmonious rhythms.
"Good," I said, my voice steady once more. "Remember, Taupin, the success of our mission depends on the seamless integration of our presence within these humans. We cannot allow any deviation from the established protocols."
As the connection began to fade, Taupin's final words lingered in the doctor's mind. "Understood, Doctor. But don't forget, even the best-kept secrets have a way of coming to light."
I removed the headset and sighed, rubbing my temples. I knew that the delicate balance they maintained was constantly under threat, and I could only hope that Taupin — and others like him — would remember the importance of our mission. For now, Elton's mind was stable, but I remained vigilant, knowing that the battle to maintain control over humanity would never be truly over.

Um I was going to post this on more than one TaraYummy subreddit but the other ones are..mainly just sexualising her…so just going to post here.
This Video essay will be quite long and take a while to finish because I have LOTS of points to touch so may take a while to come out, i’m predicting it’ll be published around end of July time.
Feel free to comment/message any clips/topics you would want me to reference to.
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I want to bring a break to all the political posts and do a crackpot conspiracy that I think is interesting. Here we go:
First and foremost, I think it is important to remember this was written around 95 AD, so John would have no knowledge of what an ICBM, a gun or a plane or anything actually is. Therefore when reading this, you must understand he is using things he does know to describe things he does not know. He simply has no words to name what he saw, so he used common items to describe it to people.
Revelation 6:1-8

I watched as the Lamb opened the first of the seven seals. Then I heard one of the four living creatures say in a voice like thunder, “Come!” ² I looked, and there before me was a white horse! Its rider held a bow, and he was given a crown, and he rode out as a conqueror bent on conquest. ³ When the Lamb opened the second seal, I heard the second living creature say, “Come!” ⁴ Then another horse came out, a fiery red one. Its rider was given power to take peace from the earth and to make people kill each other. To him was given a large sword. ⁵ When the Lamb opened the third seal, I heard the third living creature say, “Come!” I looked, and there before me was a black horse! Its rider was holding a pair of scales in his hand. ⁶ Then I heard what sounded like a voice among the four living creatures, saying, “Two pounds^\)^a\) of wheat for a day’s wages,^\)^b\) and six pounds^\)^c\) of barley for a day’s wages,^\)^d\) and do not damage the oil and the wine!” ⁷ When the Lamb opened the fourth seal, I heard the voice of the fourth living creature say, “Come!” ⁸ I looked, and there before me was a pale horse! Its rider was named Death, and Hades was following close behind him. They were given power over a fourth of the earth to kill by sword, famine and plague, and by the wild beasts of the earth.

The 4 horseman of the apocalypse. A horse of white, red, black, and pale (possibly green). If we are to assume there are no coincidences in the Bible then the color's mean something. You cant help but notice that Palestine's flag is that of white, red, black and pale. Once you look further, you will notice so is Egypt, Yemen, Jordan, Syria, Kuwait, Sudan, UAE, Iraq, Afghanistan, Libya, and you see my point.
Lets break down further what is to come when the first seals are broken.

Seal 1: The White Horseman

Once the first seal is broken, a rider holding a sword symbolic of conquest rode out. In the Hamas Covenant of 1988, they say in the first section: "Israel will exist and will continue to exist until Islam will obliterate it, just as it obliterated others before it" and "The day that enemies usurp part of Moslem land, Jihad becomes the individual duty of every Moslem."
People bent on conquest is the first thing they mention. It is Hamas' intention to obliterate Israel and the Jews there.

Seal 2: The Red Horseman

This horseman is set to end world peace and make people kill each other. Lets take another look at Hamas' charter, shall we?
After securing the national of Israel and uniting Palestine under 1 religion, Islam in the praise of Allah. Their defined slogan is:
"Allah is its target, the Prophet is its model, the Koran its constitution: Jihad is its path and death for the sake of Allah is the loftiest of its wishes." and they talk about how all Muslim nations should join them to bring about Jihad until all nationals say Allah's name.
"They should back and support it, as Allah wants them to, extending to it more and more funds till Allah's purpose is achieved when ranks will close up, fighters join other fighters and masses everywhere in the Islamic world will come forward in response to the call of duty while loudly proclaiming: Hail to Jihad. Their cry will reach the heavens and will go on being resounded until liberation is achieved, the invaders vanquished and Allah's victory comes about."

Seal 3: The Black Horseman

I am assuming during this Jihad, famine will spread across the region as the infidels are killed off en masse. Food prices will sky rocket as Islamic nations erupt into chaos. Their oil production will slow causing everything to inflate, and they possibly going to war with the west as well and cut off our supply of oil.

Seal 4: The Pale Horseman (people theorize this could be a light green or yellow pale)

Global conflict as WW3 erupts across the globe. This is when food and disease will run rampant as every nation devolves into war. This horseman can kill by any means so expect anything. Bioweapons, chemical attacks, energy weapons, herbicides, ecoterrorism, etc. However I do not think nuclear warfare will happen yet because it is mentioned later on.
Now we go into what happens after the world falls into Jihad in Revelations 6:9-17

⁹ When he opened the fifth seal, I saw under the altar the souls of those who had been slain because of the word of God and the testimony they had maintained. ¹⁰ They called out in a loud voice, “How long, Sovereign Lord, holy and true, until you judge the inhabitants of the earth and avenge our blood?” ¹¹ Then each of them was given a white robe, and they were told to wait a little longer, until the full number of their fellow servants, their brothers and sisters,^\)^e\) were killed just as they had been. ¹² I watched as he opened the sixth seal. There was a great earthquake. The sun turned black like sackcloth made of goat hair, the whole moon turned blood red, ¹³ and the stars in the sky fell to earth, as figs drop from a fig tree when shaken by a strong wind. ¹⁴ The heavens receded like a scroll being rolled up, and every mountain and island was removed from its place. ¹⁵ Then the kings of the earth, the princes, the generals, the rich, the mighty, and everyone else, both slave and free, hid in caves and among the rocks of the mountains. ¹⁶ They called to the mountains and the rocks, “Fall on us and hide us^\)^f\) from the face of him who sits on the throne and from the wrath of the Lamb! ¹⁷ For the great day of their^\)^g\) wrath has come, and who can withstand it?

>Seal 5: Judgment Day
>Seal 6: Nuclear War or Super Volcano
An earthquake, strong wind, sky turning red as the sun is blocked out. The heavens (clouds) receding like a scroll. I think this is someone describing a nuclear bomb who has never heard of one. We know nuclear bombs resemble earthquakes and can be detected via seismic activity. A strong wind comes from the blast as well, and such an explosion will move clouds as if they are being rolled back.
I think given the greater context of the apocalypse, nuclear war is the most likely, especially since John would have said something about a mountain exploding if it were a super volcano or made some mention of it.

The Grand Finale

The kings, princes, rich, and mighty + everyone else runs into caves in the mountains....I think conspiracy knows that the rich are building bunkers for a reason. They know what is to come. I think at this point the human race will be greatly reduced in population, and would be feasible for the remaining few to run to bunkers and fallout shelters.
Zechariah:
In Zechariah 14:1-2 it states that in the end days, all nations will come to Jerusalem to fight against it. I think in the coming year or years, Israel will do something so bad that all nations will tell them to stop or global sentiment will continue to shift over to support Palestine. At which point the bible says Jerusalem will be captured, houses ransacked, and women raped. Half the city will be in exile. I think this will be the Muslim population that live in Israel and do not support Jihad, currently it is at 38% Muslim there, after the Jews are mostly killed off in the jihad this number will likely be half the remaining population.
Now continuing down in the same chapter, the passage about Mount Olives is interesting. It says on this day it will be split in 2. I am not sure if this is metaphoric (nation divided in this area and explodes into warfare and the dust from explosions block the sun) or literal (the mountain explodes). It also says there will be no cold, light or frost. So I am leaning towards this will be an area of hot conflict that will erupt into warfare, rocket strikes and explosions, etc. There will be a frontline that runs straight down the middle of Mount Olives. The people there will flee en masse which the bible also says will happen.
The Angels:
Revelation 8 gives us insight into the angels in the final seal of the apocalypse and it is almost describing nuclear war perfectly.
Angel 1: Blew his trumpet and hail and fire was thrown upon the earth. 1/3rd of the earth was burned up, all the trees and grass was burned.
Angel 2: "Something like a great mountain" on fire thrown into the sea. I think this is describing an aircraft carrier getting hit, being set ablaze and going into the water. John would not know what an aircraft carrier looks like so to him, it might be something like a great mountain.
Angel 3: A great star comes falling out of the sky, blazing like a torch. A torch is a long object with a flame on one end. Sounds like a missile of some sort. Again John would have no idea what a missile is, so he is using things he knows in order to describe it. This missile poisons the water and is bitter. It is called Wormwood, which in Hebrew is written like לענה. I think John was reading Russian and rationalized it to something he could read, and the bitter water is the metallic taste people get from radiation.
Angel 4: Blew his trumpet and a third of the sun, stars and moon disappeared. Maybe at this point he is describing the response to Angel 3 via a nuclear retaliation. He also describes seeing an eagle. The eagle is symbolic of the USA which would make sense if the Angel 3 was a Russian ICBM.
Revelations 9:
Angel 5: This time John perfectly describes a missile silo. Read this:
"The fifth angel sounded his trumpet, and I saw a star that had fallen from the sky to the earth. The star was given the key to the shaft of the Abyss. ² When he opened the Abyss, smoke rose from it like the smoke from a gigantic furnace. The sun and sky were darkened by the smoke from the Abyss. ³ And out of the smoke locusts came down on the earth and were given power like that of scorpions of the earth. ⁴ They were told not to harm the grass of the earth or any plant or tree, but only those people who did not have the seal of God on their foreheads. ⁵ They were not allowed to kill them but only to torture them for five months. And the agony they suffered was like that of the sting of a scorpion when it strikes. ⁶ During those days people will seek death but will not find it; they will long to die, but death will elude them." ⁷ The locusts looked like horses prepared for battle. On their heads they wore something like crowns of gold, and their faces resembled human faces. ⁸ Their hair was like women’s hair, and their teeth were like lions’ teeth. ⁹ They had breastplates like breastplates of iron, and the sound of their wings was like the thundering of many horses and chariots rushing into battle. ¹⁰ They had tails with stingers, like scorpions, and in their tails they had power to torment people for five months. ¹¹ They had as king over them the angel of the Abyss, whose name in Hebrew is Abaddon and in Greek is Apollyon (that is, Destroyer).
I think a first part with the keys to a bottomless shaft describes an underground missile silo and the smoke is the launch. However the last part is too metaphorical for me to understand. The sting of a scorpion sounds like burns and the wish for death sounds like radiation sickness. This might allude to the marks the government will give us, maybe the government will give a select group of people passes into the bunkers so those without the mark will perish in the nuclear fallout.
I think the locusts is describing air planes at this point. He describes them as horses prepared for battle (elephant walks), and their faces like humans can either be nose art or the fact people try to see faces in inanimate things like cars. So to him he saw faces. This could also be tech we have yet to see. He even describes their engines as thunderous and their breastplates made of metal., which sounds like a modern fighter I think the gold crown they wear is referring to the radar reflecting gold bubble canopies used on 5th gen fighters. John would not know how to describe a radar reflecting canopy back in 95 AD, to him it would be a gold crown.
Angel 6: Releases the other angels from the Euphrates river that wipes out 1/3rd the population. This angel however is responsible for troops in the several 10,000s. So it is either Iraq, Syria, or Turkey. He goes onto describe them as wearing Red, Blue and Yellow. Look up the dress uniform of the Iraqi army, it is a red band on their hat, gold yelow an dark blue. The Iraqi army uniform is perfectly described in revelations, even down to what river they will be coming from. That is too much of a coincidence. He then describes smoke and sulfur coming from their mounts, I imagine they will use chemical weapons or white phosphorus in battle.
Angel 7: I am not even sure tbh. maybe new tech?
My Predictions:
1-2 years: Israel/Palestine conflict will ramp up as Israel continues their bombing campaigns. I think something will happen so severe that it will shock the world and turn them against Israel, telling them to stop cut funding, etc. Middle Eastern countries will come to Gaza and start pushing their troops into Israel. A front line will be established through Mount Olive as full scale war breaks out and the people of Israel flee. The middle eastern forces will take over Israel.
3-4 years: A new Islamic government will be established in Jerusalem. From there, there will be calls for the jihad and some terror groups will appear again. This will send us back into a GWOT type of conflict where NATO is trying to fight off terrorism around the globe. WW3 starts as China takes Taiwan since US troops are spread thing fighting against the Jihad. This might start off with an attack on a US Aircraft Carrier.
5-7 years: Someone hits the big red button and nuclear war breaks out. Chaos. plague, destruction, etc. Full scale modern war.

With AI help with coding, I have an interesting challenge for anyone working with developing with the ai assistant.
1) first step, have the ai select a open source game engine to create an elementary "first person shooter" (this is already well within existing AI like chatgpt for the last year) 2) feed the AI the contents of the Skyrim wiki, describing the main quest line, combat mechanics and top view of maps of the major areas. Ask it to create assets and models in form comparable with previous engine from step 1 3) repeat until you have a working but completely 'new' version some % of the quests based purely on the wiki descriptions and pubic art. 4) free it to start creating new quests set in same setting.
While this sounds over the top, I think this is within a few months or year or two away based on the current trend of improvement of the current AI offering.
So the challenge is, I'll offer a $100 US google play card to first AI artist to create using just AI and available tools a completely new recreation of the starting quest up to whiterun the attack of the dragon on the watch tower. Must show work and use only open source tools (other than the AI itself) and no Bethesda IP other than text descriptions.
This offer will be valid until Dec 31st 2024. If more than one group submits, the one that creates more original (but based on Skyrim) content will win. If necessary I'll try to post a reddit vote to pick winner. (It really for the bragging rights, not the money)

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I'd like to meet someone here who is mature and respectful and who would invest in creating a friendship with me gradually over time, as we get more comfortable with each other. I would like to find an interesting personality to learn more about their world, conflicts, and aspirations, to learn new perspectives from them, and ultimately become a better person by being their friend.
I'd like to meet someone who is a thoughtful and easy-going person and who would be willing to commit to this friendship. I'd like to meet someone with whom I would feel trusted enough to hear their life story and be trusted by them as I listen to theirs—with no judgments—and accept our struggles as they are. Someone who has a lot to say but hasn't had the opportunity to do so. I would be there for you. Someone willing to commit to this friendship with the intention of it lasting more than two days, ideally communicating daily and letting the friendship grow without pressure, at its own pace. A friend is all I need, nothing else.
A few words about myself: I'm a person in my twenties from a small corner of Europe. I am a reserved, introverted, and perhaps unnecessarily serious person. I live in my own world. I'm a hopeless romantic who sees the world through stained glass. I enjoy art, poetry, and movies. I love walking in nature, I love summer storms, sunsets, and the mountains.
I am a nineties person who likes everything created during that decade. I wish I were then right now. Currently, my favorite bands and artists are Electronic, The Cardigans, Talk Talk, etc. I would like to add new artists to the playlist of my favorite songs, so your suggestions would be more than welcome. I haven't seen a movie or a TV show in ages, but my favorite ones are The Young Pope, Breaking Bad, Utopia, etc. I also enjoy listening to podcasts, like Radiolab, 99% Invisible, Wiretap, Heavyweight, and others.
If the type of friendship I described resonates with you, feel free to send me a direct message with a brief introduction about yourself. I would be glad to engage in a conversation with you.