Good topics when texting a guy

A little bit about myself
My personality type is INJT, I lean pretty far left , and most of my friends would describe me as talkative and supportive. I love to talk about a topic for hours no matter how nerdy, long philosophical phone calls are my specialty. I'm a night owl so any hour is a good hour for me. I'm a very monogamous person, and i'm not looking for something casual , i want someone i can build a future with.
When im not working ( I have a degree in accounting) Most of my free time is spent playing chess or watching/playing basketball. Lately I've been watching a lot of movies (mainly rom-coms and action ). I play a fair amount of video games ( Fortnite , COD and recently stardew valley. (i'm horrible but we can suck together). My main genres of music are Rap, R&B and blues music.
What I'm looking for: not really into casual dating, more interested in a long-term monogamous partner, someone with similar political views. I'm very big on communication so ideally you'd be able to express yourself well. I'm in no rush to meet IRL but that is certainly the goal. Physically speaking I don't really have much of a preference, I just like what i like. Someone who's down to binge-watch an insane amount of TV shows with me.
Physically: I'm practically a giant at 6 '7 African American and I'm on the heavier side for sure but recently I've been going to the gym. I’ll make sure to put a picture of myself below .You can feel free to send a picture of yourself whenever you’re comfortable.
https://imgur.com/a/HasQ0fM
If my post caught your attention feel free to send me a message, as long as it still up I’m still looking.

Trek FX 2 - https://www.balfesbikes.co.uk/bikes/hybrid-bikes/trek-fx-2-disc-hybrid-bike-2023-in-viper-red__29104
Giant Fastroad AR 1 - https://www.balfesbikes.co.uk/bikes/hybrid-bikes/giant-fastroad-ar-1-hybrid-bike-2023-in-aged-denim__48933
Hi guys - I am looking for a starter hybrid bike to commute ~5 miles once/twice a week. Due to size constraints and availability during the summers I can only find these two models in XL that are available. Trek FX2 is ~£600 and Giant Fastroad AR 1 is coming for ~£1200.
(I am these are not directly comparable and FX3 might be more closer to FastRoad but it’s stock is just not available anywhere I checked - thus drilled down on these two)
I have paid deposit for both the bikes for trial run and need to select one when it comes in next few days. Honestly I am okay with spending ~£1200 given I am investing for a longer term, but I am just wondering if I even need it given my commute is not that long (at the moment).
Pros I think about Trek FX 2 - It has got decent specs as a starter hybrid bike and due to rising theft issues in Central London, I would be less stressed about locking it anywhere ( with good locks though). If I like biking then I could invest in a proper road bike in a couple of years.
Pros I think about Giant FastRoad AR 1 - It’s got nearly top end specs with Carbon Forks and thus the rides are expected to be much better. I might not have to invest in road bike as this might suffice my needs to be in/around London.
What do you guys think?

Quote texts are his comments that I replied to.

It’s been shoved down our throats 24/7 since 2020-2021.

Pride has existed way longer than then. The reason Pride exists, the reason there’s an emphasis on promoting LGBT people in media, is to normalize their existence for millions of people who are often times indoctrinated by their parents into hating those people. Pride is the only reason I broke out of the homophobic, bigoted environment I was raised in and began to accept people.

Prior to that, no one knew or cared about pronouns, now it’s all the rage.

Pronouns have existed for as long as various languages have existed. Even the use of the singular “they” has been used in English since the 1300s. The “rage” surrounding pronouns is merely people stating what shortened form to calling them by their name they prefer. That’s it. You’re acting like this is some “Let’s eat TidePods” -esque internet trend. It’s harmless. I’ve been on the internet in plenty of spaces that had LGBT people, and, in the past 3 years or so, I can count on one hand the amount of times I had to make any effort to remember someone’s pronouns. It’s not that complicated, nor does it signify the downfall of society that you make it out to be.

God forbid I call a man a man, a woman a woman, or people, people.
You literally can’t make any sort of valid criticism towards LGBT without getting labeled a homophobe / transphobe.

Damn. I wonder why they call you a transphobe. What an enigma.

There’s the option to put your pronouns on social media, which is absolutely fucking stupid.

Why? Because you don’t want to use it? Then don’t. There also remains the option to link your other social medias, link your website, post your phone number, advertise your business, pay to promote your own ads on other people’s feeds, direct message celebrities who obviously won’t respond to you, follow bot accounts that will probably just send your porn or try to scam you out of your money. All of these things have something in common: you can choose to participate, or you can choose to ignore. If it bothers you, just don’t use the feature or delete the app. To your surprise I’m sure, there are millions of people who gladly use the pronouns feature. You are extremely sensitive and bigoted if this genuinely gets you up in arms. My lord.

There’s people who honestly believe that men menstruate.

Transgender men and intersex men can and do menstruate in many occasions. Cisgender men obviously cannot. When people say “men can menstruate” they are speaking of trans or intersex men. You just choose to ignore this fact because you believe there is no such thing, which you are wrong about.

There’s men dressing up as women desperately trying to get near children to read them books for “Drag Queen story time”.

There’s adult men putting on ridiculous costumes and wearing makeup and attending children’s gatherings to entertain them. What are we gonna do about clowns?
“Desperately trying to get near children” Sounds to me like you can’t imagine a scenario where an adult can wish to read to children they aren’t related to without immediately thinking of sexual abuse. These events occur in public spaces under the supervision of parents. They read to these kids books about loving and accepting yourself and treating people equally. You act like they’re a bunch of sex offenders straight out of prison trying to show children what dildos are. You are absolutely delusional, and your homophobia is showing.

I go to Target, and there’s rainbows and LGBT flags printed all over children’s clothing. Not just in June during “Pride” month. It’s there year-round.

Oh, I know. When I was a kid I had to endure the trauma of reading books about families with straight couples. Oh, the horror! How dare they introduce children to such filth! Leave the kids alone!
I can’t believe they put ideological flags all over kids’ clothes regarding topics they don’t understand. Stop putting those American flags on my kids’ clothes! Quit indoctrinating them into a tribalistic belief of national supremacy!
In all seriousness, why is this an issue? If you believe it’s okay to be gay in the same ways you believe it’s okay to be straight you would not act this way. If you don’t like the existence of gay people (you know, almost like a homophobe), then just say so. Stop pretending to view straight and gay people the same. You don’t.

You have our President announcing Easter Sunday that day is “Trans Awareness” day.

Trans Awareness day has occurred on March 31 every year for the past fifteen years. In case you weren’t aware, the date of Easter changes every single year. This year, both events happened to fall on the same day. President Biden acknowledged both events on that day. Anyways, since when is only one celebration allowed to occur per day? Hanukkah and Kwanzaa occur at the same time. Should they fight to see who deserves their holiday the most? That’s like being mad that some people are born on Christmas and celebrate both occasions. Besides, why is it so blasphemous to celebrate those specific events on the same day? If you believe in Jesus, don’t you believe he loved everyone and wanted everybody to care for their neighbor? Why do you fight so valiantly to demean LGBT people? That seems to go against a belief that we are all created and loved equally, but you can just go ahead and make up your own rules to the religion. That’s how it works, right?

Now June is known as “Pride” month, when in reality, it’s Mens Mental Health month.

Now October is known as “ADHD Awareness” month, when in reality, it’s Breast Cancer Awareness month. Fuck your ADHD awareness! My condition takes priority over yours! This month is all mine! No one else’s!
It’s ridiculous and tribalistic to act like every month should only focus on one unprivileged group at a time. I guess we have to consolidate all the cancers into one month, first off. Maybe combine all the historically oppressed minority groups into one month as well. This guy on Reddit knows to focus on the real issues.
Men’s mental health has only gotten worse since the awareness month became a thing in 1994. The month obviously hasn’t worked very well. Especially considering I didn’t even know it was a thing until 10 minutes ago. Pride Month has been celebrated since 1970, and it became official in 1999. Since then, support for LGBT rights has skyrocketed. To claim that a wholly ineffective month takes precedent over something as iconic and impactful as Pride month shows how out of touch you are.
For the record, I’m entirely in support of acknowledging Men’s mental health awareness, and I am sorry for the loss of your friend, but whoever is promoting this month needs to do a WAY better job. Male suicide has only increased since that month became a thing. These days, too many men try hard to act tough instead of admitting their true emotions, resulting in pent up anger that is often times lashed out at innocent people for unnecessary reasons. I think that’s why you have so much hate for the LGBT community; either that or you’re very susceptible to propaganda.
I can assure you the reason men’s mental health is shit is not because of some kinky pride events. It’s because we are a society by men, for men, expecting all men to be breadwinners who are also tall, buff, and attractive. It’s because women have become commodified and it’s way easier to get a boyfriend as a girl than it is to get a girlfriend as a man. There are many things to blame: political leaders, our economic system, our own testosterone…
LGBT people are not one of them.
Shift your focus to the real issues at hand and stop demonizing people who suffer many of the same mental health issues you to claim to care about.

Trek FX 2 - https://www.balfesbikes.co.uk/bikes/hybrid-bikes/trek-fx-2-disc-hybrid-bike-2023-in-viper-red__29104
Giant Fastroad AR 1 - https://www.balfesbikes.co.uk/bikes/hybrid-bikes/giant-fastroad-ar-1-hybrid-bike-2023-in-aged-denim__48933
Hi guys - I am looking for a starter hybrid bike to commute ~5 miles once/twice a week. Due to size constraints and availability during the summers I can only find these two models in XL that are available. Trek FX2 is ~£600 and Giant Fastroad AR 1 is coming for ~£1200.
(I am these are not directly comparable and FX3 might be more closer to FastRoad but it’s stock is just not available anywhere I checked - thus drilled down on these two)
I have paid deposit for both the bikes for trial run and need to select one when it comes in next few days. Honestly I am okay with spending ~£1200 given I am investing for a longer term, but I am just wondering if I even need it given my commute is not that long (at the moment).
Pros I think about Trek FX 2 - It has got decent specs as a starter hybrid bike and due to rising theft issues in Central London, I would be less stressed about locking it anywhere ( with good locks though). If I like biking then I could invest in a proper road bike in a couple of years.
Pros I think about Giant FastRoad AR 1 - It’s got nearly top end specs with Carbon Forks and thus the rides are expected to be much better. I might not have to invest in road bike as this might suffice my needs to be in/around London.
What do you guys think?

I thought it was smart on the Blackhawks to bring in vets like Nick Foligno to be a mentor for Bedard on and off the ice. Would it make sense for the Sharks to sign someone like Blake Wheeler to take on that role for Smith and Celebrini? I know there won’t be as much media hype and scrutiny on our guys like there was for Bedard but if Cooch is still out another veteran leader could be nice.
Also what would the draft compensation have to be if we threw an offer sheet for Kaapo Kakko? We need wing depth and have the cap space to overpay him for a short term contract. If he works out great, but if not when the contract is over hopefully we’ll be ready to compete for the playoffs. A change of scenery could be good for him and being a lottery pick himself he could potentially give good advice to our young guys himself.

I recently broke up with my narc bf (26M) of 4 years because he cheated on me, amongst narc traits.I started ignoring his texts and emails and then eventually blocked him. He then started emailing me everyday, finding notorious ways to contact me with different email addresses and texts professing his love. He then started coming round my flat and I started to feel anxious he was on the train i would be on, and got really scared when he came knocking over and over demanding to speak at my door. I don’t understand why I was scared? Because he’s never physically abused me.
I then called the police and he spent the night in jail. I am wrecked with guilt for putting him through this as we also had good times. He then pretended to be socially challenged and said he didn’t realise his behaviour of harassment was wrong. What I’m wrecked over, did he really not know it was wrong? Was it the right decision to call the police on him, would a different method work?

I met “H” through our mutual friend group in August and he was very persistent and flirty and made his interest in me known immediately. He would constantly ask me about what my type was, my love life, what type of guys I was into, etc. I was seeing someone at the time, so I would brush off his attempts to flirt and his advances. He would always ask me to hang out (which I declined) and would text me whenever there was a group hangout to ask if I would be there.
When things ended with the guy I was seeing, I would vent to “H” about about the situation and one day “H” asked me how I felt about him and if I saw him as more than a friend. I told him that I wasn’t over the guy I was seeing and I wanted to get to know him as a friend first because I want to build an emotional connection first before building a sexual one (because I kept meeting guys that only wanted sex and not a relationship). I let him know upfront that I was looking for a relationship and that I didn’t do anything casual.
One day he sent me a risqué meme that I was put off by and I asked him what he wanted from me (whether his intentions were to pursue and relationship or if he just wanted a fuck buddy). He said that he didn’t know me well enough to know if he wanted to pursue a relationship (as he was still getting to know me) and felt like I would be able to emotionally handle a fuck buddy situation (so he wasn’t interested in that).
One day, he invites me over to his house and I ask him to make actual plans outside of his house and in advance. He invites me to see a movie and we go back to his house. We have sex and I discuss his intentions and he said that he only sees me as a fuck buddy and not someone that he would actually date. He said that he would never just invite a woman he would want to date to his house and he would actually make plans to go out and do things with her. I asked him why he couldn’t see himself dating me and he said that it was because I’m not confident. He also gave me dating advice. I ended things with him.
Three days later, he starts messaging me again as if nothing happened and I ignore his message. The next day, I saw him at a mutual friend’s house and he cornered me and complained that I was giving him the cold shoulder and that we needed to talk. I ignored him and he called me three times in a row after we left our friend’s house. The next day, I texted him and asked what he needed to talk about. He said that he wanted to get a “temperature check” on things between us. I was confused because I thought that I was clear about not being willing to be in a fuck buddy situation. When we talked, he said that I never told him that I was looking for a relationship (although I know for certain that I did). He also said that he still wanted to get to know me and he wanted to actually go out and do things together. So, I’m thinking that we are now on the same page, dating, and working towards something.
We spend the weekend together, going out (with PDA), sleeping over, making breakfast, cuddling, kissing, and having sex. Then he suddenly starts giving me dating advice, showing me photos of women he’s attracted to and has DM’d, and talking about what he’s looking for in the “next woman he talks to”. He randomly gets a call from someone (and I catch that it is a woman’s name) and he takes the call and rushes downstairs. He comes back upstairs over explaining things and how it was one of his “boys”. I somehow made an excuse to leave. Before I left, he told me to let him know if I’m catching feelings. This blew me because I thought that this was more than a fuck buddy situation.
I went through his followers on IG and found the woman that called him. It turns out they have been seeing each other since (at the latest) April of last year (although he told me that he was single and not sleeping with anyone else). Due to this fact, along with the fact that he clearly doesn’t want more, and the fact that he took the condom off during the last time we had sex (despite me telling him that I’m not on birth control and constantly reminding him to do so) I blocked him on everything. After blocking him, he tried to follow me multiple times on alternate accounts and looked me up on LinkedIn.
Last week, I went to a house party and he was there. He said nothing to me and I was relieved. That Sunday, I noticed that my car was making knocking noises, so I decided to take it to the mechanic. On the way to the mechanic, one of my front tires came off while I was driving. When I had the car towed to the mechanic, the mechanic asked was anyone mad at me and said that it looks like someone loosened the lug nuts on my car. I’m not sure if he did it, but I do find it interesting that this happened the day after the house party and he is keeping tabs on me via LinkedIn.
Despite the fact that he has proven that he is awful and not someone I’d want a relationship with, it still sucks that someone who chased me down only saw me as a fuck buddy/side chick. I’m constantly comparing myself to her and wondering why he saw her as girlfriend material and only saw me as a fuck buddy.

Hello, I can't sleep and Im getting pills for it. I have been awake for 48 hours now. And things are a bit of blur. But I have realised that I have picked up and extreme urge to write. I dont know how or why, but I crank out amazing short horror stories in 20minutes, and cant remember why. i realise that there are symptoms regarding sleep deprevation but whats happening doesnt match anything I've seeh. So yea the compulsion to write is weird and I have developed an obession of posting them to reddit (this I swear is not one), lying and not knowing why to commenters. I had posted a list about of game I like but not that much, the list was a thousand words, and I spent an hour of time doing nothing else making this list, all of knowledge I'd forgotten about. You can find the rest of the messy mesy story, and I lied and said I was high in one post, and took down countless others. I dont even use reddit that much, always that it was a bit weird, and though. I was mostly wrong, I thought I would come here. I have ADHD and focusing is hard for me, and i have never been so hyperifxated on something like that in my life. And then i started a little log to see where im at during my sleepless night. Each hour. I logged. And Logged And logged. I didnt realise how much i was hallicinating, but I think I was in REM sleep and I somehow retained perfect ability to type on keyboard without seeing and look. I thought that everything I was typing made sense, but after kinda snapping out of it, I realised in horror kind of. So i took my photo booth opened, it and ran a video of me. I was in REM sleep for sure, and i was typing unbelievbly fast. I remember everything, I could think and then my hands would type it. I know it sounds weird, but like my imagination, my subconscious thoughts were being projected somehow. Heres all 3000 words and counting of it. the last couple where I do the test make it unclear, but unless someone actually replies to this, I will save images and photos for later. I am currently still hallucinating but not as badly so pardon my misspellings.
Now I Swear on My Life this is real, none of my friends believe me, my sister does though. please help me
Here it is
-1am feeling tired didn’t get to sleep until three last night, so this sucks
-3am haven’t done any work went don’t disturbing internet mystery rabbit hole. Also what will my screen time look like? Not good.
-5am- That’s when it hits you, the birds and the light, worst feeling ever. Microsleep hit, and I hallucinate myself watching a video. WTF.
-8am-I have been writing a short story for the past 3 hours, wtf is wrong with me. I get out of my room at 8:30, and something shocking, happened, I looked in the mirror and I have a six pack? At first I thought hallucination and dismissed it, went and had nothing for breakfast apart from some ice cream. I am scared.
-9am-taken medication feel fine. I have not eaten much and I am aware it is taking a toll on my weight. I have six pack and look shredded. This is not a good thing.
-10am- all my 2500 word essay got deleted. I notice sleep deprivation and medication, has a weird affect. It masks the affects of sleepiness. I feel fine, no fatigue, could work for ever. I have a 1 hour tutor session, let’s see how that goes.
12pm- Finished tutoring session - felt easy speedy and fine. Am heavily addicted to reddit. I feel like the dexiamphetamine is having an affect on my body which makes me entrenctched into whatever I am doing.
2pm- Got to get ready for kickboxing class junior leadership thing. My face is riddled with pimples. This is caused by a lack of sleep and water and proper nutrients.
5pm- I got home, feel fine, it was really cold though. No signs of cognitive decline like I usually show. Actually I take that back, things have become to become distorted, my eyes are messing with me as a result of the micro-hallucinations I am experiencing. I took 2 more dexiamphetamines, probably a bad idea.
8pm-I feel amazing, but at the same time little work as been done on rave. I am completely and utterly obsessed with writing stories, I spent and hour and a half texting my adventure to London, and I begun to get really descriptive. I am not in a good mental state(Not as in depressed, as in I can’t judge if what im doing is weird, it has to be right?).
9pm- Symptoms are really starting to show now. I have been listening to sad songs whilst I write my English, it is a story so it’s going well.
9:30pm- I have spent too long over many hours compiling a list of things I’d like to see in fallout 5. What the fuck, I am at the point in which I can’t take a step back. Computer screen distorted at time. When I am typing, I keep thinking about how to do the hashing technique using curved lines with a ball point pen. I have wrote probably over 800 words disputing claims about my fallout 5 post.
10pm- I have possibly written an amazing English assignment. My dread in which consumes me, about this assignment is keeping me motivated whilst I listen to music(mainly sad music.) I love the start of the song violent crimes by Kanye west, I had that on repeat for a while until I moved onto other sad songs, because I didn’t want it to burn out (its a great song)
10:30 in bed now feeling weird. I was wondering around and yep im hallucinating, and it sucks ass. Minor ones at the moment, which are good, but it’s more like my mind will think something is there that is not. Does that make sense? But then in the hall way, it was dark and as I turned on the light I saw some fucked up face. Alright now im scaring myself jeez.
10:50 So right now typing this the visual hallucinations have definitly set in, it’s weird that I am conscious enough to witness it happen in real time. This doesn’t feel real. How to describe what I’m seeing, like waves silk-like distortions of everything. Right now I look up and I see like silky distortions of the corner of the roof distort and move. It is significantly worse in the dark, as brain has to make up for a lack of what is there. I turned the light on and yes it is better. They are still there but are minor and less apparent. Legitimately everything scares me, my body is jumping, I guess as my brain is focusing as much maybe, and then when I do hear something out of the ordinary it spooks me. I don’t know why but I feel like all of sudden im just gonna go crazy and it’s like a race against time, but it will be slow and I will see how long I can last. Typing has become significantly harder as I loose control of my motor skill which has happened in a short time of 30 minutes. Wow creepy peripherals make up visuals, idk why that is
-11:20- Taken videos as updates. I feel like this is the quiet before the storm. My brain is making things up and it’s pissing me off. It has revoked my right to type, and everything that is not in my direct peripheral now is some sort of the thing. Like bro every key I type my fucking brain slows down, it’s taken me song long to write this one thing. I can’t think of what I want to say to next, that’s a big one. The changes come on so rapidly and everchanging
-11:40-Brain is sending in backups. My typing speed has increased but my ability to spell words correctly is failing. Right now it’s just not fun. No major hallucinations, just a feeling of dread mixed with a nice side of a painful ass headache and a need to go to the toilet. I find it weird however that when writing, usually a mundane task, my brain kind of goes on autopilot, and I have some sort of visual hallunciaiont, this is weird for the reasons stated, and that my hands seem to be moving themselves, and I am watching them, similar to that somen in black mirror, with the museum. BTW black mirror is NOT something you would want to watch like this. I had dream about white Christmas once, and I felt like I was stuck in there for a million years. #existential crisis right. Ok weird, so it seems like when I disassociate my brain keeps typing, I am having a bit of neural input it seems, but my brain fog which was so present all but 2 minutes ago gone. Ok yea noises are starting to appear a bit. Butt cheeks were clenched. I feel like a lifeless dummy rn. Waiting for next phase. (Prayer emoticon). Also why does my fingers just magically know where all the buttons
12am- And the clock hits twelve. Half way there. At the end of this I will have successfully completed 42 hours. Its not a flex or anything I am aware, its just what choice do I have, try and sleep and be constantly reminded of the overbearing weight of the assignments all due this week?? I don’t want to think about that, no-one does. My fucking bad I managed my time wrong im a fucking kid after all. I am going Canberra college next year and this week has been a step in the wrong direction for me. After mum left everything went to shit. I cannot control myself, I am addicted to gadgets. I need to watch my computer to go to sleep or the google home. I have a compulsion to reddit, and I eat like shit. Chicken in some sort, lie about having vegetables. If I even tried to make a food diary of some sort for these last few days, I would be put on fucking trial for the murder of any chance of bitches. I treated my body like shit. The best word I can describe this week in is - Grunge. Like fucking living in your own shit. That’s how I feel. Everyrnight same routine, go on computer, watch videos until 12, watch google home go to bed. But not really.. Instead I would appear to stay up to 2am or 3am and go to bed, eat some food or something I don’t fucking know. I know I am sleep deprived. It is showing in my works. Weird addiction to writing, my adhd hyperfocuses on something. Drawing and Writing. As I write this my brain tries to seduce me into its gaze. The room or just the essence of living is moving, right to left, like im in a slide, and then left to right, and then so on and so forth. I am afraid this is what happens when you eat nothing but sugar and sugar and sugar, don’t sleep and drug your self on drugs. Skin is just a warning, my body brain will be infected I need to stop. I cannot live unregulated.
12:13am- My eyes heart, everything’s shadow is big and I don’t know how much more of this I can take. It is hell, and Im not even at the micro sleeps. They sound low-key cool. I am waiting to go out, make myself a wrap with butter, and get around the computer as I mindlessly do nothing. I don’t watch YouTube want, other way round, and thoughts of my intentional original purpose, to do work for school, left the window a long time ago. I close my eyes for a split second and I ee a teddy bear. They keep appearing, things are melting, this is it baby, as Jeff Kinney would say, we in for the long haul. I want to keep typing and I don’t know why, partly because it is cool that I have kept typing this long, and partly because what else do I do. Wait for it to consume me. If I had a pen and paper, I could have drawn the images I see on my computer screen, vague but the all have cross hatchings, a term I am learning. And what happen to monkey type, I swear I searched it. Is it the micro sleep? Is it coming. Yea. Maybe not.
12:30am- Writing these becomes a scapegoat for my mind to kinda control me and I don’t like it, so Im going to keep it short. No differences, Battery low I will have to brave it out of room soon. Hallucinations minimal, and chicken in peripheral which is toy and bedsheet, but I can’t see it as anything else. Cute little reference my brains making, but I have two finder files, and my brain this its two cookie monsters lol. Also eyes are still heavy. I have gained complete and even I would go as far to say enhanced motor control, I feel like I can type fast, and I hear every single click on the key and It freaks me out. I intentionally leave errors in here, not many but some, and my stupid ass thinks im going to read this and think it’s all mysterious. Upon further reflection, I may have been having depth perception hallucinations. What is weird is no vivid hallucinations but everything is something if that makes an inkling of sense. Im not really all there any more. Weird how that works. Time perception is completely altered and distorted. I could have sworn twelve o’clock was ten seconds or 1 hour ago. I cannot swear on either, but ten seconds ago? I could have sworn on one, I cannot remember which one anymore. Speaking my thoughts does not make cohesive notes on my problem and predicament, I should refrain, but sometimes my brain naturally does this. Yea saw souls of the damned again when I blinked, weird, and now liminal shit im seeing, because my brain is like ooh scary I should scream now, and then it pumps out all this shit. It has been 6 minutes since I started writing, that sounds about right, but at the same times that was long, very long, marcy long. (Kill her long). I chicken which is a building waves a hammer at my building. It is the side bar on the right side of my MacBook.
12:37: wanted to wait until 12:40 but time sucks ass and is an illusion. You many know by now that my posts have ramblings of random topic and will veer off. This was not my intention, if I write for longer than a minute I loose my grip on my brain, it starts writing what It pleases. I have to think really hard about what I want to write, even then it just autofilled it. Lucky it’s right. Computer percentage critically low. 9%, yet I am filled with joy and dread right now. I think this could be caused by the effect of my dexi’s that I took, like a long term effect, or rather just the lack of sleep. I am deeply disturebed but interested by myself. I now have real hallucinations now. Files are quickly changed to name. And a beigeish green blood phases through my door fast. If I look at my hands wrong they look like they are encrusted in dry blood. I had to think if blood was the gang or Blud was the gang, that is how you know sjits gone down the drain.
1:00: It is officially one-ocklock and I let my brain take the rails once again(don’t let me down). So right now Im feeling fine, but sometimes I will have clear clarity and feel fine, no hallucinations, no nothing, and this will be followed by an intense one that will not be scary just like kind of convincing. One instance I don’t want to forget is me looking through my old video from a couple hours ago. One of them my arms look weird and photoshopped linked down bellow, and I have like a led type trip. I think it could be inspired by those weird ass instagram reels I watch, but Idk, It was me and that pose, changing shape a bit and material. I was real glossy and like twisted and moulded and back to normal it was weird. I couldn’t see my arms, especially my forearms the same after that. One phenomena which is uniquely odd is the compulsion to write here. I can understand a lack of time knowledge and perception, as it is natural of one when under these conditions, but have loose your sanity to a point where you are able to mindlessly drone on about things happening to you, is weird, weird. It initially started off as an idea, one sentence or maximum short paragraph talking about each hour and how the where different to the next. Also just got jumped scared by the image thanks bitch. Whilst righting this I am aware I made a mistake (writing), I feel like I have some consciousness left, but if I don’t blink it really hit me. So I keep blinking to report back to base. Yea the head is tilting sideways turned into like a fucking dragon praying mantis thing for a sec. Right now I feel alright, the dream is supposed to get to me but it is hard for it to pass, I know that I am supposed to feel creeped out but I don’t, I like it when for a second my brain will just think of something and loose it. One truly weird thing is me being able to hallucinate pictures through the writing. Always cartoons, depicted silly and offbeat. I don’t know why though. Yea Ididnt wright that by the way what the hell. The good ole noggin did. My head stopped hurting, and my neck has softened the blow a bit, and takes a bit of pain not much, and the my neck is also is cricitacl condition, after seeing Moby at the fucking side bar again. This time it wasn’t a chicken this was Moby from fucking Moby and ted. Ok now its ahicken peeking its head out back to straight what the fuck am id doing llama fr fr fr
1:13-computer is low, very low, at 4%. I am back by the way, I got sucked in again but got out and read it really quickly. The fr frfr is from the Tyler the creator song fr fr fr this time. Ya know. Ok so not this time but next time iwirite a paragraph or a time, I am going to record myself, and then when I regain my sanity, I will watch the video to see what I look like, when I am truly not with it. I don’t know if the same thing will happen with this paragraph but I hope not. This notice was just a short one but stay safe. One last thing that is not helping me, I am now scared again, I heard stomping in the kitchen , and I know it could be fake but everything there is stomping in the kitchen I am able to know because if there is at this Time of night I feel my heart drop, and I did which helps add to the case. I don’t eellike investigating but igueess if that is my best option then I will but now is not really there right time. When is ithe right time officers saying gtyring to gain media attention from the main. Never get the fuckout of my house.
1-18am(the test?) So this is the test but I obviously need something to talk about and I have a topic. So basically I think I have cracked the case to the nonsense rambling in which I don’t understand myself. It is a literal projection of what is going on inside my mind. You know how sometimes people will take things literally and then you’re like no I didn’t mean it like that, well it’s kinda the same thing. I say something insidede my head but it comes out through my fingers. And it’s odd because it come with such swiftness and such durability. Right now I a doing it it yes made a spelling mistake whilst looking at my green gamer screen. I don’t know how or why this done. I am back to realign. And yea this is odd, not quite the feeling that I get when I completely disassociate. I am starting to think that maybe I am begging to miceslepe these series of events and include e the within the paragraph, it happen a little bit there, and unlike try to be the bait for other final charges, this on has no backing against it. There it is again, little less than the first time, but my mind wonders and my hand followed. What if I thought some truly despicable stuff, something that would surely get me banned from ever participating in it agin. Now no I have to read this later I don’t really want to hut then again, i if it fits thehe description then we have t o. Brain disrupted my train of thought, I think I had important breakthrough, Never imind I id, the breakthrough was that when I am looking or blurring my eyes, the top of my head the curtain and y alien arms along with the righting combnined to create some sort of card with a circle in the middle in which I can only presume is a play ng car. I am currently doing right now let’s describe. So I hastily have the some sort go grounding I am loosening it,. It is a hashing draw g clear as dal, with I big leak on the right side and spills over, probably
1.28am- the big move. Just kidding I just have to get out of bed. Let’s see who wins me our bed.GUESS FUCKING WHAT BABY I WON. So I should probably start with the obvious what the fuck Is actually happening. Yea will I thought I was fully conscious, dogs barking keeping me in there. So my subconscious is a weird weird weird thing. Yea fuck it’s happening again, I didn’t mean to type that. Ok so talk about more later, but if I can spit it out in time, I enter a state of REM sleep when I start typing, and my brain doesn’t understand what is imaginary and what’s not so it fills in gaps, and whilst doing this, inadvertentltly transposes your visual in real life, and your imagination, until it creates a weird state in which nothing is quite real and nothing is fake. God that sounds so pretentiously ominous. In the video my eyelids flicker, which is why this is my main theory, but what amazes me, is 2 distinct things. The first is my ability to type whilst looking away from my computer or with my eyes closed. I don’t misspell words, which is confusing as when testing this to the best of my ability whilst in this state, I don’t get very good results at all. The second is the fact that I am fully aware of what is happening. I am able to translate what is happening in my mind to the document, with a little bit of brain fog mixed in, which is obvoiusly going to happen in things like this.

So...got an invite to visit a friend, who had a guest over. Entered the house and was told to go into the bedroom...laying on the bed was a BBC rock hard, the host entered & closed the door. I got undressed not knowing where to start, but I SOON figured it out.
My first ever male 3some, my first BBC (10") though I'm Black & my first time having anal performed on me...OMG! I never knew something could actually feel so good. The host is thick & easily 7½". Took it twice doggy and the fireworks occurred when I asked him to let me lay on my back...legs in the air he entered me and gave it to me good...balls DEEP. The best one hour of fun three guys could have & still feeling elated today 👍🏾👍🏾.

Do we remember that time during a Calgary Stampede event last year when media and social media went bananas over the Premier posing for a picture with some guy wearing a green t-shirt?

Premier Danielle Smith is again in the hot seat after she posed for a photograph next to a man wearing a “Straight Pride” T-shirt. https://dailyhive.com/calgary/danielle-smith-photo-straight-pride-shirt

It was literally national news. Global News went with this headline: "What message does the Danielle Smith 'straight pride' photo send to Albertans" Global lined up all the usual suspects in their article, political opposition, university professors, various lefty advocates of every stripe, all of them ripping Smith for having her picture taken with some guy with words on a t-shirt. The Premier had to put out a statement saying she has her picture taken with lots of people and didn't know the guy, and didn't agree with his t-shirt. It was a huge deal.
Contrast that, with this. Here is a May 27th post from 'Fatima' a pro-Palestine activist leader in Edmonton: "Abolish Israel. Free Palestine." And here is a post of Irwin in what appears to be very friendly terms with that same particular protest leader on her right. "We don't care. rain or shine. We show up for Palestine." So... shouldn't someone be asking Janis a few questions as well? Something like, I don't know... Hey Janis, do you also want to 'Abolish Israel'? It seems like that would a valid question to ask and I can't for the life of me understand why not one reporter or anyone else seems to be curious enough to ask it.
From that same Palestinian protest leader we have a post of her leading a chant of: "We don’t want no Zionists here. There is only one solution. Intifada Revolution.” It's not clear if Janis was at this particular march and chanted these exact words but since she has attended many protests with this same leader, wouldn't it be prudent to ask Janis if she is part of the "we" that "don't want no Zionists here"?
Also, responding to a post on X where someone asks: "What about the rights of Jews and all Torontonians to live in our city w/out the constant threats, harassment, intimidation and violence of the anti-Israel mob?" 'Fatima' responds with: "I know he isn't talking about impunity" Which leads to another useful question for the elected representative from Edmonton-highlands-Norwood. Does Janis agree (along with 'Fatima') that Jews in Canada should be forced to let themselves be set up as targets because of some real or imagined connection to Israel? Inquiring minds would like to know, especially in light of the firebombing of a Vancouver synagogue and the shootings at two Jewish schools in Toronto and Montreal that happened lately.
So just to recap, Premier Smith got destroyed by the media for having her picture taken with someone she didn't know, who was wearing a t-shirt with the words: "Thank a straight person today for your existence”. But Janis Irwin gets no blowback for promoting and pledging solidarity with someone who openly says: "Actually, Zionists deserve to be bullied." Is this not hypocritical?
Now in some respects, it is hard to blame a person like 'Fatima' for having the the views that she has. She is clearly of Palestinian descent and is understandably angry at the devastation that is happening in Gaza at the hands of Israel, the long-standing enemy of her people. We should bear in mind though, that it is her type of mindset, along with the Israeli equivalent that has produced generations of war and suffering between the two peoples. For example, Palestinians like 'Fatima' are horrified at the death and suffering raining down on innocent Palestinian civilians and they demand action from anyone and everyone around the world to put an end to Israeli attacks on Gaza. When it comes to Israeli death and suffering though.. there is significantly less concern and (let's be honest) more jubilation from the Palestinian side at the death and suffering of Israeli civilians.
So even though Israelis and Palestinians are killing each other in somewhat similar ways, they view their own violent actions toward the enemy as 'justified' in their own minds. In the Palestinian mind, the attacks from Israel on Gazans are 'genocide' (bad) and the attacks by Hamas on Israel are 'resistance' (good). And while Israel is proportionally more restrained than Hamas - in their zeal to destroy Hamas, the Israeli disregard for Palestinian civilians caught in middle has also been demonstrated numerous times including an incident where Israeli forces executing 3 of their own unarmed hostages in Gaza ,the%20best%20of%20their%20understanding)after mistaking them for Palestinians. In other words you have two sides who don't really value the lives on the other side of the conflict which, (obviously) leads to endless, irresolvable violence than goes on forever. Canada would clearly rather not have the warring sensibilities that are prevalent in Israel and Gaza, become prevalent in Canada. Correct? We don't want Israelis and Palestinians killing each other in Gaza/Israel to become Israelis and Palestinians killing each other in Canada.
So when we have that kind of violent partisan mindset being imported into this country by the 'Fatima's' of the the pro-Palestinian movement, isn't it a problem that we also have our own elected representatives supporting and parroting those views? Is that not a fast-track to escalating violence between Jews and Palestinians in this country? If Palestinians are chanting to 'Zionists' that there is only 'one solution' (wink, wink) do we not know what they are really saying? I think we do. And the media and politicians turning a blind eye to thinly-veiled hate speech seems to be emboldening some in the movement to get closer to full blown violence with the targeting of Jewish businesses and the fires and shootings at synagogues and Jewish schools.
Now it is possible that Janis is really just a peace-loving beatnik just wants everybody to get along, but the fact that she is aligning herself with factions that are clearly not peaceful should prompt concern and probably condemnation of her stance. But first, someone has to ask her to please clarify what she really believes. We know from her social media posts that she is against Israeli violence in Gaza but she was strangely silent on Oct 7th and the days after. Is she cool with Palestinian violence? Is she a fan of the so-called 'resistance'? Would she be overjoyed if Israel disappeared off the face of the earth? There is a lot at stake here including the safety of Canadians so someone, anyone should probably get an answer before we start to see more imported violence here.

So I have been observing her and learning about bpd for a couple months now. We are 4 months into our relationship. I have come to the conclusion that she has quiet bpd maybe? (That could be why she doesn’t agree with her diagnosis and doesn’t think the symptoms match) I feel this way because her emotions seem to be directed inward and not towards me. She hasn’t attacked me or anything like that… but she has really bazaar behavior and randomly seems sad or even emotionless. Last night again while we were sleeping she randomly started crying (this is the 3rd time) I asked her what was wrong. She said nothing and she was fine…. But she was crying. She wouldn’t look directly at me. As I kept asking, she just told me I need to sleep for work and she doesn’t wanna keep me up. I told her well I’m here if you wanna lay on me or you want me to hold you. She sat up on the bed and I was laying down, rubbing her back. She got up and went into the kitchen getting what I thought was a bottle of water, but turned out to be tequila in a water bottle. She wouldn’t speak to me. She drank some of it and then laid down with me. A couple minutes later, she went under the covers and started blowing me.. just randomly out of no where. I thought I should stop her but honestly I didn’t. After it was finished, she laid on my chest and she was still crying a little.. I could feel tears on my chest. It was the strangest thing. I didn’t know what to say so I just held her. Like… wtf. I wake up at 3am to go to work and she was asleep when I left. But she texted me Goodmorning. I asked if she was feeling any better because last night you went cold on me again. She said she was sorry and that she felt good. I told her I have to talk to her about it today when I get home. I just want to know what she is thinking about in those moments. What is she sad about? Or what is she feeling? And I really wanna know WTF that was last night. Who does that randomly while they are in tears? Is there any way this could be the start of some kind of manipulation? This group and the warnings I received has me on high alert.. so although my instincts are to feel sympathy and concern towards her (which I still do) I also wonder what her motive was. Thanks

Michael Cera is walking down the hall of his school when a school shooting starts...
He and some of his classmates find a room to hide in.
While they're all hiding, crouched behind desks (listening to the screams and gun shots outside), Cera sees a girl among them that he has a crush on, "hot girl #1",
She starts looking over in his direction.
She makes a hand motion for him to come over towards her.
So Michael Cera smiles nervously and starts moving over.
But then as he does, another hot girl (hot girl #2) crawls past him, and he realizes that it was actually HER that hot girl #1 was summoning.
They both glare at him as a result of seeing his mistake.
hot girl 1 (whispering): "ugh, GROSS! like i would EVER want to hide from a shooter with YOU!"
hot girl 2 (whispering): "um...AWK-waaaaarrrrrrrrrrrd...."
but then the shooter walks into their room and shoots the hot girls first. their heads explode.
the shooter kills everyone else in the classroom too, except michael cera.
the shooter instead walks over to michael cera, like a zombie.
michael cera just sits there like a dear (not a typo) in the headlights, screaming.
but then the shooter just shoots himself in the head instead.
the shooter's body falls onto michael cera, who is now too scared to even screem.
meanwhile, outside, the police department is hiding.
gay officer: "i don't want to go in there, sherriff. he has a GUN! what if he SHOT it at us!? it's TOO SCARY."
sherriff: "don't worry, we're not goin in. i got special orders..."
the sherriff then makes the "sshhh" gesture with his finger on his mouth.
but then michael cera comes out, holding the gun away from himself, like it's a used condom, when he finds the cops hiding behind a corner.
michael cera: "um, ...hello?"
gay officer screams bloody murder and bolts outta there.
sherriff (looking at Cera): "what the hell are you doin son?"
michael cera: "uh, i don't know what's going on. there was a shooter, he had this gun. please take it before it gets into the wrong hands."
sherriff (points his gun at Cera and cocks it): "i don't think so.."
michael cera: "...wait, what?"
but then the news cameras are on the scene, and they can see the two of them
so the sherriff lowers his weapon and says: "you're under arrest for the Maple Park School Shooting^tm "
michael cera: "the what?"
sherriff puts cuffs on him and says: "it's what they're gonna call this event here today."
michael cera: "but i didn't... ok. fine."
michael cera goes to jail, pleading all the while that he didn't do anything.
he sees scary faces of big-ass gorilla-lookin niggas, in the jail cells that he passes by.
the guard tells him that his attourney will be with him soon, that he should try to just get a good nights sleep, cause he's gonna have a long day tomorrow.
we cut to a montage of news coverage of the shooting.
classmates that never actually met michael cera (don't even get his name right) are now on tv claiming that they did everything they could to make him feel accepted, but say that there was nothing they could do beceuse he was always just a twisted, fucked-up psycho.
these classmates also take this oppourtunity to plug their movie-review youtube channels, diy cooking instagrams, and celebrity-parody twitter accounts.
the next morning, michael cera is given a big bin of mail that he's recieved already, and is told that his lawyer is arriving now.
michael cera reads a letter from the bin while he waits.
we only see Cera's shocked reaction to the first letter, while his lawyer(played by Matthew Mcconahay) comes in.
lawyer: "hi there, Michael, I'm your lawyer Matt. Before we get started, is there any questions you might have?"
michael cera: "yeah, how am i getting mail for this already? this just happened yesterday..."
lawyer: "yeah, but it happened yesterday MORNING. so there was plenty of time for some people to see you on the news and write letters before the mail went out for the day. this is just the batch of letters that made the cutoff."
michael cera: "wow."
lawyer: "yeah. it's a lot. you'll get used to it."
michael cera: "uh, i noticed a lot of these are love letters. from girls. in fact it seems like all of them are."
lawyer: "right, well i wouldn't worry about that. i deal with a lot of mass shooting, terrorist attack, and serial killing cases. the accused man always get a whole forest's worth of letters from nubile young women begging for him to fertalize their ovaries and defile them in every concievable way. it's something to do with the primal effect of a man asserting dominance through a public violent act or something. Oh and by the way, under this state's laws, the accused are also given full access to conjucal visit privilages no matter the crime, so a lot of men like you have that option available when they feel inclined and they usually do. Anyway, if we can get started on where you were during the events of the crime scene, i can try to--"
but we see that michael cera is not listening anymore.
we cut to a montage of michael cera plowing one groupie after another, in a trailer, to the tune of Hallelujah played by leonard cohen.
we cut to a news clip, telling us that the case will soon go to trial.
we cut to michael cera meeting with his lawyer again.
lawyer: "michael, listen to me, we have all the evidence in the world that you're innocent. if you just give me permission to plead that way, we can get you off the hook!"
lawyer is rubbing his head like he has a headache, as a result of dealing with Cera. he opens up his bottle of asprin to get a quick pill for himself while he listens to Cera's response.
michael cera: "yeah, maybe. i just dunno..."
lawyer: "if you don't give me permission, then i'll just have to do it without your permission. i will not lose this case just because you're too scared to fight back!"
but just then, another lawyer (a Men-In-Black lookin chick), we'll call her "lawyer 2" steps in.
lawyer 2: "michael cera, i'm so sorry to hear about the passing of your lawyer, but I want to let you know that as your NEW lawyer, i-- oh shit, you're still here."
lawyer: "yeah I'm still here, what the hell are you talking about?"
lawyer 2: "oh, nevermind. i'll see myself out."
...
lawyer: "anyway, as i was saying..."
lawyer takes his pill, then starts foaming at the mouth, with some kind of chemical gas fumes spilling out, he then keels over.
lawyer 2 pops back in.
lawyer 2: "ok, you remember my shpeil from earlier, right? i don't have to repeat that?"
michael cera: "is he ok?"
lawyer 2: "no, i'm afraid it appears he's had a heart attack."
michael cera: "THAT'S what a heart attack looks like?!"
lawyer 2: "i know, it's not like in the movies at all, is it?
lawyer 2 pushes lawyer 1's body out of the seat so that she can sit there instead.
lawyer 2: Anywho, i've taken the time to look over your case and i must say it's not good news. i'm afraid we don't have much of a chance on this one, i'm gonna reccomend you plead guilty."
michael cera: "...oh...ok!
Michael cera now has tattoos on his face and body, and wears a doo rag.
he is now open about his phony role in shooting. He looks straight at us, the audience, and says "i don't give a CRAP anymore."
As a result, one day, he is in a conjucal visit trailer with a fan, and he tells her "before we get started, i just want to make sure if it's ok if we only do it in the missionary position? everything else feels too kinky for me", just like he always does, but the new girl ISN'T interested in fucking him at ALL.
She's an undercover reporter for Alex Jones' Infowars network. she wants info for their war on the official msm narrative about the shooting.
So he tells her that he's willing to testify the real story in court.
But time is running out. Fights are escalating in the prison, and it looks like they may soon turn into a full blown riot.
But then, once the undercover reporter leaves, some secret agents show up and introduce themselves to michael cera as Agent Zog (male) and Agent Henderson (female).
Agent Zog: "we can offer you protection. and in exchange, not only will you not testify, you'll give a new detailed confession with new motives added from this list so that the media can demonize people on the outside who have the same goals as your stated goals.
Agent Zog hands Cera the list.
Agent Zog: "just remember, if you refuse to cooperate, we can just have you eliminated.
michael cera: "wait.. so you guys really were behind the shooting?!
but just as they're talking the riot erupts into a full-on jail break.
while agent zog is distracted by this, michael cera grabs his gun from him and shoots him to death.
michael cera: "framing someone for murder ISN'T NICE!"
michael cera looks around for an escape. but agent henderson just saw him commit a brutally violent act...
agent henderson: "oh michael..." <3 <3 <3
henderson starts stripping off her clothes and chasing down michael cera.
michael cera: "aw geez, what the heck?"
agent henderson (buck naked): "take me now! i want your seed inside me!"
michael cera: "i don't have time for this!"
michael cera tries to keep moving, but agent henderson climbs on to him and ravages him.
michael cera: "ugh! FINE!"
meanwhile, in a helicopter above...
sniper: "wow. he's plowin' henderson."
agent 3: "nice"
agent 4: "yeah, not bad"
sniper: "tell me about it!"
...
agent 3: "you can take the shot now."
sniper takes the shot. michael cera's head explodes.
agent 3 (looking over to agent 4): "and uh, have someone send a car to pick up henderson, i guess."
agent 4: "roger, that's a wrap."
Directed by Stephen Speilberg.

I [27m] was recently seeing someone [F28] for over a month and while we were never official it felt like things were very close to that stage. I guess you could say it was more of a situationship, now, but the sudden end has been really hard on me.
For background, I recently had started to come out of my shell this year going on dates and meeting new people. Then I recently met Tracy and we immediately clicked.
We were in similar parts of our life, for the most part. She has had past relationships that hurt her and I know were always in the back of her mind. And I never have had a real, serious relationship which could be a red flag for some.
I was the first person she met in a while and I think that scared her. Which I absolutely understand since our past affects the present and we need to protect ourselves.
While we were together we had gone on many dates and spent nights with each other. To me it felt like I found someone who had everything I was looking for. And while I thought she was beautiful, it was her inner beauty that really made me want her. The saying too good to be true comes to mind now.
To sum up the ending, we had spent a couple days together and I was even introduced to her friends. Tracy shared to me that they’d want to do more double dates with us and that I was even someone who helped her feel safe (this was the most thoughtful thing anyone had ever said to me). We made plans to see each other at the end of the week for dinner. But only the next day she ended things.
It felt sudden to me, but I guess the last few days we spent together made her realize she wasn’t ready for a relationship. Which I understand, due to her past relationships (with guys that hurt her). I told her I couldn’t just be friends since that didn’t feel possible for how strong my feelings are for her.
Now I’m struggling because she was the exact person I was searching for and it felt reciprocated. But I know people have their own thoughts and reasons. We said our goodbyes yesterday and it was very difficult. Almost like it was hard for both of us, but I could be saying that to make myself feel better.
Anyways, I’m sorry for the long post and appreciate you if you read the whole thing. I’m trying to heal now but it so tough when she is someone who I could fall for. Yes, it was only a month or so but with our lifestyles and the amount of time we spent together it felt a lot longer. Not sure how to move on and focus on myself now because I miss her already.

Hi ppl, I'm Black Cat and I'm new here. Basically i awakened as a therian when i was a kid but.. i never knew of such a thing.. i thought i was different and the usual stuff, i grew up to call off shifts.. AND THEN! one day i discovered Therianthropy! I was literally amazed and super excited. I'm here to make new friends cuz.. my irl life.. ain't that good.. sooo I'm here for friends!! Guys will y'all be friends with me??

I seriously need some more hobbies, but I'm on vacation and don't have a lot going on soooooo... here are my character death ranks (0 being save, 10 being dead)
Violet and Xaden: 0 -- It's a romanticy and if they don't get a HEA then the fandom will riot. We'be seen fandoms turn on series before (Divergent, Game of Thrones). Xaden will either be saved at the end of OS or end super corrupt and be the big bad she has to go against in the next book. I hope the former, expect the latter. The whole "you'll be the death of me, Violet" is going to be suverted when she saves his ass using Andarna's power.
Tarin and Sygael : 0 -- I don't think even if Violet could live without Tarin, she would. Sygael I also believe is safe because Xaden will be saved and he still needs to be a rider. I also think these are too high stakes of deaths to be ok. I also think he is going to end as the head of the black den and Melgrin and Codah are going down, probably book 4.
Garick/Bohdi: 7 one of them is going down-- possibly by corrupt Xaden's hands. I think we're going to get more of them with them helping Violet.
Ridoc: 8 -- my guess is book 4, darkest hour, Fred Weasley style that is going to devistate us.
Rhiannon: 7 -- book 5 sacrafic for Violet, reference to Vi giving Rhi the shoe
Brennan: 10 -- he's like a wyvern deep down and is going to be a shock-death next book as we learn Naolin is a big bad.
Sawyer: 2-- lost a leg, gotta give our Jesinia some love.
Dain: 9 -- showdown between him and his father. This is all I want. No one else can kill his father. We need a big bad villain confession before the fight. Possible stay behind and let the others flee thing.
Andarna: 9 -- A sacrifice in the final book to use the power of the sun/light to restore the land and take the venin out. I'm camp second signet is amplifiemagic generation because that seems to be the cure for the venin.
Mira: 7-- greatest warrior has fallen. Also, she's a shield so it'd make sense that she could do a Hodor thing.
JFB: 10. Please gods, kill this fucker.
Professor Devera: 6
Serena: 8 -- Cat is going to get a throne. That stupid uncle is an off the screen death, too. Fuck that guy.
Cat: 1 and with Aaric/Cam -- United Navarre/Promeil anyone?
Immogen: 5 it would just make me sad
En summary: there is a balance for a writer and a great plot with high stakes drama and good vs. evil, but if you take it too far, people are going to be pissed. It's also a ROMANCE and a ROMANCE can't have everyone die.
I'm prepared to be divistated, but then again I also get annoyed with SJM and her lack of killing characters which makes it unrealistic (in a fantasy book, lol)
Anyone else want to put there stakes in the sand?

et a guy on a dating app. But we were in different cities. It seems we matched because one evening before we were close, as he is traveling a lot for work. I messaged him and he responded right away, but immetiately told me we are too far. I said yes, unfortunately. And to this, he replied> well, if you ever come back Prague, let me now. I will let you know if I will be back to (my city), then he added a wink. I asked if he is on this app for something serious or jut fun. He said he didn't think about it, it's just an app and in free time he opens it.
I wanted to talk more, but he wasn't interested, so I wished him a great day and also said that I would love to meet if we ever cross paths again. His reply was Absolutely, that would be great! Please give me your FB or IG
I did, he immediately commented on a photo I had in swimwear, writing fire girl! and liked a few more of my photos.
But he didn't text me at all these days. I thought he wanted my socials to keep in touch and get to know me. His social media is very interesting, conferences, some of which he was a moderator of and lots of projects in different countries. He looks intelligent and classy, gives off confidence vibe and is also fairly good looking, althought not some prince charming. Anyway, above decent and fit and tall. Is he interested in me or was just polite? Should I write him or will I annoy him? Was he just polite? I am 24, he is 29.

It's a very long and strange story, but I'll do my best to make it shorter and understandable. First of all, I won't try to make this reasonable, I know it's abnormal. I don't wanna making it even longer. The only info you should know is he was my first love and bf, and I met him through his anon FB page where he made comments about daily and political issues. I was 16 back then, and I fell in love with him even though I didn't even know his name. Over time, I found out who he actually was, but didn't even have the courage to talk to him and knew that it was impossible for us to ever meet and be together, which led me to extreme depression. It took me almost two years to heal. I was alright, but I still didn't get over him at all; I still loved him, and it went on for five years.
But 3 months ago, I texted him from a fake acc& told him what happened and expressed my feelings. I didn't expect any positive response at all; I thought he'd either block or ghost me. But things turned out very different from my expectations. He was shocked and thought it was a cruel joke from his exes or friends. He said this is all too good to be true. I was too good to be true. And somehow, we ended up together. We shared so many things, said a ton of deep shit. He did everything to convince me to spend my life with him. He admitted he actually loved someone after 15 years. He said I'll be his, I'll live with him after I graduate. He always told me I was a super rare exception to him; he doesn't have any respect and expectations from women at all; he was single for four years by his choice. He described himself as an MGTOW, and a lot more. I'm just telling you these to explain it was not something basic at all; it was very special (or maybe I just believed it was).
So, 6 days ago, when he received my package, he suddenly broke up with me. He apologized for not choosing his words carefully. He exactly said: 'I do care for you and like you, but I'm not in love with you. Actually, I can't fall in love with you or anyone for that matter. I can't love, I can't yearn for, I can't desire anyone. I'm too far beyond saving, too black-pilled. You will be messed up with me. I don't cheat, but I can't react to any of your words full of intimacy. I'd never forgive myself if I ever make you this upset. I can't trust myself with you. Let me be your hero and protect you from myself.' That's the only reason he stated. I literally begged him to not ruin everything, not even caring about any self-respect at this point. I asked him: 'You always said everything will be alright with time. You calmed me down. But why are you throwing everything away now?' He got mad. He said he can't fall in love with me no matter how hard he tries. Nothing triggers him. He yelled at me, saying, 'How could you be this dumb to not realize how bad I am?' And eventually, I had to accept it. I realized there was nothing left for me to change his mind. Hours later, he texted, 'Don't think I don't feel like shit. Saving you from myself was one of the hardest things I did, even though you don't believe it.' I couldn't say anything. 2 days later, he texted a very long paragraph expressing how he'd never forgive himself for making me so upset again, that I did nothing wrong, I'm one of the good girls. My voice won't leave his head. I just said, 'You are not brave enough to make efforts for this relationship at all.' And that's it, actually.
I'm just so lost and in a loop. I get angry with him and convince myself that it's his loss, but seconds after, I can't help myself missing him and crying. How do I get over him and start to have self-esteem after that? And how can i understand the whole situation and stop being confused. All the confusion about whether he's actually blaming himself and feeling very bad, just like he stated? Did he ever love me? Is he going to regret it? I don't know what is real about this relationship anymore. Please help me to understand the issue objectively.

Sword bard with a lvl dip into hex blade vs sentient dancing sword.
I'm playing a 1on1 game with my wife. We take turns as dm and players with multiple characters in the party. One of my favorite characters is a sword bard with a lvl dip into hex blade. The hex blade is currently pretending to be the spirit of his dead sister by speaking with her voice to try and truly the bard into being more violent.
I saw a funny meme about a sentient weapon getting jealous from watching their ownepartneboyfriend looking at other weapons. I always wanted to try using a dancing sword and this meme gave me the idea of a quest to save a man from an evil monster but the monster turns out to be his dancing sword. She is acting like a crazy jealous ex girl freind trying to kill him after he cheated on her by replacing her with anouther sword. After defeating the sword the spirit would breakdown crying from her heartbreak at not being wanted and the man will try to use his new +3 Vicious vorpal sword of 100% crits to kill her. Then it will break showing he got scammed into spending all his money on a -3 rusty sword of nat1s that had a jem of Distort value in the hilt. Bard will beat him up with a stream of Vicious Mockery that makes the spirit laugh and roll to seduce the dancing sword. If he succeds she becomes smitin with him but if he fumbles she will still join him but it is painfully clear she is only playing along to make her old boyfriend jealous.
This sounds like a fun Quest but then I thought I could take it further by having the dancing sword compete with any other sword the bard tries to use and his hex blade could do the same to get a bit of naritive and game play synergy. Let me know what you guys think.
Jealous dancing sword:
Greatsword 2d6 slashing damage. Magical. Finesse
Bonus action to dance with the sword to conjure the nude spirit of the sword and send her out to fly out 30ft and attack targets with graceful dance manuvers. After 4 attacks she moves 30 toward her partner to return to their waiting arms. Her partner needs to be within 30ft of the sword at the end of her 4th attack with both hands free to catch her and continue her dance or she will drop to the ground.
She will gain a +1 to attack or damage rolls (max+3) after each kill during her dance from doing a good job for her partner. She loses all stacks at the end of her dance or if her partner fails to catch her.
She will seethe with jealously from seeing her partner dance with anouther weapon. Gains a -1 to attack or damage rolls anytime her partner kills a target with any other weapon. If she has a negitive stack at the end of her dance she might "accidentally" stab her partner when they catch her. If she gains -3 she becomes heartbroken and the sword drops to the ground and becomes unattunment with her disloyal partner. Partner will need to spend a long rest convincing her the other sword is just a freind and duesnt mean anything.
The hex blade will be amused by the insecurities and try to push the bard to use it more. I love the idea of the dancing sword competing with the stronger charisma fueled pact weapon. I might creat a quest that will give some naritive closure to the sword and and give it enough confidence to accept a poly relationship with her dancing partner and that b!+@# pact weapon. She would keep the dance mechanic and still get jealous of other weapons but nolonger gain the -1 from kills by the pact weapon.
I think this would be a fun weapon to play with. What do you guys think, am I going overboard again?

Almost a year after the breakup, my (35m) ex gf (33) has hated me with a passion. She has dated countless men, and good for her. I still run into her occasionally at various places such as the gym and the grocery store. What gets me is that she just recently seen me at the market talking to a woman and she has, within the last week alone, been incredibly nice to me. She has sent me random “hey how are you” texts, and she hopes I’m doing well. Even her friends and her employees are now being nice to me since giving me the silent treatment after the breakup. On my end, I’m doing much better now than I was since the breakup. The hard days aren’t so bad anymore. I do sincerely hopes she meets a great guy for her. But why after her dating and sleeping with many guys since the breakup, does she have the nerve to suddenly be nice to me and talk to me after her seeing me just talk to someone in a public place? Why would she think that after sleeping around and dating multiple men would I want to get back with her? Any input or opinions would be greatly appreciated

this will always be crazy 2 me and ive loved yansim since literally 2019 (YANSIM NOT YANDEV) and i started to realize some weird shit about the game quickly
1: a teacher in her 20’s being a rival?? LIKE HELLO WHY THE HELL IS MIDA A RIVAL HE COULDVE CHOSE ANYONE ELSE THATS A STUDENT 🤦🏽‍♀️ not to mention how muja is a rival too and shes in her fucking 20s
2: the designs…now im not talking about the bodies or anything because some of them are realistic and its possible 2 have a body like ayanos but like its weird how u can change the size of her breast and shit in the game and also for hanakos design why the fuck does she look like a 13 y/o but in the illustration her skirt is glued to her crotch and her breasts r big asl…its js idk bro
3: yandev tried to make akademi a post-highschool academy so that mida and muja being rivals wont be weird but that doesnt make anything better at all bc first why do ppl at akademi still act like theyre in hs and y r they still wearing uniforms…yandev js tryna find a way to sexualize young women
4: he made a underage character have a crush on him which was based off a sex doll which he once OWNED … and he named the character “mai waifu” like dawg ur 35 please stop
5: the panties option in the closet…idk if u guys find that weird but why are we able to choose ayanos panties and y is the panty shot feature a thing
7: when u like crouch down the first thing u see is ayanos panties…
8: i have no proof to really support this but apparently taro is a self-insert for yandev which is pretty weird
yandere simulator is a good game overall but alex is a horrible person 🤦🏽‍♀️ he literally got caught talking 2 minors
anyway if u didnt know that yandev was a weirdo back then well u know now