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if your wondering why i have a problem with this being posted on other platforms, it’s because i know for a fact that the person i m talking about does not use reddit. and i’ll be deleting this afterwards. I am 15f. this is pretty dark elementary school drama but it has stuck with me since and has since haunted me😭😭 so this was about 2017 when i met this girl and let’s call her alicia. we hit it off at first because we both had similar interests. for background i was a shy girl who had gotten bullied in the past. it was going pretty good for a couple months with alicia.until she was also kind of mean to me and she would call me names(names that wouldn’t hurt me now, but at the time it did.) she called me a scaredy cat over something stupid and i got really upset at this. i remember holding back tears. she also did this on my moms phone as i didn’t have one at the time. to which my mother never told her to stop. i don’t honestly remember anymore, we were frenemies from that point on. i think i blocked some of it out because it caused trauma. we would be good one day and then fighting the next. i was also a mean girl at times, but this was mostly as a result of her being toxic towards me. i also had bad traits too, and was very ignorant. i am not and was not an innocent angel, but i was 8! i know now that she possibly had mental issues, but i accused her of faking depression.(to my defense, it really seemed like she was. she would cry on video on tiktok)i also have many memories of her at my house being a spoiled brat which is what i WILL call her because there’s no better way to say it .My parents work very hard to have the stuff that we do have. we are not rich and have struggles with money.when i was 8i had my barbie smart house. she was pushing the elevator up and down(an electrical one and she was doing it roughly) and my dad yelled at her. maybe this wasn’t his place to do,but cmon this girls mom literally just dropped her off at our house and my mom let her in without asking if i was even in the mood for a playdate. Obviously he is going to yell! it’s a barbie smarthouse!! very very expensive. she started crying afterwards which isn’t my issue. most children cry after being scolded (hell even now i be crying😭) my issue is with that my mother decided to run after her into my bedroom and comfort her and hug her. she never did this for me. she was nicer to alicia most likely because of her issues, (if she has any)but damn i’m ur child! another moment was when her mother once again just brought her to our home randomly without texting about a playdate the day before. (she had errands to do and i respect that but.. it’s honestly rude to assume we want another child here.) we were having a pool party with two of my friends who i still talk to this day. let’s call them blonde and ginger. me and ginger wanted to have the pool for ourself just for a moment to show off our dance. we politely asked if they could step out for a second and she threw a fit. blonde and gingers mom was mad at them and i got yelled at by my father. i got grounded,forced to apologize,and sent inside. she lies about this situation to this day and claims i called her”not pog”(ew i hate dreamsmp and it also didn’t even become popular until 2020.it was 2018.) she lies and twists stories to her liking to make herself seem like a victim of bullying by me. this time we invited her over,she also cried about having to get out the pool and help us put the pool cover on. it’s our pool and if my dad wants her to do something she should do it and not whine.my father yelled again, my mom telling him to stop, and comforting alicia once again. she never did this for me i grew up wiping my own tears which i still do and now have trouble expressing emotion in relationships. she lied to her friends about me and said i bullied her. i also struggle with anger issues now half of which probably has to do with her because i’m angry that no one believed me and some still do not. my mother accused me of bullying her and told me (8 year old again) that murderers will go for me and try to k word me first because they think i am a bully. recently told her she should’ve just adopted her and she loves her more than me. she told me to move on but it is hard when it caused me so much pain— i don’t hate my parents,i love them very much and i’m working on getting a better relationship,but i resent them. i resent the kind old l teacher who everyone loved, who accused me of whispering about alicia.(i did talk shit about alicia and i do about her but teacher lady had 0 clue.) “people talk about me and i know how that feels”-teacher lady. i resent the childhood friend,Australia, who commented on my tiktok about me needing to leave her alone and alicia tagged my account saying i bullied her,crying on camera when i had dropped her that day for being a toxic spoiled hypocrite . BY DEFINITON I LEFT ALICIA ALONE BY DROPPING HER BUT ALICIA DIDNT WANT TO SAY THAT PART!it doesn’t give her the sad victim image she wants.her mother texted mine because alicia said she wanted to (not going to say on here so i’ll just say do bad things to herself). parents immediately looked through the phone they gave me. they saw the hurtful things she said about me by which i retaliated back.decided i was the bully and sent me to bed,spanked me,and took away the phone. Do you know how much it hurts a nine year old when it feels like noone understands the big complex feelings you have in such a small body? Sounds messed up but i was very jealous of her and her ability to get away with so much from everyone due to her mental illness or whatever she had going on. i resent everyone who believed her in the past even though it was 4th grade. there is so much more. she did terrible stuff to my friends and her ex. maybe i got a miracle, now i am the popular one and she is alone most of the time. i heard she still says i bullied her,that stupid pog thing,i’m a fake latina(i am adopted with white parents ),takes pics of me , lied to my bf last year,lied to my friends, and many people have apologized to me for believing her overdramaticized fairytales. but she changed something in me that idk if ill get back. the ability to trust. i know i suffer with anxious feelings because of her fs.+the resentment i feel to the people i love the most. since i was very young all i’ve ever known is to be angry which ends in me cussing people out,physically fighting and accidentally hurting loved one’s feelings. again not trying to make myslef seem like a victim(just explanations for why i’ve acted the way i have),so here’s some shitty things i’ve done to her.
Things i’ve done to alicia: •talked shit back,still do to this day but mostly just about what happened bc my image is now tainted •threatened to fight her last year •talked shit about her mom not disciplining her enough •made fun of her haircut •made fun of her interests •made fun of her unibrow with her best friend in 4th grade •call her names •was jealous of her, seemed like my mom didn’t love me and only loved her
I want to be better. i do. i feel cold and mean.I’m working on it but i want a moral viewpoint. please be kind in the comments but tell me if i am the AH. i want to be able to sleep at night and fix my life.

A decade ago, I had a mental breakdown or identity crisis. Friends, family, relationships, bad decisions, life consequences, etc. all weighed heavy on me; especially while diagnosed depressive (turned out auADHD definitive). I had a heavily crafted IG/twitter feed at the time with thousands of followers. My lense of my life was through these filters day in and out.
I got fed up. I threw my phone in a river, got a new number, permanently deleted all social media accounts, moved states, and never spoke to any of my friends again until recently. I would be asked if I was dead, to make a better picture of how extreme my 180° was. For the better part of the past decade, I was officially offline and kept my circle very small. I flourished in this. Fell in love, moved next to a beach, and became fairly successful and well off. Most importantly, I learned to become present with myself. I attribute this all to my extreme decision to start new.
I recently had a baby which made me revisit my social life and those who I cared about who caused no harm to me. With this, I started a new IG. It also helped me make mom friends as I wanted to feel accepted socially in this new journey and create a village. I don’t post daily or overshare, but I have a tremendous amount of guilt for being back online after so long. I downloaded TikTok as I felt pressured to understand the new wave of media consumption. From here, I notice my tech consumption large and my attention span low. My motivation is also stunted even though I continue healthy decisions daily such as eating clean, lifting weights, doing Pilates, engaging my relationships. By being online, I see myself comparing every decision and judging every environment.
I feel my extreme nature is confusing my moral compass or discipline. Has anyone felt they navigate extremes better than balancing both? Is there a good perspective on what balance looks like?
Any advice would help or past experience stories to share. I am not in a bad mental state, very far from and incredibly grateful for it, but social media makes me question things I never have before such as being a one hit wonder or extremes being seen as negative, etc.
Thanks!
TLDR: Moved and started new offline. Was offline for decade. Established success during. Back online after having a baby to connect with new moms as a first time mom. Feeling guilty using social media after not. Not knowing if there’s balance between navigating pros and cons of surfing or if it’s cold turkey only. Seeking advice.

Okay, I know that the title sounds bad.
Throwaway account, my friends follow my personal account. Also, english is not my first language, I'm from Latin America. To be honest, my english is pretty rusty right now, so there might be some mistakes. Also, the post is pretty long, so I apologize in advance for that.
So for some background, I (32F) married my now ex husband Pablo (35M) five years ago, we dated two years before that. We have a four years old daughter together. To make it short, we started to have problems like a year and a half ago, having a toddler, both of us working two hard jobs just made everything real difficult, and it all got worst when he ended up cheating on me. If we didn't have a daughter, I would have ghosted him and the next time he would have heard from me would have been through my lawyers and with divorce papers. I have a low tolerance for this kind of things and know when to walk out, but we have a daughter together, and as much as I don't think that it can be good to stay in a marriage for a child, she was still real little and didn't want to miss any more time with her. Raising a toddler alone is really hard, and I didn't want that, so I agreed to couples counseling. He didn't put any excuses, he just begged for forgiveness over and over. I thought I was over the affair, I really thought that. I didn't think about it. But I started to talk over the phone with Guido (32M) like three months after I discovered my husband's affair. Guido and I dated for five years. From seventeen to twenty two. We started dating in our last year of highschool, and then we mantained a long distance relationship for two years, although we saw each other often, until he moved to the city I was living in. We eventually broke up because we wanted different things. He was sure about not wanting to have children, and even though I clearly didn't in that moment, I was sure I would want to become a mom in the future. So we left it at that. Plus, after my graduation I moved to the capital because I got a good job there, and he stayed there. But he had moved to the capital after his relationship ended because of his ex's cheating, and I was the only one he knew here. We started to talk regularly over the phone. Usually when I was on small breaks at work or while I was taking care of my daughter by myself. Then we started to do something we used to do often, and it was to play games online together on our free time. We used to do that a lot when we had a long distance relationship. Then we started to meet up from time to time, even went to the movies together. I tried to convince myself that we were just catching up, but it clearly wasn't like that, I wanted to be with him. I tried to put a stop to it. But Guido kissed me when I met him to tell him this, and even though I stopped him almost right away, as dramatic as it sounds, it was more than enough for me to realize that I couldn't stay married anymore if I had feelings for someone else. He apologized for kissing me, but asked me to leave my husband, since he knew I wasn't happy with him, and he was right. I was comfortable maybe, but not happy. Not at all. I realized I didn't actually forgave my ex husband, but I had fallen out of love, and that's why I didn't care about the affair. I should have known, like I said, I'm not the kind who would forgive cheating, but I didn't think you could fall out of love with someone you've been for so long that fast, and I guess I mistaked familiarity with love.
This is already going too long. I started the divorce proceedings, I sat Pablo down and explained that I was divorcing him. He cried and cried, begged for another chance, but I just told him no, that I had fallen out of love with him and there was no going back from that. He gave up after insisting and begging, and literally didn't put any complications on the divorce, he didn't berated me or anything like that during the divorce. We sold our house, split the money and got 50/50 custody. I bought a nice apartment with two bedrooms close to my daughter's kindergarden, and a couple of weeks after the divorce had been finalized, I asked Guido to meet up. We hadn't seen each other since I had informed him about me getting a divorce, just because I didn't want to start anything being married, and also, he was bussy trying to get a promotion. We decided to give it a shot, but I asked him for us to take things slow, and he agreed to it. And we have been dating for a couple of months now, and it has been great. My friends and my family, who I'm really close to, knows about us. My family in particular is real happy, they never really liked Pablo that much, and they always loved Guido, especially my dad. But he doesn't knows my daughter yet, that's why Pablo just recently found out about me and Guido being back together. Pablo didn't take the news too good, and when he came to pick our daughter, he was really mad at me. He started to tell me I led him on into thinking I could forgive him for months just to dump him for my ex. That he had tried his best to make up for what he did to me, to win my trust back and when he finally thought he had done it, I crushed his heart. Saying he has been miserable since I left him, and he really does look bad and depressed. He has gained weight, he looks tired all the time and I haven't seen him smile in months. But I told him that if I falled out of love with him is because he betrayed me in the worst way possible, and that's on him entirely. I tried to forgive him, but I couldn't and I falled out of love, and I can't change that. I told him I'm sorry if he's hurt now, but after all, it's the consequences of his own actions, and I won't apologize for falling in love with someone else, because again, it probably wouldn't have happend if he hadn't cheated on me. Now he needs to move on and that's it, and I even suggested therapy for him.
My friends and family are on my side and they are telling me I did nothing wrong, but I think they would be on my side even if I had set the house on fire with him inside, so I don't think their opinions are that neutral. I have my doubts, AITA?

i dont really know the best way to start with all the things i want to say, so i guess ill just get to the point. i have feelings for you. i really really like you a lot. when we first met, i thought you were pretty cute and my interest was piqued when you told me you were bi but that was the extent of it. but then over time, we became so much closer. ive never been as close to anyone as ive been to you and ive never had anyone stand up for me and care for me like you do.
i started developing feelings. i was too scared to say anything, though. i know you arent the most comfortable with your sexuality and also have had a lot of bad experiences with relationships in the past and the last thing i wanted was to ruin our friendship. but i really regret it now.
ok, now that that's out of the way, i have a lot of questions that i need to ask you. first of all, is this a surprise to you? you told me you were sure the girl youre dating now liked you months before you got together, so its not like youre completely oblivious to these things. i just want to know if youve caught on to my feelings too. and this will really tie into the next question, which is
please explain your actions to me. ive never been more confused in my life. when you started dating this girl, i thought i needed to start trying to move on. thats why i hooked up with that guy over spring break, actually. but it didnt work, and you didnt make it very easy honestly. you started living at my apartment. were even officially moving in together in a month. i genuinely dont know the last time you slept at your place. and here's the part that needs the explanation: you asked me to cuddle more than once. the first time, you told me to get in closer a few times. just recently, you were asleep on my couch so i got you a blanket and you told me to join you. this was the same as asking me to spoon with you. is this really platonic? and this ties into my final, most important question
could things have gone differently? what if i did join you that night on the couch? i got so nervous and you seem pretty sure about your relationship with this girl. i felt like i should still be trying to move on and was high so i wasnt thinking super clearly so i ended up not joining you. but then the literal day after that is when the two of you started posting each other. is that connected? and even further back. you didnt like this girl when she confessed her feelings. you told me that. you only started liking her after trying to "see where it goes." not to mention me and her are very similar, both of you have made comments about it. so, if i just said something first, could we be together right now?
i just want to know how you feel about me.

Okay, I know that the title sounds bad.
Throwaway account, my friends follow my personal account. Also, english is not my first language, I'm from Latin America. To be honest, my english is pretty rusty right now, so there might be some mistakes. Also, the post is pretty long, so I apologize in advance for that.
So for some background, I (32F) married my now ex husband Pablo (35M) five years ago, we dated two years before that. We have a four years old daughter together. To make it short, we started to have problems like a year and a half ago, having a toddler, both of us working two hard jobs just made everything real difficult, and it all got worst when he ended up cheating on me. If we didn't have a daughter, I would have ghosted him and the next time he would have heard from me would have been through my lawyers and with divorce papers. I have a low tolerance for this kind of things and know when to walk out, but we have a daughter together, and as much as I don't think that it can be good to stay in a marriage for a child, she was still real little and didn't want to miss any more time with her. Raising a toddler alone is really hard, and I didn't want that, so I agreed to couples counseling. He didn't put any excuses, he just begged for forgiveness over and over. I thought I was over the affair, I really thought that. I didn't think about it. But I started to talk over the phone with Guido (32M) like three months after I discovered my husband's affair. Guido and I dated for five years. From seventeen to twenty two. We started dating in our last year of highschool, and then we mantained a long distance relationship for two years, although we saw each other often, until he moved to the city I was living in. We eventually broke up because we wanted different things. He was sure about not wanting to have children, and even though I clearly didn't in that moment, I was sure I would want to become a mom in the future. So we left it at that. Plus, after my graduation I moved to the capital because I got a good job there, and he stayed there. But he had moved to the capital after his relationship ended because of his ex's cheating, and I was the only one he knew here. We started to talk regularly over the phone. Usually when I was on small breaks at work or while I was taking care of my daughter by myself. Then we started to do something we used to do often, and it was to play games online together on our free time. We used to do that a lot when we had a long distance relationship. Then we started to meet up from time to time, even went to the movies together. I tried to convince myself that we were just catching up, but it clearly wasn't like that, I wanted to be with him. I tried to put a stop to it. But Guido kissed me when I met him to tell him this, and even though I stopped him almost right away, as dramatic as it sounds, it was more than enough for me to realize that I couldn't stay married anymore if I had feelings for someone else. He apologized for kissing me, but asked me to leave my husband, since he knew I wasn't happy with him, and he was right. I was comfortable maybe, but not happy. Not at all. I realized I didn't actually forgave my ex husband, but I had fallen out of love, and that's why I didn't care about the affair. I should have known, like I said, I'm not the kind who would forgive cheating, but I didn't think you could fall out of love with someone you've been for so long that fast, and I guess I mistaked familiarity with love.
This is already going too long. I started the divorce proceedings, I sat Pablo down and explained that I was divorcing him. He cried and cried, begged for another chance, but I just told him no, that I had fallen out of love with him and there was no going back from that. He gave up after insisting and begging, and literally didn't put any complications on the divorce, he didn't berated me or anything like that during the divorce. We sold our house, split the money and got 50/50 custody. I bought a nice apartment with two bedrooms close to my daughter's kindergarden, and a couple of weeks after the divorce had been finalized, I asked Guido to meet up. We hadn't seen each other since I had informed him about me getting a divorce, just because I didn't want to start anything being married, and also, he was bussy trying to get a promotion. We decided to give it a shot, but I asked him for us to take things slow, and he agreed to it. And we have been dating for a couple of months now, and it has been great. My friends and my family, who I'm really close to, knows about us. My family in particular is real happy, they never really liked Pablo that much, and they always loved Guido, especially my dad. But he doesn't knows my daughter yet, that's why Pablo just recently found out about me and Guido being back together. Pablo didn't take the news too good, and when he came to pick our daughter, he was really mad at me. He started to tell me I led him on into thinking I could forgive him for months just to dump him for my ex. That he had tried his best to make up for what he did to me, to win my trust back and when he finally thought he had done it, I crushed his heart. Saying he has been miserable since I left him, and he really does look bad and depressed. He has gained weight, he looks tired all the time and I haven't seen him smile in months. But I told him that if I falled out of love with him is because he betrayed me in the worst way possible, and that's on him entirely. I tried to forgive him, but I couldn't and I falled out of love, and I can't change that. I told him I'm sorry if he's hurt now, but after all, it's the consequences of his own actions, and I won't apologize for falling in love with someone else, because again, it probably wouldn't have happend if he hadn't cheated on me. Now he needs to move on and that's it, and I even suggested therapy for him.
My friends and family are on my side and they are telling me I did nothing wrong, but I think they would be on my side even if I had set the house on fire with him inside, so I don't think their opinions are that neutral. I have my doubts, AITA?

I have never really posted to Reddit before but I really need to get this off my chest and maybe hear from some other people about my situation. Me and my ex are both 18 and she is truly my first love. We have been friends for 4 years, in and out of relationships with each other for about 3, and there have been times where it has all been perfect and I just cannot stop the wishful thinking that those times would come back.
We have both done things wrong over the years and I feel as though when I have done wrong I have changed, such as how I used to struggle to understand her feelings and be empathetic as I now understand many young men do. There was a lot of ‘tit for tat’ before we first got together, which we got over and then got together, resulting in 8 months of perfect happiness. It was all perfect, she was my best friend and we were so in love, but as school became stressful I began to feel that stress was taken out on me as she purposefully would try to aggravate me in order to get a reaction and then tell my friends and her friends about how awful I was when in reality I was just extremely confused.
This continued as i felt she further would manipulate me by making me feel awful about anything she perceived as ‘wrong’ by me in the relationship, causing me to become extremely sad and ultimately split with her for a few months. This was our first serious split, and it mainly (for me) came down to a sense that she had become someone different to who she was at the beginning, as anything i mentioned that upset me was shot down by a counter argument and ultimately none of my feelings were addressed. This is something which continued when we eventually got back together, and has never really stopped to this day. I’m not sure why, but I feel a sense of selfishness was somehow evoked in her, and whilst I feel I developed an ability to look at my own mistakes and fix them, she lost this ability. We got back together a couple months later, despite her showing me some clear red flags. I have only gone into this much detail concerning the early part of our relationship as I believe it was the beginning of the end all that time ago. As time went on I just began to put up with it as i loved her so much still and found it easier to just be quiet most of the time. However, my discontent grew and ultimately she became physically abusive for a period, leading to me splitting up with her after she punched me in the face.
I saw someone else and was with them for a couple months up until recently when my ex came back into my life and the nostalgia hit me, leading me to go back to her. The person I was with was just not the same, and i know it isn’t right to compare but I just couldn’t help it. As the excitement and comfortable nature of getting back to my ex faded, the selfish tendencies came through again. Whilst she would do nice things for me, it was still underpinned by a complete lack of respect as I feel my emotions were just cast aside as seen as secondary to her. I was made to feel guilty about anything she didn’t want to hear, as if it was my fault because of some reason or other. She would often guilt trip me and cause the topic to change if it made her look like the ‘bad guy’, making me feel even worse and Ike I was an awful person, despite the person I saw prior to this often telling me about how I was kind and caring and loving, traits I feel I developed out of the original relationship.Ultimately I decided yesterday I didn’t want to be with my ex, I called her and said it wasn’t what I wanted right now, I feel I need consistency in a relationship. I cannot help but long for the days in the past though, and I have no clue how to stop reminiscing or at least make it more bearable. I really could do with some advice as, whilst I feel I have grown tremendously from this relationship, I want this to be the end. I just need help on how to not go back to someone who I have been told is toxic and bad for me for so long, and how I can potentially move on to something better for me.
TLDR; up and down mid term relationship with my ex, was good for 9 months but she became toxic and made me feel awful about my feelings, can’t stop reminiscing about ‘the old her’ and the good times and longing for it to be how it used to be.

Hey guys I'm kind of new to Reddit, I don't really post anything anywhere so this is sorta me yelling into the abyss I guess haha. I'm a guy who's gonna turn 25 on Monday and I'm happy about it and I'm really glad l've made it so far not to mention my life is going pretty well. The only thing is I've basically no progress in dating my whole life. I don't think I'm a really attractive person but I know I'm not ugly. I practice good hygiene and keep myself groomed. Personality wise I know I can be loud with my friends and I talk wayy too much and can be blunt with how I'm feeling but I know I'm not a bad guy. I've never passed the second date though and I'm starting to get insecure about it. I've had one girlfriend we only dated for 2 months in hs and I learned later it was most likely she only did it to impress her friends. I'd rather not turn this into a huge rant about bad love interests I've had but basically I've gotten hurt a lot of times and I don't think I deserved it nor do my friends. I want to stay positive because I TRULY believe in love. I work in critical care and I tear up seeing elderly couples kiss each other goodbye at death or before risky procedures. I do believe in love but l've been rejected when I've tried approaching girls much more than I've gotten numbers. And the numbers have 80% of the time been dead ends. I don't blame girls at all, I understand having a type but it's gotten to the point that I am really discouraged at approaching anyone anymore and I've never felt like this before No matter what happened romantically I'd always get back up but lately I've been noticing myself slipping into hopelessness. I'm not really sure what to do anymore. I just feel so raw that I feel myself getting emotionally hurt so easily now whenever a girl says anything to me that isn't positive. I feel like I suffer from really needing validation which is even worse. My biggest fear is getting taken advantage of again. I'd rather not go into detail about it but girls in my past sensed that I had feelings for them and used it against me.
So basically: I'm scared, what should I do?
(don't know if it matters but I am studying to be a nurse, I live in Miami, I have a lot of hobbies and interests and am very good at conversations, truthfully I don't know what I am doing wrong)

couldn’t put the tag, but tw for self harm
if your wondering why i have a problem with this being posted on other platforms, it’s because i know for a fact that the person i m talking about does not use reddit. and i’ll be deleting this afterwards. I am 15f. this is pretty dark elementary school drama but it has stuck with me since and has since haunted me😭😭 so this was about 2017 when i met this girl and let’s call her alicia. we hit it off at first because we both had similar interests. for background i was a shy girl who had gotten bullied in the past. it was going pretty good for a couple months with alicia.until she was also kind of mean to me and she would call me names(names that wouldn’t hurt me now, but at the time it did.) she called me a scaredy cat over something stupid and i got really upset at this. i remember holding back tears. she also did this on my moms phone as i didn’t have one at the time. to which my mother never told her to stop. i don’t honestly remember anymore, we were frenemies from that point on. i think i blocked some of it out because it caused trauma. we would be good one day and then fighting the next. i was also a mean girl at times, but this was mostly as a result of her being toxic towards me. i also had bad traits too, and was very ignorant. i am not and was not an innocent angel, but i was 8! i know now that she possibly had mental issues, but i accused her of faking depression.(to my defense, it really seemed like she was. she would cry on video on tiktok)i also have many memories of her at my house being a spoiled brat which is what i WILL call her because there’s no better way to say it .My parents work very hard to have the stuff that we do have. we are not rich and have struggles with money.when i was 8i had my barbie smart house. she was pushing the elevator up and down(an electrical one and she was doing it roughly) and my dad yelled at her. maybe this wasn’t his place to do,but cmon this girls mom literally just dropped her off at our house and my mom let her in without asking if i was even in the mood for a playdate. Obviously he is going to yell! it’s a barbie smarthouse!! very very expensive. she started crying afterwards which isn’t my issue. most children cry after being scolded (hell even now i be crying😭) my issue is with that my mother decided to run after her into my bedroom and comfort her and hug her. she never did this for me. she was nicer to alicia most likely because of her issues, (if she has any)but damn i’m ur child! another moment was when her mother once again just brought her to our home randomly without texting about a playdate the day before. (she had errands to do and i respect that but.. it’s honestly rude to assume we want another child here.) we were having a pool party with two of my friends who i still talk to this day. let’s call them blonde and ginger. me and ginger wanted to have the pool for ourself just for a moment to show off our dance. we politely asked if they could step out for a second and she threw a fit. blonde and gingers mom was mad at them and i got yelled at by my father. i got grounded,forced to apologize,and sent inside. she lies about this situation to this day and claims i called her”not pog”(ew i hate dreamsmp and it also didn’t even become popular until 2020.it was 2018.) she lies and twists stories to her liking to make herself seem like a victim of bullying by me. this time we invited her over,she also cried about having to get out the pool and help us put the pool cover on. it’s our pool and if my dad wants her to do something she should do it and not whine.my father yelled again, my mom telling him to stop, and comforting alicia once again. she never did this for me i grew up wiping my own tears which i still do and now have trouble expressing emotion in relationships. she lied to her friends about me and said i bullied her. i also struggle with anger issues now half of which probably has to do with her because i’m angry that no one believed me and some still do not. my mother accused me of bullying her and told me (8 year old again) that murderers will go for me and try to k word me first because they think i am a bully. recently told her she should’ve just adopted her and she loves her more than me. she told me to move on but it is hard when it caused me so much pain— i don’t hate my parents,i love them very much and i’m working on getting a better relationship,but i resent them. i resent the kind old l teacher who everyone loved, who accused me of whispering about alicia.(i did talk shit about alicia and i do about her but teacher lady had 0 clue.) “people talk about me and i know how that feels”-teacher lady. i resent the childhood friend,Australia, who commented on my tiktok about me needing to leave her alone and alicia tagged my account saying i bullied her,crying on camera when i had dropped her that day for being a toxic spoiled hypocrite . BY DEFINITON I LEFT ALICIA ALONE BY DROPPING HER BUT ALICIA DIDNT WANT TO SAY THAT PART!it doesn’t give her the sad victim image she wants.her mother texted mine because alicia said she wanted to (not going to say on here so i’ll just say do bad things to herself). parents immediately looked through the phone they gave me. they saw the hurtful things she said about me by which i retaliated back.decided i was the bully and sent me to bed,spanked me,and took away the phone. Do you know how much it hurts a nine year old when it feels like noone understands the big complex feelings you have in such a small body? Sounds messed up but i was very jealous of her and her ability to get away with so much from everyone due to her mental illness or whatever she had going on. i resent everyone who believed her in the past even though it was 4th grade. there is so much more. she did terrible stuff to my friends and her ex. maybe i got a miracle, now i am the popular one and she is alone most of the time. i heard she still says i bullied her,that stupid pog thing,i’m a fake latina(i am adopted with white parents ),takes pics of me , lied to my bf last year,lied to my friends, and many people have apologized to me for believing her overdramaticized fairytales. but she changed something in me that idk if ill get back. the ability to trust. i know i suffer with anxious feelings because of her fs.+the resentment i feel to the people i love the most. since i was very young all i’ve ever known is to be angry which ends in me cussing people out,physically fighting and accidentally hurting loved one’s feelings. again not trying to make myslef seem like a victim(just explanations for why i’ve acted the way i have),so here’s some shitty things i’ve done to her.
Things i’ve done to alicia: •talked shit back,still do to this day but mostly just about what happened bc my image is now tainted •threatened to fight her last year •talked shit about her mom not disciplining her enough •made fun of her haircut •made fun of her interests •made fun of her unibrow with her best friend in 4th grade •call her names •was jealous of her, seemed like my mom didn’t love me and only loved her
I want to be better. i do. i feel cold and mean.I’m working on it but i want a moral viewpoint. please be kind in the comments but tell me if i am the AH. i want to be able to sleep at night and fix my life.

Okay, I know that the title sounds bad.
Throwaway account, my friends follow my personal account. Also, english is not my first language, I'm from Latin America. To be honest, my english is pretty rusty right now, so there might be some mistakes. Also, the post is pretty long, so I apologize in advance for that.
So for some background, I (32F) married my now ex husband Pablo (35M) five years ago, we dated two years before that. We have a four years old daughter together. To make it short, we started to have problems like a year and a half ago, having a toddler, both of us working two hard jobs just made everything real difficult, and it all got worst when he ended up cheating on me. If we didn't have a daughter, I would have ghosted him and the next time he would have heard from me would have been through my lawyers and with divorce papers. I have a low tolerance for this kind of things and know when to walk out, but we have a daughter together, and as much as I don't think that it can be good to stay in a marriage for a child, she was still real little and didn't want to miss any more time with her. Raising a toddler alone is really hard, and I didn't want that, so I agreed to couples counseling. He didn't put any excuses, he just begged for forgiveness over and over. I thought I was over the affair, I really thought that. I didn't think about it. But I started to talk over the phone with Guido (32M) like three months after I discovered my husband's affair. Guido and I dated for five years. From seventeen to twenty two. We started dating in our last year of highschool, and then we mantained a long distance relationship for two years, although we saw each other often, until he moved to the city I was living in. We eventually broke up because we wanted different things. He was sure about not wanting to have children, and even though I clearly didn't in that moment, I was sure I would want to become a mom in the future. So we left it at that. Plus, after my graduation I moved to the capital because I got a good job there, and he stayed there. But he had moved to the capital after his relationship ended because of his ex's cheating, and I was the only one he knew here. We started to talk regularly over the phone. Usually when I was on small breaks at work or while I was taking care of my daughter by myself. Then we started to do something we used to do often, and it was to play games online together on our free time. We used to do that a lot when we had a long distance relationship. Then we started to meet up from time to time, even went to the movies together. I tried to convince myself that we were just catching up, but it clearly wasn't like that, I wanted to be with him. I tried to put a stop to it. But Guido kissed me when I met him to tell him this, and even though I stopped him almost right away, as dramatic as it sounds, it was more than enough for me to realize that I couldn't stay married anymore if I had feelings for someone else. He apologized for kissing me, but asked me to leave my husband, since he knew I wasn't happy with him, and he was right. I was comfortable maybe, but not happy. Not at all. I realized I didn't actually forgave my ex husband, but I had fallen out of love, and that's why I didn't care about the affair. I should have known, like I said, I'm not the kind who would forgive cheating, but I didn't think you could fall out of love with someone you've been for so long that fast, and I guess I mistaked familiarity with love.
This is already going too long. I started the divorce proceedings, I sat Pablo down and explained that I was divorcing him. He cried and cried, begged for another chance, but I just told him no, that I had fallen out of love with him and there was no going back from that. He gave up after insisting and begging, and literally didn't put any complications on the divorce, he didn't berated me or anything like that during the divorce. We sold our house, split the money and got 50/50 custody. I bought a nice apartment with two bedrooms close to my daughter's kindergarden, and a couple of weeks after the divorce had been finalized, I asked Guido to meet up. We hadn't seen each other since I had informed him about me getting a divorce, just because I didn't want to start anything being married, and also, he was bussy trying to get a promotion. We decided to give it a shot, but I asked him for us to take things slow, and he agreed to it. And we have been dating for a couple of months now, and it has been great. My friends and my family, who I'm really close to, knows about us. My family in particular is real happy, they never really liked Pablo that much, and they always loved Guido, especially my dad. But he doesn't knows my daughter yet, that's why Pablo just recently found out about me and Guido being back together. Pablo didn't take the news too good, and when he came to pick our daughter, he was really mad at me. He started to tell me I led him on into thinking I could forgive him for months just to dump him for my ex. That he had tried his best to make up for what he did to me, to win my trust back and when he finally thought he had done it, I crushed his heart. Saying he has been miserable since I left him, and he really does look bad and depressed. He has gained weight, he looks tired all the time and I haven't seen him smile in months. But I told him that if I falled out of love with him is because he betrayed me in the worst way possible, and that's on him entirely. I tried to forgive him, but I couldn't and I falled out of love, and I can't change that. I told him I'm sorry if he's hurt now, but after all, it's the consequences of his own actions, and I won't apologize for falling in love with someone else, because again, it probably wouldn't have happend if he hadn't cheated on me. Now he needs to move on and that's it, and I even suggested therapy for him.
My friends and family are on my side and they are telling me I did nothing wrong, but I think they would be on my side even if I had set the house on fire with him inside, so I don't think their opinions are that neutral. I have my doubts, AITA?

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I am the daughter of two defector parents who have always encouraged me to explore my heritage and the place that so easily could've been my homeland.
I've been to NK multiple times as a child, we have a close friend who is very high up working in Koryo Tours and I've even gotten to stay at the international children's camp in the DPRK for a long term visit as a child!
I run the sub NorthKorean , if you want to get a sense of the type of content I'll be posting to my YT channel, please take a look at my postings over on my sub.
my videos mainly consist of content from inside North Korea, either by North Koreans (meant to be seen by citizens of NK - such as propaganda), or hidden footage taken by citizens (not meant to be seen inside NK but leaked footage of the more rare sights and what people call "poorer regions" of the dprk- showing exactly what goes on in those regions, debunking many fictitious claims and rumors), cartoons created by the regime with English subtitles, cartoons from Disney that happen to have NK dubs, and so much more.
It's pretty fascinating witnessing what people inside this very closed off country that Americans are unfortunately not allowed to see with their own eyes (for obviouse reasons, but how shall we have any right to complain?). Things that citizens of the DPRK witness on television and in the media.
So come and join, subscribe and follow me on my new adventure into YouTube!
If you happen to have a YT channel of your own, or a sub that you moderate, I will absolutely sub4sub. We are definitely like minded here (I would anticipate) and I am so down to support y'all, in this world of bias and misinformation... Slander and propaganda.. we gotta have each others backs.
https://youtube.com/@dprkprincess?si=LtxlvjRJRZ74xxHU

I am the daughter of two defector parents who have always encouraged me to explore my heritage and the place that so easily could've been my homeland.
I've been to NK multiple times as a child, we have a close friend who is very high up working in Koryo Tours and I've even gotten to stay at the international children's camp in the DPRK for a long term visit as a child!
I run the sub NorthKorean , if you want to get a sense of the type of content I'll be posting to my YT channel, please take a look at my postings over on my sub.
my videos mainly consist of content from inside North Korea, either by North Koreans (meant to be seen by citizens of NK - such as propaganda), or hidden footage taken by citizens (not meant to be seen inside NK but leaked footage of the more rare sights and what people call "poorer regions" of the dprk- showing exactly what goes on in those regions, debunking many fictitious claims and rumors), cartoons created by the regime with English subtitles, cartoons from Disney that happen to have NK dubs, and so much more.
It's pretty fascinating witnessing what people inside this very closed off country that Americans are unfortunately not allowed to see with their own eyes (for obviouse reasons, but how shall we have any right to complain?). Things that citizens of the DPRK witness on television and in the media.
So come and join, subscribe and follow me on my new adventure into YouTube!
If you happen to have a YT channel of your own, or a sub that you moderate, I will absolutely sub4sub. We are definitely like minded here (I would anticipate) and I am so down to support y'all, in this world of bias and misinformation... Slander and propaganda.. we gotta have each others backs.
https://youtube.com/@dprkprincess?si=LtxlvjRJRZ74xxHU

Kind of vent - y, just in advance.
I (20F) dropped out of university following a decline in mental health, as well as my course becoming too much to handle. I was diagnosed with autism in 2022, but didn’t tell my family.
I moved into his girlfriend’s house, with her and her 10 year old daughter. He moved in with her a few months ago.
I spend a lot of time in my room. I don’t really have any friends. I can’t seem to pull myself out of whatever I’m going through. And it is definitely noticeable to everyone in the house. I find social interaction draining, especially with people who I feel guilty for living with. I am often blunt with them, and don’t have the same positive, extroverted loud energy everyone else seems to have. I feel like they think I’m rude, when in actuality, I’m trying to regain my soul and being after a shift at work.
I recently told him that I was going to have an ADHD assessment, which came to the conclusion that I do, in fact, have ADHD. This was about a week ago. He’s supportive of me, and he has been mildly curious, but overall, we haven’t really talked about it since I told him what the conclusion of the assessment was.
We have had a couple talks, in which he has said that he wants to support me, and help me feel better no matter what, and get through my mental health issues, and that he cares about me. It’s hard for me to always feel that, though.
I feel like in order for him to fully understand me, I should think about telling him about my autism diagnosis. He was okay with the ADHD, and seems like he wants to help. I am worried that he might think less of me, as I have somewhat already become the black sheep of the family.
I don’t fully understand my diagnosis myself. A part of me finds it hard to process that a lot of the things I do and the way I feel about things is due to being autistic. I don’t feel really equipped to answer many questions he may have.
I’d really appreciate any advice anyone might have on how to go forwards. Thank you for reading the post :)

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I am the daughter of two defector parents who have always encouraged me to explore my heritage and the place that so easily could've been my homeland.
I've been to NK multiple times as a child, we have a close friend who is very high up working in Koryo Tours and I've even gotten to stay at the international children's camp in the DPRK for a long term visit as a child!
I run the sub NorthKorean , if you want to get a sense of the type of content I'll be posting to my YT channel, please take a look at my postings over on my sub.
my videos mainly consist of content from inside North Korea, either by North Koreans (meant to be seen by citizens of NK - such as propaganda), or hidden footage taken by citizens (not meant to be seen inside NK but leaked footage of the more rare sights and what people call "poorer regions" of the dprk- showing exactly what goes on in those regions, debunking many fictitious claims and rumors), cartoons created by the regime with English subtitles, cartoons from Disney that happen to have NK dubs, and so much more.
It's pretty fascinating witnessing what people inside this very closed off country that Americans are unfortunately not allowed to see with their own eyes (for obviouse reasons, but how shall we have any right to complain?). Things that citizens of the DPRK witness on television and in the media.
So come and join, subscribe and follow me on my new adventure into YouTube!
If you happen to have a YT channel of your own, or a sub that you moderate, I will absolutely sub4sub. We are definitely like minded here (I would anticipate) and I am so down to support y'all, in this world of bias and misinformation... Slander and propaganda.. we gotta have each others backs.
https://youtube.com/@dprkprincess?si=LtxlvjRJRZ74xxHU

Kind of vent - y, just in advance.
I (20F) dropped out of university following a decline in mental health, as well as my course becoming too much to handle. I was diagnosed with autism in 2022, but didn’t tell my family.
I moved into his girlfriend’s house, with her and her 10 year old daughter. He moved in with her a few months ago.
I spend a lot of time in my room. I don’t really have any friends. I can’t seem to pull myself out of whatever I’m going through. And it is definitely noticeable to everyone in the house. I find social interaction draining, especially with people who I feel guilty for living with. I am often blunt with them, and don’t have the same positive, extroverted loud energy everyone else seems to have. I feel like they think I’m rude, when in actuality, I’m trying to regain my soul and being after a shift at work.
I recently told him that I was going to have an ADHD assessment, which came to the conclusion that I do, in fact, have ADHD. This was about a week ago. He’s supportive of me, and he has been mildly curious, but overall, we haven’t really talked about it since I told him what the conclusion of the assessment was.
We have had a couple talks, in which he has said that he wants to support me, and help me feel better no matter what, and get through my mental health issues, and that he cares about me. It’s hard for me to always feel that, though.
I feel like in order for him to fully understand me, I should think about telling him about my autism diagnosis. He was okay with the ADHD, and seems like he wants to help. I am worried that he might think less of me, as I have somewhat already become the black sheep of the family.
I don’t fully understand my diagnosis myself. A part of me finds it hard to process that a lot of the things I do and the way I feel about things is due to being autistic. I don’t feel really equipped to answer many questions he may have.
I’d really appreciate any advice anyone might have on how to go forwards. Thank you for reading my post :)

I decided to make this post, as I'm seeing a growing number of dedicated Jordan Peterson haters in this sub.
After years of struggling in the swamp of despair, my life is finally in an upwards trajectory. Recovered my health, went back to school and finished my degree, working a job that doesn't pay well currently but fulfills my intellectual curiosity and gives me freedom to explore other things. Found a passion that excites me to wake up the next morning, and made many friends who share this passion. All of this is thanks to Dr. Peterson, who's teachings encouraged me to not give up in life at my lowest points.
To the winners who cleaned their rooms and made improvements in their lives following Dr. Peterson's advice, congratulations. I'm genuinely happy for you. You had your own struggles in life, some which so dire I probably can't even fathom; you could have easily chosen to become bitter and resentful, yet you've chosen to fight them head on and aim for what's highest. As Abel did, you've made the right sacrifices, hence you were rewarded. I've not met one of you in person, and even though life's never perfect, I'm sure words like gratitude and happiness resonate in all of us that persevered through the storm in our own accords.
To the losers who've given up on pursuing what's highest and grown resentful and bitter, stay rotting in the hell you created. You hate Dr. Peterson, for he points out exactly why you are miserable. Like Cain, you cursed god for giving you bitter lemons instead of sweet oranges. Instead of asking yourself why you weren't rewarded like Abel and how you could be more like him, you've let the spirit of resentfulness at your doorstep and have its way with you. Now you prowl the digital world in anonymity, spreading the little influence you don't have in real life. You've already lost the battleground of constructive, reasonable argument, thus you cling to the low hanging, rotting fruits of ad hominem, like a bunch of fruit flies. You throw your half-witted snarks like calling Peterson a grifter, a crybaby, a pseudo-intellectual, and the few likes you get from fellow losers are the only sources of dopamine in your life. You think you're smarter than others, yet no one takes you seriously in real life, you probably have a shitty job you don't care about if at all, and don't engage in anything positive or productive for yourself and others.
I'm a recent Christian, but not Christian enough to wish the best for shitty people, hopefully someday I will. But as of now, I'm glad you're rotting in the hell you've created for yourself. So, tldr: To the winners, congrats. To the losers, stay rotting in the hell you created.

(Lol smosh if u end up seeing this plz put this on a reddit stories episode i would love to hear what you guys think)
(I’ve never posted here before sorry if I brake any rules, and let me know if theirs any other places I can post this)
Ive thought about this for a really long time and i want to confront her but i don’t know how or if i should. Every since I’ve known her she tells everyone shes Japanese and i think that she may be lying.
When we first started hanging around a lot i got curious and asked “what is your race“ she told me she was full Japanese. also she told me she was born in japan and moved to America when she was 5. I said “ohhh i thought you were hispanic.” I also thought “oh maybe she is hispanic but is Asian passing ??” Then later she tells me something different and said she was just born in Chicago. She also says she has a Japanese name “Aiko Takahashi“
in school we always called her by her Japanese name, but when they would call her name through the school intercoms, they called her by “Camila García” (fake name but it’s pretty close to her real name) one day she actually skipped picture day so she wouldn’t have her real name in the year book. One day yearsss later she told me that she is Half Filipino, which if thats true that could explain her real name.
i also asked her once “why do you have two different names?” She said “my stepmom didn’t like my Japanese name and forced me to change it legally because she couldn’t pronounce my real name”
Every since I’ve known her she has aways dated Asain guys, and always had Japanese cars (specifically mitsubishis) She would also lie about her car when i could literally see it. she would say “i have a 2020 Mitsubishi” when you could clearly look at it and it would be a 2010. She also introduced me to Kpop, we both use to love it together, but now i feel like the purposely mispronounces / misspells group names for some reason, maybe to make it seem like she knows nothing about it? Idkk. she also use to drink alot and had a huge obsession with being skinny. She was probably 90 pound’s soaking wet.
Ive known my her since middle school and Ive never met her family or anything. I didn’t even know she had siblings until her ex told me about them he also sent me video proof of her with her father and siblings at the mall. We have both seen her ID and it also has the same name of Camila Garcia. He even told me thats he’s met her family that they all looked Hispanic and that they all spoke Spanish. But i have never met her family so i would never know.
We are all in our 20s now and we live in different states but she would always travel just to hangout and see me. and for a little bit i disappeared on her (only for about a month) because i was kinda hurt knowing that she could be lying and not being truthful, because if we are really best friends she wouldn’t hide anything from me. We literally talk to each other about everything. and I’ve always wanted that best friend relationship where we met each others family’s and we could all be close.
She wants to move to my state and to roommate with me, I really want confront her but, i don’t want to confront her and hurt her. Im wondering if this coping thing. What if i ask her and it brings back some trauma and she disappears?
if your confused on anything or have any questions plz let me know in the comments so i can clear it up for you

I am the daughter of two defector parents who have always encouraged me to explore my heritage and the place that so easily could've been my homeland.
I've been to NK multiple times as a child, we have a close friend who is very high up working in Koryo Tours and I've even gotten to stay at the international children's camp in the DPRK for a long term visit as a child!
I run the sub NorthKorean , if you want to get a sense of the type of content I'll be posting to my YT channel, please take a look at my postings over on my sub.
my videos mainly consist of content from inside North Korea, either by North Koreans (meant to be seen by citizens of NK - such as propaganda), or hidden footage taken by citizens (not meant to be seen inside NK but leaked footage of the more rare sights and what people call "poorer regions" of the dprk- showing exactly what goes on in those regions, debunking many fictitious claims and rumors), cartoons created by the regime with English subtitles, cartoons from Disney that happen to have NK dubs, and so much more.
It's pretty fascinating witnessing what people inside this very closed off country that Americans are unfortunately not allowed to see with their own eyes (for obviouse reasons, but how shall we have any right to complain?). Things that citizens of the DPRK witness on television and in the media.
So come and join, subscribe and follow me on my new adventure into YouTube!
If you happen to have a YT channel of your own, or a sub that you moderate, I will absolutely sub4sub. We are definitely like minded here (I would anticipate) and I am so down to support y'all, in this world of bias and misinformation... Slander and propaganda.. we gotta have each others backs.
https://youtube.com/@dprkprincess?si=LtxlvjRJRZ74xxHU

This is a long read.
This happened 8 years ago and I still feel a lot of guilt for this. I used to be friends with this person since middle school. When we got into high school she started becoming really rude, never saying thank you or you’re welcome, when we invited them out all of our parents used to not like how they had 0 manners. That’s not why I started hating this person though. When I left my ex in middle school over the summer that friend and my ex got together. At the time I thought nothing of it but the older I got the more I realized that wasn’t ok. Note: I’m not mad about that at all. That ex texted me years later apologizing for how shitty he treated me those couple of years. I never said anything to them and acted like it didn’t hurt so I’ll take responsibility there but I feel like I shouldn’t have to tell somebody that. But we were really young so whatever. This friend used to grope me in like a “complimentary” way. Like would grab my boobs, hips, and thighs and say how they wants these types of body parts. I never said anything about it but it did bother me. Again, I’ll take responsibility not speaking up. This friend used to do it to other women friends as well. This friends boyfriend used to touch us inappropriately and also a few other guys in our friend group would touch me in the waist and hips and make inappropriate comments to me. The friend also punched and kicked me and other people several times. I recall I couldn’t save them a piece of pizza at a school event and they punched me and left a bruise on my arm. Again, never brought up how it bothered me. I remember they also slapped their ex over something. Don’t remember what but still. They punched and kicked my other friends as well. I also recall them kicking me cause we would talk about our grades, this friend would fail every class and for me passing my classes ment I wasn’t going to sleep hungry at home. Also all my other friends would exchange grades as well. I guess they took it as a personal slight. Like we were making fun of them but I genuinely just wanted them to pass. They kicked or punched me whenever they didn’t like what I said or did. Never brought up how it bothered. We were probably around 16-18 at the time. This friend started hating another girl because their ex (my ex from middle school) broke up with her and started dating other girl. I didn’t care and started not liking the girl out of support for my friend until my friend snuck pictures of the new girlfriend without her knowledge and would compare her body, makeup, and face with theirs, basically body checking them and would make shitty little petty comments about her. I left a comment on the Instagram post saying how it didn’t look good. My friend then dm’ed me saying how I was basically being a bad friend for not blindly supporting them. I stayed friends with this person for awhile. The final straw was when this friend took of picture of my not yet out of the closet gay friends who were just starting to date and posted on their Instagram. My gay friends were to scared to confront them so I did. When I did they acted like a toddler and finally deleted it. I know it was a honest mistake and probably had good intentions but I was so fed up at that point. I started talking to my other friends about it and they had similar grievances, especially my other girl friend. This person wasn’t someone I felt like I could confront and have a normal conversation and tbh I was honestly kinda scared of them so I had a plan to wait until graduation to leave. I basically ghosted this person irl. I feel bad about all of that but what I feel bad for the most and I know this wasn’t good or nice of me. Is that I did end up talking shit about them to my other friends. We all had issues with them and it got bad. Like messaging each other to talk about what stupid thing they did today and basically to dump our feelings about whatever that person did to us or said. I also feel bad because their boyfriend at the time came out to me one day after school and told me that he was being cheated on. Note: their relationship was really bad. When he asked my opinion I said they should just leave each other. I feel bad because that was really none of my business and I should have just kept my mouth shut. I also was stupid in high school. This one is so fucking stupid but I actually lied about my nationality because I thought it would make me cooler. It ended up making me look like such a fucking idiot and I regret it so much. It is just a blatant lie and I apologize to anyone I lied to. I don’t blame anyone for thinking I’m a slimey person for doing that and that’s no one else fault but my own. Problem I’m having is that I’m a lot older now and I still feel bad. I’ve been going to therapy but I feel awful. To the point to where it’s kinda haunting me. I dream about it frequently and just feel like I don’t deserve anything good. I sometimes want to apologize to them but then I think of the treatment I got and don’t want to anyone. I know it’s the bigger person thing for me to do but idk. I want to move on. But I understand why they hate me as well.
Note: after our graduation we had a school after party. I wasn’t her friend so I continued on with the party. She then posted a picture to Instagram of someone dressed up as me and that friend putting a fake knife to her neck. I’m pretty sure this person still vague death threats me as well.

Well, today marks 100 days sober for me. I honestly never thought I’d make it this long. It’s my 4th time trying to get sober after multiple medical detoxes and treatment centres. I entered a treatment centre after a medical detox on February 9th of this year and was placed in a program specific for alcoholics with PTSD, for 77 days. It was an amazing program and I made some great friends there.
I think what was different about this time in treatment, is that I finally hate alcohol more than I love it. I hate the way it isolated me and took my hobbies and friends away, the way I didn’t have control over my body and thoughts, and the impact it had on my health.
I’ve been going to plenty of AA meetings which has been helpful as well, it helps to hear others speak about the things they’re struggling with as well.
I honestly don’t want to drink at all anymore, but MAN do I ever have cravings for a cold beer. Even though I don’t want to be drunk. And lots of dreams that I’ve gotten shitfaced, and I wake up and feel the same guilt and regret as if I actually drank the night before. And I have been drinking a metric fuck ton of Coke Zero to satisfy the cold bubbliness I want.
I also can’t say I’m extremely happy, or overjoyed . The PTSD program helped with my intrusive thoughts and flashbacks that I was trying to numb with alcohol, but the enjoyment I find in day to day life is fleeting and infrequent.
Anyway thanks for reading, I’m posting to keep myself accountable and hopefully to hear if others have similar experiences. I wish you all another sober day and IWNDWYT.