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I'm excited to announce my weekly open island event on my Citycore-themed island, EE, in Animal Crossing: New Horizons! 🌟
This event is: Each week, a different shop with new items and items relating to the shop will be featured.
Shops I will be hosting (in order): 1. KK Record Shop: KK Slider records. 2. Labelle Shop: Latest Labelle fashion. 3. Chrissy & Francine's Shop: Weekly magazine items (only selling featured items). 4. The Marshmallow Café by Marshal: Cozy Roost items. 5. The Posh Paw by Raymond: Wedding and fancy items. 6. Oven Delights by Melba: Various fencing. 7. Reneigh Flowers: Limited supply of flowers. 8. The Punch Bowl: Restaurant items. 9. Redd’s Pawns: ??? (Random series items). 10. Shopping Mall: Random items, including: - 5 types of food recipes - Christmas stuff - Arcade stuff - Leif’s plant items - Katrina’s Kasino with Pocket Camp items and bells 11. Home Harmony: Rugs, wallpaper, and flooring by Saharah. 12. Kicks: Sports shop with shoes and bags (only selling featured items). 13. Maple’s Library: Selling handheld items. 14. Cyrus and Reese Workshop: Customization kits. 15. Ava’s Farmers Market: Fresh produce and farm items. 16. Étoile’s Laundromat: Bathroom items. 17. The Star Vault: Star fragments and Celeste DIYs.
You might’ve noticed the magazines. (like on Kicks and C&F) I will post the magazine pics along with the shop event when it comes.
This week's shop theme is KK Record Studio Next week is Labelle Store
Exciting News: I’ll be completing my school on my ACNH island soon, and to celebrate, I'll be hosting a minigame each month!
Can't wait to see you all there at 8pm 1 June EST and share the fun. Happy shopping! 🛍️
P.S. Got any ideas for Redd’s Pawn item series or special requests? Drop them in the comments below!
P.S.S. My island is still in progress so no judging >_<

Guys, since I started gaming I have been using nvidia cards and al of my homies have been using nvidia cards too, but because of nvidia being ngreedia, price are so high, it doesn't seem worth it, and it's really a premium you are paying for DLSS and RAY TRACING, but if I can just get a high end radeon card I don't think it would be necessary to even use any kind of upscaling, and so I'm thinking to buy RX 7900 XT Nitro+, and so am I right in buying the RX 7900 XT, but my only concern was that some people do say on reditt and YT that AMD has mediocre driver support compared to nvidia, and when linus from linus tech tips uploaded their 3 month challenge video in which they were daily driving AMD cards instead of nvidia, they said the same...., so should I buy it? And will I encounter any crashes or driver timeouts?

I am not in the best financial situation so I don’t feel I have many options right now. I have a student loan debt from an arts degree that I don’t use. Plus my husband and I just bought a house, which we can afford as long as we’re both working full time.
I started a job in the medical field that I thought was going to be great for me. The hours are 8-4:30, M-F. Decent pay, full benefits, PTO, etc. Before this, I was stuck working in retail and restaurants so I would have to work weekends, holidays, and odd hours. So I spent a lot of time looking for this job. I hired a career coach and everything. I was so happy when I accepted this position.
I didn’t expect it to take up all my time. I have a 40 minute commute each way and when I get home, I have 3.5 hours until I have to go to bed. Two days off is nowhere near enough. Plus having to mask all day is soooooo tough on me but I have to do it- I’m working closely with my coworkers and patients. They all love me but masking really takes all my energy.
I’m only a month in but I can feel myself slipping into a deep depression. I’m terrified of burnout- if I quit, we wouldn’t be able to afford our mortgage or our bills. I also have to go on antidepressants just to be able to deal with it all.
I just feel lost and unsure of what to do. I have never been able to work full time and I thought it would be different this time. I actually somewhat miss this simplicity of restaurants/retail as I’d usually work about 30 hours a week. But as I mentioned, part time work is not really an option and the pay at those jobs was terrible. I also would HATE to financially depend on my husband, we don’t have the best marriage, and I need my independence. I just don’t know what to do.

Two months ago, I adopted a kitten. She's 3 months old. She had diarrhea twice, vomited once, and had little appetite for several days, almost a week, so I booked a vet visit. She received flea treatment and deworming, and I was asked to bring a stool sample after deworming. The next day, I found only one small worm in her litter box, about 3cm long (1 inch). It was round, thin and white, like a small piece of spaghetti. It looked like a roundworm, but I thought it was really weird that there was only one. Plus, I think roundworms are usually longer than 3cm. The stool sample came out negative, and the vets also gave her medicine for tapeworms. They said if any came out she had them, and one dose would clear it, but if nothing come out it meant she didn't have tapeworms. Luckily, nothing came out.
Now, my kitten has fleas again, likely from my aunt's dog who lives with us. My aunt's dog stays both indoors and outdoors, and we live in a countryside so he catches fleas pretty easily. The flea treatment that we buy doesn't seem to work on him, either because he always makes a fuss everytime we need to give him the treatment or because the treatment is not good enough for him.
The kitten and the dog live separately for safety reasons now, but my kitten explores the area of the house where my dog usually is when the dog goes outdoors, so I suspect that's how she got fleas. I booked another vet visit for her, but my aunt won't take her dog to the vet, so I think the flea problem will persist.
I'm exhausted, especially because I'm TERRIFIRD of parasites. I fear every corner of my house is contaminated, and disinfecting it daily seems impossible since my house is pretty big. My cat goes on pretty much every single surface in this house, how am I supposed to clean it properly? I'm a very anxious person and I've had health anxiety too. Since the worm situation happened, I'm completely panicked and can't even focus. I've realized worm infections are common in cats, but as a new cat owner, I naively thought it was only a problem for kittens. I worry for my kitten and fear contracting them myself. I don't know how to handle fleas and worms every time. Also, the appointments and the treatment are pretty expensive and I'm worried I won't have enough money to treat fleas and worms regularly.
Plus, I'm leaving for three days next week, so the vet visit will have to wait until Thursday. I'm really concerned. It doesn't help that the vets gave me little information about it, they didn't tell me what type of worm she had or why only one come out in the stool (despite me telling them pretty much everything). Everything was unclear and I hope I'll get better information next week.

TL;DR Chapter preface.
1 Team spirit and perseverance to overcome injuries and the collective effort to win
2 Carlo’s coaching what’s best for the club and not his style adapting against the opponent
3 How ancelotti built the team around the regista - Toni kroos
4 Dortmund’s run to the final and tactics
5 Real Madrid don’t play finals they win them. The unique decades long tradition that will make Madrid win the champions league.
1.
I wanted to take a moment before the final to write about our season. I have written about our previous two knockout ties against city and Bayern but now we have finally arrived to the summit of our season and the summit of a Real Madrid team which we won’t see in the same way without our maestro and conductor - Toni Kroos.
I’m sure a lot of our fans would agree that if you would had to tell me at the start of the season after losing our starting GK and 2 CBs to ACLs (unprecedented in its own regard) and lose the likes of Vini, Tchou and Camavinga for long stretches that we would win the league dominantly with 95 points by over performing our expected XG and reach the champions league final - I would ask you to put down the crack.
But yet here we are almost 9 months later ready to compete to win our 15th what a privilege for our fans to witness this moment. In an interview recently after eliminating Bayern, Carlo said that this was the best group of players he has ever managed. The fact that he said that having coached the likes of legends in Madrid and Milan of the past speaks volumes of the perseverance and team spirit we have shown this season. The team like he said “never complained” and worked hard to overcome all the obstacles thrown at us. We only lost once in the league against atletico and that loss opened our eyes on what we had to fix defensively when we realised we we weren’t defending well from our right side having conceded from crosses. The tweaks made whether it was getting Fede to be more of a defensive workhouse, getting Vini to play centrally, asking Jude to play the free 10 role or making rodrygo and Vini interchange from the left. These are not easy things to do and players need time to adapt but this team has done a momentous job shifting from a 4-3-3 and adapting to a diamond 4-3-1-2 or rather a 4-4-2, and playing for the needs of the team.

1. This is where I would like to talk about Ancelotti and his ability to manage based on what the club needs rather than his own personal style. The reason why Madrid are historically successful is because they don’t have a “style” they adapt and have the clutch factor to win when it matters and achieve the unprecedented.

Managers like pep are positionist and rely heavily on rehearsed plays that hinder the expression of freedom from players. Real and Carlo as of late have always been relationist allowing for a flow or mixture and adaptation. Against city we had to play a mid block in the first leg and stop their build up before they can push into our box to force them wide. In the second leg after scoring we had to play a low block for 60 mins to stop them from scoring. These are examples of a team and manager synchronised in the approach that they must do whatever to win. Carlo spoke about when they played De Zerbi’s shakhtar and not pressing them allowed them to get the ball and beat them 5-0. It our ability to adapt in the moment that allows us to overcome our opponent even if the chips are down.

1. Carlo spoke of his regret when he coached Parma and had the opportunity to sign baggio who was a 10 and one on the best players in the world then, but Carlo refused to sign him because he was adamant to play with 2 strikers. When he coached juventus he realised the importance of incorporating a certain Zinedine Zidane as the central figure of the team.

Those who remember his Milan team played a similar diamond with CFs and a roaming cam in the likes of Kaka who was the main man scoring goals at a ridiculous rate, very similar to Jude this season a lot of people would say that he was the focal point of that team but in reality it was the “regista” in Pirlo who conducted that Milan team and everything was built around how Pirlo dictated the play. And that is why I would like to highlight that our team is built around the irreplaceable Toni Kroos, our regista who conducts and orchestrates the play. It is why we have been successful not just with the system this year but the past decade. Kroos is a unicorn who is capable of escaping pressure and finding the right passes without being over indulgent to a fault like Barca or pep. Kroos’ impact in the final will be monumental and it is only fitting for a legend like him to bow out with a champions league trophy.

1. I think we can all agree that when you look at our side of the bracket in our run of the champions league, every team in our bracket would mop the floor with the teams in dortmund’s side of the bracket. I’m not saying Dortmund don’t deserve to be in the final they have earned to be there playing a defensive approach that sees the entire team defend when they need to. They have fast paced dribblers in sancho and adeyemi and a physical box presence in fullcrug. Their centre backs rank the highest in long ball passes in Europe and they play in quick transitions like a German team. They’ve shown resilience to overcome their opponents but let’s not forget they did top the group of death and that is no coincidence. Upon watching their games I think the one that impressed me the most was their win against atletico at home. They have qualities to cause us problem so we should be vary of how we approach them.

What troubled us against leipzig was when they played to clog us centrally and cause us issues in turnovers. Against Bayern in the first leg we didn’t acclimatise to the width their wingers found to score. My only worry remains our aerial and set pieces defence with the likes of a physical target man like fullcrug supplied by pace around him we need to be careful but I’m sure Carlo and co are well prepared and I trust the team handles this Dortmund side and take them to task.

1. I want to talk about the aura of Madrid in finals and how “Real Madrid don’t play finals, they win them”. Some of you may be supporting them for the first time in a final while for some they may have lost track. Personally this will be the sixth time I will be watching them play the champions league final and in my heart I know we will win it. Real humility lies in accepting that your opponent can beat you even if you are the favourite but Real perseverance lies in knowing that we will never give up no matter what. That is forever ingrained in me from 10 years ago when Sergio Ramos equalised in 92:48 to make us destroy atletico 4-1. I have since watched us win from going behind early on, winning in penalties and brutally destroying our opponents. Just like Carlo says I cannot explain what it is but there is something special about this club, it’s the winning dna, the spirit of juanito the comeback mentality, the myth and legend of this club and shirt that allows us to transcend and excel.

If you believe that there is something special about this club then you will know that we will win tonight. A year ago I’ll never forget how low I felt as a fan when we lost 4-0 to city. We have come a long way since then and a long way in this tournament getting revenge against city and beating Bayern Munich. We have come a long way to this final to lose against a side like Dortmund. And I will back my statement by pointing out a unique tradition that sees us always winning the champions league whenever we eliminate the reigning champions.
We have ALWAYS eliminated the title holders in the UCL era whenever we have faced them in the knockout rounds. And guess what ? Each time that happens we go on to win the champions league!
1998 - Dortmund in SF agg (2-0) we Win the UCL
2000 - Manchester United in QF agg (3-2) we Win the UCL
2002- Bayern Munich in QF agg (3-2) we Win the UCL
2014- PEP’S Bayern Munich in SF agg (5-0) we Win the UCL
2022- Chelsea in QF agg (5-4) we Win the UCL
2024 - Man City in QF … ⏳
So Madridistas I would like to end this reflection by saying that no matter what I am super proud of what we have achieved this season it is the culmination and the complete rebuild of Madrid that will never stop winning.
HASTA EL FINAL, VAMOS REAL!

F20 SW:187 lb CW: 175 GW: 140lb
Hi everyone! This weeks update is i went to visit some friends in another city - and managed to gain 3lbs over the week sadly. I definitely was eating less than the last time i visited - skipped breakfast everyday (had no appetite) and even went to a restaurant i've been to before - ordered the same meal but could only stomach half! I did have 3 drinks whilst i was there (had a night out) but honestly considering the amount of walking i did i am a little upset i gained :(
Trying not to let it bog me down too much - it happens and it's about the whole journey not just a week-by-week basis. Still not too nice a feeling and as i'll be taking the 5th dose this week i'll see how i get on before deciding to stick with 2.5mg or maybe move up to 5mg!
That being said - I have a friend who has a blood pressure machine at home (for medical reasons) and we measured mine just for fun - came out pretty damn low (98/58). I personally have been noticing a drop in my BP, I can feel the blood rushing to my head when i stand up quickly - normally have to bend down quickly bcs i feel so dizzy. Confusing because it makes it seem like i'm not eating enough food, but then i gained weight 😭 So a bit unsure on that.... i'll try monitor myself and see how things go.
Thats all for this week - hope next week I come back with a loss!

Let me preface this by saying I've been married 24yrs, 3 grown children and DH is a (wife diagnosed) Covert Narc. The last 2 years have been The Worst and basically I consider us separated even though we live in the same house. I literally don't (no can't) speak to him unless I'm answering or asking a question. I went through a traumatic job loss, a death, loss of friends, family and received ZERO support from DH. He actually Really showed himself and I fell into a deep depression. After months of working on getting better, I'm at a place that I'm 95% better and along the way, I have put up such high walls, that he doesn't effect me the way he used to. I am just trying to build the courage to file. That being said....I have not been intimate with him nor sleep in the same bedroom as him. Yesterday, I came home from work with a headache so I went and laid down. When I nap, I nap hard. Like a deep sleep...lol. Well, as I was coming back to consciousness, I freaking realized he (DH) was rubbing my back! I almost basically froze and immediately felt discomfort and a little disgust. Like, what in the actual f*ck? What made him think he could do that? I was pissed. Then felt bad too if I said something, you know, bc of course I knew once I did, he would go into self-pity mode and victim and I'm an empath so I "feel bad" about everything. I finally mustered up the words, "what are you doing" as I started rising and he said "I thought your back hurt?" I'm still extremely annoyed and for some reason just shaken. I guess I'm just shocked he thought that was fine....ugh...I know he isn't stupid and sees we are not okay. But he still tries to "talk to me normal" like nothing has happened. Never once trying to have a conversation about our marraige. What do you think?

He fills me with so much fucking rage and I don't even know what he looks like.
My best friend has a horrible dad. He views his daughters as objects to torment their mother with. They're divorced, but he does everything he can to torture their mom. She has to live at her parents' house because she has to spend thousands of dollars a month on legal fees.
I hate this man so fucking much.
My poor friend is scared of him. My strongest memory of her, even though it was at least 4 years ago, was at a church event about fear. She was called onstage alongside 3 other kids who were asked to say their biggest fear so the speaker could give suggestions on how not to be scared and how Jesus can help. The other kids had regular fears - spiders, the dark, etc - but my friend said her father was her biggest fear. That has always stuck with me.
This stupid mf of a man doesn't take care of her or her sister. He's black and their mother is white, so they have their father's hair, and yet he never helps them with their hair, even though it's really difficult to keep maintained. He lives in his car and rents hotel rooms when he has them, but he doesn't even give them separate beds. They're forced to sleep in the same bed and stay in one hotel room.
He's constantly fighting for custody even though he doesn't love them. He goes way too far for this. Last year, when he had my friend and her sister for the weekend, he took my friend to the emergency room and said she had a seizure so her driver's permit would be taken away. She had to go to a special doctor with her mom to prove she doesn't have seizures.
And now he's kidnapping them again. Technically it isn't 'kidnapping', but it is. Every summer he'll take them "for the weekend" and keep them for the entire summer so they can't do anything with their mother. Hell frequently take them out of state, and he doesn't let them contact their mother, even though that's illegal.
You know what the courts do about this? Fucking NOTHING. Their mom has so much written evidence of his mistreatment of them and blatant dishonesty, but they don't listen. Even though they've lived outside of California for 9 years, they have to abide by the Californian court, and they ALWAYS side with the dad, most likely because he's a black man.
California, you claim you love and accept people of different races. Then why the FUCK do you let my best friend and her sister suffer even though they're half black? They're terrified of their father and he's clearly a bad person, and yet you let him get away with this shit all the time!
If jail didn't exist, I would fucking murder this man. I'd stab him in the torso, the head, the throat, the heart. Everywhere. I want him to choke on blood.
This man fills me with rage so bad that I've nearly hit myself multiple times to get the rage out. I hate him.
I hope he gets in a horrible car crash on his way to pick them up and dies.

A little background: we're friends for 4 years already, talked daily and spent almost every day together. We had our up and downs, but at the end of the day, we could talk about the problems and move on. Through these years, he became an incredibly important person in my life and allegedly it was mutual. We shared a lot of important, private elements of our lives and have amazing memories. Over the years, I expressed a lot of times how much I value this friendship. But this is something different which I feel like it's difficult to handle.
Long story short, about 4-5 months ago we started to play roleplay in GTA. I was never interested in it but he picked it up again after a few years and invited me to join, so I said let's try it.
For the first few occasions it was fun, fresh, everything was new of course. I met a lof of new, fun people and really enjoyed the experience. If you don't know how it looks, basically you're playing a character and act like that fictional person. Most of the time we moved together, sometimes separately, but our point of the game was to have fun together and share experiences like every time in the last few years.
However, after the first 1-2 weeks he started to move alone more often, probably he wanted to make new friendships or build his connections/charactestory, which is totally okay. He met new people every day, and he spent most of his time with them. He didn't communicate that though, nor talks about what's happening between them or what they're doing (probably he wants to keep it private and I don't force it). He usually only shares who he spends time with but nothing more. He became a popular person on the server but he doesn't include me in his "adventure".
I wanted to give him the space to do whatever he wants and despite I missed him during those sessions, I also made some new friends (they're only in-game friends though).
That'd be alright in itself, as this is what this game about, but I noticed we started to talk less and less outside of the game too, to a point where I don't feel like he's interested anymore - this is what makes it so painful. I already talked with him twice I'd like to spend a little bit more time together in-game, and it was better the next day, but everything went back to the previous state after that. So I dropped it and just accepted I give him more space and perhaps it gets better later. It didn't.
Sometimes he mentions how many people started to text him outside of the game as well and said he enjoys it very much. When we talk or text, he doesn't seem interested - he asks general questions but there's no proper reaction to keep the convo going. When I ask back, even if I'm making effort to give good topics to talk about (common interests, experiences like before) I get 2-3-word answers and it dies out.
On one hand, I feel bad for asking for more time because I want to respect his decision and enjoy his time, but on the other hand, I thought we're much closer than that, I never thought there's gonna be a significant distance between us due to a stupid game. I'm trying to be as far as possible from being needy but I think I already gave up so many boundaries and "expectations" that it's too much, it feels like I'm not valued.
I feel like I'm being replaced with virtual, mostly imaginery characters, who're playing someone else than themselves and not even real. In the last 1-2 weeks I can't sleep anymore, it hurts as much I'm crying every night and occasion because I don't know what should I do or how to handle it. It makes me feel like I'm worthless and thrown away.
The last thing I could think about to do is to talk with him how our relationship has changed since we play the game and how I'd like to be closer again. Or ask his opinion about our friendship and see what he says, I don't know.
TL;DR: Me and my best friend started to play roleplay, but since then, I feel like he slowly "fades away" and seems way less interested in me. It hurts and I don't know what to do.
I know one thing, I don't want to suffer more and even if it's gonna hurt a lot, I have to move on at some point.

I had done 4 weeks on 2.5mg and experienced great results the first 3 weeks and by the 4th week hunger started coming back. I am ready to move up to 5mg which my doctor for prescribed me but my insurance is requiring another authorization. Between that and the shortage, I haven’t been able to continue for 3 weeks.
What I am curious on is how are yalls prescriptions structured? Do you need to get a PA every month?! Or does your doc prescribe a like 6 month plan? I just can’t figure out how to not cause delays in between months?

What would you do in case your ex (9 intense months + dating ), (that for reference left you while you were under the rain due to different heavy situations: phone and id got stolen, an important person in my life is getting operated for a difficult cancer, they day he dumped me I was supposed to go see eurovision with his family to distract myself from the fact that my mother was probably fighting cancer again, had two jobs full time plus my fashion business to bring on but still was finding time..), would come back after one week of dumping you (by text without confrontation) telling you that he still sees the connection and is attracted to me and want to restart as friends and just see what happens because quote 'you never know what happens in life' this was the person that kept on telling me that thay wanted to marry me and have kids, we were looking at morgages to buy, not rent, buy an actual property but at the same time he was saying 'you never know what happens in life, anything is possible and you never know what it brings or happens during it, maybe tomorrow we die'.
Excluding the fact that I found him on Grinder after 5 days of breaking up and confronting him resulted in 'people advised me to have a rebound and I still feel like you are too much in my head', and the fact that when we met each other after two weeks he could not even look at me straight in the eyes and said later to me that he left in a rush because we hugged and he felt it all back.
He apologised for the way he left but as soon as I bring out something about it he goes in the defensive and I believe it's such a waste because we both know what we want but clearly the grass is greener else where or he is just not sure of himself; taking this for reference I would like to point out that this person does not like themselves, due to different things and was really putting his insecurities on me daily until one day, after having sex and it all he brought up for the 4th time that day the fact of boing ugly, always tired and boring, to this, in confusion I replied with a slap that passed for me being violent and for it as the last drop that made the relationship collaps, he didnt care about how I was feeling, he did not care that I was not taking pictures of me due to the shift that he brought in my life and in all this I was just there, delusional, telling myself that I could never leave him, he needs somebosy and a real support, he is surrounded by people that just look for him when there is the chance to actually do something or complain about their problems for hours on the phone, not like me, I was there even in his depressed days; where he was not reaching the end of the month in the best economic way and yet his people were still asking him for money that most of the time he was borrowing from me..
I feel stuck in this situation and my feelings change hourly; there are the times when i realise this person is playing and can't even understand what they clearly want in their life, when I go there I just think that I need to be a better person and let this teach me which bonds to fuel and which not, but there are times where I just hope to meet, look at each other in the eyes and cry trying telling all to each other and to be better but he seems like a rock; last time he was almost crying every sentence but was stopping it when he realised his eyes were getting wet, he even told me he wished things worked when he could have acted still but decided to left me waiting because he is clearly a coward.
Another thing to add about this person is the fact that they meditate; nothing wrong in this, I do it as well in my own ways, but for as I see it on him, he is attending different structures and retires for that, he believe to what they tell him, like that he believes he knows how to ground himself/relax and stuff like this, but in reality he is just stuck and you can clearly see that, this in the mix affects because he thinks he is on a superior level of conection and peace but as I saw him last time he as still going on with the 'I have to learn to not take the energy over from people and stuff like this because it gets stuck in u ecc'. I just wanted to reply that he is the one who allows that, but maybe some other meditative retires will help him realise.
I feel stuck with his request of being friends and then see because you never know in life but I also understand that this person went through a lot in their life and probably that package is stuck on and in them.
I told him that I can forgive him as a friend but not as a lover since he abandoned me out of nowhere, I know that from the way I tried to confront him, If I bring something up the response would be something alluding to the 'idk what happens in life'.
How can you pretend to be sure about your life and yourself and not evaluate yourself especially after realising how you managed a situation in the shittiest way possible, but I know even if he does not admit it, that he feels bad about what he did, probably his narcissistic side cannot admit it but the fact that he cannot even look at me while I am next to him says a lot.
To make you understand better I am speaking about sporadical little things that with time accumulate, the worst that comes in my mind in this moment is when we were happy after doing in bed and I felt like testing him; I said 'If something would happen to one of us, would we both stay on each other side's no matter what?' I was alluding to stuff like canceelse, the reply was 'I dont know, we could feel stuck and not pursuing what we want in life so that is something I would not do'.
I now ask myself and you again; How could I see all things like this, daily and just be scared to confront him about some human decency? I was telling him often about manners but when I was doing so I was feeling in the wrong asap because from the way I loved him, I was seeing over us as mere people, I was seeing beyond that, I was focusing on the things that we were doing together and how to make him feel better because with time i realised his family does not care for him, It is just for company because they are bored and when I was there, sincerely people would not feel like fropping something and talking about it, as well for his friends, he is surrounded by bpeople with this mentality like 'me first' and I believe he is now trying to follow that, and I still wonder why I care.
Sorry for this, I am confused on the situation and I just had to let a bit out since I could not even confront this perosn.
The biggest question is: If you left me since I was unstable and all, why do you even care about being friends when I passed the first days believing that I would have looked outside and he would be there to talk, but he instead decided to be unavailable but now wants to have a bond?
He is playing a lot around this thing of the 'open door fore the future' but I can see that as something alike wanting me to not move on, be an emotional blanket and be there when he wants.

For me something I did a week ago could feel like yesterday or last month, and an even a month ago could feel like a week or 2 weeks ago.... especially grocery shopping...on sunday I made a smoothie after dinner. I was so excited, I grabbed the yogurt and realized there wasn't a lot left, I smelled it..smelt nothing and used the last of it....not realizing I had bought the yogurt April 30th!!! This realization didn't occur until 4 am when I was awakened by the most intense stomach cramps! Every 15 minutes I would curl into a ball in agony for hours. It doesn't help I'm on my period either ugh. Luckily no vomiting. This was Monday morning and I'm still dealing with cramping and an unhappy behind but not nearly as severe. I'm grateful it was only about 2-3 tablespoons of yogurt and not more or it could've been worse! So remember to stay on top of when you opened, made or bought food...at least the smoothie tasted great!!! 😋

brief context, my family is messy and i was left with my grandparents by my biological mother. when i say "mom," i mean my grandmother. my grandfather passed in 2015, and she remarried in 2020. i am a mentally/physically disabled adult and cannot drive, so i rely on her for any access i get to the outside world. apologies in advance if this sounds scattered.
so my mom turns 83 in october. she's always been very adamant about living to 100 (saying she wanted to be on the news), and would talk about it so often that i was just convinced that it would happen until recently.
in october of 2023 she had some major surgery that she was expected to heal well + quickly from, but she was just never the same afterwards. she was already having some issues with jitters in her hands that year, which only seemed to get worse after her surgery. her doctors were doing absolutely every test they could to figure out why my mom just wasn't getting better, and boiled it down to a bad UTI they had caught too late. all of that aside they still thought she would be back on the road no later than december, and i would be able to finally leave my house again.
december came and went and she still never got better. it all came to a head in mid january, when the day after i needed my own dental surgery- i woke up to a text from her husband saying she was in urgent care and that an ambulance had been called while i was asleep, and that i'd need to manage the house by myself for a few weeks. i was extremely worried for her, but i knew my mom was a fighter and would come out on the winning side. (we'd find out her uti had relapsed, but while she was in UC she contracted a severe c. diff infection that also relapsed, which is why she was away so long.)
a few weeks turned into nearly 3 months for me to manage all of this new responsibility very suddenly, while also trying to tender myself after my surgery i was meant to have help from my family with. i already struggle with taking care of myself and my cat, let alone adding an entire house and a small senior dog (16) to the mix.
this dog had a very strict schedule dictated by my family, much of which was left over from my mom's schedule when my dad was still alive and we were caring for him. i needed a lot of rest and couldn't keep up. it was clear she was anxious about having half of the house missing all of a sudden, and having someone new take care of her. she wet on the floor all the time no matter how much i let her out, and was developing some bad behavior. i vented to my mom about this once, and she offered to have her stay at a kennel until everyone came home, which i agreed to- thinking the kennel staff would be able to give her the amount of attention my exhausted body couldn't at that moment. a week before my mom came home, she told me that my childhood dog wouldn't be coming home with her, and was put up for foster and adopted.
i absolutely couldn't believe that she would do that to me, especially not without talking about it with me first. she was completely cold to my grief, and told me "that i would either cry now, or cry later when i inevitably realized i couldn't take care of her," even though that was completely unfair to me. i was put under an extreme and sudden, yet temporary, amount of pressure, and was determined to prove to her i could care for my dog in her final years, as long as i was allowed to shift her schedule to match my own better. i wanted to heal and get better for her so badly. she didn't care and is yet to offer me any consolation for stealing my pet from me under my nose.
it was the final straw for me. even outside of several major incidents we've had i won't get into, ever since she got remarried and i turned 18 a couple years ago, she's grown increasingly verbally/emotionally abusive and emotionally unavailable to me. we've always had problems of course, given she had to raise me alone, but i still thought that she loved me. now, she insults me and constantly says things to me to make me feel like i'm the abuser in the relationship, while also refusing all of my efforts for the last 4 years to try and improve our relationship together. she threatens me with calling the police if i'm having a ptsd episode/autism meltdown. i have never been physically violent, and even when i'm having an episode, i try to mind my words so i don't say something hurtful that i don't mean. if i ever try to tell her that i can't always be the problem, and that she has responsibility for our relationship too, she deflects and says "gosh, i've just been such a bad mother haven't i? why don't you just get rid of me if i'm always striking out with you?"
i'm tired of trying to fix things with her. i don't deserve to be treated like this. but at the same time, i know that my mom is dying. she's homebound and her healing has stagnated. and maybe it's denial, but i can't bring myself to be sad at the prospect of her passing away anymore. i feel horrible for it. she's still my mom, you know? the only grief that i feel is for the version of her that doesn't exist anymore, who was still kind to me and who i felt loved me.
but at the same time i'm angry at her for getting sick. i've not been outside in months, and the amount of stress i've been through has put pressure on my own loved ones- and has cost me an extremely valuable relationship that gave me hope for the future. i'm grieving for that relationship now, too.
it's been 2 months since she came home and i've not spoken to her once. i don't want to. i know it wasn't her fault, but if my mom gets to hate me for things that make no sense, don't i get to hate her for the same reason? it's not like our relationship is salvageable anymore anyways. if you hadn't gotten remarried, your new husband wouldn't have made you so mean. if you had never gotten sick, i would still be going outside. i would still have my dog. i would still be with this person who was my ticket out of this house, and into a real home where i was loved. you've traumatized me in a way i'll be dealing with for the rest of my life. i have nothing now, because of you. my future is cloudy and i don't know what's going to happen to me.
my therapy isn't helping anymore. i feel trapped and i have no idea what to do, or how to feel, or how to prepare myself for when my mom does finally pass. either way, i lose. i either regret not being kinder to her and not trying hard enough while she was dying, or i regret still giving her pieces of myself and sacrificing my own health to feel like i had a mother who loved me. i cared for and watched my dad die slowly over years, at an age where i should've never been a caretaker, but he never hurt me like this. our relationship wasn't so complicated, and still i have regrets. one day my mom asked if i wanted to come visit him at the nursing home, and i was being bratty that day so i said no. he would die that afternoon. he had severe dementia, but nearly 10 years later i wonder if he was looking for his daughter before he slipped away. it haunts me. i cannot handle having regrets like that for both my parents.

Me and my girlfriend are now 1 1/2 Years in a Long distance Relationship. I come from a German speaking Country and we talk in English. About the Argument/problem where i need help on: So my girlfriend F(20) went through my YT watch History and found Videos of me watching like those Dating Videos where Woman alot of Times are represented with shorter Clothing. Wich i personally watch because of entertainment because how the people communicate in that and certain Comedians are dating/ trying to Rizz up Girls. Videos about a German meme Family going onto a Bikini Modeling show (where the show is 10% from the Video) wich i got recommended and my thaught was i just know them from memes. Like it has to be a funny video? Also in the Thumbnail was Robert Geiss ( family member of the Meme family ) with a slip over his pants, and blurred in the background, the Show. Then also an amount of videos of a Female Actor where she is in all with the other ( male )main Actor from a New Series/Show wich came out and is a Comedy/ Romantic Show? And because i was interested in what the Series or also them two is all about, ( i know the actor from one of my Favorite Movies ) i then watched some Videos. Apparently a Blooper video of both of them wich i dont remember where her B00bs are shown in the thumbnail from what my Gf said. ( wich dont make sense because YT doenst allow something like that if im correct )And also multiple Videos of German Youtubers. If Somebody knows them Inscope 21, Tomsprm, Marc eggers and more ppl like them. Where either the Videos are about a street survey. And the most asked Gender are Woman. Or as a Clickbait a Woman even tho it is 1% about the actual clip or something of that Woman. And 99% is just comedy. Now the Argument is about that i micro cheated on her wich from my perspective is not making any sense. Because i didnt Watch the videos Because of the Woman. Just because of entertainment. ( the named videos are eventually around 15% of videos wich i have watched in the Last 3 Months. The others are Car things, … , … ) But i also understand Her GF (20) because she doesnt know any of them and just sees the Thumbnails and that there are Woman wich are with less clothing. I understand that my fault in this is that i didnt think of where the watching of Videos like that could go and make her Feel. As a Reaction tho from her came the try to hurt my feelings on purpose with telling me that if people found out that we Broke Up that some guys wich are in her Scool whatever. That Guys would come to have a chance on Her GF(20) and more hurtful things. She (GF) didnt believe and still doesnt believe anything that i am saying. The Reason to not are other events that happend the last few months. Wich are the same way. I do something. She sees it other than i do and doesnt trust my words. ( it happend around 2+ times) And this was 2 Weeks ago. We talked about it in the meanwhile a few times and were left at the same point. That she doenst feel Love to me or from me anymore, Is disgusted, and is not wanting to try to solve the problem with me. Rather distance herself than work on it together. And is only together with me because i ( Bf(20)) wants to. I dont know what to do. Because i Love her and i want our Relationship to Last and grow and work. Sorry for bad Grammar.

My ~5 year old cat is having brief episodes of vertigo or ataxia. Since I've adopted him when he was 2, he has always had some slight ataxia and sway in his gait, but never had these episodes before until about a month and a half ago. They only last about a few seconds. At first, these episodes only involved him getting low to the ground, scrambling backward, then falling down. Right after he will get back up and start walking normal. He'll play and run around fine, jump on the counters, and have completely normal behavior with no signs of pain or discomfort. But this last episode seemed like he started to struggle a little more with figuring out where he was going. Again, afterword he walked off like nothing happened.
https://reddit.com/link/1d5nxri/video/378rm019xy3d1/player
He had x-rays last month and they came back normal except for some slight inflammation or minimal defect in his femurs, but the vet explained it should not have anything to do with these episodes. The vet tested for parasites when I brought in stool samples last month and they were clear. I have 3 cats and it's impossible for me to time it so that I can bring in a sample knowing who it's from, however the vet said more than likely if 1 of them has worms or parasites, they likely all would due to sharing the box.
The vet performed an ear exam yesterday to look for outer ear vestibular problems but said that his canals and ear drums were clear. The vet said that normally if cats struggle with vestibular problems, it is constant whereas this is very episodic. My partner believes that he was able to trigger this episode in the video when he picked him up and then flipped him over while he was gently setting him back down. I've noticed that the previous episodes seemed to occur when he was brushing on my legs in circles meowing for food, making me believe that he gets dizzy with certain movements.
We're both sort of at a loss and uncertain what the next best course of action is, aside from an MRI. Unfortunately... MRI's in my area are $3-5k and it's a tough cost to swallow. I will clearly do it if he needs it, but I just can't tell if this is urgent or if it's just a development of his ataxia.
Any insight would be greatly appreciated!!

Has this happened with anyone else while drinking on lexapro? Last night I drank for the first time since starting lexapro. I’ve been on 5mg for about 2 months now. I had one drink, it was probably 3 fingers of vodka in total. I got tipsy super quick from it, so I stopped there and the rest of the night was normal. But I woke up this morning with the spins like CRAZY. Like, I can hardly stand type dizzy. I feel sort of hungover, I got the typical light nausea I would usually have after a night of drinking, but the spins are new. I’m getting them even with my eyes closed. I can’t do much but lay down and try to center myself. It’s definitely making my anxiety spike. Is this normal? Definitely not drinking again while taking this, lol.

I have had depression and anxiety since I was 20 years old. I had anxiety in childhood too, but to a lesser degree. I was on and SSRIs in my 20s (a few months at a time) because my parents never approved, so I never really got treatment. After I got married, my husband didn't approve of SSRIs, so didn't take them. Now, at 37, I am taking them again and thinking I should try and be consistent this time. Husband doesn't know, but I have to be honest and tell him. I know he will get mad. (for context, I am Indian). I just have been irritable, angry, and stressed, coupled with a lot of indecision about my career. I recently moved to FL, and was also feeling depressed about the move.
So, I started on 25 mg of Zoloft. It's been 1 week.

1. Even though it has only been a week, I feel so much more positive and confident. Even though I know it takes longer to start working. It's almost like I have two personalities, one off the med and one on the med. On the med, I'm more calm, confident and positive. Is this a concern? I'm concerned that the placebo effect will make me psychologically dependent on the med. No one has noticed any difference, but I feel I'm different.
   
2. Will I be able to wean off this drug after a year? I am willing to work with a psychologist and a psychiatrist to really change the issues I was having. To fix the root cause. I am willing to work extremely hard to get out of this rut so I don't have to be on a med forever. I am willing to exercise, eat right and do CBT. But I dont' know if this will be enough. Will my brain become dependent on serotonin?
   
3. Any tips on how to tell my husband?
   

The month of June is here and so is the first Monthly Server !
This month server is a collaboration with one of the great Golden and Silver Age Minecraft modder : Bluestaggo It will celebrate the first anniversary of Authentic Adventure
What is Authentic Adventure ?
As described by Staggo himself on the Github repository :

Minecraft Authentic Adventure is a minimalistic mod for 1.2.5 that reverts the game to a more Beta-esque aesthetic with hilly terrain generation, sandbox gameplay and an overall enjoyable experience for player from both the golden age and the modern era.

At it's core Authetic Adventure take inspiration from Notch's original screenshots for Minecraft 1.0 and feedback from SAM/GAM community, to create an alternate interpretation of early release Minecraft.
It has recently taken a Silver lining as Staggo is exploring a port of Authentic Adventure to versions 1.3-1.7+
You can find more information on Authentic Adventure and more on BlueStaggo's Discord server (I highly suggest you to check out Diverge)

Server Info

As this is a mod showcase, the server is a raw survival server.
Server version : Authentic Adventure 1.3.1 (available on Betacraft) Server IP : AuthAdv.SilverAgeMC.net:25566 (backup : 141.95.193.200:25566) Opening date : 1st June 8pm CEST
The few rules applied are :

• No griefing
• No hate speech
• No hacks

As long as you use common sense, it should be fine.
Unlike future monthly servers, this server will stay online after the month of June. However a world download will still be distributed on July 1st, as a way to close the partnership.
Don't forget to join the Silver Age Minecraft discord server for more information and updates.

1. Enjoy Some Desserts And We'll Reveal Which Disney Princess You Are
2. Which Completely Made-Up Aesthetic Fits You Best? Go Shopping For Dresses To Find Out
3. Everyone Wants To Go To The Met Gala – Create An Ensemble To Match This Year's Theme To See If You'll Recieve An Invitation
4. Customize The Perfect "Bridgerton" Outfit To Reveal Your Season's Main Scandal
5. Which "Bridgerton" Character Are You Deep Down Inside? Eat A Massive Meal To Find Out
6. Can We Actually Guess Your Birth Month Based On Your Sweet And Savory Food Preferences?
7. Grab Some Sweets At This Dessert Buffet And We'll Reveal The First Letter Of Your Soulmate's Name
8. Pick Between These Cheesy And Chocolatey Foods And We'll Guess Your Zodiac Sign
9. Everyone Has A Red Flag, And We'll Reveal Yours If You Tell Us What You Eat In A Day
10. Your Açai Bowl Preferences Will Reveal Your Hogwarts House

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Hi everyone,
I know there are hundreds of posts for starters, but they don't give answers for my specific situation. I'm hoping to get some insights tailored to my background and circumstances.
A bit about me:

• I'm a web developer with a basic understanding of cybersecurity.
  
• I hold a Security+ certification.
  
• I completed an internship as a Cybersecurity Analyst a while ago.
  
• I'm located in a growing country with very good internet where the median salary is around $600-700.
  

My question is: what's a realistic aprox. income I can expect from bug hunting after working on it for 6 months?
My plan is to:

1. Learn from PortSwigger Academy.
   
2. Pursue the Bug Bounty Hunter learning path on Hack The Box.
   
3. Dedicate at least 5-6 hours a day to this.
   

I would really appreciate any insights, especially from those who have been in a similar situation or have experience with bug bounty hunting. Thanks!