Considering if I may have been dating some kind of narcissist?
Ok so, I’m only just considering the possibility that I was dating some kinda narcissist.
I met a guy from online dating. Exceptionally Handsome photos, very smooth and charming. We met in person and immediately and him got on exceptionally well. He was the most intelligent man I’ve ever met in my life, on dates he wanted to talk at length about intellectual topics.
Despite getting along well, this is where the weird behaviour came in. When parting ways on dates, after the date he was very distant. He would send a long formal message, not check I got home safe.
He never lovebombed. But I’m considering if he is a cerebral narcissist for the following reasons
We went on several further dates. Mainly daytime dates. He would be very affectionate, hold my hand and kiss my forehead. He brought me along to meet his friends. Still amazing conversation. But I always felt like he was the one in control
He was always quite a stern stoic person, very unemotional. He cared a lot about his hair, often showing me pics of himself. Talking about his appearance a lot
If I stayed over, in the mornings I basically felt he was kicking me out, same thing if he stayed at mine he would want to leave early. He’d make me coffee, and his demeanour had completely changed. He would not cuddle me after intimacy. Then after the date, once again taking days to reply and sending formal paragraphs.
After the first time I stayed over, which was a lovely date. He went on holiday for 10 days and didn’t message me. When he came back, he was being extremely cold in messages
The next thing was interesting. He was fired from his job. He told me it was because he told them ‘you don’t know how to run a company.’ this made him quite stressed
But he still continued meeting me. Once again affectionate on dates
On the very last date, he cooked me dinner and we had a nice time. Though when he was cooking the steak, he went on for about 20 mins about the science and molecules involved when cooking a steak. It was cute but a bit much. He always referred to intelligent people as ‘people like us.’ And he always commented on my intelligence as a reason why he likes me. On the morning of the last date, he went on a rant about how he struggles to respect those he works with as he feels they don’t deserve the job. He also told me empathy is something he finds hard to feel
Things changed after this date and he was texting me all the time. Sending cute date ideas. I then asked him if I could see him on my way past for a few hours, he told me he was hungover. And sent a bit of a harsh cold message
2 weeks later, he ended things and said he didn’t feel romantic.
2 months later, he comes back to be friends. Took me to play golf, to a music gig. Was being very nice to me, sending supportive messages when I was at work stressed. Hugging me a lot and telling me how glad he is to see me. Texting me a lot.
Then he disappears again. Ignored my messages. It’s like he only wants to speak or see me on his terms.
So I considered perhaps he is narcissistic minus the love bombing. (I’m too clever to fall for love bombing he could feel)
He claims ‘I’m just like him but he’s more harsh.’

For about a month, we've been getting to know each other at work and over text's. Yesterday over texting back and forth, she decides to ask "quick question, what are your intentions"
I'm honest with her saying that she's a cute girl and looking to get to know her better and she reciprocates with a big paragraph but something along the lines of, "im thankful for your kind words I think you are a good looking man yourself and would like to stay as friends and see if we get along as friends first before taking that next step"
I'm happy with this response and am just unsure as to if im not understanding it the right way, I've got a problem for not taking these things at face value, could this be soemthing promising in terms of a relationship?
I've asked her twice for me to take us both out and things just didn't work out in terms of schedules and university. She's got her last exam on friday, so I'm guessing I should just take it slow, and keep getting to know her at work.

So, I've done this in the past, however, I think I had some bias towards certain types. Because of this, I don't fully believe all what I said was correct, hence why I'm redoing this. I know it takes a great deal of time for people to read through these, so if you're here, I love you. Jokes. I'm just grateful.
How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
I'm a twenty-year-old female. I'm about to switch my major from chemical engineering to something else, still undecided though.
Things I want in a career:

• Get to work with a lot of people,
• Organise large scale projects,
• Developing projects,
• Brainstorming,
• Making connections,
• Marketing,
• Analysing and creating plans,
• Not repetitive,
• Actually interesting.

All throughout high school, I hated the fact I had to stick to one plan since I was always changing what I wanted to do. I can definitely see myself changing multiple careers in my life.
Growing up, I constantly changed the way I acted, and decided various times I wanted to be perceived certain ways. It was often derived from my interests at the time, or characters I had grown to like.
Diagnosis?
None.
Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
My mom's side of the family was religious, so I went to church a few times when I was younger. My grandfather was a priest, so my grandparents were very heavy on the idea. I didn't have any strong connection to it, I felt rather out of place actually when I went to church with them. I only really looked forward to the food, and playing around after the service had ended. I had no idea, or really much of an opinion about it. It is what it is.
From when I was four to seven, I was left alone a lot by my parents. I only saw them on weekends, so naturally I tried to adopt the way they acted, the way they viewed things, so I could be an ideal kid and they would recognise me for it. I did a lot to garner their attention, and I think now, it's become the root reason for why I'm quite a perfectionist. It's humiliating to not be seen as perfect. I often am really harsh on myself, and hate it when I can't do something. In high school, I got a 36/39, and I felt useless. It was that extreme. I felt like nobody should be better than me, and if they are, I was jealous. Actually, I was a very jealous person in general. I was (even know I am) always jealous of something or someone.
What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
Answered this earlier.
If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
I know this question is to work out whether I'm introverted vs. extraverted, so I'll more so focus on that. I grew up alone. I'd be more than happy to spend an entire month by myself. I don't know how I'd react emotionally, but I'm just so used to it. This is why I was so stuck between E or I in the past. The only reason I leant more towards E now, was because I'm more concerned with the external world and get so excited and energized after being with people. I also sometimes feel physically sick around people at times or when engaging in something that feels out of place, it's a mental thing, not sure why though.
What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
I've participated in a lot of sports. I remember starting baseball when I was ten, as it was around this time I was looking for a sport to do. It was because I was body shamed a lot that I started looking for a way to get fit. . And the main reason why I played, was because the person I liked at the time also played. How childish of me. Pfft. Anyways, for some reason I continued. I remember thinking of quitting every year, but never did. I became good at it, and felt like I had to continue doing good. My dad also wanted me to play a lot, and I was kind of pressured into a lot of it... but anyways. I also took up basketball, and HATED IT. But my dad kept on signing me up for it even if I didn't really want to. It was mostly my fault, I could never really voice my true opinions or feelings around my parents, so I never really explained how I HATED IT SO MUCH. But oh well.
I'm more attracted to indoor activities, in the aircon, where its nice (I live in a hot place). But I'm also really attracted to outdoor activities. Camping (more glamourized I should mention), kayaking, going to the beach, doing stuff with people who I want to do stuff with.
I hate gardening. Despise it. Never will I do it.
How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
I have a lot of ideas. I love creating, planning, analysing and perfecting ideas. To me, I also have to out do everyone and present the best idea all the time, no matter what I do. At times, I've had to bite my tongue when working in groups. I usually critique a lot of peoples ideas, but if someone catches my attention, I'll apply it to my idea so that it can evolve.
I remember in high school, we had to plan a city scape. I had this amazing design, where traffic would be hard to come across due to the way I had positioned everything. I also thought about the placement of parks, where they'll get the best use, etc. Things like that. It was a really fast analysis. But since it was group work, I'm not really assertive or confrontational with my ideas, so it didn't end up exactly as I planned. I also wanted to colour it perfectly, however, that didn't work either, so at that point, I lost much of my interest in the project.
I am also extremely good at problem solving, and using what I have around me. One thing I've noticed, is that I don't pay much mind to the objects around me (at least I don't try to consciously), however, in times of need it's like I have a list of all the things I've noticed and see how they could be useful. They are often inventive solutions as well, using things for something other than their intended purpose, or fitting their purpose to the situation. I have those kinds of ideas.
I've come up with a range of ways people can improve their current ideas, or businesses or schemes that would do extremely well if they were produced the right way. Except, I would only want to be the 'idea man'. I'll have somebody else put it into action for me. I'm quite lazy in that sense.
I don't know what to call this, but I remember my friend telling me she wanted to become a teacher, but she was worried about the competitive hiring culture. I told her to start tutoring now (when we were in high school), then to take a gap year and do teacher aid work at the school whilst then working for a tutoring company and doing any other part-time work (baby sitting) or courses. Then to go through university. Then, she would not only have connections in the tutoring company, and the school, but would most likely out do everyone else in terms of experience. It would be the perfect path to take.
Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
I think? But I bite my tongue a lot and hold back on my genuine thoughts as they might be too harsh. As a kid I got chewed out for this, I was often called bossy and as I went through high school I slowly stopped voicing my thoughts as much. I knew my ideas were better, and that pleased me enough.
I also struggle to say no, since I hate feeling awkward with people. That's something that's become more prominent. I might act like some pushover or overtly take precautions around people to ensure they like me and that they only feel positive emotions. It's really awkward for me to annoy someone, or if a random person gets impacted negatively by my actions.
As a kid, I was really good. I did a bunch of extra activities that involved answering questions from a panel of judges. I naturally always took the lead since I knew how to please them or impress them.
Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
I'm coordinated with my hands, which stemmed from baseball. I don't particularly gain any enjoyment or excitement from getting to use my hands, it's just something that happened naturally as I played. I am NOT coordinated in my legs. Whatsoever. Started doing volleyball recently, and learnt how to do a three step approach. Could not do it to save the life of me.
Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
I was kind of boxed into an 'artistic' type as a kid. I drew a lot when I was really young, and ever since my family kind of formed that stereotype around me. It doesn't exist anymore. Ended when I was around thirteen. But I was good at art. I don't know if it came naturally, all I remember is thinking I HAD to have the best artwork, and therefore, I stopped at nothing to make that happen. I struggled a lot with it though, because I have Aphantasia, meaning I can't visualise things in my mind.
What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
As a kid, I only thought about the future. I would take screenshots on my laptop of apartments and houses in places I wanted to live. I would plan my life in advance, what I'll do, what car, how many pets, kids, the types of lifestyle I'll have, the things I'll do on a daily basis, it was extreme. This was when I was 12-15 as well, so a long way from any of those things.
But now, I struggle a lot to see what will happen to me. What I truly want to do, how I want to live, what kind of life I want, they're all questions I have, but kind of ignore.
I also got stressed a lot in high school with upcoming exams. I would frantically plan what to do way in advance (rarely followed through, mind you) and overtly freak myself out, more than what I needed to.
Regarding the past, I kind of want to forget about the kind of person I was, and all the things I cringe at now. I randomly have moments where I can easily remember in extremely detail my memories, even about the most random details, like a stain on the wall of a hotel we stayed in that was three fingers away from the windowsill. Things like that.
How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
I naturally struggle to say no to the requests of others, so of course I end up helping them.
I can easily get annoyed by my family if they ask me though... whoopsie.
How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
I usually find the fastest way to get something done. I don't want to waste my effort doing something boring. However, I may seem unconventional when doing something I like, or am interested in. In high school, a lot of my assignments weren't by the book. They were done my way. Once we had to do a multimodal presentation, and I made a game, and presented my work that way.
I don't know if this relates to this question, but I would often get annoyed by people who were inefficient, or couldn't think for themselves. Never showed any distaste directly towards them, but it was definitely there.
Productivity? I'm all over the place with this. I go through mood swings. I get really stressed if I haven't done work, however, when I start doing work I get even more stressed and overwhelmed, and feel as if the world is ending. And then I eventually make peace with myself. Then the cycle starts again. But I must say, I am the best procrastinator around.
Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
I hate to admit that I'd like to, but as I've grown older I've stopped, not necessarily caring, but just worrying over things like that.
What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
I like being shown through an example. After that's done, it's pretty easy for me to fill in the gaps. Once I'm shown how to do it, I can usually work it out on my own. I also remember random things I want to be able to regurgitate to others to seem smart, lol.
For English, I really struggle to do this by myself. I usually search up, or read past examples or pieces of literacy and then formulate my own based on that inspiration.
I liked science, and still do. It was so easy to understand, everything was interconnected within biology, chemistry, physics, they all had overlapping ideas that explained one another. They were also easy to relate to the real world.
I had a love hate relationship with math. I loved that I was good at it, but I hated that it took a lot of studying, or if I ever got a question wrong.
How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
I never really broke my assignments up, nor did I ever complete them in an orderly way. I would often get tired or uninspired to continue writing a paragraph, so I let it unfinished and started a new part. Sometimes, I would start at the end, or the middle. It was never structured.
In senior high school, I started creating studying "plans" for maths. I would write in depth plans, but it never worked out, so in the end, I just ended up designating certain questions to certain days, and as long as I completely those questions that day, I felt good. There were times when I skipped a day, and then became overtly stressed.
What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
This is confusing for me, I don't really know my take on this.
What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
I have a fear of not being on the ground. Random I know. Once I was in an elevator going to the 30th floor... I had to sit down because I just felt like I wasn't on the ground at all and was in a constantly state of feeling like I was falling. It's odd. Anyways.
I HATE GARDENING GAHHHH. My mom was a green thumb. I hated it. I hated feeling gross, the humidity radiating from the plants felt so gross (it wasn't just a few, it was like a hundred pot plants alone). I also was in charge of moving them whenever we had to mow. It was so boring and distasteful. I HATED IT. I could do indoor plants, little cute plants you give names to, sure. NOT THE FULL ON GREENHOUSE SHE HAD GOING ON. It was disgusting feeling bugs, or as if something was crawling on me. Even dirt in my finger nails. Ew. Though, at times I just sat and played in the mud... quite contradictory, I know.
Ahem. Anyways.
I hate being told how I feel. I hate when people think they know. I remember I felt really annoyed one time at my mom when she told me I was tired. I wasn't tired, but she looked at my with her pitiful eyes and said I was. I felt really uptight around her, because she had this caring side, but then would snap so often it made me feel uncomfortable.
I remember back when I was in high school, I HATED when people wouldn't listen to me just because I was younger. Or they would downplay my ideas because of it. Like, dude, my idea is a Googleplex times better than yours, yet you ignore it? Stuff you man.
What do the "highs" in your life look like? What do the "lows" in your life look like?
I don't really know? It's like a rollercoaster. I can't pinpoint certain moments as such.
How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
It's like a blend of both. At times, I will day dream about what is happening around me, and the various ways certain events could unfold. I'd often think about how I desperately wanted something to happen, and would picture it happening, or would come up with ways for it to happen.
I come up with a lot of scenarios like that in my head.
I also think a lot about random things, and at times can forget about my surroundings, but I've always felt I subconsciously take note of them in my own unique way lol.
Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
Anything and everything. Whatever appears, whatever scenario, idea, etc.
How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
A LONG TIME. I put off making decisions for forever. Often I just go to other people at times, or let others decide.
How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
They're confusing, but also... not? I'd like to think of myself as pretty logical, though at times, it's not like that.
I remember one day at work, everyone was feeling down and moody the entire day. There was no reason for me to be upset, if anything I should have been over the moon with the fact I would be going on holidays the next day... but I went home and cried for some reason. I don't even know why. I think their moodiness rubbed off on me.
I also have caught myself crying at times for some odd reason. I remember I went away to a baseball comp. I had injured my finger, but didn't tell anyone. I tried to show small signs that it hurt, like looking down at it a lot, or purposefully having it on display (in a casual way), since it was bruised. That day wasn't the best for me, I hadn't been playing my best so everything just built up. I remember standing out on the field, holding back tears. I was just sad nobody noticed I think, and thought about if just one person asked if I was okay, I'd be so happy. I played the rest of the day with my finger, which was later found to be broken...
I think I get more emotional when I'm not noticed or found important to other people? Back in high school, I nearly cried because of this, I was so confused.
I find it easier to cry about tv shows, and things of a sort. Ngl, I cried when I read a post about a favourite character of mine that just portrayed how hard it would have been for them to live. A bit TMI I know.
I prefer keeping my emotions to myself, and RARELY outwardly express them. I just don't see the point. You'll rarely catch me angry or crying.
Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
Yes, all the time. I also catch myself pretending I didn't know something so that the discussion can continue, or I'll ask questions I already know the answer too so things don't get awkward. I HATE AWKWARDNESS!
Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
I don't think I break rules, if anything I am quite wary of them. My parents were sticklers for rules, so naturally I was pressured to follow them to the highest of standards. I'm a little more easy going now, but the fear of rules is still there lol.
Challenging authority? I suppose if there is a reason to. I mean, it's not like they know better. It just depends on the situation.
I kind of hope you didn't read this all lol, looking back, THERE'S A LOT... so I wouldn't be surprised if this post doesn't get many interactions, but it does mean a lot if you did take the time to read this.
<3 Have an amazing morning, day, afternoon, night, whatever :D

Im (21F) currently roughly a month 1/2 into talking to a guy for the first time in about 3 years (besides small flings and such). We've been doing great and even went on vacation with some other friends and had a great time. Things have been going well up until about 2 weeks ago. He started not doing all the cute lovey-dovey stuff he used to do in the beginning. Calling me beautiful randomly, sending cute paragraphs, telling me he loves and misses me, ect. I, of course, picked up on this quickly and questioned it multiple times. He said he's just tired and stressed out from work.
Fast forward to mainly these past 3 days, I've become more bothered by him not acting like he used to in the beginning. Ive mentioned it more, and it seems to be the only thing we text about now. Im constantly conflicted between not wanting to annoy him, but also just wanting to see him and hangout and asking to. Im also constantly conflicted over being logical and not wanting to be too much right now, but also freaking out because I feel like he doesn't love me anymore. This switching of emotions not only has me feeling exhausted, but also like im annoying him with asking to hangout when he gets off. I always feel like I have to pry out "I love you" or something nice so I can feel reassured.
For a bit more context, he's been working daily with minimal days off recently since people have been no call no showing at his job. I keep questioning if he truly is just tired and stressed from work or if he is losing feelings for me. Im scared of losing anyone let alone a significant other, because it truly feels like the end of the world.
What should I do? Also, men, is he losing feelings for me? What would you do/feel like in this situation?
Thank you for your help as always <3

I'll be doing a separate post just for Season 2 of the reboot later. Anyways,

Average (C Tier)

16. Caleb (The Best First Boot) - Just a reminder that this list only takes S1 into account (in case you got used to Caleb dead last already) so of course I don't HATE this Caleb. There's nothing to hate here. While the character itself didn't really do anything, I like the role he plays in the narrative, being by far the best first boot in this show. Long gone are the days of the first elimination being some idiot nobody likes getting everybody to hate them for the sake of it! She says, planning on writing about Season 2 later
Caleb says his iconic catchphrase.
15. Axel (Totally Not An Expy) - While I'm usually not a fan of comparing characters and going "this character is basically just X mixed with Y!!", I have a hard time believing Axel wasn't made with being Neo-Eva in mind. She was angry and left second and that's it... And that did make me really curious as to what they'd do with Axel in the rematch. But that's for later.
Remember when everyone thought Axel was gonna be awesome because of this shot?
14. Nichelle (I HATE YOU JERRY!!!) - This might come off as a surprise, but I don't actually dislike Nichelle. She had an interesting concept (famous teen actress going to TD for exposure) with a neat execution (got "exposed" as a fraud on TV, disappointing her fans and leaving determined to improve herself). It was clear she wasn't meant to be "complete" in Season 1, and was just being set up for a bigger story in S2, and there's nothing really wrong with that! We'll see how that went later.
Nichelle hates 1/2 of the Tennis Rivals, for some reason.

Good (B Tier)

13. Priya (Abusive Parents) - Surprised to see the winner of the season this low? Don't get me wrong, this IS the 'Good' tier, so I do like Priya, she's just not really my type of character. I think all comparisons to Zoey and Sky are incredibly silly and a bit dumb, the only thing they have in common is being athletic, and Priya actually has a personality. Yes, it was clear from the start that she was created with being the winner in mind, but that's not necessarily a bad thing, with Priya having an unique concept (raised by TD fans) and fun interactions and dynamics with the other characters, making her obvious win be satisfying nonetheless (take NOTES, Sky). And even after everything, there is still a good setup for things she could do in the rematch, such as addressing her home life and the way she was raised. Boy, I sure hope that happens!
Just wanted to say Priya looks really cute with messy hair.
12./11. Wayne & Raj (Thing 1 & Thing 2) - After Katie & Sadie and Amy & Sammy, I didn't expect to see a 'duo character' I'd actually like. I always knew they wouldn't be the gay couple like most people expected, as it would've been a boring approach, but I did suspect ONE of them would be part of it. And I was right, Raj having a self-discovery moment during the show was very sweet, and so was Wayne being a supportive ally to his bestie, it's a really great message to send to the kids who watch the show (and part of why I don't really like gay Wayne headcanons, it takes away the impact of him being 100% supportive of his best friend despite not being queer himself). Small complaints though, I think it would've been nice if we got to know Raj's thoughts on his coming out instead of just Wayne's, and the 'package deal' characters being eliminated together isn't really my cup of tea either. I don't mind it that much though, because surely Season 2 will separate them and have them be apart from each other for a few episodes, right? ...R-Right?
First and last time we see the Hockey Bros acting mean.

Great (A Tier)

10. MK (Parody Of Annoying Celebrity, Somehow Good) - If you know me, or at least have seen my profile picture, then this placement is probably a surprise. S1 MK is probably one of the most unique concepts this show has had.A thief who takes her castmates' belongings? Fun. Hacking the confessional camera to watch everyone's confessionals? Interesting. Intentionally floating to fly under the radar? Very interesting. Annoying snarker? Yes please. Overall? Great combo. She's only really "low" on this list because she left before being able to put, well, any of her plans in practice. Fortunately, there's still season 2, where we'll see a lot more of her unique strategy and villainy, for sure!!!!
MK: \"I can't wait to be seen as nothing but shipping fodder by the fans next season!\"
9. Damien (Best Design, Hands Down) - And the winner of most unique character concept goes to... Yeah, him. Some guy who's never seen Total Drama and doesn't know what he signed up for? You're crazy if you don't think that's one of the most fun ideas for a new character you've seen. He used a concept other characters failed at (being the token normal/straight man) and made it work! Damien (in season 1) is probably the closest this show has ever had to just having a real person: Being flabbergasted at the insanity that happens in cartoon-land that other characters don't react to, without being played as the "haha token coward afraid of everything", which is something not usually done (...We'll get to season 2 later.). His early exit was sad, but made sense, this wasn't meant to be his season. We all know he was being given an easy, impossible to mess up, set-up for a bigger role in the rematch! There is no way to do this wrong!
Damien: \"Oh well, at least I'll totally have a good arc next season, right?\"
8. Julia (wth is a buttknuckle) - "omg what!! why is queen slay girlboss Julia not in top3 you know shes perfect slay gaslight gatekeep girlb-" Shut up. God. Very annoying fanbase aside, S1 Julia was a fun twist antagonist. The 'good vibes, vegan crystal girlie' instagram influencer being a sour, evil douchebag behind the scenes? Great bit, we all know most of them are like this in real life. Her villainy is criticized by some people for being "too Heather-like", which I disagree with. Sure, her constant immunity wins may seem like heavy plot armor, but unlike Island Heather, others weren't constantly dumbed down to make it work, most of her wins weren't due to dumb luck, (like Heather in Search and Do Not Destroy) and most importantly, Julia was full of flaws. She was a challenge beast, yes, but the constant immunities were the only things she had, for the show goes on its way to show her game otherwise is horrible. Her social game is atrocious, due to being unnecessarily rude to everyone, she had no alliances (and when she did they didn't last a day) and most of her attempts to scheme backfired. Remember when she tried to make Emma vote for Chase and that somehow resulted in them getting back together? Like, wow, making Emma want to vote for Chase is NOT a hard task, girlie, come on. Julia's flaws keep her character grounded and make her stand out from other villains. God, can you imagine if she was like Heather, and everyone got dumbed down to make her look more competent and cause stupid eliminations? That would suck! Not like that'd ever happen though, haha.
Julia telling her fanbase to attack anyone who criticizes her character.
7. Emma (Cringe Girl /affectionate) - God, she's so cringe (/pos). When I saw her face in Chase's intro, I knew there was going to be juicy drama and I'd live for it, but I was not expecting THAT trainwreck. I don't even know how to proceed with this paragraph properly without just calling her cute or stupid (affectionate) and calling it a day. I can't imagine the writers didn't have fun writing her and her extreme emotions; There's a lot of characters the fandom labeled as being "neurodivergent-coded", and while I see the vision with most of them, I think people overlook Emma as one (or maybe I'm just projecting onto her, whatever).While I don't like Chemma as a ship, I can't deny that they have a great dynamic, though it's funnier when it's Emma hating Chase while he tries to win her back, so Chemma getting back together at the end was a bit of a letdown. I do hope season 2 gives us more Chase and Emma individually without both of them being attached to each other though (clueless).
Emma laughs at someone being horribly hurt (cutely).
6. Millie (WOAH! GOOD WRITING!? IN MY TOTAL DRAMA!?) - Now, I know what some of you are probably thinking; "Millie is a horrible character she floated!!" "She foated and had to be carried by Priya!!" "She's a horrible friend she wrote mean things about Priya!!" Shut up shut up shut up. Millie haters, you guys are weak and aren't surviving the winter. Anyways, Millie makes me extremely happy, she has what I consider to be one of the best cases of character development in TD: First arriving with the intent of writing a thesis about how Gen Z is really stupid, befriending someone for the first time, growing to regret ever writing bad things about the others, and then being confronted about it and having to work to patch up her friendship with Priya? Total Drama hasn't had an arc this good in ages, and people think Millie is a bad character? I'm sorry, do you miss Skave or something? I totally understand not liking Millie due to finding her boring or uninteresting,those are valid reasons, but if you dislike Millie because you think she's a "bad person" who "didn't deserve being forgiven" (the amount of people I've seen say this is concerning), then I'm sorry, but I think you're stupid.
When you hate on Millie this is who you're hating btw

Fantastic (S Tier)

5. Scary "Lauren" Girl (I don't care if she's one-note stfu) - Scary Girl is a character I've noticed to be pretty divisive. The people who love her do so because they think she's pretty funny, and the people who hate her think she's a one-note gimmick. I'm the former, obviously, I see a lot of people complain that they find Scary Girl to be "overrated", (1. Not a valid reason to dislike a character 2. She literally isn't. Stop throwing that word around, it's already losing it's meaning) and while I do understand why people wouldn't like her, because yeah she does only have 1 joke, I think that one joke is really funny and consistently lands. Also I'd just like to point out that a lot of comic relief characters aren't very varied in terms of humor either but I don't think the fandom is ready to accept that yet. The hockey bros also only have 1 joke and it's less funny than Lauren's Oops, who said that? Wasn't me! Must've been the wind!
She's literally just a girl why are people afraid of her /j
4. Ripper (do you think Ripper has a fursona? no? just me? okay then) - Ripper in S tier?! I know, scandalous! "But you're not supposed to like Ripper he's a mean bully who farts and is gross he's like Owen!!" Shut up, NERD. Anyway, I'm not really fond of toilet humor, but Ripper made up for it by having a lot of hilarious jokes outside of farting (something people will insist is his entire character) and he has some depth that could use some more exploring, such has his home life and his relationship with his parents. Pretty much every dynamic he had with other characters, even if short, were bangers, proving that his character is super versatile. Chase, Zee, Priya, Millie, Axel, Damien... He just works with anyone. Him, Bowie and Millie are the three characters I believe you can pair up with literally anyone, and you can squeeze a good dynamic out of it.
Ripper knows we love him, because he's based.
3. Zee (I don't have a joke for this one bear with me) - I don't have much to say about him like everyone else, because Zee is a simple character. He's really funny, and that's it, and it just works. Dude's hysterical and that's why I love him. Yeah
Birds don't like Zee because birds are stupid.
2. Chase (Horrible Person, Hilarious Character) - Another probably controversial take, and I just know a certain someone on this sub will be very happy with this placement. Chase is, in my eyes, the best comic relief in this show, part of it is because of how unique and specific the joke with him is. We have a million "comically stupid" characters at this point, and we (or I) still love them regardless, but having a comedic character with a different brand of humor makes them stand out more. Chase is so unapologetically a jerk, and that's what makes him so funny to me. He's not a complete idiot like Tyler, Max, Raj, Wayne, Zee and Ripper are, in fact, in s1 he shows a lot of intelligence and common sense for a comic relief character, it's just that he's such a self-centered douchebag that he doesn't see anything wrong with his actions while everyone else recognizes him as a horrible individual, and that makes him so unique in the sea of "idiot men" characters that is TD. Episode 10 was one of the best episodes in the whole series, and the biggest contributors to that? Come on, you know it's him and Emma. They are everything, they are the moment.
\"Chase how many people did you run over that day?\" Chase:
1. Bowie (Drama King and Queen) - When I first saw his design in the promo, I admit I was very afraid? Not because I didn't think a stereotypically gay character could work, but because this is Total Drama. I was afraid they'd mess up and accidentally make the most offensive shit ever like the last few times they tackled minorities (cough cough Mike). When I first watched the season? All worries left my body in an instant. My God? STRATEGY?! IN TOTAL DRAMA? That isn't just an evil villain manipulating everyone using plot armor??? It was a BLESSING to see, even if I was a little upset he got villanized by the end of the season, it does show that TD will always portray ambition to win as inherently evil and something that needs to be punished (and it certainly doesn't make me very excited for future seasons' villains). For what it's worth, I enjoyed watching an actual strategist character onscreen that was neither fully evil or a moron the writers wanted to believe you to be smart, that makes Bowie the first ever. Also the queer rep? Really awesome. I loved his relationship with Raj, and how healthy it was compared to other TD relationships, and I love how it shows a "villain"/strategy focused player can be a good person/partner. It felt so surreal (in a good way) watching a TD character that wears gender non-conforming clothes and has a very flamboyant and sassy personality. Bowie also has some of the best quotes in the season ("MEEE!" and "Oh my, did I do that? Yes I diiiiid! I'm going to be a MILLIONAAAAAAAIRE!" are some of the best ones)
\"Lift a log if you're the best character in the series\" Bowie:
Final S1 list:
This list looks so positive, right? Well, if you want negativity be sure to look forward to the season 2 post.
Final Thoughts: Overall, excellent cast! the only characters below B tier are the first three boots. A great and colorful cast in a good season filled with great writing, and there's even a second season after it? This is a recipe for success, surely the second season will be as great as the first one, if not better, right? Right?
... Yeah who am I kidding. See you guys next post, when I cover this same cast in THAT OTHER season.

Hello all! A couple things to note about me. I only write in third person, and I average 2-3 paragraphs per post. I can do more. My preferred place to write is discord. I'm very open to FxF love story too! I'm bi myself, and think it could be a cute story.
Currently only looking to play female
Here's a couple story ideas I'm looking into today:

• My character just had her first baby with your characters son/your character's best friend. He's not showing up for her or the baby at all. In fact he's doing quite the opposite, working late, and you suspect he's cheating. So you decide to start helping out, and as it turns out you two grow quite closer
• Unexpected pregnancy. We've only been taking about three months, and that line just turned pink. I've yet to break the news to you. I'm very open to lots of drama with this, and not immediately happily ever after.
• My character just had our baby. We split up a few months ago, and start to slowly grow back together as the coparenting arrangement grows. I like the idea that maybe your character cheated/did something to betray trust but you are determined to show me that you are ready to step up and become an amazing fathepartner
• My character is very close to giving birth. For whatever reason I'm not with the dad
• Dating a single mom! My character is the mom to a small child- maybe even pregnant with her second!
• Your own idea! I will hear out your story so long as it's not fantasy/unrealstic

Are you interested in writing with me? Send me a message, and we can certainly brainstorm together. I look forward to hearing from you!

21m, never had a girlfriend before, pretty much entirely because I never ask women out and I can be awkward sometimes and I feel pushing that sexual barrier is very iffy and scary unless i know she wants it too, but its hard for me to tell without very much experience. To be clear, I know some of them know they're not the only one but sometimes they give off "oh, I thought I was special to you..." vibes which makes me feel this might not be entirely lust, specifically because this is pretty much purely a hookup app, but idk anymore.
The app is called Sedux and though it's a full on hookup app with intensive privacy features for sending lewd messages, it seems like some of the girls I'm talking talking to may actually have something for me... some of them are out of state so it probably wouldn't work anyways, but 2 are in my home city and one is somewhere I can regularly fly to assuming im available to, because I can fly for free.
(Specifically why I'm concerned)
(1) I'm specifically concerned because I was talking to this really cute girl that was in my area on the app as well around the same time i was talking to these other 5 girls. We never met up and it all only lasted a few days (like all of these are rn, because I'm new to this), and I was an idiot and mentioned my crush on a girl I know irl. I decided to do this stuff because I figured she wouldn't like me, but I still think I wanna be with her. Long story short, that girl I talked and sexted with but never met, was clearly into me and her knowing she was not my first choice made her turned her off on me and blocked me saying I can have her (irl girl) instead, find out how to get her by myself, and blocked me.
(2) I honestly can't blame her... but I didn't realize how much she liked me. And me thinking of this app as a hookup app and that her feelings towards me were purely lust based (she was always very horny when talking to me), I was liberal with my mentioning of the irl girl I like and asked her how I could read her or drop hints to her... yeah, I know... but in my defense, I didn't think she truly loved me like that but her leaving with a paragraph essentially telling me what a red flag that interaction was hit me hard...
(So, bringing things back to the now)
(1) She clearly had feelings beyond lust and I'm worried that the other girls I'm talking to might feel the same way... I asked one of them in my town if she would like to go out on a date, and she said yes. Not sex, specifically a date. And it wasn't a "sure", but a yes, then when I clarified. She said "yes, loud and clear".
(2) Another girl from out of state mentioned "dont go looking for other girls there ok", and I joked about her being jealous and she said "don't make me", so i think she may have feelings for me too.
(3) If some of these women feel genuine feelings towards me, I feel like its my moral obligation to cut out or change the relationship such that it wouldn't make any others jealous if they were to know, but Idk... I need some advice on this. I've never met any of them irl yet and only have been talking for up to a week, but it seems like 70% of the time they're on with me, they are horny and turned on.
(Question)
Is this all lust, or is there love here that I should respect and nurture? Should I make a decision on just 1 person to continue talking to? I don't want to burn any bridges in case the one i chose doesn't work out, but I feel like this is an excuse people cheating on their gf would say... any advice on how I should continue? I've never had a gf so getting so close to that experience and feeling like I might loose it all with nothing go fall back on is scary... so im justifying this saying it's lust they feel towards me, but I'm not sure that's the case some of the time...

So me(19F) and my ex(21M) broke up 3 days ago because he’s going to Korea to study for 2y and plan on living there forever and I am staying in the US. I watched all those tiktoks and read all those reddits hearing people say that the guy will always come back. However I believe mine wont and we will never contact again because we are in 2 different paths from now on but I just want to hear your advices so that I can give up my last hope. This is a pretty long one. Please forgive me.
So I am an international student and I got a scholarship to go to the US for uni and I plan on residing here in the future. Everything is hard for me I only made one best friend who is from the same country as me and that’s it. I cannot make any white friends because it’s hard. Let alone finding a guy to date. My type is white tall athletes guys and all of them in my school only want white soro girls so I dont have hope finding a boyfriend in my school. That’s why I tried downloading dating apps. I am a virgin and I’ve never been in a relationship before and I never lost my first kiss. And s*x and first kiss are precious to me.
We matched on Tinder 6 months ago and he was very active and tried to get to know me. He’s pretty special to me because he was looking for a serious relationship and asked for my insta instead of my snapchat. When everyone there is just trynna hook up he really want a relationship and when I said I will not have s*x until I graduate will you wait for me and he respects me. We went on few dates and things went really well because he’s exactly my type, tall, dirty blonde and blue eyes. He even made the effort to drive to see me every single time because he’s 1h15 away and I dont have a car. And he paid for things too. His type is Asian too because I noticed that he followed many attractive Asian famous girls and many friends from Korea. I noticed one in there name A that he liked every single posts of her. But we were nothing at that point so I didnt say anything. He was just back from a trip to Asia and he likes Korea the most. He said that country is beautiful, safe and cheaper than Us and he did tell me he want to move there to live in the future. But at that point I was just planning on dating for fun so I dont care and keep going.
Funny enough we keep talking even though we dont have anything in common. After getting to know basically every basic things about each other, our conversation is plain and is just ‘wyd’ ‘im tired’ ‘im working’ etc. It’s shallow and not very deep. I noticed that but Im lonely so having a guy like that everyday is actually amazing to me. I dont have the intention of marrying him or anything and he doesnt too. But after several dates I slowly get attached. He hugged me, carried me up like a princess. Everything I have dreamt of before. And finally that day I lost my first kiss to him and he asked me to be his gf and I said yes. It was amazing.
So after we are officially dating. I got jealous of his followings and easily annoyed because he’s a super nonchalant guy.
I made a mess about him following those revealing models and he said he didnt remember because it’s a long time ago and delete all of them. However, when it comes to that girl A and some other I mentioned he said I will delete those I dont know but she’s just my friend and I wont delete her. ‘We dont even talk.’ Just a friend he knows from his Korea trip. Then I let it ago, but then after a while I noticed him liking her posts again and again and each time I fought with him and finally he told me he wont like her post anymore and he stopped.
But then I noticed him following a new girl B and she’s from Korea and I asked him and he said she’s his Korean teacher. I feel something sus but I cant do anything. He’s trying his best to learn Korean just to be able to live there and dont even care about my country. He doesnt even try to say my name correctly or learn anything about my country.
He’s really busy and he trynna work hard to earn money and his sleep schedule is really messed up. Im always annoyed because he takes hours to reply to me. And many small fights like how he only reply to my ‘i miss you’ but never say it first, and never call me, only texting. After a month of dating we got into a big fight. Imma sum it up. I asked him to come see me on Friday but then his grandpa got into a health problem so he had to drive his mom to the hospital and he said he will pick me up on Sat. I was all prepared and woke up early and then he overslept. Then he said he’ll come at 3.30 in the afternoon. I was waiting again. Until he texted me at 4. saying that his car tag exprired so he couldnt come see me. I was so sad but cant help it because it’s all valid reasons. I waited untill next week again, and I asked him to meet again. And then he overslept again, leaving me hanging and waiting like an idiot. I was so upset this time I texted him paragraphs saying not good things like why are you so irresponsible why dont you care about my feelings etc. if you dont text me back before 10a let’s just break up. Next morning he woke up and told me ‘you know what, we not gonna work’ then he unadded me on snapchat and unfollow me on instagram and unfollow me on tiktok too. But i still can text him on insta and imess and discord. I was so shocked and begged him to come back everywhere. I was crying like a baby dont wanna lose him. It was a traumatizing day for me. Eventually he responded and said ‘you dont know but I forgave you many times’ ‘maybe im not good enough for you’ and stuffs like that.. but eventually he added me back and said he’ll give me one last chance.
We got back for 2 days and now he’s lost a large part of interest for me. Then I asked to meet again and he said he cant because his schedule changed again and I got upset again and he unadded me again, block me on insta and tiktok and discord, but I still can text him on Imess. Then I apologized again and we got back again and he said ‘I do mean the last one’.
Then Im constantly careful not to hurt him or fight and we got on dates and we got more physically close to each other. However I dont feel any deep connection we’re just very shallow. Idk how to explain it. I think we’re just there to not be lonely. At least for me. I feel like he doesnt give a shit if i leave or not anymore.
Things go well for another month then I realize summer is comming and I’ll have to leave him for 3 months. I was not happy bc he’s not upset ab the fact that im going away at all. Then I noticed he slowly get colder towards me. I mean it’s not obvious but he doesnt crave for touching hugging me as much as before. I have to ask for kiss and hugs. And he only texted me on snap and never on instagram where I noticed he’s online everyday. His snap scores also went up 10 every morning and Idk if im a creep but like 1 or 2 even when he’s not snapping me so he’s snapping others. I know he has like 1 or 2 guy friends but I took a look at his phone sometimes (which he’s always trynna hide whenever he’s w me) and noticed some girls as well. But maybe just for streaks. And ofc he’s still texting that B girl for Korean lesson. And A girl is now in Japan for a trip. A and B post stories EVERY SINGLE DAY and it’s their cute photos and I know my bf is online on instagram everyday and watch those stories so I am very unhappy.
Then the day come when I have to go away for summer. He asked me when Im back and I said September. Then he said he’ll go to Japan in August for 1 month and I said okay. So we are in LDR now and I asked him to call me bc I need more contact to feel loved and valued. He said he will, but he never call me. He said it’s just he just never call anyone. I was upset many times but I also let it go. Also he never said he loved me. Only like.
Then I saw him like a thirst trap reel of a revealing famous korean girls 2 weeks ago. I was so fcking offended but he’s sick so im not making any fuss. After 4 days I decided to bring that up and texted him paragraphs on insta, imess and snap about how offended and sad I am and asked him why he do that when we are dating. Just for him to seen on insta and imess and reply on snap ‘I dont know’. Eventually, i let it go again because I dont wanna lose him if I take things further.
Then we went on for a couple more days before he texted me ‘I have something to tell you. I’ll go to Japan and to Korea and study there for 2 y w the intention of living there. I’ll be back sometimes to the US but obv that’s not enough for you’ then it’s some more lots of texts of me trying to keep it until he finally say ‘it’s best we break up, it wont work’.
Then he blocks me on everything, Insta, tiktok, snap, discord, mess. I dont dare to check if he blocks my number or not. And he’s gone, cold-heartedly, so easily as if I am nothing. I asked my friends to stalk him for a bit and notice that right after he blocks me. He likes B’s posts, his Korean teacher. And he like A’s posts, the girl he promised he wont ever again, who’re in Japan rn. So he moved on, and ready for his next life, no look back, no regret. While I am here. I think he’s the best I can find on dating apps, because everyone there just trynna hu. And I wont be able to find bfs in school. So i’ll be alone for a long time. Idk what to do, im so pessimistic. And i still want him to crawl back for an ego boost, that at least he still miss me. But apparently not, he’s already moved on, and already didnt give a shit ab me for a long time. So what tiktok says is wrong right. He’ll never come back..

I sit in the silence of my room. But my mind is filled with chaos. I can’t think straight. I am clouded by how I feel. This might be how every other person lives on this planet and they may be fine with it, but I am not. I don’t have proper mental training to be fine with my emotions clouding my rational mind. Fear. Anxiety. Dissatisfaction. Just right now, I feel three or more things in my brain. I hung up a call from a friend who couldn’t be bothered to listen to my problems for 2 minutes after I listened to his life issues for 2 hours. What is that feeling called? Betrayal? That is too big. Unappreciated? That is missing the point. Whatever that feeling is called in normal human words, I am feeling it. At the same time, there is this girl that I have been talking to for the past week and I didn’t know where things were going. I didn’t know what she wanted from me. She is a Christian and I am an atheist. She can't want to be with me. I am the devil for her. Why did she talk to me then? Did she want to be friends? Was she curious about me? Did she petty me? Was I an assignment? Am I asking all these questions because I cannot accept the fact that I am liked for no reason? Am I that fucked in my head? Or am I making things more complex than they are, as she said? What is the easiest explanation here? I don’t fucking know. The fact that I don’t have anyone to gauge this with me is also fucked. Am I too lonely and new to normal human interaction that I take all female attention to flirtation? In my math class, there is this Muslim girl. She is cute. She is very joyful and nice and communicative with everyone. Except with me. I understand that we have a language barrier, but it looked like it was more than that. The way she looks at me is different. It is not pity nor curiosity. It is interesting. Sometimes I catch her staring at me. Sometimes I find her searching for my eyes and she struggles to keep eye contact and shies away. I didn’t dare to go and talk to her. This had been happening for the past 2 months. The first day I noticed it when I tried to say hi to her. She winked at me, said mumbled something smiling, and left. I was on my out of the classroom so I didn’t think anything of it. But it kept happening. She will drop her smile or laugh when she looks at me. The thing is at first, I thought I creeped her out because I was looking at her too much, that is when I caught her lacking. Am I overthinking this too? Is this a normal thing? Does she like me? Do I even care? Why is it hard for me to accept affection from other people? Am I even getting one? Would I not notice it? Would I? A few months ago, a married woman confessed her deep and lustful crush on me. I couldn’t believe her. She wrote me 8 paragraphs with details of her affection and her desires for me. And then some. Do you want to know what I said? I told her she might not be mentally stable, and that she is delusional. Not those exact words but she understood that is what I meant. She wrote me pages of psychoanalysis on why she thinks I am the unloved child who doesn’t think he deserves to be loved and would rather believe everyone else is crazy for loving him than accept the fact that he is loved. She said other things but that remained. I have pushed people away a lot of times because I thought they were crazy for liking me too much. I have pushed people away for "faking" their love for me because I couldn’t believe them. I found loopholes and changed the meaning of love so that I would prove that they didn’t love me. I did all that just so that I wouldn't accept being loved. How can I? How do I know? I have a deep understanding of human psychology, but I have zero understanding of human feelings. This girl I am talking to right now is cute. I want her. Period. But does she want me? Would I believe her if she said she did? Would the question of why she likes me prevent me from seeing her feelings? Do I want to find out? Is this a normal male human experience? Or just normal human experience? Do girls go through this? Does it matter that I know all this? Is my experience enough for me to understand myself?

My normal posts are 2-5 paragraphs. This is long because it's a starter.
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The sloping ground around the Kiaurk family mesa had been sculpted into shelves or terraces, and it was on one of those upper terraces that Kiaurk Nshurr now lounged beneath a pergola anchored to the striated stone face behind her. The mesa rose at her back: an enormous, looming, almost sheer outcrop that her family's dwellings had been carved into the face of. Wide, shallow steps cut into the artificial (but entirely convincing) sandstone wound their way up between landings and porticos leading inward, between tiny balconies shaded by bright solid-colored canopies, between rooms with flat walls and rounded corners that came jutting out to shadow the steps below. Rriigkhans rarely used glass as window barriers; smooth-edged holes had been cut through the rock in varying shapes and sizes. It could be difficult to tell which apertures were windows and which were entryways. A physical barrier that kept out the elements was obsolete in all but the crudest dwellings, though some of these larger holes were curtained with braided string or strips of cloth that served a purely decorative purpose.
From her high vantage point Nshurr could see the shelves stretching out below her as the base of the mesa leveled out to flattish terrain that was a wonderland of vegetation in muted rainbow colors: mustard yellows, clay reds, earthy browns and the occasional dash of sage or dusty blue. This scrubland lay like a blanket around everything below that was not part of the village between the mesas. Down there, adobe compounds never taller than two or three storeys seemed so squat compared to the mesas that Nshurr could see towering in the distance, many of those family mesas only a few hours walk from her own if she traveled by foot. The village sprawled, with tile parkways winding in serpentine fashion between the various buildings, courtyards, parks, and ponds. There were no property lines, no clear division of the land into neat little plots owned by the individuals who lived and worked in these places. It all seemed to be part of a whole, with a single unifying aesthetic. The village housed those rriigkhans of the lower castes, the kharratah and chelhautah, and the humans which were a caste all their own, haukagh-ar, except for a small number who lived with their masters in the caverns of the mesas or up on the plateau.
This planet, Sgarrl, terraformed over three hundred years ago, was home to more human servants than any other Ssaarian world – aside from Earth, of course, discovered eighty years ago. The fact that humans shared so much in common with rriigkhans made them the perfect species to incorporate into the rriigkhan caste structure as servants. They breathed the same mix of gases and required similar gravities, and their nimble little fingers were very useful for all sorts of work.
The rriigkhan language was not necessarily too complex for humans, but it was wholly unfamiliar – too many phonemes that did not fit comfortably in human mouths, from grunts to huffs, to rolling trills that might by voiced or not, sometimes rumbling out like a purr. To a human, Nshurr's name was a sigh and a trill, and yet she was accustomed to humans vocalizing her name in their heavy, slurring way: Na-Shuurr! Nasher! Sometimes simply: ɽ͡r! which she recognized more easily as her name, or at least part of it, and not some random sounds.
Still, despite the weird pidgin humans had made of her language and their English, she liked the little creatures. She had come to live with her Grandmother on Sgarrl only days ago, and had never encountered them before. The males only stood as tall as her collar. The females were shorter still, much like the males of her own species.
To human eyes Nshurr was felinoid, with a muscular swimmer's body and the broad muzzle of a big cat, with watchful, forward-facing predator's eyes that seemed unexpectedly expressive, because rriikghans had almost as many muscles around their eyes as humans did around their mouths to convey the nuances of emotion. Despite being larger than even many Earth men, she was considered sleek by rriigkhan standards. She made up for that with her broader crest.
The rriigkhan crest was something like the crest of Utahceratops – a keratinized plate growing up out of the skull, except divided into three lobes instead of two, with scalloped edges along the outer rim. Unlike depictions of Utahceratops, the rriigkhan crest was not covered by skin. At least, not on the top. Thick ropy veins squiggled under velvet fur on the underside, closer to the neck. (A thick, arching neck muscular enough to support the weight of that crest meant that Rriigkhans walked with a stoop that made them seem hunchbacked, to humans.) The surface of the plate on top was often rough, even bumpy or corrugated like deer antlers in some areas, smooth in others. Every female crest had four tines jutting from the front – a pair several inches above the eyes, and another pair further up. Directly above the lowest set of tines were twin holes, the howrf channels, just big enough for a human to insert a finger. These holes were very much like nostrils – much deeper, but damp inside, and lined with short, fine hairs to protect the sensitive mucous membrane from debris. The organs housed within these channels were the heart of rriigkhan culture, the foundation of all relationships, of sex.
Male rriigkhans, of course, had only their neotonous crests: diminutive, mostly smooth with rounded edges, without tines or howrf channels. Cute.
Nshurr's crest was wider than average, her upper tines spaced further apart, and combined with a compact face this made her look top-heavy. (A human might say that she was more snow leopard than lion.) Most female crests did not interfere with the movement of the ears – highly mobile, highly expressive paddle shaped things – but the edges of Nshurr's crest did jut out enough to almost shield them.
That her crest was weighty, that it was inconvenient, that she was often aware of it – this was Nshurr's pride. Her long tail curled in pleasure when she caught males looking at it. Humans seemed to be intimidated by it sometimes, as if she might decide to gore them with her “horns.” She considered herself a confident person; not a braggart, but self-assured, and to carry her jhekaah so visibly pleased her to no end.
Her fur was an almost peachy off-white, but a mask of pale peach shaded each seafoam green eye. The mask blended into the white further up her forehead until fur gave way to bone-tan crest, and was split between her eyes by the white of her nose. Oblong spots in that same peachy color, each blending from dark to light, streaked down her sides.
These weren't the natural colors of her distant ancestors. It was unheard of to see a rriigkhan who was not gene-modified in some way, even if those modded genes had been part of rriigkhan life for so long that no one thought of them as mods any longer. She also thought nothing of the subtitles her augmented reality implant displayed whenever a human spoke, AI translated to help her decipher the pidgin. AR was simply a part of her, had been since she was a kit.
Reclining as she was on a padded lounger in front of an iron brazier, full of cold ashes from last night's fire, Nshurr was dressed in a pale coral shift only a few shades darker than the peach of her fur. Medallions trailing fringes of cloth had been sewn onto the front bottom half of the knee-length garment. A row of those ornate medallions defined a plunging neckline that bared much of her chest, muscular and broad, possibly even masculine to a human. Her breasts were lower on her body and similar in appearance to a mare's udders: long nipples on a pudge of fat nestled close together on the pelvis, just above the place where her thighs joined her body. They were only small lumps beneath the shift when Nshurr stretched out her legs so that the thin fabric fell across them. It was the roundness of her hips and buttocks that marked her female to the human eye. (As if her crest didn't make that obvious!)
She was listening to the sound of two younger female cousins wrestling on a nearby terrace, and although from her vantage point Nshurr could not see them, she could imagine the scene from what she heard: Fherou and Lahk growling while they grappled with their arms, the crack of crest hitting crest and then the scrape of tine sliding against tine. Each was fighting to control the other's head, each trying to bite the other. It wasn't easy when each had a shaggy ruff to protect her neck, and any attempt to bite the other's face would be thwarted by an interposing crest. Rriigkhan hands were less dexterous than human hands, more pawlike with stubby fingers, but capable of delivering hard blows, and once or twice Nshurr heard a cousin snarl in response to a strike against her body.
The competitive pheromones her cousins exuded from their unextended howrfs, quite unconsciously, were beginning to make Nshurr's own heart beat faster. The end of her long tail, where it hung down from the reclining chair, lashed in agitation. She was beginning to imagine sinking her teeth into someone's skin herself, and if her cousins had not been so much younger and smaller than herself she might have gone down to their terrace to show them a thing or two. It was putting her off the human flute music she'd been listening to, fed directly into her own brain through her implant for her private enjoyment. (Certain aspects of human culture were very popular here on Sgarrl; she'd been curious about it.)
She did not feel like going inside to escape the pheromones; Nshurr craved the warmth of the sun on her fur, not the cool stone and artificial light of those warrens. Most of her male cousins had gone into the village for boating today. Well, perhaps she would go down and join them after all.
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For this prompt I imagine you'd play a human servant, probably a new arrival to Sgarrl but maybe someone who was born there. Even though I've set up a situation where my character would have a lot of power and yours very little, I want to clarify that I'm not interested in abusing your character I am looking for a slow burn interspecies romance that develops naturally. This story may deal with power imbalances and even speciesism, but I'd like to explore those topics realistically.
I want to explore all aspects of loving relationship... Flirting, cuddling, kissing, lots of romantic scenes and character growth. My “type” that I'm most attracted to are men with average bodies in the 40-60 age range, with realistic personality flaws. I am more than willing to tailor my character's personality and physical attributes to suit your tastes, within reason. I appreciate partners willing to do the same.
I prefer to reply more than once a day. 2-3 replies per day would be ideal, but I understand life gets in the way. I usually write 2-5 paragraphs, or 150-450 words per post. This starter is much longer than my typical post length, but my lengths vary according to need. If I'm introducing a new character or setting a scene, my post might go up to 1,000 words.
Please send a writing sample if you have none in your post history. No need to custom write anything for me, old samples are fine. Click here to PM me!

Hello everyone :) I dont really use reddit that much but figured I would ask here since I’m not sure where else to ask.
A little backstory about me: I’m 20 years old and don’t have alot of experience dating/being with girls. I’ve been really introverted and shy for pretty much my whole life. This year I have been trying to get rid of this social anxiety as much as I can (got a job at a grocery store so i have to talk to people, been trying to hang out with old friends more, started to go to the gym, etc).
So there is this girl that both work at the gym I go to and is the cashier at the grocery store that I buy my groceries from (not the same grocery store that I work at). Funnily enough she buys her groceries where I work, it’s all a fun coincidence :)
I think she is cute, but being the shy person I am it never goes much further than me smiling at her and her smiling back when we see each other at the gym (this goes on for maybe 2.5 weeks or something). One day out of nowhere she talks to me while she is scanning my groceries at the grocery store (she asked me if i live close or something, don’t really remember exactly). I just thought this was random/unusual, but didnt really think much about it. However when I tell other people they all said she was flirting with me (yes, I’m bad at picking up social cues). So we start having actual conversations when we meet (She unironically starts coming to my work like 3 times a day since she says she wants to talk to me).
After we have talked a couple of times i ask for her instagram, and she gives it to me. She is sending me proper paragraphs, and seems really interested. We have a lot in common, and she seems really sweet. We keep talking on instagram and when we meet randomly (she is still showing up like 2-3 a day at my work to talk to me). I even ask her if she wants to do something outside work, something I would be terrified to do not that long ago, and she says yes. We go for a walk and just talk about random stuff for 4 hours, everything went perfect (this wastwo days ago, we both didnt have work). Later this same day we also meet at the gym, and i follow her home. Nothing spicy happens, she just gives me a hug and says we should try to do this some other time.
Now comes what I need some advice with. It feels like she just lost all interest out of nowhere. Yesterday we met at the gym, and i talked to her and her sister (that also works there) for maybe 30 min. Afterwards we both do our workouts and I ask if she wants me to follow her home (we go grocery shopping first). She is still really nice/easy to talk to, but the vibe still feels a little off. Almost like she is less interested in having a conversation. After I have walked her home I send her message on instagram asking if she wants to hang out tomorrow (today in real time). She still havent even opened the message, but I know she has seen it. (I sent it 23 hours ago and she as active 13 min ago). We have also been talking a bit on snapchat, but here she is also starting to ghost me. She is still answering messages, just taking a couple hours between them (she used to send a heart in every single message, but stopped doing this. Not sure if it means anything) She also came to my work earlier today, but it didnt really seem like she wanted to talk that much.
I just dont understand what has happened/what I should do. Like i said i dont have a lot of experience talking to girls. Its totally ok if she has lost interest, I just find it strange since she seemed so interested at first :/ Feel free to ask if there is some more info i forgot to add. I just wanted to ask the internet for some advice since i dont really have a lot of experience with this. :)

Hello! My name’s Mylan, and Now that the weekend has finally begun I have more than enough time to start up a new rp, and I had something cute in mind! I had something fun in mind for this one. I thought it’d be funny to do an opposites attract plot! Specifically this: Goth x Himbo (I’d prefer to be the goth lol). They could be roommates or maybe work at the same place to meet and kinda work from there.
I have some requirements for my rp partner that are pretty crucial for my own enjoyment so please read carefully!:

• Be able to write between 2-3 paragraphs
• Write in 3rd person
• Add to the story! (With side characters and plot points and what not)
• Give your character some personality! I really dislike flat characters, lol.
• Have decent grammar!
• Be 18+
• Use DRAWN references from Pinterest and what not in a anime(ish) style. I’m very picky about this because things such as AI, irl, and picrew references throw me off so hard.

Also, know that I dislike the “small dude x big dude” trope, if you get what I mean. I’d like them to be balanced if that makes sense?
If you’re interested please feel free to dm me! But please do so with a nice introduction about yourself, Id really appreciate a good introduction, it really helps me understand my partner! Irl gender doesn’t matter by the way!
Hope to be able to speak to you soon!

Hello! My name’s Mylan, and Now that the weekend has finally begun I have more than enough time to start up a new rp, and I had something cute in mind! I had something fun in mind for this one. I thought it’d be funny to do an opposites attract plot! Specifically this: Goth x Himbo (I’d prefer to be the goth lol). They could be roommates or maybe work at the same place to meet and kinda work from there.
I have some requirements for my rp partner that are pretty crucial for my own enjoyment so please read carefully!:

• Be able to write between 2-3 paragraphs
• Write in 3rd person
• Add to the story! (With side characters and plot points and what not)
• Give your character some personality! I really dislike flat characters, lol.
• Have decent grammar!
• Be 18+
• Use DRAWN references from Pinterest and what not in a anime(ish) style. I’m very picky about this because things such as AI, irl, and picrew references throw me off so hard.

Also, know that I dislike the “small dude x big dude” trope, if you get what I mean. I’d like them to be balanced if that makes sense?
If you’re interested please feel free to dm me! But please do so with a nice introduction about yourself, Id really appreciate a good introduction, it really helps me understand my partner! Irl gender doesn’t matter by the way!
Hope to be able to speak to you soon!

Hello everyone :) I dont really use reddit that much but figured I would ask here since I’m not sure where else to ask.
A little backstory about me: I’m 20 years old and don’t have alot of experience dating/being with girls. I’ve been really introverted and shy for pretty much my whole life. This year I have been trying to get rid of this social anxiety as much as I can (got a job at a grocery store so i have to talk to people, been trying to hang out with old friends more, started to go to the gym, etc).
So there is this girl that both work at the gym I go to and is the cashier at the grocery store that I buy my groceries from (not the same grocery store that I work at). Funnily enough she buys her groceries where I work, it’s all a fun coincidence :)
I think she is cute, but being the shy person I am it never goes much further than me smiling at her and her smiling back when we see each other at the gym (this goes on for maybe 2.5 weeks or something). One day out of nowhere she talks to me while she is scanning my groceries at the grocery store (she asked me if i live close or something, don’t really remember exactly). I just thought this was random/unusual, but didnt really think much about it. However when I tell other people they all said she was flirting with me (yes, I’m bad at picking up social cues). So we start having actual conversations when we meet (She unironically starts coming to my work like 3 times a day since she says she wants to talk to me).
After we have talked a couple of times i ask for her instagram, and she gives it to me. She is sending me proper paragraphs, and seems really interested. We have a lot in common, and she seems really sweet. We keep talking on instagram and when we meet randomly (she is still showing up like 2-3 a day at my work to talk to me). I even ask her if she wants to do something outside work, something I would be terrified to do not that long ago, and she says yes. We go for a walk and just talk about random stuff for 4 hours, everything went perfect (this wastwo days ago, we both didnt have work). Later this same day we also meet at the gym, and i follow her home. Nothing spicy happens, she just gives me a hug and says we should try to do this some other time.
Now comes what I need some advice with. It feels like she just lost all interest out of nowhere. Yesterday we met at the gym, and i talked to her and her sister (that also works there) for maybe 30 min. Afterwards we both do our workouts and I ask if she wants me to follow her home (we go grocery shopping first). She is still really nice/easy to talk to, but the vibe still feels a little off. Almost like she is less interested in having a conversation. After I have walked her home I send her message on instagram asking if she wants to hang out tomorrow (today in real time). She still havent even opened the message, but I know she has seen it. (I sent it 23 hours ago and she as active 13 min ago). We have also been talking a bit on snapchat, but here she is also starting to ghost me. She is still answering messages, just taking a couple hours between them (she used to send a heart in every single message, but stopped doing this. Not sure if it means anything) She also came to my work earlier today, but it didnt really seem like she wanted to talk that much.
I just dont understand what has happened/what I should do. Like i said i dont have a lot of experience talking to girls. Its totally ok if she has lost interest, I just find it strange since she seemed so interested at first :/ Feel free to ask if there is some more info i forgot to add. I just wanted to ask the internet for some advice since i dont really have a lot of experience with this. :)

So me(19F) and my ex(21M) broke up 3 days ago because he’s going to Korea to study for 2y and plan on living there forever and I am staying in the US. I watched all those tiktoks and read all those reddits hearing people say that the guy will always come back. However I believe mine wont and we will never contact again because we are in 2 different paths from now on but I just want to hear your advices so that I can give up my last hope. This is a pretty long one. Please forgive me.
So I am an international student and I got a scholarship to go to the US for uni and I plan on residing here in the future. Everything is hard for me I only made one best friend who is from the same country as me and that’s it. I cannot make any white friends because it’s hard. Let alone finding a guy to date. My type is white tall athletes guys and all of them in my school only want white soro girls so I dont have hope finding a boyfriend in my school. That’s why I tried downloading dating apps. I am a virgin and I’ve never been in a relationship before and I never lost my first kiss. And s*x and first kiss are precious to me.
We matched on Tinder 6 months ago and he was very active and tried to get to know me. He’s pretty special to me because he was looking for a serious relationship and asked for my insta instead of my snapchat. When everyone there is just trynna hook up he really want a relationship and when I said I will not have s*x until I graduate will you wait for me and he respects me. We went on few dates and things went really well because he’s exactly my type, tall, dirty blonde and blue eyes. He even made the effort to drive to see me every single time because he’s 1h15 away and I dont have a car. And he paid for things too. His type is Asian too because I noticed that he followed many attractive Asian famous girls and many friends from Korea. I noticed one in there name A that he liked every single posts of her. But we were nothing at that point so I didnt say anything. He was just back from a trip to Asia and he likes Korea the most. He said that country is beautiful, safe and cheaper than Us and he did tell me he want to move there to live in the future. But at that point I was just planning on dating for fun so I dont care and keep going.
Funny enough we keep talking even though we dont have anything in common. After getting to know basically every basic things about each other, our conversation is plain and is just ‘wyd’ ‘im tired’ ‘im working’ etc. It’s shallow and not very deep. I noticed that but Im lonely so having a guy like that everyday is actually amazing to me. I dont have the intention of marrying him or anything and he doesnt too. But after several dates I slowly get attached. He hugged me, carried me up like a princess. Everything I have dreamt of before. And finally that day I lost my first kiss to him and he asked me to be his gf and I said yes. It was amazing.
So after we are officially dating. I got jealous of his followings and easily annoyed because he’s a super nonchalant guy.
I made a mess about him following those revealing models and he said he didnt remember because it’s a long time ago and delete all of them. However, when it comes to that girl A and some other I mentioned he said I will delete those I dont know but she’s just my friend and I wont delete her. ‘We dont even talk.’ Just a friend he knows from his Korea trip. Then I let it ago, but then after a while I noticed him liking her posts again and again and each time I fought with him and finally he told me he wont like her post anymore and he stopped.
But then I noticed him following a new girl B and she’s from Korea and I asked him and he said she’s his Korean teacher. I feel something sus but I cant do anything. He’s trying his best to learn Korean just to be able to live there and dont even care about my country. He doesnt even try to say my name correctly or learn anything about my country.
He’s really busy and he trynna work hard to earn money and his sleep schedule is really messed up. Im always annoyed because he takes hours to reply to me. And many small fights like how he only reply to my ‘i miss you’ but never say it first, and never call me, only texting. After a month of dating we got into a big fight. Imma sum it up. I asked him to come see me on Friday but then his grandpa got into a health problem so he had to drive his mom to the hospital and he said he will pick me up on Sat. I was all prepared and woke up early and then he overslept. Then he said he’ll come at 3.30 in the afternoon. I was waiting again. Until he texted me at 4. saying that his car tag exprired so he couldnt come see me. I was so sad but cant help it because it’s all valid reasons. I waited untill next week again, and I asked him to meet again. And then he overslept again, leaving me hanging and waiting like an idiot. I was so upset this time I texted him paragraphs saying not good things like why are you so irresponsible why dont you care about my feelings etc. if you dont text me back before 10a let’s just break up. Next morning he woke up and told me ‘you know what, we not gonna work’ then he unadded me on snapchat and unfollow me on instagram and unfollow me on tiktok too. But i still can text him on insta and imess and discord. I was so shocked and begged him to come back everywhere. I was crying like a baby dont wanna lose him. It was a traumatizing day for me. Eventually he responded and said ‘you dont know but I forgave you many times’ ‘maybe im not good enough for you’ and stuffs like that.. but eventually he added me back and said he’ll give me one last chance.
We got back for 2 days and now he’s lost a large part of interest for me. Then I asked to meet again and he said he cant because his schedule changed again and I got upset again and he unadded me again, block me on insta and tiktok and discord, but I still can text him on Imess. Then I apologized again and we got back again and he said ‘I do mean the last one’.
Then Im constantly careful not to hurt him or fight and we got on dates and we got more physically close to each other. However I dont feel any deep connection we’re just very shallow. Idk how to explain it. I think we’re just there to not be lonely. At least for me. I feel like he doesnt give a shit if i leave or not anymore.
Things go well for another month then I realize summer is comming and I’ll have to leave him for 3 months. I was not happy bc he’s not upset ab the fact that im going away at all. Then I noticed he slowly get colder towards me. I mean it’s not obvious but he doesnt crave for touching hugging me as much as before. I have to ask for kiss and hugs. And he only texted me on snap and never on instagram where I noticed he’s online everyday. His snap scores also went up 10 every morning and Idk if im a creep but like 1 or 2 even when he’s not snapping me so he’s snapping others. I know he has like 1 or 2 guy friends but I took a look at his phone sometimes (which he’s always trynna hide whenever he’s w me) and noticed some girls as well. But maybe just for streaks. And ofc he’s still texting that B girl for Korean lesson. And A girl is now in Japan for a trip. A and B post stories EVERY SINGLE DAY and it’s their cute photos and I know my bf is online on instagram everyday and watch those stories so I am very unhappy.
Then the day come when I have to go away for summer. He asked me when Im back and I said September. Then he said he’ll go to Japan in August for 1 month and I said okay. So we are in LDR now and I asked him to call me bc I need more contact to feel loved and valued. He said he will, but he never call me. He said it’s just he just never call anyone. I was upset many times but I also let it go. Also he never said he loved me. Only like.
Then I saw him like a thirst trap reel of a revealing famous korean girls 2 weeks ago. I was so fcking offended but he’s sick so im not making any fuss. After 4 days I decided to bring that up and texted him paragraphs on insta, imess and snap about how offended and sad I am and asked him why he do that when we are dating. Just for him to seen on insta and imess and reply on snap ‘I dont know’. Eventually, i let it go again because I dont wanna lose him if I take things further.
Then we went on for a couple more days before he texted me ‘I have something to tell you. I’ll go to Japan and to Korea and study there for 2 y w the intention of living there. I’ll be back sometimes to the US but obv that’s not enough for you’ then it’s some more lots of texts of me trying to keep it until he finally say ‘it’s best we break up, it wont work’.
Then he blocks me on everything, Insta, tiktok, snap, discord, mess. I dont dare to check if he blocks my number or not. And he’s gone, cold-heartedly, so easily as if I am nothing. I asked my friends to stalk him for a bit and notice that right after he blocks me. He likes B’s posts, his Korean teacher. And he like A’s posts, the girl he promised he wont ever again, who’re in Japan rn. So he moved on, and ready for his next life, no look back, no regret. While I am here. I think he’s the best I can find on dating apps, because everyone there just trynna hu. And I wont be able to find bfs in school. So i’ll be alone for a long time. Idk what to do, im so pessimistic. And i still want him to crawl back for an ego boost, that at least he still miss me. But apparently not, he’s already moved on, and already didnt give a shit ab me for a long time. So what tiktok says is wrong right. He’ll never come back..

So me(19F) and my ex(21M) broke up 3 days ago because he’s going to Korea to study for 2y and plan on living there forever and I am staying in the US. I watched all those tiktoks and read all those reddits hearing people say that the guy will always come back. However I believe mine wont and we will never contact again because we are in 2 different paths from now on but I just want to hear your advices so that I can give up my last hope. This is a pretty long one. Please forgive me.
So I am an international student and I got a scholarship to go to the US for uni and I plan on residing here in the future. Everything is hard for me I only made one best friend who is from the same country as me and that’s it. I cannot make any white friends because it’s hard. Let alone finding a guy to date. My type is white tall athletes guys and all of them in my school only want white soro girls so I dont have hope finding a boyfriend in my school. That’s why I tried downloading dating apps. I am a virgin and I’ve never been in a relationship before and I never lost my first kiss. And s*x and first kiss are precious to me.
We matched on Tinder 6 months ago and he was very active and tried to get to know me. He’s pretty special to me because he was looking for a serious relationship and asked for my insta instead of my snapchat. When everyone there is just trynna hook up he really want a relationship and when I said I will not have s*x until I graduate will you wait for me and he respects me. We went on few dates and things went really well because he’s exactly my type, tall, dirty blonde and blue eyes. He even made the effort to drive to see me every single time because he’s 1h15 away and I dont have a car. And he paid for things too. His type is Asian too because I noticed that he followed many attractive Asian famous girls and many friends from Korea. I noticed one in there name A that he liked every single posts of her. But we were nothing at that point so I didnt say anything. He was just back from a trip to Asia and he likes Korea the most. He said that country is beautiful, safe and cheaper than Us and he did tell me he want to move there to live in the future. But at that point I was just planning on dating for fun so I dont care and keep going.
Funny enough we keep talking even though we dont have anything in common. After getting to know basically every basic things about each other, our conversation is plain and is just ‘wyd’ ‘im tired’ ‘im working’ etc. It’s shallow and not very deep. I noticed that but Im lonely so having a guy like that everyday is actually amazing to me. I dont have the intention of marrying him or anything and he doesnt too. But after several dates I slowly get attached. He hugged me, carried me up like a princess. Everything I have dreamt of before. And finally that day I lost my first kiss to him and he asked me to be his gf and I said yes. It was amazing.
So after we are officially dating. I got jealous of his followings and easily annoyed because he’s a super nonchalant guy.
I made a mess about him following those revealing models and he said he didnt remember because it’s a long time ago and delete all of them. However, when it comes to that girl A and some other I mentioned he said I will delete those I dont know but she’s just my friend and I wont delete her. ‘We dont even talk.’ Just a friend he knows from his Korea trip. Then I let it ago, but then after a while I noticed him liking her posts again and again and each time I fought with him and finally he told me he wont like her post anymore and he stopped.
But then I noticed him following a new girl B and she’s from Korea and I asked him and he said she’s his Korean teacher. I feel something sus but I cant do anything. He’s trying his best to learn Korean just to be able to live there and dont even care about my country. He doesnt even try to say my name correctly or learn anything about my country.
He’s really busy and he trynna work hard to earn money and his sleep schedule is really messed up. Im always annoyed because he takes hours to reply to me. And many small fights like how he only reply to my ‘i miss you’ but never say it first, and never call me, only texting. After a month of dating we got into a big fight. Imma sum it up. I asked him to come see me on Friday but then his grandpa got into a health problem so he had to drive his mom to the hospital and he said he will pick me up on Sat. I was all prepared and woke up early and then he overslept. Then he said he’ll come at 3.30 in the afternoon. I was waiting again. Until he texted me at 4. saying that his car tag exprired so he couldnt come see me. I was so sad but cant help it because it’s all valid reasons. I waited untill next week again, and I asked him to meet again. And then he overslept again, leaving me hanging and waiting like an idiot. I was so upset this time I texted him paragraphs saying not good things like why are you so irresponsible why dont you care about my feelings etc. if you dont text me back before 10a let’s just break up. Next morning he woke up and told me ‘you know what, we not gonna work’ then he unadded me on snapchat and unfollow me on instagram and unfollow me on tiktok too. But i still can text him on insta and imess and discord. I was so shocked and begged him to come back everywhere. I was crying like a baby dont wanna lose him. It was a traumatizing day for me. Eventually he responded and said ‘you dont know but I forgave you many times’ ‘maybe im not good enough for you’ and stuffs like that.. but eventually he added me back and said he’ll give me one last chance.
We got back for 2 days and now he’s lost a large part of interest for me. Then I asked to meet again and he said he cant because his schedule changed again and I got upset again and he unadded me again, block me on insta and tiktok and discord, but I still can text him on Imess. Then I apologized again and we got back again and he said ‘I do mean the last one’.
Then Im constantly careful not to hurt him or fight and we got on dates and we got more physically close to each other. However I dont feel any deep connection we’re just very shallow. Idk how to explain it. I think we’re just there to not be lonely. At least for me. I feel like he doesnt give a shit if i leave or not anymore.
Things go well for another month then I realize summer is comming and I’ll have to leave him for 3 months. I was not happy bc he’s not upset ab the fact that im going away at all. Then I noticed he slowly get colder towards me. I mean it’s not obvious but he doesnt crave for touching hugging me as much as before. I have to ask for kiss and hugs. And he only texted me on snap and never on instagram where I noticed he’s online everyday. His snap scores also went up 10 every morning and Idk if im a creep but like 1 or 2 even when he’s not snapping me so he’s snapping others. I know he has like 1 or 2 guy friends but I took a look at his phone sometimes (which he’s always trynna hide whenever he’s w me) and noticed some girls as well. But maybe just for streaks. And ofc he’s still texting that B girl for Korean lesson. And A girl is now in Japan for a trip. A and B post stories EVERY SINGLE DAY and it’s their cute photos and I know my bf is online on instagram everyday and watch those stories so I am very unhappy.
Then the day come when I have to go away for summer. He asked me when Im back and I said September. Then he said he’ll go to Japan in August for 1 month and I said okay. So we are in LDR now and I asked him to call me bc I need more contact to feel loved and valued. He said he will, but he never call me. He said it’s just he just never call anyone. I was upset many times but I also let it go. Also he never said he loved me. Only like.
Then I saw him like a thirst trap reel of a revealing famous korean girls 2 weeks ago. I was so fcking offended but he’s sick so im not making any fuss. After 4 days I decided to bring that up and texted him paragraphs on insta, imess and snap about how offended and sad I am and asked him why he do that when we are dating. Just for him to seen on insta and imess and reply on snap ‘I dont know’. Eventually, i let it go again because I dont wanna lose him if I take things further.
Then we went on for a couple more days before he texted me ‘I have something to tell you. I’ll go to Japan and to Korea and study there for 2 y w the intention of living there. I’ll be back sometimes to the US but obv that’s not enough for you’ then it’s some more lots of texts of me trying to keep it until he finally say ‘it’s best we break up, it wont work’.
Then he blocks me on everything, Insta, tiktok, snap, discord, mess. I dont dare to check if he blocks my number or not. And he’s gone, cold-heartedly, so easily as if I am nothing. I asked my friends to stalk him for a bit and notice that right after he blocks me. He likes B’s posts, his Korean teacher. And he like A’s posts, the girl he promised he wont ever again, who’re in Japan rn. So he moved on, and ready for his next life, no look back, no regret. While I am here. I think he’s the best I can find on dating apps, because everyone there just trynna hu. And I wont be able to find bfs in school. So i’ll be alone for a long time. Idk what to do, im so pessimistic. And i still want him to crawl back for an ego boost, that at least he still miss me. But apparently not, he’s already moved on, and already didnt give a shit ab me for a long time. So what tiktok says is wrong right. He’ll never come back..

So me(19F) and my ex(21M) broke up 3 days ago because he’s going to Korea to study for 2y and plan on living there forever and I am staying in the US. I watched all those tiktoks and read all those reddits hearing people say that the guy will always come back. However I believe mine wont and we will never contact again because we are in 2 different paths from now on but I just want to hear your advices so that I can give up my last hope. This is a pretty long one. Please forgive me.
So I am an international student and I got a scholarship to go to the US for uni and I plan on residing here in the future. Everything is hard for me I only made one best friend who is from the same country as me and that’s it. I cannot make any white friends because it’s hard. Let alone finding a guy to date. My type is white tall athletes guys and all of them in my school only want white soro girls so I dont have hope finding a boyfriend in my school. That’s why I tried downloading dating apps. I am a virgin and I’ve never been in a relationship before and I never lost my first kiss. And s*x and first kiss are precious to me.
We matched on Tinder 6 months ago and he was very active and tried to get to know me. He’s pretty special to me because he was looking for a serious relationship and asked for my insta instead of my snapchat. When everyone there is just trynna hook up he really want a relationship and when I said I will not have s*x until I graduate will you wait for me and he respects me. We went on few dates and things went really well because he’s exactly my type, tall, dirty blonde and blue eyes. He even made the effort to drive to see me every single time because he’s 1h15 away and I dont have a car. And he paid for things too. His type is Asian too because I noticed that he followed many attractive Asian famous girls and many friends from Korea. I noticed one in there name A that he liked every single posts of her. But we were nothing at that point so I didnt say anything. He was just back from a trip to Asia and he likes Korea the most. He said that country is beautiful, safe and cheaper than Us and he did tell me he want to move there to live in the future. But at that point I was just planning on dating for fun so I dont care and keep going.
Funny enough we keep talking even though we dont have anything in common. After getting to know basically every basic things about each other, our conversation is plain and is just ‘wyd’ ‘im tired’ ‘im working’ etc. It’s shallow and not very deep. I noticed that but Im lonely so having a guy like that everyday is actually amazing to me. I dont have the intention of marrying him or anything and he doesnt too. But after several dates I slowly get attached. He hugged me, carried me up like a princess. Everything I have dreamt of before. And finally that day I lost my first kiss to him and he asked me to be his gf and I said yes. It was amazing.
So after we are officially dating. I got jealous of his followings and easily annoyed because he’s a super nonchalant guy.
I made a mess about him following those revealing models and he said he didnt remember because it’s a long time ago and delete all of them. However, when it comes to that girl A and some other I mentioned he said I will delete those I dont know but she’s just my friend and I wont delete her. ‘We dont even talk.’ Just a friend he knows from his Korea trip. Then I let it ago, but then after a while I noticed him liking her posts again and again and each time I fought with him and finally he told me he wont like her post anymore and he stopped.
But then I noticed him following a new girl B and she’s from Korea and I asked him and he said she’s his Korean teacher. I feel something sus but I cant do anything. He’s trying his best to learn Korean just to be able to live there and dont even care about my country. He doesnt even try to say my name correctly or learn anything about my country.
He’s really busy and he trynna work hard to earn money and his sleep schedule is really messed up. Im always annoyed because he takes hours to reply to me. And many small fights like how he only reply to my ‘i miss you’ but never say it first, and never call me, only texting. After a month of dating we got into a big fight. Imma sum it up. I asked him to come see me on Friday but then his grandpa got into a health problem so he had to drive his mom to the hospital and he said he will pick me up on Sat. I was all prepared and woke up early and then he overslept. Then he said he’ll come at 3.30 in the afternoon. I was waiting again. Until he texted me at 4. saying that his car tag exprired so he couldnt come see me. I was so sad but cant help it because it’s all valid reasons. I waited untill next week again, and I asked him to meet again. And then he overslept again, leaving me hanging and waiting like an idiot. I was so upset this time I texted him paragraphs saying not good things like why are you so irresponsible why dont you care about my feelings etc. if you dont text me back before 10a let’s just break up. Next morning he woke up and told me ‘you know what, we not gonna work’ then he unadded me on snapchat and unfollow me on instagram and unfollow me on tiktok too. But i still can text him on insta and imess and discord. I was so shocked and begged him to come back everywhere. I was crying like a baby dont wanna lose him. It was a traumatizing day for me. Eventually he responded and said ‘you dont know but I forgave you many times’ ‘maybe im not good enough for you’ and stuffs like that.. but eventually he added me back and said he’ll give me one last chance.
We got back for 2 days and now he’s lost a large part of interest for me. Then I asked to meet again and he said he cant because his schedule changed again and I got upset again and he unadded me again, block me on insta and tiktok and discord, but I still can text him on Imess. Then I apologized again and we got back again and he said ‘I do mean the last one’.
Then Im constantly careful not to hurt him or fight and we got on dates and we got more physically close to each other. However I dont feel any deep connection we’re just very shallow. Idk how to explain it. I think we’re just there to not be lonely. At least for me. I feel like he doesnt give a shit if i leave or not anymore.
Things go well for another month then I realize summer is comming and I’ll have to leave him for 3 months. I was not happy bc he’s not upset ab the fact that im going away at all. Then I noticed he slowly get colder towards me. I mean it’s not obvious but he doesnt crave for touching hugging me as much as before. I have to ask for kiss and hugs. And he only texted me on snap and never on instagram where I noticed he’s online everyday. His snap scores also went up 10 every morning and Idk if im a creep but like 1 or 2 even when he’s not snapping me so he’s snapping others. I know he has like 1 or 2 guy friends but I took a look at his phone sometimes (which he’s always trynna hide whenever he’s w me) and noticed some girls as well. But maybe just for streaks. And ofc he’s still texting that B girl for Korean lesson. And A girl is now in Japan for a trip. A and B post stories EVERY SINGLE DAY and it’s their cute photos and I know my bf is online on instagram everyday and watch those stories so I am very unhappy.
Then the day come when I have to go away for summer. He asked me when Im back and I said September. Then he said he’ll go to Japan in August for 1 month and I said okay. So we are in LDR now and I asked him to call me bc I need more contact to feel loved and valued. He said he will, but he never call me. He said it’s just he just never call anyone. I was upset many times but I also let it go. Also he never said he loved me. Only like.
Then I saw him like a thirst trap reel of a revealing famous korean girls 2 weeks ago. I was so fcking offended but he’s sick so im not making any fuss. After 4 days I decided to bring that up and texted him paragraphs on insta, imess and snap about how offended and sad I am and asked him why he do that when we are dating. Just for him to seen on insta and imess and reply on snap ‘I dont know’. Eventually, i let it go again because I dont wanna lose him if I take things further.
Then we went on for a couple more days before he texted me ‘I have something to tell you. I’ll go to Japan and to Korea and study there for 2 y w the intention of living there. I’ll be back sometimes to the US but obv that’s not enough for you’ then it’s some more lots of texts of me trying to keep it until he finally say ‘it’s best we break up, it wont work’.
Then he blocks me on everything, Insta, tiktok, snap, discord, mess. I dont dare to check if he blocks my number or not. And he’s gone, cold-heartedly, so easily as if I am nothing. I asked my friends to stalk him for a bit and notice that right after he blocks me. He likes B’s posts, his Korean teacher. And he like A’s posts, the girl he promised he wont ever again, who’re in Japan rn. So he moved on, and ready for his next life, no look back, no regret. While I am here. I think he’s the best I can find on dating apps, because everyone there just trynna hu. And I wont be able to find bfs in school. So i’ll be alone for a long time. Idk what to do, im so pessimistic. And i still want him to crawl back for an ego boost, that at least he still miss me. But apparently not, he’s already moved on, and already didnt give a shit ab me for a long time. So what tiktok says is wrong right. He’ll never come back..

So me(19F) and my ex(21M) broke up 3 days ago because he’s going to Korea to study for 2y and plan on living there forever and I am staying in the US. I watched all those tiktoks and read all those reddits hearing people say that the guy will always come back. However I believe mine wont and we will never contact again because we are in 2 different paths from now on but I just want to hear your advices so that I can give up my last hope. This is a pretty long one. Please forgive me.
So I am an international student and I got a scholarship to go to the US for uni and I plan on residing here in the future. Everything is hard for me I only made one best friend who is from the same country as me and that’s it. I cannot make any white friends because it’s hard. Let alone finding a guy to date. My type is white tall athletes guys and all of them in my school only want white soro girls so I dont have hope finding a boyfriend in my school. That’s why I tried downloading dating apps. I am a virgin and I’ve never been in a relationship before and I never lost my first kiss. And s*x and first kiss are precious to me.
We matched on Tinder 6 months ago and he was very active and tried to get to know me. He’s pretty special to me because he was looking for a serious relationship and asked for my insta instead of my snapchat. When everyone there is just trynna hook up he really want a relationship and when I said I will not have s*x until I graduate will you wait for me and he respects me. We went on few dates and things went really well because he’s exactly my type, tall, dirty blonde and blue eyes. He even made the effort to drive to see me every single time because he’s 1h15 away and I dont have a car. And he paid for things too. His type is Asian too because I noticed that he followed many attractive Asian famous girls and many friends from Korea. I noticed one in there name A that he liked every single posts of her. But we were nothing at that point so I didnt say anything. He was just back from a trip to Asia and he likes Korea the most. He said that country is beautiful, safe and cheaper than Us and he did tell me he want to move there to live in the future. But at that point I was just planning on dating for fun so I dont care and keep going.
Funny enough we keep talking even though we dont have anything in common. After getting to know basically every basic things about each other, our conversation is plain and is just ‘wyd’ ‘im tired’ ‘im working’ etc. It’s shallow and not very deep. I noticed that but Im lonely so having a guy like that everyday is actually amazing to me. I dont have the intention of marrying him or anything and he doesnt too. But after several dates I slowly get attached. He hugged me, carried me up like a princess. Everything I have dreamt of before. And finally that day I lost my first kiss to him and he asked me to be his gf and I said yes. It was amazing.
So after we are officially dating. I got jealous of his followings and easily annoyed because he’s a super nonchalant guy.
I made a mess about him following those revealing models and he said he didnt remember because it’s a long time ago and delete all of them. However, when it comes to that girl A and some other I mentioned he said I will delete those I dont know but she’s just my friend and I wont delete her. ‘We dont even talk.’ Just a friend he knows from his Korea trip. Then I let it ago, but then after a while I noticed him liking her posts again and again and each time I fought with him and finally he told me he wont like her post anymore and he stopped.
But then I noticed him following a new girl B and she’s from Korea and I asked him and he said she’s his Korean teacher. I feel something sus but I cant do anything. He’s trying his best to learn Korean just to be able to live there and dont even care about my country. He doesnt even try to say my name correctly or learn anything about my country.
He’s really busy and he trynna work hard to earn money and his sleep schedule is really messed up. Im always annoyed because he takes hours to reply to me. And many small fights like how he only reply to my ‘i miss you’ but never say it first, and never call me, only texting. After a month of dating we got into a big fight. Imma sum it up. I asked him to come see me on Friday but then his grandpa got into a health problem so he had to drive his mom to the hospital and he said he will pick me up on Sat. I was all prepared and woke up early and then he overslept. Then he said he’ll come at 3.30 in the afternoon. I was waiting again. Until he texted me at 4. saying that his car tag exprired so he couldnt come see me. I was so sad but cant help it because it’s all valid reasons. I waited untill next week again, and I asked him to meet again. And then he overslept again, leaving me hanging and waiting like an idiot. I was so upset this time I texted him paragraphs saying not good things like why are you so irresponsible why dont you care about my feelings etc. if you dont text me back before 10a let’s just break up. Next morning he woke up and told me ‘you know what, we not gonna work’ then he unadded me on snapchat and unfollow me on instagram and unfollow me on tiktok too. But i still can text him on insta and imess and discord. I was so shocked and begged him to come back everywhere. I was crying like a baby dont wanna lose him. It was a traumatizing day for me. Eventually he responded and said ‘you dont know but I forgave you many times’ ‘maybe im not good enough for you’ and stuffs like that.. but eventually he added me back and said he’ll give me one last chance.
We got back for 2 days and now he’s lost a large part of interest for me. Then I asked to meet again and he said he cant because his schedule changed again and I got upset again and he unadded me again, block me on insta and tiktok and discord, but I still can text him on Imess. Then I apologized again and we got back again and he said ‘I do mean the last one’.
Then Im constantly careful not to hurt him or fight and we got on dates and we got more physically close to each other. However I dont feel any deep connection we’re just very shallow. Idk how to explain it. I think we’re just there to not be lonely. At least for me. I feel like he doesnt give a shit if i leave or not anymore.
Things go well for another month then I realize summer is comming and I’ll have to leave him for 3 months. I was not happy bc he’s not upset ab the fact that im going away at all. Then I noticed he slowly get colder towards me. I mean it’s not obvious but he doesnt crave for touching hugging me as much as before. I have to ask for kiss and hugs. And he only texted me on snap and never on instagram where I noticed he’s online everyday. His snap scores also went up 10 every morning and Idk if im a creep but like 1 or 2 even when he’s not snapping me so he’s snapping others. I know he has like 1 or 2 guy friends but I took a look at his phone sometimes (which he’s always trynna hide whenever he’s w me) and noticed some girls as well. But maybe just for streaks. And ofc he’s still texting that B girl for Korean lesson. And A girl is now in Japan for a trip. A and B post stories EVERY SINGLE DAY and it’s their cute photos and I know my bf is online on instagram everyday and watch those stories so I am very unhappy.
Then the day come when I have to go away for summer. He asked me when Im back and I said September. Then he said he’ll go to Japan in August for 1 month and I said okay. So we are in LDR now and I asked him to call me bc I need more contact to feel loved and valued. He said he will, but he never call me. He said it’s just he just never call anyone. I was upset many times but I also let it go. Also he never said he loved me. Only like.
Then I saw him like a thirst trap reel of a revealing famous korean girls 2 weeks ago. I was so fcking offended but he’s sick so im not making any fuss. After 4 days I decided to bring that up and texted him paragraphs on insta, imess and snap about how offended and sad I am and asked him why he do that when we are dating. Just for him to seen on insta and imess and reply on snap ‘I dont know’. Eventually, i let it go again because I dont wanna lose him if I take things further.
Then we went on for a couple more days before he texted me ‘I have something to tell you. I’ll go to Japan and to Korea and study there for 2 y w the intention of living there. I’ll be back sometimes to the US but obv that’s not enough for you’ then it’s some more lots of texts of me trying to keep it until he finally say ‘it’s best we break up, it wont work’.
Then he blocks me on everything, Insta, tiktok, snap, discord, mess. I dont dare to check if he blocks my number or not. And he’s gone, cold-heartedly, so easily as if I am nothing. I asked my friends to stalk him for a bit and notice that right after he blocks me. He likes B’s posts, his Korean teacher. And he like A’s posts, the girl he promised he wont ever again, who’re in Japan rn. So he moved on, and ready for his next life, no look back, no regret. While I am here. I think he’s the best I can find on dating apps, because everyone there just trynna hu. And I wont be able to find bfs in school. So i’ll be alone for a long time. Idk what to do, im so pessimistic. And i still want him to crawl back for an ego boost, that at least he still miss me. But apparently not, he’s already moved on, and already didnt give a shit ab me for a long time. So what tiktok says is wrong right. He’ll never come back..

So me(19F) and my ex(21M) broke up 3 days ago because he’s going to Korea to study for 2y and plan on living there forever and I am staying in the US. I watched all those tiktoks and read all those reddits hearing people say that the guy will always come back. However I believe mine wont and we will never contact again because we are in 2 different paths from now on but I just want to hear your advices so that I can give up my last hope. This is a pretty long one. Please forgive me.
So I am an international student and I got a scholarship to go to the US for uni and I plan on residing here in the future. Everything is hard for me I only made one best friend who is from the same country as me and that’s it. I cannot make any white friends because it’s hard. Let alone finding a guy to date. My type is white tall athletes guys and all of them in my school only want white soro girls so I dont have hope finding a boyfriend in my school. That’s why I tried downloading dating apps. I am a virgin and I’ve never been in a relationship before and I never lost my first kiss. And s*x and first kiss are precious to me.
We matched on Tinder 6 months ago and he was very active and tried to get to know me. He’s pretty special to me because he was looking for a serious relationship and asked for my insta instead of my snapchat. When everyone there is just trynna hook up he really want a relationship and when I said I will not have s*x until I graduate will you wait for me and he respects me. We went on few dates and things went really well because he’s exactly my type, tall, dirty blonde and blue eyes. He even made the effort to drive to see me every single time because he’s 1h15 away and I dont have a car. And he paid for things too. His type is Asian too because I noticed that he followed many attractive Asian famous girls and many friends from Korea. I noticed one in there name A that he liked every single posts of her. But we were nothing at that point so I didnt say anything. He was just back from a trip to Asia and he likes Korea the most. He said that country is beautiful, safe and cheaper than Us and he did tell me he want to move there to live in the future. But at that point I was just planning on dating for fun so I dont care and keep going.
Funny enough we keep talking even though we dont have anything in common. After getting to know basically every basic things about each other, our conversation is plain and is just ‘wyd’ ‘im tired’ ‘im working’ etc. It’s shallow and not very deep. I noticed that but Im lonely so having a guy like that everyday is actually amazing to me. I dont have the intention of marrying him or anything and he doesnt too. But after several dates I slowly get attached. He hugged me, carried me up like a princess. Everything I have dreamt of before. And finally that day I lost my first kiss to him and he asked me to be his gf and I said yes. It was amazing.
So after we are officially dating. I got jealous of his followings and easily annoyed because he’s a super nonchalant guy.
I made a mess about him following those revealing models and he said he didnt remember because it’s a long time ago and delete all of them. However, when it comes to that girl A and some other I mentioned he said I will delete those I dont know but she’s just my friend and I wont delete her. ‘We dont even talk.’ Just a friend he knows from his Korea trip. Then I let it ago, but then after a while I noticed him liking her posts again and again and each time I fought with him and finally he told me he wont like her post anymore and he stopped.
But then I noticed him following a new girl B and she’s from Korea and I asked him and he said she’s his Korean teacher. I feel something sus but I cant do anything. He’s trying his best to learn Korean just to be able to live there and dont even care about my country. He doesnt even try to say my name correctly or learn anything about my country.
He’s really busy and he trynna work hard to earn money and his sleep schedule is really messed up. Im always annoyed because he takes hours to reply to me. And many small fights like how he only reply to my ‘i miss you’ but never say it first, and never call me, only texting. After a month of dating we got into a big fight. Imma sum it up. I asked him to come see me on Friday but then his grandpa got into a health problem so he had to drive his mom to the hospital and he said he will pick me up on Sat. I was all prepared and woke up early and then he overslept. Then he said he’ll come at 3.30 in the afternoon. I was waiting again. Until he texted me at 4. saying that his car tag exprired so he couldnt come see me. I was so sad but cant help it because it’s all valid reasons. I waited untill next week again, and I asked him to meet again. And then he overslept again, leaving me hanging and waiting like an idiot. I was so upset this time I texted him paragraphs saying not good things like why are you so irresponsible why dont you care about my feelings etc. if you dont text me back before 10a let’s just break up. Next morning he woke up and told me ‘you know what, we not gonna work’ then he unadded me on snapchat and unfollow me on instagram and unfollow me on tiktok too. But i still can text him on insta and imess and discord. I was so shocked and begged him to come back everywhere. I was crying like a baby dont wanna lose him. It was a traumatizing day for me. Eventually he responded and said ‘you dont know but I forgave you many times’ ‘maybe im not good enough for you’ and stuffs like that.. but eventually he added me back and said he’ll give me one last chance.
We got back for 2 days and now he’s lost a large part of interest for me. Then I asked to meet again and he said he cant because his schedule changed again and I got upset again and he unadded me again, block me on insta and tiktok and discord, but I still can text him on Imess. Then I apologized again and we got back again and he said ‘I do mean the last one’.
Then Im constantly careful not to hurt him or fight and we got on dates and we got more physically close to each other. However I dont feel any deep connection we’re just very shallow. Idk how to explain it. I think we’re just there to not be lonely. At least for me. I feel like he doesnt give a shit if i leave or not anymore.
Things go well for another month then I realize summer is comming and I’ll have to leave him for 3 months. I was not happy bc he’s not upset ab the fact that im going away at all. Then I noticed he slowly get colder towards me. I mean it’s not obvious but he doesnt crave for touching hugging me as much as before. I have to ask for kiss and hugs. And he only texted me on snap and never on instagram where I noticed he’s online everyday. His snap scores also went up 10 every morning and Idk if im a creep but like 1 or 2 even when he’s not snapping me so he’s snapping others. I know he has like 1 or 2 guy friends but I took a look at his phone sometimes (which he’s always trynna hide whenever he’s w me) and noticed some girls as well. But maybe just for streaks. And ofc he’s still texting that B girl for Korean lesson. And A girl is now in Japan for a trip. A and B post stories EVERY SINGLE DAY and it’s their cute photos and I know my bf is online on instagram everyday and watch those stories so I am very unhappy.
Then the day come when I have to go away for summer. He asked me when Im back and I said September. Then he said he’ll go to Japan in August for 1 month and I said okay. So we are in LDR now and I asked him to call me bc I need more contact to feel loved and valued. He said he will, but he never call me. He said it’s just he just never call anyone. I was upset many times but I also let it go. Also he never said he loved me. Only like.
Then I saw him like a thirst trap reel of a revealing famous korean girls 2 weeks ago. I was so fcking offended but he’s sick so im not making any fuss. After 4 days I decided to bring that up and texted him paragraphs on insta, imess and snap about how offended and sad I am and asked him why he do that when we are dating. Just for him to seen on insta and imess and reply on snap ‘I dont know’. Eventually, i let it go again because I dont wanna lose him if I take things further.
Then we went on for a couple more days before he texted me ‘I have something to tell you. I’ll go to Japan and to Korea and study there for 2 y w the intention of living there. I’ll be back sometimes to the US but obv that’s not enough for you’ then it’s some more lots of texts of me trying to keep it until he finally say ‘it’s best we break up, it wont work’.
Then he blocks me on everything, Insta, tiktok, snap, discord, mess. I dont dare to check if he blocks my number or not. And he’s gone, cold-heartedly, so easily as if I am nothing. I asked my friends to stalk him for a bit and notice that right after he blocks me. He likes B’s posts, his Korean teacher. And he like A’s posts, the girl he promised he wont ever again, who’re in Japan rn. So he moved on, and ready for his next life, no look back, no regret. While I am here. I think he’s the best I can find on dating apps, because everyone there just trynna hu. And I wont be able to find bfs in school. So i’ll be alone for a long time. Idk what to do, im so pessimistic. And i still want him to crawl back for an ego boost, that at least he still miss me. But apparently not, he’s already moved on, and already didnt give a shit ab me for a long time. So what tiktok says is wrong right. He’ll never come back..

Spoilers. So Good Night World is another anime about a VR (original I know). The basis of the show is actually pretty interesting. Our protagonist is a shut in (wait no I swear it gets better). His family is highly dysfunctional with an abusive father who genuinely cares about his sons, the shut in older brother who hates the world , a younger brother who hates what has become of his older brother, a mom who… exists (she’s so irrelevant), and a younger sisters who’s dead.
All of them play this digital VR game called Planet and coincidentally have all become members of an in game fictional family that all gets along and loves each other. They don’t know they are actually all members of the same irl family.
Other things to note is that there’s a monster called the Black Bird that comes with what equates to around $2 million cash prize and this girl named Pico who has a crush on the main character cause they trauma bonded and she wants him to see the good in the real world and not just live in the game.
So one would expect a twist on the found family story tackling complex issues like trauma, familial abuse, growing relations both online and irl, and seeing the good in life as they pursue this bird right?
No. Fuck you its actually a cosmic horror because of

FUCKING. AI.

So remember that black bird thing I mentioned before, well it’s not in in-game quest with an irl reward it’s a super ai that infects your brain and tortures you for all eternity in some virtual world or whatever until you die. That whole family dynamic, that the entire show seemed to be predicated on is dropped after episode 3. The younger brother gets hospitalized cause he gets killed by the super ai in game. The dad fs-off to try to kill the ai cause he actually made the game and the ai, and the main character goes to hang out with his girlfriend/not girlfriend. The mom again is irrelevant and disappears for half the series
Apparently the Black Bird needs power sources based on human emotion(?!?!) and so there are sub-ais who were only created to power the true ai who was only created to kill people or something (for reasons?!?). All of this is to say:
The girlfriend’s an ai. That’s it. They even created a separate world for her just to believe she’s a human because why not.
I just… why? Like what’s the point, what’s the point in any of this. She’s killed by the dad to stop the Black Bird Ai in some sad scene that’s only passed by the stupidity of the entire situation
Moving along the two brothers finally reveal their in game relationship to each other and begin reconnecting after so many years, showing genuine emotion other than disgust torwards another. Finally some of the familial bonds this show was sold on!
So 5 minutes later he dies. How you ask? Idk some ai shenanigans. Do you care? Does it matter? The concept of this show was torpedoed and is seemingly used just to fuck with the audience. Through the help of some girl, who’s more prominent than the mother but I don’t care enough to explain, the older brother revived the younger brother, also through ai shenanigans.
Let’s briefly talk about pretty much the only remaining family dynamic of the entire show at this point: Taichiro (the older brother) and Asuma (the younger brother). Taichiro use to be an outgoing child and was the light of his brother’s life before shutting himself off from the world as a trauma response. 5 years have passed since this relationship was a thing but it continued on in the virtual world. The issue I have with this is pretty much boiled down to a one note trait as soon as the truth is revealed with our shut in MC acting as the older brother who protects his brother at all cost and Asuma looking up to him literally calling him “the sun.” To me, this overwriting of the diametrically opposed family relationships by just having the characters blatantly substituting the game life for the last 5 years of irl hatred and disdain as if it never existed is… disappointing to say the least. Maybe my expectations were too high but I was coming into this expecting a succinct story that tackles the views of family regarding each other and how they actually act when set free with the backdrop of an escapist fantasy as a narrative tool. Reconciling these opposing beliefs naturally is integral to that story. Instead the escapist fantasy is the main story leaving little room to tackle the interesting narrative beats, which is just so depressing because all of the elements were in place to do something interesting and tackle deeper topics.
There’s also this guy named Leon who controls the Black Bird and wants to use it to tear down the walls between reality and digital (by having the ai send everyone to that torture world I guess) to be friends with this AI he made in game. This could be a neat parallel to Taichiro who is also chronically obsessed with the virtual world but Leon never really goes past evil kid who wants Ai friend.
Back to what we all care about: this stupid ai plot ruining every decent family related scene. The dad goes home and sees the MC and the one girl I mentioned before (his assistant), the dad obviously cares about the two sons but he still has the whole abused them and kinda was responsible for the sisters death thing. Anyway the whole interaction blows up with the dad telling Taichiro to get over his sister’s death, the dad getting punched, and Taichiro running away with the dad chasing him. Then the dad’s legs get cut off by some monster cat from the video game that’s now in the real world. See what I mean about this A plot ruining the whole family thing. The tension escalated and emotions exploded only for the scene to be cut (literally) by more ai shenanigans
If you’re confused on why a monster is there the entire world is “isekaied” into the virtual world cause… ai… shenanigans… ugh…
The whole gang gets back together. The mom’s schizophrenic and sees the dead daughter while the dad immediately starts physically abusing her saying when will everyone stop blaming him for her death. The mc stabs the dad to get him to stop gets punched and starts walking away sulking. But there’s 2 episodes left and an AI apocalypse to stop so the girl reveals they were all a big happy family in game and our MC freaks out. Now take a guess what happens next

1. The author writes a well written dialogue discussing the deep internalize traumas the family faces
2. Taichiro rightfully lashes at his father for just about everything in a heated emotional scene paired with visually stunning combat
3. Fucking. Ai.

The Black Bird shows up, interrupts the scene and conveniently describes the emotional state of Taichiro to the audience. Because of course it does. Why wouldn’t it? Why wouldn’t you constantly interrupt the entire core premise of this God forsaken show? Who. Cares.
Whatever. The AI kills that one girl and Leon reveals the dad killed that girlfriend from like 10 paragraphs ago. Taichiro actually believes the whole in game family wasn’t by coincidence and was a malicious manipulation tactic by the dad which is actual a neat direction, a complete obliteration of his escapism infiltrated by the person he hates. Too bad we got AI plot to worry about!
The dad turns himself into a virus to destroy the ai and the world. The dad then gives Taichiro a device that erases him and the Black Bird from the world because he knows Taichiro is the only one that would kill him (cause he sucks if that wasn’t obvious yet) but our main man doesn’t do it out of spite I guess (this is the last episode, so much for relationship building)
The dad sacrifices himself anyway and Taichiro cries cause deep down he cares about his father. Also the Black Bird Ai becomes the dead sister cause… well because… I don’t know, I’m tired boss something something ai shenanigans
Taichiro also runs into the girlfriend in her irl body in the new… virtual world… that was just destroyed… the girlfriend that.. was… killed? Look the show doesn’t even try to explain this one (this is probably the ai Taichiro from the shenanigans used to revive his brother which still doesn’t explain anything)
There’s an epilogue that takes place 8 years later and it ends with Taichiro glitching hinting that they still are all in a virtual world because

Fuck You

You want a concrete ending for our silly goofy what is realty sci-fi show? Aww that’s cute. Was it all a dream oohhhh we’re so mysterious. You just wasted hours of your life and you don’t even get a proper conclusion without any bullshit mwahaha aren’t we just so dashingly creative and brilliant. Gotta keep the audience on their toes, what zany plot twist will come up next hmmm. Oh we are just so clever.
It isn’t cute and it isn’t smart. Maybe I went into this show with wrong expectations, maybe everything I’ve seen including the Netflix description was just inaccurate. This show isn’t about a broken family coming together through an escapist lens it’s about the author stroking their own ego and creating the lamest most convoluted ai story ever. It’s hinted at by the dad that they were all infected with this goofy ass mind virus before the show even began and the family was manipulated into meeting (probably by the dead sister part of the ai or smth) which completely tears apart the idea that they naturally attract to each other because of how well their personalities complement despite being dysfunctional irl, the literal core idea of the family dynamic was a master plan by the ai. I just can’t.
You wanna know who did this same concept better: The Mitchells vs the fucking Machines because it actually, y’know, focused on the family and not this stupid Ai plot that constantly destroys anything of quality it comes across like the plague.
There were pieces in places to make this a compelling story that encapsulates many of the struggles of the modern world and it fails to do so on Every. Single. Level.

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Hey! I’m looking for a rp for one of these select fandoms (I’ll put a list down below) but before I do I’ll just do a bit of info. My name is STARR (all caps when spelt as a reference to the rapper MFDOOM lol) and I usually write about 1-3 paragraphs. I do love a deep and interesting plot, but my rps are usually focused around romance and our characters falling in love and stuff because I like that stuff. I also love making ocs and can play multiple characters at once, but I’m not that sure on playing canon characters. I have a kind of out of the box thinking when it comes to plots and stuff so sometimes basic plots bore me a lot. I love talking out of character and making friends with my rp partners. I love wholesome and cute romance plots with a bit of conflict from time to time, and I live deeply written ocs and try to flesh out mine as good as possible. I specialise in lgbtq pairings and rarely do straight or hetero relationships, but that doesn’t mean I’m unwilling. You may also play Canon Characters or OC if your OC pairs well with mine! The fandoms I have in mind are: Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure (this one especially!) Undertale (also really want to do this) Marvel (normal marvel or something Spider-Man based, I’m a huge fan of Spiderverse lol) DC Chainsaw Man Doki Doki Literature Club I also really like just normal non fandom rps so if you don’t see a fandom you like or just have a fun idea that you think would click with me, feel free to ask me! DMs are open!