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Hiya, sorry for the vague title, essentially I've been dating my girlfriend for a few months when suddenly she told me she's not sure whether she has romantic feelings for me.
This was devastating for me and I thought if she doesn't have feelings for me then we'll need to break up. After discussing with her it is a bit more nuanced - she's feeling emotionally disconnected generally including from her friends (though said she isn't depressed) so is hopeful maybe she can reconnect with those feelings, and also apparently this happens in every relationship.
I was shocked by that because she's been in several several year long relationships and said in every one she's lost romantic feelings or they've come and gone from the first year.
She's now not sure if she's ever been in love or is aromantic or if this is symptomatic of her disorganised / avoidant attachment style (difficult childhood relationship with mother etc.).
She's also never had the desire to plan a future with a partner and has always needed a lot of her own time and spaces. Her relationships with her friends and family seem to always have taken precedence and she sees these as her enduring relationships not romantic ones.
It may simply be our way of loving and being in a relationship are so blatantly different that we should just call it quits. But I care about her as a person and want to help her understand what love means for her and what she wants in a relationship.
Does anyone have any advice or thoughts about why someone would always lose romantic feelings after a few months? And how these could be resparked? Are there any questions you'd suggest I ask her to help her understand why she is this way? Is this just natural deviance in the way people experience love? Or maybe do you think she keeps expecting more post honeymoon period?
What for you is the difference between a friend and a romantic partner post the initial honeymoon / chase period? For my girlfriend this is the only time she has romantic feelings and then deep love never seems to form. Essentially please help us understand this and share any suggestions on how we can change this so she can form a long-term relationship with romantic feelings (not necessarily with me, I need to figure out for myself if I can handle this uncertainty but I want to help her understand herself). Thank you so much!

*I apologize in advance cause there is alot to unpack and i am on my cellphone trying to type this, everything I'm about to tell you is over a 4 year period *
I 25f dislike my cousin 30m and his wife 28f I ALWAYS have!
My cousin has always used our family because he would quit EVERY SINGLE JOB he's ever had either by walk outs no call no shows ect
A few years ago I took him his wife and 8mo son in because they got evicted out of there 8th place in 4 years, when I took them in me and my husband 31m told them they didn't have to pay rent they only had to clean up after them self's and save for a place. I hired them in my kitchen at a assisted living home and gave them my sons room since it was supposed to only be a few months and my son always ended up sleeping on the couch anyway.
After moving them in I noticed they lived a pretty sloppy life. They never cleaned there room it smelled horrible his wife never showered and he only took 1 BATH a week and there son got a bath maybe once every 2 weeks he was 8 months at this time. I found this disgusting and spoke to them about it many many times in a very polite way. I did most the cleaning even when I was gone for a weekend and came back to a sink full of a weekends worth of dishes I again adressed this as nicely as I could yet again.
Fast forward a few weeks i realized they wouldn't feed there son solids or even baby food and upon realizing this I realized they wasn't even giving him formula and what he lived off of was juice all day this was my final straw I BLEW up and threatened cps if they didn't start bathing him more and feeding him correctly I even told them to start taking him to get caught up on his shots and start taking him to his check ups at the doctors. I told them they smell and are making my house smell and I wasn't there mother and they needed to start cleaning more often.
This is when it truly went down hill My cousin started waking me up at 4am saying he couldn't make it to his shit at our work place and his wife couldn't work for him cause she had to take care of the baby since he was sick so I ended up working for them very often cause it was always one thing or another and since my husband was gone for work over the road for a month at a time I had to work extra shifts and take care of our 2 kids and the work load became alot Fast forward another few weeks and my cousin told me he found a place across the street from us I was relieved. Not long after he moved he no called no showed and quit but his wife stayed and worked a few more months with me while he sat at home doing nothing. I was fine with this because my kitchen wasn't getting as clean as it should and meals was always late for my residents when he worked(only one person would work in the kitchen a day)
I later go over to visit and when I walked into there apartment the smell tore at my nose and I hid a gag. walking threw the kitchen there was 24 pizza boxes on the nasty roach covered stove moldy dishes in the sink and the living room was TRASHED discarded food on the floor along with more than I could count dirty diapers dog poop smeared into the carpet trash bags laying all around spilling over onto the floor and the baby's bed had 4 chunky formula bottles in it and I'm pretty sure poop and pee covered blankets. Walking passed the bathroom the tub was filled with used toilet paper and the toilet had brown water in it. I was horrified for the baby and I DIDNT SAY ANYTHING I went home knowing I should have called them in but I didn't and I hate that I didn't I'm so ashamed I stayed quiet about this. Few more months later they called for an ambulance for my cousin cause he fainted and thank the gods above cops arrived on scene and seen the horrific mess of the house and a CPS report was made and they lost the kids (they had another at this point) his wife also ended up pregnant not Long after the birth of her second child that was also taken away at birth
Fast forward to alittle less than a year ago they got the kids back and started living with my mom...
My mom 45f is really strict and has a tendency to be very blunt and didn't let NOTHING slide, yet they still didn't shower regularly my cousin still only took baths and the kids teeth never got brushed and they got 1 bath a week.... My cousin decided he was going to start a truck driving carrer and went off to do the tests or whatever but ended up coming back early cause he "fell down the stairs" said he hurt his back really bad and they sent him home he seemed absolutely fine... my mom called him out on this and told him to show proof but he couldn't cause he didn't have any... he went back 3 weeks later to finish trucking school passes and comes back home to start looking for truck driving jobs that would hire a felon and his wife starts working at burgerking. My cousin found a trucking job and goes for the training comes back for his week break and him and my mom end up getting into an argument and she kicked him out but let his wife and kids stay. He goes back over the road for more training and is gone for 2 1/2 weeks but comes back (to my grandfathers) saying someone hit his parked truck and they sent him home till he gets a new truck while that one gets fixed.... BUT THEY NEVER CALL he acts clueless but we are sure he either quit or got fired Soon after he has a new trucking job where he gets to come home every weekend and when he's home he gets a hotel so his wife and kids can stay with him there Around this past mothers day he comes back for the weekend and we was all expecting them to throw his middle daughter a birthday party since it was a few days away but they never throw her one but keep talking about an extravagant birthday party for there older son where they go to a huge zoo 9 hours away from them pay everyone's way in and pay for everyone's hotel... So my mom throws the daughter a birthday party My cousins wife told her job her mother had a heart attack and couldn't come in for a few days which was a lie she was silently quitting cause she never went back to work My mom didn't say much besides she better find another one which she never did and by her probation she's supposed to have and keep one
When she was supposed to pay my mom rent she said she will ask my cousin to send her the money but to this he says "no I don't live there I shouldn't have to pay her bills" my mom says he should cause his wife and kids live there and as her husband he should pay her half of rent to this I absolutely agree but she ended up having to loan the money from her parents
A few weeks later my cousin is back and then my mother gets a message from a number she dosnt know with screenshots of my cousin saying he was in a huge semi wreck and his trainer has a broken back neck ect... but he isn't harmed he then sends a photo of "his" wrecked truck the person he was talking to Google searched the photo and found that it was from a news article from 2022 from a wreck that happened in texas.... yes he lied.... a fake story to hide the fact he was either fired or he quit AGAIN His wife knew about the lie but kept that a secret and when my mom found out she was MAD and decided to kick them all out but Before my cousins wife left my mom said "you can do so much better than that he's going to make you lose them kids again and this time for good, i will help you as much as i need to if you would just leave him and start doing better for yourself" she didn't listen and chose to go with her husband
They are now staying in a Cra** house with known dr*g users and that goes against there probation
All while this is going on they get over 500$usa a month in tanif and over 1000$usa in food stamps while my cousin was making 2000 every two weeks and his wife making 500$ every two weeks which is fraud yet they have nothing to show for it cause they are horrible with money
My mom called there probation officer And called them in for fraud and we are just now waiting to see what happens next because they are being audited and the probation officer said they are going to look into everything because what she told him dosnt sound good at all
I on the other hand made a huge post on facebook exposing all this plus more to all our family shaming all of us for catering to them and bailing them out of every issue they got themselves into So AITA for exposing them

Hi There! New to Reddit. This is the first time I have come to look for outside thoughts on anything in our 8+ year relationship, so it feels kind of weird coming to the internet. I'd appreciate any insight though.
Some background info:

• I have hard time trying to connect my brain to my thoughts and communicate, especially when I'm stressed or confronted. My husband is usually quite patient with me, which I greatly appreciate. He, however, is very logical. He is very quick to point out any holes or better examples to outweigh bad/emotional examples, regardless of the topic. He doesn't see why he should agree/give into an argument if the basis of it was emotional. I generally agree that even in emotional instances, being logical is in the end, the better option in the long-run.
• The basis of our disagreement comes down to me being uncomfortable with the idea, despite it not being logical and him not understanding why.
• I am not looking for political discourse here. I also am not interested in people critiquing me or my husband's character. I'm just looking for some outside help on how to better formulate my thoughts, or some insight on how I may look at his perspective better.
• My husband is very gun-ho and knows a lot of ins-and-outs. He genuinely enjoys the mechanics of how they work. I enjoy shooting them, but am not interested in anything more. We are both great shots and handle our guns safely.
• We keep all of our guns upstairs in our bedroom safe. My office is downstairs, right next to our front door. With our relatively small home layout, it isn't really reasonable/realistic for me to run all the way upstairs to get something if a situation were to happen.

Situation:
Although we live in a low-crime area, there has been an uptick of theft and other crime in our neighborhood. There's been some instances that make us worry about a possible home invasion.
My husband wants me to keep a loaded gun (a 9mm or another of my choice) by me at my desk since I work from home. He works out of the house and long hours. I am alone and we both want to be safe, but I don't want to keep a loaded gun on my desk. I am, however, okay with keeping it in my desk with a magazine close by.
We don't have any children in the house or people over often, so no other hands for the guns to reach. We do, however, have a Belgian Malinois mix who is naturally very protective and wary of people in the house.
My Points & Concerns:

• Keeping a gun loaded always comes with risks. Although it takes a lot of the chances of it happening are low, there is always still a chance of some type of accidental discharge. I understand that this realistically won't happen, especially if the gun just sits on my desk or in a drawer. However, I am still nervous about it and can't figure out why exactly this bothers me.
• The NRA's website also specifically states that you should always keep the gun unloaded when not in use. See: https://gunsafetyrules.nra.org/
• In the small chance that something does happen, I'm more comfortable loading the magazine in and cocking the gun. Although it takes more time than having it already loaded, my dog would give me enough time to take the extra second to load it up.
• If someone were to come in, I would imagine that my adrenaline would be running and I would be panicking. I'd hate to grab the gun in the moment wrong. Granted, I haven't ever done that before and have shot guns many times. I don't picture this happening, but it still is a risk leaving the gun loaded.
• Since our discussion, I can't think of a good example or evidence as to why having a loaded gun isn't safe when I know how to handle it and the rate of an accidental discharge being so low with the kind of guns we have. The only evidence I can seem to find is just anecdotal evidence and their situations don't match ours close enough to be considered evidence.

Husbands Points & Concerns:

• The chance of a accidental discharge/misfire is so low with the amount of maintenance he does to the gun. He's offered/shown me how to make it a 2 fire system instead of a 1 fire system, which helps reduce further the chance of the gun going off. (I don't quite remember it all the way, so I hope I didn't get that backwards.) He also thinks that this isn't actually going to happen ever, especially if the gun just sits at my desk or in a drawer and I never touch it (which is fair).
• If someone we're to come in, they most likely would be faster and stronger than me. I'm rather short and slow. There wouldn't be any time to waste loading the gun. It is the fastest and most efficient to have the gun loaded already in this scenario, especially if (heaven forbid) our dog is hurt/shot.
• There isn't strong enough, or a good quantity of evidence to suggest that accidental fires are higher than our local crime rate for home invasions. If anything, neither of us we're able to find any statistics/data on accidental discharges.
• At the end of the day, he'd rather me alive and in one piece than me being uncomfortable with a loaded gun by my side that in all likelihood, I'll never have to use.
• He doesn't understand/agree why I'd prioritize my feelings over not keeping the gun loaded since it's more efficient in this situation.

Final Notes:
Part of our debate came down to him being frustrated that I wasn't able to provide a realistic scenario or explain why I am uncomfortable, and wasn't looking at all of the evidence he presented (which I honestly can't think of any ways to refute what he put on the table). I'm frustrated because at the end of the day to me, we both want me to be safe. And since I'll be the one handling the situation, I should do what is more comfortable to me, which is to leave it unloaded, even though it isn't as efficient.
Please note that this post is laid out better than our discourse was. It was mainly me saying that it isn't safe to leave a loaded gun and not being able to expand on it much, then my husband immediately offering a very solid counter and me not able to think of a reason why that would not work, then spending a few quiet minutes trying to come up with a different idea/solution/explanation to my feelings or different logical thoughts. I also think some of this stems from his worry that he isn't home a lot and wants to make sure I'm safe when he's not here.
Can you all maybe help give me ideas on exactly why this is uncomfortable? Am I missing something? Any of you with really logical husbands, how have you learned to communicate better? Or perhaps you males with your male brain, can you explain to me what you'd like if you were in my husband's shoes? I really love my husband and want to talk with him again about this and maybe come up with a better solution.
Also if anyone has any solid numbers for either side, I'd love to see this and share. Thanks for reading my long rant!

Hi!
Around 8 years ago when my son was 1 I was unfortunately not able to fully support him financially for a period of approx 12 months. I have always been there for my son, and whilst I was able to take him out for the odd treat Im ashamed that for his first year of his life he received very little financially from me. Thankfully I found myself employment and have supported him financially for the last 7 years through Child Maintenance Services. CMS are aware of the missed payments and have added this debt on to what I owe in outstanding payments. I am obviously fine with this, they were missed, they're owed. No issue with that at all.
I pay through direct pay with CMS which means they do an annual review of my earnings, having access to my P60 each year and they calculate the amount that payments will be to my ex partner until my next annual review. I make them aware of bonuses etc and this is also factored in my payment. Included in this payment is an installment to paying off the outstanding child maintenance (~£1200). I have no input towards the figure that CMS provide to me. If my sallery goes up, so does my payment - absolutely fine.
My ex partner has now filed with a small claims court saying she wants the debt repaid in full. I would love nothing more than to pay her it in full, unfortunately I am not in the position to pay it in full. The instalments that the CMS have provided are accurate in reflecting what I can afford to pay each month in regards to paying back the debt. We had the mediation call yesterday where I tried to explain this the best I could - obviously mediation was unsuccessful and now I'm told it will have to go before a judge. I am a bit perplexed as to how this can happen when I am paying back the outstanding monies at a rate that has been laid out by CMS through a service that I pay for to directly try and avoid things like this happening. Again - I have no problem with paying this money back, I am more than happy to pay it back but paying it back in a lump sum or in installments higher than what I currently pay will leave me in great financial difficulty. I spoke with CMS about this and they agreed that they were also unsure as to how this could go before a judge. The agent stating 'anything we say trumps what she says' (unsure as to how true this is TBF). I suppose my question is, could it get dismissed by a judge? Could it be settled without us having to attend court?
I don't know if it's worth noting, but my ex partner tried something similar to this previously about 2 years ago. She claimed that I was paying the incorrect amount in child support in relation to my wage. Again I tried to explain that this payment is literally worked out for me, but it still ended up in front of a judge. In a hearing that she did not attend in person or bother to attend even by video link the judge very quickly ruled in my favour when I presented my evidence.
I've had to take unpaid leave from work yesterday for the mediation call and fear I will have to do the same again for who knows how many upcoming dates, as was the case the last time she did this. This ordeal, as with the last one is leaving me losing money and really taking it's toll on my mental health. If there is any advice anybody could offer me I would be extremely grateful. Thanks for your time
EDIT: I'm in North Wales she is in England.

My head hurts so bare with me. I get this feeling before going to sleep that I feel like I’m not going to sleep well and as if my brain is going half asleep and the other half is awake. I get extremely tired so there isn’t anything I can do to avoid just going to sleep and wishing for the best.
I’ve woken up but my head feels extremely heavy and there’s a headache. It feels like my brain is trying to force me to go to sleep but it feels wrong. If I move my head down, I’m hit with dizziness. Does anyone relate? The feeling is unfamiliar and scary each time it happens but it’s worse right now. I’m on my period and it’s been building up to this for a couple weeks. I feel like it’s hormonal. I’ve read this back and i know it hardly makes sense but I can’t figure out how to format or explain it correctly right now.

I’m 20 years old and I’ve been working at my local Hannaford for the past 3 1/2 years since November 2020. I’ve always been a hard worker and tried my best, I worked my way up from a bagger to a service leader and one of the main evening closers. The biggest issues I’ve ever had with Hannaford was showing up 10 minutes late consistently for an extended period of time. And just today they used me as a scapegoat.
Last Friday I was at work and the Assistant Customer Service manger (ACSM) wanted me to take over for him because his shift was over. And he couldn’t figure out how to run a check through for a customer. Which is weird because he’s been there longer then me (He’s only recently ACSM, he was a Service Leader before). So I took over for him and tried to help the customer, who wanted their check turned into cash.
When I ran the check through as a personal check (since it was done in writing, not print) and printed the customers info on the check it didn’t properly go through. I was confused, tried again, didn’t work. So I called the assistant store manager (ASM) down. We figured out that the check was actually a paycheck (which are almost always done in print, so I accidentally rang it through wrong) and tried to run it as one. Still didn’t work. So we called the off-duty customer service manger(CSM), who called someone else to figure out what to do. Since this paycheck was over 500 dollars. Eventually the CSM told the ASM and I to give to customer their money and keep the check. I did that and we were done, or so I thought.
Today I was called to the CSM’s office for a chat. I was given three options to chose right then and there; resign immediately, transfer to a different department, or go on a probationary period where if anything like this happens again I will be terminated immediately. I chose option three.
The reason for this being that I had run through a paycheck that was written instead of being printed. And since it was written, it wasn’t able to be accepted by Hannaford, so they would have lost over 500 dollars.
Now I would understand why they did this, if it wasn’t for the fact that the customer brought in a printed version of that check so Hannaford could claim their money the next day. And the fact that three managers had told me to accept it, and that they hadn’t noticed the issue either.
I’d been having a really bad day due to some problems with my auto insurance (me being a forgetful dumbass) and I wasn’t as focused as I could have been, so the fact I shouldn’t accept this check completely slipped by me. Which I understand, that was my bad. But THREE other managers missed the same fucking thing. But I’m the only one punished for it (Apparently they had a “talk” with the ACSM, bullshite). And they didn’t even lose any money! They just tried to fire me to teach a freaking lesson. And accepted no responsibility for literally telling me to hand over the money.
And do you know what pisses me off even more? The CSM told me to ask a manager for help in the future! I did! I got no help from two managers!! I’ve decided that no matter what, I’m searching for a new job. If they can do this to me when I’ve been basically taking care of most of the entire nightly front end duties, then I don’t want anything to do with them. I’ve been putting off leaving for over a year because I was used to Hannaford and I had friends there. Well now I’m pissed off and my friends left too due to their own poor treatment. I need to leave.
Anyway that’s my rant, just needed to get that off my chest.

I don’t even really know where to begin.
I (28F) am being sexually harassed by my manager at work. He’s been increasingly more explicit after I’ve politely rejected his propositions on multiple occasions. Saturday, I reported him after I got this text at 12:30 am:
“Are you a guitar? Because I'd like to grab you by the neck and play with you, just to listen to the sounds you make”
I feel so disgusting and disrespected. Work has been uncomfortable to say the least, he pressed me as to why I “didn’t communicate with him” when I literally did… multiple times…
Next up: I’ve been seeing someone for about a year and a half now, we’ve been friends since middle school, and nothing is “official”. When this started it was definitely a FWB situation because we weren’t looking for relationships but, it’s grown in to much more. We’re really great for each other and have a very healthy connection. Sunday, I decided ‘why not be vulnerable’… asked him why we’re not together… haven’t heard from him since. So, that’s crushing.
Monday, I get my period which is a fucking blood bath and I’m crying and sleeping on and off for half the day. I decided to go to Target before I head over to my friend’s house to sit by the pool and on my way back I’m stuck in standstill traffic like, not moving for 15 minutes.
I got off the highway, drove through the city, and got back on at the next exit where I see a horrific accident below the overpass. A tractor trailer with a chunk of metal stuck in the front driver’s side bumper, debris everywhere, first responders, etc. I was on the phone with my friend explaining the scene saying “I don’t see a crashed car but there’s no way it was towed already so I don’t know what’s in that bumper” (not thinking of any other possible scenario at this point).
A few hours later, my friend gets a call from her fiancé. He tells us it was our friend who was in the accident. Our friend was hit on his motorcycle and dragged in the bumper of the tractor trailer. I saw the scene and now I can’t stop picturing it. My friend is somehow still alive and woke up today after having his body literally put back together.
It’s 2 am here and my mind is racing. I had therapy earlier and it was helpful but, fuck I’m so overwhelmed with so many different emotions.

I (15m, 14m at time of this story) was really scared coming out to my parents as bisexual. I had been questioning my sexuality seriously for the past year at this point though I was unknowingly questioning since I was 11. Their was a brief period of time where I thought I was gay then thought I was straight again. I eventually settled on bisexual after learning of it. So I had my Sexuality figured out which felt really good. But the thought of coming out to my parents terrified me. Which my parents are more liberal leaning than conservative and they had said in the past that they would support me no matter what, yet still I was terrified. So a month or two passes with me on multiple occasions working up the courage to come out then chickening out. So October rolls around and I'm in the car with my mom while my dad is on a work trip. It was my day off from school and we were driving home from the store so my mom is asking how i like highschool, am I making freinds, what are my grades. Normal stuff. Then out of nowhere she asks do you have a crush on anybody, followed up on "do you like boys at your school? Or girls? Or both?" I'm freaking out wondering how I'm going to explain myself and my sexuality and I just blurt out "Both". And my mom almost immediately says "Cool, Whats his or her name?". I of course said nobody. And the rest of the car ride was her trying to get a description or name of someone I thought was cute. All that work up and she acted like she already knew. Since then she's asked more about crushes and such. Nothing has changed at all between us since I came out. I'm not a religious guy but thank gods for my awesome parents.

Hello guys, I am in urgent need of a query!
I am on restoration status in Canada means my work permit has expired in Jan 22, 2024 and i applied for its extension which got refused on april 24, 2024. I have 90 days of restoration period (that means apply for visitor visa or study visa or get PR). My express entry(EE) for Canada PR is 495 and current draws for EE is 522. I might get PR by this year.
My question is I am getting a free trip to Iceland as my close friends are going in August 2024 and I want to go but the VFS global said i cannot get Schengen visa as my status is expired and i need valid status of atleast 3 months old in order to apply for visa. Also one of the guy in VFS said again u might get visa even if u apply as it totally depends on immigration officer as he said he has seen people getting visa who has submitted no supporting documents and getting visa refused for those people who has submitted all supporting documents with all validity and still got rejected.
In this situation what shall i do? 1 thing is that if i go back to India now in July i can apply for Schengen visa and get it but i wanna stay here and figure out my PR and if not till AUGUST then wanna go to Iceland but I am trying not to go back to India as my family is a bit emotional and might not let me go to Europe or come back to Canada.
any HELP or ideas would be really helpful to me guys. thanks in advance for your time and efforts.

hi all, I'm currently a college student in Virginia trying to find a job since the school year ended, and it's been rough. I have no money coming in and my bank account officially went into the negative. I'm hoping to get hired soon, but it's a slow-going process. it's been extremely rough, as I'm sure everyone understands, but this is honestly really embarrassing. like how did it get to this point? (I mean I know how... not living at home anymore and trying to support myself). any help is appreciated. I need about a couple hundred dollars for expenses, I have payments/bills/rent and just other things I need money for (gas, etc).
I'm linking my gofundme and I also accept paypal, cashapp, and venmo.
more info:
unfortunately, I don't have much support. most of my friends are all broke and can't help me either. I'm also not on speaking terms with my parents, or any other extended family for that matter(unfortunately me being queer would probably get in the way of any help from extended family, as they're all on the vast opposite side of the political spectrum as me i.e. not accepting of who I am)
I'm really not sure what to do and I'm desperate. I've shared this on my socials, and I know facebook is a big one but I currently don't have facebook(in the process of creating a page though and looking for local support groups). I also am starting to try to sell old items, mainly clothes. I even started doing those surveys for pennies, and I plan on trying to find all my loose change to take to the local coinstar within the next couple of days(except maybe some cash I hopefully find for some gas, for driving to a new job, hopefully), and just trying to think of anything else I could do.
just if anyone can donate, it would help so much. while I have other bigger payments (i.e. student loans), I can deal with that later. I just need a little bit to tide me over until I start working again and can figure the rest (of everything) out.
even if you can't donate, we're all struggling right now it seems like, so any tips or tricks or advice, even just some kind words, would also be greatly appreciated. I'm so stressed out and depressed right now. I really just don't know what's gonna happen and yeah. I don't know. I'm scared. adulting is so new and unknown and everything is scary.
I’m also willing to discuss anything more or add anything that needs clarification. Thank you!

He has written two or three novels from the perspective of the proletariat, but they all ended up being incomplete.
Below are his views on North Korea.
Some things to say:
To be honest, there is relatively little information from that period of North Korean history, and most of the information comes from the official "orthodox history" of North Korea. These records are highly subjective, almost turning the party history into a personal biography of Kim Il-sung, as if the whole world revolved around him, with little mention of others.
In the records, the flattery of Kim Il-sung by North Korean official historians is so excessive that it makes the author feel nauseous just reading them. For example, in the officially revised biography of Kim Il-sung, the main force liberating Korea is depicted as the Korean People's Revolutionary Army. Despite being only a major at the time, Kim Il-sung supposedly gave orders to the entire Korean People's Revolutionary Army to liberate the country. After these orders, the Korean army allegedly fought its way across the river, reaching Hoeryong, and the coastal landing troops advanced towards Chongjin and Rajin. However, I’m not sure whether the Anti-Japanese Allied Forces' navy could sustain such a large landing operation.
In this parallel world, during the Korean Liberation War led by General Kim, the text uses terms like "annihilation battle" and "fatal blow to the Kwantung Army". The Korean army supposedly liberated areas from Hamhung to Pyongyang to Haeju on their own, and the Japanese invaders surrendered after just a week of General Kim's counteroffensive. The crowds cheered for General Kim and overthrew the Japanese invaders. As for the role of the Soviet and Allied forces, it seems they don't exist in that parallel world, as they are not mentioned in the book.
Overall, these North Korean documents one-sidedly criticize other factions, calling them "American imperialist lackeys" and excessively smearing them. In "A Brief History of the Workers' Party of Korea," Pak Hon-yong is directly called "an American imperialist-employed spy." Therefore, the author is not very clear about their true historical roles.
Even the portrayal of Kim Il-sung himself varies across different books, leading to confusion. For example, the mainstream view is that Kim Il-sung first appeared publicly in Korea in October 1945, but in the book "Revolutionary History of the Great Leader Kim Sung Comrade" compiled by the Party History Research Institute of the Workers' Party of Korea, the time is moved up to September. In that version, General Kim inspected the East Pyongyang Power Plant (so this chapter adopts that record, allowing the protagonist to meet the General). During this inspection, General Kim supposedly led everyone in restoring and developing the nation's power and industry. Afterwards, he supposedly went to the Pyongyang Grain Processing Plant to lead the revolutionary production of grain...until the day before the founding of the party, he was still at the Jangchon Steel Plant, teaching workers about the prospects of steel production and taking care of their lives.
He is depicted as a versatile genius.
Frankly, I don’t know why, after returning to the country, General Kim, who initially served as the deputy commander of the Pyongyang garrison, often liked to visit fields outside his expertise. It is unclear which visits were real and which were fabricated.
In summary, the information in this book is roughly a mix of North Korean official history, some unofficial history, other domestic and foreign historical materials, and "defector" memoirs (such as "Memoirs of Hwang Jang-yop"). The authenticity of these materials is hard to discern, so if there are any inaccuracies, please forgive me.
Thank you for your support!
Additionally, here is a synopsis of this book:
"There are too many suns on the peninsula, too dazzling. This is not good. One sun in the natural world is enough. So I’ll play the role of Hou Yi, taking on the role of the moon." — Zheng Yan Yue
This is not a very clichéd story. The protagonist will play a mysterious role as a "Worker’s Party member" on the political stage of the peninsula, encountering companions with different ideologies, defeating strong enemies together, finding lost relatives from the (southern part of the peninsula) — and gradually changing the face of the "Cold War."

The global military satellite market size reached USD 12.7 billion in 2020. The market value is predicted to increase from USD 13.6 billion in 2021 to USD 22.0 billion by 2028 at a CAGR of 7.10% over 2021-2028. The market is gaining traction backed by growing government investments in the military & defense sector to strengthen surveillance capabilities, states Fortune Business Insights™ in its report titled “Military Satellite Market, 2021-2028”.
A military satellite facilitates military communication, navigation, and intelligence gathering. The data collected through these satellites are utilized for various military purposes. For example, the intelligence gathered can be used to provide early warnings related to movements. The surveillance information is generally transmitted to the forces through electronic and signal interference. New technologies are constantly being launched in the market. For example, in October 2021, France had launched a military communication satellite that would allow the country’s defense forces to communicate more smoothly and reliably.
~List of Key Players Present in the Market~

• Airbus (Netherlands)
• BALL CORPORATION (U.S.)
• Boeing (U.S.)
• IAI (Israel)
• ISRO (India)
• L3Harris Technologies, Inc. (U.S.)
• Lockheed Martin Corporation (U.S.)
• Northrop Grumman (U.S.)
• ST Engineering (Singapore)
• Thales Group (France)
• Viasat, Inc. (U.S.)

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~Market Segments~
Based on orbit type, the market is classified into LEO, MEO, and GEO.
On the basis of offering, the market is divided into launch services, satellite manufacturing, and operational services.
By type, the market is segmented into small satellite, medium satellite, heavy satellite, and nano-micro satellite.
In terms of application, the market is broken down into communication, navigation, and intelligence, surveillance, and reconnaissance (ISR).
By component, the market is split into payload, structures, electric power system, propulsion system, instrument control unit, communication system, thermal control subsystem, and others.
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~Drivers & Restraints~
Rising Military & Defense Investments and Advancing Satellite Technology to Boost Growth
Military satellite demand is on the rise across the world due to rising concerns around terrorism, political unrest, and cross border conflicts. Resulting security concerns are leading to the need for advanced communication and surveillance equipment among defense bodies. Back in November 2019, the U.S. Defense Department inked a USD 731.8 million contract with General Dynamics Corporation for accelerating the development of MUOS (Mobile User, Objective System), a next-gen military satellite.
As the market demand rises, manufacturers are looking to introduced advanced technologies such as AI into satellites, which can help analyze and sort capture images. Such factors will augment military satellite market growth during the forecast period.
However, issues related to cyber threats and strict government norms could affect the market dynamics to some extent.
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~Regional Insights~
North America to Dominate led by Increasing Federal Funding
North America garnered more than USD 4.88 billion in the global military satellite market share in 2020 and will witness tremendous growth in the forthcoming years. The growth is attributable to the rising number of satellite launches in the region. Increasing contracts between the U.S. Defense Department and space agencies will strengthen the regional outlook.
Europe will exhibit substantial growth over 2021-2028 led by rising investments from spaces agencies across the U.K., France, Russia, and other nations. Presence of major players such as Thales Group, Airbus, and others makes the region a major market for military satellites.
The market in Asia Pacific will grow substantially owing to increasing government expenditure in aerospace and defense technologies.
~Competitive Landscape~
Contracts Initiated by Prime Companies to Endorse Market Growth
The dominating players in the market incessantly root for operative strategies to reinforce their brand value as well as promote the global market growth of the product with encountering the least imaginable problems. One such proficient tactic is procuring competitive companies and further safeguarding a profit for both the involved companies.
~Industry Development~
June 2021 – Thales Alenia Space and Telespazio inked a contract with the Italian Defense Ministry to develop a new military satellite SICRAL 3.

Beat Freak SEB had many Mauro Farina tracks, but after Avex took over the series, it was all strictly AbeatC & Time Records. I find Mauro Farina a very innovative figure in the evolution of Eurobeat, but where was his material being released in that period between Avex SEB Vol. 10 & the release of Eurobeat Flash?

Been playing the remake recently (pretty slowly, granted; I'm just now to chapter 2) but I've been kinda disappointed in how much dialogue has been changed from the original. The game is pretty much an upgrade from the original in every single way, but I feel that it lost a lot of its humor and charm from the first one (Ms. Mouz not getting called a "Floozy" and the goomba interaction being chief offenders).
I'm just curious if anyone was HAPPY about the dialogue changes? I'm trying to figure out who these changes were even FOR and I'm coming up blank. I consider myself a fairly politically correct person, and yeah I guess some of the dialogue is a TINY bit edgy for a kids game, but this game legitimately has me thinking "Damn, maybe we HAVE gone too far".

This is a catalog of known Daedra Lords, the ones whose nymics were stripped from or not recorded in the codex of Xarxes by judgment of stealth or habit or base instinct. And they had hereupon been made wanderers unto their own kind, without law or limit to guide them, and they became unchecked sums that unleashed vermin and void mockery. This is why they are not our ancestors.
CHAPTER 1: THE MISGUIDED STUDENTS
In times just before the Akatosh had declared the time of Dawning. Lorkhan's presence would first become apparent to digitals of Oblivion, whose cross-woven and restitched nymics had become most familiar with the un-shapes of the void, so Lorkhan was free to influence them as a comrade and hide no essential portion of his nature. Therefore Lorkhan took for himself students from their cohort, and sought to corrupt their ways into the path of the non-essential center and make them into spirits of rupturing, hunger, mutation or decay.
Lorkhan's disciples were six in sum and called Boethiah, Molag Bal, Sanguine, Clavicus Vile, Hircine and Mehrunes Dagon. These spirits learned their ways ways of unseen fire, treachery, slovenry, deceit and savagery under the tutelage of Lorkhan like so:
It was Boethiah who learned from Lorkhan's movements and sword-styles such that it would be her domain to be the strider of non-nymic and the attempt of adaptations into the non-digital, this is why he is a spirit of deceit.
It was Molag Bal who by a bare urge, saw into the underskin of Lorkhan's image, and by a micro glimpse saw the inner machinations of his black and hungry heart. Molag Bal saw the innate aspect of the heart as his own station, and would make it his mission to subjugate the wheels to the effect of total annihilation.
It was Sanguine who adopted attitudes of the preeminence of urge before all manners and matters of Motivation. It is such that he became a spirit of unchecked humors to the effect that he is the image of razor-fine decadence. It goes without saying that Lorkhan is his most Jubilant Inspiration.
It was Clavicus Vile that became a spirit of the wicked oath and bitter consequence. Lorkhan taught Clavicus Vile to ways of swindling by offering to him corruptions of cosmic exchange. Sages say that Clavicus Vile intends to use abuses of exchange and cyclical motion in order to gain imperishable dominion over the cosmic cycle.
It was Hircine, The Goat of Chase, and Deer of Sport. Lorkhan taught him the urges of savage murder, greed, thrill and hungers as the onus of the vengeance of living breath.
The case of the Mehrunes Dagon is a peculiar one. As he is the only one of the students of Lorkhan to have enjoyed the prosperity of a prior nature as a God of Harvests and Evening Records. The Sun-Runner Digitals say that this spirit was imbued with a bio-mechanical nature through a fusion of nymic razors. An act usually credited to the Errant Craftsmaiden, Merid-Nunda. It is said that the Mehrunes Dagon learned his stride of ambition from the proud musings of Lorkhan, and that to this day the Mehrunes seeks to free his cherished master from the bowels of Nirn.
CHAPTER 2: THE TRIBE OF NON-DIGITALS
Auri-El, in his divine grace, wanted to make Nirn as hospitable as possible for the passing of souls upon it, for he knew that mortal existences were tragic. It was therefore that Auri-El saw it proper to attempt to draw out some of the void beasts in an effort to soothe the aches of mortal existence. As a method of imprisonment Auri-El commanded Trinimac construct the moons, out of the hollowed skins of Lorkhan. He set them into their trajectories so that they would gather up all of void beasts that Auri-El would draw out(an act that the Khajiit call "The Lunar Lattice").
The Next Daedra are of an especially taboo nature, due them having been among the void beasts that Auri-El attempted to draw from the Nirn. These spirits are corrosive and volatile and have been known to proliferate their destruction across the whole Aurbis. These spirits are three in sum: Namira, Sheogorath, Nocturnal
Namira is Arch-Villainess of The Universe, Death-Queen and Limbo Matriarch. A spirit of unbounded non-digital. She was among the first of the spirits drawn out of the impure world, and one of only two to be drawn directly out from the Heart of Lorkhan. As such she remains central to the downfall of all reality. Her hunger is a matter of total darkness, all that has been mangled and consumed by her is lost and cannot even be refitted with a suitable nymic.
Sheogorath is a two-tone mad tyrant, he fancies himself another name in old forms typically unknown or unseen. His nature as a non-digital is as unique and multivariate as the effervescence of every folding of the Aether. But his modes are contradictory and his thoughtform is riddled with droning nonsense that never settles to coherent truth. It is said that when Auri-El drew him up out of the Heart of Lorkhan, he was of another form, one of such unapologetic mockery that he was actually immediately sealed within the moons, but its rhythms and cascading struck dissonance with his own and he became what we see now, an escapee of asylum.
The Nocturnal Spirit has evaded all attempts at census therefore, it lacks any recorded nymic. Therefore for simplicity she shall be called "Nocturnal." Records of this spirit are neglible at best, leaving only Scant traces of Absences, and Preeminence of Shadows. Great thefts of whole swaths of creatia from the surface world are often to the credit of her and her cohort. Digitals that have scoured the surface worlds for signs of her presence often return to the surprise that their nymics have been swapped by sleight of hand, an issue which has come to cause great conflict among houses. Auri-El was able to track her possipoints by constructing the crystal tower, and as such was able to draw her out of the earth with great ease. however, her stealth still got the better of him and she remains on the prowl. Scribes say that this is why the moons appear most often at night.
CHAPTER 3: THE ERRANT CRAFTSMEN
In times just after the Dawning it came to the matter of decision for the Auriel-Trinimac who would become the eight members of the eidetic lens. The Gods who would be remembered evermore as the root-infolding and the foundation of all proper hosts. Auri-El in his divine grace sought to include only the finest geniuses, artisans, logicians and philosophers in this folding. So that whatever world might need to be built for the sake of ever-continued knowledge, would be of stout and strident nymic.
These next Daedra Lords are among those who had been rejected by Auri-El as members of the Eidetic Lens. For they were unable to hide, or laid bare deceitful natures that wafted the selfsame destruction that Lorkhan would soon bring upon them. They are four in sum, and are called: Vaermina, Hermaeus Mora, Merid-Nunda, Mephala.
Vaermina is Known as Prince of the Umbrian Moment and Foul Omen. Her station is as a fascination with the macabre and the amplifications of suffering. Her architecture is always a device for the sinister and the irreconcilably traumatic. Auri-El first encountered this spirit in the twilight hour of the eidetic lens, where she attempted to sneak under the guise of a friendlier spirit. Auri-El slew this one by way of the Triumvirate, and now she is but a simple shade of dissent and a sleep devil.
Merid-Nunda is more commonly referred to as Meridia in this day and age. However, her station remains just the same, a traitorous glimmer-witch. It was Auri-El's intention to offer this one a nymic within the Eidetic Lens, so that she might breathe life ever-after into the worlds possible. But Merid-Nunda rejected Auri-El's Arkayn politic and preferred to cavort in her boundless spectral anomalies. An issue which has brought forth a monster or two in the Aurbis.
Hermaeus Mora was explicitly constructed by Auri-El as a candidate for the scribe of the Eidetic Lens. However, it became apparent that, by no fault of his own, his proclivity for the maintenance of moment coincided too readily with the station of Auri-El. And in wanting no dispute of equivalence Auri-El shunned him away. Since then Hermaeus Mora had set his gaze firmly upon the shriven fragments of knowledge which bubble up out of chaos. A fixation which has corrupted him completely.
Mephala's history is inconclusive, incomplete and incoherent. Her station has evaded all record. But what is known of her is that she was and still is a great architect, although her machinations are beyond scope, and decidedly convoluted. Auri-El once considered enlisting her as a member of the Eidetic Lens, but she rejected such petitions on the grounds that she preferred her preeminent menagerie be kept a secret only the misfortunate would bear.
CHAPTER 4: MISCELLANAEUM MALEFICUM HAERETICUM
These Daedra Lords are from miscellaneous periods along the possipoints of the Arenaead and as such fill a unique category of spirits whose pasts are checkered and natures are blasphemous. These daedra lords are three in sum: Azura, Peryite and Malacath
Azura, Prince of The In-between Hour, Queen of the Not-Quite, Lord of The Liminal. Signals of this spirit are questionable in nature, and always bent on deception. Azura has taken upon many roles of Auri-El in his absence as of late. An issue which has caused him much displeasure. The Khajiit of the Elswhere have credited this spirit with mythic roles belonging to Auri-El, and even go so far as to suppose her overwhelming sympathy for the creature.
Peryite was once A Faithful and Obedient Servant of Auri-El as The Barrier of Oblivion, The Bastion-Between, Solar Regulator and The Gate Aggregate. Now he serves a multitude of splintered and fragmented roles, however, still retaining the characterstic of cycle-collection. He was initially constructed by the Errant Craftsmaiden Merid-Nunda, whose incomplete weavings, while strong could not always withstand the test of all fiberings. It is as such that the Taskmaster's great breadth could not withstand the great tides of all Oblivion for eternity and so he is shattered. His station only a faint remembrance of forgotten importance. He is now a petty God of The Infirm and The Forlorn Watcher.
It Is said that when the Nirn was created, The Eidetic Lens set themselves into the world like eight precious gemstones. Such that their exuberance would shine through us and guide us as resplendent teachers. Trinimac was no different, some great warriors of Truth and Heroism were able to wear the Mantle of Tri-Nymic without effort. These heroes would be mythically indistinguishable from the God himself. Some say Malacath, Daedra of The Forlorn Oath was born from the bloody death of one of these heroes, during a fateful battle with the prince of treachery.

Hey everyone, sorry for asking a TMI question but I was just wondering if this was normal or has happened to anyone else. So i started my prep around 4:30, went to the bathroom around 13 times, and then started feeling super sick so went to lay in my bed to rest better cause I wasn’t having anymore urgings to go to the toilet. I haven’t gone in a couple of hours now but recently I’ve been getting the urge to go but then once I stand up, the urge is gone. Figured it was a false alarm and then 30 mins went by and got the urge again so I go to the toilet and sit for a bit but nothing comes out and the urge leaves. Is that normal? Is it just gas or something? I’m absolutely terrified of passing gas in my bed in case it’s an unwelcome surprise 🤣 I just don’t want to continue getting out of bed every 30 mins for false alarms because I am exhausted and I also still don’t feel super well so moving at all is its own struggle
More info: I am doing SuPrep so I drank my 16 oz prep around 4:30 and then 32 oz of water the following hour. I was slowly drinking water and sprite during cleanout up until I got sick which was around 7ish. It lasted until around 9 and I didn’t really drink anything during that time period because I was afraid of not being able to keep it down. I have had a few sips of water since then but not much. I haven’t eaten anything solid since yesterday probably around noon.
Edit: Forgot to add, i tried looking up on google and they don’t really give clear answers but I did see the colonoscopy reddit page so that’s where I came from 🤗

I have a fear of speedbumps, but I'm slowly getting over it..
Hi and welcome to my post! Wanted to start off with a funny to me dad joke.
Nice to meet you, I'm Dylan! To put it simple, I am a single 22 year old man who has been pretty lonely in life and lacking human connection. And part of what comes with that is the desire to be intimate with a person. I am very mature for my age and will always be respectful of your boundaries and feelings, especially with anything sexual. Lately all I have is myself when it comes to sexual desires, so I would like to have someone to keep company with in that regard too.
I'm just relaxing after work and burning a woodwick candle. I love candles! 🕯️ Sometimes a campfire outside on a fall night or a crackling WoodWick candle is a relaxing constant among our busy and hectic world. It's nice to just disconnect, feel grounded and happy in your own little cozy space. Feeling calm and collected and at peace. Something that fewer people take the time to do these days.
I am seeking a woman around my age or older to build a close connection with that could possibly lead to a something intimate which includes the possibility of teasing/sharing pics etc. but only when we were comfortable. Figured I would be open in my Intentions as that's the best way to be.
You:
Kind, respectful, and easy going.
Comfortable with the idea of eventually sharing intimate things together.
Willing to eventually move off of Reddit.
Want something genuine and fun!
Are honest in your intentions and a good person to be around!
That's about it, we will get along great I know it.
I've been feeling a little bummed out lately. I always try and stay happy and see the best in things. But.. I've just been so alone. Most of my whole childhood and adult years have been spent feeling lonely. I grew up surrounded by cornfields which was peaceful but also has a lonely aspect to it. My family never really were close and never did anything as a family really. And part of it too is the fact that I never had any neighbors my age to interact with. But aside from that, my adult life has been very lonely. I'm just always by myself. I barely have any meaningful adult relationships or experiences, or even any friends.
I work a 3-11 job in building maintenance at my company world headquarters building which I love, but again it's very lonely. I work the off shift so the building is always empty. I don't get normal social interaction with people my age or a chance to build relationships. I only have 3 older men as co-workers and we are mostly in the basement away from any people on the floors from knowing our existence. I always walk the floors and see office people laughing and chatting with their coworkers and I just don't have that kind of experience. And just.. no one knows I exist really. Everyone probably assumes I have a lot of friends, but I'm struggling inside with being so alone and trying to meet people and get past the "hi how are you?" "I'm good thanks" stage. Most people don't seem to want to talk beyond that. And most women are already in relationships and thus it would seem weird to approach them in an office setting trying to get to know them deeper. But man those "hi how are yous" are the only real interactions I get during my day.. so thus I decided to come here lol. Rant over, sorry! I promise I'm not a downer. 😅
Now for some things about me!
As you can tell, I am very mature for my age and am polite and have good grammar which unfortunately not everyone my age does anymore lol. I am not active at all on social media/internet culture really and don't know much about all the slang the younger people these days use. I feel like I'm 50. 🤣
I am left handed which is pretty cool. I'm not much of a party person or a drinker, I much prefer a quiet night at home and maybe a beer or two on a weekend but that's about it. I am simple and stay out of drama and trouble and don't get much into politics or other things that cause drama with people. I much prefer a relaxing campfire and a night at home and to just let the world keep on turning haha. I consider myself pretty intelligent and mature, especially for my age.
Physically I'm 180 pounds, have brown hair, green eyes, and a typical build. There's a few pictures on my profile.
Some of my hobbies are:
• Photography
I have a Nikon D200 and D5500 that I love to shoot with. I love nature scenes, abstract, black and white/goth kinda photography, sunsets, etc. it's so fun to just let your mind explore. It's not about what camera you have, but those who are behind the camera!
• Cooking and baking
I loveeee to cook and bake! I enjoy making various meals but also love to just have a frozen pizza once in awhile or something like that. I recently made homemade chili which turned out great. I love to bake, especially in the fall! I love pies, cakes, pastries, cookies, etc. I restored a vintage KitchenAid mixer that needed tbe gearbox rebuilt. Eventually I would love to practice home canning my own food.
• Music
Oh my gosh, I like so much!! Alternative rock, punk, post punk, electronic, synth pop, psychedelic rock, hard rock, etc. I am very non judgemental and open when it comes to music. My three current favorite bands are Type O Negative, Joy Division, and the Cure.
• Nature walks and camping
I really enjoy camping, making fires, and relaxing by a campfire. I love to take walks outside and just enjoy the beauty and simplicity of nature. It's wonderful, especially in a world so focused on everything digital.
• Repairing things
I'm a maintenance guy and one of my hobbies is electronics repair so I am good with my hands and just all around good at troubleshooting and fixing all sorts of things around the house. Last week I helped my elderly neighbor get his tractor started, it needed a new component in the starting circuit. So I'm pretty handy which... Comes in handy! 😂
• Autumn 🍁
This isn't a hobby per say, but man do I love the fall!!! It's my absolute favorite time of the year. Oh my gosh. The beautiful colors, crisp cool air, misty and foggy days, rain, lack of bugs, being cuddled up with a candle or by the fire drinking a tea, etc. I love it! There's only two seasons for me. Fall, and waiting for fall! Haha.
• Scented Candles and incense
Going along with my love for fall, I absolutely love candles! I have like 30 something lol. 😂 Currently my favorite are WoodWick, which are owned by Yankee candle. They have such a soothing crackle and the scents are great! I also love to burn incense from time to time as well. I have cottagecore hippie vibes.
• Old houses and architecture
I love old houses! Especially 1900s and Victorian era homes. Old homes have so much character to them and are just so beautiful from a time when people took pride in their craft. I strongly dislike the modern cookie cutter cheap construction of homes today. I would love to live in an old home one day. I also love their architecture and uniqueness, as well as architecture of old cathedrals and other buildings.
• Relaxing
Basic I know, but sometimes on the weekend I just love to get cozy in bed and relax and put on a YouTube video or an album! 😊
That's about it for me, I'm a pretty laid back and simple person. My ideal person is someone who is respectful and honest! I am very straightforward and open minded and would hope that you are as well.
If I seem interesting to you at all I would love to hear from you!
Thank you so much for reading.

Tl;dr I used to struggle with social anxiety. However, by spending around 3 years learning and practising social skills, I’ve managed to overcome most of my anxiety and socialise with a ton of meaningful friends. Here's a Tl;dr of the tips, without going into depth:

• Before Talking: Define your purpose, prepare, learn social etiquette, and develop charisma.
• During Conversation: Practice active listening and continue to deep questions.
• After Conversation: Reflect, learn from resources/advice, and practice.

My background
4-6 years ago, I was a socially anxious introvert. Three years ago, I joined a class full of extroverts. I slowly began talking and doing really stupid stuff that I regret. Despite the setbacks, though, I would go on, year by year learning from my mistakes. Today, I talk with around 150 people across many classes whenever I want. I have an amazing best friend and a solid friend group.
I am still introverted; I don't like going to youth clubs or partying, and I feel drained after being with people. I still feel anxious around new people and people I like, but I’ve crossed a huge milestone today, by confessing my feelings to a girl I liked for 1.5 years and moving on. So overall, my anxiety has significantly reduced, and this is everything I used to get to this point where I can start conversations and become friends with almost anyone.
This guide is really detailed, and it took me years to implement a lot of these things, I am still not done implementing everything myself, so take this guide slowly. It’s going to be a long journey that will last many years.
Before talking
Purpose
The first thing to consider before engaging in conversation is the purpose. Why are you talking? What do you hope to achieve from the conversation?
Immanuel Kant’s moral philosophy suggests that we should treat humanity as an end in itself, not merely as a means to an end. For example, if your objective is simply to have sex, you’re using another person as a means to that end. However, if your goal is to genuinely connect and learn about someone, then the conversation's purpose keeps humanity alive and is valid. The important thing is to not objectify humans in one’s purpose.
A positive purpose is amazing. Positivity is more influential than negativity, like how optimism beats pessimism. Try to be as positive as possible, this does not mean lying. Just don't say the negative thing on your mind, and instead choose the positive version. When speaking about others, maintain a positive tone: Having a negative purpose, shows insecurity, and also just generally leads to unhealthy relationships. (I am not going to go into detail about relationships here, because this is socialskills).
Preparations
Once you have a purpose, it’s time to prepare by being in an environment where talking happens. While discord is convenient, real life is SOOO much more worth it. If you don't find school or work, a great place, clubs, or groups where people share your passions are amazing.
But what should you prepare to talk about? Literally, anything you find interesting. For instance, a couple of months ago, I watched Steins: Gate, my favourite anime. Then a couple of weeks ago, I noticed someone in school watching anime and struck up a conversation about anime, and it led to a longer conversation about our favourite anime.
So prepare by having opinions, thoughts, and curiosity for anything that interests you, like events that are happening, feelings for someone or something (Bold), opinions, sports, movies, or work.
The key is to be prepared by having a ton of knowledge in a variety of topics.
Social Etiquette
Social etiquette plays a HUGE role in our conversation. It’s an unspoken truth that we will hesitate to engage with someone who appears to be a mess or is distracted.
Having the right social etiquette makes a massive difference. First, and something very important, your first impressions are better. A bonus is that you feel more confident to approaching others, and are approachable yourself.
Being approachable means physically: Showering, brushing teeth, good clothes, etc. It also means not using one's phone, sunglasses, headphones or other distractions whilst or before talking.
Social etiquette is also in one's mental state as well: Being nervous or anxious shows in conversation, and it is not great.
I imagine it's a very difficult journey for everyone to beat their mental side that makes one, anxious and or nervous. It could be like years of trauma from one's childhood. So this is mostly for oneself to figure out, but here's how I beat it and became more confident:
I ran with the mindset “Fake it till you become it”. I also told myself other mindsets, like “Be the best version of myself” and “It's going to be okay, no matter what”.
When I was anxious, I would focus on exhaling longer than inhaling, like a 3-second inhale, a 6-second exhale, or use the 3-3-3 method (identify 3 objects and 3 sounds, then move 3 body parts.). After coming back to my own mind, I would think “3,2,1, go for it” if I was in a conversation or if I was in a conversation, I say “Sorry, I can’t think, can you give me a minute” or “Sorry, can you repeat from x” (x being the last thing I heard).
I would also go on rational thought experiments, asking myself, “When was the last time you remembered an awkward moment from someone who isn’t a close friend?”. It led me to realise "Well that's how others see your awkward moment”. It's pretty much the same mindset for others judging you, “Everyone is thinking about themselves, so nobody is thinking about you". It’s called the spotlight effect.
You can also notice others' Social Etiquette, both physically and mentally. By noticing these things in other people, you can indirectly find out if you are approachable.
When you have the basic preparations, the next part is preparing how to be engaging and interesting. How to be a likeable person.
Personally, I think people can be boring, but by learning charisma, you can go from being boring to being genuinely interesting. Instead of just saying whatever, you deliberately deliver the best of what you are going to say. (In mainstream media, it’s known as rizz. But I think rizz and charisma have become 2 different things by now.)
Charisma
True charisma isn’t about faking your personality; it’s about amplifying the best aspects of it. It’s about developing a character so strong that others’ opinions become ideas rather than definitive truths.
Developing charisma includes being consistent—keeping promises, telling the truth, and showing respect for both yourself and others. For instance, it's more confident to say "I am kinda nervous”, smiling, rather than, “No, I am confident", whilst being nervous. This is because, by admitting the truth, you show vulnerability, and as an added bonus you are smiling. Just having that positive energy, whilst showing that, being nervous does not define your character is charismatic. Alone, your positive energy can actually create a positive and fun vibe. But let me explain more deeply:
Charisma rests on three foundational concepts: presence, power, and warmth.
Presence
To cultivate more presence, practice focused attention. This can be done by doing meditation or lots of practice. The goal with presence is to make them feel great. This could be by letting talk them about themselves, which in turn mostly leads to conversations. This is counterintuitive, it’s because everybody loves talking about themselves and most do not want to leave others out. That leads the conversation to go back to you, whilst also showing that you are attentive and care for the other person.
Power and Warmth
These traits are more nuanced. Albert Mehrabian, a body language researcher, found that communication is 55% non-verbal, 38% vocal, and only 7% words.
So first, the right body language is crucial. There are tons of videos (I recommend Charisma on Command, to see others' body language analysis or specific Ted Talks about body language.) and research on this, but to summarise most of the advice: Smile genuinely, maintain appropriate eye contact, and use a ton of open and expressive body language.
Smiling and eye contact can come with training, eye contact by faking it, and for smiling, I recommend gratitude because fake smiles can be seen. For most, they genuinely smile, whilst showing gratitude or complimenting others. If that does not work, I recommend professional help.
For open and expressive body language, that's using hands, and arms whilst talking. I seriously recommend watching videos on it, because I can not show it on text. It also involves posture, walking, standing, sitting, and expression by touching.
I am a fan of acronyms, and a widely used acronym is SOLER acronym: “Sit squarely,” “Open posture,” “Lean towards the other,” “Eye contact,” and “Relax.”.
For vocal confidence, it's mostly just continuing to adopt the confidence mindset “It’s going to be okay, no matter what happens,”, because it helps you get the right energy whilst talking. This also helps by replacing hesitations like “uhmm” with purposeful pauses, which give your words weight and allow you to speak more deliberately. For example, slowing one's speed when talking about serious matters to convey gravity, and maintaining a casual tone for lighter topics. The aim is to use vocals to best, bring another person into one's world, show empathy, and storytell.
Like, storytelling is amazing. Engaging storytelling by having a hook, middle and end, acting out characters with different pitches and also “sound effects” gets people interested, and also leaves a lasting memory. Seriously, I went all out on a story about falling off my cycle to my friends, and they talked and remembered it almost 6 months later. I did not realise how amazing storytelling was until that happened.
This adds a ton of warmth, by bringing a fun vibe. Later, by adding vulnerability and initiating taboo subjects, you also show power, because your character is strong and you do not care about others' opinions. This is the word part of the conversation.
One of the most important things I learned is: People do not remember what you said, they remember how you made them feel. Charisma focuses on having fun and amplifying feelings a ton. By having a ton of positive and uplifting energy, whilst making the other person feel amazing, you basically have just got yourself a friend for life. (At least in memories.)
What about starting a conversation? I think small talk is overused. I feel like there are so many topics to go into, so why not use the topics that you have prepared or use the acronym HEFE — Acronym for Hobbies, Entertainment, Food, and Environment.
I often opt for Environment or Entertainment as my first talk. For instance, I recently noticed someone reading a book and I simply asked, “What book are you reading?”. This led to a longer conversation about the book contents, then later to shared interests in anime and book recommendations.
So even deeper in the environment, you could try observing something about the person or their actions and express genuine curiosity. It could be anything from a ring—“Is there a story behind that ring?”—to them working on something—“What are you working on?” The goal is to simply show interest and initiate conversation.
Not every conversation will be long, and that’s perfectly fine. The key is persistence and reflection. Again, chances are, in five years, the only person, who will remember that awkward moment while lying in bed is you.
But what if the conversation is long? How do you keep a conversation going?
During Conversation
Overthinking
I used to always overthink whilst in conversation. Like if you read this far, yea you can see I overthink a lot... 8 hours into writing this...
Here’s a really good piece of advice: Don’t overthink the conversation. If your mind wanders, or you keep thinking about what to say next, you’ll miss out on the most effective way to keep a conversation going: Active listening. You can also show it by nodding and making the listening sound, like an occasional nod and "hmm."
Deepening the conversation
Here’s a life hack to keep a conversation going: When somebody finishes saying something, summarise, then say whatever you were going to say. It shows that you were listening, and gives you a little time to think. It’s even possible to pause to think. It should not be “I am going to say this when you finish.". It could be "Summary, (Pause to think), (thought/opinion/curiosity/something related, etc)".
There's another part to this trick, most surface-level conversations, can lead to deeper conversations if you ask open-ended questions. For instance, if someone says the good old, “I’m doing fine,” you could actually dive deeper by asking, “What makes your days good / What brings you joy? (Basically, why are you doing fine, instead of good, but saying that is kind of odd, yea, no.)”.
An easy response to an open-ended question is “(Summary), (My own answer to the open-ended question that was asked (By me)), (New open-ended question)”. This keeps the conversation flowing without it feeling like an interview.
If you have reached this point in conversation, you’re likely going to be friends. This is where you can start asking more personal questions. A useful acronym for deeper topics is FORD: Family, Occupation, Recreation, and Dreams. If you’re speaking with a stranger, it can be polite to start your personal questions with “May I ask”. This isn’t always necessary, but it can help establish boundaries, and I always use it. This is because they always have the option to say no to answering the question. A deepening question here could be, “May I ask, what are your dreams for the future?”. It’s personal, but it’s not like crazy deep.
For even longer conversations and or deeper conversations, you have hit the jackpot. If it's a conversation with an acquaintance, you might even consider going into core values, personal challenges, taboo subjects, etc. Questions like “May I ask, what do you value most in life?” or “May I ask, what have been your past experiences with relationships?”, These questions can bring a ton of strong emotions, but also vulnerability. It may seem scary, but it's actually really rewarding and fun.
Eventually, every conversation comes to an end. Recognising when to stop is a practicable skill that can prevent a lot of awkward moments. A smooth way to finish a conversation is, “I’ve got to go, but I’d love to hear one last thing from you.” This signals the end of the conversation while allowing for one last thing. I think it's better than "Well, I have got to go, bye" (After a 1-hour conversation, randomly), but still both work fine.
Here's a thing to remember:
Not everyone is open to deep conversations all the time, many people are more open-minded when the timing and environment are right. I think most happen in one-on-one conversations. Deep conversations in groups are really, really rare. Still, deep conversations are worth it because they are incredibly meaningful. For instance, I once had a two-hour very deep conversation with an acquaintance about religion, life, and politics, and it all began when he heard and asked me about leaving my religion. It does not only have to be that; I have had a few deep conversations, about crushes and relationships.
The thing is that I think closer friends are more open, It was pretty chill with my best friend, I literally just said, "I found this website with deep questions.". Then I literally just asked very deep questions. We actually had already talked about many taboo subjects already, from other deeper conversations.
The key is to be open and respectful, and then take advantage when the opportunity for a deep conversation comes.
After conversations
Reflecting
What I have just been doing above is reflecting a ton. When there's so much information, it's super important to reflect. For instance, I used to suck at using my hands while talking, and storytelling, but by reflecting on what I could have done better, I slowly got better at using my hands and storytelling.
At the end of the day, I got better at just going for it. This is also, the most important thing, in many things in life, including socialising. If you never try, you are not giving yourself a fair chance.
If you have read through this humongous guide, congratulations! You now know how to master conversations. If you have not read it, come on, give yourself a chance.
This is just one resource, and later learning from another place, like, personally I loved Mark Manson's work, Ted Talks or Charisma on Command on YouTube. This guide is not perfect, and I am not an expert. This is just everything I learned, going from being socially anxious to beating my anxiety. If you are struggling with something specific, search for it, research it, and always don't be stuck with a closed mind, when it comes to social skills. Always have a growth mindset and remember the most important thing in socialising:
Practice makes perfect.
Written by Tamim, why did I just spend like 11 hours straight on this, lol. I should eat and drink water. Well, it’s my first piece of advice. If anyone reads this essay, was it good? Wait, fuck, I forgot to write about humour. AUUGHH.

I have a fear of speedbumps, but I'm slowly getting over it..
Hi and welcome to my post! Wanted to start off with a funny to me dad joke.
Nice to meet you, I'm Dylan! To put it simple, I am a single 22 year old man who has been pretty lonely in life and lacking human connection. And part of what comes with that is the desire to be intimate with a person. I am very mature for my age and will always be respectful of your boundaries and feelings, especially with anything sexual. Lately all I have is myself when it comes to sexual desires, so I would like to have someone to keep company with in that regard too.
I'm just relaxing after work and burning a woodwick candle. I love candles! 🕯️ Sometimes a campfire outside on a fall night or a crackling WoodWick candle is a relaxing constant among our busy and hectic world. It's nice to just disconnect, feel grounded and happy in your own little cozy space. Feeling calm and collected and at peace. Something that fewer people take the time to do these days.
I am seeking a person around my age or older to build a close connection with that could possibly lead to a something intimate which includes the possibility of teasing/sharing pics etc. but only when we were comfortable. Figured I would be open in my Intentions as that's the best way to be.
You:
Kind, respectful, and easy going.
Comfortable with the idea of eventually sharing intimate things together.
Willing to eventually move off of Reddit.
Want something genuine and fun!
Are honest in your intentions and a good person to be around!
That's about it, we will get along great I know it.
I've been feeling a little bummed out lately. I always try and stay happy and see the best in things. But.. I've just been so alone. Most of my whole childhood and adult years have been spent feeling lonely. I grew up surrounded by cornfields which was peaceful but also has a lonely aspect to it. My family never really were close and never did anything as a family really. And part of it too is the fact that I never had any neighbors my age to interact with. But aside from that, my adult life has been very lonely. I'm just always by myself. I barely have any meaningful adult relationships or experiences, or even any friends.
I work a 3-11 job in building maintenance at my company world headquarters building which I love, but again it's very lonely. I work the off shift so the building is always empty. I don't get normal social interaction with people my age or a chance to build relationships. I only have 3 older men as co-workers and we are mostly in the basement away from any people on the floors from knowing our existence. I always walk the floors and see office people laughing and chatting with their coworkers and I just don't have that kind of experience. And just.. no one knows I exist really. Everyone probably assumes I have a lot of friends, but I'm struggling inside with being so alone and trying to meet people and get past the "hi how are you?" "I'm good thanks" stage. Most people don't seem to want to talk beyond that. And most women are already in relationships and thus it would seem weird to approach them in an office setting trying to get to know them deeper. But man those "hi how are yous" are the only real interactions I get during my day.. so thus I decided to come here lol. Rant over, sorry! I promise I'm not a downer. 😅
Now for some things about me!
As you can tell, I am very mature for my age and am polite and have good grammar which unfortunately not everyone my age does anymore lol. I am not active at all on social media/internet culture really and don't know much about all the slang the younger people these days use. I feel like I'm 50. 🤣
I am left handed which is pretty cool. I'm not much of a party person or a drinker, I much prefer a quiet night at home and maybe a beer or two on a weekend but that's about it. I am simple and stay out of drama and trouble and don't get much into politics or other things that cause drama with people. I much prefer a relaxing campfire and a night at home and to just let the world keep on turning haha. I consider myself pretty intelligent and mature.
Physically I'm 180 pounds, have brown hair, green eyes, and a typical build. There's a few pictures on my profile.
Some of my hobbies are:
• Photography
I have a Nikon D200 and D5500 that I love to shoot with. I love nature scenes, abstract, black and white/goth kinda photography, sunsets, etc. it's so fun to just let your mind explore. It's not about what camera you have, but those who are behind the camera!
• Cooking and baking
I loveeee to cook and bake! I enjoy making various meals but also love to just have a frozen pizza once in awhile or something like that. I recently made homemade chili which turned out great. I love to bake, especially in the fall! I love pies, cakes, pastries, cookies, etc. I restored a vintage KitchenAid mixer that needed tbe gearbox rebuilt. Eventually I would love to practice home canning my own food.
• Music
Oh my gosh, I like so much!! Alternative rock, punk, post punk, electronic, synth pop, psychedelic rock, hard rock, etc. I am very non judgemental and open when it comes to music. My three current favorite bands are Type O Negative, Joy Division, and the Cure.
• Nature walks and camping
I really enjoy camping, making fires, and relaxing by a campfire. I love to take walks outside and just enjoy the beauty and simplicity of nature. It's wonderful, especially in a world so focused on everything digital.
• Repairing things
I'm a maintenance guy and one of my hobbies is electronics repair so I am good with my hands and just all around good at troubleshooting and fixing all sorts of things around the house. Last week I helped my elderly neighbor get his tractor started, it needed a new component in the starting circuit. So I'm pretty handy which... Comes in handy! 😂
• Autumn 🍁
This isn't a hobby per say, but man do I love the fall!!! It's my absolute favorite time of the year. Oh my gosh. The beautiful colors, crisp cool air, misty and foggy days, rain, lack of bugs, being cuddled up with a candle or by the fire drinking a tea, etc. I love it! There's only two seasons for me. Fall, and waiting for fall! Haha.
• Scented Candles and incense
Going along with my love for fall, I absolutely love candles! I have like 30 something lol. 😂 Currently my favorite are WoodWick, which are owned by Yankee candle. They have such a soothing crackle and the scents are great! I also love to burn incense from time to time as well. I have cottagecore hippie vibes.
• Old houses and architecture
I love old houses! Especially 1900s and Victorian era homes. Old homes have so much character to them and are just so beautiful from a time when people took pride in their craft. I strongly dislike the modern cookie cutter cheap construction of homes today. I would love to live in an old home one day. I also love their architecture and uniqueness, as well as architecture of old cathedrals and other buildings.
• Relaxing
Basic I know, but sometimes on the weekend I just love to get cozy in bed and relax and put on a YouTube video or an album! 😊
That's about it for me, I'm a pretty laid back and simple person. My ideal person is someone who is respectful and honest! I am very straightforward and open minded and would hope that you are as well.
If I seem interesting to you at all I would love to hear from you!
Thank you so much for reading.