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Hi, Ps: if your message has nothing to do with a potential relationship or trying to get to know me I will simply not respond . 🤗
Just A femboy looking for a serious ltr , so I’ll get to the point 🤗. I’m here for something long term. Dating apps don’t work for me sadly.
Located: Texas . Willing to move to another state or have my further partner live with me .
▶️Appearance : A thick black femboy who loves dressing up sometimes . Height : 5’3. I wear glasses to read manga . My style is mostly goth/casual clothes from mostly anime shirts and chokers
💙My hobbies: Anime, card games, cosplay, anime cons, Dueling (Yu-Gi-Oh!) , Pokémon, Yaoi, Pc gaming , overwatch, marvel , DC, Horror, ect. I’m a super friendly outgoing individual. I do collect a lot of anime merch (ask to see my collection). I do play yugioh IRL, Duel Links & Master duel.
What im looking for is a Relationship. Whether its a LRT OR LDR. I would like to meet irl, as much as chatting and voice calls are great I want to actually meet you 🤗. A guy who knows what he wants and not the whole “ idk what I want thing”. Please do not message me if you’re not serious about a LTR OR even ghost me. I’m open to moving in together Age range to date for me is 21-40 years old .
▶️MY TYPE: TALL (taller than my own height) , very communicative, masculine(mostly beards and body hair) gamers/anime nerds. These are just preferences so I’m open to dating without them .
✅Ps: for compatibility reasons I’m a 100% bottom.

• Fun Fact : I’ve been to Japan 4x , UK, 2x , Korea -1x. I’ll be back to Japan in December for 2 weeks. Would love a partner to go with . Let’s do a discord voice call if you’d like to really get to know each other. Willing to send face pictures as well .

If you made it this far, please message me an introduction about yourself. This is extremely important as it tells me alot about you and for me to give you a well detailed response. Mostly a name to call you , hobbies, location (state wise) and what you’re looking for . You may send pics in the first message if you may like 😊

• S05E01 - Badge of Deceit:

1. A rapist enters houses of women lives alone, assaults them, for 15 years of period.
2. Women describes that he holds the flashlight like a police would do, asks them to take a shower after the attack, and tell them to close their windows to make them feel they are also to blame.
3. When the rape houses put on the map, it reveals that all houses are close to one specific district, and a cop who lives there was responsible.

• S05E02 - Dew Process:

1. A man beats his wife to death, and makes up a story about masked intruder.
2. But the victim was cleaned and her nightgown changed, and his car was used at night.

• S05E03 - A Woman Scorned:

1. A woman kidnaps another woman she argued at gunpoint. They went to a forest with victims car, and she shots her.
2. But she picked the forest she knows, and since she is the victim's husband's ex girlfriend, this led police to her. And she left hair strands in the car and at the crime scene.

• S05E04 - A Voice from Beyond:

1. A female remains found in a barrel of and old house. The woman was pregnant. Police contacts with the owner of the house 35 years ago, and the man kills himself after.
2. The woman was his employee in a plastic tree factory, and after she got pregnant, she phoned the man's wife and told about their affair, and the man killed her in response.
3. The man simply moved out from the house leaving the barrel because it was too heavy. and it waited there for 34 years to be found.

• S05E05 - Burning Ambition:
• A policeman burns his own house for insurance money, but he uses flare for a delay and he put all his valuables to the shed.
• When police gets suspicious of these facts, he kills a young boy and bury to the area he has access to, and creates a fake document states he was the arsonist.
  
  1. But blood stains in his car and using different pen to forge the boys signature gives him away.
  2. S05E06 - Memories:
  3. A man leaves home for 30 minutes and when he was back, his wife was beaten (even her brain was visible) and in a coma, and she lost her baby. When she wake up from coma, she says it was his husband. And the man went to prison for 16 years.
  4. Finally DNA tests become available, and the semen from the woman's body matches with a convict responsible from 5 other rape & murders.
• S05E07 - Trail of Truth:
  
• A woman and 2 daughters found murdered with a knife in their house. There is no forced entry, so the killer is someone they know. Its not the husband because he is out of the state.
  
• Killer was the husband's nephew recently living with them - he left the washcloth he cleaned himself in the sink, and his roommate states he came back home with blood stains that day.
  
  • S05E08 - Material Evidence:

1. A little girl kidnapped from roadside by a man with minivan. Later her body was found, with a cardboard box used for leather car seats.
   1. Over a year later, a man kidnaps a women and tortures and rapes her, then handcuffs her and go to work. Woman manages to take out her hands and escapes, and gives the man's name.
   2. This man has a minivan and also bought leather car seats recently. Since he used that cardboard to carry the victim and cardboard has many paint pieces from his garage, he was sentenced to death.

• S05E09 - Killigraphy:

1. A man finds his wife died during her sleep, but autopsy shows bruises on her neck and popped up veins in her eye, and decided its homicide with strangulation.
2. Turns out she stopped taking her epilepsy medicine, and eye veins pops up during deadly seizures as well. And doctor took blood from the body's neck, caused the bruises. And the doctor was highly inexperienced and biased because its been told husband was keeping her at home for 30 years.

• S05E10 - Nursery Crimes:

1. In a nursery, 7 children went to respiratory arrest in a month. All when the same nurse was with the children. She was injecting succinylcholine, non traceable muscle relaxer which stops breathing in large doses.
   
2. A new test reveals succinylcholine in kids system and the nurse sentenced to 99 years for 2 kills. Its believed that the actual number of children she killed is over 60.
   

• S05E11 - Lasting Impression:

1. 3 gang members kills a girl and leaves her body inside a building in a cemetery.
2. When they found the body, the woman who saw them during the killing comes forward and give their names.
3. One of the gang members dropped his chewing gum from his mouth near the body, and the dental print on the gum gave him away.

• S05E12 - Foundation of Lies:
• A doctor kills his wife, and buries her under the new house he bought.
• However, their son testified that he heard a loud thump that night and his father came to check if he sleeps. This gave reason of warrant to the detectives.
• As he also rented a jackhammer, they dig the house's basement and found the victim.
• The man appealed the decision - the body's gallbladder was removed and her appendix was intact, unlike his wife. But DNA test proves the body belongs to her, and its just horrible autopsy work.
  
• S05E13 - Unholy Wows:
  
• A Romanian refugee who settled to US after World War 2 becomes an Orthodox Bishop of Romanian Church.
  
• Since he is on public eye, especially with other Romanian refugees, they identify him, and call authorities.
  
• FBI collects a fingerprint from a postcard from 1941 to identify him and he was deported, and died in exile in Portugal.
  
• S05E14 - Broken Promises:
  
• A woman shots her husband while he sleeps, while trying to take the gun from under the pillow by accident. Fun fact, her previous husband was also shot by her by accident too, which is enough to raise suspicions.
  
• Detectives prove that the gun can't be shot from that angle, and a tape record found at the man's workplace, and he recorded that his wife was trying to kill him for weeks, by poison. As a motive, she was cheating her husband and credit card debts are the motive.
  
• S05E15 - Time Will Tell:
  
• A fisherman finds a body caught to his fishing nets. The man's rolex watch has a serial number and he identified thanks to this. When they went his home, they found another man acts like the deceased person.
  
• Turns out this man took the victim's identity, and when victim decided to back to UK again, he killed him.
  
• The fact that he forgot the rolex watch on the corpse, and the receipt of the anchor used to keep the body in the bottom at his home gave him away. Of course, police found victims blood in the man's small yacht, and proved that it was at the crime scene by GPS records.
  
• S05E16 - Second Shot at Love:
  
• A wealthy doctor finds out that his new wife is a violent money hunger with a gun, he files for divorce. Few months later he found dead at his house, apparently killed himself.
  
• But the gun was bought by his wife just 24 hours ago, and there is a test fire been shot to one of the pillows.
  
• S05E17 - Journey to Justice:
  
• A drunk driver hit 3 children and runs away. Other kids tell the police its a green van, but the paint pieces are blue, so the police looks for blue pick up truck.
  
• An anonymous phone call to the police reveals there is a truck parked 20 miles away, and although it doesn't have any damage and tired are different, the neighbor who changes the tire and repairs the damage comes forward to testify.
  
• S05E18 - Video Diary:
  
• A man robs a gas station and shoots the woman at the counter.
  
• Security camera identifies his face, and his ex girlfriend calls the police. And his nephew finds the murder weapon in the speaker he hid, so he can be convicted.
  
• S05E19 - Deadly Knowledge:
  
• A student girl disappears, and although his boyfriend was the suspect first, he finds out that she was working as an escort. This way they reach her main client.
  
• This man did not clean the blood stains in the trunk of his car, and his brother cooperates with the police and guesses to where to find the body.
  

I did a snipping tool when zoomed in so now the dimensions are the size of the screen and not the dimensions of the actual image.
So I need a tool to somehow detect the actual dimensions of the image and remove the unnecessary pixels (literal zero quality loss)
Realistically I could do it on a photo editor but it would take awhile to get it right and I need to do it to a lot of pics

We really don't know much about the Morpho Machine - its origins, how it works, what its goal is, how many Morhpo's exist, who invented it, ect. Mr Johnson has said that he isn't even able to take out the money it collects.
If Jacob hadn't just hit next, next, next through the start up screens, we may have had a tiny bit more information...
Morpho Butterfly Mythology from a quick Google search:
Blue Morphos have long been a source of great fascination to humans. Traditionally, the indigenous peoples of the Amazon associated the butterfly with a long list of superstitious beliefs, and they’ve alternatively been considered both wish granters and evil spirits. They can play different roles depending on the tribe and the tale. In many fairy tales of the region, morpho butterflies serve as spiritual guides that show the heroes the truth about the world they live in. In other, less serious tales, the same butterflies can grant wishes. These fairy-like properties may be ascribed to these insects because of their striking color and “winking” ability. Tribes that often use insects as a source of poisons, in their turn, treat blue morphos quite differently. They consider them evil, murderous spirits instead, knowing their poisonous nature.
How does the Morpho Machine recognize people?
Jacob has proven that the Morpho doesn't use the fingerprint reader or Social Security numbers to recognize the person it is giving potential cards or showing visions to.
Jacob to Izzy: I decided to try the machine one more time, but I accidentally put in the wrong numbers for my Social and I got the same thing, the same card again. So I put in the wrong numbers again, different numbers, and I didn't put my fingerprints on it. I put on my arm and my elbow and my face. And no matter what I did, every time I got the same thing, which means it isn't even using the things people think it's using.
So does the Morpho use facial recognition to recognize people and Social media to gather information for "Potential" cards and "Self Discovery" visions?
Does the Morpho have a butterfly sense(Spidey sense)?
Or is it just magic? As a ridiculous, fun theory: Hana's family sent her away because she isn't actually their child. She is a butterfly alien/human hybrid sent here from another planet to learn our ways and customs. Soon they will return for her - to teach the others.
Theremin
We don't have answers who delivered/sent the machine or where it came from but we may have an answer for what caused it to arrive. It seems like the Morpho arrived after Dusty started playing the theremin. So maybe the Morpho was called by the theremin. Also, Dusty said that he thinks people get blue dots after playing the theremin. But it seems like only certain people are able to play the theremin. By playing it, I don't mean being able to play music, I mean making it make noise. Cass touches the Theremin when Mr. Johnson hands it to her in a store room in the back of Johnson's General. He say's it yours if you want it but it doesn't work. She touches it and it turns on. (BTW, Is this an example of Mr. Johnson's actual magic? Cass says, "Magic" when it turns on. ) Mr. Johnson and the hot repairman hadn't been able to turn it on. Hana was also able to turn it on. And how was Hana able to reproduce the notes that the Morpho machine makes after a handful of tries?
Potentials and Visions
The Morpho machines doles out cards that have POTENTIAL written on one side a just one vague word written on the other as if the machine "knows" what everyone's potential is. So that potential is entirely up to the interpretation of the person who receives the card. For example, the person who received Explorer interpreted it as sexual explorer. Was that the intention of the Morpho?? The person who received gum tried to use gum to fix the theremin. Was that the intention of the machine?? In the second stage, the Morpho tells them, "To achieve your Potential you must discover who you are." Many of the potentials are just jobs - lawyer, meteorologist, secretary, etc. Why would they need to discover who they are in order to have these jobs?
These are the POTENTIONAL cards I have noticed so far:
CharacterCardNotesNotes2 Alice Wickstead - Trina's music teacher date with DustyCellistWell, I was gonna be a cellist. You know, I was, like, pretty serious about it. You know, conservatory training ... applying to all the fancy music schools. You know, it's what my parents dreamed of for me. But there was just too much pressure to be perfect.Yeah. And that's what my MORPHO card said. It said "Cellist," you know, which just reinforced this feeling that I was, like, a failure for giving it up. Axel - Xander's stepbrotherMeteorologistMaybe it was just to help you believe in yourself, which is exactly what your mom said on the first night that we ever talked about this. Georgio said maybe he will keep a meteor from falling them :) Beau KovacSherriff Cary Hubbard - Dusty's FatherMale Model Cass HubbardRoyaltyBio dad was a tire King? Royal blue butterfly? Queen of the butterfly people??? Coach EaglesonCheater? Computer Graphics TeacherGlass Blower Dr. WoodsMortician Dusty HubbardTeacheWhistlerWhistler Ski Resort Dr. Eloise Hubbard - Dusty's MotherHealer Farid Malik - (married principal Pat)Lover Father ReubenFatherPriest(Picks up when he's by Hana's bar with father in law) Finds Priest card Gets Father card from Morpho GiorgioSuperstar Glen - married to Hawaii kid Axel PhotographerTakes pics of tree bark Hana - previous bar called Whistle Stop has a MorphoDon't know so farInventor?Top card in the dumpster was inventor Hawaii - kids XanderExplorerShe says it is sexual Explorer Ismenia IzzyGhostDancer(fake card)I'm practically invisible in this town these days. JacobHero Kid at Giorgio's Lawyer Kid2 at Giorgio's Real Estate Agent Kid3 at Giorgio's Cartographer KoltonInventor?has blue dots, top card in dumpster is Inventor after he leaves Hana's 1st bar Matt ReindersFamous Megan - Kyle broke up with herSecretary Mr. Johnson -convenience store ownerMagician(has magic kit from childhood) sucks at magic Natalie (Nat)storyteller Nurse MonroeTattoo Artist Principal PatBiker Random 1alchemist Savannah (Nat's Daughter) in love with JacobFrenchdidn't wann go to France just because I got "French." SheilaRockstarYou were painting rocks way before the machine arrived. Some guy talking to Rubenflorist Trina Liar Potter(fake card)Gondolier(fake card) you needed to be told that you could be a "Liar" in order to tell the truth. Uriesole survivor Xander - Axel's stepbrotherGum
These are the visions so far:
CharacterVision To achieve your protentional you must discover who you areTheir interpretation Alice Wickstead - Trina's music teacher date with Dusty She was floating through the air. go with the flow and being less controlling. I don't know, I could find a new way to be happy with this other life I've chosen. She was also at Whistler. Cass HubbardShe goes into the hay maze at Deerfest stabs Izzy multiple times with a knife and then stabs Dusty and dances on their bodies Cutting off her mother and Dusty. There are things we need to see to move in a new direction. We have both been holding ourselves back for so long because we were afraid of hurting each other. Whatever it is we're meant to see, isn't it better to know? Dusty HubbardA little minigame ensues of him skiing at Whistler. At one point, there is a "continue?" On the screen. He stops whenever he is challenged like with a jump.From last season during Mr. Johnson's magic act: skiing. Please describe it. It's snowy. More descriptive, please. I need you to really put yourself there. Okay. Um, yeah. It's, uh ... I'm skiing. It's snowy. Uh, I'm maybe 20 years old. And, uh ... I'm alone. You see, I-I've taken the wrong path on this ... Or the wrong hill, or whatever you call that. I'm supposed to be on the Beginner, but I'm on the Black Diamond. And so I start going real fast, 'cause it's basically like this. And I am hurtling so quickly down the face of this mountain.(Panting) And I don't know what's gonna happen, but it's ... God, it feels like, I'm honestly like I'm gonna ... like I'm gonna, like I'm gonna die. But I also feel very alive. (Is this Mr. Johnson's actual magic?)Every time I come close to something that scares me ... I stop. I pull back. I don't go for it. You've seen me. I never take the jump. I always take the easy path. EllenAnd he got in his paddle boat, and he paddled away. And that was my greatest relationship. Father ReubenIt was me when I was a kid, and I was with my father, and I was happyAnd it was nice to be reminded what that was like. And nice to think that maybe my "Father" card wasn't just about me. It's more that I don't wanna just be a priest anymore. I don't wanna just be giving guidance to everyone else. I need to do some work on myself and rediscover what... what brings me joy. GiorgioGiorgio, loading plates of spaghetti onto gondolas. The gondolas started moving faster and faster. And then more and more plates kept coming until finally I was missing the gondolas and dropping plates left and right.(the classic arcade game Tapper, except with him serving spaghetti onto gondolas instead of pouring beer) It definitely scraps my plans to have a gondola pasta delivery system. On a deeper level, I think that it means that if I take on too much, I'm gonna mess things up. Hawaii - kids Xander It was this vision of me in the jungle, and at first, I thought it represented sexual wilderness, but then the animated me arrived at this clearing in the jungle, and there was another me I realized I was the me I was seeking. The greatest relationship I could ever have is the one that I have with myself. So, I've only been having sex with women who look like me. Jacob Is serving tennis balls to Kolton who doesn't move and the balls pass through him until he eventually disappears. Beau is the ref.Being a twin is like a two-player game. Everything you do is either the same or it's different. People need to accept that Kolton's gone. Mr. Johnson -convenience store owner It's the same setting with Mr. Johnson waiting for Ian to come to dinner. But this time Ian shows up and Mr. Johnson asks him questions. I don't understand. Which is it? I just wanna know i-if you liked me back. I thought you did, but, um... I don't know. When you didn't show up, I thought I must have been wrong. At that point, it becomes like an interactive game, and Ian asks Walter how he’s doing, and Walter can answer through the keypad. The machine gives Walter two answers as to why Ian didn’t show up, basically telling him that it could’ve been either of the two things. Maybe Ian got a new job, or maybe he didn’t want to see Walter, and he now has family and kids. Walter finally realizes that he’s been blaming himself for being an unlikeable person this whole time. I think I've been blaming myself for something that wasn't my fault. But... I'm not gonna do that anymore, and I just wanted to share that with you. (to Beau) Beau Mr. J, it is a real honor that you chose to share that with me. Natalie (Nat)There were all these packages falling down on me. And I was trying to outrun them, but they just kept falling, faster and faster ... which is exactly what debt feels And then finally I was crushed.Which is how I'll feel if Giorgio leaves me. He might leave me when he finds out the truth. And that's why I was trying to gamble my way out. RitaI was walking in a meadow, and there was a fence. And on one side of the fence, there were all these sheep. And on the other side, there were foxes. And my, like, avatar started taking down the fence. And instead of … (gets interrupted) TrinaShe sees an avatar of herself from the day of a funeral, She’s on the roof of Giorgio’s and instead of smashing the sign marked as Giorgio’s, she sees it says “Liar” and she smashes out those letters.And it's like it was saying I can be anything I want now. Like, now that I've confronted my lying, I can decide who I wanna be.

first of all i apologies as this might not be the right community to post this. but i just feel hopeless and i just want peoples answers from literally anywhere. people with vaginas or experiences like this. anything really. :( like really really hopeless and lost. and its draining me mentally.
it all started on early feb. i (24F) had inner left labia pain 2-3 days after sex w my bf (25M) of 2 years (no sexual history prior). went to multiple drs and now none of them are helping me. some were’nt even being serious with me.
my symptoms were left inner labia pain, theres red patch near vagina entrance, slight discharge at the time. went to the pharmacy to get otc clotrimazole cream and i applied it on the area 2-3 times a day for almost a month. but just a few days of using the cream i noticed it didnt help so i visited a dr the same week symptoms appeared. 1st dr (government) gave me clotrimazole suppository 500mg. a week later period came, so i thought, oh maybe my period affected the healing process. so i went to visit another dr (gov) gave me the exact same suppository.
a week later, still havent improved. visited a new dr (gov). took gonorrhea swab test, dr told me i have yellowish discharge (inserted a speculum). and results taken in a gov hosp takes a month to be released. yeah it sucks waiting. so during that visit i was prescribed metronidazole and doxycycline. after i finished the medicines, of course i didnt improve. went to the same dr i visited last time. she examined my area again and told me i have “ulcers”. visually diagnosed me with herpes. now this is already early march. a month after initial symptoms appeared. took blood test and again the waiting game began.
that dr gave me acyclovir tablets. and me being paranoid i went to a private clinic to get tested for hsv. and it came out negative. i was also tested for syphilis, chlamydia and hiv, also negative.
at this point i feel like my pain was unbearable, there was some slight itching, on and off yellow discharge. ulcers still being there and near my vagina entrance hurt. the ulcers are located on my small labia. and the vagina entrance doesnt have ulcers but it hurt. all this located on left. sometimes my clit hood looks red and hurt.
after finishing acyclovir i wasnt healed. my period also ended when i finished the pills, so i went to the pharmacy again to get treated myself since drs treatments werent helping. i got myself otc metronidazole + miconazole combo suppository. and i got myself vaginal probiotics. i also used zinc oxide cream on the affected area.
after that treatment was done i was still not okay. visited the gov clinic to see my results, (which took a month) now its early april, dr told me i was positive gonorrhea. and other results was negative. so i got injected with ceftriaxone, and given doxycycline again. told my bf about my diagnosis, and told him to get tested. our relationship got rocky cuz of this. i didnt cheated and he claims he didnt too. we were kinda accusing each other. so he got tested and his results were negative. shocked of course, so he says i cheated. being in so much distress it affected my mental health so bad. even with hsv diagnosis i didnt eat a few day, woke up crying everyday, and couldnt focus on work where i had to take leaves.
so i went to the gov dr to get explanation and my symptoms have yet to heal after treatment (2 weeks after). surprisingly another dr attended to me at that same gov clinic (for some reason the other times only one same dr attended me) this new dr told me im actually negative gonorrhea and says maybe that other dr treated me empirically. but i swear that other dr told me i was positive and i even asked multiple times to be sure. this new dr told me the results show gonorrhea not detected but pus cell was seen. new dr believes i still have hsv and gave me lidocaine gel.
used the gel, didnt help much. after so many dr visits i felt hopeless and decided to just spend my money doing tests at private clinics rather than taking medicines blindly. so i did an std test for myco, urea and trich, chlamydia and gono, all negative.
then did a high vaginal swab to check my bacteria culture such as yeast and bv, strep. all negative and my vagina flora is normal. but during this test, dr also told me during this test she saw greenish/yellowish discharge (using speculum to get sample). i also did a hsv test again, still negative.
after this i smelled my discharge and it smelled sour. unsure if its normal or not. now end of april, i do still have yellowish discharge, some drs say its normal some says its not. i dont even know. but one of the days the red patch area hurt alot and was so irritated.
visited the gov dr again and she says she cant help me. by this time i wrote all my symptoms in a note on my phone inc pics of my vagina, test results, discharge and all. explaining all in detail and she just laughed at me saying im so extreme for writing everything in detail especially when i said i smelled my discharge and it was sour. she then just refered me to a gov derm.
visited the derm the same day. dr told me it doesnt look like ulcers more like lesions. just given me steroid pills and gel. i also wanted to show the dr my notes but she said its too long to read. i am quite positive and sure that this is not some skin problem that steroids could help. :( i feel like theyre just trying to make me take whatever hoping it gets better.
i then visited a private GYNO the same day. she tried helping. but she couldnt. she read all my notes and seen the pics. she says its weird i tested negative and believes i do or did have an infection going on. she advised me not to take the steroid pills as it could make an infection worse if i do still have one. so i just used the gel instead twice a day. gyno also told me to do a pap smear.
so i did, results came out 2 days ago and i was negative. nothing detected. since everything is for sure clear now, i started taking the steroid pills 2 days ago. today i still have pain on the red patch, the “ulcers” doesnt seem to be healing. but hurt only when touched. sometimes sitting on certain position makes me feel sore. but pain level not as bad as a month or two months ago. but i still have pain. i have been using the steroid gel a week now. i think im going crazy. idk what i have. nobody is able to help me. i know the pain is not just in my brain.
literally the red patch is very red today. ulcers still there. idk if i should stop using the steroid gel. i know i cant stop taking the pills suddenly or id get withdrawal symptoms. the pills are prednisonole. and its taken for 14 days decreasing dosage weekly. maybe ill apply steroid gel once a day now? is that okay tho.
my next appointmnt with the derm is this friday. but i really dont think its a SKIN PROBLEM. :(( i got symptoms 2-3 days after sex. the red patch pain has been there since day one, which is actually where it first started before ulcers popped up. never had outbreaks elsewhere up until now. so im sure its not hsv.
its been 4 months now, its already mid may. im not 100% better. ulcers/lesions have yet to heal since early march. what problem do i have? does anybody have similar experiences? what should i do?
edit: the same timing i tried smelling my discharge, i started noticing my pee smells off? idk if its normal pee smell but i think its musty? or soury? idk how to describe it tbh. but yea, its not like i smell my pee everytime. so im unsure how it smelled before this problem started. it might just be normal and im being paranoid now.

first of all i apologies as this might not be the right community to post this. but i just feel hopeless and i just want peoples answers from literally anywhere. people with vaginas or experiences like this. anything really. :( like really really hopeless and lost. and its draining me mentally.
it all started on early feb. i (24F) had inner left labia pain 2-3 days after sex w my bf (25M) of 2 years (no sexual history prior). went to multiple drs and now none of them are helping me. some were’nt even being serious with me.
my symptoms were left inner labia pain, theres red patch near vagina entrance, slight discharge at the time. went to the pharmacy to get otc clotrimazole cream and i applied it on the area 2-3 times a day for almost a month. but just a few days of using the cream i noticed it didnt help so i visited a dr the same week symptoms appeared. 1st dr (government) gave me clotrimazole suppository 500mg. a week later period came, so i thought, oh maybe my period affected the healing process. so i went to visit another dr (gov) gave me the exact same suppository.
a week later, still havent improved. visited a new dr (gov). took gonorrhea swab test, dr told me i have yellowish discharge (inserted a speculum). and results taken in a gov hosp takes a month to be released. yeah it sucks waiting. so during that visit i was prescribed metronidazole and doxycycline. after i finished the medicines, of course i didnt improve. went to the same dr i visited last time. she examined my area again and told me i have “ulcers”. visually diagnosed me with herpes. now this is already early march. a month after initial symptoms appeared. took blood test and again the waiting game began.
that dr gave me acyclovir tablets. and me being paranoid i went to a private clinic to get tested for hsv. and it came out negative. i was also tested for syphilis, chlamydia and hiv, also negative.
at this point i feel like my pain was unbearable, there was some slight itching, on and off yellow discharge. ulcers still being there and near my vagina entrance hurt. the ulcers are located on my small labia. and the vagina entrance doesnt have ulcers but it hurt. all this located on left. sometimes my clit hood looks red and hurt.
after finishing acyclovir i wasnt healed. my period also ended when i finished the pills, so i went to the pharmacy again to get treated myself since drs treatments werent helping. i got myself otc metronidazole + miconazole combo suppository. and i got myself vaginal probiotics. i also used zinc oxide cream on the affected area.
after that treatment was done i was still not okay. visited the gov clinic to see my results, (which took a month) now its early april, dr told me i was positive gonorrhea. and other results was negative. so i got injected with ceftriaxone, and given doxycycline again. told my bf about my diagnosis, and told him to get tested. our relationship got rocky cuz of this. i didnt cheated and he claims he didnt too. we were kinda accusing each other. so he got tested and his results were negative. shocked of course, so he says i cheated. being in so much distress it affected my mental health so bad. even with hsv diagnosis i didnt eat a few day, woke up crying everyday, and couldnt focus on work where i had to take leaves.
so i went to the gov dr to get explanation and my symptoms have yet to heal after treatment (2 weeks after). surprisingly another dr attended to me at that same gov clinic (for some reason the other times only one same dr attended me) this new dr told me im actually negative gonorrhea and says maybe that other dr treated me empirically. but i swear that other dr told me i was positive and i even asked multiple times to be sure. this new dr told me the results show gonorrhea not detected but pus cell was seen. new dr believes i still have hsv and gave me lidocaine gel.
used the gel, didnt help much. after so many dr visits i felt hopeless and decided to just spend my money doing tests at private clinics rather than taking medicines blindly. so i did an std test for myco, urea and trich, chlamydia and gono, all negative.
then did a high vaginal swab to check my bacteria culture such as yeast and bv, strep. all negative and my vagina flora is normal. but during this test, dr also told me during this test she saw greenish/yellowish discharge (using speculum to get sample). i also did a hsv test again, still negative.
after this i smelled my discharge and it smelled sour. unsure if its normal or not. now end of april, i do still have yellowish discharge, some drs say its normal some says its not. i dont even know. but one of the days the red patch area hurt alot and was so irritated.
visited the gov dr again and she says she cant help me. by this time i wrote all my symptoms in a note on my phone inc pics of my vagina, test results, discharge and all. explaining all in detail and she just laughed at me saying im so extreme for writing everything in detail especially when i said i smelled my discharge and it was sour. she then just refered me to a gov derm.
visited the derm the same day. dr told me it doesnt look like ulcers more like lesions. just given me steroid pills and gel. i also wanted to show the dr my notes but she said its too long to read. i am quite positive and sure that this is not some skin problem that steroids could help. :( i feel like theyre just trying to make me take whatever hoping it gets better.
i then visited a private GYNO the same day. she tried helping. but she couldnt. she read all my notes and seen the pics. she says its weird i tested negative and believes i do or did have an infection going on. she advised me not to take the steroid pills as it could make an infection worse if i do still have one. so i just used the gel instead twice a day. gyno also told me to do a pap smear.
so i did, results came out 2 days ago and i was negative. nothing detected. since everything is for sure clear now, i started taking the steroid pills 2 days ago. today i still have pain on the red patch, the “ulcers” doesnt seem to be healing. but hurt only when touched. sometimes sitting on certain position makes me feel sore. but pain level not as bad as a month or two months ago. but i still have pain. i have been using the steroid gel a week now. i think im going crazy. idk what i have. nobody is able to help me. i know the pain is not just in my brain.
literally the red patch is very red today. ulcers still there. idk if i should stop using the steroid gel. i know i cant stop taking the pills suddenly or id get withdrawal symptoms. the pills are prednisonole. and its taken for 14 days decreasing dosage weekly. maybe ill apply steroid gel once a day now? is that okay tho.
my next appointmnt with the derm is this friday. but i really dont think its a SKIN PROBLEM. :(( i got symptoms 2-3 days after sex. the red patch pain has been there since day one, which is actually where it first started before ulcers popped up. never had outbreaks elsewhere up until now. so im sure its not hsv.
its been 4 months now, its already mid may. im not 100% better. ulcers/lesions have yet to heal since early march. what problem do i have? does anybody have similar experiences? what should i do?
edit: the same timing i tried smelling my discharge, i started noticing my pee smells off? idk if its normal pee smell but i think its musty? or soury? idk how to describe it tbh. but yea, its not like i smell my pee everytime. so im unsure how it smelled before this problem started. it might just be normal and im being paranoid now.

Don’t message me if you’re shy
Looking to meet someone who is honest with their intentions. Hopefully someone who is actually willing to move or someone who wants someone to move with them. I have nothing holding me here where I live and want to start a new chapter in my life. Tired of the games being played. So I'd prefer talking to women between 23-35. I'm a very empathetic person. I always try to consider someone's feelings before my own. So I'm pretty open minded.
I'll admit if I like you I can be CLINGY so don't be surprised. I want someone I can talk to all day.
Someone I can send good night and good morning texts to. Someone that is open to potentially building something together. I'd prefer to see who I'm talking to. So please message with a pic of yourself, it doesn't have to be right away. But I will ask for one within the first few days of meeting you. Of course I'll show you what I look like as well.
It's hard for me to talk about myself without questions being asked so go ahead and ask. Here's a few things I like that may help, I love horror movies and movies in general, sneakers and fashion, football, video games, my dog, and being quick witted and trying to make people laugh. I consider myself pretty outgoing. So there's not really a question I don't mind being asked if I have an answer to give.
Pics of me on my profile since I can’t get Imgur to work 😅
Please have the confidence to show yourself 🙂
Show me your personality 👻
Let’s watch a movie on discord together?
DMs are open!

it all started on early feb. i (24F) had inner left labia pain 2-3 days after sex w my bf (25M) of 2 years (no sexual history prior). went to multiple drs and now none of them are helping me. some were’nt even being serious with me.
my symptoms were left inner labia pain, theres red patch near vagina entrance, slight discharge at the time. went to the pharmacy to get otc clotrimazole cream and i applied it on the area 2-3 times a day for almost a month. but just a few days of using the cream i noticed it didnt help so i visited a dr the same week symptoms appeared. 1st dr (government) gave me clotrimazole suppository 500mg. a week later period came, so i thought, oh maybe my period affected the healing process. so i went to visit another dr (gov) gave me the exact same suppository.
a week later, still havent improved. visited a new dr (gov). took gonorrhea swab test, dr told me i have yellowish discharge (inserted a speculum). and results taken in a gov hosp takes a month to be released. yeah it sucks waiting. so during that visit i was prescribed metronidazole and doxycycline. after i finished the medicines, of course i didnt improve. went to the same dr i visited last time. she examined my area again and told me i have “ulcers”. visually diagnosed me with herpes. now this is already early march. a month after initial symptoms appeared. took blood test and again the waiting game began.
that dr gave me acyclovir tablets. and me being paranoid i went to a private clinic to get tested for hsv. and it came out negative. i was also tested for syphilis, chlamydia and hiv, also negative.
at this point i feel like my pain was unbearable, there was some slight itching, on and off yellow discharge. ulcers still being there and near my vagina entrance hurt. the ulcers are located on my small labia. and the vagina entrance doesnt have ulcers but it hurt. all this located on left. sometimes my clit hood looks red and hurt.
after finishing acyclovir i wasnt healed. my period also ended when i finished the pills, so i went to the pharmacy again to get treated myself since drs treatments werent helping. i got myself otc metronidazole + miconazole combo suppository. and i got myself vaginal probiotics. i also used zinc oxide cream on the affected area.
after that treatment was done i was still not okay. visited the gov clinic to see my results, (which took a month) now its early april, dr told me i was positive gonorrhea. and other results was negative. so i got injected with ceftriaxone, and given doxycycline again. told my bf about my diagnosis, and told him to get tested. our relationship got rocky cuz of this. i didnt cheated and he claims he didnt too. we were kinda accusing each other. so he got tested and his results were negative. shocked of course, so he says i cheated. being in so much distress it affected my mental health so bad. even with hsv diagnosis i didnt eat a few day, woke up crying everyday, and couldnt focus on work where i had to take leaves.
so i went to the gov dr to get explanation and my symptoms have yet to heal after treatment (2 weeks after). surprisingly another dr attended to me at that same gov clinic (for some reason the other times only one same dr attended me) this new dr told me im actually negative gonorrhea and says maybe that other dr treated me empirically. but i swear that other dr told me i was positive and i even asked multiple times to be sure. this new dr told me the results show gonorrhea not detected but pus cell was seen. new dr believes i still have hsv and gave me lidocaine gel.
used the gel, didnt help much. after so many dr visits i felt hopeless and decided to just spend my money doing tests at private clinics rather than taking medicines blindly. so i did an std test for myco, urea and trich, chlamydia and gono, all negative.
then did a high vaginal swab to check my bacteria culture such as yeast and bv, strep. all negative and my vagina flora is normal. but during this test, dr also told me during this test she saw greenish/yellowish discharge (using speculum to get sample). i also did a hsv test again, still negative.
after this i smelled my discharge and it smelled sour. unsure if its normal or not. now end of april, i do still have yellowish discharge, some drs say its normal some says its not. i dont even know. but one of the days the red patch area hurt alot and was so irritated.
visited the gov dr again and she says she cant help me. by this time i wrote all my symptoms in a note on my phone inc pics of my vagina, test results, discharge and all. explaining all in detail and she just laughed at me saying im so extreme for writing everything in detail especially when i said i smelled my discharge and it was sour. she then just refered me to a gov derm.
visited the derm the same day. dr told me it doesnt look like ulcers more like lesions. just given me steroid pills and gel. i also wanted to show the dr my notes but she said its too long to read. i am quite positive and sure that this is not some skin problem that steroids could help. :( i feel like theyre just trying to make me take whatever hoping it gets better.
i then visited a private GYNO the same day. she tried helping. but she couldnt. she read all my notes and seen the pics. she says its weird i tested negative and believes i do or did have an infection going on. she advised me not to take the steroid pills as it could make an infection worse if i do still have one. so i just used the gel instead twice a day. gyno also told me to do a pap smear.
so i did, results came out 2 days ago and i was negative. nothing detected. since everything is for sure clear now, i started taking the steroid pills 2 days ago. today i still have pain on the red patch, the “ulcers” doesnt seem to be healing. but hurt only when touched. sometimes sitting on certain position makes me feel sore. but pain level not as bad as a month or two months ago. but i still have pain. i have been using the steroid gel a week now. i think im going crazy. idk what i have. nobody is able to help me. i know the pain is not just in my brain.
literally the red patch is very red today. ulcers still there. idk if i should stop using the steroid gel. i know i cant stop taking the pills suddenly or id get withdrawal symptoms. the pills are prednisonole. and its taken for 14 days decreasing dosage weekly. maybe ill apply steroid gel once a day now? is that okay tho.
my next appointmnt with the derm is this friday. but i really dont think its a SKIN PROBLEM. :(( i got symptoms 2-3 days after sex. the red patch pain has been there since day one, which is actually where it first started before ulcers popped up. never had outbreaks elsewhere up until now. so im sure its not hsv.
its been 4 months now, its already mid may. im not 100% better. ulcers/lesions have yet to heal since early march. what problem do i have? does anybody have similar experiences? what should i do?
edit: the same timing i tried smelling my discharge, i started noticing my pee smells off? idk if its normal pee smell but i think its musty? or soury? idk how to describe it tbh. but yea, its not like i smell my pee everytime. so im unsure how it smelled before this problem started. it might just be normal and im being paranoid now.

Don’t message me if you’re shy
Looking to meet someone who is honest with their intentions. Hopefully someone who is actually willing to move or someone who wants someone to move with them. I have nothing holding me here where I live and want to start a new chapter in my life. Tired of the games being played. So I'd prefer talking to women between 23-35. I'm a very empathetic person. I always try to consider someone's feelings before my own. So I'm pretty open minded.
I'll admit if I like you I can be CLINGY so don't be surprised. I want someone I can talk to all day.
Someone I can send good night and good morning texts to. Someone that is open to potentially building something together. I'd prefer to see who I'm talking to. So please message with a pic of yourself, it doesn't have to be right away. But I will ask for one within the first few days of meeting you. Of course I'll show you what I look like as well.
It's hard for me to talk about myself without questions being asked so go ahead and ask. Here's a few things I like that may help, I love horror movies and movies in general, sneakers and fashion, football, video games, my dog, and being quick witted and trying to make people laugh. I consider myself pretty outgoing. So there's not really a question I don't mind being asked if I have an answer to give.
Pics of me on my profile since I can’t get Imgur to work 😅
Please have the confidence to show yourself 🙂
Show me your personality 👻
Let’s watch a movie on discord together?
DMs are open!

Don’t message me if you’re shy
Looking to meet someone who is honest with their intentions. Hopefully someone who is actually willing to move or someone who wants someone to move with them. I have nothing holding me here where I live and want to start a new chapter in my life. Tired of the games being played. So I'd prefer talking to women between 23-35. I'm a very empathetic person. I always try to consider someone's feelings before my own. So I'm pretty open minded.
I'll admit if I like you I can be CLINGY so don't be surprised. I want someone I can talk to all day.
Someone I can send good night and good morning texts to. Someone that is open to potentially building something together. I'd prefer to see who I'm talking to. So please message with a pic of yourself, it doesn't have to be right away. But I will ask for one within the first few days of meeting you. Of course I'll show you what I look like as well.
It's hard for me to talk about myself without questions being asked so go ahead and ask. Here's a few things I like that may help, I love horror movies and movies in general, sneakers and fashion, football, video games, my dog, and being quick witted and trying to make people laugh. I consider myself pretty outgoing. So there's not really a question I don't mind being asked if I have an answer to give.
Pics of me on my profile since I can’t get Imgur to work 😅
Please have the confidence to show yourself 🙂
Show me your personality 👻
Let’s watch a movie on discord together?
DMs are open!

Don’t message me if you’re shy
Looking to meet someone who is honest with their intentions. Hopefully someone who is actually willing to move or someone who wants someone to move with them. I have nothing holding me here where I live and want to start a new chapter in my life. Tired of the games being played. So I'd prefer talking to women between 23-35. I'm a very empathetic person. I always try to consider someone's feelings before my own. So I'm pretty open minded.
I'll admit if I like you I can be CLINGY so don't be surprised. I want someone I can talk to all day.
Someone I can send good night and good morning texts to. Someone that is open to potentially building something together. I'd prefer to see who I'm talking to. So please message with a pic of yourself, it doesn't have to be right away. But I will ask for one within the first few days of meeting you. Of course I'll show you what I look like as well.
It's hard for me to talk about myself without questions being asked so go ahead and ask. Here's a few things I like that may help, I love horror movies and movies in general, sneakers and fashion, football, video games, my dog, and being quick witted and trying to make people laugh. I consider myself pretty outgoing. So there's not really a question I don't mind being asked if I have an answer to give.
Pics of me on my profile since I can’t get Imgur to work 😅
Please have the confidence to show yourself 🙂
Show me your personality 👻
Let’s watch a movie on discord together?
DMs are open!

Hi there! I'm mainly making this post because the past three days I have ended up matching with three actual skinwalkers. I'm on a roll and hoping an actual person will message me and break this dumpster-ass streak lol!
Muh Face
Me being cringe af
Okay so a little about me! My fossil ID is 34/M/TX to start. I'm a very extroverted introvert. By that I mean I ramble about unhinged topics at length on mic but freeze up and a mumble rap in public and not in a work uniform. I am a basic bitch early 2000s weeb/gamer with a hard r. As such I don't actually watch new anime, but just rewatch the same 3 comfort shows (send me recommendations and I won't watch them but will check the wiki and say I did).
As for games I'm on PS5/PC/Switch I'm currently playing Outlast the Trials, Helldivers 2, Fallout 76 (the best one fight me), Dragon's Dogma Dark Arisen (ITS BEEN LIKE 13 YEARS LETS FUCKING GOOOOOO) and tomorrow DD2, and Rise of Ronin. On PC I and playing Palworld and Nightingale. My Switch is also here...
Other hobbies include but are not limited to, playing guitar, squawking with playing guitar, jogging, driving in a very safe and sane manner, walking into target looking at one thing then immediately leaving, playing with my dog, breathing, being a functional member of society and not an unhinged weirdo in a skinsuit.
If you would like to apply I mainly like to communicate via voiceclips and would be hyped if you did too. Please keep in mind when applying for this position I have very strict criteria on which I will select applicants. Below is a list of required skills.
°Be funny °Be able to breathe °Blink occasionally (optional) °Bonus points for pics with your intro
That's about it. I look forward to sifting through all (one) of the messages I'll be barraged with. Hope you all have a pleasant whatever. :)

it all started on early feb. i (24F) had inner left labia pain 2-3 days after sex w my bf (25M) of 2 years (no sexual history prior). went to multiple drs and now none of them are helping me. some were’nt even being serious with me.
my symptoms were left inner labia pain, theres red patch near vagina entrance, slight discharge at the time. went to the pharmacy to get otc clotrimazole cream and i applied it on the area 2-3 times a day for almost a month. but just a few days of using the cream i noticed it didnt help so i visited a dr the same week symptoms appeared. 1st dr (government) gave me clotrimazole suppository 500mg. a week later period came, so i thought, oh maybe my period affected the healing process. so i went to visit another dr (gov) gave me the exact same suppository.
a week later, still havent improved. visited a new dr (gov). took gonorrhea swab test, dr told me i have yellowish discharge (inserted a speculum). and results taken in a gov hosp takes a month to be released. yeah it sucks waiting. so during that visit i was prescribed metronidazole and doxycycline. after i finished the medicines, of course i didnt improve. went to the same dr i visited last time. she examined my area again and told me i have “ulcers”. visually diagnosed me with herpes. now this is already early march. a month after initial symptoms appeared. took blood test and again the waiting game began.
that dr gave me acyclovir tablets. and me being paranoid i went to a private clinic to get tested for hsv. and it came out negative. i was also tested for syphilis, chlamydia and hiv, also negative.
at this point i feel like my pain was unbearable, there was some slight itching, on and off yellow discharge. ulcers still being there and near my vagina entrance hurt. the ulcers are located on my small labia. and the vagina entrance doesnt have ulcers but it hurt. all this located on left. sometimes my clit hood looks red and hurt.
after finishing acyclovir i wasnt healed. my period also ended when i finished the pills, so i went to the pharmacy again to get treated myself since drs treatments werent helping. i got myself otc metronidazole + miconazole combo suppository. and i got myself vaginal probiotics. i also used zinc oxide cream on the affected area.
after that treatment was done i was still not okay. visited the gov clinic to see my results, (which took a month) now its early april, dr told me i was positive gonorrhea. and other results was negative. so i got injected with ceftriaxone, and given doxycycline again. told my bf about my diagnosis, and told him to get tested. our relationship got rocky cuz of this. i didnt cheated and he claims he didnt too. we were kinda accusing each other. so he got tested and his results were negative. shocked of course, so he says i cheated. being in so much distress it affected my mental health so bad. even with hsv diagnosis i didnt eat a few day, woke up crying everyday, and couldnt focus on work where i had to take leaves.
so i went to the gov dr to get explanation and my symptoms have yet to heal after treatment (2 weeks after). surprisingly another dr attended to me at that same gov clinic (for some reason the other times only one same dr attended me) this new dr told me im actually negative gonorrhea and says maybe that other dr treated me empirically. but i swear that other dr told me i was positive and i even asked multiple times to be sure. this new dr told me the results show gonorrhea not detected but pus cell was seen. new dr believes i still have hsv and gave me lidocaine gel.
used the gel, didnt help much. after so many dr visits i felt hopeless and decided to just spend my money doing tests at private clinics rather than taking medicines blindly. so i did an std test for myco, urea and trich, chlamydia and gono, all negative.
then did a high vaginal swab to check my bacteria culture such as yeast and bv, strep. all negative and my vagina flora is normal. but during this test, dr also told me during this test she saw greenish/yellowish discharge (using speculum to get sample). i also did a hsv test again, still negative.
after this i smelled my discharge and it smelled sour. unsure if its normal or not. now end of april, i do still have yellowish discharge, some drs say its normal some says its not. i dont even know. but one of the days the red patch area hurt alot and was so irritated.
visited the gov dr again and she says she cant help me. by this time i wrote all my symptoms in a note on my phone inc pics of my vagina, test results, discharge and all. explaining all in detail and she just laughed at me saying im so extreme for writing everything in detail especially when i said i smelled my discharge and it was sour. she then just refered me to a gov derm.
visited the derm the same day. dr told me it doesnt look like ulcers more like lesions. just given me steroid pills and gel. i also wanted to show the dr my notes but she said its too long to read. i am quite positive and sure that this is not some skin problem that steroids could help. :( i feel like theyre just trying to make me take whatever hoping it gets better.
i then visited a private GYNO the same day. she tried helping. but she couldnt. she read all my notes and seen the pics. she says its weird i tested negative and believes i do or did have an infection going on. she advised me not to take the steroid pills as it could make an infection worse if i do still have one. so i just used the gel instead twice a day. gyno also told me to do a pap smear.
so i did, results came out 2 days ago and i was negative. nothing detected. since everything is for sure clear now, i started taking the steroid pills 2 days ago. today i still have pain on the red patch, the “ulcers” doesnt seem to be healing. but hurt only when touched. sometimes sitting on certain position makes me feel sore. but pain level not as bad as a month or two months ago. but i still have pain. i have been using the steroid gel a week now. i think im going crazy. idk what i have. nobody is able to help me. i know the pain is not just in my brain.
literally the red patch is very red today. ulcers still there. idk if i should stop using the steroid gel. i know i cant stop taking the pills suddenly or id get withdrawal symptoms. the pills are prednisonole. and its taken for 14 days decreasing dosage weekly. maybe ill apply steroid gel once a day now? is that okay tho.
my next appointmnt with the derm is this friday. but i really dont think its a SKIN PROBLEM. :(( i got symptoms 2-3 days after sex. the red patch pain has been there since day one, which is actually where it first started before ulcers popped up. never had outbreaks elsewhere up until now. so im sure its not hsv.
its been 4 months now, its already mid may. im not 100% better. ulcers/lesions have yet to heal since early march. what problem do i have? does anybody have similar experiences? what should i do?
edit: the same timing i tried smelling my discharge, i started noticing my pee smells off? idk if its normal pee smell but i think its musty? or soury? idk how to describe it tbh. but yea, its not like i smell my pee everytime. so im unsure how it smelled before this problem started. it might just be normal and im being paranoid now.

Overview

		⚽
Home	Colorado Rapids	2
Away	San Jose Earthquakes	2
Status	Halftime (45'+8')
Venue	Dick's Sporting Goods Park
City	Commerce City, Colorado
Date	Saturday May 11, 2024
Time	07:30 PM MDT

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Lineups

	Colorado Rapids	Pos		San Jose Earthquakes	Pos
	Zack Steffen, #95	G		William Yarbrough, #25	G
	Andreas Maxsø, #5	CD-L		Bruno Wilson, #4	CD-L
	Moise Bombito, #64	CD-R		Rodrigues , #26	CD-R
	Sam Vines, #3	LB		Vítor Costa, #94	LB
	Keegan Rosenberry, #2	RB		Carlos Akapo, #29	RB
	Djordje Mihailovic, #10	AM		Hernan Lopez, #23	AM
	Oliver Larraz, #18	LM		Niko Tsakiris, #30	LM
	Cole Bassett, #23	RM		Carlos Gruezo, #7	RM
	Rafael Navarro, #9	F		Jeremy Ebobisse, #11	F
	Omir Fernandez, #11	AM-L		Amahl Pellegrino, #9	AM-L
	Kevin Cabral, #91	AM-R		Cristian Espinoza, #10	AM-R
	Calvin Harris, #14	SUB		Ousseni Bouda, #17	SUB
	Michael Edwards, #34	SUB		Paul Marie, #3	SUB
	Connor Ronan, #20	SUB		Tanner Beason, #15	SUB
	Sebastian Anderson, #22	SUB		Emmanuel Ochoa, #41	SUB
	Jasper Löeffelsend, #21	SUB		Benjamin Kikanovic, #28	SUB
	Adam Beaudry, #31	SUB		Jack Skahan, #16	SUB
	Jonathan Lewis, #7	SUB		Alfredo Morales, #6	SUB
	Jackson Travis, #99	SUB		Daniel Munie, #24	SUB
	Darren Yapi, #77	SUB		Preston Judd, #19	SUB

Match events via ESPN

• Kickoff
  
• 14' 🟨 Djordje Mihailovic (Colorado Rapids) is shown the yellow card for a bad foul.
  
• 33' ⚽ Goal! Colorado Rapids 1, San Jose Earthquakes 0. Rafael Navarro (Colorado Rapids) right footed shot from very close range to the centre of the goal. Assisted by Djordje Mihailovic with a cross following a corner.
  
• 42' ⚽ Goal! Colorado Rapids 2, San Jose Earthquakes 0. Omir Fernandez (Colorado Rapids) right footed shot from outside the box to the bottom left corner. Assisted by Andreas Maxsø.
  
• 44' ⚽ Goal! Colorado Rapids 2, San Jose Earthquakes 1. Amahl Pellegrino (San Jose Earthquakes) right footed shot from the centre of the box to the bottom right corner.
  
• 45'+6' ⚽ Goal! Colorado Rapids 2, San Jose Earthquakes 2. Hernán López (San Jose Earthquakes) left footed shot from the centre of the box to the bottom right corner. Assisted by Vítor Costa with a headed pass following a corner.
  

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I was so stupid.. I sent someone a pic of my thighs and bra not thinking too much of it. And they threatened to send them to everyone I follow on Instagram. I blocked them and put my account on private and now idk what to do.. I’m scared and I’m shaking.
Edit: I’m actually scared that it’ll get back to my family and I’d be in trouble for it.

Possible CW(?) I’m not sure but, I’m gonna be talking about my experiences with having BPD and the possibility of OSDD / feeling like I’m a fraud with thinking of the possibility of having OSDD.

To start, I as Zak, the ‘host’, am always ‘front’. I’ve learned that this could be what a shell alter is. Someone who is bound to front always but, I have my own formed ‘personality’.
What makes me feel absolutely nuts is, some days I feel really hyper fem and hyper sexual and I feel good and I also like going by the name ‘Raven’ and I have what I’d always dreamed to look like in this state, made as a character in a game I play and this makes me feel so euphoric and absolutely amazing.
Some days I feel like well. Me, Zak. I’m masc, I ID as my body, I’m tired and cranky and I’m very anti social. I don’t like being hyper fem and I just vibe looking comfy.
Some days I feel like I’m 17 again and I hate the world and everyone and I’m hyper masc, and everything is overstimulating and I miss my ex friend group and drinking and smoking 🍃 and not giving a fuck about the world and I align with the name Ashton.
Some days I feel like I’m in my 30’s and I want to sit outside and vape and relax and I’m tried but, I want to be outside and plant flowers, watch the birds, walk to the ocean and find rocks and I align with the name Bodie.
Some days I feel like I’m 5 and also 20 and I feel small and love pastel things and want to be cuddled and taken care of by someone Im attracted to and just lay in bed and colour and make paper stars and it’s harder to talk and I don’t want to talk and I just feel.. small and I align with the name Bunni.
Some days I feel absolutely terrible, and have bad thoughts and I want to create chaos around me and I feel insane and absolutely miserable, I don’t want to have a name or a body, I feel like a void, a mere entity within the universe.
Some days I feel like my character in FFXIV, and when I play as my character, I lose touch of my surroundings and I feel so real to my game that I end up getting shivers down my body when I game or when I dress my character up in clothes that I want irl but can’t have, and when I interact with the folks around me in game, it’s like I can feel them, this sensation of a phantom touch when a hug emote is for me. When I take pics of my character Akane, I see it and it brings me joy and I feel calm and happy and I think to myself “yeah, that’s me.”.
I don’t hear anyone. I don’t hear anything but the loud noises around me and my brain feeling heavy when I feel these emotions and think these thoughts during certain situations. I can kind of in point when these feelings started to happen with each ‘alter’. Not exact dates but, an overall year. Zak - 2006 (I was 6) Eight- 2012 (I was 12) Raven- 2015 (I was 15) Ashton - 2017 (I was 17) Bunni - 2020 (I was 20) Bodie- 2022 (I was 22) Akane - 2023 (I am 23)
I’ll name her S as I’m not sharing her actual name, she is who I was before. She became her own being when I transitioned in 2016 and changed my name to Zak. I ignored her, shunned my traumatic past away, i feared my traumatic childhood (obviously) my father. I know what happened to me even if it doesn’t feel like it happened to, me, Zak. I know what happened. I went to therapy from 16-22. I’ve seen therapists again and again and psychiatrist again and again, and still am seeing a psychiatrist.
Where it confuses me is, are these personality disturbances because of my BPD, that I am diagnosed with. Is this because of my BPD plus CPTSD. My autism. Is this all combined? Is this OSDD plus everything else? And I’ve done my research about OSDD, for the past 3 almost 4 years, I’ve been looking up everything I can about OSDD and it matches but, hearing others. I don’t hear shit. I can feel their emotions but, I don’t hear anything. I know I experience derealization and depersonalization, I know I dissociate but, not to the extend of complete switches. I just go emotionally numb, then I feel confused for about 25 seconds. I come back to reality as Zak but.. now some one else.
I’m gonna be talking to my psychiatrist about this when I talk to him and I’m scared that he will completely shut me down like he has for everything else. “I’m not a therapist, go see one”. I can’t get a new psychiatrist because there’s no other psychiatrist I can see that doesn’t see someone in my personal family. Apparently they can’t see me if they see my mother, my cousin. Like? Wtf. If I want a new one I have to wait a year because the area I live in, has no fucking psychiatrists. UGH.
I don’t need answers, I just need shared experiences or experiences of others if you relate.

I've been noticing my friend circle dwindling the last couple years and haven't had that many people to chat and socialize with here and there or send memes to so that's boring.
I'm looking for a few people I mesh with to just chat with here and there or exchange memes and random thoughts or share our day to day life with on Snap or Discord maybe play some games or something when we're both free. Anyway, if this description or my hobbies and interests grab you shoot me a chat! I'd love to get to know some new people! I'm a great listener and here for support for anyone that needs it as well! Thanks for taking the time to read my post peoples.
Hobbies/Interests:
• DnD (Dungeons and Dragons, I've been a DM for about 10+ years now and DND has a very special place for me as it incorporates a ton of my interests rolled into one amazing and socially heavy hobby that always keeps my interest, I'm actually gonna be starting a new campaign soon enough as well.)
• Fitness (I ultimately gravitate towards more traditional bodybuilding but I do like to throw in some calisthenics and yoga/tai chi, I could totally give some suggestions to help you with your fitness goals if you'd like!)
• Reading (I recently had a career pivot into a Business to Business Sales Exec role so I've been reading a lot of good Sales and psych literature, but I love fantasy books like Lotr and light novels.)
• Shows and Movies (I love a good story and great writing, some of my faves for this are Star Trek: TNG and Community for shows but I also love a good animated comedy like Rick and Morty or Futurama, Simpsons etc. Honestly I've seen most everything though so if it had a good concept and decent enough follow through or a great story especially I probably liked it.)
• Anime and Manga (Same as the above tbh if it holds up I've probably seen it and like it I'm not at all picky haha, I just finished reading Vagabond and absolutely loved every second of it, still waiting on the creator to continue the story.)
• K-Dramas (I've seen a quite few really popular ones, my fave by far is Beyond Evil, it's an absolutely fantastic thriller.)
• Writing (I like to dabble here and there I really find it stimulating, it's loads fun and helps with creativity, I'm actually working on starting my own proper YA Fantasy novel at the moment.)
• Tea (Always a tough choice because there's tons of good teas, I've been getting more into it lately and love a good Oolong or Matcha Latte.)
• Gaming (Video Games, Board Games and Tabletop RPG Games mostly, I've played an absolute ton of each and have plenty I love. Lately I've been playing a lot of Palworld, Baldur's Gate 3, Tower Unite, VR Chat, some Smite and some Helldivers 2 but also love all the Borderlands titles and occasion FPS games.)
• Pets and Animals (I absolutely adore all pets and animals, from birds to rodents and lizards etc, I recently adopted a cute little stray tabby, would love to see pics of your pets or send some of my lil cutie)
• Cooking (I've been really into cooking these past 2 years with a pretty heavy focus on Eastern Asian and Italian cooking)

I’m just looking for some advice wether I should pursue divorce and what that would look like after
Story time
I’m in the military and I’ve been TDY for a training mission for 3 weeks now (left mid April) and will return within the next 10 days.
My wife and I were fine when I left, we were somewhat affectionate and would spend everyday together outside of work.
As soon as I got here she became distant. Leaving my messages on read, turning off her location and giving me 1 to 2 word responses.
Mind you I’m in a high stress environment where a lot of people are counting on me to do my job well and efficiently. When I’m home I usually depend on her for emotional support and guidance and I do the same for her.
I would message her multiple times a day asking how she is, what I’m up to, what she’s up to and barely ever get a real response.
That alone hurt so much.
Within a week of me being here, she hits me up saying she going to Canada to go clubbing with her female boss and another female friend, which is fine. I asked her to please be safe and keep in contact with me because I don’t know or have the numbers to either of those people.
She didn’t. I had to find out she made it home safe from clubbing in another country by checking her location, no texts no nothing from her.
I sent her a text saying I was upset about the situation and how I would never do that to her.
Holy shit was she hurtful. She called me manipulating, a horrible human being, and overall controlling.
She then wasn’t talking to me at all besides to say I was a piece of shit.
Then she started conveying how she wants to be independent and even told me “I can’t do this, I feel like you’re just holding me back”
Damn I cried pretty hard
It was at this point the stress of what was going on got to me a little and my commander noticed. I let him know I think I’m getting a divorce.
He really helped, told me to pursue couples counseling and have a forgiving mindset. So that’s what I did.
I reached back out to her begging to call just so I could hear her voice.
We FaceTimed, she barely made eye contact and rolled her eyes at everything I had to say. I even just asked her to say sorry for the hurtful things said. She said “So you want me to just lie to you?”
I hung up, more crying ensued.
Quickly got my self together and called back. She started to understand and actually apologized.
Things were good for 1 day. Sent me a butt pic, life felt amazing.
Day after that, back to being distant and ignoring me. Work is really getting to me. 12 hour shift and sleeping on cots isn’t a blast. I need emotional support.
I beg her again to just talk to me.
She says she doesn’t want to
I retaliate by saying “I would never treat someone I love like this.”
She says “Well talk when you get back”
I proceeded to freak out and break down. Xo and commander console me.
I go on a half an hour walk with the commander. He says “Even if you make things better wouldn’t you want someone that would ever treat you like this?”
I say “No, but I love her so much”
I get her on the phone yesterday. Fighting and frustration ensues, I just demanded to be treated better. She explains she doesn’t want to be with anyone and might be lesbian.
I explain that I don’t even care I just want to be treated better, and that her actions have been so emotionally damaging for me.
I do ask her though. “How do you want to separate?” She explains she wants to stay together and keeping living together as friends, even sleep in the same bed still!
I say yeah whatever, hoping thing will get figured out by the time I get home.
Things are good after that we talk about work and normal stuff.
She goes out again last night with her friends.
Starts treating me like shit immediately again.
I’m so done I can’t do this.
She gotta be cheating or something right?
Anyways I’m done, as soon as I get home I’m grabbing the nearest barracks room and staying tf away from that manipulative demon.