I know I might will rub many people the wrong way for writing this, but that's the point of this post. I'm fine with any hate comments but read and take a moment to think.

• Nirmala Panta's culprit has already been caught, people crying and rioting for the justice were the reason she didn't get it
  
• Sandeep Lamichhane might have been proven not-guily in the court for now, but everyone knows he was wrong.
  
• Nepal is an insignificant and irrelevant nation. So stop being touchy when someone doesn't know a basic fact about Nepal or makes a mistake
  
• Buddha, Mt Everest, Gorkha, this is cringe and embarrassing.
  
• India is our only friend and ally. America has been our well wisher since the beginning. Unwarranted hate against India and America won't do us good.
  
• Nepal's problem isn't caused by anyone but Nepali people themselves who keep voting for these stupid people in power. But we love to blame others, bahun le bigaryo, neta le Garda ho, raja le Garda ho, India le Garda ho, America le Garda ho. Kasaile Garda Haina, it's you. Timile Garda ho.
  
• accept it or not, lipulekh, kalapani, darjeeling these are pipedreams sold to you to get votes. They were never part of the unified territory of Nepal, never will be, nor the people of those want to be associated with a failing nation like us. Gorkha army only controlled the region for 10-12 years after defeating the Gadhwali king.
  
• Nepali people are "Kaan le kaag lagyo bhanera kaag ko pachadi daudine". We are easy to manipulate, easy to use, too lato for our own good.
  
• There is opportunities in Nepal, but our lahure mindset that has been ingrained in our brain doesn't want to see it. We only see bidesh ma gayera kaam garne as epitome of success because that's what we saw our forefathers doing for centuries. So don't get surprised or get angry when foreigners come here to set up a business.
  
• We have extreme anti-entrepreneuship culture in Nepal. Everyone directly or indirectly advices you to not open a business. Opening up a business is seen as kei kaam garna nasakera bidesh Jana nasakera byapar gareko. We'd rather spend 5 lakhs to go to Dubai and earn 30000 than spend the same amount here, earn the same but save more.
  
• Nepali people are bunch of show offs, no skills, no experience but they want good job and salary. They will be financially weak internally but will show off expensive lifestyle outside. One start doing something, everyone will do the same.
  
• We might live in 21st century, accessing a modern lifestyle but we still carry that tribalistic and village mindset. That's why we fail to see things in wider and global context. Everything has to be dragged down to village level of trivialism.
  
• All these wars, revolution, andolan, system change has done us no good. It has only come to bite us in the back.
  

Will add more if I remember it, you can add yours. You are free to agree or disagree

My leg wraps keep going loose, unwinding and/or sliding down my legs. I probably made them out of the wrong material (I was working with what I had, fabric-wise), so there's not enough friction. I can't make new ones in time for my LARP (which is this weekend), so any tips for how to keep them in place? I already tried safety pins, but those didn't work. Tying a thread around it doesn't seem to help much either.

Hello NoFap brothers, hope everyone is doing good!
I started nofap a couple days ago and went all in by deactivating all of my soical media accounts, disabling safari on my iphone through screen time restriction, and app store so i couldn't install anything. My screen time was going lower and lower which made me feel great and way more productive.
I didn't have any strong urges or temptations, some weak erotic thoughts here and there that I easily distracted myself from. I even started showering with cooler water and that felt refreshing as well. 10 days went great until the 11th one at night.
Not only i couldn't sleep, but very strong thoughts came on my brain and I couldn't distract myself from them, I was getting anxious as my heart was beating faster, and degenerate old kinks and fetishes of mine were running in my head. It got so bad that I was shaking and the thoughts were getting stronger and stronger. I just knew that my brain won the battle so I just gave up and relapsed otherwise I would have done things that i'd be ashamed off later (My brain was forcing me to act upon these weird kinks and fetish fantasies).
Now i'm starting again and trying to prepare and find a plan when the extreme uncontrollable urge will come again?
Has anything similar happened to you? If so, do you got any tips how to deal with it and overcome this hard mind game battle?
Thanks

Hey all!

I'll keep this brief, but I was asked by a friend to post in here about my story, and I hope it helps some of you.
When I was 14, I was diagnosed with bone cancer in my leg. After many operations, a lot of scares, spreading and a few bone reconstructions, at the age of 24 I got the all clear from any cancer. Of course I had a lot of recovery to do and had almost no use of one leg.
2 years later, a few more surgeries and a lot of physio, I can walk again.
One thing I picked up on a lot if my friends and family getting upset/stressed thinking they're not doing enough to help me or struggling to help me. Trust me, EVERY little thing you do is noticed and hugely appreciated. As the patient, we feel like we can be a burden on everyone around us, so the last thing we want is you to be struggling with things. If you're struggling, be honest about it and I can almost guarantee it's fine.
My 27th birthday is just around the corner, and I'm going on my first ever night out, having drinks with friends and having what most would consider as my first proper birthday celebration.
If you're feeling like there's no light at the end of the tunnel... believe me, I was there many times - keep going. Fight. You can do this!

We are having a bit of a more serious issue with our Japanese Akita puppy and we’re not sure what to do. When only one of us leaves, he will go crazy and start barking and biting whoever is still inside with him super hard and does not stop.
It doesn’t seem like he’s angry or attacking us, but it definitely hurts. It’s like he needs us to go outside too. For example this morning when my gf left for work, he jumped on bed where I was (he knows he is not supposed to be on the bed) and started biting my arm fairly hard not wanting to let go. Then knees, legs, hands, way too close to my face and neck, ears, etc. and he was just freaking out.
This is the second time it’s happened. Usually when one of us leaves he just watches us outside of the window. And barks for a minute then is done but it’s getting worse now. Any tips on how to go about this? We have left him alone in increments building up over time and while he barks and howls when alone this is new behavior.

Edit: DO NOT message me a simple hi or hello, with no information about you, Put some effort in to your message like i have, come on. Day+Attempt#194
Hello everyone, Thank you for taking the time to read, I know its long, I know - I know. But its worth the read, Trust me. I appreciate you immensely.
Here's a bit about me,
My name is Jay, I live on the East coast of the US. I'm looking for love - like everyone else on here.., but you may not believe or even be doubtful that I've never had a GF before with me being 26, but its true. I'm simply just not willing to "be with" just anyone and I'm very picky. I want us to be a match, more than just have similar things in common.
One thing I have always been told is that I'm a "Real Catch, I'd be extremely lucky to have someone like you" - WELL THEN TAKE ME. I'M FREE. LOL.
About me:
Physically -
~I'm a semi-tall guy, around 5'10.
~I'm thin but muscular.
~I have dirty blonde/ brown hair.
~Changing colored eyes.
~A voice nice enough to melt all your safeguards and get right into your heart and weak spots.
~I do not have any tattoos or piercings. Though I would like to get some eventually.
If you'd like to see a picture of me just ask and I'll show you - IF I may see you as well, I simply just don't want a picture of me out there for anyone to see.
-If there's anything else you'd like to know just ask.
Otherwise -
~I do have 3 pet bunnies I would be more than happy to show you, they are extremely cute.
~I'm a very honest and down to earth guy.
~I'm very patient and easy going.
~I'm very curious and inquisitive. I will try to ask everything I can to learn all about you haha.
~I'm Very VERY Kind & Caring, I will probably ask how you are feeling a bajillion times a day, simply out of care for you.
~I can get pretty clingy, and will always want your attention and to be talking with you. If i have someone im interested in i wont want to talk to anyone else🤷‍♂️
~I'm very trustworthy - you can confide in me, and entrust your deepest secrets and I wont tell a soul.
~I'm a HUGE hopeless romantic, im old fashioned and will always try to impress you.
- I'm, a BIG softie even though I may look a smol bit intimidating, but I'd do just about anything to see you smile or laugh. And yes.., I do mean anything.
~I'm a big goof - I will get up to some silly shenanigans ALL the time, I will crack dumb jokes and send you memes and tik toks just to make you happy, even if its from across the room I'd wait to see your reaction lol.
~I'm extremely loyal, and would never even think of cheating.
~I will cook for you, and clean up too, even around the house, I'm very self productive and don't ask for much. Just don't forget to kiss the cook.
~I'd also love to just cuddle up and watch a movie or read a book together, anything to get us closer. Id try to take you out on dates whenever possible haha. I have a million SUPER romantic date ideas I have but have never had anyone interested enough in me to take out. Here's your chance ;)
~I will always want to share stuff I find interesting with you, and try to share every moment of every day with you. I'm not looking for someone who can only talk for a small amount of time, I want someone who's willing to put in all the effort I put into them back into me, it goes both ways. If I'm "with" someone you are my TOP priority nobody and nothing else would be. You would be the only person I'd truly want to talk to, so rest assured I would NEVER cheat, even more so because no one is interested in me - Hence why I'm here hahaha.
I'm sure there is more to me than this snippet but I cant think of more at the moment haha, so get to know me and find out more about me.
Some of my interests are: Engineering- I'm a nerd. I admit it. I love being technical and hands on, I love building things. All kinds of things, from furniture, machinery, and reverse engineering anything I find. I love learning how things work and trying to improve things.
Music - I prefer music with a very fast pace, or with some very meaningful lyrics I can relate to. I love to sing along to music and songs that have a deep meaning behind it I can sympathize with makes it all the better. Some bands I like are: Bad Omens, Beartooth, Demon Hunter, MIW, I9K - The list goes on. I'm a bit of a metalhead unfortunately.
TV Shows & Movies - I love watching shows, and I'd love to stream some shows and have some E-dates with you, to get to know you, or if you are close to me, maybe we could do it in person. Some shows I like or more of the Fantasy/Sci-Fi, Comedy, Action, stuff like: National Treasure, Halo, BattleBots, Rick and Morty, AHS, Anything Marvel or DC, The Witcher, Wednesday, The Sandman, The Magicians, The Umbrella Academy, ETC.
Gaming - Yes yes I know, Basic guy likes basic stuff. But gaming has been a thing for me since forever. I know most of you wont care or want to hear that, but I'll leave out the specifics on this part unless you are interested in that, MEGA Bonus points if you are.
Here's a lists of Cons to dating me-
~I'm not Ryan Reynolds. Disappointing, I know.
~I will fight you on what goes on pizza lol.
~I'm not rich.., Yet.
~I can't pronounce Worcestershire.
~I'm slightly forgetful, but with good reasoning.
~(Not really a con but- some might disagree) I still have ALL of my firsts, Do with that what you will c:
~I've got an endless pile of love and affection and no one to give it to! What a dilemma! Help me fix it?
Other than that I'll save the rest for a bit more of getting to know each other.
Here's a bit of what I'm looking in you:
~Preferably someone with lots of free time, and loves to chit chat. I'm seriously not interested in getting 1 message a day. Though I understand people get busy, I personally am not willing to try to learn about you and form something with 7 responses a week. Effort gets reciprocated and I appreciate the time you put in me.
~Physically: -I’m not personally attracted to anyone who’s “curvy/ chubby”, I apologize. Not a shallow thing, I just dont have the attraction chemical in my brain for that, I’m sorry. -If you’re shorter than me, thats a plus to me. -I love dimples, if you have those when you smile, bonus points 😊 - I’m not sure what else to put.., but as for nsfw wise find out😂
~I'm a sucker for a different accent other than American, and if you have an Posh English accent you have already won my heart.
~I'm also only really looking for someone within the ages of 18-35. I don't want anyone old enough to be my mom lol.
~I'd prefer (But not a must) people NOT on the other side of the world, as other time zones SUCK. I don't expect to find anyone who also has never had a boyfriend either, but that would be a real plus. I also don't mind a LDR, but I don't want that forever. But it gives us time to get to know each other.
But as for attributes I'm looking for in you:
~Someone who is above all else very very Loyal and would never cheat.
~Someone who is Honest, and will tell me the truth over a little white lie.
~Someone who is Kind & Caring, who'd constantly check on me, and accept me for who I am & help me improve day to day.
~Someone who is trustworthy, and I can count on to keep my secrets safe, or even just help me remember things.., I do tend to be somewhat forgetful.
~Someone who is very Patient and wants to see me succeed and will help me do so, just like I would help you. Even if its small day to day things, I would appreciate your company ANY time.
~I want a partner who is Affectionate, can reciprocate, and loves to snuggle and talk about their day, and what their interests are, and what makes them happy.
~Someone who can admit they get clingy or overprotective is a bonus.
~A partner with good communication is key, if something wrong we have to be able to talk about it.
~A partner who likes to game with me or at least watch me play would be a plus but not a requirement.
~Someone with a good sense of humor and like to joke around, I am a big goof after all and I love to joke around. Sending memes is always appreciated and good to cheer people up too!
~I'd prefer someone with the same music taste, but not a requirement, Plus if you wouldn't mind if I send you love songs occasionally that's a bonus, or sending me some back haha.
~Being willing to voice call is a must, Texting forever is not the way to go. I have to know what your voice is like haha, later on we can video call if you are comfortable with that. I prefer chatting on Discord because Reddit messages of any kind I'm sure you know are unreliable and sucky in general. So please send me your discord if you have one :)
~I would LOVE to see picture of your pets if you have any. Bonus points if it includes your beautiful self haha.
I'm sure there is more I'm looking for but I cant think of it right now haha, I will have to edit this when I think of it.
Please tell me about you as an opener! I told you a good bit about me, now its your turn haha.
Tell me some things like -
~What's your name?
~Where are you from?
~How old are you?
~What are your hobbies / interests?
~What about my post interested you?
~Where is my TV Remote?!
~Selfie? Pet pics?
~Hit me with your best joke or meme :)
~What's your favorite candy?
I'd LOVE to get to know you, and see where things go.
But yeah, I know it was long I'm sorry haha. Send me a message and lets get to know each other! :)

One thing we were never told was how this all started and i believe i know how it all started, why it happened and who is responsible but first we need to go back in time. Back before the outbreak, before the group entered highschool and way before Takashi and Rei made their pinky promise in kindergarden... it all started with that teacher... MR. KOICHI SHIDO
SHIDO BACKGROUND (copied info from provided link, skip if you already know this)
Back when Shido was little he admired his father IROUCHI SHIDO who was a candidate for cabinent minister. However, while Ichirou's public life made him seem like a noble man, his life at home was the exact opposite. Koichi constantly heard arguments between his parents, one such fight revealed that Ichirou was cheating on his wife. His mother began to drink heavily, which caused her to die of alcohol poisoning when Koichi was in high school. Despite this, Koichi still trusted his father even then. He left home and continued his studies at a university that his father had been director of before his ascention into politics. Even after becoming a teacher and asked his father for a position the older man said that it would be Koichi's younger brother in Tokyo who would be the one to succeed him. He ordered his eldest son to help his brother in Tokonosu.
Koichi, who had no knowledge of his half-brother's existence prior to his father's revelation, was outraged that his father had another child behind his mother's back. At this point, Koichi lost all respect for his dad and developed an intense hatred of him. However, knowing better than to disobey his father due to his polictical power, Koichi worked with his brother. In secret, he used their partnership to pinpoint his brother's weak spot, in order to gather enough materials to put an end to the entire Shido family.
At one point, Ichirou phoned his son and told him that an officer in the public safety department was investigating the "real" source of his funds. Koichi was told to hold back the officer's daughter, Rei, by a year in order to humiliate him and make him back off. The teacher had no grudge against Rei, but at the same time, he did not care if he treated her the same way as the other girls, since he never had any interest in women to begin with. Koichi flunked Rei without hesitation, hoping that it would bring him to ultimately achieve his final goal.
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FACT
Shido gave Rei's father Detective Tadashi Miyamoto the information about where the money for Minister Shido's was coming from and as a result the Minister had the teacher change her grades and give her bad marks as well which caused Rei to get kicked off the team she was on during the previous year and eventually got held back.
FACT/THEORY
All politicians get money through different means, some even use shell companies that secretly support things the people would disapprove of or get them jailed and i believe that Minister Shido had his hands in stuff that would be consider inhumane like human trafficking or illegal exportation. To quote resident evil "Unknown even to its own employees, It's massive profits are generated by military technology, genetic experimentation & Bio-weaponry." Even though Detective Miyamoto didn't expose Minister Shido, i believe he got too close and others took over and were about to expose him and in response Minister Shido had his men or people pack up and released a few of the infected/undead that the arriving officers believed they were helping but got bit and it spiderwebbed from there.
FACT
Shido obviously knew all of this but didn't say anything cause he became an informant but had to play his hand right otherwise his father would find out he was the mole and would have people come for him. It's cause of this he had no problem going after Rei when told because he didn't have a choice and cause honestly he didn't care about her or any of the other girls in the class either (never wanted to be a teacher). He wanted to avenge his mother and get back at his father for dictating his life so he used his half brother to get the intel but never thought it would turn out this way but since it did it gave him the perfect opportunity to become the "LEADER" on the bus and act all high and mighty the way we saw him.
CLOSING: The one responsible for all of this is Minister Shido who unleashed hell on the world because he was almost caught and exposed. Even Saya's father said that he had had dealings with him in the past or exchanged words and that he was corrupt or something similar and wouldn't stop Rei from killing Shido if she wanted too.
QUESTION: what do you think of my theory, do u believe it's spot on or do you believe something else?

TIL it’s not typical to have to stretch the same way you have to sneeze or yawn?!
Okay, not all my stretches, but first thing in the morning when I wake up, I sometimes have a feeling either in my lower back and hips or my whole spine. I know I have a good shaky stretch in there! I usually just get it out, moving around with it feels awful.
Legs only, I put my feet on the floor but still laid on my back, kinda my upper body on the bed and stretch my legs out straight. They’ll shake pretty good for several seconds to a minute and I’m ready for the day.
Whole body can hit even harder. Sometimes I just go to put my arms over my head to stretch, but then my back arches and my legs do the same thing from the leg stretch one and I go onto one side. I could stop this, but it would be difficult, and uncomfortable. I’m aware of what is happening, but my body has decided it needs this stretch.
My partner has let me know this is a rather strange thing I’m doing, not meanly. I’m just curious if it’s possible an autistic thing, because I have been doing that several times a week for as long as I can remember

In the end, I was able to get back to my conversions, and right now, I'm converting one of my fave aberrations ever! This has been quite an undertaking, since it's my highest-CR creation yet (though of course, I plan on taking on much greater ones). I've tried to be consistent and balanced with the power level, but I'm still not sure if I managed it. It doesn't help that there aren't many CR 17 Aberrations around - and I must thank the Creature Codex for their hard work and for providing me some examples to confront my own work with. Of course, suggestions and constructive criticism are always welcome.
And as always, I hope you enjoy.
P.S.: If you're looking for conversions of the Beholder, both the Creature Codex and the Creature Chronicle blogs have some excellent ones.

BEHOLDERKIN, OVERSEER

This horror resembles a black tree made of rubbery, pulsating flesh. Each of its branches ends in a single unblinking eye, and three fanged maws yawn open on the creature’s trunk. It propels itself forward by crawling on several root-like tentacles.
BEHOLDERKIN, OVERSEER - CR 17
XP 102’400
LE Huge Aberration (beholderkin)
Init +6; Senses all-around vision, darkvision 60 ft.; Perception +31
DEFENSE
AC 31, touch 10, flat-footed 29 (+6 armor, +2 Dex, +15 natural, -2 size)
hp 297 (22d8+198)
Fort +18, Ref +9, Will +19
DR 5 / - (see below);
SR 28
OFFENSE
Speed 10 ft.; air walk
Melee 3 bites +24 (2d8+11), 4 tentacles +22 (1d8+5 plus grab)
Ranged 4 eye rays +14 touch (spell effect)
Space 15 ft.; Reach 15 ft. (20 ft. with tentacles)
Special Attacks command beholder, constrict (tentacle, 1d8+5), eye rays
Spell-Like Abilities (CL 17th, concentration +24, +28 when casting defensively)
Constant - air walk
At will - crushing despair (DC 21), hold monster (DC 22), magic missile, scorching ray, ray of enfeeblement (DC 18), ray of sickening (DC 18), suggestion (DC 20), telekinesis (DC 22)
3 / day - chain lightning (DC 23), dominate person (DC 22), empowered scorching ray, freezing sphere (DC 23), greater dispel magic, major creation, quickened magic missile, ray of exhaustion (DC 20)
1 / day - polar ray, temporal stasis (DC 25)
STATISTICS
Str 33, Dex 15, Con 28, Int 24, Wis 22, Cha 25
Base Atk +15; CMB +27 (+29 disarm, +31 grab); CMD 44 (46 vs. disarm)
Feats Alertness (B), Combat Casting, Combat Expertise, Combat Reflexes, Defensive Combat Training, Empower Spell-Like Ability (scorching ray), Great Fortitude, Improved Disarm, Improved Initiative, Improved Vital Strike, Multiattack, Power Attack, Quicken Spell-Like Ability (magic missile), Vital Strike
Skills Acrobatics +21, Bluff +25, Climb +21, Intimidate +26, Knowledge (arcana) +24, Knowledge (dungeoneering) +27, Knowledge (any two) +20, Knowledge (planes) +24, Linguistics +12, Perception +31, Sense Motive +24, Spellcraft +24, Stealth +15 (+23 with fungus armor), Survival +24, Use Magic Device +24; Racial Modifiers +4 Perception, +8 Stealth with fungus armor
Languages Aklo, Beholder, Common, Draconic, Infernal, Undercommon
Special Qualities fungal armor, reactive spell immunity, reactive spell turning
ECOLOGY
Environment cold hills or mountains
Organization solitary, pair or grove (2-4 plus 3-6 beholders and 3-6 director beholderkin)
Treasure double standard
SPECIAL ABILITIES
Command Beholder (Su): An overseer can use dominate monster at will as a spell-like ability (caster level 17th), but only against beholders and creatures with the beholderkin subtype. Any such creature can resist this effect with a Will saving throw (DC 28). The save DC is Charisma-based. This is the equivalent of a 9th-level spell. Hive mothers and other overseers are immune to this ability.
The maximum number of beholders and beholderkin an overseer can command at one time equals half its Hit Dice plus its Charisma modifier. Thus, the average overseer can command up to 18 beholders or beholderkin at a time.
If an overseer loses control of a dominated beholder (as is the case if a dominated beholder is in the antimagic cone of another beholder), the overseer can immediately sense the loss of control and knows the position and distance to the beholder at the time control was lost. If control does not return within a few rounds, the overseer seeks out the rogue beholder to investigate and possibly punish it.
Eye Rays (Su): An overseer uses its spell-like abilities by producing magical rays from the eyeballs on its branch-like limbs. Each round, as a standard action, it may use up to 4 of its spell-like abilities within the set limits of uses per day. Treat these as ranged touch attacks with a range of 180 feet and no range increment. An overseer may not use the same spell-like ability two rounds in a row, and may not use the same spell-like ability with more than a single eye in a given round. Typically, an overseer uses three eye rays, leaving it with the option to use either its reactive spell turning or reactive spell immunity (see below) as needed.
Fungal Armor (Ex): A layer of thick, wiry fungus grows on an overseer's body. This provides the overseer with a +6 armor bonus to its Armor Class and gives the overseer a damage reduction of 5/- and a +8 circumstance bonus to Stealth checks as the fungus changes hue to match its surroundings (already figured in the above statistics). Fungal armor has no maximum Dexterity bonus, no armor check penalty and no arcane spell failure chance, and does not reduce the overseer's speed. However, the fungus is vulnerable to extreme temperatures. If an overseer ever fails a saving throw against a fire or cold effect that deals hit point damage, it must make a Fortitude save against the same DC of the attack it was hit with. Failing this Fortitude save means that enough of the fungus has been scoured away from the overseer's body that the overseer loses the benefits of its fungal armor for 1 hour - at which point the fungus has regenerated enough that the benefits are active again. Diminish plants also suppresses the overseer's fungal armor for 1d3 rounds unless the overseer succeeds at a Fortitude saving throw (DC 10 + spell level + caster's relevant ability score bonus).
Reactive Spell Immunity (Su): Once per round as an immediate action, an overseer can use one of its eye rays to negate a single spell that affects it as the spell is being cast. The overseer must successfully hit the creature that cast the spell in question with a ranged touch attack; if successful, it is immune to that casting of that particular spell. Otherwise, the spell affects the overseer normally (though the overseer is still allowed a saving throw and/or spell resistance if applicable). If the spell influenced by this ability affects multiple targets or an area, it affects any other targets or the area normally, but the overseer remains immune to its effect. An overseer may not use this ability if it is considered flat-footed against the source of the spell, and may not use it in the same round as its reactive spell turning ability.
Reactive Spell Turning (Su): Once per round as an immediate action, an overseer can use one of its eye rays to reflect a single-target spell that targets the overseer back to its source. The overseer must hit the caster with the eye ray; if successful, the target suffers the effects of its own spell, allowing for a saving throw as normal. Otherwise, the spell affects the overseer normally (though the overseer is still allowed a saving throw and/or spell resistance if applicable). An overseer may not use this ability if it is considered flat-footed against the source of the spell, and may not use it in the same round as its reactive spell immunity ability.
An overseer is a particular breed of beholderkin that serves as a direct subordinate to the hive mother in large beholder communities. A beholder hive city ruled by an hive mother always contains a handful of these monstrosities, who concern themselves with keeping watch over lesser beholderkin and report any deviant behaviour to the mother. However, many overseers, possessing the typical beholderkin's arrogance and self-centeredness, chafe at this arrangement and seek greater stations for themselves. While few overseers are reckless enough to directly challenge an hive mother's power, they often vie for the position of favored enforcer, and rivalries among groups of overseers often provide a weak point in a beholder hive city's formidable defenses. A few rare overseers decide to leave beholder communities and seek out non-beholder societies to dominate from behind the scenes, often helped by a few dominated beholderkin.
Perhaps one of the most peculiar characteristics about overseers is the fact that they live in a symbiothic relationship with a strange, otherworldly fungus that grows inside their bodies and expands on their skin. The creature has some measure of control over this fungus, and can vary its color in order to express emotion or camouflage itself, as well as use it as some sort of impromptu body armor. However, the fungus is susceptible to sudden and large variations in environmental temperature - a cold or fire based attack covering a large enough portion of the creature's body can kill enough of the fungus as to temporarily negate its living armor, leaving the overseer in a state of relative vulnerability.
Despite their formidable combat skills, overseers tend to consider themselves above such vulgar activities as physical combat, and their preferred place to be in a conflict is behind charmed and dominated minions, which they're never in short supply of. They usually direct their servants (both beholderkin and otherwise) in battle while at the same time using their spell-like abilities to harass and inflict pain on their enemies. They particularly enjoy disrupting enemy spellcasters, using their reactive spell immunity and spell turning to frustrate them. If forced into physical fighting, they are more than capable of holding their own, but are quick to understand when their situation is becoming untenable, and they rarely hesitate to retreat when significantly injured or when their fungus armor is compromised. An overseer is skilled in the use of several magic items, and typically keeps an item allowing teleportation with itself for such an emergency. However, an overseer will not forget such a humiliation, and is patient enough to wait for years before enacting its revenge, if necessary.
An overseer is about 20 feet tall, though its branch-like limbs can make it appear even larger, and weighs between 7 and 8 tons.

I'm building a fantastical science fiction world based on the real world, where magic exists and is not yet fully understood by science. Part of my magic system is based on the Thaumcraft system, which has always been my favorite magic system.
In this world, crystals have been used for magical and healing purposes. However, for the most part, the use of mundane crystals for magical and healing purposes is considered a form of pseudomagic and pseudoscience, without any real or proven effects.
For example, ancient Egyptians buried lapis lazuli with the deceased to protect them in the afterlife. Egyptian amulets, worn as jewelry, ensured the well-being of the individual and benefited them in the afterlife, representing deities and their powers. In funerary practices, they used headrests to symbolize resurrection and rebirth. Ancient Greeks believed that clear quartz was permanently frozen water and used amethyst as an amulet against hangovers, as its name means "not intoxicated." Across cultures, crystals were considered objects with healing properties in lapidary medicine. The Hopi of Arizona used quartz crystals to diagnose illnesses, and in Europe, belief in the healing powers of crystals persisted into the Middle Ages, documented in texts called lapidaries. Rose quartz, for example, was believed in Egypt to prevent aging, the Romans used it as a seal of ownership, and in the Middle Ages, it was included in healing potions. Today, it is known as the "stone of love" and is used to balance emotions and heal anger and disappointment.
Although these practices reflect a belief in magical properties, in reality, the mentioned crystals do not possess real magical powers and are considered pseudomagic. However, there are truly magical crystals. These are called vis crystals.
Vis crystals consist of altered quartz crystals that have absorbed or generated, through interaction with ambient magic over millennia, large amounts of a specific type of primal aspect.

Primal Aspects

In my fantastical science fiction world, matter can be decomposed not only chemically but also aspectually. Aspects are actually emergent properties of matter that have been condensed and isolated.
There are 7 primal aspects, and hundreds of combinatory aspects. While in antiquity these primal aspects were associated with "elements of nature," it is now known that aspects are actually emergent properties of matter that have been condensed and isolated from their material base.
The 7 primal aspects of matter are as follows:
Aer (gases and volatility): Represents the essence of gases and volatility. It is used to manipulate properties of matter.
Aqua (liquids and dissolution): Controls the properties of liquids and their solvent capacity. It is used to manipulate properties of matter.
Ignis (heat and combustion): Associated with heat and combustion capacity, it allows for the generation of intense heat, manipulation of temperature, and generation of plasma.
Terra (solids and silicates): Represents solidity and earthy materials. It is used to manipulate properties of materials and transmute minerals.
Ordo (order and homogeneity): Controls periodic order and homogeneity in matter. It is used to produce ordered structures and stabilize materials and thaumic infusion processes.
Perditio (entropy and disorder): Represents entropy and disorder in matter. It is used to disintegrate materials into their aspectual essences.
Spatium (metamagic and space-time metrics): Associated with metamagic and altered space-time metrics, it allows for magic manipulation, construction of portals, and space distortion.
The existence of the Spatium aspect is known, but for most of history, it was completely unknown and sometimes misunderstood, due to its extremely scarce sources on the planet.
It wasn't until 2013 that its existence was theorized, and not until 2019 that it was correctly isolated and studied. A millivis (unit of aspect quantity) of Spatium can cost thousands of dollars.
The production and extraction of the Spatium aspect is a complex and costly process involving the crafting and concentration of the dangerous combinatory aspect "vitium," and the generation and cultivation of interplanar microwells with said aspect, from which the Spatium aspect is extracted

Vis Crystals

As previously explained, vis crystals are altered quartz crystals (usually) with high concentrations of one of the 7 primal essences, which can be naturally generated through the interaction between ambient magic and the minerals of the environment.
These crystals have been used in antiquity in many transmutation and aspectual manufacturing processes, in runic infusion altars and arcane stills, and also to craft artifacts such as scepters and power amulets, and magical weapons and ammunition (swords and arrows and, later, pistols and bullets) with arcane qualities.
Below are detailed properties of each of the 7 quartz-based vis crystals, which are the most common:
Ignis Crystals: Take tetrahedral forms with reddish hues. They are warm to the touch and flammable when exposed to flame. When burning, they are impossible to extinguish until consumed, leaving quartz sand as residue. Upon receiving strong impacts, they can detonate violently. When dissolved in strong acids, they form a highly reactive superacid.
Terra Crystals: Adopt cubic forms with greenish hues. They have greater hardness and resistance compared to ordinary quartz crystals. Otherwise, they do not exhibit significant additional properties beyond the realms of alchemy and thaumaturgy.
Aer Crystals: Take octahedral forms with yellowish hues. They have a very low density, close to that of air, and can float on very dense gases. When compressed, their volume decreases up to a certain limit. When subjected to vacuum, they expand. They are volatile and lose aer aspect over time in the absence of sufficient concentrations of ambient vis, degrading into quartz sand. Volatility decreases with higher pressure and lower temperature.
Quasicrystals of Aqua: Adopt icosahedral forms with bluish hues. They are softer than quartz. When exposed to flame, they generate a mixture of simple polar liquids (mostly water) as they degrade into quartz sand. When exposed to salts and other desiccants, they generate the same mixture of liquids as they degrade into quartz sand.
Quasicrystals of Spatium: Take dodecahedral forms with silvery hues (later discovered to absorb light in the ultraviolet range, so polymorphic mages with avian and reptilian eyes can easily recognize it under a color they call "ultraplusian", which is sometimes described by them as a kind of pure spectral purplish magenta distinct from magentas and purples obtained from mixing red and blue). They react to large amounts of directed vis (magic), generating kos (metamagic). When destroyed, they explode, generating a metric pulse that can disintegrate materials and bend light, and can be detected by gravitational wave sensors used to detect black hole collisions, leaving quartz sand as residue.
Ordor Crystals: Adopt stacked laminar forms with weak aggregation, similar to mica and graphite, but with white hues. It is a very soft and fragile material, but each individual lamina is extremely resistant and tenacious. When exposed to large concentrations of directed vis, it tends to slowly and progressively rearrange and crystallize surrounding materials.
Perditio Glass: Adopts an amorphous structure similar to glass or obsidian and has translucent black hues. When exposed to large concentrations of vis, it alters surrounding materials by slowly mixing them.
The interaction between ordor crystals and perditio glass under the effects of high concentrations of vis is complex and produces permutation cycles on adjacent materials.

Vis Crystals and Platonic Solids

Plato attempted to correlate the primary aspects with Platonic polyhedra, even before the Spatium aspect was fully understood, confusing it with the natural element aether, later recognized as a condensed Gauge boson carrier of magic and constituted by praecantatio aspect.
Plato correlated the tetrahedron with the fire element and the ignis aspect. The cube with the earth element and the terra aspect. The octahedron with the air element and the aer aspect. The icosahedron with the water element and the aqua aspect. And the dodecahedron with the aether element and the lux aspect by confusion.
At that time, the ordor and perditio aspects were unknown, which would later be discovered in the Middle Ages and correlated with order and chaos. The Spatium aspect would not be discovered until around 2300 years later..

Environmental Role of Vis Crystals

In ancient times and the Middle Ages, vis crystals played a central role in a variety of magical and alchemical practices. These crystals, imbued with the primal essences, were considered vehicles of power and wisdom, used by thaumaturges and alchemists to channel and manipulate the magical energy of the universe.
In transmutation and aspectual manufacturing processes, vis crystals were key ingredients. Alchemists used them in runic infusion altars and arcane stills to distill and purify the aspectual essences, transforming them into more concentrated and potent forms. These rituals and processes were essential for creating elixirs, potions, and magically potent objects.
Vis crystals were also employed in the crafting of magical artifacts, such as scepters and power amulets. These objects were used to produce damage and harmful effects in directed energy attacks. Expert alchemists and artisans spent long hours carving and setting the crystals into these artifacts, endowing them with unmatched beauty and power.
Magical swords and arrows imbued with the aspectual essences of these crystals had arcane qualities that made them extremely effective against supernatural creatures and magical beings. Later, with the advancement of technology, magical pistols and bullets were developed, maintaining the tradition of using vis crystals as a power source on the battlefield.
However, their rampant exploitation during the 17th to 20th centuries left an indelible mark on ecosystems, triggering the destruction of natural habitats and leading to the extinction of numerous species of magical animals, fungi, and plants.
The fervor for vis crystals unleashed an extraction frenzy that knew no bounds, leading to the overexploitation of natural resources and unprecedented magical and ecological imbalance. Enchanted forests were decimated, mana rivers were contaminated, and magical biodiversity suffered a devastating blow. This dark period in magical history left deep scars in the very fabric of the natural world.
Over time, awareness of the importance of conserving magical ecosystems rose, and the harmful effects of uncontrolled extraction of vis crystals were recognized. International treaties were established to protect these resources and regulate their use, prohibiting their extraction in many places around the world. Although the demand for these crystals still exists, it has been significantly reduced, paving the way for synthesis methods that allow for their artificial production.
Today, synthesis methods have gained ground, offering more sustainable and ethical alternatives to meet the needs of modern thaumaturgy. Fluid essences and synthetic aspectual ethers have emerged as effective substitutes for vis crystals, being purer, more reactive, and most importantly, less harmful to the magical environment. Although vis crystals are still valued for their connection to ancestral tradition and by mineral collectors, their extraction has been relegated to a marginal level in order to preserve magical ecosystems and their unique biodiversity.

Flux Crystals

In contrast to vis crystals, there exist flux crystals, mostly of anthropogenic origin. These "crystals" are not actually crystals but fractals, although they are generally referred to as crystals.
These fractals are generated when concentrations of flux in a particular area are high, and they serve as both an indicator and a health risk.
Flux is a corrupt and residual form of magic generated in failed thaumaturgic processes (usually), and is known for its harmful effects on health and the environment (at low concentrations), its mutagenic and carcinogenic potential, and its supernatural danger (at high concentrations), which can open breaches in space to other planes, called seeds of corruption.
Flux is not persistent and dissipates over time. There are very few uses for its aspect, vitium, which is not a primal aspect (unlike ignis, aer, aqua, terra, ordor, perditio, and spatium) but a combinatory aspect, so its incidental production is not usual. Similarly, flux fractals or flux crystals also have limited utility, and their main demand comes from mineral collectors, despite their slight hazardousness similar to that of radioactive materials.
Flux fractals adopt mixtures of organic forms, sharp and acute shapes, with purple hues. When exposed to flux, they grow. When exposed to high concentrations of vis, they slowly transform it into flux. Exposure of living organisms to flux fractals has toxic and potentially mutagenic effects. Regardless of their storage conditions, flux fractals degrade into quartz sand slowly, dissipating flux into the environment. Their renewal and growth rate is usually lower than their degradation rate.
This is all for today.

Before I get started, I would ONLY ever be passing by. I ain't moving there, I ain't running no "rescue operation" without a very explicit call to action that you'd never give anyway, and I'd be travelling with someone else and her dogs. Bark bark woof.
So one of my friends lives directly on the opposite side of no go land, 2.5 hours away from the end of the drive. No go land has a freeway connector that loops directly around, but it's always tempting to stay a night somewhere when making an 18 hour drive because I'm not completely insomniac like my mom. And naturally, I'm gonna want food. Now. I have no idea where you work, IF you currently work, or if you're just a full time cool leg student. But let's say you were working at McDonald's and you see my curbside order pop up on the menu.
Would you have preferred to know I was travelling through the area, prefer to just pretend you don't know me, do everything you can to avoid serving that meal, even though I would likely have someone else and her dogs in the car, or would you freak out and do worse? Keep in mind the other person I'm travelling with won't be able to recognize you, she's never seen you before.
No I don't do drive thru, you won't hear my damn voice over a comm box, and I'm not going up to the front desk to place an order when there's a perfectly good kiosk to order from. At MOST you'll hand me food to pick up and that's it. Or I can send her in to pick it up if you tell me that it's gonna be a problem.
Fuck my overpreparing brain for a situation I'm trying to avoid in the first place. God. If I'm that worried I can just get Taco Bell, or stop BEFORE the no go land, or I can go for broke and cosplay and voice act Arthur Morgan and go "I'd like Two McDoubles, please?" Because sure, yeah, daydreaming brain, that won't get me shot on sight. You don't have to tell me I'm seeking fucking attention.

Just to clarify we did have permission to go here so everything was done legally we didn't break anything, take anything or graffiti etc...
When i was 13 me and a girl along with 4 lads from school asked permission to go to this kinda abandoned building that no one (as far as we and the owners knew) has entered for years. I was a huge fan of abandoned buildings and i still am to this day and often go exploring again not breaking, taking or graffiti anything. Anyways so we got there spoke to the owner outside before climbing over the wall and moving the fence to get there this place isnt big or anything it was 3 stories had TONS of holes where windows used to be and a basement we had permission to go on the roof aswell. We entered through the door (which was missing) and began to look around everything seemed fine but we could hear splashing noises as if someone or something was moving round in water but we wasnt sure where it was coming from so we just ignored it and went up the stairs unfortunately the stairs wasn't stable and a step broke and my leg went through it and i was struggling to walk but we continued on.
After exploring upstairs and everything we decided that we'll check out the basement. The basement has a door that you have to lift up so we lifted that up and we noticed that water filled half the steps so we thought that must've been where the splashing was coming from and we shon a tourch into the basement.. we all froze at the sight at the bottom of the steps in the water stood a human figure looking away from us. There was something odd about the figure but we couldn't think of what the other girl we was with started to sob abit because she was that scared, i just froze unsure of what to do and scared to make a noise incase whatever IT is realised we was there one of the lads grabbed my wrist and i jumped and he slowly pulled me back while the other lads was trying to calm my friend down they told us to run while they closed the basement door so my friend grabbed me and tried to help me outside when we got outside we stopped because we didn't wanna jump the wall without the others who was with us a few seconds passed and the lads bolted out the door telling us to run as soon as they got to us there was a bone chilling scream and one of the lads picked me up to run with me and put me over the wall to tbe others non of us could believe what we just witnessed. We never spoke about it again but all of us was pretty shook at school the next day. I went back there just before i turned 17 with my bf and his family again with permission but this time it was on the night and i refused to go near the basement. That day shook me up and i still think about it now ive had a few more close calls and scares but it hasn't stopped me from exploring.

Oh my god that O'Reilly - Malakai match. I'm still watching the rest of Dynamite as I watch this since I couldn't see it right away. I don't even know what anyone else on this sub feels about it because I haven't looked through it to avoid spoilers. For all I know, I'm the only one who liked it. But holy hell I am STILL giddy after what I just saw. I don't even know how to express my amazement and joy so I'll just list a couple of things I loved about the match

• Their opening strike exchange. The stances, and the fact that it ended in a double TOMAHAWK elbow. I don't remember the last time I've seen a tomahawk elbow in wrestling (though I don't watch a lot outside of AEW)
• O'Reilly's leg sweeps are good, we know this. But Malakai's in this match were AWESOME.
• That dragon screw that O'Reilly blocked into the juji gatame. That was awesome.
• Later on, that attempt at another juji gatame that Malaki countered into an ankle lock. That was also awesome.
• That late strike exchange but they were exchanging COMBOS! Not individual strikes, combos! Oh my god!
• Beautiful, stunning finish. Fake the knee to leave him open for The End.

I feel like they designed this match specifically to make me happy. I was gasping out loud at every other strike. I'd say I want more of this in AEW, but I'm not sure I do. Maybe I want this match to stand alone for a while so it takes pride of place in my memory.
In conclusion, my god what a match.

Hi all, I'm about 6 weeks post op and in PT. My leg numbness finally disappeared completely at around the one month mark, and this morning it not only came back in the affected leg but in my groin as well (both areas were numb pre MD).
Does anyone have experience in the numbness returning post MD, especially after it had initially cleared up? My pain levels are unchanged & moderate. Still worried about re-herniation, and so down about the return of the numbness. I was doing relatively well before this :(
Any relative experience or advice is appreciated!

I ran the RBC Brooklyn Half last Saturday (my finishing time sucked arse, I didn't crack 2 hours, missed by 3 minutes) but this being my first long race in 18 months (various leg injuries kept me sidelined) my goal for the BK Half was not to shoot for a 1:30 finish (my PB for a half is 1:34:02 many moons ago) but to just run the 13.1 without stopping. Weeeeell, that goal went out the window at mile 8 on Ocean Parkway. :-( lol And then the lactic acid buildup forced me to "walk it off" at a couple of more water stations before the finish. Arrrrgh! (these stops are what screwed me from finishing in under 2 hours, if I had just kept a steady pace I would have done it no problem.) I've read that the super elite runners in their training for a full marathon run 100-120 miles per week in the buildup and for a half marathon 60 - 80 miles per week. For a "regular person" with a full time j-o-b is there a guideline for half & full marathons on how many miles per week one should run to build up my stamina and endurance? Thanks!

Hi everyone. It’s my duty to share this journey with you fams 🫡.
I’m gonna write a ,,story of my life” to give some courage for you guys, who feel like a fcking failure while everyone else look like a top tier students. I am IMG, currently PGY-2 in home country. I always was an average student who thought the USMLE is just for geniuses and I am too stupid to take it, and, furthermore, to pass it. After crying and fighting with myself for a long time, I managed to overcome obstacles in my head and started to study. A journey was long - at that time had to write master’s thesis, do research works, write articles etc, had to cope with PTSD and all mental traumas that I’ve got after I started my residency. This lead to multiple breaks and inconsistency (studied as crazy, had 6 months break, again studied, and again long break etc.). Multiple times posponed and multiple times promised myself ,,this time I really gonna take it”, what a fcking lie 🤦‍♀️. Finally, I gave myself like 3 months, and made some obstacles for myself - took exam 3 weeks before eligibility period ends, but next day after step 1 left for vacation to other part of the world, so would not be able to postpone exam again.
Sources:
PATHOMA - I highly focused on pathology since it is 44-52% of exam and pathoma made everything clear + for me it was easier to use ,,visual memory” when everything is in one book. I probably knew this book by heart. UW - golden standard, had to use it even more than I did. Covers more than FA (i think). FA - also golden standard, helped me to study systemically. Basically combined FA + UW. MELNMANS - why the hell i didn’t find this guy earlier. Covered neuro and arrows pdf because didn’t have more time. ANKI - it helped to retain info.
NBMEs - started ~ 5 weeks before exam.
26 - 60% (after revision of some systems, but - NO biochem, pharm, no pathoma 1-3, statistics, genetics, neuro, reproductive, 100 anatomy, psych, MSK)
After one week 28 - 63% (learned neuro and reproductive, statistics, pathoma 1-3, part biochem)
After one week 31 - 67% - NO CLUE, I WAS SHOCKED. (Revised weak areas - neuro, reproductive, stats, psycho, biochem, 100 anatomy, pharm, MSK)
After one week 30- 61% - NO CLUE, I WAS SHOCKED. 😂 (continued to work on weak areas, was trying to learn the concepts that they tested on every nbme)
My last NBME 30 was 1,5 week before a real deal. Despite in nbme 30 score droped from 67%to 61%, decided to countinue to revise pathology and concepts that were tested on NBME’s and DIDN’T TAKE free 120, because I didn’t plan to postpone in any case (was tired and couldnt take it anymore).
Exam 9/4 -> results 24/4 -> PASS
Suggestions: Focus on the concepts of UW - they test important stuff (covers more than FA). I was literally trying to learn explanations that they give.
I think my mistake was that I started to take nbmes too late. I suggest to take them let say 2 months before. Then you will have time to see the tendencies across nbme’s and what they want you to know, and in that case you will have time to learn a shit. For me 5 weeks was tight, I had to work hard every single day (well, maybe I am slow 🐌).
Exam day: A day before I took a fancy hotel in a city where the exam was - hard exam -> fancy hotel (to alleviate mental trauma and anxiety) 😂 couldn’t fall asleep, so slept maybe for 5 hours. A day before revised the topics that were most important according to me - pathoma 1-3, autonomic drugs, lymph drainage, biochem, antibiotics, anatomy 100, psycho timelines, drug intoxication, statistics.
Food: ate a breakfast in a hotel - omlete, potatoes, some vegetables and some sweets (to maintain glucose 😂). Everything is easily digested, didn’t have GI disturbances. During exam didn’t want to eat. Took a few granola bars, few banana, water. I suggest to eat more often but a bit, instead of one long lunch break - you will lose momentum aaaand become sleepy.
Exam: intro is the same as in nbme’s, so spent like 5 min ,,just to be sure I saw it”, and 10 min left -> were added to a break time. How I did: 2 blocks _ 5 min _ 1 block _ 10 min _ 1 block 10 min _ 1 block _ 15 min _ 2 blocks. *in between of 2 blocks took a short break, like 3-4 min, but didnt leave an exam room, was sitting at the PC.
After exam: immediately after, I was okay, didn’t feel super tired or stressed, but a few hours later, fatigue hit me and felt like my brains was smashed into the wall 😂 probably I had some internal defence mechanism during exam. Questions were doable - cases were long in my exam, they resembled more UW than NBME’s, but the concepts were from NBME’s. Got some clear questions, some weird ones, some knew, some guessed. But in general I have expected exam to be more shitty.
Wish everyone best luck! You gonna make it fcking happen!

Hello, my girlfriend is looking to change up her lifting routine after working out for a year and a half. She has just finished a cut and wants to stay at her current size in terms of waist, hips. She wants to increase her bum size without increasing her leg/thigh/quad size. She has 5 days a week for gym workouts after work. One of these needs to be for cardio, the other 4 ideally for weightlifting. She will aim to get getting 10k steps a day and eating clean/hitting protein goals. Presumably to increase her glute size she needs to be work glutes out multiple times a week? Essentially what I am looking for is a suggestion of a schedule that maximises time to keep her legs toned, build the size and shape of her glutes and stay fit with cardio. She also would like to improve upper body strength so fitting this in somehow would be good. Any suggestions would be appreciated!

hello guys here i will be describing my my life currently i am standing on my roof top my life is over i dont want to suffer anymore i will describe from first

1. from the std 5 th to 10 i was bullied mercilessly they have made me naked when i was in toiled took photos of penis and forwarded into those whatsapp chatgroups the entiere class bullied me relentlessly entiere fcking batch bullying one kid girls boys no one was empethatic they spread rumours all in town around that i was gay namard chakka etc for that reason neighbours kids started throwng rocks at me i had developed a very scared personality i avoid talking to anyone the girls giggling behind me that i was namard chakka etc i have developed social anxiety disorder and high inferiority complex
2. i dont have any friends whereever i go i dont know how to talk to people i embarris myself i tried gym but there also i was a laughing stock i once liked a girl i said it to her she like thrashed me telling thai was namard and should ask men lol every time a i go outside girls in my town distance themselves from me like 2 meters lol i dont know why i hate my life i have 0 friends i have low grades 6 cgpa am not smart weak af have fragile bone disease wherenever i see people laughing i think that they are laughing at me in school i purposely made dramas to not go to school fck my life i am now that those rumours have spread in college also fcuk it most of the college mates assumed me that i was gay . on one occasion i was in an all girls group i coudnt talk to them they assumed i was rude i apologised for it from then onwards they stopped talking to me

3)i am considering changing my religion and dying as in islam i will enter paradise after dying am a disgrace to my family i just wanted to share my exp as those pictures have got seen by many people in my town dont know what to do