Hi how's it going, the 2am feelings of being unwanted and a failure just hit me so y'know we out here.
I don't really know what to do anymore tbh I want to make friends I want to talk to people I want to be in a relationship I want to go hang out but I guess I just wasn't built for that life
So here I am yippee
But the same happens here, mostly people just ghost me. I get told that I'm cool and fun to talk to and chill but like why would any of that be true if I get ghosted online and can't talk to people irl
Idk what to do anymore honestly, I'm just living the same days over and over again always being disappointed in myself wishing things could change
Wow that was a horrible post
Hi I'm from the US and I'm a gamer and a nerd I guess and I like music and I collect vinyl and I'm tired and shy and anxious and awkward and I don't know what's going on right now honestly but who cares
Idk

Hi how's it going, the 2am feelings of being unwanted and a failure just hit me so y'know we out here.
I don't really know what to do anymore tbh I want to make friends I want to talk to people I want to be in a relationship I want to go hang out but I guess I just wasn't built for that life
So here I am yippee
But the same happens here, mostly people just ghost me. I get told that I'm cool and fun to talk to and chill but like why would any of that be true if I get ghosted online and can't talk to people irl
Idk what to do anymore honestly, I'm just living the same days over and over again always being disappointed in myself wishing things could change
Wow that was a horrible post
Hi I'm from the US and I'm a gamer and a nerd I guess and I like music and I collect vinyl and I'm tired and shy and anxious and awkward and I don't know what's going on right now honestly but who cares
Idk

I'm 5'3, Female and I used to be around 120 lbs before I suddenly dropped 20 lbs. I would like to regain the weight so that I feel healthier and not like a stick of bones. If anyone is concerned, yes, I am seeking a doctor to make sure it isn't any underlying health issue. I'm not a huge eater, I find that a lot of things I eat make me feel unwell. Maybe there's a good protein powder or something that I could take instead that would work just as well?

Hi how's it going, the 2am feelings of being unwanted and a failure just hit me so y'know we out here.
I don't really know what to do anymore tbh I want to make friends I want to talk to people I want to be in a relationship I want to go hang out but I guess I just wasn't built for that life
So here I am yippee
But the same happens here, mostly people just ghost me. I get told that I'm cool and fun to talk to and chill but like why would any of that be true if I get ghosted online and can't talk to people irl
Idk what to do anymore honestly, I'm just living the same days over and over again always being disappointed in myself wishing things could change
Wow that was a horrible post
Hi I'm from the US and I'm a gamer and a nerd I guess and I like music and I collect vinyl and I'm tired and shy and anxious and awkward and I don't know what's going on right now honestly but who cares
Idk

5 days ago, my partner told me na pupunta daw mom nya sa bahay. Kasi daw nasa nearby area lang. That time i was cooking dinner, the maid’s cleaning the house and the nanny’s feeding our kid so may kanya kanya kaming ginagawa sa bahay as usual because we weren’t expecting for a visitor naman and he wasn’t even in the house yet that time, he was still at work
Nainis ako and i let my partner know kung saan part yung kinainis ko. Na hindi muna nya ko inask if it’s okay or is it a right time for his mom to visit. And he’s been always like that kahit sa ibang bagay na he never asks me first or never asks for my opinion first before deciding on something. I feel left out every time, like my feelings or my opinions don’t matter, feeling ko nadidisrespect yung boundaries ko and magugulat nalang ako there’s something na nakapag decide na sya, malalaman ko nalang tapos na
Going back, dumating pa din mom nya. Since may ginagawa kaming lahat sa bahay, medyo natagalan sunduin ng maid yung mom nya sa ground floor and nasa mataas na floor kasi kami. Nung dumating na sa house namin, may kasama pa pala sya na hindi ko pa nakilala ever which is her friend daw
Although medyo nag away na kami that time ng partner ko thru chats, i still accommodated his mom and his mom’s friend pa din naman. Offered them drinks, talked to them for a while until my partner arrived na from work. Hinayaan ko na sila to talk then i continued na yung niluluto ko.
My partner ordered food na lang that time, they’re not filipino kasi and i cooked filipino food that time so baka hindi nila alam yung dish and di nila magustuhan so baka kaya my partner decided to order na lang. I still ate with them, our kid ate din again kasi mahilig sya sa pizza and pasta
So after eating, i went in our kids room to help the nanny na paliguan and bihisan yung anak namin para makatulog na since it’s already late na din. Around 10pm na. Didn’t went out na kasi hindi ko din naman naiintindihan yung pinag uusapan nila. When they left, dun na nag start hindi ako kausapin ng partner ko hanggang kinabukasan
I sent him a chat, and that’s when he told me na ang disrespectful ko daw, like hinayaan ko daw mag wait yung mom nya sa baba. Mom naman daw nya yon. Hindi naman daw stranger. Baka daw sabihin ko mama’s boy sya
Then i explained to him na wala naman talaga ako problem with his mom coming over pero wag naman sana ganong biglaan and sana inask din muna nya ko. I just didn’t want to appear rude, ni’hindi maayos yung itsura ko, i was just wearing a shirt and a pajama to think na may kasama pa pala yung mom nya and nalaman ko nalang pag dating nila. I felt embarrassed na inabutan nila ako ng ganon. Mas okay sana kung prepared kami na pupunta sila
Pero it seems like hindi manlang nya naintindihan at all yung point ko. When he got home from work that day, hindi padin nya ko pinapansin. He took a shower and was ready to go out na sana when i asked him san sya pupunta. Instead na we talk thru our problem, iiwan nanaman nya ko. Because that’s what he usually does. Kesyo di pa daw nawala galit nya. I asked kung san sya pupunta, he said pati daw ba yon dapat sasabihin nya sakin. Pati daw ba yon dapat rereport nya sakin. Hindi naman daw ako boss.
Told him na alam naman nya hindi ako nakakatulog ng wala pa sya sa bahay. But he answered edi wag ko daw sya antayin. With his responses, i was shocked kaya medyo nag hysterical ako. Pinpigilan ko sya umalis but in the end hinayaan ko nalang din
So it’s been 4 days and he’s still giving me the silent treatment even when we just live in the same house. He’s just ignoring me like i don’t exist. Kahit katabi lang nya ko, pag may question sya about our kid, he will ask the maid pa instead of me. Nakaraan was his day off, he took our kid to the mall with the maids and left me alone in the house. I feel so hurt already. ABYG?

I usually experience the type of mania that makes me do stupid stuff like overspend (A LOT OF MONEY) break off relationships, start relationships, all of that stuff and more… But this time i just feel so positive and energetic about everything in life. I feel like at this point I can do anything. I can do stuff i was putting off for months, I can clean, I can eat more. I feel good this time. I’m being nice to myself and everyone around me and life feels beautiful again.

TL;DR : Yuta in Gojo's body brings nothing new to the story. Even if the narrative is appreciated, there were many more better candidates for body transplantation surgery than Gojo.
I'll keep it brief , Yuta coming back in Gojo's body is just lame. There are multiple major reasons for it:

1. Yuta is no longer Yuta

After becoming 'Gojo', the character of 'Yuta' is threatened. Now, no matter what or how he does it, there will be voices that say 'Well, he's in Gojo's body' or 'Well, he has Six Eyes'. Which, obviously, would be correct.
This is what makes it the most lame in my opinion. Its like playing with cheats on. Yuta isn't Yuta anymore, he's just a stand-in Gojo. When he'll win, it won't be "his" victory, it'll be the victory of the cheats (or Gojo, in this case).
If Gege wanted to show Yuta doing abhorrent things to win, why not make him eat Gojo's body to learn Hollow Purple or something? That's even more horrible than using him as a sock puppet, and brings tension (he can't just UV his way out of anything now) as well as actual Yuta into the fights.

1. The power level

The most obvious effect of Gojo coming back (even in such a way), is that Gojo is back. A fully healed Gojo with his entire Arsenal would solo current Sukuna without breaking a sweat, especially when they supposedly found a solution to the domain clash, perhaps the only upper hand no-10S and no-WS Sukuna holds over Gojo.
This means that Gege will have to pump up the power level of the antagonists. How will he do it, is anyone's guess, but with Sukuna this damaged , I doubt it will feel satisfactory.

1. The Method

To keep it short, Yuta and Gojo are just too similar to make the body swap engaging.
Think about it:

• The reason why Sukuna <-> Yuji was engaging is that Sukuna's genocidal and psychopathic personality contrasted heavily against Yuji's happy-go-lucky and "save everyone" type. Yuta and Gojo are different, but not this much different.
  
• Kenjaku's character in itself was well done because you can believe that he went through his fair share of bodies. As much as people like to meme about 'my counter-yours technique from Heian era', it is exactly how a body-shifter with a millenia of experience should feel. Currently, having to copy Kenjaku's technique, Yuta is only limited to Gojo's arsenal. He won't feel any different battle-wise outside of some minor techniques he might have learned while Gojo didn't.
  
• Sukuna <-.> Megumi combo was deadly because it was the perfect combo of Stall + Ranged Damage. Refer to above why Yujo has none of that.
  

1. The Time Limit

Yuta's Copy CT has a drawback. One that will have to be adressed. After the time runs out, what will happen? Will Yuta just die? Will Yuta just stay in Gojo's body , essentially ignoring the drawback? Many options, and most of them are not going to satisfy people.
In other words, the whole thing is just lame. But if I critique, I should also say how to improve, right?
Well, above I mentioned that Yuta could just devour Gojo's body whole for the same narrative effect. Still, there are other ways they could have gone about it while keeping the whole "Dead coming back" thing. For example... Geto.
Adressing the obvious question first, no, he wouldn't have to eat his body to gain Kenjaku's CT. Only the 'Brain' counts as Kenjaku as far as we know.
Geto's body could easily be retrieved by Yuta, as Kenjaku was killed by Yuta himself. Additionally, the body was way less damaged. He would also bring a much more interesting CT to the fight, one which we have barely seen through the manga (and especially not one that will just be a repeat of Part 1 of Shinjuku without Gojo himself to justify it).
Additionally, it would personally be more hype to me. Seeing 'Kenjaku' in place of 'Gojo' 's silhouette in 260 would make all fans think 'Something is wrong. This can't be happening, Kenjaku is dead!' while allowing them to correctly deduce that it could be Yuta copying Kenjaku's CT, but keeping the intrigue because Kenjaku could have some aces up his sleeve.

I am a tall black girl (178cm last time i checked) It takes me a lot i mean a lot for me to get out the house. Everytime I get out the house to walk people are staring at me, or i feel like theyre staring at me. I am so so tired. I just want to walk man why do you stare at me for. When I get out, I get out super early in the morning like 5 am and come back home at midnight so I can make sure theres noone in the streets, that's how I survive going to school. I really hate when I have to go out and theres tons of cars and people. Anyone in my situation?

I finally got around to doing my ADHD symptoms list, the ADHD service replied to my doctor saying it sounded more like I was autistic.
I’m a woman with a STEM degree who got about halfway through a PhD. I was getting very tired with worsening muscle & joint pain, sleep issues and reactive hypoglycaemia the last several years, and I didn’t initially know something was wrong, then it looked like chronic fatigue syndrome. I had some temperature regulation problems and the hypoglycaemia since I was a teenager, so I suspected the chickenpox I got when I was 14.
Well I’ve been reading about autistic burnout, and bizarrely there’s a large symptom overlap with CFS down to the whacky blood sugar. I’ve had my blood tested for just about everything.
I have severe OCD and had PTSD symptoms (shitty life) and have taken Prozac for quite a while, and have started weaning off. I started getting more tired with the odd stiff ankle or elbow probably about the time I started my PhD (2014).
Apparently autistic people usually also have a massive range of physical conditions and yes I do also have IBS, and had very irregular periods & migraines (pill helps).
I am aware I’m socially a bit weird and consciously masking, and assumed I had some of something but I don’t know how to feel now that it’s been more officially commented on. It’s going to be ages before I get assessed to I just have to sit with it for a year+ (UK NHS).
I have some processing issues with speech, spent a lot of my life finding people sounded muffled, but my hearing tested perfect (they told me I had an attention problem, which, yes, but I don’t think that makes people sound muffled). I have difficulty stringing sentences together when speaking and have random pauses while I get stuck. I think I got better at it before I got fatigued. I find writing much easier.
I wasn’t a savant or anything but have been better at maths related things my whole life than language, won awards in school and stuff, won the prize for my master’s year project report in uni.
I don’t think I’ve had a classic autistic “meltdown” but pre Prozac I did frustrated/angry cry (privately). Post probably burnout I have lost a lot of mental capacity and have gotten much more sensitive to sound.
I permanently shake, I can’t tell that I’m doing it, but people keep asking me if I’m cold. If I think back that may also have started with PhD.
Is it possible to just be in burnout for like 10 years? I stopped doing much of anything over the years and it hasn’t gotten better. I have a bit of a hoarder house that I really need to deal with.
I already went to counselling over my shitty life in undergrad and don’t feel like it’s helpful to do it again.

I’m 5’3 and I used to be around 120 lbs before I suddenly dropped 20 lbs. I would like to regain the weight so that I feel healthier and not like a stick of bones. If anyone is concerned, yes, I am seeking a doctor to make sure it isn’t any underlying health issue. I’m not a huge eater, I find that a lot of things I eat make me feel unwell. Maybe there’s a good protein powder or something that I could take instead that would work just as well?

For context, I’ll be studying at Oxford in the fall. Classes are in the form of 1-on-1 weekly meetings with a professor where the professor will critique my assigned essay from the previous week and challenge me on other viewpoints. Classes do not pre-exist — I create my own class and am allowed to choose virtually any topic I can think of that would make sense as a college course.
Initially, I wanted my course to be “The New Testament,” but I’m struggling a lot in my faith now and am wondering if there’s a way I can challenge myself by choosing a course that targets the specific fears/doubts I have.
To give you an idea of what I’ve been struggling with: * feelings of apathy * guilt from apathy * religious OCD (afraid to spend time with God because I feel like I don’t truly love him and that I only approach him for my own comforts) * relying on feelings rather than God * frustration with God for being “silent” * (I apologize, this one’s mad long — I feel like the more specific I am, the more easily “diagnosable” my problem will be 🥲) I’ve been especially anger towards God lately. I thought I believed he was good and loving, but I am so tired of how extremely draining my faith journey has been. I know that it’s draining me because of my own sinfulness, but it’s still frustrating. Also, the Gospel recently hasn’t been making much sense to me. I thought I was a Christian, but now I’m not so sure because I don’t think I FULLY believe that God is holy and just and loving and that sin is deserving of eternal punishment. If God were truly loving, he would not create humans knowing that most of us would exist just to suffer eternally. I know that, logically, God had to give us the option of choosing to love him since love is a choice. But it makes me angry that God has the ability to do the impossible, yet he still created mankind and allows most of them to choose hell. A true loving parent wouldn’t do that, and now I keep having unrighteous thoughts of “God pretends to be a loving Father but is really just a narcissist who demands glory and subjects those who are ignorant with eternal torment.”
(Sorry for that crazy rant, I know it’s a big problem, hence why I’m wanting to take an Oxford course that will hopefully challenge me in the right ways lol)
But yeah, all that to ask — is there a term for an “ology” or something that would address some/all of these issues? The closest word I can think of is “soteriology,” but I feel like a course on soteriology would maybe focus more on church history and different denominational perspectives.
Maybe “The Holiness of God” would be a good course for me to take, but I’m worried that focusing only on God’s holiness might not be helpful since I already have an UNhealthy fear of God.
I am not very well-versed in theology, so if you can think of a course I can take that would help me spiritually (or if you would advise me against doing this for whatever reason), I would appreciate it very much!

I just graduated college, and within two days had to pack my life up in my college town and move back across the country home. I’m extremely tired, no one back home has reached out to me to congratulate me or ask to hang out. I have no one right now. The one thing I came home for was my cat who I’ve raised since she was 2 months and I was 14 years old. When I arrived she scratched me hissed and ran, she’s never done that when I’ve visited in the past. I want to end it all. I feel so alone, in limbo and I have no purpose and not even my cat who I raised loves me anymore. I’ve been home from the airport for 3 hours now and have not stopped crying. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

Almost a year ago, I was ready to pass. Everything was planned ahead of time na. It was probably one of the hardest year na naranasan ko.
Naayos ko na lahat, letters, mga bilin and etc. I have no sense of purpose, I was very tired and I just want things to end na but one thing that kept me going until now was my dog. The day before na I want to do it, I kept thinking kung gano niya iisipin kung nasan ako pumunta and kelan ako babalik.
Unlike other breeds, medyo masungit yung dog ko and para siyang pusa but he was very close to me. Iniisip ko no one has the patience to clean up, feed him, play with him like I do and so almost a year passed and yesterday I was so down and felt so alone kaya umiiyak ako tapos lumapit yung dog ko sakin and he licked my face. I know its a simple gesture and it might be because maalat yung luha ko pero I’d like to think na he is comforting me.
I told him yesterday and I’ll try to keep going for him kasi walang magtatyaga sakanya dahil makulet siya. I pray that he understands me and that he feels how much I love him. 🥹
Skl.

i started may 12th but i missed like 3 days maybe 4 because i was drinking and forgot to take it. i’ve been having a lot of anxiety after the first 3 days, my eyes feel blurry when i look at my phone, i get really tired during the day then cant sleep at night, my body feels jittery, i get weird headaches, loss of appetite, weight loss and mania feelings. i know this is probably normal but honestly id rather just stick to having regular anxiety than be dealing with all of this. some days are better than others but tonight’s really hard. also is it normal to feel weird when you miss a dose?

I feel so tired, I have nothing. I've lost alone with no friends. I can't help my self to be positive. Being NEET, gay short, ugly and fat really hit me down so bad. I want to die but I couldn't.
It's hard to say, I wish I never be born in this fairless, cruel reality world.

Every other day, i wake up sore, tired and exhausted; and i started wondering what the hell am I training this hard for? Just keeping up to my endorphins or am i running away from my internal monsters, or am i body dysmorphic? I recently started my killer routine where i wake up at 6 ish, go for a one hour swim, a 45 min gym session in the evening, followed by an almost 4km run. Ends up dead each day. All this with a sub 6 hour sleep. Is it that my body is not coping with what I’m forcing it to do, or is it just my mind playing games and telling me that I’m tired, give up.
No idea. But I force myself and wake up every morning. More or less. Lie in bed or rise up to get ready for the swim. Sometimes i just lie in the bed till 9 and go to work. No I don’t think I’m depressed, I can’t be, being happy, irritatingly extroverted and a menace. But what’s that melancholy lurking around me? Is it my dissatisfaction with what i have achieved or not achieved over the years? Growing up as an over achiever, topper to end up just like everyone else, like just another grain of sand in the beach, is that what I’m hating about me now and is that what I’m training against now?
Maybe it is what I’m working against, hoping that it will bring me happiness. Take for instance why am i writing all this? Does a part of me believe that if i publish or post this somewhere, there could be instant success or recognition or that my follower count my increase? But I’m too much a chicken to post this anywhere. Thanks to years of my orthodox education hammering me into the mould which they have set for everyone. And me being the overachiever, have excelled there as well, fitting into that mould as snuggly as possible. And now I’m complaining of being another average joe, when i have been raised all along to be one.
I just noticed that i started this journal by asking why am i training this hard, and my flow of thoughts took my directly into my doubts about being an underachiever. So i think that’s the answer, training is my coping mechanism to get over the doubts i have over myself. So the question finally is am i an underachiever? I don’t know how to answer that one question. I’m a surgeon now(nothing to be too proud about it) and earning decently, but other than that i feel I’m nothing. I think this could be the effect of Instagram over me, bombarding me with posts, reels and accounts of people who are, or seem to be, constantly happy, productive and earning.People who i really don’t know now have this choke hold over my life, and how I perceive myself to be. Could be that. Could be really that.
So finally to answer that question? What am i training for? Is it my coping mechanism , or is it my attempt to get my life back together, or is it my way to feel self worthy, or is it a huge middle finger to the Instagram happy puppies.
At the end, i think, Big mooscle make you happy!

I feel as if I am not here, living in this world. I feel like I have no purpose. I do horrible in studies, because I have no motivation or no energy to study. I lay in bed on my phone all day, all I ever think about is food. I’m not fat but I feel disgusting, I binge eat everything night till I almost throw up, and feel like shit the next morning. I am struggling to even survive another day. I am genuinely suffering but I am strong enough to keep living on. I just want to lay in bed all day and not do anything. I have no feeling what so ever. I am really trying my hardest but I treat my parents shitty because hurt people hurt people. It’s like a constant everyday thing, I don’t know when I’ll actually be at peace.

*Please dont message me if you're a man and if you're anyone under 25 years old.
I will write some about me and what Im looking for, I like to write a lot so Im not sure how long this will be, so If you dont like reading a lot, then we arent compatible lol but I will give a quick summary of what Im looking for so you dont have to read that long of my post if you dont fit that criteria (I know Im asking for someone very specific but if she doesnt exist Im ok with staying single forever)
-- Im looking for a cis woman, 100% lesbian someone who isnt confused about her sexuality, ready to settle down, femme, girly, monogamous (wanting to be with only 1 person forever, no having fantasies about threesomes etc), old enough to date me because Im 35, introverted, short (under 5'5), petite, bottom, submissive, honest, loyal, know how to communicate very well, romantic, kinky, clingy, know how to make conversation, emotional intelligent, you know affective responsibility, know how to make me feel wanted and cared for, respectful of my religion and religions in general,because Im catholic (you dont have to be religious but not talk shit on my beliefs or try to stop me from believing in what I want), not have exes or situationships as friends, not into astrology,magic or tarot, not into illegal drugs or be an alcoholic, not being a flirt with other people while in a relationship or someone who looks for external validation, no face, neck tattoos or gauges.
Im old enough to have tried a lot of things and everything, now Im 100% sure of what I want and what works for me and Im not willing to compromise my peace over someone who is not what Im looking for. For me is a relationship is something very sacred and special. I have learned you really can tell how much you love yourself by the partner you've chosen.
I know people on the internet get mad at others when you say you only like an specific kind of person and set boundaries, but thats a mindset I dont like, how others wanna force others to have the same taste that they have and date the same people that they want, everyone is allowed to have preferences and If someone doesnt like it, too bad for them, I will continue with my preferences doesnt matter how many people get mad. Im not looking to change anyone or force anyone to like the things I do, I look for someone who is already like that and in the same mindset that I am, Im not settling for just anyone and I dont want anyone to settle for me either. Its not my responsibility to be likeable on the internet to strangers. It's only my responsibility to pursue the things I like. My life, my rules. I simply dont like to give energy to people I dont even care about.
I like to very very honest and direct, I never lie, some people mistake me sometimes as rude, but I swear I dont say things thinking bad, I have autism so that can be the cause of me being like that. My autism just affect me in being kinda weird and veryyyyyyy antisocial and introverted, I dont like going to parties at all, or going to reuinions, or meeting people I dont know. Im a INTJ.
Im a cis lesbian, I have always know Im gay since I was a little girl. I used to be skinny and since I have some problems with how I look( because of some trauma) , I decided maybe I just wanted to gain weight and look different so right now Im chubby and I dont like it lmaoooo Im gonna lose the weight because I have seen a very noticeable difference on how people treat skinny me and chubby me. I wanna be clear that I dont have low self esteem, I have learned to really love myself with therapy, meds and just over the years experiences, I have learned to know my worth, just have some problems with my looks still.
I also have ADHD so I have very bad memory and short attention span, but that doesnt mean I wont give attention and listen to what you have to say, in fact when I like someone I put so much attention and care in that person. My adhd pretty much just affects the things I dont really care about.
Im a hopeless romantic, I love hard, Im very consistent, I will never leave you wondering about anything, I have never ghosted anyone, I also have never cheated, even if it was just like a situationship. I like talking to only one person and putting all my attention in one person. Im very excited to the idea of growing old together with someone and keep choosing that person forever. My words follow my actions. Im not friends with exes or situationships or entertain people who like me more than a friend, I also dont stalk those people in any way, I retire my whole energy from them and its like they never existed.
I recognize the value of a person since the beginning, Im not one of those that only realize what they had when they lost it.
I like to think Im a very emotionally intelligent person and have a lot of affectionate responsibility.
I believe that if youre in a relationship you face life together, not separate and not against each other, you need to think for the 2 in the relationship not only in yourself, which I think a lot of people dont do because theyre selfish.
Also I believe in a relationship where theres no insults and cussing each other, I would neverrr insult someone Im in a relationship with and I ask for the same, of course there can be banter and joking, but Im talking about disagreements or when someone gets mad, I have a policy of 0 insults, if you get mad you can take time for yourself, but Im one of those people that will never get on an argument without solving it, I always wanna talk about it.
With me you will never have to question my loyalty to you, or to question anything to be honest. Im not hesitant and indecisive,I will make you feel loved like never before, seen, respected, desired and safe. Your opinions and thoughts will be cherished, valued, respected and acknowledged, I dont brush things off and I also ask for the same.
I cant stand when people like to do the bare minimum in a relationship, with me you have to match my energy, Im a very passionate person when it comes to love. Also I need someone with my communication style, I dont want anyone avoidant or someone who can go days without talking to me, no one is too busy for someone they care about,, if you dont have consistency and integrity with me, then we arent compatible.
Im the kind of person that if my girlfriend dont like something or dont want me to do something, I dont do it, or if they want me to do something I do it.
Love isnt enough for a relationship to last, you need connection, intimacy, safety , accountability, vulnerability and trust.
I also wanna ask for someone who have healed their problems or working on healing them, because I have put so much effort in healing for everything that has happened to me and I continue to put effort in being the best version of me for me and for anyone who wants to love me. I ask for this because some people dont even put effort on their mental health and dont even want to heal, I have learned that someone who doesnt want to get help, is someone Im not compatible with. Also some people believe a good relationship needs "drama" and feel bored when they enter a normal loving relationship, Im also not compatible with that type of person.
The difference between happy couples and the unhappy ones is that happy couples are kinder when they speak to each other, they treat each other more gently without criticism or sarcasm. You need mutual respect, consideration, affection and treating each other in the ways we feel close and valued the most, having empathy in our communication. I wont nurture a relationship with someone who avoid emotions and find them exhausting. I learned to invest in the person that also invests in me.
The degree which a person can grow is directly proportional to the amount of truth that they can accept about themselves without running away.
Im not from the USA, which I know the majority of the people here are, but I think the love of my life can be anywhere in the world so I dont mind of what part of the world are you. If we happen to be soulmates someone has to move. I speak spanish and english.
I graduated university and I work (will give personal details about any stuff to the person I talk to) but to he honest, I dont like working or studying lmaoo I said Im very honest and this is a trait of mine that will put off some people I know, because some people love working and want their partner to have work goals and all that stuff, but I wasnt born to do labor lol I still have to work because I need to exist and this economy is insane but If could stop working, I would do it in a heart beat. But Im fine and happy with my low wage job and I dont mind if you love working or not working, just that you respect my way of thinking.
Like I said Im religious and I think thats something very private, I dont mind if you arent religious, I just need respect about that. I also believe in energies and some of that stuff, but never messing with rituals and that kind of things so I ask for my future gf to be the same. Also not messing with paranormal things, like ouija boards etc.
I like the paranomal, aliens etc but always from afar and not getting involved with it. I dont like astrology or tarot at all so I would never date someone who is into those things.
My favorite hobby is to watch movies and tv shows, I love movies so so much, I like every genre, so I would appreciate someone who likes to watch a lot of things with me and dont get tired of it.
I like all types of music, really all types, but I do have my favorites, like Taylor Swift, Blackpink, Adele, Britney Spears, Twice, Oasis, Green Day, Lady Gaga, Celine Dion, Kelly Clarkson, Placebo and a million of more artists.
I will talk now about how Im a very dominant person and I like bdsm, but I need to clarify, I will not talk about something this personal with someone I just met, I just feel the need I need to bring it up because some people are not into that.
Im a demiromantic lesbian, which means I get attracted to the person after getting to know them and talking after a while.
I dont drink, I have never gotten drunk, I dont smoke, I dont do drugs, but I do take cbd for anxiety.
Also I have to add that I love Disney and amusement parks, I have seen a lot of people hate on people who like Disney, so if you are one of those Im not into you either.
Ok so this is everything I wanna say, I think, if theres anything more I will just edit the post. Thank you for reading all of this and Im sorry if Im all over the place.
Im gonna find you, soulmate and I will create a wonderful and beautiful love reality for both of us.

Hi everyone,
Learned a lot already by doing some Open and Fixed setup Indy oval with the IR18 this week but I still have some questions:

1. Crash is happening ahead of me, cars pile up goes to the sides of the track/ grass etc, there is enough room for me to go through safely, I lift a bit and got through without issues but lots of cars are going slow, yellow flag is still not out and I passed 5/7 cars, then the yellow flag is out -> I go into single file. I didn't get any penalty or anything but should I lift and get into a single file before the yellow flag/ as soon as there is a crash ?
   
2. I crash, bit of damage, yellow flag out, pit lane is stated as closed, can I pit ASAP for damage? What does the "pit lane closed" mean ? When does it open ?
   
3. Running behind people is hard and I seem to go much faster than most because of the slip stream, should I go 5 map fuel and increase weight jacker more to "tuck in" behind and save fuel/ tires ? I feel like I take too much risks at T2 for example coming in too hot.
   

Also I learned not to pass from the inside before the finish line in a restart so that's done ✅
If you have any other tips don't hesitate !
Thanks a lot

Hey guys, first time posting here. I’m basically just looking for advice on how I should approach my doctor about possibly having pcos/endometriosis or whatever else (I think most likely PCOS). I'm actually seeing a new doctor at my usual clinic, a female GP that has special interest in the area, because my usual doctor (an older man in his 70s), although has been great for most issues, is absolutely useless when it comes to feminine problems. I’ve brought up my concerns at three separate occasions: first time we did a blood test, which he claimed all look normal so nothing happened, and the next time he told me to improve my diet and exercise more.
The third time (about a year later at this point) I went to him with my evidence that I had been doing everything he says with absolutely no change, he ordered for blood tests again, and aside from my iron being low he said everything looked fine. When I said, "okay, then what else could be the reason for all my symptoms?" he literally just shrugged at me and said "hmm, that’s strange." Did nothing else about it. So I'm seeing someone different.
Basically since I was 14/15 I have suspected something was not normal with my periods/hormones but for the longest time I was gaslit (particularly by my mother) that all the issues I was dealing with I was just exaggerating and they were perfectly normal. It’s only been the last few years (I’m 23 now, almost 24) that I’ve stuck to my guns I swear something is wrong with me.
Just to give a rundown, from when I was 12 to 18/19 my period was irregular, but consistent in how it acted, I guess. It wasn’t uncommon for me at all to have anywhere between a week to two months between my periods, but usually it’d be roughly two and a half weeks between my period ending to starting again. But if it came earlielater than that, I wasn’t surprised at all. When I was in high school I wasn’t worried about the irregularity of it, I knew that sometimes it can take a few years before it became regular, so that wasn’t a concern of mine until I was like 19. My actual period though was extremely predictable: I’d get terrible mood swings 1-2 days before it started, it’d last exactly a week, from day 1 and 2 being so extremely heavy I used to wear 2-3 pairs of underwear to control leaks and I passed out in public a couple times from blood loss, and then it’d gradually taper down in the week till I was just lightly bleeding to spotting the last day. I would also be in constant pain throughout the week, not so bad that I’d skip school/work, but bad enough I went through a pack or two of Advil/ibuprofen every period, I’d keep a constant stockpile of it, and I’d genuinely panic if I got my period and realise I’d run out.
When I was 20, my period completely flipped on its head out of nowhere. It went from what it was above to being consistently regular once a month, but suddenly only being 3, maybe 4, days long. But the first day and a half became condensed to absolute hell. They were still heavy, not to the point of what it was like when I was a teenager but I still succumbed to wearing disposable incontinence underwear for the first night each period cuz it was easier than dealing with the mess, and I’d feel so nauseous, get extreme hot flashes, and have such intense painful cramps that regular Panadol or Advil didn’t cut it anymore even if doubled up the dosage. So I’d sometimes resort to my prescription arthritis pain meds just to deal with it. I always skip my classes on these days and I’d sometimes call in sick to work (if I did go in customers and coworkers alike would comment on how I look unwell). However, once the first two days were over, I’d feel fine and the spotting on the third day would be so light I wouldn’t even bother wearing a pad half the time. Around this time however, I suddenly gained 15-20kg basically for no reason. I was going through a bit of a depressive time initially, which I chalked the first 10kg on, but even when I got better and fixed my diet I kept gaining. Then I went on birth control for a year and although I didn’t weigh myself during this time, I swear I went over 100kg and I was just constantly bleeding this entire time, so I went off it.
I lost some of my BC weight but I was still notably bigger than I was before it (96kg at this time). despite my diet being about the same (which btw, I logged for about 3 weeks, was around 1700-1800 calories a day). This was around the second time I saw my doctor about this, early last year, and he told me to just eat less. So I cut down to 1500 calories, even 1200 calories, no change. He put me on ozempic, thinking it could help, and even while on it for 8 months, raising my dosage, and going some weeks where I only ate 1000 calories a day and starting to exercise, I only went down to 89kg at most. I stopped taking it cuz I couldn’t afford it anymore, and luckily my weight still hovers at the 90kg mark. It was about Nov last year I last saw him about it where he did my blood test again and said it was all normal.
I want to see a doctor again cuz in the last two months, my period and hormones are out of whack again. The predictability of my period from the last 4 years is gone again, being different each time the last 3 times, and although according to the scale I haven’t gained, I still have gone up a dress size or two, depending on the day. And I keep breaking out as well, when normally my skin is relatively clear.
I knew for a fact something was wrong when my mum went through menopause two years ago and her symptoms sounded a lot like my periods. Now I want to know what is wrong with me.
Sorry for the long rant, any insights could help.

I did rhythmic gymnastics when i was in first grade and i quit in 5th grade. I was training 4h a day and they restricted us from eating. When i quit, my breasts developed drastically. I remember being in elementary school and struggling to find a bra. Long story short, when quarantine started, i put on some weight. Idk i think i put on 10-12kg. Then, i lost the weight 2 years later. But, in my eyes, i still remain fat. My boobs also got bigger and saggier and now they are making my life harder. I put on a tank top yesterday and i cried all night. I am in a pretty healthy weight range according to doctors. They suggested i don't diet because i am a student and studying burns calories itself so i must not eat lower than my maintenance. Lately, i can't stop thinking and worrying (even dreading) about the fact that i'll have to go out in a tank top. My mind even thinks about it when i sleep. I also don't have the time to exercise as much as i want due to school. (we have finals) I feel helpless, i miss the "sick" body i had when i was young. I want some advice.