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2024.06.02 19:20 Comfortable-Habit-47 [ps4]
H: Caps, Crowd Control, Any plans in my vendor, basically anything I have that you need/ want within reason. W: Holy Fire Flamer. I’ve been trying to find the gun in vendors and events, but I’m not having any luck. Still a newer player, just trying to get my dream gun lol
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2024.06.02 19:19 fragmented_ghost Progress thread for my suicide
I posted on here several months ago with the proposition that I'll overdose on paracetamols, hoarding between 6-8 boxes before finally OD'ing; Nothing has changed since then. Maybe I'm just lazy, maybe it's mental illness, or perhaps I just lack a sense of self-efficacy and accountability. Every project I start usually goes unfinished and I make a series of wrong decisions to fuck it all up.
I have a learning disability of which I'm unsure of the severity; I struggle to tie shoelaces, I need instructions for every practical task that I engage with. I like to work alone to avoid humiliation, but I'm so slow and always questioning whether I'm making the right decisions. I question everyone and everything, including myself.
Patronizing support workers and community martyrs pass like rippling waves, slipping away unnoticed. I don't want to be guided along every step of the way, I want to be my own person, but how can you trust yourself to perform well when you've messed up everything else in your life? Is the apprehension towards trying new things that I know will fail apart of my disability? I want to know how to help myself in the long-term, but is that even possible? How do I adapt, knowing that I'll never have the same quality of life as those who had met all their milestones?
If I won't lower my standards to settle for a mediocre life, nor will I put in the effort to improve myself, then what use am I? I've tried to be spiritual, but it's so damn hard when the world keeps biting at your heels with all of its demands that I struggle to step up to. No one talks about my dreams anymore, I'm a 22 year-old manchild who society has given up on. I understand that society owes me nothing, I'm just seen as entitled and lazy when I ask for help that I haven't paid for.
The most depressing aspect is that I have a great amount of interest in intellectual and creative things, despite being mentally challenged. I probably misinterpret everything I read, and I would never be capable of debating someone much smarter and more experienced than me. Intelligence gets you the experience faster, you synthasize more things at once; It's speed, it's efficiency, it's everything I lack.
When I can't achieve what I want, I'm banished to life in the shadow of envy. I don't even know what I want anymore because I doubt the feasibility of every idea that I have. I wish I could install someone else's brain into my own and operate to their capacity instead, because I can never run smoothly; I'm mentally bloated.
It feels like life is over for those with learning disabilities; It never even began for me.
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I have a learning disability of which I'm unsure of the severity; I struggle to tie shoelaces, I need instructions for every practical task that I engage with. I like to work alone to avoid humiliation, but I'm so slow and always questioning whether I'm making the right decisions. I question everyone and everything, including myself.
Patronizing support workers and community martyrs pass like rippling waves, slipping away unnoticed. I don't want to be guided along every step of the way, I want to be my own person, but how can you trust yourself to perform well when you've messed up everything else in your life? Is the apprehension towards trying new things that I know will fail apart of my disability? I want to know how to help myself in the long-term, but is that even possible? How do I adapt, knowing that I'll never have the same quality of life as those who had met all their milestones?
If I won't lower my standards to settle for a mediocre life, nor will I put in the effort to improve myself, then what use am I? I've tried to be spiritual, but it's so damn hard when the world keeps biting at your heels with all of its demands that I struggle to step up to. No one talks about my dreams anymore, I'm a 22 year-old manchild who society has given up on. I understand that society owes me nothing, I'm just seen as entitled and lazy when I ask for help that I haven't paid for.
The most depressing aspect is that I have a great amount of interest in intellectual and creative things, despite being mentally challenged. I probably misinterpret everything I read, and I would never be capable of debating someone much smarter and more experienced than me. Intelligence gets you the experience faster, you synthasize more things at once; It's speed, it's efficiency, it's everything I lack.
When I can't achieve what I want, I'm banished to life in the shadow of envy. I don't even know what I want anymore because I doubt the feasibility of every idea that I have. I wish I could install someone else's brain into my own and operate to their capacity instead, because I can never run smoothly; I'm mentally bloated.
It feels like life is over for those with learning disabilities; It never even began for me.
2024.06.02 19:19 OriginalSprinkles718 [FO4][PS5/PS4] Absolute Apocalypse! Immersive, satisfying, survival MOD LIST.
My goal was to build hard but balanced, immersive survival experience.
√ New game on survival difficulty required √ All six DLCs are needed √ Adding/removing mods later might break your game √ Only PS5 game version was tested
√ Very stable, no crashes
CHANGES:
- You start weak, tired, with barely any gear and 1 point in each SPECIAL stat.
- Enemies will flank, charge, take cover, pick up weapons and use up ammo.
- Added over thousand zombies plus another thousand of various creatures.
- Weakspot hits cause significantly more damage than attacking torso, armor matters.
- A lot easier to cripple and remove limbs and disable enemies.
- Ammo type/size greatly affects damage, explosives are powerful.
- Foes have special moves, wolves will bite and hold your limbs, humans know wrestling moves.
- Audio tweaked, added reverb and removed irritating sounds.
- Nights are dark and now you own very helpful flashlight.
- Improved colours, lighting, weather, sunrise, sunset and tweaked moon.
- Fire sources create atmospheric orange flickering light, old corpses attract buzzing flies.
- Flying bullets illuminate environment and have better physics.
- Tweaked animations in first person, corrected physics of dead bodies and enemy ragdoll.
- Creating gunpowder, scrapping bullets and crafting ammo available.
- Most clothes are wearable under armor, glasses can be slightly modded.
- Added rings as rare find in containers and in shops plus ability to scrap and craft legendary rings.
- Balanced legendary gear effects, crafting with technical documents, added swaps.
- Added possibility to craft few more explosives, and adhesive from plants.
- Crafting most turrets require plenty of ammo and special parts.
- Each SPECIAL stat is equally useful, well balanced and affect things like speed, accuracy, HP, AP, XP.
- Refreshed perks with bonus changes - ability to tackle, crits outside vats, reverse idiot savant etc.
- Building important structures and cooking better recipes require appropriate perks.
- Most magazines and companion bonuses changed.
- Majority of junk lying around was removed, less time spent on looting, better scarcity feel.
- Diverse mortal settlers with unique names and better awareness.
- You can hire guards in settlements for caps after completing important faction events.
- Leveling up does not give health, increasing SPECIAL is locked behind character levels.
- Restricted harvest of planted (not wild) fruit and veggies, scavenging stations more important.
- Added different [Tags] to majority of items for convienience.
- Quick travel available only to discovered settlements, travel won't pass in-game time.
- Only rare enemies like bosses and unique NPC's drop legendary gear.
- More objects to build in bases, plenty of decorative options.
- Loot and enemies don't respawn, day/night cycle length doubled.
- Saving the game through Pip-Boy on survival difficulty, new simple colors skins can be set.
- Disabled not important radiant Minuteman quests and hammering in Sanctuary.
- Music and weather are dependent on map regions.
- Dialogue fixes and camera focused only on NPC's.
- Reduced amount of grass, rubble, twigs, fog and removed unimmersive puddles.
- Access to tag and see actual number of components owned on a cooking bench.
- No build limit, raised amount of maximum settlers per settlement.
- Longer wire and conduits range, settlers awareness tweaked.
- Replaced combat scopes, improved recon scopes.
- Few more map markers, VATS cameras in 3rd person, agressive radstags, some blur removed.
* And many more...
KNOWN PROBLEMS:
- Ground textures flicker black around Sanctuary (Fixes itself after some time).
- Locksmith doesn't make lockpicking any easier. FIX: Install "Quick Hack and Pick" mod after getting all levels of locksmith perk. Just replace "[PS4] Starting SPECIAL = 7".
- Hacking rank 4 does nothing. (Just skip it).
- Action girl perk have only one rank on female character and two on male.
- Few perk texts slightly incorrect.
- Incorrect build cost of concrete foundations, barn menu, 3 street lights and subway light.
- Some Creation Club items might not be properly balanced.
- Occasional visual glitch when moving underwater (Water surface flashing).
- Access to 'Hubby Basement' full of supplies in Sanctuary (Easy quick start).
- Animal fat wont drop at all (Not important).
- Green chest outside vault 111 containing 10k flares and flare gun (Just ignore it).
- Sound of some wall mounted turrets glitches and plays on repeat.
- Perception debuff vanilla FO4 glitch ("Vrexia's Magical Rings" mod to offset stats safely).
- Pip-Boy light wont transfer correctly from 3rd person to 1st (Turn flashlight off and on).
* Can't open Wattz Consumer Electronics terminal (Kill roach behind wall using melee/explosives).
LIST WITH CORECT ORDER:
Mods and entries in bold are neccessary, don't skip them! 1. •Unofficial Fallout 4 Patch [UFO4P] [PS4]• Thousands of small bug fixes for FO4. 2. •Looted World - PS• - Removes 90% of loose loot in the world. Easily accessible and obvious places are almost empty. Some areas like habited settlements or vaults still have items. Makes you pick up less, play more. You can still buy shipments of components and now scraping settlements is a great early source of materials. Small boost to performance. If you are tired of constantly picking up loot, this is a good choice. 3. •[PS4] Pip-Boy Paint Jobs - Colors Of The Wasteland Pack (Club Freedom)• - Adds simple Pip-Boy skins. Remember you can click touchpad while using pip-boy to zoom. Again a master file. 4. •Kane's Items Sorting (PS4)• - Tags quest items, components, bones, bobbleheads, holotapes, notes, chems, liquors, syringes, 99% of junk for better item management and easier looting (water, aid, stealthboys, few food items and some mags are marked by Immersive gameplay). Empty bottles/vases are not marked. 5. •[PS] Useful Technical Documents - Legendaries• - You can swap legendaries for free, create new ones using technical documents. 6. •Named NPC Protection [PS4]• - Protects named quest npc's, merchants, important characters from random encounters with enemies. 7. •Ghouls Of Commonwealth• - Adds over 1100 feral ghouls for zombie apocalypse and chaos. 8. •Tribals of Commonwealth• - Adds tribal groups, often found in wilderness. 9. •Snipers Of Commonwealth• - Adds over 150 snipers including few unique ones. 10. •Rabbits, Chickens, Crabs, Wolves, And Gulpers In The Commonwealth• - Adds more creatures and enemies. 11. •Hermit Crabs Of The Commonwealth• - Adds 12 hermit crabs to the map. 12. •Wolves Of The Commonwealth• - Adds wolf spawn points to the map. 13. •More Behemoths In Commonwealth• - Adds 5 more behemots to the Commonwealth. 14. •DLC Creatures In The Commonwealth [PS4]• - Adds 200 creature spawns to the commonwealth for constant war, danger and chaos. 15. •Behind Enemy Lines• - Adds plenty of enemies to the glowing sea region. 16. •Roving War Parties, Raiding Packs And Hordes Of MY• - Adds wandering groups that attack some key locations. Some groups are very strong. 17. •More Radstags• - Adds plenty of radstags, especially north and into forests. 18. •Better Radstags• - More agressive radstags. 19. •Not a Princess• - Humans can grab you/others and slam on the ground, make karate moves, dogs can hold your legs/arms, bloodbugs suck your blood. 20. •Disable Minutemen's Annoying Quests [PS4]• - Disables 7 types of repetitive and not important radiant quests. 21. •[PS4] Grounded Updated By Sarinia• - Adds tons of ground foundations, floors, walls, mounds of dirt to Structures-Concrete menu. 22. •Miscellaneous Settlement Items Unlocked [PS4] By Callias• - Adds 49 objects to build in settlements. 23. •Cinder Block Walls And Sandbags Unlocked [PS4] By Callias• - Adds 16 objects like cinder blocks and sandbags. 24. •Constructible Faction Guards• - Adds ability to hire guards for caps in build menu, but only after allying with a faction. 25. •[PS4] OCDecorator• - Adds inventory items as a decorational building objects. 26. •[PS4] OCDecorator DLC• - Support for addons for the above mod. 27. •Tweaks - Survival Fast Travel Settlements All DLC• - You can fast travel to settlements on survival difficulty. 28. •1st Person Animation Tweaks [PS4]• - In first person mode you lower your gun automatically. 29. •[PS4] Swinging Animated Meat Bags• - Adds animation to supermutant meat bags and flies with buzzing sound to corpses. 30. •No Sneak Indicators• - Completely removes all sneak indicators. 31. •[PS4] Dogs Not Brahmin• - Provisioners and traders use dogs instead of brahmin. 32. •[PS4] Simple Settlers (Mortal Edition)• - Provides bigger settlers pool (five times more) and names them. Immortal version available. 33. •Quieter Settlements PS4 - Vanilla• - Generators, turrets and hammering are much quieter. 34. •Fallout 76-Style Region Music• - Changes music in regions for less boring/repetitive background tracks. 35. •Reverb And Ambiance Overhaul - ALL DLC [PS4]• - Tweaks sounds for better ambient and reverb and adds sliders to options. 36. •Better Dialogue• - Camera focuses on NPC, changes made to some irritating generic dialogues and tweaked dialogue interuption. 37. •Esk QuietPerks [PS4]• - Muted five annoying perks like idiot savant. 38. •No Experience SFX• - Silences sounds when gaining experience from various sources. 39. •[PS4] Dead Beat• - Removes heart beat sound at low HP. 40. •Combat Music Remover• - Mutes combat music, so there is silence and suspension when enemy detects you. 41. •Commonwealth Visual Overhaul & DLC [PS4]• - Changes colours, atmosphere and makes nights darker. 42. •UCW - Unified Commonwealth Weather• - Adjusted weather for regions and integrated DLC weather for Commonwealth. 43. •[PS4] No More Fake Puddles• - Removes ugly puddles that stay 24/7. 44. Reduced Rubble Etc. - Decreases intensity of grass, rubble, twigs and other unimportant objects. 45. •TLS Fallout 4 Subtle FPS Improver• - Small changes like decreasing grass and water movement speed, and tiny radius decrease of some light sources. Windy weather grass/branches fix.* 46. •[PS4] Enhanced Flickering Firelight• - Better light effects for fire sources including oil lamps. 47. •Sunlight Alignment Tweak - Better Dawn And Dusk [PS4]• - Changes sun and moon movement for better lighting and atmosphere during dusk, dawn and night. 48. •Vanilla Moon (4x)• - Much bigger moon. Anything bigger looks low quality. 49. •Crafting Blur Removal (PS4)• - Removes blur while looting containers, from crafting screen, power armor. 50. •Ironsight Blur Removal (PS4)• - Removes blur while aiming. 51. •More Map Markers (PS4)• - Adds some new markers on map. 52. •VATS Third Person Only• - As the name says, just changes the cameras used in VATS. 53. •Component Tagging Helper• - Allows to easily tag basic components on cooking bench and you can quickly view how many you have in total. 54. •Grenade and Mine Pack• - Adds some new weaker, but modified explosives. 55. •Animations Be Gone• - Removes plenty annoying hammering spots in sanctuary. 56. •Power Goggles (All DLC) - Power Armor Mods For Goggles, Visors, And Glasses• - As the name says. Two mods for glasses for high level characters. 57. •Clothes For Every Stats Wz• - Most clothes can be worn under armor and you can upgrade them after unlocking ballistic weave. 58. •Bear Trap and Caltrops Fix [PS4]• - Bug fix and small changes in how traps work and balance to them. 59. •See-Through-Scopes [PS4]• - Adds new combat scopes in place of 2.5x and 4x magnification. 60. •See-Through-Scopes - Nuka World [PS4]• - Different combat scopes for handmade rifle and western revolver. 61. •See-Through-Scopes - Far Harbor [PS4]• - Different combat scopes for radium and lever action rifles. 62. •Legalized Top Tier Legendary Effects [PS4]• - Balances few legendary effects. 63. •Targeting Sensors On Recon Scopes(Colour Coded NPCs Version)[PS4]• - Modified recon scopes that highlight enemies, friends and dead bodies in specific colours. 64. •Immersive Gameplay Combat Mostly PS4• - Core of this modlist. Hundreds of changes. 65. •Immersive-Gameplay. Low Tech, No Powerarmor Justification Patch. (PS4)• - Makes fusion cores worn. Balances the game around power armor. 66. •Immersive Gameplay Seasonpass Patch (Playstation)• - DLC compatibility for IG. 67. •Immersive Gameplay Rough Start (PS4)• - Overwrites starting level to 1. 68. •Medium Settlement Raids PS4• - Makes enemy raids less ridiculous and balanced. 69. •Zombie Walkers (PS4)• - Most feral ghouls act like slow rotten zombies. 70. •Curse Of Darkness - Normal Edition -• - Zombies are faster and more dangerous after midnight. 71. •Esk No More Teleporting Creatures [PS4]• - Molerats and radscorpions don't teleport. 72. •Realistic Insects Health [PS4]• - Makes insects easier to kill and more balanced. 73. •Loot Logic And Reduction Complete - Enhanced• - Restricted harvest, lower and/or different production output for settlements, empty bottles renamed, Scrounger perk less ammo, less meat, less loot. 74. •Rough Start - Less Handouts• - Removed some workbenches in starting locations. Different loot in Vault111, radroaches balanced, 14 starting stats (overwritten if mod #99 used). * 75. *•Food, Drink and Crop Overhaul•** - Improved cooking, lead belly perk, farming magazines give important upgrades. Better recipes are locked behind perk ranks, added milk and crop seeds. 76. •PreWar Food +• - Prewar food is more useful. Balance and fixes. 77. •Settlement Progression-Local Leader (UOF4P)• - Changes cost and perk requirements of some important structures, changes local leader perk and adds rank 3. 78. •Wasteland Baubles Ring Overhaul! PS4• - You can find unique rings at traders, in suitcases, cabinets. Allows scraping and modifying and even crafting legendary rings. 79. •(PS4) Improved Lighting Ballistics• - Improves lighting for projectiles such as bullets, lasers, gauss, plasma, missiles, flares and explosions. 80. •[PS4] Realistic Bullets: Improved Lighting Ballistics Edition• - Makes bullets travel faster, more realistic and fixes some shooting bugs. 81. •Immersive Gameplay Dismemberment - A Patch Or Standalone Feature• - Higher damage to headshots, easier to dismember limbs. 82. •Tackle! Immersive Gameplay Knockdown Version• - Lets you stagger enemies by sprinting into them after aquiring a perk. 83. •Idiot Savant & Better Criticals Redone (PS4)• - Idiot savant is better the more INT you have, muted perk chart, better criticals perk for crits outside VATS. 84. •[PS4] STS - All-In-One• - Allows scraping almost all settlement objects for extra resources and clean bases. 85. •Faster Positive Affinity For Companions• - Removes cooldown between companions liking/hating your actions and gain five times more positive affinity. Or use extra mod #4. 86. •[PS4]More XP Per Level (Base:600, Bump 120)• - Increases experience required to level up for balance purposes. 87. •Increased EXP• - Increases the amount of EXP gained to make Immersive Gameplay and mod list balanced and playable. 88. •No Building Houses XP Gains PS4• - Building settlements don't provide experience. 89. •Realistic Death Physics - No Animation - ALL DLC [PS4]• - Decreases the amount of force of both melee and ranged attacks, so bodies wont fly away. 90. •Increased Settler Limit - Awareness - Wire Length - Corpse Collisions [PS4]• - More aware settlers with limit of 50 per settlement and longer wires. Mind the limit. 91. •Power Conduits Radius Increase And No Build Limit - All DLC [PS4]• - Infinite build limit and two times longer range electricity conduits. 92. •Settlement Attack Spawns Outside The Settlement PS4• - Moves attack spawns outside the settlement borders. 93. •[PS4] Creation Club Skins (Weapon & PipBoy) Generic Compatibility Patch• - Makes weapon paints from Creation Club show up in crafting menu. 94. •Pip-Boy Flashlight• - Pipboy light is now a flashlight. 95. •PS4 - Longer Headlamp Light• - Makes flashlight much bigger and changes headlamp and power armor light. 96. •No Enemy Respawns• - Game areas don't respawn loot and enemies, after time have passed. 97. •Accelerated Fast Travel• - Fast travel takes less in-game time, should be also relevant to survival needs. 98. •Time Scale Changed From 20 To 10 [PS4]• - Day and night lasts twice as long. 99. •[PS4] Starting SPECIAL = 7• - Changes starting SPECIAL stats to 1 in each category so you start weak. ---•If you decided to skip some mods, go check out 'Extra mods' below and add any you like.• ---•After installing above mods RESTART YOUR PS4/PS5!• ---•In options change game difficulty to survival.• ---•Play on performance 60fps mode (visual 60fps is not very smooth).• ---•Complete vault 111 until you get to the surface, do exit autosave and install below mod.• 100. •Saving Survival Mode• - Adds ability to save in survival difficulty through pip-boy MISC category. Option to save are always on top (3 autosave slots plus 1 main save slot shared by all survival characters). ---•Go to options, sound and reduce ambience level by 7 clicks and reverb by 3.• ---•For even more immersive settings, go to settings, gameplay and turn off quest markers.•
---•Set music volume to half, camera sensitivity to max or your choice, hud color to minty blue, pip-boy to red or any colour you like.•
Extra mods:
- •No Bugs In Vault 111 [PS4]• - No radroaches in starting area. Add as a last mod and leave or delete it afterwards.
- •Immortal Cats - PS4• - Invincible cats. Add after mod #84.
- •Vertibirds Unghosted• - Tweaks invincible vertibirds for danger and realism. Add after dogs not brahmins #31.
- •No Affinity Cooldown• - Removes cooldown between companions liking/hating your actions. Swap with mod #85.
- •Quieter Settlements PS4 - Contraptions DLC• - Quieter production lines. Add after mod #33.
- •Quieter Settlements PS4 - Wasteland Workshop• - Quieter fusion generators. Add after mod #33.
- •Pip-Boy Flashlight (Brighter)• - *For small, bright flashlight swap with mod #94 and move #95 one space above.
- •CleanVATS - Green Tint Remover PS4• - Removes fullscreen green tint effect while in VATS. Add after mod #51.
- •Longhorns Of The Commonwealth• - Adds longhorns to more empty areas on the map. Add after mod #9.
- •Gulpers Of The Commonwealth• - Adds gulpers to more empty areas on the map.
- •Radium Rifle Suppressed Sound Fix• - As the mod name suggests. Must be on top of mod list, its a master file. Add after mod #1.
12. •Explorer Restored - Cut Perk Mod PS4• - Adds rank two of VANS. New perk shows map markers. Add after #82.
V. 1.00 - Old version. V. 1.03 - Previous version. V. 2.00 - Completely remade. Have fun.2024.06.02 19:18 BeanBean723 How can a mother blame her daughter for her own r*pe?
Was watching a tv show today where a man was falsely accused by his daughter of molestation and the visceral, defensive reaction my mom had at the screen was insane. Calling the girl a bitch/whore/etc, “she destroyed that man’s life and she deserved everything that eventually came to her!” The girl was murdered in the show.
I agree that wrongful accusations are abhorrent, but I actually was raped. And assaulted, multiple times. And you know what my mom told me when I told her? “Don’t say that word”. She did not have the same visceral reaction to learning a man did the unthinkable to her own daughter. The two times I came close to ending it, she said I was making a scene.
My mom has never outright said it was my fault, but I could write a novel of the many times she has hinted at it, insinuated it, or shown me in 4k how much of a victim-blamed she is, so she doesn’t have to. My therapist says I live in a narcissistic family system so I guess I was doomed from the get go and shouldn’t be surprised, but my childhood alone caused enough damage to set me back for life. I don’t know how to live in a world where no one loves you. I don’t know how to stop seeking the parental love I never got in others, who hate it, and run and blame me for being too much. I don’t know how to stop blaming myself when the people who were supposed to love me unconditionally blame me even more than I do.
I’m sorry if this is too heavy. I just have nowhere else to go.
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I agree that wrongful accusations are abhorrent, but I actually was raped. And assaulted, multiple times. And you know what my mom told me when I told her? “Don’t say that word”. She did not have the same visceral reaction to learning a man did the unthinkable to her own daughter. The two times I came close to ending it, she said I was making a scene.
My mom has never outright said it was my fault, but I could write a novel of the many times she has hinted at it, insinuated it, or shown me in 4k how much of a victim-blamed she is, so she doesn’t have to. My therapist says I live in a narcissistic family system so I guess I was doomed from the get go and shouldn’t be surprised, but my childhood alone caused enough damage to set me back for life. I don’t know how to live in a world where no one loves you. I don’t know how to stop seeking the parental love I never got in others, who hate it, and run and blame me for being too much. I don’t know how to stop blaming myself when the people who were supposed to love me unconditionally blame me even more than I do.
I’m sorry if this is too heavy. I just have nowhere else to go.
2024.06.02 19:17 Thefilmboxpodcast Furiosa: A Mad Max Saga (2024 Review) Ready, Setty, GO!
It seems like just yesterday I heard that the modern Mad Max franchise was getting a sequel, or in this case, a prequel to the events of Mad Max: Fury Road. Apparently not many people knew about it since it only opened with $32 million with a budget of roughly $168 million making it one of the worst Memorial Day openings ever. This was shocking to me seeing how much it was advertised and how well received Mad Max: Fury Road was. However, Fury Road only opened with $45.4 million and went on to gross more than $376 million worldwide. With that being said, Furiosa: A Mad Max Saga should definitely be getting more love from the fans.
Furiosa: A Mad Max Saga is a revenge story that gives us a glimpse of what Furiosa’s life was like before she was the Imperator of the Citadel. The antagonist of this movie is Dementus (played by Chris Hemsworth), and he is more ruthless than Immortan Joe, the main antagonist in the first movie. Furiosa is from the Green Place with Many Mothers or “place of abundance” as they liked to call it and she was stolen by Dementus’ forces at a young age. Of course, during the apocalypse, groups are always trying to find a way to survive and trying to find out where she was from was Dementus’ only goal. We also got to see the different towns and how they all worked together in this prequel too. We finally get to see Gastown and the Bullet Farm.
I rewatched Fury Road the day prior to seeing Furiosa and I forgot how much I loved this universe. I have seen my fair share of post-apocalyptic and dystopian movies and TV shows, and the Mad Max series is one of the only ones in my opinion that can accurately describe a post-apocalyptic world. Nothing else really comes close in showing the utter insanity that ensues years after a world ending event.
Instantly, the acting caught my eye, and I am sure everyone else in the theater. For me personally, this is arguably Chris Hemsworth’s best role and performance. He is obviously most well-known for portraying Thor, the god of Thunder in the Marvel Cinematic Universe as well as a few other projects. I was pretty skeptical about this because I have always seen him as Thor and it’s hard to unsee it. However, he did such a great job as the main antagonist of Furiosa, that sometimes I forgot all his other past acting jobs and just focused on this one. It is also not often we see him as the main villain in a movie which was also great to see.
Anya Taylor-joy was also superb. She has starred in a lot of horror projects but also dabbles in some other genres and honestly, I am all for it. I am a huge fan of hers and interested to see if they continue Furiosa’s legacy in future Mad Max movies.
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Read our full thoughts and see our final rating here: https://pressplaymag.com/furiosa-a-mad-max-saga-2024-review-ready-setty-go/
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Furiosa: A Mad Max Saga is a revenge story that gives us a glimpse of what Furiosa’s life was like before she was the Imperator of the Citadel. The antagonist of this movie is Dementus (played by Chris Hemsworth), and he is more ruthless than Immortan Joe, the main antagonist in the first movie. Furiosa is from the Green Place with Many Mothers or “place of abundance” as they liked to call it and she was stolen by Dementus’ forces at a young age. Of course, during the apocalypse, groups are always trying to find a way to survive and trying to find out where she was from was Dementus’ only goal. We also got to see the different towns and how they all worked together in this prequel too. We finally get to see Gastown and the Bullet Farm.
I rewatched Fury Road the day prior to seeing Furiosa and I forgot how much I loved this universe. I have seen my fair share of post-apocalyptic and dystopian movies and TV shows, and the Mad Max series is one of the only ones in my opinion that can accurately describe a post-apocalyptic world. Nothing else really comes close in showing the utter insanity that ensues years after a world ending event.
Instantly, the acting caught my eye, and I am sure everyone else in the theater. For me personally, this is arguably Chris Hemsworth’s best role and performance. He is obviously most well-known for portraying Thor, the god of Thunder in the Marvel Cinematic Universe as well as a few other projects. I was pretty skeptical about this because I have always seen him as Thor and it’s hard to unsee it. However, he did such a great job as the main antagonist of Furiosa, that sometimes I forgot all his other past acting jobs and just focused on this one. It is also not often we see him as the main villain in a movie which was also great to see.
Anya Taylor-joy was also superb. She has starred in a lot of horror projects but also dabbles in some other genres and honestly, I am all for it. I am a huge fan of hers and interested to see if they continue Furiosa’s legacy in future Mad Max movies.
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Read our full thoughts and see our final rating here: https://pressplaymag.com/furiosa-a-mad-max-saga-2024-review-ready-setty-go/
2024.06.02 19:17 Thefilmboxpodcast IJW: Furiosa (2024) - Ready, Setty, GO!
It seems like just yesterday I heard that the modern Mad Max franchise was getting a sequel, or in this case, a prequel to the events of Mad Max: Fury Road. Apparently not many people knew about it since it only opened with $32 million with a budget of roughly $168 million making it one of the worst Memorial Day openings ever. This was shocking to me seeing how much it was advertised and how well received Mad Max: Fury Road was. However, Fury Road only opened with $45.4 million and went on to gross more than $376 million worldwide. With that being said, Furiosa: A Mad Max Saga should definitely be getting more love from the fans.
Furiosa: A Mad Max Saga is a revenge story that gives us a glimpse of what Furiosa’s life was like before she was the Imperator of the Citadel. The antagonist of this movie is Dementus (played by Chris Hemsworth), and he is more ruthless than Immortan Joe, the main antagonist in the first movie. Furiosa is from the Green Place with Many Mothers or “place of abundance” as they liked to call it and she was stolen by Dementus’ forces at a young age. Of course, during the apocalypse, groups are always trying to find a way to survive and trying to find out where she was from was Dementus’ only goal. We also got to see the different towns and how they all worked together in this prequel too. We finally get to see Gastown and the Bullet Farm.
I rewatched Fury Road the day prior to seeing Furiosa and I forgot how much I loved this universe. I have seen my fair share of post-apocalyptic and dystopian movies and TV shows, and the Mad Max series is one of the only ones in my opinion that can accurately describe a post-apocalyptic world. Nothing else really comes close in showing the utter insanity that ensues years after a world ending event.
Instantly, the acting caught my eye, and I am sure everyone else in the theater. For me personally, this is arguably Chris Hemsworth’s best role and performance. He is obviously most well-known for portraying Thor, the god of Thunder in the Marvel Cinematic Universe as well as a few other projects. I was pretty skeptical about this because I have always seen him as Thor and it’s hard to unsee it. However, he did such a great job as the main antagonist of Furiosa, that sometimes I forgot all his other past acting jobs and just focused on this one. It is also not often we see him as the main villain in a movie which was also great to see.
Anya Taylor-joy was also superb. She has starred in a lot of horror projects but also dabbles in some other genres and honestly, I am all for it. I am a huge fan of hers and interested to see if they continue Furiosa’s legacy in future Mad Max movies.
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Read our full thoughts and see our final rating here: https://pressplaymag.com/furiosa-a-mad-max-saga-2024-review-ready-setty-go/
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Furiosa: A Mad Max Saga is a revenge story that gives us a glimpse of what Furiosa’s life was like before she was the Imperator of the Citadel. The antagonist of this movie is Dementus (played by Chris Hemsworth), and he is more ruthless than Immortan Joe, the main antagonist in the first movie. Furiosa is from the Green Place with Many Mothers or “place of abundance” as they liked to call it and she was stolen by Dementus’ forces at a young age. Of course, during the apocalypse, groups are always trying to find a way to survive and trying to find out where she was from was Dementus’ only goal. We also got to see the different towns and how they all worked together in this prequel too. We finally get to see Gastown and the Bullet Farm.
I rewatched Fury Road the day prior to seeing Furiosa and I forgot how much I loved this universe. I have seen my fair share of post-apocalyptic and dystopian movies and TV shows, and the Mad Max series is one of the only ones in my opinion that can accurately describe a post-apocalyptic world. Nothing else really comes close in showing the utter insanity that ensues years after a world ending event.
Instantly, the acting caught my eye, and I am sure everyone else in the theater. For me personally, this is arguably Chris Hemsworth’s best role and performance. He is obviously most well-known for portraying Thor, the god of Thunder in the Marvel Cinematic Universe as well as a few other projects. I was pretty skeptical about this because I have always seen him as Thor and it’s hard to unsee it. However, he did such a great job as the main antagonist of Furiosa, that sometimes I forgot all his other past acting jobs and just focused on this one. It is also not often we see him as the main villain in a movie which was also great to see.
Anya Taylor-joy was also superb. She has starred in a lot of horror projects but also dabbles in some other genres and honestly, I am all for it. I am a huge fan of hers and interested to see if they continue Furiosa’s legacy in future Mad Max movies.
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Read our full thoughts and see our final rating here: https://pressplaymag.com/furiosa-a-mad-max-saga-2024-review-ready-setty-go/
2024.06.02 19:17 ThomazM My player has a character ideia that is raising a few red flags in my head... I want a second opinion.
My player has a character ideia that is raising a few red flags in my head... I want a second opinion.
I'll keep this short.
A player of mine is discussing with me his character ideia that envolves a curse. This curse is driven by the hatred of/desire to exterminate those who silence a Truth about the world that his character strongly believes in. This curse, therefore, manifests as his Great Old One Warlock Patron in various ways. One of these, is what he's choosing to call Merciful Misery, that whenever he gets the HYWTDT on a offender of his Truth, he rolls a die and depending on the result, a shadowy mists surrounds the party and the offender, killing them, regardless if the party wanted to keep them alive for interrogation or otherwise. Following this thread, he's also suggesting that by leveling up, this curse would start to consume him more and more and as such, start to make his character more intolerant and zealous about his Truth, as well as making his magic more chaotic and hazardous to himself and perhaps the party.
His character is, otherwise, accepting of others, willing to work in a group and even open to discenting opinions, only turning into hateful whenever this somewhat specific lore piece is dropped (his so-called Truth).
It is also important to note that his character is woefully unaware of this curse, losing all memory of it as is possesses him. Attempts to explain his possession to him would make him defensive and try to explain it away as nothing.
My thing about it is... I'm not too keen on introducing character traits that could add so large a friction between a party. Also, I'm a bit afraid of this causing a main character syndrome. In all honesty, this feels to me a bit tropey (not that anything is necessarily wrong with that) and anime-y? The nice guy turned into a demon-like persona because of a shadowy curse feels... I don't know. This person is also very into anime, so this might be skewing my perspective a bit. He also had problems many years back with main character syndrome in tables. He's a great person, just... Let's call it quirky, at times.
Overall, I want to hear other opinions. I'm considering approaching the person and politely asking if the curse could be a less obtrusive character trait, at least in the beginning, and letting us figure it out as we go, and airing out my concerns. But I'm genuinely afraid I could be overreacting. I'd love some help with this. Thanks!
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I'll keep this short.
A player of mine is discussing with me his character ideia that envolves a curse. This curse is driven by the hatred of/desire to exterminate those who silence a Truth about the world that his character strongly believes in. This curse, therefore, manifests as his Great Old One Warlock Patron in various ways. One of these, is what he's choosing to call Merciful Misery, that whenever he gets the HYWTDT on a offender of his Truth, he rolls a die and depending on the result, a shadowy mists surrounds the party and the offender, killing them, regardless if the party wanted to keep them alive for interrogation or otherwise. Following this thread, he's also suggesting that by leveling up, this curse would start to consume him more and more and as such, start to make his character more intolerant and zealous about his Truth, as well as making his magic more chaotic and hazardous to himself and perhaps the party.
His character is, otherwise, accepting of others, willing to work in a group and even open to discenting opinions, only turning into hateful whenever this somewhat specific lore piece is dropped (his so-called Truth).
It is also important to note that his character is woefully unaware of this curse, losing all memory of it as is possesses him. Attempts to explain his possession to him would make him defensive and try to explain it away as nothing.
My thing about it is... I'm not too keen on introducing character traits that could add so large a friction between a party. Also, I'm a bit afraid of this causing a main character syndrome. In all honesty, this feels to me a bit tropey (not that anything is necessarily wrong with that) and anime-y? The nice guy turned into a demon-like persona because of a shadowy curse feels... I don't know. This person is also very into anime, so this might be skewing my perspective a bit. He also had problems many years back with main character syndrome in tables. He's a great person, just... Let's call it quirky, at times.
Overall, I want to hear other opinions. I'm considering approaching the person and politely asking if the curse could be a less obtrusive character trait, at least in the beginning, and letting us figure it out as we go, and airing out my concerns. But I'm genuinely afraid I could be overreacting. I'd love some help with this. Thanks!
2024.06.02 19:16 Street_Plane2217 AITA for trying to ghost a friend?
I’ve never posted before; this is my first time. For starters, my friend (25M) and I (24F) have been friends for almost five years, more or less. At first glance, he would be considered heavily introverted and socially awkward. We met during a Bible study that our parents arranged, and at that time, neither of us could avoid it due to potential conflict with our parents. You can imagine the type of conservative mindset they had.
Anyway, after a few visits, he made the first move to speak to me. We had a nice conversation, and he got my number. We continued chatting, and I found that he was developing feelings for me after a while as we hung out more. We were still young; I was realizing things about my sexuality and going through a lot of growth at the time. We were living in a small town, and being queer wasn’t viewed as right in the community, so I wasn’t really telling anyone, much less my parents, out of fear of confrontation.
He had an “off” type of personality that I couldn’t really put my finger on. I’ve always argued that it was his own mental problems since he rarely talked about himself and mostly let me talk. He would mention having dreams about someone he felt like protecting (never really specifying who it was, but they were a woman), or he would feel sudden anger out of nowhere, like something menacing was clinging onto him. He called it a dark being or something. The rare moments he mentioned it, he didn’t say much more.
I wanted to tell him I was only into women at the time. I didn’t want to tell him directly because I weirdly felt like I didn’t want to, so I asked my aunt to tell him. She told him, and she came back saying it looked like he spiraled. He walked around in circles, asking her if she was serious and if it was true. I remember going to him and seeing something really bothering him. After he went home, he texted me asking if it was true. I said yes, it was.
After that, he didn’t do anything else that was concerning. He supported me during my first heartbreak with a woman around three years ago and supported me overall in life. He was a good friend, to be honest.
Only recently did things get concerning. My dad would tell me the guy feels like a serial killer, like he would randomly lose his mind. My brother said something similar at the time as well, and my best friend as well.
I met someone online, obviously a woman, and it had become more serious. I told him that I’d probably live with her when the time was right and when we saw each other, since we’d been talking for a while. He got really weird about it. Over a call, he told me that he’d prevent me from going to her, saying he would find ways to cut off ties and “off” her. He said he would kidnap me, and I wouldn’t know it was him that did it all. He said it in a joking and consistent way that I didn’t really comprehend at first, but after the call, it really started to bother me.
I had been feeling uncomfortable and decided I didn’t want to have him in my life anymore. It is scary since he recently got a gun he had been waiting for, for years. I am afraid he is unstable, and that spending any more time with him would be life threatening. I slowly cut ties by not really being clear about why and just fading away. I don’t really know what to do in this situation because he still tries to contact me, and I don’t want to feed the flames by maybe making it worse by suddenly cutting ties by explaining to him or staying in contact.
Also note: he studies IT and has the potential to see everything and probably to awful stuff. I know because he showed me how easily he could snoop by using me as an example.
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Anyway, after a few visits, he made the first move to speak to me. We had a nice conversation, and he got my number. We continued chatting, and I found that he was developing feelings for me after a while as we hung out more. We were still young; I was realizing things about my sexuality and going through a lot of growth at the time. We were living in a small town, and being queer wasn’t viewed as right in the community, so I wasn’t really telling anyone, much less my parents, out of fear of confrontation.
He had an “off” type of personality that I couldn’t really put my finger on. I’ve always argued that it was his own mental problems since he rarely talked about himself and mostly let me talk. He would mention having dreams about someone he felt like protecting (never really specifying who it was, but they were a woman), or he would feel sudden anger out of nowhere, like something menacing was clinging onto him. He called it a dark being or something. The rare moments he mentioned it, he didn’t say much more.
I wanted to tell him I was only into women at the time. I didn’t want to tell him directly because I weirdly felt like I didn’t want to, so I asked my aunt to tell him. She told him, and she came back saying it looked like he spiraled. He walked around in circles, asking her if she was serious and if it was true. I remember going to him and seeing something really bothering him. After he went home, he texted me asking if it was true. I said yes, it was.
After that, he didn’t do anything else that was concerning. He supported me during my first heartbreak with a woman around three years ago and supported me overall in life. He was a good friend, to be honest.
Only recently did things get concerning. My dad would tell me the guy feels like a serial killer, like he would randomly lose his mind. My brother said something similar at the time as well, and my best friend as well.
I met someone online, obviously a woman, and it had become more serious. I told him that I’d probably live with her when the time was right and when we saw each other, since we’d been talking for a while. He got really weird about it. Over a call, he told me that he’d prevent me from going to her, saying he would find ways to cut off ties and “off” her. He said he would kidnap me, and I wouldn’t know it was him that did it all. He said it in a joking and consistent way that I didn’t really comprehend at first, but after the call, it really started to bother me.
I had been feeling uncomfortable and decided I didn’t want to have him in my life anymore. It is scary since he recently got a gun he had been waiting for, for years. I am afraid he is unstable, and that spending any more time with him would be life threatening. I slowly cut ties by not really being clear about why and just fading away. I don’t really know what to do in this situation because he still tries to contact me, and I don’t want to feed the flames by maybe making it worse by suddenly cutting ties by explaining to him or staying in contact.
Also note: he studies IT and has the potential to see everything and probably to awful stuff. I know because he showed me how easily he could snoop by using me as an example.
2024.06.02 19:16 Ill_Coffee_6821 Thank you gift - what’s most appropriate
Hello. I’m trying to choose the right way to thank a friend of mine. I have also been generous in the past, picking them up and dropping them off because they don’t have a car etc. We have been friends for 7 years and live in an expensive HCOL area.
I recently ended up in the hospital unexpectedly and am very far from family. I was injured and was scared. My friend took an Uber all the way to the hospital (about 40 min each way), stayed with me all day through tests, took me home after. The next day she came back to my house and helped me with a bunch of things around the house. Also Uber each way. It may not sound like a huge deal but I am far from family and it meant the world to me to have someone there. She did it without me asking.
I have been struggling with how to best say thank you. I have thanked her in person and in follow up texts, but would like to do something more. At a minimum I plan to send a handwritten thank you card.
I was thinking a massage might be nice, but the nicer places are all so expensive (the place I’d like to get the gift card to would probably be around 250 to cover the massage, as I’d hate to get a gift card that covers only part of the treatment). The money is not an issue for me and I’m MORE than happy to do this, but I also don’t want her to feel guilty or bad like she did something out of the kindness of her heart and I got her an expensive gift in return (like in a transactional way). I am wondering if a nice thank you card with an offer to take her to dinner sometime as a thank you would be more appropriate. Or really any other ideas someone might have. Or if you think the massage isn’t too much as well.
Thank you so much, I really want her to understand how much this meant to me, even if it wasn’t a huge deal to her. :)
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I recently ended up in the hospital unexpectedly and am very far from family. I was injured and was scared. My friend took an Uber all the way to the hospital (about 40 min each way), stayed with me all day through tests, took me home after. The next day she came back to my house and helped me with a bunch of things around the house. Also Uber each way. It may not sound like a huge deal but I am far from family and it meant the world to me to have someone there. She did it without me asking.
I have been struggling with how to best say thank you. I have thanked her in person and in follow up texts, but would like to do something more. At a minimum I plan to send a handwritten thank you card.
I was thinking a massage might be nice, but the nicer places are all so expensive (the place I’d like to get the gift card to would probably be around 250 to cover the massage, as I’d hate to get a gift card that covers only part of the treatment). The money is not an issue for me and I’m MORE than happy to do this, but I also don’t want her to feel guilty or bad like she did something out of the kindness of her heart and I got her an expensive gift in return (like in a transactional way). I am wondering if a nice thank you card with an offer to take her to dinner sometime as a thank you would be more appropriate. Or really any other ideas someone might have. Or if you think the massage isn’t too much as well.
Thank you so much, I really want her to understand how much this meant to me, even if it wasn’t a huge deal to her. :)
2024.06.02 19:15 nbddaniel New computer
For probably 7-8 years I had a Ryzen 5 3600, 1060 and 16gb of ddr4 3200. I know the basics of hardware but I’m not a huge tech junky. I knew I needed to upgrade so I did a little research and bought a Ryzen 7 5700 and a 6700. It was a massive upgrade from what I was using. However, about 5-6 months later and for work related reasons. I bought a prebuilt laptop. I’ve always been skeptical of laptops. I don’t know why I just never felt like any of them were actually any good.
The laptop I bought is from a company called BIMBOX. They specialize in civil engineering equipment and sell us our software.
When I looked to see what the specs on these things were I was mind blown on how they fit it all into a laptop.
I bought the “slim series” which comes with the following specs:
Nvidia RTX 4070 Intel i9-14900 32gb DDR5 5600 Water cooling. 2TB M.2 drive
Ok for context this thing is no thicker than an inch. Maybe even a little less. How the hell did they get all that and a water cooler inside.
Anyways as far as performance goes, from the 1060 it’s alien different. Entirely different world it’s mind blowing. From the 6700 and 5700 I was using, also a completely different world.
Very satisfied with BIMBOX and very impressed with the modern hardware that’s out right now. This thing seems like it is 5-10x faster than my desktop I had last year and it’s an inch thick.
Well done tech industry, well done.
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The laptop I bought is from a company called BIMBOX. They specialize in civil engineering equipment and sell us our software.
When I looked to see what the specs on these things were I was mind blown on how they fit it all into a laptop.
I bought the “slim series” which comes with the following specs:
Nvidia RTX 4070 Intel i9-14900 32gb DDR5 5600 Water cooling. 2TB M.2 drive
Ok for context this thing is no thicker than an inch. Maybe even a little less. How the hell did they get all that and a water cooler inside.
Anyways as far as performance goes, from the 1060 it’s alien different. Entirely different world it’s mind blowing. From the 6700 and 5700 I was using, also a completely different world.
Very satisfied with BIMBOX and very impressed with the modern hardware that’s out right now. This thing seems like it is 5-10x faster than my desktop I had last year and it’s an inch thick.
Well done tech industry, well done.
2024.06.02 19:15 ConsciousAd3778 Hpa vs green gas
 | I decided to use a aap01 as my first ever primary gun, i will throw on the drill kit for it because i have a costume for like mechanic and stuff also, what tips should i get as a new aap01 owner? Like lubing or like aap01c or aap01 or anything like that. Thanks submitted by ConsciousAd3778 to AAP01owners [link] [comments] |
2024.06.02 19:14 54321rome Why DRS and Options go hand in hand and will inflict max pain (Not financial advice)
Disclaimer: This post was written by a friend that cannot post himself: howardkitty94. Everything in this post was written and researched by him, all credit goes to him:
I've been analysing data since Friday 31st of May...and I think I may be getting somewhere...Excel sheet attached for anyone to build on what I did or to improve please also check my DD...
Now, we know someone is buying a whole load of $20 dollar Call options expiring on the 21st of June? Why?
Because that can trigger a squeeze...
Let me start off with the basics for people with a smooth brain
When you buy a call, you have a strike price and expiry date
If the closing price on the expiry date is above the strike price, you can exercise your call, the broker finds a share, and it sells it to you AT THE STRIKE PRICE, regardless of the market price.
This has a 2 business day settlement period. So if it is exercised on a Friday, it is typically delivered on a Tuesday..
So the whale investor who bought 20 dollar calls, expiring on the 21st of June… For the sake of not raising expectations we will go with a low number - If the stock price closes at $25, he will make money.
But it also does one thing behind the scenes.. It creates buying pressure on the stock price, and if many of these calls are exercised then it creates a buying pressure...driving the price higher...
However if it does not close by at least $0.01 above the strike price, calls are typically not exercised. Even if you make money from the call, it does not create a squeeze.
Which is why buying calls correctly is very important
Now this is not financial advice, this is what I am personally doing and I am NOT telling anyone what to do.
I currently own shares and based on my own personal research and conclusions I plan on adding calls.
The calls I plan on buying will be ITM or ATM.
Deep OTM $45 dollar calls are efficient, but no way near as efficient as ITM or ATM, yes they will add massive amounts of fuel to the fire if the price of the stock reaches the strike price (45$), ITM calls have higher deltas, which means that nearing expiration - Market Makers will have to hedge the risk of the ITM calls being execrised by… Buying shares themselves. Let’s say your ITM call at 20$ strike price has a delta of 0.6, and each call is 100 shares, then MM’s will have to BUY 60 shares if your call is in the money, and if shares are hard to come by, then they will fight the short sellers for these shares, further contributing to the fire. This is very explosive.
I personally would buy them so that they are high enough to make some profit from the contract, but low enough where I know it would most probably hit the strike price. 100$ strike prices are not as efficient as 20$ strike prices because their delta is 0.xxx, which as you guessed it, is worthless, and MM’s will not hedge the risk of the calls being exercised because there is no risk, no one will exercise 100 shares at 100$ per share if the stock price is at 30$ right?
So maximum risk for hedgies? 20-35 dollar calls for the 21st of June.
Why? Because how do we know this battle with naked shorts will not continue? How do we know if the CAT system will help like it should? How do we know there wont be more ladder attacks?
MOASS can take weeks, if not months to complete. But a lock the float scenario is favorable.
Buying and DRS'ing is half the battle, think of it like a military force, you have the men (us) they are the shares, now you need the guns (calls), and then we need to aim the gun correctly (correct strike prices)
Based on my calculations, on the 31st of May, 41,707 would be eligible for exercising their contracts...this equates to (using average 100 per open interest) 4,170,700 shares that need delivering T+2 (Tuesday settlement date)...This should cause some buying pressure on Monday and Tuesday just like how we saw last week when we rallied to 26.5 on Tuesday...
Lets keep using 23 dollars as a hypothetical closing price for this friday 6th...this number is now 2,559,400...
And then on 14th it is 874,000....
But then on the 21st A whopping 20,924,700 shares need delivering T+2 if it closes at $23 USD...Thats when it can hopefully lock the float... And 23$ is on the lower end. Again this is very explosive.
Now the DRS'd shares are well above 25%...how do I know this? Because at the start of May the DRS'd shares was at 25% (capped by computershare), and then 45 million new shares got sold...and the number is still at 25%...meaning we are well above 25% in DRS'd shares...
When we start a firecracker, the FOMO's join in...This drives higher pressure....If I do not sell...when all these contracts are exercised...then that creates massive buying pressure....If I hold on to the shares that are exercised...even more buying pressure...When shorts are forced to hedge their position during this run even more pressure....I hold even further than the 25th of June...Even more buying pressure....
Link attached to my spreadsheet....note the 31st of May only has calls but the rest have both calls and puts as puts below the strike price also have a right to exercise (helping the run)....
Also, if anyone can find the options data for the 31st, 24th of May please let me know so I can further build the model...I cannot find them and I need them to build a bigger picture...
If I have made any mistakes...I'm only human, correct me...
https://filebin.net/alyptqo2a39f8kr1
Spread this knowledge, calls are a cheap way to make MM’s pay for your cause. By owning ITM calls you essentially force MM’s to buy shares for you.
And remember, “no f*cking fighting” as stated by our beloved kitty. $GME
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I've been analysing data since Friday 31st of May...and I think I may be getting somewhere...Excel sheet attached for anyone to build on what I did or to improve please also check my DD...
Now, we know someone is buying a whole load of $20 dollar Call options expiring on the 21st of June? Why?
Because that can trigger a squeeze...
Let me start off with the basics for people with a smooth brain
When you buy a call, you have a strike price and expiry date
If the closing price on the expiry date is above the strike price, you can exercise your call, the broker finds a share, and it sells it to you AT THE STRIKE PRICE, regardless of the market price.
This has a 2 business day settlement period. So if it is exercised on a Friday, it is typically delivered on a Tuesday..
So the whale investor who bought 20 dollar calls, expiring on the 21st of June… For the sake of not raising expectations we will go with a low number - If the stock price closes at $25, he will make money.
But it also does one thing behind the scenes.. It creates buying pressure on the stock price, and if many of these calls are exercised then it creates a buying pressure...driving the price higher...
However if it does not close by at least $0.01 above the strike price, calls are typically not exercised. Even if you make money from the call, it does not create a squeeze.
Which is why buying calls correctly is very important
Now this is not financial advice, this is what I am personally doing and I am NOT telling anyone what to do.
I currently own shares and based on my own personal research and conclusions I plan on adding calls.
The calls I plan on buying will be ITM or ATM.
Deep OTM $45 dollar calls are efficient, but no way near as efficient as ITM or ATM, yes they will add massive amounts of fuel to the fire if the price of the stock reaches the strike price (45$), ITM calls have higher deltas, which means that nearing expiration - Market Makers will have to hedge the risk of the ITM calls being execrised by… Buying shares themselves. Let’s say your ITM call at 20$ strike price has a delta of 0.6, and each call is 100 shares, then MM’s will have to BUY 60 shares if your call is in the money, and if shares are hard to come by, then they will fight the short sellers for these shares, further contributing to the fire. This is very explosive.
I personally would buy them so that they are high enough to make some profit from the contract, but low enough where I know it would most probably hit the strike price. 100$ strike prices are not as efficient as 20$ strike prices because their delta is 0.xxx, which as you guessed it, is worthless, and MM’s will not hedge the risk of the calls being exercised because there is no risk, no one will exercise 100 shares at 100$ per share if the stock price is at 30$ right?
So maximum risk for hedgies? 20-35 dollar calls for the 21st of June.
Why? Because how do we know this battle with naked shorts will not continue? How do we know if the CAT system will help like it should? How do we know there wont be more ladder attacks?
MOASS can take weeks, if not months to complete. But a lock the float scenario is favorable.
Buying and DRS'ing is half the battle, think of it like a military force, you have the men (us) they are the shares, now you need the guns (calls), and then we need to aim the gun correctly (correct strike prices)
Based on my calculations, on the 31st of May, 41,707 would be eligible for exercising their contracts...this equates to (using average 100 per open interest) 4,170,700 shares that need delivering T+2 (Tuesday settlement date)...This should cause some buying pressure on Monday and Tuesday just like how we saw last week when we rallied to 26.5 on Tuesday...
Lets keep using 23 dollars as a hypothetical closing price for this friday 6th...this number is now 2,559,400...
And then on 14th it is 874,000....
But then on the 21st A whopping 20,924,700 shares need delivering T+2 if it closes at $23 USD...Thats when it can hopefully lock the float... And 23$ is on the lower end. Again this is very explosive.
Now the DRS'd shares are well above 25%...how do I know this? Because at the start of May the DRS'd shares was at 25% (capped by computershare), and then 45 million new shares got sold...and the number is still at 25%...meaning we are well above 25% in DRS'd shares...
When we start a firecracker, the FOMO's join in...This drives higher pressure....If I do not sell...when all these contracts are exercised...then that creates massive buying pressure....If I hold on to the shares that are exercised...even more buying pressure...When shorts are forced to hedge their position during this run even more pressure....I hold even further than the 25th of June...Even more buying pressure....
Link attached to my spreadsheet....note the 31st of May only has calls but the rest have both calls and puts as puts below the strike price also have a right to exercise (helping the run)....
Also, if anyone can find the options data for the 31st, 24th of May please let me know so I can further build the model...I cannot find them and I need them to build a bigger picture...
If I have made any mistakes...I'm only human, correct me...
https://filebin.net/alyptqo2a39f8kr1
Spread this knowledge, calls are a cheap way to make MM’s pay for your cause. By owning ITM calls you essentially force MM’s to buy shares for you.
And remember, “no f*cking fighting” as stated by our beloved kitty. $GME
2024.06.02 19:14 UghGottaBeJoking Thoughts about what’s in the new expansion?
I can’t sleep and was trying to debate in my mind what the new expansion pack may include.
Do you think we would get any of the following…?
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Do you think we would get any of the following…?
- New world
- New personality trait
- New aspiration
- New community lot type
- Online Dating System
- A new notable npc who will pop up and add to the lore
- New hair and clothing (with a particular theme, probably romantic styles like in the romantic garden pack)
- New furniture and build variety (probably following one distinct style)
- Different dating options (perhaps casual dating and exclusive)
2024.06.02 19:13 Long_Breakfast3378 Wondering if I should consider rehoming my dog
Hi All - apologies in advance for a longer post. My wife and I have an 11 month old shepherd lab mix rescue and I’m wondering if we should consider rehoming him.
We got our dog at 4 months old, and he’s a good boy. He’s super smart, loves to play, and is super sweet and snuggly. I’ve always loved dogs and was super excited getting him.
My issue is that honestly, I don’t think I treat him fairly, and that is 1000% a me problem and something I didn’t expect. While he’s the sweetest boy in the world half the time, the other half of the time I find him bringing down my quality of life.
We anticipated that having a dog would a big time and work investment, but half the time I find myself feeling like we made a mistake actually getting him. I can’t help but feel pissy and resentful at him when we wakes my wife and I up early in the morning, or needs to go out constantly while we work from home.
When I had those feelings at first, I just attributed them to puppy blues, but honestly it doesn’t feel normal to me to still have them 10 months later. I feel like it comes through in my interactions with him - a lot of times I don’t have much patience with him, talk short to him, and I think he can tell.
My wife and I feel like we’re fine as dog owners. We’ve put him in two training courses since getting him, we do our best to fulfill his energy needs, we send him to daycare a few times a week, and after all of it I STILL feel like I need more breaks from him because he frustrates me so much sometimes. We give him a good home and I truly have so much love for him, but I can’t help but feel like he deserves to be somewhere where he’s loved 100% of the time and not treated as a nuisance for half of it.
At the same time, the idea of rehoming him breaks my heart and I’d feel like I failed him if we did. I’m just really torn and would appreciate everyone’s perspective.
TLDR: Wife and I have an 11 month old pup. We expected him to be a ton of work but I find myself resentful of all he takes out of me (which is purely on me). I’m wondering if maybe he’s not a great fit for us.
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We got our dog at 4 months old, and he’s a good boy. He’s super smart, loves to play, and is super sweet and snuggly. I’ve always loved dogs and was super excited getting him.
My issue is that honestly, I don’t think I treat him fairly, and that is 1000% a me problem and something I didn’t expect. While he’s the sweetest boy in the world half the time, the other half of the time I find him bringing down my quality of life.
We anticipated that having a dog would a big time and work investment, but half the time I find myself feeling like we made a mistake actually getting him. I can’t help but feel pissy and resentful at him when we wakes my wife and I up early in the morning, or needs to go out constantly while we work from home.
When I had those feelings at first, I just attributed them to puppy blues, but honestly it doesn’t feel normal to me to still have them 10 months later. I feel like it comes through in my interactions with him - a lot of times I don’t have much patience with him, talk short to him, and I think he can tell.
My wife and I feel like we’re fine as dog owners. We’ve put him in two training courses since getting him, we do our best to fulfill his energy needs, we send him to daycare a few times a week, and after all of it I STILL feel like I need more breaks from him because he frustrates me so much sometimes. We give him a good home and I truly have so much love for him, but I can’t help but feel like he deserves to be somewhere where he’s loved 100% of the time and not treated as a nuisance for half of it.
At the same time, the idea of rehoming him breaks my heart and I’d feel like I failed him if we did. I’m just really torn and would appreciate everyone’s perspective.
TLDR: Wife and I have an 11 month old pup. We expected him to be a ton of work but I find myself resentful of all he takes out of me (which is purely on me). I’m wondering if maybe he’s not a great fit for us.
2024.06.02 19:12 gatorchrissy New to this group....
And I wanted to say thank you! This is def one of my favorite new subs and it's been very helpful. I just started HRT yesterday so I'm hoping it'll help with my hot flashes!
I think the one thing that's surprising to me is the amount of women here that have so many issues with their doctors. Mine was super helpful, she listened to me and immediately suggested HRT. It's heartbreaking to me to see you guys that are struggling for help. What a world we live in where women can't get heard by the doctors that are supposed to be advocates for our health and safety. I'm fortunate my doctor is a saint and she spent over 20 minutes listening to me and didn't dismiss anything I had to say. Just know there are good ones out there!
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I think the one thing that's surprising to me is the amount of women here that have so many issues with their doctors. Mine was super helpful, she listened to me and immediately suggested HRT. It's heartbreaking to me to see you guys that are struggling for help. What a world we live in where women can't get heard by the doctors that are supposed to be advocates for our health and safety. I'm fortunate my doctor is a saint and she spent over 20 minutes listening to me and didn't dismiss anything I had to say. Just know there are good ones out there!
2024.06.02 19:12 Status_Cod_5693 Visiting Ft Leonard Wood
I'm an old fat veteran, one enlistment. I went to BCT at Leonard Wood.
My adult son and I will be passing through the Leonard Wood area on the way to a vacation, and he asked about visiting. I guess he remembers my tales of how the US Army forged me into a Cold War weapon that stood watch and defended the free world from Ivan and his Red Horde, and he wants to see where such a thing happened.
Can civilians get on post?
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My adult son and I will be passing through the Leonard Wood area on the way to a vacation, and he asked about visiting. I guess he remembers my tales of how the US Army forged me into a Cold War weapon that stood watch and defended the free world from Ivan and his Red Horde, and he wants to see where such a thing happened.
Can civilians get on post?
2024.06.02 19:11 fizzbrain Accident at the watershed
I'm still shocked so I have to talk about it. Got to the watershed early because its my second play through, get to Harry and completely dumpster the speech check. Harry missed and the three other supermutants come in, the one at the back fired his flamethrower and evaporated the two in front of him, Harry accidentally cut the third one in half.
I decided I might as well try to kill Harry and somehow break his arm with an extremely lucky shot so now he can't use his gun. Kill Harry and take the laser rifle, then have to kill Larry and the last one (Terry?) outside and now there's no more supermutants in necropolis.
They final destinationed themselves, I saw the inside of so many green people and I had to tell you guys.
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I decided I might as well try to kill Harry and somehow break his arm with an extremely lucky shot so now he can't use his gun. Kill Harry and take the laser rifle, then have to kill Larry and the last one (Terry?) outside and now there's no more supermutants in necropolis.
They final destinationed themselves, I saw the inside of so many green people and I had to tell you guys.
2024.06.02 19:11 pinkpanktnress worthless
sorry for such a long post
tldr: i feel worth less after not getting a job i really wanted
i love my job. i love all of my coworkers, my clientele, i even love how it smells in the building lol. but recently, i have gotten a new boss at my job. i was very excited to meet and start working with her until a few situations came about where she has thrown me under the bus and even made discriminatory comments towards me (age and maybe even a bit of racial discrimination/ignorance). this has resulted in me going from loving my job, to absolutely hating it. lucky for me, im not the only one she’s ruffling feathers with so i can have a little bit of reassurance that it’s not just some personal vendetta against me. the bitch just lacks tact and decorum.
so as anyone else would, i started looking for different positions. since i love what i do, i looked to transfer to a different location. once i did not get any response from any of the other locations, i started looking at other companies within the industry. i applied for a really good job as an executive assistant. i definitely wasn’t expecting to get called for an interview, but i did and i was so excited. i immediately started researching the company, and researching the person i would be working for. as my excitement grew over the next day and a half i created a little folder with my resume, bullet pointed notes i had written about myself that i did not want to forget in the interview, and things i learned about the company. this was honestly one of the best interviews i’ve ever had and i really liked who i was going to work for. the person i would be working for complimented me multiple times on my experience, my opinions, my preparedness for the interview and he even stated he believed i’d be a good fit there. i could barely sleep for the next couple of days. not only would this be an amazing opportunity for me (and my resume…and bank account) and i was so confident i would do a great job and i believe i could bring something great to the company. a day later, the person i interviewed with called me, told me how much he liked me but he decided to go with someone with more experience however he did tell me that he was going to call another location in the industry to put in a good word for me because he really likes me and really wants me in the company. i understood this. it was a big job and i’ve only been in my industry for a year. however i did go to the interview he set up for me, but i did not get that job either.
Fast forward to this weekend, I am speaking with a friend about her job search because I knew she wanted to enter the same industry as me and she excitedly told me that she got the job i wanted so badly, and couldn’t even sleep over for days. i feel horrible for feeling horrible. i am not mad at her at all but she does not have “more experience” at all. Like I said, she asked me for advice about a month or two ago about the best way to break into my industry because she has no experience so I gave her all my best advice, and then she got offered the job i wanted the most. This also hurt my feelings because I was told the position was offered to someone with a bit more experience than me, and they hired someone with no experience at all and this is after he complimented my experience and how well he liked me during my interview.
I am just ranting because I have no one else to tell this to who will care or who won’t call me a spoiled brat. Again, I am not mad at my friend. I’m mad at myself. This company has a very prestige clientele and I should’ve known I wouldn’t be picked because I highly doubt this prestige clientele would want to work with some young black girl. Maybe that is not true (and i’m aware it’s may not) but I can’t help to think why I wasn’t good enough, and why someone with 0 experience is picked over me. After it was me who gave them all the tips and tricks to break into the industry. I’m just tired of always questioning if there’s something wrong with me. It is exhausting having to be stuck in a world where you have to question if people treat you a certain way or if certain things happen due to something you have absolutely no control over, your race.
I don’t feel like I am worthless. But I do, at times, feel I am worth less.
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tldr: i feel worth less after not getting a job i really wanted
i love my job. i love all of my coworkers, my clientele, i even love how it smells in the building lol. but recently, i have gotten a new boss at my job. i was very excited to meet and start working with her until a few situations came about where she has thrown me under the bus and even made discriminatory comments towards me (age and maybe even a bit of racial discrimination/ignorance). this has resulted in me going from loving my job, to absolutely hating it. lucky for me, im not the only one she’s ruffling feathers with so i can have a little bit of reassurance that it’s not just some personal vendetta against me. the bitch just lacks tact and decorum.
so as anyone else would, i started looking for different positions. since i love what i do, i looked to transfer to a different location. once i did not get any response from any of the other locations, i started looking at other companies within the industry. i applied for a really good job as an executive assistant. i definitely wasn’t expecting to get called for an interview, but i did and i was so excited. i immediately started researching the company, and researching the person i would be working for. as my excitement grew over the next day and a half i created a little folder with my resume, bullet pointed notes i had written about myself that i did not want to forget in the interview, and things i learned about the company. this was honestly one of the best interviews i’ve ever had and i really liked who i was going to work for. the person i would be working for complimented me multiple times on my experience, my opinions, my preparedness for the interview and he even stated he believed i’d be a good fit there. i could barely sleep for the next couple of days. not only would this be an amazing opportunity for me (and my resume…and bank account) and i was so confident i would do a great job and i believe i could bring something great to the company. a day later, the person i interviewed with called me, told me how much he liked me but he decided to go with someone with more experience however he did tell me that he was going to call another location in the industry to put in a good word for me because he really likes me and really wants me in the company. i understood this. it was a big job and i’ve only been in my industry for a year. however i did go to the interview he set up for me, but i did not get that job either.
Fast forward to this weekend, I am speaking with a friend about her job search because I knew she wanted to enter the same industry as me and she excitedly told me that she got the job i wanted so badly, and couldn’t even sleep over for days. i feel horrible for feeling horrible. i am not mad at her at all but she does not have “more experience” at all. Like I said, she asked me for advice about a month or two ago about the best way to break into my industry because she has no experience so I gave her all my best advice, and then she got offered the job i wanted the most. This also hurt my feelings because I was told the position was offered to someone with a bit more experience than me, and they hired someone with no experience at all and this is after he complimented my experience and how well he liked me during my interview.
I am just ranting because I have no one else to tell this to who will care or who won’t call me a spoiled brat. Again, I am not mad at my friend. I’m mad at myself. This company has a very prestige clientele and I should’ve known I wouldn’t be picked because I highly doubt this prestige clientele would want to work with some young black girl. Maybe that is not true (and i’m aware it’s may not) but I can’t help to think why I wasn’t good enough, and why someone with 0 experience is picked over me. After it was me who gave them all the tips and tricks to break into the industry. I’m just tired of always questioning if there’s something wrong with me. It is exhausting having to be stuck in a world where you have to question if people treat you a certain way or if certain things happen due to something you have absolutely no control over, your race.
I don’t feel like I am worthless. But I do, at times, feel I am worth less.
2024.06.02 19:10 Zagaroth [No Need For A Core?] - CH 193: Beach Day
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GLOSSARY This links to a post on the free section of my Patreon. Note: "Book 1" is chapters 1-59, "Book 2" is chapters 60-133, "Book 3", is 134-193, "Book 4" is CH 194-(ongoing)
The vastness of the ocean was hard to understand until you truly saw it. Kazue mused upon this thought as she and Moriko walked slowly along the beach of this port city. It was the third and last day they would be spending here before they moved on. Since they had left the capital, they had been much more careful about how long they lingered in any one location. Most places they gave no more than one non-traveling day to, but this city was Kazue's first visit to the sea, and there was much to see and learn here.
Though somewhat surprisingly, neither of the spirits she currently had bonded to her related directly to the sea or sand, or other such ocean themed concepts. The first of them was a rather esoteric, ephemeral entity; a creature of light and shadow, of liminal places and the borders between. Kazue still didn't know why this was the spirit that responded when she was seeking a solution to how the sun readily burned her skin, but she suspected it had more to do with the light and shadow aspects than the liminal aspects, even if these things weren't entirely separable. And it had provided her with the spell she needed.
Of course, the reason she needed it was that Moriko had insisted they buy dresses in the local fashion, though Kazue had insisted that Moriko join her in wearing the short pants that were commonly paired with the lightweight dresses that barely fell to mid-thigh. The fabric was thankfully thicker across the chest because it was borderline sheer in other places, and it was only held up by a thin pair of straps for the shoulders.
And this exposure was no doubt a good portion of why Moriko had insisted on such flimsy casual wear. Not that Kazue had much to complain about, as it did give such a wonderful view of her wife's legs and the way the sun shone on Moriko's skin as the muscles beneath flexed. Yum. While the wide-brimmed hat that Kazue was wearing did make it harder to look up to see people, it did help hide her gaze when she wanted to admire her wife's figure discreetly.
That figure had been such a beautiful sight last night, when Moriko had recklessly chosen to dance in the air with the thunderstorm. It had been both enthralling and terrifying to watch the half-elf laughing almost maniacally as she leapt across the sky; wind, rain, and lightning swirling about her lithe form. While Kazue might have been able to pull together enough spells to enable her to at least join her wife up there, it wouldn't have really been dancing the same way. Kazue would have been moving despite the elements, not with and because of the elements, and she would have had to put a lot more effort into ensuring that lightning didn't strike her.
Not that Moriko was immune to a direct hit from a natural bolt of lightning, no, the reckless woman was entrusting to her control of the elements to keep such a strike from hitting her.
But if Moriko hadn't gone out to dance in that storm, Kazue wouldn't have met the second spirit she was keeping bonded right now: a spirit of lightning and storms. While not so esoteric as her liminal spirit, it could be almost as ephemeral. She knew that they would continue to exist as discrete entities so long as they were bonded with her, but they were the sort of spirit that might otherwise dissipate when conditions were no longer optimal for them. Especially the liminal one; Kazue thought it might have come into existence because she'd been putting effort into finding something that could help her out.
What she was hoping was that if she could keep them bonded long enough to give them a stronger sense of identity and self that they'd be able to exist independently. It was limiting for her to keep them bonded; she could only keep two bonded at a time, and it took several minutes under optimal conditions to bond with a new one. But she didn't mind and thought that her liminal spirit worked really well with her ability to bring dreams and imagination briefly to the surface of reality. Her trick for making it briefly hard to tell where she was as random images of might-have-beens flickered around her could be amplified along the edges of spaces, letting her slide through reality a bit more. She could move further so long as it was along a border and squeeze through gaps she otherwise shouldn't be able to fit through.
Her lightning and storm spirit did not synergize quite so well, though it could speed her up and that did help, and its bolts of lighting were probably her most powerful ranged abilities at the moment. But she hadn't had a good chance to test it out yet, not inside of city limits. But maybe tomorrow while they were on the road.
For now, Kazue was listening to Moriko recount yesterday's events back home.
"So after breakfast, Mordecai tormented the kids by waiting a while before asking if there was anything that wanted to talk about. Then he just nodded thoughtfully when they spoke and asked things like 'is there anything else?' while smiling patiently and encouragingly. The two of them spilled their guts." Moriko was having trouble not laughing while she recounted the tale, and it made Kazue grin.
Nothing truly inappropriate had happened, but it they were at the edge of different social rules. There was a difference between the three of them sharing a room with well-understood rules, and very different for one of them to spend the night in the other's private room. And it certainly wasn't the dungeon's place to 'punish' them for any sort of indiscretion, perceived or otherwise. But as the adults in charge of the area, it certainly fell to them to help encourage a healthy amount of responsibility. Thus Mordecai 'forcing' Derek and Shizoku to tattle on themselves and explain exactly why that wasn't supposed to happen.
Moriko continued happily, "After he'd gotten them to give themselves their own guilt trip, Mordecai gave the pair heavy head rubs and laughed at them before letting them know they weren't in any trouble. His only real concern was responsibility, and he thought that they were both pretty responsible overall but that going forward they should be more careful. He didn't say it directly, but he implied that being responsible might be harder as time went on."
Which was a pretty fair assessment. The Azeria clan worried about it a lot less than even other kitsune clans as all pregnancies were causes for celebration and there was plenty of support for the girl without a need for the father to be in the picture. Kazue had no illusions that this meant her clan was some bastion of enlightenment. Part of the reason that Shizoku leaned so heavily on her grandmother and the forest spirit for parental guidance was that her father had five wives who also wanted his attention and Shizoku's mother hadn't felt the need to be very responsible when there were other women who were happy to spend time cooing over Shizoku and taking care of her. Kazue was fairly certain that this was also the reason that the young kitsune had a tendency to crush on older men, but hopefully, that was taken care of now.
"So after that, Fuyuko decided she wanted to make her contract with the dungeon official. Mordecai made sure to write everything up with her becoming our ward and after it was done he sent a copy of it to both Riverbridge and Azeria to get her status recorded. And then it was on to training! Gentle training this time. Well, mostly. For Shizoku and Fuyuko it was focused around marksmanship practice, mixed with switching their weapons out on the fly. He doesn't think that Shizoku would need to swap between gun and staff quickly very often, but there was no reason to skip that part of the training. For Fuyuko, he's popping up surprise targets for her and mixing them up with some 'targets' that are actually innocents. He says that it should help her get her battle rage under control. Oh, and the swords that came with her bracers are falcatas. They aren't good for fancy sword work but he figures that sometimes she might just need to hit things hard, so these will be better than her long daggers. I have to say, the only reason those things are 'daggers' is because of how tall she is. They'd probably feel like short swords for me, and almost certainly be swords for you, ankle biter."
Well, Kazue wouldn't mind biting Moriko, but that was a slightly different topic and she had her honor to defend. "Careful what you say, my love. This little ankle biter has very sharp teeth and knows exactly where you sleep every night. And she might just think you are tasty enough to take a big bite out of."
"Eek, I am terrified," Moriko said while laughing, "oh please don't eat me all up scary fox lady, I don't know what I'd do." Ignoring Kazue's threatening glare Moriko continued passing on the dungeon's events. "Anyway, the blades are heavier than Fuyuko is used to and weighted a little strangely, but Mordecai says she's adapting fast. Now, as for Derek, well, Mordecai is pushing him a little bit more. Our husband has sectioned off part of the arena to be an elemental testing and training ground. It generates random sparks and bubbles of different elements which naturally drift toward any living thing in the area and speed up as they get closer. Derek has been sitting in the middle of it and his training is to use only his elemental abilities to push them away. And Mordecai has made sure to lean heavily on fire and lightning as those seem to be Derek's weakest elements right now. Man, the poor kid. But he at least has some moral support, Bellona is right there with him. She's taking more of a beating actually, she doesn't have any influence over wood and only indirect influence on metal. She's not going to be there every day though, and Mordecai plans on this being the majority of their training to finish out the first month of the exchange program."
Given how long it had taken the kids to get through the dungeon, there wasn't a lot more time to finish out a month, so everyone had agreed to just start the program early. After this, Derek and Shizoku would arrange to travel with other groups back to his home and after a few days of rest head back to the dungeon, where Fuyuko would rejoin them and they would all head to the Azeria clan to begin a month of training.
"Everything else has just been going smoothly. With your non-combat path, we've been attracting a lot of people who are willing to spend weeks to get through the dungeon instead of the days it takes the combat teams. Though there aren't a lot of teams clearing the wetlands, most of the ones who finish the river zone don't even try it. The people on your path usually only give up if it's taking too long. Oh, and Mordecai says he'd like you to practice working with enchanting crystal-focused items, especially anything that involves altering the crystal itself. He's hoping that the two of you combined might be able to manually convert other gems and crystals into core matrix, though it will probably take both of you to figure it out."
Well, as much as Kazue admired their husband, she did have to admit to herself that it was kind of nice to see that he wasn't as all-knowing as he sometimes appeared to be. And that wasn't a bad idea, it could make a nice project over the winter, when they weren't occupied by other things. Warm thoughts and feelings flowed with that idea, only to be dashed by a sudden sensation of dread and danger. Kazue spun to put her back to Moriko as she frantically searched for the source of that sensation.
A few moments later she realized that the source was inside her, a tug and pull toward her faraway home. She crushed down the panic that wanted to bubble forth and turned back to Moriko, who had gone still and pale.
Moriko met her worried gaze and confirmed Kazue's fears. "We're under attack."
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GLOSSARY This links to a post on the free section of my Patreon. Note: "Book 1" is chapters 1-59, "Book 2" is chapters 60-133, "Book 3", is 134-193, "Book 4" is CH 194-(ongoing)
Though somewhat surprisingly, neither of the spirits she currently had bonded to her related directly to the sea or sand, or other such ocean themed concepts. The first of them was a rather esoteric, ephemeral entity; a creature of light and shadow, of liminal places and the borders between. Kazue still didn't know why this was the spirit that responded when she was seeking a solution to how the sun readily burned her skin, but she suspected it had more to do with the light and shadow aspects than the liminal aspects, even if these things weren't entirely separable. And it had provided her with the spell she needed.
Of course, the reason she needed it was that Moriko had insisted they buy dresses in the local fashion, though Kazue had insisted that Moriko join her in wearing the short pants that were commonly paired with the lightweight dresses that barely fell to mid-thigh. The fabric was thankfully thicker across the chest because it was borderline sheer in other places, and it was only held up by a thin pair of straps for the shoulders.
And this exposure was no doubt a good portion of why Moriko had insisted on such flimsy casual wear. Not that Kazue had much to complain about, as it did give such a wonderful view of her wife's legs and the way the sun shone on Moriko's skin as the muscles beneath flexed. Yum. While the wide-brimmed hat that Kazue was wearing did make it harder to look up to see people, it did help hide her gaze when she wanted to admire her wife's figure discreetly.
That figure had been such a beautiful sight last night, when Moriko had recklessly chosen to dance in the air with the thunderstorm. It had been both enthralling and terrifying to watch the half-elf laughing almost maniacally as she leapt across the sky; wind, rain, and lightning swirling about her lithe form. While Kazue might have been able to pull together enough spells to enable her to at least join her wife up there, it wouldn't have really been dancing the same way. Kazue would have been moving despite the elements, not with and because of the elements, and she would have had to put a lot more effort into ensuring that lightning didn't strike her.
Not that Moriko was immune to a direct hit from a natural bolt of lightning, no, the reckless woman was entrusting to her control of the elements to keep such a strike from hitting her.
But if Moriko hadn't gone out to dance in that storm, Kazue wouldn't have met the second spirit she was keeping bonded right now: a spirit of lightning and storms. While not so esoteric as her liminal spirit, it could be almost as ephemeral. She knew that they would continue to exist as discrete entities so long as they were bonded with her, but they were the sort of spirit that might otherwise dissipate when conditions were no longer optimal for them. Especially the liminal one; Kazue thought it might have come into existence because she'd been putting effort into finding something that could help her out.
What she was hoping was that if she could keep them bonded long enough to give them a stronger sense of identity and self that they'd be able to exist independently. It was limiting for her to keep them bonded; she could only keep two bonded at a time, and it took several minutes under optimal conditions to bond with a new one. But she didn't mind and thought that her liminal spirit worked really well with her ability to bring dreams and imagination briefly to the surface of reality. Her trick for making it briefly hard to tell where she was as random images of might-have-beens flickered around her could be amplified along the edges of spaces, letting her slide through reality a bit more. She could move further so long as it was along a border and squeeze through gaps she otherwise shouldn't be able to fit through.
Her lightning and storm spirit did not synergize quite so well, though it could speed her up and that did help, and its bolts of lighting were probably her most powerful ranged abilities at the moment. But she hadn't had a good chance to test it out yet, not inside of city limits. But maybe tomorrow while they were on the road.
For now, Kazue was listening to Moriko recount yesterday's events back home.
"So after breakfast, Mordecai tormented the kids by waiting a while before asking if there was anything that wanted to talk about. Then he just nodded thoughtfully when they spoke and asked things like 'is there anything else?' while smiling patiently and encouragingly. The two of them spilled their guts." Moriko was having trouble not laughing while she recounted the tale, and it made Kazue grin.
Nothing truly inappropriate had happened, but it they were at the edge of different social rules. There was a difference between the three of them sharing a room with well-understood rules, and very different for one of them to spend the night in the other's private room. And it certainly wasn't the dungeon's place to 'punish' them for any sort of indiscretion, perceived or otherwise. But as the adults in charge of the area, it certainly fell to them to help encourage a healthy amount of responsibility. Thus Mordecai 'forcing' Derek and Shizoku to tattle on themselves and explain exactly why that wasn't supposed to happen.
Moriko continued happily, "After he'd gotten them to give themselves their own guilt trip, Mordecai gave the pair heavy head rubs and laughed at them before letting them know they weren't in any trouble. His only real concern was responsibility, and he thought that they were both pretty responsible overall but that going forward they should be more careful. He didn't say it directly, but he implied that being responsible might be harder as time went on."
Which was a pretty fair assessment. The Azeria clan worried about it a lot less than even other kitsune clans as all pregnancies were causes for celebration and there was plenty of support for the girl without a need for the father to be in the picture. Kazue had no illusions that this meant her clan was some bastion of enlightenment. Part of the reason that Shizoku leaned so heavily on her grandmother and the forest spirit for parental guidance was that her father had five wives who also wanted his attention and Shizoku's mother hadn't felt the need to be very responsible when there were other women who were happy to spend time cooing over Shizoku and taking care of her. Kazue was fairly certain that this was also the reason that the young kitsune had a tendency to crush on older men, but hopefully, that was taken care of now.
"So after that, Fuyuko decided she wanted to make her contract with the dungeon official. Mordecai made sure to write everything up with her becoming our ward and after it was done he sent a copy of it to both Riverbridge and Azeria to get her status recorded. And then it was on to training! Gentle training this time. Well, mostly. For Shizoku and Fuyuko it was focused around marksmanship practice, mixed with switching their weapons out on the fly. He doesn't think that Shizoku would need to swap between gun and staff quickly very often, but there was no reason to skip that part of the training. For Fuyuko, he's popping up surprise targets for her and mixing them up with some 'targets' that are actually innocents. He says that it should help her get her battle rage under control. Oh, and the swords that came with her bracers are falcatas. They aren't good for fancy sword work but he figures that sometimes she might just need to hit things hard, so these will be better than her long daggers. I have to say, the only reason those things are 'daggers' is because of how tall she is. They'd probably feel like short swords for me, and almost certainly be swords for you, ankle biter."
Well, Kazue wouldn't mind biting Moriko, but that was a slightly different topic and she had her honor to defend. "Careful what you say, my love. This little ankle biter has very sharp teeth and knows exactly where you sleep every night. And she might just think you are tasty enough to take a big bite out of."
"Eek, I am terrified," Moriko said while laughing, "oh please don't eat me all up scary fox lady, I don't know what I'd do." Ignoring Kazue's threatening glare Moriko continued passing on the dungeon's events. "Anyway, the blades are heavier than Fuyuko is used to and weighted a little strangely, but Mordecai says she's adapting fast. Now, as for Derek, well, Mordecai is pushing him a little bit more. Our husband has sectioned off part of the arena to be an elemental testing and training ground. It generates random sparks and bubbles of different elements which naturally drift toward any living thing in the area and speed up as they get closer. Derek has been sitting in the middle of it and his training is to use only his elemental abilities to push them away. And Mordecai has made sure to lean heavily on fire and lightning as those seem to be Derek's weakest elements right now. Man, the poor kid. But he at least has some moral support, Bellona is right there with him. She's taking more of a beating actually, she doesn't have any influence over wood and only indirect influence on metal. She's not going to be there every day though, and Mordecai plans on this being the majority of their training to finish out the first month of the exchange program."
Given how long it had taken the kids to get through the dungeon, there wasn't a lot more time to finish out a month, so everyone had agreed to just start the program early. After this, Derek and Shizoku would arrange to travel with other groups back to his home and after a few days of rest head back to the dungeon, where Fuyuko would rejoin them and they would all head to the Azeria clan to begin a month of training.
"Everything else has just been going smoothly. With your non-combat path, we've been attracting a lot of people who are willing to spend weeks to get through the dungeon instead of the days it takes the combat teams. Though there aren't a lot of teams clearing the wetlands, most of the ones who finish the river zone don't even try it. The people on your path usually only give up if it's taking too long. Oh, and Mordecai says he'd like you to practice working with enchanting crystal-focused items, especially anything that involves altering the crystal itself. He's hoping that the two of you combined might be able to manually convert other gems and crystals into core matrix, though it will probably take both of you to figure it out."
Well, as much as Kazue admired their husband, she did have to admit to herself that it was kind of nice to see that he wasn't as all-knowing as he sometimes appeared to be. And that wasn't a bad idea, it could make a nice project over the winter, when they weren't occupied by other things. Warm thoughts and feelings flowed with that idea, only to be dashed by a sudden sensation of dread and danger. Kazue spun to put her back to Moriko as she frantically searched for the source of that sensation.
A few moments later she realized that the source was inside her, a tug and pull toward her faraway home. She crushed down the panic that wanted to bubble forth and turned back to Moriko, who had gone still and pale.
Moriko met her worried gaze and confirmed Kazue's fears. "We're under attack."
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2024.06.02 19:10 Odd_Criticism604 AITAH for giving by BF a hard time for taking care of his brother who has no ambition or motivation
I (30F) have a boyfriend (31), who insists on taking care of his brothers every want and need and it’s driving me crazy.
His brother (around 30ish) is a drug addict still using, I’m not judging because me and my BF are both recovering drug addicts, and have been clean for around 4 years.
My BF let’s his brother work for him, and found him an apartment with a mutual friend, and he pays his rent. His brother got evicted and is now living in hotels on my BFs dime, or staying in our storage unit or in the truck outside. They spend all day working together and then his brother will call “needing” something late at night and my bf just jumps up and leaves to do it. I get pissed, he owns his own business and works everyday until later in the evening, we maybe get 4 hours together every day and this gets shortened by his brothers irresponsibility.
He says I’m rude and mean, and because I don’t have siblings I don’t understand. I am a big believer in not enabling addicts, we both no so many people who were enabled and that OD’d, died or have no idea how to do life it has nothing to do with my personal feelings of his brother. My best friend in the whole world asked to live with me and I said no because she was using drugs. I just need to know am I the asshole?
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His brother (around 30ish) is a drug addict still using, I’m not judging because me and my BF are both recovering drug addicts, and have been clean for around 4 years.
My BF let’s his brother work for him, and found him an apartment with a mutual friend, and he pays his rent. His brother got evicted and is now living in hotels on my BFs dime, or staying in our storage unit or in the truck outside. They spend all day working together and then his brother will call “needing” something late at night and my bf just jumps up and leaves to do it. I get pissed, he owns his own business and works everyday until later in the evening, we maybe get 4 hours together every day and this gets shortened by his brothers irresponsibility.
He says I’m rude and mean, and because I don’t have siblings I don’t understand. I am a big believer in not enabling addicts, we both no so many people who were enabled and that OD’d, died or have no idea how to do life it has nothing to do with my personal feelings of his brother. My best friend in the whole world asked to live with me and I said no because she was using drugs. I just need to know am I the asshole?
2024.06.02 19:10 herons8 About to get my first Tenet gun but I have a few questions.
I'm planning to get Arca Plasmor for Mag but is it only good for her or can I use it in general play with any frame? If not what should I get and if yes what element should I choose?
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2024.06.02 19:10 Magicmurlin Amira Hass - The Israeli Norman Finkelstein - asks if “armed resistance” has made Palestinians better off. Should any future political success emerge from genocide, will it have been worth it worth it?
 | I respect Israeli Jew, Amira Hass, because Norm Finkelstein calls her his equal. And she lived in Gaza for 10 years. submitted by Magicmurlin to BDS [link] [comments] However sharp this obtusely titled essay, I cannot help but note her omission of the US role and acceptance of the expected “Israeli response”. Not does she include the return to “peaceful protest” during the Gaza Right of Return March and how it was met with bullets from the IOF and indifference from the west. So much of protest strategy success depends on a struggle’s affirming reception by the world. In all these matters I cannot help but wonder what would have come of the largely peaceful first intifada without the over represented bias of the last world superpower. Full article pasted below: 👇 ********************************** 👇 s a 'Day After' – Just More War and Suffering Armed struggle has failed to stop the ongoing theft of Palestinian land. The destruction and death wrought by Israel in the Gaza Strip calls for a different kind of struggle – one that takes into account its people's right to live Amira Hass Jun 2, 2024 12:37 pm IDT In Israel, the slogan "From the river to the sea, Palestine will be free" is perceived as a call for the eradication of the Jewish state. As is the way of slogans, it doesn't specify what will happen to Jews in the newly freed Palestine. If we asked every protester in the United States and Europe what they mean when they shout these words, we'd probably get a variety of answers, ranging from "the Jews should return to their countries of origin" to "a secular and democratic Palestinian state will be established (under the leadership of the Islamic Movement?), where people of all three faiths live in equality." One thing that is certain is that the shock from seeing the carnage and destruction wreaked by Israel in Gaza has led many young people around the world to view Israel as a settler-colonial entity, and thus an illegitimate one. They see Hamas' attacks on October 7 – its targeting of the military, for sure, but also the massacre of civilians – as part of any people's legitimate struggle against a colonialist entity. A vast chasm lies between those who see October 7 as the starting point or as evidence of Palestinians' innate murderous tendencies and those who are aware and understand that the main explanation for what happened lies in Israel's occupation and oppression. There's also no common ground between those who believe that the atrocities committed by Hamas and its accomplices justify the horrific mass slaughter of tens of thousands of Palestinian civilians and the starvation of two million people, and those who acknowledge the fact that the only solution is political and diplomatic – a recognition of the Palestinians' rights as a people. Another significant gap stretches between those who automatically approve of any use of arms and any killing in the name of liberation and those who disagree, while they understand the context. But it's exactly those protesters calling out "From the river to the sea" and adopting the historiographic analysis behind the phrase who must consider the strategy of armed struggle by Hamas and other Palestinian groups in relation to its success or failure in stopping the dispossession of Palestinians and the looting of their land. The question answers itself. Armed struggle has been and continues to be unsuccessful in impeding the Israeli project of dispossession and colonization. The best starting point for examining Israel's policy is the early 1990s, a time when the Soviet Bloc – then the main supporter of the Palestinians' demand for a state – had disintegrated; when political (but not economic) Apartheid approached its end in South Africa; and after the first intifada led to the multilateral Madrid Conference, with the participation of a Palestinian delegation that was formally not subject to the Palestine Liberation Organization. Amid the atmosphere of change brought by the end of the Cold War, the Palestinians and international community, as well as many Israeli peace advocates, expected that the settlements would be dismantled, that Israel would withdraw from all the territory it occupied in 1967 and that a Palestinian state would be established in an area comprising 22 percent of British Mandatory Palestine. The multilateral talks in Madrid led to bilateral negotiations between Israel and the PLO in Oslo. The Palestinians' expectations remained the same: that Israel end its military occupation begun in 1967, that Israel respect their right to self-determination and that the parties continue the historic process of reconciliation between the two peoples. But Israel had no intention to stop building new settlements, let alone dismantle them. And, as has been proven by statements and speeches by its leaders (most of all former prime ministers Yitzhak Rabin and Shimon Peres) and by the actions of every Israeli government, it also didn't consent to the establishment of a Palestinian state. Moreover, Israel further entrenched and expanded its settlements while cynically taking advantage of the PLO's willingness to postpone any discussion about their future to the of negotiations over permanent status. Using a mixture of bureaucratic/military regulations such as movement restrictions, bypass roads, zones closed to Palestinian development, checkpoints and closures, Israel cultivated and accelerated the fragmentation of the Palestinian territory occupied since 1967, shredding it into isolated enclaves. So, quite justifiably, supporters of the Hamas attacks on October 7 and armed struggle in general emphasize that the strategy of negotiation and diplomacy conducted by the PLO and the Palestinian Authority – as well as unarmed popular struggle – have failed and must be abandoned. But if failure to stop the dispossession and land grab is the correct criterion for choosing a tactic or strategy, the same must apply to armed struggle. Why, then, should it receive a sweeping exemption from the judgment of history? After Hamas was formed in 1988, its military wing focused on armed attacks within the Palestinian territories Israel occupied in 1967. This deviation (shared later or simultaneously by other groups too) from the initial consciously unarmed character of the first intifada. To this day, however, the impression that the uprising left on the world – and on the Palestinian collective memory – is that of a popular, democratic struggle seeking the concrete goal of Palestinian independence. This objective seemed within reach, as evidenced by the preparation of educational, economic and cultural foundations for the future state. Hamas started to attack civilians within Israel after Jewish settler Baruch Goldstein massacred Muslim worshipers at the Ibrahimi Mosque in Hebron in February 1994. What was initially perceived as revenge attacks turned into a deliberate policy to sabotage Palestinian President Yasser Arafat's negotiation tactics and diplomacy. Hamas boasts that with its suicide attacks in the 1990s, it managed to stop the Oslo process, which it considers traitorous. This bragging plays into the hands of Israel, which had no intention of allowing the negotiations to result in two states. The militarization of the second intifada wasn't caused only by Hamas, but the group continued to upgraded its armed capabilities. It deployed suicide bombers, killed soldiers and settlers in the Gaza Strip and launched rockets from there. Hamas attributes Israel's withdrawal from Gaza in 2005 to the group's armed struggle. From a political perspective, however, Israel's unilateral withdrawal from Gaza allowed it to further develop the reality it had designed for 15 years: severing Gaza's population from the West Bank's. In the West Bank, the suicide attacks let Israel build the separation barrier that stole tens of thousands of dunams from the Palestinians. Those claiming that Israel anyway intended to grab more and more land. But is the purpose of the Palestinians' armed struggle to make it easier for Israel to loot land and expedite that process? Within the Palestinian internal discourse, it is said the second intifada (whose armed nature kept it from becoming a general popular uprising) was a disaster. But this conclusion is somewhat played down, almost hushed out of respect for the dead, the many Palestinian prisoners held in Israel and their families. "Lone wolf" attacks on Israelis that were committed in settlements and are deemed justified, even heroic, by Palestinians haven't deterred settlers, but on the contrary: they encouraged and expedited the land theft. To take one example, on July 21, 2017, a resident of the Palestinian village of Khobar, northwest of Ramallah, stabbed and killed three members of an Israeli family from the settlement of Neve Tzuf, established on land seized from the villages of Nabi Saleh and Deir Nidham. Since the attack, Neve Tzuf has accelerated its takeover of more Palestinian land in the area. With the help of the Israeli military and authorities, it has established new outposts and blocked Palestinian access to the road that connects the area to neighboring villages south of it. The result is the same after any attack, whether committed with a knife or a gun and whether organized by a group or a lone individual. People are correct when they say that even before October 7, organized, state-supported settlers' violence had led to the expulsion of Palestinian farming and herding communitiesfrom their land and to the seizure by ostensibly illicit outposts of hundreds of thousands of dunams in the West Bank. Reports by Israeli rights organizations and independently researched articles detailing the process have consistently been published by ths paper over the past 30 years. The land seizure has only accelerated since October 7 and the beginning of the war in Gaza. The only ones trying to stop it are groups of volunteers who accompany the Palestinian farmers and shepherds to their lands. Most of them are Israeli, but some volunteers come from abroad (including many Jews) and there are the occasional Palestinian participants. The Palestinian organizations that advocate armed struggle, led by Hamas and the Islamic Jihad, rarely join public resistance actions against settlers' and state's takeover of the land and make it clear it is not their preferred strategy. The organizations' armed members in the refugee camps in Jenin, Tulkarm and Nablus are willing to sacrifice their lives when they choose to take arms against Israeli tanks and drones. There's no question that these youths feel they have no future anyway. Each of these refugee camps has become a mini-Gaza in terms of the devastation Israel leaves behind after each of its invasions. Unarmed civilians are killed in each of them. How is it that all the courage and strength demonstrated by armed young Palestinians against a sophisticated military, all the money invested in their weapons and the endurance of residents of neighborhoods that are destroyed time and again aren't channeled to a popular initiative to protect Palestinian land and the dozens of communities that are subject to constant terrorism by settlers? If the problem is indeed colonial dispossession and settlement, why don't Palestinians' efforts focus on its most prominent manifestations? Those who favor armed struggle say its success shouldn't be measured by points, as in a boxing ring. They also say that ever since October 7, Hamas has shattered Israelis' sense of normality, dealt it defeat after defeat, exposed its government's indifference toward the fate of the hostages held in Gaza, further proved how pathetic Israel's politicians are and widened the country's internal social rift. Hamas, which has proven itself to be an army that has a political wing and not the other way around, obviously didn't plan to have those achievements. But it did plan everything else very meticulously. It concentrated its efforts on augmenting its military strength, digging the sophisticated labyrinth of tunnels that continues to surprise and confuse the Israeli military and its intelligence, obtaining and producing arms and ammunition and training thousands of young men who are ready to die in combat. All this is true. But as they say in Arabic, wa ba'adein? What next? First, what's next is what's happening now: The death and grief in Gaza, whose residents have had nowhere to hide from Israeli bombardments, which do not distinguish between an armed man and his son, between a Hamas-run Gaza Health ministry official and a Hamas military commander. The community we knew in the Gaza Strip has been wiped out. The dead have already been relieved of it all. The tens of thousands of wounded, disabled and children who are the most affected by starvation and malnutrition face many years of physical and mental rehabilitation, and it's hard to say how successful that will be. The rich, those with connections and desirable professions, have already left Gaza, leaving behind their elderly parents and other less fortunate family members. Many more are expected to emigrate when the Rafah border terminal reopens. Gangs that take advantage of the calamity that has befallen Gazans have emerged. Alongside expressions of communal solidarity, the social fabric is showing signs that it is starting to disintegrate. It will take decades to rebuild the Gaza Strip. Do the achievements that Hamas supporters outside of Gaza admire outweigh this terrible suffering? This destruction and carnage are indeed a decision that Israel made. Israel could have reacted differently to October 7. It could have prevented the attack not only from a military and intelligence perspective, but from a political one. Israel could have chosen to respect international resolutions concerning the Palestinians' right to self-determination. Now we see, however, that Hamas has prepared itself for a prolonged military campaign, ignoring Israel's proven drive and ability to destroy, without considering the fate and wishes of the Palestinians. It's not possible to debate the distant future . Will this Hamas strategy lead to the desired result expressed in the slogan "From the river to the sea" in 20, 50 or 200 years? We don't know. But we arent talking about clinical labratory procedures. The two million tortured, bombed and starved Gazans aren't mere extras in a forward-looking historiographical analysis. The right to armed struggle isn't more sacred than their lives. Many Palestinians have indeed said, and continue to say, that death is better than life under oppression and occupation. But the fact is that every day, Palestinians in the Gaza Strip and the West Bank prove that actually, they want to live very much. When the means of the liberation struggle may lead to mass slaughter and the erasure of the oppressed people – as is happening now – it is accurate to blame the oppressor, but its not enough. It is a must – and it is possible – to come up with and develop means of struggle that take into consideration one's own people's right to live. |