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Hey all.
I want to get started with investing, but don't know bleep about it so this is gonna be a weird question that am not even exactly sure will make sense to y'all (cause I don't know nohing): Does it make sense to pay a fudiciary $1,200 for a whole year so I can learn how to invest $,5000 (to start) into a taxable brokerage account, $7,000 into a Roth IRA, and $4,150 into an HSA? (They only know I plan on investing $1,500 into a brokerage account, have not told them about the rest.)
My concern is not knowing how to invest - what funds to choose, how to diversify my investments, what percentage of those investments should be stocks, bonds, etc. I want to be hands-on with it all, like actually learn how to do all this myself and get educated while doing it, but learning by myself I feel will take longer than actually paying a fudiciary to help me guide me in selecting stuff to begin with while I catch up on all the reading I'll be doing to get a better sense of this whole investing stuff. The only reason I'm considering this is because I am in my mid-30s and I feel like I'm late to the game; putting it off longer will only hurt me financially in the future, I feel like.
Please help.

Hello, I've been running tumbleweed for a while now and it's been a great experience, but as of a couple days ago, it been taking a long time to boot when it never did before. I haven't been able to figure out what the cause is so far, so can I get some help? Thanks!

Hells Kitchen X Blue Archive: Episode 8
Contestants:

1. Iroha
2. Makoto
3. Kyouki (eliminated)
4. Azusa
5. Hina
6. Kisaki
7. Yuuka (eliminated)
8. Aru (Eliminated)
9. Juri (eliminated)
10. Mika
11. Kotori

Blue Kitchen

1. Fuuka
2. Shiroko (eliminated)
3. Izuna
4. Hiyori
5. Hoshino
6. Koharu (eliminated)
7. Hanako
8. Shun (The big one) (eliminated)
9. Reisa
10. Hifumi

It goes downhill from here, but the blue team will go first to suffer.
The next day, both teams will do an attention to detail challenge, where they must try to prepare scallops. What they need to do is to remove the meaty part of the shell without puncturing the most prized meat, meaning you have to get the centre part of the scallop, which is the circle meat structure.
After Ramsay gives the instructions, they started to prepare for the scalloping. Iroha, despite only uses one hand, she is faster then anyone else, with some of Mika's help. She cuts the meaty part of the scallop precisely, thus contributing to half of the perfect scallops from the red team.
The blue team is not doing so well. Hoshino is ridiculously slow, Hanako can't even slice things perfectly. Hiyori cut herself while prepping it. On the other hand, Reisa is butchering the scallops with insane precision and cleanliness. She made some mistakes at first, but she gets the hang of it. Fuuka is Fuuka and she does it really well.
Back on the red team, only Makoto never got a perfect scallops served, and all of the sudden, Iroha is cutting way too many scallops that she exhaust all of the scallops from their team. This prompt Ramsay to start counting all of the scallops. The red team manage to get 164/200 scallops perfect.
The blue team, managed to only get 94/200 scallops perfect. Most of this were contributed to Fuuka and Reisa. They lost the challenge.
The reward for the red team is to go ziplining from building to building, and get to enjoy a luxurious hotel. The blue team, using all of the butchered scallops, must use all of these to make 300 batches of risotto on the orphanage. It sucks, but Izuna enjoys it because it's for a good cause though...
While the red team is chilling, the blue team slowly gets dysfunctional, as cracks started to show up. Hoshino, managed to start a fight by doing nothing at all. Hanako just wishes that this is too much.
The next day, it's time for a dinner service for both of the teams. And then they have some interesting guest: There is Marco Pierre White, the teacher of Gordon Ramsay, who would be dining in the red kitchen VIP. This evoke fear for the red team because not only their dinner service is on their hands, but they have Gordon Ramsay's reputation to him, and themselves because if Gordon is this angry, imagine what would happen to them if Marco gets mad at them. The red team discuss on what to do, which is no sabotaging, because they are clinging on their lives against Marco, even Makoto and Hina is scared. The blue kitchen, will have Uncle Roger, which is a good thing for them, and it was easier.
Unfortunately, the blue team collapse because of Hanako's big tits. She used her heavy chest to press the meat to cook faster. This was something that Gordon didn't expect, and while Marco Pierre White is going to the toilet, he saw her doing it. Gordon sees this kind of interaction, and he became the S5 Gordon, and blew up so hard, that Hanako was ejected mid-service. This pulled a trigger that she begins to kick out chefs, one by one. Hiyori, just started crying in the middle of the service, because it's too much. All until there is only two left in the blue team, which is Fuuka and Reisa. Iroha got a glimpse of what would happen to them if they screwed up like this. Good thing she served up some good porkchop, and then served it to Marco, and he is now sceptical about this. Iroha, but after explain to him what is going on, Marco wasn't that horrifying at all towards her, as she sees her struggles with only one functional arm, sympathizing her.
After seeing the majority of the blue team kicked out, afuuka dn Reisa was the only two chefs left in the kitchen. Fuuka, manage to go into so much stress that she is losing herself through her health. Because of this, Reisa took over the entirety of the station and let Fuuka rest for a while before she gets back to help Reisa. Uncle Roger was baffled on how she managed to work in the kitchen alone. 20 minutes later, Fuuka is back and help her finish the dinner service.
After this, the Red team won by a landslide, and Reisa got the best of the worst on the blue team, due to how Uncle Roger commented that she is a machine, doing all of the work alone, and then they have to pick two contestants in the chopping block. The blue team picked Hiyori and Hoshino. But then Hiyori decided to nominate herself to send her home, which was a good thing because she is physically, mentally, and emotionally strained. Gordon agreed to it.
Elimination Interview: Hiyori
"It was a good thing to pick me, I can't handle the heat. This his what Hell's Kitchen is, if I can't beat the heat, then I can't be there."
Elimination Quote: "Hiyori can do things well, but if she can't last long in this environment, then she shouldn't be here in my kitchen."

The conservatives are set to form over the next government, but we need to push them to prioritize addressing mass immigration and reversing the policies implemented by the Liberals.

1. Reach out to your local MP: https://www.ourcommons.ca/Members/en
2. Write a letter to your current MP and consider collectively engaging with Conservative and PP's YouTube and social media pages. Show your support by liking and upvoting comments that call for addressing mass immigration. By advocating against mass immigration, we can make it a key issue for voters. Can you dedicate 2-5 minutes each day to this cause? Let's remember to approach this respectfully. We are pro-immigration but against MASS immigration. It's crucial to shed light on the misuse of the TFW program, international student diploma mills, and the negative impact of granting PR and citizenship to unqualified individuals trying to manipulate the system.
3. Make sure to include hashtags such as #CanadaMassImmigrant and #Canadaspulse to track the discussions.
4. Social Media Accounts:

• https://www.youtube.com/@PierrePoilievre
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I hope this isn't trying to grow up too fast. I recently turned 17, and I've been dissatisfied with my personality these past few days. I think I'm pretty, but my personality ruins it.
Though I'm an extrovert, I'm a bit shy. I end up mumbling a lot, especially to authority figures like my mom or my boss at work. I stiffen up while walking because I feel like people are looking at me. I've been this way since I was 3.
I very likely have OCD, which causes me to feel guilt about small things, make mountains out of molehills, and feel like a bad person overall. I'm scared I give off "bad vibes", which makes me even more awkward around others :(
I still gasp at inappropriate topics due to my Christian upbringing, which makes me feel stupid. People think I'm "innocent". I'm also too nice and a people pleaser. People have told me that they can tell I let others walk all over me.
I'm too enthusiastic about stuff. At work, I feel stupid because I actually like being there. I love seeing cute babies and customers with cool back stories. The other teens there are kinda jaded. They're nonchalant and snarky and don't really care about little things. Why can't I be that way?
Lastly, I answer too many questions in class. I admit I'm a smartass, and I speak like 🤓. I brag about myself sometimes, especially if I'm trying to get a boy's attention. People laugh when I use slang (IG I'm too articulate??). I feel too mature around some people and too immature around others.
I hate this. Please give me any advice you have :(

I am not in the best financial situation so I don’t feel I have many options right now. I have a student loan debt from an arts degree that I don’t use. Plus my husband and I just bought a house, which we can afford as long as we’re both working full time.
I started a job in the medical field that I thought was going to be great for me. The hours are 8-4:30, M-F. Decent pay, full benefits, PTO, etc. Before this, I was stuck working in retail and restaurants so I would have to work weekends, holidays, and odd hours. So I spent a lot of time looking for this job. I hired a career coach and everything. I was so happy when I accepted this position.
I didn’t expect it to take up all my time. I have a 40 minute commute each way and when I get home, I have 3.5 hours until I have to go to bed. Two days off is nowhere near enough. Plus having to mask all day is soooooo tough on me but I have to do it- I’m working closely with my coworkers and patients. They all love me but masking really takes all my energy.
I’m only a month in but I can feel myself slipping into a deep depression. I’m terrified of burnout- if I quit, we wouldn’t be able to afford our mortgage or our bills. I also have to go on antidepressants just to be able to deal with it all.
I just feel lost and unsure of what to do. I have never been able to work full time and I thought it would be different this time. I actually somewhat miss this simplicity of restaurants/retail as I’d usually work about 30 hours a week. But as I mentioned, part time work is not really an option and the pay at those jobs was terrible. I also would HATE to financially depend on my husband, we don’t have the best marriage, and I need my independence. I just don’t know what to do.

Hey, so Agoraphobia is pretty new to me, it started off with my vomit phobia(emetophobia) that I have had my whole life. This all started when I was at a restaurant with my boyfriend’s family and I started feeling extremely sick (which caused a panic attack) I had to tell everyone that I needed to leave and we all went home. Ever since that it was hard for me to go to restaurants without feeling extremely sick. It just started to get progressively worse. Now I can’t really go anywhere unless i’m extremely distracted, which is hard to achieve. I’ve started therapy but it hasn’t helped yet. I’m started to lose everyone in my life because nobody understands. I guess I just wanted to post here to finally speak to someone that understands?

TL;DR Chapter preface.
1 Team spirit and perseverance to overcome injuries and the collective effort to win
2 Carlo’s coaching what’s best for the club and not his style adapting against the opponent
3 How ancelotti built the team around the regista - Toni kroos
4 Dortmund’s run to the final and tactics
5 Real Madrid don’t play finals they win them. The unique decades long tradition that will make Madrid win the champions league.
1.
I wanted to take a moment before the final to write about our season. I have written about our previous two knockout ties against city and Bayern but now we have finally arrived to the summit of our season and the summit of a Real Madrid team which we won’t see in the same way without our maestro and conductor - Toni Kroos.
I’m sure a lot of our fans would agree that if you would had to tell me at the start of the season after losing our starting GK and 2 CBs to ACLs (unprecedented in its own regard) and lose the likes of Vini, Tchou and Camavinga for long stretches that we would win the league dominantly with 95 points by over performing our expected XG and reach the champions league final - I would ask you to put down the crack.
But yet here we are almost 9 months later ready to compete to win our 15th what a privilege for our fans to witness this moment. In an interview recently after eliminating Bayern, Carlo said that this was the best group of players he has ever managed. The fact that he said that having coached the likes of legends in Madrid and Milan of the past speaks volumes of the perseverance and team spirit we have shown this season. The team like he said “never complained” and worked hard to overcome all the obstacles thrown at us. We only lost once in the league against atletico and that loss opened our eyes on what we had to fix defensively when we realised we we weren’t defending well from our right side having conceded from crosses. The tweaks made whether it was getting Fede to be more of a defensive workhouse, getting Vini to play centrally, asking Jude to play the free 10 role or making rodrygo and Vini interchange from the left. These are not easy things to do and players need time to adapt but this team has done a momentous job shifting from a 4-3-3 and adapting to a diamond 4-3-1-2 or rather a 4-4-2, and playing for the needs of the team.

1. This is where I would like to talk about Ancelotti and his ability to manage based on what the club needs rather than his own personal style. The reason why Madrid are historically successful is because they don’t have a “style” they adapt and have the clutch factor to win when it matters and achieve the unprecedented.

Managers like pep are positionist and rely heavily on rehearsed plays that hinder the expression of freedom from players. Real and Carlo as of late have always been relationist allowing for a flow or mixture and adaptation. Against city we had to play a mid block in the first leg and stop their build up before they can push into our box to force them wide. In the second leg after scoring we had to play a low block for 60 mins to stop them from scoring. These are examples of a team and manager synchronised in the approach that they must do whatever to win. Carlo spoke about when they played De Zerbi’s shakhtar and not pressing them allowed them to get the ball and beat them 5-0. It our ability to adapt in the moment that allows us to overcome our opponent even if the chips are down.

1. Carlo spoke of his regret when he coached Parma and had the opportunity to sign baggio who was a 10 and one on the best players in the world then, but Carlo refused to sign him because he was adamant to play with 2 strikers. When he coached juventus he realised the importance of incorporating a certain Zinedine Zidane as the central figure of the team.

Those who remember his Milan team played a similar diamond with CFs and a roaming cam in the likes of Kaka who was the main man scoring goals at a ridiculous rate, very similar to Jude this season a lot of people would say that he was the focal point of that team but in reality it was the “regista” in Pirlo who conducted that Milan team and everything was built around how Pirlo dictated the play. And that is why I would like to highlight that our team is built around the irreplaceable Toni Kroos, our regista who conducts and orchestrates the play. It is why we have been successful not just with the system this year but the past decade. Kroos is a unicorn who is capable of escaping pressure and finding the right passes without being over indulgent to a fault like Barca or pep. Kroos’ impact in the final will be monumental and it is only fitting for a legend like him to bow out with a champions league trophy.

1. I think we can all agree that when you look at our side of the bracket in our run of the champions league, every team in our bracket would mop the floor with the teams in dortmund’s side of the bracket. I’m not saying Dortmund don’t deserve to be in the final they have earned to be there playing a defensive approach that sees the entire team defend when they need to. They have fast paced dribblers in sancho and adeyemi and a physical box presence in fullcrug. Their centre backs rank the highest in long ball passes in Europe and they play in quick transitions like a German team. They’ve shown resilience to overcome their opponents but let’s not forget they did top the group of death and that is no coincidence. Upon watching their games I think the one that impressed me the most was their win against atletico at home. They have qualities to cause us problem so we should be vary of how we approach them.

What troubled us against leipzig was when they played to clog us centrally and cause us issues in turnovers. Against Bayern in the first leg we didn’t acclimatise to the width their wingers found to score. My only worry remains our aerial and set pieces defence with the likes of a physical target man like fullcrug supplied by pace around him we need to be careful but I’m sure Carlo and co are well prepared and I trust the team handles this Dortmund side and take them to task.

1. I want to talk about the aura of Madrid in finals and how “Real Madrid don’t play finals, they win them”. Some of you may be supporting them for the first time in a final while for some they may have lost track. Personally this will be the sixth time I will be watching them play the champions league final and in my heart I know we will win it. Real humility lies in accepting that your opponent can beat you even if you are the favourite but Real perseverance lies in knowing that we will never give up no matter what. That is forever ingrained in me from 10 years ago when Sergio Ramos equalised in 92:48 to make us destroy atletico 4-1. I have since watched us win from going behind early on, winning in penalties and brutally destroying our opponents. Just like Carlo says I cannot explain what it is but there is something special about this club, it’s the winning dna, the spirit of juanito the comeback mentality, the myth and legend of this club and shirt that allows us to transcend and excel.

If you believe that there is something special about this club then you will know that we will win tonight. A year ago I’ll never forget how low I felt as a fan when we lost 4-0 to city. We have come a long way since then and a long way in this tournament getting revenge against city and beating Bayern Munich. We have come a long way to this final to lose against a side like Dortmund. And I will back my statement by pointing out a unique tradition that sees us always winning the champions league whenever we eliminate the reigning champions.
We have ALWAYS eliminated the title holders in the UCL era whenever we have faced them in the knockout rounds. And guess what ? Each time that happens we go on to win the champions league!
1998 - Dortmund in SF agg (2-0) we Win the UCL
2000 - Manchester United in QF agg (3-2) we Win the UCL
2002- Bayern Munich in QF agg (3-2) we Win the UCL
2014- PEP’S Bayern Munich in SF agg (5-0) we Win the UCL
2022- Chelsea in QF agg (5-4) we Win the UCL
2024 - Man City in QF … ⏳
So Madridistas I would like to end this reflection by saying that no matter what I am super proud of what we have achieved this season it is the culmination and the complete rebuild of Madrid that will never stop winning.
HASTA EL FINAL, VAMOS REAL!

Let me preface this by saying I've been married 24yrs, 3 grown children and DH is a (wife diagnosed) Covert Narc. The last 2 years have been The Worst and basically I consider us separated even though we live in the same house. I literally don't (no can't) speak to him unless I'm answering or asking a question. I went through a traumatic job loss, a death, loss of friends, family and received ZERO support from DH. He actually Really showed himself and I fell into a deep depression. After months of working on getting better, I'm at a place that I'm 95% better and along the way, I have put up such high walls, that he doesn't effect me the way he used to. I am just trying to build the courage to file. That being said....I have not been intimate with him nor sleep in the same bedroom as him. Yesterday, I came home from work with a headache so I went and laid down. When I nap, I nap hard. Like a deep sleep...lol. Well, as I was coming back to consciousness, I freaking realized he (DH) was rubbing my back! I almost basically frozen amd immediately felt discomfort and a little disgust. Like, what in the actual f*ck? What made him think he could do that? I was pissed. Then felt bad too if I said something, you know, bc of course I knew once I did, he would go into self-pity mode and victim and I'm an empath so I "feel bad" about everything. I finally mustered up the words, "what are doing" as I started rising and he said "I thought your back hurt?" I'm still extremely annoyed and for some reason just shaken. I guess I'm just shocked he thought that was fine....ugh...How would you feel?

Hi guys, im returning to TCG and i have a few questions that i dont find asnwers in internet i will thank you all woh help me to update my knowledge of TCG.
-Why V pokemon and Vmax can be playable if we are on EX tera Metagame?
-Can i combine V and EX TeraCrystals in the same deck?
-What is the expansion limit that i be available to use in my decks? For example, can i use Cards from Sun and Moon?
All the questions in a Official Tournament context cause i want to participate in its
Thank guys, im looking for a discord group too

Hi guys, im returning to TCG and i have a few questions that i dont find asnwers in internet i will thank you all woh help me to update my knowledge of TCG.
-Why V pokemon and Vmax can be playable if we are on EX tera Metagame?
-Can i combine V and EX TeraCrystals in the sema deck?
-What is the expansion limit that i be available to use in my decks? For example, can i use Cards from Sun and Moon?
All the questions in a Official Tournament context cause i want to participate in its
Thank guys, im looking for a discord group too

I (26f) have had a really hard time meeting men who mentally stimulate me without being over the top. My first boyfriend “didn’t talk enough” and my second boyfriend “talked too much.” (In quotes cause that’s just my opinion). Still, neither mentally stimulated me. My second (and most recent) boyfriend has that stream of consciousness kind of talkativeness. He talked about himself and his worries and ideas all the time. It was exhausting and very one-sided. My first boyfriend is a simple, laid back guy who loves carpentry/working on cars/anything hands on. He’s a very unique and interesting guy, but he just doesn’t care to talk a lot. Anytime I’d try to engage him in a conversation, he’d just agree and move on.
I’m asking because my first boyfriend (29M) has come back around after 5 years, and I’m in a much different place in my life. I’m more interested in stability and settling down in my life than when we were together. We are very much cut from the same cloth; we have the same interests, values, music taste, goals, etc. And those values/goals are not easy to find where I live (homesteading/natural living). The only thing missing with him is the mental stimulation. I’m a philosophical type and I love deep conversations. It is what makes me feel connected to people. But I can fulfill that with friends/community, right? Because I’m also an introvert and don’t want to be with someone who constantly needs to be talking.
I’m trying to be more realistic about relationships at this point in my life. I have friends who are in their 30s, still single, and don’t know how they got there. That’s totally okay and common, but for me, I really want to have a family by then, or at least be on the obvious track. My ex and I just caught up a few times recently, I’m out of town for a couple months but we plan to get together when I’m back.
Tl;dr: My ex boyfriend wants to reconnect after 5 years, we have all the same interests/values/goals, and I’ve never stopped loving him, but he’s quiet and doesn’t stimulate me mentally. Do I even need that or can I just fulfill that need with friends/community in exchange for someone who shares all my values/goals?

Why are grey hairs so unruly??? Like are my follicles tryin to live it up cause I can’t!🤣🤷‍♀️

My son is 23, and after a long 3 years of mostly mania which was misdiagnosed as ocd for most of that time until it got worse, he was diagnosed bipolar 1 “mild”.
Here is a background of his symptoms, he’s pretty open with me about them. It started just after or just before he graduated. That summer he wrote a trilogy which was honestly good. When a lot of people think mania and writing you’d expect the rantings of a mad man. Then he had a tshirt buisness. He’s always been super creative and just dives in to what ever he’s passionate about. I suspected autism but he excelled in school and guess I was waiting for the teachers to say hey he’s on the spectrum and they never did so I was like maybe I’m paranoid. Im not I still think he’s on the spectrum. His tshirt work was amazing also. He was in a band as well and they released a record locally and then they broke up I think due to his behavior I’m sure he wanted creative control. They are still friends tho. first year of college he changed his major 3 times whilst still doing all the things above and honestly it seemed good but his energy felt manic so I was actually worried. I’m an RN with er background so I’ve seen some psych. I was just watching Hoping it was just Unbridled youth. It started to morph into ocd like obsessions with his appearance, disordered eating and what appeared to be religious ocd. During this time I was watching and assessing and talking to him thinking maybe he was getting burnt out or something that talking can fix. Then he calls me and he said mom I think I need mental health help. I made an appointment and he was seen by a nurse practitioner and he dx him with ocd with delusions. He can be slightly delusional but it’s more wildly idealistic and when presented with facts he appears to accept facts with a bit of pushback. Most of his delusions are religious in nature. He tends to invent ideas about god that are not the standard accepted doctrine.
Then he sort of went back to being chill. He’s never fully chill. So I was like this isn’t ocd. Ocd doesn’t stop. He talks to himself a lot .. I do to and so does my other son. We both have adhd. When he does it tho it creeps me out so I asked him if he is hearing anything we don’t. He maintains he’s not having auditory or visual hallucinations. That seemed to be happening more and then he couldn’t sleep and was constantly agitated and apologizing for Being short with everyone. He had to sleep in my room under a weighted blanket loaded up n Benadryl to get a couple hours sleep. Then the self harm started and si. So I took him to the psych hospital 3 times. The third time they kept him and dx him with bipolar 1. They had him follow up with an np and he’s on vraylar 1.5 and Wellbutrin. He never gets fully depressed it’s mixed. The si remains persistent.
Now to my question. He is not well. He functions. He seems hypomanic and depressed at the same. The meds seem to be just barely keeping him ok. He presents well and goes to the np and tells her everything is good. He was reluctant to take meds and I had to be like you have to or move out. He takes them wo issue now. He’s been going out with a new girl from tinder every night, he went to some weird rave thing and met a trans woman and for like 2 days said he was dating her. Then (since that is not his preference) said yea that was weird and went out with another tinder date and didnt come home till 6 am. He’s experimented with hard drugs too. None of this is like him.
I said I think you may be manic and should go get your meds adjusted. He said no I’m depressed so I’m going out and fighting it. He cant be bothered to go get a second opinion with an md. He’s lost in the sauce. Not sure how to help

I had done 4 weeks on 2.5mg and experienced great results the first 3 weeks and by the 4th week hunger started coming back. I am ready to move up to 5mg which my doctor for prescribed me but my insurance is requiring another authorization. Between that and the shortage, I haven’t been able to continue for 3 weeks.
What I am curious on is how are yalls prescriptions structured? Do you need to get a PA every month?! Or does your doc prescribe a like 6 month plan? I just can’t figure out how to not cause delays in between months?

What would you do in case your ex (9 intense months + dating ), (that for reference left you while you were under the rain due to different heavy situations: phone and id got stolen, an important person in my life is getting operated for a difficult cancer, they day he dumped me I was supposed to go see eurovision with his family to distract myself from the fact that my mother was probably fighting cancer again, had two jobs full time plus my fashion business to bring on but still was finding time..), would come back after one week of dumping you (by text without confrontation) telling you that he still sees the connection and is attracted to me and want to restart as friends and just see what happens because quote 'you never know what happens in life' this was the person that kept on telling me that thay wanted to marry me and have kids, we were looking at morgages to buy, not rent, buy an actual property but at the same time he was saying 'you never know what happens in life, anything is possible and you never know what it brings or happens during it, maybe tomorrow we die'.
Excluding the fact that I found him on Grinder after 5 days of breaking up and confronting him resulted in 'people advised me to have a rebound and I still feel like you are too much in my head', and the fact that when we met each other after two weeks he could not even look at me straight in the eyes and said later to me that he left in a rush because we hugged and he felt it all back.
He apologised for the way he left but as soon as I bring out something about it he goes in the defensive and I believe it's such a waste because we both know what we want but clearly the grass is greener else where or he is just not sure of himself; taking this for reference I would like to point out that this person does not like themselves, due to different things and was really putting his insecurities on me daily until one day, after having sex and it all he brought up for the 4th time that day the fact of boing ugly, always tired and boring, to this, in confusion I replied with a slap that passed for me being violent and for it as the last drop that made the relationship collaps, he didnt care about how I was feeling, he did not care that I was not taking pictures of me due to the shift that he brought in my life and in all this I was just there, delusional, telling myself that I could never leave him, he needs somebosy and a real support, he is surrounded by people that just look for him when there is the chance to actually do something or complain about their problems for hours on the phone, not like me, I was there even in his depressed days; where he was not reaching the end of the month in the best economic way and yet his people were still asking him for money that most of the time he was borrowing from me..
I feel stuck in this situation and my feelings change hourly; there are the times when i realise this person is playing and can't even understand what they clearly want in their life, when I go there I just think that I need to be a better person and let this teach me which bonds to fuel and which not, but there are times where I just hope to meet, look at each other in the eyes and cry trying telling all to each other and to be better but he seems like a rock; last time he was almost crying every sentence but was stopping it when he realised his eyes were getting wet, he even told me he wished things worked when he could have acted still but decided to left me waiting because he is clearly a coward.
Another thing to add about this person is the fact that they meditate; nothing wrong in this, I do it as well in my own ways, but for as I see it on him, he is attending different structures and retires for that, he believe to what they tell him, like that he believes he knows how to ground himself/relax and stuff like this, but in reality he is just stuck and you can clearly see that, this in the mix affects because he thinks he is on a superior level of conection and peace but as I saw him last time he as still going on with the 'I have to learn to not take the energy over from people and stuff like this because it gets stuck in u ecc'. I just wanted to reply that he is the one who allows that, but maybe some other meditative retires will help him realise.
I feel stuck with his request of being friends and then see because you never know in life but I also understand that this person went through a lot in their life and probably that package is stuck on and in them.
I told him that I can forgive him as a friend but not as a lover since he abandoned me out of nowhere, I know that from the way I tried to confront him, If I bring something up the response would be something alluding to the 'idk what happens in life'.
How can you pretend to be sure about your life and yourself and not evaluate yourself especially after realising how you managed a situation in the shittiest way possible, but I know even if he does not admit it, that he feels bad about what he did, probably his narcissistic side cannot admit it but the fact that he cannot even look at me while I am next to him says a lot.
To make you understand better I am speaking about sporadical little things that with time accumulate, the worst that comes in my mind in this moment is when we were happy after doing in bed and I felt like testing him; I said 'If something would happen to one of us, would we both stay on each other side's no matter what?' I was alluding to stuff like canceelse, the reply was 'I dont know, we could feel stuck and not pursuing what we want in life so that is something I would not do'.
I now ask myself and you again; How could I see all things like this, daily and just be scared to confront him about some human decency? I was telling him often about manners but when I was doing so I was feeling in the wrong asap because from the way I loved him, I was seeing over us as mere people, I was seeing beyond that, I was focusing on the things that we were doing together and how to make him feel better because with time i realised his family does not care for him, It is just for company because they are bored and when I was there, sincerely people would not feel like fropping something and talking about it, as well for his friends, he is surrounded by bpeople with this mentality like 'me first' and I believe he is now trying to follow that, and I still wonder why I care.
Sorry for this, I am confused on the situation and I just had to let a bit out since I could not even confront this perosn.
The biggest question is: If you left me since I was unstable and all, why do you even care about being friends when I passed the first days believing that I would have looked outside and he would be there to talk, but he instead decided to be unavailable but now wants to have a bond?
He is playing a lot around this thing of the 'open door fore the future' but I can see that as something alike wanting me to not move on, be an emotional blanket and be there when he wants.

Hi, I'm a pretty healthy guy, have never been on any depression or anxiety medications. Though, I have been a heavy smoker, I've quit now, I also used to smoke weed which I dont now, maybe occasionally. I have never been a heavy or daily drinker but I have also cut that down completely.
Recently, I took blood tests and heart tests and confirmed I am 100% healthy and everything is normal. I sleep well, dont stress much. Yet, I have erectile issues.
I have sex on and off but its not enjoyable. I dont get horny much and erections are hard to come by and cannot maintain it most times.
Even when I do masturbate, I release but dont orgasm. Also my sperm quantitt is quite low.
Im 31 years old. I exercise frequently as well.
Last month, i took a sleeping pill, and surprisingly woke up with an amazing hard on and my sex drive was normal for a days. During those days, i enjoyed having sex. Then I started hitting the gym..my body got exhausted within 2 days and I suddenly went back to the same issue again.
Now, I dont understand what the problem is exactly and what should I do. Life feels dull and boring. It also bothers me alot because im trying to keep away from drinking, smoking and having fun just so I can be healthy. I also stopped going to the gym to see if maybe exhaustion was my issue but nothing has changed.
Ps - I also watch porn daily which i have always done.

I have had depression and anxiety since I was 20 years old. I had anxiety in childhood too, but to a lesser degree. I was on and SSRIs in my 20s (a few months at a time) because my parents never approved, so I never really got treatment. After I got married, my husband didn't approve of SSRIs, so didn't take them. Now, at 37, I am taking them again and thinking I should try and be consistent this time. Husband doesn't know, but I have to be honest and tell him. I know he will get mad. (for context, I am Indian). I just have been irritable, angry, and stressed, coupled with a lot of indecision about my career. I recently moved to FL, and was also feeling depressed about the move.
So, I started on 25 mg of Zoloft. It's been 1 week.

1. Even though it has only been a week, I feel so much more positive and confident. Even though I know it takes longer to start working. It's almost like I have two personalities, one off the med and one on the med. On the med, I'm more calm, confident and positive. Is this a concern? I'm concerned that the placebo effect will make me psychologically dependent on the med. No one has noticed any difference, but I feel I'm different.
   
2. Will I be able to wean off this drug after a year? I am willing to work with a psychologist and a psychiatrist to really change the issues I was having. To fix the root cause. I am willing to work extremely hard to get out of this rut so I don't have to be on a med forever. I am willing to exercise, eat right and do CBT. But I dont' know if this will be enough. Will my brain become dependent on serotonin?
   
3. Any tips on how to tell my husband?
   

I (15m ) have been learning martial arts for about a year and a couple months( started with tkd but changed to muay thai)( currently not doing martial arts cause school is being a bitch). My bench mate at school thinks he(14m) can kick my ass in a fight, he has no experience in martial arts except for watching beginner boxing and muay thai tutorials on YouTube. He is 5'5 I am 5,8, he is 50 to 60 something kilos I am 87 kilos, he has t-rex arms. I have a 5'11 reach. Just cause he can beat me in a arm wrestling match and has slightly stronger upper body strength mainly because of his t-rex arms, he thinks he can beat me up. He always said he could beat me up but recently he's taken an interest in martial arts and has been repeatedly saying he can kick my ass in a fight its starting to get obnoxious. Just cause he started to self train muay thai on YouTube this guy thinks he can take me out in a fight. I'm not the type to be angry but Jesus fucking christ this guy is starting to piss me off.

Let's say I hypothetically use sulfate shampoo on my human hair extensions. What happens? Did any of you try it? I'm just curious cause I heard you can't, but I use sulfate shampoo on my natural hair and it makes it so smooth soft and shiny??