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Prepared by: Hunter Date: May 23rd, 2024

Executive Summary

This report provides a comprehensive analysis of developing an AI-powered application designed to enhance community safety by monitoring police scanner broadcasts, generating news articles, and offering custom notifications. It addresses potential legal hurdles, strategies for compliance, and technical implementation details. The report aims to assist in the strategic planning and execution of this project, ensuring both profitability and legal compliance while emphasizing the enhancement of neighborhood safety.

Table of Contents

1. Introduction
2. Application Description and Functionality
3. Development Process
4. Legal Considerations and Compliance
5. Technical Implementation
6. Potential Obstacles and Solutions
7. Recommendations and Best Practices
8. Conclusion
9. References and Resources

1. Introduction

The goal of this project is to develop an AI-powered application that listens to police scanner broadcasts, transcribes the audio, and sends alerts based on user-defined criteria. The service will initially be marketed as a free news service focused on community safety, with a premium subscription for custom notifications. This report covers all aspects of the development, legal considerations, and potential obstacles.

2. Application Description and Functionality

Primary Features: - News Generation: AI transcribes police scanner broadcasts and generates news articles based on user preferences, focusing on enhancing community safety and awareness. - Custom Notifications: Premium users receive alerts for specific events or descriptions relevant to their safety interests (e.g., vehicle descriptions, suspect details). - User Interface: Intuitive interface for setting preferences and viewing alerts.
Functionality: - Continuous Monitoring: The AI continuously monitors 1-3 police scanner broadcasts. - Data Processing: Transcribes audio in real-time and matches content against user-defined criteria. - Alert System: Sends notifications via email, SMS, or push notifications.
Feature Breakdown: 1. Real-Time Transcription: - Utilizes advanced speech recognition technology to transcribe police scanner audio into text. - Ensures high accuracy even with background noise typical of police communications.

1. Custom Alert Criteria:
   
   • Users can define specific keywords or phrases (e.g., “red GMC 2007 Yukon,” “white male 6 foot tall”).
   • The system continuously scans transcriptions for these criteria and triggers alerts.
2. Notification Delivery:
   
   • Supports multiple notification methods: email, SMS, push notifications.
   • Users can configure notification preferences through the app’s settings.
3. User Personalization:
   
   • Users can set their interests and preferences to tailor the news articles they receive.
   • Provides options to focus on different types of incidents (e.g., traffic accidents, crimes).

3. Development Process

Phase 1: Prototype Development - Objective: Create a prototype for personal use to validate the concept. - Tasks: - Set up a server (local or cloud-based). - Integrate AI tools for audio transcription (e.g., DeepSpeech, Vosk). - Develop basic functionality for transcribing and generating alerts. - Testing: Ensure reliable operation and accuracy of transcriptions and alerts.
Phase 2: Full-Scale Development - Objective: Develop a full-featured application for public use. - Tasks: - Enhance user interface. - Implement premium features for custom notifications. - Ensure data security and compliance with privacy laws. - Testing: Comprehensive testing to ensure functionality and compliance.

4. Legal Considerations and Compliance

FCC Regulations: - Communications Act of 1934: Review Section 605 on unauthorized interception and use of communications. - Part 90: Private Land Mobile Radio Services regulations. - Part 97: Amateur Radio Service regulations.
Privacy Laws: - GDPR and CCPA: Ensure compliance with data protection laws. - User Consent: Obtain explicit consent for data collection and usage.
Potential Legal Hurdles: - Commercial Use of Broadcasts: Navigate the gray area of using police broadcasts for commercial purposes. - Privacy Concerns: Handle identifiable information carefully to avoid privacy violations.

5. Technical Implementation

Server Setup: - Local Server: For initial development and testing. - Cloud Server: Consider using Microsoft Azure, Google Cloud, or AWS for scalability and reliability.
AI Integration: - Speech Recognition: Use DeepSpeech or Vosk for real-time transcription. - Text Matching: Implement text-matching algorithms using libraries like fuzzywuzzy.
Data Security: - Encryption: Secure data at rest and in transit. - Access Controls: Restrict access to sensitive data.

6. Potential Obstacles and Solutions

Legal Compliance: - FCC Permissions: Seek necessary permissions or clarify legal boundaries with the FCC. - Privacy Issues: Implement robust data protection measures and transparent policies.
Technical Challenges: - Transcription Accuracy: Ensure high-quality audio input for accurate transcriptions. - Scalability: Design the system to handle increased load as the user base grows.

7. Recommendations and Best Practices

Alternative Marketing Strategy: - Initial Free Service: Market as a news service to gain user base and demonstrate public benefit. - Premium Features: Introduce custom notifications as a premium feature without emphasizing law enforcement evasion.
Legal Loopholes and Strategies: - Gray Area Utilization: Emphasize automated data processing rather than rebroadcasting. - Server Location: Explore hosting servers in countries with favorable regulations, but ensure compliance with international laws.
Best Practices: - User Privacy: Prioritize user privacy and data protection. - Transparent Policies: Clearly communicate data usage and obtain explicit consent.

8. Conclusion

Developing an AI-powered police scanner application involves navigating complex legal and technical challenges. By leveraging strategic marketing, robust legal compliance, and effective technical implementation, the project can achieve both profitability and regulatory adherence.

9. References and Resources

Legal Resources: - FCC Public Safety and Homeland Security Bureau - Communications Act of 1934 - Electronic Communications Privacy Act (ECPA) - GDPR Compliance Information - CCPA Compliance Guide
Technical Resources: - DeepSpeech - Vosk - Google Cloud - Microsoft Azure - Amazon Web Services (AWS)
By following this detailed plan, the project can successfully navigate legal complexities and technical challenges, resulting in a viable and profitable AI-powered police scanner application focused on community safety and awareness.

Code Examples and Command Line Prompts

Setting Up the Development Environment

1. Initial Setup:
```bash

Update and install necessary packages

sudo apt-get update sudo apt-get install -y python3 python3-pip git

Clone the repository

git clone https://github.com/your-repo/ai-police-scanner.git cd ai-police-scanner

Set up a virtual environment

python3 -m venv venv source venv/bin/activate

Install required Python packages

pip install -r requirements.txt ```
2. Backend Development:
```python

app.py

from flask import Flask, request, jsonify from transcription_service import transcribe_audio from alert_service import check_alert_criteria
app = Flask(name)
@app.route('/transcribe', methods=['POST']) def transcribe(): audio_file = request.files['file'] transcription = transcribe_audio(audio_file) alerts = check_alert_criteria(transcription) return jsonify({'transcription': transcription, 'alerts': alerts})
if name == 'main': app.run(debug=True) ```
3. Frontend Development:
html index.html

AI Police Scanner

Upload

4. Integration and Testing:
```bash

Run unit tests

pytest tests/

Start the server

python app.py ```
5. Deploying to Cloud:
```bash

AWS CLI commands to deploy the application

aws configure aws s3 mb s3://your-bucket-name aws s3 sync . s3://your-bucket-name --exclude ".git/" --exclude "venv/"

Deploy using AWS Elastic Beanstalk

eb init -p python-3.7 ai-police-scanner eb create ai-police-scanner-env ```

I've been trying to understand how to use commas better, [should this comma be here?] mostly through reading the guides on Grammarly's website (eg. grammarly.com/blog/comma/). However, I've found instances of commas being used in the writing of their guides that don't seem to be covered in the rules they outline. I've also observed this with numerous other 'comma rules' articles.
So, I wanted to post some examples here in the hopes that someone more knowledgeable could explain the comma usage to me. Specifically, however, I would appreciate it if you could post a source to a guide that outlines the rule, [should this comma be here?] rather than just explaining it based on your own knowledge/opinion.
"It is important to include a conjunction in the complex sentence above because without it, you will have committed a punctuation error often referred to as a comma splice." If I were writing this sentence, I wouldn't be sure whether to put a comma after "above, "because", "it", all of those words, some of those words, or none of them!
"Dashes are used to separate groups of words, not separate parts of words like a hyphen does." The second clause is dependent, so why does it have a comma?
"That phrase can't stand by itself as a complete sentence, which means it's a dependent clause." Haven't found a rule explaining why there would be a comma in this sentence.
Thanks so much for any insight!

Good morning 🌞
I recently made a post where I asked for help; how to write less negatively/more positively or neutrally while remaining truthful about events. I'm not a pessimist, but while I was reading my old journals they felt VERY pessimistic.
Many people came forward to share advice, I thank each and everyone! If I didn’t reply thank you, this is my thank you 💓
I decided to make a list of all the advice that was given and tried to sum it up at the end. Many of these have the same energy and mindset, you can pick your favorites. I hope these help those who also struggle with negative inner voices and don’t know how to dig themselves out of that hole. I wrote some of the replies as they were given, some I changed a bit. Sorry for there is no credit of the advice givers.

• Write about yourself in 3rd person; it gives emotional distance.
• Write in an interview style; a dialogue between you and an imaginary figure (therapist, God or Universe, future/past/dream self, a wise caring loving person etc). The figure can offer questions and prompts to look at things differently.
• When writing about negative events, try to look how they can have ANY kind of positive. Sometimes negative things make us reassess things. = If you write a negative journal entry, try to turn it around into a growth for the end.
• Re-framing (therapeutic) = a way to turn negative things into positive/neutral. Example: not getting into the school you wanted to let you to not have to go through a difficult and long commute every day. Also the door is still open for another school that could turn out to be even better. Disappointments happen (honesty) and going forward (resilience) is the key.
• CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) + re-framing. Helps to identify thoughts/beliefs behind feelings, think about evidence that supports or disproves those thoughts/beliefs and re-frame them into more accurate/positive/neutral to reflect what’s really true.=Over time this helps you to become more observant and less critical about your thoughts, beliefs and feelings.
• Look back to old journals with this approach.
• Check out Parable/Story of the Chinese farmeMan who lost his horse = Good luck brings bad luck and bad luck brings good luck.
• Use humor to lighten things up, for example; “I haven’t had a shower in a week. There goes my Personal hygiene award of the year”.
• Turn negatives into a positive with “what if’s” = what if by sleeping all day I’m going to be more energetic tomorrow? What if by missing the train I ran into an old friend while waiting for the new train?= Putting your energy on a positive is a decision. Putting it on the negative is too, but takes away energy rather than gives it.
• Look back at old journals with the positive what if-mindset.
• At the beginning of each month, make a list for positive things that happen during the month (log in during journaling). Kind of like a thankfulness journal, but less rigid.
• Spend equal amount of time (and space) to write about negative stuff as you do about neutral/positive.
• Sometimes writing about negative things is a positive action. When it starts to bother you however, you can ask yourself the following questions; 1. Is this in my control to change? 2. Is this my responsibility to change? 3. Should I talk to someone about this? ( not just a general “therapist”, but to the one that might be the source of your worries). 4. What is the ONE step I could take toward (positive) change? = responsibility + small steps.
  
• Realizing that sad text only speaks about the feelings of that moment, not the reality of your whole life.
  
• When making a journal entry, have a separate sheet of paper for “big emotions”, which you can either later dispose of or attach to the journal while writing neutrally about factual things.
  
• If a journal entry begins negatively, try to end it positively, so it’s rather a valley than a downward slope.
  
• Journaling can be a catharsis = a way to release tension, let go of what you no longer want to carry.
  
• If you experience negativity, it's OK to write about it as it is. If it bothers you, use this method; “Even though this experience sucks, I’m grateful for the ability to experience things, as shitty as they might be”. Apply this mindset to anything to lessen the pain.
  
• Thoughts (and emotions) aren’t reality, thoughts are an interpretation of reality; once you have written down the thoughts, analyze the interpretation vs. truth. Be objective.
  
• Google “critical inner voice” and seek information about how to be less critical.
  

1. Accept that negativity happens; writing about difficult events can have a positive impact.
2. Take distance from emotions; write in 3rd person or interview style. Tell your story like you’re telling someone else's story or ask yourself questions/prompts as someone else.
3. Turn negatives into a positive with the what if-method and keep the story of the Chinese man in mind.
4. Use humor to lighten up.
5. Disappointment = honesty, going on = resilience. Remember your strength.
6. CBT + reframing.
7. The valley method (if starting to write about negative things, end in positive).
8. List or separate sheet for positive events.
9. List of separate sheet for big emotions.
10. Ask yourself; can you do anything about it? Is it your responsibility?
11. Look back at old journals with these advice and keep them in mind when starting to write again.

The idea of turning negative into a positive is not to be used to gaslight yourself into thinking that every negative can or should be turned into a positive. It’s more of a tool to keep journaling as a happy experience and have journals that are nice to look back to. I sometimes look back to my journals and feel like they’re full of pessimistic self-talk, personally that bothered me.
Writing is an excellent tool and it can take away energy just as much as it can give it. Maybe this is the reason why so many say “I have wanted to start writing for years”, but there’s something keeping them from it. I hope you find a way where it will give you energy and joy 📚

I've been trying to understand how to use commas better, [should this comma be here?] mostly through reading the guides on Grammarly's website (eg. grammarly.com/blog/comma/). However, I've found instances of commas being used in the writing of their guides that don't seem to be covered in the rules they outline. I've also observed this with numerous other 'comma rules' articles.
So, I wanted to post some examples here in the hopes that someone more knowledgeable could explain the comma usage to me. Specifically, however, I would appreciate it if you could post a source to a guide that outlines the rule, [should this comma be here?] rather than just explaining it based on your own knowledge/opinion.
"It is important to include a conjunction in the complex sentence above because without it, you will have committed a punctuation error often referred to as a comma splice." If I were writing this sentence, I wouldn't be sure whether to put a comma after "above, "because", "it", all of those words, some of those words, or none of them!
"Dashes are used to separate groups of words, not separate parts of words like a hyphen does." The second clause is dependent, so why does it have a comma?
"That phrase can't stand by itself as a complete sentence, which means it's a dependent clause." Haven't found a rule explaining why there would be a comma in this sentence.
Thanks so much for any insight!

My experience
I have been to recently ER since my stomach is in great pain and keep producing gas and bloating. I can barely walk that day, even breathing makes me painful. But the doctors there do not find anything wrong with my blood/other tests. I went back to home after they gave me those pain-killing medicine and ask me to eat bland diet and prescribe me medicine to treat stomach ulcers symptoms. They told me my stomach pain might be because of gas/stomach ulcers' problem.
background:
I am a male who has high cholesterol--around 187 LDL. My previous primary care told me that I should switch to vegan and take statin. My previous PCP is pro-vegan. I have reduced meat, egg, diary gradually and increased fibers--fruits, vegetables including strawberry, watermelon, grape, carrots, cauliflower, broccoli, lettuce, spinach, cabbage. Most of them are consumed in raw. And I also reduce my fine grain/carb intake.
During my transitioning, I have experienced some stomach pain and bloating several months ago and it keeps happening. I thought it might be caused by my body's adjustment to vegan and the small amount of meat(chicken/fish) is the culprit. However, my academic work and exercise still require me to use a lot of energy. I have to eat a lot of vegetables and fruits with small amount of fine carbon and chicken to maintain my energy level.
However, for recent 3 months, my symptoms from stomach have become worse--excess of gas and bloating. And I feel constantly hungry. When I come to cardiologist to examine my blood work last month, they told me my cholesterol is very good. I think it might be the help of statin and my switch to vegan. I have eaten more vegetables recently because of the increase of physical activity in summer. I ignore those stomach pain/ bloating/gas/high frequency pooping since my poop looks good. My blood work looks good.
One day, I ate 2 flatbreads and strawberries and onions, lettuce and carrots in great amount to keep me from hungry. The consumption exceeds my normal intake. I also drink some lemonade water and small amount of chicken meat. I don't eat anything else that day and ignore the bloating/gas from my stomach. However, the next morning, my abdomen is in great pain so I went to ER. I have never been painful like that.
When I came back to home, I need to contact gastrointestinal specialist and I need to find a new PCP first to get a referral to the GI department in that hospital.
Before that, I try to find the problem by myself. I thought it might be the problem of meat/fine carbon consumption. Then I order some asian food like beef noodles and fried rice with spicy chicken--fine carbon/red meat. I did not take any pain killer and keep eating that way for two day to see if anything suddenly become worse. What's interesting is that my stomach pain/bloating has been greatly reduced even compared to those days before I went to ER.
Now I switched to the fine carbon/grain/meat/small amount of fruit mode before I meet specialist. I still take small amount of statin to keep my cholesterol low. My stomach feels much better than before.
Some thoughts:
This kind of experience makes me wonder if I should go to a full-vegan mode.
I know that veggie might not be the cause of ER visiting. There are many other culprits. I should see a GI specialist before I decide what I should eat.
But I keep suspecting many "beneficial" claims about vegetarian and especially when those claims involve low fine carb, "raw, natural" vegetables. If I have to keep my energy level without fine carb(rice/grain...), I have to consume many raw vegetables/fruits. But raw vegetables/fruits can be contaminated and it can have many toxin. No one can guarantee if those raw food is safe through the supply chain.
I suspect many research about nutrition are unreliable even if they came from some very prestigious place. I don't think only the vegan-related research has this problem
Many observational research based on statistical analysis can be extremely unreliable. Some nutrition research can not set a proper control and compare different groups validly. Some schools can not even teach statistics properly...
My research area is applied math. I took some statistical course like regression. Once, in a course, I told a stat professor that we can not interpret the statistics properly because of the data/inconsistency from computation. But that guy told me that I expect you to "diagnose the data, interpret them, reach conclusion".This kind of attitude really baffles me. And I heard many researchers keep publishing paper in the similar ways.
I don't want to blame them and discredit all their research. But putting our health on those research seems to be risky

This is admittedly maybe a stupid question but here goes.
Taking over my family's business in the next year or so. We're not big by any means, approx 20 employees, grossing around 10mm yearly. We're very stable, been doing this for over 40 years but we've been slowly shrinking the last decade or so because my mother isn't interested in pushing for growth or new customers.
I've been involved since I was a kid, know our operations inside and out, but when it comes to sales and growth I'm basically clueless, as I was too young to be involved when they were still doing that, and my grandparents and Dad, who were the ones who did all that are now dead. I have a rough idea of our overall financial picture but my grandmother was very old school with her bookkeeping, paper everything. While, thankfully, we're far away from that the trait of being kind of cryptic about the money around family has persisted with my mom. Not at all worried there's anything shady happening there before you suggest that, just always very guarded talking about money in general. It doesn't help she's not the best with the office work side either. Just as an example, she'll often assure me we're doing good because our largest customer has continually grown in the quantity they're ordering. But I'm worried that this one customer now represents something like 40% of our total sales.
My mom's decided to retire and I'm happy to take over, but I'm trying to figure out what my first steps should be as far as evaluating the business as it stands and determining what we can do to move ahead. I have a rough 5 year plan I've doodled with for several years now based on where I know we're weak and what we need to address, but I'm worried that I'm too focused on the details without a clear picture of our overall health.
So I guess I'm asking what are the first things I should be looking at? We have an outside accountant who does our quarterly taxes, so I'm thinking maybe have him just do a full report of our financials to start with?

URL: https://www.aura.com/learn/is-roblox-safe-for-kids#:~:text=But%20is%20Roblox%20safe%20for,%2C%20hackers%2C%20and%20online%20predators.
Title: Is Roblox Safe for Kids?
Author: Sofia Kaufman

Roblox is a massively multiplayer online game that is played by millions of people daily, and a large demographic of these players are children. Of course, if a parent is going to let their child do anything on the game, it would be good for them to look into roblox to make sure it is safe and this article assist parents to taking the proper steps to making sure that their child is safe while playing. In the book, 'Infinite Bandwidth', the author refers to seven keys of media that act as a guidebook for Catholics and non-Catholics alike to stay safe, healthy, and good. This article is very good as it outlines all of the keys in order for their kids to be able to play the game in a healthy manner.
Not only is this an article about how to keep your kids safe, Aura is an application that restricts sensitive content and creates a safe gaming experience.
First Media Key: Balance
The first media key that is needed is balance. Balance must first be exercised in the parents to be an example to their kids as the parents are the role models for everything that the kids do. "With their parents so easily distracted by technology, is it any wonder that children and teenagers are as well?" (Gan, pg. 27). The author explains this exact thing, if the parents are glued to media all the time, they set the example, so of course the kids will do the same thing. Thus, the parent must teach the child to balance playing games, consuming other media, homework, physical activity, etc.
The article does well to emphasis this as it contains a whole section about the balancing of playing the game and monitoring how much time they spend playing roblox as it states, "But it’s essential to make sure your child has a balanced lifestyle that includes off-screen activities, as well." (Kaufman, Section 9). This section talks about the balancing the child using methods such as time limits set on how long they can play, encouraging good behavior by giving them additional time to play if they spend their time off of the game to do meaningful activities, and discouraging bad behavior as if they seem to misbehave or play the game in a way that the parent doesn't like, they can limit their time on the game or possible restrict it entirely for a small period of time.
Second Media Key: Attitude Awareness
The second media key that the author mentions is attitude awareness. We must be especially careful of anything that may affect our mood or tendencies. Media is meant to influence you in some kind of way and we must be aware of what we are consuming as there are a great deal of media that can be harmful to us in many ways including its message, addictiveness, and content. "The second media key is really about as much about recognizing the positive attitudes underlying media as much as it is about recognizing the negative attitudes." (Gan, pg. 45). Having attitude awareness is especially important when your kids are browsing the internet or playing games as it is very easy for them to come across media that is not suitable for kids and it is important for the parent to teach their kids to be safe, consume media that is good for them, and put in place measures that can prevent the misuse of media in anyway they can.
The article goes over this and does well to reflect this key, as it goes over the many ways that you can prevent your child from misusing the site, such as increasing the chat filter, having the child play in a space that is visible to the parent, and letting the site know their age so that it can restrict certain games that may not be suited for their age.
Third Media Key: Dignity of the Human Person
The third media key is the understanding the dignity of the human person as the author of 'Infinite Bandwidth' states that “All media should reflect, uphold, and enhance human dignity” (Gan, pg. 52). It is very important to know the dignity of the human person when using media as when someone browses the internet or consumes media that defiles the dignity of the human person then not only can it influence their view of other people, but it can also make someone look down on themselves. Because of this, it is critical that kids are taught about human dignity as well as shielded from any media that can harm this view.
This article does well to talk about this topic as it warns that if the parents are not careful about not monitoring their child's behavior, they could be subject to things on roblox which are not good to this dignity. However I think the article could be improved as it can talk more about how this may affect your kid in the future.
Fourth Media Key: Truth
Truth is something we all as human strive to find and move towards as we cannot live something that is not true. An example of this would be believing that you are rich and being homeless, you cannot live something that is not true. “In word and action, our use of media should be filled with truth. it should conform to reality and help lead others to a deeper understanding of reality” (Gan, pg. 68). Children are at a higher risk than adults, especially on the internet as they are exposed to many things that are full of untruths and adults are more likely to question the validity of that which is said on the internet. Thus it is the duty of the parent to make sure that their kids are safe and secure on the internet
The article talks about being careful of scams that are happen fairly frequently on the site and it instructs the parent who is most likely not familiar with the site, how to avoid these and make sure that their children do too. In addition to this, the article brings to light the report abuse feature and instructs that both the parent and the child use this feature whenever they experience something that is clearly malicious on the site.
Fifth Media Key: Inspiring
Media at its core, revolves greatly around this key as media is meant to inspire those as well as do good for the people that engage in it. "Like other forms of media, video games should be able to inspire men and woman, boys and girls to the good." (Gan, pg. 93). Video games are no exception as video games have many positive benefits including inspiring creativity, being an outlet to just wind down, and connecting with other people and having fun with them. However, one must be careful as video games are one of the most common forms of media to be inadequate when it comes to inspiring others to the good, as it can show all sorts of themes that can hinder someone's mental health or stability.
This article talks almost exclusively about the negative side of roblox, warning against the harms that it can do, with the biggest one being addiction as it states, "Due to the impressionable ages of young children and teens, addiction is one of the most significant risks of online gaming. This fixation can result in children neglecting their hobbies, friendships, school, and even their overall well-being." This is a valid take as one should be aware of the problems that it may cause, however it should also take into consideration the upsides that the game can have. This article dis miss out on the fact that Roblox can actually do wonders as kids can learn to be creative with the games they play and in order to make your own experience in Roblox, you will need to know how to code. Roblox has many videos on its website on teaching coding and children can learn a very important skill which can greatly increase their knowledge of the computer. In addition, knowing how to code could look promising on a job application in the future!
Sixth Media Key: Skillfully Developed
Media being skillfully developed is crucial in the world on media and especially in video games as the most popular mainstream video games are ones that were given a lot of time, care and money into making sure the game was made well. A well made video games is extremely important as if a game is not well made, it does not communicate clearly the message it is trying to convey, in addition, it discourages people from playing the game entirely, which further separates them from its message.
This article doesn't do well with talking about the many ways in which Roblox as many unique experiences, many of which have made from a lot of effort and hard work by independent creators.
Seventh Media Key: Motivated by and relevant to experience
The seventh media key talks about the audience to whom the media is aimed at. The audience in which the media is directed is important because depending on the person who consumes the media, some may understand it more than others. For example, if you give a calculus problem to a fifth grader, they would have no idea what it means.
The website does well to appeal to concerned parents as it seems to address most of the parents concerns. The article is easy to understand and to the parents who may not be tech savvy, it assists them in gives them the references and step by step processes to help them with their goal.

I am so done with this shit
My cousin, we will call her "rose", has down syndrome(DS) And her mom, who ı will call auntie is refuses to acknowledge this. I am so full about this.
So, rose is at the same age as me. Thats why in mass family meetings ı usually hang out with her. But even the first time ı saw her ı realized there was something different with her. But ı didnt thought too much about it, because ı was 5. I realized rose has DS at age 7, when my teacher at that time first told us about down syndrome. My teacher told us people with DS usually have wrong body propotions, have more fragile body, and they usually struggle in talking, math...etc. He gave us maybe tens of symptoms a Person with DS could have. And ı realized Rose had EVERY single one of these symptoms. He even gave us examples of some symptoms only the patients with the worst types of DS have, and rose also had every one of them. Her DS was so fatal me at the age 7 realized she had it. She struggles walking,talking,had a fragile body, she had a low ıq, she wasnt able to stand balanced without any help...
So, this brings us to my disgusting auntie... The day ı learned about DS, ı was telling what ı learned in school that day to my parents. And The moment ı mentioned this My mom suddenly shouted at me, telling me to shut up and never bring back this topic to the table ever again. I was confused, ı thought she had no reason to do this, but as thing turned out, ı learned my auntie already knew rose had DS, my dad is a doctor, and at birth my dad told that rose had DS to my auntie. from what ı have heard, my dad reccomended a personal assitant and a speical school just for her, but my auntie shouted to my dad the same way my mom shouted at me.
From what ı've seen, my auntie thinks peoples with DS is "retrded" people, and he defend that her daughter is not retrded. Thats why she refuses to get any help, treatments etc. Just to prove my dad wrong. Last summer they visited us, and my dad secretly told my mom to cool some basic foods while they staywith us, because he thought rose's digestive System might be sensitive. My auntie heard this, and feed rose only pizza for a week, 3 times a day. And while this happens ı was really struggling to not punch my auntie.
Now its time to tell you about the time ı decided to publish this story My family and my aunties family was in a restaurant eating dinner. Our waiter brought our food, and ı realized waiters body and talking was a bit off. After ı finished my food ı aproached him and asked him if he had DS. He said yes and we started chatting. After a long conversation, before ı leave ı told him its very nice to see people with DS working, and wished him best of luck. My auntie heard this last part, and started to blame me in front of the whole family, calling me swear words. She told me "how dare you call rose a retarted!" And ı told her ı didnt called her retarded, in fact, while ı was talking with the waiter, ı didnt mention the neither the words "rose" nor "ret*rted". It turns out she just triggered because the word "down syndrome" used in a sentences by me.
Now, as you can all understand, my auntie is a dickface. She is stupid and ignorant. She cares more about her own status then her rose's life. The idea of people with DS being re*arted is the single most ignorant and stupid thing ı heard in the last century. She refused to do anything abput rose, and tried to make her life "better" by doing everything rose ever asked for, including feeding her trash food every day. Both me and rose is 17 right now, and rose's life is simple pathetic. She isnt even able to do simple calculations correctly, and she even cant talk properly. She knows the same amount of words a a toddler, and its all my aunties fault. She left her child unhelped when she needed help the most. And she lives in a world of delusion where things she done is morraly right.
Sadly, nor me, my brother ot my dad isnt able to do anything. Because if we do something there is a chance of we May lose contact with rose. And that would be a disaster. We are doing our best to help rose on monthly/yearly family reunions, and if we lose that chance, rose's all life would depend only on my auntie.
So, before ending this post, ı just want to apologize you all if ı said anything offensive. I am not native in english, and ı could sometimes offended people without noticing. Stay safe

Accountability, denial and the future-proofing of British torture
Crossposting audience: Even less than narcissism research, there is a huge dearth of research on denial, the last and arguably most disturbing and long-lasting arm of genocide. Similarly, denial is employed by serial killers and is a type of extreme psychological violence that decouples the system of language's sensemaking from its actual sensebacking isomorphism to reality, while still parasiting sensemaking's credit until the lie's energy final dies, revealing the true devastating truth and the double violence to what truth means itself in the wake of the crime. Some lies last for disturbingly long amounts of time, however, in a reactive and aggressive insistence on sheer social power. This subreddit aims to study that disturbing psychosis at the heart of denial.
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This disturbing case shows the UK’s use of the American CIA for purposes of enacting its own aggression from a position of denial. They show a ready and active machinery where they first deny the crime, then obstruct appropriate investigation. When this is impossible they aggressively use their money to downplay the severity. They partially admitted to the facts but for the most part used obscene amounts of money and power to obstruct investigation and hide their torture-based interference in American affairs through CIA pathways. These CIA pathways were clearly only this vulnerable because they were extremely greedy.
This article explores the various responses of the British state to revelations that UK intelligence and security services colluded in the secret detention, rendition and torture of terror suspects during the first years of the ‘war on terror’. These responses, by successive governments, have been characterized by denial, obfuscation and systematic attempts to obstruct appropriate investigation and avoid accountability. Initially, they flatly denied torture ever took place. As evidence mounted, they prevaricated and downplayed the severity of the extent of the torture, or rationalized and justified its use in relation to what they argued was an existential threat posed by terrorism. Sometimes, they partially admitted the facts; but for the most part, their response was to obstruct investigation and limit accountability.
Questioning the standards used is a clear technique of these British torture force infilitrators of the American CIA; when disturbing preponderance is not found in a festering and bought out CIA hotspot, this is who to look for.
Democratic leaders are motivated both by self-preservation—saving face, retaining their positions—and by their desire to continue to govern, which in turn depends on maintaining the loyalty of officials, especially security officials. This is achieved through avoiding punishment of those responsible, or, when necessary, enacting it at the lowest plausible level of the command chain.4 Mitchell points to four techniques for evading accountability: denial—of what happened or of responsibility for it; delay—of accountability, for example through instigating multiple inquiries, which tends to generate confusion over the details; delegation—of responsibility down the chain of command to those at the lowest plausible level; and diversion—admitting responsibility, but questioning the standards applied to evaluate the action.5
The British state remains in denial that it is not sweet at all, but has committed some of the most horrific torture across the world that the world has ever seen, and has done this to force its exports and secure access to imports
A core concern of intelligence officials and ministers has been to prevent any process that would lead to a comprehensive prohibition on involvement in operations where torture and cruel, inhuman and degrading treatment (CIDT) are a real possibility. Moreover, as we have argued elsewhere, contemporary forms of British involvement in torture emerge from, and are deeply shaped by, a long history of colonial and post-colonial use of torture by the British state.
CIA Rendition, Detention and Interrogation Programme shows disturbing interference pathways for the UK
The work presented here, based on ten years of researching the CIA’s Rendition, Detention and Interrogation programme, including UK involvement, fills this gap
The vanity of clean hands shows an intent to profit like one who does not commit torture while clearly in a state of fraud of actually committing torture. The narrative of denial upholds this narrative of fraud
. It is now clear that British intelligence was implicated in widespread, systematic abuses after 9/11, and that these practices were known about at the highest levels. As we have argued previously, the involvement of UK officials in such practices took a particular form, shaped by the desire to maintain clean hands and thereby plausibly sustain a ‘narrative of denial’.1
. We argue that, while ministers claim that the oversight regime ensures compliance with strict legal and ethical rules, in reality the door remains—deliberately—wide open for continued British collusion in torture. Worryingly, available evidence suggests that such collusion is not merely hypothetical.
We demonstrate that even where the UK government has permitted investigations, none of these has delivered an adequate reckoning. Instead, they have become implicated in what we term the machinery of denial, and are instrumental in carving out spaces in which certain actors, including government ministers, can be exempted from the anti-torture norm in future. Finally, we explore the contours of contemporary practice by the British state. We argue that, while ministers claim that the oversight regime ensures compliance with strict legal and ethical rules, in reality the door remains—deliberately—wide open for continued British collusion in torture. Worryingly, available evidence suggests that such collusion is not merely hypothetical.
The British government instigated illegal detention of Northern Irish as recently as 1971 horrifically enough, all while to this day they try to say they have no recent involvement in torture. That itself is a clear gaslight
4 Moreover, within just a few years, similar practices were deployed much closer to home: in early 1971, the British government instigated the use of internment without trial in Northern Ireland to contain spiralling sectarian violence. This was accompanied by the development and routine use of the so-called ‘Five Techniques’: sleep deprivation; hooding; subjecting to noise; food and drink deprivation; and stress positions.15
2018 investigation revealed devastating finds of what the British had done between 2001-2010, things that were truly inexcusable. It looks like these CIA pathways were used. Who can imagine what will happen when mental instability from Brexit infects itself down these CIA pathways? They are hungry for a scapegoat for their own logical failings and hatred of those who need asylum.
, the ISC published two reports into detainee mistreatment and rendition in June 2018. The first set out the involvement of British intelligence in prisoner mistreatment between 2001 and 2010, and presented devastating findings, concluding that the agencies ‘tolerated actions, and took others, that we regard as inexcusable’.18
If it is difficult to comprehend someone at the top didn’t have knowledge, it’s because there’s nothing to comprehend and they did. It’s a blatant gaslight. It’s hard to stomach but we must be strong and stomach it.
s, the ISC was clear that the multiple reports from personnel on the ground, combined with media and other reporting, make it ‘difficult to comprehend how those at the top of the office did not’ have knowledge of the situation.
Britain clearly picked blacksites where complaint from allied representatives were slight. They targeted areas that would cover for them where their abuses being uncovered were “slight”.
Britain was clearly implicated in these abuses. The agencies knew of the existence of CIA ‘black’ sites, with internal memos referencing ‘“black” facilities’ and ‘other centres where the chances of complaint from allied representatives are slight’.
Britain clearly used the CIA to commit torture for its own interests in 2002
Likewise, although by May 2002 SIS was aware that Abu Zubaydah was held in a black site in Thailand, and was being tortured, British intelligence continued to send the CIA questions to be used in his interrogation.23
Then they did again with Binyam Mohamed
Binyam Mohamed, for example, was tortured in Moroccan detention as part of the CIA’s programme, in part on the basis of intelligence and questions supplied by British agencies.24
Premeditation and clandestine involvement was found in 70 cases, suggesting substantial interference through torture in America
3 British intelligence knew about, suggested, planned, agreed to, paid for others to conduct or otherwise enabled rendition operations in more than 70 cases.
As part of their denial, these British torturers left the room so they could pretend like they wouldn’t know. Yet, evidence was clearly shown that they knew, were tipped off, and purposefully looked away to allow the torture that they commissioned to happen uninterrupted by fraudulent compliance with human rights
In all other cases, British personnel were absent while the torture took place. Indeed, at times officials left the room specifically for the period of the torture, before returning again to continue their involvement in the interrogation.4
They outsourced their torture action to maintain plausible deniability and facilitated the process by using American greed and willingness to accept funds even if that then opened a pathway for America to fund its own oppression.
—in ways which ‘amount to simple outsourcing of action which they knew they were not allowed to undertake themselves’.43
The denial remains astounding, complete disrespect to the global community that can see Britain’s use of the CIA for its own torture
As we argue in the next section, the response of the state to the mounting evidence of involvement in human rights abuses is itself shaped by a desire to sustain both a narrative of denial regarding the past—‘Britain neither tortures, nor facilitates torture’—and the freedom to continue colluding in torture where deemed necessary.
A broad machinery of premeditated denial and gaslighting is found, similar to Saudi Arabia’s which was literally sold as a technique, and these very British interests have been found surrounding the purchase of Twitter, now called X. Torture justification is involved.
We identify a broad machinery of denial: a set of durable, interconnecting institutional practices enacted by the state, across government agencies and departments, across administrations, and both contemporaneously and ex post facto. We turn now to trace the architecture of this machinery
The machinery of denial
Suppressing evidence
Senior intelligence officials and ministers have, for more than 15 years and in the face of demonstrable evidence of collusion, outright refused to acknowledge any involvement in torture. In some cases, such denials were clearly lies (by omission if nothing else). For example, in response to the initial allegations of UK involvement in CIA rendition operations,44 Foreign Secretary Jack Straw was asked by the Select Committee on Foreign Affairs in December 2005 to give a categorical statement to this Committee now that this government is not involved in any type of rendition, that we are not assisting, with the Americans, in rendition of their suspects or their personnel and that we are definitely not involved in any rendition of anyone for the purposes of being taken to another country to a secret site, or whatever, for the purposes of torture? It is now known that, by this point, Straw had personally authorized involvement by SIS in numerous rendition operations, many of which were to countries where the risk of torture or other mistreatment was significant.45 Nonetheless, he issued a flat denial: First of all on your last point [involvement in rendition for torture], Eric, yes, I absolutely categorically can give you that undertaking ... Unless we all start to believe in conspiracy theories and that the officials are lying, that I am lying, that behind this there is some kind of secret state which is in league with some dark forces in the United States ... there simply is no truth in the claims that the United Kingdom has been involved in rendition full stop, because we have not been, and so what on earth a judicial inquiry would start to do I have no idea. I do not think it would be justified.46
The UK again and again has been made away that they are party to agreements to not commit torture, but repeatedly ways around it have been found, such as using the American CIA. This persistence instead of desistance has only grown worse, and I can’t imagine how much worse it has grown under Brexit now that the UK is searching for a scapegoat
ment in June 2018, released alongside the ISC reports, rearticulated this position: ‘UK personnel are bound by applicable principles of domestic and international law. The government do not participate in, solicit, encourage or condone the use of torture or cruel, inhuman or degrading treatment for any purpose.’51 In the ensuing House of Commons debate, Foreign Office Minister Sir Alan Duncan MP reiterated this claim, asserting that ‘we can and should be proud of the work done by our intelligence and service personnel’ and that Britain should feel confident in being able to ‘maintain our global reputation as a champion for human rights across the world’
Literal falsification of reports were found
In this sense, ministers and intelligence officials have long presided over a culture of secrecy, enacting a strategy designed to limit oversight and accountability. This was in play from the earliest phase of the ‘war on terror’, with evidence that intelligence officers failed to produce, or altered the production of, documentary records relating to involvement in the mistreatment of prisoners.
Refusal to gather evidence or not acknowledging evidence has been repeatedly seen
This is not just a case of destroying records: ministers have also consistently refused to gather evidence of the use of UK territory in rendition operations. As the then foreign secretary David Miliband made clear in May 2008, ‘we do not consider that a flight transiting our territory or airspace on its way to or from a possible rendition operation constitutes rendition
Preventing torture has been gaslit to the population as ‘undermining cooperation’. There is nothing cooperative about torture
Likewise, the government has persistently refused to investigate or block aircraft that have been shown to have rendered prisoners to torture, citing the need to avoid undermining ‘key areas of cooperation’.
The UK continues to gaslight that they adhere to the highest standards of conduct but after seeing this pattern of persistence over desistance the researchers were not convinced. It was part of their gaslighting machine.
3 We need ‘to look forward as well as backwards’, and in this light ‘the statutory and administrative basis on which our affairs are now organised give us much greater assurance in the House that decisions are made appropriately and that our agencies adhere to the highest possible standards of conduct’.74 We are not convinced.
To avoid the real risk of being found involved with torture, covertly aggressive devaluations of risk were purposefully made to drive down the risk assessment to the point where the torture could occur. This shows seriously dangerous rationalization, not adhere and compliance. This shows mental instability and an inability to respect logic in the face of clear international agreements.
At the heart of the Principles (as of the Consolidated guidance) is the requirement for personnel to make a judgement on the risk that participation by the UK in the location, capture, detention or interrogation of prisoners held by partner agencies would lead to unlawful killing, torture, CIDT, rendition or other ‘unacceptable standards of arrest and detention’.79 Where intelligence personnel ‘know or believe’ that such participation (including through intelligence-sharing) would lead to unlawful killing, torture or extraordinary rendition (defined as rendition where there is a real risk of torture or CIDT), such action is expressly prohibited. However, and crucially, similar action which is judged as leading to a ‘real risk’ of such consequences is not so prohibited.80 Instead, personnel need either to introduce mechanisms to ‘effectively mitigate the risk to below the threshold of real risk through reliable caveats or assurances’ or else to consult with ministers.81
Verbal agreements were made specifically to derail investigators, showing awareness of premeditation of unethical action
Worryingly, the Principles continue to allow for ‘reliable caveats or assurances’ to be agreed with partner agencies verbally rather than in writing.8
The irony of evading accountability for torturer through spoken agreement and then calling it a gentlemen’s agreement is as disgusting as it is pathetic.
instead, as the director-general of MI5 made clear to the ISC, a wholly unaccountable ‘gentlemen’s agreement’ sits at the heart of the current framework: There is a sort of superficial attractiveness about wanting MOUs ... In practice of course ... it is not a practical thing to pursue in many instances because it is not achievable. But the same effect is achievable by ... agreement, explanation, negotiation and a clear eye-toeye understanding with the liaison in question ...86
Clear rationalization showing intent to buy off legal consequences and then premeditating the crime
This guidance states clearly that ministers can authorize intelligence-sharing in cases where the risk of torture is ‘serious’, as long as they ‘agree that the potential benefits justify accepting the risk and the legal consequences that may follow’.
The UK’s obligations in relation to torture are clear. Joint Article 3 of the European Convention on Human Rights and the UK Human Rights Act prohibits torture and inhuman and degrading treatment. The United Nations Convention Against Torture, to which the UK is a signatory, prohibits the invocation of any exceptional circumstances—whether a state of war or threat of war, internal political stability or any other political emergency—as a justification for torture.
Importantly, under the doctrine of command responsibility, leaders—military or civilian—can be held criminally responsible if they knew or should have known of human rights violations and did nothing to prevent them.95
The refusal to give up basically trademarked techniques of plausible deniability shows that the UK has a clear intention to evade exactly what it has signed to respect and not evade.
Impunity is baked in at every level. The logical conclusion we must draw is that the UK government is unprepared to rule out the torture option. Thanks to legal action against the government by two MPs and the charity Reprieve, at the time of writing we await the outcome of a judicial review of that refusal by Theresa May’s government in July 2019.
Delay is repeatedly seen attempted hoping people will just forget the crimes happened
Accountability have already limited its scope, including the potential for prosecution. Owing to repeated delay and diversion over many years, evidence will have been lost, finding agents who were there at the time of the abuse of prisoners after so long will not be straightforward, and memories of who said and did what will have long faded.
The machinery of denial is used to facilitate allegedly democratic states non–compliance with human rights obligations. More should be done to stop, once and for all, the willful evasion of clearly signed agreements by the UK, or they should be removed. It has to stop.
. The analysis suggests that those mechanisms have been deliberately subsumed within the machinery of denial, rendering them not only ineffective but also potentially dangerous tools in facilitating democratic states’ non-compliance with human rights obligations. Valuable scholarly endeavour might explore what it would take to establish more robust mechanisms for accountability, and greater public scrutiny of the things that governments do in our names.

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Hello everyone, we have some major updates to this coming Petty Revenge story that will involve exposing my ex-husband for who he is and trying to protect the next person from falling into his trap. They will be coming in a separate post once I get everything together.
This is my story for context with the ex-husband. It will be a longer post, to be warned. Trigger warning for those who may be sensitive to stories about abuse and self-harm
Since my original post, the woman who is currently with my ex-husband, (not with as in together, anymore. With as in living with currently until she can find a new place for her and her kids), we have continued to stay in contact, and boy is this the drama intensifying. In short, the ex-husband is still playing his horrible games and turning her life into an ever-living hell.
Some backstory on my side. I will shorten my ex-husband to EH.
I (28F) and EH (36 M) met when I was 18 and he was 26, so there was a bit of an age gap, but that did not matter to either of us. We got engaged roughly 4 or 5 months after we started officially dating and we moved in together at the request of my parents as we could not fit everyone into the same home we were renting at the time. Things of course started off great. He seemed like a decent man who had his life at least somewhat figured out. He loved to cook and usually worked in some form of cooking-related job. However, never really seemed to be able to keep a job for too long but at the time, I didn't think much of it, given I was 19 and wearing rose-tinted glasses.
Since he couldn't hold a job and we usually had to ask his grandmother for money to keep up with the rent (both worked basically minimum wage jobs at the time) so after a year out of the house, we had to move back in with my parents.
Once we got settled back in there, I started a better-paying job and he had started a new job that was at least okay paying as well so for a bit we were doing okay. We made enough that we adopted 2 horses together and boarded them at a nearby facility. One came in late spring, the other in the summer of about 2016. So after 2 years of being together.
We got married that same year in the fall. Everything seemed perfect. Then came the wedding night... What I thought was my monthly woke me in the middle of the night before it was time to get up to leave for our honeymoon because I was suddenly bleeding very heavily, it freaked me out and we silently went to the ER without telling my family to not cause alarm. Come to find out, I was having a miscarriage. I was a little over 6 weeks pregnant and did not know. Needless to say, not exactly the best way to start your marriage, and did not go on our honeymoon. We never told my parents it happened and very few people know.
We held off until the following year, 2017, to go on our honeymoon. While we were on our honeymoon, I got a call that my mare had come down with a fever and the stable owner was calling vets out to see what was wrong. The first vet played it off saying it was just minor, gave her penicillin, and told the stable owner to give her a cool bath to help her cool down and see if it helped. It did not. They called a 2nd vet after that was not working for a second opinion, and my mare was diagnosed with Potomac Fever. Since it had been a few days since she started her fever, giving her the correct medicines at that point as she was getting very poorly was a 50/50 chance of whether they would help or not. We did cut our vacation as short as we could, but we ended up having to wait to come home as our board check removed what we had left to come home on so we had no money until we got paid again, luckily that same week.
The day before we were able to return, my favorite singer, Chester Bennington passed away. I was devasted. When we did get to the stable, we bought some supplies the stable owner advised us to get, mainly wraps and bags of ice to help ice my mare's feet to try to help keep her fever at bay. We were advised by the vet when they stopped by the check on her that the next day they would bring out an x-ray machine to see if the bones in her feet had turned down or not. If they had not, then she had a chance of making a full recovery and staying sound, and everything would be okay. If they had, then she would likely never be able to be ridden again and need a lot of corrective shoeing and therapy which would be very expensive. We were also trying to keep her on her feet as if she went down and we could not get her back up, it would be a death sentence.
The next morning I went to the stable as early as I was able and.. disaster. I was met by the stable owner and he had advised that my mare had been down when he checked on her sometime in the early morning, around 3 or 4 AM. He was able to get her up then but wasn't able to tell how long she had been down before he found her and got her up, however, she had gone down again and had refused to get up. I was so heartbroken and went to her and tried for a good hour or so while my parents showed up. I was in tears telling them we'd probably be putting her down because she was down. We did get her up, but the damage at that point was done. She was down way too long and she has very noticeable nerve damage. Hardly able to walk, went to the bathroom in spurts, and was so unsteady on her feet that she could barely stay up. When the vet came, we let her know what was going on. They looked her over and advised that her fever was gone, but the damage would probably be permanent without very expensive therapy throughout the years and would never be the same again. It was the humane choice to let her go and she crossed the rainbow bridge that day. I only had her a year and 2 weeks on the nose, but she was my best friend, my heart horse, and I miss her terribly to this day, soon to be 7 years later come July.
After this happened, EH and I went through a bit of a rocky patch. For a week or so he was supportive and seemed to care that I was grieving the loss of my mare, but after a little while it turned into arguments about how I could still be upset, time had passed we still had our other horse so I should be fine, all sorts of crazy things. I couldn't understand how he could say those things to me, especially when he knew I was so close with my mare and had many great plans with and for her that were now of course, not possible. He didn't care so I just stopped going to him when I was upset about it.
Fast forward to late fall of 2018, we decided to move out of the home we were living with my brother in and move into a house owned by his grandmother for a work opportunity for my EH. He ended up getting the job which solidified us moving. Moving didn't go so bad, however, I had to leave my job to move so I was without for a bit until I got a job at the same place he was working at, which was a casino. Usually, we worked separately as he was a cook and I was a cashier for the different food areas, but sometimes we worked in the same area. I much preferred to be in a different area than him cause if we worked in the same restaurant that night, it would get exhausting with him trying to joke around and make passes at me in front of people and joke around that it was the husband and wife team and everything was great. The first few times it happened, sure it was actually kind of funny because we had worked through some stuff and were doing okay at that point, but it did get a bit old and repetitive at some point, and never had any personal space. Plus, I was the one driving because he had a suspended license at the time so I was stuck with him most of the time after the new food court opened. We got our first puppy together for my 22nd birthday the day after New Years, 2019.
We moved on to work with a co-worker at a duck farm in the area we lived which was kind of a fun job. He was hired full-time and I was part-time. We took care of thousands of ducks every day doing whatever needed to be done from farm maintenance, giving them vaccines, sorting them, tagging them, etc. I kind of miss that job as it was an interesting one to have. All was well during these times, but we did sometimes have arguments because he felt since I didn't work as much that this somehow meant I was being lazy around the house and could stand to do more cooking and cleaning (which I was already doing a majority of anyway). It turned into a lot of gaslighting arguments that made me feel like maybe I was not doing enough so I took on more than what I was already doing. With the new puppy and at that time 7 fish tanks ranging from 5 gallons to 150 gallons with over 100 total fish and the entire house to clean and outside work to do, I was busy most of the time he was not home. Of course, as soon as he got home, he would find 1 dirty little thing that I didn't get to or something that wasn't to his standards and he'd excuse me for doing nothing or not knowing how to do anything right. We got jobs working for the same place after the duck farm mysteriously let him go for unknown reasons, which I can now only assume were his fault. We met some nice co-workers and got our second puppy from one in late fall of 2019. My dogs could be Irish twins because their birthdays are a little over 9 months apart.
Things started to decline after this, especially during covid, 2020. I got it very early on when they didn't know what it was and was bad enough that I could not work at all because I was struggling to breathe and function most of the time for months afterward. He did help me some but not much more than getting cough medicine and checking on me every once in a while other than that, he wasn't around me much due to having to work or just not coming around me when he was home, which fair, didn't want to bring sickness to the workplace. We were laid off from that job though in the downsizing.
In that time, he started abusing online slot games, and the extra money we had that we had previously discussed was to be saved for either a newer vehicle or even maybe a home of our own down the road he used to get coins or boosts in his games. They were not the ones you could win actual money from so he was just purely wasting hundreds of dollars pretty much every week or every couple of weeks on these games. I also found he had been spending money online on sites such as OF and other smut websites and paying for NSFW stuff online. Also found he was cheating on me with one person on OF when I got a pinged message from his email chats on my laptop. I, of course, wanted to see what was happening and found everything he had been saying to this girl.
He was telling her around times we'd go visit my parents for the weekend that he was going out of town to his family but didn't say with whom. They would ask him how he was single and he would just say "Oh I don't know, just unlucky I guess" and things along these longs. I wasn't even given roommate status, He stated he lived alone. Had the 2 dogs, all the fish, was woah is me with it all. I confronted him about it and of course, he tried to deny everything, tried to say I was probably the one cheating, and was just trying to blame him, you know, totally normal sane reaction... not. We got into it pretty good, nothing physical, but we did not talk to each other for a bit, I had considered leaving to be with my best friend at that time, but ultimately we started talking and wanted to attempt to work things out. He of course promised not to do it again, he'd be better, all that good stuff so I decided to give him another chance. Of course, I realize that was a major mistake now, but you live and learn, unfortunately.
Things smoothed out for a bit and went back to being okay again. We had a chance to expand our animals so we took it, it was kind of an apology gift in all honesty. We gained 4 rabbits from my best friend in the late-ish summer of 2020. I met her for the first time in the at the time 8 years we had been talking (we met online) so that was great. I am coming to realize that gaining all the animals we did in our time together may have been a coping mechanism for me because I had something that was depending on me and loved on me so in some ways I realize I do have a lot of animals due to this, but I am also an animal lover and love all of my animals and they are very much spoiled rotten every day. They still bring me immense joy and are a highlight of my life even if they were gained with EH. We still had our other horse, a gelding, at this time yet as well and he had been moved to a new boarding facility that was close to where we had moved to. So things were great at this time. In 2021 in the summer I gained a leopard gecko, and in the fall I gained a Russian tortoise as well.
Backtracking a little to around the end of August 2020, I gained my current job and I was excited to start a new at-home job so I could work and not have to worry about going out and potentially getting deathly sick again. I do have RA so I do have a compromised immune system. He started back to work where we were working as they had started hiring people back, so I was happy to have a quiet background which was needed for my job. Well, that did not last long. 2 weeks after going back, he didn't go to work for a day or 2 and I asked him if he was going to work. He stated he was using his paid vacation time and had taken the next 2 weeks off because he "needed a break" from work because he was feeling burnt out even though he had only been back 2 weeks and wanted some time to do stuff around the house. I thought this was odd and he never asked if this was okay... I only found out when he stayed home instead of going to work as scheduled.
He did go back after those 2 weeks off but he only stayed about another month and it happened again that he did not go in for a day or 2 when he was supposed to be working so I asked him what was going on. He told me he had quit the job because it was burning him out and he did not enjoy the job anymore. I found this odd yet again because he did not express any of these feelings before doing so and never asked me. I was furious and asked him how he thought this was okay because in our budget I had made up for us (because he wouldn't) there was no way for us to survive on my income alone for long and we would likely have to destroy our savings to stay afloat. He stated he would look for another job right away, he just wanted some time to figure out what he wanted to do. How, when he had only just gone back to work after about 5 months off, I don't know, but it was what it was, I made it clear he had to find work.
At that time, around the beginning of 2021 or so, maybe more coming into spring, he started his online slot spending again, and I had found he never deleted his OF account and was talking to another girl that I didn't know about saying the same things he was before, except he was talking to this girl the ENTIRE TIME he was talking to the other one. I just didn't catch it cause he had deleted messages so I didn't see it apparently when I found the first one. So not only had he lied about going to delete the OF and other smut stuff, but he had actively continued to talk to another girl for the entire year and a half almost that he claimed he was working on us and our relationship.
Needless to say, I exploded internally and waited for him to come home after helping his gram with something. I had a plan. When he got home, I played it cool like any other day. Asked him how his gram was, what he did at her house, and all that, normal. Then, I calmly asked him who the OF girl was. The color of his face went pale. Or paler anyway. At first asked, who? And acted confused. I reiterated my question of who OF girl was, this time, seriously to let him know the jig is up. He stated he didn't know who I was talking about and didn't know anyone by that name. I pulled up his OF account on my computer and was like, oh really? then explain all of this, and scrolled through the months of messages with this girl.
He had the AUDACITY to continue denying it was him and said he probably got hacked. I found a picture of him fully in the nude in the full-length mirror in the bathroom that he had sent her and said, "Oh yeah? Then how do you explain this picture?" and continued to more of his parts he was sending to the girl and continued to ask and this to all them. He had nowhere to hide. I had also already downloaded copies of everything and sent them to my best friend (the one we got the rabbits from) so in case he wanted to delete everything and call me crazy, I had the proof that I was not and he did these things.
Eventually, he admitted to continuing talking to her even though he said he had stopped. His reasoning? Apparently, he didn't feel the same spark in our marriage or relationship that he had originally felt and felt like I was distancing myself from him and it just wasn't the same between us. He also stated that he felt as if his efforts to make our relationship work weren't being seen by me and he didn't feel appreciated in the relationship. I, of course, asked him what he meant because at that point I had been just trusting his word that he wouldn't do anything else and would stop. He hadn't done anything else. No romantic gestures, no help around the house, offering to grab food when we needed it, take care of me while I was sick, offer to take over any form of bills or anything financial that I was solely doing at that point because he didn't want the responsibility of and had stated beforehand he didn't want the responsibility of.. nothing. Absolutely nothing. Everything was always on me, and I was the one burdening myself and driving myself crazy, even when I had another health scare thinking I had a DVT because I had sudden swelling in my left leg around my knee area and would get sudden bouts of breathlessness and was advised to take it easy and remove as much stress as possible for a bit in case I did have one to avoid a possible clot from going into my brain or lungs. Luckily, I did not have it, or any clots. I was under so much mental and physical stress that my body was reacting negatively.
This did not stop him from continuing my stresses at all. I also developed Vocal Cord Dysfunction when I had covid and stress makes it worse so on top of the sudden swelling and breathlessness, the stress was also activating the VCD and constantly making it feel like someone was choking me full force, which would trigger anxiety attacks because of course I felt like someone was choking me full force and like I couldn't breathe and wasn't breathing or at least wasn't breathing normally. It's an awful experience that I wouldn't wish even on my worst enemies.
Despite all the cheating, I never mentioned a word to my parents even up until that point, but they had a feeling something was going on because I was probably being a bit distant with them. I didn't want anyone to know at the time and thought I could fix things. Things only got worse. When he did finally get a job, not until mid-2021, so at that point he'd been out of work almost a year, he again picked up his gambling habits. What made things worse and started to spin more out of control was the pizza shop he had gotten a job at installed slot machines for their customers to play if they wished.
You can only guess what happened from there. While he was making decent money at the time, I saw hardly any of it because he would gamble most of his income at those slot machines. I would tell him what bills needed to go out of our joint account (I had a separate account for myself for my pay, but a portion went into the joint) from his pay, and he would say okay got it won't spend anything over that, won't play this week since we won't have a lot left over, etc etc etc... and magically pretty much all of the money would be gone and I would be forced to dip into our savings to save our bills from going out of date and overdue and gets fees we could not afford.
For context, the joint account was after I paid most of everything else out of my account before seeing what needed to go out of the joint account as well. Usually, the joint account would be needed to cover our rent to his gram, groceries, gas, vet appointments for the animals, medical or dental appointments for myself or him, and pretty much anything other than rent that was a necessity. I took care of the actual main bills out of my pay. As stated above, EH wanted nothing to do with the financial responsibility of ensuring all the bills such as our electricity, water, heat, phones, and internet were paid for on time because "I was better at keeping track of that stuff". I took that on because since I worked from home, I needed to make sure 100% I would have internet and electricity, or else I wouldn't have a job, and I couldn't lose my job over something so stupid as not paying my bills on time. I am not that irresponsible.
In about mid-fall 2021, he was at work and I had requested the day off to take our dogs, then 2 and 3, to the vet for their yearly check-ups and vaccinations so they were good for the coming year. He had just gotten paid the day before and I checked the joint account before I left the house with the dogs and saw that so far, he had not done anything with the money, so all was good and I proceeded to take the dogs to the vet. They did fine. It comes time to check out and pay for the vet visit and... the debit card for the joint account declines and says insufficient funds. Confused, I asked them to try it again before looking because I knew I saw that there was more than enough to cover their bill before I left. Nothing, same thing, it says it's declined due to insufficient funds.
I began to panic because, at this point, we had $0 in our savings because of his antics up until that point, and if I used my bank card, while it would go through, would put me into the negative until payday, which was not until the next week. I checked the joint account and low and behold, within the 2 or 3 hours I was gone, he somehow blew through almost $1,000 in withdrawals to gamble, pretty much his entire pay and I had less than $100 in that account. He had gambled his entire pay when he knew I was out to a vet appointment at that current moment. I paid with my bank card so I could leave, as at that vet clinic, you had to pay for the services before leaving or they would not let you leave, or not let you leave with your animals at the very least until the bill was paid in full. They had no bill me later options.
Needless to say, I was fuming the entire drive home and immediately messaged him about it when I got home and the dogs settled. He messaged me back right away with a BS excuse that he forgot that was what was happening that day even though right above those messages he could see I reminded him I was going to the vet, told him I was leaving for the vet, and was at the vet currently, all of which he replied to.
It of course ended up in an argument when he got home and after a long time arguing he stated he didn't understand what all the fuss was about since I had covered the bill just fine. He was using his pay the way he wanted and that's how it should be. He dared to say my pay went to what I wanted and it wasn't fair I was putting such a tight leash on him and his spending when I spent money on myself all the time, which is not true. I reminded him of this very quickly and showed him my bank account was in the negative because of today due to paying all of the necessary bills we needed, not because I was spending on myself and reminded him if I didn't pay the internet and electricity especially, I wouldn't be able to work which was not in the cards with how his spending was.
I forbade him from spending anything without my okay at this point and in a last-ditch effort, took away and cut up his bank cards and hid mine where he wouldn't find them. This did stop his spending because he didn't have a way to spend. I would only give him my bank card if he asked to get something we needed or he needed, and he was to give it back immediately after use or as soon as he could give it back if he took it to work to get something after work like smokes or something for the house. If any cash withdrawals went out, he wasn't allowed to take it again for a while. This continued into 2022 and it worked, I could relax a little as he was starting to earn trust. Say what you will, but it had to be done. At the end of 2021, 2 days before New Year 2022, we, unfortunately, lost our other horse to a long battle with sickness so we were down to just our dogs, the rabbits, reptiles, and 3 fish tanks because we decided to downgrade on the fish keeping. After all, water was getting expensive to maintain all 7 we had.
The loss of our gelding, unfortunately, turned out to be a good thing, as after we had him euthanized and I had allowed EH to have a bank card of his own again because he had been doing very well, it wasn't long before he was back to his old habits of draining his pays. Only, without the about $400 a month board for our gelding going out anymore, it was much worse. There would have been no way we would have been able to afford to keep him after that. It got to the point I again, took his card away, but then he started finding where I was hiding both of my cards and would drain not only the joint account but also my account. This led to us getting behind in rent especially, on some of my credit card payments which had by that time gotten completely maxed out, and on payments to loans I had taken out to try to get us back on track. Not good.
This continued to no avail throughout 2022. I had many conversations with friends trying to see if there was anything I could do. I was at my wits end with all the constant fighting over finances, continued accusations of cheating, making me feel like I was worthless and not doing enough to try to get him to see reason, wondering why I was not good enough for him to want to change and get his act together, mental and emotional abuse, manipulative actions, almost anything you can think of. I wanted it to stop and I was getting tired of trying. My mental and emotional health declined greatly. My friends of course wanted to support me in whatever I wanted to try to do, but they also didn't like seeing me decline as much as I was.
I had a mental breakdown one night and basically did a 2005 Brittany Spears to my hair. I didn't shave everything off, however, a good 90% of my hair was shaved off and what I did have left was very much chopped and looked horrible. I did get most of it fixed, but needed help with the back, so I asked him to try to fix it up so it didn't look so chopped off. I was already not the best mentally and my anxiety was through the roof. I had simply asked him to just be careful and not accidentally cut or nick me. Pretty simple. As I was anxious, I asked him a few times, and was a bit flinchy when he was close to me. He took this the wrong way and threw the scissors down and started screaming at me that if I wasn't going to calm down and hold still I could do it myself and blew past me out the bathroom door. The door almost hit me when he swung it open and I just completely lost it. I sobbed and was in such a bad state of mind that I ended up scratching my arms to the point I made them bleed and covered with scratches. He didn't care or do anything about it, he had gone outside and taken the car and drove up leaving me there alone. I bandaged up my arms. They stung for weeks and I still have a few light scars. Not a very proud moment, but one that drew me closer to knowing I had to leave. The stress I was under was too much.
My now current boyfriend, whom we'll call BF, (32 M) came into the mix towards the end of summer 2022, introduced to me by my best friend after she found him gaming in Fallout, mixed in with my friends, and took their stance as well that if I wanted to try to make things work, he would try to be as supportive as possible. Over time though, he and my friends slowly cracked and smashed through my rose-tinted glasses to help me see that what was happening was not my fault, and was not an okay situation to be in. My best friend then distanced herself thinking I was choosing BF over her after we started talking more and we were hanging out more playing games together. She decided to end our 11-year friendship amid things even though she knew I needed her and we were not replacing her with each other, we just happened to be growing closer. We attempted to include her in things but she chose to leave and distance herself, stating to me later she regretted ever introducing us.
My BF and other friends became my main support systems, and I decided enough was enough and it was time to let go. I had fallen out of love with my EH for some time but didn't want to admit to it. The marriage was over. I told EH I wanted a divorce but he did not believe me. He said I was being crazy for thinking we should end things, but I knew I was not.
While he was at work one night toward the end of October 2022, I went online and found a service that would assist me in getting the papers we needed to start the divorce process and bought them on the joint account so he could see I was serious.
When he came home, I was on the computer with my friends on Discord, playing a game together. He came in screaming with an anger I had never heard before... He had screamed at me before, but this was different. He was screaming at me to get out of the house, that I needed to get out now, he didn't want to see me in the morning, he didn't care if he wasn't allowed to do that cause he was doing it anyway, he was so angry and my friends and BF heard him through my headset. One of my friends told him to shut up and calm down and EF snapped and screamed at them to shut up and stay out of it.
He then came straight for me and slammed my laptop shut so hard I was afraid he broke it, ripped my headset off my head, and threw me from my chair, continuing to scream at the top of his lungs that he wanted me out right then and there if I wanted to me that way. It all happened so fast, I couldn't stop shaking and looking at him, not expecting this. He had never put his hands on me before. Ripping the headset off my head nearly caught on my industrial earring, which would have been horrible if it caught and ripped out. Luckily it didn't.
Once I got past the initial shock, I stood up and lit into him that he couldn't just kick me out because he was mad I was finally done with him and the relationship, and the audacity he had to lay his hands on me. I needed time to get a place to live because of my work. I needed to get my options figured out, get the animals we had sorted out if I could keep them all or not, everything. I needed to make sure I was sorted out and he would have to deal with the fact that I had to do these things before I could get out of the house.
His anger turned into tears and he began crying and pleading with me not to go and crying he'd do better and be a better person and all the things he promised beforehand. He couldn't believe what he saw when he saw the request for divorce papers, he was sorry for putting his hands on me, the works. It did not work. I assured him I was going and needed to get things sorted out.
The next day I called my parents and told them what had happened and that I needed a place to stay or at least help looking for a place to stay. My parents and brother agreed that they would take me in as they owned and lived in a house, and I could live in the basement of the house so I had a room to myself and had room for my animals as well. I did have to rehome 2 of the 4 rabbits, however, they went to a loving home with a cousin of my brother's girlfriend who was experienced with rabbits and currently had some that 2 could intermingle with. So that worked in my favor.
I didn't think I would have room for both dogs and rabbits remaining, so EH decided he wanted to keep 1 dog and 1 rabbit. He wanted our first dog (the one gotten for my 22nd birthday) and the original rabbit he chose from my now former best friend. I agreed and kept our 2nd dog and the original rabbit I chose from my former best friend. I also was keeping the leopard gecko, tortoise, and fish. However, my parents agreed that if in the future EH ever decided to get rid of or no longer wanted our first dog and the other rabbit, they would allow them to come as well (important in a bit).
I made the move to my parent's house in mid-November 2022 and started the process for divorce. While I was getting the first papers ready to go and sent to EH to start the process, EH would continuously text me and harass me even when I asked him to stop messaging me. He would continuously say he wanted me to stay with him, he would change, ask how I could do this to us as by that time we have been married 6 years and together for 8. Trying to manipulate me into coming back with promises of change.
My response was to send him the first official papers to start the divorce process. In my state, once you initiate the process and request for legal divorce, and the request is approved, you have to wait 90 days before you can then submit the final paperwork to request to make the divorce official because the relationship is not going to work, both parties want the divorce, etc.
I had to send the papers a second time because they were not done properly the first time, but the second try was approved so the 90-day waiting time to submit the final papers began.
He continued to harass and message me multiple times throughout the first month, and then his harassment to try to get me to stay turned into distasteful language and cursing me out, saying he didn't need me he already moved on and had someone else so didn't need me anymore. All ploys were more than likely to see if I would suddenly want him. I did not react other than to say good because I had also already moved on and was with someone, my BF, so I was looking forward to being rid of him so I could be with my BF in peace and not have to worry about him anymore.
At that, he stopped messaging me finally, and I moved all correspondence to email instead of text and messenger for more formal communications only when I had updates regarding our pending divorce.
In about April 2023, I had a bad feeling about the well-being of my first dog and other rabbit so in an update email to let him know we had reached the 90th day so the next day I could start getting the finalization paperwork in, I asked him how both were doing and if I may have a picture of them just to ease my mind that they were doing okay and was maybe just nerves about losing them for good.
He met this simple request with utter anger and venom, stating he didn't have to tell me how they were doing and wasn't going to send any pictures. I was being crazy, they were fine so I shouldn't be asking or worrying about anything. This set alarm bells off in my mind because it was just a simple request to see how they were doing, and so far, legally, still, partly my animals until the divorce was final. I advised him of this and this time demanded proof that both the dog and rabbit were doing well or I would be calling animal welfare as a precaution to ensure their well-being and would want them back ASAP if not met, as I wanted them back if he was not taking care of them.
He again refused stating he didn't have to prove anything and that if I asked again, he'd report me for harassment and false accusations of animal abuse. Not wanting any legal trouble with a pending divorce, I dropped it and didn't ask again.
However, 2 weeks later I got a nasty email saying if I wanted my other dog and rabbit back so badly I could have them, as the dog had been whining so much it was annoying him and he didn't want to deal with it anymore. His sister was getting married in 2 weeks, so I asked if he wanted to have them out before or after the wedding since I was attending the wedding along with my brother and his girlfriend and would be in the area, but could get them earlier if needed. He opted for the week before the wedding because he wanted her especially gone. I asked about the rabbit and he said he changed his mind and wanted to keep the rabbit, but if I wanted her too, I could take her as well. I kindly advised the rabbit would be coming back with me as well as I did not want her alone with him anymore. I told my parents what was up and they agreed they could come home much to my relief.
That weekend in May 2023, my brother and I went to EH's house to pick up my dog and rabbit. The moment I saw them, I was so heartbroken and angry. The rabbit was in a tiny hutch meant just to hold them while we cleaned their big enclosure that obviously had not been cleaned or taken care of in some time and dirty murky brown water to drink. It was obvious she had been couped up there for some time, as her enclosure wall panels were broken down and on the porch. My dog was completely emaciated and in horrible condition. Her nails were overgrown, and she was skin and bones. You could see her ribs, spine, and hip bones, and her face was sunken in. Neglected and not taken care of or fed in some time.
I was so angry I grabbed them and put them in the vehicle and let my brother take care of EH. He talked to him for a bit as I called my parents crying telling them what kind of state my animals were in. They were furious. When we got home, they had the dog I kept outside so he could see his sister come home and they wanted to film their reunion and also show what EH did to her. My mother broke into tears when I carefully got my dog out of the car. She was so excited to see my parents again and her brother. And he was so excited to finally see her again. He had been so depressed without her as he grew up with her of course. It was a beautiful reunion but so depressing and sad because of how deplorable of a condition she was in.
My rabbits immediately went to each other when I put the other into the enclosure with the one I kept. They knew who each other were as well and they started grooming each other and cuddling together like they used to like nothing happened. Both my dogs and my rabbits are inseparable now. They can't stand to be away from each other.
The divorce was finalized in June 2023 and I made sure I had no forms of contact with EH again, blocking him on everything.
I can say I have found a wonderful man in my BF and he has helped me so much and been with me through all of this, we couldn't be happier to be able to be together without people asking how we're together if I'm married to someone else even though I was getting a divorce and no longer with EH. Mainly very religious family members who made a fuss about it, but still was a bit ridiculous.
If you reached the end of this and read every bit, if you have any questions feel free to comment below. An update in a separate post will be coming within the next day or so about what's going on with the woman who is currently with the ex-husband.
This was my story in this, context you may or may not want as not everyone's stories gets told. I am telling mine now as everyone in these situations should.

While browsing at YouTube, I came across the following song: My Imaginary Life - Train. I liked the track and searched for the band.
Nothing found.
Back to the YT video i saw that it has been posted by the user "roxamine" in 2010. In the video's description, there was a dead link to a possible article about the artist.
Inside the link, the name "jessicaemelia" was written on it and with some research, I found the profile of an American psychologist. Going deeper, I saw that she was a psychologist who used music as a form of therapy, with her artistic name nowadays being Jessica Risker. Bingo.
It is possible to find her current music very easily, even on Spotify for example.
Going through her other platforms, I discovered that she also used the name Deadbeat on her bandcamp.
Her independent record label is called "My imaginary Records", with the website myimaginaryrecordlabel.com/ redirecting to her tumblr. I'm getting closer, i suppose.
After more research, I stopped at this article:
https://chicagoreader.com/music/jessica-risker-sharpens-her-sweet-songs-on-a-hazy-new-album/
It explains that "My Imaginary Life" was a homemade project intended to participate in a local competition that still exists until this day called "RPM Challenge", which would take place around 2007.
This contest asked for an album of at least 35 minutes or 10 tracks in total. That's when My Imaginary Life was born, to compete in it.
The article also mentions that the album had been posted on Jessica's Bandcamp, so it was actually shared as media, which also explains Roxamine's upload.
However, the article also says that some time later, Jessica deleted the album from the platform, leaving it inaccessible, except this single track left.
Therefore, we can be sure that at least the following people could have access to the full-lenght album:

1. Jessica herself
2. RPM challenge organizers/administration
3. Roxamine

Other Fonts:
https://issuu.com/radioonechicago/docs/may/s/12272918
https://westernvinyl.com/artists/jessica-risker
Probably her reddit account: https://www.reddit.com/usejessicaemelia/

Hi, I run a site called TouchArcade and every Wednesday I make a big list of all the new iOS games that came out over the past week. Below is just a basic list of the game titles with links to the App Store but if you'd like to see screens/descriptions or join in on forum discussions you can find the full list with all of that stuff over on TouchArcade.
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NO IAP = Free game with no IAP (may still have ads)
DLC = Additional paid content (i.e. not gem packs)
Netflix = No ads or IAP but need a Netflix subscription to play
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TITLE	PRICE	GENRE
Basic Biking	(Free) +NO IAP	Simulation, Sports
Capybara Friends	(Free) +NO IAP	Arcade, Puzzle
Catlists	(Free) +DLC	Family, Word
Katana ZERO	(Free) +NETFLIX	Action, Adventure
Knight & Dragon III	($3.99)	Arcade, Role Playing
Magic Research 2	($4.69)	Role Playing, Simulation
Nerd Survivors	($2.99)	Action
Paper Trail	(Free) +NETFLIX	Adventure, Puzzle
Playing Kafka	(Free) +NO IAP	Adventure
Sevenns	(Free) +DLC	Puzzle, Word
TemporalCode	($0.99)	Simulation, Strategy
Wuthering Waves	(Free)	Action, Role Playing

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Being vague to not dox
Texas resident + Asian male + first gen
Major: CS for public schools. Data science (Stats/applied math if not offered)/Cognitive Science/Econ for private schools
Academics:
GPA: 4.5/4.0 weighted, 3.98/4.0 unweighted Rank: 1/~600 SAT: Haven’t taken yet but most likely 1500+ with 800M

• 16 APs, 3 dual credit

3 sophomore - AP physics 1 (5), AP Psychology (5), AP world history (4)
8 junior - AP Pre-calculus, AP English language, AP biology, AP statistics, AP computer science principles, AP physics c mechanics, AP physics c electricity & magnetism, Dual credit US history
2 junior summer - Dual credit speech, Dual credit federal government
6 senior - AP English literature, AP economics, AP calculus BC, Academic decathlon, AP physics 2, AP art History
ECs:
Prestigious summer program (11th, summer) Accepted into a very well known summer program that I will attend this summer Won’t say the name, but think the level of MITES, SSP, YGS, etc
Research at local university, advised under lecturer Research project on some data CS topic.. Trying really hard to get a paper published before college apps
AI/Data Science Intern at Local University (Internship, 11th, 12th) Worked under Senior Ph.D Student and assisted with existing projects and subtasks. Examples include building/training ML models
Passion Project () (Other, 10th, 11th, 12th) Self taught programming and created project that integrates cognitive science and CS. Will probably submit it to science fairs and stuff
Mu Alpha Theta 3 years President (10th, 11th, 12th) (Science/Math) Participated in math competitions and helped organize meetings to make members stay active
Robotics club 11th-12th Competition Manager (Robotics) Lead programmer for VEX robotics; Conducted workshops to make curriculums that help members and the officer board learn about robotics
Tutoring at nonprofits (11th, 12th) Assisted with friend’s non-profit by conducting workshops and teaching STEM concepts Helped build a curriculum for a summer camp for a different, student led non-profit Tutoring officer in school club that aims to help students with certain subjects
Karate club 7 years Captain (9th-12th) (Athletics: Club) Did this since middle school; Current black belt that will help create parts for martial arts performance. Obtained multiple awards throughout the year
Academy program (Math/Science, 9th-10th) Accepted out of a competitive applicant pool; Attended meetings that consisted of reputable guest speakers (doctors, JHU admissions officers, Yale/Harvard alumni) and took notes. Also have 100 hours of volunteering through this club
Financial Investment club (10th), President Founder of a financial club to educate about finance. Executed an annual stock market game for the school
Awards/Honors (weakest point): USACO Silver Division (National) Academic Excellence (School Award) PSAT national merit (National) AP Scholar with Distinction (National) AP Scholar (National)
UT austin: EA (CS/CSB/Turings)
Rice: RD
Texas A&M: RD (CS/ECE)
Georgia Tech: RD
Vanderbilt: RD
UCLA: RD
Caltech: RD
UCB: RD
Cornell: RD
Columbia: RD
Carnegie Mellon: RD
MIT: RD
Stanford: RD
Yale: RD
Princeton: RD
Harvard: RD
Brown: RD
Duke: RD
John Hopkins: RD
UPenn: RD
Do I have a chance of hitting something beyond UT, like a T15 school? It’s been lowkey a dream for me lately. Ik my awards aren’t the best, so I’ll try to improve them by December

Hello.
This is a short description of the events leading up to my death as an agnostic, a little of what I experienced while dead, and the spiritual inquiry that ensued after I recovered.
Introduction
Let me preface with this overly-complex single sentence introduction, with the caveat that "politically correct" terms for things I say may have changed in the last 40 years, but I have not kept abreast with them:
I am - or was - a high-functioning Idiot-Savant with Hyperlexia and close to an Eidetic memory, offset with Alexithymia and Reactive Attachment Disorder.
Think, "Heroin baby born mute, given up for adoption, beaten into cognitively acceptable behavior by years of torture from adopted parents, then shuffled around in foster care until 18 after the neighbors eventually called the police."
To wit - I've spent a lifetime being called an emotionless but brilliant robot.
Spiritual Preface
My life has been spent best characterized as agnostic. I believed that Plato's noble lie suitably explained spirituality to quell the terror and confusion humans experience contemplating infinity and the unknown.
I was never particularly interested in spirituality because I spent a lifetime doing interesting, meaningful things with far-reaching ramifications and was intellectually fulfilled by the complex challenges that made me a leader in my fields of expertise.
I Died
I died in early 2022. Some people may elect to call this an NDE. I did not almost die. I did die. I died as I had lived - believing that my own intellect and capabilities let me live what I thought was a pretty noteworthy life.
As I was breathing my last, choking on blood, I experienced the stages of grief. In a few minutes, I cycled through denial, bargaining, and acceptance.
Denial and Bargaining
Humans speak ~125wpm. Fast speakers; ~300wpm. I type ~90wpm. We can think ~800wpm. Throughout my life, I've been an effective crisis leader because as my stress level grows, my ability to cognitively process information grows as well.
In the most extreme stress of my life now, I tried thinking my way out of the problem. I cycled through countless versions of different scenarios trying to extend my life in what was probably seconds, time seemed to slow to a stop, and I lived and died over...and over...and over...and over...but every subtle nuance of the status quo led to me dying at roughly at the same time, give or take a minute or two. It was like I was doing timed trials with a stopwatch, trying to improve my performance. I even resorted to prayer and a promise to commit my life to God in exchange for life.
I ran out of ideas. I'm well-versed with muscle failure - the upper limit of a workout when your muscles simply give out and cannot do anything else. I hit brain failure. I skipped out of rapid cognition into exhausted nothing, and God spoke to me for the first time: "You don't bargain with me."
I had a moment of stark, cold terror - both that I couldn't work my way out of it, and that God spoke to me. And that God wasn't giving me what I wanted.
Acceptance
The most interesting thing about it was that I FELT terror. I experienced FEELINGS. Whatever lymphatic anomaly that caused me a lifetime of emotionless rational calculation poked through to the right side of my brain and FELT something. It was amazing - I started to cry. I thought of the highlights of my career - my wins, my triumphs, my career highlights; the charity work I've done, the lives I've touched, and decided I had a good life and I was alright with it being over. My last conscious thought was, "Fuck you God, I did this on my own." And then I died.
I was Somewhere
And then I was there - basking in the warm light of absolute euphoria. Eternal peace. One with the universe - and I had the sense that anyone I wanted to communicate with was there. Anyone. The first person I thought of was someone I respected in life, and I "summoned" Steven Hawking out of the light. I asked if he'd take another shot at life on Earth if he were whole; to leverage his intellect again, and his communication back to me was essentially a very sad rejoinder that he couldn't believe I would suggest giving up where we were to come back to THIS. I screamed in anguish, horrified that I'd suggested giving up eternal, euphoric peace to come back here. I turned my attention away from the "collective" and to the light at the center of this place.
I don't know how or where to even begin with any of it. If the souls of beings are sparks of God's divine consciousness emanating light ... there were orderly rows of what I sensed to be angels lining the "approach" to God. I didn't join the collective, I waited at the outside of this "causeway" approach and communed.
I learned some things. I watched creation unfold. Universal expansion. A mote of iron suspended in the vacuum of space, expanding to grow a gravity well, pulling in dust and gas, creating a planetoid, a magnetic field, beginning tectonic activity, being surrounded by a globe of water; the "firmament" reaching critical mass and flooding the world; countless generations of fish flopping up onto land created by tectonic activity disrupting their traditional swimming lanes, the first ones that evolved into surviving on land masses; making it to fresh water and new breeding and feeding grounds; learning to ambulate on land with their tail fins; the fins eventually separating into legs - and on and on and on through time. I asked what the purpose of the universe was, and learned about that and the infinite planes of existence spiraling through eternity back to the beginning...books worth of information, flooding into an Eidetic memory.
And I remember the primal horror of being ripped away from there as my body was being resuscitated.
Resurrection
My medical records show that I had a traumatic brain injury to pair with my massive physical trauma. Worst of all, I had global aphasia.
I'm a polygot; and I was incapable of speech again. Worse, I couldn't comprehend the nature of speech, or articulate sounds. Again. I was screaming incoherently in my head. My speech skills didn't return in any sensible order. Nor did they return in English first, which is my native language.
I spent most of my lifetime in service to my country in one form or another; and I came to awareness in a strange place, surrounded by strangers, outside of my comfort zone, in horrible pain, being questioned; as my memories started returning, I started calling senior military and government officials to report that I had been kidnapped and was being interrogated. Three letter agencies visited. I was transferred, and denied access to a phone or access to the outside world. It got worse.
It took months, and lawyers, and money and courts to get me released from the hospital I was in.
For a while, I thought I was Chinese. I used ambassadorial privilege that I'm no longer entitled to to seek asylum and tried to flee the country. I was detained.
MONTHS in the hospital, more months rebuilding my memories and sense of self, and then ... trying to make sense of something I didn't believe in. So I started researching.
I've lost my security clearances. I lost my career...but I have full medical and financial security until I die with the "Permanently and Totally Disabled" classification added to my record.
I have a new life and a new career in a new place. I'm not the same as I was, but I think I might be better than I was.
Spirituality Revisited
I have never been a man of faith, which I've always considered to be a tool for a weak mind to grapple with the unknown. I believe in OODA loops, the scientific method, and empirical evidence.
Well...I still believe in those things, and rationally I cannot deny God.
So I started researching, praying, and meditating. Why would someone like ME end up in Heaven when my final thought was a middle finger to God?
I have Questions
Instead of blasting questions into the aether for random digital people to answer, I've done some research.
As it turns out ...
The burgeoning church during the 3rd and 4th century squashing the concept of salvation for all (most effectively through the writings of St. Augustine), ex-communicating Pelagius, introducing the concept of original sin, and embarking on an effective 1700 year campaign to indoctrinate believers that they needed church, priests, and centralized religious guidance (effectively justifying their own bureaucracy and existence) to allow those of the faith to acquire salvation (and avoiding Hell) - and inventing Infernalism along the way.
There are five verses in Revelation that discuss negative eternal ramifications, and a commonly accepted and traditional interpretation is that the "lake of fire" and "hell" and the "second death" are symbolic of eternal pain, torment, pain of loss and perhaps pain of the senses, as punishment for wickedness.
However, the original text - the Greek words translated "torment" or "tormented" into English - come from the root βάσανος, basanos with the original meaning of "the testing of gold and silver as a medium of exchange by the proving stone" and a later connotation of a person, especially a slave, "severely tested by torture" to reveal truth.
This planet - this plane of existence - IS hell. Lucifer was cast down - here to Earth - and our lives - and how we live them - how we deal with torment and testing - determines the truth of our soul; what it's made of, whether it bends and breaks, whether it refines into something like "pure gold or pure silver" or any metal you like for the allegorical reference.
It's interesting that there are some 45,000+ splintered Christian factions around the world - because the truth is - God is not the province of Christianity. That's a single religion in a single epoch on a single planet in a single solar system in a single galaxy in a single cluster in a universe created by an omniscient intelligence.
I suspect that the God of our universe created our universe for the same reason that the God of THAT plane of existence created THAT universe --- all the way back to the origin of eternity. I could be wrong.
Scriptural Support

• ”For no one is cast off by the Lord forever.” - Lamentations 3:31
  
• “Every valley shall be filled, and every mountain and hill shall be made low, and the crooked shall become straight, and the rough places shall become level ways, and all flesh shall see the salvation of God.” - Luke 3:5-6
  
• “And I, when I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all people to myself.” - John 12:32
  
• “Consequently, just as one trespass resulted in condemnation for all people, so also one righteous act resulted in justification and life for all people. For just as through the disobedience of the one man the many were made sinners, so also through the obedience of the one man the many will be made righteous.” - Romans 15:18-19
  
• “For God has consigned all to disobedience, that he may have mercy on all.” - Romans 11:32
  
• "For as in Adam all die, so in Christ all will be made alive." - 1 Corinthians 15:22
  
• "For God was pleased to have all his fullness dwell in him, and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether things on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through his blood, shed on the cross." - Colossians 1:19-20
  
• “For to this end we toil and strive, because we have our hope set on the living God, who is the Savior of all people, especially of those who believe.” - 1 Timothy 4:10
  

All of these scriptures speak to the salvation of all, not the salvation for some and the damnation of others. That plausibly explains why I ended up where I did when I died.
If there are any scientists amongst you, you know what comes next! You've read my problem statement, my hypothesis, a limited set of data that I am willing to share on the internet, and my conclusion.
If you scroll through my posting history, you'll find that I originally shared this story quite some time ago; that the ensuing couple of years have been spent in historical research of scripture and cultural ramifications when those things were written, and that my field of expertise is in neurochemistry.

While browsing at YouTube, I came across the following song: My Imaginary Life - Train. I liked the track and searched for the band.
Nothing found.
Back to the YT video i saw that it has been posted by the user "roxamine" in 2010. In the video's description, there was a dead link to a possible article about the artist.
Inside the link, the name "jessicaemelia" was written on it and with some research, I found the profile of an American psychologist. Going deeper, I saw that she was a psychologist who used music as a form of therapy, with her artistic name nowadays being Jessica Risker. Bingo.
It is possible to find her current music very easily, even on Spotify for example.
Going through her other platforms, I discovered that she also used the name Deadbeat on her bandcamp.
Her independent record label is called "My imaginary Records", with the website myimaginaryrecordlabel.com/ redirecting to her tumblr. I'm getting closer, i suppose.
After more research, I stopped at this article:
https://chicagoreader.com/music/jessica-risker-sharpens-her-sweet-songs-on-a-hazy-new-album/
It explains that "My Imaginary Life" was a homemade project intended to participate in a local competition that still exists until this day called "RPM Challenge", which would take place around 2007.
This contest asked for an album of at least 35 minutes or 10 tracks in total. That's when My Imaginary Life was born, to compete in it.
The article also mentions that the album had been posted on Jessica's Bandcamp, so it was actually shared as media, which also explains Roxamine's upload.
However, the article also says that some time later, Jessica deleted the album from the platform, leaving it inaccessible, except this single track left.
Therefore, we can be sure that at least the following people could have access to the full-lenght album:

1. Jessica herself
2. RPM challenge organizers/administration
3. Roxamine

Other Fonts:
https://issuu.com/radioonechicago/docs/may/s/12272918
https://westernvinyl.com/artists/jessica-risker
Probably her reddit account: https://www.reddit.com/usejessicaemelia/