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2024.05.23 09:04 OriginalAJM Copying and fixing a corrupt resolve postgres database without access to original windows machine
So... the NVME in my Windows 10 computer reached its end of life and quit working without warning. It locked up and went into read only mode, kicking my out of windows and apparently corrupting a few files.
I desperately needed to retrieve my very hefty Resolve Postgres Database and after googling and searching reddit I couldn't find a really clear tutorial on how to do something like this. So... here goes! Sorry in advance if I'm rehashing old territory.
TL;DR: BACKUP THE POSTGRES APPLICATION FOLDER IF YOU USE RESOLVE DATABASES
Here was my process restoring from my corrupted hard drive in case anyone finds it helpful in the future:
If this happens, you'll probably get a pg_dump: error and something mentioning pg_toast (see code at the bottom for my exact error).
If this happens, don't panic! I did some deep, deep googling into Postgres and stumbled on this solution from GitHub which actually worked.
Essentially you use a couple queries in the SQL query tab in pgadmin to search for corruption and then to delete them from your database.
Steps to doing this:
Here's my original postgres dump error as mentioned above:
pg_dump: error: Dumping the contents of table "ListMgt::LmVersion" failed: PQgetResult() failed.
pg_dump: error: Error message from server: ERROR: unexpected chunk number 14 (expected 0) for toast value 362738 in pg_toast_16788
pg_dump: error: The command was: COPY public."ListMgt::LmVersion" ("ListMgt::LmVersion_id", "DbType", "Gallery::GyStill_id", "Name", "HasCorrection", "VerType", "ImplVersion", "IncludedInRecording", "FlatPassEnabled", "RGBAOutputEnabled", "Body", "ListMgt::LmVersionTable_id", "UseVersionClipProcParams", "UserClipProcParams", "Sm2Group_id", "FieldsBlob") TO stdout;
submitted by OriginalAJM to davinciresolve [link] [comments]
I desperately needed to retrieve my very hefty Resolve Postgres Database and after googling and searching reddit I couldn't find a really clear tutorial on how to do something like this. So... here goes! Sorry in advance if I'm rehashing old territory.
TL;DR: BACKUP THE POSTGRES APPLICATION FOLDER IF YOU USE RESOLVE DATABASES
Here was my process restoring from my corrupted hard drive in case anyone finds it helpful in the future:
- Locate your PostGres data files on the original now broken hard drive. They're in the C:\Program Files\PostgreSQL\[version]\data\base folder on Windows. Back this up locally. If you screw anything up you can always reuse this backup. Back these up into a spare folder on your new machine.
- Install DaVinci Resolve Server and check the postgres version it creates.
- If it's different from the version on your original drive (I had 9.5) go to the postgres website and download the version of your old database. Don't worry, you can have two installed for this purpose although you may want to remove the old version when finished. Note the username and password as you configure the initial database. You'll need this in a minute.
- Now copy the contents of your old base folder into the new, matching postgres version base folder.
- Download a copy of pgadmin and install it.
- If you have two versions of postgres now installed, open windows services (I use the search bar on 11) and right click on the newer version, click stop, and then right click on the matching version and hit start. Now you've told postgres to run
- Open pgadmin. It'll prompt you for a master password which you can reset.
- Then on the right you should see servers, twirl this down to reveal PostgreSQL 9.5 [or your version]. Double click then twirl down databases. If it prompts you for a password use "DaVinci" which is the default for Postgres I believe.
- This will now list your databases. If you're in luck you should see the names of your old Resolve Databases. This is a GREAT SIGN! That means all or most of the data is there.
- Right click on one of your databases, click "backup", set a file name, leave format as custom, encoding set to utf8, save the file somewhere you can find it and hit backup.
- IF things go well: close pgadmin, restart the "resolve servers/latest" version of the postgres service in windows.
- Add the file extension .backup to your file so Resolve can see it.
- Open resolve, click network projects, click restore, assign a name and leave the defaults as is.
- Voila! Your project is back
If this happens, you'll probably get a pg_dump: error and something mentioning pg_toast (see code at the bottom for my exact error).
If this happens, don't panic! I did some deep, deep googling into Postgres and stumbled on this solution from GitHub which actually worked.
Essentially you use a couple queries in the SQL query tab in pgadmin to search for corruption and then to delete them from your database.
Steps to doing this:
- Note the table name, found in the error message after public. eg: COPY public."ListMgt::LmVersion"
- Right click on the Database that has corruption and select "Query" to open the query box
- Then we need to find the name of the id column in the table so we can properly reference and delete the corrupted rows. I used SELECT * FROM information_schema.columns WHERE table_name = 'ListMgt::LmVersion'; [replace ListMgt::LmVersion with your table name from the error] Look for a column in "original_position: 1" and something with _id at the end and note that down. We'll refer to it as [id] from here on out.
- Now we'll run this query from GitHub, watching for errors in increments of 10,000 at a time : select * from "[resolve tablename]" order by "[id]" limit 10000 offset 0; This queries up rows 1-10,000 and if there's an error, it'll say error and if not, it'll list all the rows out. My exact query looked like this: select * from "ListMgt::LmVersion" order by "ListMgt::LmVersion_id" limit 10000 offset 0;
- If it pings you with an error, you'll need to adjust the limit to find the [id] of that exact row. Change the limit and the offset until you find the exact row that's cause you problems. You'll know you have the exact number when an error occurs when limit is set to 1 and offset is set to any number. The GitHub explains this a bit better.
- Once you've found the row by using limit and offset we need to get its ID so we can delete it. Use this command: select "[ID]" from "[table]" order by "[ID]" limit 1 offset [number];my exact query looked like: select "ListMgt::LmVersion_id" from "ListMgt::LmVersion" order by "ListMgt::LmVersion_id" limit 1 offset 200464;This should return a long alphanumeric string. Copy this for the next query.
- Delete the row with the above Id. Your going to lose that data whatever it might be, but chances are it's fine. To delete use this command: DELETE FROM "[Table]" WHERE "[ID]" = '[alphanumeric string]';my query looked like: DELETE FROM "ListMgt::LmVersion" WHERE "ListMgt::LmVersion_id" = 'f67eb81b-0f99-4ed6-998f-d79d92a875c7'; So far, it hasn't had any impact on me, but I haven't opened all my old projects yet. The few I have opened seemed to work just fine.
- Sometimes rows are inter-related and PGAdmin won't allow you to delete the row without first deleting its relative. You'll have to use a couple of queries to find the matching ID in the related table to delete its row too. I'll spare the details here but if you've made it this far, a little ChatGPT work will point you in the right direction.
- Rinse and repeat until you can scan all the rows in your table without errors.
- Export again, hopefully with success.
- If it exports okay, 99% likely Resolve will accept it.
Here's my original postgres dump error as mentioned above:
pg_dump: error: Dumping the contents of table "ListMgt::LmVersion" failed: PQgetResult() failed.
pg_dump: error: Error message from server: ERROR: unexpected chunk number 14 (expected 0) for toast value 362738 in pg_toast_16788
pg_dump: error: The command was: COPY public."ListMgt::LmVersion" ("ListMgt::LmVersion_id", "DbType", "Gallery::GyStill_id", "Name", "HasCorrection", "VerType", "ImplVersion", "IncludedInRecording", "FlatPassEnabled", "RGBAOutputEnabled", "Body", "ListMgt::LmVersionTable_id", "UseVersionClipProcParams", "UserClipProcParams", "Sm2Group_id", "FieldsBlob") TO stdout;
2024.05.23 09:02 FindingOk7331 AITAH for being pissed at my mom?
Title's a little stupid. Didn't know to else to phrase it. Lol. I'll do my best to keep this short and sweet, stick to the details, but this will be long. Don't know what's actually important to the question/title but feel free to ask if things aren't clear.
So last year my mom contacts and tells me that she, my autistic brother, and elderly grandma are moving out of my late grandpa's home due to it "stressing her out" and she didn't want to board it up and abandon it. And offered it to me. Take care of the house, land, and pay a fraction of the bills I'm paying for my apartment. Heck yeah why not! Also I'll relationship has been rocky so this was a chance for us to fix it.
This is where some would ask, what was wrong? Through my rose tinted glasses at the time, not much. I was a mama's boy really. But I started to go through a change and I forgot how it happened or what was said, but we got into an argument over the phone prior to her asking me to move down here. If I remember correctly, I was the type to ask my mom for advice about everything. So we'd talk at least once a week. But it had gotten to point where she couldn't give me advice anymore, and also I started not to like our conversations anymore. Again forgot why, simply felt like they weren't doing me good. so I started to withdraw from here. And the argument was like I need to figure how to do things without you cause your not helping me anymore I need to figure it out on my own type. But a tad more emotional.
So about 2-3wks later she offers the house. Again rose tinted glasses didn't think about it at the time. So I go for it. And the plan was to move at the end of the summer. But me being anxious and impulsive, I asked her if it was OK I move at the beginning. She encourages me. Now the house is in the western suburb of Illinois. Meaning you need a car to do anything. Which I didn't have. It was during this conversation where I swear to my mother states that she'll allow me to have her car here at grandpa's house so I can use it. I'll be on the insurance, help out with the maintenance, and drop it off when she needs it. ill help me save up for one, and top of that she offered to buy me my own car, but I didn't take her seriously and even stated it.
So I move at the end of May. 2 weeks before I move she calls me to tell me that her and my grandmas new living situations are in limbo. Grandmas insurance hasn't kicked in yet, and basically my mom has to pay more money in order to get the house she wants. So we'll be living together for awhile. I assume no more than 2 months. Boy was I wrong.
Another thing I should mention is me and my mom are two peas in a pod. Damn near think and act alike. Just different genders, with different beliefs, born in two different times and different ways of going about things. So I knew if we live with each other for too long, it's not gonna end well. And I was right. I just wish I articulated It better then.
So I moved and unloaded. Got as settled as someone sleeping on a couch, living with 3 extra people for an indefinite future, could get.
So to keep this short, from may 29th to mid December, I live with my mom and brother. Grandpa's place went through after a month. Mom had to pay more money on top of what she had to pay. Took her time to debate that, she could afford it she was just debating if she wanted to, and she decided yes. But a week later she finds out she needs to pay more on top of the more. Again, she could afford it, but she debated again for a long while till she decided no. Then out of all the finished places in built communities, she chooses a newly building one. So to clarify timeliness, She decided again the house mid July. She acquired the newly building house in September. So it didn't get finished till December.
So for 6-6 1/2 months I lived with my mom. First month was OK. Good actually. But then the arguments started. Began small, till it got to the point where I yelled at my mom for 1st time in my entire life. All the arguments were the same. She would mis some. Mis-understood, mis-interpret, mis-communicate. Hell even got mad at me for overly communicating. But she would do one or all these and me being overly emotional I be the more angry one. Then I would not talk to her for a day or two, then come to her. Explain my feelings and why I acted like that. Hoping she would recognize that she is either unintentionally triggering me and crossing a boundary which would start literally all over again. The one that culminated into me yelling at her.. as I was leaving to pick up legal medicals, she calls me and instead just asking me to buy cleaning materials to cleaning up the toilet, cause I tore it up. Lol she kinda danced around it like "hey could get cleaning stuff" for what? "To clean the toilet" no I don't wanna spend my money on cleaning stuff "well you left it pretty dirty and it needs to be cleaned" OK, just say that then..... she says something else, but I'm trying to explain to her that I have stuff all she needed to do was ask me clean it, but she cuts me off like a child. "Okaayy okaayy fiiine" so I literally pulled the car bar into the driveway, literally ran back into the house and screamed to the top of my lungs. I admit this was dumb, but again emotional. And what does this woman do? Smiles half way through my rant, as I finished, begins laughing and then starts Tearing into me. Not about me Tearing into my mother. Not about the subject. Can't even remember what. Can simply tell you her rant was dumber. So I'm in my feelings cause I'm hurt. Not only did I just yell at my mom. I felt ridiculed and unheard. Then sometime later she makes fun of the situation. I'm visibly hurting. So I write a quick letter on my emotions and read it to her. Again. Ridicules me.
Now 2 things happened after this. 1st, I got into an accident in her car. I was not at fault, so I filed the claim through guys insurance. Mind you during this entire process she did not once couch me or tell me how to go about this. Should I have asked? Possibly, but I think it should've been evident especially how I'm going about it at the moment, but I thought I was doing everything right. So a month and a half later the insurance company cancels the claim. And me being in a depressive state of mind and didn't have the energy to go through that suing process, I. Me. I'm the person who decided to bite the bullet to pay her back to fix her car. Never once did she suggest, hint, nor mention i needed to do that. But after tha 1st payment we have a conversation due to her misunderstanding and now I'm finding out she got a bad memory. Remember when I said in the beginning ish, that she let me keep her car at grandpa's house when she leaves... completely forgets that part. Doesn't forget the buying me a car part though. Mind you now this is 3rd time she's said she would buy me a car. But back to point, she also tells me that she intends on suing the guy to get the money to fix her car. Whatever money I've given her up to that point she has no intention on paying me back. Didn't outright say it, but she might as well have. Sometime later she buys me my car. And I do want to be clear I am appreciative of her for doing that for me, she absolutely didn't need to regardless of the situation of my city life. But I need to be clear on something. Not once. Did she ever say I need to pay her back. Never mentioned. Never suggested. Nor hinted. (Is there some type of unspoken rule on this stuff that I'm Unaware about?)
So It dawned on me that the original arrangement made no sense and I did not like it, so I felt out of moral obligation I need to pay her back for the car. So I switched the payments without telling her. Didn't think it mattered truthfully.
But then I started to lose hours at my job... do to me losing em willingly. Had a hard time not finding the work I wanted in this new state and when I did it was like my resume meant nothing. So I told my mom, via text, that my hours were cut and I'm going to struggle a bit and need to cut her payments down by half. She wanted to have a person talk but I was like naw. So a little time passed, a gave her a payment. And she contacts me asking for the rest.. a discussion happens. She believes that this is a landlord tenant situation and that I need to pay her in full and struggle. I'm like naw, this was never a landlord situation to begin with and the only why I assume she thinks that is due to the rental agreement I ASKED HER TO SIGN in order for me to get food stamps and so paying her back can be somewhat legit. And the only reason why she's getting money is because I decided that and if I wanted I could cancel it all together. She didn't like that. Like I said, 2 peas. Just simply believe we love our control. Lol so that's the last we speak(texted. After she moved out all this has been through texting) Back in April, she tells me Grandma wants to move back in the house. And her and my brother and moving back in to help her. Now grandma moving in I do understand that. Other 2. Nope. Especially mom. She straight up said this house stressed her out. And she is right. I've only been here for a year and I'm stressed. Basement has cracks in the walls, doors, and beyond water damage to the windows(wood/stuff holding the windows) so the basement full on floods. Really bad pipes. Like corroded on top of corroded pipes. Structure is failing. Slowly but surely. And to top it off, mom redid the bathroom, and the contractors half assed it. Not going to go into that. Just wow. And she lives literally not even 10min from here. So I ask questions. Literally only 1 was answered, why is you and my brother moving back. Any other question was silence. Like after I asked the initial questions I asked what I am supposed to do? She says"well I have several suggestions, but your going to do you anyway" now correct me if I'm wrong, wasn't the initial ask, meant I wanted to hear those suggestions? Or should I have actually asked again? Cause I took that as a oh she want me out without saying it.
So I'm obviously pissed. Uprooted and moved for literally nothing. Didn't do crap out here cause I spent 6+months being depressed due to living with this woman, spent months getting out to just about to, to tell me oh we moving back.
And the icing on the cake. She asked me if I could move out sooner. So she can fix stuff. I said with what money? I need the money I've given you back and I'll start that back up when I get situated. No reply. So I asked if she is using or saving it. Once again, "if this was a landlord situation you wouldn't be asking yo landlord what they do with the money. And it doesn't matter so I don't wanna argue" Last message I sent to her was basically reiterating that this ain't that. Haven't really spoken to her since. Don't want to really.
If you managed to read all this I'm sorry for it being long and thank you for "hearing" me out regardless of your opinion. I'm not doing a tldr cause I would've just did that to begin with instead of all this. I know some parts were vague, unclear, possibly incohesive in some areas. Lol feel free to ask and I'll clear things up.
submitted by FindingOk7331 to AITAH [link] [comments]
So last year my mom contacts and tells me that she, my autistic brother, and elderly grandma are moving out of my late grandpa's home due to it "stressing her out" and she didn't want to board it up and abandon it. And offered it to me. Take care of the house, land, and pay a fraction of the bills I'm paying for my apartment. Heck yeah why not! Also I'll relationship has been rocky so this was a chance for us to fix it.
This is where some would ask, what was wrong? Through my rose tinted glasses at the time, not much. I was a mama's boy really. But I started to go through a change and I forgot how it happened or what was said, but we got into an argument over the phone prior to her asking me to move down here. If I remember correctly, I was the type to ask my mom for advice about everything. So we'd talk at least once a week. But it had gotten to point where she couldn't give me advice anymore, and also I started not to like our conversations anymore. Again forgot why, simply felt like they weren't doing me good. so I started to withdraw from here. And the argument was like I need to figure how to do things without you cause your not helping me anymore I need to figure it out on my own type. But a tad more emotional.
So about 2-3wks later she offers the house. Again rose tinted glasses didn't think about it at the time. So I go for it. And the plan was to move at the end of the summer. But me being anxious and impulsive, I asked her if it was OK I move at the beginning. She encourages me. Now the house is in the western suburb of Illinois. Meaning you need a car to do anything. Which I didn't have. It was during this conversation where I swear to my mother states that she'll allow me to have her car here at grandpa's house so I can use it. I'll be on the insurance, help out with the maintenance, and drop it off when she needs it. ill help me save up for one, and top of that she offered to buy me my own car, but I didn't take her seriously and even stated it.
So I move at the end of May. 2 weeks before I move she calls me to tell me that her and my grandmas new living situations are in limbo. Grandmas insurance hasn't kicked in yet, and basically my mom has to pay more money in order to get the house she wants. So we'll be living together for awhile. I assume no more than 2 months. Boy was I wrong.
Another thing I should mention is me and my mom are two peas in a pod. Damn near think and act alike. Just different genders, with different beliefs, born in two different times and different ways of going about things. So I knew if we live with each other for too long, it's not gonna end well. And I was right. I just wish I articulated It better then.
So I moved and unloaded. Got as settled as someone sleeping on a couch, living with 3 extra people for an indefinite future, could get.
So to keep this short, from may 29th to mid December, I live with my mom and brother. Grandpa's place went through after a month. Mom had to pay more money on top of what she had to pay. Took her time to debate that, she could afford it she was just debating if she wanted to, and she decided yes. But a week later she finds out she needs to pay more on top of the more. Again, she could afford it, but she debated again for a long while till she decided no. Then out of all the finished places in built communities, she chooses a newly building one. So to clarify timeliness, She decided again the house mid July. She acquired the newly building house in September. So it didn't get finished till December.
So for 6-6 1/2 months I lived with my mom. First month was OK. Good actually. But then the arguments started. Began small, till it got to the point where I yelled at my mom for 1st time in my entire life. All the arguments were the same. She would mis some. Mis-understood, mis-interpret, mis-communicate. Hell even got mad at me for overly communicating. But she would do one or all these and me being overly emotional I be the more angry one. Then I would not talk to her for a day or two, then come to her. Explain my feelings and why I acted like that. Hoping she would recognize that she is either unintentionally triggering me and crossing a boundary which would start literally all over again. The one that culminated into me yelling at her.. as I was leaving to pick up legal medicals, she calls me and instead just asking me to buy cleaning materials to cleaning up the toilet, cause I tore it up. Lol she kinda danced around it like "hey could get cleaning stuff" for what? "To clean the toilet" no I don't wanna spend my money on cleaning stuff "well you left it pretty dirty and it needs to be cleaned" OK, just say that then..... she says something else, but I'm trying to explain to her that I have stuff all she needed to do was ask me clean it, but she cuts me off like a child. "Okaayy okaayy fiiine" so I literally pulled the car bar into the driveway, literally ran back into the house and screamed to the top of my lungs. I admit this was dumb, but again emotional. And what does this woman do? Smiles half way through my rant, as I finished, begins laughing and then starts Tearing into me. Not about me Tearing into my mother. Not about the subject. Can't even remember what. Can simply tell you her rant was dumber. So I'm in my feelings cause I'm hurt. Not only did I just yell at my mom. I felt ridiculed and unheard. Then sometime later she makes fun of the situation. I'm visibly hurting. So I write a quick letter on my emotions and read it to her. Again. Ridicules me.
Now 2 things happened after this. 1st, I got into an accident in her car. I was not at fault, so I filed the claim through guys insurance. Mind you during this entire process she did not once couch me or tell me how to go about this. Should I have asked? Possibly, but I think it should've been evident especially how I'm going about it at the moment, but I thought I was doing everything right. So a month and a half later the insurance company cancels the claim. And me being in a depressive state of mind and didn't have the energy to go through that suing process, I. Me. I'm the person who decided to bite the bullet to pay her back to fix her car. Never once did she suggest, hint, nor mention i needed to do that. But after tha 1st payment we have a conversation due to her misunderstanding and now I'm finding out she got a bad memory. Remember when I said in the beginning ish, that she let me keep her car at grandpa's house when she leaves... completely forgets that part. Doesn't forget the buying me a car part though. Mind you now this is 3rd time she's said she would buy me a car. But back to point, she also tells me that she intends on suing the guy to get the money to fix her car. Whatever money I've given her up to that point she has no intention on paying me back. Didn't outright say it, but she might as well have. Sometime later she buys me my car. And I do want to be clear I am appreciative of her for doing that for me, she absolutely didn't need to regardless of the situation of my city life. But I need to be clear on something. Not once. Did she ever say I need to pay her back. Never mentioned. Never suggested. Nor hinted. (Is there some type of unspoken rule on this stuff that I'm Unaware about?)
So It dawned on me that the original arrangement made no sense and I did not like it, so I felt out of moral obligation I need to pay her back for the car. So I switched the payments without telling her. Didn't think it mattered truthfully.
But then I started to lose hours at my job... do to me losing em willingly. Had a hard time not finding the work I wanted in this new state and when I did it was like my resume meant nothing. So I told my mom, via text, that my hours were cut and I'm going to struggle a bit and need to cut her payments down by half. She wanted to have a person talk but I was like naw. So a little time passed, a gave her a payment. And she contacts me asking for the rest.. a discussion happens. She believes that this is a landlord tenant situation and that I need to pay her in full and struggle. I'm like naw, this was never a landlord situation to begin with and the only why I assume she thinks that is due to the rental agreement I ASKED HER TO SIGN in order for me to get food stamps and so paying her back can be somewhat legit. And the only reason why she's getting money is because I decided that and if I wanted I could cancel it all together. She didn't like that. Like I said, 2 peas. Just simply believe we love our control. Lol so that's the last we speak(texted. After she moved out all this has been through texting) Back in April, she tells me Grandma wants to move back in the house. And her and my brother and moving back in to help her. Now grandma moving in I do understand that. Other 2. Nope. Especially mom. She straight up said this house stressed her out. And she is right. I've only been here for a year and I'm stressed. Basement has cracks in the walls, doors, and beyond water damage to the windows(wood/stuff holding the windows) so the basement full on floods. Really bad pipes. Like corroded on top of corroded pipes. Structure is failing. Slowly but surely. And to top it off, mom redid the bathroom, and the contractors half assed it. Not going to go into that. Just wow. And she lives literally not even 10min from here. So I ask questions. Literally only 1 was answered, why is you and my brother moving back. Any other question was silence. Like after I asked the initial questions I asked what I am supposed to do? She says"well I have several suggestions, but your going to do you anyway" now correct me if I'm wrong, wasn't the initial ask, meant I wanted to hear those suggestions? Or should I have actually asked again? Cause I took that as a oh she want me out without saying it.
So I'm obviously pissed. Uprooted and moved for literally nothing. Didn't do crap out here cause I spent 6+months being depressed due to living with this woman, spent months getting out to just about to, to tell me oh we moving back.
And the icing on the cake. She asked me if I could move out sooner. So she can fix stuff. I said with what money? I need the money I've given you back and I'll start that back up when I get situated. No reply. So I asked if she is using or saving it. Once again, "if this was a landlord situation you wouldn't be asking yo landlord what they do with the money. And it doesn't matter so I don't wanna argue" Last message I sent to her was basically reiterating that this ain't that. Haven't really spoken to her since. Don't want to really.
If you managed to read all this I'm sorry for it being long and thank you for "hearing" me out regardless of your opinion. I'm not doing a tldr cause I would've just did that to begin with instead of all this. I know some parts were vague, unclear, possibly incohesive in some areas. Lol feel free to ask and I'll clear things up.
2024.05.23 09:01 Herobrine810 The Kraken Encounter
It was a fine night of lootin. We had just left an old fortress with chests full of cursed skele heads and were making our way towards the Reapers Hideout. We were ready to get off soon since it was 1 am and call it a night once we turned in our goods. Then, suddenly, the ship stopped and I fell off into the cold water via a glitch (or something). But I noticed something was wrong, VERY wrong. The water was black, ink black. I climbed back onto the ship where I found my friends preparing cannons to fire at an increasing number of large tentacles, it appeared that the Kraken had found us. A tentacle grabbed one of our crewmates and threw him far from us, and then he died in the inky abyss. We took down some tentacles but forgot one thing, the cracks in the ship. The ship sank before we knew it and already we lost another crewmate to the waters below. I was ready to die with the ship and sat in the captains quarters underwater as the ship fully submerged…but I wasn’t done yet, and I went up for air to save myself. The captain saved himself thanks to a nearby mermaid and I was left in the middle of a dark sea that was slowly killing me, and not to mention there were sharks. But then I saw it, our rowboat with a harpoon. I swam to it within an inch of my life and used the harpoon to save what loot I was able find (all of it surprisingly). The Kraken left, not knowing I was alive, and I safely swam to fresher waters. I realized that I had no idea where I was, until the captain returned with another ship and picked me up. We sailed to the Reapers Hideout, deposited our loot plus a level 5 reaper emissary license, and enjoyed some cooked Kraken I had chipped off the beast. We drank some Grog, which he puked up in a matter of seconds, he left, and I drunkenly (and unsuccessfully) attempted to take a cooked banana off a frying pan. I then died to poison from a snake.
One helluva adventure am I right?
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One helluva adventure am I right?
2024.05.23 09:01 angryscottishwoman Chronic fatigue syndrome vs autistic burnout?
I finally got around to doing my ADHD symptoms list, the ADHD service replied to my doctor saying it sounded more like I was autistic.
I’m a woman with a STEM degree who got about halfway through a PhD. I was getting very tired with worsening muscle & joint pain, sleep issues and reactive hypoglycaemia the last several years, and I didn’t initially know something was wrong, then it looked like chronic fatigue syndrome. I had some temperature regulation problems and the hypoglycaemia since I was a teenager, so I suspected the chickenpox I got when I was 14.
Well I’ve been reading about autistic burnout, and bizarrely there’s a large symptom overlap with CFS down to the whacky blood sugar. I’ve had my blood tested for just about everything.
I have severe OCD and had PTSD symptoms (shitty life) and have taken Prozac for quite a while, and have started weaning off. I started getting more tired with the odd stiff ankle or elbow probably about the time I started my PhD (2014).
Apparently autistic people usually also have a massive range of physical conditions and yes I do also have IBS, and had very irregular periods & migraines (pill helps).
I am aware I’m socially a bit weird and consciously masking, and assumed I had some of something but I don’t know how to feel now that it’s been more officially commented on. It’s going to be ages before I get assessed to I just have to sit with it for a year+ (UK NHS).
I have some processing issues with speech, spent a lot of my life finding people sounded muffled, but my hearing tested perfect (they told me I had an attention problem, which, yes, but I don’t think that makes people sound muffled). I have difficulty stringing sentences together when speaking and have random pauses while I get stuck. I think I got better at it before I got fatigued. I find writing much easier.
I wasn’t a savant or anything but have been better at maths related things my whole life than language, won awards in school and stuff, won the prize for my master’s year project report in uni.
I don’t think I’ve had a classic autistic “meltdown” but pre Prozac I did frustrated/angry cry (privately). Post probably burnout I have lost a lot of mental capacity and have gotten much more sensitive to sound.
I permanently shake, I can’t tell that I’m doing it, but people keep asking me if I’m cold. If I think back that may also have started with PhD.
Is it possible to just be in burnout for like 10 years? I stopped doing much of anything over the years and it hasn’t gotten better. I have a bit of a hoarder house that I really need to deal with.
I already went to counselling over my shitty life in undergrad and don’t feel like it’s helpful to do it again.
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I’m a woman with a STEM degree who got about halfway through a PhD. I was getting very tired with worsening muscle & joint pain, sleep issues and reactive hypoglycaemia the last several years, and I didn’t initially know something was wrong, then it looked like chronic fatigue syndrome. I had some temperature regulation problems and the hypoglycaemia since I was a teenager, so I suspected the chickenpox I got when I was 14.
Well I’ve been reading about autistic burnout, and bizarrely there’s a large symptom overlap with CFS down to the whacky blood sugar. I’ve had my blood tested for just about everything.
I have severe OCD and had PTSD symptoms (shitty life) and have taken Prozac for quite a while, and have started weaning off. I started getting more tired with the odd stiff ankle or elbow probably about the time I started my PhD (2014).
Apparently autistic people usually also have a massive range of physical conditions and yes I do also have IBS, and had very irregular periods & migraines (pill helps).
I am aware I’m socially a bit weird and consciously masking, and assumed I had some of something but I don’t know how to feel now that it’s been more officially commented on. It’s going to be ages before I get assessed to I just have to sit with it for a year+ (UK NHS).
I have some processing issues with speech, spent a lot of my life finding people sounded muffled, but my hearing tested perfect (they told me I had an attention problem, which, yes, but I don’t think that makes people sound muffled). I have difficulty stringing sentences together when speaking and have random pauses while I get stuck. I think I got better at it before I got fatigued. I find writing much easier.
I wasn’t a savant or anything but have been better at maths related things my whole life than language, won awards in school and stuff, won the prize for my master’s year project report in uni.
I don’t think I’ve had a classic autistic “meltdown” but pre Prozac I did frustrated/angry cry (privately). Post probably burnout I have lost a lot of mental capacity and have gotten much more sensitive to sound.
I permanently shake, I can’t tell that I’m doing it, but people keep asking me if I’m cold. If I think back that may also have started with PhD.
Is it possible to just be in burnout for like 10 years? I stopped doing much of anything over the years and it hasn’t gotten better. I have a bit of a hoarder house that I really need to deal with.
I already went to counselling over my shitty life in undergrad and don’t feel like it’s helpful to do it again.
2024.05.23 09:00 Far_Onion7178 how do you all move to thailand or some place like that?
I am not 100% but i see a lot of posts about quiting work once you are 100% p&t and moving to some place nice in Central America or South East Asia. I recently turned 50 have been working since i was 13. Between my savings and VA benefit I can spend about the same amount every month as a 100% and will get another 2k a month at 62. Anyway how do you guys pull the trigger and make it happen. I am worried as i have no hobbies, work has been my life. How do you make friends in Thailand or Philippines or Dominican Republic? I have traveled a bit but its hard to interact with xpats. I am ready to get out of US there is nothing for me here but work, kids dont even talk to me anymore. Family is a mess of judgmental religious nuts I want nothing to do with. For those that moved off to thailand or some other low cost country did you find you are lonely all the time? Is it easy to find stuff to do? How did you find hobbies if you didnt already have some? Is the problem i watch to much youtube videos of people enjoying the good life while still young enough to enjoy it?
So my question is where do you guys and gals find the courage to just say fuck it and move on to not being a worker? And what do you do about medical insurance if you don't have the retired vet insurance?
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So my question is where do you guys and gals find the courage to just say fuck it and move on to not being a worker? And what do you do about medical insurance if you don't have the retired vet insurance?
2024.05.23 08:58 Big-Complex-3290 Sharing my experience
Yes so it's happened to me as well a few weeks ago muched with a girl on dating app gave her my Instagram chatted over video and even talked! Which shows you that sometimes they are using real girls for the scam but at some point she started touching herself told me to join her and of course I did and after 2 minths of fun closed the call with big scary messages about how they gonna ruin my life and send the pics to all my followers, proceeded to open a group with 15 random Instagram followers and showed me a list of all my followers/Facebook friends. Of course I was terrified and agreed to pay 1000 dollars like they asked for but thank god my credit card doesn't allowing me to do online purchases so that's what saved me. After trying for hours while the blackmailer is on chat with me very angry and tries to stress me out I told them I'm going to sleep and in the morning I will go to the post office and try to do it in cash through western union. After a few hours of sleep I woke up and realised they have all the cards nothing will prevent them from asking me more and more money and they probably will, might aswell finish with this now.so I blocked them and of course after a lot of angry threats in the group chat that they made they disappeared and didn't leak nothing.so be smart guys don't send any money and block them it's gonna be ok!! English is my second language sorry for the mistakes
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2024.05.23 08:57 stellala222 my subliminal journey
hi everyone! i just decided i would document my journey w subliminals. i'm a young teen in america who loves wellness, volleyball, beauty stuff, academics, etc.
goals for subliminals:
i would love to use subliminals to grow my hair out, get my dream body, get a bf (?!), make more friends/be more social, dream life, and find money. so basically be prettier and happier!
some details:
i'm using spotify for my subliminals. i listen to them while i sleep and i also have a shorter subliminal playlist that i play a few times a week (not asleep). i'm starting my subliminal journey with a decent background of knowledge on manifesting and subliminals but not a lot of experience using/succeeding with either. i tried subliminals once before but didn't feel like sticking to it so here goes attempt number 2!
please let me know if you have any advice for beginners! is there anything i should be doing to make sure that it "works?" is there anything i might be doing that could interfere with the effectiveness?
thanks so much!!
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goals for subliminals:
i would love to use subliminals to grow my hair out, get my dream body, get a bf (?!), make more friends/be more social, dream life, and find money. so basically be prettier and happier!
some details:
i'm using spotify for my subliminals. i listen to them while i sleep and i also have a shorter subliminal playlist that i play a few times a week (not asleep). i'm starting my subliminal journey with a decent background of knowledge on manifesting and subliminals but not a lot of experience using/succeeding with either. i tried subliminals once before but didn't feel like sticking to it so here goes attempt number 2!
please let me know if you have any advice for beginners! is there anything i should be doing to make sure that it "works?" is there anything i might be doing that could interfere with the effectiveness?
thanks so much!!
2024.05.23 08:55 LarryZ123 I can't stop thinking about her
Have you ever been in love like true love? I've been thinking about love recently how rare and Precious it is and....how much it hurts, I felt in love with someone once, it happened around this time last year I was so happy she saved my life, she was so pretty and sweet and strong, strong enough to deal with me. Her name was ella, I only knew her for 2 months why cant I forgot about her? Why cant I move on? I'm so pathetic missing a girl who's already forgot about me. I pray to God that he protects her and guides her. Ella once told me to "live for her" sometimes I'm not sure what I'm living for, my mind races so fast I'm so worried about losing my friends I'm terrified of it and I know that makes me weak, I've already lost most of them, my last message to her was horrible too and that's all she'll remember me for I'm so disgusting and weak, it's getting harder I'm so scared.
To the 7 of you who've stuck around with me for all this time thank you so much
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To the 7 of you who've stuck around with me for all this time thank you so much
2024.05.23 08:54 xsoftpea Rant: to redevelop or give up a relationship with playing the piano
For context, I'm in my mid 20s. I started music lessons as early as I was 4 or 5 and went on to one-on-one piano lessons through my teens. I completed ABRSM Grade 5 maybe <10 years ago. But I have stopped playing regularly since.
I have an upright piano. But as the house (I live with my family) is to be renovated, comes the question whether we should make space for the piano in the new layout or not. For clarity, yes there would be space for it, its just that without the piano = even bigger living room. Previously, not touching the piano was just ignoring the elephant in the room. However now, the imminent reality opens up a Pandora box and I'm struggling to understand my relationship with playing the piano.
I have always struggled with practicing. Besides the silly "I want to grow out my nails and paint them" when I was younger, the bigger reason is that I didn't prefer to practice when there is someone else in the house, other than my grandparents, and often there is. I do enjoy the music produced but, I guess I would describe playing the piano as private to me. I don't know if its because I didn't want others to hear my mistake or repetitions (as my boyfriend suggested).
And diving to the root, I started piano because my mom introduced me to it. In a way, she has always appreciated the piano but never got to properly learn or play it and she thinks it would build a good foundation for me. That summarises a great part of my journey with the exams; me not being interested in them and hemy teacher pushing me for the next. Towards the second half of my journey, I raised interest in learning and playing pop songs though my mom believed that exams / learning the foundation "properly" was more important. I did manage to communicate with my teacher who was supportive in finding the piano sheets for me and teaching me e.g. anime songs, between the practices for exam. After Grade 5 was probably when my mom thinks I've gotten old enough and left me up to it, which I eventually stopped contacting my teacher for lessons lol.
I think what I feel about piano is, its something my mom introduced me to and its something I could perhaps "do" if I put time or effort in but for "reasons", I have put piano on the backseat. On top of everything, my relationship with the piano also may have weaned off in the recent years when my younger brother kept kicking/throwing balls around the house that would bounce off the piano through his active years (house is small and piano is at the end of the hallway). Initially I would tell him off or react but seeing my parents not scold or stop him entirely, I felt like I don't commit to the piano enough to protect it either so I stopped eventually (though he has also gotten older since and stopped that behavior). Additionally, I'm the oldest cousin in the immediate family and I have a younger female cousin who also has an upright piano in her house and she still plays it occasionally, unlike me. I don't think there is a direct influence but what if I just don't want to give up something I perceive I "should" be better at or more familiar with.
The last time I played the piano was about a year ago, to impress my boyfriend. Moving forward, should I consider outgrowing my preference to play or practice privately and try to create a routine to sit at the piano? Then again playing the piano makes me feel kind of inferior whenever confronted with the fact that I don't play as well as most players and I can't "perform" any song spontaneously. Or should I compromise the space in my room and make space for the upright piano in it? which would take up like 2/5 of the room. Would I just be hogging or clinging on? Or should I get a keyboard where I can save space and play in my own privacy? While this is an economic option, unfortunately it makes me feel like I would be settling or giving up. Or should I move on entirely?
I feel like this warrants a therapy session but I don't know where else to go. I might be too in my head so I hoped I might find players who can relate or shed some light on my situation. Hopefully I'm not breaking any community rules with my rant.
Any advices appreciated :') I would also appreciate listening to your own relationship with playing the piano. Thank you.
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I have an upright piano. But as the house (I live with my family) is to be renovated, comes the question whether we should make space for the piano in the new layout or not. For clarity, yes there would be space for it, its just that without the piano = even bigger living room. Previously, not touching the piano was just ignoring the elephant in the room. However now, the imminent reality opens up a Pandora box and I'm struggling to understand my relationship with playing the piano.
I have always struggled with practicing. Besides the silly "I want to grow out my nails and paint them" when I was younger, the bigger reason is that I didn't prefer to practice when there is someone else in the house, other than my grandparents, and often there is. I do enjoy the music produced but, I guess I would describe playing the piano as private to me. I don't know if its because I didn't want others to hear my mistake or repetitions (as my boyfriend suggested).
And diving to the root, I started piano because my mom introduced me to it. In a way, she has always appreciated the piano but never got to properly learn or play it and she thinks it would build a good foundation for me. That summarises a great part of my journey with the exams; me not being interested in them and hemy teacher pushing me for the next. Towards the second half of my journey, I raised interest in learning and playing pop songs though my mom believed that exams / learning the foundation "properly" was more important. I did manage to communicate with my teacher who was supportive in finding the piano sheets for me and teaching me e.g. anime songs, between the practices for exam. After Grade 5 was probably when my mom thinks I've gotten old enough and left me up to it, which I eventually stopped contacting my teacher for lessons lol.
I think what I feel about piano is, its something my mom introduced me to and its something I could perhaps "do" if I put time or effort in but for "reasons", I have put piano on the backseat. On top of everything, my relationship with the piano also may have weaned off in the recent years when my younger brother kept kicking/throwing balls around the house that would bounce off the piano through his active years (house is small and piano is at the end of the hallway). Initially I would tell him off or react but seeing my parents not scold or stop him entirely, I felt like I don't commit to the piano enough to protect it either so I stopped eventually (though he has also gotten older since and stopped that behavior). Additionally, I'm the oldest cousin in the immediate family and I have a younger female cousin who also has an upright piano in her house and she still plays it occasionally, unlike me. I don't think there is a direct influence but what if I just don't want to give up something I perceive I "should" be better at or more familiar with.
The last time I played the piano was about a year ago, to impress my boyfriend. Moving forward, should I consider outgrowing my preference to play or practice privately and try to create a routine to sit at the piano? Then again playing the piano makes me feel kind of inferior whenever confronted with the fact that I don't play as well as most players and I can't "perform" any song spontaneously. Or should I compromise the space in my room and make space for the upright piano in it? which would take up like 2/5 of the room. Would I just be hogging or clinging on? Or should I get a keyboard where I can save space and play in my own privacy? While this is an economic option, unfortunately it makes me feel like I would be settling or giving up. Or should I move on entirely?
I feel like this warrants a therapy session but I don't know where else to go. I might be too in my head so I hoped I might find players who can relate or shed some light on my situation. Hopefully I'm not breaking any community rules with my rant.
Any advices appreciated :') I would also appreciate listening to your own relationship with playing the piano. Thank you.
2024.05.23 08:53 Puzzleheaded_Chip628 stuck at a rank with confusing college options. needs guidance.
Hello, I'm rishi.
I secured a 27k rank in JEE mains this year. I'm very confused about the college options.
I'm very confused, I want serious guidance.
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I secured a 27k rank in JEE mains this year. I'm very confused about the college options.
My overview:
before JEE preparation, in 9&10th, I used to do coding for fun.- I've built multiple apps, and websites in a framework called Flutter based on dart.
- I've done API integrations, & learned the backend also.
- I've made a blood donation and student management app for an NGO and an institute.
- I've learned graphic designing and video editing, and made multiple thumbnails for some small channels
- my portfolio: rishiahuja.github.io/my-portfolio
My college options:
I live in Punjab, and the options listed below are proximus to my area.- PEC Chandigarh: Electrical branch
- NIT Jalandhar: Electrical branch (after applying home quota)
- TIET (Thapar): CSE branch
- IIIT una: CSE/IT branch
- IIIT surat: ECE branch
PEC Chandigarh:
I can only bag EE branch, but as there is no academic pressure in colleges as in JEE era, I am thinking of coding and learning DSA and stuff, and then bagging a good tech job in/off campus.- close to my house good locations and coding culture, college life & opportunities
- very poor infrastructure (no ACs and coolers not allowed)
- decent placements (15LPA avg for EE branch)
NIT Jalandhar:
- too many reserved candidates
- avg infrastructure
- less average package than PEC for the same branch
TIET:
- a private college, but with good alumni, and a decent reputation and I am getting CSE branch
- The overall fee for 4 years is around 30L but I'm getting a scholarship, if I maintain an 8.5CGPA in all semesters I can do B. tech from Thapar in 16L
- Not enough social validation. (private college mein jate hue sharam aati hai)
- people with 60%ile will also be in Thapar in lower branches, and too many cse candidates, and people can also get admitted through board results.
IIIT una:
- good atmosphere, low student intake, good infra
- top MNCs like Google/amazon/Microsoft visit here.
- 16.5LPA avg and 60LPA highest packages, very rapidly growing IIIT from last 3 years.
- my doubt here is, do people in IIITs have a study a lot? (basically, they can't do side projects, once in a while enjoying the city, etc?)
- getting CSE/IT easily
- Will I have a lack of exposure in an area like una?
I'm very confused, I want serious guidance.
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2024.05.23 08:50 rocanne How to best prepare for grandmother's death?
So we are wondering if there is anything we have not yet prepared for that we need to, before my grandmother passes. She has Alzeihmer's, home on hospice and has medicaid.
Her financial info: no will, no power of attorney, no estates, no assets, no savings, she receives SSI and a small pension payment (less than $50 a month) which are used up monthly for her living expenses, 1 life insurance policy which has a payout of about $4,000.
We have saved around $6,000 to pay for her funeral costs (cremation with viewing), hopefully that will be enough? Should we save more?
What do we need to be aware of? Or prepare for? After she passes, what do we need to do?
We've never had to prepare someone's funeral arrangements before so we are fairly clueless. And greiving. Advice would be appreciated.
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Her financial info: no will, no power of attorney, no estates, no assets, no savings, she receives SSI and a small pension payment (less than $50 a month) which are used up monthly for her living expenses, 1 life insurance policy which has a payout of about $4,000.
We have saved around $6,000 to pay for her funeral costs (cremation with viewing), hopefully that will be enough? Should we save more?
What do we need to be aware of? Or prepare for? After she passes, what do we need to do?
We've never had to prepare someone's funeral arrangements before so we are fairly clueless. And greiving. Advice would be appreciated.
2024.05.23 08:48 SmileyBoyLover Is criticism of christianity and expressing pain caused by it anti-christian...rant
Ok I guess I'm just reading too much into it, but I have a religious trauma blog on tumblr...mainly just for myself to cope + whatever else interests me and I reblog a lot of ex-christian stuff and post a lot about my own frustration and anger there. I happened to reblog a fandom post...petty nonsense cause I had a different opinion and it's all in good fun...op replied and when I went to reply again I was blocked...they later messaged me saying it's because of "all the anti-christian sentiment that gets weirdly obsessive" on my blog. No hard feeling to them...their protecting their own space, but I still feel angry.
How is it that me being hurt by christianity, a religion I am still forced to participate in unwillingly, and being vocal about the harm they do and criticizing them anti-christian? How is expressing anger at people who hurt me, at a god i thought gave a fuck being "weirdly obsessive"? I was fucking hurt, I was depressed, suicidal, had the gay "beaten" out of me (didn't fucking work btw) crying and begging to be saved almost every night. I dedicated my entire life to it almost everywhere I could, but I'm being anti-christian and obsessive for trying to cope and deal with years of fucking trauma and pain and pain that is still being done to me and others in this god's name...why do I have to feel wrong for bursting the bubble that christianity treats people like shit and then cries "persecution" when we seek help and tell what happened. Why is criticism to something damaging an issue for them? Why get offended instead of seeing that damage is done and trying to understand "hey, maybe these fuckers cause more harm than good and need to change"
I'm not salivating for the eradication of that faith, I am literally just angry at god or the idea of that god, at christians who hurt me and claim love & light, at people who refuse to understand and who "not all christians" me and can get away with it cause "god said so".It's literally ex-christian feelings and trauma...i just don't fuking get it, why is my anger at a faith that still fucking influences every fucking aspect of my life so fucking uncomfortable huh??! It fucking hurt me, but I am being fucking obsessive instead of the freaks who want to covert and change and fix me 24 fucking 7...idk it's whatever i guess. Im so tired of this bullshit
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How is it that me being hurt by christianity, a religion I am still forced to participate in unwillingly, and being vocal about the harm they do and criticizing them anti-christian? How is expressing anger at people who hurt me, at a god i thought gave a fuck being "weirdly obsessive"? I was fucking hurt, I was depressed, suicidal, had the gay "beaten" out of me (didn't fucking work btw) crying and begging to be saved almost every night. I dedicated my entire life to it almost everywhere I could, but I'm being anti-christian and obsessive for trying to cope and deal with years of fucking trauma and pain and pain that is still being done to me and others in this god's name...why do I have to feel wrong for bursting the bubble that christianity treats people like shit and then cries "persecution" when we seek help and tell what happened. Why is criticism to something damaging an issue for them? Why get offended instead of seeing that damage is done and trying to understand "hey, maybe these fuckers cause more harm than good and need to change"
I'm not salivating for the eradication of that faith, I am literally just angry at god or the idea of that god, at christians who hurt me and claim love & light, at people who refuse to understand and who "not all christians" me and can get away with it cause "god said so".It's literally ex-christian feelings and trauma...i just don't fuking get it, why is my anger at a faith that still fucking influences every fucking aspect of my life so fucking uncomfortable huh??! It fucking hurt me, but I am being fucking obsessive instead of the freaks who want to covert and change and fix me 24 fucking 7...idk it's whatever i guess. Im so tired of this bullshit
2024.05.23 08:45 Wise_Progress1933 Can anyone give some advice on past trauma?
My mum turned to drugs before I was born. When she had children she stopped taking drugs but slowly turned back to her old habits when my sisters and I were little. My dad was an alcoholic so he didn’t play any part in looking after us. He would drink in the pub as soon as it opened and wouldn’t leave until it closed at night. I would still see him, but it was usually when he would come over to the house that we lived in at the time and fight with my mum. My mum had a boyfriend who was physically and emotionally abusive towards all of us. He was also a drug user, so they would often leave us alone to go out and buy drugs. I have some awful memories of him. We were badly neglected to the point that social services got involved. They tried to help my mum but had no choice but to take us into foster care. We were in foster care for six months until my grandparents won the custody battle, and we got to live with them. During the six months that we lived in care, my mum did not attempt to better herself so that we could go back home to her. Instead, she chose drugs. In 2013, we went to live with my grandparents and have been there ever since. We cut off all contact with my mum, her boyfriend and my dad. They didn’t make any effort to get in touch at all. My dad would send us letters in the post occasionally, but he would also call the home phone when he was drunk and shout abuse at us on the phone. We started a new primary school and everything was going well until I was watching a film at home with both of my sisters. My older sister is eighteen months older than me and my younger sister is two years younger than me but she’s not really involved in the situation. In the film, a couple were trying for a baby so we watched a scene where they were rolling around on a bed kissing each other. We hadn’t seen anything like it before, and we were curious about what they were doing and why they were doing it. We made up a game where we would act out what they were doing in the film. My older sister and I would kiss each other. I can remember her touching me inappropriately once and also getting me to touch her back. The kissing turned into acting out having sex by “humping” each other because we wanted to get “that feeling”. It started off as innocent curiosity, we would choose who was going to play the “boy” and who was going to play the “girl” and would make up different storylines. I was around 8–11 years old when this happened. Most of the time we had our clothes on, but sometimes we didn’t. I didn’t understand sex at all when this was happening. I can remember hitting puberty at a young age and when I got my period I thought I was dying because I didn’t know what it was. I can’t remember any of this happening regularly. I think it just happened occasionally , but I know it happened a handful of times with both my siblings as well. I don’t think I truly understood that this behavior was wrong at the time, because I had lots of raging hormones, and I was just a traumatized child. I recently told my family about what happened and they’ve been so helpful. I’m slowly starting to rebuild a bond with my sister and I’ve realized that I can’t blame her for what happened because it wasn’t her fault. I’ve also struggled with severe OCD and anxiety for as long as I can remember. When I was little, I would have repetitive rituals that I would perform. I would be terrified of leaving my room in case anything bad happened so I went to the toilet at the end of my bed. I thought that bad things would happen to me if I didn’t do things a certain way and spent a lot of my time worrying. I left primary school and started secondary school, but I struggled to keep friends and always found myself feeling left out. I can remember my dad coming to visit on birthdays and Christmas, but when we went into lockdown because of coronavirus, I found out that he had cancer. We went to visit him and say goodbye. When we did this, I saw my mum for the first time in years. On Christmas Eve 2020, a few minutes from midnight she phoned to say that my dad had passed away. I miss him a lot, but he brought my mum back into my life. I slowly started seeing my mum more often and things were going well until she got me drunk one night and took me out to buy drugs with her. I can remember sitting on the sofa with her and her encouraging me to smoke crack cocaine. I was so drunk that I did it. The next day, when I woke up, I knew that she hadn’t changed. I had £2000 savings in my account which she knew about so she would “borrow” the money for gas, electricity and food. I knew it was all for drugs and I didn’t always get the money back. She mostly just smokes weed now, but she slips up sometimes. My mental health is slowly improving but everything that I’ve just written down bothers me a lot. I can’t change the past no matter how much I want to so I just need to move forward and be more positive.
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2024.05.23 08:43 TapFeisty4675 Always nervous when it comes to me being gay.
I'm curious what has helped y'all get over anxiety when in public with a guy.
I remember years ago, it was so bad I could barely talk on a nice date in Chicago. I'm seeing someone now and I'm a lot more confident in my skin in general, but I still get anxious when holding hands or even just publically flirting. It doesn't stop me anymore, I just don't like feeling "oh there's a group of people up there, maybe I should let go of his hand"
I'm not sure why I'm like this after 15 years of being out, but it's still an issue for me. My family and most people around me in my teen years were very prolgbt before I came out and I had minimal issues after coming out. I don't even generally talk to my family about my love life. It just crosses a comfort boundary for me.
It really bothers me now because I've been seeing someone for about 2 to 3 months, but it's a really strong connection and I don't want to screw it up by acting ashamed of my boyfriend when I'm not. It's almost like I'm afraid of other people reacting poorly and getting harrassed. Again even in very gay friendly areas. Any advice is appreciated.
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I remember years ago, it was so bad I could barely talk on a nice date in Chicago. I'm seeing someone now and I'm a lot more confident in my skin in general, but I still get anxious when holding hands or even just publically flirting. It doesn't stop me anymore, I just don't like feeling "oh there's a group of people up there, maybe I should let go of his hand"
I'm not sure why I'm like this after 15 years of being out, but it's still an issue for me. My family and most people around me in my teen years were very prolgbt before I came out and I had minimal issues after coming out. I don't even generally talk to my family about my love life. It just crosses a comfort boundary for me.
It really bothers me now because I've been seeing someone for about 2 to 3 months, but it's a really strong connection and I don't want to screw it up by acting ashamed of my boyfriend when I'm not. It's almost like I'm afraid of other people reacting poorly and getting harrassed. Again even in very gay friendly areas. Any advice is appreciated.
2024.05.23 08:43 elizzywatermelon Pre-Breakup Breakup Issues
I need advice from ANYONE, please!
I’ve always loved my boyfriend more than anything else in my life. This evening, he asked what would happen if we broke up. I think I’ve avoided thinking about this for a long time because I’m too scared of my genuine answer.
I’m a hardworker and ambitious. I’m about to graduate college. I’m attending graduate school later this year. I want a career. In short, I’m a typical 21-year-old.
Anyways, I didn’t know how to answer him because the truth is, my life would be over. When I met him, I was 18 — depressed, psychotic, and suicidal. He’s helped me overcome this and his love continues to be all I need to maintain my happiness. His presence is my motivation in life. If he were to leave, I’m very sure I’ll slip into my same old mindset and be unable to function. I’m certain that furthering my education and pursuing a career would become out of reach for me as a result of my mental state.
I decided to be honest. I told him that wherever I was the day we broke up would be the furthest I would ever get in life. It wasn’t my intention to be manipulative or controlling; it’s my plain truth. I truly don’t think I would be able to move fowards in my life because of how devastating our breakup would be to me. He told me he feels trapped in the relationship because he doesn’t want to destroy my life by leaving.
I already don’t see life as a life worth living without him. I’m extremely attached to him — if he doesn’t text me for a couple hours, I become emotional and upset. After that, I often can’t do anything but lay in bed and cry. (For context, we’re long distance right now.)
Following a breakup, I anticipate I’d slip into the most debilitating depression of my life. As a teenager, I never learned how to overcome my struggles alone; he saved me. Without him, I have no idea how to save myself.
I guess my question is, what do I do from this point? I’m not sure what my options are. I want to create a healthier relationship with my boyfriend. I know I’m in the wrong and want to change things for us. I’m open to speaking to a therapist or counselor.
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I’ve always loved my boyfriend more than anything else in my life. This evening, he asked what would happen if we broke up. I think I’ve avoided thinking about this for a long time because I’m too scared of my genuine answer.
I’m a hardworker and ambitious. I’m about to graduate college. I’m attending graduate school later this year. I want a career. In short, I’m a typical 21-year-old.
Anyways, I didn’t know how to answer him because the truth is, my life would be over. When I met him, I was 18 — depressed, psychotic, and suicidal. He’s helped me overcome this and his love continues to be all I need to maintain my happiness. His presence is my motivation in life. If he were to leave, I’m very sure I’ll slip into my same old mindset and be unable to function. I’m certain that furthering my education and pursuing a career would become out of reach for me as a result of my mental state.
I decided to be honest. I told him that wherever I was the day we broke up would be the furthest I would ever get in life. It wasn’t my intention to be manipulative or controlling; it’s my plain truth. I truly don’t think I would be able to move fowards in my life because of how devastating our breakup would be to me. He told me he feels trapped in the relationship because he doesn’t want to destroy my life by leaving.
I already don’t see life as a life worth living without him. I’m extremely attached to him — if he doesn’t text me for a couple hours, I become emotional and upset. After that, I often can’t do anything but lay in bed and cry. (For context, we’re long distance right now.)
Following a breakup, I anticipate I’d slip into the most debilitating depression of my life. As a teenager, I never learned how to overcome my struggles alone; he saved me. Without him, I have no idea how to save myself.
I guess my question is, what do I do from this point? I’m not sure what my options are. I want to create a healthier relationship with my boyfriend. I know I’m in the wrong and want to change things for us. I’m open to speaking to a therapist or counselor.
2024.05.23 08:42 Key_Pudding64 Coworker hates when I say "cute" and thinks I should be more "grown up". Aitah for telling HER to grow up instead
My co-worker is an extreme boomer. She's hard to handle tbh she's takes 3 months to complete a 2 week training, she can't use a computer, she honestly can't do her job and we spend most of our shifts cleaning up after her mistakes.
Anyway, a few days back I told my manager that her nails were cute. I mentioned I liked the color and asked where she got them done.
A couple days after that, we had a regular customer come in and I told her that her sunglasses were really cute. She was flattered and was telling me about them.
After she left, this coworker got really snotty with me and told me "I HATE that word, cute. It's demeaning and rude." I just shrugged it off and didn't respond. It's not MY problem if she wants to read into a compliment negatively because she doesn't like a word, I never used it on her so it's not really her problem. I don't care that she doesn't like it.
Well, today, our manager was showing us photos of her with her husband at the Adele concert. She was so happy to go, and saved up a long time for it. I told her that she looked so cute and happy and I was glad she had a nice time. Funny enough, my coworker waited until the manager left to tell me "she looked great, but the way you Said that just comes off like an insult. It's the "cute" thing. That's for babies, not grown women. You gotta grow up and stop saying that".
I snapped back "maybe YOU gotta grow up and stop reading your own personal negativity into totally innocent interactions."
She seemed really shocked, like I don't think anyone's ever confronted her on anything like that before. I get she's older, and spent most of her life as a mother running her own family's business where what she said was final, but I'm the assistant manager here and she's admin and I'm not about to be told how to conduct myself by my coworker just because she takes a word personally when it's not even directed to her. I heard her the first time, she doesn't like that word. So I never used it when talking to her. But no one else had that issue, and trying to force everyone Else to dislike that just because she does is ridiculous.
Aitah for not just ignoring it and changing that to make her more comfortable?
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Anyway, a few days back I told my manager that her nails were cute. I mentioned I liked the color and asked where she got them done.
A couple days after that, we had a regular customer come in and I told her that her sunglasses were really cute. She was flattered and was telling me about them.
After she left, this coworker got really snotty with me and told me "I HATE that word, cute. It's demeaning and rude." I just shrugged it off and didn't respond. It's not MY problem if she wants to read into a compliment negatively because she doesn't like a word, I never used it on her so it's not really her problem. I don't care that she doesn't like it.
Well, today, our manager was showing us photos of her with her husband at the Adele concert. She was so happy to go, and saved up a long time for it. I told her that she looked so cute and happy and I was glad she had a nice time. Funny enough, my coworker waited until the manager left to tell me "she looked great, but the way you Said that just comes off like an insult. It's the "cute" thing. That's for babies, not grown women. You gotta grow up and stop saying that".
I snapped back "maybe YOU gotta grow up and stop reading your own personal negativity into totally innocent interactions."
She seemed really shocked, like I don't think anyone's ever confronted her on anything like that before. I get she's older, and spent most of her life as a mother running her own family's business where what she said was final, but I'm the assistant manager here and she's admin and I'm not about to be told how to conduct myself by my coworker just because she takes a word personally when it's not even directed to her. I heard her the first time, she doesn't like that word. So I never used it when talking to her. But no one else had that issue, and trying to force everyone Else to dislike that just because she does is ridiculous.
Aitah for not just ignoring it and changing that to make her more comfortable?
2024.05.23 08:41 GuiltlessMaple Best Dark Green Nails
 | submitted by GuiltlessMaple to u/GuiltlessMaple [link] [comments] https://preview.redd.it/idzkm9mjg42d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=c84d562b53ee864ca8bfdc6592b71c0fc3d121c0 If you're looking to add a touch of elegance and mystery to your nail art, then you've come to the right place. Welcome to our Dark Green Nails roundup article, where we explore the latest trends and techniques that will have you rocking rich, deep hues on your fingertips. So sit back, relax and get ready to dive into the enchanting world of dark green nails! The Top 7 Best Dark Green Nails
Reviews🔗Emerald Gel Polish - Shine in 30 Secondshttps://preview.redd.it/d65snmyjg42d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=b0e2d431a145797fb698075aabc34cb81b91a5fc I recently tried the Le Mini Macaron Gel Polish in Emerald Green and I must say, it completely changed my at-home manicure game. The color is a lush, dark shade of green that's perfect for adding a pop of color to any outfit. It's a vivid, cool hue that effortlessly embodies autumn vibes. One of the things that I absolutely love about this product is its 3-in-1 feature. It not only acts as a base coat but also combines the color and top coat into one bottle. This not only saves time but also eliminates the need for multiple nail polish bottles, making my manicure kit a lot less cluttered. Another highlight of this gel polish is its incredibly fast drying time. Using the Le Mini Macaron LED lamp, my nails are cured and ready to go in just 30 seconds! This is a game-changer for those who are impatient like me, as we no longer have to wait around for our nails to dry. However, there are a few cons to consider with this product. First, the smell can be quite strong and chemical-like, which might cause headaches for some users. Second, the application process requires thin coats to avoid any issues like shrinking or unevenness. Overall, the Le Mini Macaron Gel Polish in Emerald Green has been a game-changer for my at-home manicures. Its 3-in-1 feature and quick drying time make it a convenient and time-saving option. While there are some drawbacks such as the smell and the need for thin coats, these can be easily managed with proper preparation and application techniques. I would wholeheartedly recommend this product for anyone looking to elevate their gel nail game. 🔗Green Glitter Gold Silver Gel Nail Polish Sethttps://preview.redd.it/rkl4q3nkg42d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=679b8a2e0b4e515195476c73aba96e22863f412a Imagine yourself prepping for the perfect New Year party, wanting to get in on the latest nail trends. The Beetles Gel Nail Polish Set has come to your rescue, promising stunning and classic colors suitable for the New Year festivities. Upon opening, the first thing you notice is how the colors pop - the deep greens, vibrant reds, and shimmering gold, silver, and glitter varieties have left you in awe. You're excited to try them all! Now, to the application process. As someone with some experience in this area, applying the polish definitely strikes a balance between too thick and too runny, but after a few tries, you find your rhythm. One good thing is that the application doesn't require a whole lot of time, making it a quick addition to your beauty routine. While some may find the polish hard to apply due to its gooey texture, others might like it because it gives the polish a slightly thicker appearance that lasts longer. When it comes to longevity, the product's promises aren't fully met. While the glitter in the polish does add a lovely touch of sparkle, it doesn't seem to make the nail polish last any longer than a week. However, it's worth mentioning that some users had success in making the polish last three weeks or more with proper application. The drying time can vary from person to person. In general, it dries relatively quickly, but depending on the thickness of your application, you might need to extend your waiting time. Another notable aspect is that a few users reported receiving defective products. This could indicate some inconsistency in quality control, but overall, the set offers pretty colors and decent functionality. In conclusion, the Beetles Gel Nail Polish Set is a stylish addition to your nail care collection, particularly if you love changing up your nail colors as frequently as you change your clothes. Despite some minor issues with the gooey polish and short longevity, the product provides value for money, making it a worthwhile purchase. However, do keep in mind that a UV lamp is required for proper curing, a detail that might catch some users off guard. 🔗DND Nail Lacquer in Green Forest, AKhttps://preview.redd.it/8ysuirxkg42d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=c68a1ca3f2150198cc1159cf63a03dd98a99f1b5 I recently tried DND Nail Lacquer's Green Forest, AK in my daily life, and I must say I'm quite impressed. The color is a beautiful deep green that reminded me of autumn leaves, and the shine was top-notch - giving it a glossy finish that lasted for three weeks without any signs of chipping or peeling. The product soaked off easily and quickly in about 10-15 minutes, which was a definite highlight for me. However, one minor issue I noticed was the application process. It took slightly longer than expected due to its slightly thicker consistency compared to other nail lacquers I've used before. Despite this minor hiccup, DND Nail Lacquer still gets a thumbs up from me. Not only does it offer an impressive variety of colors at affordable prices, but also, being made in the USA adds to its overall appeal. The product's longevity and easy removal make it worth trying if you're in search of a high-quality nail lacquer that lasts. One thing to keep in mind is that the color might appear slightly different on your device due to screen variations. Always do your research before making a purchase, but overall, I recommend giving this nail lacquer a shot. It's definitely worth the investment! 🔗Dark Green DND Nail Lacquer - Long Lasting & Easy to Applyhttps://preview.redd.it/qcclr8ilg42d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=3485fbfbdb8f3192d5895e3a92108f7f1cf25ed9 I recently came across the DND Nail Lacquer in 785 Green Colors and I've been using it for the last couple of weeks. It's a top-notch product with a high gloss finish that lasts for up to three weeks without any chipping or peeling. Plus, it only takes 10-15 minutes to remove, so it's quite hassle-free compared to some other nail polishes I've used in the past. One of the standout features of this product is the incredible range of 379 colors available. I can't count the number of times I've been stuck in a nail salon, unable to find that perfect shade, but with DND's collection, we're spoilt for choice! I particularly love how fast they apply and how they feel thinner and more comfortable than other polishes I've tried. And did I mention that this professional quality nail polish is made in the USA? However, there is a slight snag - the colors can look a bit different on different screens. I don't think it's a significant issue, but I do wish there was a better way to sample the colors before purchasing. That said, the overall quality and performance of DND Nail Lacquer are worth the investment. I'm already planning on trying out some other shades soon! 🔗DND Gel Polish - Green Forest, AK (568)https://preview.redd.it/s19k3mmlg42d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=45b608cc20acc27dac665bc5d0e437aef2ba33e7 I recently tried out DND's Green Forest 568 gel polish for a fun change to my regular mani-pedi routine, and I must say, I'm absolutely in love with it! This product offers a high gloss shine that lasts for up to three weeks with no chipping or peeling, making it a perfect choice for those of us who lead busy lives and don't have the time to touch up our nails every other day. One of the highlights of this gel polish is how easy it is to apply. The brush glides smoothly over your nails, allowing for quick and even coverage. Plus, with its LED and UV curing technology, you can be sure that your color will set perfectly in no time at all. I also appreciated how quick the removal process was; using only 10-15 minutes to soak off the polish without causing any damage to my natural nail. However, there were a few cons that I encountered during my experience with this product. Firstly, the color may appear different on your monitor compared to when it's applied on your nails, which can lead to some unexpected surprises when choosing your desired shade. Additionally, the consistency of the polish can be on the thicker side, making it slightly more challenging to work with than other gels I've tried in the past. Despite these minor setbacks, I would still highly recommend giving DND's Green Forest 568 gel polish a try. With its long-lasting wear and easy application process, it's definitely worth considering for your next at-home manicure! 🔗DND Professional Glossy Dark Green Nailshttps://preview.redd.it/cqy2gs0mg42d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=05895ad7937394ee6b83e571d5c5c544f9bf95db My experience with 790 Divine Green has been an absolute delight. The gel polish lasts for weeks without any chipping or peeling, which is a massive win for me since I'm always on the go. The application process is straightforward, following the 3 step system perfectly. The color selection is vast, and I absolutely love the professional finish it gives to my nails - not to mention the countless compliments I receive from friends and family alike! However, I'll be honest, some colors could be a little more opaque as I've found certain ones to be quite sheer, requiring multiple coats. This can be a bit time-consuming, but the end result is worth the effort. Another minor downside is the scent of the polish, it's not overbearing but it's definitely noticeable. Overall, I'm thoroughly happy with my purchase. The 790 Divine Green is a game-changer for me, helping me achieve that flawless, long-lasting manicure that I've always desired. The ease of application and the stunning array of colors available have made it a staple in my beauty routine. Sure, there might be some cons but for me, the pros significantly outweigh them. Product Review Content: My personal journey with the 790 Divine Green has been an outstanding one. Imagine the joy of having a professional-looking, long-lasting manicure without the hassle of frequent touch-ups. This product has made my dream a reality! From the get-go, following the 3 step system was a breeze. Each layer of the polish added just the right amount of color and gloss, leaving me with a stunning final result that's been receiving non-stop compliments. However, as with every product, there's room for improvement. Some colors tend to be quite sheer, requiring additional coats to achieve the desired opacity. This may be time-consuming, but the end result is truly magnificent. Another minor issue is the scent of the polish. It's not overpowering, but it is noticeable. Despite these minor drawbacks, I would highly recommend the 790 Divine Green. The ease of use, the stunning array of colors, and the professional-looking finish make it an excellent addition to any beauty routine. If you're looking for a reliable, long-lasting option for your nails, look no further! 🔗Arctic Fox Phantom Green Vegan Nail Polishhttps://preview.redd.it/8uedv6nmg42d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=2e3276d69b81add7cea349205501b154cca2ddf0 I've been using this nail polish for a while now, and I must say it's a game changer. The color, Phantom Green, is stunning and definitely gives off a unique vibe. It's perfect for those who want to stand out in a crowd, or for someone trying to match their nail color with their outfit. The one thing that truly impressed me about this nail polish is its longevity. I'm not exaggerating when I say it lasts for days without chipping, even with my hands-on work. This has made my life so much easier - no more worrying about constant touch-ups! However, there's one small issue that I found. Its drying time can be quite long, especially if you're impatient like me. You need to give it some extra minutes for it to completely dry, which can be a bit of a hassle. In terms of application, I'll give it a thumbs up. The brush is the right size, allowing for easy application. The formula is smooth, non-sticky, and not too thick, making it easy to spread evenly on the nails. Overall, I'm extremely happy with my purchase. The color is unique and eye-catching, the formula is long-lasting and chip-resistant, and the application process is smooth and easy. Despite the longer drying time, I'd say it's definitely worth trying out. Buyer's GuideWhen it comes to nail color, dark green has become an increasingly popular choice in recent years. These rich, earthy tones can enhance your natural skin tone, add depth and dimension to your manicure, and even provide a sophisticated twist to any outfit. However, not all dark green nail polishes are created equally. To help you navigate the vast world of nail products, we've created a comprehensive buyer's guide for dark green nails. In this guide, we will discuss important features, considerations, and general advice about choosing the perfect dark green nail polish for your needs. https://preview.redd.it/u4rkravmg42d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=1a99c54fa00468da8860da817d47209b95487c2f Consider the FinishThe finish of your nail polish will have a significant impact on the overall look and feel of your manicure. Dark green nail polishes come in a variety of finishes, including creme, shimmer, Metallic, and glitter. Cream finishes offer a smooth, opaque coverage that's perfect for those who prefer a classic look. Shimmer finishes add a touch of glamour and dimension with micro-glitter particles, creating a subtle sheen. Metallic finishes have an almost liquid-like appearance, reflecting light and creating a bold and eye-catching effect. Glitter finishes are perfect for special occasions or when you want to make a statement, with a dense layer of glitter particles that create a dazzling, multidimensional appearance.Choose the Right UndertoneDark green nail polish comes in a range of undertones, from cool, blue-based tones to warm, yellow-based ones. The undertone you choose can help accentuate your skin tone and enhance your natural features. Cooler-toned dark greens, like emerald and forest green, complement those with cool, pink undertones in their skin. Warmer, yellow-based greens, like olive and khaki, look stunning on those with warm, golden undertones. If you're unsure about your skin's undertone, consider asking a friend or makeup artist for their opinion, or take an online quiz to determine your true skin tone. https://preview.redd.it/9fiakqcng42d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=39ff8cbf1e208e2992546f362c11c02a62749575 Apply with CareWhen applying a dark green nail polish, it's important to take your time and use a light touch. Darker colors can be more prone to streaking and dragging if applied too thickly or too quickly. Start by applying a base coat to protect your natural nails and promote longer-lasting color. Next, carefully apply one thin coat of dark green nail polish, being sure to smooth out any brush strokes as you go. Allow the first coat to dry completely, before applying a second thin coat for optimal coverage and depth. Finally, finish your manicure with a clear top coat to seal in the color and provide added shine and durability.Experiment with DesignsDark green nail polish is a versatile color that lends itself well to a variety of nail art designs. Whether you prefer simple, elegant looks or bold, statement-making manicures, there's a design to suit every style. For a classic look, consider applying a single coat of dark green nail polish and topping it off with a gold or silver accent nail. For those who love making a bold fashion statement, try incorporating dark green into an intricate nail art design, such as a floral, ombre, or geometric pattern. Don't be afraid to experiment with different colors and techniques to create a one-of-a-kind manicure that showcases your unique sense of style.By keeping these tips in mind, you'll be well-equipped to choose and apply the perfect dark green nail polish for your needs. 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2024.05.23 08:41 Ok_Regular_8515 A stranger came up and told me I was going to d#e in two weeks
It was my usual day, going to my local mall to do shopping for me and my kids. I was in the cleaning aisle I noticed this man wearing a brown jacket, black beanie behind me but didn’t pay any attention to it. Until, I realised he was following me through each of the aisles, all the way to checkout. I saw he didn’t put anything down to buy after me, he was just standing there. I quickly paid for my groceries and pushed my trolley cart out. I noticed he wasn’t following me anymore after I got to my car. While I was unloading the bags into the car, I turned around and saw him. I screamed, telling him to f&@k off or I’ll call the cops. He told me to calm down and listen, he said whatever I do, don’t leave your house on this same day in two weeks or you will die.
I was too busy swearing to care about what he said but I did hear it. He ended up running away before other people started to notice. I kept thinking about it day and night. Then I thought why should I listen to a stranger who’s probably just crazy. Two weeks past, I was at home with my kids, we were about to go out to eat for dinner.
I looked at the date on my calendar and remembered that today was the day that the guy told me to stay home. I kept on contemplating in my head whether I should go and after an hour of waiting, I ordered takeout to be delivered and stayed home. The next day, I found out there was a huge crash at the intersection right near my home last night. A whole family of 4 tragically died at the scene. After, I kept on thinking did this stranger save me and my family’s life?
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I was too busy swearing to care about what he said but I did hear it. He ended up running away before other people started to notice. I kept thinking about it day and night. Then I thought why should I listen to a stranger who’s probably just crazy. Two weeks past, I was at home with my kids, we were about to go out to eat for dinner.
I looked at the date on my calendar and remembered that today was the day that the guy told me to stay home. I kept on contemplating in my head whether I should go and after an hour of waiting, I ordered takeout to be delivered and stayed home. The next day, I found out there was a huge crash at the intersection right near my home last night. A whole family of 4 tragically died at the scene. After, I kept on thinking did this stranger save me and my family’s life?
2024.05.23 08:36 No_Fix40 I just want peace.
I just want peace. I just want peace! Pero I cannot do it, I left my work, thinking I just need a break, saved enough so I can at least take a vacation, but life has other plans, it hits you right in the face, and all your plans go belly side up. Bakit ganon, I am tired, I just want to be left alone, but at the same time I want someone to be there for me. Everyone says to keep on fighting, pero I do not have anymore fight in me. Inuman na lang daw, pero after, ano? Mas naaalala ko pa yung mga past fuckups/ regrets, and I hate it. Daming sana ito ginawa ko noon, hindi makatulog thinking about past fuckups/regrets. I am tired, I want peace, I just want life to pause so the I can catch up.
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2024.05.23 08:33 MadaOko I need help, please
My life has gone downhill, I need some perspective or insight. URGENT
It's going to be long, but please, hear me out.
I began 2024 hospitalized after a rotavirus disease. It was a difficult time for me because I wasn't able to stop going to the restroom all the time. I spent 2 weeks in the hospital after I got better, I noticed that I had relapsed into anxiety. It spiked to the point where I started to get panic attacks again, most of it because of obsessive thoughts, I guess? first, it started because my friends smoked weed (for some reason the fact they smoked weed caused me to get anxious) then after I got better, I began to develop thoughts about food (I recovered from an ED. I thought if I ate food then I was dirty because it was not nutritious, I was on the line for developing Orthorexia, but my nutritionist stopped it before it could start) once my relationship with food healed again and the distorted thoughts stopped, temporal relief, and then I began to have intrusive thoughts and anxiety about using antidepressants because I thought I would hurt people(I read something on Twitter, which caused me to fall into a rabbit hole of medical conditions and terms) It got very bad that at some point I passed out, ended up in the ER. I went to see a psychiatrist who used to attend to me before and recommended TMS. The thing is, he didn't do it correctly. (one week, 2 hours, right side of brain, one ketamine) I found out later that the sessions should last longer and shorter, and that combining ketamine with TMS is something not practiced yet. Post-tms sessions I felt weird, off, anxious, and impending doom, I got worse. Then the Dr started to talk about things that weren't about my therapy and treatment, he belittled my business and told me to forget about my parents, that I should get over everything, and that he doesn't have time for me. Then, lastly, he started to say I was suicidal and that he was going to send me to Costa Rica and told me I had no choice in the matter (Now, I have never tried to take my life. I would cut sometimes, but it was superficial) he acted unethical, never listened to me, and never told me what was going on and why I was feeling that way.
I left. went to another psychiatrist (lucky for me, she took space for me) the same day because I had a panic attack (5 in a day) and I guess I ended up having internal panic attacks, silent, unmoving, lifeless) when she attended me she gave me a diagnosis: OCD, depression, and anxiety. She increased the dosage of my meds.
The thing is, I went to a psychologist who knew the previous doctor. She is really good at treating people with CBT and specializes in trauma (but she treats my sister). But, she said something that made me question myself and everything and put me extremely anxious. She told me that I had BPD, most of it because of depression, OCD, and anxiety. Mostly, based on family history, I guess.
She said that I had three traits which puts me on BPD. But, as far as I'm concerned BPD is a disorder. She said it wasn't.
I looked up the symptoms and I have never displayed intense emotions, inappropriate anger, impulsivity, or chronic feelings of emptiness, my emotions don't swift intensely, or out of touch. I told her about my skepticism regarding the symptoms, but she said that from what I have been through I have BPD (trauma of my parent's divorce, my parents fighting in the past, and me being the person to stop the fights) that my body uses it as a defense mode.
isn't this a personality disorder?
she says she uses the symptoms as a bullet to cross out the symptoms for remission.
While I have self-harmed and sometimes thought of dead (usually when I'm too anxious) I don't think I have BPD. My current psychiatrist says I have OCD, then there is this psychologist who says I have BPD, mostly, because the OCD, depression, and anxiety fall into BPD traits. But, I'm not explosive,
I've always been calm, hated arguments, and never suffered from constant mood swings. As a teen, I didn't have depression until senior year, and was put on zoloft, then put on cymbalta when I turned 22.
My anxiety and panic attacks developed when my parents divorced. I was then stable and finally felt happy for the first time in my life in 2023.
I'm feeling like I'm going crazy, I don't want to have BPD, and I'm now questioning everything, and myself. Have I manipulated people? am I manipulating myself to believe I don't have BPD? am I manipulating my mother? what if this isn't my real personality?
I know I have a lot of empathy and I recognize that I'm sentimental. I have been through a lot. My parents divorced and to this day I still mourn the loss of a family (even if I'm 25)
the thought of having BPD is giving me anxiety. What should I do? what is your perspective? I'm scared, I feel like I'm drowning. does someone here also have BPD that can give some insight?
submitted by MadaOko to Anxiety [link] [comments]
It's going to be long, but please, hear me out.
I began 2024 hospitalized after a rotavirus disease. It was a difficult time for me because I wasn't able to stop going to the restroom all the time. I spent 2 weeks in the hospital after I got better, I noticed that I had relapsed into anxiety. It spiked to the point where I started to get panic attacks again, most of it because of obsessive thoughts, I guess? first, it started because my friends smoked weed (for some reason the fact they smoked weed caused me to get anxious) then after I got better, I began to develop thoughts about food (I recovered from an ED. I thought if I ate food then I was dirty because it was not nutritious, I was on the line for developing Orthorexia, but my nutritionist stopped it before it could start) once my relationship with food healed again and the distorted thoughts stopped, temporal relief, and then I began to have intrusive thoughts and anxiety about using antidepressants because I thought I would hurt people(I read something on Twitter, which caused me to fall into a rabbit hole of medical conditions and terms) It got very bad that at some point I passed out, ended up in the ER. I went to see a psychiatrist who used to attend to me before and recommended TMS. The thing is, he didn't do it correctly. (one week, 2 hours, right side of brain, one ketamine) I found out later that the sessions should last longer and shorter, and that combining ketamine with TMS is something not practiced yet. Post-tms sessions I felt weird, off, anxious, and impending doom, I got worse. Then the Dr started to talk about things that weren't about my therapy and treatment, he belittled my business and told me to forget about my parents, that I should get over everything, and that he doesn't have time for me. Then, lastly, he started to say I was suicidal and that he was going to send me to Costa Rica and told me I had no choice in the matter (Now, I have never tried to take my life. I would cut sometimes, but it was superficial) he acted unethical, never listened to me, and never told me what was going on and why I was feeling that way.
I left. went to another psychiatrist (lucky for me, she took space for me) the same day because I had a panic attack (5 in a day) and I guess I ended up having internal panic attacks, silent, unmoving, lifeless) when she attended me she gave me a diagnosis: OCD, depression, and anxiety. She increased the dosage of my meds.
The thing is, I went to a psychologist who knew the previous doctor. She is really good at treating people with CBT and specializes in trauma (but she treats my sister). But, she said something that made me question myself and everything and put me extremely anxious. She told me that I had BPD, most of it because of depression, OCD, and anxiety. Mostly, based on family history, I guess.
She said that I had three traits which puts me on BPD. But, as far as I'm concerned BPD is a disorder. She said it wasn't.
I looked up the symptoms and I have never displayed intense emotions, inappropriate anger, impulsivity, or chronic feelings of emptiness, my emotions don't swift intensely, or out of touch. I told her about my skepticism regarding the symptoms, but she said that from what I have been through I have BPD (trauma of my parent's divorce, my parents fighting in the past, and me being the person to stop the fights) that my body uses it as a defense mode.
isn't this a personality disorder?
she says she uses the symptoms as a bullet to cross out the symptoms for remission.
While I have self-harmed and sometimes thought of dead (usually when I'm too anxious) I don't think I have BPD. My current psychiatrist says I have OCD, then there is this psychologist who says I have BPD, mostly, because the OCD, depression, and anxiety fall into BPD traits. But, I'm not explosive,
I've always been calm, hated arguments, and never suffered from constant mood swings. As a teen, I didn't have depression until senior year, and was put on zoloft, then put on cymbalta when I turned 22.
My anxiety and panic attacks developed when my parents divorced. I was then stable and finally felt happy for the first time in my life in 2023.
I'm feeling like I'm going crazy, I don't want to have BPD, and I'm now questioning everything, and myself. Have I manipulated people? am I manipulating myself to believe I don't have BPD? am I manipulating my mother? what if this isn't my real personality?
I know I have a lot of empathy and I recognize that I'm sentimental. I have been through a lot. My parents divorced and to this day I still mourn the loss of a family (even if I'm 25)
the thought of having BPD is giving me anxiety. What should I do? what is your perspective? I'm scared, I feel like I'm drowning. does someone here also have BPD that can give some insight?
2024.05.23 08:32 ConcordGrapez Reality Fracture and Achieving Nirvana
On a quest to obtaining Reality Fracture on Malzahar in arena, I have become one with the void and enlightened. I have stepped beyond these mortal chains that I call a body and have seen the truth. Let me offer you all a small glimpse into the grand design that is this odyssey.
I first start with a simple idea- achieving maximum minion spam Malzahar, Apex InventoMinionmanceReality Fracture. Fun, goofy, nothing crazy. Surely it cannot be that hard, right?
10 games of the glowstick with legs and a useless shield I realize the error of my ways. I decided, fine, only 1 of the holy augments, the sacred relics to use with Reality Fracture. Surely, surely it can be done. The scrolls fortold it could be done, right? Mathematically, with enough time and rerolls, it should be possible, right?
Que game 16. I lose the 3 rerolls but get Gamblers Blade, I have Minionmancer, and me and my Kayn are crushing the early game. Perfect conditions to farm money and roll for the holy relic, the bosom and hive of the gods, Reality Fracture. I achieve 5 thousand gold from the blade, I am saving all my gold, all for the little screaming children to call my own. 9 rolls. NINE attempts at Reality Fracture. I do not get it.
I decide after the 20th game that I simply want just Reality Fracture. The augments of life, the beautiful biggening of the goons, the 0 cooldown fracturing of reality can be withheld. All I want now is just the Best Hollow Knight Characters™ Item. Game. After Game. After Game. Getting mirked by Vi with Dashing, after Vi with Dashing, after Vi with Dashing. I grow to despise that champ. She becomes my permaban.
I win a few games, none with the true lord and saviour item however. Full Magic Pen with Vanish AKA Jumpscare Malzahar. Or Infernal Conduit Bernie Malzanders with a goated Sett to carry me. But they were not the one true build.
30 games go by. I'm growing desperate. I've been at this for a couple days now. I... I can't stop. I must keep playing the Shen if he became a shitty mage champion. Then Malzahar got banned, that was game 33. I decided, I'll play Kha'Zix. First Prismatic Item rolls......
Reality Fracture.
Ok, no matter, it's ok, IT IS OKAY. I am fine. One setback, no matter. All is fine. The void has its plans for me, I am but its humble servant. It will give me the great item when I am deemed worthy.
40 games, the walls of my gaming setup have started to close in on me. I see that shitty purple hood that looks like something from Hot Topic in my dreams. I see Briars running me down and fucking killing me. I see Galios not taking damage with Cloak of Starry Night. I see a dumbass Bard trying to ult me when I have my shield up. HE HAUNTS ME. I can't escape. I can't stop. I must. Keep. Going.
The fourty seventh game. Me and some random Amumu are bantering in chat. I've grown so desperate I just sell my other items and prismatic rolls to keep rolling for the heavenly, perfect, illustrious glory that is Reality Fracture. My fifth reroll. I sold all my items for gold to roll the dice.
I get it. I... am overcome with a strange peace. Maybe it's the drugs, maybe it's the fact it's 3AM and I've been going at this all day, maybe it's the Bel'Veth fanboy stalking me in my visions. Amumu cheers me on as I exclaim my plight when I was first rolling for items that game. He has Phenomenal Evil and my Urgot is vibing, so I decide to reward the Amumu (and because I knew I had just Reality Fracture when everyone had 5 items fuck this shit) by letting him farm us for Phenomal Evil stacks. He thanks us, we lose all our lives, and I wish him good night. My reality fractured, but I can finally sleep well, and never play this fucking champ ever again.
Thank you for this wonderful experience. May your R's make assassins cry and your passive never be poked off. Do not make the same mistakes that I have in life. Good night.
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I first start with a simple idea- achieving maximum minion spam Malzahar, Apex InventoMinionmanceReality Fracture. Fun, goofy, nothing crazy. Surely it cannot be that hard, right?
10 games of the glowstick with legs and a useless shield I realize the error of my ways. I decided, fine, only 1 of the holy augments, the sacred relics to use with Reality Fracture. Surely, surely it can be done. The scrolls fortold it could be done, right? Mathematically, with enough time and rerolls, it should be possible, right?
Que game 16. I lose the 3 rerolls but get Gamblers Blade, I have Minionmancer, and me and my Kayn are crushing the early game. Perfect conditions to farm money and roll for the holy relic, the bosom and hive of the gods, Reality Fracture. I achieve 5 thousand gold from the blade, I am saving all my gold, all for the little screaming children to call my own. 9 rolls. NINE attempts at Reality Fracture. I do not get it.
I decide after the 20th game that I simply want just Reality Fracture. The augments of life, the beautiful biggening of the goons, the 0 cooldown fracturing of reality can be withheld. All I want now is just the Best Hollow Knight Characters™ Item. Game. After Game. After Game. Getting mirked by Vi with Dashing, after Vi with Dashing, after Vi with Dashing. I grow to despise that champ. She becomes my permaban.
I win a few games, none with the true lord and saviour item however. Full Magic Pen with Vanish AKA Jumpscare Malzahar. Or Infernal Conduit Bernie Malzanders with a goated Sett to carry me. But they were not the one true build.
30 games go by. I'm growing desperate. I've been at this for a couple days now. I... I can't stop. I must keep playing the Shen if he became a shitty mage champion. Then Malzahar got banned, that was game 33. I decided, I'll play Kha'Zix. First Prismatic Item rolls......
Reality Fracture.
Ok, no matter, it's ok, IT IS OKAY. I am fine. One setback, no matter. All is fine. The void has its plans for me, I am but its humble servant. It will give me the great item when I am deemed worthy.
40 games, the walls of my gaming setup have started to close in on me. I see that shitty purple hood that looks like something from Hot Topic in my dreams. I see Briars running me down and fucking killing me. I see Galios not taking damage with Cloak of Starry Night. I see a dumbass Bard trying to ult me when I have my shield up. HE HAUNTS ME. I can't escape. I can't stop. I must. Keep. Going.
The fourty seventh game. Me and some random Amumu are bantering in chat. I've grown so desperate I just sell my other items and prismatic rolls to keep rolling for the heavenly, perfect, illustrious glory that is Reality Fracture. My fifth reroll. I sold all my items for gold to roll the dice.
I get it. I... am overcome with a strange peace. Maybe it's the drugs, maybe it's the fact it's 3AM and I've been going at this all day, maybe it's the Bel'Veth fanboy stalking me in my visions. Amumu cheers me on as I exclaim my plight when I was first rolling for items that game. He has Phenomenal Evil and my Urgot is vibing, so I decide to reward the Amumu (and because I knew I had just Reality Fracture when everyone had 5 items fuck this shit) by letting him farm us for Phenomal Evil stacks. He thanks us, we lose all our lives, and I wish him good night. My reality fractured, but I can finally sleep well, and never play this fucking champ ever again.
Thank you for this wonderful experience. May your R's make assassins cry and your passive never be poked off. Do not make the same mistakes that I have in life. Good night.