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2024.05.19 21:21 Strong-Mycologist270 CSA disclosure with wedding 4 months away is making me want to cancel and I don’t know what to do. TW GRAPHIC

I come from a large, blended family. My eldest step brother is 20 years older than me. He has been a lifelong meth addict and alcoholic. He is already intellectually delayed and the lifelong SA makes him act like an obnoxious 14 year old edge lord in an almost 60 year old man’s body. He is sexist, racist, and unpleasant to be around. I haven’t ever really had a relationship with him and haven’t seen him in person since 2017.
8 years ago he started dialysis. In the intervening time he’s had 2 stokes and now he is immobile and nearing the end of his life. My sisters have graciously been helping with his medical care and one of them is his DPOA and medical point of contact. They’ve both respected my boundaries when I tell them I can’t and won’t help with his care and don’t want a relationship with him. My parents retired and relocated out of state and my sisters have taken on his care.
A week ago my eldest sister sent this email to our entire family:
“On March 30th, (second eldest sister) and I attended an emergency meeting with (eldest brother)’s medical care team. (Eldest brother) called the day before saying he had 2 weeks to live.
It was very emotional and we were all crying. (Eldest brother) was saying goodbye to us. We asked him who he wanted us to call. He told us to tell (second eldest brother, parents, and his daughter) to go, "fuck themselves." He talked about his wishes to be cremated and he asked us to clean out his room and split everything up for our kids. He started making apologies. Apologies for the last years of his life being so miserable, and not taking better care of himself. He apologized for molesting us when we were babies. He shared graphic details. He said he'd sneak around at night and put his finger in our "little assholes" and said "(eldest sister), you liked it more than (second eldest sister) did. That's why you're my favorite. You'd go, "mhhhmm" when I'd stick it in." He giggled. This was on a conference call, but (second eldest sister) (who attended in person) told me he also made a graphic hand gesture while describing the abuse. (Second eldest sister) and I were uncomfortable, ashamed, and in disbelief. The doctors arrived for the meeting and told us that if (eldest brother) stopped doing dialysis he would die in approx 2 weeks. Apparently, prior to the meeting, (eldest brother) had informed his care team he decided to stop dialysis. He wanted to die, he was ready for his life to be over but "couldn't bring himself to commit suicide because he's Catholic." During the meeting, the team convinced (eldest brother) to keep treating and give himself more time to decide about ending his life. After the meeting was over, (second eldest sister) and I spoke. I tried to convince (eldest sister) that this was likely a terrible side effect of being on narcotic pain meds. I didn't want to believe it. She and I spoke about it a handful of times since but continued to help (eldest brother), not knowing what to do. (Eldest brother) called (second eldest sister) the next day and apologized for "saying some weird stuff yesterday." Every day since this deathbed confession I have been hoping he dies.
On May 1st, I got a call from (second eldest brother) about (me and fiancé) 's wedding. I told him about (eldest brother) nearing the end of his life and about what (eldest brother) said to us. He said, "Mom put that into his head. That's the reason she told him he had to leave (childhood home), because they thought he was molesting you guys." (Second eldest brother) doesn't believe (eldest brother) molested us, his reasoning was "Don't you think I'd know if my brother was a sex monster?"
Both (second eldest sister) and I have blocked (eldest brother). I didn't plan on bringing this to you, to anyone. It took me some time to share this with my husband. It's painful and I wanted to protect everyone from this. Especially given the very happy upcoming nuptials and our moving back home. It's a complicated family problem but it's also mine and (serving eldest sister)’s private lives, our bodies, and now our reality. I realize that not telling you is not an option. There has been some communication happening around this and I want you to hear the exact context, not just "(eldest brother) said some horrifying things." I will not protect anyone involved in this, besides (second eldest sister). I am sending this email with her permission.”
My parents have denied any prior knowledge of this and my dad launched into a really pointless and hurtful fact finding mission which has made things worse. They are not showing my sisters the support they deserve and it’s infuriating feeling like I’m pleading withy parents to be decent human beings. I know this is fresh but I now want to cancel my wedding because I don’t feel any of the players in the situation can be trusted to manage their emotions.
I resumed therapy this week. I’m in a deep depression over this. I love my fiancee and can’t wait to be married. It’s no small thing that he has been my absolute rock and is also still very excited for our wedding. We picked an amazing one of a kind venue and the wedding is structured as a weekend of events celebrating us. The wedding is just short of 4 months away now and instead of feeling the excitement and fun I was feeling during the planning process I feel the complete opposite.
I’m trying to work with my therapist to navigate the situation in the way that doesn’t feel gross. We asked my dad to officiate which is particularly stressful and he’s contributed and chunk of money (about 1/3 the total cost of the wedding) to our wedding fund.
I love my parents but I’m really prioritizing my sister’s well being in this. My heart is broken and I’m questioning the values I thought I was raised with.
Anyway, do we move forward with this wedding extravaganza and just try to focus on ourselves and being in love of do we scrap it, go elope, forego the drama and save 8k?
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2024.05.19 21:19 FluffyGU So this happened today! 2 Billion power 🤣

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2024.05.19 21:19 lolok234678936 I am so fucked lol

I am a 22 year old guy, good looking 7-8. I'm fit but rather skinny I am intellectually gifted. When I was a kid and in my early teens I was a very weird and disconnected guy. I was generally treated poorly which ended up shaping the rest of my life at this point when it comes to responsibility and self-development. I fell behind my peers socially and in pretty much everything else. I spent a few years fixing a lot of my flaws and learning to be human like I was supposed to. By now I have achieved a lot of great milestones becoming higher quality but there are still things I haven't been able to achieve. I will probably never be able to fit in with the general norm, I want to, but it doesn't seem like it is reasonably possible anymore. I am still a virgin, I've had multiple girls in the past that I have been interested in but I either lost to someone else or fumbled the bag. I am also not very interested in a relationship until I want to spend energy on one. Yet I still have high standards because I know I've got qualities that can pull from experience. So I have little to no experience and I haven't had sex. The point I am at when it comes to acting on taking someone home or having a good time is so far behind that I am on level with teenagers entering the space, to catch up I would have to hang around those and start at the same point but obviously I can't. I would probably be described as quirky, which I absolutely hate and it feels like a part of me that I cannot lose. I am so starved for love that it is finally starting to impact my mental health. I genuinely feel that my dating experience is completely doomed and that I have to continue living on lies about it. I have come to dislike the general public because of intellectual gap and the way that the world is shaped to be against me at so many turns. I am just tired of having to keep this to myself when it has such a prevalent impact on me. If anyone would be up to argue about anything on this post I'd be happy to.
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2024.05.19 21:19 SamTheHumble Who gets BD first?

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2024.05.19 21:17 Wheres-the-Ware Living with my Childhood Abuser

I’m a 🏳️‍⚧️ female living with my grandmother and her current husband. I used to live across the country but moved back home when my grandma started presenting health problems. She is such a private person that she would never tell me her conditions until I moved in to help take care of her. It took her a year to share that she had a major cardiac event which triggered my desire to move close to her since she is the last good family I have.
My grandparents were extremely loving and supportive growing up, but my grandmother has always needed two men in her life. My mom has always joked that she is the most traditional member of our family- we are descended from a pre columbian matriarchal society.
When I was 13, my grandma started seeing her current husband shortly after her previous husband died. Grandma never married my grandfather but he stayed in the picture. This new guy, I’ll call him Peter, was super inappropriate. Right away he started bringing me gifts which mostly consisted of army clothes. He would have me dress up in them and then take pictures. My mom immediately saw the red flags and was very vocal about how creepy he was. My home life was extremely unstable, my mom and her husband would constantly fight- I’m talking screaming matches waking my siblings and I up in the middle of the night. My grandpa and grandma were the only sanctuary away from that for years until Peter was allowed into her home.
I remember one summer where we went over to his house while he was moving in, he gave me a can of some off brand drink already open. It tasted funny but I chalked it up to it being off brand. Then he told me to follow him into the basement and from there my memory just sort of fades out. The next thing I know we’re driving away from his house and I have no idea what time or day it is. I just remember coming to and thinking “that’s weird.”
After that he started taking every opportunity to touch me. I don’t mean sexually, stuff like always grabbing or rubbing my lower back whenever he would pass me in the kitchen. It almost always happened in the kitchen and it was often on my back. He would grope my thighs and tell me how muscular I was getting. When I was lifting weights in my home gym he would press himself completely against me and show me the “correct” way to do a tricep workout while I was bent over.
The older I got the more this behavior seemed disgusting and it didn’t stop until I was 23 but that was because I was never around anymore and had moved 1000 miles away. When I moved back I thought that I could let it go and at first it was nice to just be polite with Peter while taking care of my grandma. But then I got a spine injury and that quickly changed. I would lie on the floor at first for relief because I was scared of becoming addicted to pain pills. So for a month all I did was stay home crying on and off from the pain and praying things would get better. Then one day while playing a game on my laptop I felt someone watching me. It was so painful to turn at the waist that I had to crane my neck but in the doorway was Peter, staring at my ass. At first he flinched then tried to act like he was a concerned and just coming to check on me. I told him I wanted to be left alone and he stood there a while longer before finally walking away. I did start taking muscle relaxers but because of the summer heat and my constant pain I wanted to lie on the cool floor of my office. It doesn’t have a door, just a doorway that I put a curtain in front of. Well, Peter started acting creepy all over again. He would literally sneak across the house- his room is on the other side- just to peak through the curtain and stare. To him it was probably like a game, he’s an 80+ year old nasty man who blasts porn and homophobic rhetoric on his tablet. I became hyper vigilant, always stressed that he would try to barge in on my space at any moment. I would lay facing the door after the first time but he still kept doing his shuffle and slowly open the curtain even though the curtain is mostly see through.
I spent the whole summer in recovery and physical therapy but the floor in my personal space was always the most comfortable place in the house. This went on that whole time and every time I caught him- there were times I didn’t notice he was there until the last second so he probably snuck up on me several other times without me knowing at all- he would say “just wanted to check and see that you’re okay. Funny how all that “checking up” stopped when I was able to sit upright and walk without pain in my lower spine again.
After that it was like being 14 again only this time instead of touching he would ogle. My chest is still something he stares at 🤮🤮🤮🤮 Then in January of 2023 I caught him going through my underwear. I had been extra careful while washing everything because I was afraid he would pull this shit but I walked away for ten minutes and when I came back he had all my lingerie in his hands. I. Fucking. Screamed. I yelled at him to put my clothes back where he found them but Peter just started throwing everything from the washer into the dryer, and then he grabbed everything out of my dirty laundry basket and threw that in the dryer too. He likes to cover his tracks so I think he was trying to make it seem like he was being oh so helpful and putting my laundry in the dryer for me. The way he was touching my underwear told a completely different story.
I love my grandma, but at 22 I tried talking to her about Peter’s behavior and what happened when I was 13. Her response was “I don’t believe that happened.” So, now at 30 I don’t even want to try talking. I just want to enjoy my what time I have left with her because once she’s gone then everyone who raised me is gone. That thought is terrifying and does not help that now when I see Peter all I want to do is scream and throw things. I want to make him cry, make him feel scared, make him run and hide in his own home for the rest of his miserable, disgusting life. Anyways, just wanted to be able to say something somewhere for once and unfiltered. if any other people out there are feeling alone and stuck in horrible situations just know that there's love for you in people you have not met and you're worth more than the bullshit you're put through.
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2024.05.19 21:15 _Kutikula Buttons&Bugs Scenario 5 - Tinkerer

Finally in my 7th attempt I beat Scenario 5 after always hitting the wall (in this King Button) behind his 3 Shields.
For me the only way to actually killing him is preparing all turns to have my Sparrow Skull Helm (Get Advantage on one attack) on the exact modifier row with the 2x modifier and use one of my 5 attacks and pray. Finally in this attempt the 2nd roll showed the + an the King was beaten. The Beetle and the Sorcerer were then a nice dessert - but definitely a lot of luck involved for this scenario at least how I experienced it.
Anyone else on Tinkerer for this scenario or what were your experiences?
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2024.05.19 21:13 Ripturd Question about the structure of “this or that” arguments

I will use “free will versus determinism” as an example of what I’m trying to understand.
If somebody asks me if free will or determinism is true, I encounter several issues before I can even attempt to answer the question.
1) These concepts haven’t been defined - how is the questioner understanding or intending them? If the concepts aren’t first defined then it doesn’t seem useful to pose the question.
2) Why is it an eitheor? I can imagine scenarios where the concepts could be compatible, so doesn’t this imaginative exercise nullify the eitheor of the question? If there’s more than two options it doesn’t seem useful to pose the question.
3) Semantics - Even if we define our terms, we can’t be sure that the concepts of free will and determinism aren’t simply faculties we’ve subconsciously assembled via our own humanity and that the terms are only useful within our corporeal existence. We can’t know that we’re even hitting on something fundamental about reality within this debate because we’re speaking from a phenomenologically and linguistically human perspective, and the real facts or structural components that potentially make up reality are concepts so far above our understanding that we’re not equipped to access them. If there’s doubt that the language we’re speaking can help us understand truth if it even exists outside of humanity, it doesn’t seem useful to pose the question.
With these three issues articulated, and there being others I’m missing, I’d like to know two things:
1) is there a name for this systematic type of argument deconstruction I do mentally before even being able to discuss the question at hand?
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2) Do I have a point in the way that it seems like we’re just stabbing in the dark with these questions? I guess it weighs on me because on one hand, philosophical and ontological questions burn within me and it’s my life’s satisfaction to exercise my mind and try to come up with answers to these big questions, but on the other, i’m skeptical of humans’ ability to even come to close to “understanding” reality with our own minds and language.
I feel like philosophy is one of the most important things we can do while simultaneously knowing we might have been doing it “wrong” from time immemorial. The free will/determinism debate is just a quick way that I can give an example of something I find troubling before we even begin to discuss routes of action or solutions regarding any philosophical questioning.
Thanks for reading!
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2024.05.19 21:13 hahahahastayinalive AITAH bc i want less to do with my sister who constantly criticises everything about who I am?

my sister (19F) and I (17F) have NEVER gotten along for long. we've argued our whole lives and we are the complete opposite of each other. if it helps, shes an INFJ and im an INFP.
so we'd argued all day, literally since I woke up we've been arguing. so things were already tense.
we had to go to my grandparents for a birthday thing for lunch and I don't eat at the table (I never do, this isn't new and no one cares). but ofc my sister takes it upon herself to tell me it's disrespectful. maybe if I was at some formal dinner but these r my grandparents, I stay at their place for weeks at a time (mostly to get away from my sister). I tell her that no one cares and I just wanna watch TV while I eat.
so I put a movie on (I also asked her earlier if she wanted to watch any in there from my collection of blu rays but she said I only have boy movies, bc thats another thing, she criticises my favourite things but whatever). as I'm setting up the movie she comes in and says shes gonna eat in here. I told her I like to eat alone (especially since she's been pissing me off all day) and she's stubborn as hell so I decided to leave and just eat somewhere else.
which is ridiculous, she doesnt even want to watch a movie she just hates our grandpa and our dad so she doesnt want to sit with them (I have great relationships with them too, she hates the ENTIRE family except mum and nana).
but when I left, she gets pissy bc she handles emotions as well as a 6 year old so she narcs to mum (which she does ALL THE TIME). so I don't wanna start anything so I come back and just deal with it but then she just says despicable me. I'm like what? she says I wanna watch despicable me. yeah no matter I'd just spent 5 minutes skipping the ads on this movie and my food is getting cold) but WHATEVER. I go to get it and im changing going thru the motions again, all the ads.
also the movie I'd put on before was hotel Transylvania but she didn't wanna watch it bc its "sad". she calls every family movie sad. I csnt even say the word WALL-E or god forbid fhe lion king. I'm an insanely emotional person, but the difference between us is I like to express sadness and I cry a lot when she expresses all her emotions in anger. she says im depressed all the time and makes fun and asks if I "forgot my anti-depressants". I don't even take them, and if I did she'd mock me and say that that im a bad person for taking mental heath drugs.
so movies on, I can finally eat and for a while we actuslly get along and since it's a background movie rly she's not forcing me to rewind every 3 minutes. that's y I stopped watching movies with her, she made me rewind and it's take a afternoon to watch ONE movie. she also didn't want to watch anything with me when our parents were home as if she's embarrassed to watch stuff with me. which feels GREAT. I think it's bc she doesn't want dad to see her watch a "kids" movie like beethoven.
so we laughing, it's okay. well except the part when she says i need to eat like a "lady" and that i need to be "ladylike". do u know how much that makes me want to burp in her face?im considered relatively "unladylike" i guess. i swear a lot and i make a lot of dirty jokes. its part of my charm lol. she hates it tho. and my sarcasm, REALLY hates it.
i finish eating snd after a while I get a little bored so I start playing temple run 2 on my phone. she HATES me reading, or looking st my phone if she's with me, she gets rly angry but I'd figured since its just a background movie it's fine. she says to me, very blunt, get off her ur phone. and I have this thing where I hate being told what to do, if it's unreasonable or how they say it. so I don't get off my phone. she then opens her phone and starts watching yt shorts very loudly. I think she expects this to annoy me but news flash, I don't give a shit what she does bc I don't obsess over what other ppl do like she does.
still tho, I don't wanna listen to her preachy, anti-feminism, homophobic bullshit on full blast. thats another thing, I'm a huge supporter of the feminist movement and equality and lgbt rights when shes dead against it. she thinks mothers csnt have careers and being lgbt is wrong. she uses her religion as an excuse for it too. I'm a nihilist as well so every time I say jesus or oh my god she freaks out at me. idc what her religion is, I don't tell her what to do but she tells me I'm being disrespectful. oh I csn get real disrespectful real fast but I don't bc thats her opinion and this is mine.
some thing thats ironic is that im super for lgbt and women rights even more bc of her. I hate seeing how hateful she is towards these groups and minorities so it's made me support them even more. also fhe fact that she's called me a lesbian and intersex and a boy snd countless other things bc of my interests. I'm straight and an lgbt ally who loves marvel and star wars and video games and shee sees those as reasons to call me a lesbian? she also says I dress like one but she dresses like strawberry fucking shortcake if she had no style whatsoever. I wear movie referenced t shirts and hoodies and I like to think I have some sense of style but she says I dress like a boy bc of ONE Simpson skeleton on my shirt. she also says fhe complete opposite if I wear my hair in pigtails, that I dress like a little girl. which is it, sister dearest? am I a boy or a little girl?
anyway, as I was saying she starts watching stuff at full blast, I don't say anything I just put my headphones on. then she starts getting mad. oh she HATES my headphones, she thinks its the most disrespectful thing. I have a lot of anxiety when I leave the house so I have my headphones on all the time, music calms me and I listen to music every day and it's just something i do but she hates it. I dont see y it's different for me to wear my headphones if I'm not gonna talk to anyone anyway. she feels the same when I read around her. I love books, I read a lot and its yet AHOTHER thing she hates about me.
so she starts getting angrier and telling me to take my headphones off but by this point I'm done with the movie anyway and I wanna be alone so I get up to leave. I say I'm not dealing with this shit. she then puts her feet up on the pouffe (which I let her use bc theres only one and she was complaining) to block me. I tell her to move and she says to stay and watch the movie with her. now it's her words that I understand what she rly means. she wants me to sit and watch the movie with her for some reason. but no, I'm not dealing with her bullshit. she keeps blocking me and then she gets up and im just trying to get past without hurting her but shes not ceasing.
bc forcing someone to sit with u and bossing them around is the best way to bond with ur little sister ofc.
eventually I start shouting at her bc ik she'll start to panic if our grandpa will hear. (She's so fake in front of him too, all smiley and happy when inside she hates him. shes like that with every human in the planet besides me mum, dad and nana. she just openly hates me and dad. it's interesting to me how she hates everyone and makes fun of ppl online but yet she still worries about hurting their feelings more than anyone ik. she can be empathetic in that sense at least. it's hard for someone who sees the world in black and white tho, as she does. I just see fifty Shades of grey (hah).
but my shouting isn't working so I'm done and I shove her out the way and ofc that rly ticks her off. I don't understand what she expects me to do, but she gets rly angry when it happens. she shouts for mum ofc. I grab all my stuff so she csnt do anything to it (she breaks my lego regularly and changes the bookmarked pages in my books a lot and searches thru my phone and texts if I leave anything around her). im just heading to the backyard so I'm away from her, I thought about leaving the house entirely but we were gonna leave soon anyway (or i was told).
I walk past mum on my way out and she asks what's wrong snd I'm just too pissed off to rly explain anything so I just say my sister js crazy or something like that. I sit outside listening to music and avoid my sister rhe rest of the afternoon. I knew she'd be talking to my mum about what I did and spinning it so I was the hateful sister who doesnt want to watch a movie with her which yeah is technically true but how is it fair that she treats me like that still? am I supposed to just let her walk all over me?
my mum thinks that. she tells me to give in and just agree to anything and just do whatever my sister says. my mum is my sisters slave too. she'll do anything to keep the peace and just agrees to whatever my sister wants. the countless times she gets whatever take away she wants and im left with the leftovers in the fridge bc im the "easy child". Or at least I used to be, fron my mums perspective. just bc im chill and not insanely entitled and demanding like my sister.
so later in the night when we all at home I go to the kitchen and my mums in tjere and my dads rhere too, just eating. little did the man know what he'd be in the middle of in a few minutes.
my mum hasn't spoken to me about what went down at my grandparents, hasn't gotten my perspective but whatever. she asks me what was so wrong with watching a movie with my sister. I didn't even stop watching the movie bc of my sister, I just had it on while I ate my dinner and I told her as much. they always do this, say "with ur sister" when it's just something we just happened to both be doing. they make it sound like I'm deliberately being a dick to her bc im hateful. then my mum starts going off and saying shit like "u watch movies with ur friends and ur father, y csnt u watch them with her?" I didn't wanna say that I csnt watch movies with her bc it gets on my nerves bc my sister csn hear everyrthing in the house, we all constantly aware of that as if she's always listening, its creepy as hell but she's too nosy.
I say that I was done with the movie and she started bossing me around so I left. That's the truth bur my mum was like NO DONT GIVE ME THAT SHIT, U DONT WANT TO WATCH MOVIES WITH HER BUT U DO WITH UR FRIENDS AND UR FATHER. U NEVER DO ANYTHING WITH HER, HOW DO U THINK THAT MAKES HER FEEL? UR NOT UNDERSTANDING HER SIDE
ya know what's even dumber, they use my OWN FUCKING ARGUMENTS against me. I always say to consider the others persons side and to understand everyone's perspective. and she has fhe GALL to say I don't get her side? OFC I DO BUT SHES TOO FUCKING UNBEARABLE
and I never do anything with her or watch movies with her bc she hates mt favourite movies and shows and vice versa. my favourite movies deadpool and j spend mt days watching marvel, star wars, Disney, musicals, sci fi, action, romance, dramas when she watches REALITY TV AND HORRORS.
PROBABLY THE ONLY 2 GENRES I DONT WATCH. I watch SO MANY DIFFERENT THINGS and she happens to watch the ones I HATE. how r we supposed to watch stuff together with all that, and her bloody rewinding and her criticisms? ITS IMPOSSIBLE.
we agree on very few movies and when we do she wants to watch them so much that she thrashes them. now I'm a person who's seen deadpool a million times and I rewatch everything, I've seen the office thousands of times but she still somehow manages to ruin things for me. she nearly ruined fawlty towers.
now on one hand, my sister has no friends and every one she's ever had has always betrayed or bullied her. thats true, mostly. ppl have been horrible to her forever, I understand she is damaged but she takes it out on me. and how can she ever make friends again if they ever make mistakes she never forgives them? I have a friend who ratted me out to the teacher on the first week I met her for swearing bur she's one if mt closest friends going on 5 years now. every friend I have has fucked up before obviously we human we mess up and learn. my sister won't accept any mistake outside of me or mum. my dad has suffered from that as has my aunt and my cousins. they messed up one too many times and instead of communicating with them, she ignored it so it continued and now she'll never forgive them. obviously that doesn't excuse their behavior but she has to forgive or else she'll be alone. this is the only reason y I still give her chances, bc I used to think maybe she'll learn and get better. but she still treats me worse than anyone I've ever known. but I dont want to give up on her like she's done.
when I move out (as fast as fucking possible) I'll still see her but just a lot less. She and I rly don't work well and she hates everyrthing and everyone important to me.
Still tho, perhaps I am the asshole here. Idk rly. I don't treat her perfectly either, I try tho. And I apologise and I mean it. When she apologises she just means she's sorry she's hurt me, not for what she djd. Bc she does it again and again and again.
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2024.05.19 21:12 Chai_Ky The Case of Kate Blackwell: The Unknown Part 1

11/20/2017
Log book of Det. Ryan Snow
Case #2798: The Appalachian Murders
The past couple of days are events I pray no one else ever has to go through what Kate and I had. I had her and Mr. Raines cleared of all charges, having found the proof we all needed to end this case and find the true killer. Kate no longer has to go into witness protection and I had given the police a good enough lie to keep myself from looking insane in the eyes of my co-workers. I know no one will ever know the true story or believe it, but I’m writing it out here. It at least needs to be known written somewhere. Even if my and Kate’s eyes are the only ones that will ever read it written out and forever imprinted in our memories.
The morning Kate had run off to the mountains on her own, I had made my way to the Blackwell home where I was immediately met with Mr. Blackwell charging at me and wrapping his large hands around my neck. He was shaking me and blaming me for getting his daughter killed and not doing more to keep her safe. The police who had been called to examine the scene and read Kate’s letter had to sedate Mr. Blackwell to get him off of me, lying him down on the couch, his head resting on Mrs. Blackwell’s legs. Though the woman was distraught and begging the police to bring her daughter back, she still took the time to shoot that cold, death glare my way. The ice in my chest growing. I couldn’t tell these people that this thing had come after me to get to Kate. I knew it wouldn’t change anything. If anything they’d hate me even more for keeping it to myself.
The sheriff was there and he pulled me away from eye sight of the Blackwells, trying to tell me that this wasn’t my fault. But I couldn’t help but blame myself. I should have done everything I could to keep Kate as far from those mountains as possible.
There were no signs of a struggle in Kate’s room and the letter was definitely written in her hand writing. Her father’s rifle missing from the study, a backpack and some food and supplies gone as well. She had only grabbed one set of clothes from her drawers, showing she did indeed have plans on returning after only one night in the mountains to confront whoever or whatever the killer was.
I told the sheriff to keep any police from going up to the mountains without first allowing me to go up there first to find Kate. He of course argued, telling me that he couldn’t break protocol based on any hunches I may have had. However, I told him that I could get Kate back without her putting up much of a fight, whereas she may struggle with a group of cops who didn’t understand the situation she was in. I was close enough to this case to have built a trust with her after all. I was mentioned in her letter about ending this case for me.
It took a good hour to get the sheriff to eye the Blackwells, Mr. Blackwell beginning to stir from his sleep, and allow me to go to the mountains to find Kate. He didn’t bother to call off the search to the police that had already begun making their way to the mountains, but did radio to tell them to not try getting Kate home without first allowing me to speak to her. He then gave me twenty-four hours to find her to which I told him I’d only need at most ten.
Without telling him about the disturbing scratches on my car, I sped to the mountains, taking the same path Kate had that day she took her friends on their trip. The route, as the sun began to rise was scenic. A drive that may have been a sign of a bright future ahead with a beautiful week in the mountains of nothing but nature, was now a reddening sky of horror. I couldn’t understand how Kate felt, going down the same roads that led to her only friends’ fates to avenge them, but the feeling of guilt did weigh heavy on my chest as I saw the signs of the Appalachian Mountain trails grow bigger on the horizon. Guilt for not doing more to prove Kate was innocent, for allowing Mrs. Mayfield for getting killed right before my very eyes, and for Liam for not being lucky enough to save him.
When I finally arrived to the cabin, there didn’t seem to be any change since the first day I was called to the crime scene, the only thing out of place being Mr. Blackwell’s truck parked precariously near the cabin. The police tape was still up, the cars of Kate and Mr. Woolfe still left where they were, the tires still slashed, the door wide open from when Kate, Ms. Greymoore, and Mr. Woolfe ran out of the cabin upon Mr. Billings was killed by an unknown force. All the bodies had been found and were now being prepared by their families to be buried or cremated. Only one body of the five still roaming around to avenge each and every one of their deaths.
I called out for Kate as I made my way into the cabin. The Ouija board was still on the coffee table, the white line of where Mr. Billings had been found lying face first on the floor with his head bashed open remained on the spot. The planchette was still missing. I kept calling out for Kate as I made my way up to the attic, the door left unlocked, using my flashlight to shine down on the white outline where Mr. Steele had been found completely torn apart. To think Kate had done such a thing, I now realize made me look like a complete dumb ass for believing it.
When I couldn’t find Kate in the cabin, I made my way out the cabin, still calling for her. I called out to her, promising that she just needed to come back home with me and we could solve the murders together. I knew it was a lie and that the sheriff would immediately have her take away to some secluded place where the killer couldn’t find her, but it was all I could think of to try luring her out to meet me. Still, she never appeared.
The sun was soon beginning to set as I tried retracing the very steps Kate and Ms. Greymoore had taken to outrun the killer. I had passed the small shrine of flowers and the pictures of Mr. Woolfe where the boy had been found, his face permanently remaining nineteen forever in the photos of him with Kate and their friends. I kept going, trying my best to follow the same path to the cliff where Ms. Greymoore was found, calling for Kate along the way.
It wasn’t until I found the place Kate had buried her best friend that I found Kate. She was on her knees before the rock where she left her bloody handprint, sniffing as her head was lowered, her dad’s rifle in her hands.
“Ms. Blackwell-“ I began as I took a step toward her. I was immediately cut off as Kate jumped to her feet, raising her father’s rifle at my head. I jolted back, raising my hands up to show her I meant no harm to her. “Ms. Blackwell, it’s me, Det. Snow!”
“Detective…?” She gasped, slightly lowering the rifle, but keeping it on me. “P-Prove it!”
“I’m sorry?” I asked, raising an eyebrow.
“I… I thought I saw Sonja…” Kate breathed between tears, the rifle shaking in her hands, “it… It was wearing her face… It had her voice… How… H-How do I know you’re really Det. Snow?”
“You… Saw Sonja?” I asked as gently as I could with a terrified woman pointing a gun my way. “She spoke to you?”
“Prove you’re Det. Snow!” Kate demanded as she stilled her arms, readying the rifle as she pointed straight between my eyes.
“Alright! Alright!” I kept my hands up, backing up slightly as I tried thinking of how I could prove to her I was really me. “I… I, ah… I have… Had a brother… We went to get ice cream together once and… I dropped a dime and went to grab it… I was five… I followed it out to the road and despite how trafficked it was, I didn’t get hit. I grabbed the dime just as a truck was speeding my way and it swerved just before hitting me… Seeing how close I was to death, I dropped the dime and it rolled into the sewer. My brother called me Lucky Dime since then… Saying the dime was lost to me because it did its job in protecting me… I haven’t seen my brother since I was seven and I haven’t spoken to my parents in…” I looked at my watch. “Five years… No one else calls me Lucky Dime… Not even the people at the station know that was my nickname.”
With this, Kate lowered the rifle, her eyes softening from her furious fear to a more melancholy terror. She looked to Ms. Greymoore’s grave marker, her hand print just barely visible In the approaching darkness.
“It… It looked just… Like her…” She sniffed, “it had her voice… Why did it have her voice… Why did it look like her…?”
“Ms. Blackwell,” I soothed, relaxing now that there was no weapon in my face, “we need to head back, your parents are worried about you and the police are looking for-“
“I can’t go back yet!” She snapped at me as she spun to look at me, tears in her eyes. “That thing is still out there and will kill again unless I end it!” She held up her dad’s rifle as if to show me how she meant to “end it.” “I’m not leaving until I end that… Thing that had the balls to wear Sonja’s face and have her voice!”
“Ms. Blackwell, we will catch the killer, I promise, but right now, we need to get you home before your dad ends up killing a police officer for keeping him from looking for you.”
“I told him in my letter I’d be back tomorrow! I’m twenty-years-old, he can’t force me back home if I don’t want to! I just want to stop this thing before it-“
A howling in the distance cut Kate off. Coyote from what I could hear. If I couldn’t get Kate home, I’d have to get her somewhere safe. I turned to begin talking her down and taking her to one of the other two cabins for shelter. However, when I looked back at her, her face had turned to a bone chilling terror I’d never seen on a person before. She looked like hunted prey that had been found by its predator. She gripped her dad’s rifle to her chest tightly, her hand reaching for the trigger.
“Ms. Blackwell, it’s just a pack of coyote,” I tried telling her calmly, “let’s get to one of the other cabins and-“
“No, no, no,” She stopped me as she stepped back, looking around for where the howling was coming from, “I… Heard that same howling just before I saw Sonja! I thought it was far away, but she… She was right in front of me… She… Something was off, but it looked just like her!”
“Ms. Blackwell, you didn’t see Sonja,” I assured her, “I don’t know what you think you saw, but it wasn’t-“
“Lucky… Dime…”
I froze. My blood turned to ice. The fear on Kate’s face grew as she began backing away, her back hitting the grave marker. I spun around to see a figure in the darkness limp toward us, a scratched and garbled familiar voice coming from it.
“Lucky… Dime…” It wheezed, “You brought her… Back… Give her… To me…”
I whipped out my gun, pointing it at this thing that had his voice. I stepped back to stand directly between this thing and Kate.
“Stay back!” I demanded. “Don’t come any closer!”
“Lucky… Di-“
“Shut up! Stop calling me that! Who are you? Not another step or I’ll shoot!”
The thing stopped limping toward us, its body shuddering in place as it stared us down. I took the safety off of my Glock, ready to blow this thing’s head off if it got any closer or even dared using that voice on me again.
“Kate…” It turned its attention to Kate, a completely different voice coming from it, another male’s voice. “Kate… I’m cold…”
“J-Jasper…” Kate began to sob, “Please, stop using their voices… Please stop!”
“Kate… Kate why did… Did you leave me…?” Another male voice asked. “I… I was in so much… Pain…”
“Shut up!” Kate cried out.
“I thought we… Were friends… Kate…” A female voice. “You said you… Loved me… Why won’t… You let me have… Your warmth…?”
“I said shut up!” Kate screamed as she pointed her rifle and shooting at the creature. She had missed, but the thing still let out an ear piercing shriek as it dodged out of the way of the bullets Kate was shooting. It ran off into the darkness, but Kate kept pulling the trigger of her rifle.
“Stop!” I shouted as I snatched the barrel of her rifle, shoving it to the ground before us. “It’s gone, you scared it off, get to the cabins, I’m right here with you!”
I began shoving Kate back toward where the cabins were, the sounds of that thing screaming out in a symphony of different voices ringing out throughout the woods. I shoved Kate into the first cabin we had arrived to, Cabin #1 I could only assume as I slammed the door shut behind us. It smelled God awful, like the smell of the corpse I found on my first murder case, and it was getting darker as the sun began to sink behind the trees outside.
“Detective, it smell terrible in here!” Kate cried out, covering her mouth and nose, but the tears still falling from her eyes were still visible as they rolled down her cheeks.
I pulled her close and kept her behind me as I took my gun and flashlight out. “Stay close to me,” I ordered, leading the way through the cabin, “do not run off or use that rifle without may say so, understood?”
Kate didn’t answer, but I could feel the heat from her body following after me as I made my toward the smell. It was getting worse as we inched closer to a closet door in a hallway that connected the living room to the kitchen. The door was locked, but after a couple of kicks I was able to get the door to swing open, the smell blasting us in our faces making us gag and nearly throw up on the floor. I fumbled around the sides inside the room to find a light switch that I was able to find to the side of the entryway. A yellow light flickered on, revealing the door led to a staircase. I led the way down the creaking steps, Kate close by as she kept her mouth covered with her shirt.
Once we had made our way to the bottom, Kate dropped her dad’s rifle and let out a scream as we stared at what was waiting for us at the bottom of the steps. In a large pile at the corner of this basement room were nothing but skin and bones of humans and animals covered in maggots and flies. Some of the human bodies being small and child-like in size. The missing people who were never found after vanishing when they came to Cabin #2.
I grabbed Kate’s rifle off the floor and began pushing her back up the stairs, her screaming and sobbing all the way back up to the cabin. I slammed the door shut behind us and pushed Kate to the front door.
“We need to leave,” I had told her, trying to calm her down as we made it outside, “we need to get you home and away from here as soon as possible.”
“N-No… No!” She began fighting me, trying to escape my grasp on her. “No! That… That thing is still out there! You saw it! You can’t say you don’t believe me now! It even called you Lucky Dime! It said you brought me back!”
“I’m not saying I don’t believe you!” I shot back. “I do, I saw exactly what you saw, but it’s way too dangerous for you to be out here while you’re the one it’s after!”
“I escaped it once, I can do it again!” Kate pointed out as she struggled against me while I tried getting her into my car. “I’m not running away this time, I want to kill it!”
“God damn it, Blackwell, we’ll let the police handle it! Just because you have a weapon doesn’t make you safe or ready to handle something like… Like that… That thing!”
“It killed my friends! It wants me! I’m going straight to it so I can blow its head off! It’ll come right for me!”
“I came here to bring you back home, not let you accomplish some stupid ass revenge plot! Get in the fucking car, unless you want to end up like those bodies down that-“
“D… De… Detect… Detective…”
A scratched and moaning voice cut me off. Kate and I both froze at the sound of something approaching. I turned to see a police officer stagger toward us from the tree line. I could barely tell who he was or who he used to be, his head held low and blue uniform covered in blood.
“H… Hel… Hel… Help… Help me…" It croaked as it stumbled closer.
I held up Kate's rifle. "Stay back!" I barked. "Not another step!"
The thing that stood before us wearing the cop like a full-bodied suit stopped in place. It swayed where it stood, blood water falling from its head and down to its chest.
"It… It… It's inside… Inside me…" It breathed painfully. "I… I can't… Help… Me…" Its voice then changed to that familiar voice that made my skin crawl. "Lucky… Dime… I… I'm so… Hungry… Give her… To… Me…"
I pulled the trigger of the rifle, hitting the creature in the head, the rest of it staggering backward from the blow. Still though, it remained on its feet, turning itself to look toward us once again.
"Give… Her… To… Me…" It wheeze, blood and brain pouring from where I had shot it, it beginning to stumble toward us once again. I continued shooting, hitting it in the shoulder, the arm, the leg, the head again, but it just kept coming toward us faster, demanding I give Kate to it.
I was about ready to ram it with the rifle, having run out of bullets, when a voice off in the distance made the creature freeze just an inch before us.
"I'm here! I'm here!" It called out in an almost sing-songy way, using the voice of a little girl. "I'm here! I'm here!"
"I'm… Here…" The creature repeated as it jerked its body to look to where the voice was coming from. "I'm here… I'm here… I'm here! I'm here! I'm here!" It began shrieking in a high pitch wail. It sounded like a mixture of different voices ranging from child, to woman, to man. Keeping flat on its feet, its upper body fell forward onto its hands before speedily crawling off like a spider.
We stood in shaking silence for a moment, Kate digging her fingers into my arm while I was too numb from shock to care about the pain she was unknowingly inflicting. It wasn’t until the radio from my car buzzed to life that jolted us back to whatever reality was at this point. I scrambled to the driver’s side, swinging the door open as I fell inside to grab the intercom to respond to the voice yelling for me over the receiver.
“Det. Snow, what the hell is going on up there?” The sheriff’s scratched voice called out over the receiver when I could barely get my name out of my mouth.
“Sh-Sh-Sheriff…?” Was all I could respond with, still trying to wrap my head around what I had just seen.
“Y-Y-Yeah,” he responded in mock shudder, “what the hell is going on up there? I’ve tried radioing every man I’ve got up there and am constantly being left on red! Do I need to send back-up?”
“No!” Immediately, I returned to full reality, finally understanding the severity of the moment and putting that knowledge into my tone. “Landon, do not send any more men up here, call everyone back immediately! I don’t know what this thing is, but it’s too dangerous! Call everyone back, we’re heading back to the Blackwell house now!”
“We?” The sheriff questioned, skepticism in his voice.
“I found Ms. Blackwell, she’s here with me.”
I was met with statice before the voice of Mr. Blackwell blasted over the intercom.
“Bring my daughter home, right now, you son of a bitch!” Mr. Blackwell demanded. “You bring her home this instant before I decide to kick your teeth in!”
I opened my mouth to respond, but the radio was snatched from my hand from Kate. “I’m not coming home until I kill this thing!” She snapped into the radio. “I don’t know what it is, but I at least know I’m not crazy and that it needs to die before it kills anyone else!”
I grabbed the radio from Kate’s hand, beginning to tell her off when a agonized scream erupted from the intercom. I dropped the radio to cover my ears as Kate did, the scream piercing from my car to throughout the forest around us. The voice screaming and crying for help sounded male and it seemed to echo all around us.
“GIVE HER TO ME, YOU SON OF A BITCH!” A mix of the screaming voice and Mr. Blackwell’s hissed out after a good five minutes of screaming before the radio short-circuited and puffs of smoke flowed out.
After allowing my ears to adjust to the sudden silence, I grabbed the radio once again and tried calling for the sheriff, for the cops with us in the mountains, for anyone. When I was met with more silence, I slammed the radio back down on the holder and cursed loudly, hitting the wheel as if it were the source of all my problems.
After a moment to take some deep breaths, I told Kate to get in the car as I placed her rifle in the back seat.
“Didn’t you hear me?” she shot back. “I’m not-“
“Damn it, Blackwell, we have no idea what we’re dealing with, it can mimic peoples’ voices, and it just ran off like a fucking black widow!” I snapped, stepping out of the driver’s seat to glare down at her. “The last thing I’m doing to leaving you here alone and I’m not staying here another second until I can wrap my head around what the fuck I just saw! So, you either get yourself killed out here while I try talking you down this hero complex high, or you’re going to do what I say and get in the damn car!”
We stood in heated silence, glaring each other down before Kate huffed and stormed over to the passenger side of my car and slamming the door shut as she climbed in. I jumped in after her and began driving away from this nutty nightmare I had found myself in.
We drove down the trail back to civilization in silence, Kate staring out the window and trying to keep her tearful sniffs quiet. I had finally begun calming down and was starting to feel bad for snapping at her. She had only gone there to avenge her friends by killing that thing that had most likely killed a whole bunch of cops to find her. However, I still couldn’t just let her stay to hunt it and I didn’t want to stay out in those mountains with some kind of creature that could take the form and voice of someone I knew. I still couldn’t understand what is was I had even seen.
“Wendigo,” Kate whispered, breaking the silence in the car first. She had said it as if she had just remembered something important.
“What?”
“A Wendigo,” She repeated, turning to look to me with wide scared eyes, “that’s what that thing is! It’s a Wendigo!”
“Slow down, what’s a Wendigo?”
“It’s… Oh, just forget it! You wouldn’t believe me anyway.”
“Ms. Blackwell, I just saw a cop being used as a puppet and then run off at inhuman speed on all fours; I doubt I’m not going to believe a single word that comes out of your mouth now. What’s a Wendigo?”
Kate eyed me for a moment before releasing some of the tension from her face as she took a deep breath and began explaining to me. “They’re a Native American myth; it’s believed they’re the spirits of people who would lose themselves in the woods and would end up eating other people to satiate their hunger. I think that’s what that thing is. They can mimic the voices of people who died and use it to lure people to them, they can take the form of that person too.”
“Why does it want female hearts?” I asked, not realizing I had yet told her what my mysterious caller kept asking for when they called me.
“It… It wants my heart?” she asked shakily.
I cursed to myself before letting out a frustrated sigh. “I think this thing wants hearts, but it only wants female hearts. Why? I don’t know yet. But the only other person to be found after killing someone in those cabins was found with his partner’s heart missing to which he was blamed for taking out of her. Recently, I’ve been getting calls from some… Thing wanting me to bring you back here so it could take something from you. It would have taken Ms. Greymoore’s, but you hid her well enough that only the police could find her in time. Now, I’ve been getting calls asking for you and to get something from you.”
Kate looked to me in shock before a wave of guilt twisted her face in pain. “I… I’m so, so… So sorry, Detective!” She cried out. “I… I had… I had no idea you were being… Harassed by it! Had I known it wanted me back and was demanding you brought me here, I never… I didn’t… That’s why it said you brought me back! Oh, I’m such an idiot!” She pressed her hands to her face, grabbing at her hair between her fingers and tightening them around her eyes.
“No, no, no, stop, stop that!” I ordered, screeching the car to a halt, having to bring it to a crooked stop so I could stop her from hurting herself. I snatched her arms from her head and pinned them to her lap, tears flooding her face. “It’s my fault for not telling you sooner! I was too focused on trying to solve this case with the most efficient evidence I could, but that just kept me looking to you as a suspect. I should have stopped thinking you were the killer the moment I got that first call. There’s no way any of us could have seen… This coming… Except people who probably already believe in that kind of stuff or don’t stop to assume a more rational explanation like a cult… I’m… I’m sorry. But, I won’t let it take anything from you, not anymore. I’m going to get you home and then I’ll deal with this with the rest of the police department. You don’t have to deal with this thing anymore, it’ll be my burden from now on. You need time to finally get some rest and mourn your friends with your and their families. It’s already fucked your life up enough, I won’t let it go on making it worse.”
I stopped her before she could argue with me with a wave of my hand. “Your friends’ deaths shouldn’t be your burden to handle. I know you want to be the one who kills that thing and do right by them, but that’s not what they would want. They’d want you to remember them and continue living. They know you didn’t do it, so stop blaming yourself and stop acting like you’re the one who has to make it up to them. I will put an end to this die trying, but you need to go home and be with people who are happy you still get to live.”
Kate looked down at her hands that I kept down on her lap before nodding weakly and letting out a broken “okay.”
“Good, now let’s get you home before-“
My words were cut off when the honk of a car barreling toward us echoed through the woods. The headlights were fast approaching and I barely had time to grab the gear shift to put us back in drive as the other vehicle hit us, forcing us back and forth in one violent motion. It took me a moment to check myself to be sure I hadn’t hit my head on anything or got whiplash from the crash before I immediately returned my full attention to Kate who was kneeling over holding her head. I gently grabbed her shoulder and pulled her up to examine her head. It didn’t appear to have been busted and bleeding, but she was holding the front side of her forehead.
“Are you okay?” I asked her, prying her hand away from the spot on her forehead, seeing that it was beginning to bruise. “Can you hear me? Blink twice if you can understand me!”
“I… I’m f-fine…” she mumbled as she looked to her hand to check if there was blood on her palm, “I… I think I just… Hit… Hit the w-window…” She then blinked twice in my direction before looking to the car that had rammed us.
I turned my attention as well to the car to see it was a police van, it’s front crushed into the left of my front. I quickly jumped out my vehicle and stormed to the van, yelling at who ever was driving the van to come out and explain what the hell they were doing.
The driver’s side of the van swung open once I was near enough and a man in an orange jumpsuit climbed out, staring familiar daggers at me. The moment realization set in, my mixed emotions of confusion, frustration, and fear turned to fury.
It was Leighton Raines.
“Jesus, you really are a shitty detective.” Was all he said to me before reaching into the can and retrieving a rifle out from the passenger seat.
[END OF PART 1]
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2024.05.19 21:12 Ambitious-Desk-60 Lucifer vs. Mary, Chapter 2:7 Deadly Sins

Lucifer began approaching Mary, kicking the caltrops out of the way while Mary was swinging her thurible, winding up a swing, also careful not to step on her own caltrops.
“Heh…… You completely surrounded yourself huh? That’s good”
Lucifer remarks, before holding out one of his hands.
“MAMMON! GAUNTLETS OF GREED!”
Lucifer’s gauntlets turned gold, and the caltrops nearby began to fly to him, Mary looking at the caltrops, before Lucifer closes his fist, enhancing the attraction of the gold, Mary suddenly getting stabbed from behind from the caltrops, and a lot of gold jewelry and gems from the audience also adding up, Lucifer’s gauntlets now having massive spiked knuckle dusters, Mary taking the caltrops out of her back, dripping myrrh into the wounds from her Thurible to close them.
“Cheap trick..”
Mary said to Lucifer, who grinned.
“It’s your fault for giving me those caltrops”
Meanwhile, Göll was shocked at Lucifer’s powers.
“He called out another Sin…is that how his powers work?”
Brunhilde then answers Göll.
“Yes, it’s a trick he learned when he first rebelled to the 6 Heavenly Leaders”
Brunhilde then looked at Mary, who stopped bleeding thanks to the myrrh produced by the thurible being empowered by the gifts of the 3 magi.
“You already know how and why Lucifer first rebelled against YHWH and the other Leaders, right?”
Brunhilde asked Göll, who nodded.
“He thought he was above them, rallying a 3rd of all pantheons and even Helheim, but was defeated by Michael, right?”
Brunhilde nods, looking at Lucifer’s armor.
“To be more precise, Lucifer was the perfect being in Heaven. He had everything he could ask and more, like a spoiled brat, and one time, when training in Heaven, he had this thought:Why am I not one of the 6 Heavenly Leaders?”
Brunhilde continued, Göll listening carefully.
“So, he went to each of the 6 Heavenly Leaders, and told them he wanted to also be a Leader, even being happy with being the 7th, but after a council, all 6 of them denied his request, as Lucifer was not worshiped like a God by the humans; This enraged Lucifer, to the point he grabbed a sword nearby, and lunged against Ra and Amaterasu, claiming that he just has to kill one of them and take their spot, before YHWH’s bodyguard, Michael, intervened, parrying his strike before throwing him out of the Council room”
While Brunhilde was talking, Göll couldn’t help but look at Lucifer’s armor and weaponry.
“And so, Lucifer became very determined into overthrowing all 6 Leaders, and traveled across all pantheons, recruiting several angels, monsters, demons, minor gods, and even managing to convince major ones, such as Seth, the Asuras, Mot, Baal, and many more, and after gathering such a large army and increasing his own power, he launched a full invasion in Heaven, aiming to kill YWHW first for revenge, but was met with a single obstacle:Michael”
Upon hearing Michael’s name, Göll had memories of the previous round, where Michael had fought against Yoshitsune and nearly died.
“T-the same Michael who fought last match?”
Brunhilde nodded, continuing the narration.
“Michael requested for a duel to solve the matter, whichLucifer agreed to, but as soon as the 6 Heavenly Leaders gave their approval for the duel, Lucifer sent his entire army against Michael, and after a long battle, Lucifer was finally defeated by a single Angel, something he still couldn’t believe, despite being surrounded by bodies, and being all beaten up. As he was still Alice, Lucifer then asked Michael how he won, and why he didn't kill him off, Michael replying with:”My faith in Lord YHWH granted me the strength to beat your selfish Pride, Lucifer, and the freedom of death will not be a proper punishment for you” before casting Lucifer’s entire army, including Lucifer himself, into the jaws of the Leviathan, the Gates of Helheim” “The Leviathan? Isn’t he also one of the 7 Deadly Sins?”
Göll asked Brunhilde, who then replied back.
“He wasn’t, until Lucifer was sent to Helheim, where he plotted to overthrow it, and after breaking out once with the help of the 72 Demons of the Ars Goetia, he went to the Leviathan’s mind, and told him that if the Leviathan helped him, Lucifer will make him a name everyone will fear and submit to, to which the Leviathan agreed to, and with the help of his fellow other sins, Beelzebub, Mammon, Belphegor, Satan and Asmodeus, he gathered all of the prisoners and sinners in Helheim, and successfully overthrew Hades and Thanatos, holding Hades hostage to avoid the 6 Heavenly Leaders from intervening, and banishing Thanatos out, becoming the sole leader of Helheim.”
Brunhilde finished narrating, as Göll kept looking at Lucifer’s armor and weapons while he fought Mary, especially captivated by the dark auras surrounding him.
“So, in Helheim, he then realized he could gather sin energy for himself?”
Göll asks once again, Brunhilde nodding in response.
“With that same sin energy, he kidnapped Kanayago and Hephaestus, while also forcing cyclops and the souls of human blacksmiths, to forge him the weapons and armor he’s using right now:the Armor of Pride, the Gauntlets of Greed, the Helmet of Sloth, the Hook of Gluttony, the Sword of Wrath, the Shield of Envy and the Spear of Lust”
As Brunhilde was listing Lucifer’s arsenal, Lucifer unsheathed his sword, approaching Mary.
“SATAN! SWORD OF WRATH:ABADDON PLAGUES!”
Lucifer’s sword then extended in black and red sin energy, and swung at Mary, who swung back, shattering the sword.
“LUCIFER’S SWORD HAS BEEN SHATTERED BY THE VIRGIN MARY’S SWING!”
Heimdall announces, Zeus then chuckling.
“She shouldn’t have”
The shattered fragments, still flying in the air, then turned into various plagues:toxic frogs, locusts, boiling oil, plague-infested pests and a pitch black smoke, Mary being unaffected by the frogs, locusts and pests, and swinging her thurible to dissipate the smoke, but burning her arms on the oil in the process.
“WHAT WAS THAT???”
Göll screamed shocked, Brunhilde calmly explaining.
“The weapons and armor are imbued with the sin energies, and with that, Lucifer can use various powers, which were given to him by his fellow sins, Satan's Wrath in this case”
Mary then cooled the oil off with myrrh, and upon seeing Lucifer approach, she swung the thurible around herself, creating a cloud of smoke.
“Yeah yeah, keep hiding you little bitch….hm?”
Lucifer stepped back from the incense smoke, and tapped his helmet, which grew an eye between the horns.
“Helmet of Sloth, Belphegor…..what do you mean your Automatic Aim can’t scan weak points through that smoke? What do you mean “Be happy you can still see an outline?””
As Lucifer began scanning the smoke, from the top balcony, Brunhilde saw that Mary had made a wall of frankincense smoke around her.
“So, his helmet was made with the power of Belphegor, the…..sin of sloth? How does that even make sense?”
Göll asked, confused, Brunhilde looking at Göll.
“Yes, but remember:Sloth is the sin of inaction, of not doing anything yourself, and the Helmet of Sloth automatically tells Lucifer where his enemy is, any incoming attack, and can even focus on weak points, doing all the work”
Inside the circle, Mary once again, swung her thurible, but this time, it also spewed incense, accelerating the swing, while Mary began to pray, the audience hearing the prayer from Heimdall’s speakers, and began joining in.
“_Hail Mary, Full of Grace, The Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now, and at the hour of our death. Amen._”
Soon, Lucifer could hear the audience had also begun praying along Mary.
“Hm? Oh, they’re praying for her safety? Hehe, how pathetic” “THE VIRGIN MARY IS PRAYING FOR HERSELF? FOR WHAT REASONS IS SHE DOING THIS?”
Heimdall announced, also confused.
“Ugh, LUCIFER! ARMOR OF PRIDE! JERICHO QUAKES!”
Lucifer’s boots glowed black, Lucifer doing a roundhouse kick towards the wall, shockwaves dissipating the smoke, revealing the Virgin Mary, who immediately charges towards Lucifer.
“_Ave Maria!_”
Lucifer was caught off guard by the speed at which Mary approached and attacked, using his gauntlets to shield himself.
“What the-”
As Mary’s thurible hits Lucifer’s gauntlets, a glowing light emerges from the point of contact, and Lucifer’s Gauntlets then shatter from the hit, shocking Lucifer, Heimdall and all of the audience, even making Zeus and Artemis worry.
“THE…..THE VIRGIN MARY LANDS A DEVASTATING HIT! LUCIFER’S GAUNTLETS HAVE BEEN BROKEN!”
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2024.05.19 21:09 ramdytis3c Unposted Tracks - Part4 [Out 2024-05-17] [Bass Controllism Records]



DJMarz - I Need You (Nuta Cookier Remix) / Key F#m, BPM 132, 7:21, MP3 17.91 Mb
DJMarz - I Need You (Original Mix) / Key Bm, BPM 130, 6:31, MP3 15.91 Mb
DMank - Step On (Extended Mix) / Key Bm, BPM 128, 2:51, MP3 7.15 Mb
DNKA - Party Freaks (Extended Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 124, 5:11, MP3 12.60 Mb
DNKA - Party Freaks (Radio Edit) / Key Cm, BPM 124, 2:57, MP3 7.25 Mb
DREAMRDREAMR - Escape Into (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 140, 4:49, MP3 11.80 Mb
DRITTO - GALACTICA (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 136, 3:55, MP3 9.64 Mb
DUH PROJECT - Do It Again (Extended Mix) / Key Bm, BPM 123, 5:16, MP3 12.76 Mb
DUH PROJECT - Do It Again (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 123, 4:17, MP3 10.40 Mb
DUPØUY - Austral (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 98, 6:28, MP3 15.90 Mb
DUPØUY - Kiruna (Centeno Remix) / Key F#m, BPM 144, 6:01, MP3 14.80 Mb
DUPØUY - Kiruna (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 145, 5:28, MP3 13.50 Mb
DYSLOYAL - Push It (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 127, 4:03, MP3 9.96 Mb
Domestic Technology - August Is Coming (Synth Hiacynt Remix) / Key Fm, BPM 95, 3:47, MP3 9.20 Mb
Don Jack - Campo de Girasoles (Extended Mix) / Key Bm, BPM 126, 5:22, MP3 13.29 Mb
Don Jack - Campo de Girasoles (Original Mix) / Key Bm, BPM 126, 3:24, MP3 8.57 Mb
Don Tom Berlin - Nebula (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 133, 7:29, MP3 18.15 Mb
Donpairion - Take Me Higher (Extended Mix) / Key Bm, BPM 126, 5:20, MP3 12.96 Mb
Dotdat - Dub FM (Original Mix) / Key Bbm, BPM 142, 5:53, MP3 14.16 Mb
Downside - Blacksmith (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 140, 5:19, MP3 12.97 Mb
Downside - Deception (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 140, 4:59, MP3 12.18 Mb
Downside - The Watcher (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 140, 5:12, MP3 12.70 Mb
Downside - Trade Secrets (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 140, 5:31, MP3 13.46 Mb
Drayori - Drop The Beat (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 124, 3:16, MP3 8.27 Mb
Drucal - Crab (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 139, 5:52, MP3 14.36 Mb
Drumcomplex - Puppet (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 131, 6:58, MP3 17.08 Mb
Dtrdjjoxe - Sin Titulo (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 128, 5:31, MP3 13.44 Mb
Dumage - Hygge (Original Mix) / Key Ebm, BPM 78, 2:31, MP3 6.27 Mb
Durga Amata - Another Climax (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 100, 4:14, MP3 10.49 Mb
Dylan J, NotKeller - Exxxtasis (Original mix) / Key Fm, BPM 128, 5:34, MP3 13.70 Mb
Dyson Kellerman - Vamos! (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 125, 4:12, MP3 10.25 Mb
ENZO (BR) - Lights Up The Night (Club Mix) (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 125, 6:28, MP3 15.83 Mb
ENZO (BR) - Lights Up The Night (Radio Edit) (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 125, 3:27, MP3 8.57 Mb
Eazy Mezzo - Far From Home (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 120, 8:02, MP3 19.40 Mb
Eervwall - Do It Like Me (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 128, 5:47, MP3 13.96 Mb
Eervwall - Take It High (Original Mix) / Key Dbm, BPM 128, 5:18, MP3 12.80 Mb
Einka - Bb 7200 (Original Mix) / Key Ebm, BPM 126, 8:15, MP3 19.94 Mb
Einka - La locomotive rugissante (Original Mix) / Key Db, BPM 122, 8:00, MP3 19.33 Mb
Einka - Les rails d'hier (Original Mix) / Key Ebm, BPM 122, 3:33, MP3 8.66 Mb
Einka - Trains (Original Mix) / Key Ebm, BPM 130, 8:16, MP3 19.94 Mb
Einox - Pulse Canvas (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 100, 8:15, MP3 19.93 Mb
El Muerto - Alhambra (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 120, 5:11, MP3 12.80 Mb
El Muerto - Bahia De Placer (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 120, 5:36, MP3 13.79 Mb
Electric Pill - Echoes In The Dark (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 123, 5:28, MP3 13.29 Mb
Electric Pill - Total Chance (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 120, 6:09, MP3 14.94 Mb
ElectroVibZ - House Lover (Extended Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 126, 3:51, MP3 9.38 Mb
Elektronik Kitchen Of Ideas - Pacific Island (Original Mix) / Key Bbm, BPM 125, 5:27, MP3 13.11 Mb
Elias Garcia - Athens (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 123, 6:13, MP3 15.04 Mb
Elias Garcia - Following the Signs (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 138, 6:21, MP3 15.37 Mb
Elias Garcia - Heliophysics (Original Mix) / Key G, BPM 136, 2:41, MP3 6.56 Mb
Elias Garcia - Invent (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 100, 1:45, MP3 4.31 Mb
Elias Garcia - Linear Conjunction (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 106, 5:47, MP3 13.99 Mb
Elias Garcia - Multiverse (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 138, 4:28, MP3 10.84 Mb
Elias Garcia - Ovoid (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 136, 6:14, MP3 15.10 Mb
Elias Garcia - Parasite (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 136, 6:35, MP3 15.94 Mb
Elias Garcia - The Chastening (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 139, 5:53, MP3 14.26 Mb
Elias Garcia - Time Paralysis (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 133, 5:45, MP3 13.92 Mb
Elias Garcia - Triple View (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 136, 6:35, MP3 15.94 Mb
Elias R - Eagles (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 128, 6:01, MP3 14.68 Mb
Elias R - Loma De La Cruz (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 128, 6:04, MP3 14.80 Mb
Elias R - Webcam (Original Mix) / Key Bm, BPM 128, 6:31, MP3 15.88 Mb
Elvis Castellano - Boom Boom (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 126, 5:51, MP3 14.27 Mb
Emre K. - Escape (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 121, 5:15, MP3 12.81 Mb
Engelbert - Lynx (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 124, 5:59, MP3 14.46 Mb
EntryStars - I Remember (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 128, 3:23, MP3 8.34 Mb
Eone, M.A - i thought we were meant for eachother (Original Mix) / Key F, BPM 140, 2:10, MP3 5.68 Mb
Equalateral, George Croucher - Never Really Gone (Equalateral Extended Dub) / Key Am, BPM 126, 6:07, MP3 14.81 Mb
Equalateral, George Croucher - Never Really Gone (Equalateral Extended Mix) / Key Am, BPM 126, 6:07, MP3 14.81 Mb
Erik Bonaldy - Trumpet (Original Mix) / Key Bb, BPM 128, 4:46, MP3 11.98 Mb
Exxon - Dehumanization (Intro) (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 145, 3:38, MP3 9.12 Mb
Exxon - Desolate Overview (Original Mix) / Key F#, BPM 106, 5:30, MP3 13.63 Mb
Exxon - Future Society (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 133, 5:06, MP3 12.65 Mb
Exxon - Human Alienation (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 134, 5:24, MP3 13.38 Mb
Exxon - Serious Distopy (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 134, 4:57, MP3 12.28 Mb
Exxon - The Last Breath (Outro) (Original Mix) / Key F, BPM 132, 3:08, MP3 7.92 Mb
Exxon - The Perfect Dictatorship (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 134, 5:10, MP3 12.83 Mb
Exxon - Unestable Existence (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 106, 5:18, MP3 13.16 Mb
Eònan - The Force Is Strong (Original Mix) / Key Bm, BPM 140, 5:43, MP3 14.10 Mb
F-Lima - Your Call (Original Mix) / Key Dbm, BPM 125, 5:07, MP3 12.85 Mb
FAVRO - Xerese (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 95, 3:10, MP3 7.68 Mb
FAVRO - Your Heart (Original Mix) / Key Ebm, BPM 154, 2:49, MP3 6.85 Mb
FCKV - Thursday Night (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 124, 6:10, MP3 15.04 Mb
FLO - Ay Papi (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 130, 2:54, MP3 7.12 Mb
FNXTA - Do It (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 127, 3:39, MP3 9.04 Mb
FNXTA - Je T'aime (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 126, 3:11, MP3 7.89 Mb
FOSSUS, Ludwig Nylow, Tahiti Snow - Takatam Digitam (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 126, 3:35, MP3 8.98 Mb
Fabio Spzz - Rave / Lution (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 123, 7:02, MP3 16.96 Mb
Facu Baez, Braydon Terzo - 50 INCH WOOFAS (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 128, 2:56, MP3 7.32 Mb
Facu-SB - Chronology (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 125, 5:07, MP3 12.65 Mb
FaraoN, RoundTrip.Music - Angel (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 115, 4:46, MP3 11.66 Mb
Fear-E - 7.4 On The Richter (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 130, 4:56, MP3 12.06 Mb
Fear-E - Principles (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 130, 4:27, MP3 10.89 Mb
Felicie - Late Checkout (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 146, 5:18, MP3 12.98 Mb
Felipe G - Evolution (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 133, 6:01, MP3 14.55 Mb
Felipe Gordon - Do You Ever Miss Me? (Original Mix) / Key Bbm, BPM 123, 5:47, MP3 14.09 Mb
Felipe Gordon - Sander's Journey (Original Mix) / Key Bm, BPM 119, 5:59, MP3 14.55 Mb
Felipe Nova - Alive (Extended) / Key Ebm, BPM 143, 3:50, MP3 9.80 Mb
Ferhat Albayrak - Guest List (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 93, 5:29, MP3 13.64 Mb
Ferhat Albayrak - Promo Code (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 140, 5:29, MP3 13.64 Mb
Feri, Atakan Girisgen - Dancing O.a. (Original Mix) / Key Eb, BPM 124, 6:41, MP3 16.29 Mb
Fernando Chia - Ven,ven,ven (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 133, 6:44, MP3 16.58 Mb
Fernando De Matos, ALVES (PT) - My Mind (Original Mix) / Key Dbm, BPM 134, 5:58, MP3 14.60 Mb
Ferra Black - Titan (Moreno & Prieto Remix) / Key Em, BPM 128, 6:15, MP3 15.31 Mb
Ferra Black - Titan (Original Mix) / Key Bm, BPM 128, 5:30, MP3 13.51 Mb
Filippo Peschi, AnDe Trois - Kobra (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 138, 5:13, MP3 12.67 Mb
Filippo Peschi, AnDe Trois - Lost Unit (Original Mix) / Key Bbm, BPM 136, 5:42, MP3 13.84 Mb
First Contact - Echo (Club Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 123, 6:17, MP3 15.29 Mb
Fishfarm - Madness?Yes! (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 126, 5:42, MP3 13.84 Mb
Fishfarm - Summertime (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 127, 5:49, MP3 14.13 Mb
Flo.Von, Max Metzinger - Thinking Bout You (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 127, 4:40, MP3 11.47 Mb
Fontana - Lothargic Nights (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 128, 5:01, MP3 12.24 Mb
Fontana - Take Me Out (Original Mix) / Key Dbm, BPM 128, 3:54, MP3 9.56 Mb
Four Walls - Metamorphosis (Original Mix) / Key A, BPM 128, 6:22, MP3 15.56 Mb
Four Walls - Mind Charger (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 129, 7:09, MP3 17.44 Mb
Four Walls - Mind Charger (Pletnev Remix) / Key Cm, BPM 135, 6:42, MP3 16.34 Mb
Four Walls - Summer Nights (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 134, 6:39, MP3 16.25 Mb
Fourth Co., Chester Fields - Back to You (Fourth Co. Remix) / Key Em, BPM 128, 3:04, MP3 7.56 Mb
Frakfunk - Rubber Nightmares (Extended) / Key Dbm, BPM 126, 6:47, MP3 16.49 Mb
Frakfunk - Rubber Nightmares (Original Mix) / Key Dbm, BPM 126, 4:10, MP3 10.23 Mb
Fran Lezaun - Deutsche Sprache (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 145, 5:38, MP3 13.64 Mb
HIWK - Lights (Extended Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 150, 4:10, MP3 10.37 Mb
HIWK - Lights (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 150, 3:20, MP3 8.39 Mb
HRT3 - Tribal Tuk (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 140, 3:44, MP3 9.36 Mb
Halo - Hard Theater (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 138, 4:10, MP3 10.27 Mb
Halo Far - Closer (Extended Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 123, 4:59, MP3 12.18 Mb
Halv Drøm, Abnormal Load - Bucket featuring HALV DRØM (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 142, 5:41, MP3 14.05 Mb
Halv Drøm, Abnormal Load - One Eye featuring HALV DRØM (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 146, 5:55, MP3 14.60 Mb
Handt - Remedy (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 126, 2:33, MP3 6.32 Mb
Hannes Matthiessen - Cargo (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 138, 7:50, MP3 19.18 Mb
Hannes Matthiessen - Synthetic (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 140, 6:02, MP3 14.86 Mb
Harley Blake - Admire Carboys Guitarists (Extended Mix) / Key G, BPM 127, 3:49, MP3 9.31 Mb
Harry Judda - Envious Eyes (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 130, 5:26, MP3 13.25 Mb
Harry Judda - Fury 161 (Original Mix) / Key Bbm, BPM 128, 4:49, MP3 11.76 Mb
Hassio (COL) - LLORONA (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 131, 7:08, MP3 17.40 Mb
Hector Rios Vnzl - DON'T STOP (Original Mix) / Key B, BPM 128, 4:38, MP3 11.20 Mb
Helang - Black Angel (Extended Mix) / Key Em, BPM 125, 6:20, MP3 15.34 Mb
Helang - No One (Extended Mix) / Key Dbm, BPM 128, 5:36, MP3 13.56 Mb
Helang - Wise Devil (Extended Mix) / Key Bbm, BPM 126, 5:39, MP3 13.70 Mb
Helleroid - breakwalk (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 126, 4:23, MP3 11.10 Mb
Helleroid - drumwars (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 100, 6:07, MP3 15.27 Mb
Helleroid - freedoomed (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 106, 1:59, MP3 5.33 Mb
Helleroid - intimate idm (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 98, 5:44, MP3 14.34 Mb
Helleroid, diana r - coldbrew (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 81, 6:01, MP3 15.02 Mb
Hellotrip - Unbreakable (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 130, 6:24, MP3 15.62 Mb
Hermetics - El Cordón Dorado (Original Mix) / Key Bbm, BPM 82, 7:51, MP3 19.00 Mb
Herton - Aphrodite (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 145, 6:29, MP3 15.83 Mb
Herton - Mood Operator (Original Mix) / Key Ab, BPM 144, 4:55, MP3 12.05 Mb
HiWstre - Ocean of Love (Original Mix) / Key Bbm, BPM 125, 4:37, MP3 11.36 Mb
HiWstre - Renewal (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 124, 8:31, MP3 20.74 Mb
HiWstre - Tower of Babel (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 125, 4:03, MP3 10.02 Mb
High & Dry - The Generation (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 125, 6:32, MP3 15.80 Mb
Highcontrol - Leave Everything Behind (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 134, 6:09, MP3 15.13 Mb
Hioll - Iñikaru (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 144, 5:10, MP3 12.58 Mb
Hollen - Convert (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 135, 5:48, MP3 14.07 Mb
Hollen - Timeless (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 136, 5:53, MP3 14.25 Mb
Homaag - Glued (Extended Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 124, 6:20, MP3 15.22 Mb
Homaag - Glued (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 124, 4:44, MP3 11.39 Mb
Hossan - House Healed Me (Extended Mix) / Key Bbm, BPM 130, 5:01, MP3 12.38 Mb
Hossan - House Healed Me (Radio Edit) / Key Bbm, BPM 130, 3:30, MP3 8.76 Mb
Hot Disk, Xwortex - Fresh & Cool (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 120, 5:52, MP3 14.28 Mb
Humito - Monkey Puzzle (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 90, 8:02, MP3 19.44 Mb
Hunterwolf, MAVS - Parallel Horizons (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 123, 3:13, MP3 7.94 Mb
I.g.n.a., Rush Arp - Diamond (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 129, 5:51, MP3 14.36 Mb
Ian Climax - Feeling Greatful (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 115, 6:53, MP3 16.68 Mb
Ian Thaüer - Lost In The Music (Original Mix) / Key Bm, BPM 126, 4:33, MP3 11.20 Mb
Icarix - Just A Beat (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 126, 4:30, MP3 11.40 Mb
Icarix - Just A Beat (Radio Edit) / Key Ebm, BPM 126, 3:56, MP3 10.06 Mb
Icaro Mana - Way U Love (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 123, 6:20, MP3 15.39 Mb
Infinity Plus One, JaronX - Context is Broken (Original Mix) / Key Dbm, BPM 125, 6:18, MP3 15.21 Mb
Interesnye Oschuscheniya - Prosnutsia (Original Mix) / Key Bbm, BPM 120, 4:40, MP3 11.50 Mb
Interesnye Oschuscheniya - Sgoraya (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 120, 5:28, MP3 13.41 Mb
Interesnye Oschuscheniya - Skuchayu Po Tebe (Original Mix) / Key Ebm, BPM 120, 5:43, MP3 14.01 Mb
Interesnye Oschuscheniya - Ya Pyana (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 120, 4:44, MP3 11.65 Mb
Introtom - Gurm I (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 137, 8:33, MP3 20.68 Mb
Introtom - Raw Roll (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 134, 6:12, MP3 15.06 Mb
Iron perez - Analog Saturation (Remastered) / Key Em, BPM 100, 4:53, MP3 11.80 Mb
Iron perez - Apollo (Remastered) / Key Am, BPM 127, 6:44, MP3 16.27 Mb
Iron perez - Cóatl (Remastered) / Key A, BPM 128, 6:30, MP3 15.70 Mb
Italo Perez - Hey Dale (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 128, 5:01, MP3 12.13 Mb
Iva Dive, Arxip - Barna Fam (Original Mix) / Key Bbm, BPM 129, 5:37, MP3 13.90 Mb
Iva Dive, Arxip - My Name Is Waki (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 130, 5:00, MP3 12.42 Mb
Ivan Gennari - Eat The Beat (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 127, 5:40, MP3 13.68 Mb
Ivan Gennari - Pump It (Original Mix) / Key Ebm, BPM 127, 5:25, MP3 13.08 Mb
Ivan Soria - Sincrónico (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 136, 4:48, MP3 11.78 Mb
Ivanovich, Bruno Bona - Goodbye (Club Edit) / Key Am, BPM 126, 4:51, MP3 11.82 Mb
Ivanovich, Bruno Bona - Goodbye (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 125, 3:20, MP3 8.19 Mb
J-Lektro - Waveflow (Original Mix) / Key Ebm, BPM 125, 2:26, MP3 6.25 Mb
JAMM2 - Devil (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 150, 4:45, MP3 11.84 Mb
JESPAT - Free Your Mind (Original Mix) / Key Bbm, BPM 132, 6:33, MP3 16.03 Mb
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JJ Mullor, Collab Bro - Sarabambiche (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 136, 7:27, MP3 18.25 Mb
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JOTA (ES) - Extasis (Radio Edit) / Key Fm, BPM 128, 4:00, MP3 9.68 Mb
JOTA (ES) - Yaaah (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 128, 4:30, MP3 10.88 Mb
JOTA (ES) - Yaaah (Radio Edit) / Key Am, BPM 128, 3:30, MP3 8.48 Mb
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Jabes uc, Percy Hoef - Frequency (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 128, 6:45, MP3 16.57 Mb
Jack De Marseille - Kalymba (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 135, 6:16, MP3 15.25 Mb
Jack De Marseille - Prima (Original Mix) / Key Bbm, BPM 71, 8:19, MP3 20.17 Mb
Jack De Marseille - Techno Bass (Original Mix) / Key Ebm, BPM 132, 4:19, MP3 10.56 Mb
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Jack District - Sailing (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 125, 6:55, MP3 17.08 Mb
JackBastoww - Would You Get It (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 133, 4:58, MP3 12.03 Mb
Jackson Swaby, Omeria - We All Wanted (Extended Mix) / Key Dbm, BPM 121, 5:09, MP3 12.62 Mb
Jackson Swaby, Omeria - We All Wanted (Original Mix) / Key Dbm, BPM 121, 3:32, MP3 8.71 Mb
Jahn Solo - Awayaska (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 128, 4:38, MP3 11.53 Mb
Jahn Solo - Traumhaft (Original Mix) / Key A, BPM 112, 4:45, MP3 11.83 Mb
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Jakhira - The Moon Is a Harsh Mistress (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 122, 7:23, MP3 17.94 Mb
JamBeats - Crying (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 100, 2:56, MP3 7.39 Mb
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Jamie S. - Double Standards (Original Mix) / Key E, BPM 125, 7:22, MP3 17.89 Mb
Jarryd Jackson - Navy Blue (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 114, 8:27, MP3 20.79 Mb
Jarryd Jackson - Perspective (Original Mix) / Key G, BPM 116, 8:39, MP3 21.27 Mb
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Jason Azzardo - Circus (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 118, 3:15, MP3 8.05 Mb
Jason Azzardo - Magic Wind (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 126, 3:03, MP3 7.55 Mb
Jason Azzardo - Pollution (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 126, 3:03, MP3 7.55 Mb
Jason Azzardo - Pragmatic (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 126, 2:48, MP3 6.94 Mb
Jason Azzardo - Santa Fe (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 126, 3:03, MP3 7.55 Mb
Jason Azzardo - Solution (Original Mix) / Key Bm, BPM 126, 3:33, MP3 8.77 Mb
Jason Fernandes - sharks above (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 128, 3:23, MP3 8.14 Mb
Jason Rivas, Me & My Videotapes - I Wanna Be Your Driver (Extended Mix) / Key Bbm, BPM 117, 5:49, MP3 14.21 Mb
Jason Rivas, WOW!30K - Circles Of Love (Extended Club Mix) / Key Em, BPM 122, 4:47, MP3 11.73 Mb
Javi Borda - New Lolo (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 127, 5:25, MP3 13.21 Mb
Javier Anxiety - Monday Again (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 127, 5:02, MP3 12.28 Mb
JayLu - Move (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 128, 5:01, MP3 12.36 Mb
JayLu - People (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 129, 4:43, MP3 11.63 Mb
Jayfunk - Dark (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 108, 7:07, MP3 17.15 Mb
Jean Velit - Laguna Progressive (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 126, 7:18, MP3 17.71 Mb
Jean Velit - Prahistorisches Universum (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 125, 9:05, MP3 22.00 Mb
Jeky Saviro - Dance Floor (Original Mix) / Key Bm, BPM 128, 6:18, MP3 15.37 Mb
Jen, Ken Fan, George Solar - Moonbeams (feat. Ken Fan, JEN) (Original Mix) / Key Eb, BPM 120, 5:01, MP3 12.24 Mb
Jendo (IT) - On My Skin (Original Mix) / Key Ebm, BPM 127, 6:22, MP3 15.56 Mb
Jens Aelbrecht - Ancient (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 136, 6:41, MP3 16.62 Mb
Jens Aelbrecht - Time Does Not Exist (Original Mix) / Key Bm, BPM 138, 6:28, MP3 16.11 Mb
Jerome Hill - Stealth Imp (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 128, 5:16, MP3 12.88 Mb
Jerome Hill - The Shoffler (Original Mix) / Key Ebm, BPM 130, 6:10, MP3 15.01 Mb
Jerry Spoon, Fer Soberón - Fuego y Mariposas (Jerry Spoon Remix) / Key Dm, BPM 113, 4:38, MP3 11.28 Mb
Jizz - Sweet Spot (Original Mix) / Key Bbm, BPM 130, 6:26, MP3 15.52 Mb
Jo Paciello - Just open your mind (Deep Jazz Mix) / Key Em, BPM 123, 7:33, MP3 18.25 Mb
Joachim Spieth - Shadows (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 124, 8:13, MP3 19.84 Mb
Joachim Spieth, Cauê - Alpha (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 124, 7:17, MP3 17.59 Mb
Joe Silva, Mariana Canadas - Lucky Days (Joe Silva's Intrumental) / Key Bbm, BPM 126, 4:57, MP3 12.15 Mb
Joe Silva, Mariana Canadas - Lucky Days (Joe Silva's Mix) / Key Eb, BPM 126, 6:39, MP3 16.20 Mb
John Barera - Dance Again (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 131, 6:22, MP3 15.64 Mb
John Barera - Inhale (Aftermath) (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 132, 6:18, MP3 15.50 Mb
John Barera, Mark Hurst - I Can See Through You (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 113, 6:06, MP3 15.02 Mb
John F - Around Me (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 124, 6:04, MP3 14.66 Mb
John F - Vox Drums (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 124, 5:48, MP3 14.04 Mb
John Styler - Dreamscape Odysse (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 125, 7:11, MP3 17.58 Mb
John Styler - Echoes in the Night (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 125, 7:18, MP3 17.85 Mb
John Tejada, Plaid - Bittersweet (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 128, 4:33, MP3 11.08 Mb
John Tejada, Plaid - Freeways (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 127, 3:41, MP3 9.03 Mb
Jona Jefferies - Lost In Paradise (Eddie C Remix) / Key Bbm, BPM 120, 8:28, MP3 20.64 Mb
Jona Jefferies - Lost In Paradise (Original Mix) / Key A, BPM 120, 6:59, MP3 17.06 Mb
Jonno & Gibson - Stella (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 128, 7:04, MP3 17.22 Mb
Jonno & Gibson - Swans (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 130, 7:16, MP3 17.68 Mb
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Jonyx, Nexus Live - 002 (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 130, 6:00, MP3 14.58 Mb
Jordan Dae - Lights Out (Club Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 126, 3:42, MP3 9.02 Mb
Jose Amor, Xavi Sierra - Getting Horny (Original Mix) / Key Bm, BPM 126, 4:34, MP3 11.14 Mb
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Jose Zaragoza - My Anthem (Original Mix) / Key Bm, BPM 127, 6:33, MP3 15.84 Mb
Juan Ddd - Gumball (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 128, 5:53, MP3 14.40 Mb
Jule, Aumon - In My Head (Original Mix) / Key B, BPM 124, 2:39, MP3 6.80 Mb
Jules Wells - Dreamer (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 130, 7:48, MP3 18.96 Mb
Julian - Chasing Senses (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 124, 2:23, MP3 6.11 Mb
Julieta Kopp - Another Day In The Prison (Original Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 139, 5:34, MP3 13.50 Mb
Julieta Kopp - Closer To Being Burned (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 139, 6:01, MP3 14.60 Mb
Julieta Kopp - The Things You Can't Touch (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 140, 5:46, MP3 13.98 Mb
Jumphertz - Rising (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 132, 3:42, MP3 9.14 Mb
Juntaro, Space Castorz - Taka (Original Mix) / Key Am, BPM 124, 6:14, MP3 15.24 Mb
Jvckpot - Move Your Body (Extended Mix) / Key Dm, BPM 126, 4:51, MP3 12.15 Mb
JØHRN - Angy's Worlds (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 136, 5:43, MP3 14.01 Mb
JØHRN - Chronicles of a Stranger (Original Mix) / Key Fm, BPM 136, 6:07, MP3 14.97 Mb
JØHRN - Descriptive Tongues (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 108, 6:22, MP3 15.56 Mb
JØHRN - Edges of the Universe (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 135, 6:13, MP3 15.22 Mb
JØHRN - Reflections of Thought (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 136, 6:08, MP3 14.99 Mb
JØHRN - Scream in the Shadow (Original Mix) / Key Em, BPM 108, 6:35, MP3 16.10 Mb
K-Lone - Give It Up (Original Mix) / Key Cm, BPM 126, 6:37, MP3 16.12 Mb
K-Lone - Wait 4 U (Original Mix) / Key Dbm, BPM 128, 5:30, MP3 13.45 Mb
KAAP - Disco Drama Boy (Original) / Key Em, BPM 121, 9:08, MP3 21.95 Mb
KAAP - I'm Standing Right Next To You (Original) / Key Em, BPM 124, 7:00, MP3 16.83 Mb
KAAP - Jock (Original) / Key Bm, BPM 127, 6:47, MP3 16.31 Mb
KAAP - Razor (Original) / Key Bbm, BPM 132, 5:52, MP3 14.12 Mb
KAAP - Technogym (Original) / Key Ab, BPM 138, 8:14, MP3 19.80 Mb
KAAP - Transfix (Original) / Key Dm, BPM 120, 8:09, MP3 19.61 Mb
Ka Reem, Leav3l8ke - Hey Sexy Lady (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 130, 2:19, MP3 5.78 Mb
Kabay - All in (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 144, 5:09, MP3 12.47 Mb
Kabay - Amnesia ([rework]) / Key F#m, BPM 142, 5:25, MP3 13.09 Mb
Kabay - Breakdown Ritual (Original Mix) / Key Gm, BPM 145, 4:55, MP3 11.89 Mb
Kabay - Dukkha (Original Mix) / Key Bbm, BPM 144, 5:23, MP3 13.04 Mb
Kabay - Melting Sensation (Original Mix) / Key Dbm, BPM 143, 4:35, MP3 11.12 Mb
Kabay - Tribe of Liberation (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 144, 5:13, MP3 12.64 Mb
Kadosh - The Time Is Now (Original Mix) / Key F#m, BPM 128, 5:30, MP3 13.53 Mb
d_func. - Unified Fields, Pt. 1 (Original Mix) / Key Abm, BPM 125, 6:54, MP3 16.68 Mb

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2024.05.19 21:06 Plsforgivmi Miss my family after moving out

Hi. I'm 22 and recently moved out of my parents house 2 weeks ago cause of a new job opportunity. I had to move more than 2000km away from my family for this job. I accept, the job pays well, and its a huge plus in my resume and for my future. The relationship I have with my parents and brother is something extremely special. I would do ANYTHING for them. Since moving out most days have been fine. I wake up, shower, breakfast, work, cook myself dinner and talk with them. My parents gave up everything in their life so my brother and I could love the life we lived. I genuinely love my parents so much. Yesterday (May 19th) was my brother's 18th birthday. I didn't feel much that time. But I am heart broken now. I miss my family so much. I cannot move back due to the clause signed in this company that I would work for atleast 2 years before leaving. I know, some people would be like "Dude grow so balls and push through". I know. But I am extremely lost. I knew one day I had to leave my parents for my own future. But I feel like I never did anything for them. I wanna pay off their enormous debt, I wanna see them happy not worrying about money or life ever. On one end, I wanna push through and stay for my future benefits and my parents'. On the other hand, I just wanna throw everything away and go hug my parents. Im getting scary thoughts of me not being there if something happens to them. Im getting sad that I can't be with them during their birthdays.
I just want to hug them once more.
Why is it so hard to leave the 3 people you would kill for? I still talk with them, but the sudden realization of "From now on, Ill only see them twice or thrice a year" is killing me every second. I sound like a kid left in the kindergarden. I just want them to be happy. How do I manage? How do I cope with moving out? Will it ever get easier? I wanna go back. But I know I will never return if I go back. I just need to know they will be alright.
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2024.05.19 21:06 Plsforgivmi Miss my family after moving out

Hi. I'm 22 and recently moved out of my parents house 2 weeks ago cause of a new job opportunity. I had to move more than 2000km away from my family for this job. I accept, the job pays well, and its a huge plus in my resume and for my future. The relationship I have with my parents and brother is something extremely special. I would do ANYTHING for them. Since moving out most days have been fine. I wake up, shower, breakfast, work, cook myself dinner and talk with them. My parents gave up everything in their life so my brother and I could love the life we lived. I genuinely love my parents so much. Yesterday (May 19th) was my brother's 18th birthday. I didn't feel much that time. But I am heart broken now. I miss my family so much. I cannot move back due to the clause signed in this company that I would work for atleast 2 years before leaving. I know, some people would be like "Dude grow so balls and push through". I know. But I am extremely lost. I knew one day I had to leave my parents for my own future. But I feel like I never did anything for them. I wanna pay off their enormous debt, I wanna see them happy not worrying about money or life ever. On one end, I wanna push through and stay for my future benefits and my parents'. On the other hand, I just wanna throw everything away and go hug my parents. Im getting scary thoughts of me not being there if something happens to them. Im getting sad that I can't be with them during their birthdays.
I just want to hug them once more.
Why is it so hard to leave the 3 people you would kill for? I still talk with them, but the sudden realization of "From now on, Ill only see them twice or thrice a year" is killing me every second. I sound like a kid left in the kindergarden. I just want them to be happy. How do I manage? How do I cope with moving out? Will it ever get easier? I wanna go back. But I know I will never return if I go back. I just need to know they will be alright.
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2024.05.19 21:06 Necr0ntyr Duardin: dispossessed & chaos in 4th

As amazing as the FS and KO look, I'm a big fan of the traditional WHF dwarfs, as well as the old school chaos dwarfs. What is your opinion of these 2 factions for this reforged 4th edition? Do we have clear hints about some releases?
Personally I think they might take rid of the dispossessed for having a fully human faction with the CoS, and I'm afraid they will just go to the Old World game. If they release a new concept of the classic dwarfs for AoS tho, I'd be elated. In the other hand, I'm ultra excited for a new release of Chaos duardin, and Order is already crowded with many factions, so perhaps this will happen before, with or without the babilonian aesthetic.
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2024.05.19 21:04 Honest-Guy83 Guess you can be royalty and go to prison… twice. 😂😂

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2024.05.19 21:03 apop2299 How to date as a virgin in your 20s

Hi,
I'm male, 24 and work as a programmer. I have almost zero experience when it comes to girls, I've never held hands, kissed, had sex or been in a relationship and I think it really affects my life right now. I've only been on a few dates over the years.
Most of my friends are in relationships since high school, I just happened to be really shy, sometimes awkward, dumb, had low self-esteem, so no girl was ever interested in me. I thought that studying is more important and that good grades and a good career would bring me a girl later. Turns out I was wrong and when I realised this and started working on myself (fitness, style, money, skills), then the pandemic happened and now I find myself in a catch-22 situation.
I'm a pretty empathetic and somewhat emotional person and I sometimes feel very sad inside when I see younger couples, knowing that I never have and never will experience teenage love, but that's life.
I asked my parents for advice about what to do now, but my father is really uninterested and doesn't believe me that I have never been with a girl, while my mother just tells me that God has a girl set aside for me.
To be honest, I think my chances of finding someone that is going to take his time with me and not care about my clumsiness and my inexperience are slim to none. I don't think girls (especially the ones on dating apps) really have the patience for guys like me. And I know people would say that if they like me enough, they shouldn't care about this stuff, but I just don't think that's true. They can just go online on social media or on a dating app and find 100 guys like me, but with more experience. I don't think I'm that special so that she would overlook such a red flag.
And it's not like I tell them I'm a virgin or something. I met some girls at university or online and went on a few dates (probably 10). Some of them asked me what was my longest relationship, some of them did not, I sometimes told the truth, I sometimes lied, but I think they could sense I was inexperienced or something, because they lost interest after the dates. I asked two of them out of curiosity why they didn't want to continue and they told me that I'm a great guy, but they are looking for someone more mature and experienced. Right now I only meet women through online dating or at the gym sometimes.
I think my only chance is to find someone as unexperienced as me, so I just can be myself, but I just don't know where I can find such a girl. And I believe that the older I get the harder it is going to be, that's why I'm somewhat desperate now.
I consider myself a traditionalist and have a profound dislike for hook-up culture and would never see myself going to bars and clubs and picking-up girls. I want to find someone suitable for a long-term relationship.
Can someone give me some advice on how to approach this situation?
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2024.05.19 21:03 bethlehemcrane The Mysterious 7

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2024.05.19 21:02 Ok_Landscape7517 Single male, slightly used! 49

Just hope to find my human
Hi all, I’m David, no staged names here! And yup, 49 and sadly single for a few years now! I’m in Scotland, and would prefer someone on same continent.
I’m a simple lad looking for that connection! That one human I can come home to and talk to, hold hands with and just be!! Or they can come home to me!!
I’m 173cm short, not toned but defo not fat. Middle of the road dad bod!?!? Salt and pepper short hair, glasses and beard. Happy to share pics.
I’m looking for my fem! Not necessarily cis but defo fem!!!!! So you can see I am very open.
I honestly think Vanilla is only good for ice cream!! Very K positive!!
Likes are travel, photography, camping if able, scuba if able, computer, sci-fi, fantasy, books of the digital kind tho and many many more!
I’m passionate about what I do and if you take time to know me then you’ll see what makes me tick!
I am drawn to a small build person, so that does mean hight and chest sizes lol! Hey if women can say they want tall dark and handsome, then I’m sure I can say my preference also! I’d hope that your not a barbie kind of person, IE All make up and glitter lol. Great eye candy and all but not really for me!
So what else do you want to know?
If you’ve made it this far! Whoop well done you, next step is to drop me a message and say something a bit more than “Hi” please!
Look forward to hearing from you, if you are out there!!!
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2024.05.19 21:01 HoneyBadgernurse My personal overview of each type including my personal experiences *LONG AF*

Hey everyone! Lately, I've noticed an uptick in posts that seem to target specific personality types, so I'd like to level the playing field a bit. I previously posted something similar on a now-deleted account and want to refine it. Let me make it clear from the outset: I'm not here to shame anyone based on their chronic mental or physical health conditions. It's not about what you've been through but rather how you take responsibility for your behavior. We all have moments of being unhealthy, and that doesn't make us inherently "bad" people.
I might delve deeper into certain types because of my personal experiences with them, so I apologize in advance if your type isn't covered extensively. In such cases, I'll try to draw from examples outside of myself. When I talk about negative and positive traits, I'm referring to more than just one person; most of us have a mix of both. So, let's dive in!
INTJ Positive INTJs typically exhibit a blend of empathy and rationality, expressing kindness and concern for others in a pragmatic yet comforting manner. They tend to prioritize the greater good and aspire to leave a positive impact on the world. These individuals often demonstrate objectivity and impartiality in analyzing situations, possess a wide breadth of knowledge, excel in various domains, harbor artistic or creative inclinations, remain fiercely loyal to their friends and partners, maintain an easygoing demeanor, innovate by thinking outside conventional boundaries, and showcase remarkable intelligence. Negative traits in INTJs may manifest as arrogance and boastfulness, particularly concerning trivial matters. They might display hints of narcissism and a slight disdain for humanity, viewing the average person as intellectually inferior. Some may prioritize scientific pursuits over human welfare, exhibit materialistic tendencies, and exude cockiness despite lacking substantial accomplishments. They may perceive their viewpoint and persona as superior and distinct, albeit secretly valuing others' opinions. Additionally, they could come across as opinionated and argumentative at inappropriate times, struggle with managing emotions--both their own and those of others
INTP Positive traits I associate with INTPs include a keen sense of humor, sharp intellect, and creative thinking. They tend to excel in finding humor in the mundane, showcasing their intelligence through insightful observations, and expressing their creativity in various endeavors. On the flip side, negative aspects of INTPs may align with the stereotypical "average redditor" persona, characterized by tendencies towards cynicism, pessimism, and occasionally narcissism, particularly when their mental health is compromised. INTPs might grapple with feelings of cynicism towards society or the world at large, struggle with bouts of depression and anxiety occasionally during periods of imbalance or distress.
ENTJ Positive traits of healthy ENTJs in my expirience are easygoing yet engaging, exuding confidence, maintaining honesty and fairness in their dealings, demonstrating loyalty as a friend, possessing an open-minded and progressive outlook even on taboo subjects, actively looking out for the well-being of their loved ones, adeptly recognizing and leveraging others' strengths, and empowering those around them to excel. Negative traits in ENTJs may manifest as tendencies towards narcissism or sociopathy, particularly when under stress. They might exhibit addictive behaviors such as over-exercising, extreme dieting, binge drinking, or substance abuse as coping mechanisms. ENTJs might also display aggressive and defensive tendencies, sometimes pushing people away in cruel ways or sabotaging their own success. They may struggle with controlling tendencies, have an intense and sometimes bullying demeanor, engage in black-and-white thinking, and find it challenging to accept criticism or feedback gracefully.
ENTP Positive traits of ENTPs to me include valuing kindness in others, possessing a high degree of self-awareness, being helpful and supportive, exhibiting strong interpersonal and intrapersonal skills, demonstrating exceptional intelligence and education, showcasing creativity, humor, and cultural awareness. On the other hand, negative traits in ENTPs may manifest as tendencies towards compulsive lying, struggling to handle criticism, engaging in "Schrodinger’s douchebag" behavior where they alternate between provocative and defensive stances, displaying baiting behaviors to provoke reactions, lacking clear boundaries, occasionally exhibiting narcissistic tendencies, frequently playing devil's advocate without genuine engagement, fostering a false sense of superiority, and sometimes becoming delusional in their beliefs or perceptions.
INFJ Positive traits I associate INFJs i’ve met include being compassionate, driven, logical, exceptionally open-minded, possessing a sense of humor, exhibiting high levels of creativity and intelligence, being hardworking and dedicated, being a great friend or partner, having a passion for helping others, and harboring a strong desire to make a positive difference for the greater good. Negative traits in INFJs may manifest as an unhealthy level of competitiveness, feelings of envy towards others, susceptibility to burnout or depression grappling with an inner darkness that can sometimes overshadow their positive traits, experiencing shyness and social anxiety, fostering a sense of superiority, being easily annoyed by others, occasionally exhibiting misanthropic tendencies, and engaging in self-pity.
INFP To generalize healthy INFPs can be exceptionally compassionate, kind, and respectful, possessing a deep and soulful nature, demonstrating intelligence, rejecting patriarchal and toxic masculine norms, having a sense of fashion and style, being objective and fair, exhibiting high levels of empathy, self-awareness, and cultural appreciation, and being able to apologize when necessary. Additionally, they can be quirky and unconventional in their thinking and behavior due to their rich innerworld and sense of individuality. Negative traits in INFPs may include becoming resentful due to their tendency to be overly self-sacrificing , emotionally vulnerable and often of lack boundaries, leading them to continuously try to fix or hide from abusive or damaged individuals at the expense of their own well-being, potentially resulting in them becoming victims of abuse or bullying themselves. They seem to be traumatized by life experiences, leading to self-isolation and shyness, a general distrust of others, emotional explosiveness, being overly critical of themselves, exhibiting misanthropic tendencies, and becoming jaded as a result of negative experiences , not feeling like they fit in with day to day people.
ENFJ Positive traits i’d attribute with healthy ENFJs include intelligence, empathy, exceptional people skills, a strong work ethic, organizational competence, inclusivity, infectious energy, and a lively sense of humor. On the flip side, some negative traits i’ve seen in ENFJ are manipulative tendencies, narcissism, a lack of accountability or willingness to change, attempts to control or change others to fit their vision, harboring secret biases or prejudices, feelings of envy leading to sabotaging others to satisfy their desires and need for dominance and control.
ENFP A positive ENFP to me is Enthusiastic, compassionate, celebratory, charismatic, humorous, vivacious, imaginative, affectionate, steadfast friend, universally accepting, exceptionally inclusive. An unhealthy ENFP to me is approval-seeking, prone to entitlement, tendency to stereotype, inclined toward gossip, critical yet sensitive, lacks structure, may belittle others to boost self-esteem, prone to embellishment, and seeks attention excessively.
ISTJ Positive traits with ISTJs are humor, highly intelligent, diligent, values kindness and is deeply caring. My more negative expiriences with ISTJs showed me they can be stubborn, controlling, dismissive of others' perspectives, and have a tendency to push others away due to fierce sense of independence and can be slightly misanthropic or socially anxious. They seem to struggle to be vulnerable.
ISFJ Positive ISFJ to me is Intelligent, exceptionally kind and compassionate, industrious, gentle, dedicated to the greater good, respectful of others. A negative ISFJ in my experiences can have controlling tendencies, perceives boundaries as a threat, are closed-minded and prone to bigotry, social anxiety, judgment, and can be very demanding.
ESTJ In my experience healthy ESTJs have been Humorous, appreciative of others' strengths, protective of loved ones, deeply committed to family, grounded and practical. Negative ESTJs i’ve met have difficulty accepting criticism, are overly critical of others, dismissive and invalidating, pocess tendencies towards sexism and bigotry, classist attitudes, ineffective leadership skills, demanding and controlling, narcissistic tendencies, struggles to apologize, prone to delusion, cliquish behavior, may engage in bullying, disregard for boundaries, belief in exemption from rules while expecting others to adhere to them.
ESFJs i’ve met tend to be kind-hearted, organized, affectionate, industrious, supportive, adept at interpersonal interactions, helpful , genuine , safe and warm. Negative ESFJs seem to have a tendency to form cliques, are prone to gossip, display classist attitudes, overly eager to conform to societal norms, may bully individuals who are smaller or more introverted ,overly competitive and can be manipulative or self serving.
ISTP Positive ISTP exprieinces for me have been relaxed and easygoing, adept at problem-solving, helpful and supportive, values kindness, fiercely loyal , hard working. Negative ISTPs seem to be prone to impulsivity, passive-aggressive behavior, struggle with accountability for actions, neglects self-care, can become jaded, misanthropic , socially anxious and lazy.
ISFP Positive ISFPs can be Creative, caring, intuitive, respectful, serene, adventurous, fiercely loyal with unique personal stlye and personality. Negative ISFPs can be sabatoging, negativitive, self-pittying, indulgent , and critical/harsh on others.
ESTP Positive ESTPs can be open-minded, industrious, self-aware, respectful, outgoing, adventurous and easy going . Unhealthy ESTPs can have tendencies toward narcissism or sociopathy, indulgence, destructiveness, aggression, inclination to push others away, cruelty, and have propensity to break rules.
ESFP Positive ESFPs can be Incredibly understanding, intriguing , enjoyable and relaxed to be around, a friend to all , genuinely like people and bring people out of their shell. Negative ESFPs can be prone to gossip, seek excessive attention, struggle with accountability for actions, may use others for validation, can be hostile and aggressive , can exhibit promiscuity and disloyalty, unexpectedly traditional and conservative, manipulative and can judge others worth based on appearance and sex appeal.
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2024.05.19 21:00 Soulboundpt I'm losing the battle against my pc

Hey guys, this is my pc:
As of last month I've been getting stutters in some games, it started with pubg andI played it off as some patch that messed things up and didn't pay too much attention to it. As days and weeks went by it got progressively worse, not dropping more frames but more frequently. I run the game at 1080p very low settings, cap 160 fps, and interesting enough the stutter would always get my fps to 152/153(consistent). I played warframe and it ran like a dream, mid april.
Time passes.
As a pubg enjoyer today I decided to really try to find the fix for the issue and I could not find it. I have windows 10 and 11, dual boot, the issue persists in both OS. I've been playing Tsushima for the last few days and performance has been great, booted it just to check the frametime graph and it's really good. Warframe on the other hand left me fuming. Everytime I start a mission, land, press E to attack with the sword the game stutters, without fail, 100% of the time, doesn't matter the res, the settings, the display or the drivers, I've tried them all. If I cap to 160fps I get 124fps stutter, cap 50fps stutter is 39fps(consistent 22% drop?).. I installed it on my windows 11 and it behaves the same! lmao , what setting in the bios or something can cause something like this?
I just expected every demanding game to stutter if it was the hardware. Other games with some stutters are Scum and Helldivers
Things I remember to have done and tried:
I don't really know what more I can do, the system worked great before in all of these titles mentioned, now it's just demoralizing and frustrating, pls help
ps: sorry for no fancy images or videos, I'm already balding at a higher rate than usual typing this, can produce it tho but it will take time
edit: some typos, clarification specs
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