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I graduate tomorrow with my twin. I may not be a valedictorian or anything, but I’m still proud of myself for all of my hard work and perseverance throughout the years. I managed to graduate with honors: magna cum laude, and I think it’s a pretty great achievement. I will also be going to a pretty good university with a 45% acceptance rate, which I also think is a pretty good achievement. But during a time that should be about me and my twin, my family decides to feud and I keep getting screwed over.
Starting off, I just need to vent about how unfair it is for twins during graduation season. I’m about to graduate. I don’t need “congrats grad” merchandise, especially with my grad year on it. At least I can pass down the stuff without a glaring “2024” printed on the front. I can’t speak for all grads, but all I want is money to save or spend for my dorm decor. I don’t mean to sound selfish, but all I have gotten was a $5 makeup bag, 6 water bottles with some saying indicating I’m a 2024 grad on it, and some random gift card for $15 for a bunch of places that aren’t even in my local area. Like??? I get I’m a twin and paying double gets expensive, but my parents gave your child and their older sibling $50. On top of that, college tuition is not cheap. No one who isn’t a twin will never understand. I have been screwed over my entire life, and when I finally thought I was gaining independence, people go and do this.
Now to the juicy stuff: family drama!! My life is not the best, but I am grateful for the people in it that actually care for me. Then you have people like my brother, who is ten years older than me, married, has a kid that I haven’t seen in over a year, and still acts like a child. I swear he has some dominance fetish because he is always looking for people to play “following the leader” with. He likes submissive people that essentially bow down to him at every whim and feel grateful when he graces them with forgiveness. When you are graced with his forgiveness after apologizing for something you didn’t do or after being deemed worthy, you can go skip with him in the flower field and pretend like nothing happened. He is arrogant, selfish, and the ultimate narcissist. If you can’t tell, I somewhat hate him, though it wasn’t always like this. My twin and I actually used to adore him before he went psycho, which probably fed his fetish. The reason for his current behaviors is a long story I shall save for another time. Basically, he hates me because I’m not submissive and he doesn’t like that, which is why he likes my twin more because she is very shy and can be taken advantage of very easily. I don’t put up with that, but I am still a girl that can experience emotions of sensitivity and such. Recently, I have actually thrown up after deliberating over this whole situation on repeat on top of graduating, finding a roommate, having feelings that I can’t imagine myself in the future, financial issues, my already present anxiety and depression, having my family constantly confide in me as the “calm one,” etc. It all piles up and it is so mentally draining that I broke. To top it all off, my twin invited this monster to our graduation without my consent. But of course I would have no say. He actually called her today after she told him that she wanted to move forward from this pettiness and visit him with our mom, dad, and me. He had a stipulation: it was either us, the twins, or no one. He is such a coward. Claiming that our poor mother is brainwashing us without even considering the fact that I’m perfectly capable of forming my own beliefs. Our mother loves us all to a fault, and he loves to take advantage of her on repeat by constantly toying with her emotions (for example, he would only unblock her on social media if he wanted her to see something then block her again; he would claim that she is brainwashing us; he called her a narcissist and monster that abused him when he was a kid - total and complete lie by the way. He lived a perfectly comfortable life and had his Xbox taken away once but I digress). Anyways, he basically does not want to come to our graduation, and I am so tempted to send him a very angry message. The only thing that is stopping me are the consequences of my actions in a heated moment since I don’t know if this text will negatively impact my future. But I do know that my brother will have to face the consequences of his actions for being the only one who didn’t attend our graduation, and you bet I am going to hold that over him for the rest of my damn life. I’m going to wave it high and proud like an American flag on the 4th of July because my own brother, that I once had a close relationship with, decided to be a coward just because he wants control and my parents won’t let him. I don’t care if I ever see him again since I know the brother I knew and loved is king gone in all of his hatred. Even during the time I was close to him, he was not who I thought he was. I am now hearing all of these terrible things as I grow older, and he is and was a terrible person, a bully above all else. You so badly want to believe the person you love, especially someone who shares your blood, is inherently good. Now that my rose-tinted glasses were shattered the day he told me to “get the fuck out of my house,” I can now see him for who he truly is. I wish he would just get over himself and finally admit that he isn’t all-knowing or all-dominant. That he needs his family.

Backround info: I (16f) share a room with my sister (12f) and two of my friends that we took in to live with us permanently. We will call them Hope (16f) and Harmony (18f). Two of us typically sleep on my queen bed, the other a floor matress, while my sister sleeps in her own bed.
After prom Hope came up with the idea that we invite a mutual friend of ours over, Jude (17f). Jude has known hope since middle school and have been a "thing" on and off until they finally started dating like a month or 2 ago. Well at first when Hope and Harmony moved in, hope was constantly seeking affection with me (not sexual) and we would cuddle in an intimate way where our legs were intwined and we would be completely intwined in general and it we would even stay up all night talking and connecting. However when i started having conflicts which have been solved she stopped giving me affection as often. It was over regular friendship fears of not feeling good enough.
Well we resolved and it was still not often very much but she stopped altogether after she started dating jude. Well this has made me feel like i was the placeholder for jude and that it might have become deeper for me than i thought so i feel played with. I also feel embarrassed because i am such a prune that idk what normal behaviofeelings are for a friendship. But clearly ive been trying to take the time to get over it while i can and just move on.
Well when jude spent the night after prom at our house: Hope, Jude, and I slept on the big bed while harmony slept on the matress. Well this morning i woke up to them cuddled up and intertwined, making out. Like i could hear the spit and their tongues and they were having a full makeout session right next to me. They stopped when i made it fully clear i was awake but i felt like my space was invaded in some way and a certain anxiety or disgust.
Being intimate with your partner isnt gross to me but nobody in their right mind wants to wake up to that. Im used to my friends keeping that more discreet and private and being more considerate of my feelings. And i don't know if i am just being sensitive misophonic bitch or if this is genuinely a valid reason to ask my mom to not have jude over anymore. I don't want to have her over if the only reason is for consideration of her girlfriend without the consideration of other friends she is hanging out with. As well as feeling unimportant to a friend who is meant to be playing a sisterly figure.

Hard to pack in years of what has built up to this particular post into a couple reasonable paragraphs, so maybe I'll just skip to the end. It's all the same story we've read in here post after post, just a new OP.
I truly believe I'm now experiencing ptsd from the last couple years in particular, of what took me too long to realize what was straight up abuse.
I arrived in the world 40 ish years ago as an insecure, people pleaser. I've had multiple therapists listen to me talk about my low self esteem, and lack of confidence, my fear of disappointing people, strangers or family. They all would ask, "what happened to you?" Nothing. Nothing happened. I had the most normal 1980s childhood. Riding bikes across town, playing in creeks, dance lessons, horseback riding lessons... great childhood. While my parents did divorce when I was 17, I was happy for them. They weren't meant for eachother., Even though they split up, and my dad was even caught in an affair, they didn't scream and throw things. They had little arguments here and there, nothing traumatic, like ever. All that said to say, I'm just an insecure baby, for no apparent, evident reason.
I've been married (#2) for 11 years. 7 of which, (3 years together before marriage) were the most magical, perfect, soul mate type love years of my entire life. We were disgusting. We made people that were older and married longer jealous. It was gross and we were so insane over eachother. I left my first marriage for this insane love.
This story is already getting too long. Tell me this wouldn't cause someone trauma, and subsequent ptsd... somewhere along the way, a few years ago, a switch was flipped. There was screaming, jealousy, and screaming. He's never put a hand on me, nor threatened it. Psychologically, I am destroyed, and sometimes wish he would have just knocked me out instead.
He has threatened no less than 15 times to divorce me. Told me to start looking for a place. Told me good luck on your own, you'll never make it without me. Told me he doesn't love me. Threatened to take my kid away. Neither of us drink, no drugs, no pot, nothing.
Anyway, he says over and over he's gonna divorce me. Proceeds to sleep on the couch for a year now and has not filed for divorce. (Asked me why I haven't even though he was the one using it as a threat.) So now, I come home every day to this house where he just lives on the couch, and proceeds to ask me how my day was as if nothing ever happened. I feel like a wild animal that the trap door just shut behind and am figuratively smashing into the walls trying to escape because I don't know what the fuck just happened. He won't leave. He told me he was leaving. He will not leave. Now tells me that my older child (not his) and I need to move. (We have a younger child together also.)
I was a stay at home mom for nearly 18 years. Just started back to work after he threatened me a year ago. Not sure if you've looked outside in the US right now, but it's unaffordable by every stretch for almost anyone to survive. He earns 50% more than me, and could easily afford 2 bedrooms somewhere, where I don't even meet minimum requirements to start over, and I need more rooms. I can stay where I am and make it work, and that's my only option.
He makes me feel like I'm losing my mind, all the unfulfilled threats, screaming so hard he got spit on my face (apparently my fault because I was "too close" to his face.), and then asking if I want some dinner the next day. What planet am I on?

Inscryption x Dead By Daylight
Just played Inscryption for the first time and thought it was an absolutely incredible game. If you haven’t played the game and you’re even slightly interested, do it right now and don’t read anything about this post, go in as blind as you can. If you don’t care, read up then.
Marking as spoiler since technically this spoils a lot of cool stuff about this game, seriously check it out if you’re interested
New killer - The Scrybes New Survivor - Luke Carder
Height - Tall Move speed - 4.6 Terror Radius - 32
Power - Methods of Inscryption Press the power button to equip a power wheel. Whatever power you select changes your current killer to the scrybe the power is associated with.
Up- Leshy’s camera Equip Leshy’s camera. The camera fires a large cone in a bright flash. Survivors hit by the flash are unable to drop pallets or vault windows and gain a stack of Inscribed.
CD - 15 seconds
Right - P03’s Particle scanner Equip P03’s Particle scanner. P03’s scanner creates an incredibly large field in front of you. The first healthy survivor caught in the field enters The Factory. The Factory is a small area with one window and a pallet gym. While in this area, all perks are disabled, they gain a stack of Inscribed, and P03 gains 20% increased lunge range while inside The Factory. If the survivor is downed, P03 gains the same buff for the next 45 seconds afterwards, and all generators lose 10% progress. If the survivor escapes, both players return to the initial position where the power began.
CD - 130 seconds
Down - Grimora’s quill Equip Grimora’s epitaph and quill. Summon a skeleton which will patrol the trial, and chase after the first survivor it sees. When it hits a survivor, it instantly perishes and takes a health state of that survivor. Survivors who have a Skeleton summoned within 16 meters of them gain the hindered status effect and gain a stack of Inscribed. The same effects are applied if a survivor is hit by a skeleton.
CD - 60 seconds
Left - Magicus’ brush Equip a paintbrush. While holding the power button, begin painting. Each stroke of the brush increases the brushes power. Each brush increases the range of the Paint Throw attack, to an eventual maximum. After releasing the button, 5 globs of paint is launched in a wave shape and injures survivors hit by the wave, and gives them the Inscribed status effect.
CD - 15 seconds
Inscribed status effect A survivor can have up to 5 stacks of the Inscribed effect. At 5 stacks, the killer is given a card of that survivor. The card reveals that survivors solo q icon to the killer, and shows their perk loadout on the UI. This effect cannot be removed by any means.
Addons - Brown
Starving man card - Powers no longer give the Inscribed status effect. Gain 100% bonus bp for using powers
Gravedigger card - Increase the field of vision and detection range of the skeleton by 10%
Orange Mox Card - increases the spacing out of the Paint attack’s projectiles by 4 meters
Empty Cell Card - removes the brief move speed penalty after ending early or failing The Factory chase
Yellow
Geck Card - Leshy’s camera is instantly recharged if it doesn’t connect with a survivor
Necromancer Card - summoning a skeleton gives the Scrybes a 4% haste effect for 3 seconds
49er Card - Using the Particle Scanner causes all other survivors not brought to The Factory survivors to scream and gives them the blindness status effect for 60 seconds
Mage Knight Card - Paint from a paint attack bounces off the environment once
Squirrel Card - Hitting a Camera Flash reduces the cooldowns of all powers by 15 %
Blue Mox Card - Hitting a Paint Attack reduces the cooldowns of all powers by 15%
Green
Cockroach Card - Getting stunned by any means reduces all current power cooldowns by 50%
Double Gunner Card - the amount of time a survivor spends in the factory is increased by 3 seconds when they get hit with a basic attack
Bone Heap Card - Each time you down a survivor, instantly recharge the Quill and Epitaph
Green Mox Card - Paint attacks inflict Exhausted on survivors for 15 seconds
Strange Larvae Card - Survivors who complete a generator gain one stack of Inscribed “A largely unimpressive specimen” - Leshy
Purple
Urayuli Card - Flashes from Leshy’s camera deal one health state, and no longer removes the ability to vault pallets or windows
Increase the cooldown of Leshy’s camera by 15 seconds “The level of strength needs no explanation.” - Leshy
Stinkbug Card - When summoning a skeleton, spawn a second random skeleton at least 32 meters away from the killer “It’s me.” - Stinkbug
Stoat Card - Survivors have their aura revealed for the entire duration of the Factory chase “Bad move.” - Stoat
Stunted Wolf Card - after standing still for 3 and charging a Paint Attack, the Paint Attack ignores all walls for its entire duration. “Use me well.” - Stunted Wolf
Iridescent
Iridescent Inscryption Floppy Disk An entity created copy of the accursed game Inscryption
Flashes from Leshy’s camera briefly blind survivors Survivors who destroy a skeleton with a pallet lose a health state The Factory blocks all generators while in a chase in The Factory, but no longer regresses them upon downing the survivor Paint Attack projectiles pierce survivors
“I think I just beat him!” - Luke Carder
OLD_DATA Card - When a survivor reaches maximum stacks of Inscribed, their aura is revealed when not in chase until they are downed next. “Weak deck. Total lack of synergy.” - P03

You can see my first post here: https://www.reddit.com/Cityofheroes/comments/1cqpvrk/earthbending_for_noobs_the_earthearth_dominato
For my second build, I am going to try and explain this somewhat unique build and play style. The reason I call it the anti-tank is because it doesn't tend to jive with a typical taunt tank that leads from the front. This plays like a ranged, stealthy scout that sets up groups for everyone else to mop up. It can do well 1v1, but it's damage overall is minimal. It plays like a ranged blaster with crowd control. Most control sets have an AoE stun, AoE immob, and a single target immob. Mind doesn't. Most control sets have a pet. Mind doesn't.
I do not play this as a damage dominator. I run ahead of groups and do soft controls and damage mitigation. When I run along with the group, I do a bit of rodeo herding. This set leans heavily on a handful of powers and finesse usage. It starts out very slow with a lot of single target blasts. My end goal is to have decent resistance to Smashing, Lethal, and Psi damage, and almost capped Defense to Ranged, Energy, Negative Energy, and Psionic Damage. You will have a little over 100% recharge before hasten end game, and you will learn you will need to constantly be on the move. This set plays well when your lead is a brute, your tank is primarily damage dealing and doesn't have taunt, or you just don't have either.
Mind Control

• Mesmerize - I slot this with 5 decimation. It's a good blast and a good sleep also. You can also slot this 1 ACC, 3 DAM, 1 END RED
• Levitate - Same as above. It's very soft mitigation that doesn't always knock-up. I see it as just another blast.
• Dominate - I hate this power sometimes. Damage is worse than the previous two. 4 basilisk's gaze or 1 ACC, 2 RECH, 1 END RED. This is usually last on the blast chain unless I am fighting an AV.
• Confuse - I skipped this power, but it's great. It has great recharge, accuracy, and duration already. I can see doing 1 acc/confuse set piece. 1 ACC. With enough recharge and accuracy, you can confuse AVs or EBs. If you solo a lot, maybe take it.
• Mass Hypnosis - This is a staple power. Eventually I placed the entire purple sleep set in it. You can also do 5 slots of the rare sleep set for 6.25% recharge and then a single lvl 50 Recharge IO. 1 ACC, 3 RECH, 2 END RED. I would NOT put a damage proc in this set. Enemies don't notice it.
• Telekinesis - Great power, but requires a lot of finesse. It herds better than Hurricane. I put 1 ACC and 2-3 RECH. What it does is when you click a bad guy, it first bunches them up with others in the area, then pushes them a set distance away. If you go forward, they go forward, if you walk back, they move back with you. This power holds sets, but I would skip that. You can add extra bad guys into your herd, push and pull them where you want granted they don't kill you, shove dudes into a wall, lock down a doorway or choke point (any mission in Terra Volta, or certain points in the ITF). The key is mitigating damage first and then bunching them up. You can also just bunch them up and unclick. The toggle doesn't last forever, but it holds them in place and sometimes levitates them. It can draw you more aggro than you can handle. You can take already immob'd bad guys and bunch them up nice and pretty. 1 ACC, 2 RECHARGE
• Total Domination - I hate this power, but its necessary. It has garbage base recharge, crap for accuracy, and only a mag 3 hold. It's only good when you are really slotted up. I slot it 4 basilisk's gaze and 2 from the ATO Dominating Grasp Set. The Idea is to maximize Accuracy and Recharge. This power goes well AFTER you have already tagged a group with fear or sleep. This power does very well when you are in domination mode. MAKE SURE AND PUT YOUR DOMINATION CLICKY IN YOUR TRAY AND ON AUTO. Place it right beside hasten. This power set combo has quite a few clikies and Your domination button and your hasten button are two of about four. 2 ACC, 3 RECH, 1 END RED
• Terrify - Great Power. I would put a fear OR ranged AoE set in this (or a purple Ranged AoE) and then a single RECH IO. You can ALSO put your 1 good ATO set in this (not dominating grasp, but the other one). The ATO set or the purple Ranged AoE set give 10% recharge. The Fear set only gives 6.25% recharge. This is a great soft lock. The bad guys will fire back before they get scared so don't open with this until you get capped ranged defense. This on top of a sleep kinda defeats the purpose of sleep. This is ALL the AoE damage you get until epics. 1 ACC, 3 DAM, 2 RECH.
• Mass Confusion - I slot the purple Confuse Set. You can also use 5 confuse set and 1 RECH IO. Do NOT put damage procs in this power. I don't care about the extra 3% ranged def. Don't do it. 1 ACC, 3 RECH, 2 END RED.

End game, you will have quite a bit of recharge. Aim for using the full (and the only good) ATO set and all of the purples you can. If you can only afford 1 purple set: The Confuse One. The Sleep one is good also, but before you get that, get that other ATO set.
For Power Pools I use stealth plus one more power from that pool, hasten and super speed, combat jumping, and boxing tough/weave. For Epics I use Psionic. Mainly for Link Minds, Indomitable Will, and Mind over Body. Link Minds gets a LotG plus 5 defense set for that extra 5% recharge, Indomitable Will gets a single LotG, and Mind over Matter gets 4 Resist IO set for 3% melee plus 7.5% HP.
Tough gets 2 3% def uniques, weave gets a LotG plus another 5 for that 5% recharge (same as link minds). Hasten gets 2 RECH. CJ gets a stealth IO and a LotG. Stealth and Grant Stealth get LotG as well. Stamina gets 2 END MOD and Health gets Numina's and Miracle Uniques.
Psionic Assault

• Psionic Dart - I slot this with 3 thunderstrike for the ranged def. This is one of your beginner blasts. 1 ACC, 2 DAM
• Mind Probe - I skip this, but this is a great power. It's your heavy damage melee. I can see taking it.
• Telekinetic Thrust - I skip this. It's like power push. Not very good.
• Mental Blast - Treat this just like Psionic Dart. Same slotting as Psionic Dart.
• Psychic Scream - It's ranged and it's a cone, but I skip it. I can see taking it. I think it would be OK instead of Psionic Dart. I just don't have the slots to devote more than 3 to it. I placed a lot of emphasis on resistance and defense since I was weak AF early on and dying a lot.
• Drain Psyche - This will just about cap your recovery and give you great regeneration the more it hits. You run in, cast it while the bad guys are subdued, then run out. Even if it hits one bad guy, it does well. You have to frankenslot it to maxmize ACC, HEAL, RECH, and MAYBE A LITTLE END MOD. I do 2 from accurate heal, 2 from an end mod set, and 2 from a heal set. You want good ACC and max RECH, plus whatever healing and end mod you can snag. The power has good base recovery slotting, but a long recharge and base accuracy. 1 ACC, 2 HEAL, 3 RECH.
• Subdue - I treat this like a blast, because it has good range and good damage. Also, it's a single target immob. 5 Decimation is how I slot it. Also, put the build up proc in one of your ranged blasts. 1 ACC, 3 DAM, 1 RECH
• Psionic Lance - I 5 slot this with a sniper set. This is your best ranged blast. 1 ACC, 3 DAM, 1 RECH
• Psychic Shockwave - I skip this. It's a PBAoE disorient that does lousy damage. Since I am ranged only (except Drain Psyche) Dom, this and the 2 melee attacks are a skip.

The end goal is to have great recharge (100% give or take) and almost capped ranged, energy, negative energy, and Psionic Defense (35-45%). Your resists will be about 50% to S/L/Psi.
As for incarnates, you can choose anything for each, but this may be the only instance I am particular about your alpha slot: Vigor Radial Paragon. It buffs everything you need. Everything else you can pick and choose whatever.
Your play style should be ahead of the pack, being stealth, and prepping groups for attack. The stealth IO plus Stealth power should allow you to do most things and get away. Mass Confuses and Sleeps won't be noticed. Total Dom, and Terrify will, but they can be cast before or after each other especially when you are in domination mode when your MAG DOUBLES.

know it's long but I appreciate every read and skip-read, thanks!!
(first part until line could prolly be skipped)
So as the title says I (m19) feel pretty lonely bcs I realised I never really "had anybody", which I think is really more the problem ig?
Quick situation: I'm deep in Uni applications for fine arts, so lots of portfolio's, A LOT to do, as I REALLY need to get accepted somewhere this yr. . Finished my Highschool/A-levels in arts last year; and am now doing a voluntary year which, incl. commute, takes about 36 hrs of my week.
I wanna move away end of summer, "as far" as possible, bcs I kinda want a fresh start.
Social situation: So my parents spereated when I was 5, but, as i heard soon enough, they technically did "5" yrs before that and just lived together for my sake; which I realise as I'm writing this, I actually changed my mind and think that was a shit idea and they handled it very poorly.
In General:To put it shortly they both kinda fucked about about how they ..were? I think I was more of a best friend/therapist for him after all that; and my mother actually behaved like a mother, just very cold? like not comically so, but she just really isn't like that. It just sucks when she is The person in your life. (I'm kinda like that too so I don't even really blame her, but also I don't plan on having children so..). As for the rest of my family; can automatically ignore my father's side, except for a few but I don't really know them anyways. My mothers side, I all love them very dearly, you got your problems but all very normal and nice.
I just always had a kind of social anxiety towards those closest to me, ESPECIALLY family bcs, well they're probably gonna know you forever, which is very scary, more so than with a person/s you "choose".
I've got "lots" of friends, and one ore two close people (f21) i could even really talk to if needed to I'm sure? (100%!) And my two "✨besties✨" (2x f20), i really like them, and we are a fun group, don't really see eachother that often bcs of distance. But we aren't really the feelings kinda gals, more like gossip and life update, and a good vacation/sleepover. It'd be "weird" to be all emotionally with them, bcs we just aren't like that (not a no-go tho!), which works for us, one of them is even "cold/distant" in the same way as me, which i think is actually quite fun and bond-y sometimes. so all good there. (** I'm not really cold or distant more like "oh yeah he's the sarcastic/dry one" or something like that ig, it just feels kinda cold and empty sometimes)
I'm not in therapy rn, which obviously is something that needs doing, but I don't think that's the main problem, or that's what's actually missing. * I don't really need to talk it out or anything, I just need someone that's like there? i know that sounds so desperate but I'm afraid it's just what it is. I haven't had a succesful realtionship since 2020, which ended really fucking poorly, but it's just about this warm feeling before that. He was my best friends since 6th grade before that so I don't really have another example of that feeling but a good handful of short lived ones. I don't think it was HIM tho, we didn't really talk like that either, so it's not that or anything.
I don't even need a partner or something like that, just a good, warm friend, as sad as that sounds.
But even that I don't really feel like doing bcs I mean I don't even really have the time anyways which just sucks for everybody, and most for my portfolios.
But also I really, really want some male friends? that sounds awful and lonely but I don't really have a lot, and none close to me. But anyone would be fine really
(But also I really need some guy friends, bcs my b-day is in july and it's not exactly perfect to be the only guy at your own 20 person party)
As I said, I really don't know what to do with myself rn, I would really welcome some advice, as I think i really need some, and it's not like I can go to, even my most emotionally supportive, friends and be like '' yeah so I dont really feel close and homely with anybody not even you, sorry darling''
I'm really lost, but also I don't feel like opening any new barrels (??) "right before" I move away and meet new people, but also also until sept/oct is still quiet a long time.
I just want to meet some new people, which also seems kinda annoying to me, bcs I don't wanna waste any of my time as the "gay best friend" or being some flimsy whimsy weirdo to some Dude
* I don't want someone new to fill a void and fix all my problems or make up for 20 years of whatever this is or anything, I'm actually quiet well regulated, even if it doesn't sounds like it. There just is like a slot that shouldn't be empty and that probably shouldn't be bcs it makes like happy social hormones in your brain, which your brain needs to be regulated?? Idek I'm so tired and at my wits end at this point
I kinda realised this only today in the hard way, always kinda knew of course, and had small realisations, but as it happens it just really hit me and i feel super cornered
I'm in Germany, near the middle ig so no grant homophobia or anything but tbh i do feel kinda weird around most straight guys? But ig people are getting better so it's really just about their personality
Sorry for all the text i know it's A LOT, but in case anybody actually makes the effort to read it, thank you, and any thought from you is deeply appreciated!!
(I know it's always annoying to read; but english isn't my first language, in case some wording or spelling is off/wrong)

I would say that overall, today was pretty tough.
I saw in that movie called trainspotting a little excerpt about how when recovering from an addiction something that is unspoken is that feeling of depression. Like nothing really excites you, you don't really look forward to much, nothing.
I find this to really ring true, especially today for some reason. But for me its mainly the OCD stuff. day after day im living with a sense of fear, without any possibility for the "answer" that my brain is seeking. So its this constant sense of uncertainty without really any relief. Back when I would "use" so to speak, in my waking existence of this reality there was always a great escape. I would just plunge into indulgence and dopamine would flood my brain and for those hours I felt as if I didn't really exist, like I was someplace else.
So it makes sense as to why I'd feel depressed. My "answer" to the ghost of fear that follows me around is taken away. And with the days passing on and the novelty of recovery gone, you're simply faced with the uncertainty of life.
While this may seem sad, I feel that in tandem with what I said now is a good time to take a deep dive into the depth of my addiction at its worse, and why I would feel as If something essential to me is missing. After all, its what my brain was taught.
To start off, when I see accounts of other pornography type addictions, most of the time, these are trivial to me. It's almost notable how far my addiction went, until it isn't. because the people on the communities I would use in would be just as frequent as me, with their hours just as long. Showing that this is a silent epidemic that is exclusively a consequence of the 21st century. For now its clinically called "cybersex addiction". But in my opinion their needs to be a term created that sounds more medicinal. Cybersex sounds a little corny and a tad sci-fi, and with my recount and the habits of others in the community, I'm sure in 20 years or so it will be observed as something a bit more serious and given a name to fit it. But for now with its current term its a tad difficult to take it seriously. If I was to tell someone I suffered for years from a cybersex addiction they'd probably find it a bit humorous. But I digress.
I would say that it started when I was about 15 years old, give or take. I had always liked porn. Loved porn even. I remember when I discovered it at 12 years old, and how good it made me feel. I watched it close to every night and would masturbate. But the feelings that I specifically liked were the videos that displayed power, and control. Absolutely nothing romantic. Stealing someone's girlfriend, making someone's spouse pleasure you for a favor, making a stepsibling "do as their told". Those kinda things. Specifically cheating. There was something so arousing to me about making someone elses significant other have sex with you. The power trip felt to primal and dirty. This was at 12-13 years old.
However, despite my habit, I feel as if I was still normal. I subconsciously suspended a sense of disbelief. The prospect of just having a girlfriend and having sex still very much excited me. My member still worked perfectly fine. And when I would watch porn I would just rub one out and be done with it. 15 minutes tops, typically more around 5. And then id move on with my day.
I remember when I first discovered a sex chat room. I believe I was 14 years old. At that time i had it on a family computer, so I couldn't take it very far. But i remember how excited I felt, that jumping in my chest when matched up with someone I would talk about sex with. But i wouldnt be able to touch myself, as I was in the living room.
It was at the back end of that year when I'd get on the site again. At this point I had purchased a smart phone and could use it in privacy. I will never forget that night in which I was hooked. I was on the couch, as I used to sleep there in a living room. This was different from the different aforementioned living room, as I had a lot of places growing up. I never had much of a home, and it was pretty troubled. But thats a topic for another day.
I matched up with someone on that same site. They were, or most likely roleplaying, as someone's wife. Sneaking around. I remember when I discovered that in the conversation my heart felt like it jumped out of my chest. I remember moving the conversation towards soemething sexual, and "she" naturally played her part and went along. I remember getting demanding, giving orders. "she" acted reluctant but "caved". I remember getting a euphoric sexual high. 14 years old, I was hooked.
It ebbed and flowed over the years, and came and went. But when it got really bad is after the onset of my adulthood OCD, at around 17
(People with OCD have it fully set in at some point during early adulthood, with episodes throughout childhood)
When my mental illness struggles started I felt as though my life was a waking nightmare. I just did not understand nonresponse at the time, and it felt as though my reality caved and inverted. I could not have a moment without rumination and did not understand there was nothing to solve. I just didn't understand. so I was merely a zombie, like some kind of ghoul. I was pretending to be alive. Floating moment to moment, phoning it in. My family didnt understand why I was so distant. Why i had no aspirations or anything. It made my father so angry he would beat me. The beating and what not got so bad that at 18 I split home. I was in and out after that.
Some time passed and I bummed around but I got to a point where I lived by myself and had roommates.
Throughout this era there was one constant. The internet pornography use. The "cybersex". at the end of every fruitless day I would get on, and it would be hours. I had multiple accounts, on multiple forums. Many fetish based. I would get desperate sometimes and would get spammy, clawing for a good partner that matched my interests, and would often get banned. So many times I would have accounts i would switch back in forth from to avoid getting banned. I was a full blown addict.
Snap forwards a couple years, where my addiction and mental illness had fully taken over. I had no job, I would never be able to hold one down. I was hemorrhaging money, my savings from my teenage hood. I would Doordash and do gig work on occasion but would give up if my OCD got too loud. Or if I had plans but started using f*ck those plans.
I would wake up at 11 or so. maybe noon, maybe 1. id get up and use the restroom, throw my clothes on the floor. My room was completely rotted away. I would go downstairs and chat with my roommates. maybe go grab lunch or something. then I'd get home and start using. typically, by 3 o clock. It would be hours, masturbating, binge watching porn, being on the forums. Finding partners that matched me and saying things that were unspeakibly nasty to get a good rush. Hours and hours would pass by and I would prevent ejaculation. i did not want the escape to end, but eventually it would. I would excrete all over myself and by matress with no bedding (I would not put my sheets on my bed, as i just simply did not care). I would not clean up much, would mostly just let it dry. After that I would watch some youtube. I would not get out of my bed, or shower, or anything like that. These things did not not concern me. At around 10 or so I would start up again. Using and using and using and using. typically till about 4 in the morning. Then id c*m, and Id go downstairs to stuff my face with whatever I had in the fridge. Then Id go back into my room, and with the rush of my vice gone and the fear from OCD quelled by it, Id feel unspeakably sad. Unspeakably empty. then id go to sleep.
Sometimes it was from the moment I woke up. I'd wake up, stare at my ceiling, my anxiety would settle in, and I'd start using. I'd use till 2 and then take a nap. Then id use till 4. Then I'd use till 8. Then id use till 2 am.
I remember my member would be red and blistered, sensitive to the touch, and unable to get an erection. But id keep using. Id go again and again, rubbing it while it was limp. My room stunk like hell and I was gaining weight. My hair was greasy and i was running out of money. I was literally just fading away.
Heres my great ability though. My friends just thought I was a tad unhygienic and lazy. They didn't suspect a thing. Because no matter what, I'm always a showman. I can always say something to crack up the group or become an inside joke. I was literally a dead man walking yet people considered me funny and capable. But the curtain got pulled on that eventually.
Well, more on that some other day. This recount served its purpose for me in putting in my perspective on what I am not anymore. And no matter how hard it gets, making sure I never go back again.
Fucking hell man. Why's this shit gotta be so hard.
See yall tomorrow.

Just played Inscryption for the first time and thought it was an absolutely incredible game. If you haven’t played the game and you’re even slightly interested, do it right now and don’t read anything about this post, go in as blind as you can. If you don’t care, read up then.
New killer - The Scrybes New Survivor - Luke Carder
Height - Tall Move speed - 4.6 Terror Radius - 32
Power - Methods of Inscryption Press the power button to equip a power wheel. Whatever power you select changes your current killer to the scrybe the power is associated with.
Up- Leshy’s camera Equip Leshy’s camera. The camera fires a large cone in a bright flash. Survivors hit by the flash are unable to drop pallets or vault windows and gain a stack of Inscribed.
CD - 15 seconds
Right - P03’s Particle scanner Equip P03’s Particle scanner. P03’s scanner creates an incredibly large field in front of you. The first healthy survivor caught in the field enters The Factory. The Factory is a small area with one window and a pallet gym. While in this area, all perks are disabled, they gain a stack of Inscribed, and P03 gains 20% increased lunge range while inside The Factory. If the survivor is downed, P03 gains the same buff for the next 45 seconds afterwards, and all generators lose 10% progress. If the survivor escapes, both players return to the initial position where the power began.
CD - 130 seconds
Down - Grimora’s quill Equip Grimora’s epitaph and quill. Summon a skeleton which will patrol the trial, and chase after the first survivor it sees. When it hits a survivor, it instantly perishes and takes a health state of that survivor. Survivors who have a Skeleton summoned within 16 meters of them gain the hindered status effect and gain a stack of Inscribed. The same effects are applied if a survivor is hit by a skeleton.
CD - 60 seconds
Left - Magicus’ brush Equip a paintbrush. While holding the power button, begin painting. Each stroke of the brush increases the brushes power. Each brush increases the range of the Paint Throw attack, to an eventual maximum. After releasing the button, 5 globs of paint is launched in a wave shape and injures survivors hit by the wave, and gives them the Inscribed status effect.
CD - 15 seconds
Inscribed status effect A survivor can have up to 5 stacks of the Inscribed effect. At 5 stacks, the killer is given a card of that survivor. The card reveals that survivors solo q icon to the killer, and shows their perk loadout on the UI. This effect cannot be removed by any means.
Addons - Brown
Starving man card - Powers no longer give the Inscribed status effect. Gain 100% bonus bp for using powers
Gravedigger card - Increase the field of vision and detection range of the skeleton by 10%
Orange Mox Card - increases the spacing out of the Paint attack’s projectiles by 4 meters
Empty Cell Card - removes the brief move speed penalty after ending early or failing The Factory chase
Yellow
Geck Card - Leshy’s camera is instantly recharged if it doesn’t connect with a survivor
Necromancer Card - summoning a skeleton gives the Scrybes a 4% haste effect for 3 seconds
49er Card - Using the Particle Scanner causes all other survivors not brought to The Factory survivors to scream and gives them the blindness status effect for 60 seconds
Mage Knight Card - Paint from a paint attack bounces off the environment once
Squirrel Card - Hitting a Camera Flash reduces the cooldowns of all powers by 15 %
Blue Mox Card - Hitting a Paint Attack reduces the cooldowns of all powers by 15%
Green
Cockroach Card - Getting stunned by any means reduces all current power cooldowns by 50%
Double Gunner Card - the amount of time a survivor spends in the factory is increased by 3 seconds when they get hit with a basic attack
Bone Heap Card - Each time you down a survivor, instantly recharge the Quill and Epitaph
Green Mox Card - Paint attacks inflict Exhausted on survivors for 15 seconds
Strange Larvae Card - Survivors who complete a generator gain one stack of Inscribed “A largely unimpressive specimen” - Leshy
Purple
Urayuli Card - Flashes from Leshy’s camera deal one health state, and no longer removes the ability to vault pallets or windows
Increase the cooldown of Leshy’s camera by 15 seconds “The level of strength needs no explanation.” - Leshy
Stinkbug Card - When summoning a skeleton, spawn a second random skeleton at least 32 meters away from the killer “It’s me.” - Stinkbug
Stoat Card - Survivors have their aura revealed for the entire duration of the Factory chase “Bad move.” - Stoat
Stunted Wolf Card - after standing still for 3 and charging a Paint Attack, the Paint Attack ignores all walls for its entire duration. “Use me well.” - Stunted Wolf
Iridescent
Iridescent Inscryption Floppy Disk An entity created copy of the accursed game Inscryption
Flashes from Leshy’s camera briefly blind survivors Survivors who destroy a skeleton with a pallet lose a health state The Factory blocks all generators while in a chase in The Factory, but no longer regresses them upon downing the survivor Paint Attack projectiles pierce survivors
“I think I just beat him!” - Luke Carder
OLD_DATA Card - When a survivor reaches maximum stacks of Inscribed, their aura is revealed when not in chase until they are downed next. “Weak deck. Total lack of synergy.” - P03

Male Option A=Receive a life-like Sex Doll of whatever female(or male) Celebrity of your choosing. The Sex Doll comes with free maintenance/upkeep and will never deteriorate.
Male Option B=Receive a lifetime supply of pills that upon taking for the next 24 Hours, allows you to have Orgasms/Post-Nut Clarity last for up to 3 Hours instead of just seconds/minutes at full intensity.
Female Option A=From now on, every time you start your monthly cycle, you are whisked away to an all-inclusive 5-Star Resort for your whole menstruation cycle FREE OF CHARGE. Where you are pampered, spoiled, catered to and waited on hand & foot. Where whatever you need/desire to bring yourself joy while on your menstruation cycle, can be wished into existence by simply snapping your fingers/clapping your hands. Except for wishing away the bleeding and pain, you'll still have both of those to deal with. Once done with your menstruation cycle, you are sent back to your life.
Female Option B=From now on, it is MANDATED BY LAW that ALL Women's Pants, Jeans, Shorts, Capris all come with GOOD POCKETS. NO EXCEPTIONS. And, Roe V Wade is re-instated at the Federal Level ASAP.
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Two years ago I made a sub Reddit for this game but sadly it just looks like shit. So I made a new and better one.Back to the topic, I made a post claiming I was "CHAMPION KNIGHT" with a 1-0 record. Now, in the past 2 years my record has changed to 6-2. If anyone wants to take a shot at the title just hit me so you can take an L and a complementary rope and chair of your choice from amazon (Within my budget range). Lastly, for anyone thinking they can win against me because of my 2 losses, just know that those were my first 2 games and I haven't lost since.

I’m recently separated. I have kids too but they are at the ex’s house. I can’t afford my bills and my life is spiraling out of control. I can’t take it and this is probably the lowest I’ve been. I’d love for anyone from any background to just chat with me about whatever. Just talk to me about your interests and what makes you happy

How do you go about dating if your over 21+ but you rely on parents for transportation
Hi. I am an individual with multiple disabilities/health conditions (anxiety adhd and possible autism) and I’m 25. I was wondering how you go about dating if you rely on your parents for transportation. Unfortunately I have a condition that causes limited depth perception so I am not sure driving is the best option for me and I’m also afraid to learn even though my doctors say it wouldn’t hurt to learn. I also have t1 diabetes. Unfortunately I live in a rural area with limited transportation options too. Given that I am My mother’s only child she is very overprotective of me (and the few friends I have always comment this). However, she does talk about me moving out but I’m almost certain she wouldn’t let that happen because she’s over protective even though we fight all the time. I should also clarify that I love my mother and she can be my friend but she’s also very overprotective.
Case in point: I needed to get somewhere the other night and neither my parents (my father seems to think my mom is the only one who needs to drive me around sometimes) could take me, and I put it out on fb (just my friends list) that I needed a ride but my mom saw it and said I’m not letting you get in car with someone I don’t know. I mean I wouldn’t have gotten a ride from a murderer…but she yelled at me and made me take it down. Thankfully I did get a text from a family member that they could take me where I needed to go. But that incident made me think what if I met a guy on a dating site and we clicked but I needed a ride to get there and my mom said no. I mean dating is part of how I would move out, but I’m not sure my mother understands that online dating is how the majority of people meet these days. I don’t feel like my mom is abusing me or necessarily being mean but she’s just way over protective. I do plan to bring this up with my therapist as well. Does anyone have any ideas?
I have diagnosis’s so I’m not sure I would qualify as munchasens but I’m curious

AITAH for breaking off a date after she kept insisting to smoke in my car?
For some contest, I (28M) have been talking to this girl (32F) for a couple of weeks. She’s a sweet person although I can tell we’re in two different realities. She’s born with a silver spoon and she’s the type of person that never had to earn anything in life.
It was the third time she’d come over to spend a couple of days with me. She lives 2 hours away. This time I offered to do the drive there, but it’s not an option since she lives with her parents, brother and daughter ( she has another kid but he doesn’t live with her).
Once she got to my house we took off with my car. I was gonna take her to a restaurant and then go do a wine tasting. The ride to the restaurant was about 25 minutes. I have two vehicles. this time we took my newer car (it’s my dream car, worked REALLY hard to afford it) I don’t smoke or eat in it and I keep it in pristine condition.
The moment she got in the car she started vaping and I kindly asked her not to. She did it again, at which I reminded her I wasn’t ok with it. Eventually she handed me the vape “telling me to try it”, that doesn’t smell etc.. I took it and put it on the side of the door. I told her I wasn’t going to smoke in my car and all she had to do was wait 25 minutes.
The entire ride there she kept throwing a fit and arguing about the fact she wasn’t allowed to smoke in my car, telling me I was just trying to “ rule over her” and being “The king of my car”. I told her she was acting like a child and that if she can’t wait 25 mins without smoking she definitely has big issues.
She kept pushing for it and I eventually asked her why she kept insisting if I said no since the beginning. it’s such an easy boundary to respect. And she was like “if I keep insisting eventually people will cave and I get what I want”. We were just getting to the restaurant when she said that. I finally snapped , I turned around and I was like “ right you got what you wanted . Now we go back , you take your car and you go the fuck home so you have 2 hours to smoke in the car” which is what happened afterwards .
I know my reaction was harsh but AITAH for it ?

Think what you like about City, the cheating, oil money, etc. That's not what this post is about.
The term "Farmer's League" gets thrown around a lot lately to describe a league with repeat winners like PSG, Bayern, and now Man City. I think most people would agree that the term is derogatory and indicates a league that lacks competitiveness, particularly from bottom half teams, due to talent disparity between the team that wins and everyone else. This is an unfair assessment of the PL, and if you're all just having a laugh then put an /s after it because it's sad to see.
The title has once again come down to the last day. All season we have seen teams like Everton going from dropping points every week to taking points off the top teams in the league. Villa went from where they were with Gerrard as manager to qualifying for CL. Forest stayed up despite a points deduction. Anyone with Solanke on their Fantasy team will vouch that Bournemouth can be dangerous. Do you think PSG would be arrogant about their chances at Selhurt Park right now? Have we already forgotten how close Coventry was to being in the FA cup final?
I've watched PL for 30 years and this is the first time I recall all three promoted sides go down instead of at least one staying up another year. A few 50/50 refereeing decisions changed might see Luton staying up or Arsenal winning the league. I saw a post that claimed City winning is bad for the PL brand, but only someone who doesn't watch more than one match a weekend would actually think PL quality is decreasing. The race for PL was a 3 horse race in the second half of the season, City didn't run away with it and Arsenal definitely didn't bottle it.
The time will come for City's dominance to end, just like every other team that had dominant periods like United did with SAF. It will almost certainly happen when Pep leaves. We might not see another Leicester story, but there's no reason to think matches between Brighton, Brentford, or even Ipswich against CL challenging clubs are a foregone conclusion.
If you really do think the PL is a farmers league then I'm genuinely interested to hear why, so tell me what you think and I'll listen.

Here's the review you didn't ask for. No disrespect or anything but that place is wild af. 1. Half of the place looks like it's abandoned. 2. Can expect to see a zombie in the abandoned gynec ward anytime soon. 3. The number of dead people being discharged 💀 4. Can't even look at the washrooms. 5. The kind of hospitality. Never seen such rude nurses or docs. 6. The sadness, fear, hopelessness in those people's faces. Sad that I couldn't help them even though I wanted to help them so badly.
Anyways, for those who didn't have to be there or will not have to be there (I wish no one should too), thank god and your parents for giving you a great life. If you're lazy A5s thinks your life is sh!t, just remember that there are people out there suffering worse than you. Get up and get to work. Take care of your health. Trust me, a bad health will not affect you alone, but it will affect your whole family mentally and physically. Anyway, Take care of you and your family guys. That's it.
And btw, the doc chicks in the hostels are pretty af 👀

I think I need to recenter, take a break from the internet.
I’m scarred in a way I can’t express to anyone, there’s something within me that hurts over you, and I can’t forget it.
I wish I could pick up my phone and have it send everything inside my brain to yours. Honestly, if we could read minds there’s no doubt in my mind that we’d still be together.
You’d know every last detail as to why I felt how I did, and why I now feel the opposite.
I thought I was preventing you from hurting. I’ve never had a ton of faith in myself, and assumed I’d end up losing out on an opportunity that would result in you seeing me as unworthy or a failure in my ability to provide for you.
I know you. Someday you’ll reach out for me.
Someday you’ll seek out this account, and these letters. And the other account, and those letters.
I know how this all works because I have the emails you sent two years ago.
All it takes for us is a single spark, and we ignite this flame all over again.
Let’s just not let it all go up in smoke this time, yeah?
Forever and always, Fire? Fire, I guess.
(Yours).

I am the petitioner and I have a green card. I applied for my husband in August 2022. Since then, we have only received his work authorization, which is set to expire next year. We are still waiting for any updates on our I-130 or I-485 applications. Whenever I inquire through Emma, I only receive copy-pasted responses. I have repeatedly asked if we have an interview scheduled, but the response is always that we will receive an email if it is scheduled.
The processing time estimate is not helpful. It initially states 6 months, then counts down to 2 months, and then resets back to 6 months, creating a frustrating cycle. I am unsure of what steps to take at this point. We just want him to receive his green card so we can live more freely.
As a side note, we submitted the application right after we got married. If anyone is in a similar situation, I would appreciate hearing about your experiences and any steps you took.

I understand the general consensus when it comes to The Law, but please hear my testimony before you place judgment. (Proverbs 18:13)
First and foremost, all praise to The Most High. And bless His Son, Yeshua our Messiah. May your Ruach (Spirit) guide those who are seeking.
I have some verses I would like everyone to test. So, please bump this post so that everyone can test what it is I’m about to reveal. (1 Thessalonians 5:21)
So, as I stated at the beginning, I do understand that the consensus is, “we are no longer under the Law, but under grace.”
However, I came across a study about keeping the Law. And that the Law isn’t just this idea of “legalism” of “works” to earn one’s way into the Kingdom.
Now, come and see.
The first thing I wanted to reveal is that the Law is love. Please let me say this again, the Law, I like to use the Hebrew word Torah, is love. The idea of love is not just a set of emotions defined by some Greek scholars. But that the idea of love is what the Word says love is.
(John 14:15)
“If you love me, keep my Commandments.”
Now, I know this may seem self evident with what I am saying, and I really do think this is the case. But, I also know that the general teaching is that Yeshua gave new Laws. But please allow me to open those verses next.
(Matthew 22:37-40)
37 And he said to him, "You shall love the Yahovah your Elohim with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. 38 This is the great and first commandment. 39 And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself. 40 On these two commandments depend the whole Torah and the Prophets."
Look closely at verse 40. As one can clearly see, by keeping the whole Torah and the teachings of the Prophets, you are loving both The Most High and neighbor. Now, I implore you, read this passage again with the understanding of verse 40. And then reread (John 14:15)
Ok, if you remember what I mentioned earlier, I said that keeping Torah isn’t just this act of legalism. And I gave a beautiful example of how keeping Torah is how Abba wants us to love. But now I will show you that keeping Torah grants us righteousness.
(Deuteronomy 4:8)
"And what other great nation has righteous statutes and rules as just as this whole Torah, which I am setting before you today?"
Key phrase “righteous statutes”. As I said, Torah is righteousness. Which is why Christians say, “Yeshua is the only one who fulfilled the Law perfectly.”
But what happens when someone else walks in Torah perfectly?
(Luke 1:6)
"In the sight of Elohim, Zechariah and Elizabeth were righteous; they were blameless in observing all Yahovah’s commandments and regulations."
Righteousness is also perfection. Even Yeshua Himself tells us to be perfect.
(Matthew 5:48)
"Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect."
It is only then, will Yeshua’s blood cover our sins. Meaning, after accepting Yeshua as our Messiah, we walk in Torah as Yeshua walks in Torah, out of love and righteousness.
But, if you say you are not under the Law, or under Torah, then how does love make sense according to The Most High? (John 14:15)
But there is a flip side as well, and that’s not walking in the Law. And that is called sin.
Again, just as we aren’t the ones that say what love is, Abba is the one who says what love is. And the same goes for sin. It’s what He says is sin, not what we say is sin. So, what does the Bible say is sin?
(1 John 3:4)
"Everyone who makes a practice of sinning also practices Lawlessness; sin is Lawlessness."
(Matthew 7:21-23)
"Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. On that day many will say to me, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name?' And then will I declare to them, 'I never knew you; depart from me, you workers of lawlessness.'"
Please read (Matthew 7:21-23) very carefully. This passage is talking about those who have passed away from this world and are now seeing Yeshua. Please notice how they call Yeshua “Lord”. This means these people claim to be followers of Yeshua. But notice what Yeshua tells them at the end of the passage. “Depart from me, you workers of Lawlessness.”
Question, what group of followers does Yeshua have that say, “we are no longer under the Law, but under grace”?
So, unless we walk in righteousness and become perfect as Abba is perfect, only then will Yeshua’s blood cover our sin.
Question, when does Yeshua’s blood cover our sin?
People think His blood covers our sin before we die. But look at the evidence I just showed you with Yeshua’s own words. But now, allow me to show you again, His own words talking about when His blood will take effect.
(Matthew 26:28-29)
"In the same way, after supper he took the cup saying, 'This cup is the new covenant in my blood, which is poured out for you. But I tell you, I will not drink from this fruit of the vine from now on until that day when I drink it new with you in my Father’s kingdom.'"
As you can see, Yeshua says His blood, the new covenant, will not take effect until when? Verse 40, “until on that day when I drink it new with you in my Father’s Kingdom.
So as stated above, we must walk in love and righteousness before we present ourselves before Yeshua. And after that, will His blood cover our sin in the Kingdom.
Here is a bonus prophecy by Jeremiah talking about the new covenant in the Kingdom.
(Jeremiah 31:33-34)
"‘I will put my Law within them, and I will write it on their hearts. And I will be their Elohim, and they shall be my people. And no longer shall each one teach his neighbor and each his brother, saying, ‘Know Yahovah,’ for they shall all know me, from the least of them to the greatest, declares Yahovah. For I will forgive their iniquity, and I will remember their sin no more.'"
I pray this teaching on Torah, or the Law, helps you with your walk with Yeshua.

In your Disk Diffusion Assays, have you encountered zones of inhibition that are not totally clear? There are times they look too “faint,” like you almost won’t see the ZOI, but you can see a halo when placed on a uniform black/white background. It seems that there’s a population that has been inhibited, but there’s also a population that was still able to resist the antibiotics. In cases like these, how do you report the results?
The cell population’s standardized and ZOI for other abx are really clear. It’s just for this one abx.