She probably will never see this, then again I could be wrong. I kind of hope she does so I can say some of what I wanted to say, but instead we ended up arguing over things that are really not important and I wish I could take it all back.
In High School it started and I never told anyone, not even my best friend. You were the one, the girl who was in a relationship, the crush I always wanted, the one I wanted to marry and spend my life with, to treat with the most genuine respect and to love and cherish. The problem was you were taken and I respected that line, most people don't. Yet life just kept moving forward. I come to find years later that your life has been filled with trauma, neglect, abuse, filled with drama and hate, being used and taken advantage of. The things I would never let happen to you or do to you were happening or had happened, and it breaks my heart to see you so different than the one I knew all those years ago. But deep in there it's still you and I hope that I may one day bring you back to happiness and to keep a smile on your face and to show you how much you are loved.
After 20 years we found each other living together albeit briefly after some difficult and unexpected times. I tried to tell you how I felt, you didn't want to hear it. And then we did something together I never thought would ever happen, and it was something I had hoped would happen for so long. I will always remember it and think about it everyday, how incredible it was and how it still could be. Even the first time our lips locked I was in complete ecstacy, the way you kissed me was something passionate and real, not just another kiss. You really are amazing and so beautiful and I wish we could continue to become something more. Something beautiful. Something forever.
I didn't want to leave you but I couldn't stand being thought of as just someone else there to use you. I would never hurt you. I tried to find the words, but you shut me down, you distanced yourself from me, that hurt. I know things are tough and I was willing to do everything I could to help.
Maybe I sound like I am rambling now but just know this. I am sorry for how I left, for leaving you alone, for everything wrong that I may have done. I just want you in my life, by my side. Maybe one day that will happen but it is something you need to figure out. I will continue to wait for you. If you will have me, come to me. You'll be safe and respected, loved and appreciated. For now, I am setting off on the hunt for more money, to give myself a fresh start and that also includes you, as I told you during our time together. My hand and heart will be waiting for you to take.
Find me. Message me. Email me. Call me. Anything. I want to make you happy for the rest of our lives.
I'm sorry J. I miss you. I want you with me. I want to hold you, hold your hand, to love you, to kiss you, to be the one you deserve. Hopefully we will find each other again. For now, just know im there thinking about you, waiting and going to do everything I possibly can.
Me

Hey what's up! 🥰. Hi! So first of all I wanna say that I'm based in the england! Not really keen on dating anyone outside of the UK. 😄.
So obviously I'm a gamer 👀 I play on console specifically for Playstation ! So brownie points if you do too! Appearance wise I'm kinda alt? I guess! Definitely curvy, I have short hair ! Constantly dying it too lmao. I'm also 5'4ft.. yes a shortie haha. I have cats! I also love memes, music, cooking and baking! 🖤. Please also have an understanding that I do low key suffer with anxiety and need someone who's willing to be reasurrening etc.
My ideal guy would be someone who is funny, kind, considerate, someone who cares about there health and preferably doesn't drink heavily. Someone who stays in shape (fit/average) and obviously taller would be ideal haha. Oh and obviously a gamer too! Console though... haha Please also drive ? I'm over a couple of hours away from London! And I do 100% wanna meet up. I have a preference for tall white guys with brown hair and glasses! (Google the lead singer to glass animals) haha., even better if you love voice calls/notes and don't mind needy/clingy asf girls 😅🤭.
I don't want to make this post super long so all I'll add is please put some effort into a reply and please include the word "yellow" if you made it to the end ! Yay haha.
Look forward to hearing from you 🩷. Please please please include your age and location ! A photo will get you an instant response too!

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Hi there! First post on reddit so please forgive me if i'm not using any fancy text.
I've been DM'ing now on and off for around near 5 years, originally I ran for 2 separate friend groups with Vastly different likes and dislikes. I had to stop one groups campaign due to work schedules and as the such (gotta love adult life ;-;)
So recently my current group consists of close friends so it is quite easy to get things across but it can also be very easy to lose control of the table if we start having jokes and a good laugh.
the above is not the issues I'm having as the DM however the stuff above i'm fine with as long as we are hanging out and having a good time. My issues span from multiple small issues which I will list below Beginning with myself as I know I make plenty of mistakes as I DM but I'm looking for advice to make sure i'm not going crazy and being a C**T with some of my table rules i've implemented
My Issues I need to work on: Note Taking - I lose track of my notes (this has been getting better moved to an app called obsidian which I have stuck with and this seems to be working wonders for me) but still needs work.
World lore - Kinda a addition to the note taking issue I have, I like to chop change some things but I still want it to make canonical sense to the worlds timeline which can be a little messy at times.
Pacing - Oh god I'm awful for pacing sometimes I'm too fast or i'm far too slow my players spend an entire 7 hour session on 1 street corner being my worst example.
Sometimes Retconning Small things - I Don't know if I think its okay to do this, I've only had to do it twice in total I Hate retconning stuff as I feel like if maybe a player that doesn't shine to often finally gets out their shell i'm worried if I retcon something It can really take away from that players motivation.
So above are my issues for sakes of time I'm going to copy paste a recent paragraph I sent to my players parts like player names will be edited of course. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
So shappening dudes and dudets, DnD is going to be on the back burner for me for a Little bit cause personally feeling burnt out for a couple reasons that I'll get to in a little bit. So first things first the main thing I'm going to an induction day so I'm hoping I get this job (I got the Job whoop whoop) and DnD will be moved to every 2nd Saturday if thats gonna be a issue we can discuss that down the line. Now couple of mini Issues I want to get off my chest. So the Number 3 joke died ages ago for me and its just annoying so stopping that would be nice thank you, anyone that says it going forward you'll just take 3 damage. Unfortunately the interrupting and pacing is horrendous I'm gonna do my best to keep my focus on the game and I ask so do you. For the time being kinda a add on to the previous my max player count I can do is 6 no more, "Player Name" please let "His Partner" know I do not mind if she watches but I can't have her play not until I feel like the pacing is better and no ones shouting over each other. The Cards, They are fun but i'm gonna rejig them to be less annoying and alot less OP, (I'm removing that bag of holding card) personal thing - If I ask something to do with in the game could you please just acknowledge you have seen it, cause I've typed in plane text plenty of times before and it just doesn't get listened to it starts with one person then everyone else follows if you get me and it can make some little instructions that make things easier for me alot harder. As the DM I want a bit more control So one of the major ones that I ask is NO ONE calls "Roll a persuasion to persuade me" or anything along that lines, it is unnecessary and tbh I find it a bit rude. NO Rape or Rolling Cock size. (its just weird and its disgusting you'd think of it tbh)
There are a few more other things that personally bother me but those are the main ones, the minor ones just consist of 1. Don't Make up your own lore of my own creation and then treat it as cannon, I didn't ask and I don't care.

1. Don't ask for any more custom items, if I give you something be happy and let it be a surprise. 3."did we level up?" i know its a joke but tone it down before it gets worse.
2. If you create a backstory please give me the footnotes of the main points that I can work with, don't give me a lore book about how garfunkle the black white man slain a beast. I won't read it. (Edit - I don't mind if they give me a book to read I do like lore I just mean here that I'd prefer notes of the main points in their characters story)
3. I would prefer Game things are sent on discord concerning characters thats a personal thing, I created the discord for me to be organised and have it all in one place so if you please could just send me stuff on that even if its a dnd beyond link I would like it all in one place. I get this is gonna be alot to read but I hope I get my point across. I am the dungeon master and I want to create a game for you guys to enjoy but I have neglected my own joy for the game and have been more lazy with it because of this. I have alot of stuff to fix from last session especially and I'm gonna try to be more focused on the game and create a better experience and all I ask is please listen, pay attention and any question on the world so you can clarify things you may ask me, if there is any issues during the session call for a break if its that major so we may discuss at the table and if its a small issue we discuss it after the session. I may rule things wrong but i'll attempt to rule it in a way that makes sense and then I shall research and let you know afterwards, I'd rather not search rules in the middle of the game and taking half a hour per turn. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

So context for some things the number 3 joke is from shrek "NUMBER 3 MY LORD" and I use magic the gathering cards for little 1 session boons they are a hell of a lot of fun and I'll post under this if anyone else play's DnD and MTG (I'd recommend using the Dungeons and dragons sets for Magic if you wish to try this out)
Revitalize x2 - Add a Medium Potion to Inventory
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Treasure x3 - Add 100 Gold
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Choose Your Weapon - Choose one for the Remainder of the Session
Archery - +2 to Range attacks
or
Two Weapon Fighting - +2 to Melee Attacks
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Curse of Surveillance - You Grow an eyeball onto the palm of your hand, something or someone is watching you (The DM determines who) This curse is passed on
when someone else draws the card or removed with the "Remove curse Spell"
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Improvised weaponry - You feel compelled to use the first random object as your weapon for the session.
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Triumphant Adventurer - Roll a D20,
Even Numbers add 3 Platinum to your Inventory.
Odd Numbers Summons a Gold Plated Cocky knight to gloat how rich he is for 1 minute.
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Hunters Mark - You Gain the Ability Hunters Mark for the Session it does not Require Concentration.
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Contact Other Plane - You ask anything from the DM roll a d100 to discover the outcome.
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Hoard Robber - The best robber in all the land has found you and took every bit of coin you have leaving a single fake gold piece.
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Dawnbringer Cleric - You can Choose One to use throughout the session
Cure Wounds
Dispel Magic
Gentle Repose
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Priest of Ancient lore - A old Dwarf appears in front of you radiating a holy light asking "Would you like to know the lore of this land?"
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Boots of Speed - You Gain Extra 15ft Speed for the Session.
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Silver Raven - A Unknown Vampires Raven Follows you.
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Check for Traps - You becoming Increasingly paranoid of traps for the session the DM at Random will ask you to check for traps at your feet.
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Blessed Defiance - You Summon A white Spirit, it says nothing, it is friendly to only you, it will follow and defend you for this session.
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Chaos Channeler - A wild magic sorcerer Explodes from the multiverse, he looks excited as he transports himself again creating a Minor wild magic effect.

So this is a pretty large post But I am looking for advice on maybe rules I should consider going forward, how to keep proper control of a party of 6 and just anything I should improve as a DM and anything I can further communicate to my players at the table.

I am suffering so so very badly. I am at my wits end. I’m 26 year old female and from the time I was 13 to now I have been diagnosed with ADHD, BPD, OCD, generalized anxiety disorder, major depressive disorder, PTSD, dissociate disorders, eating disorders. OCD is the one that rules my life. I believe every other illness I have stems from this. It is ruining my life. I feel like I am trapped under a heavy heavy object and can’t get out from under and someone is pushing it down on me harder and harder the more I try to get up. I’ve been bed ridden for weeks and before that bedridden for MONTHS bc the fear of outside stimulants is just too much to bear. It’s getting so so so bad I think I might die. I am so afraid. I’m petrified. I have tried different medicines been to psychiatrist, atleast 10 diff therapist but nothing will help me. I’m currently trying NOCD therapy but the therapists aura is making me feel sick and sad for no logical reason. She is so nice. So helpful. So smart but my brain has tainted her and the whole therapy. I contaminate everything I indulge in. No matter what it is. I watch a show? Contaminated. I listen to a song? Contaminated. I hang go to the store? Contaminated. I’m suffering. Please anyone tell me I’m not alone and if you’ve felt this or know anyone who has, please give me any advice. I was a happy happy teenager. I was an outgoing hard working girl in my early twenties. I am a shell of this amazing girl I once was. I will do anything to get this person back but I am absolutely clueless as to where I should start.

Long story short and as much as it sucks to say, I haven't really experienced much of anything. I'm going to intentionally beat around the bush as to what category that "experience" falls under but I think most people should be able to figure it out lol. In other words (and if you play games), I'm a complete noob when it comes to all things girls. As for why those things haven't happened and why I want that to change.. There's a few reasons, but the main reason why I'm putting such an emphasis on this is because I'm a huge homebody and I don't go out much at all which makes it difficult to meet people. That's where Reddit comes in! The message I'm essentially trying to send is becoming physically and emotionally close with a girl is what I want the most. I want to experience it all; the laughs, excitement, curiosity, intimacy, hanging out, fun. Blame all the Disney movies I watched as a kid for that lol.
Finding someone would be a dream come true, but I'd love to find friends too if that's all you're looking for! Local or international, just let me know if that's what you want instead :) We could end up being really close friends and you'll introduce me to a friend who I end up being with? That may or may not be the plot from a romcom 🤔 So that means I definitely wouldn't be opposed to a relationship! I've obviously never been in one so I'm not exactly sure how to transition to that, haha. I totally wouldn't mind finding out, though :) Also someone to say good morning and night to, too. That would be the best even if it's incredibly cheesy.
Anyway, it could be someone with a lot of experience or someone with no experience like me, or introverted or not introverted, etc. I don't have a preference either way :) But if I were to be reaaally picky: they'd be sweet and down to earth because just cuddling on its own would be all kinds of cool. A bit about me: I'm shy, caring, kind, sweet and am normal in the weight and height categories. I want to say I'm cute in the looks department? 🙈 I'll let you decide that though lol. I think it's super fun learning about people through conversation so I'll leave the following hobbies section blank. Then again, I suppose it wouldn't hurt to give a small hint to something I love.. My username should provide clues to that! I Siriusly need to re-watch the movies again. Maybe with someone I meet through r4r?
Alright, I can't hold it in anymore. I pretty much like a little bit of everything. For example, when it comes to music, I go through Backstreet Boys phases to Disney song phases (Moana is awesome and I haven't even seen the movie 🙊) to something like Linkin Park, Paramore or 50 Cent. What I'm trying to say is I like a little bit of everything! So there's a good chance I'll like whatever you like when it comes to hobbies and interests and that means connecting with each other should be relatively natural/seamless. Or maybe that's wishful thinking on my part, haha.
I'm not the best with openers and if you're also in the same boat, then how about this: If you could have any superpower what would it be and how would you use it? Being out of this world smart like Tony Stark is an acceptable super poweanswer, by the way.
Hopefully my first impression is a good one! If anyone is even remotely interested, then just let me know and I'll get back to you asap!

Am I the only one pissed with Dust? I enjoyed the Wool and Shift, annihilated them, but Dust was such a disaster, right from the start.

1. Donnie waking up as Thurman, killing Anna, trying to kill Thurman, waking up Charlotte, talking to Lukas and Juliette, and slowly moving the plot nowhere. Okay, he’s dying, but he’s Thurman now, use that power mate, make a change, do something amazing…. Nope, he is just a plot device for the entire book and then he drops a BOMB on Silo 1. Why? Just to kill everyone, including innocent people that are simply sleeping in the pods. Sad ending for such a promising character.
   
2. The Church. Where were they before? What’s the entire purpose of them being there outside of kidnapping and marrying Elsie? Right, there is no point. The moment I read about them I was like “Are they going to rape someone? A kid?” And I was almost right, unfortunately.
   
3. Lukas. Okay, they just killed him in the server room, like he doesn’t even matter. 2 books of character building just to kill him in the beginning of Dust.
   
4. Converted security guard. I don’t remember his name lol but you know who I’m talking about. It took Charlotte an hour to convince him about the lies and make him join her resistance. Wow, that’s amazing, maybe we should have been told more about this wonderful character other than that he’s an ex military?
   

On the other side we have Charlotte, Juliette, and Solo, who are pretty much unkillable (some of them got the nano-juice of health) and they just walk among the others to do what they want to do.
I was expecting a battle, some kind of closure, a moral resolution to the reason why it all happened and why the founding fathers nuked the earth to hide in the silos. But I guess I wanted too much.
Am I the only one disappointed?

My friend "Jenny" (23F) and I (21M) have known each other for around eight months. She told me about her struggles with mental health (borderline personality disorder) and I've always been supportive.
Our friendship has been smooth, except for one incident some time ago. We were drinking at her place and my sister Lena gave Jenny her vape to try. When we were leaving Lena realized that she can't find her vape and we started looking for it. Unfortunately we didn't find it and she had to leave without it. Lena flamed my phone all night that she needs her vape back. I was tired and drunk and didn't really see it as my problem so I just added her to a group chat with Jenny and told them to sort it out. Jenny said that she gave the vape back and doesn't know where it is. Next morning Lena said that it's chill and maybe it's a sign she shouldn't vape anymore.
Couple days later the vape was found under Jenny's couch. I drove to Jenny's to get it but my sister never bothered to come and get it so it still is on my desk. I thought that was the end of story.
Weeks later, we are planning another outing and I ask if my sister could join, and Jenny seemed hesitant. I asked what's wrong and she said she's hoping for an apology. Surprised, I asked what for, as it hasn't crossed my mind she would take that misplaced vape situation that seriously. Jenny said she felt hurt by that incident and that we made her feel like a thief. Taking it for a simple misunderstanding, I told her that we never accused her of anything and never would have thought of her that way, but she still insisted that it was a stressful situation for her. I texted Lena to let her know, she apologized and so did I.
Now, I'm on a weeklong job training and were given a name tag that I'm supposed to wear whole summer. I asked Jenny via group chat (us and another girl friend) if her boyfriend could laminate the name tag for me. She said that he gladly would, but I need to buy the sheet as they're running low. I was ok with that and she immediately asked me for my first/last name and email so she could place the order. She showed me the listing for a whole pack (~15$). I asked if I have to pay for all of that since I only need one and I'm currently broke, but I'll be getting my paycheck in 10 days. Jenny got kinda annoyed and said she'd pay, but I owe her a bottle of wine. I said again, ok, after I get my paycheck.
So she input her email, but asked for my name again. I jokingly told her that she doesn't have to ask as she already knows, and she replied "Do I? I don't even know you". I thought we were still joking, so responded with "Really, after all we've been through?". She asked "what have we been through?". I replied with a play on words that translates to "We've outdone ourselves" and she replied with "Not really". This is where I got a weird vibe, so I asked if she had some personal problem with me. Jenny said "Why would I? I don't even know you". Confused, I decided to drop the topic, and simply said "okay". She then asked why am I offended, and I replied by asking when have I said I was, and was met with "idk" as a response.
I stopped replying after that, but privately texted the other friend in our group chat to ask if I had done something wrong. She told me that she didn't think so, and suggested calling Jenny to ask. I told her that I had already asked and didn't have energy or time to play mind games.
I haven't spoken to either of them since yesterday, but still can't figure out why Jenny is mad at me. Or maybe she isn't and I'm just overthinking? I have other friends with BPD but never had issues like that. I really need another person's perspective here.

Soo..... I ( M24) was in a relationship for about 4 years. We were college sweet hearts, i thought she was the loml.We planned to get married. Met each other's parents. It was all going well. A rough patch of 6 months hit, and we ended up breaking up.
But, after that break up, it just broke me. Broke me really really bad. I was lonley and felt like killing myself. So I tried putting myself out there. I went out on few dates, but I don't get any butterfly feelings I used to have for going on dates anymore. ( It SUCKS!).
BUT, I started seeing people casually.i used go on one date, make out with that person and then that's the end of it. Maybe it led to sex as well sometimes ( but it sucked, cause being intimate with someone you love is better).. I was on this cycle multiple times - just going on one dates with people.
But now, I realised I was doing all that, because I was lonley and needed human company ( once, I asked someone to cuddle and sleep with me, that's it) .
And now I feel like i m ready for a relationship again, I know what I want, I feel like I have healed quite a bit. But now I m scared, whether me hoeing around this past year, will make me look bad for my future partner. What if I met someone amazing... And my past will hold them back!
I have never cheated in my life, nor will I , cause it has happened to me.
It was a desperate time for me. But, I feel ashamed now.
I saw few posts before in this subreddit, that women won't date men like me. Idk, its throwing me down a spiral again.
Any of you been in this situation and come out of it?

All the details I remember about this is that it starts off with the main character reviewing this harem game and giving it a bad review. Then someone messaged him and they made a bet and the next day he was in another world in the main character of that games body.

39M, 1.8o/6", 7okg, Europe, smoker; severe depression; medication: paroxetine 4o mg, lithium 9oo mg. supplements: probiotics, magnesium, amino acids, folic acid, chromium, zinc, fish oil, vitamin b1 and b6).
Hello everybody,
Survived nitrogen suffocation four years ago, due to the intense twitching the body went into when already unconscious. Sadly, the body must have learnt that twitching is the thing to do, and so every night when about to fall asleep, i.e. "lose consciousness", it starts twitching violently.
Some twitching was always present in my life, but since then, the violence has increased massively, and seems to do so even more now. It's mostly in the right leg. The epicentre seems to have move up over the years from the toes to the bottom.
Sometimes, intense stimulation to the epicentre appeases it (like hitting pelvis tissue with a hammer), sometimes it goes until total exhaustion after hours. Night rest therefore is compromised.
I'm wondering if someone had any impulse to alleviate this? Anything I tried during the day does not seem to have an effect (move a lot, move a little, drink lots of water, change diet (red meat daily recently, upon recommendation - helps for mood, not for twitches), take supplements, do exercises before sleep, ...). It appears purely psychosomatic. Medication seems to aggravate it, but medication also still feels indispensable.
Thanks for any advice!

I want to send a message to an ex after 10 years. How would you feel to get one after that amount of time?
I am a female in my earlier thirties and dated this person for maybe a year in my early 20s. We were so young, dumb, crazy and happy. I felt very loved, cared for and seen in a way I was too immature to appreciate. At that age we had chemistry and couldn't keep our hand off each other. He wanted to build a future with me and was in a rush but I wasn't. I wanted to enjoy the last of my youth before growing up and adulting. I felt we really connected on our aspirations and world view and I would have happily continued to date him, I was crazy about him.
However as mentioned he was in a hurry in a way I didn't understand. He had a lot more family, social and financial responsibilities and wanted to start building his life. I was still living at home while he was working multiple jobs to support himself while trying to appease his parents who were encouraging him to marry and settle down. He was a great boyfriend in every way, physically, mentally, emotionally, kind, caring, funny, smart. He did ask me to take steps with him to further our relationship eg moving out together but I just wasn't ready. People always tell you that you have so much time when you are young to figure things out, but when you get older you realize how special it is when you do actually connect with someone deeply.
So he eventually withdrew and I had that feeling something was off. Things fully ended after a wild weekend away where he was with someone else. At the end he also expressed how he no longer felt like he could be who he wanted to be in our relationship and how he had tried to wait for me but I hadn't reciprocated or taken any steps to further our relationship. We had different levels of ambition. He had a job opportunity in another city, moved and I never saw him again. I didn't take any of this well and was very emotional. I asked him to reconsider but he had to go. He wanted to keep in touch and that was a big NO from me.
Well I never heard from him again which was truly unbelievable to me after how he had pursued me and how I thought we felt about each other. So much so I doubted if our relationship was even real or maybe or if i had been had my a narcissist. When I finally picked up jaw up from off the floor, my ego decided I wouldn't reach out either. I am sure I was dramatic during this time as well. I am sure I would have blocked him, changed my number and cursed him out
As far as I know he moved on pretty quick to someone else and that was that.
And then out of nowhere a couple years later he sent me a well wishing short message and said I was he best he ever had. But again, as much as that was a compliment to me I just couldn't take it as face value.
As you can imagine that ripped my heart right out of my chest and I never replied. I told a mutual friend to tell him to pound salt.
Well, him leaving was probably the best thing he ever did for me because I wasn't able to be what he needed. As time has unfolded I realize just how much his presence taught me about life and myself. I am sure we both moved on.
I came across an old message from him recently I felt the desire to send him a message. I am not unhappy in my life and I don't want to reconcile. I have had a partner for many years I am happy with.
I don't want anything from him, I am not after a reply and I don't want to reconnect. After ending on such a bad note where I told him how shitty he was, I just simply wished he knew how powerful his presence was in my life during that time, some of the things/concepts he introduced me to still remain with me today. He touched my life deeply for the better and how thankful I am for things I learned out of that, and I hope he is somewhere out there living his best life.
Maybe this is for me and my story more than it is for him. Should I write the message and never send it?
How would you feel to get a message like this years later?

I’m currently studying animation since I realized a while back ago that I honestly feel incapable of seeing myself doing anything else except some form of working in the industry. I’ve been animating since I was 10 and always idealized it but never thought it was going to be easy but I was willing to put in the work, even buying my own graphic tablet at 13 (I sold a lot of comic books). A lot of my close friends are in the arts, and I hear how hard those industries are, acting, writing, and forget being a studio arts major. I’ve followed a lot of animators in the industry and have had a couple follow me back and I asked some of them basic questions about how the industry is etc etc. Some were positive but a lot of them were more jaded responses and this is predating Covid (though it didn’t ward me off any and was nice to hear the “bad parts” of the job/industry).
But nowadays it seems like every single person I follow, even people who have 15+ years experience under their belt seem to be struggling to find reliable work. Networks cancel shows after one season and with the rise of A.I. which is all anyone talks about anymore-usually in a joking manner but it doesn’t seem to be so funny anymore. I don’t think A.I. would replace animation entirely obviously but it does make me nervous for what jobs are going to be on the cutting block. In a lot of art circles and even on this subreddit it seems like everyone’s in a panic. Harsh realities I know, but even if I wasn’t to work in animation or film or visual arts at all I’d be terrified for what’s to come, art is so little respected as it is. I’m not anticipating switching majors or anything but it’s making me think of at least think up a good minor maybe? Hah I don’t know! I’m honestly just trying to gauge how really nervous students especially should be at this moment and maybe if it’s even a great idea right now to try and I guess make a living in animation. I know there’s been periods of hardships and corporate America is very unforgiving (not sure about other countries) but I gotta say I’m starting to feel like all ‘tech’ fields are suffering a bit out here especially-someone who considered computer science for a time

I (30f) have always struggled with friendships with my female friends, and I'm starting to worry I'm doing something wrong.
I want to start by saying I definitely have my own insecurities, but overall I'm very confident and sure of who I am. I raised by an amazing mom, two sisters I love more than anything and an absolute shithead of a dad who I've gone no contact with.
I worked my way through 2 post secondary degrees before moving abroad for work and that was when I really began to notice the pattern of this huge falling outs I was having with my female friends compared to my male friends and I'm really starting to think it may be me.
The thing is, while I very much enjoy my time with my female friends and try my best to be an active patlrticipant in my friendships I find our interests don't line up very often. Most of my friends have a spouse and kids or long term significant others and I am happily single. I don't get the same joy from things they do. While I enjoy cafes, brunches, women's gatherings and spa days. I'm far more excited for outdoor activities or more casual get together like bonfires or playing video games/movie nights.
I played hockey in my home country (recreationally) and in the warm climate I live in now I take full advantage of the nice weather by hiking regularly, dirt bikes, ATVs, etc. And as a result the majority of my friend group consists of my single, male colleagues and friends.
I never thought too much about it, I'm not much of a texter so usually unless it's a preplanned thing I'm pretty much solo anyways. But recently multiple women in my social group have pulled me aside to tell me that I have too many male friends, that I make my female friends uncomfortable and I've even had one woman who told me flat out I was no longer allowed to spend time alone with one of my male friends after they began dating but wouldn't tell me why.
I genuinely and truly believe that I try to treat all my friendships equitably and always try to be there to support and help and be a good friend. But I find that my female friends more often than not are wanting to sit and gossip (for lack of a better word, just like talk about nothing or their partners, etc), or they need help with a problem or challenging task - that im always happy to help with - but i can't relate to their conversations, and its tiring when it seems like i only hear from them when something is wrong or they need help, versus my male friends who want to go out, try new activities and foods, go camping, etc.
I feel sick that I've made these friends uncomfortable, but my interests and personality hasn't changed from the interests I've always had. Have I done something or am I doing something wrong here?

So my projected CG is gonna be high 6s after the end of first year, I put a lot of useless commitments over acads which is obviously my fault but I'm trying to recover right now. I just really want to hit 8 before SI (end of 3-1) and 8.5 before placements (I'll have to repeat some courses and really pull).
But that's kinda overthinking and too far into the future, so right now for 2nd year, I'll have to average 8.5-9 over the full 2nd year. I heard it's going to be difficult, especially for CS to get a good CG in 2nd year but I have 2 months right now and I'm willing to prioritize acads for the full year.
So I'm just wondering what exactly I should be working on right now, I've looked at the courses, can I just start watching lectures from StudyDeck and going through the textbook and slides? What courses are the hardest to get an A in? What should I be prioritizing? and any general tips for 2nd year CS? or to improve CG post first year?
Someone please help me with this, also please let me know if I'm overthinking/wrong anywhere in the post.
Edit: Any CS material/drive/recommended textbooks/resources is very much appreaciated

Hey everyone, I've been diagnosed for almost a year now and that whole pendulum of depressed about it/fine with it seems to be stabilizing a bit for me now. One thing that is still difficult though, is at work. People are trying to be accepting and are asking questions but I can't put this stuff into words. It's just been something I've had to intuitively figure out my entire life and I never thought about it. How do you describe stimming to people who are genuinely curious? Especially, what are the best ways you've found to describe the effects of it on your emotions and nervous system? Like all I've been able to manage is "it's calming, I can't explain it." Are there things a neurotypical does that feels for them, similar to stimming for us? I'm at a total loss of imagination on this. Thanks in advance for the discussion!

She probably will never see this, then again I could be wrong. I kind of hope she does so I can say some of what I wanted to say, but instead we ended up arguing over things that are really not important and I wish I could take it all back.
In High School it started and I never told anyone, not even my best friend. You were the one, the girl who was in a relationship, the crush I always wanted, the one I wanted to marry and spend my life with, to treat with the most genuine respect and to love and cherish. The problem was you were taken and I respected that line, most people don't. Yet life just kept moving forward. I come to find years later that your life has been filled with trauma, neglect, abuse, filled with drama and hate, being used and taken advantage of. The things I would never let happen to you or do to you were happening or had happened, and it breaks my heart to see you so different than the one I knew all those years ago. But deep in there it's still you and I hope that I may one day bring you back to happiness and to keep a smile on your face and to show you how much you are loved.
After 20 years we found each other living together albeit briefly after some difficult and unexpected times. I tried to tell you how I felt, you didn't want to hear it. And then we did something together I never thought would ever happen, and it was something I had hoped would happen for so long. I will always remember it and think about it everyday, how incredible it was and how it still could be. Even the first time our lips locked I was in complete ecstacy, the way you kissed me was something passionate and real, not just another kiss. You really are amazing and so beautiful and I wish we could continue to become something more. Something beautiful. Something forever.
I didn't want to leave you but I couldn't stand being thought of as just someone else there to use you. I would never hurt you. I tried to find the words, but you shut me down, you distanced yourself from me, that hurt. I know things are tough and I was willing to do everything I could to help.
Maybe I sound like I am rambling now but just know this. I am sorry for how I left, for leaving you alone, for everything wrong that I may have done. I just want you in my life, by my side. Maybe one day that will happen but it is something you need to figure out. I will continue to wait for you. If you will have me, come to me. You'll be safe and respected, loved and appreciated. For now, I am setting off on the hunt for more money, to give myself a fresh start and that also includes you, as I told you during our time together. My hand and heart will be waiting for you to take.
Find me. Message me. Email me. Call me. Anything. I want to make you happy for the rest of our lives.
I'm sorry J. I miss you. I want you with me. I want to hold you, hold your hand, to love you, to kiss you, to be the one you deserve. Hopefully we will find each other again. For now, just know im there thinking about you, waiting and going to do everything I possibly can.
Me.

A free game for Windows I downloaded years ago, the art style reminded me of more colorful Gameboy Advance games with smooth pixel animations and an optional scanline filter. The player character was a small girl with wolf ears and a wolf tail in a plain dress, and you could change her color palette between four options. It was in a farm setting, given the gameplay revolving around collecting eggs.
The gameplay was a clone of the Game & Watch game Egg, where chickens on each corner of the screen lay eggs that roll down their respective ramp and you have to hit a button for each corner to move the basket to catch the eggs before they fall to the ground, getting faster over time.
There was a sort of level select similar to Tetris, where you could choose to start at a faster speed, and there was a second game mode called 'Hi-Score' that was apparently different, but I could never figure out what aside from the lack of a speed select.
I think I got it from Itch.io, but it could have been Game Jolt (those were the only sources of free games I trusted at the time). Just looking up things like 'egg catcher' on either of these sites hasn't gotten me anywhere close though. If I remember correctly the first word of the game's name was a Romanized Japanese word that started with 's' but I could just be thinking of Syobon Action which I used to play a lot at the time too.

I came to this subreddit to try and find some answers but I’m struggling to find anything that is even remotely close to my situation as it feels like you all have had it much worse than me. But I hope you can offer some insight regardless 🙏🏼
Not really sure where to start with this as I’m totally new to this Reddit page. But basically I THOUGHT I was dating the love of my life. I’m a 30yr old man and she is a 27 year old woman. We met and sparks flew so crazy unlike anything I had ever experienced before. Immediate connection immediate love immediate “oh wow this is my spouse” type moments on both sides. We truly had a storybook relationship for the past 6 months. I think I can count on one hand the arguments we had and nothing was ever that serious. She is from Israel and moved to Los Angeles for modeling and we started dating a month after October 7th happened and all of that conflict really really impacted her to the point where it’s practically all she would talk about. I tried to be so supportive in every way I could be, tried to be as empathetic as possible and was told I was doing a great job at it by her.
Jump to a few days ago: everyone was posting the “all eyes on Rafah” thing on their social media and she made a comment that she wishes I would post something in support of her (I am not political nor do I post anything political on social media). But she truly was an amazing girlfriend and I wanted to show my support. So yesterday I posted my first instagram story basically talking about how terrible it all was and how Hamas is bad. I was so excited to show her the post that I felt accomplished both sides , showing her I support her as well as not getting too into the political side of things. I rushed to tell her to go look at my story like a little puppy dog. And what I encountered was a phone call from her with the most rage and anger as she was uncontrollably scream crying at me for posting what I posted and how I didn’t even say anything pro Israel and then told me that she “couldn’t believe she ever let herself date someone who wasn’t Jewish” and then broke up with me and hung up before I could even get a word out.
Earlier that same day she had been telling me just how much she was looking forward to moving in with me and how much fun we will have and all the things she will redecorate and cook. Then by night I was single because of an instagram story post and the person I was texting was not the same person I had fallen in love with the last 6 months.
Part of me believes that she was self sabotaging before it got too real with moving in especially because she has had trauma with moving in with a boyfriend in the past. But now she is apparently moving back to Israel.
I guess I should’ve seen this coming because she would always say that “she didn’t deserve me”, or “the only reason I’m even staying in America is because of you, outside of you I don’t have anything else here”. But it was so abrupt so bizarre in the way she did it especially when we literally did have like a perfect relationship.
So idk what to think really. But hope some of you have some insight.