TLDR; My fiancée passed away three days ago after a brutal fight with AML. I'm in pain. Anyone wants to video chat?
Full story:
It took exactly one year from when she got diagnosed.
We're both 27 years old. We've been together for 3 and a half years and started living together within a few months of dating.
I've been present from when she got diagnosed till the moment of the death and everything in between.
We knew from 3 months that there was no hope and we were expecting this anyways but it's a totally different when it actually happened. I'm hurt bad. In pain. Lost appetite. Can’t think about anything else.
But I feel that there's a slight improvement in my mood on a daily basis. I want to overcome this, be happy again and have this as a memory rather than the event that destroyed my future.
She asked me to promise her that I'll do my best to be happy and go on with my life.
My personal life circumstances made the experience very tough for me:

1. This is my first serious relationship and I invested everything into it without any backing up.
2. I'm a foreigner in the country we are living in so I had to deal with all of it while being far from my family and people. Not only this, we moved from the city where I had some connections to her family's city so that we stay closer to them (which helped a lot but left me quite lonely).
3. I'm a digital entrepreneur and had to cope and work (from home) on my business all while dealing with this tragedy.
4. My business was struggling because of AI and had to figure out ways to pivot
5. It's my first time dealing with a serious medical condition, death, funeral, etc.

Anyone has an advice for me? Anyone passed by a similar experience and would like to talk? I'm all ears.
Thanks everyone

I am a big fan of playing premade sims shipped with the game, more so than playing ones I made. Lucky Palms is my favourite Sims 3 world, so I have spent various amounts of time with many of the families that reside there.
Today, for the first time, I played the Irwin family. Now, the Irwins have drifted in the background of my gameplay with other families in the world, but I never quite "got" them. Richard and Emi seemed completely incompatible! Richard was non-commital, and Emi had an entirely eccentric personality which didn't seem like it would appeal to Richard at all! Emi, described in the game as having "a big heart" works as a thug in the criminal career, which doesn't seem to align at all. And to top it all off - a child! They had named Cricket! Of all names!
But today I booted them up and discovered something that made it all click into place - Richard and Emi were young adults. Some quick math and I had discovered that Cricket MUST have been born when Emi was a teen (a vanilla game impossibility but nonetheless), and suddenly their story fell into place.
Richard and Emi were highschool sweethearts, and later teen parents. Perhaps Richard didn't have the 'commitment issues' trait as a teen, and they were truly in love. I could see a version of their relationship which was sweet and youthful. Richard, the flirty jock and popular kid, and Emi the kind and soft spoken girl from the wrong side of the tracks.
Emi's pregnancy would have been a total surprise for the teens and their families'. Emi, who came from the rougher side of town, had little family to speak of but Richard's family, more prominent members of their community, were outraged. Not only had Richard been dating a girl below their family's social standing - but now she was pregnant! Richard's mother and father gave him an ultimatum; either Emi or his family.
Now, Richard isn't an extraordinary person, but he was a young man who wanted to do the right thing. He said goodbye to his family, packed up Emi and everything they owned, and sailed out of town. They drove until they were out of the state before parking in the town of 'Lucky Palms', where he married her and bought a house for them.
Shortly after, Cricket was born. And the responsibilities of a child, and of adult life, grew and grew. Once they reached adulthood, how long did it take them to realise they were no longer the same high school sweethearts? Was it once Richard was fired from yet another job? When he would return home later and later every night, despite his unemployment? Or once Emi started wearing a different pair of rubber kitchen gloves with every outfit?
Anyway that has become my read on the Irwin family, and I am having a great time playing them! Have y'all ever had a situation where a piece of in-game lore has allowed you to contextualise some sims that were otherwise a mystery for you? What are y'all thoughts on the Irwin family? How have you characterised them?

In desperation, I looked up morning sickness remedies. I've been miserable and I can't take unisom right now because I have a lot of driving I have to do.
Everything that worked helping me out with my last pregnancy is not helpful this time around. Yesterday, my eyes hurt, so I decided to look up videos with tips as a break from reading.
But the videos all were vloggers doing close mic food prep while talking about their first trimester. I almost threw up. I couldn't handle the surprise food asmr.
I'll just keep cringing at the sound the vitamin bottles make and the way my prenatal and b6 smell and being nauseated by yesterday's safe food. The advice is all the obvious stuff anyway.
The icing on the cake is that I'm holding off telling anyone outside my household about the pregnancy until father's day. So that's a long time to pretend that I'm fine.

Went to Dead & Company at the Sphere last night and ended up in the cabstand with a cult member who was violently antagonizing everyone in line, super stereotypical guy, super enraged. He got very close to throwing fists with hippies who didn’t want to hear the bullshit, man… This, after four hours of the most beautiful music in the most spectacular (enclosed) venue in the country IMHO. Like, it is damn near impossible to walk out of there with any anger or negativity in your heart.
Except for this guy, who’s relentless, screaming things people say in Sarah’s groups, like (1) “didn’t you like the economy better in 2019” and (2) “we don’t pump oil any more” and (3) “I’ll argue facts” and (4) “you’re happy now but you’re gonna cry in November, you’ll get yours,” (5) “Antifa,” (6) “Hunter Biden” and (7) “landslide in November,” etc. (“You got nothing!” he yells. “Your guy got 34!” others in line yell back.)
Again, to emphasize, this was all inflicted on a bunch of Deadheads, who are just about the easiest group of people to get along with on the planet, especially after a show—it’s a largely docile, loopy crowd. (Tickets cost $195-900, so this fellow clearly is not broke … almost assuredly owns a boat in FL, flew to Vegas, etc.; but I digress.)
Security was slow to arrive and when the men-in-suits showed up, this guy turns to them as if they were his personal bodyguards and dogs on everyone in line: “They don’t like Trump!” he tells them, shrugging, as if that’s a secret handshake between MAGA and LEO. And, no, there were no consequences to be paid. Dude took his cargo pants and jumped in a cab just like the rest of us.
Anyway, an anecdotal excursion: This guy was psychologically butthurt in the extreme and was lashing out like a roided-up toddler. I couldn’t tell if he was so violent because his brain couldn’t process the idea of Dear Leader actually being guilty of something and it would take time for his brain’s synapses to heal and accept; or, because he’d fallen into a very, very dark place where coups and violence and beating up old hippies waiting for cabs out in the desert are the answer. It felt like the latter. Chilling.
Oh, and everyone in the poker room at Orleans—a lower rent, ahem, and pretty local casino—is voting Trump.

Does anyone else struggle massively with multiple choice questions and exams?
Every time I have to take one, I absolutely dread it. I was just looking at a professional certification I could achieve, and then discovered it's assessed on a multiple choice exam. When I've had to take these type of tests before, I have failed them in a big way - like scoring incredibly low or getting every single question wrong. Even for topics I'm an expert on and could tell you the correct answer (and more!) if you asked me verbally or got me to write it down, it all goes out the window as soon as you ask me in a tickbox format. It's been this way my entire life, and it doesn't matter how much I study or the methods I use.
Had a Google and found that people with dyslexia find them harder, so wondered if anyone with dyspraxia experiences something similar.

I'm planning to walk away from a situationship. I feel that he won't care if I leave or pay attention to him. He doesn’t seem to mind if I meet other people. He's more into casual stuff, while I am looking for commitment. We talk like friends after having sex three times. I am the one who caught feelings. I hate having feelings for him. I hate starting anything with him.
I already confronted him, telling him that I would be cutting him off because I got attached and it's hard to maintain the friendship due to my feelings. He seemed respectful about it and told me to take care of my well-being.
Before cutting him off, I sent a lot of miserable messages about how I was willing to “remove my feelings for him to keep the friendship.” He told me that I was overthinking and that he appreciated the friendship.
After that, I sent him tons of miserable messages. He didn’t reply for many hours, so I took his silence as an answer to cut him off.
I removed him from all my socials, but I didn't block him. I thought he wouldn’t bother to reach out to me. Then, for the first time in a month, I had a good sleep. I was happy until I checked my Instagram and saw that he had sent me two reels and viewed my stories. This was weird and bothered me. Why would he send me those after I removed him?
The biggest mistake was that I sent him another reel, and then we slowly started talking again. We exchanged a few reels and watched movies like we always did.
I honestly don’t know what’s going on. I’m thinking that maybe he wants to see me as a friend or something.
But I’m starting to feel drained and hurt again.
I'm thinking of confronting him again, but I feel it is a waste of time. I’m planning to walk away instead and not bother with him anymore.
I feel like I have wasted my time. He doesn’t want a relationship, and my self-esteem is suffering because I keep wondering, “Why doesn’t he want a relationship with me?” “What’s wrong with me?” I have been sincere with him, and he’s using me for all the wrong intentions.
I don’t know what to do and I need help.

Just to be clear I DONT speak to guys looking for anything, I just went to girls school, I now simply wanted to talk to boys online, to see how they are, they are human too, I shouldn't have an image in my mind as if they are alien. Now, I am from India, I spoke to a guy online, he was 20, this almost last year, October if I remember correctly, I spoke with him about problems in my house, how my 10th was going, this is so common in every household, atleast so do I believe, I just shared my feelings, ntg too personal, it was on discord, my brother read the chats, scolded me a lot, I felt very ashamed, but at the same time I spoke to another boy, on snapchat, he was 17, I chatted with him a bit, sent him a selfie, with a sticker on my face, idk why I did that, but ik he initiated it and pursued me. My brother didn't directly look through the chats with both these dudes, he saw the chats on whatsapp with my best friend, she's a school friend, my parents hate her too, I have almost no social life, it's depressing. But anyways he went to discord, read all those texts, then prolly tried to look for snapchat but I had already Uninstalled in because the guy was getting creepy, I even deactivated the account, permanently. He scolded me a lot, like I cried a lot about it. But then I was preparing for board exams and too distracted, so I forgot about it eventually. A month or so ago I started to speak with a dude on an app, it's an app for teens to chat, I do not know how safe it is, I found a guy, I spoke with him a lot, then I told him if we could speak on instagram because that app wasn't good, like the chatting, messages delaying, etc. When I moved to instagram, we spoke a lot, he was a year younger, which I found out 3 to 4 days ago from now, so he read my insta chats from my mother's phone, got to know and got angry, I didn't speak anything, ntg with that guy, that was personal, it was mostly about how I wanted to become vegetarian when I get out of the house, he did get very personal one time talking about how his sister was a slot, elder sister that is, how she spoke with many dudes online and even sent them her selfies, she is 18, so I didn't care and told him, he too speaks with so many girls online, it's kind of hypocritic of him to be, he then just changed the topic. So now, today morning, my brother comes and says who's that guy, I said I just spoke to him, he called awaari(characterless) and diwani(mental or an idiot), I wouldn't be hurt if I had done something wrong, I don't think I have done anything wrong, why did he have to say that I am stupid and have no sense, saying we gave u phone, now u will do this. I don't know honestly, I have no one to talk about it, I did try messaging my best friend, she's never available almost, it's not her fault, I am just boring so she turns off her notifications prolly, she's a loner too, she talks about her problems, you know what her biggest problem is? That she is ugly, no girl you are beautiful, I am not tired of suggesting solutions and her sitting in her room and talking about world problems, saying life is useless, I know she's depressed, but as she speaks that, my energy has gone over the years, I am so negative, I don't know when I started to self harm, I don't want to but crying doesn't help because there is no private place to cry in this house, it's so painful,when she talks about suicide, and I am feeling like I will kill myself everytime. I know I am not a great or even good friend, daughter, sister, student, classmate, nothing, but there are people worse who are somehow happier, at this point I am just venting, but please if there are any adults who can give me advice on how to continue to focus on studies, not hate myself, not feel so useless, it's hurting me a lot, but I am a pussy, I am scared of killing myself because I don't want people to call me mad, somehow I still care about what others think, I belong to a muslim household, so it's worse somehow and no, he didnt inform about any of this to my parents, he's so egoistic, I hate him, he always abuses me when my parents are not around, makes fun of anything I do, when beats me, ut isn't play fight, it feels like he has rage against me, I have done nothing to him my whole life, I am still a child, he's 18, I know not much older but just because he's studying engineering, he tries to show it off to my face all the time, I hate him,even my parents don't care anymore, if reply I am bad, I don't understand anything, I can't even question anything, I genuinely need help because I feel like my mental health is getting worse and worse as I think about this, my hair fall has increased, I don't want to eat, I sometimes throw out the remaining food when no one is looking, please help, I beg🙏 yes I posting this wherever I can because I am desperate

Can we just agree that it’s the worst bank ever? I miss SEFCU, at least there was a hometown feel still. Can you believe they shut down for two days and no online access. How is that even legal. Maybe I’m the dope for not reading the 900 emails and correspondence. But, at every turn there’s an extra fee or gimmick they’re tryna sell. I don’t believe the times union actually voted them the best bank in the area. BS. Thanks for listening to my rant

Some background about my relationship: My BF (31M) and I (25F) have known each other for a year and been together half a year. We moved in together as it was convenient for both of us. He is currently a medical student and has always been the perfect boyfriend. He takes care of me and has always made me feel comfortable and wanted in my relationship. Everything in our just seems to fit so well and I have never met someone like him before. He has been studying for a major upcoming exam that is likely impacting his future for residency placement. I do admit that he has been feeling distant recently and chalked it up to his stress and anxiety for that exam. We’ve also talked about this and he confirmed that he cannot handle much at the moment except for focusing on his studying. I wanted to be supportive as possible since he was supportive of me when I was going through a rough time with my studies as well.
He recently came back into contact with a friend (30F) that he has known for a long time and since she is in the same field as him, they’ve started to study together. I don’t know why but I felt uneasy about their relationship as he didn’t tell me much about his friend and seems to talk to her in private a lot. I couldn’t shake off the uneasiness and I do acknowledge it was wrong to do what I did but I ended up looking through his phone. I found that he still has numerous intimate photos and videos of his exes on his phone. All of them were consensual. This goes back 7 years and I just feel sick to my stomach from what I saw. We did take photos and videos when we were intimate before too, so it seems like a reoccurring thing for him to do. I also found that before long before we started dating, he was dating around and sleeping with multiple people at the same time. I do not have a problem with him casually dating in the past but to still have those photos and videos just grosses me out so much. I also found that the friend he was talking to has also sent nudes before. When we talked about her last time, he has only mentioned that she’s a friend he has known for a long time and they recently caught up but I suspect that they had some sort of intimate relationship in the past. I just feel so disappointed in what I found and I don’t know if I can ever see him in the same light again. I doubt he was physically cheating in our time together as he literally does not have the time to do so. Since we live together, it’s easier to see this as he usually just comes straight home after class or his clinicals and usually spend the whole day studying or hanging out with me. I just don’t know what to do since I really do love this man dearly and he has never done anything to hurt me and has been perfect in every other way. Even though we’ve been dating for a short time, I really did see a future with him and it feels like we were an old married couple living together whenever I’m with him. I feel that I should reasonably break up with him but there’s still that sliver of hope that he has changed or this is a misunderstanding. I just feel delusional at this moment but it really hurts to have found something like that about him. He doesn’t know that I know these things and is taking a vacation with his family at the moment, so I have time to figure out what to do. I have been quite anxious thinking about what to do and have been leaning towards breaking up with him when he gets back. But it hurts, it really hurts for me and I really wish there is some way I can continue this relationship. I just don’t know what to do.

Just to make it clear I am a type of girlfriend(F30) to never ask help. And previously me and my partner(M25) have had a few arguments around that with him feeling he isn’t needed and it makes him feel like he is not important to me.
He on the other hand is a type of person to always ask. Every week I pick him up from a friends how’s(15 min one way usually). He is on medical marijuana and won’t drive so every date we go on I drive. He has no problem with constantly borrowing money so he can buy toys. “Hey babe can I borrow 10k so I can buy a car” “5k so I can do this” “2.5k so I can buy a motorbike”
I have never asked for money and have always gone and picked him up even after a 16 hour day at work( my choice I run my own business I’m not complaining about the hours)
Fast forward. I was getting my car paint fixed this week and didn’t have a car for 6 days. For 4 days I needed to get to work and I asked his help. Now, it’s an inconvenience as my work is 50km away from home and takes 45 min one way to get to. However he has the time before and after work to do that. It’s just very inconvenient as he does have physical job.
Now since I never ask for help I asked him to drop me to work as I would much rather spend $130 a day that it cost me getting Ubers on us. He did it twice and then by the time it came to pick me up for the third time he asked me to get an Uber.
I feel like he just chose to get high instead of helping me. I feel like all I do is give and he takes. When it came up in an argument he called me selfish for even expecting him to pick me up and that I am an adult and I should call an Uber.
Now here’s my question. Would you pick up your partner if they didn’t have a car or do you think it’s a selfish expectation from a partner ?
TL;DR Expected my boyfriend to drive me to work when car was getting work done. It’s a long drive and he thinks it’s selfish from me to ask that.

My 13 year old son has tryouts for a new club coming up in July. He plays as a defensive / deep-lying midfielder; this club would be a big step up in quality for him. We’ve set his expectations, and we want him to go out and have fun, but I’d like to give him the best possible shot at being selected, as he’s really determined.
His biggest weakness is his lack of patience and composure. He habitually plays head-down, kick and run footy; constantly turning into pressure, and taking heavy touches in tight areas. He loses possession of the ball 80-90% of the time after he receives it.
When he’s instructed to slow down his play, move into space, and get his head up, he is absolutely fantastic, and his technique shines through. However, he needs to play like this consistently and without reminding. His energy, aerial ability, defensive ability are exceptional for his age.
What are some simple drills I can work on with him to improve his ability to a) keep possession under pressure, and b) retain the ball after winning a challenge?
I’m obviously not expecting him to transform into Sergio Busquets, but it would be great if he could move the ball on to a teammate or make space for himself 20-30% more often.
I’m struggling a bit because I find it hard to simulate congested high pressure situations off the pitch, and he only plays full games twice a week (only once now the season is over).
We’d have 2-3 other people available to perform the drills with us if need be.
Any advice would be massively appreciated!

Tunisia is beyond fucked now we have a cult for kais said and I dont see anything postive coming from it, this is the first i am seriously going to vote because its time for chabeb to take control at this point. i am looking for a forward-thinking candidate that can make tunisia more open to the global economy. i am tired of having headaches each time i want to pay ads for my business, or each time a client from abroad pays me a handsome amount of money, you can't buy shit online, cars cost 10x their original cost from abroad wages are low af, 1% economic growth for a country with 50b gdp 💀. THIS IS FUCKING HORRIBLE WE ARE LIKE NORTH KOREA AT THIS POINT

Why im asking is because. So many times in other games that i have played i made a build and had fun. Then the devs nerfed said build to the ground and im left with hours wasted om something that is sub optimal.
For most of my game time so have i been a pistol gal. All i need is a crusader, gauss pistol and circuit breaker and i have all the handguns.
Thing is i dont play daily ops and after im done grinding for the circuit breaker. Then i Will take a break from my pistol character until minerva sells the crusader again.
So i Will be making a new alt character that is a commando and Will be playing on that until minerva can give me the crusader!
And yes the main weapon i wanna use is the railway. Not because its op but because i used it in fallout 4 and wanna use it here again.
Im just really worried about nerfs....I know it has been strong for a long while but i really wanna use it and it would suck if it were to get gutted even more so with the super cool looking new railway that comes in the new update!
So what do you all think?

Fairly recently my HA devices have become less responsive and out of sync with Google Home.
Take a light for example, it works perfectly in HA. If I try to control the same light in Google Home it may switch on, but it's random... it could work the first time, then take three attempts. When the light does change status the state can be incorrect in Google Home, it could be on and Google Home show it off.
I could understand a delay, but this is random and the status doesn't seem to be reported correctly.
Any ideas?

Hi, I have no kids and I need advice!
I'm throwing a party for my 35th birthday (Saturday, mid-August).
A handful of friends have had babies in the last few months/weeks. Many others have toddlers and kids up to 9/10 years old.
How can I best accommodate new parents and their kids? I have been to plenty of baby and kid birthday parties, so I am not entirely clueless about activities, but I am sure there are a lot of considerations for new parents that I would not be aware of.
Some ideas and questions. Please let me know what I am doing wrong and what I am leaving out.

• Invites -- I assume new parents will default to "no", but I would like to be able to say I've made the party "baby friendly" so they can at least stop by. Maybe a small window of time, even prior to the start time for adults. Thoughts?
• Entertainment -- I plan to have a small kid's table with coloring books, stickers, maybe temporary tattoos. I may be able to borrow a Little Tikes bounce house. I will get those easy hose-inflatable water balloons, bubbles,Any other ideas?
• Food -- IDK what is best for babies or picky eaters. Lots of water and juice boxes accessible. Grilled cheese. Ice pops (and I'm thinking about arranging for the ice cream truck to stop by or doing ice cream sundaes). Later, there will be a fire and smores.
• Comfort/safety -- I have a nice outdoor couch. Ill have plenty of shade. Lots of fans in case it's hot. There will be music playing over speakers.
• In-ground pool -- Can't avoid this one. Once you're in my backyard, there is no fence or gate to the pool. It also has a ladder instead of steps. Should I get some floaties? I have plenty of floats and pool noodles. It's never been a problem before.
• Inside -- It's usually quiet inside while we have parties. I only have 1 bathroom. Should I set up a changing table or nursing area? I can let them in my room.

What am I overlooking? What else can I do? What red flags did I list?
I want everyone important, friends and family, to be there. I don't usually make my birthday a big thing, but I am turning 35 and my GF and I are a few years away from being ready to have kids. I'm the fun uncle so I want the babies to be accommodated and my niece and nephew to want to stay. Thanks!!

Hi all, I have a six and a half week old who has struggled with breastfeeding from the beginning - first he wouldn’t latch and I was pumping around the clock and also supplementing with formula When he was about two weeks old he began latching consistently and I stopped pumping, and we were exclusively breastfeeding. We began supplementing with formula again about a week ago because he wasn’t gaining enough weight. Ever since we started reintroducing bottles/formula, it’s like baby has forgotten how to latch! Especially late in the afternoon/evening when my supply is lower and he is crankier, he won’t latch at all now.
At first we were only supplementing about 2 oz a day, and now we are up to about 12 because he just won’t nurse as often. I know I should be pumping to keep my supply up, but I hate it. I have been pumping once or twice a day but struggling to do any more than that, especially because my husband is back at work now and I struggle to tend to baby and also pump (and also do all of the other things in life I need/want to do!)
Baby nurses best in the middle of the night and in the morning when my breasts are super full. I am thinking about just trying to give this baby mostly formula and nurse a few times a day without pumping. Will my supply just dry up or can I potentially get away with only nursing a few times a day at this stage (again, without pumping to keep up supply)? Would love to hear if anyone has tried this this early.

Hi,
Some times ago, I sent a message to tell you about a small application I've coded called Buddee.

The goal is to allow people to connect and share experiences together around freediving. For exemple, when you're traveling to a new location, this could help you find a buddy to dive with. Also, people offering training session on anything related to freediving can post it on the site.

Many people have shown interest in the app (thank you for this), so it is now available in English :)
I hope this app will be useful for the community. Of course, the more people use it, the more likely everyone will find a buddy close to them, so don't hesitate to share it.
Also, if you find a bug or think of a feature that would be nice to add, contact me and I'll do my best !

hello this is my first time in reddit English is not my native language .I just want some advice on how to deal with my father. My father (55)has a tender heart, but he is not good at expressing it and ends up hurting me(19f). He is very nervous and gets angry over trivial things and ends up taking out his anger on us, his children. And when I start dealing with him the way he does, he gets angry at me and He is in a lot of pain. He knows that the way he treats us is hurting us, but he does not focus on that. Rather, he says that we hate him. I am trying to change for the better. I am no longer as nervous as I was, but there are some situations that make me lose my temper. For example, I go to university three times a week. One time he takes me to the bus and fights with me because he doesn't want to and I have no other way because it's too far away. There are a lot of other things but I'll be satisfied with this. I'm his eldest daughter but sometimes I feel like he prefers my brothers over me. He always criticizes me and bothers me while I'm eating. He doesn't want me to become fat. I suffer from some psychological disorders, especially when I started studying at university, but I feel that he is making things worse. I want to be smart in dealing with him. I love him, but he does not allow me to express that to him.??