So to get out my comfort zone I Decided to attend the conference offline rather online. It was my first time doing presentation in a totally different college, all new people I knew no one there. There were total of 15 participants in each hall I was 14th participant and all while those people were talking i tried all tricks I know to control my breathing and anxiety. I’ve very bad stage fear. I tried doing 5 things you can touch see hear everything after few minutes of desperate trying I calmed myself but then when my turn came I jus did so bad I never spoke the point I was intended to say, never made eye contact. I couldn’t form sentences and there was no clarity in my speech. In the end it became even more awkward with constant pauses, repeating of sentences and saying uh…uhhh… in between the speech. I’m 23F the other candidates were mostly younger than me and they made a very good articulation. Felt so bad about myself I was really embarrassed to be there. I felt like a joke 😔 I don’t know why I can’t speak my mind. P.S: I made two good friends :)) they even got my number and also I appreciated everyone who did well. Overall even though I got my certificate and the experience wasn’t so bad except for the part where I flopped so badly I couldn’t get over it. I feel so ashamed about myself.

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Intro (Timestamp: 1:47) - Rachel: Welcome back to another episode of Rachel Goes Rogue. This is your host, Rachel Savannah Leviss. Today, we are talking about part three of the Vanderpump Rules reunion. - Rachel: It has finally come to an end, season 11. It's been a long time coming, and we're here to react. I have my producers with me, and as usual, they will be asking me some questions to get my perspective on what we just watched during the reunion.
Well, first of all, I want to start off with asking you just your overall thoughts on the reunion, watching it. How do you feel? (Timestamp: 2:19) - Rachel: Overall, I just feel tired at this point. I don't enjoy watching this show, and (Rachel starts to get emotional) I'm just happy that it's over. It was good that they didn't talk about me very much this last episode, part three. - Rachel: That's great, but it's been really difficult watching each week. And I feel like I can finally start to move on from all of this, because it's been really difficult. It was really heavy and sad. - Rachel: And I think everyone on that cast is struggling. And I would be too if I was there. I mean, I'm struggling just watching it from the sidelines, so I can only imagine what it's like being on that stage.
So you're getting really emotional right now. Where is this emotion coming from? (Timestamp: 3:28) - Rachel: It's coming from a place of feeling like I haven't had much room to go. Feeling like stuck between a rock and a hard place, so to speak. Because this entire time, I have been preparing for them to slander my name, to paint me in the worst light. - Rachel: And my goal with this podcast was to be able to represent myself, to defend myself, to share what I've learned through my time that I took away and my recovery, and just to shed more light on the situation. - Rachel: And it hasn't been easy. It's been an extreme rollercoaster of emotions in a lot of different phases, getting sucked back into it, and then feeling like all consumed by all the comments and everything, and then completely cutting off communication with the outside world and living in my own reality in the moment. It's all about that balance, and it has not been easy to move on. - Rachel: I don't think it's been easy for any of the cast to move on rehashing it and talking about it and having other people tune in. It's not typical. It's not normal. And the day has finally come that the show, season 11, is over, and it's a relief to me because I don't have to keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. - Rachel: I don't have to think about what lies they're going to spread about me, and I don't have to think about what I need to defend myself about. And then following week, I feel like I can finally start to live my life again.
And so you're kind of talking about the boundaries that you've been setting by staying away and cutting people off, which obviously boundaries was a really big topic at the reunion. You obviously set some really strong ones by not returning to the show. What's your take on this discussion of boundaries? Do you agree with Lala or do you side more with Ariana when it comes to boundaries when it's in regard to filming the show? (Timestamp: 5:40) - Rachel: I could see both of their points of view. Setting a boundary for yourself is not an easy thing to do. And when other people are upset that you set a boundary for yourself, that's usually a telltale sign that that person is using you in some way and is not happy that you have this new boundary because it's not serving them. - Rachel: So, I can see why Ariana upholded her boundaries by not speaking to Tom, even though she actually did film with Tom this whole season, or for the later part anyway. But she refused to have that conversation with Tom at the end of the show, and I commend her for it because it would have been a fake conversation. You could tell that Tom, his only motive to having that conversation with her is for camera purposes and storyline purposes. - Rachel: Therefore, it's not an authentic conversation. It would have been crocodile tears, the whole thing. And I completely understand Ariana walking away. I walked away too, and people weren't happy about that either. - Rachel: For Lala's point of view, I can understand her perspective in wanting to have a good TV show for her livelihood and the longevity of her career. If you're going to commit to filming, then I can see why Lala is upset, because you are not only committing to filming with this person, I can see her point in that she is living under the same roof as Tom. - Rachel: They're living together, they're filming together, yet in Lala's eyes, Ariana is being stubborn by not filming with Tom, or that one scene. Who even cares about that one scene? I don't know. - Rachel: It's all so silly to me, but boundaries are important. I was in a place where I didn't have boundaries, and I was really trying to appease production and put on a good show. That became my priority season 10.
And where do you think the line needs to be drawn, you know? When at the end of the day, this is a paycheck and this is a job, versus this is someone's real life. You've talked a lot about wanting to live in reality. Where do you think that line should be drawn? (Timestamp: 8:32) - Rachel: I think that's an impossible question to answer when you're filming a reality TV show, because the line is so blurry, it's impossible to know what's real and what's not. And the more I'm out of it, the clearer I can see that. We see it with Tom Sandoval when he talked about production. - Rachel: He did the New York Times article, and he stopped talking mid sentence when a plane flew over or a truck drove by, whatever it was, because the audio, typically when we're filming a show and a plane flies by, you stop talking so that the audio can pick up normally without the distraction in the background. - Rachel: So it's like programmed in your mind to think a certain way, to act a certain way, to talk a certain way, to pursue certain things, where it becomes a part of your patterning. We also see the lines get blurred with Scheana and the comment section, and what is real life and what is not, what is her own true motivation for doing certain things, and what is influenced by outside commentary. - Rachel: That gets so blurry, and when you're all consumed in the perception of yourself, how can you really be sure that you're operating from a place of an inner knowing? That's a boundary that's blurred. With Lala, she clearly prioritizes the success of the show because she wants to secure her paycheck, and when people are setting boundaries for themselves and it's conflicting with what she wants and what is successful in her eyes, that sparks an anger within her. - Rachel: And it's all fabricated to a certain point because the bottom line is this show. So, I think it truly is impossible to live a real life and be on a reality TV show.
So, do you think it's fair for Lala to direct that anger towards Ariana? Or do you think she should be directing it more towards the show? (Timestamp: 11:12) - Rachel: Oh, no, not at all. I don't think that it's fair that Lala is directing that anger towards Ariana because Ariana has been very clear with her boundaries since the very beginning and…
I guess if she's feeling this way, do you think maybe she should have upheld her boundaries more if she was feeling so resentful towards someone doing the same? Do you think she's feeling like she regrets things that she had said in the past? (Timestamp: 11:35) - Rachel: I think she did uphold her boundaries. I think that she feels like she hasn't been supported the same way that Ariana is being supported. And it's probably not a good feeling, but she maneuvered differently than Ariana has. And Lala doesn't extend the same empathy towards others. So it's harder to support her, I believe.
She does make a point to say, many times, that she feels like things are not being honest on camera. She points out Tom and Ariana’s relationship being one of those things. Katie has a flashback moment where she also calls it out. Do you agree that things are not always honest on camera? (Timestamp: 12:12) - Rachel: Totally. Yeah. I think the point that Lala is making is that Tom and Ariana haven't been honest about their relationship on camera. - Rachel: And I think people are getting caught up in Lala being hypocritical because she wasn't honest about her relationship with Randall. Okay, yes, that might be true. But the point is that Tom and Ariana haven't been good for quite some time. - Rachel: And their relationship that was portrayed on camera for fans to see was not an accurate representation of their relationship. I see the frustration because I agree with that too.
Even on your part, how does it affect you as someone on the show when people aren't fully honest on camera? How does that affect the rest of the cast? (Timestamp: 13:21) - Rachel: Yeah, it affects everyone when people aren't fully honest on the show. I mean, I wasn't fully honest the season 10 reunion. I was still covering up for Tom Schwartz. - Rachel: I was still covering up for Tom Sandoval. I was still going along with that narrative, and it would have been much better to just be open and honest about it. But of course, Tom was like, no, that wouldn't be good for business. - Rachel: It wouldn't be good for Schwartz and Sandys if people knew that the Schwartz kiss wasn't authentic and we need that to seem real. So it does affect everyone when you're not being honest, because it portrays a certain picture that isn't reality, and the whole point of reality TV supposedly is to be real, following these real people's lives. - Rachel: So honesty would be like the most important value characteristic you would think that everyone on this show should have. But it seems like nobody does.
Well, speaking of honesty, Ariana kind of called out Tom and his motives behind wanting to apologize on camera. He finally does get that moment during the reunion to apologize to Ariana. He has some words when he does, he calls the affair something he regrets every day. He says that he wears it like a badge of shame. On your end, how did that feel watching that? (Timestamp: 14:46) - Rachel: It's hard to tell if Tom is being honest or not. Even in the Secrets Revealed episode, when he was asked how many girls he had sex with since me, and he had to pause and think about if he was going to be honest or not, he's just been caught in so many lies that it's hard to tell if he's being truthful. - Rachel: But hearing Tom say that he regrets getting involved with me every single day, I regret it too, so it is a little bit painful, but it's also like maybe something is registering for him. - Rachel: I don't know. But then again, his actions speak a lot louder than his words. He knows what words to say, and then it seems that he fails to follow through with meaningful action. And that's where true amends come into play.
There was just, I feel like, a lot of pain in the room all around. You kind of acknowledged that at the beginning of this episode. What do you think that this pain, and even Lala saying that she was okay seeing some of those friendships end, what do you think that means for the future of this group? (Timestamp: 16:07) - Rachel: I don't see much of the future for this group. It looks pretty shattered. It looks like these friendships are not healthy friendships. - Rachel: The dynamic between Lala and Scheana is not a healthy dynamic. It seems to be like a power imbalance. It seems like Scheana is trying to appease Lala to make sure she's secure, and she's getting certain needs met in that friendship because Ariana hasn't been around for Scheana the way that she's used to. - Rachel: Yeah, you could tell that Scheana’s struggling with coping with that. It seems like Lala's really on a wavelength of not effing with anybody on the cast right now. It seems like her friendship with Katie isn't strong because Katie's gotten really close with Ariana. - Rachel: It seems like even her friendship with Scheana is a little rocky. I think she sees Scheana as someone that's not...How do I want to say this? - Rachel: And I hate saying this word, because I don't want to like categorize somebody as something, especially because I've been called this before too. But I think seeing how Lala reacted to everything and how Scheana was trying to be the fixer and appease Lala, and it just didn't seem like enough for Lala. I think Lala sees Scheana as someone who is weak, perceived weakness. - Rachel: I'm not saying that Scheana is weak. And I think that there's a lot of alliances and manipulation happening, and none of that is healthy for our friendship dynamic. I can see why the show is taking a hiatus, because it just seems so fractured
Well, it definitely seems like at the very end of the episode, Scheana was very sure to get that last word in. I felt like she was looking directly at Lala and almost begging for her to hear her out that she was on her side. And it really did seem like the very end, Scheana had to choose. Is she Team Ariana or Team Lala? Do you think she made the right choice? Do you think she needed to make a choice, or do you think that she's putting this pressure on herself? (Timestamp: 18:21) - Rachel: Ooh, that's a good question. I think she feels a lot of pressure from the outside perspective, and she doesn't want to, obviously, like burn bridges with Ariana or anything. And I think Ariana has been very gracious towards Scheana. Do I think that she needed to choose sides? I don't think so. I don't know. - Rachel: I can see Lala's frustration probably because I'm sure Sheena and Lala have had conversations about the whole situation. And without Ariana there, I'm sure Sheena's singing a much different tune than what we're hearing at the reunion, and that's sparking some frustration in Lala. And I'm sure that was a similar feeling when she called out Katie about it too. - Rachel: So yeah, I think that Lala feels pretty isolated, I want to say, in her feelings. And now that it's aired, and I did check Reddit for the first time in a very, very long time, it seems like the majority of people are hating on Lala right now. I'm human. - Rachel: I do hold some resentment towards Lala for the way that she's treated me over the years. I do empathize with her a little bit because all the hate online is just a little bit ridiculous. And I think also people are afraid to speak a differing opinion than the team Ariana side because people are just ruthless online and they don't want to hear a differing opinion. - Rachel: And if you do, then you get shunned out, too. It's very, my therapist calls it tribal shaming, where if you're not following the rules of the tribe, spoken or unspoken, then you're cast out and you're shunned.
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I mean, it does feel like the fans have had more of an impact on this season than ever. Would you agree with that? (Timestamp: 23:24) - Rachel: Yeah, especially because as they were filming this show, the fans were boots on the ground. We're going to production, we're going to filming, and we're going to take photos and document what we saw and all that stuff. Like it was very interactive in a way. - Rachel: I think with after show this year, it was a little bit different because some things have changed since the ending of filming last summer. One of the things was me starting my own podcast and speaking freely about my experience and my opinion and the after show gave the cast an opportunity to rebut what I was saying and it provided more of a context. - Rachel: And I think with more time passing from the end of filming last summer to, you know, early January, February of this year, when they filmed the after shows, cast dynamics shifted because as we all know, now watching the finale, Lala and Ariana did not end on a good note whatsoever. - Rachel: And so, you know, she had some choice of words to say during the after shows. And it seemed like she really got Sheena to support her with that.
Speaking about the fracturing of this cast, something about her did recently open. Not many cast members were in attendance to this opening. What's your take on that? (Timestamp: 24:56) - Rachel: Interesting. Do you know who went? - iHeart Lady: I know Schwartz went - Rachel: It seems a little telling that maybe Sheena and Lala aren't on the best terms with Ariana right now, because they went to like the Broadway opening that Ariana did for Chicago. And they also went to Dancing with the Stars. But this is all before they knew that she didn't watch the show. And so that was all before the reunion and everything. So yeah, it seems like maybe they're not on the best of terms right now.
What are your thoughts on production holding the last five minutes until the reunion to show to everyone? (Timestamp: 25:47) - Rachel: I wonder if they got word that Ariana wasn't watching the season. And they did that as a way to ensure that they would get a reaction from her, kind of like forcing her hand a little bit, forcing her into a situation that she did not want to be in. It was very strategic in that way. And it was something new. Like, we've never done that before. It was creative, for sure, on production's part.
Do you think it was fair to Ariana? (Timestamp: 26:27) - Rachel: There's a commitment, and part of that is watching the show and having an opinion on what's happening besides your own story that you're sharing. So in a way, it's like ensuring that Ariana did have an opinion on it. So very eye opening, to say the least.
I want your take on Tom's final words. He says, I love it. It's good for me. A lot of people in the room were very shocked by that. Tom even has a reaction to it, where he shakes his head no. They didn't even really press him on what he meant by that either. What's your take on all of that? (Timestamp: 26:49) - Rachel: I wish they pressed him on what he meant by that a little bit more. And Ariana was pretty much the only person that called him out on it too. She caught it. - Rachel: She was like, that exactly proves my point, that you are doing things for the audience, for the production value, and for his own story purposes. I guess in Tom's eyes, having Ariana refuse to film and walk off was good for him because he felt like he completed his job and fulfilled his duty with what production was asking from him. And Ariana was not. - Rachel: And I think selfishly, he probably thought that it would give him a better chance of having more of a redemption story. - Rachel: Because, ultimately, production is the one picking and choosing what they're going to share on the show and edit and put certain music behind certain scenes to make it seem even more of a certain way. Tom knows how to play into that. But I would have loved to hear what his explanation for that comment would be.
Why do you think they didn't press him? (Timestamp: 28:34) - Rachel: I think that they're protecting him, like they always have been.
We did see something interesting at the very end with Lisa stepping up and taking Ariana's side, which is kind of a different tune. You've talked about this before, where she seems to protect the guys a lot of the time, but then she changes her tune at the very end of the episode and takes Ariana's side. What are your thoughts on that? (Timestamp: 28:39) - Rachel: I think Lisa is very strategic with what she puts out there as well. And she knows what people are saying about her, with her always supporting the guys. So that could have been a motivation behind her changing her tune and supporting Ariana in that way. Yeah, I don't know. It's hard because I think also Lisa is very aware of who the fan favorites are. It's her show. - Rachel: She's an executive producer on this show. So she's not a dummy when it's coming to that. I think it helps her if she is supporting Ariana because she'll praise Ariana for walking away and end up holding her boundaries. - Rachel: But then when it comes to me, I don't even remember what she said about me. But when it comes to me walking away and setting a boundary for myself, I've been told that I'm a coward and I'm running away from my problems. - Rachel: So that part for me gets a little frustrating because it's like, and also the fans praising Ariana for upholding her boundaries and walking away and supporting her and telling her like, you know, she's outgrown this show. - Rachel: She should move on and do something even better with her life. And she's finding out now that these aren't her true friends and like good for her for upholding her boundaries and walking away from this situation. And I've done the same thing and it has been met with scrutiny.
Lala compares her situation with Randall to Ariana a lot throughout this reunion. Do you think the two are similar at all? (Timestamp: 30:37) - Rachel: I don't think that the relationship that Lala had with Randall is comparable to the situation that Tom and Ariana were in. It's hard to get on Lala's side with some of the things that she's saying, because the way that she spoke about her relationship with Randall is like bragging about doing BJs for PJs and getting gifted a Range Rover very early in their relationship and not being honest about who she was seeing and the situation that was happening basically. And it just seemed like she was in it for the money and like to secure her success and fame. - Rachel: So it's hard to get behind that, especially when she's been so outright about it. Unfortunately, Randall wasn't the stand up guy that she was selling him to be. We weren't buying it. - Rachel: In Ariana's case, viewers got to see that relationship develop over the years, whereas with Lala's, he wasn't around, like it was secret for a while. And, you know, it's harder to develop feelings towards a person or a relationship when you're not seeing it play out on camera. I think Lala has a lot of anger, maybe even towards herself, for the situation that she allowed herself to be in. And I think she might be taking that out on Ariana.
How hard is it to be really honest when you're in this position? And do you think certain cast members have an easier time doing this? (Timestamp: 32:22) - Rachel: So this is like where your own values come in. Like, are you an honest person or are you not? Because there are people in this cast that are not, and we know who they are, and they have no problem lying, and it doesn't bother them when they lie. - Rachel: And for me, I'm working towards living a more authentic, honest life. And part of that is being honest with my emotions, thoughts, and feelings, and expressing that, and doing that in a way that is still respectful, because I'm not trying to hurt people in the process. And I am trying to express myself honestly and be true to myself. - Rachel: So I think it just depends on who you're asking. I mean, it's definitely not easy. It's definitely hard because you're on this platform, this public arena where you're opening yourself up to scrutiny. - Rachel: And if other people have differing opinions than you do, or if your opinion is the minority, you're basically going to be harassed and scrutinized. And so sometimes for people, it's easier to not be fully honest with their thoughts and feelings in order to save face or in order to go with more popular opinion because it's perceived to be safer that way. But I don't know. - Rachel: At this point, it's like your words aren't going to hurt me. You can say whatever you want to say about me online, and I've survived this far. So whatever else you say about me is not going to affect me any more than it already has. - Rachel: I've developed thick skin through this process, and I've come to the point where I value my friendships that are real in the sense of I interact with these people in real life. I care more about people's perception of me when they actually meet me and interact with me and the vibes I give off that way. So you get to a certain point where it's almost your duty to show up for yourself and be honest with how you feel and how you think about a certain thing in that moment. - Rachel: And your opinions can change with time too and with more information. It's not like I'm going to say this one thing and I'm always going to feel this way. It's always changing, it's always developing, we're always getting more information, and we're always experiencing new things that change our perspective on life. - Rachel: So it's just your duty to represent yourself in the most authentic way so that your people will find you.
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Well, I think there was one kind of shining moment, I'll say, even though it was a really emotional moment. But the moment between, and this is a little bit of a pivot, but the moment between Schwartz and Katie, I found really interesting, where Andy was asking about their relationship. It seemed like this season, they had a little bit more of a playful dynamic. But Schwartz gets really emotional, saying that he doesn't regret how their relationship ended. But you can kind of see in his eyes that he tears well up. He gets really emotional. What did you make of that moment? (Timestamp: 38:08) - Rachel: We don't think we've really seen a moment like that between Tom, Schwartz, and Katie. It really seems like they've come to terms with how the relationship ended, and that it was for the best. But it seemed like there was a lot of fond memories and just appreciation for one another, that I don't think I've really seen that dynamic between them before. - iHeart Lady: To me, it seemed like in a season where there was a lot of hurt, that seemed like the one moment of maybe seeing two people that are going through the process of healing. - Rachel: Viewing that, it did seem like they were both coming from a place of healing, because they weren't throwing insults at each other or trying to bring each other down. It was very respecting one another and appreciating the moments that they did have together while it lasted. And that's refreshing to see on this show.
Lala said something at the very end where she said it was really hard for her to show up to season nine reunion, I believe it was. You know, she didn't want to talk about certain things, but she showed up. Ariana said the same thing where she could say the same about the season 10 reunion. She didn't want to be there. You could probably say the same thing about the season 10 reunion. You didn't want to be there as well. Is it fair to say everyone's been in a position where they didn't want to be somewhere, but they did anyway? (Timestamp: 39:44) - Rachel: 100%. Yeah, totally. And that's like the part of committing to this show. It's a commitment. And even though you don't quite know what you're signing up for, you know that it's not going to be necessarily easy. And there's a challenge in that. - Rachel: And I think, just speaking for myself, there was an opportunity for growth for me in that. Yeah, I think we've all been in a situation where we didn't want to show up for something and felt, I don't think obligated is the right word, but we made a commitment to being there, and we followed through with our commitment. And it's hard.
You started this episode off by acknowledging that there was a lot of healing that this cast needs to do. As someone who has taken a step back from filming, you've had this time to kind of come back to your own reality. What can this cast expect when you have that moment to kind of breathe and have that separation and you rejoin reality for a minute? (Timestamp: 41:07) - Rachel: Oh, okay. That is a loaded question. Because I think that there's a little bit of fear with not being the current topic of conversation. - Rachel: I think addiction is the wrong word, but there's a little bit of the dopamine hits that you get when you're being talked about on a reality TV show and the fear of that going away permanently could be a scary thing. But taking time off and re-centering with yourself, I think is like the best thing for this cast right now, because we don't want to be forced into situations that we don't want to be in. That's not living an authentic life. - Rachel: I mean, I've been worrying about scenes and storylines, and I haven't even been a part of this show, but now it feels good not to worry about that. And I do have to say, just like reading all the comments on Reddit right now, it's like hardly anybody is talking about me, which is a great feeling. It's just so much more freeing when you're not living your life for somebody else's entertainment anymore. - Rachel: It just feels like you get your life back a little bit. It's so complex, and I think it's hard to understand if you haven't been through being on a TV show for millions of people to comment on and judge your life. I don't think humans are meant for that, and there's no way that that's healthy. - Rachel: Yeah, I said that I think the cast, we have a lot of healing to do. We, as in, I still do too, and part of that is coming back to reality. And I really don't think that we've had a minute this whole season. I think it's going to be good for everyone.
Has this year though felt different to you? I feel like you're like half in, half out (Timestamp: 43:42) - Rachel: Oh, yeah, it's felt so different. But I think like a large part of that has to do with going to the meadows and really reconnecting with myself and learning about my issues and how it was showing up for me and really coming to terms with like, what is this piece of external validation and how is that motivating me? And is it even real? - Rachel: And just like really re centering back into myself and gaining a lot more perspective with that. Without the meadows, I would not be where I am right now. There's no freaking way. So it is. I'm living a new life. I really am. - Rachel: And I feel like I haven't really been able to truly have the opportunity to live my new life to the fullest because this show has been holding me back. And I know that that's partially my fault too because I'm indulging and speaking about it, but I'm really looking forward to the days when I can truly move forward and evolve into something even more magnificent.
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Hi! I was doing an exercise and I came across this sentence that I'm not entirely sure how to translate it:
"Jeg er ikke klar for å dra på ~strand~a i helga. Jeg er nødt til å male huset."
I know that "være klar for" means "be ready to" but in this sentence doesn't make much sense, I looked it up online and one source says that it can also mean "be up for (doing) something" but I only found one source so I'm not totally convinced that it can also have this meaning! Can somebody clear it up for me?
Takk!!

In multiple stories Online, Mystery Websites and this Subreddit I've seen People say Sinneslöschen is not proper German. As a Person living in Germany I can confidently say that Sinneslöschen is 100% correct and translates to "the deletion of senses", for example in the sentence "the deletion of senses was succesful". Does anyone know where this part of the mystery come from?

Hey there guys, so for context.
I was talking with some friends from other fandoms I'm not in but they write for. Mine is tiny, niche, my fics get few kudos and when a comment happens I get mega excited. (Usually fandom blind when I do exchanges here. I know that sometimes isn't the same as the reader can't fully comprehend the context, but can always say what was good or not if the person puts a bit of effort and isn't looking for just your comment back).
So, I was telling this friends that I'm taking online English courses to improve that aspect because I dream to be able to write on English. While relying less and less on language tools or betas to correct my sentences and be able to if not completely do it by myself, since I'm not a native speaker, to at least do a decent job.
Also to improve my conversational English since, as you can see, I can write, read and understand it, but I'm shy and even when some say I pronounce the words right, I'm clumsy because of my own shyness.
Anyway, this group of people was like: yeah sure English have more engagement in terms of fiction and your fandom is practically dead already so I get it since the English one is barely active. But if Spanish is your language, why to bother? Just try another fandom that sure is more mainstream. One that you like and stick with it because your fics will get views, comments, engagement, and you will feel the progress.
And I do wonder, what should I politely reply to this group of people that doesn't mean insults and a lovely block. Or should I just simply do that?
Thanks a lot and sorry my bad English if I made mistakes 🫂🙏. Have a lovely day/night.

In the Name of God, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.
Peace be to you all.

Introduction:

In this post, I will be answering and refuting the individual who keeps writing posts about me and comments every second he gets trying to "refute" me and "expose" me. I am only doing this because some brothers and sisters have allowed themselves to be fooled by this dude.
I won't resort to personal attacks and baseless claims (much like he does), and I will jump straight ahead to answering his objections.

Response to the introduction:

He begins by discussing my translation of the word "ישוחח," which I interpret as "argue" or "put forth."
Firstly, in Biblical Hebrew, verb forms such as Qal and Piel (often referred to as Polel in some grammatical traditions) are distinguished by their specific diacritic markings (i.e., vowel points and consonantal diacritics). Since I believe that the Masoretes distorted the Old Testament by adding these diacritics to reach a deviant interpretation, I do not consider them at all. I read the Old Testament without any diacritics. This is something he has yet to understand, perhaps because he believes that the Old Testament was revealed with diacritic markings—I don't know.
He later argues that the ancient Christian manuscripts (such as the Codex Sinaiticus, Septuagint, etc.) must agree with my claims and not with the Masoretic renderings of the Hebrew text, a conclusion he bases on thin air. I ask: Why is that so? Can you give us one good reason for this conclusion? You can't! He says this only because he considers these Christian manuscripts as divinely revealed criteria and translations. In contrast, I (and many others) see them as ancient interpretations of the original Hebrew text, which are very erroneous. This is especially true considering that rabbis themselves claim these scholars and translators failed to understand every Hebrew idiom in the book. They took everything literally and thus deviated from the intended meaning throughout their translations. These are the translations he claims must agree with my understanding.
The Masoretes could even have been influenced by Christians and their manuscripts, leading them to render some verses erroneously, whether knowingly or unknowingly—we can't be certain. However, I believe it wasn't unknowingly, and I have very good reasons for holding this opinion.
His arguments in his objections are all flawed and fallacious.

The Original sin being denied in the OT:

Now, the word he is fixated on is "ישוחח." As he mentioned, I used a classical Hebrew dictionary to translate the word. I don't remember the exact dictionary I used, but here is a random one I will use today:

Root: שִׂיחַ (v)
1 - to put forth, mediate, muse, commune, speak, complain, ponder, sing
1 -(Qal)
1 - to complain
2 - to muse, meditate upon, study, ponder
3 - to talk, sing, speak
2 - (Polel) to meditate, consider, put forth thoughts

Source: מקור: Open Scriptures on GitHub, Creator: יוצר: Based on the work of Larry Pierce at the Online Bible
In other words, both Qal and Polel essentially mean the same thing.
This following excerpt is from my original post about this, the post he is "refuting":
Excerpt from the post in question:
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Isaiah 53:8, traditional translation:
"From imprisonment and from judgment he is taken, and his generation who shall tell? For he was cut off from the land of the living; because of the transgression of my people, a plague befell them."
The original verse (without diacritics):
מעצר וממשפט לקח ואת־דורו מי ישוחח כי נגזר מארץ חיים מפשע עמי נגע למו:
My translation:
"He was taken from arrest and trial, and as for his generation, who will argue that he was cut off from the land of the living [i.e. killed] for the sin of my people, a plague befell them."
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In this verse, God is explicitly denying the doctrine of the Original Sin, stating that those who argue, speak, put forth, or ponder that Jesus was killed for the sins of His (God's) people are cursed (or afflicted by a plague).
It is crystal clear! He is just in denial because it contradicts his Pauline doctrine. Thus, he has fixated on this specific word, insisting it is (without a shadow of a doubt) in the Polel form (because his Pauline forefathers said so), and claims that Exion has made a grave error. Incredible, indeed. What a rebuttal!
Let's see if the Polel form does anything to save him:
1. Meditate:

"He was taken from arrest and trial, and as for his generation, who will meditate that he was cut off from the land of the living [i.e. killed] for the sin of my people, a plague befell them."

The definition of "Meditate" is:

1. To plan mentally; consider,
   
2. To focus one's mind for a period of time, in silence or with the aid of chanting, for religious or spiritual purposes or as a method of relaxation.
   

I know it isn't the latter, because that is just ludicrous and silly. But guess what? They even tried to claim it is the latter, which is beyond amusing to me and any other sane person reading this.
2. Consider:

"He was taken from arrest and trial, and as for his generation, who will consider that he was cut off from the land of the living [i.e. killed] for the sin of my people, a plague befell them."

It still obliterates the doctrine of the Original sin completely.
3. Put forth thoughts:

"He was taken from arrest and trial, and as for his generation, who will put forth thoughts that he was cut off from the land of the living [i.e. killed] for the sin of my people, a plague befell them."

It still obliterates the doctrine of the Original sin completely.
This is what I have to deal with. He is correcting my interpretation by yet again confirming it and he doesn't even realize it. He refuses to accept that the Old Testament completely refutes this absurd Pauline doctrine that God sent His "son" to the earth to kill him and forgive mankind. He can't understand that the Old Testament aligns with the Quran, calling them cursed. I have explained this to him several times, but to no avail. According to him, the early Christians "meditated" about Jesus' "abode." He raises the same objection in every comment he makes on every future post I do, as if I haven't just refuted him using the Bible, dictionaries, and other sources. In one ear and out the other. The only reason I'm even writing this response is to make you guys realize how unknowledgeable this man really is about the Bible and the Hebrew language. But he is good at making it look like he knows a thing or two by using fancy words and elaborations that make no sense at all.
I believe (if I remember correctly) that he translates it as:

"By oppressive judgment he was taken away, Who could describe his abode?..."

This unusual rendering is achieved by mistranslating a word, done specifically to alter the actual meaning. Some Jewish translators render it the same way, but they at least have the decency to add a footnote saying:

"\Who could describe his abode?* Meaning of Heb. uncertain." (source: Sefaria.org)

As they usually do when they mistranslate stuff.
Who would describe Jesus abode? What?! With all due respect, but that makes no sense at all! It makes no sense contextually nor logically.
This is how another Jewish translation has it:

"From imprisonment and from judgment he is taken, and his generation who shall tell? For he was cut off from the land of the living; because of the transgression of my people, a plague befell them."

Does this look like a coherent sentence to you? Jesus is taken from imprisonment and judgement, and his generation who shall tell? Tell what? This is an incomplete sentence - just to change the actual intended message.
The original phrase is: "ואת־דורו מי ישוחח"
Let me break it down for you:

Word: ואת = "And his"
Word: ־דורו = "Generation"
Word: מי = "Who will"
Word: ישוחח = "Argue/Put forth/Talk/consideetc"

Crystal clear phrase. Even Google translates it accurately (which is very rare by the way):

"And his generation who will talk"

Take a look at some of the English translations of his Christian forefathers:
New Living Translation Unjustly condemned, he was led away. No one cared that he died without descendants...
New International Version By oppression and judgment he was taken away. Yet who of his generation protested?...
King James Bible He was taken from prison and from judgment: and who shall declare his generation?...
Some others got the first part accurate but still misinterpreted the last part of the verse, as it claims that they are cursed. God forbid, they are the ones who are cursed, for they consider Jesus to be the cursed one:
English Standard Version By oppression and judgment he was taken away; and as for his generation, who considered that he was cut off out of the land of the living, stricken for the transgression of my people?
They applied the "curse/plague" to Jesus (which they translate as "stricken," even though Biblically it is generally understood to be a plague/curse) instead of applying it to those "who considered" (i.e., the Pauline Christians). The Hebrew verse uses a plural word, indicating that it was intended for those people who would put forth this claim. They all refuse to accept the fact that God is explicitly and literally stating that they are affected by a plague for their erroneous claim about Jesus.
Let's quickly refute them too:

• The word for "plague" is "נגע" (nega).
• The word for "to them" is "למו" (lamo).

"Plague" (נגע):

Hebrew classical dictionary:

Heb: נֶגַע (n-m)
1 - stroke, plague, disease, mark, plague spot
stroke, wound
stroke (metaphorical of disease)
mark (of leprosy)

Source: מקור: Open Scriptures on GitHub, Creator: יוצר: Based on the work of Larry Pierce at the Online Bible

"To them" (לָֽמוֹ):

Hebrew classical dictionary:

1 - inflected pers. pron. meaning ‘to them’ (poetically).
2 - [Formed from לְ◌ with ◌מוֹ, a suff. used only in poetry.]

Source: מקור: Klein Dictionary, Creator: יוצר: Ezra Klein
A plague to whom? TO THEM! To the people who put forth this Pauline doctrine, the ones who argued, said, or considered this absurdity. Absolutely not to the one they believed to be cut off for the sin of God's people, namely Jesus, God's prophet, Messiah, His Word, and a spirit from Him.
But this is not surprising to anyone; it is expected, because their savior Paul also considered the blessed Messiah Jesus to be a curse:

"Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us—for it is written, 'Cursed is everyone who is hanged on a tree.'" (Galatians 3:13)

It bothers them that God Himself is confirming that they are the cursed ones, and He does it in the book they believe in. I am the one who exposed it, and all praise is due to God alone. It bothers this guy who is "eXpOsInG" me, and I won't mention his name because that is most likely what he wants.
He goes on to say that I quoted from a fictitious source, which is not true at all. I simply didn’t bother looking through my entire library to find a quote I mistakenly mis-referenced, mainly because the quote turned out to be quite irrelevant, and I don’t waste my time like that. Much of what he initiated his "rebuttal" with is equally misunderstood by him, and I have responded to each and every objection in my older posts (in the comment sections where he was "eXpOsInG" me). I picked the first thing and refuted it here for you just to show how ignorant he really is and how he is either living a lie or lying to others.
So, I will not bother to refute every single point of the old stuff that I’ve already conclusively answered. It's a waste of time. Let’s move on to his objections to my latest posts, because that is what this is all about in reality.

My answers to his objections to my latest posts:

Regarding the stone God mentions that was to be placed in the Temple of God, he says that it is saying

"Stone to a stone," or "upon a stone"

My answer:
"Stone to a stone" is not a Hebrew idiom, and neither is the word "upon" there in Hebrew. He doesn't know Hebrew, had he known Hebrew, he would never have "eXpOsEd" this because it just went to show that he doesn't know the language at all.
The Hebrew word "שום" (shum) in this context is derived from the root ש-ו-ם, which means "to place" or "to put." It appears here as an infinitive construct, which is often used to convey the act of doing something, similar to the English "-ing" form. In this sentence, "שום" is functioning as a gerund, which is a verbal noun. It translates to "placing" or "putting" in English. Therefore, "שום־אבן" means "placing a stone" or "putting a stone."
As for the next word, i.e. "stone" (אבן), in Hebrew, nouns have gender (masculine or feminine) and number (singular or plural). "אבן" is a feminine singular noun. When used in the phrase "שום־אבן" (placing a stone), "אבן" functions as the direct object of the action described by the infinitive construct "שום" (placing).
The next word is אל: This is taken as a preposition according to them, and it generally means "to" or "toward," and never "upon." It is used to indicate direction or movement towards something. While the following word is, again, a stone "אבן."
So if we're going with their interpretation, while being literal, as we should because it is not an idiom, it accurately translates to:
"Before placing a stone to a stone" or "before placing stone to stone"
Which makes very little sense, if any. Why wouldn't God say "Before placing stone upon stone" or "Stones upon stones" or "before placing a stone upon a stone"? Why did He use a singular word for "stone"? Because it is speaking about a one stone, the stone that God placed in Zion:

"So this is what the Sovereign LORD says: “See, I lay a stone in Zion, a tested stone, a precious cornerstone for a sure foundation; the one who relies on it will never be stricken with panic." (Isaiah 28:16)

I have proven in countless posts that Zion is the ancient name for Mecca. Just look up Psalm 84, and you will see how it mentions doing the pilgrimage in Zion and also mentions "Bacca," another name for Mecca. I have proven how Harran is located in Mecca and that the oak of Bacca is located there as well, and we know according to Psalm 84 that Zion is located where Bacca is located. With this in mind, it’s easy to see what has been done to cover up this prophecy. They have misinterpreted the word "El" as "Upon" instead of "God." The definition of that word is not "Upon"; it means "To/toward" or "God."
Classical Hebrew dictionary:

Heb: אֵל (n-m)
god, god-like one, mighty one
mighty men, men of rank, mighty heroes
angels
god, false god, (demons, imaginations)
God, the one true God, Jehovah
mighty things in nature
strength, power

Source: מקור: Open Scriptures on GitHub, creator: יוצר: Based on the work of Larry Pierce at the Online Bible
And:

Heb: אֶל (prep.)
denoting motion toward or to, or direction toward, and meaning ‘to, unto, toward, into, at, by’.
[Shortened from אֱלֵי (which is preserved in poetry). cp. עֲלֵי, poetical form of עַל (= on), and עֲדֵי, poetical form of עַד (= as far as, until). Related to Arab. ’ilā (= to, toward, up to).]

Source: מקור: Klein Dictionary, Creator: יוצר: Ezra Klein
Let's see if any of these help him:

Before placing a stone to a stone?
Before placing a stone towards a stone?
Before placing a stone into a stone?
Before placing a stone unto a stone? (archaic term for "to")
Before placing a stone at a stone?
Before placing a stone by a stone?

Does any of this make any sense to you? I believe it certainly does not. Yet they have all chosen to ignore these valid definitions and instead opt for a definition that isn't there, namely: "a stone UPON a stone," just to claim that God was idiomatically saying "Before you build the temple." The temple was already built, as I will prove later below.
To get a more coherent translation, one that makes sense both contextually and linguistically, we need to consider "El" as "God":

ועתה - "And now"
שימו־נא - "consider, please"
לבבכם - "your heart"
מן־היום - "from this day"
הזה - "this"
ומעלה - "and onward"
מטרם - "before"
שום־אבן - "placing a stone"
אל־אבן - "God's stone/stone of God"
בהיכל - "in the Temple"
יהוה - "of YHWH" (YHWH)

Here, "אל־אבן" would translate to "God's stone" or "stone of God." Thus, the phrase "מטרם שום־אבן אל־אבן בהיכל יהוה" would be understood as "before placing a stone as God's stone in the temple of YHWH" or "before placing a stone, God's stone, in the temple of YHWH"
He is just in denial here as well. It is quite obvious that God is talking about placing a stone in the Temple of God, not about placing a stone towards a stone (whatever that means). Biblically, it is known that Jacob placed a stone in the House of God in Harran, which I have also proven to be located in the vicinity of Mecca, using 1st-century CE atlases by giants in geography such as Pomponius Mela, Pliny, and others.
He writes:

"More importantly, Exion ignored that “stone” in the Hebrew occurs twice. If we take אל to be God and take it as the construct state (the ‘s) then it would be “before setting stone’s God’s stone”. That doesn’t make sense hence why Exion dropped the first occurrence of אֶ֛בֶן in their translation."

Or you could simply not take "El" as a construct state. In Hebrew, a noun followed by another noun can indicate possession without needing a construct state (i.e. the equivalent of adding 's in English). This is often called "smikhut" or construct form, but it is not always necessary to explicitly form it.
In the phrase "שום־אבן אל־אבן" (placing a stone as God's stone), the context and the nouns' arrangement provide the possessive meaning without requiring additional grammatical changes. "אל־אבן" can be understood as "God's stone" even though it is not in the formal construct state. This is something he doesn't know because, well, who knows why. I have my speculations, but I will refrain from personal attacks.
He says:

"It makes perfect sense with the rest of the verse “in the temple of Yahweh.” It’s talking about before the building of the temple which involved setting stone upon stone."

Oh really? Is that why the 3rd verse literally talks about the Temple that already was in existence but was viewed as nothing in their eyes (i.e. insignificant):

"Who among you is left, who saw this house in its former glory? And as you see it now, is it not as nothing in your eyes?" (Haggai 2:3)

Explicitly contradicting your claim that it doesn't exist, but you didn't know that because you have probably never even read the entirety of the chapter to begin with. The Temple was already there. A stone was to be placed in it, God's stone, the black stone of the House of God, and not that it was to be built or built anew. This is why I even wrote the article, because the temple of God was already in existence. How you could have missed this, if you've read the chapter in it entirety, is very baffling to me.
This is why Jacob, upon waking from his prophetic dream, never built the House of God. (Yes, Jacob was a prophet, but Christian scholars throughout history didn't recognize this and thought he was merely a patriarch.) Instead, he only placed a stone as its cornerstone and named it "The House of God":

16. When Jacob woke up, he thought, “Surely the LORD is in this place, and I was unaware of it.” 17. And he was afraid and said, “How awesome is this place! This is none other than the house of God; this is the gate of heaven!” 18. Early the next morning, Jacob took the stone that he had placed under his head, and he set it up as a pillar. He poured oil on top of it."

Going back to Haggai 2, the 6th verse states:

"כי כה אמר יהוה צבאות עוד אחת מעט היא ואני מרעיש את־השמים ואת־הארץ ואת־הים ואת־החרבה:"

Which literally translates to:

"For thus says the Lord of Hosts: Once more, in a little while, I will shake the heavens and the earth, the sea and the dry land."

Which they have erroneously translated as:

"For so said the Lord of Hosts: [There will rise] another one, and I will shake up the heaven and the earth and the sea and the dry land [for] a little while." (source)

Lying and adding words to the Word of God to make it look like another House would be raised.
7th verse states:
Haggai 2:7

"והרעשתי את־כל־הגוים ובאו חמדת כל־הגוים ומלאתי את־הבית הזה כבוד אמר יהוה צבאות:"

Transliteration:

"Ve-hir'ashti et kol ha-goyim u-va'u chemdat kol ha-goyim u-milati et ha-bayit ha-zeh kavod amar Adonai Tzva'ot."

Not only does it confirm that the House is already in existence, but it mentioned our prophet Ahmad coming to it by using the cognate of his name, "Chemdat," which they erroneously have translated as:

"and the treasures of all the nations will be brought to this Temple."

The preposition "the" is not there before "Chemdat," while it is before "Goyim" (heathens), which makes sense because "Chemdat of all the heathens (will come)" and doesn't translate to "The treasure of all the heathens (will come)," as they have it.
Let me break it down for you:

והרעשתִי (ve-hir'ashti) - "and I will shake"
את (et) - [direct object marker, not translated]
כל (kol) - "all"
הגוים (ha-goyim) - "the heathens"
ובאו (u-va'u) - "and they will come"
חמדת (Chemdat) - "Chemdat" (proper noun)
כל (kol) - "of all"
הגוים (ha-goyim) - "the heathens"
ומלאתי (u-milati) - "and I will fill"
את (et) - [direct object marker, not translated]
הבית (ha-bayit) - "the house"
הזה (ha-zeh) - "this"
כבוד (kavod) - "glory"
אמר (amar) - "says"
יהוה (Adonai) - "Lord"
צבאות (Tzva'ot) - "of Hosts"

Result:

"And I will shake all the heathens, and they will come, Chemdat of all the heathens, and I will fill this house with glory, says the Lord of Hosts."

Explanation:

They have translated it as "the treasures of..." while the phrase "Chemdat" lacks a "The" (Ha), so it would more accurately be rendered as:

"And they will come, treasure of all the heathens, and..."

A very awkward sentence grammatically. And the dictionaries do not define חמדת (Chemdat) as "Treasure," but rather as "Desire" or "Precious." But translating this phrase in this way (if we consider it to mean "desire" or "precious"), we would make the verse even more awkward:

"And they will come, desire of all the heathens" or "And they will come, precious of all the heathens."

Because it is a singular phrase, and not plural, and as I mentioned earlier, lacks a definite preposition.
But if we consider "Chemdat" as a cognate of "Ahmad," as a proper noun referring to Ahmad the prophet (the only heathen prophet known today), it suddenly becomes a very coherent verse that makes much sense. The heathens will be shaken, and they will come. Then, He specifies by saying: Chemdat of all the heathens, and continues with the rest of the verse.
The phrase "הגוים" (ha-goyim) translates as "the heathens," which supports the interpretation that "Chemdat" is a proper noun referring to a significant heathen person anticipated to come. God is going to shake all the heathens, and they will come. Then He specifies who would come: "Chemdat of all the heathens (will come)." He then says He will fill this house, which they saw as nothing, with glory. The house already exists; Chemdat of all nations was just about to come, and God would fill this house with glory again. And, of course, the stone Jacob laid in Genesis 28—the same stone that Jesus referred to in Matthew 21:

1. Jesus said to them, "Have you never read in the Scriptures: 'The stone the builders rejected has become the cornerstone. This is from the Lord, and it is marvelous in our eyes?'

43. Therefore, I tell you that the kingdom of God will be taken away from you and given to a people who will produce its fruit."

The Kingdom of God was intended to be taken away from the Christians and given to a people who would produce its fruits, and this is what happened when Islam came.
Going back to Haggai 2, the 18th verse also confirms that the Temple already was there:

"Consider, please, your heart from this day and onward, from the twenty-fourth day of the ninth month, from the day that the temple of the Lord was founded, consider your heart."

Just because God considers the two Houses (the current one they saw as insignificant and the later one) as "different" does not mean that it does not already exist physically but will be a different House.
Nevertheless, he is right about one thing regarding this chapter: it does not mention the new moon to new moon and the end of the Sabbath—that was in Isaiah 66. My mistake. But the prophecy is still valid. The new moon to new moon would come, and yes, the second phrase can be interpreted as an end (if we interpret "Shabbat" as "End"), but it is Biblically and generally interpreted as "Sabbath." A literal translation of the phrase in the 23rd verse would be:

שבת (shabbat) - "Sabbath"
בשבתו (be-shabbato) - "His Sabbath"
יבוא (yavo) - "it will come"

Let's agree that it means what the traditional translations say it means, and I don't mean hypothetically, but let's actually agree on that. However, the prophecy about the new moons (Ramadan) is still there and valid because God has not canceled the Sabbath in the Quran; it is still ongoing:
The Quran states in 2:40-42:

Verse 40: "O Children of Israel, remember My favor which I have bestowed upon you and fulfill My covenant [upon you] that I will fulfill your covenant [from Me], and fear Me."
Verse 41: "And believe in what I have sent down confirming that which is [already] with you, and be not the first to disbelieve in it. And do not exchange My signs/verses for a small price, and fear Me."
Verse 42: "And do not mix the truth with falsehood or conceal the truth while you know [it]."

The new moon to a new moon is combined with the Sabbath to Sabbath. This is a fulfilled prophecy!
I don't see easter, halloween or Christmas being mentioned here. It's Ramadan and the Sabbath, the two Covenants God has given to his worshipers, the Covenant of the Children of Israel and the Covenant of Peace, unlike the Pauline Christians who literally took all of their holidays from pagan idolaters, which I won't go into because it's not very relevant to our discussion anyways.
This marks the end of my rebuttal to his "part 1."
Thank you for reading,
/Your bro Exion.

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The Group of Speculators

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Possible Context and Hypotheses

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Multiple hypotheses have been advanced that tie Uniwex to a greater interactive fiction story or alternative reality game (ARG). The mysterious prompts and cryptic hints dispersed over the site may be pieces of an immersive narrative experience, just waiting to be solved by committed players.
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In summary

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Although Uniwex's actual goal and consequences are still unclear, one thing is clear: the website has managed to captivate interest and intrigue like no other. Who knows what surprises are in store for the ever-expanding Uniwex community as rumors and conjecture reach fever pitch.
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For context: I’m 30 weeks pregnant with our first child, I work full-time in a relatively physical job and have recently been told to work less due to some complications with the pregnancy. The pregnancy has been hard with constant nausea (even now) which hasn’t helped my mental health as of late.
We have a small farm we purchased 12months ago. I paid the entire deposit and paid off all our loans. He was not working at the time so I made a conscience decision to have him in charge of all the bills so he would realise when he needed to go back to work. This worked and he is back working again now. I am fully aware of our finances I just prefer him to handle them as he is not as good with money and I have found this helps although I do think it puts some extra stress on him.
I generally keep our house clean and I usually take care of feeding the horses and chickens. He does do the majority of the cooking and does loads around the farm. This has not changed.
I do not think I’m completely without blame in this exchange, my text immediately prior to his ‘over-reaction’ was definitely me playing the victim. This is just not the first time, although it’s definitely an escalation. We have discussed this exchange at length since and he has apologised. I’m still concerned however that he doesn’t understand how serious it is and if it continues I will most certainly not stay.
I love this man very much and want to make this relationship work. He is so good to me in so many ways, it’s just these reactions when I want to discuss something that’s bothering me. I am just struggling to move on from this and would like to know if I’m over-reacting and just need to move on or am justified? How do I get past it?
Exchange:
Me: Why didn’t you say goodbye when you left this morning?
Him: Sorry. I woke up today feeling shit. And I was feeling a massive wave of negative emotions and I just wanted to get out. Are you ok?
Me: I’m fine, just a bit annoyed at you. I get that you were feeling shit and I definitely understand how that feels and sometimes you just need to do what you can to survive the day. However, I know you wouldn’t tolerate that behaviour from me so I shouldn’t have to tolerate it from you. All I need is a simple goodbye, I love you. I always make sure I say it to you when I leave (regardless of how shit I may be feeling) and if I can’t find you I text you saying it. I just expect the same in return. Is that fair?
Him: That’s fair. Thanks for caring, asking how I was and not focusing solely on you 🙄
Me: I’m sorry for not asking how you are. How are you feeling now?
Him: I’m good now thanks. How come saying goodbye and I love you means so much to you?
Me: Well that’s good, and I’m sorry you were feeling so shit earlier. Because it conveys common courtesy and mutual respect. A daily reminder of what the other person means to us. Also what if it’s the last time we see or speak to each other?
Him: Thank you. I still don’t understand entirely. I want to understand from your pov so can you finish this sentence: “when you don’t say goodbye, or I love you, I feel…”
Me: I feel like Ive done something wrong or to upset you, like you might not love me at that time. I also feel really alone and isolated and like I’m not respected as a person in this relationship. Like you couldn’t care less about what I think or how I feel. Does that help?
Him: That's really tough, it's a terrible feeling. I often feel that way in our relationship. I know it's not intentional on your part. That's why I keep myself busy with so many things—it's too painful to be fully aware of not receiving the love or desire I crave.
I didn’t reply for a bit
Him: I find it ironic how you want mutual respect and courtesy, but when I strike a nerve after being vulnerable to tell you how I’m feeling you shut up shop. Talk about double standards
Me: I’m sorry, I wasn’t sure how to respond so was just sitting with it for a bit. Just felt like you trapped me into feeling like I could open up then stabbed me in the heart so was trying to move past that feeling. Anyway, I’m sorry you feel that way. I had no idea I was still failing so miserably to give you the love or desire you crave. Obviously you’re never going to be happy or get what you need from this relationship so why are you still here? What’s the point? All I want is for you to see how much I love you but I feel it’s no use, I suck at it and I hate myself for that. I’m sorry, I don’t even see the point of why you’re still around, why you keep bothering with me.
Him: Gee you’re a miserable human. Your life is so hard isn’t it. Poor (my name), poor little (my name) is so crap at everything and is failing at life. Stop acting like you’re 5 and get over yourself 🙄
Since you asked, no, I haven’t seen much change since our love needs quiz. Which no other man even gives a fuck about let me tell you. I’m a unicorn and you’re lucky to have caught me 🦄
-You haven’t shown a desire for me, and you haven’t checked back in to see if you were hitting the mark. Or any mark for that matter. And oh and I know, you feel so fat and so bloated because your pregnant and your reflux and blah blah blah. Life doesn’t stop because you’re growing a human so get over yourself. Struggle grows resilience and Lord knows you need to fuck load of resilience! Id like to think that I’m catering to your needs, all but on the sex front. But I’m open to feedback from you because you know, I’m not a sensitive little flower whose petals get blown around by a fart. 💨
-we haven’t done anything fun (another need of mine I think) since that quiz. Because if you’re not working and whining every fucking day, you are living your life horizontally through your phone and through other peoples lives online. I remember when I asked you a couple years ago if there was anything you regret, and you said something to the effect of “I regret not trying or not doing as much in my life as I could have”Well guess what, nothing has really changed at all since then either. You just mope around the house living a half existence and acting all fucking miserable about it. So yeah, I am starting to question why the fuck I’m with you! When you clearly don’t care if I leave or stay. But then when I bring things up that are opportunities to either level up or level down you pull out the “oh stop criticising me I am too sensitive to take constructive feedback and I don’t want to better myself as a human because I am perfect just the way I am“ card. And then nothing ever changes. Meanwhile I’m moving forward growing as a human trying to drag you along and you’re staying put in your five-year-old self because you’re too fucking scared to make a mistake in case the world crumbles down around you. That’s a great philosophy to live by and to pass on to your children ya idiot!! One day you’ll be 60 and you’ll realise that everything you ever worried about was not worth worrying about but you’ll be too old to fucking change it And slip into a state of despair for the next 30 years before you stress yourself to death. Waste of fucking life!

• I don’t know what else is on the list but there’s always this underlying feeling like I’m being taken for a ride. Like nothing is reciprocal in our relationship and if I’m not distracting myself with activity and action in all other aspects of my life or taking drugs to suppress my true feelings I’m trying to verbalise what I’m feeling to trigger growth in you and by extension, Us. But then you get triggered and revert into your five-year-old self again and it does a full fucking circle and here we are back at square one throwing shit at the wall to see what sticks.

Meanwhile You have no awareness whatsoever where we’re sitting financially, you don’t even know how much or who we pay insurance to, you’re about to spit out a baby, you’re only just now doing your Centrelink and talking about finances and shit, meanwhile I’ve brought this up six fucking months ago to talk about it, Where the fuck do we go from here? I don’t know!
And I don’t know because we can’t talk about these things and we can’t talk these issues through because you’re too delicate to address the hard questions of life with. Everything you’ve ever feared in your life is now coming to fruition because you fear it that much it’s always in your mind and you unconsciously act out what you fear and as a result it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. Woo hoo!!
So fuck you, you long curly haired witch, I love you and I’ll see you when I get home 😘😘

Hello, I hope you're having a good time! I'm looking for someone whom I can have conversations with in the long term but if you want to have a short conversation, that's okay as well. Who knows if we get along well and end up being in touch for years? I prefer talking to people within the age range of 18–25 as I have talked to older people all my life but it's fine if you're a bit older than the specified range.
Please read the post entirely before you decide to send a chat request or message. It will take about five minutes or more depending on your reading speed. You may skip this post if you can't bother reading it. This is only for people who love reading and typing lengthy messages, because that's the only way we can communicate with each other when we don't get enough time to have real-time conversations. I am mentioning this only to save your time; I don't mean to come off as rude. The messages I send can be way longer than this post if we happen to click, and people who can't read the post entirely won't bother reading my messages properly either, and that would be a waste of time and energy for both individuals. You might have seen my posts very often in case you visit this subreddit on a regular basis, but I assure you that I only post so frequently because I don't receive any responses—and when I do, they're from people who either can't hold a conversation for long or message me without reading the post at all.
A bit about me:
I'm interested in all types of visual and aural arts. Writing, drawing, listening and composing music, watching movies and photography (I'm an amateur though) are my interests and hobbies. I'm broke so I'm not a gamer. I do have a fairly powerful PC but with a low-end graphics card I play older games on. Nothing online though.
Speaking of music, I'm mostly interested in Jazz, Funk, Hip-Hop, R&B/Soul (both classic and modern). I like listening to The Weeknd, Prince, Michael Jackson, Bruno Mars, Sade, Aaliyah, The Isley Brothers and various artists from the 70s to late 2000s generally. I'm a movie buff so I can recommend you movies too if you're looking for something to watch. And yeah, I LOVE MEMES! Keep sending them all day and I won't complain!
I'm an ambivert (more of an introvert though). My MBTI is INFP-T if that matters. I'm looking for people who are willing to share the events which occur in everyday life, joy and sorrow, secrets, deepest fears, and build a genuine connection over the course of time. I'll be there for you throughout the good and bad times; I expect the same from you too. I am active on most social media platforms. We can move on to other platforms once you feel comfortable with me.
Now here's the important stuff:
I would appreciate it if you don't just send me a "Hi/Hello/Hey." Introduce yourself; the longer the introduction is, the better. Makes room for questions. Instead of simply stating that you like movies/music, mention what genres you prefer. Makes the conversation more interesting. Please put effort into maintaining the conversation. Ask plenty of questions with the data I have provided in this post so I know that you're actually interested in getting to know me as well rather than simply talking about yourself. I feel like an interviewer if the conversation is one-sided. Don't bother messaging me if you're not naturally inquisitive and just want to talk about yourself all the time. I won't respond to any short messages (4-8 lines). If you want to leave, don't ghost me without stating a reason if we've been talking for longer than two weeks. Just tell me that we can't get along if you think the conversation isn't going anywhere. I won't get offended.
Your gender, race, sexuality don't matter at all, but tell me your age and gender just so that I know who I am talking to and follow social etiquette. I absolutely love lengthy messages; I don't feel overwhelmed by them. So bonus points if you're capable of typing lengthy messages. I'm a person who would spend an hour(s) typing a well-thought lengthy message rather than having small talk in real time. I type as if I'm writing a letter. I can chat in real time as well, it's just that I don't get much time throughout the day and I'm active at odd hours. And time zones exist, unfortunately. Short messages or long messages, the amount of time and energy you have to spend will be the same anyway.
Please don't message me if you're just looking for people to kill your boredom and later abandon them. No, I'm not being rude. I have had enough. Those one word or one sentence responses lead nowhere. Also, if you're someone who wishes to stay anonymous forever even after talking for a considerable amount of time, I'm not the person you're looking for. This is an important thing to keep in mind. I am open to revealing my identity if we get along well so I would appreciate it if you're open minded as well. But that doesn't mean I want you to reveal your identity in the very beginning itself. However, I won't wait more than three months just for you to reveal your identity if we communicate regularly. In fact, it's a great feat to converse for longer than a month on the internet. I personally think that anonymity acts as a barrier in any kind of relationship. I would love to meet you in real life at some point in the future if we get along and stay in touch for a considerable amount of time.
In the past 12 years, I have talked to several people around the globe on different platforms who wished to stay anonymous. I had conversations with them for months and years, but they always considered me as a stranger and eventually left. I'm tired of being a disposable person. What's the point of having a friend without a name and a face? I have no reason to trust someone who doesn't trust me. You can call me picky; I indeed am. I don't want to have conversations where both parties only ask each other about hobbies and interests and leave once they feel there's nothing in common. That's the reason why I asked you to cover those topics when introducing yourself. And just because I have already talked about my interests and hobbies doesn't mean there's nothing more to know about me. Human connection is a lot more than mere interests and hobbies.
I would love to interact with someone who doesn't treat me like an AI chatbot and acknowledges the fact that I'm an actual human being with feelings and emotions beyond the digital screen who spends his valuable time and energy to communicate with people—precious time and energy that I'll never be able to get back. I understand that these connections over the internet are very fragile and I can't control things the way I want so if you're interested feel free to send me a message anyway. I enjoy having conversations with people even if only for a while. Sometimes people you expect to be in touch for years leave you while the ones you don't expect to be in touch for long end up staying for a long time. Nothing is set in stone. All I ask you is to not leave without notifying me. Yes, I know whatever I have expressed so far sounds contradictory, but that's how life works, right? Reminds me of this quote by Japanese author Haruki Murakami:
"Is it possible, in the final analysis, for one human being to achieve perfect understanding of another? We can invest enormous time and energy in serious efforts to know another person, but in the end, how close can we come to that person's essence? We convince ourselves that we know the other person well, but do we really know anything important about anyone?"
While I agree with the fact that it's not possible to get to know a person entirely, I think connecting with another human being is a beautiful experience in itself. In the end, we are just lost souls yearning for human connection; searching for people who will provide attention and affection and accept us as we are. If you're still reading this, it means you are a good listener and reader. Message me if we have similar interests or ideals and if you think we can be potential friends. It doesn't really matter whether we have similar interests or not though, I would love to have you as a friend.
There's a lot more to learn about me but I would rather tell you all that when we begin interacting with each rather than typing it all here. Feel free to ask me any questions. I'm open to having a conversation with people around the globe any time. I'm also very patient so I don't mind waiting for weeks or a month if the messages are lengthy. I understand that you might find all of this intimidating, but there's nothing about me to be afraid of. My messages can be lengthy, but only if you reciprocate my efforts and keep on adding stuff to the text. I know that this post sounds like a contract. I know I sound very serious but that's not entirely true. In fact, I can crack jokes sooo bad that will make you laugh. Thank you for spending your precious time reading this post. What are you waiting for? Text me right now! Feel free to message me even if you're seeing this several hours or days later.
Have a nice day/night and I hope you find someone to develop a strong bond with in case I'm not the person you're looking for. Take care of yourself and always stay hydrated!

For context: I’m 30 weeks pregnant with our first child, I work full-time in a relatively physical job and have recently been told to work less due to some complications with the pregnancy. The pregnancy has been hard with constant nausea (even now) which hasn’t helped my mental health as of late.
We have a small farm we purchased 12months ago. I paid the entire deposit and paid off all our loans. He was not working at the time so I made a conscience decision to have him in charge of all the bills so he would realise when he needed to go back to work. This worked and he is back working again now. I am fully aware of our finances I just prefer him to handle them as he is not as good with money and I have found this helps although I do think it puts some extra stress on him.
I generally keep our house clean and I usually take care of feeding the horses and chickens. He does do the majority of the cooking and does loads around the farm. This has not changed.
I do not think I’m completely without blame in this exchange, my text immediately prior to his ‘over-reaction’ was definitely me playing the victim. This is just not the first time, although it’s definitely an escalation. We have discussed this exchange at length since and he has apologised. I’m still concerned however that he doesn’t understand how serious it is and if it continues I will most certainly not stay.
I love this man very much and want to make this relationship work. He is so good to me in so many ways, it’s just these reactions when I want to discuss something that’s bothering me. I am just struggling to move on from this and would like to know if I’m over-reacting and just need to move on or am justified? How do I get past it?
Exchange:
Me: Why didn’t you say goodbye when you left this morning?
Him: Sorry. I woke up today feeling shit. And I was feeling a massive wave of negative emotions and I just wanted to get out. Are you ok?
Me: I’m fine, just a bit annoyed at you. I get that you were feeling shit and I definitely understand how that feels and sometimes you just need to do what you can to survive the day. However, I know you wouldn’t tolerate that behaviour from me so I shouldn’t have to tolerate it from you. All I need is a simple goodbye, I love you. I always make sure I say it to you when I leave (regardless of how shit I may be feeling) and if I can’t find you I text you saying it. I just expect the same in return. Is that fair?
Him: That’s fair. Thanks for caring, asking how I was and not focusing solely on you 🙄
Me: I’m sorry for not asking how you are. How are you feeling now?
Him: I’m good now thanks. How come saying goodbye and I love you means so much to you?
Me: Well that’s good, and I’m sorry you were feeling so shit earlier. Because it conveys common courtesy and mutual respect. A daily reminder of what the other person means to us. Also what if it’s the last time we see or speak to each other?
Him: Thank you. I still don’t understand entirely. I want to understand from your pov so can you finish this sentence: “when you don’t say goodbye, or I love you, I feel…”
Me: I feel like Ive done something wrong or to upset you, like you might not love me at that time. I also feel really alone and isolated and like I’m not respected as a person in this relationship. Like you couldn’t care less about what I think or how I feel. Does that help?
Him: That's really tough, it's a terrible feeling. I often feel that way in our relationship. I know it's not intentional on your part. That's why I keep myself busy with so many things—it's too painful to be fully aware of not receiving the love or desire I crave.
I didn’t reply for a bit
Him: I find it ironic how you want mutual respect and courtesy, but when I strike a nerve after being vulnerable to tell you how I’m feeling you shut up shop. Talk about double standards
Me: I’m sorry, I wasn’t sure how to respond so was just sitting with it for a bit. Just felt like you trapped me into feeling like I could open up then stabbed me in the heart so was trying to move past that feeling. Anyway, I’m sorry you feel that way. I had no idea I was still failing so miserably to give you the love or desire you crave. Obviously you’re never going to be happy or get what you need from this relationship so why are you still here? What’s the point? All I want is for you to see how much I love you but I feel it’s no use, I suck at it and I hate myself for that. I’m sorry, I don’t even see the point of why you’re still around, why you keep bothering with me.
Him: Gee you’re a miserable human. Your life is so hard isn’t it. Poor (my name), poor little (my name) is so crap at everything and is failing at life. Stop acting like you’re 5 and get over yourself 🙄
Since you asked, no, I haven’t seen much change since our love needs quiz. Which no other man even gives a fuck about let me tell you. I’m a unicorn and you’re lucky to have caught me 🦄
-You haven’t shown a desire for me, and you haven’t checked back in to see if you were hitting the mark. Or any mark for that matter. And oh and I know, you feel so fat and so bloated because your pregnant and your reflux and blah blah blah. Life doesn’t stop because you’re growing a human so get over yourself. Struggle grows resilience and Lord knows you need to fuck load of resilience! Id like to think that I’m catering to your needs, all but on the sex front. But I’m open to feedback from you because you know, I’m not a sensitive little flower whose petals get blown around by a fart. 💨
-we haven’t done anything fun (another need of mine I think) since that quiz. Because if you’re not working and whining every fucking day, you are living your life horizontally through your phone and through other peoples lives online. I remember when I asked you a couple years ago if there was anything you regret, and you said something to the effect of “I regret not trying or not doing as much in my life as I could have”Well guess what, nothing has really changed at all since then either. You just mope around the house living a half existence and acting all fucking miserable about it. So yeah, I am starting to question why the fuck I’m with you! When you clearly don’t care if I leave or stay. But then when I bring things up that are opportunities to either level up or level down you pull out the “oh stop criticising me I am too sensitive to take constructive feedback and I don’t want to better myself as a human because I am perfect just the way I am“ card. And then nothing ever changes. Meanwhile I’m moving forward growing as a human trying to drag you along and you’re staying put in your five-year-old self because you’re too fucking scared to make a mistake in case the world crumbles down around you. That’s a great philosophy to live by and to pass on to your children ya idiot!! One day you’ll be 60 and you’ll realise that everything you ever worried about was not worth worrying about but you’ll be too old to fucking change it And slip into a state of despair for the next 30 years before you stress yourself to death. Waste of fucking life!

• I don’t know what else is on the list but there’s always this underlying feeling like I’m being taken for a ride. Like nothing is reciprocal in our relationship and if I’m not distracting myself with activity and action in all other aspects of my life or taking drugs to suppress my true feelings I’m trying to verbalise what I’m feeling to trigger growth in you and by extension, Us. But then you get triggered and revert into your five-year-old self again and it does a full fucking circle and here we are back at square one throwing shit at the wall to see what sticks.

Meanwhile You have no awareness whatsoever where we’re sitting financially, you don’t even know how much or who we pay insurance to, you’re about to spit out a baby, you’re only just now doing your Centrelink and talking about finances and shit, meanwhile I’ve brought this up six fucking months ago to talk about it, Where the fuck do we go from here? I don’t know!
And I don’t know because we can’t talk about these things and we can’t talk these issues through because you’re too delicate to address the hard questions of life with. Everything you’ve ever feared in your life is now coming to fruition because you fear it that much it’s always in your mind and you unconsciously act out what you fear and as a result it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. Woo hoo!!
So fuck you, you long curly haired witch, I love you and I’ll see you when I get home 😘😘

I've been procrastinating on doing this, but I finally got around to it. I also plan on reading my admission file when I get to my college, so I may post an update then on this account, so maybe set a reminder for like October.
Demographics
Gender: Male
Race/Ethnicity: White, Jewish
Residence: Southern United States
Income Bracket: 80,000 - 125,000
Type of School: Magnet STEM HS
Hooks (Recruited Athlete, URM, First-Gen, Geographic, Legacy, etc.): none, lol
Intended Major(s): History first, wherever possible. Then political science, and the last one is some variant of Philosophy, Politics, and Economics, or a law focused major
Academics
GPA (UW/W): 94.19 / 100 (3.94), 98.73 (4.5) Rank (or percentile): School does not rank
# of Honors/AP/IB/Dual Enrollment/etc.: 8 honors, 15 AP's
Senior Year Course Load: AP Euro (online), AP Comp Gov (online), AP Human Geo, precalculus, AP Lit, AP Macro / Micro, Teacher Assistant. All A's for first semester
Standardized Testing List the highest scores earned and all scores that were reported. ACT: 36 (35E, 35M, 36R, 36S)
AP/IB:
US Gov - 4, World History - 5, Seminar - 4, CSP - 4, USH - 4, Research - 3, Lang - 5, CSA - 3, Chem - 4
Extracurriculars/Activities (paraphrased with certain elements redacted for privacy)
1: Advocate for increasing student representation (11 - 12), developed and refined model legislation; secured endorsement of stakeholders, helped the legislation pass the [redacted]
2: Transcriber, Library of Congress (10 - 12), Made 5000+ pages indexable and searchable, verified transcription accuracy, hosted transcribing parties
3: Member of [redacted]'s Advisory Council, 12, 1 of [redacted] members chosen from over [redacted] applicants; personally invited to join by [redacted], sole member from [redacted], act as an ambassador
4: Ambassador, [school name], 10 - 12, provide 10-15 tours to local stakeholders, help develop and run freshman orientation program
5: More powerful version of student council, 10 - 12, approve strategic plan, allocated [redacted] for [redacted], publicize work of [redacted]
6: President of [redacted] Mock Trial club, 10-12, oversee practices and arrange visits by attorneys
7: Eagle Scouts, 9 - 12, raised [redacted] in donations for project, served as patrol leader, [redacted], and [redacted]
8: Research Fellow, [redacted], 11, conduct research on [redacted] to expand [redacted], gain experience in [redacted] analysis
9: [redacted] head editor, [redacted], 12, lead a team of students to review & prepare [redacted] for release, helped prepare [redacted] for publication
10: Cashier, local supermarket 9 - 12, designated highest evaluation, 2x [redacted] winner, raised $700+ for charity
Awards/Honors:
1 Nationwide essay contest finalist
2 Senate youth program delegate finalist
3 Social sciences student of the year (school)
4 Eagle Scout
5 School nominee for [redacted] in math
Letters of Recommendation
APUSH Teacher (9 / 10), I had him for three years, he was the mock trial club sponsor, and I was his TA. We had a great relationship.
Econ Teacher (9.5 / 10), I was able to read this letter (he showed me without asking), and it was so over the top. In addition, without me asking, he wrote a letter to my top school telling them how good of a student I was and how I would attend.
Principal (9/10), I worked very closely with the principal and he gave some very specific and unique praise.
Counselor (6?/10). Did not interact with them a lot and I had some issues with them, but I was very involved with the school and had good grades so I feel like it would be nothing too good or too bad.
Interviews
Harvard - 8/10. Went for two hours and I really enjoyed talking with him. I kept in touch with him after my interview as well.
Princeton - 8/10. I enjoyed talking with her and she was interested in the same items as me.
Yale - 9/10. It was a weird interview but I think he really liked me me. It was also a little weird because he asked for me to teach him how binary numbers work, and good router recommendations.
Dartmouth - 8/10. He was also an Eagle Scout, so we bonded over it.
Duke - 10/10. She was a Judge and we really bonded. I said the perfect things to say without me knowing I should say them if that makes sense. Really enjoyed talking with her.
Essays
Essays were meh except one supplemental for Yale. My main was maybe a 7/10. I've lived a really boring life so I didn't have a lot to talk about. My main essay was tying my love for a specific genre of music into some activities done over the years.
Decisions
I'm going to list my schools, what my prediction was, and the result (hidden for dramatic effect) in alphabetical order. With the exception of the schools with specific rounds, everything is RD.
Alabama (Rolling) - accept, filler accepted filler
Amherst - reject, filler accepted filler
Colby - reject, filler waitlisted filler
Columbia - waitlisted, filler waitlisted filler
Dartmouth - reject, filler waitlisted filler
Duke - accept, filler accepted filler
Georgia Tech - reject, filler accepted filler
Harvard (REA) - deferred -> waitlisted, filler deferred -> rejected filler
Princeton - accept, filler rejected filler
Stanford - reject, filler accepted filler
UGA (EA) - accept, filler accepted filler
Vanderbilt - accept, filler waitlisted filler
Washington & Lee - accept with Johnson, filler accepted w/o Johnson filler
Williams - accept, filler accept, filler
Yale - reject, filler accepted filler
Where I will be attending: filler Yale filler
Additional Information:
I received a wonderful email from my filler Yale filler AO who loved my common app essay topic and one of my supplementals. As I said above, I do plan on reading my admissions file and will post later. I also plan on doing an AMA when after I read my files.
My advice is to start early. Identify who your LOR's will be and ask them by the end of April. Start drafting an outline for your common app essay. Also enjoy what you do. I did what I loved and it showed with my EC's. Also don't take 6 AP's senior year. It made a stressful year even more stressful. Lmk if you have any questions.
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TRIGGER WARNING ! I sexually assaulted and bullied someone in anywhere from 2004-2007. a year ago i reported it to the police and nothing was done because we where children and it was so long ago ive tried to search for him online to see how he was doing and i think ive found him ive become obsessed and have this deep urge to make sure he is not hurt by me.I know his first name, vaguely what he looks like, which country he was from and I worked out he is younger than me. what on earth can i and should i do. id love to hear from sexual assault survivors maybe lawyers who deal with cases like this or anyone like a family member of a victim or just anyone with good ideas.i was thinking of putting a note online so that if he ever looks for me or googles the name of our school or something he can find me or it and begin the process of getting closure. if he wants to spit in my face id have to let him, apparently i can serve time but i would be charged with a sentence applicable at the time of the crime....

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I'm a GirlGuiding (Girl Scouts if you're in America) volunteer. I've been with the 7-10 year old section for years but have recently had the responsibility of the local 4-7 year old section placed on me unexpectedly.
I'm struggling. I feel out of my depth with this age group.
I read online that children should be able to hold their attention span for anywhere between 2 and 5 times their age in minutes, which should set the baseline at 8 minutes. I'm lucky if I get 2 minutes.
It's actually not even the youngest ones that find it hard, it's the older ones.
They're really only interested in chasing each other round the hall and bundling each other to the ground - I'm not opposed to rough play but it isnt the safest in our setting and I have to keep them safe. When I'm explaining an activity, I try to break it down. But even so, they distract each other. They'll stand up from circle time just to chase each other round. The other week we literally got done doing the register and two of them immediately stood up and bolted off. It feels like every other sentence I'm trying to direct them back to the activity at hand. Some activities are discussion-led and they can't tolerate that at all. They're better with craft but do disengage after about 5 or 10 minutes and start up again.
I'm a big fan of gentle parenting and natural consequences but not that experienced with implementing it. The other week I did a really sharp "ah! No! Bottoms on the floor". It was very effective but I felt guilty after, I don't want to speak to them like that ideally. I don't want to be bad cop, I want to be helpful and guiding cop, who understands all behaviour is communication.
I've tried having a "sharing" item that means only the person holding it can talk. That didn't work. I tried having spots for them to stand or sit on. That didn't work either - spots were going flying around the room. I've tried incentivising good behaviour by asking them to add marbles to a jar when they do a behaviour I'd like repeated. That's not working too well either.
They don't really respond to being reminded or asked to stop doing something. I'm repeating myself, multiple times a session, every session.
I only have 5 children in my unit but I swear, that hour is the worst hour of my week every single time.
I'm not blaming the kids, I'm blaming me for not communicating in a way that works for them.
I just need any tips you have, if possible.

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@kane replace drill sgt ask me to look up my aunt cat good pussy with no pantys on she harrased me bad
@kane have me look up my aunt dog Labrador animal Sadie do not meet them again
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@holish post ready train speedbag hook learn
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seconds to increase ur time scrolls random op timescrolls day we return from past world a second
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@todd here's my sched
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@BNG my nigga son u my owned property fighting dragon I'll contact myself from the future & my nigga give u photos of me& u behind ur back when I post this forum post I'm using u as my flying dragon for now on I'll defend airbend block then seperate u and ahat nigga with my baddest nigger accidental false claim join other animal unconcentual love nigger similar flag earn I us corporal ounishmebt on him so he aight my nigga son me and him will let u start spree ill take him past world to show up 2nd week to waste his own op timescrolls ill take his blame after your an his tenth kill will spree and I'll kill &then protect him from the whole location make attack me while I block who swings on him freestyle music video court tell tmrw your area my nigger son Michealanglo
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CAN JOIN OUT OF CAPEABLE GANG AMERICAN NINJA SOMEDAY WHEN I LET U NO UTILITYS I WILL EXAMPLE TO BEST FRIEND MY SON KANE I WILL EXAMPLE TO ONLY U MY UTILITYS OF AMERICAN NINJA ONETIME TO ASK TO SEE AMERICAN NINJA AIRBENDING HARM OTHER FAMILY SIGN ON VIDEO @KANE
CAN JOIN : EARLY IMMEDIATLY RANDOM DATE I WILL CONTACT MYSELF FROM FUTURE TO ACCEPT YOUR TORTURE OF OPPOSITION NO MOLESTION @KINGJAMES I WILL TRAIN EMINEM WHEN. U DIE TO CONCENT HIM DEATH I WILL EARLY TRAIN U TO KILL HIM EASILY WITH MY BEST SON AS A LATE JOIN WITH RISPATOROUL
REQUIRED JOIN ORIGINAL ANIME REALITY NARUTO HIBESE VERSION IRUKA REASON MY SON SASUKE UCHIAHA IN UTOPIA OUTERSPACE REQUIRED DEATH TO LET U JOIN AS MY UNCLE FOX TOD SUICIDAL WHEN I AGREE ILLEAGIL ASSASIN U HAVE TO BE A LEGAL ASSASIN TO DIE IN ANERICAN NINJA I KNOW ALL THE GANG LAW TO IT I WAS TEMPORARILY BECAUSE SIGN LAW TORTURE ACCEPTIBG PAYMEBT PAID TO INFILITRATE RAPORD THRU MY SON AUTHORS MOTGER OR ORIJIMOTGER THRU INF RAPORD MAGIC SUMMONONING SIGN LAW U WILL DIE BEFORE MY SON GARA FORESURE
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5am teach Jesus Christ 1 hour on my son black dragon bad nigga gangster u can never ride it randomly 1000 years only ;) hes my favorite kind
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@5pm-10pm holish only trains 2hrs 9:50 rispatoriuls suggest with mucgeanglo when GARA and iruka train op timescrolls ends reason Jesus Christ is going to court with him to remove mindcontrol and harrasment timescroll Ill remove accepting corporal punoshmebt and useit instead of acceptance @jesus learn storys of my most recent stay inncaaerates with @linuciha in my secret conversatoin language
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@holish me and u will will daily @11pm discuss law politic with rispatoriul and uncle lucifer correctly outloud early text reminder and sign language. Because im deaf and blind. I'm using vibration and color detectors right now @lucifer to be good with me to chill a lot include with me ridpduh illeagil training killing illeagil village hittuh he 2nd most killing of illeagil village he duh nigga hitta oftenly false claimed murderer my illeagil imposter liar confessed thief on me his own father wich is worse then adultry rapords im an inf to rapord he gave me signs so did Satan to prove it I'm god and im the boss of emporers his kin holds timescrolls to court harrass die actor repercussion earn supply accumulated there group they die with. Suggestion removal bitch incaseration to go instead illeagil they ask to be removed puppets incaserated together its there homosexual illeagil way lol jk
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@my concerts I will freestyle rap oftenly
@group I'metting attempt join American ninja. Those niggers said nonand asked to die for tell
@kane I'm unpunctureable unbruiseable fire and lava proof replace drill sgt ask me the truthful law to me being that oftenly question me about how I plan to destroy and about my in down reason training self invented for self only legal self only no copy will never share personal phone mod btw Jesus Christ talks for me openly I'm brand new to to conversation correct secret language of my own for this long he taught me a secret repercussion illeagil secret language once lied no proof
@until slight B4 yr 2thousand I thought u was scariest killer murder to walk to fear I had no idea I can harm u that way sorry about underworld ice age being small my son
@ openly ill admit randomly stuff iruka was scree when we was done tine traveling have me use repercussion simulator for killing him to go by and earnjng gang sign liar snitch in kill bitch language he was scared not to wait out the house to do pajama party sleep over I will not need u to unrestrict me untill August 1st @jesuschrist
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@reason for them to die except who I include forcefield originallmyvsay with this text routine @rispatoriul ill daily remind u with TXT to ewmind me when we're done tine traveling to past world to have me kill that anime reality the rest of it Btw early told the whole reality is my expensivw genetics and has my food animal in it they tried to act id u was rescued poverty formally wealthy
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@jesus Xtra day I'll teach u to play game legal POND in back yard I invented with rispatroiul u defend with him to learn magic summoning element bending attack from me
@jesus RISPATRIUL told me totally if you all pick me up instead he lost money to harras me and likes to learn fighting that way with me without u because of he can chill a lot I'm cool to take u all seperatly August 1st when I get to pilot in Corbin 10:pm BTW see u aug 1st
@jesus my gang dianond robe sword is starving to death in. Forcfield because of I won custody they asked me to be only individual in my family to speak to exept relatives my name's joog itachi huntdragon
@jesus anime reality we was at asked to threaten us remind me to temp remove camera for ithers looking rispatoriul can chill with me that way and ask conversation scroll ask me to use to report there lies
@jesus ill kill all of Israel my video game ruenscape false claim u talk in Clan chat they do illeagil clans online in illeagil post n draynor and are his from my vision mod And tried to install perment vision mod ill txt u the law to what they tried Todo to me and I said no and was incaserated for terrible murders recently of date year 2000
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Btw some anime kid @jesus Christ tried to lie and say I am no way so fast I am invible when I am correctly unrestricted BTW I'll remind u date to go to court with me as sureounding learned that ill teach u in group 100 yr because mychealanglo knows I'll host his outloud illeagil teaching have micheanglk ride with u and rispatoroul @micheanglo suggest op timescrolls I earned to waste repeitivly every Friday micheanglo BTW will ten minute a piece free style every Friday before we train
@btw remind me to include this nigga from last Airbender cartoon I know a little about illeagil demon twin rules inf demon infjoin signs is what I have a lot Ask him politely when we decide to be friends for 100 yrs I give him 100yrs with u all us 3 only as protections then by myself give him death Infront of you because my cartoon daughter KORA was raped BTW will do ill host your incaseration anime Naruto gen pop when I am contacted ill remind just me &u micheanglo to follow with me will claim with Lucifer anime reality Chinese in there gen pop they attend illeagil through modified actor lie unaware felony conversation will remind me belief they love CHOMOS and I'll let u turn room stand and let u all smoke meth with me for now on stimulants increase potions for payment u attack I defend only harrasment mention for me todo that with u legally also @jesus christ i ill turn pay u all for doortstanding I will practuce in π° multiplyed that realitys timeascrolls no sleep whole time we past travel BTW because of illeagil war ill defend for u all to attack i will not want notifued immediately 10minutes after begin war @micheanglo remind me a lot I remember u well regaurdless of mindloss ill defend u before i sword pull kill burn village and surroundyour wounds with shadow i need liar payment for snitch drugs op belief torture responds off risp with @lee Ty u all see u
@group see u 5pm instead of 2

This is a warning. Don't take things that aren't yours. My mistake as a teenager has ruined my life.
At the age of sixteen moved into a new house with my family since my father was offered a new job that payed him much more than what he was making before. We had been in poverty for years so when the pipeline company called him.. he instantly accepted.
Two weeks later we moved from my home town in Georgia. I will admit. It was really difficult saying goodbye to the friends I basically grew up with since birth. Mother reassured me it was better this way so I finally loaded my belongings into the moving truck. Our new home was about two hours away from our original location, so this meant I'd have to get used to a new remote place. I teared up as I saw the towns greeting sign. "Welcome to Clamville! Where memories are made." How ironic, I never knew this place would be my first week in hell. I knew then, I'd miss my original house every day. My hometown was all I ever knew.
All I could see was nothing but dirt roads and old homes, it felt like a ghost town. But hey, what did I know? Maybe I'd love the new place. My poor naive self..
The house we moved into wasn't much to look at. The outside was painted crimson with a black roof and a black door to match. The inside had two bedrooms, two bathrooms, and everything a house usually would. A few days after living there I realized we had an attic because of a chain hanging from the washroom. Me being excited, I immediately told my mother. I was always curious in my youth. She tilted her head in confusion and said "The owner never mentioned that."
My father always had ladders because of his previous job with the logging company so we searched the truck and found one in the back. My father had taken the pipeline work vehicle that day so it was never unusual for his beat up red truck to be in the driveway. My mother set up the ladder, began to walk on it, but then stopped half way in pulling the chain.
"Ma what are you doing? Pull it down so I can see what's in there-"
"I don't feel like this is safe, the previous home owner obviously didn't tell us it was there for a reason. Maybe it has some safety hazards-"
"He might've left old things up there. Like antiques or something."
She inhaled deeply and let out a long sigh. "Fine, but if you get hurt you'll never be allowed up there again. I mean it" She said sternly as she walked back down the ladder.
In my excitement I rushed and pulled the rusty chain so that the entrance was fully exposed. A cloud of faintly grey dust hit me in the face and I coughed. My mother complained about the mess but that was the least of my worries. I climbed myself the rest of the way in. The atmosphere felt eerie.
"Do you see anything?" Mother hollered. "Ma I haven't even turned on the light yet." I yelled in response. I felt around the attic and flicked a light switch and, the attic lit up. The floral wall paper in the room was peeling off and the floor was in need for a sweeping. Other than that, it seemed in fairly good condition. In my surprise nothing much was there besides a few boxes of porcelain plates, tea cups, and occasional old frilly dresses in piles on the floor.
Everything was caked in grey dust. From the looks of it, no one had been up here for years. My mother yelled once again and it caused me to jump "Everything okay?" She yelled. "Yes ma, I promise. There isn't much up here." I yelled back with a slight tone of annoyance, she always worried too much I thought. I paced up and down the floor to examine my findings and that's when I saw it in the corner. A beautiful antique mirror with bright gold edges, it resembled a magic mirror from all of those cheesy Disney movies I loved as a little girl. I grabbed it immediately, I just couldn't stop myself. It wasn't mine but I needed it. It's looks lured me in.
I admired the gold and beautiful shape, I wanted it. The owner left it so it WAS technically mine right? It was the size of my torso so it was easy to carry. I grabbed the mirror, turned off the light, and with caution, headed back down the ladder while clinging to it. Mother met me at the last step.
"What's that?" She asked. "Its an old mirror, and it's beautiful. I really want to put it in my new room" I said with joy. She examined it. "It needs some cleaning but.. sure I guess so. But just remember we don't know whose it is." She said. As soon as mother finished her sentence I squealed with excitement, even in my teen years, the littlest things brought me happiness as if I was four. "I told you there was atleast something up there Ma!" I ran to the bathroom with the mirror in hand to find Windex to clean it. As I was grabbing the cleaner from under the sink I felt an extremely cold presence behind me. I wrote it off as 'the house was old and probably needed some insulation work done'.
I headed to the kitchen table and began scrubbing the glass, the smudges just weren't coming up. I began to get aggravated and used different cleaning chemicals. Dawn dish soap, Windex, vinegar, ajax, and even baby wipes. It refused to come up from the glass and my excitement faded slightly. I went to mother's bedroom to go find her and ask her for more solutions.
"Ma. The finger prints won't come up" I said defeated. "Well it IS really old honey. It could be staining from inside of it." She explained looking up from her book. She was always seen with some type of novel in her hand. I sighed.
"Well..should I just hang it up as it is?"
"I don't see why not. It's clean now."
"Alright then." I closed the door as I left. I felt my gut twist and turn as I turned my rooms door knob. Little did I know then, it was my subconscious warning me for what was to come.
I headed to my room and decided to hang it up over my bed. I sat on the end of my mattress and admired it once more, even though it has a few smudges, it was still glimmering and shiny. I loved it.
I even looked at it as I fell asleep that night. To my dismay, I had my first nightmare of a criptid crawling out from the walls and grabbing my throat. The hands burnt as soon as it touched my skin. I couldn't scream. I was paralyzed. The figure was cloudy grey and had such dark eyes. As it's eyes met mine I finally woke up in a panic. The smell of the 'thing' is forever burned into my nose. I was covered in sweat and my hair was matted against my face. I went to the bathroom and immediately took a hot shower. I always hated how sweat felt. I didn't go back to bed that night, stayed up and drew in my sketchbook the whole time. I didn't want to ever have that nightmare again and I thought it would pass. I even prayed.
I checked my dimlight computer screen and it read 8:00 AM. I got up and made myself some fried eggs. Mother woke up from the smell and sleepily walked into the kitchen "You're awake early" she yawned. "Haha yeah, I was hungry" I decided not to tell her about my nightmare. Knowing her, she'd blame it on the YouTube videos I watch. The eggs were done and I grabbed two plates.
"Is father already gone? I didn't hear him leave."
"Yeah, you know how his job is.."
"I miss him Ma"
"I know. I do too."
We ate at the kitchen table without saying a word to each other. The move was impacting us both. Father came home at eleven at night now and always left at seven in the morning, while I was sleeping. He had weekends off but when he had spare time, he'd usually rest since his job was hard on his back. I knew I'd been enrolled into a new highschool in a few months after the summer was over and I was scared to leave mother all alone. She didn't do well when she was stir crazy.
The past few days after felt like a fever dream. I spent less and less time in my room, as a teenager that's never a bad thing but, I noticed anytime I was in there. I'd catch myself zoning off, looking at the mirror.
I kept having the same nightmare. It was repetitive nightly and it began to drive me crazy, I was desperate enough to begin asking for help on reddit, discord, online chat rooms, you name it. They all asked me a recurring question.. "Do you have any mirrors in your room?" At the time I thought it was such a stupid and irrelevant question. I eventually sent someone a picture of it in a private chat and they told me I needed to burn it and began rambling about 'negative attachments' I nervously laughed at the text. Burn? A mirror?.. that sounded ridiculous.
I laughed to myself and picked up the gorgeous mirror from my light brown wall. I gazed at it to see if this person was truly crazy and that's when it hit me. The smudges look like it's on the inside. I was in shock. I had so many questions running through my head like a fight or flight response. There was no way finger prints could be INSIDE a mirror.. right? I kept reassuring my mind and told myself I was over thinking it. I surely had to be paranoid from the lack of sleep. I went to bed and the dream repeated itself once again. The 'thing' completely devouring me.
I woke up. I had enough and cracked. I told my mother everything, she didn't believe a word I said. Though, in her defense, she never was the one to believe in negative energies or anything paranormal. Her denying it was anything to do with ghosts kind of eazed my fears. Though the nightmares continued, I was finally able to get more sleep. I became numb to it as I knew what would happen.
One night in particular I awoke from the same dream and my throat was dry as if it was caked with flour. I brushed my teeth to get the sensation off my tongue and I spit out pure black. I opened my mouth wide enough to see every tooth and saw it. To my horror, my mouth had a thin layer of dust on the tops of my gums.. the people warning me where right. It had to be evil.
I rinsed out my mouth and cried on the bathroom floor for what it felt like, hours. Something was wrong, so very wrong. Mother kept denying my claims and father was never at home to give me comfort. I picked myself up and decided then and there..I had to get rid of the mirror. I was going to smash it into a million peices, it's gorgeous petite shape was a wolf in sheep's clothing.
I sat in the living room and watched an old Looney tunes re run untill I fell asleep. Not long enough to have the dream of course because I woke up to the sound of someone in the kitchen. It was my father, I stood up from the couch.
"Can I hug you before you go to work?"
"You know I'd never deny one of your hugs kiddo, but why did you sleep on the couch?" he said as he wrapped me in a bear hug. I smelled the old spice on his clothes. I haven't had one of those embraces since we moved. I always adored my father growing up. I ignored his question about why I was sleeping in the living room.
"Have a good day at work. I was just tired." I didn't want him to worry or feel like this was his fault. He was trying his best for us and I knew that.
"Thank you kid." He said with a smile. He then walked out the front door. I'm glad I finally saw his face, it felt like ages. It was one of these moments I wished he had his old job again. Then I remembered all the times we had no money for food or water. 'It was better this way' I kept telling myself.
I finally walked back to my bed room and seeing the mirror flooded me with absolute rage. I grabbed the damn thing off my wall. I walked out into the front yard and I smashed it, picked it up and kept throwing it on the gravel. I hated it, I now hated how it looked, the pain it caused me, and the nightmares it brought. I beat it untill it was just the gold lining. I left it on the dirt ground and stared at it, I knew I'd have alot of explaining to do to my mother.
In that split moment I felt a weight being lifted off my shoulders. It was over. I could be joyful once more and enjoy my new home with my mother. With relief, I walked back into the living room. Examining my hands I found that there was a glass shard so I brought myself to the sink and washed my hands. I took a deep breath and stepped back into my bedroom. My once know sanctuary.
But there it was again.. the mirror. Back into it's original form on the wall. I couldn't believe it. I ran back outside and saw that even the shards of glass in the grass were gone. Since that day it's followed me everywhere along with the nightmares. Every house I've moved to since adult hood. It's been there despite me purposely leaving it. I regret finding it so beautiful and wanting it to be mine. I just can't escape it. Growing up since that, my mother never believed me when I'd cry to her about the dreadful thing. It was hard making friends in my new town because I was scared of having anyone come over to my house.. I feared the mirror would follow them too. I stayed to myself and would look for any reason to stay away from home. I believe this dreaded curse may follow me past death. The worst part of this experience is the feeling of pure insanity. Everyone telling me I'm crazy. I live everyday wondering if I've lost my mind. It tortures me mentally and I feel so alone. All I have now, is my reflection in that fucking mirror.
So take my warning and remember.. curiousity killed the cat.

I’m currently doing my MS in Taxation and this is the first class I have to take. It’s online and there a weekly zoom meetings to answer any questions. The text is written completely in legalese which I’m not too familiar with. (I have 10 years experience in personal income tax ) the final and midterm are the only graded materials and it’s completely open book so I know I can easily pass however I want to have a deeper understanding of what I’m actually learning because I am a tax professional and Im considering working in the field of Trust & Estates. It’s a summer course so it’s expedited and we go over 2 chapters each week. What’s a realistic way of me to approach the readings?( How many hours a day should I be reading ? ) Being that I have no actual law background it seems like a bunch of run on sentences and I often find my self re reading a paragraph 3-4 times before I understand it. Also if anyone can recommend some videos I can watch to supplement the textbook I’d appreciate that. I’ve included a photo of the book incase anyone’s familiar with it.
I also should include I’m not working currently ( I don’t work outside of tax season except for a few hours a month for those who are on extension so I have pretty open availability) and I also am taking another tax class (tax for corporate managers) which is much easier for me and the textbook for that class is formatted like most accounting text so it’s not as overwhelming.
Sorry if this question is vague I’m just overall overwhelmed and really not sure how I should approach the course so that I can not only pass ( with hopefully an A) but also fully understand the material and be able to fully utilize what I learn for my own practice and within my career.

Hey there,
I posted this under a different section, but I'm not sure if it was the right one, so I posted here as well.
I just got enrolled in NATS1675 with Czaban. All her slides are in PDF format. I have been trying to find anywhere online that will allow me to turn them into PowerPoints. However, they all end up overlapping the letters and sentences together. I just want to be able to make notes like a regular PowerPoint. Please help
Thanks