Airplane made of keyboard characters

I made a Hades 2 character ranking, as the only other one I could find was missing a lot of characters as the creator hadn't played the game, and this sub is held up by it's obsession of tier lists.
If I missed any characters, do let me know.
https://tiermaker.com/create/hades-2-all-characters-17137617

Mage seems to be an opportunist deck that excels in drawing. Its skill ceiling seemed very high at first but once I found the infinite mana loop, I realized it can OTK at 8 or 9 mana and that skill ceiling started to drop pretty quickly. The deck I've made is now focused around draw and mana efficiency with almost zero focus on stalling.
You usually know if you're dead or going to lose by your 3rd or 4th turn. Against certain decks, you know you've lost at round two. Of course there are some decks (unrelated to bots) that this deck would shred if turns were infinite (like armor stacking).
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Anyways, I think mage is good, I don't think it's too bad -- I think what it lacks is the ability to scale itself and one other important thing that all the other classes have that this one doesn't seem to -- something that makes it special.
I see rogues buff their daggers to all shit by their third turn, I see shamans giving themselves mana and 1600 armour by their 6th turn, hell -- mage can even lose to Silver Hand Recruit Spam pretty fast.
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I'm not saying mage should walk on everything. I'm just saying... for a CG that doesn't seem to care about balance, why does the "mirrocombo/counteopportunist" archetype have no real personality?
The best it seems to be able to do (outside of what I'm using), can be done by everyone else -- at 160%+ more efficiency, and the cards mage would be using to do those things -- are also used by everyone else as though its apart of a larger motif that mage can't even use.
Repeat ad nauseam.
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Btw, if you're interested in what I'm using -- Luna/Sorc Apprentice/Reverb/Ignite loop.
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I'm really trying to keep this build a mage only. Maybe willing to make an exception for Renethal. But the deck is cheap and lacks spells like that 10 cost that costs x# of spells of x level per spells cost @ x level & cost throughout the game by the caster.
But even if it did have it, it's not a consistent thing, which is what I try to avoid -- a lack of consistency. At least with my loop, if I can perform the animations fast enough, I can loop you to death in one turn by the time I have 9-10 mana.
If I can get there in time.
And yeah, even though this seems like a complaint -- it's really bitter sweet. The deck sucks, but it's also good. If it were much stronger, I feel like it'd win all the time. But that -40% efficiency I feel like it has in most areas creates such a huge gap in my wins that I never feel overpowered.
But I certainly feel that mage needs some TLC from HS devs.
My one suggestion:
Draw and Discover cards that overload. With the addition of cards that are mage specific that reward it for being overloaded. Such as minions/monsters that give said rewards if the player casted or received certain cards/effects last round.
This will allow the mage to thin out the deck a little bit more while keeping the cards almost exclusive to its combo and punish almost anyone for using it.
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Arcane draw is basically begging for it anyways. Vex Crow, Khadgar, and Keyboard is really just Mage's swarm tech (outside of ele inspiration) and the monsters it does spam are t r a s h compared to what most people get from their spam techs.
Anyways, love mage, think its great, better than what most people say, but its definitely shit, and needs someone who understands it to pay some attention to it. Give it its own flair or OP BS since balance doesn't seem to be the primary focus in HS.
And if anyone from YGO remembers Golden Bamboo Sword/Magical Mallet decks, then you'll understand what I'm getting at here.
Just dont wanna have to use neutral OTKs and the ignite loop requires way too much for the reality that is... every archetype and their builds are typically > mage in about 80%-90% of matches.
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Its a bot crusher and you basically have to believe in the heart of the cards, Yugi.
Love the gamble simulator though, really fun playing with probability and opportunity.
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Sorry for the tl;dr. I really like mage though, no matter how much I keep saying it, I really... really... like mage.

it was a free indie game on itch.io probably between 2015 and 2018 but it could've been earlier
everything I remember about it:
it was primarily first person but there was some way to see your character model
the game's levels were mainly made out of large rectangular blocks with black grid patterns on them
you played as a sleek robot that looks like a mix between Latios from Pokémon Heros and a velociraptor from Jurassic Park
there was a speedometer in one corner of the screen and your top speed was around 60km/s I think, a large part of the game was trying not to lose your momentum because it builds up sorta slowly
you could jump, slide, wallrun, pull yourself up ledges, seemed heavily inspired by the first Mirror's Edge game's parkour system
there was a level editor
there may have been an online leaderboard for speedrunning levels
and I think the game's title may have started with "V"
this feels like a long shot but might as well see if anyone remembers

I have no involvement with the stroy, but know the characters involved. My great aunt Susan (not real name) has always asked for hand outs and done underhanded tricks to get her way. She is a good manipulator. My grandmother, till her death, said not to trust her but my mom defended her. This instance changed her mind about her.
Where Susan lives is in the middle of no where, down a gravel path and the winters get bad there. Her car that she was driving was being held together by gum, string and duck tape. So my mom decided to buy her a car that was only a year old. The dealer priced around 31 thousand USD. Susan liked the car and it had most of the stuff my mom wanted. So my mom paid $1000 down on the car on Tuesday and pay the rest later. They made an agreement that mom would go up on Saturday and spend some time with her.
Well Monday came, Susan calls her and asked her to come up after work and pay off the car so she could get it now. Mom said “You can wait until Saturday.” The next day she saw on Facebook that she had the car. After some yelling on the phone it turns out that the dealership called her and said “All she had to do was sign and she can drive it off the lot.” Susan was so happy to got what she wanted she signed the paperwork without reading it or contacting my mom.
My mom was livid and yelled at her and told her no more helping after this. I told her to cut her off even though she is “blood”. So today my mom went up today while I was at work. When my mom got her hands on the paperwork the dealership added $200 to the price behind their back. The cherry on top was they had an appointment with the sale agent at 10 am but he wasn’t coming in till 11 am.
At that point my mom gave Susan a check and left. Last when Susan tried to reach out to “Give her the receipt” my mom just told her no and hung up. My mom is not going to trust her anymore.

\Sorry about the annoying book cover, I couldn't find another version*
Background: The book below is considered to be the first novel to be created in South Asia, which has its origin in the mid 1500's in the Vijayanagara empire during the reign of Krishna Deva Raya. Pingala Suranna is considered to be one of the eight jewels; a group of prestigious scholars that worked in the royal court and made strides in different fields.
Basic plot: The whole thing is kicked off when the creator god flirts his wife using a metaphorical about two lovers and a complicated situation with a talking parrot forces him to make the fake story into reality. There are many plot lines, but the central story involves a man and woman incarnating over multiple lifetimes trying to find each other in different forms following the creator gods story.
Setting: the book is a Purana-esque setting, but not the religious variety rather the absurd variety. Think magic yogis riding lions, gender switching, a wierd double shapeshifting catfish (its makes sense in the book), a bit of black magic and human sacrifice plot line. The whole thing reads as a collections of absurd vignettes containing characters acting in an odd and peculiar manner.
Be warned: it is a 500 year old book that was translated from Telugu, so there are some question sentences and situation. Furthermore, it is a pre-Colonial work South Asian work hence there is quite a few idiotic sexual metaphors .
Nonetheless, if you have time; give it a try. You will find the plot interesting, the sexual imagery laughable or find it to be very boring and hate the archaic nature of the text. It shouldn't be an extremely hard read since the whole thing is 165 pages long and the rest of the material is authors notes.
Lastly, you can get a digital copy of the book on archive.org for some reason (I left a link at the end of the post). Hopefully you might be interested.
Bookmakers and their questionable choices
Link:
https://archive.org/details/soundofthekissorstorythatmustneverbetoldpingalisuranna_171_s/mode/1up

Deke.. I’m rewatching the show after years since I never finished it and maybe I forgot or just didn’t really dawn on me, but Deke is not the same character he was introduced as. When we first see him he has the badass entrance that made me almost think he was Starlord the first time I saw him, then he goes toe to toe with Mae (although she was injured, he held his own), he rebuilt the framework using earth scrap he found, was a seemingly smart and intelligent survivor / businessman.. so why on earth is he nothing more than a comedic relief, slow, dumb, and defenseless character by the end of the season?
I mean he’s funny and the actor does a great job with his comedic timing, but I just don’t get why they seemed to completely change the character.

This is all assuming Justine manages to survive with Nemesis purged from her.
Since Blood Rites, while on paper Papa Raith is still the White King, Lara is actually the de facto Queen of the White Court, the real power behind the throne after she took her father's will. If Lara dies, (and if she does marry Harry that's all but guaranteed) then Thomas is the shoe-into be next one to rule the White Court. After Lara, he has the strongest Hunger, is half-brother to the Winter Knight and Wizard of Chicago and he will likely even become a White Knight himself.
Given the length of the series, we've seen many characters grow. One of them is Justine. When we first meet her she is a former sex worker who is Thomas's lover. Later, after Lara's coup, Justine works under her as her assistant and helps Harry with the Paranet. She shows ability in the skill of soft power using "cat's paws" to deal with one's enemies that is prized in the White Court, and made a "cat's paw" out of Baron Marcone himself in getting him to deal with the Fomor lord Mag in "Even Hand." She is effectively a political actor in her own right.
Papa Raith allied with dark forces in the form of He Who Walks Behind to come to power while Thomas will have the backing of the White God, and Lara is an admitted predator while Justine risked her life by rescuing a child when she escaped the Fomor.
I think Thomas and Justine will resemble Lara and Papa Raith's in that while Thomas is officially the White King, Justine is the Queen who is the real power behind the throne or at least an equal partner. It may especially be the case if he is a White Knight since he would need to leave regularly for divine missions, and need someone to manage things while he is gone.

If she's meta or not, I don't know, but my decision was biased because of Versus Rising. Before Versus Rising, the only thing I knew about the Evokers was that they were special recruitable characters just like the Eternals. Of course, after Rising, I now know that they're not a group similar to the Eternals.
I knew from Versus that Nier didn't have all screws in place, but man, was I not ready. Like, if I was asked, I'd say that GBF is more on the lighthearted side of things, but it seems that, for her, the genre switched to dark fantasy.
Her story actually started kinda wholesome with her family praising her for doing her best and it made me think that whatever happened might not have anything to do with her family, well, I was half right. After her sister was born and the family started seeing her sister's talent, they started neglecting her, and not even seeing her as a daugher basically. Stuff happens and she finds the book with the Death card and the life manipulation spell. Thats when I knew that Nier didn't become like that just because of her family, sure, in a better enviroment things might not have gone this way, but it doesn't change the fact that Nier is a psychopath, when she started experimenting on people by killing them I realized she was no better than her family and that she was truly screwed up in the head. Her family was horrible, but they weren't beating Nier up or killing people. When they locked her up I even thought it might be for the best. Of course, Nier made the pact with Death and escaped, and then she killed her family in a scene that made me feel relieved that the game doesn't have better quality cutscenes.
Now, after she lost to the crew and ordered Death to kill her, I found it pretty weird how the crew was devastated, she was their enemy and wanted to destroy the world but its like they saw a friend die, and yeah, Gran is the nicest person ever, but even when they thought Reinhardtzar died they didn't react like that. As for when they see her again months later, finding out she was a alive, the part where they read her diary and cried for her was also a bit weird, her story is more shocking than pitiful, she's killed so many people that you can't say her family was the worse scum on the skies. Then when Nier shows up and the Town rep finds her, that part where Gran jumps in front of the bullet to save her was a bit stupid, like, I don't expect the crew to just stand around and wait the town rep execute her, but c'mon, dude had his son killed by her and she was attacking people in town, it almost seemed like the game was trying to antagonize the guy and she was probably gonna kill him if he hadn't run away. The part after that where they talk with her and say they'll help her was kinda nice, I believe she should be punished for her crimes, even Lyria says it can't be forgiven, but if a person truly wants to make a change I guess they deserve a second chance. And they could have done that if it wasn't for that crazy ending showing that she killed all the townspeople. I wasn't expecting that at all, what happened to the JRPG friendship power?
I have yet to see her 5 star uncap episodes, since its gonna take a while for that. But I'm praying she at least stops killing people.
Seeing her story and knowing that the Evokers aren't good, I can't really say that I like her, from Versus I didn't think she was that bad so I kinda liked her. I assume that, if she's not better yet, Cygames will have to do something about her. Since she's playable we probably aren't going to defeat or kill her, and she probably not gonna die. But it would be weird if they leave it like this. Imagine we reach Estalucia with a killer in the crew. Its just so weird since we've saved the sky so many times, and there is the fact that Lucifer, Rolan, Zooey and so many other trusts Gran to protect the skies while he has someone in the crew killing people, be it innocent or not, and that crearly is a dangerous person.
I wanted to do Maria Theresa next (female draph and all), but I'm probably going for Lobelia next, people say he's the craziest so I'll do the more sane ones last.
It is insane though how her Versus outro implies she kills her opponent, I admit I'm quite curious to see how she'll interact with Vikala in Versus, since they're basically opposites with Vikala being all positive and Nier all negative.
Thats it.

Possible CW(?) I’m not sure but, I’m gonna be talking about my experiences with having BPD and the possibility of OSDD / feeling like I’m a fraud with thinking of the possibility of having OSDD.

To start, I as Zak, the ‘host’, am always ‘front’. I’ve learned that this could be what a shell alter is. Someone who is bound to front always but, I have my own formed ‘personality’.
What makes me feel absolutely nuts is, some days I feel really hyper fem and hyper sexual and I feel good and I also like going by the name ‘Raven’ and I have what I’d always dreamed to look like in this state, made as a character in a game I play and this makes me feel so euphoric and absolutely amazing.
Some days I feel like well. Me, Zak. I’m masc, I ID as my body, I’m tired and cranky and I’m very anti social. I don’t like being hyper fem and I just vibe looking comfy.
Some days I feel like I’m 17 again and I hate the world and everyone and I’m hyper masc, and everything is overstimulating and I miss my ex friend group and drinking and smoking 🍃 and not giving a fuck about the world and I align with the name Ashton.
Some days I feel like I’m in my 30’s and I want to sit outside and vape and relax and I’m tried but, I want to be outside and plant flowers, watch the birds, walk to the ocean and find rocks and I align with the name Bodie.
Some days I feel like I’m 5 and also 20 and I feel small and love pastel things and want to be cuddled and taken care of by someone Im attracted to and just lay in bed and colour and make paper stars and it’s harder to talk and I don’t want to talk and I just feel.. small and I align with the name Bunni.
Some days I feel absolutely terrible, and have bad thoughts and I want to create chaos around me and I feel insane and absolutely miserable, I don’t want to have a name or a body, I feel like a void, a mere entity within the universe.
Some days I feel like my character in FFXIV, and when I play as my character, I lose touch of my surroundings and I feel so real to my game that I end up getting shivers down my body when I game or when I dress my character up in clothes that I want irl but can’t have, and when I interact with the folks around me in game, it’s like I can feel them, this sensation of a phantom touch when a hug emote is for me. When I take pics of my character Akane, I see it and it brings me joy and I feel calm and happy and I think to myself “yeah, that’s me.”.
I don’t hear anyone. I don’t hear anything but the loud noises around me and my brain feeling heavy when I feel these emotions and think these thoughts during certain situations. I can kind of in point when these feelings started to happen with each ‘alter’. Not exact dates but, an overall year. Zak - 2006 (I was 6) Eight- 2012 (I was 12) Raven- 2015 (I was 15) Ashton - 2017 (I was 17) Bunni - 2020 (I was 20) Bodie- 2022 (I was 22) Akane - 2023 (I am 23)
I’ll name her S as I’m not sharing her actual name, she is who I was before. She became her own being when I transitioned in 2016 and changed my name to Zak. I ignored her, shunned my traumatic past away, i feared my traumatic childhood (obviously) my father. I know what happened to me even if it doesn’t feel like it happened to, me, Zak. I know what happened. I went to therapy from 16-22. I’ve seen therapists again and again and psychiatrist again and again, and still am seeing a psychiatrist.
Where it confuses me is, are these personality disturbances because of my BPD, that I am diagnosed with. Is this because of my BPD plus CPTSD. My autism. Is this all combined? Is this OSDD plus everything else? And I’ve done my research about OSDD, for the past 3 almost 4 years, I’ve been looking up everything I can about OSDD and it matches but, hearing others. I don’t hear shit. I can feel their emotions but, I don’t hear anything. I know I experience derealization and depersonalization, I know I dissociate but, not to the extend of complete switches. I just go emotionally numb, then I feel confused for about 25 seconds. I come back to reality as Zak but.. now some one else.
I’m gonna be talking to my psychiatrist about this when I talk to him and I’m scared that he will completely shut me down like he has for everything else. “I’m not a therapist, go see one”. I can’t get a new psychiatrist because there’s no other psychiatrist I can see that doesn’t see someone in my personal family. Apparently they can’t see me if they see my mother, my cousin. Like? Wtf. If I want a new one I have to wait a year because the area I live in, has no fucking psychiatrists. UGH.
I don’t need answers, I just need shared experiences or experiences of others if you relate.

The show itself? Great. One of the most emotive pieces of cinema I’ve seen in a while. A lot of the stuff outside of it? Very yucky.
Seeing people get falsely accused of being the characters portrayed in the show.
seeing the real Martha on Piers Morgan in itself felt very wrong, but on top of that some of the comments she made about Gadd were really ugly.
I feel very strongly that something nasty is going to come from all of this and we’re all gonna have a “oh shit this is real” moment when it happens.
I can’t help but feel somewhat complicit because despite all of what I’ve said, I still tuned in for the interview and I’m loosely following along with everything that’s transpired since.
One wonderful silver lining is all of those who came forward about their own past abuse due to the show and that’s extremely heartwarming.
Like others said here, this is all extremely black mirror-esque.

My youngest monkey is old enough to start wanting to join in with the video games, but he's not coordinated enough to actually play properly. I found my old emulator folder and he's been playing the first section of Ecco the Dolphin, which has taught him the basics of using the thumbstick to move a sprite, but it's not exactly exciting. He LOVES the character of Ecco but gets bored of the game itself quickly because there's nothing to do.
Anyone got any recs for baby games? Not really looking to spend more than 20 bucks. Criteria:

• PC
• no fail state
• no death state
• no time limits
• controller compatible, or only uses the mouse without the keyboard (too many buttons on the keyboard)
• preferably only 2 dimensions so he doesn't have to control a camera with the other thumbstick
• would be nice if there was stuff like fruit to collect or something

Just something that he can walk around a little world at his own pace and figure out how the microsoft controller works before we move onto more complicated games with fail states like Mario and Sonic. It's OK if it's the first section of a bigger game if it still meets the above criteria.
Thanks guys

This is The Marshall Project’s Closing Argument newsletter, a weekly deep dive into a key criminal justice issue. Want this delivered to your inbox? Subscribe to future newsletters.Private security guards are present in nearly every facet of public life, from schools and hospitals to public transit agencies, and religious buildings. With the number of sworn police officers dwindling nationwide and departments struggling to attract new recruits, many businesses are turning to security guards, who outnumber police officers by a significant margin.
But security guards face far less oversight than police and have lower licensing and training standards. There’s also growing evidence that failed cops with troubling histories of abuse — including excessive force — can easily find second careers in private security.About 30% of former police officers working as private security guards in Florida had been fired or faced complaints for serious “moral character violations” while they were officers, according to a recent academic study. The misconduct included felony crimes, excessive force or false statements in court. Some aspiring officers who couldn't pass a basic policing test or get a job in law enforcement also turned to private security, the study found. This echoes reporting I did about 10 years ago, which found that failed officers and prison guards with histories of abuse often worked in private security.Allowing these officers to slip into the security industry can have serious consequences, experts say. As a narcotics officer for the Detroit Police Department, Matthew Zani was accused of repeatedly violating the civil rights of people he arrested. He and seven other officers were charged criminally, but were later acquitted after jurors found the witnesses lacked credibility.After the police department fired him, Zani became an armed guard at an office and retail complex. There, he beat and detained two Black visitors in a basement cell, according to a lawsuit filed against him and the security company he worked for. Zani and the firm are now facing multiple lawsuits alleging a pattern of racism, harassment, excessive force and false arrest by several White guards. Zani, the other guards named in the lawsuits and the security company have all denied violating anyone’s rights
.I found numerous examples of cops with histories of complaints in law enforcement becoming private security guards and then shooting and killing people. In one case, an apartment complex guard in Georgia, who had repeatedly faced complaints of racial profiling, got in a fight with one resident and fatally shot him. The guard was not charged criminally. In another case, a guard working for a public transit agency in San Diego shot and killed a man after he had been detained and laid on his stomach.
Some officers who have been fired after accusations of sexual misconduct have also landed in private security jobs that put them in close contact with the public and even children. In 2022, a former officer who had been fired for sexual misconduct involving the victim of a crime was discovered working at a high school in Arizona. And last year, Chicago Public Schools suspended two security guards after it was discovered that they were previously fired from the Chicago Police Department and on the city’s “Do-Not-Hire List.” One of the former Chicago officers had been terminated from the department in 2019, following allegations of sexual misconduct involving a minor. The other officer had faced allegations of domestic abuse.
Previous reporting has shown that many police departments are notoriously bad at disciplining their officers, and many who are fired never lose their police certification. That means they can easily jump from department to department after problems arise. These “wandering officers” are more likely than other cops to get fired again or have moral character violations, according to an academic study. In many places, it’s impossible for the public to look up whether an officer has ever been fired or lost their certification.
This is also true in the private security profession. In my previous review of state policies, most states that license security guards did not seem to care whether an applicant was a former police officer who had been fired, disciplined or decertified by a commission of peace officer standards and training (POST).
“A lot of our decision is based on that appearance of the individual,” the chairman of the Georgia licensing board told me at the time. “I would say that most of the former police officers — even if they have POST problems — most of them get licensed.”
There’s a major reason why security companies want former officers: their law enforcement training and experience are highly valued. In Florida, officers must complete more than 10 times as much training as armed security guards and pass multiple tests before they’re allowed to patrol. As a result, state regulators exempt police officers from the training requirements to become private guards, literally fast-tracking former cops into the profession.
For all the problems with police discipline, the oversight of armed guards is even worse. In my previous reporting, I found that most states did not require companies or guards to report to a state licensing agency when they shot somebody. Even when guards reported it, regulators rarely investigated the incident or rescinded a guard’s license.
The oversight is even more lax in cases that don’t involve guns. Zani, the former Detroit officer, and several of his fellow guards, had been the subject of complaints for years. In one instance, another guard saved video evidence and emailed a complaint to the state licensing agency, describing compliance violations, racial profiling and excessive force. But 18 months later a reporter found the state agency had yet to respond to the guard who made the complaint.

So I just finished the common route of Chaos;Child
OMG WTF BBQ THIS WAS SO MUCH DAMNED FUN I WANT TO REAL-BOOT A WAIFU TO MAKE MY LIFE A LIVING HELL!!!! But seriously, while they referenced Takumi a few times, I really... guhh... kinda wanted to see him again. I was really hoping that Gen was actually Takumi. It would have been so fun to see him as a happy-go-lucky homeless booze-hound.
I gotta tell ya, I sure bristled at the first "Taku". NO! NONONONONO! NOOOOOOO! GOD! PLEASE! NO!
Anybody else think it was funny the amount of times Takuru said "What??" considering he was a "psychic"? He was honestly a ton of fun. His constant bewilderment at everything around him made him a great straight-man in a mad, mad world. God damn, I hated this thing after a character got packaged for individual retail. But, you gotta expect some amount of abuse from these nutballs. Ehh, in a couple days, I'll slog through more endings.
I really wish there was more involvement of the original gigalomaniacs, though. It seems odd, that none of them showed up to take an interest in the happenings at Shibuya.

Im ready to get downvote by this post pero di ko na talaga alam paano pa ito ilalabas without hurting my mama and her this might bw long and incoherent so pls bare with me.
10 yrs ang age gap namin. Dalawa lang kami magkapatid. Hiwalay parents namin for 15-16 yrs i think? Gets ko naman na baka ayun yung effect sa kanya pero di kami nagkulang ng gabay sa kanya even with my lola and we live in our father side for 5 years and ako yung kasama niya now we're living with my mother.
Everyday may pasulong samin mama ko, I'm 26 and she's 17 grabe lahat binibigay ng mama ko like pagka gusto nya pinag iipunan talaga. Okay naman siya sa school nya she's one of the honorables Pero grabe lang talaha yung pagka bastos ng bunganga niya and pagkatamad noya sa bahay.
Ako kasi malinis ako like i will do the dishes right away ayoko kasing maabutan ni mama kasi sya naghuhugas kahit galing siya sa work.
Multiple times ako na m-mop and walis kasi we have cats, ayon pa nga she loves the idea of having a cat but not the reality thing that she have to maintain the cleanliness of the cats and their surroundings like binilhan siya ng mama ko ng Persian.. Wala kaming magawa kami na lang naglilinis ng litter box and nagpapakain kasi nakakaawa yung mga cats she doesnt even have the urge to refill the water dispenser for them.
And then there this things na my boyfriend gave him a mechanical keyboard na a bit pricey, ofc diba kung tayo man mag papasalamat tayo agad but NO, She did not thank my boyfriend right after she received the keebs. I ask her if she already message his kuya (my boyfriend) then she got annoyed and says "hindi ka ba makapaghintay? Pwedeng mamaya na" take note this is days after she got it.
May situation pa kagabi lang, my boyfriend give me chocolates as his pasulobong kasi he went to UK and yung chocolates na yon is locally made kaya tinitipid ko and sabi ko kakainin ko lang if craving ako. He put it in a ziplock bag. So kagabi, pagbukas ni mama ng ref: M= Mama, S= Sister A=Ako
M: oh wala nang laman to bakit nasa ref pa A: ano yan?
takes out the chocolate wrappers
A: Grabe di pa'ko nakakatikim at nakaka kain niyan
sister ko nag headset
Sobrang dami pang kashitan na ginagawa nitong batang to baka makagawa ako ng libro sa dami. Nakaka bwisit may time na di ko na lang siya pinapansin kasi promise magaaway talaga kami at baka umabot sa pisikalan.
Gusto ko lang din i-add na hindi siya mabarkarda but she have friends na napunta dito sa bahay siys yung babaeng di mo makikita sa labas na nakatambay and nagiino hindi rin siga nagtitiktok for clouts na pa sexy basta buhay nya is magaral lang at bahay
May time na pinagsabihan ko siya kasi i was wearing a bra kasi nga mainit and bahay naman namin to diba.
May babae pumasok classmates niya dire direcho sa kwarto and i was too stunned to speak kasi naghubad yung classmate niya ng uniform as if na feel at home.
Pagka aalis ng classmate niga sinabihan ko siya
A: sino yon? Hindi man lang bumati ng good afternoon tsaka nagpaalam basta dere derecho
S: bakit sino ka ba para batiin tsaka ganon talaga yon. Pake mo ba?
A: aba diba dapat ganon yon, pagka nasa bahay ka dapat babati ka sa tao na andon bakit di ka rin ba ganon sa ibang bahay ng classmates mo?
sinara yung pinto
May time pa na ALWAYS niyang iniiwan na nakasaksak yung electric kettle yung efan tas walang tao yung chargers.
May time din na pumunta classmates niya and apaka kalat ng bahay pagka gising ko tas sinabihan ko siya "hindi ka ba nahihiya sa classmates mo ang kalat" sagot niya "pake mo ba eh sanay naman silang ganyan" sa sobrang hiya ko ako yung naglinis ng bahay. Kasi para sakin kung paano ka sa bahay yun yung nag rereflect sa pagkatao mo.
Wala may times na di na lang kami nag uusap tatlo kahit si mama di na soya kinakausap kaysa ma stress sa kanya.
Everyday din nagluluto ako o si mama ng ulam pero di siya kakain its either papa deliver sya magluluto sya ng kanya tas wala di nya talaga kakainin.
Di rin siya nag rerefill ng tubig sa ref kaya pagka walang malamig all day di siya iinom ng tubig. Ganon siya katamad at ang pinaka malala IIWANAN NIYA YUNG PITCHER SA REF KAHIT WALANG LAMAN.

Hi all, In my main, weekly campaign, I've been running into a bit of a problem. Back when I started, I wasn't huge into roleplay at the table and felt pretty neutral about it. Out of that, I created a character months ago with a minimal backstory and a few driving goals, just to appease the DM's request for a backstory and some connections to the world. However, over the last few months I've been loving the idea of roleplay more and more, and I've realized I'm sort of in a tough spot. I'm left playing a vaguely-concealed version of myself with little personality or defined traits.
I want to roleplay more, but obviously it'd be weird to suddenly take a relatively neutral character and give her a set of guiding principles months after the fact that she'd probably already broken throughout the campaign. I want to play someone with a defined character and ambitions, but I just don't want the table to feel like I'm breaking character by doing so since it'd go against everything I've done with her up to this point.
The obvious solution would be to talk with the DM and swap characters, but I promised I'd try to wrap up her story before swapping characters and her being around is important for a little side thing we'll be doing during downtime in the coming weeks. I want to hold myself to the promise I made to my DM, and I don't want to leave her story unresolved, but I also want to play someone with more flavor. Should I just bite the bullet and change her personality now, or do something else? Any advice would be appreciated, thank you.

My sister and I are very close.
I’ve worked hard and have been very lucky. I doing pretty well financially. I provide for my sister. This has caused a lot of friction with some of her exes.
One guy was upset my sister was never impressed with the gifts he got her. He would get her expensive jewelry and bags, and of course my sister would express gratitude and be thankful. When she went out with him she would make an effort to wear it or bring the bag, but outside of that she never used it because it wasnt to her taste. She did however use the bags that I got her all the time, because I know her and got things she loves. Apparently the guy got upset over her reaction because she wasn’t over the moon happy with his gifts and fawning over him. He even got mad at me because he said I “spoiled” her so now she’s “ungrateful”. I just care enough to get her things she likes. He just got her “popular” or “trending” things, and thought that just because it’s expensive it’s enough. They didn’t last long.
Another time she came to me out of the blue to get out of the lease she had with her BF at the time. Of course I did it for her, no questions asked. Of course the BF didn’t like that. He said that I was “enabling” her to make “bad decisions” and if I didn’t “stick my nose in” she would be more incentivized to talk and work with it out with him. Basically he was counting on her not having the money to move out and so being basically forced to stay. If he really wanted her to stay it should be on the strength of his character and not because she can’t afford to leave.
And then recently, my sister was talking to the guy she’s currently seeing about having a “go bag” ready just in case. She thinks it’s not a bad idea. The guy disagrees because he thinks it just means you’re not fully committed to the relationship. Then he made a comment that he likes that she doesn’t have one. She pointed out that she doesn’t need one because she has me. The only important document she has in her house is her passport, and it’s not that difficult to replace. She could walk out at any time with nothing on her and have a nicer place to stay and clothes to wear and food to eat. He admitted he never thought of it that way and was uncomfortable.
I’m glad that I am privileged enough to be able to be that sort of safety net for her, so that she’s never impressed by a guy’s money or financial status. She’ll never be financially dependent on any guy. While that makes a lot of guys uncomfortable, I’m happy.

“I’m Still Here”
TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide attempt
“So, it kind of feels like you aren’t good at anything right now and you couldn’t even take your own life successfully?” the well meaning resident psychologist said.
Right. Her comment still stung. I never thought this would be me. Yet, when I looked in the mirror — it WASN’T me. I distinctly remember feeling like a stranger was looking back whenever I did so.
I had felt a depression unlike any I had ever experienced for about 2 months. I had lost a lot of weight suddenly. I was having panic attacks at night for the first time where I couldn’t sleep. I began to walk at night to try to tire myself out to no avail. Sleep is important. Not getting it becomes scary quickly.
A recurring thought kept going through my head — “You shouldn’t be here.” I tried to shake it, but it kept coming back. For some reason, at that time in my life, asking for help with this felt like I was admitting I had a serious problem and felt like a huge burden. It felt better in my mind to disappear. Many would say this was selfish, but it was truly what I believed would help myself and others. My thought processes were not healthy at that time.
Yet, I wasn’t successful. I felt brief relief once I realized this, but wouldn’t truly be grateful to be alive until months later. Then the huge guilt and consequences of my actions hit. I was first treated for my body — my physical injuries. In the hospital there were so many nurses and nurses aids who told me I should be grateful. What did I have to be unhappy about? I didn’t know. It was just my brain. My brain felt broken.
Then I was moved to the inpatient mental health unit. Images I will forever remember — my blurred reflection in the mirror that was purposefully warped due to being unbreakable for safety purposes. My now husband (and then boyfriend)’s face when he had to say goodbye and leave me there. There was mayhem ensuing in terms of people’s outbursts and appearances. “You don’t belong here,” his face said. But I knew I did at that time. The nurse in the inpatient unit listening and singing along to”Crazy,” by Patsy Cline when I first arrived.
I admittedly was still trying to think of ways to disappear the whole week I was there. Bright spots were the small rushes of dopamine I would get from eating or drinking sugar at that time. The unlimited juice and occasional ice cream. I was still losing weight and barely eating anything else. It was just hard to eat anything besides sugar. It felt painful.
There were a lot of characters in the inpatient ward. One that stood out was a man in his 60s — stout with a beard, who was there after starting a fire. He loved fire. He told me he saw a fire inside me and not to lose it. Was that my anxiety he was sensing? It felt like a constant burning in my stomach. Or maybe he saw fire everywhere.
My roommate. A 20-something girl with blonde hair and a round face who shared my name. She immediately hated me. “Those scars are going to me a constant reminder of your suffering,” she said with a smirk, looking at my arms. A nurse laughed, “Geez! Don’t say that!”
“I know,” I replied flatly. I did know. I planned to get tattoos to try to cover them up — if I made it out of this place and this state of mind.
She accused me of stealing things like her toothpaste. I was never one to steal anything from anyone, but began to feel so out of it, that I questioned if I did. Could I trust myself anymore? My perception of reality?
Months later, when talking to a friend who struggles with bipolar disorder, I would learn that a survival technique when in this situation is to classify just how crazy other people there are — then if you’re able to, classify yourself. You may be doing better than you think or you may not be able to accurately gauge. Was I as crazy as my roommate?
Other memories that stand out were sitting in a room and speaking with a team of psychologists with clipboards about myself and what recent events ensued. Getting a sense that most of them either didn’t want to be there or were checked out — two of them were texting — each other? No, that was paranoid of me. I began to overanalyze a lot of people’s behaviors and feel they were about me.
One psychologist I worked with in a group therapy setting said I had a very good perception and sense of others — that I was good at reading people. Shit. Were all my paranoid thoughts actually accurate? I couldn’t be sure.
Sometimes things said just felt insensitive. “Why are you blinking so much? Is that something you’ve always done?” one psychologist asked. Another, “Do you think you could have a learning disability?” I had just left my career teaching children with learning disabilities, so this felt especially hard to hear, yet very plausible.
I was assessed for various things and put on three different meds without much discussion. I didn’t argue, because who was I to know what I needed at that point? I also didn’t care much at the time. KLONOPIN is one I don’t think hardly anyone should take and made my paranoia worse.
I was in a fog most of the time. Whether drug induced or how I would be anyway, I’m not sure. I was deemed safe to send home with my parents. I felt so incredibly guilty and nervous to face them regularly. I will never shake the guilt I feel about that period of my life and damage it inflicted on my family and partner. I also didn’t yet feel safe at that point or trust myself, but I didn’t want to tell anyone that and be stuck in the inpatient unit longer.
Sleeping continued to be hard. During the day I felt the fire inside my belly that the pyromaniac in the hospital noticed. I felt I needed to get energy out and couldn’t sit still. I walked outside. I paced inside. I painted a LOT. Art was one thing that brought me fleeting feelings of joy. Creating pretty things when I felt my ugliest helped me believe there might be some good in me yet.
My kind parents let me paint on their kitchen island nonstop for a while. They eventually started mentioning I needed to get a job. I started temping in between going to group and individual therapy. Temping was its own form of hell and I suspect I’m not alone in those feelings. It did eventually lead me to a job I liked though, helping others with their medical needs.
I eventually got down to one med instead of three. I was hired on at the medical job. I eventually moved out of my parents’ house, and years later, married my extremely patient and supportive partner. I continued to paint. I now have started to write.
I am occasionally able to talk to people in my day job who are struggling mentally and I feel thankful to try to help them in some capacity. To tell them they are not alone. That asking for help is one of the bravest things you can do. That this is not their fault or a choice. Also, that things can get better. I’m not sure when or how — but they can.
If you’ve made it this far — thank you. Next week will be 12 years since this all happened and though I still have to monitor my mental health regularly, I can honestly say I am glad I am he