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Hello! I am seeking advice on the topic of difficulties being vulnerable. I am highly motivated to be vulnerable in moments of active emotion or discomfort, but I find it to be incredibly difficult. I completely panic and cannot communicate like an adult at all. I should note that I am a woman so this isn’t masculinity issues although I was raised with a somewhat masculine attitude but with a lot of extreme expectations related to physical beauty.
For example, my therapist is very good at getting me to a vulnerable place, but then he will then ask me what I am feeling and I can’t go any further than, “I’m upset.” I can’t even seem to get to sad/angry let alone deeper level.
With people I trust a lot, I will say, “I’m crying.” If anything at all. Most people I will pretend I’m not having an emotion. I can’t say the actual feelings, or I don’t want to. So I’m really only communicating feeling to the therapist because I’m being forced. Otherwise I am just saying what I’m doing, not what I’m feeling.
When I’m not emotional, I am ok telling people about bad things that happened, and somewhat ok telling close people about feelings I had in the past.
I have a strong freeze response. I have a habit of being a perfectionist and I know this is all tied to shame and I have a history of a lot of shame feelings. I’m somewhat disconnected from them. I know specifically I feel shame related to sexuality (probably due to hardcore Christian upbringing), but I was also made to feel like everything about me was bad, wrong, and ugly, by my mom and also kids at school. I know it became important to be a “cool girl” like the monologue from Gone Girl. I know my mom was more trying to help me (to be pretty) but the school bullying was malicious of course.
Ok, I look forward to Jungian perspectives on this if anyone can lend their time. Thanks!

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I regret having tossed people aside
I regret letting myself have been taken advantage of leading to mistrust that would cause me to let go of people and give up on them
I regret not having gone through on my word to stay with people I promised I would
I regret that I let go of someone who genuinely wanted me, someone who really cared and wanted me to be hers
I regret how I was a coward who gave up when I should have stood strong and proved her wrong
I regret that I didn't prove you wrong Jess, that I didn't trust you, that I wasn't considerate of you and that I didn't give you the proper care and respect you deserved
I regret how I hurt you by giving up and leaving you like others have done before me
Even worse is that I did the same to my friend group, my best friend of 11 years and recently another woman I was in a LDR with for 2 months
I can never get back the care and compassion you had for me, I can NEVER get YOU back
I can never get my friend group back
I might be able to get my old best friend back, but I doubt it at the same time
I can never get back the person who I recently let go of either
Everyone can see I'm a Viper, everyone can see I am venomous and everyone is scared of me because they know they could get bit
I destroyed the person I used to be, I shed that skin and became a monster because of the abuse I have been through as well as my own rebellious desire
I've hurt everyone who tried to handle me and gain my trust...
And I regret that more than anyone could imagine, the people I bit...
Those who wanted me and who wanted to help me
There are no excuses for me, for my actions
I failed those who cared and I failed myself
I never allowed what I had to be enough for me, I always wanted more
But also, in truth...
I never wanted to lose any of it, I never wanted to lose or let go of anyone...
I never wanted to lose you or give up on YOU Jess
I never wanted to lose or give up on my old best friend either
I never wanted to hurt or bring pain, misery or trauma to anyone who came into my life
Those are the biggest regrets in my life to date
I deserve to feel as hollow and empty as I do
I deserve to bear this pain that I live with day to day
I deserve to live with these regrets weighing down what bits and pieces of a heart I have left
This venom that courses through my veins and soul
This curse that can and will never be lifted, the curse of betrayal and betrayal trauma
I will never have the partner I wish for and desire
A romantic partner to love and be loved by
The comfort of the love, care, and touch of another
I regret giving up on and throwing away everything I had, the future I could have had, and especially the people I had more than I regret anything else.

The chair is beautiful, don’t get me wrong, but after receiving it (oiled Palisander 2100), I find the leather a bit fake/plastic looking. I wanted the smooth look and didn’t like the pebbly samples, but seeing recent pictures here makes me wish I had gone with the Prone or Edelman. It’s hard to make a decision based on samples. Oh well. Still a fantastic chair, but slightly annoyed with myself.

Okay so me F24 my bf M36 So my bf and I have been together about 3 years the first year was a bit rough but I thought we got passed a certain point. He was sweet to me of course they always are. We went on dates travels hung out together I will say he was on a work trip when I met him and ended up working full time where I was then he ended up leaving to go home he has a child F10 so we call and text mostly never comes to visit so after about a 6 months of him being gone I finally decided to come unfortunately his brother had passed at the time of my arrival emotionally he wasn’t there and I completely understand I just tried to be there for him as much as I could even though there are various things I started to become uncomfortable with like he has 2 men 32 & 29 who live with him and don’t pay rent and they are dirty and I clean as much as can but it’ll still end up looking fucking gross and I’ll talk to him about it and he’ll say he will say something but it still looks the same I don’t even clean anymore they are his family but they have no intentions on leaving and I’m not used to that type of thing we lived together before and he knows that I don’t enjoy having company or being around people constantly but I can’t say much because this isn’t my home but on top of that he has more male and female company EVERYDAY I started to realize we never actually communicate or hang out because he’s always with his company and I just feel like I’m kinda there. Now I do attempt to communicate with him about this time after time and it doesn’t really get me anywhere it just seems to push him more away from me. now i realize when I do talk he legit barley replies he’ll talk to me and converse but if I bring up a topic or speak on something he seems to have no interest but he talks to his friends he very enthusiastic and entertained by them I can tell him something cool I learned or something and he’ll be completely uninterested but if his friends / family says the same thing I said he is intune. It hurts me so bad and I even hang with his kid most of the time we go to the beach, got get snacks , I take his nephews to do things jump park ect and he NEVER COMES and I do realize his brother passed and I’m not trying to be awful but I feel unappreciated and there’s been times he’s said things to me attempting to make feel insecure about myself infront of his friends. He does help me in so many ways but I hate this. We don’t kiss we barley hug we don’t take pictures together or have much intimacy at all especially not anymore. I used to tell myself he’s that person but honestly on his Facebook just right before he met me he has pictures up of other women kissing and all . We have sex and it’s good but it’s no where near as much as we used to and he doesn’t last very long. He pinches me and does shit I don’t like (attempting to flirt) but if I ask him to do anything rub my back hold my hand anything he doesn’t want to.sometimes he acts like he cares but it’s less and less everyday. I’m 20 hours away from my family and it’s just like I came here for nothing. I hate to seem like I’m tripping because if I bring up any of my concerns he makes me feel like it’s for nothing and he has other shit going on and I’m doing to much. Just weird that he would bring me here to miss treat me but anytime I say like if you wanna break up we can he says nothing and then will be sweet momentarily. I just want to know if I need to like wait it out or figure something else? Does this get better ? Is it because of the loss idk what is going on with us and we sleep next to eachother everynight.

-Seeing Red— -by Rosen Dae (aka Me <3)
The red I was seeing was strong enough to blind me, Cover my ears, And block out the life around me.
The red I was seeing was strong enough to End the world, My world, And my families world.
The red I was seeing was strong enough to Kill me, Only me, And I probably deserve it.
The red I was seeing was strong enough to make me believe I'm better off gone, Dead, Or just never born.
The red I was seeing was strong enough to Tear me up inside, And outside, Or it made me think that.
The red I was seeing was not a lie, yet also not the truth, For as it faded away, The red I was seeing turned pink.
The red I was seeing was real, but maybe it wasn't red, Maybe it was blue, Or black, Or purple, Or green.
The red I was seeing was guarded by words, It was never red, It was never my fault, The red I was seeing was not red it was a rainbow.
notes I wrote this poem about how my entire life I was told I had anger issues and to stop being dramatic. Because of that I grew up thinking emotions were a sin and that if I had the slightest twinge of anger I was a monster. But I was ever wrong And I want you to know that your emotions are valid and you should embrace them, not push them away. If you bottle them up, you might just start 'seeing red’ :)

This is a really tough one, so please try not to judge. I know that what I did was wrong and I’m not trying to make any excuses. Here is goes:
I’ve had a rough few weeks lately. A little over a week ago my boyfriend of almost 8 1/2 years broke up with me. He had gone through my phone after I gave him the password earlier in the day while I was sleeping and found out I had been cheating on him. I’m not sure what all he went through on my phone but I know he saw my messages where I was flirting with a few other men including a guy he know that I told him not to worry about. I haven’t actually done anything with these guys just let them flirt with me and talk me up, sent a few nudes and soaked up the compliments. I know. Terrible. I’m not sure how much background I should give but my now ex boyfriend (M 22) and me (F 22) have been having issues since about our 7 year mark. Nothing crazy but I started getting the itch and feeling curious about being with others and going out but he is a homebody and doesn’t drink or anything. We talked things out and went to therapy and tried to make things work. I told him to start going to the gym and working on himself (he has depression pretty bad) or we would have to separate for the best. He started working on things but then he ended up in the hospital because our school was concerned and advised him to seek medical help for worry of suicide. I was by his side the whole time and had to miss school and work the next day. He then told me he wasn’t working on himself for him but for me and he in fact wasn’t truly working on himself at all just putting on a happy face and hiding it from me. I stopped talking to any guys during this time to focus on him. And we started doing really good the sex started getting better and we were happy again. He has always not trusted me and has been very insecure. He’s shorter than me and is below average in size and has said he’s insecure about it although it never bothered me. He showed up up at school late one night having a panic attack about me cheating on him (I wasn’t at this time and had never done it before, absolutely nothing i was extremely committed and monogamous) and it really hurt me that no matter what I did. He didn’t trust me. I couldn’t make any guy friends or go anywhere. I felt trapped. Also important to mention that one of my biggest problems wasn’t the sex or anything it was that I was practically his mom. I did his taxes, any and all paperwork, planned all the dates and financed them, I did his fafsa’s, his school paperwork, applications, resumes, and a lot of his homework. I wrote several essays he didn’t start until finals week and got him the grade he needed to pass the class. He was skipping classes and work and not telling me. He was also failing classes as well. What’s terrible about this is that I was using my unused loan money to pay for his school (under the expectation I’d get it back when he got a job) I tried so hard to help him with school and it barely got him by. So at this point he owes me over 20,000 most of which in loans I have to pay back. And has to complete 2 final courses to get his diploma by the end of the summer or he’ll have to come back. He hasn’t gotten a job yet (we work very limited hours at our school getting paid once a month at minimum wage) despite having been “looking” for the last 6 months (he’s an IT major). Anyways, fast forward to the night before he broke up with me: He went to my brother talked about it , called my best friend talk to her about it, didn’t sleep all night and waited until later in the day to break up with me while I was at work. He didn’t want discuss anything and we haven’t talked about any of it since. After I admitted I was feeling like Kms he went to my family and told them a lot of details. It really pissed me off and now my best friend won’t talk to me, which makes things a lot worse. Yes, to add one more important detail he has had a very easy life has been coddled and taken care of, and hasn’t had any tragedy in his life. I’ve been through a lot and on top of dealing with his depression. I have to deal with my brother and dad’s depression. Where I’m constantly talking my dad off the ledge and trying to keep him together and employed so he doesn’t lose the house. im emotionally and physically exhausted and I’ve had to be the mom to my brother dad and boyfriend for years. I was balancing this and full-time student and worker so I barely had enough time to focus on my own mental health and problems and never properly got to deal with my mom who committed suicide a little over a year ago in my old room. This isn’t meant to be a sad story and I don’t want anyone to feel bad for me but it kind of feels like I’ve been through a lot and had no one there for me where now he’s the victim because I fucked up.
I want to hear opinions and maybe advice on my situation to help me navigate my future and not lose all hope?

Im really bored these days 😭😭 so I imagine the song « Love ain’t it » sang by Red, Queen of Hearts, Chloe and Cinderella
The song takes place in two parallel settings. Red and the Queen of Hearts are in the heart of Wonderland, in a place full of red, and of queen of hearts pictures. Chloe and Cinderella are in the brigh gardens of Auradon. The two pairs sing separately. Every time, the setting switches from wonderland to Auradon.
Red:
In the shadows of the night, Where dreams twist and turn, I see the pain in your eyes, A heart that's cold and stern.
Queen of Hearts:
You think you know the way, To rule and to command, But love's a weakness, child, You’ll never understand.
Chorus: (Red and the Queen of Hearts)
Red and Queen of Hearts:
Love, ain't it a mystery, A game of hearts we play, We chase it through the history, And watch it fade away. Love, ain't it a story, Of shadows and of light, We fight to write our glory, In the endless night.
Chloe:
In the gardens where we bloom, With dreams that touch the sky, I see the hope in your eyes, A future we can try.
Cinderella:
Once I had a friend so dear, A bond that felt so true, But time and choices made, Turned love to something blue.
Chorus: (Chloe and Cinderella)
Chloe and Cinderella:
Love, ain't it a mystery, A game of hearts we play, We chase it through the history, And watch it fade away. Love, ain't it a story, Of shadows and of light, We fight to write our glory, In the endless night.
Red:
We can change the path we tread, Rewrite the wrongs of old,
Chloe:
Together we'll mend what's broken, With courage, brave and bold.
Queen of Hearts:
Love is for the weak, Power's the way to go,
Cinderella:
Through friendship we will find, The strength to grow and glow.
Red and Queen of Hearts:
Love, ain't it a mystery, A game of hearts we play,
Chloe and Cinderella:
We chase it through the history, And watch it fade away.
Queen of Hearts and Cinderella :
Love, ain't it a story, Of shadows and of light, We fight to write our glory, In the endless night.
Red:
In the end, I'll find my way, Your rules won't make me stay.
Queen of Hearts:
You'll see the truth, my child, In power, love beguiled.
Cinderella:
Love, ain't it...
Chloe:
Love, ain't it...
(At the end, Cinderella and Chloe share a warm hug while Red and the Queen of Heart stand apart.

My boyfriend (M/24) and I (F/23) have been together for 8 months and are about to move in together. While I know it seems like a short time together be together before moving in, we have literally never fought and are the staple “perfect couple” in all our friend groups. He is obsessed with me and shows it in every possible way. However, Ive recently been feeling like things have been off and it’s been stressing me out since we’re moving in together in 2 weeks. He is not one to ever admit when someone is wrong/feeling off even when I directly as him about it. Im not proud to admit it, but I went through his phone while he was in the shower. I found texts of him sending screenshots of girls instagram pictures to his friends (mostly bikini pictures too), found texts of him using racial slurs, and found that he’s actively going through other women’s VSCO accounts and looking at their photos. This is NOT the man I thought I was dating. I am so heartbroken that he’s actively seeking out satisfaction in other girls photos. We have a pretty active sex life too so it’s not like he’s not getting satisfied in other ways. I’ve also never known him to use such horrible language. I feel like I don’t even know who he is anymore and I’m about to move in with him. I truly don’t know what to do. Do I confront him about the photos and texts? Do I leave it be and just keep an eye on it? What is the best course of action here? PS, I genuinely don’t care about the judgment of me going through his phone. I have severe trust issues after my previous two boyfriends cheated on me (after “seemingly” being obsessed with me just like my current boyfriend). One of my exes I found out was cheating on me bc I went through his phone and saw his exes nudes. So yeah. I’m gonna look through a phone. Sorry not sorry. Save the judgment. Help me with some advice. TIA.

I didn’t realize something was wrong with me until I started College at 18 (homeschooled my whole life because of family stuff). I never developed any coping mechanisms because I always did my work at the last minute and for test I would cram the night before. That was normal to me. I didn’t even study for my college entrance exam because I struggled with studying. I would get task paralysis and my mind would just go blank. I somehow scored high enough to not take any remedial classes.
I cruised through freshman and sophomore year of college until junior and senior year. My gpa started dropping because cramming was not working anymore. I graduated last year and now getting my masters and writing a thesis. I am still struggling even though I am on meds now.
I’m not sure how my mom never noticed something was up. I was with her 24/7.
My mother made sure to I read a lot. She would test me on books, but I did terrible because I would just read the words but never process it. We would spend hours going back over lessons plans that I was taught before because I would forget how to do it. Math was the worse, she was going to hold me back a grade.
I had many crying sessions and tear stained homework . I used to hit myself because I couldn’t understand simple stuff. She would ask me what was wrong with me and yell at me. I hated it.
I guess because I wasn’t the jumping and running around type? I never did that because I knew I would get in trouble for acting out.
Anytime I was faced with homework that was difficult I would day dream and draw pictures, chew on my pencils, paper or eraser ( realize I was stimming now). I would get yelled at for staring off into space. Always told I move too slow, I need to work harder, I need to listen more and follow directions (terrible at verbal directions). Extremely disorganized room always a mess. I didn’t realize I used to mouth peoples words when I was little either would get yelled at for that.
Also sensitivity to smells ( any time I smelled something I didn’t like I would gag), clothing: I hated turtle necks, scarves, hats, the puffer coats (the noise sends me into a completely rage) and when the line of my socks wouldn’t match up. Getting my hair done eugh the worse.
I’m glad I was able to figure out what was wrong , I thought I was stupid my whole life. I still hold that feeling sometimes.
Anyone experience the same?

The first time I felt the pain was in Nov'23 when I woke after a full night's sleep on the rocking chair with my 1-year-old on the left side of my body. The pain wasn't bad; I thought nothing of it. I went golfing, and probably 13th holes down, I felt a pain, and I knew something was wrong. I powered through the round, but the next day was hell. I couldn't manage to get up from my bed, and I couldn't believe how weak my leg felt. I am fairly athletic and have played sports my whole life, so being unable to get up from bed was embarrassing and such an ego hit. i took time off work because I couldn't sit and work for a long time. I went to the doctor, who gave me painkillers and said it was most likely sciatica pain and could go away soon if I gave it rest. The pain lingered for a few weeks, so I finally got an MRI, which confirmed I had an L5/S1 1cm disc protrusion on my left side. I was prescribed strong painkillers, which didn't have much effect on the pain. I am a stomach sleeper, so I had to put a lot of pillows on my stomach to get any sleep. I went through some PT, but it was useless, to say the least since the therapist felt like they were not sure exactly how to make me feel better. The pain improved from an 8-9 to 5-6 till March'24
One day, I woke up pain-free. I couldn't believe it. After a long time, I slept well through the night and woke up with little to no pain. I could only feel some tingling in my little toe, but other than that, the pain was gone. I was over the moon and started to feel normal again. After a couple of days after going to the golf range, I decided I was ready for a full 18-hole round again. BIG MISTAKE!! I remember swinging my driver on the 10th hole, and the dread and pain shot through my leg like I never felt before. I had quit right there and had to go back home. I was probably worse than I had started; the pain definitely was. I had to take another two days off work because of my stupid mistakes.
I learned my lesson and decided to go through full recovery before trying golf again ( I cannot stop playing golf; at least I won't quit that quickly). I do the regular stuff and even play with my son. I have now been giving my back and leg good rest and doing some exercises(I will add later), and my pain has subsided to almost level 1. I can do everything and even play with my son without worrying. Here are some things that I have been doing that have helped me tremendously in my recovery

• Get good sleep. Managing it somehow(painkillers, hot pad, etc) helped, but I cannot tell you how much better I felt every time I got good sleep.
• Learn to sleep on a hard surface. At least till you fully recover, sleep on a yoga mat, as it helps tremendously to keep your spine in a neutral and natural position. It will suck for a day or two but it gets better.
• Drink plenty of water.
• Reduce weight. Period. Do whatever it takes to take that pressure off that disc. Even if you are lean, cut more weight.
• Listen to your body. It will give you signs of what it likes and what it doesn't. Don't do anything it doesn't like, even if a YouTube or PT tells you to. Everybody and disc herniation is unique. The disc can protrude and press on the nerve at different angles; not even an MRI can tell you exactly how it is oriented. For example, doing Cobra gave me more pain than I relived, so I stopped doing it. Squatting helps me tremendously. So, the first thing I do is squat for 30 minutes or more when I wake up. It has helped me tremendously. So listen to your body; it will guide you.
• Be positive. Easier said than done, but focussing on recovery rather than dwelling on the pain. You have a choice to make. Make the right one! Don't be too hard on yourself. Sciatica pain changes you as a person. You are a shell of your former self, and recovery can feel like forever. But let's give this fucking pain a fight, I promise you will get better.

I still need to work on being 100% there, but I am 90% there (after 7 months), so here's hoping I can feel like my old self again and go out playing and doing things I love, soon.
Cheers!

Hallo, I'm a new creator, and after receiving some comments regarding subtitles, I tried to mess around with that menu just to see how it works, just to seeee
So I added the wrong language as the video subtitle, freaked out and then realized how to change the video language back to mine (pt-br)
But now CC stopped working for those videos I messed around with.
update:
I then changed the language to "irrelevant", for the subtitle count to go to 0 and be like the videos that still have a working CC, but it didn't work
update 2:
I activated subtitles for a random private video to see what happens and the automatic one of my language appears there, but not if I re-activate it in those videos I messed around witht he subtitle, so i guess it's just... gone?
How do I fix this? Any idea?

There is SO much through those horrible 11 years. But the last 2.5 have truly been the hardest, mostly because I am just EXHAUSTED to the point....I don't even usually bother fighting against a single thing/become comfortable as the door matt.
What did me in, is he owes my grandmother $3k for HIS HALF of unpaid debt to her. They are currently (under my dumb stupid blessing) are letting him rent what is my family's home they are leaving to me when they die for a whooping $600 a month. S I X HUNDRED. 3br 1bth huge fenced back and front yard. 3 porches. Huge attached garage. $600.......
He knew it was only a 6 month agreement. And that either I would be retaking my home, or the rent would be raised to $1000, as i would be taking $600 of it monthly and planned to use it towards a rental of my own. (My family and i truly helped him willingly, so he at least had 6 months to get on his feet.) I on the other hand, was fortunate enough to have my recently divorced bff of 25 years with an open room in her home, badabingbadaboom.
Truthfully, I was basically forced out of my house before I had a say. It wasn't my first choice to leave every bit if furniture/my daughter's bedroom set/ect...THAT I ALONE have purchased throughout the years, to my floppy meatsuit of an ex manchild who's idea of "hard labor" is mowing a lawn..but it was my ONLY choice. (That's another story for another day, lol. This one's long enough)
Anyways the 6 months is up, and it had come time to go forward with what was already previously understood as to happen...I should have seen it coming, given that he suddenly started to attempt far more communication (our child being his perfect excuse to disguise what was really going on....
.....and then THIS MF-ER...MAN.... My grandmother tells me on my way out after stopping by for breakfast, that my ex had told her unless they lower the rent for him, he won't pay the 3k debt from TWO years ago now (he promised as soon as he got his tax return, he would pay it) but now he'd need it to find another rental property......this 33 year old man....telling this to My sweet and kind grandmother, who is the a matriarch to my family mind you, she has basically RAISED this 33 year old brat since his infanthood (since he was 22 years old!). ~His parents were 2.5 hours away, his dad is an attorney in some podunk hillbilly town, and his mom is all the worst parts of the gossipy church women put together. They only cared about his younger sister and her two children, lol. So.~
I was floored. I told her something along the lines of "uhhhh I'm pretty sure that's a form of extortion????"
Anyways. I slept on it, and woke up to choosing violence. By violence, I mean I messaged the only thing I knew he "CARED" about, at least for now, until there's nothing for him to gain. I just wanted to make sure he knew where i stood really, and how careful he should tread with me now after hearing that.
...this girl was the other former bff of MY bff. She HATED me for at least a decade. "Frienmies" if yiu will. I had been told SEVERAL times around 6 years ago (ish) that she told our mutual bestie how she was going to "fuck my boyfriend, and get him to leave me. That he was her dream guy" LOFL ...and had witnessed/heard her myself FLIRT with him heavy and totally disrespectfully in front of me. Up until the day they boinked in secret, this girl followed all my social accounts religiously for allll these years....
You can imagine, I had some STUFF I was dying to let out, but I will say, I refrained from being an absolute c-word. I basically in the most passive aggressive tone, EXPOSED what my exs current game was with my family home and the mistreatment of my grandparents.
I told her to ask about his stomach illness he faked so well, had me so SO sympathetic towards him that I asked if he would just instead making basically double pay for the summer months (school district employee) and not taking off....to take off, an I would just work ot graves or whatever extra I could/did...and then how the DAY BEFORE our child started 1st grade, he pulled the rug out from under by creating a literally pointless 4 hours screaming match.....and leaving me, the house, the dogs, and the bills high and dry. No tummy ache to ever come about again...
Or how he had a disguised app with nudes and texts from women he cheated on me with or had fucked when we were in a slump/split. And how she's also in it.
And to ask the father of the year what his 7 year olds doctors name was...we used her since the 2day infant visit lol.
Or to ask him who's been the provider for our child's education since 3 years of age. Her insurance. Dental. Ect. (Hint: it's not him).
I asked her to ask him why he told me that she "owned her own home and was so independent and worked so hard to be where she is now" as a means to rub salt in my wounds while he forced me out if my/OUR old home in the worst mental depression I'd ever dealt with.....when that is not true because she cheated on her husband with multiple men while he was deployed and lost her Marital home in divorce. She lives with her parents and two younger brothers.
Why he was still.texting me and sending me his unsolicited or answered selfies to me.
I wrapped it up with my point of the information being that for my exs sake, I pleaded she encouraged him to don"the right thing".
I mean....I knew he was putting on a dog and pony show for her from day 1. He's a fraud, I learned that over and over. He will lie/manipulative/step on whatever and whoever without a care in the world, all while making whoever they choose to feel as if they're to blame if any sort of conflicts or grievance against them rose.
So I knew in my exes false reality he was painting for this chick was no doubt of how amazing a father he is, and how shitty of a parent and person I am in turn....
side note: ffs he even lowered his own vocal tone forcefully when j met him 11 yrs ago to disguise his godawful nasal screach
WITHIN 10 DAYS. NOT EVEN 2 WEEKS Of me sending her all this...
First text - him asking for our childs doctor's information for the first time in 5 years. Evidently they had a sore throat in the middle of the night. (Mmmmok)
4 days later - he is asking if we could discuss getting her needed dental work finished up as we've put it off for a while (he literally never cared the first phase lol)
That same day - he is pandering sympathy and attention because he's suddenly having stomach attacks again and he's got a colonoscopy scheduled and blahblahblahhhhhh.
I mean....literally the list of the shit I exposed directly goes on and on.....and he made sure to cover up each one down the line. Like. If that isn't "master manipulation".....what is? There has got to be a word for this oh so insanely predictable behavior lol.
Certainly. I'd hope the chick truly SEES what is happening? That the dude is literally whether subconsciously/uncontrollably covering up his actions because he knows deep down, what was done was wrong all around...or just creating and perfecting his own stage right before our eyes? Lol RIGHT?!
I just have to laugh at it all now. It's just a RL sitcom of disaster at this point. 😑

i know the title probably makes me look like an ass, and it might, but it’s the truth.
i’m finishing my first year in college this year at a community college roughly 1300 miles away from my family. the decision to attend a college so far away was impulsive. i have my father who lives in the same state, but our relationship is rocky, since i only have met him a few times in my life.
i’ve gone through a lot in my life, having come from an emotionally and physically abusive household, and my hope was that things would be better here. my relationship with all of my family back home is complex and complicated. we were very poor and still are, and my father only barely gets by with his 4 other children and wife.
When i moved here my homesickness hit me harder than i ever imagined. it was a miracle i passed any of my classes. i worked so hard to make it to present day, and i’m still struggling so much.
I hear a lot from people back home and how great their lives are, with parents paying their rent and buying them groceries, hell, even having a good relationship with their parents. some of my friends are still living at home, taking a break from school, not having a job to worry about or how they will pay for next months rent. it makes me so envious. like there’s something i did wrong that landed me in this position
idk.

Okay so me F24 my bf M36 So my bf and I have been together about 3 years the first year was a bit rough but I thought we got passed a certain point. He was sweet to me of course they always are. We went on dates travels hung out together I will say he was on a work trip when I met him and ended up working full time where I was then he ended up leaving to go home he has a child F10 so we call and text mostly never comes to visit so after about a 6 months of him being gone I finally decided to come unfortunately his brother had passed at the time of my arrival emotionally he wasn’t there and I completely understand I just tried to be there for him as much as I could even though there are various things I started to become uncomfortable with like he has 2 men 32 & 29 who live with him and don’t pay rent and they are dirty and I clean as much as can but it’ll still end up looking fucking gross and I’ll talk to him about it and he’ll say he will say something but it still looks the same I don’t even clean anymore they are his family but they have no intentions on leaving and I’m not used to that type of thing we lived together before and he knows that I don’t enjoy having company or being around people constantly but I can’t say much because this isn’t my home but on top of that he has more male and female company EVERYDAY I started to realize we never actually communicate or hang out because he’s always with his company and I just feel like I’m kinda there. Now I do attempt to communicate with him about this time after time and it doesn’t really get me anywhere it just seems to push him more away from me. now i realize when I do talk he legit barley replies he’ll talk to me and converse but if I bring up a topic or speak on something he seems to have no interest but he talks to his friends he very enthusiastic and entertained by them I can tell him something cool I learned or something and he’ll be completely uninterested but if his friends / family says the same thing I said he is intune. It hurts me so bad and I even hang with his kid most of the time we go to the beach, got get snacks , I take his nephews to do things jump park ect and he NEVER COMES and I do realize his brother passed and I’m not trying to be awful but I feel unappreciated and there’s been times he’s said things to me attempting to make feel insecure about myself infront of his friends. He does help me in so many ways but I hate this. We don’t kiss we barley hug we don’t take pictures together or have much intimacy at all especially not anymore. I used to tell myself he’s that person but honestly on his Facebook just right before he met me he has pictures up of other women kissing and all . We have sex and it’s good but it’s no where near as much as we used to and he doesn’t last very long. He pinches me and does shit I don’t like (attempting to flirt) but if I ask him to do anything rub my back hold my hand anything he doesn’t want to.sometimes he acts like he cares but it’s less and less everyday. I’m 20 hours away from my family and it’s just like I came here for nothing. I hate to seem like I’m tripping because if I bring up any of my concerns he makes me feel like it’s for nothing and he has other shit going on and I’m doing to much. Just weird that he would bring me here to miss treat me but anytime I say like if you wanna break up we can he says nothing and then will be sweet momentarily. I just want to know if I need to like wait it out or figure something else? Does this get better ? Is it because of the loss idk what is going on with us and we sleep next to eachother everynight.

I have a camera with a 1/2.5" (5.744 x 4.308 mm) and in the camera specs it claims it has a 38 - 114mm focal length. When I copy these specs to a digital camera in a 3d vfx program it is zoomed in way to far and completely wrong. Same thing goes for smartphone cameras and any small format where the focal length claims to be around standard sizes but mathamatically makes absolutely no sense.
For example a 50mm full frame picture is equal to a 8.6mm 1/2.5". In real life the 1/2.5" is at roughly 38mm.
Is there a scaling equation or some sort of secondary lense within these cameras that normalise the image to fit the sensor?