My 7 year old Bernese Mountain Dog (Male/118lb) has been through a lot the last couple of weeks. It all started when we found a lump on his left hind leg (kneecap area). Got a needle aspirate of it, came back inconclusive. Then got a punch biopsy done of the lump. Two days after the biopsy he started to not eat regularly, but still did a tiny bit on his own when given something tasty. Then that turned into not eating at all, and he was really out of it. Took him to the ER last monday (5/13) and he was diagnosed with Anaplasmosis, and anemia. His platelets were also very low. He was set on a 30-day course of Doxycycline (550mg /day). The next day the biopsy came back as cancer. The exact type is unknown yet, but it's listed as a differential diagnosis of histiocytic sarcoma, large cell lymphoma, and poorly differentiated round cell tumor. Further tests have been sent out and hopefully come back soon. We also had chest x-rays done at our vet after this news, and they saw nothing in terms of the cancer spreading to his chest. His bloodwork was also done, I'll post it down below, but that was on Wed (5/15). The Doxy has been making him extremely nauseous, and he will not eat a single thing on his own. We've tried everything. Boiled chicken, steak, wet food, dry food, snacks, bacon, even McDonalds... he wants none of it. We've also given him cerenia, and tried two different appetite stimulants (Entyce / Mirtazapine) and none of that works. He seems disgusted by the smell of any food. We also give him carafate 1 hour before the doxy to help with the nausea. We also switched his Doxy dose to twice daily rather than all at once. Our local vet advised this, although the ER said to do once daily (This has made him much less nauseous after taking it, but still not eating). He has also seemingly had a fever since last Monday. It has slightly come down, but has been at a steady 103.5 for the last few days, only once dipping below 103, but then it went back up the next morning (could be our at home thermometer?). I feel he is stuck in an endless loop. Needs the Doxy to cure the anaplasmosis, but will not eat on it, and isn't getting better. He's drinking water just fine, and using the bathroom fine. We've been forced to syringe feed him everynight in the fear of him getting no food, plus he needs some food with the Doxy. We've been making a puree of different foods, and tonight gave him an 'Under the weather - high calorie gel' in hopes to get some needed nutrients in him.
We keep hoping that tomorrow is the day he finally eats. Today he did show improvement by at least putting a cookie in his mouth and bit down, but let the pieces fall out of his mouth. We are really at a loss here, and would love some tips, pointers or just some advice. He has an oncology appointment on Tuesday, so maybe that will give some answers/allow him to be on a steroid which would maybe make him want to eat. Any help here would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.
Blood work (Only what was out of range)

• RBC - 4.93 M/uL (low)
  
• Hematocrit - 34.7% (low)
  
• Hemoglobin - 12.2 g/dL (low)
  
• Reticulocytes - 121.5 K/uL (high)
  
• WBC - 26.94 K/uL (high)
  
• Neutrophils - 16.70 K/uL (high)
  
• Lymphocytes - 5.72 K/uL (high)
  
• Monocytes - 4.34 K/uL (very high)
  
• Platelets - 32 K/uL (low) - did rise from 24 (ER visit)
  
• PDW - 25.8 fL (high)
  

Everything in chemistry was in range.

Hi everyone. I'm on week two of kit 2 and just upped my Naltrexone dose on Thursday. Friday was fine, but I woke up Saturday with the worst cold/flu symptoms:
Chills, fever, bad headaches, exhaustion and a slightly phlegmy cough. Today isn't much better, and I've basically been in bad all weekend. My husband and kids have no symptoms (yet) but there was a cold two of them had last week that I didn't seem to get.
I wrote to Hers, but has anyone else experience this? I took a covid test; I was negative. I did have some mild side effects the first week (gastro), but they were manageable. This isn't in the long run. :(
Oh also, no nausea at all, but very diminished desire to eat. I get hungry here and there, but nothing sounds palatable.
TIA

Specifically: blood pressure, blood oxygen levels (via pulse oximeter), and temperature.
I had emergency surgery for a ruptured ectopic pregnancy on Tuesday (my second time experiencing this) and was discharged the same day with slightly lower than ideal hemaglobin and hematocrit levels. The first day after surgery I felt sore and it was hard to move without pain but I was eating and felt mostly similar to the first time I went thru this. The second day I was a lot more fatigued and slept most of the day but chalked it up to the physical and emotional toll of surgery + pain meds. That evening I noticed my blood pressure was marginally low and I had a slight temperature (100.3°). We called the ER to ask if this was okay and they said I was probably running hot from being wrapped in two many blankets for too long and fatigued from surgery. Overnight I developed a wet sounding but otherwise dry cough and the next day was intensely tired and dizzy with a pounding headache. It was at that point we thought to check my blood oxygen using a pulse oximeter and found it to be in the 70s (anything below lower 90s is cause for concern).
Long story short: Ended up back in the ER in critical condition bc my blood levels had never bounced back after surgery and ended up needing three units of blood transfused and was diagnosed with pulmonary edema (hence the cough) and acute respiratory failure, among other things. I was just released home this afternoon.
This is obviously an extreme case but it was so easy to chalk up how I felt to the strain of surgery and taking vitals at home saved my life so if for no other reason than peace of mind I highly recommend having the items to do so available at home and checking in if anything feels off.
I’m a hugely paranoid person about this sort of thing so the fact that I still got so close to the edge has been severely traumatizing and I’m still not 100% out of the woods as I am high risk for sepsis if the pneumonia I developed doesn’t resolve itself smoothly w antibiotics and need a ton of follow up etc.

Specifically: blood pressure, blood oxygen levels (via pulse oximeter), and temperature.
I (30f) had emergency surgery for a ruptured ectopic pregnancy on Tuesday (my second time experiencing this) and was discharged the same day with slightly lower than ideal hemaglobin and hematocrit levels. The first day after surgery I felt sore and it was hard to move without pain but I was eating and felt mostly similar to the first time I went thru this. The second day I was a lot more fatigued and slept most of the day but chalked it up to the physical and emotional toll of surgery + pain meds. That evening I noticed my blood pressure was marginally low and I had a slight temperature (100.3°). We called the ER to ask if this was okay and they said I was probably running hot from being wrapped in two many blankets for too long and fatigued from surgery. Overnight I developed a wet sounding but otherwise dry cough and the next day was intensely tired and dizzy with a pounding headache. It was at that point we thought to check my blood oxygen using a pulse oximeter and found it to be in the 70s (anything below lower 90s is cause for concern).
Long story short: Ended up back in the ER in critical condition bc my blood levels had never bounced back after surgery and ended up needing three units of blood transfused and was diagnosed with pulmonary edema (hence the cough) and acute respiratory failure, among other things. I was just released home this afternoon.
This is obviously an extreme case but it was so easy to chalk up how I felt to the strain of surgery and taking vitals at home saved my life so if for no other reason than peace of mind I highly recommend having the items to do so available at home and checking in if anything feels off.
I’m a hugely paranoid person about this sort of thing so the fact that I still got so close to the edge has been severely traumatizing and I’m still not 100% out of the woods as I am high risk for sepsis if the pneumonia I developed doesn’t resolve itself smoothly w antibiotics and need a ton of follow up etc.

I think I hit a new low in my ventures with Weed, yesterday night I took a deep hit of a kart at a movie theater. The kart is 80 percent pure thc sativa hybrid. Feeling the tightness in my throat from the weed I held in my cough to Try not to attract attention.
I could feel my muscles relax for a second then suddenly the sounds of the movie expanded and kept growing, I could suddenly feel the sound coming out of the speakers this feeling as very intense almost like that’s all I could hear, my awareness shifted to everything everywhere at once, time slowed way down, my body felt incredibly light like if I was floating I started to loose sense of reality and who I was or where I was. At this point I stare at my girlfriend and just get up and leave my chair, walking out of the theater seemed like an eternity, I could barely feel myself walking or even if I was walking properly at all. As I open the last door I manage to get out. All I was focused on was walking to my car. At this point my heart rate was at an all time high about 200 bpm it felt like. I reach the door to my car and get in. Everything was so intense my thoughts were loud sounds were extremely loud and would acoustically reverb ever so slightly. I tried calming myself down but it just got worse, My heart rate just kept beating fast I thought and felt like I was going to die there was a moment were I thought I died it felt so fake and real at the same time. I ended up praying at this point and finally started to calm down I rolled down the windows but then suddenly my mouth felt extremely dry and thirsty like I’ve never experienced before it was such an intense thirst. So I look down and grab my coffee and drink that which helped for a bit but it just got worse after that. I started feeling nauseous after that so I texted my girlfriend to come back to the car which she did eventually and started to comfort me. At this point the intensity was past its peak but it’s been staying almost constant and with no intention of slowing down. So I drink water and lay down. Closing my eyes would make me nauseous so I ended up vomating extremely bad several times out the door. Almost chocked on my own vomit it was disgusting, this did help me sober up and the high at this point was wearing off but the physical and physiological effects were still there.
This was by far the most intense high I’ve ever experienced and it’s a nightmare I honestly in that moment wish I was dead because I think dying feels better than whatever the fuck that was. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy never.
If anyone now’s why and how this is caused and if it is dp/dr then please feel free and comment thanks!

so 2 days ago, I had a migraine like i’ve never ever had before. I got them a couple years ago before I went gluten free for celiacs + I had a brain tumor I didn’t know about(cushings disease). I didn’t really think much of them though at the time, after a couple hours of a bad headache on one side and light sensitivity it was over. but this time was extremely different and I ended up in the er because it just freaked me out. the last week and a half i’ve had both pms + starting my period, and 5 straight days of rain that caused my fibro to flare up. i’ve also just been dizzy(normal w fibro) but I thought it could’ve been my edibles. so I tried to take a t break to see if it would help any. I also have orthostatic hypotension but i’ve had that looonnggg before anything else. I take an about 3mg edible with about 15mg cbd for sleep and chronic pain every night or else I will be up all night. I do get tension headaches when i’ve been under a lot of stress + weather changes.
but then the following evening I was walking around a store when I got the sudden urge to throw up, I get nauseous but rarely like that. I was like dry sweating and my head started hurting. something felt very off from my normal issues and I tried to rush home. about 4 minutes away from my apartment my eyes started rolling into my head, luckily I got home safely. but within about 20 minutes of being home after a small dinner(I thought it was just low blood sugar or something) my eyes just kept rolling into my head, my leg started twitching a bit, and it just was painful so I laid down. the eye thing kept happening and I kept getting flashing lights everywhere(which I get those every once I in whike accompanied by a slight headache and dizziness). then my left arm kept almost convulsing(?) and my hand kept going into a claw postion. I kept getting tingling and numbness mainly on my left side as well. I had a couple momenrs with my right shoulder too. all while this was going on it felt like I took a backseat in my own body like I wasn’t in control. my headache was mainly above my eyes and in the center of my forehead. it eventually swept itself to my left side of my head entirely and that definitely felt like a migraine. visual aura kept going on. eyes kept moving back and forth but I couldn’t open my left. I kept trying to call for my roommate but but I couldn’t speak. it was terrifying. the headache continued for a couple more hours.
the next day around the same time, the twitching started again with a little bit of the eye issues and extreme nausea. this time my left side just felt weaker but I could still walk and use my arms. the flashing lights came again so I ubered to the er. aboutwo hours into my visit I got the migraine mock tail with benadryl zofran and thorazine. it felt like the headache kept wanting to happen until I got those. it helped with everything about 20 minutes after I took the meds. so I got discharged with a referral to a neuro about 40 minutes after that. today, i’ve just felt weak in the arms and tired, but I did start my edibles again last night and haven’t had any symptoms except my usual neck pain (I sleep weird and i’m an artist), temple headache, and very little appetite.
I guess my question is could this have been thc withdrawal? could it have been masking the migraines? or just stress, period stuff, and weather changes? i’ve been having weird symptoms the last couple of months with more visual disturbances accompanied by episodes that just made me feel like I was going to drop on the floor, confusion, tingling on the back of my limbs, and fatigue. those days i’d rush home from school and immediately fall asleep for hours without eating dinner. neurological issues do also run in the family(migraines and my mom has fnd)
i’m sorry for the long post, i’m just concerned, confused, and exhausted. i’m not looking for a ton of medical advice as I am seeing a neurologist soon, just kinda looking for support and if there’s anything I can do in the meantime.

Hi all,
First of all: My fullest respect to all ER workers and emergency service workers. You lot are a amazing.
I do wanna preface this by saying that I am neither. I work in the medical department of a football (soccer) club, so I'm there in the emergency, but also long term after. Hope I'm still good to post here. (the flair Advice would have worked as well tbf)
Needless to say, most things we do are orthopedic issues, traumatic injuries, surgery, general sports medicine etc.., you get the gist. We are sort of the general practitioners for these guys too though. If they have a medical issue of any sort, they'll usually come to us first, so we do have a bit of experience in other fields too. Extreme examples: This season we had a case of myocarditis and a case of sepsis. Sepsis was caught early with no long term consequences, but the guy (only 19) with myocarditis had severe complications. He's had a heart attack, spent a week in a coma and now has a pacemaker. Seeing this young guy struggle to get up from the breakfast table and take the five steps over to the buffet is heartbreaking. And in hindsight, it's probably bothering me more than it should have. Doesn't help that the likely cause is a direct misjudgement on our part, when we cleared him for training too soon after a viral infection.
So I've kinda been carrying this around me for a while and there are a few other private and work related issues that have caused me to be burned out a bit. And as life sometimes does, it just threw me the two most extreme workdays possible in my profession.
To paint the scene: I'm stood on the training pitch just observing. I hear a blood curdling scream from another pitch. I grab my shit and haul ass over there. What meets me there is an open fracture of both tibia and fibula. But not just any open broken leg fracture, best I can describe it is that his leg nearly amputated. It was hanging on by a big patch of skin, part of his muscles, like two tendons and miraculously, a handful of blood vessels. People were vomiting and dry heaving at the sight. You could have run anatomy course there. We put a tournequet on, dance the usual dance of what/how much analgesics and/or anaesthetics to give someone who's clearly lost a lot of blood. Decided that this is a case for the air ambulance and ultimately somehow managed to stabilize the leg without cutting of the last blood supply. It was a feat. Surgery (one of many) went well and he's doing well considering the circumstances. I still don't know how this happened btw. We do film every training, but nobody has been brave enough to watch that scene yet. The lad who (of course accidentally) did this to him is still inconsolable.
Next day on the training pitch, I hear a sound anyone in my concrete profession fears. A clash of heads and a good one at that. I turn around to find two people on the floor. One moving and clearly just dazed, the other one fully unconcious and not moving. I grab my shit and haul ass over there again. Upon closer inspection I notice blood running out of one of his ears and his mouth, a clear liquid running out of his nose and a dropping face. Not ideal. When he came back around he slurred his words, was extremely confused, complained of a bad headache and nausea, hearing and vision loss on one side and then started vomiting. Not forgetting the racoon eyes. Anyways - We got to call the air ambulance again. And if you guessed severe intracranial injuries and a basilar skull fracture, you are absolutely correct. He'll get surgery as soon as the swelling has gone down enough. The really heartbreaking part was when he didn't recognize his mother, who was watching the training and in absolute hysterics, anymore. Again, it was bad luck and nothing else, but the player that was involved in the head duel is devastated.
And I've come to realise - So am I. It should not affect me so much, but it does. These were two extreme unprecedented days for me and the entire medical team (cue the ER nurses laughing), but everyone else seems to have moved past it. But it's such a different story when they aren't strangers, but you see them every day and they are your friends. Rationally, I know I'm a bit burned out, hence why it affects me so much, which is scary to me.
I love my job and I usually bring 200% of enthusiasm to work every day, so this is truly the first time I ever felt this way. But I know I'm not the only one who's felt like this before. Do you have any advice on how I could get myself up and going again?

Did some "field research" (thanks for the term) last night and have a mild hangover today. I can not believe I used to live with this feeling every single day, for years. Headache, nausea, look and feel dried out. I have been feeling so much better lately, I will definitely not drink today. Feeling lucky that alcohol hasn't got its claws back in me and I will happily complete another day 1 today.

The episode resumed on a shot of Zee and Jo, their skin tones back to normal, running up to a smiling Chris. "Welcome back," he told the camera. "Zee and helper Jo are the first to arrive here, at the world's largest mud puddle!" The camera pulled back, revealing that the trio was standing near the edge of a large lake of burbling mud, a measuring stick rising out of it at the nearest edge.
"It's eight feet deep," Chris explained over a close-up of the measuring stick showing the mud reaching up very nearly to the 8' mark, "and 200 yards across. And," the camera quick-panned to the far right side of the 'puddle', "since it's too thick to swim through," the shot cut back to the couple and Chris, "the only way to the other side is with one of you piggybacking the other."
"Umm...," Zee said hesitantly, sharing a wary look with Jo, "doesn't that mean the person on the bottom..."
"Will drown?" Chris finished. "Yes."
"What?!" Jo said in wide-eyed shock.
"Unless they use this garden hose!" Chris added, a light chime playing as he held up a length of green hose.
Zee let out a breath. "Okay then. Guess I'm on the bottom, then."
Jo's eyes widened a bit in a brief bit of surprise, and she looked at her partner. "I should be objecting to this since I'm supposed to be the helper, but hey. No heavy lifting from me."
"Yeah…" Zee agreed half heartedly.
Confessional: Zee
"I was able to hold Jo onto my back while we were skiing," Zee told the confessional. "I can still do the same while under mud."
Confessional Ends
"I know that I said you were weak in the past," Jo said, "but that was until I saw that you were able to make it this far in the game."
"You thought wrong about me," Zee replied. "I wasn’t active at first in challenges and finding food, but with Julia eliminated, I was able to grow and become a finalist."
Chris suddenly stepped between the two. "How touching. Now start the challenge."
The scene cut to Zee and Jo jumping into the mud, the former disappearing below its depths while the latter, on his shoulders, held up the length of the hose. They started moving forward, and the camera panned back to the left to show Harold, Scarlett, and Chris holding up another length of hose.
"Yeah, I'll be on top," Harold stated.
"Pardon me?" Scarlett countered, raising an eyebrow.
"I don't trust you not to let me drown," Harold told her. "Self-preservation comes first."
Scarlett groaned. "That's fair," she said, taking the hose from Chris, "but if you let me suffocate, I'm dragging you down into the mud with me."
"Crustal," Harold deadpanned, and as Scarlett crouched down, she jumped onto the brainiac's shoulders. Scarlett stood back up and put the end of the hose in her mouth, and she jumped into the mud.
The tense music faded away as the camera moved onto Chris, the host sighing as Chef walked up. "You think the mud was a bad idea?" Chris asked. "It's a little quiet… oh yeah," Chris said as if in sudden realization, "almost forgot about the Peanut Gallery. Bring 'em back in!" he said into a walkie talkie he only then pulled out.
Moments later, the wind kicked up around them, and the camera zoomed out to show the large helicopter flying in with the former contestants still hanging – and screaming as they swayed ominously – below it. "Would you let us down already?!" Leshawna shouted angrily. "It's freezin' up here!"
"Yeah, I want to cheer for Zee!" Julia chimed in.
"If I wasn't tied up right now, I'd have half a mind to pound you!" Duncan shouted at the host.
The camera focused on DJ. "Hey, Chris?" he looked forward and asked loudly. "Just bring us down before anybody else gets miffed at you!"
"No, and I don't care," Chris answered with a calm smile, until Chef whispered to him. A flat note played over a close-up of Chris staring blankly at him. "Huh...good point," he admitted. "Ooh!" he said with a sudden grin. "I just had an idea!"
A flash took the scene to Zee and Jo, the tense challenge music resuming at a low volume and slow pace in the background. They were still slogging through the mud, Zee out of sight but Jo only submerged up to her stomach. She looked back over her shoulder, smiled, then said "Keep going!" into the piece of hose she was holding. "They're way far behind!"
Confessional: Zee
"So as it turns out," Zee said, "being submerged in the mud is kinda like being trapped in the dark. But there aren't any animals below to scare me."
Confessional Ends
The music ramped up as Jo suddenly stopped moving, then seemed to turn around and start moving back towards the start. "Uh, Fruit Loop?" she asked into the hose. "We're going the wrong way!"
The camera cut to Harold, looking somewhat bored as he held the hose atop Scarlett's shoulders, before noticing the other team and frowning. "Why are they coming this way?"
"Ugh! They're too safe to sabotage each other!" came the sudden voice of Chris McLean, the camera cutting to him standing in the show's jeep with Chef at the wheel, speaking into the microphone of the jeep's loudspeaker. "Deploy the 2.0 model!"
The shot cut back to Harold and Jo as they looked around with strange expressions, the sound of something like a rocket taking off coming from somewhere in the distance. They looked up and to the left, and the camera shifted to their viewpoint to show a large object shooting up through the sky overhead...
...then abruptly diving towards them, revealing itself as a red-eyed robotic bear with small jet engines coming out of its back. Harold and Jo screamed as their respective partners continued in their previous directions, getting out of the way as the Bear landed in the mud. It hit with enough force to cause a wave of mud, which shot all the way across the puddle carrying the finalists and their helpers along for the ride. All four immediately began to cough upon landing in a muddy heap.
Confessional: Harold
"At least I have a better shot," Harold said. "We're tied right now, but who knows what other tricks Chris has up his sleeves."
Confessional Ends
A close-up of the nozzle of a fire hose in Chef's hands preceded him blasting the muddy finalists and helpers with water, all four screaming where they'd landed on the shore of the 'puddle'. Moments later, the water was shut off, leaving them drenched but clean.
"We're all tied up," Chris announced with a smile. "Perfect time for a little break. First, let's bring in the Peanut Gallery again." He took out his remote and pointed it at a patch of ground nearby, a hole opening up in it and a rather shoddy-looking set of stadium seats shooting up out of it with the ten former contestants seated – and still tied-up – in it.
"Sha-finally," Lightning said, the shot cutting to him sitting in the top row with B, DJ, Duncan, and Max and Leshawna, Ella, Julia, Sammy, and Amy in the bottom row. "Are we gonna get to watch the rest of the challenge now?"
"Yup!" Chris answered with a happy smile, pressing the button on his remote again so that a large widescreen television emerged from another hole in the ground near him and the finalists.
"Will you untie us too?" Ella chimed in.
Chris huffed. "Whine, whine, whine," he said in annoyance. "Don't I do enough for you kids as it is?"
"No," all fourteen of the season's cast members replied at the same time.
A flat note played over a close-up of the host pursing his lips. "Yeah, I owe Chef twenty bucks about that," Chris said, the camera zooming back out again to show the finalists and helpers. "Everyone, grab a seat," he instructed, and the four reluctantly sat down on the logs lying behind them. "I'm gonna show you some of my favorite clips from the show..." He pointed his remote at the TV, and the shot focused in as it switched on and started to play footage of a confessional...
"Dunderhead was already pretty useless," Jo complained. "But now he's making moves on one of the actually decent players on the team? Not on my watch!"
The camera cut in close to show Jo pausing and looking back. "Something on your mind, Anti-Squeakerbox?" she asked, the camera shifting to show B peering at her and shaking his head.
“It's not what you think it is," Jo told him. "As long as they are on this team, Julia and Zee will not date."
“Not exactly how I wanted the elimination to play, but hey. Julia’s gone and with Zee still in the game, I could manipulate him into doing whatever I say,” Jo grinned.
The footage paused, and Chris leaned out in front of the television with a wide and mischievous grin. "Seems like there isn't a shipper on deck…" he said impishly.
"So you were trying to keep me and Julia apart?" Zee said as the camera moved to him and Jo, his eyes wide with shock. "Does this mean that...,"
"Yup. I convinced Julia to quit," Jo replied. "I didn't expect her to fully go through with it since I was gonna vote you out!"
"I can't believe you'd try and do that!" Zee said with a glare!"
"If I didn't do what I did, then you two likely would've blown challenges for us like the dueling one!" Jo argued back.
The camera focused on Julia in the Peanut Gallery. "I was trying to defend my boyfriend, but sure," she said dryly.
"I'm just worried what Chris is gonna show from Scarlett," Sammy said. "It looks like he wants to mess up the finalists and their helpers..."
"Maybe he won't show anything?" Amy suggested. "I mean, it's not like Scarlett and Harold were that close to begin with."
The shot cut back to a smiling Chris. "Oh, don't worry, I have no intention of leaving those guys out of all this fun," he said happily.
"I don't see how," Scarlett said. "Harold already knows everything about me now. I’m practically an open book."
Chris laughed. "Seems you forgot that the cameras are always on. So here's some more juicy information that everybody gets to hear." The screen on the TV went from static to a scene from the fifth episode.
Scarlett herself grabbed the dueling stick Ella retrieved, fished an electric eel out of the water, and tossed it to Max. "Max!" she cried, and her teammates looked at her in confusion, prompting her to pretend that she had coughed. "Pardon me!"
“The plan was for Max to be the only one not in the trap, so the team would know he built it and vote him off!” Scarlett confessed.
"I overheard Leshawna and Harold's conversation when they were foraging together, and Leshawna being on to me is something that I refuse to let happen," Scarlett claimed. “Zee's really gullible enough to deceive, and I'll try to talk to Ella.”
A deep, dramatic note was struck over a shot of Harold in shock. "So it was you who got Leshawna eliminated!" he scowled in Scarlett's direction.
"I wasn't ready to come out just yet, and between the two of you, you were less likely to warn anyone about me!" Scarlett retorted.
"So all this time, Scarlett was aiming to usurp her master!" Max ranted.
"I don't blame her," Leshawna commented. “As much of a pain as she is, I would've done the same thing and sent your annoying behind home.”
"Okay," Chris said happily as the shot moved onto him, "I'm sensing some major hostility and I'm liking it. I'm out of popcorn, though, so we should probably get back to the challenge."
"Seriously?!" the finalists and helpers alike exclaimed.
"Obviously, the helpers aren't gonna be very helpful anymore," Chris replied. "So, instead of helpers, Jo and Scarlett will now be hinderers." As he spoke, Chef walked back into view with a pair of video game controllers, tossing one each to Scarlett and Jo. "The island is now back online," Chris continued, "and, with these controllers, they will be able to throw up obstacles to throw you down, or, completely crush you."
The shot cut to Scarlett as she looked at her controller and smirked. "Good to know."
"Looking forward to it," Jo said in determination.
Harold and Zee gulped, and Chris laughed. "That was the good part," he said. "Let me tell you the bad part. You have ten minutes to finish this challenge," he told Zee and Harold. "If neither of you do, Scarlett and Jo get to split the money."
"Dude, what?" Zee said in shock.
"You can't do that!" Harold protested.
"I can! I will! I am! GO!" Chris announced, blowing his airhorn right in Chef's face, earning an annoyed sigh from the man. Harold and Zee immediately ran off, but the camera cut to a close-up of a thoughtful Jo.
"Well...I want the money, but I'm not really comfortable with how this is set up," Jo said to herself. "But...I guess it wouldn't be too bad if I just made this a little more challenging for them..."
"Do what you want," Scarlett said, the camera panning over to show her grinning darkly with her controller in hand. "I'm getting my justice."
Confessional: Jo
“And I thought I was an underhanded person,” Jo mentioned to herself. “Velma has less morals than me and Gnome Master.”
Confessional: Scarlett
"I was snubbed in the last episode," Scarlett confessed. "And now that I've been given permission, I can stop the finalists from winning without getting electrocuted!" She pulled out the remote from the seventh episode. "I don't even need this device. I have a controller to do the job for it."
Confessionals End
A few quick drum taps opened up a deep and dangerous challenge theme, the scene returning to Zee and Harold sprinting across the open field only to gape in shock as the pine trees in the background starting launching like rockets.
"What the heck?" Harold said. "Rocket trees?"
One landed right behind them, forcing both finalists to roll forward out of the way. "This island is wild!" Zee cried as the two continued running, more and more trees landing behind them like massive spears.
The two were shown together in a brief close-up, raising their eyebrows in surprise. A quick-pan ahead revealed the landscape changing, trees and rock formations rising up out of the artificial ground to form a large, dense barrier.
Harold jumped ahead of Zee as they climbed over the first big rock formation.
Zee vaulted downward and dashing forward along a lower 'path' among the rocks. Just as he was about to jump down onto grass, however, a boulder shot upward – and he landed on it groin-first. A close-up showed him letting out a high-pitched squeal of pain.
Harold's wince drew the camera's attention back upward to show him leaping from a boulder and grabbing onto the branch of a tree, only for the tree to suddenly shoot back down into the ground – causing him to yell as it dragged him down and slammed him back-first onto a fallen log.
Zee gave him a quick concerned glance as he jumped onto the same log, then upwards onto a rock formation before climbing onward and to the right and out of sight.
The scene cut back to the hinderers, both still working their controllers with Scarlett still looking considerably happier about it. "No need to change what works," Jo said uncertainty.
"What happened to that cutthroat attitude you've been displaying?" Scarlett asked. "Don't throw it away when I can get something out of it. And lower some of those trees. They're giving them too much cover from this storm I'm whipping up."
The camera panned onto the monitor to show Zee and Harold struggling against a powerful wind as they walked through what looked like a dense forest as leaves, dust, branches, and various small woodland animals blew past them.
A focus on the monitor's screen transitioned the scene back to the challenge. "I think...I can see the finish line in the distance," Zee said, pausing for a moment as he struggled against the intense gale.
"They're not making this easy on us," Harold commented.
The pair briefly passed behind a thick and mossy pine tree, the camera zooming in slightly as they reappeared. "Would you?" Zee asked.
"...I guess not," Harold answered after a moment.
The shot cut back to the Peanut Gallery to show them watching with worry and anticipation. "C'mon, Harold," Leshawna spoke. "Just hang in there."
"I know you can win this, Zee," Julia said. "You deserve it after everything."
Then the camera cut back to the hinderers, Chris standing next to their monitor with his hands behind his back and a smile on his face. "Ooh! They're getting close!" he said excitedly, prompting Scarlett to scowl and Jo to frown.
Once more the scene moved back to the finalists, their arms raised to buffer themselves against the winds – snow beginning to fall and lightning beginning to crack in the background - with Harold in the lead. "Two minutes left!" Chris called out over the island's loudspeaker. "Two minutes!"
"I...," Harold said with glee. "I think I can make it!"
"Not if I can help it!" Zee shouted, speeding up as the dense trees around him and Harold began to recede into the ground – and the tense and dangerous challenge music resumed. "If I win, me and Julia can go out and change the world together."
"I have to win this," Harold told him. "I've been undervalued and looked down on by my peers, friends, and even my family. I need to prove my might."
The snowy ground below their feet began to crack. A hollow sound played, then all at once, the ground shot up under them, earning startled yells from both. The shot soon cut to the new peak they were standing on rising up into the sky, then stopping.
"Drats..." Zee muttered, both finalists looking down with wide eyes. his final word echoed as the camera zoomed out, revealing the snowy mountain they were now at the top of.
The Peanut Gallery was shown gasping, as were Jo, though Scarlett was smiling as their misfortune. "Twenty seconds left...!" Chris said as the camera moved on to him looking at his watch.
The shot cut back to Harold. "I guess it's over," he sighed. “Scarlett wins after all.”
Zee noticed a bulge in the snow beside him. The boy shoved his hand into it and pulled out the phone Duncan stole from Chris. "I don't know how this got here, but we have to get down. Start stomping the ground."
Harold nodded and stomped on the ground at his feet, and after a few cracks, Zee hurled the phone down, breaking the device apart. Their eyes widened as the mountain began to crumble under them, and the ground imploded in on itself.
"Six! Five!" Chris began to count off, the music cutting out save for a single plodding note to highlight each number. "Four!" The camera panned onto the television, showing both finalists tumbling through the snow and rock. "Three! Two! One!" The shot cut to the finish banner, then zoomed out to show the avalanche stopping just under it – with neither finalist in sight. "GAME OVER!" he announced, blowing on his airhorn as a subdued but triumphant riff played.
Jo stood up in surprise, and Scarlett started cheering.
"My mission was a success!" Scarlett said in victory. “Now hand over my well-deserved prize!”
"Congratulations Jo and Scarlett," Chris said with his usual smile. "Revenge is sweetest-" he glanced at the monitor- "ohhhhh, what have we here?" he said with a sudden look of shock, the music cutting out as he pointed at the television screen.
A sharp note played as a familiar hand stuck out of the snow lying just past the finish line and waved. Scarlett's jaw dropped in shock, and Jo let out a sigh of relief.
The scene cut to the finish line, the camera pulling back a little ways as Chef walked up with a stretcher, dressed as a female nurse. Leshawna ran onscreen and pushed him out of the way. Chef flew off frame with a shout, and Leshawna grabbed the arm and pulled, freeing a shocked and snowy Harold from the aftermath of the avalanche. "Oh," he groaned, looking around as Leshawna dropped him on the stretcher, "what happened?" he asked as the victorious music began to play again with much more enthusiasm.
"You won, Ginger Baby!" Leshawna answered with a smile, the camera pulling out even more to show Harold looking back at the finish banner.
"I did it!" Harold said excitedly. "Harold Norbert Cheever Doris McGrady V has claimed victory! Boo yah!" he raised his arms and cheered, the shot cutting away to show all of the Peanut Gallery cheering.
“We weren't able to talk to each other as much, and it's clear we like each other as more than just friends, but how about we hang out a little bit back home and see where things go?” Leshawna suggested.
“As long as we don't rush into a committed relationship, I'd like that,” Harold smiled back.
The camera panned to the left to show Julia frantically pulling a dazed and half-conscious Zee from the rest of the avalanche, and picking him up onto her back.
"Julia," Zee said weakly, "I'm sorry that I-"
"Be quiet," Julia said with a weak smile as she carried her boyfriend over to the stretcher and set him down next to Harold. "You need to rest."
"But-" Zee tried to say.
He was cut off by Julia grabbing his head and kissing him full on the lips. "You didn’t win the money, but we can still provide for the world in our own ways, and with the power of love," she said with a smile as she broke the kiss, leaving Zee looking dopey.
The capstone theme began to play as the footage skipped ahead to a shot of the open sky, the double-rotored helicopter soon flying up into view. "That's it for this very, very off season," Chris began, standing in the open doorway with Zee and Julia sitting on the edge letting their legs dangle freely with Julia leaning into Zee; Harold and Scarlett standing on either side of Chris, the latter annoyed and the former grinning while holding the suitcase full of money to his chest; and the rest of the cast, crouching down and peering over in the gaps between and behind the rest, constantly jockeying for position as they tried to get one last shot of themselves on camera.
"This is Chris McLean, saying if you can't stand the pain-" the handsome host continued, the shot cutting in closer- "stay off the Total! Drama! Paaaahkitew Island!"
"RE-VENGE!" Max suddenly yelled from behind Scarlett, shoving her out of the helicopter, and the brainiac screamed as she fell.
The camera lingered on the dumbfounded looks of Chris and the other ex-campers, all of them staring at Max in shock. "This is how a traitor should be rewarded," he said, crossing his arms and closing his eyes defiantly.
The ex-campers and host burst out laughing, and a fun and energetic tune started to play. The camera panned over to the windshield to show Chef laughing along with the rest of the cast from the pilot's seat, and the helicopter flew away.
The music soon faded away, though, and the scene quick-panned down to show a screaming Scarlett landing in the giant mud puddle. She quickly surfaced with a shocked splutter, and pulled herself out onto dry land. "How am I going to get home now because of those imbeciles?!"
A few ominous notes were struck, and a ferocious growl caught Scarlett's attention. She looked up, and the camera zoomed out to show Scuba Bear 2.0 standing over her, eyes red. "Heheh," the brainiac laughed nervously. "You're not going to hurt me are you?"
The scene abruptly cut outward to the full long-distance shot of the island, the ominous music ending as Scarlett's scream and Scuba Bear's snarl echoed across the lake.
(Roll the Credits)
Lightning - 14th
DJ - 13th
Amy - 12th
B - 11th
Julia - 10th
Max - 9th
Leshawna - 8th
MERGE
Jo - 7th
Duncan - 6th
Ella - 5th
Sammy - 4th
Scarlett - 3rd
Zee - 2nd
Harold - 1st

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I am 20 years old pursuing a degree in accounting. I have sustained three noticeably bad concussions. One was in early high school when I hit the back of my head on some ice, the second was from football during my later high school years, and the third was from trying a semester of wrestling during my sophomore year of college. In addition, I have been practicing Brazilian jiu jitsu and Muay Thai, and while I usually stay away from the sparring classes in which one gets punched in the face, I still bonk my head from time to time on accident.
The last one was the worst, resulting in severe headaches and nausea during Thanksgiving. I am also a weed smoker, although I have gone from what was ~7 grams per week during the very worst years of high school and early college to more like ~1.5 grams per week using a dry herb vaporizer. I don’t know how bad any of my lingering symptoms are or if I’m going to experience accelerated cognitive decline as I age, and the thought terrifies me and takes over my mind whenever I’m reminded of it.
I definitely have a small amount of brain fog, but it doesn’t really affect my day-to-day life in any negative ways. I wasn’t born with a great short term memory, but I certainly feel as though it has gotten slightly worse. I don’t have any headache or nausea episodes. I get good grades, I stay active, and for the most part, I usually don’t even think about my prior concussions. The other week, albeit while I was high, I completely forgot what the subject matter of the conversation I was having was. I’m not sure if this was just a stoned moment or if I should read into it more.
I don’t know if I need a therapist or a neurologist or both, but this issue is weighing incredibly heavy on my mind. I want to be able to live the fullest life possible for as long as possible. I’m not entirely sure what the point of this post is, but if anyone can relay their experiences, or those of friends and family, or any advice, it would be greatly appreciated. I don’t know how to proceed with my life. I am happy to answer any questions or provide more details.

A disclaimer: I know I'm being unreasonable in this situation. I just need to vent about it so I don't say something unwarranted to him.
For context, I have AuDHD and my husband has ADHD. Laundry is a big problem in our house. Washing it, remembering to transfer it into the dryer, folding it, putting it away - everything is an issue. The process breaks down at every step. We share the responsibility for doing laundry, it's just that we're both really bad at it.
I'm currently recovering from severe autistic burnout. To help keep the house in order, we decided to start taking our laundry to a laundromat with a wash-and-fold service. It's a bit pricey, but worth it - I drop off a bunch of dirty clothes and pick them up the next day, clean and folded. All that's left to do is to put them away. It's SO helpful and it's truly a massive relief.
I've spent the last few days mostly in bed with bronchitis, so my husband's been looking after the housework. The laundry had started to pile up, but all he had to do was gather it up, put it in the car and take it to the laundromat. But noooo, he decided he was going to wash it himself, but do a super half-assed job and then abandon it halfway through. When I forget to move wet laundry over into the dryer, I notice that it smells musty from sitting in the washer and so I wash it again. But not him. It also doesn't help that our dryer is not the best and needs 1.5 cycles to fully dry a load, but my husband is not very good about running the second half-cycle so half the load is left damp.
Now there are multiple piles of "clean" laundry all over our bedroom and the laundry room. None of it is folded and most of it is damp and wrinkled and stinks like mildew. It's actually worse than it would have been if he'd just left it - at least it was dry before! I'm still semi-sick and exhausted from coughing all night, and I look around and I just want to cry.
WHY did he even START, if he wasn't going to do it properly or even finish the job at all?? That is NOT being helpful!!!

tldr; i suddenly get extremely uncomfortable in my stomach (like literally my stomach organ) and mid back right behind my stomach and symptoms only go away once i gag and/or dry heave
25f
context: the first time this had happened to me was maybe within 2 months ago. i had ate supper, ill note that i was not full of food, and maybe an hour and a half to 2 hours later i started to work on doing my nails. i do not have have a desk to work at so i was kinda slouching on my bed criss-crossed. i noticed my back getting uncomfortable which is not abnormal as my spine is crooked and ive always had issues with it. within 30 minutes my stomach got really uncomfortable. ive never experienced this before so i tried to lay down, but it made things worse. eventually my mouth started watering like crazy as if im going to vomit but i have 0 nausea when this happens. i went back and forth a few times and eventually got myself to gag which turned to a dry heave, and almost instantly everything goes away and i feel better. i brush it off but kept note of it of course
the next time i remembered the same feeling, i did eat beforehand but again it was after an hour or two. roughly the same situation. i went to the bathroom and kinda fake gagged until i got a real one, and again almost immediately i felt just fine. i have never vomited from this
after spending time searching what this could be, i found nothing so went to facebook to ask others i know. my cousin commented and said she had similar things happen and it could be a form of reflux. my mother has gerd (and acid reflux?? im not sure if they are connected or two different things), my cousin said she and her mother also has reflux issues (cousin is silent and her mother is acid reflux). for the past year ive wondered if i have silent reflux but the govt took away my insurance so im not able to ask a doctor and currently my boyfriend is the only income
today it happened again, same thing except we were getting up to some business and i felt fine until a little after. i noticed the uncomfortability and eventually my mouth started to water. i got up to gag it out and now i feel fine again. does anyone know what or why this could be? it is the start of something? do i need to be concerned? thank you for anyone reading this and/or offering guidance and advice

23rd: Jane Bright (Nicaragua - 6th)

A deserving, incredible Survivor endgame level character standing next to Jane Bright.
u/SMC0629:
I don't have Jane in my personal endgame, but I'm not mad at all that she made it here. She's probably the most divisive character in Nicaragua, but I personally love her. She's got a spunky attitude, has a great rivalry with Marty, great relationship with Chase, and has one of my favorite eliminations ever. Her boot is so god damn memorable, that lasting moment of the alliance telling her it's gonna be her tonight, with Jane in complete shock and despair is just perfect. One of the best characters of Nicaragua for sure.
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u/DryBonesKing:
Jane is on a very small list of players who I think has run the entire spectrum in terms of where they land in my rankings. Top ten, top hundred, middle of the pack, bottom hundred, bottom ten… I think I understand pretty much every Jane take known to humanity, cause I’ve had them. Nowadays, I tend to lean more positive on her, but I definitely still have too many issues I’m hyper aware of to let her rank too highly for me.
“What if we have Rupert’s hero edit to someone who was just really really mean, and did the bare minimum to hide it” is genuinely hilarious to me. Jane’s got good energy and her many, many, many feuds (the majority of which being with Marty) make her a great character to guide the narrative. There’s also just her boot episode, which is like… way too good of an episode for Nicaragua. I think I’m neutral-lean positive on Nicaragua, but it’s not a season that does a ton for me, but dear god, Jane’s boot and the scene of her dousing the camp fire is like so fucking metal.
She’s such a raw, powerful person. I think my biggest issue with her right now is just that, in a similar vein to Brandon Hantz, sometimes she feels a little too real at times. Like is she funny when she’s talking shit about Marty? Yes! Is the story great? Yes! But does some of what she says about Marty and his kids feel a bit too much? Yes, very much so. It’s not enough to detract from her character, but again… Brandon Hantz-tier of character. For me, that’s a pretty big compliment, but I also do not keep him in my Top 100. Same with Jane. But despite being one of the names that made Endgame that I disagree with the most, I am very curious and excited to see our resident “Least Sane Jane Bright Enjoyer” spin a tale or two about why she deserves to be up here!
Overall Rank – 138/821
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u/Zanthosus:
While I disagree with her being endgame, I understand the reasoning and defense behind it. I respect the hustle that Tom did to get her here and I’m happy for him that Jane made her first endgame.
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u/Regnisyak1:
I love that Jane is here, I am not even going to lie. Before my recent rewatch, I had Jane in the 200s, and after my rewatch, I was completely blown away at how complex her character is and the great relationships she had all season. To me, she felt real with her hatred, and the switch between the dry laugh we know her for, to the nasty person she became was endlessly incredible, she was such a great part of Nicaragua and one of the few praises I have for that season. Plus, when she finds out Chase, Holly, and Sash are voting for her, the music change and piano chord that happens there might be the piece media I have ever seen. Congrats Tom for getting her here!
Personal Rank: 73/821. 9/10.
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u/ninjedi1:
Nicaragua is such a great season due to how emotionally charged it is, and Jane is a big part of that. Jane is the sweet southern lady until she feels crossed, then she has a whole vendetta against anyone who crosses her, so it's a lot of great fun. She is not in my personal endgame, but I can always appreciate a kooky character showing up in it.
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u/Tommyroxs45:
Jane Bright:
This is undoubtedly my most anticipated write up of the rankdown, I have such a love for Jane and everything she does for Nicaragua. She has one of the best stories of all time, and just has so many moments that further it and make it cohesive. And that is what I will explain today. Jane is not just some badass southern old lady, ok well she is, but she’s also a very deep, broken old lady trying to put on a facade for herself. Her hatred towards everyone around her has its story and here it is…
The Mask
A lot like Rupert, Jane tries to paint a mask on herself as a hero and somebody who always follows her heart for the greater good. However, throughout the season we see cracks start to arise in this persona she puts on herself. She’s someone who needs a purpose and when somebody gets in the way of that, she gets insecure and bitter and that’s when we see the wrath of Jane break out.
The editors never try to pull the wool over your eyes by painting her as a hero, because they show petty rivalries with her and Marty and her boot episode meltdown. We get to see her from all angles, even if she only wants to present one. She’s insecure about herself, making her feel entitled to be treated as a queen and carried to the end due to her “heroic” manner. Once she realizes it doesn’t work like that and she actually has to play the game, all gloves come off and we get some of the most petty, uncalled for, or even bitchy moments that just have so much raw emotion.
She’s not painted as a hero while being an asshole (*cough* Ozzy *cough*) They show her as her flawed self, but they also let you make your own decision on what to feel without pushing a narrative onto you. Of course she wins Favorite Player at the reunion, so some people still thought she was a hero but you get to see this very broken and entitled person struggling. She really hates everyone but that’s not what she can show because that’s now who she wants to be and it’s such a complicated story arc throughout the season that we see the cracks grow and it’s told so subtlety but perfectly. And this is only the tip of the iceberg with how deep this old southern lady is.
Without this defining feature, she’d just be a badass southern lady but with it she becomes so much more just adding to this brilliant story building up all season until her boot episode. Her masking her real personality just makes her a much more complex character and when we see these glimpses of it, you start to realize, ohhh this is the person I’m supporting.
Even on top of the mask, there is so much more to Jane’s character…
Grief
When you watch Nicaragua for the first time, this part of her character is not inherently obvious. Grief?!? What are you talking about? She just seems like a badass until she’s a bitter old hag for being the target. While, yes that’s a very simplified version of this, there’s so much more to dissect there. The grieving of her husband, greatly plays a role in her story, and although it’s sometimes subtle you can see how it play into it so beautifully well.
In her very first confessional, what do we see Jane say?
“They think I'm some middle aged housewife that tootles around the house all day long, they’re in for a big surprise. Because that is definitely not me. I'm fifty-six years old and I'm the type person that stays busy all the time doing things. I just don't think there's anything I can't do. Winning the million dollars is real important to me ‘cause it’ll help me pay off my farm and the fact that I lost my husband, uh, in '09, it-it-it means I wouldn't have to work as hard as I do. But his spirit, I know is still with me and that's what keeps me going.”
Her husband obviously is impacting her mentally during this season, and we see this throughout the game. Every Time somebody makes a gesture that they want her out, her personal viper just breaks out. This is because she knows this is getting in the way of her dream, and the spirit of her husband that made her want to do this and she’s not letting anybody take that from her.
She’s still grieving and wants to win for her husband, and it is a very sweet story but sadly it takes a dark turn as she starts using this as entitlement for her to win. She believes she’s obligated to be brought to the end because of who she is and the loss of her husband and yeah, it’s dark but damn is it good when you think about it.
This is also why the family visit is SO important to her story in her boot episode. Right when her daughter, Ashley gets there, she starts talking about her husband and how Ashley is the one she is doing this for, to help her. This is WHO SHE IS FIGHTING FOR!
That is why it hits so hard when everyone flips on her! How dare they! She thinks. These people are voting me out right after I fought my hardest to give my daughter a better life?!? She’s one of the only I have left, this is disgusting. It’s so sad but at the same time it’s brilliantly shown not told. And what do you know, when Jane is talking about Sash’s mama raising him, she immediately brings up her daughter, just ugh how perfect does it round back to her family and her grief with loss.
Now obviously, does that make her outrage justified, I don’t know, maybe? Is she still kind of a bitch? probably! Is she a badass? Probably! That leads me to my next point.
Perspective
If you have read a lot of my other writeups on Nicaragua you would have noticed I love to talk about the perspective a lot of these characters receive on the season. Complimenting how diverse they can be seen depending on your morals or values. No character represents this better than Jane Bright.
How do I know this? Well let’s look at her placements in Rankdowns Past:
SRI - 485/501 - Seen as a bitchy, entitled, worse version of NaOnka, and someone who went way too personal in the game.
SRII - 455/537 - Seen as annoying and sour, forced fan favorite edit not giving her the trashing she deserved by the other tribemates.
SRIII - 549/575 - Seen as a narcissist and self-righteous, below the belt remarks and “a human embodiment of a rash” (that made me laugh a bit).
SRIV - 518/615 - Seen as an ultimately fascinating character, who got a dishonest edit that didn’t show her true side until the end. Ultimately ending up as an unlikable “venomous bitch” who somehow won fan favorite.
SRV - 108/653 - Seen as a great T.V personality whose kooky first half and vigorous 2nd half make for a good story and uplifts everyone around her while also being a great character.
SRVI - 127/731 (Had to be idoled to get here though smh) - Seen as a badass challenge competitor who is actually sour, who unfairly attacked Marty and is a bit too much when it comes to her toxic side to make her slightly less good.
SRVII - 185/767 - Seen as an extremely authentic personality and very entertaining to the chaos of Nicaragua, as well as having an iconic rivalry with Marty, being an iconic mother.
See the difference between one half and the other? Yeah, that shows just how well of a character she is edited as. She has so many times where she is shown to be a hero but juxtaposed with so many times she is shown as an asshole and it works off each scene perfectly. This is why we get such a difference of opinion and I think it’s told so well to where most people don’t even see it.
You have to weigh her good and bad and see based on your morals, if she’s a good person or not, and how acceptable or right was she for her constant hatred of others? I really love that as they aren’t trying to make you think a specific feeling about her. You need to come up with that conclusion yourself on how you think she is, that’s why she won the fan favorite vote in 2011 but today many call her an entitled bitch. (And yeah, she is but that’s a lot of what makes her so amazing).
Her kicking ass in challenges and being a lively spirit contrasted to her nasty demeanor to Jill and especially Marty personally attacking them and her boot episode meltdown, contribute to making one of the most wishy-washy characters when it comes to people’s opinions on her. I don’t what to be told how to feel, I want to come up with it on my own, and I feel like a lot of that has been lost in recent years of Survivor and seeing Jane and having all these different perspectives on her personality just adds so much life.
There is a reason why so many people despise her and so many people love her, she’s just edited that well to where people have had to come up with their own feelings about Jane. Not being coerced to feel a certain way, and I feel that is the best way to edit a character. What you see is what you see, not an objective stance the show is trying to put onto you, and I feel all of Nicaragua shows this but Jane is the prime example. Perspective means everything with her.
This makes her one of the most complex characters of all time, she’s either a broken woman seeking admiration, an entitled bitch, or a badass southern lady who is an inspiration. It’s all based on what you value and isn’t that what Survivor is all about, a social experiment where you weigh your values and personalities with each other to build a society.
Speaking of building a society, how is Jane’s relationships with the cast, well let’s see her main stars:
Sash: Jane and Sash’s dynamic isn’t really shown and I think that actually helps her and Sash’s story. Sash is sleazy and doesn’t really make any genuine connections and we see that in her breakdown scene. When you watch the moment she learns she’s going home and the confessional she gives, you see a direct tone shift from how she talks about Chase and how she talks about Sash. When she’s almost crying about Chase and his betrayal, she is outright vile and nasty when talking about Sash. Showing this major lack of connection between them, that she never saw him as a friend and will not hold back from releasing her rage on him.
Chase: Jane and Chase’s connection is one for the books. Both being from North Carolina and being southern types, they instantly bond and feel close to each other. Their relationship just feels more special than anyone else’s that season, that’s what makes the betrayal so much more entertaining. You literally see her about to cry over Chase, they really were close and got to know each other and just to have him stab her in the back, it’s so good. It just felt special but it wasn’t enough for him to not cut her…
Now how could you talk about relationships and not bring up Jane’s defining one…
Fartay:
Come on! This rivalry is one of if not the best rivalry in all of Survivor. They just despise each other and really are either of them in the right? Not at all, that’s what makes it so great. Marty’s a sleazeball, cocky, and a smart ass while Jane’s an entitled, bitter, old lady and they just work so well off each other. You just have personal jab after personal jab that is just so entertaining and perfectly helps tell Jane’s story.
There is really no reason why they should hate each other as much as they do but their walks of life and personalities just clash so hard that you still understand why they hate each other. Jane takes everything Marty does to heart without any grain of salt, and it makes her reactions so visceral and truly legendary. It’s what makes Jane the Jane we love to love or love to hate!
Now, I think it’s time to talk about the pinnacle of Jane. Her magnum opus if you will… her boot episode.
The Wrath of Jane Will Break Out Tonight
This is one of my favorite episodes of Reality TV. Everything about it is perfect and told in such a way to where it’s the perfect ending for such a broken character.
Building her up with her daughter coming during the family visit, talking about her and how much she wants to provide for her. Having a seed planted in Jane’s brain after she’s not taken to the reward thinking she was entitled to be brought.
Fabio winning immunity, throwing everything for a loop, just when Jane’s attitude has really started to shift and then we get to the scene. Which personally is my favorite scene in all of Survivor without a doubt. The scene where the alliance tells her it has changed and she’s going home is so brilliant. The raw awkwardness and silence next to Jane’s utter disbelief and anger. After she flips them off it is followed by again my favorite confessional of all time.
This is what she has been building up to, everything just falls about when she believed she deserved to win. Having such raw and unfiltered emotions where she’s about to break down and cry and then the turn to anger and fury bringing Sash’s mother into it, talking about how she raised a damn liar. (WITH THAT HEAD COCK THOUGH) All with very subtle sound effects or just no music at all until she gets up and makes one last hoorah by pouring water on the fire. “I started and I put it out” 🔥🔥🔥
Then we get to tribal, where Jane is just done with the bullshit and just calls everyone out for being liars and backstabbers. “The writings on the wall Fabio!” Like come on, that is TV gold, followed by the vote having Chase and Sash “cowardly” play their idols sticking it to Jane when she is already at her lowest by not even having her vote count. She leaves bitter and broken, not the happy ending she felt she deserved.
Mortgage Gate
I’m putting this here because that’s where it best fits, and this is brief because it doesn’t really affect my rankings on Jane because it’s not in the season.
I wish they did show this though, as having this added layer of controversy between Sash and Jane with real world implications would have been amazing, even if what Jane is saying isn’t true it still would’ve shown her as an ass, making up lies just to make someone look worse. I just think it’s such an interesting topic to discuss that I wanted to give it its own section. Sash is sleazy so I wouldn’t pass him to do that, however Jane is extremely bitter and entitled so I could also see her making that up, I guess we'll never really know will we… (I know Marty called the incident fake, but it’s Marty, of course he’s gonna dispute whatever Jane says, if she says the sky is blue, he’ll say it’s orange).
I'm Not Breaking My Tile!
This kind of relates to the mask section of this write up. However, I wanted to talk specifically about Jane’s challenge prowess and wins throughout the season and how much it adds to this arc. Building her up as this badass figure competing against big guys half her age and actually winning?!? It gives an excellent face to the real Jane, having this much courage to go against Chase and Fabio even after winning, not only being such a badass in that moment but showing how she’s trying to play up this persona of old challenge great.
Jane, The Tribe Has Spoken
So in conclusion, you can see that when you really glance over Nicaragua you don’t see Jane as some sort of deep character. However, when you really look into her and her actions and motives you see a broken old lady who is obviously grieving. She is such a deep and complex character that Nicaragua needed to really round out the story.
Jane isn’t supposed to be this likable hero, nor is she supposed to be a villain, she’s not edited as one archetype. However you value your morals, is how you will see Jane and even if you find her an ass, you have to admit they tell it very well. She’s also objectively entertaining, her rivalry with Marty, her being badass during challenges, cooking fish in the woods, her boot episode meltdown, and so much more are just so iconic to me and make this season what it is.
This write up obviously won’t sway everybody, but I hope that if you rewatch Nicaragua, take a closer look at Jane and her actions and see how it lines up with somebody like Rupert or Coach who are much more prevalent when it comes to these “entitled, broken, facade” archetypes. You will see a brilliant story of grief, hatred, entitlement, and a fake persona that the show knows she is trying to present.
Personally, Jane will always be one of my favorite characters of all time with amazing scenes and a story almost as complex as Ian’s. She didn’t win this rankdown, but she won my heart and has definitely earned herself a #1 spot on my rankings for this endgame.
SMC0629: 19
DryBonesKing: 21
Zanthosus: 24
Tommyroxs45: 1
Regnisyak1: 20
DavidW1208: 24
ninjedi1: 24
Average Placement: 19.000
Total Points: 133
Standard Deviation: 8.206 (2nd Highest)

My dog is an 8 year old, male, neutered Pomeranian. Ever since we got out second dog (don't know if it has anything to do with it, but just in case I'm mentioning it) my dog kept getting sick. He started coughing - dry and loud - and one day we got up and his eyes were horribly infected. We instantly went to the vet and his lymph nodes were swollen and his eyes infected. He got cortisol drops for the eyes (3x daily for a week) and some liquid we put in his food (wetened with water) to help with the throat pain, as well as 3 shots to help with immunity.
Within a week his eyes were better again, his lymph nodes weren't swollen anymore and he seemed perfectly fine. But about a week or so later, the coughing was still happening and when we went to the vet his eyes were a little infected again. We did the eye-drops again and a few days later they were fine again. The vet suggested an allergy could be causing this. As a test she put the pup on cortisol pills, and said that if the symptoms went away, it was (probably) allergies.
She suggested it might take a week for the cortisol to take effect, but within 2 days the couching was down to once or twice a day and by days 3 and 4 he was completely cured. I let her know and she told me to get off cortisol and give him antihistemines instead (betadorm), and also to watch out, as it could make him sleepy. He's been getting the pills for about 4 days and not only did it not help with his allergy symptoms, I feel like the coughing is even worse than before and his eyes are slightly infected AGAIN.
I just don't understand what could be going on. He's also getting Trazodone, but he took that before the allergy symptoms and also during the cortisol episode without any symptoms, so I don't believe it's that, but I figured I'd mention it regardless. I'd go to the vet, but due to holidays they are all closer and the couching sounds horrible. How can I help my dog?

I've been having a number of symptoms and recently found out my ferritin is 29, saturation is 9% and iron is 11. Do you think this can be attributing to some of these symptoms?
Symptoms include: Hair loss Headaches Muscle twitching Restless Leg Anxiety & Depression Dry skin Nail changes Itchy skin Digestive issues Nausea Insomnia and more
Anyone experience these?

I'm continuing to check in on my progress in case it's helpful for anyone else. I'm switching from Prozac 10mg to Lexapro 5mg after a two-day pause in between. Hoping to treat anxiety and dysthymia (chronic mild depression).
The headline of week 5 seems to be that my side effects are declining, but nothing super exciting is happening in terms of positive effects. My anxiety is probably lower overall, but until/unless the dysthymia budges as well, it's hard to feel excited about that, since mild depression plus mild fatigue minus anxiety usually results in just sitting around feeling unmotivated and gloomy.
That said, I'm on a very low dose so it might not be reasonable to expect major positive effects. I still plan to stick it out for at least 8 weeks on this dose to give it a fair shot so I don't increase unnecessarily (since this could also increase the amount of side effects I have to deal with long term and give me less runway to increase the dose down the road if it ever stops working for me).
Week 1:

• Mild headaches in the mornings of the first couple of days
• Intermittent sleepiness or restlessness/agitation (more of a refusal to settle down and focus on one thing rather than a need to move)
• Dry mouth
• Constipation starting around day 2
• Anxiety felt a little... different? Not gone but a little bit of a new vibe, like it was more distant and not grabbing onto real-life concerns
• Sometimes having a bit of trouble remembering a word or picking up a train of thought
• Vivid dreams! I actually enjoy these though.
• Notably, I didn't seem to get ANY nausea, and no remarkable insomnia (maybe a bit more trouble drifting off occasionally?)

Week 2:

• Falling into a pattern of mild depression in mornings (a feeling of bleakness and disinterest in doing anything), and the weird distant anxiety in evenings
• Lots of sleepiness in the morning, seem to be able to sleep in as long as I let myself
• Constipation may be improving but I upped my Miralax dose a lot
• Probably some sexual side effects but hard to tell, as Prozac also caused these for me; I'm ultimately hoping to find a medication that doesn't do this but willing to give this one a while if the med works otherwise, especially since there are reports that this is sometimes temporary for lexapro users
• Difficulty swallowing has returned along with lack of appetite (these are anxiety symptoms for me), but not as severe as it was pre-prozac; I was kind of expecting this during the transition period since anxiety gets worse before it gets better
• Vivid dreams remain; occasionally these have been nightmares but still consider this side effect more interesting than bad

Week 3

• Noticing more sleepiness throughout the day, not sure if it's actually getting worse or I'm just more aware of it because I was more forgiving of it early on and now it's been going on long enough to start to have impacts on my life functioning; on some days I haven't wanted to get up in the morning and then have started thinking about going to bed in the late afternoon
• Still weird/vivid dreams; I think I'm also waking up a bit more frequently in the night but without trouble getting back to sleep
• Anxiety seems in the 'normal' range for me, which is higher than I want it to be but not necessarily heightened any additional amount by the med adjustment
• Also kind of gloomy and demotivated which seems to go hand in hand with the sleepiness
• Maybe some trouble concentrating
• Sexual side effects continuing
• Constipation seems to be gone
• Low appetite but less difficulty with eating and swallowing

Week 4

• Some very sleepy, brainfoggy days, others where I felt more normal
• Mood was still mostly in the range where I would expect it to be when unmedicated (one morning did feel like a more positive mood)
• Sexual side effects continuing
• Appetite was high
• Lots of vivid dreams
• More insomnia (trouble falling asleep, waking up during the night) but still not enough to be a dealbreaker

Week 5

• Some mornings were more groggy, others were more alert. I wasn't noticing major fatigue symptoms outside of the mornings as much but I think I'm still sleepier than my unmedicated baseline
• Once or twice I noticed brainfoggy symptoms like having trouble finding the word I wanted or losing my train of thought
• Vivid dreams are continuing but I'm starting to get dreams with less stressful plotlines more often
• Sexual side effects seem to have faded
• Appetite is good
• Still having occasional insomnia and usually waking up once or twice in the night to use the bathroom, (which doesn't happen to me off meds); this isn't super bothersome for me as I fall back asleep easily
• I feel like my baseline anxiety levels are probably lower, though I did have a couple of anxiety spirals in response to specific events; the fact that they were noteworthy and countable seems like a positive sign
• 2 brief (a few hours) phases of what felt like a break from my dysthymia

M30, no smoker, on no meds.
I’m pretty sure I have Covid. I had a sore throat for a day followed by a mild headache and general weakness. This was 7 days ago.
3 days ago I developed this really itchy cough that’s way worse when lying down trying to sleep. Over the past three days I’ve had about 7 hours sleep max. I laid in bed last night for about 11 hours and only managed sleep for about 2.
I’ve tried salt water rinses/gargles, honey and lemon teas, kept water near me , covonia. Despite all this, shortly after lying I’ll start coughing, that proceeds by more coughing. It’s a real itchy, dry cough, that’s persistent and feels non stop. I keep hacking up yellow mucus as well.
When I get up and walk around it’s still there but I at least get a break from it here and there.
Not sure if this is covid or pneumonia.
Any tips on remedies/what to help?

M30, no smoker, on no meds.
I’m pretty sure I have Covid. I had a sore throat for a day followed by a mild headache and general weakness. This was 7 days ago.
3 days ago I developed this really itchy cough that’s way worse when lying down trying to sleep. Over the past three days I’ve had about 7 hours sleep max. I laid in bed last night for about 11 hours and only managed sleep for about 2.
I’ve tried salt water rinses/gargles, honey and lemon teas, kept water near me , covonia. Despite all this, shortly after lying I’ll start coughing, that proceeds by more coughing. It’s a real itchy, dry cough, that’s persistent and feels non stop. I keep hacking up yellow mucus as well.
When I get up and walk around it’s still there but I at least get a break from it here and there.
Not sure if this is covid or pneumonia.
Any tips on remedies/what to help?

before we start, i wanted to thank you all for actually reading these. a sincere thanks! also, a pterrific night out WILL get a new review later on (i first wanna finish the other mods). and i wanted to adress something about mods involving wani characters. until i get wani, i will not review it nor its mods and snoot game mods that involve characters like inco or ben or olivia. now, lets get reviewin'!
Double Date- 5/10 kinda standart mod, doesnt really stand out but it has meme sound effects. the first drawing (lick) was pretty accurate to the artstyle but the rest were kinda rushed (understandable but not bad at all). really not much to say but it was nice
Fishing Trip- 9/10 this was really cool. even got its own inside joke with el gigante which made me laugh so hard i coughed from el dry-throat syndrome. im not sure how many endings does it have but i got two. not sure how to tell each other apart. sad that its not part of the canon story. i would LOVE to see ripley and anon get along better. one thing i didnt really like is the name of the ship. S.S. HITTLE isnt a good name for a ship in my opinion (cough S.S. cough). at least the boat was damaged enough for the sign to read "SHIT" (hell yeah)
GSWTP (Gay Sex With The Priest)- 7/10 i was confused as i couldnt understand from who's perspective is this mod from, then i realized it was some random unseen dude narrating. i also dont understand why is enrico pucci involved with this? not once is he mentioned or seen. other than that, awesome. great artstyle, finally a little more story with naomi (i am aware of the naomi route mod, its gonna be in one of the reviews). memes are also not rare in the mods (subaluwa sfx when naomi falls from a ladder just might be the next best thing) i also liked how they added the movie "the boy with the striped pajamas". i didnt watch it, im planning on it but i know that it's a good movie
welp that's it for this review. thanks for reading folks! ill see you next post <3
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So on top of everything else I've listed in my posts about gross shit my husband does and doesn't do. (Like not brushing his teeth, or using a scrubbie in the shower, or never clipping his toenails so they curl over the ends of his toes and are dark brown and yellow.)
My husband is ALWAYS congested. Right? So he's ALWAYS coughing and sounds like he has bronchitis. Well the other thing he ALWAYS does? He coughs up mucus on the walls/surfaces and leaves it there.
Just leaves it.
Doesn't bother to wipe it up right away like a NORMAL HUMAN BEING WHO CONSIDERS OTHERS FEELINGS AND COMFORT.
He leaves it.
There are over 100 splotches of dried mucus all over the walls of our current rental. And if I ask him to clean it up? He doesn't. The wall next to the bed where he sleeps? Literally covered in mucus.
I've stepped in it. Rolled over in it. Sat in it on chairs or the couch. Had it unintentionally wiped on my face by a kid with a blanket that he COUGHED IN TO AND DIDNT CARE TO PUT IN THE LAUNDRY.
Yeah. My kid was cuddling with his glorified, wet sticky handkerchief. If I could post pictures here... I still wouldn't because it's so fucking gross nobody deserves to be exposed to it.
If I don't notice it somewhere and it gets on me and I get grossed out and tell him to clean it off me and wipe it off whatever surface it's on, he acts like I'M THE PROBLEM.
MY HUSBAND COUGHS UP THICK DARK MUCUS ONTO THE WALLS AND OTHER SURFACES IN THE HOUSE AND HE DOESNT FUCKING CLEAN IT BUT IM THE ABUSIVE ONE BECAUSE I CALL HIM A JACKASS WHEN HE GETS ANNOYED AT ME FOR HAVING TO ASK HIM TO CLEAN IT UP MULTIPLE TIMES Y'ALL.
He doesn't cough into a tissue or anything. He just coughs in the open and sprays everything.