Hello everyone so I am a student who is currently at 11th and doesn't know what to do. I have wasted 2 months thinking about this stream situation and can't reach at a concreate conclusion.
Mei Sciecne (PCM) aur commerce mei decide nahi kar paa rha hu. Originally mereko science leni thi aur mujhe aapna 100 % starting se hi dena tha lekin mere school ne mujhe science stream nahi di aur bola tha wait karne boards tak aur abhi tak nahi di. Mujhe aapna career CS mei banana hai aur ab mei kaafi hopeless feel kar rha hu. mere parents keh rahe hai ki commerce lelo kyuki wo zada easy rahega aur 12 th mei percentage bhi aachi aajayegi aur tumhe baaki activities ke liye time bhi mil jayega. Personally mujhe commerce mei interest nahi dikh rha aur mujhe lag rha hai ki mei commerce isliye le rha hu ki easily 12th ho jaye aur mujhe commerce wale career paths mei koi interest nahi hai jaise CA, finance etc. Lekin mujhe Science ke liye bhi equally doubt ho rha hai kyuki Science kaafi mushkil hoti hai aur mere aas paas saare log keh rahe hai ki commerce hi karlo kyuki aasani se 12th ho jayega + mene already 2 mahine se thik se padhai nahi ki issi stream situation ke kaaran aur.
meine starting mei parents se bolke school change try kiya tha lekin woh pura nahi ho paya kyuki mene panic karke back off kardiya (ab regret ho rha hai) ab mere parents kaafi gussa hai merese. Woh toh keh rahe hai ko commerce karlo. frustation se.
Please help.

So I am using a throwaway account for obvious reasons. Idk why reddit keeeeps deleting my throwaway accounts. So even if you peeps see my account was deleted again just help me out I will be back with another id.
Coming to the topic- fresher tard. class 12 I got 78 percentage. Jee 60ish percentile in both attempts. And 81 marks in mhtcet. Didn't attend any coaching or anything, just regular school and pw ke lectures dekhta tha kabhi kabad (12th lakshya)
I am general candidate, ps I have gujrati minority quota. still i won't be getting any good college with such marks. It was my dream to get to ict mumbai somehow, because chemE really excited me. After both jee attempts I started preparing for cet again started givings mocks and shit. Highest I managed to score was 128 and lowest was 90ish or something iirc. No tukke offcourse. I really think I had gotten lucky in 128 marks one, because all the other mocks I gave I didn't cross 120. Scores were like in between 110-120. Mene analyse kare mocks, just to find out - my maths is weakest. Legit 50 bhi nahi aate the aur agar mein mocks thode pehle Dena shuru kar deta toh I would have improved a bit. Lekin jitna time tha utna ghisa and got my maths to 60 marks (thanks to ganitank 10 days maths 70 wali video 🤲🤲🤲🤲🤲)
On exam day, I managed to fuck up everything. Anxiety itni bekaar ho gayi I couldn't recall one single thing. 20 questions in physics mene dekhe bhi nahi itna bura haal tha 🤡🚬 Rona aa raha tha legit physics and chem ke baad. Maths shuru hua, maths hua nahi mujhse kuch 20 solve kare khud se. Ab maths mein 48 ban rahe hai.
I don't want to take a drop year, 11th 12th has already left an un fixable scar on my mental health. I won't survive another year if I take a drop. Meri didi ne neet ke liye liya tha drop. Literally, woh depressed thi. First drop isi mein waste ho gaya, got herself together after a year. Parents ko convince Kara for another drop and 2nd drop mein she did just really goood. I don't think I have that spirit in me and personally mujhe khud nahi lena drop.
Are there any decent colleges in Pune i can get for chemical engineering? And I am not sure how much percentile I will get, according to ganitanks video my shift my moderate. So suggest any college for me, placement won't matter, kyuki masters karunga. Hopefully iss baar toh ho jaaye iit mein.
I am feeling suicidal because, my parents didn't expect anything from me ever. They just wanted me to land a good college with chemical engineering. But my stupid ass even failed to do that, like even after grinding my ass off, i am here ? Mein jindagi bhar mediocre he bana rahunga. Chutiya hu mein ek number ka. I am from small city and I live with my grandparents, even they are supportive asf. Covid ke time yaha aaya tha aaj bhi yahi hu, parents sent me here kyuki they thought staying away from city would be a good option. I wasn't really sure ki mujhe kya karna hai after 10th, mere dimag mein architecture tha and mene b arch ka exam Diya bhi. Drawing mein 99.1 percentile aayi sahi. lekin maths ne boond mardi meri please don't ask kitni aayi mujhe khud sharam aati hai dekh kar woh. 11th mein bhi yahi admission Kara Diya, theek he chal rahi thi life so didn't say anything and here I am today 🤡. Meri didi AIIMS mein hai won't tell whiche lekin not Delhi. Cousins are over achievers too bas mein reh gaya inke beech. Bc I hate myself for this. Couldn't even land a decent college 😭. IIT ka sapna ab bas gate se pura hoga, yaha pura ragadne ki try karunga.
There are a few personal reasons on why I am opting for chemE also I am really interested in it.
Tldr - chutiya failure hu mein. Cet 81 marks aa rahe hai. Don't want to take a drop. Chemical engineering karni hai, please suggest a few decent colleges in Pune except mit and dyp last mein rakho
I am sorry fkr my English. I am travelling, sitting in back of car typing this.

Mujhe mains me 34k aya hai , vit vellore me ece mila hai (cat 2 ) .
Boards me 85%(state board). manipal met me 171 , bitsat me 244 , srm 20k .
admission le liya hai , soch raha tha ki koi aur ach clg mil jayega to cancel kar duga .
Should i take vit ?

Bhai meine yeh group parsho hi join Kiya hia or mei dekh rha hun yaha log advance ke baad ki seat allotments pe aur kayi quota pe aur kayi saare different options for choosing colleges and branch pe baat kar rahe hai kisi ki rank Jaan ke Mera question hia ki itna deemag aur knowledge kaha se le rhe ho

sorry for my bad narration
mei ek bihari hu aur bangalore mei rahetha hu , aur aapne sahi socha mere bhi papa labour hai aur meri mummy garments company mei kaam karti hai 10 tak life mei jada exposure nhi mila ,aur 11th mei mere papa ne sifarish laga ke mera admission bangalore ke one of best schools mei karvaya , parallely mera bhai 12th pass kar raha tha from bangalore's second best school ( again sifarish se)" jiska fees 1 saal ka 1 lakh hai " , 11th mei jee neet k baare mei pata chala because of competitive nature in my school and decide kiya jee prep karunga aur top iits mei jaunga aur yehi ek tarika hai meri engineering complete karne k liye without being a burden on my parents ,started studying after school hrs didn't make much friends and didnt participate in fest which where too good for a avg middle class guy
PARALLELY MERI LIFE MEI BHAUT KUCH CHAL RAHA THA mere bhai ne 11, 12 mei kuch nhi padha covid mei bus idhar udar time waste karta tha ignoring our finacial conditions aur mere papa ne gold loan le rakha tha uski fees barne k liye, fir kya mere bhai ke 12th results aaye he failed in 2 subs got 55% he attempted sucide by drinking phenyl ( drama tha aise muje lagtha hai daat se bachne k liye ) admitted in hospital, neighbours aur relative ne papa ko bhaut sunaya ki vo hamlog ko bhaut pressurize karte hai padhne k liye .
my father gave him another chance , chathe toh padhai likhai chuda ke aapne sath kaam pe laga sakthe the lekin mere papa visionary the unno suna tha bhaut se bade bade log aapne boards exams fail hoke bhi life mei bhaut kuch kar leta
mere bhai ne drop liya vaise bhi usse koi clg nhi milne wala tha iss marks pe , he started prep for NDA pata nhi kyuu knowing only 300 get selected out of 6lakh people ( he was in ncc may be he had some interest in military) since he wasnt good in academics by the time he could understand the gravity of an competive exam 6 months passed he couldnt even clear written in first attempt , but in last 6months something got into him he really started studying hard , me and my father were happy seeing it and YES miracle happens he cleared written in last attempt and started prepertion for ssb interview
since it was his last attempt my father didn't wanted to take risk and wanted best for my brother , so my brother took coaching for 2 weeks in cavilier's centre ( just for knowledge it is considered to be allen in nda coaching industry ) and again father took loan for this WHICH WAS 20K FOR 2 weeks
After few weeks he went for allahbaad which was his centre (again travelling and clothing expenses ) he some how survived the deadly first day of ssb , GOD fucking playing with my parents emotions and giving hopes for 5 days , after the 5th day he was screened out ( matlab nhi hua ) , my parents were crushed by this , but some how kept smiling thinking that there child being a 12th fail had came this far and reached till last date of SSB
by this my brother got admission in some local clg ,promised my father he will clear cds/ afcat after his 3yrs of graduation . Ye hone k baad , mere 12th start hone wala the mene decide kar liya tha dummy school karunga aur self study karunga ghar se since mera school bhaut reputed tha muje boards pe focus karne k liye force kar rahethe , mene papa ko ye sab bataya aur vo man gye even through bhaut sifarisho ke baad mera admission yeha karvaya tha
after 2 years of jee prep i scored 98.3(29jan) 97.7(8apr) and now in adv i got 110 marks (which im not statisified with) itna mei gen category koi bhi top iit nhi milegi In the mean time my brother had completed his 1st yr and lost all his motivation which he had duringhis nda prep, he does some partime job he earns 3k and spends 5k in things like good clothing and living good clg life even after confronting him he says college life never goona come again he wants to enjoy it little bit
after checking through jossa 2023 im getting ece in some teir2 nit ( not so satisfying) i always dreamed myself studying in top iit and always had this childish dream that i would sell my rank and jo paise aayenge ghar pe deke sare loan khatam kardu parents ka kaam chudha kar char saal loan se padh lunga
ADVICE chahiye now i have two options:

1. koi teir2 nit mei ece lelu aur aaram se 4saal loan se padhu (killing my dream to study at top iit) and leave my parents on there own they dont have any other source of income after than there daily work ( by the way my both the parents are in there late 40's they have some joint pains and diabetes) and i dont except my brother for some help since he has 2yrs for cds/afcat
2. drop lelu koi aachi si offline coaching se , adv mei top 500 rank liye prep karu aur aapna sapna pura karu , aab obviously iss k liye paisa chahiye and again my father being my father and is ready to give away the only asset left for me by my brother (i.e some piece of land)

my father left the decision on me says tum ko jo theek lage karo ham dekhlenge , but adviced not to drop because im already studying from 11th , studying 1 more yr might be tough and depressing
PLEASE GUYS NEEDED SOME GENUINE ADVICE

Maine phele socha thi ki jahan se coaching Li thi wahan ke test paper unkoe app se kardunga par unhone account hi deactivate kar diya.
Toh maine socha ki mahthongo ki test series lo kya ya koi or kuch recommend karega droppers liya, Jayda budget nahi toh accha bata dena . (Abhi hi le lunga Jo acchi hai)
Aur ho sake toh free wale bhi full mock test ki pdf dedna please.
Reply kardena kam se kam aapna opinion •́⁠ ⁠ ⁠‿⁠ ⁠,⁠•̀ , drop year ka sawal hai dropper ki dua lagegi

Basically my problem is that I need to cut out drinking for better health.
Despite that, come Friday night, and I'm in party mode already by 6pm. My brain goes like this:

• what chakhna to prepare - kheera tamatar salad ya unhealthy mix of chips bhujia etc
• kya piyunga - beer and/or whiskey/gin/vodka/rum
• kaunse theke pe jaunga - govt wala ya woh mast mall me AC wala jaha thoda browse bhi kar sakte
• bag kitna bada le jau kyunki chakhna ki shopping bhi karni hai. Btw I have designated a specific bag for my daaru and chakhna shopping. Just seeing it evokes the memories of good times to come haha.
• kitne baje jau - 6-8 roads pe traffic kaafi rehta hai. 8-8.30 thoda Khali ho jayega lekin fir bc parents ke samne Jana padega. 9-9.30 tak jau to wife ko dikkat.

The planning and run upto the act itself gets me moving and excited so much, I guess it's a remnant of when I used to do it with friends back in the day (now all are very far from me) whenever we would do house parties every 2-3 weeks when we were in the same city. Scooty ya gaadi se jate the theke pe aur raste me chakhna bator lete the, sutta wagarah bhi. Fir sare jamte the flat pe jiske yaha ikhatte hote the, gana wana sab tayyar karke.
Back to the present - the Friday's I discipline myself to not drink turn out morose and I'm kinda uninterested to do anything.
So those who have conquered this problem, please give advice.

Lep pozdrav.
Razmišljam o nakupu/uvozu avtomobila.
Imam prijatelja iz Francije, ki bi mi prodal nek avto za lastno uporabo. Gre za rabljen avto.
Razmišljam, da bi od njega kupil kar 2 avtomobila ter enega še prodal kot način izravnave stroškov nakupa - Tukaj bi šlo predvsem za hiter zaslužek. Menim, da bi zaslužil cca 3-5.000 EUR
Seveda bi bil popolnoma transparenten do morebitnih kupcev pri prodaji drugega avtomobila. Avto bi najverjetneje le homologiral in plačal DMV, do registracije z moje strani ne bi prišlo.
Moje vprašanje je sledeče:
Če jaz uvozim 2 avtomobila, in enega od teh takoj prodam, vključno s svojim trenutnim, mi bo to povzročilo kakšen problem pri FURS-u? Ne vem namreč, če bi se kaj takega tretiralo kot pridobitna dejavnost in bi bil primoran plačati kazen.
Če uvozim 2 avtomobila istočasno so kakšni izgovori kot “prvi avto mi ni bil všeč” ipd., najverjetneje neprepričljivi.
Bi kaj takega povzročilo, da sem sploh na njihovem radarju? Ne vem, če paničarim ali če je moja skrb utemeljena.
Ima kdo kakšno anekdoto ali izkušnje s tem?
Hvala!

So mere Is saal jee me kuch Jayda khass nahi hua category cutoff bhi clear ki bs and the worst mere board me sirf 56% aaye
Idk how to say it but i believe ki me drop year me acha kar sakta hu online drop leke But baat ye h ki mere mummy papa keh rahe tu state board join kar Koi dikkat nahi lekin jab vo mujhe force karte h ki tu boards ki tuition laga
See tution se mujhe koi dikkat nahi me khud 3 ghante atleast boards ko dena chahta hu But vo 3 ghante se bhot Jayda le raha h
Aj me math ka tution gaya unhone ek hw karne ko de Diya ki ye exercise karke Lana And chemestry tution ki me baat hi karke aaya the unhone mujhse keh diya electro yaad karke Lena puchunga
Me ek ghanta tution gaya hu mujhe 5 ghante ka kaam karna pad raha h
Bhai dekho i know ye khai na khai mujhe benifit karega but mere Kai saare weak topics h jinhe atleast mujhe cover karna h jisse ek ache level pe aasaku ek base bsns saku
Idk man my parents just hate online unhe lagta h offline me hum teachers ko paise dinge to vo bhot kuch padha dinge Jab ki mera math ka teacher 10min late aata h roj I'm just here to rent

So mere Is saal jee me kuch Jayda khass nahi hua category cutoff bhi clear ki bs and the worst mere board me sirf 56% aaye
Idk how to say it but i believe ki me drop year me acha kar sakta hu online drop leke But baat ye h ki mere mummy papa keh rahe tu state board join kar Koi dikkat nahi lekin jab vo mujhe force karte h ki tu boards ki tuition laga
See tution se mujhe koi dikkat nahi me khud 3 ghante atleast boards ko dena chahta hu But vo 3 ghante se bhot Jayda le raha h
Aj me math ka tution gaya unhone ek hw karne ko de Diya ki ye exercise karke Lana And chemestry tution ki me baat hi karke aaya the unhone mujhse keh diya electro yaad karke Lena puchunga
Me ek ghanta tution gaya hu mujhe 5 ghante ka kaam karna pad raha h
Bhai dekho i know ye khai na khai mujhe benifit karega but mere Kai saare weak topics h jinhe atleast mujhe cover karna h jisse ek ache level pe aasaku ek base bsns saku
Idk man my parents just hate online unhe lagta h offline me hum teachers ko paise dinge to vo bhot kuch padha dinge Jab ki mera math ka teacher 10min late aata h roj
Mod please approve kar Dena yaar 🙏🏽

So mere Is saal jee me kuch Jayda khass nahi hua category cutoff bhi clear ki bs and the worst mere board me sirf 56% aaye
Idk how to say it but i believe ki me drop year me acha kar sakta hu online drop leke But baat ye h ki mere mummy papa keh rahe tu state board join kar Koi dikkat nahi lekin jab vo mujhe force karte h ki tu boards ki tuition laga
See tution se mujhe koi dikkat nahi me khud 3 ghante atleast boards ko dena chahta hu But vo 3 ghante se bhot Jayda le raha h
Aj me math ka tution gaya unhone ek hw karne ko de Diya ki ye exercise karke Lana And chemestry tution ki me baat hi karke aaya the unhone mujhse keh diya electro yaad karke Lena puchunga
Me ek ghanta tution gaya hu mujhe 5 ghante ka kaam karna pad raha h
Bhai dekho i know ye khai na khai mujhe benifit karega but mere Kai saare weak topics h jinhe atleast mujhe cover karna h jisse ek ache level pe aasaku ek base bsns saku
Idk man my parents just hate online unhe lagta h offline me hum teachers ko paise dinge to vo bhot kuch padha dinge Jab ki mera math ka teacher 10min late aata h roj I'm just here to rent

Pozdravljeni. Nekaj časa nazaj mi je na dopustu dopizdilo ker sem vedno po nahrbtniku iskal denarnico, in sem si pri indijcu za 8e kupil ped- erušo. Zadeva je uporabna za popizdit in od takrat naprej se ne ločim od nje. Notri imaš ključne stvari kot so telefon, denarnica, ključi od avta, kondomi, tablete proti driski, čike… nerabiš skrbeti katere hlače imaš oblečene in da boš zaradi žepov brez zadrge izgubil telefon. Prav tako ko v greš športat, ne rabiš s sabo vlačit nahrbtnika in če greš srat na javni vc z eno potezo odpneš torbico, in ne pobiraš denarnice po poscanih tleh. Opazil sem tudi da sem bolj samozavesten ko hodim po ulici, saj z tem dodatkom oddajam nekašen vajb moškega ki ima ključne stvari na svojem mestu, kar opazijo predvsem dekleta, ki me sedaj redno ogovarjajo in se ozirajo za menoj. Zadnjič ko sem šel iz diskoteke peš domov, me je legetimiral policaj in ko sem mu v 1.4 sekunde iz ped-eruše potegnil osebni dokument, mu ni bilo nič jasno in me je spustil naprej. Ker je obstoječa torbica zaradi uporabe in dejstva da je cenen ponaredek že dotrajana razmišljam o nakupu nove, oz več le teh. Potreboval bi eno klasično za vsak dan (šport in služba) in eno bol jebačko za na žurke in na lepše. Kaj priporočate? Katere firme so najbolj primerne? Predvsem me zanima mnenje deklet

When I am sitting in the room with my father only. We are discussing about my future he said" if you getting lower branch in dtu take it and do partial drop " Aur maine mana kar Diya and he agreed. Fir unhone bola ki " ab tum ek mahine ki coaching loga toh sasta padh jayega 1lakh se kam mai ,laine hoga bata dena dekhi jayegi " maine phele hi 3 -3:30 lakh laga diya coaching mai aur vo bhi itne mushkil se karva ya Ghar walo ne waste kar di . Maine soch rakha tha ki self karunga ya jaida se jaida online mai koi course le lunga. Par ab thoda acha lag raha hai ki parents mere support mai hai Aur guilt bhi ho raha hai ki kash phele padha hota .
Aur mere mind ka part andar se bol bhi Raha hai ki lele 1 aur saal coaching par andar se dusra part ke Raha hai ki matle( vaise bhi do saal li hai aur Ghar walo ki income ka maa behen kar Diya) jise karna hoga wo kaise bhi karle aur last mai maine yahi decide Kara hai ki mai self karunga.
Par ek security toh chahiye toh kya koi mujhe batayega ki koi dropper ne achi improvement ki hai kya drop year mai like (98-99%tile) (bas meri santushti ke liye sorry...•́⁠ ⁠ ⁠‿⁠ ⁠,⁠•̀)

Since this is my favourite sub and I feel more closer to the people here than anywhere else, I wanted to tell you something heartfelt. As a senior or as big brother, you can choose to take or ignore this advice.
Abhi you all are young and working hard to make your career and be successful. Don’t stop. Keep working hard. Win over failures. Everything will change soon BUT jab kabhi bhi bade aadmi ban jaoge na bas ek cheez ka dhyan rakhna. Yahi ki andar na ego mat aane dena. Degree badi hogi lekin insaaniyat se bda kuch nahi hota. Never ever stop being humble. Paisa, shohrat, daulat sab aa jayega lekin jab jaoge duniya se kuch bhi nahi bachega. Ye jo Zindagi hai na bht halki phulki si hai mere dost, bas zimmedaariyan bojh ban jaati hain.
Spend time with your parents, smile without any reason, eat good food, take that trip you wanted, help poor and needy people, be kind to them. Dekhna kaise unki ek smile tumhare andar changes layegi. Asal ameeri ye hoti hai. Ghar bangla gaadi toh sab le lete hain, tum bhi loge ek din jald lekin bas wo guroor ko apne se bada nahi hone dena. Remember from where you started, from where your parents started, what sacrifices you and they made.
Maanta hun tum kahoge bolna aasan hai and all but trust me life is what we make it. Bhul jayenge log tumhare marne ke kuch dino baad. Bas photo latki hogi ghar mein aur tab wo daulat kuch bank accounts mein reh jayegi bas kaagaz ban ke.
Jis din tumhari kitaboon ka bojh halka hoga, zindagi bhaari ho jaayegi.
Bas yahi kehna tha. Haar mat manna. Lage raho. Sabr aur shukar. Aur ek sher tum sabke naam :
Sabr ka raasta mushkil zaroor hota hai lekin
Sabr Krne walo ki manzil bohat khoobsurat hoti hai

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