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Hey there! I’m posting this in hopes of finding likeminded artists to make fantasy literature in drawn, manga-inspired format (graphic novel, webcomic, later maybe video game or anime) with aesthetic, intellectual and moral value. I wanna do this together with someone(s) who appreciate the depth of art wherever, however and in whatever format they encounter it. If this sounds like you, please continue reading to see if our tastes and ambitions align UwU
TLDR-version: Popular art (most fantasy and manga) is beautiful but mindless. Contemporary "high" art is mindful but ugly. I wish to make beautiful AND mindful drawing-based fantasy literature inspired by the classics. Wanna help?
Disclaimer: Take everything written here with a grain of salt. I’m trying to capture what’s on my mind about fiction and art in general and some of it is not nice - it involves a lot of heartfelt criticism, which may be felt as being offensive if taken the wrong way. My tenor is that I want to make better what in my eyes is currently being done wrong in the majority of art and entertainment (which includes this very separation). Note that anyhow, I do not care to change the way you make your art, this is just my vision for the art I wanna make (maybe together with you) and my tentative reasoning behind it.
My ambition
Essentially, my wish is to elevate fantasy and manga from popular entertainment to the level of high art and literature. I see huge potential in their youthful spirit and emotional force that is absent in the more accredited "high" art forms, which have been led astray by hegemonial trends in Western art since the early 20th century. With more refinement in aesthetic, moral and intellectual terms fantasy&manga might attain the same status as the best works of the world’s artistic heritage and make a meaningful contribution to humanity. Right now, works in these forms merely scratch the surface of what is possible, I think (which in fairness can be said about any human art to some extent). I want to unlock the vast potential of fiction dormant in these forms to help reshape human consciousness and make life on Earth a bit more beautiful.
What’s wrong with popular art
Most fantasy and manga works published to this day seem to me like products of an uncoordinated, unsophisticated play with the creative might of the human mind. While I consider some outcomes truly stunning and worthy of recognition (see my sources of inspiration below), most seem to lack refinement in several ways. Generally speaking, I see four issues: lack of aesthetic balance, intellectual coherence, moral responsibility and depth. Aesthetically, popular art commonly employs extremely strong and emotive means for purposes that do not seem to aesthetically justify these means. This exaggeration of means is what I would call kitsch (although this word has other meanings, too). I'd argue it is caused by insufficient refinement of aesthetic taste by author(s) and/or viewership. Intellectually, most works of popular art do not manage to develop a plot or setting without apparent fallacies – be they soft mistakes such as unconvincing blends of subject matter or hard logical inconsistencies in the presentation. Even though logical consistency may not always be necessary to express the point of a work, it seems to me that most fallacies simply stem from a lack of effort spent on careful development rather than being a result of artistic choice, and thus detract from a work's objective quality. Morally, most works of fantasy and manga, like entertainment in general, do not take much responsibility for the ideas they express. I'd argue that living in a world filled with needless suffering not caused by evil intent but rather by human ignorance and folly, there is little excuse for consuming people’s time with entertainment that does not help them grow as a person and even aggravates their biases. The blind reproduction of obsolete social norms combined with the blunt gratification of mundane urges is how in my eyes entertainment serves to keep people in a psychological cage of immaturity. Fiction in general could instead do humanity a great service, if it were approached by its creators with differentiated consideration rather than irresponsible dalliance or abusive commercial intents (the last point is especially applicable to big commercial studios). Finally, most works of popular art to my mind simply seem to lack depth – by this I mean expressing something worth expressing, a point not easily grasped with definitions and hence best left to individual judgement.
What I want to do better
To make artful literature based in fantasy and manga, inspiration may be drawn from the works of the Western canon and classics of other cultures. These works, considered classics due to some of their sublime qualities, can serve as role models in aesthetic, intellectual and sometimes moral terms. My goal, however, is not to just copy or re-express their content, but to abstract some of that which is sublime about them and apply it to themes of contemporary relevance in a broadly accessible format. Beyond this, I would want to draw inspiration from intellectual subject matters such as the histories of humanity, human cultures, religions, mythology, philosophy as well as from (natural) science, mathematics and logic. Because I consider it among the greatest treasures humanity has in its keeping, the beauty found in nature ought to take centre stage. Themes I'd like to address in my art include the following:

• The meaning of life
• The value of culture
• The ambivalent role(s) of religion(s)
• The contingency of history and of social norms
• Law and rebellion
• Power structures and exploitation
• The diversity of human cultures
• The joy of travelling
• The beauty of nature
• The beauty of mathematics and logic
• The aesthetics of sex and fictional sexuality
• The relationship between humans and other animals
• The relationship between humans and their environment
• The value of friendship and kindness
• ...

Importantly, while I want to widen people’s horizon, I do not wish to preach any prefabricated answers. Rather, I would like to show how to ask relevant questions and to instil thought on relevant topics. My goal is to create a holistic art that lives up to its responsibility for this world, by considering all relevant facets, consciously reducing bias and not leaving anything to “chance” except by deliberate choice. Due to this holistic quality, the art I envision cannot easily be done by myself alone, because it requires knowledge, reflection and adaptation in so many fields in addition to the artistic skills to implement it. For exactly this reason, I hope to find likeminded artists here whose goals and ideas align with mine and who would like to co-create this art with me.
Why contemporary "high" art is not living up to its purpose (brief analysis of art history)
Western high art has inevitably encountered an impasse in the beginning of the 20th century. In culmination of a trend the seed of which was sown during the Enlightenment, Western art has become ever more individualist, experimental and semantic and less generic, traditional and aesthetic in nature – it became detached from its natural state as a facet of human life embedded in culture and was turned instead by Enlightenment ideology into something absolute, independent of culture and religion. Thus, Western art became bathed in idiosyncrasy, focussed on discovering the new rather than perfecting the old and zealous for political assertiveness. This, together with other factors such as industrialisation, has led to a complete breakdown of artisanal traditions in the West during the 20th century and a fall into hyper-individualism, hyper-specialism and hyper-politicism, with modern and post-modern artists on the one side using rather than making art – mostly to political and ideological ends – and those on the other end of the spectrum becoming one-track specialists focussed entirely on single dimensions of artistic creation, developing particularities that caught their interest in an ever more withdrawn and specialised idiom, rather than attending to the big picture of their creation. In short, a loss of perspective has occurred and broken the will to create serious art of general appeal. Wagner’s notion of Gesamtkunstwerk has been abandoned to the domains of popular entertainment. This development is not purely negative, and I do not wish to denounce 20th century artists nor contemporary ones for that which I criticise in it. Individualism has made it possible for art to be explored in an unprecedented diversity of dimensions, immensely broadening the artistic horizon of our species. Specialisation and experimentation have shaped a plethora of artistic tools that now lie available at the feet of anyone willing to study them. And overt politicisation has given art an ethical relevance it had been lacking throughout most of human history and was and certainly is justified by the many wrongs in the world that need to be addressed. However, to move forward in the 21st century, I think we need to begin to free ourselves from the vast heritage of confusions and absurdities engendered in the 20th century and its associated loss of aesthetic merit in art and steer our course in a new direction, so as to get back on track with the greater project of creating a true, just and beautiful world, which in some way has always been subliminally inherent in art even before artists thought of themselves as such.
An art of hope
The 21st century ought to be a century of healing. The wounds inflicted upon the human soul, flesh and our environment in the 20th century, aptly captured in much of its purposefully horrifying art, need to be remedied. If we, however, just continue expressing pain, estrangement, disturbance and hatred in art, we are not going to help humanity overcome this dark historical period but will sooner turn it mad. I want to create an art of hope, not misery. For this purpose, popular art provides a much more fruitful basis in my opinion than contemporary "high" art. Popular artists dare what most “high” artists have not dared for almost a century, that is to create all sorts of beautiful things, although without sufficient sophistication and thus inferior in character. If popular appeal is valued more than depth, art has no meaning beyond mundane entertainment. To make popular art meaningful, it needs to turn from diversion into guidance.

Popular entertainment (most fantasy & manga)	Art for the 21st century (golden mean)	Contemporary high art (Staubkunst1 et al.)
Take: - Outward form - Strong means - Vernal spirit	Gesamtkunstwerk Three pillars of creation: aesthetic, intellectual and moral aspiration Holistic art, integrating all attainable domains of human knowledge Aesthetics are paramount	Take: - Intellectual coherence - Deliberate proportions - Ethical responsibility
- Unsophisticated, dumb humour, incoherent plots - Kitsch, i.e. excessive use of strongly evocative means for trivial purposes - Morally blind, reproducing flawed social norms	<-- current state of these	- Experimental, focussed on novelty rather than the big picture - Hyper-individualist, not appealing to the general population - Lost in semantics, i.e. overly focussed on (often political) statements rather than art for the sake of beauty

Why fantasy and manga
The reason I consider both fantasy and manga well-suited for this art is multi-faceted. Fantasy, at its root, is an abstraction and extension of myth. Myth is one of the oldest and most essential forms of fiction that has played a central role in the cultivation of meaning in virtually all human civilisations. With the dawn of a scientific worldview, it has largely lost its status due to the realisation that it is not real. Nevertheless, it is still extremely evocative and intimately connected to the human soul, rendering it effective as a medium of art. J.R.R. Tolkien, the paragon of fantasy, has shown to us how to create art of depth by interweaving invented myth, culture and language into an intricate narrative fabric. I would like, for one thing, to return fantasy to its origin that is the high literary and aesthetic standard of Tolkien’s legacy.
Manga, on the other hand, has enormous aesthetic, emotional and (pun intended) sexual potential. In visual art, one always has to prioritise certain features of the visual world over others, choosing which features to represent, since not all can be represented simultaneously. Some essential features may be represented more purely, and thus intelligibly, in drawing than in, say, photography – which is why most bird identification books feature drawn illustrations. Manga drawing, like much Japanese art, tends to prefer aesthetic purity over wealth of detail, the latter being commonly valued more in Western art. Thus, manga is characterised by an abstraction, purification and idealisation of certain essential aesthetic features of the visual world, especially human physiognomy. In this respect, it stands in a long tradition of Japanese arts abstracting aesthetic principles from nature and presenting them in a minimalistic, purified form – best exemplified by the Zen rock garden, which (among other aspects) uncovers the sublime aesthetics found in the pure spatial arrangement of objects. This principle IMO helps explain why manga characters tend to look sexually attractive – much rather than the goofy, in this regard less refined characters of, say, US-American comics – yet simultaneously, to a Western eye, somewhat plain and generic. They typically are a reduction of human visual features to that which lends humans outward beauty, giving manga characters aesthetic purity at the cost of aesthetic richness. Thus, when compared to real humans, they are less ugly but also less (deeply) beautiful. Because I consider aesthetic merit a primary goal of art, a healthy compromise between aesthetic purity, and thus intelligibility of the underlying principles, and aesthetic richness would be ideal, e.g. by enhancing manga style with elements from other visual art styles, taking inspiration from the canon of Western art and other classics.
Secondly, manga lends itself naturally to pornography (which weighs heavily in its tradition) due to the abovementioned sexual attractiveness of its characters. One of the things I wish to do in my art is to reveal aesthetic principles of sex and abstractions and idealisations of these principles expressible only via sexual fiction. I want to do this both for the immediate purpose of conveying aesthetic value as well as, in combination with a suitable narrative framework, to comment on human morality relating to sex and to provoke critical reflection on these issues (e.g. questioning heteronormativity). Manga is an extremely suitable medium for sexual art – as can be seen in the myriad of hentai, yaoi and doujinshi (=fan art) works containing sexual fantasies with varying degrees of abstraction from reality as well as the vibrant furry porn community – a peculiar example of fantastical sexuality expressed in visual art.
Lastly, works of manga and especially anime tend to have a strong immediate emotional impact. This, I think, is likely due to their heavy focus on portraying emotions rendered effective by the purity of their representation of emotional visual cues and, potentially, the attractiveness of their characters promoting identification with them by the audience. Exactly this emotional persuasiveness can be used to create empathy and thus makes them a wonderful tool for teaching moral values, such as the value of friendship, as exemplified frequently in the Shōnen genre. This third aspect makes both manga and anime well-suited as ethical art, the most brilliant example of which are the works by Miyazaki and the Studio Ghibli, that are deeply aesthetic as well as morally insightful. Lastly, both fantasy and manga are popular art forms primarily among the young generation, who are the most willing and able to let their souls be inspired. Thus, this format has a high transformative potential, which is just what is needed to make art of use to the future of humankind.
What I would wish for in a partner on this creative journey

• First and foremost: well-conceived taste. No mere "liking" or "disliking" of works of art, but rather discerning and considering both good and bad qualities in any given piece, making nuanced judgements. I personally may well appreciate both a fantasy wallpaper and a fresco by Michelangelo, but I am aware of their differences in quality and cultural significance and therefore have a just estimation of their respective value.
• Ardent love for fantasy, manga and optionally other popular art forms.
• Relevant artistic skills, ideally manga drawing and/or other visual art skills.
• Intellectual curiosity and sound historical, philosophical and scientific education, as a basis for discussion of the above-mentioned themes and others to be addressed in our art.
• Interest in sexual aesthetics and a wish to explore (in fiction) sexual possibility space beyond mundane restrictions.
• Firm moral commitment and a wish to make art that is politically relevant, yet soundly aesthetic.
• Enthusiasm for foreign cultures.
• Deep appreciation for the beauty found in nature.

What is NOT necessary

• Formal training in anything.
• I do not mind whether you agree with my interpretation of art history. It's enough if you, like me, wish to make serious art out of fantasy and manga and appreciate the broad direction I outlined here.
• Don’t think you need to be amazing without any need for improvement. I’m not. We can grow together, let’s just start! UwU

What I bring to the table

• An artistic vision.
• Literary skills in nonfiction and belletristic writing.
• Advanced education in natural science, (world) history, mythology, Western classical music as well as philological skills (Sanskrit, Latin) and other language skills (Japanese, Quenya).
• A fantasy world in an advanced worldbuilding stage ‘optimised’ for expressive potential regarding the above-mentioned themes with an unfinished epic tale to take place in it.
• Affluent experience of foreign cultures and the beauty found in nature through extensive travelling.
• The ability to offer and take constructive criticism.
• Moral commitment, dedication to sustainability, animal rights and the future of humanity.
• Skills in music composition for Western classical instruments.

How to contact me
[~black_phoenix143@web.de~](mailto:black_phoenix143@web.de)
I’m looking forward to hearing from you😊 Let’s beautify the world!
Sources of inspiration
The following is a list of the most relevant works of popular art that have so far influenced me. I am not listing works of high art (except arguably Tolkien’s), as these would fill pages and not be illuminating as regards my approach to elevating fantasy and manga.

Works	My thoughts on these
Manga & Anime:
Ghibli movies	enormous aesthetic value and moral insight, intellectually somewhat lacking (but made primarily for children)
Tenshi no Tamago	aesthetically deep and intellectually curious, addressing the spiritual struggle of human existence in a bleak world, raising questions of faith, truth and illusion
Angel Sanctuary	a just and beautiful reckoning with immoral societal purity codes around incest, curious exploration of gender norms
Ghost in the Shell	aesthetically and somewhat intellectually impressive, asking deep questions related to the interaction of the “self” with technology and the future of consciousness
Neon Genesis Evangelion (finale)	intellectually stimulating via fundamental philosophical questions raised regarding human togetherness, aesthetically stimulating use of Western classical music
The opening of Elfen Lied	pretty artworks inspired by Gustav Klimt accompanied by a beautiful song inspired by Gregorian chant
Selected hentai, yaoi, doujinshi and furry porn works	exemplifying the purely aesthetic insights found in sexual fiction
Literature:
J.R.R. Tolkien’s legacy, including the Silmarillion, Hobbit and Lord of the Rings	deeply aesthetic and rich in moral wisdom (though with moral flaws owed to his time), intellectually meaningful by exploring philology in fiction
Video Games:
Shadow of the Colossus	deeply aesthetic, evoking primal drives and intense natural and architectural beauty
Guild Wars 2	very beautiful in terms of landscapes and architecture, but intellectually unsophisticated and morally clueless
Planescape Torment	proves that philosophy may be a fruitful basis for a fantasy video game, intellectually and aesthetically uniquely rewarding
Baldur’s Gate	comparatively high literary standard for a fantasy video game, beautiful hand-drawn artworks, somewhat rich cultural basis thanks to D&D lore and some philosophically interesting themes
The Elder Scrolls 3: Morrowind	rich in cultural aesthetics, interesting treatment of colonial history and its socio-political implications in a fantasy setting, unique landscape design
Music:
Jeremy Soule	captures the beauty of landscapes and the joy of traveling (fictional worlds)

¹ One form of contemporary hight art most commonly found in exhibitions around the world is what I call Staubkunst (”dust art”). This may sound pejorative, especially against the backdrop of my criticising contemporary art in this very writing, but it is not meant so. The works I am referring to are predominantly experimental and seek to uncover the aesthetics, and non-aesthetics, of objects and subject matters which usually escape our notice in everyday life – though, as is typical of contemporary high art, they sometimes have a political semantic dimension as well. Among this category I count, for example, textural painting, rubbish photography, sound poetry and microtonal composition. The reason I call it “dust art” is because of the extremely narrow focus of this art, which reminds me of (and sometimes is literally located on) the microscopic level of dust particles. There is value in this art for people who have – commonly via their engagement with art – unlocked an interest in details most people do not even perceive. Staubkunst is a justified art form and has a rightful place in art exhibitions, either to widen willing people’s perceptive horizon or as a dialogue among experts.

Curiosity has led me to explore this rabbit hole for possibilities. I’m sleuthing for a romantic relationship.
About me: I wouldn’t call myself a typical 34 year old. I have a tendency to over share and am still learning about myself. If you are a fan of the Myers Briggs tests, astrological signs and all those good insightful things , I’m a solid INFJ-T. Considered a caregiver with ambition. Aquarius with a Capricorn Moon.
I am monogamous and single, desiring someone to grow with, encourage and support each other. I am Demi-sexual and butch/masc, meaning that it takes mental connection building for me to form meaningful relationships. It also means that while physical attraction is a great plus, it is not as important as mental and emotional connection. But, hey- it’s a huge plus if that spark happens and we are both attracted to each other psychically too!
Here is my photo for transparency. I’m 5’7 and “boxy”. I’m cosplaying as Link from Zelda BOTW. https://imgbox.com/qggdjQd3
I really do consider myself a super nerd, maybe there is some sapiosexual in there. Here is a slightly exhaustive list of my current hobbies and interests.
Ancient/Languages (Greek, Latin, Japanese, Hieroglyphics, Korean, etc.) Cryptology and Ciphers History/Philosophy Herbal Medicine/Gardening/Botany/Herbology (Carnivorous Plants ooh) The Occult / Tarot / Astrology I’m kinky as hell (You’ve been warned) True Crime / Mysteries Anime/Hentai/Yaoi/Yuri/Manga Marvel & DC Gaming [Call of Duty, PS5, Harvest Moon, Switch, PC, DDR] Libraries and Bookstores Furries, Woof. Museums Reading [Historical Fiction, Mystery, Thriller, Manga] Fanfiction & Writing (I write smut) Musical Instruments Biology/Microbiology/Chemistry/Science Cosplay & Roleplay
Music I like:
The Deftones Rammestein Imagine Dragons A Perfect Circle Korn Gorillaz Akira Yamaoka The Gazette Dir En Grey Radiohead Earth Wind & Fire Doja Cat The Last Dragon Soundtrack Grease Soundtrack Puscifer Disney Soundtracks Red Hot Chili Peppers
What I’m looking for:
I am permanently in East TN for a good amount of years to come, and would prefer East Coast or if luck strikes, the same state. However, I am willing to travel for the right person. I would prefer either a genderqueecis-female/non-binary/femme person but will consider others in special cases. I would also really prefer those around my age (30-38) because I think we will be able to relate better. Honestly, I just want to send flowers to your job to save your bad day. I’m a hopeless romantic.
If you couldn’t tell by the sheer length of this post, I talk a lot in message format because I feel able to express myself better this way? One sided conversations are not fun though, so if you aren’t interested anymore or are stuck, just say so ^{^} I will completely understand. I can be shy to start in person before you start to think I’m actually an extrovert. (I’m not). Ambition is great! Goals are wonderful! Let’s talk about it. Be my princess? lol
Thank you for taking the time to read this.

My signs I should’ve know I was bi/queer before I came out as one at 19/20. I’m still updating my current list for reflection and fun, so tell me what hits.

1. Sometimes I felt warm tingles when I sat and talked with someone I befriended or met in school (guys or girls).
2. When young Justin Bibber was the thing, I used to like him from afar in girl’s lockers (the hall lockers) from middle school
3. I almost kissed my male cousin when playing around in his room.
4. I was a sensitive, quiet, and quirky boy (introvert)
5. I was curious about gay porn in HS, that I watched it and kept getting intrigued with guys dicks. Even when I watched straight porn, I was more interested in the guy and other times the women, or the roles between the two.
6. Every time I heard about a straight relationship, I felt indifferent and sometimes envious. In fact, I wasn’t too much thrilled about the “normal” romances or expectations put upon me.
7. Liked art, cooking, technology, space, music (especially singing), leadership roles, and scholarly activities over sports and competition.
8. I wore suits and GQ looking clothes as my style than regular clothes in my school.
9. I kept looking up videos that showed homophobic preachers and protestors against LGBTQIA+ people, and felt uncomfortable about their rhetoric and values pressed on them about love. I guess figuring out my positions and feelings about them.
10. I was always curious about love without a true understanding of it—questioning possibly.
11. I had a thing for Rigby and Mordecai sexually, along with Sonic and Tails (Furry Vibes)
12. Felt indifferent about Leviticus 18:22 when it first was told to me by my father and others.
13. I kept thinking gay and queer as something complex than straightforward (usually people immediately were direct that they wasn’t gay)
14. I kept defending I was straight by my sexual attraction for women. Not romantic at the time.
15. Attracted to the guys who were slim, average built, and fair skinned. I was friends only at that time.
16. Dreamed a curly hair boy in my bed on summer mornings.
17. Liked a light-skinned guy playing basketball in the gym. He was someone I fantasied and pleasured myself when I was in the mood in my freshman year in college.
18. Once identified as “mostly straight” and hetero-flexible before bi
19. Liked the queer movies and yaoi anime when I was alone
20. Dated women that turned to be platonic, and nothing more.
21. People described me as an old soul
22. Love hanging around my female cousins for everything they did.
23. Spent a lot of time with my male friend across the street, and hanged out pretty close.
24. Overall curious and explorative mind, even when I was limited by traditional values snd Christian faith
25. Loved female music artists when they played fem music. No questions asked.
26. Loved being alone in nature (mountains and waterfalls)
27. I felt like something was missing even when I liked women on a daily basis.
28. Always kept kissing and caressing my pillow in hopes it was a guy or girl.
29. Sometimes it felt wrong pleasuring myself with a woman, but totally felt fine with a guy (just carried shame and repressed thoughts)
30. My mother kept asking me if I was gay, for she saw somethings I did (mother knows best)
31. If I did like a woman, she had to have short hair, independent, and likely natural—closely like a tomboy.
32. Liked to give more hugs than handshakes to people.
33. Always liked riding my bike as a kid, especially my dad’s motorcycle.