My first reddit post, hope you guys go easy on me.

1. Her

I met her (let's call her missybusy) through a common friend group. My friends from my previous school were still connected to me and I often used to meet them. She was new to that friend group and it was her first time coming for a meetup. My friend has a pretty big place so a lot of us could accommodate at the same time. I am usually quiet and I talk less. I was sitting in the corner on the sofa and then I saw her enter through the door along with one other friend of mine. And oh my god, I was in awe and amazement because truthfully, I had never seen a girl so pretty and radiant. Her eyes were bright like the moon at night, her complexion fair like milk and her smile was just so beautiful I can’t even describe it in words. She was the quiet one as well so we both were seated in the corner having small to no conversation. This was my first meeting with her and then we met on multiple other meetups and it was always a few words of exchange. One of my friends (let's call him Dave) was actually sort of close to her and they both used to talk frequently. However, some problems arrived between Dave and missybusy and so Dave reached out to me for help. So, I tried to solve matters by talking to both Missybusy and Dave and this is how I started talking properly to Missybusy. I tried to solve the matter and, in the process, I became friends with Missybusy. And she was really fun to talk to! all this time I perceived her to be quiet and less talkative but when I started to talk to her, I realized that she has an amazing personality besides being so pretty. And around that time my friendship with her strengthened and we used to talk frequently but not every day. And somewhere among these conversations I developed a liking for her and so did she. We used to flirt a lot and it was so fun and pure. This went on for around 3 to 4 months and we continued to flirt and talk. And it was around the time of January when she had returned from the farewell of her high school and she showed me the pictures and she looked gorgeous. An absolute angel. And that night of constant flirting I always kept mentioning about another her in front Missybusy, I did that so she wouldn’t suspect that I liked her. But then she got serious and she confessed that she liked me and I was in a small shock but then I confessed to her as well. At this point one would think that this is it, this is where you guys get into a relationship. But no, I actually asked her to wait for our final exams to be over and even she wanted this. Around One and a half month later we went on our first date. And it was peaceful but it was a very dull date to be honest I took her from one place to another which I feel was terrible. I screwed up the first date. But she told me it was really peaceful and so I didn’t think much of it back then. We kept talking over WhatsApp and Instagram for almost another 2 months but we were not in a relationship yet because she said she wanted time and I believed I shouldn’t pressure her so I kept waiting thinking we have all the time in the world. She was an introvert and she didn’t go out much she liked staying at home more and I sort of found this trait cute, although it meant we didn’t get to meet a lot. 2. Dates and Love In the month of June, we went for another date and spoiler alert, this is the day I fell in love with her. We went to watch a movie- Spiderman, into the spider-verse, and to be honest the movie was decently funny and every time Missybusy laughed I looked at her and adored her smile. I noticed she was shivering, she felt cold because the cinema hall was actually very cold so I wrapped my arm around her so she wouldn’t feel cold and she just came closer and the annoying armrest was like a wall in between. In that moment, I made my purest and most honest wish to God (I’m very spiritual and religious). I asked God to always keep Missybusy happy no matter what. After the movie we exited the hall and we were standing near the exit of the mall and just talking and laughing. It was a blissful moment I can never forget that moment ever. She just jokingly pushed me and I literally fell down and I’ve got to say it was funny as hell. And while I was on the ground I saw her laughing so loudly and openly that I… I also fell in love. I was madly in love. We laughed and talked for another half an hour more and then the both of us went home. While on my way to home I realized that I had fallen for her and everything around me felt so soothing, so amazing and I was so happy. This was my favorite day with her and my best day yet. It was perfect, it was divine it was full of amazement and I for the first time felt what is it like to love. One problem I’ve always had is expressing my feelings. I end up thinking what the other person is going to think about my feelings and I’m going to be judged. But I still told her I love you but she hadn’t said it back yet. Another date we went on that she considered her favorite day with me was when we went to have pizzas. At first, we just walked around, talked a lot and laughed together. Held hands and roamed the paths. Then we came across a pizza shop and decided to have some pizza. Oh boy did I know what the day was going to unfold. She has two siblings so she always had been a fast eater when it came to pizzas and ice creams and at that time, I didn’t know that she ate pizzas so quickly. She finished her whole pizzas before I could finish two slices and to be fair, I’ve always been a slow eater and I didn’t eat very spicy food at the time. So, she was done with her pizza way before I had. She added chili flakes to my pizza slice which slowed my pace even more and she just sat there watching me eat and laughed at me while I was just trying my best to eat the pizza. I realized how much she was enjoying this so I just prolonged this whole thing, I ate slower, I made faces and I even called her a bully and she was laughing so much and, in my heart, I enjoyed that so much. I usually don’t allow people to mess with my food but seeing her laugh I just wanted this moment to last forever. A couple of time later, when everyone was busy filling applications for college, one of our friends (let’s call her jane) hosted a birthday party. The plan was that she will invite us all to our house and then from there we’ll go to a restaurant. So Missybusy and I went to buy gift for our friend and we bought two identical plushies for Jane. Anyways, that day was so special. Because when we all went back home and when Missybusy and I were talking over WhatsApp she said ‘I love you’. For the first time ever, I heard it from her, although it was still on text, I was jumping around screaming in joy and a few tears of joy appeared. I was beaming with joy. I was so happy. This should mean we were finally together, right? Nope. Our colleges were about to start soon and we both were enrolled in a different college, she said she wanted to see how our college life is going to affect our relationship. I didn’t think of it much since what could’ve gone wrong? College started and one month in and I could feel the distance increasing between us and she seemed busier than usual obviously but somewhere because of this she wasn’t giving me much time either. It was a Sunday afternoon when I confronted her about this and she seemed to have realized this as well and she said she’s really sorry about all this. But in the end, she said a relationship doesn’t seem possible. I was devastated but I didn’t shout or yell at her I tried to convince her in everyway possible. But it was futile. It seemed impossible to convince her. And the call ended with a goodbye.

1. The real end Another problem that I had this whole time was not knowing when to give up trying and give up trying to keep her happy instead of myself. One day later she texted me and she asked if we could meet because she believed I deserved a proper goodbye. And I eventually went to meet her the very next day. And we talked a lot. She said she felt really sorry and she told me that I deserved the best. She told me she was overwhelmed by college; she saw so many faces together and it was difficult for her. I was just super sad but anyhow I controlled myself and I didn’t cry in front of her. But she did, she started crying and I couldn’t hold back then, I hugged her and patted her head telling it’s alright. After she stopped crying, she said she’s sorry and she told me she changed her mind, she had some expectations from a relationship and one of them was physical touch and since we lived far from each other that seemed less likely but she said one has to sacrifice something for love, and I was just confused. I didn’t know what to say, what to do. I said I’ll let her know. Less than an hour after we went back to our homes, I messaged her saying that I’m ready and I want to be with her. Because I thought God had given us a second chance and I believed that it is very much possible and I shouldn’t take too long to tell her.

Everything was perfect for about a month. It was the month of October; we had a small quarrel over something and the next day I called her to apologize. But something seemed different, something felt off. She said it’s okay but I could feel something was off. The worst day of the year and the worst time of that day. She told me her brother had run away from their house because of something that happened with him and a girl and their family was in a lot of panic, and she was obviously worried and scared. She prayed to God to return her brother and she promised that she will never date someone again. I stood there, without movement, without words and I realized what it had meant. It meant an official goodbye. Breaking up in a way one could never expect. She told me to promise to not tell this reason for breakup to my friends (common friend group). I was the one who was given up. The call ended with both of us saying I love you but for the last time ever. I wasn’t at home; I was outside in a park. I felt as if someone had stabbed me right through the heart. I couldn’t feel the wind anymore. People seemed to have stopped talking. The sky lost its color, the birds stopped chirping. My whole world had come to a pause. I couldn’t think straight. I returned home acting normal. My father had come to visit, he rarely visits the city because him and my mother are separated so I don’t get to see my whole family together often so I didn’t want to spoil it. My mother and sister knew about Missybusy. Later that night I told my mom and sister that we broke up and my mom was worried but I told her to not worry because I was fine and I never told them the actual reason either, I just keep telling them I got bored of her so that they won’t worry about me, besides I had created such a wonderful image of missybusy for them I thought I should let it be that way. I couldn’t tell me friends what had happened, I didn’t tell my mom and sister what actually happened. I just kept it to myself and it hurt. It hurt really bad. I felt as if I had given her my heart and she shattered it and threw it away. I never hated her for it and I always blamed the circumstances.

1. Life goes on

I was broken. And as any person after a breakup felt sad and sorrowful, so did I. But I kept my emotions bottled and never told anyone the actual reason. I did everything possible to keep myself distracted, I played games for many hours in a day, I talked to multiple people at once, I scrolled Instagram for hours and I was even addicted. I was losing control and I was falling in a huge pit. Days went by, I was in a terrible mental state. I attended every meetup possible even the ones I didn’t feel like going to, I was spending money like I was a millionaire or something, and I was running out of it. In the month of December, I went to visit my father and when he went for work I was alone and bored so I re-installed snapchat and just took a snap and sent it to all, I didn’t realize it went to Missybusy as well. She replied to that snap and asked how I am doing and we started a small conversation, we were just catching up and all. I was still in a poor mental state but honestly it just felt good talking to her again. And I asked her one question- “When exactly did you move on” and she replied she hadn’t. I felt bad because I realized it must’ve been difficult for her as well, college was tough for her. She told me she dated someone for two days. I was devastated yet again. So that promise for which we had to break up meant nothing. But for some reason a part of me was relieved anyway because she didn’t deserve all this. But what about me? I felt self-pity at that point honestly. When she was gone, I felt as if a part of me was taken away. I never asked for this and I never thought that I’ll have to go through all this when I first said I love you to her. Although we decided we should keep talking but I just couldn’t, after everything I could not just see her as a friend, I’ll always see her as my first love. I always try my best to smile and fool around my friends because that's who I was before I met her but I didn’t force it back then. When I returned to my city, I knew I couldn’t let these bad habits be my future. I knew what happened with me wasn’t fair but I couldn’t let that destroy my career or life. I started learning new things. I got into the stock market learnt a bit of trading and made good sum of money. I was still playing games and was still somewhat addicted. But slowly but surely, I was recollecting myself. I tried avoiding meetups with my school friends’ group because they always bring up this topic and I just hated that. I wanted peace. No matter how the days went by the night were always difficult, I didn’t hate her but I hated that the thought of her kept coming in my mind. It was always hard to fall asleep.

1. The Present I’m still not over her completely. A part of me will always have hope for her to come back even though my mind knows otherwise but the heart is just weird. I met my school group friends after a long time and I felt good. There were four of us (Me, Dave and let’s call the other two Bob and Marley). I get along with Marley very well, he has his college in a different city so whenever he comes here, I make sure to meet him separately. When I met Marley, we went to a café just to have food and talk really, he asked me why does no one know the real reason for my and Missybusy's breakup. I just told him that it’s complicated. Then Marley told me that he heard from Bob and Dave that they told him that Missybusy started to like someone else that is why you both broke up. It was unprecedented to me. I felt weird, I felt a weird sting. I went back home and I messaged her to confront about this, I was taken away by my impulses. She assured me that wasn’t it and then we started talking like normal people do, talked about each other’s friends’, each other’s college life and so on. Then she asked if it’s possible to meet because it had been so long! And I was honestly scared to meet her but I just agreed anyway. 30th of may we met at a bowling and pool café. We sat there and talked about each other’s life. And honestly it seemed God did listen to my wish for keeping her happy because she had made good friends at college and obviously, she did have some problems but overall, she did seem happy and I was happy for that. The moment I saw her again after such a long time I realized nothing changed, she was just as pretty, her eyes were glowing just as usual and her fashion game was on the top. We made several eye contacts throughout and I could see a little pain in her eyes. It was the pain of guilt or pain of just losing, I won’t know for sure. When we were talking about our lives and what all had happened in these 7 and a half months, I felt so peaceful inside. But as soon as I mentioned what all I had to go through after out breakup she kept saying sorry and it felt as if I was just there to make her feel sorry. So, I refrained from talking about that. But then what did I have to talk about? Most of these months I had spent in misery and apart from that I told her about the little breakthroughs that I made in the market and I told her how I made some good friends at college. But that was it really. So, she did most of the talking. I was just listening. I didn’t want to talk about what I had to go through all these months because I felt I’ll just pressure her with more guilt. I didn’t come here to meet her and just listen to her saying sorry. I only cared about her smile.

My failure of expressing came back to me, I couldn’t tell her that I still loved her, I couldn’t tell her I still miss her. I just listened to her and laughed with her. She asked me once more before we left the park where we were walking at the moment, can we still we be friends? I was hesitant. But I told her we couldn’t. I told her we won’t be able to give time to this friendship and besides I have my competitive exams in December so I need to focus on that. But that’s just a part of it, I can never view her as my friend but always as the person I loved.
When we exited the park, we were standing near her car (oh she drives great by the way!). I told her to go while I wait for my uber. I pushed her away (not physically), I kept telling her to go away. That was it, no hugs just goodbyes. I wanted to hug her but I didn’t want the part of me that still had hope to grow. As she drove away, I realized in the end, I did end up hurting her by telling her to just go away. I came back home, acted normal as usual. Lied to my mom and sister again and told them the 'meeting was fine but it was boring'. The next day when I was home alone. I burst out crying. I never cried this much before. Only I know what I have lost. I didn’t want the part of me that had hope to grow but I also didn’t want it to just die. I cried for hours until eventually I washed my face and waited for my mom and sister to return. Missybusy was gone. I know what I’ve lost. And I blame myself for it. I can physically feel the pain in my heart at this point. It hurts so much. I wish I never met her after she told me a relationship isn’t possible. I wish I was never in love. I wish I never love again. I wish to be never this vulnerable again. I had gone through so much pain in those months and tried to act normal in front of everyone. I can’t tell how many thoughts crossed my mind daily. I just kept it bottled up within me. In the end I think God doesn’t like my heart. When I was in my mother’s womb it was found that I had a very faint heartbeat. As soon as I was born, I was taken into the ICU for surgery. Five years later it was found I have a low BPM. And so many years later my heart was broken into pieces. God doesn’t like my heart.

Quotes About Adventure

1. "Life is an adventure, not a guided tour."

2. "The best journeys in life are those that answer questions you never thought to ask."

3. "Adventure awaits where the pavement ends."

Quotes About Exploration

4. "Exploration is really the essence of the human spirit."

5. "To travel is to discover that everyone is wrong about other countries."

6. "Exploration is curiosity put into action."

Quotes About Nature

7. "In every walk with nature, one receives far more than he seeks."

8. "Nature always wears the colors of the spirit."

9. "The mountains are calling, and I must go."

Quotes About Courage

10. "Courage is not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it."

11. "It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are."

12. "The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today."

Quotes About Challenge

13. "The greater the obstacle, the more glory in overcoming it."

14. "Challenges are what make life interesting. Overcoming them is what makes life meaningful."

15. "Difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations."

Quotes About Freedom

16. "Freedom lies in being bold."

17. "Freedom is the open window through which pours the sunlight of the human spirit."

18. "The secret of happiness is freedom, the secret of freedom is courage."

Quotes About Persistence

19. "Success is not final, failure is not fatal: It is the courage to continue that counts."

20. "Persistence can change failure into extraordinary achievement."

21. "The only way to do great work is to love what you do."

Quotes About Discovery

22. "The biggest adventure you can ever take is to live the life of your dreams."

23. "Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all."

24. "The purpose of life is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience."

Quotes About Camaraderie

25. "The joy is in the journey, not the destination."

26. "Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, 'What! You too? I thought I was the only one.'"

27. "The only way to have a friend is to be one."

Quotes About Resilience

28. "You are stronger than you think."

29. "Tough times never last, but tough people do."

30. "Fall down seven times, stand up eight."

Quotes About Passion

31. "Passion is energy. Feel the power that comes from focusing on what excites you."

32. "The only thing standing between you and your goal is the story you keep telling yourself as to why you can't achieve it."

33. "Do what you love, and you'll never have a problem with Monday."

Quotes About Independence

34. "Independence is happiness."

35. "Don't let the fear of losing be greater than the excitement of winning."

36. "The only person you should try to be better than is the person you were yesterday."

Quotes About Vision

37. "The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams."

38. "Your imagination is your preview of life's coming attractions."

39. "Believe you can and you're halfway there."

Quotes About Adversity

40. "Adversity introduces a man to himself."

41. "The gem cannot be polished without friction, nor man perfected without trials."

42. "Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths."

Quotes About Empowerment

43. "Empower yourself. You control your destiny."

44. "You have within you right now, everything you need to deal with whatever the world can throw at you."

45. "Believe in yourself and all that you are. Know that there is something inside you that is greater than any obstacle."

Quotes About Gratitude

46. "Gratitude is the healthiest of all human emotions."

47. "The more you are grateful for, the more you will have to be grateful for."

48. "Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life."

Quotes About Achievement

49. "Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful."

50. "Success is stumbling from failure to failure with no loss of enthusiasm."

51. "The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today."

Quotes About Exploration

52. "The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance."

53. "The world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page."

54. "Adventure is worthwhile."

Quotes About Passion

55. "Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail."

56. "Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors where there were only walls."

57. "Passion is the genesis of genius."

Quotes About Resilience

58. "The only way out is through."

59. "Life doesn't get easier or more forgiving, we get stronger and more resilient."

60. "Life is tough, but so are you."

Quotes About Freedom

61. "Freedom is the oxygen of the soul."

62. "The secret to happiness is freedom... And the secret to freedom is courage."

63. "Freedom is the will to be responsible to ourselves."

Quotes About Adversity

64. "Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass but learning to dance in the rain."

65. "Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths."

66. "Adversity causes some men to break; others to break records."

Quotes About Courage

67. "Courage is grace under pressure."

68. "What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything?"

69. "Courage is not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it."

Quotes About Persistence

70. "Persistence is the twin sister of excellence. One is a matter of quality; the other, a matter of time."

71. "Success is walking from failure to failure with no loss of enthusiasm."

72. "The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather a lack of will."

Quotes About Teamwork

73. "Alone, we can do so little; together, we can do so much."

74. "Teamwork makes the dream work."

75. "Coming together is a beginning, staying together is progress, and working together is success."

Quotes About Determination

76. "The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today."

77. "The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather a lack in will."

78. "Determination today leads to success tomorrow."

Quotes About Inspiration

79. "The only way to do great work is to love what you do."

80. "The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step."

81. "Don’t watch the clock; do what it does. Keep going."

Quotes About Motivation

82. "It's not about how bad you want it. It's about how hard you're willing to work for it."

83. "Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success."

84. "The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today."

Quotes About Success

85. "Success is not in what you have, but who you are."

86. "The only way to do great work is to love what you do."

87. "Success is not the destination, it's the journey."

Quotes About Adventure

88. "Adventure is worthwhile."

89. "Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all."

90. "The biggest adventure you can take is to live the life of your dreams."

Quotes About Nature

91. "In every walk with nature, one receives far more than he seeks."

92. "The earth has music for those who listen."

93. "The mountains are calling, and I must go."

Quotes About Freedom

94. "Freedom lies in being bold."

95. "Freedom is the oxygen of the soul."

96. "The secret to happiness is freedom... And the secret to freedom is courage."

Quotes About Resilience

97. "You are stronger than you think."

98. "The only way out is through."

99. "Life doesn't get easier or more forgiving, we get stronger and more resilient."

Quotes About Courage

100. "Courage is not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it."

Conclusion

Off-road adventures are more than just physical journeys; they represent the spirit of exploration, courage, and perseverance. These inspiring quotes encapsulate the essence of off-roading, reminding us to embrace challenges, seek adventure, and never lose sight of our dreams.

FAQs About Off-Roading Quotes

1. Are these quotes only for off-road enthusiasts? These quotes can inspire anyone who seeks adventure, challenges, and personal growth, not just off-road enthusiasts.
2. Can I use these quotes for my social media posts? Absolutely! Feel free to share these quotes on your social media platforms to inspire your friends and followers.
3. Are these quotes from famous personalities? Yes, some of these quotes are from renowned authors, adventurers, and thinkers who have embraced the spirit of exploration and adventure.
4. How can I apply these quotes to my everyday life? You can use these quotes as daily affirmations or as reminders to stay motivated, resilient, and adventurous in your pursuits.
5. Do you have any additional resources for off-road enthusiasts? Yes, there are many online communities, forums, and blogs dedicated to off-roading where you can find more inspiration, tips, and information about off-road adventures.Quotes About Adventure

1. "Life is an adventure, not a guided tour."

2. "The best journeys in life are those that answer questions you never thought to ask."

3. "Adventure awaits where the pavement ends."

Quotes About Exploration

4. "Exploration is really the essence of the human spirit."

5. "To travel is to discover that everyone is wrong about other countries."

6. "Exploration is curiosity put into action."

Quotes About Nature

7. "In every walk with nature, one receives far more than he seeks."

8. "Nature always wears the colors of the spirit."

9. "The mountains are calling, and I must go."

Quotes About Courage

10. "Courage is not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it."

11. "It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are."

12. "The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today."

Quotes About Challenge

13. "The greater the obstacle, the more glory in overcoming it."

14. "Challenges are what make life interesting. Overcoming them is what makes life meaningful."

15. "Difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations."

Quotes About Freedom

16. "Freedom lies in being bold."

17. "Freedom is the open window through which pours the sunlight of the human spirit."

18. "The secret of happiness is freedom, the secret of freedom is courage."

Quotes About Persistence

19. "Success is not final, failure is not fatal: It is the courage to continue that counts."

20. "Persistence can change failure into extraordinary achievement."

21. "The only way to do great work is to love what you do."

Quotes About Discovery

22. "The biggest adventure you can ever take is to live the life of your dreams."

23. "Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all."

24. "The purpose of life is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience."

Quotes About Camaraderie

25. "The joy is in the journey, not the destination."

26. "Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, 'What! You too? I thought I was the only one.'"

27. "The only way to have a friend is to be one."

Quotes About Resilience

28. "You are stronger than you think."

29. "Tough times never last, but tough people do."

30. "Fall down seven times, stand up eight."

Quotes About Passion

31. "Passion is energy. Feel the power that comes from focusing on what excites you."

32. "The only thing standing between you and your goal is the story you keep telling yourself as to why you can't achieve it."

33. "Do what you love, and you'll never have a problem with Monday."

Quotes About Independence

34. "Independence is happiness."

35. "Don't let the fear of losing be greater than the excitement of winning."

36. "The only person you should try to be better than is the person you were yesterday."

Quotes About Vision

37. "The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams."

38. "Your imagination is your preview of life's coming attractions."

39. "Believe you can and you're halfway there."

Quotes About Adversity

40. "Adversity introduces a man to himself."

41. "The gem cannot be polished without friction, nor man perfected without trials."

42. "Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths."

Quotes About Empowerment

43. "Empower yourself. You control your destiny."

44. "You have within you right now, everything you need to deal with whatever the world can throw at you."

45. "Believe in yourself and all that you are. Know that there is something inside you that is greater than any obstacle."

Quotes About Gratitude

46. "Gratitude is the healthiest of all human emotions."

47. "The more you are grateful for, the more you will have to be grateful for."

48. "Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life."

Quotes About Achievement

49. "Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful."

50. "Success is stumbling from failure to failure with no loss of enthusiasm."

51. "The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today."

Quotes About Exploration

52. "The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance."

53. "The world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page."

54. "Adventure is worthwhile."

Quotes About Passion

55. "Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail."

56. "Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors where there were only walls."

57. "Passion is the genesis of genius."

Quotes About Resilience

58. "The only way out is through."

59. "Life doesn't get easier or more forgiving, we get stronger and more resilient."

60. "Life is tough, but so are you."

Quotes About Freedom

61. "Freedom is the oxygen of the soul."

62. "The secret to happiness is freedom... And the secret to freedom is courage."

63. "Freedom is the will to be responsible to ourselves."

Quotes About Adversity

64. "Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass but learning to dance in the rain."

65. "Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths."

66. "Adversity causes some men to break; others to break records."

Quotes About Courage

67. "Courage is grace under pressure."

68. "What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything?"

69. "Courage is not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it."

Quotes About Persistence

Hi all,
I currently have a VM server with a Supermicro X9DRi-LN4 motherboard in a 1U chassis. It has served me well for casual home use, but it is very noisy and draws about 220W on average according to a power meter I installed at the wall. I also bought a rack for it long ago that takes up a lot of space that I would like to reclaim.
I've been researching for about two weeks now and I think I've come up with a replacement build I like. I would appreciate any comments pointing out anything critical I've missed (for example there's no way your drives would fit in that case, or that PSU won't support the motherboard, not enough cooling - you get the idea).
I plan on running GNU/Linux Debian 12 with the Xen hypervisor configured, because I'm used to it and as far as I can tell Xen is a good choice for security based on Qubes OS forums and the companies on the Xen security advisory lists. I considered Proxmox (KVM), but I just prefer Xen. I want the VMs (domUs) to run on ZFS zvols and I chose to use ECC RAM because it is recommended by TrueNAS forums. I will use ZFS mirroring.
My VM usage is light to medium and there are only a small number of users - git server, file server that downloads all my GOG games once a week with lgogdownloader, and some supporting VMs. I would like headroom for tinkering with things that are potentially more intense like Graylog and anything else I'm curious about. I don't do any transcoding and don't plan to.
As mentioned above, my goals are to reduce noise, power usage and physical size. I only plan on using 4 x 3.5" HDDs, I have no plans to use SSDs anytime soon, but the option is there. The build I came up with is pricier than I'd like, but I think it will last a long time:

• Supermicro X12SDV-4C-SP6F (Xeon D-1718T integrated, the D-1500 series just feels too old at this point)
• Fractal Design Meshify 2 Black ATX Case, NO PSU
• SeaSonic 550W FOCUS PX-550 Platinum PSU (I read the TrueNAS sizing guide and decided to size too large so I can add more drives without replacing the PSU)
• Supermicro Samsung 32GB DDR4 ECC RDIMM (MEM-DR432L-SL05-ER32 was what I could find locally) x 4
• WD Red Pro 16TB
• Toshiba N300 16TB
• WD Red Pro 8TB (I already have it)
• Toshiba N300 8TB (I already have it)

Does this build seem sane?

Hey everyone, this is my first post on this community page. I've been a newly qualified nurse in the NHS for 6 months, and I'm contemplating leaving my first RN position. My parents don’t speak English, so I help them with daily responsibilities, which can be very stressful. I worry about them while at work in case of an emergency. My sister and I have sought help from the council and social services, but their support is limited, so we handle most of it ourselves.
I work in the ophthalmology outpatient department, which has a high patient flow. We see about 250-300 patients a day across various clinics. While I love my supportive team, the management is problematic. Four months in, I was put on call after a long day, totaling 15 hours, with another long shift the following day. I was reassured I wouldn’t be on call until I felt confident and that it was unlikely to get called out at night, but that wasn't reassuring. By that stage, I wasn’t confident. When I told my line manager this, she said I’d be fine. I don’t understand how they allow on-call for nurses who do long days and may need to stay late, then get called anytime at night. It’s inhumane hours. I understand night shifts on wards as you know what hours you’ll do.
Another problem is that staff have raised issues about clinics numerous times to management, but they seem to shrug it off and not sort things out. During my supernumerary period, I initially received support, but after getting some things signed off, I was left to work on my own. Although I have a preceptor, I rarely get to work with her now. Initially, I loved this job, but after 4 months, it’s overwhelming due to the high patient volume. I feel deskilled as my tasks are limited to checking visual acuity, intra-ocular pressure, blood pressure, blood glucose, and instilling eye drops. I've had to take time off work due to stress at home and work, and I have recurring gastrointestinal issues under investigation by my doctor.
I loved community nursing and the minor injuries unit in my third year student nurse placement. I was offered a community post but declined it for this current job due to worrying about car wear. I now regret it because community nursing offers a lot in terms of skills, learning opportunities, and career progression. I’ve realized I want a nursing job with transferable skills and a variety of clinical tasks, which ophthalmology doesn’t offer. I'm constantly looking for other job opportunities, including community and practice nursing, though practice nursing is very competitive and I was declined.
I’ve just been put on bank/locum to potentially do extra shifts in the department, but they also said I can do shifts around the hospital. I'm terrified because I don’t give medications besides eye drops, do IVs, bloods, or catheterizations, which some places need. I’ll likely just be doing healthcare jobs which I’m fine with but areas may want a nurse with those skills.
Any advice or suggestions would be greatly appreciated

On Sunday April 19, I discovered that my Ex (38m) lied to me (22f) about being 28 and didn’t tell me he was divorced with kids. Please see my post history for more details. I told him that I enjoyed his company when I was with him, that I still think deep down he’s a good person, and that we could still be friends. Two days after breakup, he asked things like “so no more sex?” “can we still have “fun” (sx)” and I said that we can still have fun but when I date it will never be him. Then he said “so we’re going to be friends with benefits”. Then, on Thursday April 23, he picked me up after work and we hung out/had sx. On the car ride home, we were still talking and when I got home he texted me to have fun the next at the festival I was attending the next day and even sent a “goodnight 😘” text.
Today it’s June 1, so it’s been a week since he texted. I’m wondering why he hasn’t reached out despite me agreeing to his proposal of being casual/fwb? And I hope I don’t sound bad when I say this but I’m wondering why he’s not taking advantage of the “benefit(s*x)” part of the Fwb after the breakup? He still looks at my social media (Instagram stories) although doesn’t like my stuff anymore. Even if he’s keeping me in his “back pocket”, wouldn’t he have texted by now to ensure I was still in the back pocket if that makes sense?
My friend is saying he’s a narcissist who needs contrived emotional connection and because he knows I’m no longer emotionally invested in him/want anything long term with him, he’s not even down for s*x but may reach out again one day. Please offer any thoughts and advice thank you.
TL;DR: he (38m) doesn’t reach out despite me (22f) agreeing to be down for something casual/fwb after we broke up. Is he ever going to reach out/why isn’t he if he would still get s*x out of it?

Just to make it clear I am a type of girlfriend 30 F I never ask help. And previously me and my partner M/25 have had a few arguments around that with him feeling he isn’t needed and it makes him feel like he is not important to me.
He on the other hand is a type of person to always ask. Every week I pick him up from a friends how’s(15 min one way usually). He is on medical marijuana and won’t drive so every date we go on I drive. He has no problem with constantly borrowing money so he can buy toys. “Hey babe can I borrow 10k so I can buy a car” “5k so I can do this” “2.5k so I can buy a motorbike”
I have never asked for money and have always gone and picked him up even after a 16 hour day at work( my choice I run my own business I’m not complaining about the hours)
Fast forward. I was getting my car paint fixed this week and didn’t have a car for 6 days. For 4 days I needed to get to work and I asked his help. Now, it’s an inconvenience as my work is 50km away from home and takes 45 min one way to get to. However he has the time before and after work to do that. It’s just very inconvenient as he does have physical job.
Now since I never ask for help I asked him to drop me to work as I would much rather spend $130 a day that it cost me getting Ubers on us. He did it twice and then by the time it came to pick me up for the third time he asked me to get an Uber.
I feel like he just chose to get high instead of helping me. I feel like all I do is give and he takes. When it came up in an argument he called me selfish for even expecting him to pick me up and that I am an adult and I should call an Uber.
Now here’s my question. Would you pick up your partner if they didn’t have a car or do you think it’s a selfish expectation from a partner ?
TL;DR Expected my boyfriend to drive me to work when car was getting work done. It’s a long drive and he thinks it’s selfish from me to ask that.

This is the hardest fifa I’ve ever played, I can’t improve. Feel like the defensive AI is too insane as well. You barely have time to do a skillmove before you are swarmed. The press is insane, opponents move like the wind while I take 4 years to turn a player. I struggle to find a pass, yet when the opponent get the ball its two passes and he scores…
My team is insane, but I must severely suck because I can’t ever seem to get better and still lose as much as I did with worse cards.
Anyone else struggling severely this year?

Hi, anonymous account due to privacy.
I'm at my wits end, I have been having these types of arguments with my now ex gf for the best part of 8 years. I come away feeling like an abusive monster, my self confidence battered, my entire personality in question. I need advice about whether she is right about the way I am, or if she's the one with the issue.
For the last 8 years or so these types of arguments started at least once a week and can last 3 to 5 days. This is a shorter one but the general feeling of this argument is identical to all others before it. Sure, there have been arguments before where I've been at fault, and her clearly at fault. I will admit to it if i do something wrong.
Please can someone settle my mind, one way or the other, and tell me if I'm really the monster she makes me out to be.
[01/06, 11:03] Me: Promised [son] I'd take him down seafront tomorrow and park. So can you make sure his earphones are packed, and if poss some suncream just in case? Hope you're OK
[01/06, 11:03] Her: Shit. This is what I’ve been explaining that I’m going to keep him away from!
[01/06, 11:03] Her: The noise
[01/06, 11:04] Her: This is why we are in today. He isn’t going to cope with the show. I took him last year and it was so awful for him
[01/06, 11:05] Me: Oh. OK. X
[01/06, 11:06] Me: Oops sorry
[01/06, 11:06] Me: I won't then.
[01/06, 11:06] Her: No I’m sorry it’s not you it’s the stress I’ve had trying to sort out my family staying away and not dragging us down
[01/06, 11:06] Her: If you want to take him, then you take him
[01/06, 11:06] Me: He was quite excited about it the other day.
[01/06, 11:07] Her: Just will 100% make sure that I’ve packed his headphones, blankies and that
[01/06, 11:07] Me: But I understand. It's fine.
[01/06, 11:07] Her: Yeah sorry I am a bit stressed this morning
[01/06, 11:07] Her: No [myname] if you want to take him, that’s alright, he’s your son too
[01/06, 11:07] Her: I don’t make all the rules and run everything
[01/06, 11:07] Me: No I didn't want to make it harder for you dealing with it before or after.
[01/06, 11:08] Her: You got a brain….Just make sure he’s actually alright down there and not struggling with the sensory. It’s because it’s crowded and then on top of that with the plane noise
[01/06, 11:08] Her: They practiced yesterday and he shit himself here
[01/06, 11:08] Her: I asked him if he wanted to see the planes and he said no
[01/06, 11:08] Her: No I don’t want you to think I’m just telling you what to do
[01/06, 11:09] Me: No need to say things like I've got a brain, it isn't about that at all. I just said I won't take him because I'm trying to be considerate to you after you've said it'll screw him up. Again trying to come from a place of goodness and somehow I get it wrong
[01/06, 11:09] Her: I’m not at all. I probably didn’t explain it in the best way. Just had [son] going at me all morning. Fucking foul mood. He don’t want to go out.
[01/06, 11:10] Her: No I didn’t mean it like that
[01/06, 11:10] Her: Sorry I’m not doing this. I’ve just bloody explained how I didn’t mean anything by any of that
[01/06, 11:12] Her: No I know you’re coming from a place of kindness. But
[01/06, 11:12] Her: I’m not going to feel like I’m bossing you about, because of the way I wrote my message
[01/06, 11:13] Me: Can't you stop and think for a second that I wrote that WHILE you were writing
[01/06, 11:13] Her: Yeah
[01/06, 11:13] Her: I said sorry.
[01/06, 11:17] Me: You've just made me out to be horrible again, saying things like "not doing this". When all I did was try to be nice. And when I try to reply you send a dozen messages and everything just gets mixed up. I wasn't being horrible or anything in the first place. I'll leave you be, but please bear in mind i wasn't being horrible or funny or anything at all and I wasn't "doing this". Hope you manage to settle down a bit and he behaves better.
[01/06, 11:17] Her: I’m sorry I didn’t mean to
[01/06, 11:18] Her: I think some times that’s a anxiety response
[01/06, 11:18] Her: Yeah and you know what else.. I am me. I send a lot of messages. I own that. Certainly won’t change
[01/06, 11:19] Her: That’s good you’ve probably got other people to talk to now as well. Pleased for you.
[01/06, 11:20] Her: Also can I just say, your message, is a pure example of what I went through last year. When I didn’t say anything wrong.. and I got told very often that you’re not ‘doing this’ now. Hard isn’t it when you read that? Welcome to the world I lived in last year.
[01/06, 11:20] Her: Funny isn’t it, when you’re wanting to talk to me and be with me.. you made sure you were messaging about [son] frequently. Now your head is turned, you’ve not really asked
[01/06, 11:38] Me: Pardon? I do ask about [son]. I've been busy as hell at work as it's half term, haven't been able to ask much at all. I asked yesterday about him. I saw him the day before that but asked about him that evening. I haven't really had a chance today because when I messages about tomorrow a different discussion started. So I don't know where you get your idea of that from. I didn't do anything at all tbh.
[01/06, 11:38] Her: I did say, that I didn’t mean to come across like that. You chose not to listen
[01/06, 11:39] Her: No no that’s fine
[01/06, 11:39] Her: I see what’s going on here tbh. It’s just so you. Find someone else to talk to, instead of healing and that, suddenly change energy and moan to other person about me 👌🏻
[01/06, 11:39] Her: That’s fine do what you want. If it’s true cool, if it’s not, okay 🤷🏻‍♀️
[01/06, 11:40] Me: It's actually a bit hurtful that you said about me not asking about [son].
[01/06, 11:40] Me: Huh what are you talking about
[01/06, 11:40] Me: You've completely lost me. What I'm doing here? What?
[01/06, 11:41] Her: It really dosent matter
[01/06, 11:41] Me: It's so me? I am utterly lost. You're making me out to be doing something and I really don't know what
[01/06, 11:41] Her: Yep course it’s hurtful. Everything what comes out my mouth is hurtful to you.
[01/06, 11:41] Her: I read energy
[01/06, 11:41] Her: You got someone else to talk to
[01/06, 11:41] Her: Hence why I don’t hear from you no more
[01/06, 11:41] Me: Have i? Who?
[01/06, 11:41] Her: Good for you
[01/06, 11:42] Me: What?
[01/06, 11:42] Her: Probably some woman who thinks you’ve been done wrong by me
[01/06, 11:42] Her: And she’ll tell you all the ways that you weren’t in the wrong. And I’ll be slagged off. Which is fine by the way.
[01/06, 11:42] Me: I haven't spoken to anyone other than my mum on messenger! And it's been super busy at work so I've not been on my phone!
[01/06, 11:42] Her: 🤷🏻‍♀️
[01/06, 11:42] Her: Just saying
[01/06, 11:42] Her: Didn’t say I was right
[01/06, 11:43] Me: My mum came down here yesterday on a coach trip and I met her at lunchtime
[01/06, 11:43] Her: That’s really nice I’m pleased
[01/06, 11:43] Her: I’m glad you saw ur mum
[01/06, 11:43] Her: Is she ok
[01/06, 11:43] Me: No you're not bloody right. But you're making me out to be doing something that I'm not.
[01/06, 11:43] Her: I did just say.. I could be wrong
[01/06, 11:43] Me: You're telling me what I'm doing. When you're wrong.
[01/06, 11:43] Her: Fair enough
[01/06, 11:43] Her: Listen to me
[01/06, 11:43] Her: I said I could be wrong
[01/06, 11:44] Her: I did originally say I’m sorry I didn’t mean to sound d like I was telling you what to do with [son]. But you managed to make something out of it by saying I didn’t need to speak like that. I’m well aware.. hence the messages before of me apologising..
[01/06, 11:45] Her: What annoys me is.. you having such a shit reaction to me saying I’m not doing this now. When I really did get laid into when I got upset for saying the same thing last year??
[01/06, 11:47] Me: Right so like I said before, I was writing my message out WHILE you were writing more messages. Hence me never being able to get any point or explanation across to you because by the time I say something you've already said more so what i say is either irrelevant or misunderstood.
[01/06, 11:48] Her: Okay
[01/06, 11:48] Her: Same
[01/06, 12:03] Me: I always try to read what you say. But it's not my fault if i can't write a relevant reply back before you've written multiple messages since I started. I had absolutely no issue with you at all and I've just been made out to be doing all sorts this morning and it's just not fair because I haven't done anything.
[01/06, 12:04] Her: I have adhd. I’m not explaining myself again
[01/06, 12:04] Her: I said you hadn’t done anything
[01/06, 12:04] Me: Not asking yourself to. Just explaining what it's like my position. Or am I not allowed?
[01/06, 12:04] Her: I just said I felt bad for coming across bossy. I dunno you apologise for the way you are, and it’s still not enough 😎
[01/06, 12:06] Her: Can we just stop
[01/06, 12:06] Her: We’ve both explained
[01/06, 12:06] Her: We both understand. Let’s not keep trying to get our last word in
[01/06, 12:06] Me: I know I apologise for the way I am and it's not enough. Never is. I understand you apologised.
[01/06, 12:06] Her: See now you repeating my messages back to me. Heal your shadow self.
[01/06, 12:06] Me: Yes I'd like to stop.
[01/06, 12:06] Her: Trust me
[01/06, 12:06] Her: Ok. I won’t message you again then
[01/06, 12:07] Me: Huh? You literally just said I apologise and it's not enough. I was just agreeing.
[01/06, 12:07] Me: This has nothing to do with healing myself I literally haven't done anything wrong.
[01/06, 12:12] Me: Fine, blame me for it all and blank me as if im the evil monster. Have a nice day. I didn't do anything wrong in the first place.
[01/06, 12:17] Her: Oh okay
[01/06, 12:17] Her: I haven’t blamed you for anything mr.
[01/06, 12:18] Her: I just apologised for perhaps coming across agressively. I’ve just spoken to [son], we are going to listen to the places from outside the front door. I mentioned about tomorrow with you, and he got a bit worried about the planes. So perhaps give me some credit for trying to encourage him to try. I do give you a lot of credit, and it’s often missed and forgotten about
[01/06, 12:19] Her: This whole way of you messaging is completely different tho to the person I spoke to the other day 🤔 just different eh
[01/06, 12:27] Me: How am I different? I'm just me. But you are the one that started this thing off by borderline insulting me and I'm supposed to just lie down and take it? Then I'm a shit person for trying my best to explain myself? I havent said a single bad thing about you yet I'm getting accused of being different? When I've explained to you, work has been super busy. I get the feeling, and have pretty much had it spelled out that you don't want to hear from me anyway so I can't exactly keep bombarding you with messages can I? Because then I'll just be annoying and you'll get pissed off hearing anything from me. I have literally done nothing wrong this morning. I react to your messages which are semi aggressive and your accusations towards me and I get told I'm being shit basically. All I wanted was to ask about [son] about tomorrow and I even said I hope you're OK. Was not being any different to anything, at least until i started having to explain myself.
[01/06, 12:31] Her: Honestly is that the best you have? I apologised. You’ve just kicked in back in my face. I choose not to engage in this back and forth. You need to learn to read, and also take knowledge in what I say to you.
I told you I apologised.. I said I am very stressed this morning. Very. But still you have told me yet again I was agressive.. we know? I’ve said that? Why keep telling me? My apology not good enough?
[01/06, 12:31] Her: Ending this conversation now tbh. I don’t need to be continuously told that I’m such an awful person. I’m really not. Not at all. I’m one of the good ones :)

ways Where I get UFC 302 live streams free on Reddit? Hey fellow UFC 302: Dustin Poirier vs Islam Makhachev viewers. As I’ve been watching UFC 302 for quite a few seasons now, I've done some digging to access the trusty Poirier vs Islam Makhachev streams. I pirate everything: sports, movies, TV Channels, and even made my own plex server. But lately I have gotten really into UFC 302 and haven't found a great way to watch UFC 302: Dustin Poirier vs Islam Makhachev live for free.
How to catch the latest PPV bout from the octagon as it unfolds in New Jersey this weekend Reigning UFC Lightweight Champion Islam Makhachev will look to mount another successful defense of his crown when he faces off with former interim champion and challenger Dustin Poirier at UFC 302 this June.
website are you using to watch the Poirier vs Makhachev? I'm not 100% it's basically a live stream of the UFC 302: Poirier vs Makhachev.
I pirate everything: games, movies, software, and even made my own plex server. But lately I have gotten really into UFC 302 and haven't found a great way to watch ufc 302 for free live.
UFC 302 begins on Saturday, June 1, with the main card action expected to unfold from 22:00 ET. The octagon walk for the main headline bout is anticipated to take place around 00:00 ET on Sunday, June 2.
I don't care if there is a small delay or anything, but it needs to be at a good bitrate at 1080p or it isn't worth watch for me. Also preferably I would want a way to watch it on a smart TV in some way but im expecting to sacrifice that luxury honestly.
ESPN, ABC or UFC 302 Network. I'm sure you can stream as well as way to watch it but I want to see what you guys recommend.

Hi,
I am 36M from Turkey. I had Nissen Fundoplication on Dec 2019 and gallbladder removal on May 2020.
I have chronic gastritis. I have been taking PPIs for 12 years.
But last years starting on Jan 2023 PPIs started to stop working. I got occasional burning and sharp pain on my upper abdomen, sometime i feel that on the top center, left or right. But on around Sep 2023 I started to have nausea along with the pain. I started to end up in ER with severe nausea and pain. I visitied ER multiple times, they gave me IV fluids and sent me home. In the meantime I had endoscopy, colonoscopy, CT, MRI, blood tests, stool tests, urine tests, all came back normal. I even saw a psychiatrist, and started on two different antidepressants, but they did not help. I am still having pains ans severe nausea. I can't live my life like this. I am suffering.
Last week I had another endoscopy and this one showed multiple ulcers. That was the first time I had ulcers. The doctor didnt say anything about it but I can see lots of bile liquid in my stomach. Are they supposed to be there? Can someone please see my endoscopy images throught the link below? They are on high def. They should be clear enough. I can see inflammation, ulcers and bile liqueid myself. Is considering bile reflux worth it? I mean, I dont have a gallbladder and PPIs dont work. That fits the profile of bile reflux, right? The images with the bile are below on the list.
Can you please help? I am lost. Please. I am begging.
The link: https://imgur.com/a/Xa152gc
Thank you for your hard work at this field. I appreciate it.

Just to give some backstory I live with some guy in a house of 4 people. We are both renting rooms. 2 years ago I caught this guy snooping in my room then I caught him going in my room but I was up there lol and I tell him get the fuck out of my room and he stormed downstairs and hasn’t talked to me in 2 years which is cool because I don’t like to be bothered but he does weird stuff like just stare at me when I walk by like I’m his hero lol. Yesterday I got off work and I took some garbage out from my room to the garbages sitting outside the back door and he walks outside in his boxers to tell me I need to take the can to the street which is weird because it’s his “chore” (we can take on chores to pay less rent) I didn’t really know what to say so I just told him don’t bother me. He grabbed my arm and I’m obviously like don’t touch me and he tells me the usual coward bs like what are you going to do and we get into an arguement like the weirdest arguement actually where “my iq is 1” “ I burned some ramen 6 months ago in the microwave I’m stupid” lol like I felt like I was on the playground again so I just started to walk away my room is the entire second floor so if I make it to the stairs I can just continue on my day. But he keeps grabbing my arm to stop me from leaving so I tell him touch me 1 more time and he say what are you going to do. I say why don’t you see. He pushed me, I punched him in the face, threw him on the couch put him in a choke and choked him out until he begged me to stop. When I let him up I still had the guillotine locked in so I stood up and threw him back on the ground to release the choke and I just stood over him like a goon while he stood up lol. He say “ oh you punch in the nose” like that’s his excuse already why he lost lol. Like weirdo guy you got exactly what you were asking for. I asked him did he want a round 2 before he left the scene and he declined

I've been having some smaller meals of breakfast and lunch, occasionally a "snack" between lunch and dinner. So far that has been keeping my appetite quite satiated and I am not hungry or light headed. I tend to eat protein overnight oats (without protein powder it just says it on the box) with some chia seeds and cinnamon. For mini meals I tend to eat 2 eggs with avocado and some cottage cheese, occasionally some beans instead. Unfortunately I don't have time to have a bigger lunch and a smaller dinner, but I try to save at least 2-3 hours before going to sleep. I am a busy student with a busy schedule, and am trying to look for some realistic keto recipes to avoid getting sick of my current meals. Thank you in advance!
P.S. oven meals are okay, but not preferable, but I will take what I can get

On Sunday April 19, I discovered that my Ex (38m) lied to me (22f) about being 28 and didn’t tell me he was divorced with kids. Please see my post history for more details. I told him that I enjoyed his company when I was with him, that I still think deep down he’s a good person, and that we could still be friends. Two days after breakup, he asked things like “so no more sex?” “can we still have “fun” (sx)” and I said that we can still have fun but when I date it will never be him. Then he said “so we’re going to be friends with benefits”. Then, on Thursday April 23, he picked me up after work and we hung out/had sx. On the car ride home, we were still talking and when I got home he texted me to have fun the next at the festival I was attending the next day and even sent a “goodnight 😘” text.
Today it’s June 1, so it’s been a week since he texted. I’m wondering why he hasn’t reached out despite me agreeing to his proposal of being casual/fwb? And I hope I don’t sound bad when I say this but I’m wondering why he’s not taking advantage of the “benefit(s*x)” part of the Fwb after the breakup? He still looks at my social media (Instagram stories) although doesn’t like my stuff anymore. Even if he’s keeping me in his “back pocket”, wouldn’t he have texted by now to ensure I was still in the back pocket if that makes sense?
My friend is saying he’s a narcissist who needs contrived emotional connection and because he knows I’m no longer emotionally invested in him/want anything long term with him, he’s not even down for s*x but may reach out again one day. Please offer any thoughts and advice thank you.
TL;DR: he (38m) doesn’t reach out despite me (22f) agreeing to be down for something casual/fwb after we broke up. Is he ever going to reach out/why isn’t he if he would still get s*x out of it?

okay this is gonna be confusing because i’m a bad story teller but for the sake of the story im gonna give my ex a fake name Beck (16 m) and i’m 16 (girl)
this is a very big ramble so my apologies
now me and beck became friends in january 2024 and right off the bat i told him i was bisexual because some people had issues with it and if he was going to have an issue with it id rather it happen now and not when we were better friends but he said he didn’t have an issue with it and it never rly got brought again other then small comments/jokes like sometimes id say something about being bi and he’d say “but you don’t rly know if you’re bi because you’ve never been with either of them” and i’d be like “yeah i do like how do you know you like girls? it’s the same thing” and we would drop it. (this is important i promise lol)
(another thing i feel like i need to say is that im assigned female at birth, but recently ive started to wonder if im trans, and atp im pretty sure i am im just scared because of my parents and other reasons but just keep this in mind)
beck started dropping hints that he had a crush on me and even started telling my friends that he liked me. i tried to be pretty up front with the fact that i didn’t like him like that and he seemed to understand and it was never brought up for a few weeks and then in feb/march ish i started to develop a crush so i told him because i wanted to be up front about it and he said he did like me and we decided to go slow with it because it was just new and we started dating mid march (it was rly fast looking back at it)
looking back, beck had always been pretty standoffish about his sexuality, like he could joke about other people but no one was allowed to joke about his, because he was straight and he didn’t like it when people joked about it other wise, which was annoying because he was being hypocritical but i just wrote it off and ignored it because i thought i was being dramatic. now, around mid april i started realizing how uncomfortable it made me when beck would call me his girl and a woman and i realized i didn’t want to be his girlfriend but his boyfriend. i was scared to tell him because again he’d always been so adamant that he was straight and always seemed disgusted otherwise. i brought it up and he was just kind of quiet and said he’d love me anyway but then a few seconds later called me a girl again so i felt like he wasn’t really listening so i just tried to write it off again
a month ish goes by of me trying to explain my worries about us staying together with me being trans and how his parents would react and how he wouldn’t rly like it when i didn’t look like a girl anymore and he would always write it off and say it wasn’t a big deal and it would be okay. right before the two month mark of us dating i broke up with him because i just felt like we were too different and it just wouldn’t work with where the two of us were at right now because he wanted to have kids and get married and i really didn’t want that so i thought it would be best to end it before either of us got more involved in the relationship. beck pretty much obsessively texted me for around a week after i ended it and the majority of it was just him begging me to change my mind and saying he was sorry and he loved me and couldn’t live without me and that i was his only source of happiness. i’m not going to lie, i really could t take him seriously because we had been dating for barely 2 months, and only known each other for about 6 months. this behavior continues for days on end and he starts posting on socials about how he doesn’t care about anything and he starts vaping and skipping his classes which worries me because i don’t want anything to happen to him and it’s my fault he’s using so i was trying to fix it yk? all my friends said i was being stupid and needed to block him but i felt bad about it. i did eventually block him on some things, but i unblocked him because he asked me why i did it and i didn’t know what to say because i felt bad and thought i was being mean.
he also cried to anyone that would listen about how much he missed me and how he couldn’t eat or sleep. he called a few of my friends and just cried and would be upset if they didn’t answer him.
a few days go by and he’s kind of calm down on the begging and we kind of start to be friends again and he keeps asking me why i didn’t want to try and fight for our relationship because in his words “if i actually ever loved him i would’ve fought for him”
i tell him that it just wouldn’t work out because (among other reasons that are personal) i want to be a guy and that he’s straight and doesn’t like men and beck said “well it wouldn’t even be gay anyway” which was whatever i just kept reiterating that i want to be a guy and he said that he wanted me, as his gf or as his bf, that he didn’t care and that i wouldn’t even really be a guy anyways, that i would always be a girl. that stung, im not gonna lie, but whatever. i ended up asking him the if he was straight, because if he said yes i was going to say “you can’t be with me and be straight because i’m not a girl. i’d be your boyfriend you’d have a boyfriend. not a girl” but then he says “actually i’m bi”
yall. when i tell you my jaw dropped i mean my jaw DROPPED. i was like wtf you were literally ready to fight ppl over calling you gay as a joke.
i asked him if he actually was or if he was just telling me that because it was what i wanted to hear and he said no that he really was so i believed him because i didn’t have a reason not to and he asked if we could get back together and i said no, because of the transphobic things he had been saying and just the way he treated some of my friends bothered me, and he seemed upset and just said agin that if i really cared i would’ve tried to fix it and that i was only hurting myself and i said that i was fine and we have only spoken in short convo since then, which was like a week ago
i know none of this probably makes sense but i need someone to tell me if im being crazy and if i led him on and broke his heart for nothing because i feel rly bad. like maybe i should’ve ignored what i was feeling and let him be happy but then that wouldn’t have been fair to him because he deserves someone who loves him the way he loves and i can’t give him that
my friends and mom think that he is trying to manipulate me and lovebomb me but i don’t think that’s his intention
anyway thoughts are appreciated 😻
some notes in case my rambles didn’t make sense- i’m bisexual, basically everyone but my family knows because it wouldn’t be safe. to the general public, i’m a cis girl, but to my closest friends they know that im thinking about transitioning when it’s safe but i haven’t picked out a name or changed my pronouns yet, if that makes sense
as far as i know im the only one that beck has told he’s bisexual . actually he said during the last convo that he told me he had dated a boy before me but i cannot recall that convo at all?? which doesn’t mean anything but i feel like its worth noting
keep in mind we have only known each other since january and began dating mid march to mid may, so this all happened in the span of 5 ish months. very teenage angst i would think
(i didn’t really proofread so im sorry for bad grammar or mistakes )
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These are just some fun ideas I have for the game/mainly for the lobby. I feel it'll add a bit more "depth" to the lobby and the game than just having it as a waiting area and makes it a little more complex. It gives the lobby a proper "use" as well as giving us a reason to spend coins etc.
Changes to the health system:
A) No more auto-heal when leaving therapy.

• If you finish a therapy with 3 bars of health, that's what you have in the lobby and that's what you have in the next match.
  
• If you die in a therapy you will then have 1 bar of health in the lobby and going into the next match.
  
• If you permanently lose health bars in a therapy, you will leave that match with the reduced amount. IE You go in with 4 bars, you lose 1 bar, you leave with 3 bars and will be stuck like that. I think this only happened in toxic shock, if it did then they'd need to add a way you can lose health bars in matches lol.
  

B) Turn the cook into an interactive NPC.

• You can use the coins you earn from therapies to buy food from this NPC, with the food you have to take it to a table to eat.
  
• Food will heal back to full health
  
• Open up the medical area:
  
• If you die in a therapy, instead of going through the evaluation, this is where you will wake up and have to walk out of.
  
• It doesn't cost if you wake up here but you will need to buy food to heal.
  
• If you have lost health bars you will need to visit the NPC here to "mend" you back to full bars again.
  

C) Add an "anxiety" meter.

• As you play matches/rounds/games your stress and anxiety will go up.
  
• As this increases you are more prone to making noises and giving your location away
  
• You're also quicker to exhaust
  
• You can reduce your anxiety outside of therapies but playing games or reading
  
• With reading you just have to open up a document for your anxiety to drop
  
• With playing games you have to play one round to have your anxiety reduced by one bar
  
• Eating food can also reduce your anxiety bar
  

Additions to the lobby:
A) Add more seating.

• With the changes and "eating" requirements above, I suggest adding more seating. Maybe put in one more table downstairs.

B) Add card games.

• In therapies, you can now collect playing cards. These are your usual playing cards.
  
• Once you have all cards you can unlock a deck of cards for your room
  
• You can play solitaire and pairs with these decks
  

C) Add a small library

• This can be a place you can sit and read all the files and documents you have found in the game
  
• You can also read a couple of books and comics you can find in therapies
  

D) Player swap shop

• Add some unique clothing and room items
  
• Each player will have access to a randomized amount of these items (example if there are 10 items, a player will have access to 2 of them and will be locked out of 8 of them)
  
• A player "swap shop" will allow players to trade their clothing items, room items, tokens and coins with other players in the same lobby.
  
• The only way to access the unique items you are locked out from is via trading with other players
  
• Add it so that when you trade an item to someone else, you can then rebuy that said item so you don't lose access to it
  

E) Add a godman toilet

• I have no idea why there aren't any toilets in the lobby? Do we just shit in the toilets we find in therapies? Are we just crapping ourselves?
  
• GIVE US A GOD DAMN TOILET
  

Changes to the game:
A) Make it "harder" to upgrade rigs etc:

• When you first start you will have access to one rig only (stun) and none of the others
  
• Once you have gone through one "rebirth" you earn a single token, this token allows you to unlock another rig of your choice
  
• After 5 rebirths you will earn your second token
  
• After 10 rebirths you will earn your last token and can unlock your last rig
  

For background, I have a real BEC relationship with my MIL. My partner and I have been together for 15 years, married for 5 and for that entire time she's made rude, hurtful comments to me. I immediately have my back up when she's around and admit I sometimes take innocent comments the wrong way because I'm used to the barbs. I believe I'm completely in the right in my anger this time though.

Four days ago I gave birth to a preterm baby girl. She is wonderful and beautiful and making huge improvements every day. She also has a significant brain injury from being without oxygen for nearly 20 minutes after her birth.
I had an emergency c-section under general anaesthesia after my baby went into distress. I knew very little of what happened after they said “we need to put you under” and I was okay with not knowing the details because I know it was really bad.
My MIL is a doctor, a GP.
The in-laws visited the first night after the baby was born. There was a lot we didn't know or understand at the time and we told them that. When they went down to the NICU to show her off she said “I'm a doctor I can find things out for you” I told her “I don't want that. I just need you to be grandma.” which she agreed to.
The next day they came to visit again and arrived at our hospital room while we were speaking to my OB. We'd finished asking our questions to the doctor so we were just thanking her for her time as she'd come from another hospital especially to visit us.
Well, my MIL rushed up and says “I'm doctor so-and-so and I have some questions about the birth.” The doctor was obviously in still doctor mode and answered her questions. She only asked three questions before I went into full breakdown mode, but they were incredibly personal medical information. I also think it's important to note, it was medical information that I didn't want to know and had already told her wasn't important to us.
My husband immediately kicked everyone out and calmed me down before going into the hallway and telling them off. He told his mother that we were going to share information when we were ready and that it wasn't her business. He asked if she could come back in, because he needed his parents. He's just been through a major trauma too so I said okay.
Now I can't stop replaying those answers in my head. I was ‘okay’ with the traumatic birth, but now I know so much and it feels like it doesn't even belong to me anymore.
I plan on making a complaint about the doctor but I don't know how to tell my husband that his mother has deeply traumatised me.

My grandmother or abuela is the sweetest lady. She owned the convenience store I helped out at and would always tell me traditional Mexican stories. I never would have thought anything bad about her until the accident. I was about seventeen and had just received my drivers license and somehow, drove my car into the barrier of the highway. My parents would have been furious at me if I hadn’t been injured. It wasn’t anywhere near life-threatening, just a concussion that made me a bit lethargic and nauseous. After I was discharged from the hospital, I had to take this prescription medication to help deal with the pain. One side-effect was it could cause hallucinations, but these were very unlikely to happen so I instantly agreed to take them, thinking that I would much rather a couple of hallucinations than the extreme pain I was feeling.
My first shift back at the convenience store with my abuela, I had my first hallucination. It wasn’t the ‘stereotypical’ hallucination, more as if someone had turned up the volume of the sounds around me. Annoying, but not scary.
My second hallucination a couple weeks later at the convenience store was less so. My abuela was in the back restocking the fridge of the store. She was always stronger than your average 78 year old, surprisingly stronger than me. That was when it happened, the second hallucination. But this was different. Instead, I was in this hallway. It looked like the hallway to the stock room. I stumbled around, confused at the surroundings. “Abuela! Where are you? I’m having another one,” I tried to call out, but it was like my voice went hoarse, unable to speak. I tried to speak again but this time I couldn’t speak at all. I continued walking down the hallway, the tile was darker and covered in dust, like it had been here for much longer than 40 years. “Abuela…?” I managed to call out. I noticed a corner and slowly turned, making sure to not run into something that was actually there. My heart sunk. The same hallway. The same paintings, but slightly distorted. Colours were less saturated, faces were less recognisable. This continued on for around seven more hallways, becoming more and more distorted as I continued on. Every corner I reached, I called out for my abuela, tears welling in my eyes from fear like I was a little girl again.
Then I saw her. She wasn’t right. She looked stripped of emotion, a blank canvas. Like she was a shell of her soul. Just I went to call for her, I was back. I was sitting against the tiled wall of the convenience store. It had been five hours.
I grabbed my backpack and left. I immediately went home, climbing up the fire escape to not wake up my mother. But despite my efforts, she had already been awake, her eyes red from what I assumed was crying.
“Mami? Are you okay?” I asked her, she seemed less inconsolable and more in shock.
“Yes yes. Mija, your abuela is unwell. She cannot remember… a lot. Doctors believe it is dementia.”
My heart sunk. I swear she had been in the restocking room, but what if that was part of the hallucination as well? “I had another hallucination, Mami,” I told her as she grabbed some stuff around the kitchen. She sighed and shook her head, “Valeria, don’t play with me right now, you were off your medication a couple of weeks ago, remember when you had that first hallucination?”
My heartbeat accelerated. I had sworn that I had took that medication the morning of, and that hallucination was real.
I visited my abuela a week later. She didn’t know who I was, she only remembered memories from when she was a young girl. What shocked us the most is that she told us about when she had gone missing. A week she spent in the forest, and anything past that, she didn’t remember.
Maybe I was just scared and dreaded the news that she had dementia, so that night I scoured the internet for what could cause memory loss after an event like that. But without needing to search a single thing, my heart dropped as I remembered a tale my abuela used to tell me. She said it was not a famous Mexican folk tale, mainly in the rural town she grew up in. But La Somba was a creature that could take possession over your memories and life until it took over someone else. It was said to make the person appear normal until it tried to take over someone else. In these cases, the person would appear lifeless, unlike themselves. And the person would be stuck in an eternal maze until La Somba successfully took over their memories
I logged off the computer. My abuela. She was strong because of La Somba. She didn’t have dementia, La Somba took her memories. And I was the next victim. But I was fine? I had full control over all my actions. I tried telling my mother, but she told me to settle down and that I was hurting my family. Abuela has dementia, and that is final. But as I watch my abuela confused in a hospital bed of her surroundings, completely void of any memory, I wonder: How do I know that they haven’t already taken mine?
I’m writing this for my sake. Maybe if I write down this I can remind myself if I do lose my memory. Maybe.

I had a dream.
First me and my wife lived in a building that resembled my old home with my parents. The upstairs portion with my two old dogs. One has not lived with me for years the other has been dead for over two years. They had their own room and it smelled like urine very harshly. Then we decided that we would go with a car ride with some of my friends from high school, this was sneaking out from their supervision. My wanted to go with them for some reason and when we got into the car she didn’t look like my wife anymore but she looked like a guy I used to go to high school with but I could tell it was her. I don’t really understand why I felt this but i did. While we were on this drive I instantly regretted getting in the car with them because I figured they just wanted to go smoke and asked my wife (who looked like my childhood friend as a man) if this was really what we should be doing since she was pregnant. My wife agreed and asked them to drop us back by the house and we would sneak back in. When we turned around our car battery died and I carried my wife back to the house. When we got there she looked like my childhood best friend and I remember that something felt really off but we walked into the house. This man? Or my wife? Sat at the table and made her hold this book. It looked like some Christian book but I can’t remember the name of it and she had to hold a paper behind it that said I swear and the rest of the words were covered. It looked like this was there way of punishing their kids when they made mistakes. The parents of the kid I went to school with were there and dropped this cube shaped things filled with water on her hands to punish her by pinching her fingers. Then asked me why I didn’t stop him. I said because you are the father of this household and he said fair enough. Then he made me hold them and dropped it on my hands 3 times. It really hurt but I tried to hold it in. Then he told me to read the spine of the book and I don’t remember the words and when I was reading them a supernatural experience Happened inside of my dream. It looked like he split into two people and choked the other one and made him vanish and I pointed and my wife saw none of it and I was overcome with fear and thought it was Jesus and called out to him. I did multiple times and this thing said to me. You think I belong to Allah or and I could not make out the other word but said another name. I feel like it said jehovah but I can not promise to it. Then it ran up fast to me and told me his name was the blood collector and he always collects on his debts and started to shred me apart. I then woke up very hot. I have had nightmares before but this to me at least felt very different. I had never had a nightmare where things were so real yet also so original. The part where I met this blood collector did not seem that thought came from me. This person after I said these words did not resemble a movie or tv show I have ever seen or book that I have ever read for that matter.
This happened the same night a man prayed over us at a beach shop in real life not the dream. He made us take off our shoes and put oil on our hands and feet and our foreheads used a prayer shawl. He prayed for us as a protector for our home. I don’t know how that plays in if it does at all.

Hi. I (46F) got married to my husband (69M) almost 20 years ago. At the time, I'd never been in a sexual or romantic relationship with anyone else. I'd been deeply in love with an older man from my hometown, but he was unavailable and nothing ever happened. I'd always believed no man would ever like me. I was a little overweight, unathletic, unfeminine, and an all-around dork. My parents sort of made me feel like this. For example, when I was in high school I was on Accutane for acne. Because Accutane would harm a fetus, every pill packaging had a "no" symbol on the front, with a pregnant woman crossed out. My dad would joke about it: "No wait, ARE you supposed to get pregnant while on Accutane?!" The joke was that someone like me would NEVER get pregnant, NEVER have a boyfriend even.
Then, when I was 18, I fell in love with that older man. But I couldn't have him. I spent a lot of my college years in love with him from afar. I never had a boyfriend in college. One guy liked me, but I didn't know how to handle it or really what to do. When I was 24, I met my now-husband at work. He was older, which I was comfortable with, and he was very nice and helpful. I'd gone out with a couple other men in my new town. They'd kissed me and caressed me on the dance floor, and I didn't know how to handle it. My now-husband never made any "moves" like that. So I was comfortable.
We got married when I was 26, and he was 49. I didn't know anything about anything. Our sex life was fine. I didn't like it at first, but then I grew to like it a lot. We had two children, a boy and a girl, 22 months apart. Life went on pretty well for many years.
Then, when I was 39, I went out for coffee with a male friend. And he told me some very intimate stuff about his own life. After a one-hour coffee, I knew more about him than I knew about my husband. Plus, I was attracted to this man. He was about my age, and we had a lot in common. It was a new experience for me: emotional intimacy and physical attraction. I'd never had either with my husband. But I was so inexperienced, I didn't know what I'd been missing.
Later that summer I decided to go to the gym. Since then, I've lost 40 pounds and kept it off. I am now very physically fit. I do yoga daily, lift weights, do cardio, and I just started taking tennis lessons. Never, ever did I think I could do anything physical. But I've realized I can. My mantra is: I am feminine. I am sexy. I am strong. And now I've discovered I am. I love doing athletic things. I love feeling strong and fit and capable.
In 2020, I posted for the first time on Reddit. On Normal Nudes. And I had an overwhelmingly positive response. It's hard to overstate that--before--I never felt attractive or feminine. Now I had men telling me I had the best breasts they'd ever seen. That I'm a beautiful woman. I really could not believe it. I started posting on GoneWild, and was very successful there too. And an OnlyFans model reached out to me and said: "I think you'd be very successful on OnlyFans." All this time, I never thought I was attractive. So this was absolutely amazing to me.
Meanwhile, I'd tried to get my husband interested in all this. I'd discovered intimacy and sexuality. And I wanted emotional intimacy and sexual connection with him. I tried for two years. But it never worked. He hated talking about sex. He said he did it with me: "Because you like it." I tried to show him the beautiful nude photographs I'd been taking. And he didn't want to see them. One time he cringed and turned away. I cried so much over this. I wanted him to desire me. But he never did. He'd told me several years earlier that I wasn't physically his type. He just didn't find me attractive. But he loved me because I'm a good mom. He'd been married once before, and they didn't have kids. When it finally occurred to me to ask, he told me that he and his first wife had sex about three times a year. One time I asked him, "Do you like men?" He said, "I don't like anybody." He's 69, like I said. If he were younger he'd probably identify as "asexual." But he doesn't care about identity or anything like that. He just doesn't like sex.
In 2021, I had my first extramarital encounter. I'd gotten a lot of confidence from Reddit. Since then, I've slept with seven men outside my marriage. They've all been younger than I am. All but one have been in their 30s. They're all attractive, interesting men. It is still shocking to me--although less shocking than it used to be--that men find me attractive. But they do. And, honestly, I am attractive now. I put a lot of work into my body, and I have a very feminine style. I always say, "I'm in my body with the zeal of a convert." Because for so long I never knew I could be like this. It is a true miracle for me. I "became a woman" in my 40s.
But I'm still with my husband. And I don't know what to do. My pride and joy are my children, ages 16 and 18. My husband and I have put a ton of care and love into raising them. I don't want to tear our family apart. I feel like I have a nice life. Throughout our marriage, my husband and I have always done our own thing. Even when our kids were little, my sister said: "You and X live like you're divorced." We spend a lot of time apart, and we're both okay with it. We live together like amiable roommates. He doesn't care at all about my sex life. He used to tell me: "Do what you need to do." We haven't slept together in almost three years.
Sometimes I think about leaving him and trying to find true love. I've never had that. What I'd love is "sex and conversation." My husband and I don't really have much in common. He has the mind of an engineer. He loves to build things, and he's a spatial thinker. I love nuance and spirituality and literature. My husband has always loved my "cheerful attitude." But he doesn't care about my body or femininity or all my ideas on spirituality and personal growth. We mostly talk about our kids, of course. And our cats. We do really well managing the kids' activities and taking care of them in our different ways. I've always lived like this with him. Separate emotional lives. And I've developed a very independent spirit.
Sometimes I yearn to be part of a couple. But I've never had that. And I don't know if it would be "worth it." Our kids are happy. I'm reasonably happy. I have my Reddit career and sexual partners if I want them. Sometimes I think I'm asking for too much. I have two beautiful children who I'm close to. And a nice, peaceful life. I don't know what to do.