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2024.06.05 11:47 JumboHotdog115 Super trauma dump nalang ako here kasi di ko na alam kung what to do about my relationship/breakup(?)

TW: SA, Self-Harm, depression, child abuse, suicidal thoughts
Context lang sa sarili ko(M23), sa ex ko(F22), sa relationship namin before any of the real clusterfuck begins.
We have been together mga 5 years give or take. Start kami nung SHS kami g12 ako g11 siya pero naghiwalay ng 4 months kasi naguluhan ako sa sexuality ko pero nagkabalikan kami, and we have been doing fine until march of this year.
I want to preface muna and give you a background of me as a person. I came from a well off family nun, pero due to poor financial decisions na bankrupt and wala medyo nahulog talaga. During that time na pawala ang pera, my dad was trying to get shit back on track and sadly passed away when I was 6 - father’s day pa yun (very ironic e no). Simula nun, I think kasi I never processed my dad’s death properly and the drastic lifestyle change just really gave me an incredible desperation to cling onto the stability and people around me.
After nun my mom had to raise me and my sister and dahil nga dad’s side of the family was in chaos nag every man for themself. And ang pinaka nagging dulo halos mga gamit nalang ng tatay ko naiwan samin kasi walang napasang mga properties and assets samin. Which put us in a very tough position where we had to move in sa lolo ko and me, my mom and sister had to share a room, pero I’m aware of the privilege I still have. Nakakapag aral pa naman ako, pero yun nga not what we were used to as children
Ngayon balik na sa kwento ko.
Over the years madami kaming nagging issues ng partner ko, pero I think that’s the thing naman sa mga long-term relationships kung san bata pa pareho ang involved diba. I figured out na bi ako pero di naman nagbago na mahal ko siya. And I guess nakakahiya aminin na tinanggap niya ako ulit. Over time madami akong nakitang nagging issues niya. Pero I guess inintindi ko kasi bata siya. Super toxic at puro away unang dalawang taon namin pero sabi naman na ganun talaga ganap pag early relationship.
We had a serious conversation about, her mental health why she would lash out, why she was so angry at her mom and, why she didn’t like being cuddled.
It turns out there were so many things na nangyari in her childhood that really damage her. As a child na molest siya ng lolo niya… she was 6 or 7 at the time and yeah it was wild, pero di wala naman siya magagawa dun, kasi bata siya, and she never spoke up about it kasi ayaw niya masira family niya and lolo din niya nag susupport sa kanila financially and I immediately just like okay I get it. Pero it wasn’t the only time she was sexually assaulted in her life. Nung g10 sya her ex threatened to breakup with her kundi sila nag sex and pumayag siya, causing another round of trauma to her and yeah.
Her mom had also had her when she was very young and her dad had to go abroad to support them so naiwan siya sa mom niya. Her mom was and still is very abuive towards her. Nung bata siya nagka away family niya and nag-layas sila ng mom niya (her being young wala siyang choice). She had to live with her mom eho beat her a lot, shaved her head at one point, and neglected her. This went on for 2 or 3 years bago umuwi daddy niya galing abroad at nag ayos lahat***
She had a shit childhood, I thought losing a parent was bad but damn was her’s harder. Kaya I never really blamed her for her mood swings, kasi matindi pinagdaanan niya, and never really sya nag cope eh. Matagal na ako nagrerecommend ng therapy and counseling kaso mahal kasi kaya ayaw niya kasi nga, money is tight kasi sa household niya. So I did the best I could, and just supported her. Kasi yun nalang kaya ko. During this time nagiipon ako onti para one day masponsoran ko siya (balak ko sana after grad namin).
Prior to our relationship, I had no real dreams. Wala akong direksyon sa buhay ko na di binigay ng mama ko - she wanted me to be a doctor and I said cool, matalino naman ako eh (sorry if it sounds mayabang pero I know what I’m capable of). I never had something of my own until I met the love of my life. Honestly my greatest dream is to finish Medicine asap and get her out of her home para maalagaan ko siya, and have a family that we will both love and cherish. She had the same dream kasi siguro overtime ganun na talaga yung future na pinaniwalaan naming magkakaroon kami. Pero shit happens eh
During the course of the relationship she would always have these bouts of extreme flashes pf anger pagdating sa mommy niya. Again relating back to her trauma I understood why. Pero kasi she also took it out on her sibling (younger sister, kasi her sister was obviously more favored by her mom). Nung nasundan pa ng baby brother medyo ano nabawasan.
Now during our time together napaka daming ups and downs. Pero I think pinaka malala was when I found out na pag malala na she would harm herserlf. Kasi nga never really siya nagka support system and her trauma was never resolved ayun. It led to this. I tried to like help her through it pero it got to a point na maski ako natatakot kasi I never knew when shit would hit the fan, and may gawin siya sa sarili niya. I was always scared of what she would do to herself. I got fed up one day and told her if you’re not going to stop I have no choice but to break up with you kasi ang hirap na ganito ang set up kasi palagi ako takot sayo kahit mahal na mahal kita. It stopped after that
Habang tumatagal umayos naman then it all came crashing down this year. Pero we always had one common issue, and that was I never really told her any of my problems. Never ako nag share ng burdens ko, out of the fear na she can’t handle the stress kasi struggling na rin siya sa studies niya. I think I did everything I could to accomodate her. Di na ako nag transfer to UP to be eith her (pre pandemic), lumipat ako ng isang school nung pandemic para makatipid, pero bumalik ako sa dati naming univ para di siya nag iisa. I donmt want her to be along. Nakakatakot kasi and she also didn’t like the thought of being without me, kaya I did just that. During those times, I had a shit ton of issues with my academics. Nag overload ako ng 3 sems straight. 32 units minimum ko. At okay naman yung grades ko were still good, pero the stress was immense. Naudlot lang talaga nung dapat papasok na ako ng 2nd sem ng 3rd year ko kung san di ako pinayagan mag overload. Babalik na ako sa regular status after that sem at intern na sana ako. Kaso dahil di ako pinayagan mag over load, I had to wait until 2nd sem ng next year to take my remaining subjects. Understatement ang nalungkot ako nun. I gained 40 lbs, was sad, and depressed pero it worked out nung nakabalik na ako. Pero during that time I visited her house as often as I could, spent time with her family, and her parents para alam nila for real ako. Kasi intensyon ko talaga pakasalan siya. No ifs ands or buts. It made my life bearable during the time I wasn’t studying.
Dahil dun sabay na kami ng graduating year and that was like the icing on the cake nalang sa kung gaano ka hirap yung year na yun.
It was going great yung school year until 2024 came around.
Over the course of this year. Madami nangyari. Pareho kami nag OJT sa isang ospital na gov’t (iba kami course pero sa same hospital napunta). Sobrang stressful more for me. Kasi kupal talaga like straight up mga motherfuckers na assholes ang program ng pinag OJT-han ko. Di ko na sasabihin ang name ng ospital basta sa QC.
Given my history ng hindi pagsabi ng problema ko, dahil ayoko maapektuhan siya. It mounted and I just snapped, brokedown. And brokeup with her. Nung una nag beg sya makipag ayos pero I couldn’t do it kasi nagpa-pqnic attack ako pag nakikita ko siya. Naka survival mode ako nun. As in. Hindi ko na maaalala mga sinabi ko pero alam ko sobrang gago ko as in grabe nakakasakit. Pero really I still loved her, I just broke. Pero I was working on myself to not have those attacks again, para makapag sorry ako at makapag ayos sa kaniya ASAP. As in. i kid you not.
She eventually stopped communicating with me, and said her goodbyes pero I couldn’t tell her how I felt kasi I woukd just be unable to breathe. And it fucking destroys me na I couldn’t do it. It still does.
After 2 weeks I think kinaya ko na makita siya ulit, pumunta ako rekta sa bahay nila para mag makaawa. Na balikan niya ako. Only to find out nag bu-bumble na siya and may kausap na siya iba. Nung una sabi ko okay lang despite the pain, kasi coping mechanism niya was to look for attention. And I understood it. I guess dahil nga nasaktan ko siya ng bongga, parang sige bawian mo nalang ako diyan.
Pero it didn’t stop eh. She would go out, drink, momol, and eventually had sex with the guy she told me about kanina… it fucking destroyed me. It was like the worst pain imaginable. Hanggang ngayon di padin ako tumitigil sa pag-iyak araw-araw. And I begged her everyday to please stop kasi andito naman na ako, aalagaan ko na siya talaga ulit.
I give her the benefit of the doubt dito kasi yun nga parang di naman siguro e no. When I confronted her abt it, sinabi niya lang “Si guy kasi was there when you weren’t and he met my needs and I like him, pinili mo umalis diba. Kaya yan”. I thought I could understand even that pero napaka sakit talaga pare. Sobrang tangina like how the fuck do you do that or say that. And I snapped again. I knew her parents didn’t know about our breakup and her late night excursions kaya I threatened her na kundi niya aayusin isu-sumbong ko siya. She went ballistic. She kept asking for space to do what she was doing pero like she was having unprotected sex, drinking, driving and god knows what else kaya taena ayoko naman may mangyari at masira buhay niya pero hindi niya ako pinapakinggan and she blocked me on her parents socials para di ako makatawag at magsumbong.
Three nights ago, I went to her house to beg again to stop this (wala parents niya asa probinsya nun) pero wala talaga and she told me na kundi ako titigil mawawalan na talaga ako ng chance with her. And in my desperation I agreed.
Now to the other night, I saw nga na naka block ako sa parents niya and told her na alam ko nasa bahay na parents niya and if she won’t unblock me. Pupunta ako to tell them myself what happened. She pleaded to make me say na hiwalay lang kami para di ako mawalan ng chance sa kaniya. I agreed, thinking I could do that.
The next day kinausap ko yung fubu niya, I asked kung gusto ba niya ang ex ko kung may nararamdaman siya, sabi niya “Wala, its just a friendship”. I tried to play it cool, and say well be her friend pero use protection (again tanga ako). I was seething on the inside na ganun lang tingin niya sa taong mahal ko sobrang like gusto kong durugin bungo niya. Hindi na ako makakabalik sa taong plinano ko buong future with ko kasi tanginamo . Pero tangina, wala pinili ko nalang na intindihin talaga siguro, at habaan pasensya ko kahit tangina ang sakit talaga.
Nung gabi nung araw na yon napag desisyonan ko na nga yung tawagan magulang niya with the intention of just saying goodbye. Pero nung kausap ko na sina tito at tita… di ko napigilan. Sinabi ko lahat. Lahat ng ginagawa niya na di nila alam. Lahat lahat. To stop her, from herself. Her parents were livid, pero I begged them to go easy on her kasi I know her, she’s just hurt kaya nag-act out siya and I think they listened (Her dad moreso than her mom). She got all of her privileges ng pag drive and baon niya removed. And her parents apologized to me. They told me na give her time baka magkaayos pa kayo, pero she told me otherwise.
She told me I fucked it up for her bigtime na nasira na buhay niya, kasi yun nalang nga nagbibigay libangan sa kaniya at tinanggal ko pa. Di niya na ako mapapatawad raw. I think the same din with how much vitriol she said it with. I feel like I lost her forever. I hope I didn’t pero it feels like I did.
Simula nun… blinock niya na ako sa lahat ng socials, maski best friend niya ginawa yun. Kausap ko padin magulang niya to organize counseling and therapy for her. Pero alam ko wala na siguro pag asa harapin niya na ako.
Di pa ako natitigil sa pag iyak kasi ang sakit talaga ng mga pangyayari, and it truly feels like I had lost the will to live. I’m at rock bottom and have contemplated offing myself kasi I’m just in so much despair…
My friends and family keep telling me to give her time to realize ang ginawa ko was for her own good, pero what if she does realize nga pero never forgives me… she’s my world. Buong buhay ko… hinanda ko para makasama siya. To feel like wala na yun.. parang wala na ang direksyon na meron ako dati…
I tried seeking help. I talk to people, I cried. I’m not a religious man pero I cried, prayed and begged in a church for an hour to beg god if he’s there to help me be strong enough to carry on, to ask if he can help her forgive me.
Everyday for the past 2 weeks, I have been crying myself to sleep, I’ve lost 10 lbs already. Its been hell. ayoko nang umiyak.
Naisipan ko nalang na ilabas ko sa reddit as a shout into the void.
I hope she forgives me, I pray with every fiber of my being and soul na she does. Mahal na mahal ko siya. Balak ko mag antay para makakuha uli ng chance para magging kami. I love her so much and I’m so so sorry sa nagawa ko sa kaniya… I just hope na she does forgive me
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2024.06.05 09:43 breckendusk I just lost the love of my life

Long post incoming, I want to gather all of my thoughts.
I was with my best friend, partner, and lover for four years - we met six months before Covid and grew very close over lockdown. From the day we met, we were in contact every single day, all day.
She was the love of my life and I didn't realize it until it was too late. I've never been particularly in touch with my feelings, nor am I the best at expressing them. We had a very tumultuous relationship but we were always able to work things out. We spent every birthday together, every holiday together, all our free time together, and I watched as her daughter grew from 2 years old staring at the stars in my arms to a 6 year old, walking, talking, real human, whom I love as though she were my own. The last time I saw her, she said I could say I was her dad if anyone asked (and not just some stranger holding her hand) and my heart exploded.
We went on several dream vacations - I took her to see Phantom of the Opera on Broadway for one of its last shows. We went to Italy with my family where she got to see Pompeii - both bucket list items for her. We went to Hawaii, and I gave her what she says was the best day of her life at Sea World, where we met a beluga named Ferdie, a walrus named Dozer, and a dolphin named Beaker. We went to the ren faire, we spent every year at Hollywood Horror Nights and various other themed events. I'll always remember that the only reason we got into the Rise of the Republic Star Wars ride at Disney is because she got the staff to let us in after a grueling day of waiting for our turn that never came. Every memory with her feels like a dream.
We also had hard times. For the beginning part of our four year relationship, I didn't think she was what I really wanted, and I unfortunately made that clear to her. I thought I wanted someone creative with similar life goals to me. I thought I wanted someone who helped me have good habits rather than enable me to continue the bad. I also felt like she sort of "tricked" me because she always talked about how sexually open she was, but when it came to me, all she wanted was monogamy - meanwhile there are things that I wanted to try and thought I could with her. This all created some points of contention throughout our relationship.
There were things I wanted to help her change as well. She was a smoker, but I did my best to get her to quit. She didn't really have any hobbies, but also didn't really have time for them between me, her daughter, and work - but we eventually connected over video games. She also didn't have consistency with work, nor was she making as much as she deserved, nor really even to survive in the area we lived in. I was happy to help her when she needed it, but the fact that she was constantly struggling financially was something else I wanted to "fix" but didn't know how. She also changed jobs a lot, making it difficult for her to keep her head above water.
This all came to a head late last year. She needed to get her daughter away from her birth mother's house because of her abusive stepdad. She was struggling to keep her head over water on bills and couldn't afford a babysittedaycare - not that it mattered, because her work schedule wouldn't work around something like that. It got to the point that, essentially, she was going to need to move across the US in order to get her feet under her - to get a career that would allow her to work reasonable hours, make good money, maybe even work from home. And she would get free babysitting and room and board from living with her daughter's grandparents. That, or she and I would need to find a place and move in together and effectively start a life together. Considering I was already helping her financially, I thought the former sounded like a better option - but had the expectation that she would come back to me, and then we could really start our life together. She left December first.
How foolish I was. In February, she entered into a relationship with someone else and I couldn't take it. I threatened to break them up, tried to get her to break up with him, but gave up after she refused for a day or so and told her that I wished her the best but that I couldn't talk to her while she was dating this guy.
She relented and told me she'd break up with him, and agreed not to do anything with anyone (sexually or romantically) until I had moved on. I then told her I'd done a background check on him and had found some felonies and misdemeanor spousal abuse, the extent of which I didn't know until she had broken things off.
Over the next month and a half, she was really establishing her roots, put me and her phone on DND and we talked less and less - until, eventually, my brother proposed to his girlfriend and something shifted. For the next month, we were back and forth on not talking for a few days because it hurt her too much, then talking because she missed me. She wrote out what it would be like if we got married, lamented that no one would ever want to date her... we celebrated her birthday and I supported her through getting her career figured out.
But then she said that I was making her "uncomfortable" with my sexual advances, which was jarring and upsetting. So, I looked at her Reddit and I found some responses to a post where she mentioned some sexual activity she was having. I got very upset and again, we went through the process of me trying to get her to end things with him. She relented again, but I was hurting and so I reached out to Reddit to try to fix our relationship, asking how to get over a partner being "unfaithful" while separated. She saw this and was very upset, accusing me of lying on some of the details I got wrong, as well as the lack of details I gave overall - such as her wanting to get married to me for the last four years. She blocked me, and I reached out with an alt account in order to try to fix things.
That was a mistake. On that account was a single post from years ago when we were dating where I had asked for advice on how I should feel about her, because I wasn't sure that it was "in love". It didn't feel totally "right", and I think that a lot of that is because of what I had in my mind for a partner, as well as my own reluctance to settle down and give up on chasing women. She texted me that she hated me and that she never wanted to speak to me again, only giving me the chance to tell her how much I loved her and what I loved about her before saying that she still needed space but that someday, hopefully, we would reconcile.
She said that though she wanted space, she wouldn't block me so that she could read my messages on her own time - and we got to talking again within a few days. I requested that she not be with anyone while she is healing and taking space so that she'd want to come back to me, and that if she was potentially going to be with someone else - to pause, and give us another chance instead. She eventually agreed but asked me to also try to move on in the meantime so that if I chose her, she'd know I was choosing her, rather than "settling".
I continued to text her over the next few days with no response - as expected, since she said she was hiding the app. But one day my message didn't go through; I was blocked. This was very confusing to me, so as a joke I Venmo'd her $1 with the message "Unblock me :(" - and she proceeded to block me on Venmo as well. Now scared I was losing her, I sent her an email asking her what was going on and sent her flowers - only to receive this message:
Cutting you out completely is healing. I know that more and more every day. Please stop trying to contact me. The more time we spend apart the more I know I cannot settle for you. You had your chance for 4 years and you didn’t take it. You have drug me down so far and I’m not allowing it anymore. I don’t want to stop seeing the person I’ve been seeing and I only said I would and tried to let you down easily because the last time, you threatened to destroy it all for me, and that made me afraid of you. I have moved on and I don’t want to hear from you again. I am happy and I’m being treated better than I ever have been and he wants to give me all the things you never could. If you ever loved me at all you will disappear and just leave me alone. I thought maybe you could respect one boundary of mine (space) but clearly that will never be possible. You made me beg for 4 years, please don’t make me beg now. Let me go. You said you only ever wanted me to be happy, so if that was ever true and if you ever loved me at all please just don’t try to ruin it for me and just leave me alone. I’m happy, I’m falling in love, please let me go.
I was devastated and extremely confused. I called my mom, sobbing uncontrollably, asking for advice, and she reminded me of the story of her and my dad when she was sick of him having a "girl in every port" and ended things: that he flew down, hat in hand, saying he wanted to make it work with her and build a life with her because she was the one for him. My mom told me that, this is it. The last chance to make it work. To buckle down and commit to her or let it go. My mom asked me what I want in a relationship - what the "perfect" one would look like, what my perfect girl would look like and be like, what kind of life and relationship I imagined for myself.
So I went to the gym to work out and think, but ended up laying there staring at the ceiling for an hour, trying to figure out my emotions. And I realized that the answer to all of that was her. I needed her.
I couldn't let another day pass, but it was already late in the day. I bought a ticket to fly across the country that would have me landing there at 11PM and getting to her place at 1AM - the ticket order refused to go through, but I managed to buy it at the very last minute that tickets were available for the flight: exactly one hour before takeoff. I called an uber to my house, biked home, changed, threw a couple things in a bag and hopped in the uber, telling him to step on it.
When I got to airport security I only had minutes left before the flight took off, so I tossed my things on the conveyor belt, went through, and ran to the gate to ask them to hold the door for me for a few minutes. Unbeknownst to me, the gate was on the opposite side of the airport - and "ran" is a strong word, as due to an injury, I had more of a Quasimodo/Gollum run. When I finally got to the gate they told me they wouldn't hold it for me. So I hobble-ran back to security, grabbed my stuff, and ran back and... the door was closed. Missed it by four minutes, seven minutes after I was there before. They booked me on the next flight, an hour and a half later.
She has no idea I'm coming but I can't risk missing this chance. I can't risk telling her, only for her to reject me before I even get there. I'm landing at 1AM now but I ask my mom to text her and let her know once I'm on the plane without service. My mom says she does, and I fly four hours across the country - only for my mom to realize she's texted her OLD NUMBER. So when I land, I spoof a number and let her know I'm coming and that I'll be there at 3AM.
After a 2 hour drive, I haven't heard back, so we reroute to a nearby hotel and I tell her I'll be there first thing in the morning and... she responds and tells me I can come now. So I grab another uber and get to hers at 4AM.
We reconnect and it's kind of like she never left. A bit of awkwardness and she's flabbergasted that I'm there, but we're talking and laughing and I try to tell her that she's it for me. Maybe the words don't come out quite right, but she calls the guy her boyfriend (rough and unexpected, hit me like a brick) and she refuses to let me see her daughter (that one hurt a lot more). She tells me the real reason she blocked me was that her boyfriend asked if "she was still talking to that guy" and told me that she had been deleting our conversations, but he had seen the last one that went through - me saying I missed her. But I'm still doing everything I can to win her over while I'm here. She takes me back to my hotel and we reconnect physically, like two puzzle pieces. We kiss and touch and more and I think, maybe this is working, maybe she'll choose me - meanwhile she's feeling guilty and confused. But I still let her lead, because I didn't want her to feel like I was taking the choice away from her - I just wanted to remind her of what we have, and how we're each other's home. Maybe I just didn't say or do the right things. Maybe I should have done more. I don't know. Looking back, I think there were things I could have done differently, but I can't change the past. She says we can talk more in a few hours and leaves, but while she's gone she decides that she "can't do this" and tells me I need to go home.
Heartbroken, I tell her okay and that I love her and will always be there for her. I don't know if that text goes through. I write a few more texts, things I wish I'd said, things that I thought maybe would change her mind, but since they aren't going through I send them in an email - that she's my best friend, that I need her in my life, that I'm in love with her, that I want to marry her. All things that I meant to say but that maybe didn't come out right when we were talking. And I fly home.
Early the next morning, she unexpectedly calls me. Sobbing. Saying that her boyfriend knows I was there and wants to call me, and that she gave him my number but slightly wrong, hoping he doesn't figure it out. She begs me not to pick up if he calls - that right now, she and I are a "hard no", but if I pick up then she'll never want to be with me. So I tell her I won't pick up. Then she says something about he and I saying fucked up things to each other, and that he might break up with her anyway. But the call never comes.
Two days later, I send her this email:
I know you probably still don't want to hear from me. I just wanted to say I'm sorry for causing trouble in your relationship. I've been doing a lot of thinking and truly, I'm happy that you're happy. And I hope that this love and relationship is everything you ever wanted ours to be and more. You deserve the world, and I'm glad you found someone who will give it to you. I'm sorry I couldn't be that person when I had the chance. You're the best friend and greatest love I've ever had and I was too dumb and blind to see it right in front of me. It has never been my intention to cause you any pain, though I seem to have a knack for doing that accidentally.
I don't need a response or anything. It's enough for me to know that you're happy now, and while I will deeply miss our relationship - with all of its ups and downs, its horror nights, its dream vacations, every single part of what made us us - I'm happy for the times we've had more than I'm sad for the times we won't again. You will always hold a special place in my heart, but no need to worry - you won't hear from me again. For real this time. I don't want to interfere with your happiness, nor disrespect your request for space. I took my last, best shot and it's clear to me now that I am no longer the object of your affection, and though it's difficult to swallow, I'm just going to have to accept that. I'm not there yet, but I'm working on it.
Please give my love to {daughter}. I will always love her like a daughter, and always remember my heart exploding when she said I could say I was her dad. I will always cherish every memory I have with her, from holding her as she stared up at the stars when she couldn't even talk, to playing 'tar with her, to that picture we got on the Jurassic ride. I will always be there for both of you if ever you need it, for any reason. Love Always,
And I thought that was the end of it.
Since then (10 days ago), I've been going through it emotionally. Lots of anger, love, depression - lots of texts to a blocked number that will luckily never go through as I try to vent my feelings.
Then this last weekend was my family trip, which I had wanted her to go on. I had a mission to get her back in time that I could get her to go with us, so we could have this new memory together. It made it particularly painful that she was not there, and I was having trouble enjoying the weekend.
And she commented on one of my comments with an alt account. Something that set my skin on fire. Basically, rubbing it in that I lost her. I looked through the other comments on her account and several of them talked about how much better her new guy was than her ex (me), both sexually and from a relationship standpoint. I lost my mind. So while at a concert with my family, I tracked down the numbers from the background check in February and texted the guy that I suspected she was dating.
It was him. She had been lying to me for months.
This utterly breaks me. I tell him that she lied to him about my number, that she called me that morning telling me not to answer his call, and that he's missing information about our conversations and my trip out there, but I tell him that if he wants details, he's going to have to talk to her.
This was Friday night. Sunday night, I think they broke up. I've since discovered she's blocked my email (and removed pictures that she uploaded to our shared drive), cut my family off completely - presumably they're all blocked as well. She has completely excised me from her life.
Unfortunately I didn't realize how much I loved her and our life together until it was too late. That's on me for not being in touch enough with my feelings, and for some reason thinking that I wanted something different - until my mom got me to be really introspective and ask myself what it was that I actually wanted. Somewhere along the way, it became her and our life together and I had never even realized.
It's crazy, she even became more and more beautiful to me over the years and now I'm finding it hard to find anyone else attractive.
So many things I wish were different. Had the lying not happened, maybe I wouldn't have been too late. But I had no control over that. Had I never let her leave in the first place, maybe we'd be together today. But I still think that it was what she needed to be able to create the life for herself and her daughter that they deserve. Had I said or done the right things when I went out there, maybe she would have chosen me. But hindsight is 20/20 and I can't change the past.
I drafted an email from an alternate email that I'm probably never going to send. Our trust in one another is fundamentally broken, and yet I still want to be with her. But... I don't think anything I can say or do at this point will ever repair the damage that's been done. The only thing left is to hope that, one day, she misses me more than she hates me and decides to reach out. I don't expect that day to come for a long time. I'm trying to give up that hope... it's too painful, and the day may never come. But I'm writing this in case it ever does.
Here's the draft, a bit of a work in progress but basically trying to convey that I want to give her everything she ever wanted from me.
I know you’re pissed. And I know you’re hurting. And I know you blame me.

But I still think you’re the most beautiful girl in the world and I, too, think the sun shines out of your ass.
And I want to try again for real and do better this time. Romance, marriage, anything. I’ll also be more …satisfying… than you ever thought imaginable.

I’m not afraid of being alone. But you are the love of my life and I don’t want anyone else.
I am sorry for hurting you - we hurt each other on this one, pretty badly. I don’t expect an apology, but I do hope that you understand my perspective on having been lied to for so long.

When you’re ready. Please give me a call and let’s talk everything out. If not, you’ll never hear from me again. I know I said last time was the last time for real, but that was before all this shit went down.

Love Always.
It's not perfect, but at this point, I don't know what else I can say or do to save us. My huge gesture went down in flames. She hates me for ruining possibly the happiest she's ever been. I don't think she'll ever want to talk to me again, much less be with me now. There's just too much hurt.
Maybe I'm an idiot, but... even with all of that hurt, I still choose her. And I still hope that someday, she chooses me too. She's the love of my life, my person, my lobster. She always said she always forgives me, and that I'd always be the love of her life. I'm just hoping that's still true.
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2024.06.05 06:20 six6ots Fetal reduction of 6 fetuses

While this is still fresh in my mind, I would like to share my story - to help myself and any others that may find themselves in a similar situation as me. It's also so that I have a record of this experience.
(Using a new account on the off chance that any of my friends find this.)
My husband (31 years old) and I (30 years old) started to try for a baby around the middle of last year. We had known from the start that it would not be super easy for us to get pregnant as I have PCOS and his sperm quality is not great. We tried naturally until the end of last year when we started seeing a reproductive assistance specialist, who recommended we try IUI first before deciding if IVF is necessary.
The first two cycles were unsuccessful, despite two mature follicles in the second cycle. Both cycles lasted a bit more than a month.
After the second cycle, I did a hysterosalpingogram (fallopian tube scan), which involved conducting a procedure whereby the radiologist would inject a special dye into your uterus that would pass through your fallopian tubes while they took scans to determine how fast the dye is passing through your fallopian tubes. We found that my left fallopian tube was partially blocked.
For the third cycle, the specialist used a different set of medicine to encourage egg production. By my count, this phase itself lasted a month (i.e., significantly longer than the pervious two cycles). As more eggs were producing in my left ovary, the specialist wanted to see if more eggs would produce in my right ovary before inducing ovulation. At the end, there were five mature follicles - 3 on the left and 2 on the right.
It should be noted that during this time, the specialist had told us that it is possible that the hysterosalpingogram may have temporarily unblocked my left fallopian tube so the mature follicles in my left ovary may not be completely useless. So maybe it was the specialist's lack of foresight that led to this entire situation.
Anyway, so with five mature follicles, we proceeded with IUI and went through the waiting game of two weeks post-IUI.
The weekend before I was meant to do a pregnancy test, I started developing OHSS symptoms - severe bloating and nausea which resulted in vomiting. Due to a number of reasons, despite these symptoms, I did not see the specialist until the next Tuesday - four days after I realised that my symptoms were worsening. Those four days were spent at home, throwing up every meal and stuck mostly in bed.
On that Tuesday that I saw the specialist, I did a urine pregnancy test which showed a very thick, very red test line. Unfortunately our joy was shortlived as that same day, I was hospitalised for OHSS. I was in the hospital for 13 days.
Whilst in the hospital, I had to do fluid tapping and my legs were so swollen that they were unrecognisable to me. For some reason the hospital would not take my HCG levels for the longest time so I was in a state of limbo with regard to the pregnancy. On day 6, I was finally told that my HCG levels were at ~3,500 and a transvaginal ultrasound was done which showed two gestational sacs. No additional ultrasounds were done by the hospital.
On day 10 of my hospitalisation (which would be week 5 + 2 days), I was temporarily released to see the specialist where both transvaginal and abdominal ultrasounds were done. This showed us four gestational sacs but no heartbeats yet. That day was the first time the specialist mentioned the possibility of needing to do fetal reduction if more than two heartbeats develop.
After I was released from hospital, we went for further checkups with the specialist which basically showed:
• Week 6 + 2 days - six gestational sacs, three heartbeats • Week 7 + 2 days - six gestational sacs, six heartbeats • Week 8 + 2 days - 10 gestational sacs, eight heartbeats
Between week 7 and week 8, we knew we had to do fetal reduction to reduce to twins. The risk to me and the babies was too high. I cannot carry eight babies to term. Both my husband and I knew that.
Due to the high numbers of heartbeats, the specialist recommended that we do fetal reduction asap - between weeks 8 to 10. If we wait until week 10-12 (at which point some of the heartbeats might stop developing and we may have an idea of whether any of them have genetic abnormalities), we run the risk of the tissues of the dead fetuses causing an infection, increasing the risk of miscarriage of the remaining twins.
So we scheduled the procedure for week 8 + 5 days. That was yesterday.
I don't think I was prepared at all for the procedure despite how much I scoured the Internet and Reddit for similar stories - simply because there were none that I could find. I couldn't find any stories of people reducing from eight heartbeats to two at week 8-10. This is also one of the reasons why I decided to share.
The procedure itself took an hour and a half. It was not painless despite local anesthesia, maybe because it wore off as the procedure went on - I'm not sure. Due to the positions of the sacs, the specialist had to inject from two different locations. He reduced three fetuses for each injection. For each injection, by the time he was working on the third fetus, I would start feeling pain that felt like really bad period cramps. The last fetus was especially bad because it felt like he had to dig deeper.
Emotionally, it was the hardest experience I had ever went through in my life. My husband was in the treatment room with me and held my hand the whole time. Although I kept my eyes shut and although I kept my emotions under control at first, I could hear my husband starting to cry when the first few fetuses were reduced. At some point between reducing fetus 2 and 3, the nurses had to adjust my bed higher which jolted me out of my "frozen" state. I almost opened my eyes at that point but my husband warned me, "Don't look," and the waterworks broke which did not stop until the end of the procedure.
Between the two injections, I looked briefly and saw which I think is one of the remaining twins with a heartbeat so strong that I could see it on the screen. I couldn't look any longer and just kept my eyes closed the rest of the way. I can only say that I am glad my husband was there and comforted me.
Although part way through the procedure, it seemed that only five fetuses needed to be reduced, at the end, six were reduced. The procedure ended successfully.
Afterwards, my husband told me that I wouldn't have been able to bear it if I had looked. Seeing the procedure made him feel remourse and guilt. He described it as the needle invading each embryo's space, and because the specialist had to "hook" the needle onto each embryo, it looked like they were running away from the needle. He hadn't expected himself to be so emotional. Prior to the procedure, I had told him to keep watch to make sure everything is done correctly and because I felt that we shouldn't ignore what's happening - but hearing him cry made me realise the emotional strain that the situation was having on him, which weighed me down too. At the end of the day, I can only appreciate him staying strong for me.
The good news is, at our most recent ultrasound scan, which was yesterday night around six hours after the procedure, our twins were still shown going strong.
According to the specialist, there is a higher risk of miscarriage due to the procedure for two weeks, so it is now a waiting game for us. At this stage, we know that whatever happens is out of our control. But from all the ultrasounds we have done, the twins have always looked strong to me. I believe in them.
As my husband and I don't plan to share this story with any of our friends, nor do we want to go into details with our family, this post is really the only way for me to really reflect on what has happened. I also hope that, given our situation seems to be on the rarer side, this post gives insight to anyone that is going through the same thing.
Stay strong, everyone. ❤️
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2024.06.05 04:21 ar_david_hh In-depth discussions reveal Armenia's efforts to integrate with EU market & system: GSP+, ATM, CEPA, GI & standards \\ Visa lib. & queues \\ EU's €2.6B aid \\ Bagrat's LTP ties \\ Peace talks \\ Black Sea ferry & sea access \\ Remittances \\ and more

13 minutes of Armenia coverage by Transcaucasian Telegraph. Follow for regular updates.

US-AM-TR-AZ

• U.S. NatSec Jake Sullivan and Erdogan's Advisor Kilic (not that Kilic) discussed a range of topics including the "importance of a peace agreement between Armenia and Azerbaijan."
• During a meeting dedicated to Turkey-Azerbaijan energy cooperation, Turkish President Erdogan welcomed the progress in the AZ-AM peace process and said he expects a peace agreement ASAP.
• Joe Biden's letter to Baku Energy Week forum participants: A durable and dignified peace agreement that ends decades of conflict would transform the South Caucasus and fundamentally change Azerbaijan's role in the region. The United States stands ready to support this noble ambition. We owe it to future generations to ensure peace and prosperity remain our guiding principles.
• Armenia has made amendments to the draft peace agreement and sent the 9th revision to Baku as part of the back-and-forth process.
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new or notable information from FM Mirzoyan's hourslong parliament presentation about diplomacy in 2023 and 2024:

• Armenia wants Turkey to display tangible progress on the ground by unblocking the border.
• Relations deepened with the US, UK, and France.
• Cooperation with the EU has expanded to include new areas including defense.
• FM Mirzoyan accused an ARF MP of parroting "imported" Russian "imperial" narratives after the ARF MP spoke against the border delimitation process with Azerbaijan.
• An ARF MP said the presence of the EU border mission makes Armenia more vulnerable. FM Mirzoyan countered it by saying there have been no incursions since the deployment of the EU mission. Mirzoyan accused ARF and its allies of "setting up a trap" for Armenia by advancing a dangerous foreign policy for decades which forced Armenia to be dependent on Russia. "It was a sweet strategy to ensure Armenia's captivity."
• A ruling party MP accused ARF, Levon Ter-Petrosyan's ANC, and Azerbaijan of being the only parties today that are attempting to revive the topic of Khojalu. The ARF MP disagreed. FM Mirzoyan said he sees synchronous activities between the Azerbaijani government, opposition-run media outlets in Armenia, and certain circles in Russia.
• FM Mirzoyan asked ARF MP to explain his vision for returning to Nagorno-Karabakh. The ARF MP said Nagorno-Karabakh must have a certain level of autonomy. Mirzoyan said that's what the Pashinyan administration was attempting to accomplish last year and that ARF rejected it. Pashinyan at the time said there was a need to lower the status bar from full independence to a lower level of autonomy in order to rally international support. That idea was sharply rejected by ARF and its satellites in Nagorno-Karabakh who controlled the parliament. FM Mirzoyan accused Nagorno-Karabakh's ARF wing of adopting a resolution that further entrenched maximalism and "from sea to sea Artsakh" during the blockade, instead of lowering the bar to increase international support.
• Armenia was able to significantly deepen relations with Georgia (Strategic Agreement in February) and Iran (economic relations).
• Relations with Russia are more transparent than ever.
• After decades of efforts, last year Armenia was finally able to establish diplomatic relations with Saudi Arabia.
• Unprecedented: Armenia's Foreign Minister participated in the Arab League's ministerial meeting this year.
• Unprecedented: Armenia took part for the first time in Manama Dialogue.
• Armenia and UAE established a visa-free regime in February.
• Armenia won the elections in 5 out of 5 international organizations (UN, OSCE, UNESCO, Francophonie, etc.) where it submitted a candidacy.
• Still frozen with CSTO. No new developments.
• New diplomatic offices in Tabriz and Serbia, and an embassy in Cyprus. Diplomatic relations were established with Botswana and Trinidad and Tobago. Armenia has relations with 182 countries.
• Armenia and Hungary continue to restore relations; resident embassies will open. Belgium, Canada, and Qatar opened embassies in Yerevan. GIZ and KfW opened offices. Etc.
• Armenia sees a problem in Azerbaijan's constitution and Azerbaijan sees a problem in Armenia's constitution but the topic of constitutional changes is not part of the AM-AZ negotiation agenda and Armenia does not believe these constitutional issues can obstruct long-term peace.
• South Korea and Armenia have agreed to open embassies and other offices.
• Yerevan and New Delhi have agreed to hold direct flights. FM Mirzoyan sees great economic potential. He urged Armenian businesses to trade with India and not export exclusively to the "traditional markets".
• Armenia expects non-lethal technologies and mostly military medical-related assistance from the EU's Peace Facility.
• Two main channels of cooperation with EU: 1) The upgraded CEPA is currently being discussed, 2) April 5 Brussels programs for Armenia's resilience. These talks include the European Peace Facility, the visa-free regime, etc.
• Certain things could get delayed because of the June elections in the European Union, said a ruling party MP.
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Armenia's Deputy FM Hovhannisyan about Armenia-EU relations

• The EU remains the largest donor for Armenia.
• EU provided €12 million in aid to Nagorno-Karabakh refugees.
• Active discussions are underway to upgrade CEPA.
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France was one of the countries blocking the visa-free regime between Armenia and EU: ranking ruling party MP tasked with EU affairs

YEGHOYAN: Certain EU states do not want to deal with the potential problem of deporting more Armenians in the event visa liberalization leads to increased migration and illegal stays. We are negotiating to change that. Lately, a series of countries that had concerns have changed their stance and during recent official meetings, they have not opposed the launch of the liberalization discussions. There is only one group of states, 1-2 countries, that still oppose it.
REPORTER: Which country shows the strongest opposition?
YEGHOYAN: At this time... it's not the country in your mind anymore. There is a process...
REPORTER: We have information that it was France that strongly opposed it.
YEGHOYAN: Not anymore. France has withdrawn its objections. Yes, they initially objected to the liberalization because of the large Armenian community but we negotiated with them and implemented reforms in Armenia. There is another group of states, again with high living standards, who are currently on the fence. In any case, their opposition is not as strong as Hungary's veto to Armenia receiving military assistance from the European Peace Facility. These countries instead want Armenia to remedy more problems so they can show their own populations that having a visa-free regime with Armenia won't lead to their taxpayer funds being wasted on deporting Armenians. This is more of an internal political issue for them, and we understand that.

... here is why visa lines are so long to travel to EU for tourism or business

REPORTER: Why does it take forever to get a visa to a European country today?
YEGHOYAN: Many Russians are coming to Armenia to get a visa to Europe, so the lines got long. To this day the diplomatic offices have been unable to keep up with the demand; we are trying to find solutions. On top of that, some tourism agencies can use programs to reserve large numbers of visas and resell them to others at a higher price. I asked embassies to stop granting visas to individuals with other names, so whoever took the spot must be the one to use it. I think the German embassy has chosen that option; we are working with them right now.
REPORTER: Could the developments in Georgia have an impact on Armenia and EU?
YEGHOYAN: Yes. We hope Georgia finds a balanced solution.
REPORTER: And what about right-wingers gaining power in the EU during upcoming elections?
YEGHOYAN: The Right is improving its numbers but they do not have the numbers to form the government. I can't predict how much influence the Right will have on the new government and it's something that also depends on the performance of Right in their respective countries.
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Armenia's economy ministry is drafting a new export strategy; notable parts from Minister Papoyan's presentation in parliament

• The new Strategy is almost ready and will soon be presented to relevant committees.
• Every product with export potential has been examined by Armenian and foreign experts with the help of EU and USAID. The export potential and possible destination of each product were calculated.
• The experience of similar countries was studied. If Armenia currently produces A-B-C, the study reveals that certain countries similar to Armenia also produce D, so the advice is to expand the scope of production and exports, to include items not currently part of the chain.
• Armenia and Turkey are engaged in active trade via 3rd countries despite closed borders. The ministry doesn't expect a "shock" if it opens. What we need from them and what they need from us is more or less already being traded, at a higher price.
• The first truck arrived from China to Armenia through the Silk Road and Crossroads of Peace in 20 days. This is down from 35-40 days if the route is through Russia and other routes. The new route is much faster, said Papoyan.
• The Armenian government is taking steps to receive unobstructed access to seas with the help of WTO and EU. Armenia is a landlocked country so the access must be granted by WTO members Turkey and Georgia. Economy Minister Papoyan criticized the former governments for spending their diplomatic efforts on "other things" [genocide recognition] but not holding a dialogue with Turkey to grant Armenia access to the sea. Minister Papoyan implied that the ministry has employees who are going through a shock because of the rapid shift in policy to improve ties with Turkey.
• Georgia, too, is not properly complying with its WTO obligation of providing unobstructed access to Armenia to seas, said Minister Papoyan.
• Minister Papoyan explained why the Black Sea ferry project did not materialize. There was a time when Armenia was the one that desperately needed the ferry to transport the goods to Russia. Then Russia became the one that needed the Armenian goods, so Russia quickly expanded the Upper Lars capacity to accept the Armenian trucks. The ferry was no longer needed.
• To implement CEPA's economic component, a committee was formed, managed by the economy ministry. This committee consists of 3 sub-committees: geographical indication (GI) sub-committee, economic cooperation sub-committee, and customs sub-committee.
• The committee held a meeting on October 17 in Yerevan. They discussed 12 roadmaps for the implementation of CEPA.
• One of them is the renaming of Armenian cognac into Armenian brandy. Other topics relating to geographical indication and customs were discussed. The next meeting of the committee will be held this October in Brussels.
• The GI sub-committee recently discussed "cognac" and "champagne", the AM-EU legal framework around GI, etc.
• The economic cooperation and customs sub-committees held meetings in March 2023.
• Economic cooperation sub-committee has 12 roadmaps: trade of goods, customs, technical barriers, phytosanitary, services & electronic sales, payments and movement of capital, intellectual property rights, state purchases, trade & stable development, competition, state organizations, and transparency.
• Armenia informed the EU in October 2023 that it plans to rebrand Armenian cognac to Armenian brandy, which will be registered as an Armenian GI. This will allow Armenian producers to export and advertise domestic brandy. The EU has provided $2.9 million for the transition, which is in progress.
• Labs will be required to check the quality of exported brandy. The government must have a procedure for checking and certifying the quality.
• To sell a product under the GI Armenian Brandy, the company must meet the quality standards and use specific mechanisms of quality control during production. Every Armenian company that advertises its brandy as Armenian Brandy must meet these standards.
• Ruling QP MP urged the Government to ensure companies do not use cheap wheat spirit to produce low-quality alcohol and sell it as "brandy" under the new GI. The MP urged Armenia's inspection agencies to increase oversight of the wine industry as well.
• Some Armenian alcohol producers are taking additional steps to certify their goods to unlock exports to the EU, and this has raised their prices by ֏40 per liter, said Minister Papoyan. He wants the state to support Armenian laboratories that undergo processes to receive international accreditation. Many lab services are not available in Armenia, including due to a lack of specialists, so domestic producers are forced to send their products to European countries for certification, wait a long time, and pay a hefty sum.

Favorable tax policies for Armenian goods exported to the EU

• A QP MP asked if it's possible to revive or sign a new GSP+ preferential trade system. Armenia lost access to it after exiting the list of poor countries. Economy Minister Papoyan said there is currently the ATM (Autonomous Trade Measures) for some other countries, and as a result of Armenia's policy of strengthening ties with the EU, there could be an opportunity for Armenia to use ATM to export certain types of agricultural and industrial products without taxes. Armenia is negotiating for the EU to add Armenia to the list of beneficiaries of ATM.
• ATM would also allow Armenia to avoid major issues in the event of force majeure [if Russia cuts economic ties with Armenia].
• Countries that apply to receive tax waivers under ATM must submit a list of products they want to export to EU and negotiate with relevant EU agencies. Certain agricultural and industrial exports can be exported at 0%, and without quantity limits.
• Armenia has prepared a list of goods it wants to export to the EU under ATM and it will be submitted to the EU soon.
• The Armenian government and EU's Ambassador to Armenia recently discussed Armenia's possible inclusion in ATM.
• The GSP+ is a thing of the past unless Armenia becomes poor enough to once again qualify for it. The GDP per capita in Armenia is $8,200, which is above the average, let alone in the poverty zone [$4,000?].

Where does the EU plan to invest €2.6 billion in Armenia?

• €500M to 30,000 small and medium enterprises for a stable and competitive economy.
• €600M for North-South highway, tunnels, bridges.
• €220M digital transformation, science, and tech.
• €110M Syunik resilience.
• €170M to make Yerevan smart and green.
• €530M for accessible education.
• €470M water reservoirs, irrigation systems, landfills.
• The SME and infrastructure projects are still being developed. Some programs are already being implemented.

... Armenia is receiving technical assistance through the European Commission's TAIEX instrument

• TAIEX helps Armenian government bodies bring their legislation and standards closer to the EU.
• TAIEX sends expert groups for advisory and evaluation.
• The economy ministry developed and submitted TAIEX requests in 2023 to improve agriculture, capital markets, textile, tourism legislation, consumer protection, etc. Five have been approved and two have been fully implemented.
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PM Pashinyan receives the director of the European External Action Service

Pashinyan emphasized the consistent development and expansion of Armenia-European Union cooperation in political and economic directions.
Michael Siebert emphasized the EU's commitment and readiness to develop cooperation with Armenia. According to him, the EU will continue to actively contribute to the full implementation of the agenda for the expansion of relations with Armenia.
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Pashinyan forms an interdepartmental working group tasked with improving Armenia's position in the World Bank's Business Ready report

Business Ready (B-READY) is the World Bank’s new flagship report benchmarking the business environment and investment climate in most economies worldwide. The first B-READY report will be launched on September 25, 2024.
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pro-Russian opposition movement co-leader Bagrat Galstanyan says he discussed the situation in Armenia with ex-President Levon Ter-Petrosyan 15 days before the movement to oust PM Pashinyan

Galstanyan revealed that he is being advised by ex-President Levon Ter-Petrosyan's team on how to lead the movement.
REPORTER: Have you ever met any of the former presidents?
GALSTANYAN: I'm friends with the ANC party members and have close relations with many of LTP's associates. Throughout this process, they have given me advice on what to do, how to speak, where to place the emphasis, and I have followed it. I received advice on internal and external issues. They came and shared their stance; I accepted some and rejected others. I had relations with them prior to 2018 as well.
REPORTER: Do you plan to meet LTP?
GALSTANYAN: I met him before this movement. We held extensive discussions about the situation.
REPORTER: How long ago was that?
GALSTANYAN: About 15 days.
REPORTER: 15 days before May 9?
GALSTANYAN: No, [15 days] before Kirants. //
Bagrat Galstanyan went in front of the Human Rights Defender's office and demanded to meet her. She agreed to meet him and a group of protesters to discuss the issues in privacy. The meeting did not take place because Galstanyan demanded the meeting to be live-streamed.
In response to famous actor Hovhannes Azoyan's repeated criticism of his movement, Galstanyan urged journalists to wash their mouths after speaking Azoyan's name. He quickly apologized for his statement, before proceeding to call Azoyan a satan.
Authorities charged a protester with assaulting a police officer while the latter was attempting to remove a roadblock on the Yerevan-Meghri road. The incident happened earlier.
One protester is arrested for 1 month after the Friday clashes with the police in front of the foreign ministry. Another 4 are charged.
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Russia is no longer an attractive place for many Armenian migrant workers: Central Bank President Martin Galstyan

The share of remittances in GDP has gone from 18% a decade ago to 4.1% last year.
Last year the inflow was $5.7B (+9.7% YoY). Sources: $4B from Russia, $663M from USA, $141M from Switzerland, ...
Last year the outflow was $4B, so the net inflow was $1.7B.
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500-year-old Armenian church in Diyarbakir, Turkey, will be renovated

It was damaged during the 2023 earthquakes. The renovation project, approved and funded by the Turkish Culture and Tourism Ministry, aims to revive the church and will officially begin this month. The process will be supported by the Armenian community's resources and contributions.
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2 of the 8 sections of the railway destroyed during floods have been restored with the help of the Russian company that manages the Armenian railway: VIDEO

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at the request of the Armenian government, Switzerland deployed specialists to assess the structural strength of bridges and infrastructure in flood-affected areas

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Georgia's ruling party introduces another Putin-style law, this time to ban queer ‘propaganda’, gender affirmation treatment, and prevent queer people from adopting children

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Armenia and Serbia discussed defense cooperation

Defense Minister Papikyan met Serbian Ambassador and Defense AttachĂŠ. An agreement was reached to carry out work to sign an agreement between the Governments of Armenia and Serbia on defense cooperation. Topics regarding reforms being carried out in the Armenian Armed Forces and regional security were also discussed.
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the Road Department has acquired devices to check the reflectiveness of road paint and traffic signs: VIDEO

The M2 highway was checked to see if it meets the standards.
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anti-corruption: a customs agent is charged with extorting money from 11 Iranian cargo drivers

Pay or else you'll have problems.
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Armenian consumers continue to spend more: May 2024

Number of transactions with receipts: 60 million (+8 YoY)
Total value: ֏87 billion (+12% YoY)
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bear attacks a man picking plants in the field in village Arates

He noticed a bear and scared it away by making loud noises. However, he didn't notice the second bear nearby, which attacked the man, causing serious injuries. He is expected to survive.
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2024.06.04 17:29 Unhappy-Bar-8157 My ex-situationship broke up with me unexpectedly

So, as the title says, my(18m) ex-situationship(20f) broke up with me two days ago. It was really unexpected. I'm using the word "situationship" because I never officially asked her to be my girlfriend.
Just posting this as a rant ig.
We had been "together" for 2 months. We've met online 4 years ago, had a strong friendship for a while, then we didn't talk much until recently. It was a long distance relationship, about 4h30 bus ride. Which in my country isn't really expensive.
We've met personally two times (in the span of one month).
The second time (5 days ago) I had lunch at her house and met her parents, not as a boyfriend, but I think they knew we had something.
All went amazingly well, I even got invited to sleep over the next weekend because it's her birthday party.
She was so happy. After I left, she even texted me that I should've had asked her to be girlfriend (she said it in a joking way but seemed like she really wanted to).
The day after that was all good until night when she sends me a text breaking up with me. Saying that something is lacking and that isn't my fault. She blamed it primarily on the distance.
I said that I was confused, and she said that she really likes me and proposes that we take things slower. I said that I'm OK with that.
Now, I've noticed something weird about her and her ex.
She had broken up with her ex about 1 month prior before we've started talking again. It was a 2-year relationship, so I get that she still misses him. She even said it to me once that she missed him as a friend, but not romantically.
In the last week, she unblocked him on almost all social media, and then she followed him because "he followed me first, and I just want to know what he's up to".
Then he supposedly starts sending her tik toks. Then the day after she suggested we take it slowly, she said that her ex was coming to her house to hang out with her mother because they had a really great relationship. But he stayed for dinner. The next day, she and her ex went to hang out all afternoon. Things with her weren't really that "good" at this point, so I asked her if she just wanted to be friends with him, and she said yes.
That same day at night she breaks up with me, saying that she doesn't want to be in relationship in this phase of her life and that none of it was my fault.
I really believe that she wouldn't get back with her ex. She told me multiple times that he was not a good boyfriend. And I just don't think she would do that. But I don't understand why she came in contact with him again, nor do I know if he even played a part of her breaking up with me.
We are both attending college, about to start summer vacation, and I just feel a new amazing phase in our relationship was about to start.
She seemed to be really enjoying it. We even had this word, that in our native language closely resembles to what translates to "I love you" (the meaning of the word is not as strong), that we used to say to each other all the time.
We talked about the future so many times.
I'm completely heartbroken, this was my first relationship.
Yesterday was the first day with zero contact with her. And it was really hard.
Today is her birthday, so I texted her a happy birthday text and she replied saying thank you. I really hoped she would say something more.
When she was breaking up with me, I was so shocked that I didn't ask many questions nor did I insist on anything, and I feel like I kinda regret that. I just stood there crying.
I want to text her, to try to really understand what caused her to feel this way all of a sudden. Maybe it's an issue we can work on. Or maybe it just isn't the right time and in a year from now we could try again, but I just have so many doubts idk what to do.
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2024.06.04 16:18 Strvmm-strvmm Weird message in the head

That was a really weird experience I just had and by posting it here I also am looking for some potential concepts what could this be and what could possibly be the meaning of that, well let me explain some background first.
BACKGROUND: I have been amazed by eerie things since I’m a kid and my Mum is same. So, I have always been kind of sensitive on noticing different things, for example when I was small I would lie in my garden on the grass, staring at the night sky looking for a spacecraft never questioning if that was real, I knew they were real, I just wanted to see them, growing older I would start to understand it’s nothing sure and granted blah, blah etc. but these things they stayed with me and I am still the same but I’m digging more, going back to my Mum for a bit, she and some family members to confirm told me many times a story of my birth, where my Mum had NDE and I was born dead. She said that she’s had a vision that she’s floating away up above the ceiling and she’s noticed baby’s feet, which she strongly pulled to her chest resulting in swirly fast sinking back to her body and me getting back to life at the same time, this was considered a miracle, it was all around the neighbourhood I live in, I am strongly connected to my Mum on so many levels and I guess we brought something back from this other realm, but apart from that, now I lead pretty normal life, got my 4 on 4 off job, working on music that’s my passion and travel as a hobby. On the side, I also must explain, that I struggle with fitting in, despite having a lifelong partner, I always seemed to be hard to feel good at where I was and just couldn’t live life without a point in it and my point is to know who I am and what am I doing here, why we live this life and what’s the aftermaths. I developed deep meditations and yoga life to search for the truth inside the mind instead in the outer world.
THE DAY BEFORE: One day, I found a YT Channel with guided meditation/hypnosis about how to shift realities into the desired one, based on what you believe, I was a bit sceptical about the outcome but what happened the next day caught me off the guard. The day before, I found comfortable position on my bed, closed my eyes and just sunk in, after some time I opened my eyes and realised I did that because I was told to in the meditation and completely lost like good hour off my consciousness, I felt dizzy and weird, my heart started pounding as I got anxious and stood up and started doing random things around the house just to cool down a bit and kinda forgot about it for the rest of the day, in the evening I went to bed and fell asleep with no issues.
FILLER: My intention of that meditation was to find answers, if you believe in different realities and parallel universes you could ask for a hint on how to find the right one for you as I strongly still feel like I don’t fit here, I don’t fit this Earth and this life and money chase isn’t for me. Let’s assume there are other universes with the versions of you and on one earth your other you failed and in other succeeded, when all of you meet you grow in knowledge and etc, of course this is only wishful thinking but we’re all free thinkers.
THE DAY OF AN EVENT: I woke up early in the morning and got to work, on one of my breaks which is hour and a half I got to my car as I like being alone and decided to repeat this hypnosis, this channel has a shorter version which I decided to use. It was a warm and sunny day, I put my phone in a holder and drifted off, this guided hypnosis was in a countdown structure where counting down from 40 to 30 it is repeated ‘I believe there is another me, then from 30 to 20 ‘I find the other me’ and etc, when it came to 1 the voice said ‘you found other you and you have successfully shifted’ and in that moment literally on the word ‘shifted’ I heard thunder struck and it started raining like hell, considering I live in the UK, weather can be tricky but it just felt really off and this weather has been followed by phone alerts of potential flooding and heavy winds, storms coming and it all just happened in 15 to 20 mins. I got anxious again and decided to never do that again and got back to work, while working I slowly started forgetting this feeling and just went with it. Later at home, I went to take a shower and when in the bathroom I started washing my teeth, I heard weird beeping in my right ear, I tried unblocking it thinking it could be water stuck in there but it wouldn’t go off, instead it would grow a bit stronger and slowly I started to realise that it sounds familiar and nothing like blocked ear or whatever, at this point I knew two things: I know this sound for sure and it came from my head, it wasn’t some distant noise from the walls. I ran to my room grabbed a pen and a piece of paper and started clumsily noting sound notes, I figured out it was repeating, so I stopped there and with the help of google as I don’t know MORS language, I came to translation of AS5, AS5, AS5 and AS are my initials and number 5 in astrology stands for curiosity, knowledge and adventure.
SUMMARY: Do you have any ideas what could number 5 possibly mean here? Do you think this all could be true and related or was this just a coincidence? I had many other glitches and experiences but this was so real and so in time, that I’m still shaking about it. What are you thoughts about it…
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2024.06.04 15:08 Competitive_Sock_553 Toilet keeps blocking and wondering if there's something more than the obvious at fault here

It has happened several times that this toilet will start filling up with water and this becomes more frequent and then the pipe needs to be unblocked etc. It's a standard but recurring problem.
I've made sure wipes, tampons and things like that aren't being flushed down. Maybe too much tp? Possibly but, due to complex house sharing arrangements, it's not one person (me) consistently using one of the toilets, so I'm questioning why it repeatedly happens with this toilet in particular when the other is managing to do the same job at a different capacity.
So I'm wondering if maybe the toilet is just not very strong flushing-wise. But the advice I've got is that it can't be a narrower-than-average pipe or a small toilet or something like that. The only suggested scenario of the toilet itself being faulty was that not enough water goes into (and flushes out of) the cistern. Some adjustments were made and that seemed to help, but the problem seems to be returning.
I'm clueless about this and said advice came from a non-plumber, so any advice from those in the know would be appreciated, thanks!
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2024.06.04 05:09 SnooPickles5628 Running into an ex after a breakup & trying not to turn pain to hatred.

Earlier this year, I went through a painful breakup after three years together. He was my best friend, my partner in crime, and, indeed, one of the sweetest humans I know. He left me because he knew he couldn’t offer me what I deserved at this point in his life.
I’ve spent the past months prioritizing myself, my friends, my family, and my health. Through this time, I have been doing a lot of self-reflection. I thought I was doing good; I had done a lot to feel my feelings and become ok with things until this weekend. This weekend, he approached me while I was at a grocery store with a friend. I had always played it in my head, all that I would say when we crossed paths, but that day, I froze.
For the past couple of months, I villainized him; I developed such a strong hate for the man that he hurt me more than anyone before. Standing in the middle of a grocery store, all I saw was him and a spinning world all around us. I had never seen someone so happy to see me; it was like a kid seeing his best friend again after the other had moved away.
He looked into my eyes with so much love. You could tell he was nervous while he fumbled his hands, trying to figure out if he should shake my hand or fist bump me. Instead, he decided to hug me. I just stood there in shock. He told me about the new projects he was working on and how excited he was for them. I just stood there, without connection from my heart, brain, or skeletal system to my mouth. As he finished, he looked at me, hugged me again, and told me how much he had missed me as he walked away.
I feel like my heart broke once again; every scar I thought was starting to heal over was just ripped open. For the past months, I have been building him to be a horrible person that I hated, even if that wasn’t how I intended it to be; I was so angry at him. That interaction made me remember that he is only human, flaws and all. A kind man with insecurities clouding his vision and me probably not being the right woman.
I was so mad at myself for not showing or saying I was happy for him; I was angry at the hope that interaction sparked in me. Days later, with a clearer view, I unblocked his number and texted him to let him know that I had been overwhelmed the other day but said I was happy for him and his accomplishments. I didn’t expect a response and didn’t get one.
Earlier in the week, I prayed to god (not a religious person at all), asking for a sign that he (god) was with me (first time doing that, lol), and then I saw the man who broke my heart. I saw myself building that interaction up to be a “sign” that things would work out. After more reflection, I think I faced that interaction to be reminded of who he is, a human with flaws like us all—nothing more and nothing less. I genuinely believe that the route of hatred I found myself on was only going to harm me more than I imagined. I can’t hate him; hate won’t heal me, animosity won’t help me, bitterness will make me cold.
This is all a constant roller coaster. I hope to get some relief soon, but every day is just another battle in the war we call life.
I’m writing this as a reminder to myself and others to not jump to hatred for someone doing this all for the first time, too. We all deserve love and happiness, and I hope for you and myself that we are one step closer to them both.
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2024.06.04 00:44 tuh_timmyandtheboys I think I'm going to lose my seven year relationship to limerence

I've had an online LO since around February of last year. At the time, he was a follower of mine on Twitter where I post adult content. Things spun out of control, became very parasocial, and much to my boyfriend's dismay I started an emotional affair with this man. My boyfriend knew I had followers who I flirted with but it never really went anywhere.
It was also highly, highly sexual. Since then we've gone no contact, blocked and unblocked each other more times than I can count, tried to just be friends, etc. I've struggled to put my own relationship first even though I know I'd never leave my partner for my LO. There is just this strong attachment to this man that I can't shake. I will never be able to cut contact with him on my own and I'm hoping I can go low contact since the ruminating has gone down a lot. I know how my LO feels about me.
Having said all of this, I fear my relationship is over. My boyfriend and I are scheduled to move in together soon at our third apartment together, but he's said he can't help me and this is something I need to figure out alone. I'm so scared. I don't want to lose him, but how he feels is valid. He deserves better than someone who is struggling with limerence. This is all my fault, and I highly dislike myself for it.
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2024.06.04 00:13 PixelPaulAden A great post from David Sirlin concerning what is or isn't okay in a pvp setting

Introducing...the Scrub
The derogatory term “scrub” means several different things. One definition is someone (especially a game player) who is not good at something (especially a game). By this definition, we all start out as scrubs, and there is certainly no shame in that. I mean the term differently, though. A scrub is a player who is handicapped by self-imposed rules that the game knows nothing about. A scrub does not play to win.
Now, everyone begins as a poor player—it takes time to learn a game to get to a point where you know what you’re doing. There is the mistaken notion, though, that by merely continuing to play or “learn” the game, one can become a top player. In reality, the “scrub” has many more mental obstacles to overcome than anything actually going on during the game. The scrub has lost the game even before it starts. He’s lost the game even before deciding which game to play. His problem? He does not play to win.
The scrub would take great issue with this statement for he usually believes that he is playing to win, but he is bound up by an intricate construct of fictitious rules that prevents him from ever truly competing. These made-up rules vary from game to game, of course, but their character remains constant. Let’s take a fighting game off of which I’ve made my gaming career: Street Fighter.
In Street Fighter, the scrub labels a wide variety of tactics and situations “cheap.” This “cheapness” is truly the mantra of the scrub. Performing a throw on someone is often called cheap. A throw is a special kind of move that grabs an opponent and damages him, even when the opponent is defending against all other kinds of attacks. The entire purpose of the throw is to be able to damage an opponent who sits and blocks and doesn’t attack. As far as the game is concerned, throwing is an integral part of the design—it’s meant to be there—yet the scrub has constructed his own set of principles in his mind that state he should be totally impervious to all attacks while blocking. The scrub thinks of blocking as a kind of magic shield that will protect him indefinitely. Why? Exploring the reasoning is futile since the notion is ridiculous from the start.
You will not see a classic scrub throw his opponent five times in a row. But why not? What if doing so is strategically the sequence of moves that optimizes his chances of winning? Here we’ve encountered our first clash: the scrub is only willing to play to win within his own made-up mental set of rules. These rules can be staggeringly arbitrary. If you beat a scrub by throwing projectile attacks at him, keeping your distance and preventing him from getting near you—that’s cheap. If you throw him repeatedly, that’s cheap, too. We’ve covered that one. If you block for fifty seconds doing no moves, that’s cheap. Nearly anything you do that ends up making you win is a prime candidate for being called cheap. Street Fighter was just one example; I could have picked any competitive game at all.
Doing one move or sequence over and over and over is a tactic close to my heart that often elicits the call of the scrub. This goes right to the heart of the matter: why can the scrub not defeat something so obvious and telegraphed as a single move done over and over? Is he such a poor player that he can’t counter that move? And if the move is, for whatever reason, extremely difficult to counter, then wouldn’t I be a fool for not using that move? The first step in becoming a top player is the realization that playing to win means doing whatever most increases your chances of winning. That is true by definition of playing to win. The game knows no rules of “honor” or of “cheapness.” The game only knows winning and losing.
A common call of the scrub is to cry that the kind of play in which one tries to win at all costs is “boring” or “not fun.” Who knows what objective the scrub has, but we know his objective is not truly to win. Yours is. Your objective is good and right and true, and let no one tell you otherwise. You have the power to dispatch those who would tell you otherwise, anyway. Simply beat them.
Let’s consider two groups of players: a group of good players and a group of scrubs. The scrubs will play “for fun” and not explore the extremities of the game. They won’t find the most effective tactics and abuse them mercilessly. The good players will. The good players will find incredibly overpowering tactics and patterns. As they play the game more, they’ll be forced to find counters to those tactics. The vast majority of tactics that at first appear unbeatable end up having counters, though they are often quite subtle and difficult to discover. Knowing the counter tactic prevents the other player from using his tactic, but he can then use a counter to your counter. You are now afraid to use your counter and the opponent can go back to sneaking in the original overpowering tactic. This concept will be covered in much more detail later.
The good players are reaching higher and higher levels of play. They found the “cheap stuff” and abused it. They know how to stop the cheap stuff. They know how to stop the other guy from stopping it so they can keep doing it. And as is quite common in competitive games, many new tactics will later be discovered that make the original cheap tactic look wholesome and fair. Often in fighting games, one character will have something so good it’s unfair. Fine, let him have that. As time goes on, it will be discovered that other characters have even more powerful and unfair tactics. Each player will attempt to steer the game in the direction of his own advantages, much how grandmaster chess players attempt to steer opponents into situations in which their opponents are weak.
Let’s return to the group of scrubs. They don’t know the first thing about all the depth I’ve been talking about. Their argument is basically that ignorantly mashing buttons with little regard to actual strategy is more “fun.” Superficially, their argument does at least look valid, since often their games will be more “wet and wild” than games between the experts, which are usually more controlled and refined. But any close examination will reveal that the experts are having a great deal of this “fun” on a higher level than the scrub can even imagine. Throwing together some circus act of a win isn’t nearly as satisfying as reading your opponent’s mind to such a degree that you can counter his every move, even his every counter.
Can you imagine what will happen when the two groups of players meet? The experts will absolutely destroy the scrubs with any number of tactics they’ve either never seen or never been truly forced to counter. This is because the scrubs have not been playing the same game. The experts were playing the actual game while the scrubs were playing their own homemade variant with restricting, unwritten rules.
The scrub has still more crutches. He talks a great deal about “skill” and how he has skill whereas other players—very much including the ones who beat him flat out—do not have skill. The confusion here is what “skill” actually is. In Street Fighter, scrubs often cling to combos as a measure of skill. A combo is a sequence of moves that is unblockable if the first move hits. Combos can be very elaborate and very difficult to pull off. But single moves can also take “skill,” according to the scrub. The “dragon punch” or “uppercut” in Street Fighter is performed by holding the joystick toward the opponent, then down, then diagonally down and toward as the player presses a punch button. This movement must be completed within a fraction of a second, and though there is leeway, it must be executed fairly accurately. Ask any scrub and they will tell you that a dragon punch is a “skill move.”
I once played a scrub who was actually quite good. That is, he knew the rules of the game well, he knew the character matchups well, and he knew what to do in most situations. But his web of mental rules kept him from truly playing to win. He cried cheap as I beat him with “no skill moves” while he performed many difficult dragon punches. He cried cheap when I threw him five times in a row asking, “Is that all you know how to do? Throw?” I gave him the best advice he could ever hear. I told him, “Play to win, not to do ‘difficult moves.’” This was a big moment in that scrub’s life. He could either ignore his losses and continue living in his mental prison or analyze why he lost, shed his rules, and reach the next level of play.
I’ve never been to a tournament where there was a prize for the winner and another prize for the player who did many difficult moves. I’ve also never seen a prize for a player who played “in an innovative way.” (Though chess tournaments do sometimes have prizes for “brilliancies,” moves that are strokes of genius.) Many scrubs have strong ties to “innovation.” They say, “That guy didn’t do anything new, so he is no good.” Or “person X invented that technique and person Y just stole it.” Well, person Y might be one hundred times better than person X, but that doesn’t seem to matter to the scrub. When person Y wins the tournament and person X is a forgotten footnote, what will the scrub say? That person Y has “no skill” of course.
You can gain some standing in a gaming community by playing in an innovative way, but that should not be the ultimate goal. Innovation is merely one of many tools that may or may not help you reach victory. The goal is to play as excellently as possible. The goal is to win.
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2024.06.03 17:58 stevespirosweiner 1993 Dodge D250 idle and running issues (details in post)

1993 Dodge D250 idle and running issues (details in post)
318 MPI. Initially thought it was a vacuum leak (and might still be). Starts and runs fine, doesn't die. Idle is always rough and it kicks or sputters at highway speed with little pressure on accelerator. I tried blocking the EGR (most of the vacuum lines are melted) and made a custom plate and that didn't change anything so I went the other way, cleaned the EGR and made sure it was "springing" and unblocked it but it's still the same issue. Noticed a leaky injector and gas in oil so I changed all of the injectors yesterday. Still the same issues. Changed the oil yesterday as well and there is some faint gas smell not too strong yet. Oil pressure is are nd 50 and improved from before. I don't know how much can be told from the video but the gas smell isn't as stingy as before the injectors were changed (obviously). There is no leaking on the top end of the engine from any ports. All vacuum hoses that I can see have been blocked. Any and all help, advice or shit talking is welcomed. Videos cropped because I didn't wanna be the "star".
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2024.06.03 14:17 Skatman_Jan_Official Is my 'karmic' actually my TF? I'm actually beginning to think so.

This is really weird. I showed her all the signs through tf music and everything on my Instagram, because I know she checks it from what I feel, and the number of posts it stopped at from what I noticed is 11, and when she unblocked me once, she had a crudely drawn picture of herself looking miserable with the caption, Maybe you are right. Anyway, 'intuitive' people online always make me go all in circles. No, she's your karmic, soulmate, twin flame, or false flame; she's not your DM; she is your DM; she's a not-so-divine DM, but she's learning her lessons, and I learned my lessons. She looks exactly like me, except for her body type; how is she a karmic? We both have the same eyes, and we have the same eye problems: one eye is sad, the other is angry, and we both have vision problems. Now my face shape and hair color are slowly changing, similar to hers. Is this whole karmic thing a ruse? I taught her many, many things spiritually, and people I know from some method told me she's on her way, but she still hasn't reached out to me, and people said she wants you dead and she's playing mind games, and other people said she learned so well, and you guys are so connected; be ready for a new relationship. This is why you shouldn't trust 'intuitive' messengers online; they make it go all around the place where you have no idea and you confuse yourself, but I was so scared of her being in trouble; she wasn't really around the right people, and she was in the wrong place. Even one guy told me to put an end to the TF Journey 2 months ago; that was a 'intuitive' But I couldn't; something told me he was setting something up and it was actually a bad thing. This is why this subreddit doesn't want this 'intuitive messenger' thing around, but my concern was too strong, and I just had to know certain things because I didn't want her hurt; I cared too much. Just trust the timing and don't rely on 'intuitive messengers'. It toyed with my head many, many times. DO NOT TRUST THESE 'INTUITIVE' PEOPLE. THEY WILL PUT SICK SCENARIOS IN YOUR HEAD TO DESTROY THIS RELATIONSHIP AS WELL AS TO TRY TO DESTROY YOU. I'M SERIOUSLY NOT FOOLING AROUND WHEN I SAY THAT. TRUST YOUR INTUITION AND DO WHAT YOU FEEL IS RIGHT; if you believe the lies, they will shut off your intuition, and you will not be able to know anymore. I gave up on giving 'intuitive' messengers my time, and many people that I know in real life always tell me to give up on my twin flame. But I did feel like something was there. I just ignored my TF completely today because I'm now so unsure from the silence of no chats for days and no unblocking, even though I know for sure she checked my account constantly, because why would I post for no reason when I feel this pull to put something there? I gave up completely on the chase. No need anymore. Plus, I can feel her crying at times; because I would cry out of nowhere 2 days ago, she also appeared in my dreams 4 times. And they were all really symbolic and nothing bad at all, except one nightmare where she needed my help and one where we were wearing matching green and yellow bracelets and walking together all around the beach when a raccoon-looking creature chased her. Later on, my DM was in a secluded place on the beach at night, and I said some things, and then, before I could get the words out, "I love you." She closed my mouth. How is she, Karmic? I did get hot body temperature-wise at certain times, and there's always this urgency to post something on Instagram to her when it's really important. Can someone really tell me if this whole karmic thing is actually a thing? I don't know how someone could look like your biological twin but yet just be a mere karmic; there's way, way, way more to this story, but I'm just going to keep it short. BTW, I checked my clock earlier today, and it was 1:11. I do see threes a lot with this connection. Why would my TF be just a mere karmic? She was just as lost as me; we grew around the same interests in the 90s: music and TV shows, and we're both born in the timeframe of Virgo. I had to snap her out of it to not repeat the karmic cycle over and over and over again. She taught me a lesson, and I think she learned her lesson too.
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2024.06.03 12:01 VisibleTap5315 How do I get over my ex bf

Okay so I dated my ex when I was 13 I am currently 15 but it’s been a year and he has moved on by I haven’t. We started dating because I was head over heels but he wasn’t as much. So I had this friend named Isabel and he had a crush on her and claimed that he “loved her” and told me that himself and when he told me that I was heart broken but I didn’t think of it as much as because my feelings were not as strong for him. She reflected him but he got embarrassed and told her that it was a dare from me and I was a little upset at it but I just brushed it off they continued to be friends.Time skip we get to September and I had told my friend Melanie that I was getting feelings for him as I got to know him better a week later they went to go hang out some place and Melody told my ex (his name is Axel) that I found him cute and liked him and she told me that he also had the same feelings for me as I did as well that same day he confessed his feelings for me and I did as well. We started dating but when we started dating him and Isabel would play fight and I would get jealous cause he was putting all his attention on her but I didn’t speak up because I know I would get called a attention seeker because we all had a friend group and I didn’t want to be known as being jealous gf all because of some play fighting so I just ignored it even though that memory of him confessing his feelings fir her kept appearing in my head whenever they would talk. That same day she had left her pe clothes where we were hanging out I noticed her pe clothes but Axel had noticed them before me. I tried walking with him hoping he wouldn’t bring the pe clothes up. But he ended up picking them up. I remember being so jealous I know I was silly for being jealous over clothes but I remember crying walking to class. Nothing else happened but they continued to play fight and they kept texting. We all had a group chat where we would text but I remember Isabel sending a screenshot of Alex saying “I want to touch ur but” it was a TikTok trend at the time where you would sent it by letters and make them type it out all in one sentence. I remember ber just leaving the messages on read. Now we are in October and I remember hanging out with Melanie and Isabel and I was taking selfies and photos of us doing random things and I see Melody checking her phone a lot and I see it was from my bf so I asked her if I could use her phone and I know I was wrong for doing this but I opened the messages and saw his messages saying “Melanie am soo sad guess why. I just found out Isabel had a crush on me and I did too but at least am with Adriana(fake name because I don’t want to use my actual name) but don’t tell her I told you this” and Melody told her phone and saw I was reading their messages I felt betrayed by both of them because Melanie didn’t tell me and I felt more betrayed by my bf and I started to cry. Isabel saw me cry and messaged me saying “I didn’t mean to like him” I don’t know who told her what happened but I just ignored her. (The whole group thought I didn’t like my bf I did a lot) and me and Axel talked it out and we continued to date but him and Isabel felt like a reminder that they had crushes on each other. So I became toxic and i remember pushing Axel one time because of how mad I was because him and Isabel kept play fighting( yes I know I was wrong but I had a bunch emotions not just about him and Isabel but also my personal life) but I remember apologizing because I would feel like shit if I didnt. Time skip to December me and him were doing good nothing bad but he was getting mad that we weren’t hugging or holding hands while we were dating I wanted to but it felt like he didn’t want to. But I just brushed it off. Axel was also more mad because we wouldn’t hang out after school . I didn’t want to tell him I wasn’t allowed to date so I would just make excuses to not hang out. Time skip to January Isabel thought I hated her I didn’t hate her I just didn’t like how she would act around my bf. She then thought I started to spread rumors about her but I wasnt I had only told 2 people these rumors but then I would say after that I don’t think they are true. It was also getting bad for me and axels relationship so he ended up breaking up with me a before my birthday and Valentine’s Day. Isabel then called me out saying I was spreading rumors about her I stood there quiet and not say anything I could care less about what she had to say but she ended up bringing up something about me and Axel saying I was using him for gifts. “Excuse me what ? “ is what I should’ve said but I couldn’t our whole friend group was standing behind her while I was by myself I just walked away. Axel had blocked me that day his last words were “shut up n word”. Later on her and Axel said in the group chat that they loved each other and how they were dating turns out they just said I love you to each other long story short Isabel was just using him and then they walked with each other at school holding hands. Later on Axel came up to my friends saying if we wanted to buy candy grams from him we ignored him and it bothered him.Time skip to December 2023. I used my friends acc to tell him to unblock me because I wanted to talk things out (I know it was so late but I just couldn’t stop thinking about it. I ended up apologizing for being a bad gf even though I clearly wasn’t at least I didn’t think I was. He ended up telling me that he has a new crush on this girl and that they were in the talking stage. I wanted to cry because I had no crushes or anything because I was so stuck up on him that I wasn’t thinking about myself. But currently they are dating. And him and Isabel stopped talking ever since highschool started.
I legit can’t get over him and every song on my playlist reminds me of him.
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2024.06.03 04:48 Genobyl Seeking Satoru Ninjutsu Deck Help for Naruto Alter Deck Surprise

Besides the Kenshin/YYH deck II've posted about somewhat recently, i'm working on a reskinned [[Satoru Umezawa]] deck for a different friend as a surprise, with the focus being on his favorite show Naruto. I did consider Yuriko, but my read on my friend is he won’t like the playstyle.
Immediate disclosure, im working through the Naruto manga as part of this gift for him to get a better idea. I do not claim to be knowledgeful and am seeking guidance.
This is not a commander or tribe I have played before, so I’d like some suggestions on cards to cut/keep. I’d like the deck to be strong enough to have tolerance for “bad” cards that fit the show well.
Satoru being a creature-heavy deck works out great for a character lineup the size of the what’s in Naruto. I can use supporting characters, young versions of the cast, and lesser villains to the unblockable creatures. Major villains and powerhouses from the show are great for filling out the big mana creatures that will ninjutsu in.
However, as I have to play against this deck, I don’t want it to be oppressive, hence the lack of every Eldrazi titans except one Kozilek.
  1. Any thoughts on build of deck itself? I feel like I'm high mana creature heavy, but I cant tell if it’s detrimental. Were just a group of friends who play together, as there isn’t even a LGS nearby. We rule 0 in that a deck can either tutor or combo, but not both. Usually ending games around turn 7. We don’t shy away from stronger decks, as guys run edgar and kalia as examples.
2. any characters that seem like a no-brainer to assign to a specific card? Any characters that seem like jokes that don’t deserve a card?
3. any ideas on cool jutsu, items, locations, techniques from the show that would be worth making into artifacts, sorceries, and land cards. For instance, someone suggested [[Rite of Replication]] for a shadow clone jutsu card.
Tentative Decklist: https://www.moxfield.com/decks/ANJRqEVBm0WfS74pkzA5eA my sideboard has cards I felt borderline on and had to cut to reach 100, while considering was cards cut earlier on.
Spreadsheet with tentative assignments: https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1dPRvUM7IFyz-Yp22z35-CoaQzcCncxAm1GG8yyIL-T4/edit?usp=sharing
For the curious, some of the first pass alters can be seen here: https://www.reddit.com/mpcproxies/comments/1d68ash/start_of_narutosatoru_edh_deck/
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2024.06.02 16:46 Alex_sc11 Groot Rework idea

Groot’s Mechanics
Character Class: Cosmic
Basic Abilities: Fury, Cruelty , Regeneration, Energize
STRENGTHS: * Rapid Metabolism means that his potent regeneration wont be able to be reversed or heal blocked, it needs to be staggered or nullified.
WEAKNESSES:
*Groot looses his combo each time he dashes back or block an attack, which makes him a bad choice where you are punished for loosing your combo.
ABILITIES:
ALWAYS ACTIVE - Groot is immune to bleed and has quick metabolism, making any debuff’ duration 75% shorter. If the debuff is permanent Groot has a 50% to purify it.
Heavy Attacks * The first hit launches on branch arm through halfway the screen , if hit Groot wraps his opponent and gets close to him , if the heavy is still pressed Groot hits a second time knocking the opponent down, if the Heavy was released right as the opponent is wrap Groot can start a chain combo.
SP1
SPECIAL ATTACKs
Special 1 - Flower Power
• Groot pushes the opponent back with 2 hit root slam . The last hit generates a Regeneration buff, healing 2% percent of maximum health per hit in Groot’s combo for 10 seconds . If the combo is cero it generates 10% of missing health.
Developer's Notes: The Special 1 is a great way to keep Groot alive and well (specially with longer combos with wrap mechanic and relic use. this regeneration can be quite strong and due to Groot’s metabolism heal block or heal reversal is almost impossible to have active.
Special 2 - I am Groot!
• With the special activation, each pacify charge converts into a +860 Fury buff and a +350 cruelty buff for 12 seconds. This fury and cruelty buffs remain paused as long as Groot doesn’t looses his combo count.
Developer's Notes: The Special 2 is the cash out special elevating the damage to unlimited amounts depending on the amount of pacify charges. The wrap at the end mixed with the energize buff can make it possible to connect 2 sp2 using your relic increasing your time for insane damage output
Special 3 - Team play
• feeling part of a family makes Groot gain more confidence, exchanging up to 50 pacify charges togaining an aptitude buff increasing the potency of fury, cruelty and regen effects for 30 seconds. the potency of the Aptitude is 1% per pacify charge.
Signature Ability - I am Groot • Well timed blocks have a 10%-30% to not reset combo meter.
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2024.06.02 16:45 spinningtheworld999 Part2: Experiencing Intense Action with a Modern Twist - 'Vindictus: Defying Fate' Review.(ruliweb)

This article was simply machine translated from Ruliweb news article.
https://bbs.ruliweb.com/news/read/194528
Part2.
Although Mabinogi Heroes has deviated somewhat from its original aspirations, Vindictus breaks free from the influence of specs by focusing solely on single-player action. Thus, it avoids tampering with additional elements like attack speed. Within the limited scope designed by the developers, interactions between enemies and players begin, with the action itself serving as the medium of communication between their movements and attacks. Enemies attack players based on designed patterns, and players use their available tools to defeat these enemies. In essence, this genre involves players solving the challenges posed by the developers using action as their tool. Vindictus provides players with several tools. The actions available to players are divided among characters like Fiona and Lann. These characters exhibit vastly different action styles. Like the original, Fiona starts with her signature moves, sword and shield + Amaranth Kick, emphasizing defense. Lann, on the other hand, uses dual swords to deliver swift attacks and agile movements. The overall action motions of these two characters evoke the original Mabinogi Heroes, leading to Vindictus’s unique tempo. The way actions are triggered is a standout feature, following the initial design goals of Mabinogi Heroes. Since Vindictus stems from Mabinogi Heroes, its action gameplay involves a structure of regular attacks, smash (strong attacks) combos, and active skills. Players primarily encounter four types of actions by combining regular and strong attacks. The finishing moves vary depending on the number of regular attacks followed by a strong attack input, with more complex combos dealing greater damage. Each character's unique actions define their identity. For example, Fiona's defense and Lann's Gliding Fury. Fiona, with her shield, can vary her actions with guard-counter combinations, while Lann can quickly continue his attacks with Fury after an attack. This action design interacts with enemy patterns to create unique action experiences influenced by the player’s skill. Additionally, players can actively cycle through damage with four active skills interspersed with regular attacks. Some active skills can be followed by strong attacks or are designed to deal with multiple enemies. Ultimately, the player must decide which attack combos to use between enemy patterns, identify patterns where enemies show openings, determine the best techniques to use after executing their command inputs, and consider the follow-up patterns of the enemies. Choosing the right character for their playstyle is also part of this strategic combat experience. With these tools at their disposal, enemies also possess patterns that can disrupt players, such as unblockable and unavoidable attacks, distinguished by yellow and red indicators. These require immediate player judgment and response. Each character has different ways to handle these situations, adding depth to Vindictus's combat. So, what kind of action does Vindictus pursue? This varies by individual perspective, but I believe it’s the "intense and fierce combat rhythm" developed from Mabinogi Heroes. This rhythm uses enemy patterns as a reward system. For example, successfully defending against an enemy attack might provide a small window to strike back. Fiona’s counterattack after a successful guard is a prime example, as is Lann’s Fury after hitting twice or four times. The reason many Lanns from the original game shouted, "Does my life matter when I’ve landed a critical hit?" stems from this. The action, when rewarded conditionally, and its extreme catharsis from the motion and impact sounds, create what is known as the thrill or satisfaction of the action. This combo action structure of combining light and heavy attacks works as a reward system responding to enemy patterns, ultimately forming an identity not easily found in other titles. Like Mabinogi Heroes, Vindictus continues this legacy. Fiona's combat remains intense and fierce, offering counterattacks and active skills as rewards after dodging or defending, maintaining its unique flavor. Fierce combat means filling the gaps between enemy patterns with one’s attacks and defenses. Vindictus encourages players to use every opportunity to attack within these gaps, rather than just dodging and defending. This approach tightens the gameplay, ensuring there are no empty moments by inserting attacks or active skills after dodging. The developers removed the stamina concept for this reason, marking a significant change from the original game. Stamina, which limited attack and dodge opportunities and existed because combat was designed for multiple players, is absent in Vindictus. Without stamina, players can attack without limits, not needing to wait for stamina to replenish, leading to more attacks in between. However, by setting after-action delays and restricting cancels, they designed the game so that player skill and pattern understanding matter. Vindictus seeks immediate reactions and transitions between attack and defense. It maintains tension, providing quick, intense battles rather than prolonged combat. This change aligns with the removal of elements like equipment damage management. Furthermore, actions like attacking immediately after dodging or blocking, following unblockable attacks with a heavy attack dash, enhance the combat experience with a focus on speed. In summary, the seamless combat in Vindictus, even with short battles, provides a powerful experience. Considering boss fights last around 1-2 minutes in the pre-alpha build, it’s an impressive feat. The brief yet explosive exchanges of attacks and defenses create extreme tension, liberation, and catharsis for players. Character actions and enemy patterns interlock, leading to intense, continuous combat. Despite being in the pre-alpha stage, it successfully delivers a satisfying combat experience that’s simple yet intense, rather than complex, multi-command actions. However, some areas still need improvement, as expected from an unfinished game. Issues like characters getting stuck after getting hit or misaligned hitbox judgments with Lann's fast Fury attacks indicate areas requiring further development and adjustment.
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2024.06.02 04:49 brod333 Responding to Exion’s response pt 1

Exion has finally started to respond to my posts. It would be easier if Exion would unblock me and engage with me directly but they still refuse to do so. It would also be nice if they linked the posts they are responding to so anyone reading his posts can look up my posts. I made sure to do that for all his posts. In this post I’ll be responding to https://www.reddit.com/Quraniyoon/s/98oVSczZYe.
For the list of parts in my series see https://www.reddit.com/Quraniyoon/s/01K9X3Pjxj
In this post, I will be answering and refuting the individual who keeps writing posts about me and comments every second he gets trying to "refute" me and "expose" me. I am only doing this because some brothers and sisters have allowed themselves to be fooled by this dude.
In his last post before he started addressing my criticisms he made it clear he wouldn’t engage with my criticisms. It’s only after the mods told him to either respond or they’d remove his posts, as can be seen here https://www.reddit.com/Quraniyoon/s/c1XSgLQlZe, that he started responding to me. Given those facts I find it hard to believe his reasons given here for responding to me.
He begins by discussing my translation of the word "ישוחח," which I interpret as "argue" or "put forth."
That’s not where I begin. There is some important context before that. The first part of my first post was about showing the general sloppy nature of his posts using examples which he acknowledged his mistake, are things someone who knows Hebrew would be unlikely to make, and which he later copied elsewhere without fixing the mistake. The issue of ישוחח is just one part of this.
Firstly, in Biblical Hebrew, verb forms such as Qal and Piel (often referred to as Polel in some grammatical traditions) are distinguished by their specific diacritic markings (i.e., vowel points and consonantal diacritics).
Nope. The difference between the Qal and Polel forms in this case are not just in the diacritical marks but also have consonant differences.
Since I believe that the Masoretes distorted the Old Testament by adding these diacritics to reach a deviant interpretation, I do not consider them at all. I read the Old Testament without any diacritics. This is something he has yet to understand
Again in this case it’s not just the diacritical marks. I also understand Exion rejects them and in my responses I give reasons why his diacritical mark suggestions don’t work.
He later argues that the ancient Christian manuscripts (such as the Codex Sinaiticus, Septuagint, etc.) must agree with my claims and not with the Masoretic renderings of the Hebrew text, a conclusion he bases on thin air. I ask: Why is that so? Can you give us one good reason for this conclusion? You can't! He says this only because he considers these Christian manuscripts as divinely revealed criteria and translations.
Note the Septuagint was written by Jews not Christians. I’ve also given my reasons for why those should agree with Exion. He ignores those reasons and then attributes different reasons I never said. I’ll repeat again, Exion’s theory that he’s stated multiple times is that when the Masoretes added the diacritical marks they intentionally added ones that change the original meaning of the text to cover prophecies about Mohammed and Islam. He then claims he is discovering the original true meaning of the verses. If this is true then pre Masorete texts would still have the original meaning. Also any sources from after the Masoretes but which weren’t influenced by them should still have the original meaning. Also any before Mohammed and Islam wouldn’t have the same motivation to hide prophecies about Mohammed and Islam.
The Masoretes could even have been influenced by Christians and their manuscripts,
This is a textbook example of an ad hoc assumption. An ad hoc assumption is when an assumption is added without any evidence to modify a theory for the sole purpose of avoiding falsification of the theory by some evidence. Since these sources that should agree with Exion don’t agree he added a new assumption without evidence to modify his theory to avoid falsification.
It’s also a problematic assumption. The Masoretes were Jews. Jews and Christians were split a few hundred years earlier and so didn’t really influence each other. For the Septuagint this was written even before Christianity. It’s so far before Islam and Mohammed that it’s extremely unlikely they were trying to hide any prophecies about them. It’s one of our oldest sources for the text making them a good source for how early Jews understood the text. It serves as an excellent source for testing Exion’s claims since if they’re true we’d expect, at least a significant portion of the time, they’d agree with Exion. If no one else in history, even before the diacritical marks were added, agrees with Exion then Exion is not speaking the same language as everyone else.
In other words, both Qal and Polel essentially mean the same thing.
Here is what Exion said previously, “Regarding the phrase "Who will argue...", an alternative rendering could be "Who will claim..." However, using the word "argue" may be more faithful to the original text, as it carries a connotation of "complaining" or "disputing" rather than simply making a statement or engaging in ordinary conversation. This nuance helps capture the intended meaning more accurately.”
They specifically note the nuance of the meaning ‘complain’. What they failed to notice is that meaning is only part of the Qal form not the Polel. Both their original and new dictionary citation show this. Since the verb in question is in the Polel form that meaning doesn’t apply. Both source clearly listed the two different forms and the meanings for both. Either this is another case of Exion not reading his sources properly or he didn’t realize the correct form of the verb. Either way it shows the general unreliability of Exion.
Thus, he has fixated on this specific word, insisting it is (without a shadow of a doubt) in the Polel form (because his Pauline forefathers said so)
Actually I insist it’s in the Polel because I understand the different verb congregations. It’s not just diacritical marks but consonant differences as well. A key way we can tell is that the final consonant, ח, is duplicated.
Let's see if the Polel form does anything to save him:
This whole section is a lengthy that follows completely misses the point. Here is the original discussion, https://www.reddit.com/DebateReligion/s/f3XrmqDNqi. Like back then his response misses the point. I go on to note how is translation depends upon connecting two parks of the sentence where the diacritical marks have a break. I asked given all the mistakes he’s made up to that point, with the mix up of the Qal and Polel being the most recent at that time, why should we trust him over the Masoretes. The idea was to show how Exion is unreliable and doesn’t know Hebrew so he can’t be trusted over Hebrew speakers. He doesn’t justify why we shouldn’t take a break at that section, we’re just supposed to trust him but with all the mistakes he makes we can’t trust him. Furthermore after adjusting his translation to accommodate the Polel meaning the next day he copied his post to this subreddit without making the same correction but leaving the mistaken Qal meaning.
I believe (if I remember correctly) that he translates it as:
Nope. I never gave my own translation for this verse. He could have just checked the discussion but instead he made another sloppy mistake where he misrepresented what someone else has said. The discussion is public for anyone to read it themselves and see I never said that.
He goes on to say that I quoted from a fictitious source, which is not true at all. I simply didn’t bother looking through my entire library to find a quote I mistakenly mis-referenced, mainly because the quote turned out to be quite irrelevant, and I don’t waste my time like that.
That’s just an excuse. After giving the original citation a few people tried and couldn’t find it. He was pressed on the issue. Finally after some back and forth he gave a new book name and new author. However, the citation still couldn’t be found in that new book. It was at that point where he just ignored any further requests for proving the source exists. This is the first time since then he’s acknowledged it. Given that course of events it’s strong evidence the citation doesn’t actually exist. Until he provides proof the citation actually exists we should take the citation as fictitious. Though even if the source does exist his acknowledgment of a wrong citation is still evidence of his sloppy work and unreliability with representing sources, something he does very often.
So, I will not bother to refute every single point of the old stuff that I’ve already conclusively answered.
He never did. For the issue about copying the verse number and making it part of the verse all he could say before is that it’s a minor mistake that I’m overblowing. However, as I note the error is not a minor one but actually requires several points of failure, some of which are hard to accidentally make. E.g. removing the space between the verse number and first word after copying takes intentional action. For the pronoun suffixes his response boils down to just claiming every single person who has ever translated it is wrong and he is right. He refused to give a general account of pronoun suffixes that supports his translation along with a source to back up his account. I on the other hand took a picture of my Hebrew textbook showing the full chart to prove he is wrong.
Regarding the stone God mentions that was to be placed in the Temple of God, he says that it is saying
Notice in this section of his response he changes his original translation to include the second instance of the word stone that he previously missed. This acknowledges that he was originally wrong and missed that word. He just tries to rework the translation have that second occurrence of the word stone while still referring to God’s stone. Let’s see if it works.
The next word is אל: This is taken as a preposition according to them, and it generally means "to" or "toward," and never "upon." It is used to indicate direction or movement towards something. While the following word is, again, a stone "אבן."
I deal with his simplistic view of Hebrew pronouns in my pt 2. Once again we have the same problem. The relationship between pronouns in Hebrew compared to English is complicated. The pronoun in my pt 2 analysis has 8 pages in the BDB. אל has 2 pages. For על, which we be relevant in a moment, it has almost 6 pages for the proposition part. It’s far more complicated than giving a short list and only limiting translation to that list.
Regarding אל the BDB under note 2 points out there is a tendency to use it interchangeably with על. For על it lists upon as one of the meanings. Exion goes on to argue the limited set of meanings he gives don’t make sense and from that argues אל should instead be taken to be God. However, when we realized prepositions are more complicated than he makes them out to be and that אל can mean upon this argument fails.
Here, "אל־אבן" would translate to "God's stone" or "stone of God."
Here is the chapter from my textbook on the construct relationship singular. https://imgur.com/a/TWa8x4B. Take the first example. The first word on Hebrew is סוּס which means horse. The second word is הַמֶּלֶךְ which means the king. The translation given is “the horse of the king”. The second page gives examples of how this is translated into English with a ‘s. Based on that “the horse of the king” would be “the king’s horse”. This example shows us if we accept Exion’s claim אל means God and this is a construct relationship then the translation would actually be “God of stone” or “stone’s God”. Exion has flipped the words in his translation.
Thus, the phrase "מטרם שום־אבן אל־אבן בהיכל יהוה" would be understood as "before placing a stone as God's stone in the temple of YHWH" or "before placing a stone, God's stone, in the temple of YHWH"
Actually with the correct word order we’d have “before placing a stone, God of stone, in the temple of YHWH”.
Or you could simply not take "El" as a construct state. In Hebrew, a noun followed by another noun can indicate possession without needing a construct state (i.e. the equivalent of adding 's in English). This is often called "smikhut" or construct form, but it is not always necessary to explicitly form it.
This is confused. He thinks construct state refers to a specific different form or the noun but the possession meaning doesn’t require that different form. My textbook shows that’s mistaken. Yes it’s true the possession meaning doesn’t require a different form, however it’s still called the construct state. This is evident from my textbook. It notes at the bottom of the second page the construct state is sometimes the same as the absolute state. I didn’t mean to say Exion was taking it as having a different form from the absolute state but was pointing out he takes the phrase as indicating possession. That’s why I said if we add the missing word at take the phrase as indicating possession we’d get “stone’s God’s stone”.
This is something he doesn't know because, well, who knows why.
As my textbook proves it’s him that doesn’t know what he’s talking about.
Explicitly contradicting your claim that it doesn't exist, but you didn't know that because you have probably never even read the entirety of the chapter to begin with. The Temple was already there. A stone was to be placed in it, God's stone, the black stone of the House of God, and not that it was to be built or built anew. This is why I even wrote the article, because the temple of God was already in existence. How you could have missed this, if you've read the chapter in it entirety, is very baffling to me.
What’s baffling to me is how someone can be so confident and condescending while being so wrong. Not only did Exion fail to research the historical context of the literature he tries to interpret, he failed to notice my summary of the history. Haggai gives explicit historical markers for when the prophecies were made. “In the second year of Darius the king, in the sixth month, on the first day of the month, the word of the Lord came by the hand of Haggai the prophet to Zerubbabel the son of Shealtiel, governor of Judah, and to Joshua the son of Jehozadak, the high priest:” Haggai‬ ‭1‬:‭1‬ ‭ESV‬‬. This places the prophecy in 520 B.C. This was after the Babylonians conquered Israel (specifically the southern kingdom as the northern was already conquered), brought them into exile, destroyed the first temple, the Persians conquered Babylon and allowed the Jews back to Israel to rebuilt the temple. They started to built the temple but stoped when opposition arose. Haggai’s prophecies are about pushing the Jews to continue rebuilding the temple. You can read about the fall of Israel by the Babylonians at the end of 2 Kings and 2 Chronicles. You can read about the return to Israel in Ezra and Nehemiah (note the events in Ezra are before those in Nehemiah).
Exion mentions Haggai 2:3 to disprove me. This is another case of him misrepresenting his sources. Let’s analyze it carefully part by part.
"Who among you is left, who saw this house in its former glory?” The word former indicates it had that glory in the past but no longer has it. That is because the previous temple was destroyed.
“And as you see it now”. This calls to attention a comparison of the former glory with the current glory.
“is it not as nothing in your eyes?" This expresses the current glory calling it nothing in their eyes. That’s because the previous temple was destroyed and not yet rebuilt.
Also check out these verses: ““Thus says the Lord of hosts: These people say the time has not yet come to rebuild the house of the Lord.” Then the word of the Lord came by the hand of Haggai the prophet, “Is it a time for you yourselves to dwell in your paneled houses, while this house lies in ruins? Now, therefore, thus says the Lord of hosts: Consider your ways. You have sown much, and harvested little. You eat, but you never have enough; you drink, but you never have your fill. You clothe yourselves, but no one is warm. And he who earns wages does so to put them into a bag with holes. “Thus says the Lord of hosts: Consider your ways. Go up to the hills and bring wood and build the house, that I may take pleasure in it and that I may be glorified, says the Lord. You looked for much, and behold, it came to little. And when you brought it home, I blew it away. Why? declares the Lord of hosts. Because of my house that lies in ruins, while each of you busies himself with his own house. Therefore the heavens above you have withheld the dew, and the earth has withheld its produce. And I have called for a drought on the land and the hills, on the grain, the new wine, the oil, on what the ground brings forth, on man and beast, and on all their labors.” Haggai‬ ‭1‬:‭2‬-‭11 ‭ESV‬‬. It’s pretty clear the previous temple lies in ruins and God is calling them to rebuild it.
This is why Jacob
Jacob lived long before the temple was built. His life is recorded in Genesis. There is a lot of history in between Jacob’s life in Genesis and the building of the temple in 1 Kings/2 Chronicles. Either Exion is completely ignorant of the history he is commenting on or he’s cherry picking which parts he wants to accept.
Lying and adding words to the Word of God to make it look like another House would be raised.
But that’s literally what happened in history. The first temple was destroyed and the later rebuilt. Again check out the books I mentioned for the historical background, especially Ezra which records the events during the time Haggai was prophesying.
The preposition "the" is not there before "Chemdat," while it is before "Goyim" (heathens), which makes sense because "Chemdat of all the heathens (will come)" and doesn't translate to "The treasure of all the heathens (will come)," as they have it.
Exion takes the lack of the definite article before chemdat as indicating it shouldn’t be translated with a “the” as its indefinite. He then argues taking chemdat the traditional way doesn’t make sense without the definite article so we should instead take it as a name. This again shows he doesn’t know Hebrew.
Note Exion translates it as Chemdat of. He interprets it as possession indicating he takes the Hebrew as being in the construct state. I linked above the chapter on the construct state. The first page notes a noun in the construct state never has the definite article. Instead the the last noun as the definite article then the noun in the construct state is also definite, and if the last noun is indefinite then the noun in the construct state is indefinite. Exion also acknowledges the last noun as having the definite article. When we actually understand the construct relationship we see that while there is no definite article on chemdat it’s still definite since it’s in the construct form with the last noun having the definite article. This undermines his argument for why chemdat is a name.
The phrase "הגוים" (ha-goyim) translates as "the heathens,"
The BDB lists this word as meaning nations/people. Heathen has very negative connotations which are not necessarily implied by the word.
He then says He will fill this house, which they saw as nothing, with glory. The house already exists;
Again look at the historical markers Haggai gives and the historical books for the historical background. Also look at the passage I quoted from Haggai 1 which clearly mentions the current temple in ruins and God calling the people to rebuild it. The promise God is making in Haggai 2:7 is about the new temple being greater than the former.
Going back to Haggai 2, the 18th verse also confirms that the Temple already was there:
"Consider, please, your heart from this day and onward, from the twenty-fourth day of the ninth month, from the day that the temple of the Lord was founded, consider your heart."
This particular section is Haggai 2:10-19. By this time the Jews started rebuilding the temple again and had laid the foundation. Haggai 2:15 and 18 are parallel passages calling the people to consider the time since that work on rebuilding the temple was done. God then points to the blessing they’ve experienced since then. That is in contrast to the hardships listed in Haggai 1:10-11 that God says we’re because they weren’t rebuilding his temple.
Nevertheless, he is right about one thing regarding this chapter: it does not mention the new moon to new moon and the end of the Sabbath—that was in Isaiah 66. My mistake.
Yes it is a mistake and it is one of way too many to count where he messes up representing his source in some way.
the second phrase can be interpreted as an end (if we interpret "Shabbat" as "End")
Actually it can’t. I missed this in my post but u/c0d3rman caught it in his comment on Exion’s post. The definition Exion gives in his post is the verb “to cease”. However, “an end” is not a verb but a noun. His translation doesn’t match his own definition.
but it is Biblically and generally interpreted as "Sabbath."
Because as a noun it means Sabbath.
A literal translation of the phrase in the 23rd verse would be:
‎>שבת (shabbat) - "Sabbath"
‎>בשבתו (be-shabbato) - "His Sabbath"
‎>יבוא (yavo) - "it will come"
Putting יבוא as part of this phrase has 3 problems. First it breaks the parallel in grammar and idea with the previous phrase. Second the subject of the verb then becomes the sabbath but that’s not possible. The gender of the verb and subject need to match but sabbath is feminine while יבוא is masculine. Third Exion’s translation has יבוא translated twice, both as part of this phrase and as part of the following phrase. However the word only occurs once in Hebrew so it can’t be translated twice into English as a part of 2 different phrases.
I also explained how this phrase is an idiom in my first post. I referenced the BDB which explains how we know it’s an idiom and what the idiom means, which corresponds to the traditional translation. The verse is not talking about a sabbath coming to a sabbath or coming to an end. It’s saying the frequency that all flesh shall come to worship before God.
I’ve mentioned the BDB often as a source. For those unaware there is an online version where words can be searched, https://www.sefaria.org/BDB. I’m mentioning this because unlike Exion I want to be sure people can easily find the sources I reference. If anyone has trouble finding any particular word I’m not sure how to link to specific words but I’m happy to take pics of my physical copy.
u/TheQuranicMumin you said “If he fails/refuses to do this, we will remove his posts for misinformation.” Can we agree already this counts as a failure to respond and consider his posts misinformation or do I really need to continue addressing his posts/responses?
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2024.06.01 18:14 xanniebunny I feel empty again

I don't know if I've ever felt love.
I just miss my ex so much. If anyone wants context to what my story is(was) you can look at my previous posts.
I had blocked him on all platforms in January and I've been NC since then.
Unblocked him 1.5 months back and didn't text him.
I had put up a status on WhatsApp and he saw it but never replied to it. Not that I was expecting him to reply but it was about a family member passing. I hadn't even thought that he would look at the status but when he saw it I couldn't stop thinking about him.
He knows he has been unblocked now and didn't text me (which is a clear indication that he doesn't wanna talk - but I don't wanna believe so?) But the thing is that I told him that I don't want him to contact me because if he did, I would hold on to the hope that we will get back together.
I don't know if he is respecting my decision and that's why he isn't texting or he doesn't wanna text me.
The urge to text him is really strong on some days and today is one of those days.
I just don't know if I even want him back. I am in a very confused state rn.
I miss him. I've been in a pretty bad state lately. Busy as hell, don't get time to think about him but when I'm free, I think about him for a few minutes atleast.
I don't know if I have moved on, maybe this is how it is when you loved someone and they left you or maybe this isn't even love.
I don't know, just wanted to put my thoughts somewhere. Any advice is welcome.
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2024.06.01 18:14 xanniebunny I feel empty again

I don't know if I've ever felt love.
I just miss my ex so much. If anyone wants context to what my story is(was) you can look at my previous posts.
I had blocked him on all platforms in January and I've been NC since then.
Unblocked him 1.5 months back and didn't text him.
I had put up a status on WhatsApp and he saw it but never replied to it. Not that I was expecting him to reply but it was about a family member passing. I hadn't even thought that he would look at the status but when he saw it I couldn't stop thinking about him.
He knows he has been unblocked now and didn't text me (which is a clear indication that he doesn't wanna talk - but I don't wanna believe so?) But the thing is that I told him that I don't want him to contact me because if he did, I would hold on to the hope that we will get back together.
I don't know if he is respecting my decision and that's why he isn't texting or he doesn't wanna text me.
The urge to text him is really strong on some days and today is one of those days.
I just don't know if I even want him back. I am in a very confused state rn.
I miss him. I've been in a pretty bad state lately. Busy as hell, don't get time to think about him but when I'm free, I think about him for a few minutes atleast.
I don't know if I have moved on, maybe this is how it is when you loved someone and they left you or maybe this isn't even love.
I don't know, just wanted to put my thoughts somewhere. Any advice is welcome.
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2024.06.01 18:02 xanniebunny I feel empty again

I don't know if I've ever felt love.
I just miss my ex so much. If anyone wants context to what my story is(was) you can look at my previous posts.
I had blocked him on all platforms in January and I've been NC since then.
Unblocked him 1.5 months back and didn't text him.
I had put up a status on WhatsApp and he saw it but never replied to it. Not that I was expecting him to reply but it was about a family member passing. I hadn't even thought that he would look at the status but when he saw it I couldn't stop thinking about him.
He knows he has been unblocked now and didn't text me (which is a clear indication that he doesn't wanna talk - but I don't wanna believe so?) But the thing is that I told him that I don't want him to contact me because if he did, I would hold on to the hope that we will get back together.
I don't know if he is respecting my decision and that's why he isn't texting or he doesn't wanna text me.
The urge to text him is really strong on some days and today is one of those days.
I just don't know if I even want him back. I am in a very confused state rn.
I miss him. I've been in a pretty bad state lately. Busy as hell, don't get time to think about him but when I'm free, I think about him for a few minutes atleast.
I don't know if I have moved on, maybe this is how it is when you loved someone and they left you or maybe this isn't even love.
I don't know, just wanted to put my thoughts somewhere. Any advice is welcome.
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