Hello reddit. I originally posted this to relationship_advice but it wouldn't let me crosspost.
Me (29F) and my boyfriend, Tom (29M) have been dating for almost 2 years. For context, we are currently long distance because of his job (he lives in LA, I live in Phoenix), but we’re closing the gap in June and he's moving back to PHX due to job opportunities.
Prior to him leaving, and throughout the year we were dating, we would get into fights about the relationship with his female best friend, Ashley (30F). And I’ll explain why:
When we started dating, he told me openly that he has a lot of female friends, and told me that he had a very close relationship with Ashley for about a year. I wasn’t bothered at first with his friendship with Ashley, and in fact, encouraged them to hang out. However, my attitude towards their dynamic changed drastically after spending time with them in group settings. I'll include specific examples below:
—When hanging out with them in group settings, Tom focused ALL his attention on Ashley and made little effort to include me in the group. I would’ve been less upset if his attention flickered between friends but he solely focused on her, which caused me to feel uncomfortable after this happened several times. This happened numerous times before our relationship became distance, and I talked to him several times without an effective resolution.
—He’d share inside jokes with her and didn’t bother to share them with me at all while we were in a group.
—In large party settings, especially with alcohol, his body language would be turned towards her alot. And on several occasions had excessive eye contact during interactions. Sometimes more with her than me. Which led me to feel like I was invisible and didn’t feel like he wanted to share the company of me and his friend equally. He would also sometimes talk over me so that he could talk to Ashley. And didn't apologize for that until I called him out
—The most painful example is when I planned a surprise party for him before he moved to LA. He would talk to me during the party and would stop mid-sentence in order to gravitate towards Ashley alone before our conversation was done.
It didn’t help either that one of my friends warned me that “The way he talks about Ashley is uncomfortable sometimes. Almost could be mistaken for her being HIS girlfriend.” When asked about this, my boyfriend adamantly denies ever having a crush on Ashley, or having a previous sexual relationship with her, and that he “didn’t realize I was doing this.”
Because of all of those examples, and not feeling much better despite talking to him multiple times, I decided that I need to place a boundary to allow a sense of safety in the relationship. I asked him to (1) not sleep over at her place, or her at his (2) not hangout by themselves, but OK in group settings. I made it very clear that these boundaries are NOT permanent, and asked him for these things because what I need is to NOT feel uncomfortable with their dynamic while I'm there. Told him that once I don’t feel uncomfortable with them in a group while I’m around, I will consider removing the boundary.
He agreed to these terms before moving out of PHX. And from there our relationship grew and became stronger.
However, now that he’s moving back to PHX, this topic has come up again. He told me that he feels hurt by the boundary of not hanging out alone (called it a rule) and expressed that this would be difficult to uphold. Keep in mind that he hasn't even moved yet, and he's already asking about this. I reiterated to him that these boundaries are NOT in place for other female friends because their dynamic doesn’t make me uneasy, and told him that the boundary for ASHLEY in particular needs to stay because of previous behavior that he exhibited.
I am feeling extremely hurt because he agreed to those boundaries before leaving, when the boundary was “easier to keep” (his words) since he was in LA. But now that he’s moving back to PHX, he’s already indirectly asking to have it removed, without even trying first, for the sake of my safety in the relationship.
I told him that I’m trying to feel comfortable but need more “exposure therapy” in the form of seeing them interact in a group before I can remove the boundary of hanging out alone. I’m also hurt because I already feel a rift forming between us, and it’s yet another scenario where I feel like his relationship with her is taking priority over ours. And this pattern of feeling secondary to her his is starting to become a big red flag that I can’t ignore.
It didn't help that a couple days ago, I was hanging out in a group setting with Ashley without Tom (we have alot of mutual friends) and she showed me a text between the two of them that broke a boundary (he joked about sleeping over on the dog bed that she has). I knew he was joking, but he blatantly joked about crossing boundary that we talked about (sleeping over at her place) which made me feel hurt/uncomfortable.
In short, I need to trust that his interactions with her won’t be uncomfortable; and until I feel that sense of safety I need the boundary of “not hanging out alone” to stay in place.
Please let me know if I’m being unreasonable, and any advice would be greatly appreciated.
TL;DR: Boyfriend’s dynamic with specific female friend (not all female friends) makes me extremely uncomfortable and asked before we started distance to not hang out with her by himself, which he agreed to. Now that he’s moving back to where me/Ashley is, he’s indirectly asking me to have boundary removed which is making me feel hurt.

My (18M) best friend (20F) is in love with me and I genuinely have no idea how to go forward.
She told me a few months ago that she has a crush on me and I rejected her gently, then a few days later she told me that she just confused romantic and platonic feelings. This happens to her a lot, so I believed her then, but ever since she's just.. changed her behaviour.
She keeps insiting we would have a marriage of convenience, but also adopt children. When we watched Sherlock (BBC), kept talking about the sexual tension between Sherlock and Watson, and she said that I'm her Sherlock in a way. She jokes about us dating a lot. People tend to assume we are because of how close we are, and she really leans into it. She takes candid pictures of me when I'm not looking, and has been since we met (two years go, I only found out about it last week). My friend is also a very anxiety-ridden person, and she is very emotional. Today, while talking about another friend, she almost started crying because of the thought that we could maybe have a fallout in the future.
The thing is this: I'm aromantic.
I've struggled with accepting this part of myself for so, so long, and I've finally settled into my identity. She knows this; She was the first person I told.
I cannot see myself with her, or anyone for that matter, and her hints of having feelings for me boarder on uncomfortable now. What do I do? I'm genuinely so lost. I love her, I do. She's my best friend and my entire world.
Please, someone, give me advice. I'm desperate.

First of all, I have never nor would ever cheat on anyone, and this is a throwaway acc as I do not do much with reddit. I don't hold out for hope that this post will get any attention, but just writing my feelings down here makes me feel a little better.
As for my story, me and my girlfriend met around 4 - 4.5 years ago and started an amazing relationship. We've clicked really well and have a loving relationship even after all this time, I wouldn't say either of us is missing anything major. Throughout all this time, as our friend circles changed, I met many amazing women which were great to be around, but I never felt any attraction to them. Infidelity is something I am wary of, ever since my parents divorced due to infidelity when I was younger, it really wasn't a pleasant experience and to this day I wonder if it left any permanent scars on me. But it did make me focus on striving for a long term, stable, loving relationship; however it also made me a little anxious about catching feelings for somebody else, not just from my partner's side but from my side as well. Though, as I met quite a few women I would strongly consider for a relationship if I was single, I never fell for any of them, which did ease my anxiety a bit as it reinforced the notion that "my heart" wouldn't yearn for anyone else, since I already am happy with whom I am. One common activity which we love is latin and standard ballroom dancing, which we'd sign up for classes together here and there as our time schedules allowed. 6 months ago we signed up to this specific dancing class, where we met a group of people, similar age group to us, which we would befriend and hang out with. Which brings me to today (important note: not every pair in the class was a couple), there is this girl in the group, which at first didn't strike me as anything special, still a great friend nevertheless, however throughout the last two weeks, as we were all spending time together, it just felt like my heart snapped for no reason at all and caught all these feelings for her. I never asked for this, it is eating me from the inside. I'm just trying not to think about it, after all, nothing is missing from my current relationship. I do not intend to cheat, I do not ever want to cheat and I do not want to leave my girlfriend. I want to see this friend as just a friend, but ever since this thing in my head snapped I keep thinking about her in a romantic way. I have no want to destroy this thing we had as a group of friends which loved this common activity, but at the same time, my head just can't keep thinking about her ever since then... it just feels like whatever this inside of me is wants to destroy my happiness, nothing else. It is also all so sudden, I'm so confused... I dunno. I just want these feelings to go away.
I'm sorry for this long mess of words, I am not the best writer as to convey my thought coherently, also English isn't my first language. If you have any input, I'd be immensely grateful, I think I need someone to talk to about it.

So my partner and I have been together for a few years with a gap of 2 years in between, right after we broke up he fucked his best friend, at first he told me they had sex around 4 times, later on I mentioned to him that it did make me sad since I knew the girl and he always swore he wasn’t attracted to her like that, so we were talking about it and then he said it only happened once which I honestly don’t believe, I told him I don’t like the two of them talking because of how much he lied about it, I just don’t think I can trust them together, he was alright with it and said he blocked her, a few months pass and I asked if I could use his phone he keeps saying no and I let it go, later on I find out he texted her and he admits they did call and text but he deleted it to avoid conflict? I did tell him it’s okay they were texting after this and that I just wanted him to be honest and tell me about it all, he agreed and a week ago he told me he asked her how she’s doing, I felt kinda hurt and later on told him I was upset we never talked about how he lied to me, he really didn’t wanna fight and stayed until we talked it out, I still don’t feel at ease though but he told me he wouldn’t test her again. I really don’t know what to do or think at this point I do feel betrayed but he is really the only one I wanna be with for the rest of my life

My preschool best friend had a very cookie-cutter white American family. The dad was a long-haul trucker; the mom stayed home with the kids. They had a big house and a beautiful backyard. They took the family to Disneyland every year. One night, the husband apparently called my mom drunk and inconsolable. He confessed to her all the sins he had been committing on the road — amphetamines to stay awake, which then progressed to shooting up, sleeping with 'lot lizards' (women who loiter around truck stops), etc. He said he needed to get it off his chest and didn't know who else to call. A few years later, he just up and disappeared. He left for work and never came back. He changed his phone number. Nobody has heard from him since, as far as I know. This was all 20+ years ago.

Hello, moving into a large house with friends for college in a month and its up to us to setup the internet so we are trying to optimize it and make it the fastest possible for us. We will probably be opting for spectrums best plan as they are the only provider in the area.
The top floor is 3 people, second floor is 3 people, first floor is 2 people. One person on each floor will be wanting an ethernet connection, we don't mind setting up wires and stuff, but want advice specifically on setting up a mesh wifi system. There are no ethernet ports. We have mostly been looking at routers in the 200-400 dollar range anything from TP-Link and Asus/ROG, and then getting either the TP-Link Deco mesh or ROG Rapture mesh. We are probably going to look to spend around $1000 total on the entire setup. Mostly wondering about what mesh to get or if mesh is the right choice for the building. As well if the Mesh should be wireless or wired. Also maybe which floor to place the router on, probably going to place it in the middle, for ease of access to cables.

We are now in the process of choosing the best jurisdiction to register our startup business and that of course depends on a variety of factors, including tax implications, legal environment, access to markets, and ease of doing business. Here's a breakdown of the top jurisdictions discussed, would be keen to hear what you think!
Options:
Ireland

• Corporate tax: low at 12.5%.
• EU Market Access: easy access to the EU market.
• Startup Ecosystem: strong support for tech startups, access to Enterprise Ireland grants.

Estonia

• E-Residency: allows non-residents to start and manage an EU-based company online.
• Corporate tax: no tax on retained profits, only on distributed profits.
• Digital infrastructure: highly advanced and efficient digital services.

United States (Delaware)

• Legal environment: business-friendly, particularly for tech startups.
• Funding: Access to one of the largest venture capital markets.
• Prestige: Well-regarded jurisdiction for tech companies.

What would you do in this case?

This is somewhat of a rant (I already know I deserve to be called an asshole if I’m being honest). I’m a 24 year old guy studying in university right now and live away from home. My family includes my parents, an older brother and a younger sister. In the last year specifically, I’ve begun to feel stifled every time I visit home for the holidays. There’s many elements to this which span years, but I have only begun to get affected by this fairly recently as before that I adored my family. It also has to do with the fact that at university I am surrounded by friends who always talk about their families and I see how good their family dynamics sound, and of course comparison is the thief of joy.
Lets begin with my father, he is a good hearted man and altruistic to a point where he will ignore all his family matters and give his absolute best to the littlest of any problem his friends might have. He is an immigrant and without any further education beyond highschool. I understand the sacrifices he has made for us to be here and I am forever grateful, and that’s a huge part of my guilt for what I am about to say next. Not being able to access education due to his family’s financial conditions at the time I understand and can respect. However you would imagine that when someone is pushing their 60’s there would be an element of wisdom that you get through just having lived your life. I am not expecting my father to be a philosopher, I am just expecting him to be a normal person who can hold a conversation with someone and not immediately embarrass anyone with him due to the way that he talks, with absolutely 0 regards to his surroundings. If he has to talk to anyone even slightly above our social circle in terms of the socioeconomic status he will immediately start choking on his words and get a coughing fit. These are just social situations, in terms of our home life he has absolutely 0 skills in anything related to maintenance. I’m not home most of the time and if anything as little as a light bulb stops working, it will take months to fix that as he does not know how and he does not “know anyone who can come and do it”. He needs the handyman to be from our country and he needs that person to do the work for absolutely 0 amount of money. If that isn’t possible, then nothing in our house gets fixed (and it never does). My parents grew up in a patriarchal society, so my mother sadly does not have many skills and that is how it still is. She can do nothing but complain about the issues to my dad, and he can do nothing but say he can’t do anything about it.
My mother carries deep rooted childhood trauma related to her parents which has made her emotionally unavailable at most of the times. I think out of the family she still is the person I love the most. However, she does not know how to carry herself in this world at all. She has 0 social skills, she has not been able to learn English even though we’ve been living here in the US for 15 years (yes, I have tried to help but she gets mad). She has absolutely no confidence in herself, she is the most pessimistic person I know, and everytime we talk on the phone she’ll more or less start the conversation with “yeah just rotting away like I always do”. She has no friends and if we dare have any guests at our house, which is rare in of itself due to our non existent social circle, she’ll be losing her mind prepping for the day.
On to my brother, he married a girl and got a house in the same hometown as my parents. He has an extremely rocky relationship with her and they have fights almost daily. He and his wife refuse to do anything productive about it and what ends up happening is that my brother will always involve our parents into the fight who can do nothing but watch and worry about it. But if they even suggest anything as much a separation due to the chaotic nature of their relationship, he gets extremely angry.
My younger sister is simply there throughout all this and despite my insistence that they keep her out of all this she ends up just sitting through these fights. I don’t even know how this is gonna affect her future.
I am the last person obviously, and I struggle to confront my brother over how much torture he puts our parents through. I struggle to listen to my mother rant about my father being incompetent because I don’t know how much more respect I have left to lose for him. I am trying to encourage her to have more goals in life however, and she is trying her best.
Obviously there’s many other factors to this, such as financial stresses we’ve had to go through as a family in the last few years and it has definitely put a strain on everyone, including myself.

We are now in the process of choosing the best jurisdiction to register our startup busienss and that of courese depends on a variety of factors, including tax implications, legal environment, access to markets, and ease of doing business. Here's a breakdown of the top jurisdictions discussed, would be keen to hear what you think!
Options are (as I see it and after the research I did):
Ireland

• Corporate tax: low at 12.5%.
• EU Market Access: easy access to the EU market.
• Startup Ecosystem: strong support for tech startups, access to Enterprise Ireland grants.

Estonia

• E-Residency: allows non-residents to start and manage an EU-based company online.
• Corporate tax: no tax on retained profits, only on distributed profits.
• Digital infrastructure: highly advanced and efficient digital services.

United States (Delaware)

• Legal environment: business-friendly, particularly for tech startups.
• Funding: Access to one of the largest venture capital markets.
• Prestige: Well-regarded jurisdiction for tech companies.

What would you do in this case?

Aitah + a bad “friend”
Friday night my boys and I all went out to a local dive bar. Some of the girls we are friends with met as later that night at the bar as well. So before the boys and I went out my friend “jack” says to me “hey I know ur super close with “nicole” and I was wondering if u could hook me up with her. I think she’s super pretty” and I said sure whatever man I’m always down to help. Nicole and I have been best friends since about freshman year of highschool and have casually hooked up multiple times. For reference I’m 20 and shes 19 and “jack” is 19 as well.
Well the boys and I are at the bar and all the girls come now. So we’re about an hour later I say to “Nicole” “jack thinks ur cute, he’s a good guy u should give him a chance” and Nicole laughs and reply’s with “you know I only want u out of this group right” and I honestly didn’t know what to say to her so I just smiled at her.
Jack sees me talking to Nicole and text me “what did she say” I didn’t want to be mean to the kid but I knew from the beginning he wasn’t Nicole’s type but I didn’t want to beat the kid down.. who knows maybe she would’ve gave him a shot and it worked out well.
It’s getting towards the end of the night now and Nicole texts me (we’re all still together just scattered around) “I wasn’t kidding when I said I only wanted you. Can you leave with me I’m not feeling good and I want to go home. If not I’ll see if one the girls will leave with me” and I won’t lie I think Nicole is really beautiful and we both had feelings for each other before but never pursued anything. I ended up ubering us back to her house so she wouldn’t be in an Uber alone because it was getting late and she didn’t feel good.
Well jack saw us leaving together and was fluming about it. He later texted me “why would u leave with her, I thought u we’re putting me on with her and now ur hooking up with her?” Now Nicole sees that text while we were laying on her couch and shes pissed at jack. For more context me and Nicole ended up hooking up that night but it wasn’t planned it just happened when we got to her house.
Anyways michael one of my best friends says it was an asshole move on my end for leaving with her right in front of jack, but I explained how she wasn’t feeling good. Michael is the only one that knows me and Nicole hooked up last night. Everyone else knows we hooked up in the past before especially when I’m home on leave.

Hello, my family and I are taking our first family trip outside our state. We are staying close to Edgewater and North Bergen. We will be staying for 5 days. I would appreciate any tips/food attractions. Also, I have watched a few videos on how to use the Citymapper to get around the city, is this the best app? What app have you used? Any family friendly tips, I would appreciate it. It will be my parents and my brother and I, we are in our late twenties.

TLDR; was using boyfriends phone to search something and instead on his drop-down bar I saw a sex chat under frequently visited. Wondering if it's a mistake or real, wondering if I should confront him about it. I have some trust issues that are surfacing and want to deal with it the best way I can.
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I might be concerned for nothing but I (26F) am suspecting that my boyfriend (30m) is on chat rooms to talk to girls. He's been very trustworthy so far and has even told me his phone password to play Spotify, not to forget treats me like a queen, he actually does tho. Today we were driving and I was in charge of music and I couldn't remember the name of a song so I searched the artist on his safari but in the drop down search - in his toolbar under frequently visited it says pornhub (which tbh I'm fine with) but also had a sex chat website. I'm wondering if I'm just panicking for no reason cause to be fair my toolbar has some websites listed as frequently visited which I may have visited twice like months ago. But idk ... I'm not suddenly not so sure, I won't be okay with it if it's true. Im debating talking to him about it because I don't think I am comfortable snooping around his search history. It's a new relationship so I want to give him trust. While I didn't search it on purpose, I'm worried if I ask him about it he might think I don't trust him, that or I should just not bring it up? Let me know your thoughts please! Should I talk to him about it or trust him blindly? Context if you want: For some context, we have been dating for 4 months and things have been going steady and slow. Except I've noticed how on his hinge it says he doesn't do drugs but he smokes weed, he says he struggles with texting because he's dyslexic but his job requires him to do a lot of corespondence like that. When we first became official we'd watch tik toks together and he had hinge on his recently visited in search bar and when I asked him about it, he told me it's cause a friend asked to see my photo and he went on my hinge profile and proceeded to delete rhe app in front of me to make a point.Idk .... While these things are very easily dismissed in my head, because he's been so forthcoming and genuinely awesome. I hope I'm not missing some obvious red flags that he's not who he says he is. I might be projecting my own issues and I rly wanna learn from this experience. Please give me some advice x

CW: suicide
So many of you were great about helping me out with my MIL making my husband's mental health crisis admission about her needs. I'll link the previous post. But here is the update now :) one on thursday and the following on Sunday.
https://www.reddit.com/JUSTNOMIL/s/PIYd550XUL
UPDATE: thank you everyone for your compassion in this freaking sucky situation. I got to visit today and hubby was looking wonderful! Lots of smiles and laughs and he got to feel his son kicking all over the place. He is started on meds and is in a much better place. It was the best thing in the world. I didn't tell him about MIL behavior because I didn't want to stress him for no reason, but he actually brought up that he has come to the conclusion while in treatment that he needs to see some boundaries with his parents about how they make positive situations negative because of the heavy guilt trip they give him. I was shocked he brought this out of nowhere but I love that he is realizing he is a wonderful son and he doesn't deserve to be made to feel less than that.
DOUBLE UPDATE: Hubby is home and doing soooo well. My heart is so full after how much amazing support from our friends (many of them came over while he was gone and helped clean my house and do some getting ready for baby prep) and now having my other half home with me. He is even happy he went and I know this will make him stronger for us and our son. BUT GET THIS! When he got.home last night he asked me to send a text for he fam saying how he was going to take the night to just recover and recharge at home and he would reach out to them today (which was tomorrow in the text) when he was ready. I just found out from my SIL that his mother was planning on just showing up at our freaking house today!!!! THANK GAWD we were at lunch because I would have lost my ever loving mind. That would have been the end of our cordial relationship. Your son has expressed his needs and you are BLATANTLY choosing to ignore them for your own needs?!? I am shooketh.

So this is going to be a long story, but a very intriguing one (or so my friends say). Bear with me and if you could offer some advice on what to do please share. I know I'm probably just young and naive but I feel like the pain will never stop. Like I'm going to always be held back by this particular experience.
Also sorry for any grammatical or spelling errors, English isn't my first language.
So all of this begins October of 2022 when I 18M (at the time) moved to a new city to study film. I was lucky enough to have good grades and be so passionate about this art that it kind of felt incredible to have this new beginning. I rented a small house which I decorated with my collections and all my stuff and ended up loving every second spend in it.
I'm Not very social. Thats just a fact. I've always had my school friends and some people from other activities but none of them really felt like they understood me. No sade to them, I really love them, it's just that I know my hobbies and personality are niece and weird so we don't always see eye to eye. So I wanted to overcome my social anxiety and meet new people.
For the first semester I was all alone. Completely. Spent days upon days without leaving my house if I didn't have school and even didn't have any actual human interaction if not necessary. I didn't realise how much I was hurting myself. The Second semester, someone approached me in school and asked if I could help them with the editing for their final movie, let's call him Jacob 18M. I already was searching for a group project to join in order to pass the class so this felt like a sweet deal. The group was Jacob and let's call them Ellie 18F and Hannah 18F.
With time we started talking about more then just the movie. I was really surprised by how many things we had in common. It was the first time someone I met liked musical theatre or (and this is gonna sound sad, please don't judge me) people didn't want me to leave whenever I approached them. They invited me to things, to their homes and after school and to trips at the beach ect. We were together almost every day. Till late at night or through it. Just the 4 of us. Felt like we could rule the world.
One day i thought Ellie was flirting with me. That was a weird feeling. I'm not very good looking and had a lot of extra weight so that was pretty much the first time but my friends told me that was the case from what I was describing. I mentioned it to Jacob and he told me something I didn't expect. He told me him and Ellie were in an open relationship and were hiding it from everyone except Hannah because of his ex who was in school with us. He also confessed he once had a crush on me and that's why he approached me in the first place. He also saw Ellie flirting with me but was ok with it due to the "rules of their relationship".
I was ok with not having a romantic relationship with Ellie. She would actually become one of the closest friends I've ever had. Or so I thought.
I actually started having a crush on Hannah. She loved some of the movies I loved. Had some of my quirks so I didn't feel ashamed around her and she started watching my favourite tv show with me. During our time together everyone (even her sister and Jacob who found out I liked her) told us that when we were together we could only see each other. As if we had a unique way of communication that nobody else could understand.
I confessed my crush and she told me she felt the same way but that there where 2 problems. First that she gets very anxious about relationships, has only ever been to one and had never kissed anyone. I assured her I wasn't going to pressure anything and I only cared for her and wanted to go on a date sometime. She replied she would like that very much. The second problem she confessed was that she was in love with Jacob for months now but nobody knew. Then everything made sense. The things she did for him and all. How she acted around him. I was surprised I didn't notice it before. She told me she wanted to get over it and proceed to ask to kiss me. We kissed a lot but nothing more that night. She went home after a few hours.
The next day Hannah she felt very distant. We wanted to go to the movies with Ellie but she disappeared all day. Late at night she asked my to go for a walk since we lived near each other. Then she told me she wanted to forget everything and last night was a mistake. That her anxiety has gotten into her and although she really wanted a relationship she couldn't be in one. The next few days we talked again and she said she didn't share any of this with Jacob to have someone in the group I could talk to if I needed help. Ellie was that for her.
It was already summer so we all went to our home towns. I missed her a ton. We stilled talked and the other 2 knew something was off with me. About 2 moths later we all went to Hannah's summerhouse for vacation. We were having fun, getting drunk and all that 19-year old stuff. One night me and Hannah were watching my show together and the time felt right so I asked to kiss her. She told me no and finally told me the truth. Turns out she liked that we flirted but after kissing me she realised it wasn't anything more. Also everyone knew except me. But after all this time I had realised I was in love with this girl. I told her if she could keep all of this to herself and she said yes.
We were all still friends. But I couldn't let go. My mental health began to decent and I started feeling like they would leave me out of stuff to go hang out alone and during October I tried talking some time away to see if they would even talk to me if I didn't. They didn't even say good morning once. I tried again and again. Jacob and Ellie said we all need to talk together. They repeated the same words. Like as if it was rehearsed. I went to "the talk".
Jacob did most of the talking. He talked about boundaries and how after everything between me and Hannah the group hasn't been the same. That after I didn't tell him what happened in our vacation they went to her and forced Hannah to do so. They where all attacking me. I heard lie after lie and all followed up with "we just need some time" and that all of this was cause they loved me.
I have discussed what they accused me of with friends, family and therapists. Although I didn't not believe it at first they all confirmed it was finding little details in my day-to-day behaviour (unrelated to all of the above) and using it to kick me out. They didn't intend of even speaking to me again. Lies feed to everyone by Jacob.
I went away. I don't know if it was for the better. But for a few weeks at first and then months later, I went back to my home town. Their lies became actual blame and I got a message from Ellie saying that we are done (just one month after trying to convince me they needed time and confessing she in particular didn't even notice anything until her boyfriend accused me).
Last time I saw any of them was in December when I gave Hannah her Christmas present. I told her I wasn't trying to get her back and I would continue to keep my distance since my first priority is what she wants and I meant that. I really do love her and would do anything for her to be happy. But I miss her a ton.
It's been 5 months since then. I stopped going to school and kept my distance from anyone related to that life. I have depression and cannot think about anything else. I heard that Jacob still talk shut about me to everyone. I have realised what has happened and have discussed this with multiple common friends who have confirmed this. Jacob is Manipulating the other 2 because of the bad relationship with his parents. He knows Ellie won't do anything with anyone else despite the "open" relationship due to her luck of confidence (so it only works for him). She need him to operate in public and to deal with her extreme anxiety so he takes advantage of that and Hannah follows him everywhere with the excuse of just being a good friend.
There are so many things I couldn't include (this is a hugh post already) about more lies and proof that they where bad for me. But I can't move on. I have seeked medical help but I just cant imagine my life in the future without them. Everything is a reminder of what we've been through. Jacob used to call me his family and when I begged him for our friendship back he didn't even care. Not on my birthday, not on new years... never. I lost all of them.
I'm back now. Not sure why, whether I'm back to continue my studies or to see if I could win them back. If I could have Hannah in my life in sime form. But I'll probably see them tomorrow morning (I randomly walked behind them today, don't think they noticed me).
What should I do?
TL,DR: The girl I'm in love with stopped talking to me along with my 2 best friends. I can't move on and I'm supposed to face them again in school after not seeing them for months. They all lied to me and nothing seem to help. I have depression and I dont want to feel like this for the rest of my life.

I need some advise. My two best friends know I have TS and they are really supportive. But everytime I am calling with them or physically with them, my tics become really active. Like I didn't tic before talking to them and then, when I am with them or talking to them, my tics go crazy. I must say, I don't really feel quite comfortable yet with ticcing infront of them, although they accept me and my tics. I try not to suppress them, but when I don't suppress them and just tic, I feel really stressed and feel the stress literally in my stomach. Because of that, my tics increase even more. I was just talking to one of my best friends and before I didn't really tic, but when I saw her calling me, it was also a video call, I instantly became stressed and my tics went crazy. I really thought I began to have a tic attack at one point, but it was just the stress I felt and my tics increasing because of that. After some time, my tics finally calmed down a bit, but I still feel a bit stressed now my best friend saw me ticcing like that. Especially my motor tics like neck/head jerking, putting up my middle finger multiple times, clapping and facial tics.
When my best friend saw my tics began to get really active, she asked if I wanted to hang up. She didn't say a reason to hang up, but I think she asked that because of my tics being active and she knows how I feel about ticcing around other people. I told her I still wanted to call, also to get more comfortable with ticcing around her, but I don't think that was a great idea, as my tics only increased after that. And yeah, now I can't stop thinking about that call and still feeling stressed and like guilty for ticcing that much and that she had to see me that way I guess.
I didn't tell her this is how I feel right now, because I know she will tell me she doesn't care about my tics(in the positive way) and I am still the same person to her, but I still feel like shit. How do you guys cope with this? Is there a way for me to feel less stressed and feel more comfortable ticcing around my best friends?