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He literally has the smoothing filter on holding up a pic with no filter saying omg this worked so well! Look at the difference lol 😂 then he leaned back and the big line was still there! Filter slipped! What a loser!!!!!! First off Botox takes a week to set in. He just got it yesterday! And filler works fast but come on dude! Shut the fuk up! Baby nothing gonna fix those craters but a facelift! Better start battling for a whole ass facelift nilly Willy!!!!!

I’m sharing this story in response to Riley’s hot takes on stalking in yesterday’s live stream. I have nothing but love for Big Protein and hope my story helps him understand that stalking isn’t harmless but is, in fact, a form of mental abuse.
My story starts when I was twelve years old. There was a thirteen year old boy, Ken, who went to church with me. There were a lot of youth in my church, so I hadn’t really paid much attention to Ken despite the fact we had gone to church together basically my whole life.
On Wednesdays, we have youth activities. These are often separated by age and gender. A combined activity occurs once a month. At one of these combined activities, Ken gives me a note professing his love for me in great detail. The note also states that I have until the end of the activity to let him know what my feelings were.
I was absolutely stunned. To be honest, I hadn’t had a real crush up to this point. I was friends with many boys, but I had never considered them in a romantic way. Ken hadn’t even been on my radar. Suddenly I felt incredibly anxious. If I said I didn’t like him, I would be turning down the first ever boy who expressed these feelings for me. What if I would like him, I just didn’t know him well enough? I didn’t want to hurt his feelings. I just needed more time. I wrote a note that wasn’t completely honest, but was what I thought at the time was the perfect solution. I told him I liked him as a friend and maybe more, but that I wasn’t allowed to date until I was 16. The dating rule was true, my potential feelings were not.
Ken followed me home demanding I give him a more direct answer than the contents of my note. He even picked me up and carried me away from my front door to prevent me from escaping an answer. He was huge compared to me and a wrestler. I was tiny and petite. This aggressive move terrified me and I made a mistake. I told him I liked him and then retreated into my home.
From that point on, Ken showed up everywhere despite living six blocks away on the other side of a busy street and having no car. If I was hanging out with a friend, he’d end up outside their house. When I walked out of my house, he was there. When I got on the bus and tried to sit with a friend, Ken would grab me by my wrist and force me to sit next to him. He would be at the store when I was there with my mom. He was there at school during breaks between classes and lunch.
After a year, things started to escalate. Ken would pick me up and take me away from my friends during lunch, despite my protests and attempts to escape. Ken would knock on my bedroom window at night, threatening to unalive himself if I didn’t come outside. Ken would attempt to kiss me on the lips, but I would always bury my face into my arms and yell that I couldn’t date until I was sixteen.
Once, I was having a sleepover with a friend and Ken decided to sleep over with her brother that same night. Her bedroom door cracked open in the middle of the night and I could see him watching me “sleep.” I did not sleep that night. I never slept over with that friend again.
I had a year of reprieve when Ken went to high school. He got a girlfriend. He immediately informed me that she was a place holder until I turned 16. I told him he was welcome to date who he wanted. At this point, I was hoping he would forget about me.
He didn’t. As soon as I got an email and instant messaging, his messages were constant. If I didn’t respond, he was aggressive towards me the next time he showed up at my house. He started saying things like, “We are destined to be together, whether you want it or not.”
When I entered high school, I was excited to attend school with a crush I had developed, John Michael. His locker was in an inconvenient spot, so I let him move in to my locker in a primo spot. I was delighted to share with him even if he didn’t necessarily share the same feelings for me as I had for him.
One day John Michael and I were chatting next to our locker. He put his stuff away and headed off for class. I started rummaging through my shelf to find the book I needed when I heard a deep voice behind me. “What do you think you are doing?!”
I jumped with a start, closed my locker and spun around to face Ken. “Nothing!” I replied.
“You’re sharing a locker with that boy?!” He accused/questioned angrily.
“We’re just friends.” I stammered.
Ken picked me up and slammed my back into the closed locker about a foot above the ground. “We’re supposed to be together.” He reminded me. I couldn’t say anything. I just looked at him fearfully. He lowered me to the ground, the lock of the locker dragging against my spine, leaving a nasty bruise. “At the end of the school year, you’ll turn sixteen and we’ll be together like you promised. Get your head straight.” With that, he left me standing in the hallway, shaking and holding back tears.
That night on instant messenger, Ken apologized to me. He said that when he was angry or betrayed like how I had betrayed him that day, Bundy escapes and does terrible things. Bundy hurt me today, not Ken. Ken was my friend. Bundy was not. If I was a good friend, I wouldn’t ever need to see Bundy again.
To be clear, I never promised to be with Ken, but I didn’t know how to escape this situation. It seemed like it was inevitable unless I got help. A week before my sixteenth birthday, I approached my mom. I had avoided involving my parents because I felt so much shame in my situation. I felt like it was my fault for leading Ken on by not correcting his incorrect perspective on our relationship. I also feared my parents would be unhelpful as they were friends with Ken’s parents and thought Ken was a “fine young man.” I decided not to share details. I didn’t want to say how often he hurt me. They already didn’t believe me when I said he was stalking me. I didn’t want to admit how many times I had gone outside with him in the middle of the night to prevent him from hurting himself. I kept is simple, “Mom, can we make it a rule that I can’t hang out with Ken anymore?”
Her response was what I expected, “OP, you should be ashamed of yourself. You aren’t better than anyone else. Ken needs friends. Be kind.”
I couldn’t get help without sharing details. I felt to ashamed to tell anyone what was happening. I turned sixteen and went on a date with Ken to the drive in movies. He tried to kiss me the whole night, but I managed to stop him each time. Halfway through the movie, I went to the bathroom and just hid in a stall. I eventually came back and claimed an early curfew.
When I went home, I knew I couldn’t live like this. I imagined an older, wiser version of myself who had already experienced and overcome everything I was experiencing. What kind of advice would she give me? I thought she would want me to be brave and finally say the things that needed to be said. So I went to messenger. Ken was waiting for me. I told him that he didn’t respect me and treat me the way that I deserved to be treated. I don’t have romantic feelings for him. I couldn’t be friends with him or Bundy anymore and if he continued to stalk me I would call the police. Then I signed off.
I ignored him after that. His attempts to talk to me over text or messenger diminished over time. The last time I heard from him was when I was 21 and I finally changed my cell number. I dealt with more than a decade of nightmares and anxiety. I have been through therapy to help with some of it and I have an amazing partner that helps me feel so safe.
Looking back, I wish I had gone to the police. Though he was a minor, what he was doing was harassment, menacing, and physical assault. There are still things I struggle with because of Ken. I hope he has gotten the help he obviously needs and is living a better life now. I hope he respects his wife and any other women that have the misfortune of being around him. As for me, I hope we never cross paths again.

(Before anything, I wrote this while crossed from midnight to 6am. I obviously missed some stuff and miss interpreted some other stuff so take all this with a fistful of salt. But overall I had fun and i wanted to share this shitty little essay with yall)

 Overall the song is very cryptic and the way that you interpret the lyrics can vastly 

change the meaning of the song. Personally I think that although Sauna appears to be CM praising Satan, telling their fans to worship Satan, Zilla demanding worship, and Sos confessing ties with the devil, the songs true meaning is almost the exact opposite. With the true meaning being that celebrity culture is sinful and celebrity fans can be near cult-like at times, blinded by their money and fame. Zilla mocks cult like fans throughout the song by demanding worship, telling them to do absurd things, and comparing himself to cult leaders. Cults are mentioned extensively throughout Sauna. These cults include the Klutz Klux Klan, the People’s Temple, the Manson Family, and the Sons of Sam. I believe these specific cults were chosen because of their popularity. The Sons of Sam are by far the most referenced cult in this song and I think this cult stands out from the rest with a different, dual, meaning. The Sons of Sam are references 5 times in Sauna (depending on what you consider a reference). I think this cult holds more meaning because the members not only directly worshiped Satan, but David Berkowitz, the cults leader, saw his neighbors dog as a manifestation of Satan. (Yes I know Berkowitz eventually admitted the dog story was a lie) I think the dog part might be symbolic because CM mentions dogs constantly and frequently uses dogs as metaphors for various things.

 Beyond this, all the cults do have one common similarity. They all have a leader who orders their cult members to kill for them. Zilla’s lyric, “Gunshot executions” relates back to all four of the cults use of execution style shootings. The following line, “use the sounds in songs as kicks”, is Zilla’s way of satirically saying that CM’s music is intended to inspire violence and he tells listeners to commit violent acts. He does this to highlight how foolish the people who use him as a role model are. He is not only intentionally over the top and extra by telling the listener to commit plainly evil acts, but also he shows that he can command the listener directly, and Zilla will continue command the listener to do various heinous things throughout the song. Building onto this theme, he states earlier in the song, “When they find out I killed 25 people will they still all be my fans?” and then follows this up with, “Adore me like I’m Manson” I think this is Zilla saying that even if his sins came to light, his cult fans would still follow him. Commanding the listener to adore him like he’s a cult leader is also his way of saying his devoted fans are so hopelessly blind that he could do anything he wanted and they would still worship him. Zilla also related himself to cults again when he says, “We hooded like the Klansmen” which again, is him bringing to light the true level of devotion fans have by relating them to an actual cult. I think that Zilla is not only comparing just himself to a cult leader. I think he’s also comparing celebrities and their fans in general to cults. I believe he’s making this comparison to highlight the blind amount of loyalty and faith that people have for celebrities in general. He even goes to compare celebrities to the, “Devil in designer” and tells us to “Worship the Son of Sam”. The line, Devil in designer, references celebrities affinity with expensive designer clothing and how their extravagant lifestyles mask their sinful lives and obsess the public over them. “Worship the Son of Sam” is Zilla plainly telling us that following celebrities is inherently following Satan and because of how completely lost to sin many celebrities lives are (The Son of Sam is the representation of Satan used by the Sons of Sam). Zilla then goes to show his distain for these cult fans with the opening bar of the song, “Shit these pussies do gone make me jump right off a cliff” which is Zilla dramatically stating, how cult fans’ blindness is so utterly disgusting he would prefer death to living with these obsessed super fans, that are blinded by the jewels of the rich, and live to worship hedonism and sin. Overall, Zilla is preaching the idea that celebrity culture is that of sin, so much sin that it can be compared to Satan itself. And that people follow these celebrities with a cult like trust and faith, blinded by their money and their extravagance. He expresses how foolish this makes them, and how celebrities cult fans would worship them no matter what horrible acts they committed to get to the position they are in. He is disgusted by their ignorance and experience’s dissatisfaction living in the same world as them. Sosmula on the other hand speaks a very different story. He starts off his set with “Too high to do my shows go down the calendar” I think Sos is ironically glorifying drug use while also talking about how his addictions are harming his music career when he moves his shows down the calendar (postpones them). He also admits his drug use is also physically harming him when he says, “Sippin on this juice like the jones town massacre”. The jones town massacre was a mass cult suicide where over 900 people were forced to drink poisoned kool aid and were killed. Sos comparing his drugs to poisoned kool aid is his way of saying he’s slowly dying. He goes on to further state his addictions by adding, “Bitch I'm really high I'm off 12 bars” which is a face value bar that shows that even though drug use is killing him, he has no wishes to stop and quite enjoys his lifestyle. I think when Sos says, “Devil in my soul talking backwards in algebra.” he might be using the devil as a metaphor for addiction? I’m really at a loss here i’m finding it hard to find meaning in his lyrics. A lyric with some actual meaning is, “Bullet proof the coupe fo-pound caliber”. Bullet proofing could be used as a metaphor for protecting something or guarding it. Then fo-pound caliber (or 4-pound caliber) is another reference to the Son of Sam, who used a .44 magnum in his shooting and 4-pound is the same as a .44. So overall Sos may be trying to protect himself from Satan or the Devil. It’s a stretch, but the 4-pound caliber could be another way to say “an attack/temptation from satan” and he wishes to protect himself my bullet proofing his car (or himself) so he can move safely without risk of demonic interference. It’s a little bit of a stretch but i’m having fun so oh well. He goes on to say “Look up in the sky I'm a hell star” which is Sos saying he is problem creator who lives a life of sin, and when he dies and goes to hell he will be famous for the sin he committed while living. Nearing the end of his section he states, “Momma you ain't gotta cry I'm out them jail yards” This could mean a number of things but he says it in such a menacing and almost threatening way i doubt he is actually talking about his mother. Or maybe he is? He states in Everything is Broken, “Mama she a whore,” so maybe he is sort of threatening his mother. His last line is, “All my opps they gotta die like cell bars.” And im not digesting that last one, i’ve spent a whole night tweaking off Adderall writing about City Morgue lyrics and there’s a 90% chance they were just trying to be edgy and the lyrics mean absolutely nothing. It’s 6 am currently, goodmorning y’all imma go to bed. 

One very foggy night at the start of March 2024, a Texas A&M University sophomore just vanished in the middle of the night smack dab at the centre of his highly secure apartment complex parking lot with security cameras everywhere. The only clue the 21-year-old student left behind was an eerie snapchat of a bridge moments before he disappeared.
I wanna preface this by saying that Caleb Harris could very well still be alive, so anyone with any tips – no matter how big or small – is encouraged to submit them.
Caleb Harris is by all accounts a great young man. Standing at 5’11 and weighing at 180 pounds he was a solid guy who was very strong and capable. According to his family, The New Braunfels Christian Academy graduate rarely partied and was an outdoorsman, who preferred to go to bed early so he could wake up the next day before sunrise and hunt some ducks. As you can probably tell, Caleb loved to hunt and fish. So it was very fitting of him to study Environmental Science at Texas A&M University where he was in his second year.
His family are deeply religious and so was he, and there are reports Caleb wore a Jesus fish necklace the night he vanished. When Caleb went away to go study, him and his family chose an apartment complex called The Cottages at Corpus Christi, located in the 1900 block of Ennis Joslin. It had other University students there and it was perceived as highly secure with surveillance cameras at the gates, and there was only 2 ways in and out of the apartment complex. Caleb lived there with 2 of his close friends he grew up with, who were now his roommates.
But then one night, Caleb just vanished after ordering Uber Eats and left behind some very mysterious clues that make this case incredibly interesting as it is perplexing. Some say he actually vanished as he was waiting outside for his Uber Eats delivery. The family has accounted for all his shoes, and assumed he was barefoot when he disappeared (as he was seen barefoot on the ring doorbell camera and the snapchat he sent to his sister), so it seems as though this disppareance wasn’t planned. Caleb had no history of any mental illness and wasn’t taking medication. But, as others pointed out, Caleb could have had a pair of flip flops his family didn’t know about.
Timeline
10:30pm: The story starts on Sunday, March 3rd, 2024, when Caleb was gearing up for a fishing trip. He was texting his dad all day, excited about his upcoming trip the next day after class. Nighttime rolled around and Caleb and his room mates were up late playing video games. But it wasn’t like any typical Sunday night because one of the roommates had just gotten a puppy, which arrived at around 10:30pm, so they were up late enjoying their new pup and walking it.
12:56am: on Monday, March 4th, a ring doorbell camera caught Caleb outside, barefoot playing with the new puppy with his room mates. The ring camera was facing the parking lot outside their apartment. There were 2 exits out of his apartment, one that led to the parking lot and another to a grassy area. The video captured nothing out of the ordinary and they seemed to all be having a good time very much enjoying their newfound love for their puppy.
2:20am: one of the room mates said they were going to bed, and Caleb told them that he had some more work to do to prepare for his fishing trip the next day, namely he wanted to order some Uber Eats so he had something to eat for his trip. Then, he took the new puppy outside for another walk on his own, and used the entrance to the grassy area since he wasn’t caught on Ring doorbell camera footage this time around.
2:44am: he sent a Snapchat video to his younger sister of him barefoot walking the dog.
2:45am: Caleb made his Uber Eats order, opting for a no contact delivery, and he ordered 2 lunchables, a red bull and an apple pie from a convenience store.
2:58am: His phone turns off, he either shut it off, or it died, law enforcement has not released that information.
3am: According to Caleb’s father, he brought the dog back into the apartment sometime after 3am.
3:03: Link to photo And here’s something I found strange, Caleb sent his final snapchat, the photo of the bridge, to a high school friend from St Augustine Texas at 3:03am, a full 5 minutes after his phone had been shut off. This high school friend barely used Snapchat and him and Caleb didn’t communicate often, so it was a random person to send it to. But when the high school friend opened Snapchat (which he rarely does), he saw a new snap from Caleb after this friend knew Caleb had disappeared, so this friend knew to screenshot the snap for evidence. There could be some technical reasons why the snap was sent after Caleb had shut off his phone, cause apparently Snap users may receive images later then they are sent. But the time discrepancy is still unexplained. Like did someone else log into Caleb’s Snapchat account to send this snap? And I mean, this photo is haunting and really is what drew me in to this case. The photo is of a bridge over a drainage ditch, this bridge is within a few hundred feet outside of the apartment complex. It really captured just how foggy it was that night, and the photo was blurry, almost as if Caleb didn’t have time to use the focus feature on the app, like he had to take the photo quickly. Cause normally Snapchat would focus the photo for you within a couple of seconds of opening the camera function. I can’t help but feel like this was a major clue like in the Libby and Abby case from Delphi, Indiana, like he was trying to tell us something. Behind the bridge is a highway, so was he being abducted at that point and being led to a car to be driven off, and sent this photo in a rush hoping someone could help him? That’s the vibe I got from it, at least. Though some people think he may have been trying to be artsy and take a cool photo of the fog, but I don’t think so cause it was out of focus and looked rushed. Also, my main question, is why did he go to this bridge? He really had no reason to leave his apartment complex and go there.
3:12am: Caleb’s phone pinged for its very last time, but cops believe this was a glitch and more on that later.
3:20am: The Uber Eats driver drops off Caleb’s order.
So really, we are looking at a 22 minute window of when something inexplicable happened to Caleb. The roommates woke up the next day and saw Caleb’s Uber Eats still waiting for him in the bag outside their apartment, they were alarmed when they realized his truck, keys and wallet were still there and the roommates did the right thing and called authorities to report Caleb missing at around 1pm, after searching for their childhood friend, desperately.
The Search
The cops arrived and questioned the room mates as well as the Uber Driver and they were all cleared. There are reports that the roommates took a voluntary lie detector test and passed. The cops also began searching the apartment complex, and checked over 30 apartments. Authorities are asking the public for any tips they may have and tried tracking down any surveillance footage from the morning of Monday, March 4th, but most of the footage wasn’t helpful because of the fog that night, the cameras only captured a couple of feet in front of them. But remember how the apartment complex was marketed as a secure place for students? Well, it turns out the security cameras at the gates were not working and the gates were left wide open that night, for anyone to just waltz on in to the complex.
The community banded together and searched the area by foot along with authorities using professional techniques including helicopters. It sounds to me that every square inch of Corpus Christi was searched, and 3 months later there’s still no trace of Caleb.
The drainage ditch seen in his final snapchat was of course scoured (this was my initial thought that he committed suicide in the ditch) but it barely had any water in it so it was mostly mud and there were no tracks and no Caleb.
Searchers canvassed the area, and found no tire marks to indicate a car picked him up and sped away (no scream or anything was heard either and he was pretty close to the complex).
Searchers also paid particular attention to the area of that last ping, but law authorities later revealed that they believe it was a glitch, and most of the time those glitches happen was because someone was in a car.
I believe, Caleb at 3:12am, about 10 minutes after his phone shut off, was being taken away in car, which would explain the last ping being innacurate.
Theories
There are some troubling theories in this case, and I will get into those now, so the next little part will be complete specuatlon of what people have said online, and take it with a grain of salt.
3 months later, Caleb’s phone began pinging again, and law enforcement went on record to say that this was because of forensic testing. Law enforcement are in the process of collecting digital evidence in the case, which includes probably geofencing the area he was last seen and tracking down phones that were in the location the night Caleb disappeared.
But at the same time of this phone pinging, a civilian discovered a phone at Packery Jetty, a 17 minute drive away, and many people believe this is Caleb’s phone, but this has yet to be confirmed.
1) Links to other disappearances There’s also many users pointing out similar disappearances in South Texas including that of Jason Landry. Jason was also 21, and his abandoned car was found on a desolate road on December 13,2020 with his clothes inside and no trace of him, anywhere. According to his dad, the last app he used was also Snapchat, and many people feel that he was there to meet somebody.
2) Secret reddit account/catfish theory This next theory I want to be very clear that this is not 100% confirmed. But according to Reddit, Facebook and YouTube, the family and law enforcement are aware of Caleb Harris’s secret reddit account. (Link) Caleb was allegedly using reddit to meet people for adult activities. This account would often post in a reddit group called “Corpus Christi NSFW” where strangers would meet online for fun. Many people feel that this account called “Outside_Physics1635” is Caleb because of his age being 21 and also his final post was on the same night Caleb disappeared. The post was titled “oso bay hiking trail” and it was posted on March 4th, 2024, at 2:15:30am. It was tagged “M4A”, which means “Man for Anyone” so male or female encounters. There’s also pictures on this account, that some people believe show Caleb’s bracelet in it (Link), but I’m still on the fence about if this is true or not, though it is a prevailing theory in this case, so it’s worth mentioning. One redditor wrote, “It hasn't been outright said by the family most likely due to law enforcement, but Nicole Owens, the woman who runs the Facebook group/page under family spokesperson Tony Matthias said: 'Yes, please do not discuss in the group what was on his Reddit. I hate that it even got around. Kept it a secret as long as possible.' She later deleted the post.” So the working theory is that Caleb made this reddit post before walking the dog, hoping to meet someone that night for a rendezvous, then that person had a nefarious idea in mind and possibly abducted him.
Anyway, I was hoping to bring more awareness to this case since I feel it got overshadowed by Riley Strain, as it happened around the same time.
Hopefully we can just get his name and face out there, because law enforcement are desperate for any tips, because as you can see, there isn’t much to this story. I mean he orders Uber Eats, goes outside, and disappears.
I'll be interested in hearing what you guys think.
Thanks!

I'm a muslim I've lived in the west most of my life i wanted to get an allah necklace and i chose it to be gold with the intent of glorifying the lord's name when i went to a muslim country they told me it's haram but i didn't find such prohibition in the quran but found hadiths can a scholar tell me if the hadiths probiting gold are reliable and if i can keep wearing it or should I take it off Note the style of the necklace is that of men so it's not imitating women

Hey, y'all. This is going to be scattered and long-winded (and more of a vent, than anything), but I would really just appreciate some words of advice or comfort.
I, 22F, have gone back and forth on my identity for 10 years now.
When I was 12, I learned that transmen exist. Something immediately clicked. I was so young then (and still am, I know) but began doing so much research about transitioning, watching FTM YouTubers live their lives, etc. I as good as socially transitioned and cut my hair off and dressed more masculine. I even asked a few teachers to use he/him pronouns for me. But after about 10 or so months, I reverted. I can't remember why. I just did.
This happened a few more times in high school. I didn't make as many drastic changes, but would cut my hair shorter again and do more research. The pandemic kept me home for the remainder of high school and I inadvertently drifted back across the fem-masc spectrum. I didn't see many people beyond my immediate family, didn't have many friends. It was just me, wearing what I wanted, with short hair, and I felt good, for about two years.
I reverted once I started college. I dated a guy briefly and went back to presenting femininely. Once that was done, however, I reached back into my closet for those masculine clothes. I lost a lot of friends during my first year, and spent a lot of time on my own and once again started doing what felt good, without judgement or pressure. I even had an appointment to be approved for HRT, which never happened because I got COVID right before I was supposed to meet with my doctor. (Talk about a huge what-if.)
I just keep getting hooked on the thought of being a man — how me it feels.
Some random thoughts that have crossed my mind:

• I am wholly single for the first time in about two years. Right before I met my now ex-boyfriend, who I dated for a little over a year, I had been presenting very neutrally and openly went by any pronouns. Once we started dating, I drifted back towards being more feminine and felt okay about that. In hindsight, I believe that's because I felt validation in my womanhood because I was with a very traditionally masculine guy. Since that breakup, I have been casually dating/sleeping with various men and eventually found myself caught up in a "situationship" (as some might call it) with a guy I really liked and saw a future with. That fell apart about two weeks ago, and immediately after the dust settled and I knew for sure it was done, the longing to be a man returned. I don't know how to describe it. It just hit me like a tidal wave. I intend to stay single for a while, so I hope that helps, somehow.
• I am slightly overweight. I have felt better about myself when I've had more muscle mass and been consistently hitting the gym. I have also felt at times that it's easier to be a curvier woman than a curvy trans man. I also consider myself a relatively attractive woman and therefore my body is not something I have ever been terribly insecure about. I can put on a tight dress, do my makeup, and know myself and others find me pretty. When I picture myself after what one might call "transition goals," I would be a fit guy. Possibly there is some brain/body disconnect because of how I look?
• A majority of my close friends are men. Not on purpose, it just happened that way. I was raised alongside my brother by my dad so I think that has something to do with it. It's neither here nor there, but maybe this is just an intense desire to fit in with them more?
• It's the silly things that make me nervous, too. My hair is finally long after years of chopping it off, then letting it grow back, then going through the cycle all over again. There are haircuts I'd like to try again that might feel affirming, but if I have another setback, having short hair would upset me.
• I am certain that what I have felt before is gender dysphoria. But when I don't adhere to the hyper-feminine, it's magnified. I go through phases where I try not to think about it and get distracted with life, but the moment it creeps back into my mind, it's impossible to let go of. Wearing masculine clothes, which I do enjoy more, makes me painfully aware of and uncomfortable in my biologically female body. When I have traditional PIV sex with a man, I don't feel the ache and pain that is, to put it delicately, bottom dysphoria, which is magnified tenfold when I'm into a woman. So maybe that's just compulsive heterosexuality?
• (And oh my god, does that eat me alive. That might be one of the biggest things I struggle with — my anatomy. I know enough about phalloplasty to know that it's expensive, would take years, and still might not give me the results I dream of having. I just wish I could wake up one day with a man's parts and never have to think about this again.)

I don't know. I know it's not a race to have this all figured out and that I have my whole life to understand who I am. However, I am set to be established and very well-off in my chosen field post-grad and have this irrational fear that transitioning (even socially) will set me back. I know that sounds awful and I know that's not inherently true, but like I said, it's an irrational fear.
Maybe living the remainder of my life as a woman is just easier. Which is sad, if that's what's ultimately stopping me. My future industry is very male-dominated, with little to no trans-rep, and I finally feel comfortable as a woman; I can't imagine what it would feel like to suddenly, openly transition.
Fortunately, I do live in a very accepting community, have a family who would understand given some time, and have a LOT of medical resources available. Maybe too available. It's scary to think I could just take a leap of faith and try again. Because that is so, so possible. I'm just so frightened that I will go "too far" and finally find myself full of regret. Testosterone hormone therapy is just so permanent. If I'm right, the changes will be incredible. If I'm wrong...well. Yeah.
I can picture my life as both a man and a woman. I could be happy as a woman, I think. But am I just supposed to live the rest of my life not knowing what might've been?
Has anyone been in this position before? What happened?
TLDR: I have been going back and forth about my possible transness for 10 years. I just want to make a choice, to go for it, but I'm terrified that I'm making a mistake.

My parents are divorced, and have been for years, just yesterday I came over to stay at his apartment for the first time in at least 5 months.
The uncleanliness almost made me throw up. Staying over was a bit last minute and I could tell when he came back from taking the trash out he was racking his brain for a good reason as to why it smelt like a whole dumpster was in the room. He made slight jokes like “almost threw up haha”and “I think I went nose blind!” With an expression you can only recognize if you knew him.
I know my dad struggles with hygiene tasks that take place in the bathroom; its to the extent where he casually mentioned his baths were just wipe downs with a wash cloth, a year or two ago. However, I was on the verge of peeing my pants so I went in there, saw scattered things all over and remove what was on the toilet. I opened the lid and the entire seat had a LAYER of sticky gunk (likely piss), but to make it worst the actual inside of the toilet wasn’t white. It was a disgusting brown with more yellowish film amongst other indescribable stuff (the toilet wasn’t full/not flushed it was just beyond filthy and a build up of stuff).
(The seat mainly matters because I am female)
Yes he also struggles with mental health disorders, yes he has had some bad luck recently, and no I am not 100% sure he has been taking his meds lately. In fact I think he is off them, and has been off them for the last few weeks.
I am not asking for help with that; I am asking how to politely tell him he NEEDS to clean out/on the toilet, and how to ensure he even knows how.
I am 16, female , and I cannot comfortably go back into the bathroom.

Thank you to everyone who posted on my original thread, I thought I’d share an update since, my itinerary has changed significantly. First, I’d like to thank everyone for all the suggestion and recommendation, it seemed like the consensus was that my previous plan although doable, I was going to be missing a lot of Paris itself, and well the whole trip was about enjoying Paris and wandering around, so I revised. Also everyone agree's Versailles is overcrowded, and everyone hates Disney adults 😅
Okay here’s the new plan for when we arrive in Paris:
June 16th - Train to Paris from Nice (6am - 12pm) - Check into our hotel in Boulougne Billacourt if available around 13-14:00hr, we’re still undecided if we want to do a hop on hop off boat tour or a traditional Seine River tour, but for sure we’re getting on a boat. Probably hang out by a park for lunch. End up back in our hotel around 19-20:00 have dinner somewhere near our hotel, it’ll be a long day so keeping it light outside of the boat.
June 17th - MontMatre, see the views and explore rue de martyrs, have lunch somewhere nearby again probably in a park. Come back to the hotel for the afternoon, change of clothes, and then take pictures by the Eiffel Tower (we’re using a photographer through airbnb), have dinner somewhere 10-15 walk away from the Eiffel Tower to avoid tourist traps (If anyone has a recommendation for a nice French dinner for a couple in the 20-30euro range per person)
June 18th - Versailles day, we wanted to do something active so we’re doing a bike tour of the garden and Marie Antonette place, with a guided tour through the Palace, it started at 9am come back to the hotel around 16-17:00 and then meet up with family, they have a dinner reservation on that day.
June 19th - Check out Day - probably leave luggage in our Families Airbnb unless there’s safe luggage storage places in Paris - Explore Galeries Lafayette and the Opera Area visit some of the covered passages for trinkets and souvenirs and Rue Montorgueil for lunch, come back around 5-6, and head to the airport (Flight is late at night)
Even though my boyfriend was excited to go to Disneyland Paris and even started packing some of his Disney gear, I could tell he really wanted to explore Versailles, and doing both in one trip would’ve meant we’d kinda half assing both of them, so I figured we’d go all out in Versailles and then next time we’re in Europe we’ll prioritize Disney and do it right (stay on property, go to both parks etc).
Any recommendation on luggage storage, or nice dinners to go in a 10-15min distance from Eiffel Tower would be greatly appreciated!
Thank you all again really appreciated all the advise!!

Umm… it’s a long story I guess. TL/DR at the bottom.
Sometimes I really want to divorce. But I also really don’t. I do love my husband a lot and we have had such incredible times together and built a really amazing life. I don’t want to leave it all behind, to start over with someone new, blow up my life and start with literally nothing, but man am I hurting right now. I feel so lonely in my marriage that sometimes I feel like it would just be easier to actually be alone. I don’t like how I’m being treated and I don’t like that I’m asking for bare minimum and not even getting that. Sometimes I feel like I am growing up and outgrowing him/our dynamic and things feel stagnated (I want kids, he wants to drink and party).
My husband (30M) and I (29F) have hit a rough patch, except I’m not even sure if it’s just a rough patch anymore or if we are truly falling apart. Together for nearly 6 years, married for 3. It makes me sick to think about because I feel as if my husband is a totally different person now. I’m so confused because our relationship has never ever felt this wrong or hurtful, I used to believe our love was so healthy and nurturing; my husband used to communicate and be open and loving and now he’s just passive aggressive (he’ll even admit it), hot/cold and mean to me.
He has said some very hurtful things but will never take accountability or apologize for what he has said to me, he often times will spin things around and blame me for all the ways I’m hurting him and never acknowledge what I have come to him with; like I will raise a concern and somehow by the end of it, I’m left apologizing while my feelings were never acknowledged. Or he just goes “ok!?” Like ok so what??? A lot of DARVO and defensiveness, he will twist my words and insist I said something when I know I didn’t. If I call him out, I just get a “sorry I misspoke” from him. If I tell him he hurt my feelings, he says it’s a me problem. That he has no problems. That I should just be happy and move on. In his mind, we wake up the next day and be happy and all is well because we choose to be better (ok sure, fine) but with no apology or repair attempts, I have a hard time “just moving on”. It’s hard to forgive a person that can’t even admit they hurt you or show remorse for how they have done so. I have gone to bed sobbing next to him and it’s never brought up or talked about the next day and he wonders why I’m growing distant. He has zero compassion and empathy for my feelings and I feel really alone in that.
Last year, we were long distance for the whole year (military). Our fights started in September when I went to visit and I felt he was disrespecting me, mocking me, not taking me seriously, disregarding my suggestions in front of our friends. One night, he started picking fights with me at a bar and insisted we go home “because I wasn’t having fun”. I never expressed that, though the bar scene is not my thing, I still went with him and our friends and was enjoying our time. I told him to go have fun, dance, hang out and I’ll enjoy my drink. He kept saying I wasn’t having fun and we needed to leave and I kept insisting I was totally happy to just be there (that was the truth). A lot of times he will project his own interpretations of my feelings onto me and assume he knows what I’m thinking/feeling without asking. We left that night without our friends and grabbed dinner on the way back to the hotel, except he completely ignored me and stonewalled me the entire time. I tried to make conversation but took the hint, let him know I don’t feel welcome in this interaction since he wasn’t engaging in return, and that I was going back to the hotel alone since he clearly didn’t want me there. His defensiveness is usually cold and silent, he has admitted that he “stonewalls me because he’s done talking with me”. He refuses to talk a lot of the time or will say there’s nothing he wants to talk about.
After I had come back home, our fights continued. I asked him a handful of times to please send me the pics we took on our vacations and it took him over a month of me reminding him to please just do it. Finally he became angry and BLEW UP on me and sent them, only half, and I reminded him that there’s more and he spit back at me “THAT’S ALL I HAVE, WE’RE NEVER TAKING PICTURES ON MY PHONE AGAIN” when I knew there were more. What a stupid, petty thing to get mad at me over?
Another time, he completely disappeared on me for 3 whole days and I hardly heard a word from him. I knew exactly where he was (drunk in his dorm playing video games, on a complete bender with his friends online, only taking breaks to go to work drunk/hungover and come back to drinking again). I attempted to reach out, say hi, stay connected, because I feel that’s important long distance? To make an effort to communicate? Because we have a responsibility to each other? I don’t feel like I’m asking for much here, but he was just gone for 3 days. When I finally heard from him and let him know how hurt I was because I felt like he didn’t have time for me (I have often felt second to his online friends, I spent a year and a half going to bed alone and existing without him because he would stay up drinking with them), all he said was “sorry sometimes I just fuck off into my own world”. Like dude you have a wife that you need to be involved with too? I have a really big problem with his drinking and his online life as it’s taken a higher priority over me a lot of times. For a long time, all I saw him do was go to work, come home, drink and game.
Between September to now, things have only spiraled and gotten so much worse. In January, we moved abroad. I knew it would be a hard adjustment for me as I’ve never left home, am incredibly close to my family and overall just a big change, plus I had all my luggage and our two pets to drag through airports and onto flights with. I needed help. I wanted to do it together, as husband and wife, I wanted his support and for us to be doing this new thing in life together… except I had to BEG him to come pick me up. I knew I would need him as my heart was aching over leaving home. There was so much resistance from him though, he said I’d be fine and to just meet him at our next duty station. That it’s such a big waste of time and money to come get me from Asia (he gets a free flight home though??), just to fly back to Asia. Then he started talking about going home to his home state before our move, to see friends and family, and I asked, ok so if you’re in the states already, why not just come up to me and pick me up and we go to Japan together (also, he has time and money to go them but not for me?)? At this point he came unglued and hysterical, insisting again how it’s a waste of time and money and who is going to pay for him to go home? Me? (I’m like, wtf why would I pay for you to go party but you can’t make time to pick me up for a big transition???) he let me know how much I frustrate him and honestly the whole fight just turned into something so bizarre and vague, I wondered what we even were fighting about anymore (as often is the case). I was sobbing and so hurt that he clearly wasn’t choosing me when I needed him, and we fell silent on the phone while I just cried and cried. All he could say was “yeah I know you’re pissed at me”.
Since moving, our sex life has completely declined (my fault). I’ve been depressed, stressed, tired and honestly so hurt by him that I don’t want to have sex with him, especially when he won’t even acknowledge that he has hurt me or apologize. That’s not someone I want to be intimate with. So I have rejected him a couple times, letting him know I’m feeling really insecure about us. I have tried SO HARD to not reject him because I know how hurtful it is, and sometimes in the past, I was just tired. Not in the mood. It doesn’t happen frequently at all (maybe 3 times in our time together), and the times I have said no, he literally will throw himself over in a tantrum like manner and it’s so gross and childish to me. Now, since things have gotten worse, he just goes cold. He told me that if it weren’t for us being married, my couple of times saying no recently would’ve been enough for him to be done with me. And that hurts, because not once has he even attempted to ask what’s wrong, why am I feeling this way, what can we do differently, how is my heart? He can throw everything away over that without even talking to me first? I told him I’m straight up depressed/homesick and having a hard time since moving, not to mention our lack of connection, and he never expressed concern, only his hurt feelings for how rejected and ugly he feels because I won’t have sex with him. He makes weird, off handed snarky comments about how he sometimes “considers going to the gym and getting in shape just to attract some attention and that he never would do that, but he’s thought about it”. The weird comments have happened here and there over a few subjects, leaving me dead in my tracks thinking “what the fuck was that? Where did that comment even come from?”
I have begged him to meet me half way outside of the bedroom, because I don’t feel emotionally connected anymore and that we really need help, and he’s still so dumbfounded that I won’t have sex even though I’ve clearly laid out the ways in which I’m hurting and feeling like we are falling apart. I can’t even remember the last time he told me he loved me first, that he appreciates me, is proud of me, feels lucky to have me, but he used to say those things.
At one point, I wrote him a very long, heartfelt letter stating exactly what was hurting me and why I was feeling the way I am. He read it and didn’t speak to me or even look at me for a week. LITERALLY. When he finally responded (opposite shifts and never any time to talk, a lot of our conversations have been letters or texts lately, because there’s no time/we never see each other and our in person fights derail anyways), he told me he “read my note and felt nothing and that he didn’t care, but knows that he should care so he’ll consider how he should feel.”
I have asked for counseling, to which he insisted he was never going to do again because it’s just a crying/shit-on-the-husband-fest (he is divorced once, I assume he went with his ex), he told me there’s nothing wrong with him, he doesn’t need someone telling him how to live his life, he’s happy with who he is and will not go to counseling. I told him it’s not an option anymore and so we went once (didn’t go well) and he reminded me more than once how stupid it was. I told him I want a husband that has a growth mindset and someone who is wanting to work on things with me, who takes me seriously when I say we need help, someone who is open to talking and communicating. He took offense that I don’t think he’s growth minded because of his spiritual journey and personal growth but I asked him, how are you showing up as a husband? He tells me “we don’t need to be checking in and talking about things”.
He says I’m trying to change him and want him to be different (because I’ve asked him for help around the house but he doesn’t see the mess the same so it doesn’t matter to him? But to me it does because it’s his mess too and we exist together, therefore we both need to be making an effort? I have taken on 90% of the household chores for a while now and let him know I need help and suddenly he’s saying I’m trying to change him and asking him to “put on his husband mask”, what does that even mean?????) I’ve asked him to attempt to speak my love language more (touch and words), as there’s hardly any intimacy between us (no hand holding, cuddling, hardly any affection outside the bedroom) and that’s asking him to be someone he is not?? Because he’s not touchy feely? He will slap my ass or grope my boobs (huge pet peeve and I’ve expressed that) and when I ask him for a hug instead, there’s push back? He gets mad and guilts me when I won’t drink with him (I don’t need or want to drink every night at home, sorry). One time he was poking and pinching at my sides and I asked him not to as it was making me uncomfortable (struggling with binge eating at the moment) and he got irritated and defensive because “he’s just playing and why can’t I have fun”.
Through all of this, I feel like I am the one saying I want to work on things, I love him and our life and let’s do better, let’s fix things, let’s grow together, I’m the one still making an effort to bridge the gap even though we are hurting, and all I’m hearing from him are all the ways he doesn’t like me: he thinks I’m boring (because I won’t drink with him), that I can’t do anything for him that he doesn’t do for himself (yes he literally said this, what do I even offer him?), that he fell in love with me for my independence and what am I doing now? (I uprooted my entire life and moved to another country to support him, I got a job within 2 weeks of being here and have since secured a government position, I’ve bought and paid off a car in 3 months, I go out and travel in a country where I can’t even speak the language, made friends, and he says I’m not independent?? WTF), that he doesn’t need me or this relationship and only fears I’m wasting his time. He can’t think of a single thing he appreciates about me (his words) when I feel I have given up everything and bend over backwards for him to care for him and our relationship. I really feel he doesn’t like me or respect me, but he’ll say he wants me around. He insists I don’t love him or like him, but I feel that is his own projection onto me. We are long distance again and I have expressed multiple times that it’s important to me to stay engaged and check in at least once daily, to say hi, and I’ve been doing that despite being incredibly busy myself, but he ghosts me constantly and is hardly reciprocating effort. I have hardly heard from him in a month, despite my efforts (I’m starting to feel like a damn fool by continuously reaching out, if I don’t text, we don’t talk, I’m tired of the games and have since pulled back but that feels so shitty to even have to do???). I want someone that WANTS to say hi to me and see how I’m doing???
I don’t feel I have a friend in him, as he never asks about me, my life, my inner world, what’s going on with me, does not express interest in my new jobs, new friends etc, when I am constantly interacting with his world and engaging with him. I have expressed to him I feel like I am his friend but he is not mine because he doesn’t express an interest. We do a lot of what he wants and not a lot of what I want.
I told him I want to go home for my 30th birthday in July (it’s a big deal to me!) and I asked him to meet up with me in my state (he will already be in the states for a work trip). He told me he doesn’t want to come hang out with me on my birthday and was instead thinking of going to a big get together with his online friends in a different state to party and drink with them. That really hurt me. Do I not matter to him at all???
I have a big problem with his drinking (he has driven drunk at least 3 times that I know of, 2 of which I was in the car with him, once my family was also involved), I have expressed my concerns about his drinking and he says “I don’t think it’s a problem”. I told him I don’t want our future kids thinking it’s ok to wake up and pop open a beer for breakfast every day and he dismissed it.
We are not agreeing or seeing eye to eye on our next 5-10 years together: we want kids, but I want to be in the states closer to home so we can have our families be involved with our kids too, meanwhile he wants to live abroad as long as possible and retire out of the military overseas. He wants nothing to do with his family and doesn’t care to be close to them. I knew this, and thought I would be ok with it, but I’ve since realized that it’s actually really important to me to have our families involved and not be on the other side of the world at the moment. We can’t find a way to meet in the middle on this, but I don’t want to be this far away for too long (current trajectory is 3-7 years). He says he isn’t sure if he can compromise because he’s always done for others and not himself. Meanwhile, I feel like: maybe you should’ve thought about that before getting married? Aren’t your spouse’s feelings enough to move you in a direction that would be fulfilling for both of us, not just yourself? I agreed to 4 years overseas when I really didn’t want to, and now that I’m asking that we go home after, now it’s an issue?
We went to a marriage retreat that only further revealed what I have been hurting and expressing concern about: that I don’t feel connected and that we need to be digging deeper and investing more into our relationship. I cried so hard when we returned from that retreat and all he could tell me was how frustrated he was that he took us there only for me to come home and cry about it.
He is ok with pushing my boundaries and disregarding my feelings: example of this a couple months ago, I let him know multiple times and many hours in advance we had dinner reservations (we need to leave by 7). He gets ready around 630. I tell him, ok time to go. He says, just 5 more minutes (on his pc gaming and drinking). I say, ok it’s been 5 minutes, let’s go. He says, wait just another minute. 20 minutes pass and I’m now visibly irritated and telling him, I’m leaving, now we’re going to be late. He gets pissy and storms behind me, I let him know that it’s really important to me to be on time for things and I felt really disrespected by him making us late. He told me with attitude that “it’s fine” and it’s “not a big deal because we’ll still be there and we’ll get there when we get there”.
In the store, I will ask for his input on groceries and he will mutter under his breath to leave him alone, only to admit later that he did that and it was disrespectful: but just as an admittance and matter of fact, nothing more, like he’s ok with disrespecting me and declaring it??
Honestly there’s still so much to this, but it’s getting long - bottom line, I just really feel he doesn’t respect me or like me. I don’t feel like he loves me as a husband should or how I envision a marriage to be. I feel a lot of disinterest and complacency. I wonder if he could ever even properly be there for me in the ways I would want my husband to be (what happens when my dog or parents die, is he just going to dismiss my feelings then too and tell me to get over it? He is very emotionally avoidant, numb and dismissive). I don’t feel loved, supported, heard or understood, I feel so incredibly lonely in our marriage. I feel I am reaching a breaking point and it hurts deeply. He was NEVER like this, our relationship used to be so good and I have no idea what happened or why things changed but I am deeply unhappy now and don’t see a way forward with an unwilling partner who will not participate or sees nothing wrong. I deserve better and I want a husband and partner in life that is just as invested and just as loving and interested in me and willing to grow, as I am to him. I’m a damn good wife and I know that, I know what I have to offer, and I want someone that sees that and appreciates that. I feel my husband is very childish and immature and emotionally unavailable, I have wondered but whether or not he is manipulative doesn’t really matter and I don’t think labels are helpful, at this point all I know is I’m hurting and this isn’t working for me.
Of course this is only my side of the story, and no I have not been perfect. I have found myself in a dark, contemptuous state of mind towards him and tried my best to turn that around and reflect and do things differently. I am reading books, listening to podcasts, going to counseling, trying to model to him real apologies (sincerely too). He will say that I criticize him (I do have a harsh start up at times but have since tried to communicate softer and take more responsibility for my feelings and not find fault in his actions), that I want him to be someone he is not (he says I want him to put on a husband mask??), that he feels ugly and rejected because I won’t have sex with him, that I’m hurting him (but I’m honestly confused as to how because he can’t give specifics when I ask how or what I can do differently).
Sometimes I just feel so done with this and like it’s not worth it. I gave up everything to be in another country with him, I gave up friends, family, a career that I wanted to pursue, EVERYTHING, and this does not feel worth the pain I am feeling being so far away from the things that bring me joy outside of him. I feel deeply unfulfilled day to day.
We used to be so happy. He was so sweet and nurturing and cared for me, took interest in me, prioritized me. We had a wonderful life and home together, supported each other’s dreams and desires, used to communicate openly without defense or combative behavior. This is so left field for him/us that it’s left me deeply confused and feeling so much ambivalence. I used to feel #1 to him and now I just feel like his roommate.
Jesus this is long, if you read it and have any advice, thank you. I feel so alone in these feelings and don’t want to dump on my family and friends more than I have already. I am in individual counseling and that helps but I just needed to get it out of me and into the void.
TL/DR: basically I feel like I started challenging some bad behaviors and speaking up when my feelings were hurt (previously I guess I was the “cool girl” and chill and wouldn’t speak up and now I have resentment), and our relationship has become toxic. I am constantly torn between should I stay or should I go? I really don’t have much optimism anymore as my husband will spin things around and blame me, and I’m really not trying to act like a victim here, but he doesn’t take accountability or step up into being a leading man or husband and I’m tired. I’m tired of fighting, feeling sad, being long distance from my family and life in what feels like a failing marriage and not feeling like I’m being met half way on repairing/moving forward in a healthy manner.

(please don’t share i’m also sorry for such a long post i’m also reposting due to edits)
i love my boyfriend. so much, but his family drive me fucking insane and make me cry so much and i don’t know if it’s pregnancy hormones or what but
me and my boyfriend have been together for a year i’m currently pregnant (unplanned) were young parents (teens) who need a lot of support mainly just finically since homes are expensive, i have to worry about college savings, and i won’t be able to work for a while. we have my fathers support but he’s a single dad, and boyfriend works but doesn’t make enough to provide for us (which is okay he’s had the job for a few years and is trying hard to find something at least a little better i’m proud of him) so not living with them or my father isn’t really an option my mother isn’t really in the picture and doesn’t take care of her home (smokes inside, and a bunch of other issues i won’t get into just not suitable for a little one) my dads super supportive and has been a huge help even when hes stern, i just hate to be even more of a burden on him
basically the issues with my in laws are

• since i am young and have really bad health issues along with an eating disorder. i was considering abortion when i first found out, obviously no woman wants to have an abortion its devastating i always wanted kids but i wanted to be able to fully support and spoil my baby. she was super against this literally yelling at me at times for even bringing up the idea and guilt tripped me horribly told me she was physically sick at the thought of me having one, sent my boyfriend a photo of a baby in the womb stating it has a heartbeat and “we did an adult thing by having sex so we need to be adults”, EVEN OFFERING TO ADOPT MY BABY AFTER I SAID I DIDNT WANT TO ADOPT. etc just very very out of taste and hurtful. i was using protection, i was being cautious it just happened to me. which sucks. but i’m trying to embrace it. she also kept telling me false medical facts to coerce me into having the baby obviously i made the choice to keep my little one and i know it’s bad to say but sometimes i wish i didn’t especially if it was going to end up like this. i know i probably sound like a horrible mother i’m ready to take care of her and hold her and admire her i just wish so bad i could’ve predicted how awful the situation would be. i know it could always be worse, some girls don’t even have family support but mine is very forced i guess. i’m happy i get to have her, i don’t know. i’m just conflicted. i refuse to adopt our baby out so please no one comment saying i should i’ve already been through this multiple times. i respect everyone’s political views and social views but please don’t cram the down my throat. i feel guilty for even considering the latter to begin with even though i’m not finished with high school.
  
• his grandma gave us a talk about how she’s disappointed we had pre material sex (i was saving myself for marriage before i met him? i lost my virginity to HIM) but she’s happy we didn’t abort because that’s just “wrong” meaning his mother told his grandmother that i was debating an abortion. thanks for ganging up on me guys even though i gave you what you wanted!!!
  
• they’ve told everyone i’m pregnant without confiding in me first even the babies gender. we got the gender we were hoping for and i was sooo excited but everyone already knew.. i wouldn’t be upset about this really if they had just asked me first :/ and when i got upset about someone finding out who me and bf were going to tell they literally just said “i think everyone should know anyways but that’s my opinion”
  
• his mom made a comment about me not wearing a bra (i had a baggy shirt on that went off the shoulder a little) i understand that this is a social norm but she added in that i would get preyed on for not wearing one as a victim of SA that part was super hurtful.
  
• this one is kinda a minor rant i guess. his family is super large which is a good and bad thing, im glad they’re family is so close but it kinda sucks when i’m trying to spend time with my boyfriend before we have our kid and i’m forced to watch everyone else’s kids (his grandma literally asks this of me basically demands it, i’m pretty pregnant right now i’ve gained 20 pounds it’s not easily for me to carry a bunch of babies) the other day she told me to get down on the ground take the babies shoes off, then pick them up take them to the sink and wash their hands for them i use to be super fit but i have had such a hard time even GETTING UP when sitting down my boyfriend was helping out in the house while she TELLS ME to go outside and play with the kids. i’m so fucking tired i can barely sleep because my baby keeps me up all night kicking and no position is comfortable. anyways then the kids parents complain when i give any type of pda to my boyfriend (hugging, a quick kiss, or even just laying on his arm) if you don’t want me doing these things don’t force me to watch your children?? also notice how these little kids have NEVER hurt themselves when i’m around why because i chase after them whenever they do something remotely dangerous??? (they left the kids with the younger cousin and the baby hit its fucking head) i didn’t ask to babysit? ( keep in mind my boyfriend is not super close to where i currently live i drive a pretty good distance SUPER EARLY IN THE MORNING MIGHT I ADD. ) i’d like some alone time with HIM. i’m cherishing every moment with him before our baby is here.
  
• his brother literally told me to shut up today when i asked him to stop yelling at my boyfriend over a dumbass video game controller. & then yelled at me for laying on my boyfriends shoulder 💀 that’s how i even found out the kids parents complain about me BECAUSE THEY NEVER SAY ANYTHING UPFRONT TO ME it’s always behind my back in the most judgmental way, um guys hello? i’m right here if you have an issue with something i’m doing please address it with me and we can talk about it compromise, or i’ll just stop overall i’m not one to fight i really really hate fucking fighting. and that’s why i haven’t spoken up for myself at all this entire time. his brother also complained about me coming over?? mf i do this so ur brother saves gas
  
• this one makes me sound like i’m spoiled probably i know i can’t bite the hand that feeds. so don’t take it like that, it’s just kinda a punch in the face i guess i’m very grateful for all that they do for my baby: they haven’t gotten my baby anything yet besides the stuff i politely asked them if i could get (her clothes) since i’m super picky and want her to dress really girly while she’s young i’m super into fashion and clothes so it’s just something i’d like to do. anyways they buy my baby second hand clothes that are gender neutral and a blue baby swing & a second hand blue car seat. (when i was sorting them out btw mil stopped me put them in a bag and told me to do it later. i had two piles already made that’s just annoying but whatever whenever we mention about sorting them she acts like we need to keep them all) a swing that’s fucking blue and they got a free car seat that’s blue and goddamn orange •_• (if ur a parent you know ur not supposed to receive second hand car seats) but then here’s the fucking KICKER right? they complain about how much money they’ve given other members of the family but then TAKE THAT EXACT family member on a shopping spree. while the baby they begged me to keep is getting bashed for being expensive. i’m just bummed they didn’t let me buy clothes for MY baby or help pick them out. listen buying second hand shit is fine i’m an avid thrifter babies are going to outgrow it fast but this is my first and only child i plan to have id like it to be a tiny bit special for me and her. they also bought bath toys for the other little kids then told me to use them for my daughter (if y’all don’t know bath toys need to be replaced often, they can grow a shit ton of mold if you don’t. she’s also going to be you know a FUCKING NEWBORN so she’s super fragile to sickness just not a good idea to share things like that)
  
• they also refer to my baby as THEIRS no my baby. but i’m probably being territorial but whatever.
  
• i could go on and on and on but the biggest issue i have is: it’s causing a rift between me and my boyfriend. fuck we’ve never argued but i’ve been so angry at him recently i know it’s not his fault and my own father warned me “if i don’t like the persons parents i’m not being with them” i always said not me because my boyfriend is an amazing human being i love him so dearly and i’ve truly never have met someone like him even my dad adores him and asks me when he’s coming over because he misses him. he can’t help who his family is. maybe i’m overreacting i don’t know. i could never leave him but sometimes i get intrusive thoughts about it i’m so desperate to have a normal life i just wish this never happened to us. he’s my first boyfriend and i’m his first girlfriend down to the first kiss and everything. i just don’t want to deal with them anymore i constantly cry and i’m so fucking stressed which isn’t good for our baby. but his comfort and the love we have for each other is just so much. i can’t. i don’t blame him for any of this and i’m so scared of ever losing him. i hate that i’m becoming so bitter because so this.
  

so reddit, feel free to give me advice or your opinions am i being overdramatic? or immature? i just need someone anyone to talk to about this. i don’t really have any friends to lean on or family.
tldr: i love my boyfriend but his family guilt tripped me into keeping my baby, is super snarky and rude sometimes i can’t really sum all of this up
edit: i wrote this a while back but didn’t have the courage to post it, basically since this they’ve planned my baby shower for me on the date of my dead best friends birthday and right before my due date. i also feel like they’re really causing problems between me and my boyfriend i’m dealing with the worst depression of my life right now.. i’m going to try and talk to them tomorrow since i don’t want them in the delivery room nor do i want to visit for the first month. wish me luck they won’t yell at me, last time they justified it by saying my baby wasn’t planned anyways 💀 it’s nice their trying to support us but they’re going about it so wrong

I am comfortable, happy, and dressed as I should be. I am wearing a black sports skirt, a sports bra, and a sports shirt. My toes and nails are polished, and my entire body is freshly shaved. An hour ago, I was at my office, and I drove home in this outfit. Of course, I looked around to make sure no one would see me because no one knows about me, Jennifer, except for one friend who transitioned and, of course, my friends here. I fear coming out as I live in Florida, am an attorney, have five kids (11-26), and live with my girlfriend. Living my life the way I want would destroy the life I have made for all of them - at least, that scares me.
No one is home right now, and I am watching TV on the couch while I write this. I have been meaning to write this narrative for several weeks, and I am glad I, Jennifer, am writing this. Earlier, I was outside in a bikini bottom to tan my legs. I am less afraid to be outside, jump in the car, or hang out like this. A year ago, I was terrified, and my feelings were tangled up in a lifetime of shame and secrecy. I am 56 now, pre-HRT, and have been taking Pueraria Mirifica and Bio-est 5.0 fairly regularly - maybe they are placebos, but I find some peace. When I shower, I try to regularly hide my stuff and smooth out my front. I am focused on losing 8-10 more pounds to get down to 169 lbs as I am 6'2". I wish I had more hair, but I, Jennifer, am in far better shape than the other guy!
It has been a year since I posted here that my egg had cracked. It was a huge step to take the biggest secret in my life and share it in a public space, but I had first visited with a friend of mine who had transitioned, and she is the only person who knows my "secret." Like many stories I read here, there was a flurry of emotions, an over-consumption of information, and a struggle with what to do next. I decided to see a counselor and otherwise keep my secret to myself but allow myself to explore my female side more. I am Jennifer.
What did that mean? I (1) shaved all of my body hair; it was absolutely terrifying, but a year later, I feel healthier, look younger, and cannot imagine being gross and hairy again. (2) I started taking care of my nails with manicures and pedicures; I regularly use clear polish. (3) I embraced buying clothes, although secretly, through online sources like Temu. This has done two things: it allowed me to discover fitting clothes and reinforced my desire to have a more feminine figure. (4) I dieted and lost 15 pounds and continue to try to exercise and tighten up my body. (5) I have found a way to have two lives - I boy-mode with the family and at home. At work, if I am not seeing clients, I am able to dress nearly full-time. I find myself wanting to be at work more and more.
In the mornings, I watch the weather because I wish I could snap my fingers and just be the weather girl. I study the women around me, not because I want to "do" them but because I wish I was them. In my life, I can remember wearing my mom's or sister's clothes when they were not home. I remember being in the drama club because we got to wear leotards and tights for costumes. I used to pull my tightie whities into a high panty style (the 1980s) and wished I could dress like the women I would see on TV, especially the big hair and leotards of the 80s. Through the years, I stole, borrowed, bought, and purged clothes. In the past year, I have accumulated two full suitcases of clothes and just feel like everything is the way it should be.
I am confused. I do not want to be "dude" me. I am Jennifer.
Lastly, in the last year, I have become keenly aware of the transphobic people around me. Even some incredibly close, liberal, and progressive people still express anti-trans comments. I sit and listen but do not say anything. They do not understand. And maybe that is confirmation I am trans -- cis people just don't get it.
I hadn't posted in a long time and really wanted to put this out there for me.
Peace, Jennifer (56 yo, +1 year egg cracked, no HRT, and generally confused....)

I’m working through the logistics of a clothing/armor layering framework that would allow a character to wear clothes and armor simultaneously and came upon a question I did not know the answer to. Here it is:
You’re a farmer and your farm is attacked by a dragon. You flee to a cave wherein you find a suit of armor. The armor comes with pants; you’re wearing a dress. Do you put the armored pants on underneath your dress or do you take the dress off completely and only wear the suit of armor?
TL;DR: In an armor layering framework, should you be able to wear armor pants with dresses or should dresses block armored pants (but allow armored skirts, for instance)?

Was hoping for a clean 100 souls but have 75 instead. Maybe the last 25 can be filled with other DM's/Party's ideas/adventures. I like something unfinished, honestly.
There's some obvious influence/thievery from OSR heavy hitters in here but I've attempted to keep it at a minimum just to inch my way to a clean 75 since 100 is proving troublesome. And honestly I've forgotten where some of these stolen/restructured ideas have come from. Feel free to credit link any so others can know their great works.
(e.g. P. Stuart, D. Selle, Coins and Scrolls, Goblin Punch, Vivien Feasson, S. Princess, Z. Cox/B. Brown, B. Milton, L. Rejec, P. Nilsson)
I doubt all the aforementioned are present in this list but I just wanna cover bases and/or call out incredible minds and effort in the hobby who I've really enjoyed. Call out any unlisted if you please. Credit where credit is due.
Edit: Whoof, formatting again
Edit 2: Cant change some numeration here it seems. Sub-traits are counted as independent entries. Italicized and emboldened sub-traits to help differentiate.
The Stilletto of The Imperator Scum (Trident)
On an (un)natural 20, consume a soul randomly from the table activating its effect, removing it from the table permanently
On a (un)natural 1, the target dies immediately and is resurrected as an undead. Pores on its body explode with rapid growth fungus and it’s health, and spell slots if applicable, are restored to their maximums. Their soul then becomes one with The Stiletto and is added to the table.
Soul of the…:

1. Ardent Giant - +2d6 dmg. to your attacks towards the target. Change the weather to which you desire
2. Befouler - target fucking stinks, if within 15ft Con. Sav 12 every round to keep from vomiting.
3. Gnarled Oak - that target lives the life of a tree in an instant. Witnessing love of child and pet. They see the first kiss of young love with the tip of the blade within their trunk declaring theirs eternal. They bear the burden of parenthood, choked with a child’s swing. The same swing their groom or bride will swing on, in remembrance, decades later. A generation of someones else’s life wears on them in the span of seconds. T
   1. Take 1d4 dmg. from the blade
   2. -2 Wis. as the dog pisses on them (1min duration)
   3. 3d8 dmg. as their branches are cut for a treehouse
   4. They will fall asleep in winter temperatures unable to wake up
   5. As long as their corpse touches soil they will resurrect in unspecified time
   6. If the target is killed within a city (soil or not) they will die sobbing with such penetrating sobbing. Within a mile radius, it lowers all CHA and WIS scores within range by 2 for 24hrs.
4. Devil - the target’s eyes wash with color and your reflection is upside down. They provide you a contract/offer that is too good to pass up. You literally can’t resist it but it’s also a really great deal. Other than the fact that your soul is lost at failure of completion. Unless the killing blow dealt to the Devil is holy damage, they arrive at The Nine Hells to bide their time before they continue their cursed bargains upon the mortal realm.
5. Claviger - The target is compelled to open the nearest door. If not the door, then box/barrel, chest, bag, pocket. Consume their next action. If the object doesn't open, spend each preceding action until it does.
6. Scion of the Slithering Soil - the target embodies the nameless soul of a god-fearing priest of Mi-Shao-Shur. Dedicated fully to Serpentine Ascension by committing acts of gratuitous depravity. They become a beacon for the resurrection of Mi-Shao-Shur by consuming their own flesh, restoring their health to its maximum. Revealing underneath their now-true serpentine forms. Their intelligence increases by 4 and from their mouths can cast the Poison Spray cantrip. The target can now communicate with nearby creatures and convince them to do their bidding.
7. Exploding Toad - target explodes. Dex Sav 13 or take 5d6 fire dmg.
8. Dwarf - target becomes one. Genderless. Immune to all compulsions that play on a desire for sex. No sexual organs. Instead of urinating you excrete waste through sweating, explaining the odor.
9. Tahlia - the target’s soul becomes trapped on the most worthless item on their person that isn’t a weapon or armor. Their body begins to thrash and scream mindlessly. Bodies are full of life and feelings but suffer the penultimate separation anxiety from the soul. The terrified shell will attempt to consume the item worth most to someone nearby with supernatural capacity. If they do so, your item is lost forever and the target becomes whole once more, restoring full health.
10. PorteBasin Filler - Nothing satiates the target’s desire to serve, will seek out more and more challenging tasks for such a talented valet
11. Abhorrer - target is unable to be targeted with any malice. The hate within you boils still but physically you are unable to be anything but be cordial and polite to the target. The creature knows every law and obeys them. It will use the law (if there is any) to destroy you.
12. Cannibal Critic - target is no longer able to communicate in normal language. Of their cursed race the target can only howl bestial war cries of generic criticism. And hastily consume flesh. Successfully answering a question can cause the target to pause and grunt in reflection before screaming another random question.
    1. WHAT’S THE MESSAGE
    2. WHAT DOES IT MEAN
    3. IS IT IRONIC
    4. IS IT KITSCH
    5. DON’T YOU FIND IT PROBLEMATIC
13. Dragonborn - If the dmg. dealt is to a non-dragonborn creature then the creature takes dmg. from their innate breath weapon, held within glands of which no non-dragonborn is prepared. 6d6 acid and poison dmg as their insides boil with draconic bile.
14. Gargoyle - FUCK BIIIIIRRRRRRRRDSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
15. Duergar - roll a d2 to Enlarge/Reduce target. Acquire sensitivity to sunlight regardless.
16. Untermensch - the target’s muscles atrophy and their mind begins to falter as all of their ability scores reduce to 8. If one of their scores is less than 8 it does not rise to 8. Apply a -2 mod. to every dice rolled. The only thing of which they can be relied upon is to either fail or clumsily execute every task.
17. Drow - target adheres to a woman’s word almost unwillingly and acquires sensitivity to sunlight. Incessantly mutters consequence for someone under their breath for whom they despise.
18. Githzerai - target casts Plane Shift unwittingly on self.
19. Bedlam Bird - The target knows when it is being looked at. The target loses all alliances and registers as “Evil” to spells and senses that detect such. It is compelled to commit pranks that are utterly fucked.
20. Wizard - Your weapon moves through the air at your exact command. Gains Antimagic Susceptibility. Lasts 2 min.
21. Azer - The target’s head ignites, it’s skull a torchlight shining bright light in a 15ft radius and dim light for an additional 10ft. It cannot be put out with water. The target takes 1d8 per round for 3 rounds.
22. Banshee - the target casts Wail. All within 30 ft. (including target) Con sav 13 or drop to 0 HP. On a success 3d6 psychic dmg. After the Wail, the target goes mute as their vocal cords are stretched to leather and can only emit a poor whine if exhaustion.
23. Androsphinx - The target’s body explodes and from within erupts a Heroes’ Feast. The depleted carcass turning into a gorgeous royal table spread.
24. Basilisk - Bestowed upon the target is a basilisk’s Petrifying Gaze.
25. Revenant - The target will rise as a Revenant 48 hrs after it’s death for the one who killed it.
26. Cat - The target has to be killed 8 more times.
27. Eigengrau - The target loses all memories from the last 24 hours
28. Zoanthrop - Target strips naked. Immune to all mind altering effects.
29. Wizard Hunter - Do you cast spells? You’re FUCKED.
30. Wild Magic Sorcerer - Roll 3 times on the Wild Magic table. All within 60ft radius are affected by the wild magic emanating from the target
31. Unseen Servant - Target turns invisible. Acts upon every command you give to it flawlessly. Limited only by its ability scores (they don’t change). Loses ability to speak or think for itself. Will not be around whenever you wake up from your next period of sleep.
32. Nabassu - target acquires a soul stealing gaze, anyone to look at the target must make a DC 16 Cha saving throw or reduce its maximum hit points by 13 permanently
33. Giant Squid - the target, upon this successful attack and when panicked or fleeing, squirts copious amounts of ink from their eyes, nose and mouth. Mixed with blood because that’s not supposed to happen, 1d8 dmg. with each use
34. Werewolf - the target shreds their outer layer of skin revealing blood soaked fur underneath, taking the form of a werewolf and using a werewolf’s stats, with their skin they also shed any physical and mental conditions
35. Gazer - the target gains the Gazer’s ability to mimic any simple sounds of speech in any language, with the target’s weak eyes it casts Dazing Ray and Fear Ray on itself and collapses into a depressive slump on the floor, screaming in fear in the last voice it heard, unable to flee
36. Virgin - the target becomes the crucial object in the ritual of the nearest carnal, gluttonous, murderous or heretical cult for their petty god, monster or demon of chosen worship. What will their death summon?
37. Nupperibo - the target acquires an insatiable hunger consuming any organic material within reach and easy enough to chew if no living opponent is within 30 ft. If the target attacks or is attacked by a living mortal then it can track that opponent flawlessly as it hungers for its flesh. Greater meals or death will cause it to leave you alone
38. Phoenix - the target explodes and each creature within 60ft must make a DC20 dex save, taking 4d10 fire damage on a failed save, or half as much on a successful one. The explosion destroys the target's body and leaves behind an egg shaped cinder that weighs 5 pounds. The cinder is lukewarm seeing as the target isn’t an actual phoenix. It is not immune to anything seeing as the target isn’t an actual phoenix. After 1d6 days, it hatches into an infant of whatever race the target was.
39. Oblex - target becomes amorphous if it isn’t already. Unfamiliar with it’s new form the target slumps into a pile of ooze unable to move, eat or breathe.
40. Gauth - the target begins to float into the air uncontrollably. With fewer eyes than the Gauth the target is blessed with only Pushing Ray and Sleep Ray, both of which it casts on itself, as it floats snoring into the clouds
41. Bullywug - the target becomes so repulsive that nature itself will reward you for its demise. If or when the target is killed you are healed to your maximum and your Con. increases by 1. It will be difficult though, because the target can talk to frogs and loves lording their power over you and has absolutely no shame. They immediately give themselves a shitty title that means nothing and will love talking about how every swamp ever is theirs to rule. Oh and they fucking reek, if you get within 10ft you’ll vomit automatically and uncontrollably
42. Hivemind - the target’s spinal cord vibrates and emits pheromones to call any swarming creatures (rats, insects, birds, etc.) nearby into a frenzy causing them to fall into chaotic bloodlust and whomever the target chooses
43. Modron - the target loses all mercy and remorse and will fight for their current objective even putting their own lives at risk. The target becomes immune to mind-affecting, emotion-affecting, and magic that draws upon the Positive Energy or the Negative Energy plane. You could quell its pursuit if something with 4 sides or more was able to give orders for it to stop.
44. Obliviax - you must make a con. save (DC 12) or else the target eats your memory of the last 24hrs and heals for d20+4 health. If you fail, you also lose 1 spell slot if you have one to lose and forget 1 spell randomly, if you know any, each for 24 hours. If you save they still heal as all they have to eat are things that you know but forgot you knew, like that play you really liked that one time
45. Strandvaskaren - the target is infected with the soul of one who drowned at sea but the waters preserved him in the inch worm gap between life and death and they float neither alive nor dead. The target feels heavy, cold, lungs weak, aware but able to move. The pressure of uncharted waters sits heavy on their chest and their strength is reduced by half rounded down.
46. Impartial Anima - the target solely relies on a pair of wolf bone dice (or another pair of dice if those go missing) to tell them how to make decisions. 1-10 is a no or negative response. 11-20 is a yes or positive response.
47. Adventuring Party - the target grows a magnificent mustache as steel armor sprouts from their skin and their hands glow with arcane magicks. Their pockets grow fat with religious symbols as a toddler’s diaper would when it’s stomach is upset. Or when it’s angry. Or even flirty. You sense a celestial presence hover over them as they grip their newly found sword and bow they are obviously skilled at using. You thought you had a fair amount of gold to possibly bribe them with but you realize you walk with a lighter step and at their feet your valuable currency lies in a burlap sack
48. Seraphim - the target knows nothing but their own feelings and nothing worth nothing ever came out of a book. The only true things, now, are feelings. Anyone who attempts to attack it must save or hesitate in it’s presence. The environment around the target begins to convert into things beautiful and pure. Roll d4
49. All metal within 50ft turns to gold
50. The target bleeds from sacred stigmata and the blood turns to rose petals as it falls
51. Grows wings and if already winged they are instead, actually, held aloft by a flock of doves
52. They lose their clothing and double in size as their skin turns alabaster white and they wear only a ribbon
53. Animated Barrel - the target attempts to grapple the nearest opponent and once successful begins to throw itself against walls, down stairs and out windows; enjoying the process. The target takes half damage while the opponent grappled takes double.
54. Panther - the target speaks all languages and becomes evil (if not already), honorable and utterly merciless. Will chat up it’s victims or give them a head start before murdering them.
55. Djinn - the target is imprisoned in the nearest vessel and must do their best to fulfill 3 requests for the one who frees them. They are given no additional power to accomplish this.
56. Barnyard Chimera - the target's head bends backwards horrifically making room for it to grow the heads of a cow, pig and goat. It grows the tails of a goose that spews blinding shit. When killed it splits open, spilling out 3d6 featherless, bloody chickens with red eyes and sharp talons. It runs on malformed horse legs speaking but only repetitious mindless phrases. "How about that weather, huh?" "Well, let's finish up and then have supper." "Aw hell, she's coming out breech."
57. Psychopomp - the target will become a guide/beacon for one of the hostile souls devoured by The Imperator Scum resurrecting it and freeing it from the trident.
58. Bell Dragger - the target is imbued with the soul of a wronged martyr. Their eyes go sickly white and they walk on their hands and knees dragging them to bloody stumps. Solely focused on the path to the afterlife, they will forever crawl until they find it. But Bell Draggers are both the summoners and chariot horses for death’s arrival. She will arrive soon.
59. Watch Lark - the target blooms a random amount of additional eyes all across their face above the nose. They can see through thick foliage and thin walls and all attacks have disadvantage on them as they always see you coming. Disadvantage against being blinded.
60. Remorhaz - the target’s stomach bubbles a heated secretion that spills from their mouth. The heat from both their mouth and body is strong enough to melt any nonmagical metals. 2d20 dmg. for every turn spent within 5ft of them. The bile is useful to alchemists in making heat related magical items. The target also becomes highly resistant to magic.
61. Arolohnso, Petty God of Labyrinths - the target using 3 fingers on each hand encircles themself drawing angular, snaking lines in the soil around them. Creating an elaborate maze of which they are the end. The borders drawn become invisible, impenetrable walls that protect them from all things but protect the target of their wrath from nothing. To reach the target, and make them vulnerable, you must draw a line through their maze solving it.
62. White Lion - the target becomes a Queen/King of a fallen kingdom. No serfs nor servants to pretend to care for them. They’re safer now than they’ve ever been (at least from the dangers of someone else’s hands). Their name and legend and royal blood is all lost to a land that has no gods nor masters any longer. Roll for effect:
63. They take their life as all of their worth was found in their property. Either by claw, royal dagger or casting themselves off a cliff or into the ocean, etc.
64. Their crimes as Queen/King are unforgivable and heirs to the wronged will appear behind the target and murder them in cold blood
65. The conquering challenger to their name/bloodline appears and disembowels them splashing you with their old, freshly-poor blood. They are an unpersuadable antagonist and the target is a pathetic remnants of a now dead kingdom
66. You are the new Queen/King. To a country side, people and riches unknown. When you find your kingdom your blood will lead you to wine and fresh fruit. The throne will be warm for your arrival. The target feels their royal blood leave them and they become desperate to drink it fresh from your veins to maintain their deific right. Their hostility is doubled.
67. The Whisperer - Trees whisper. The noise is low, tectonic, incomprehensible. Dial tone static bleeding through the vines of the deepest holts and groves. Spirits dance and gather around antler crowned gods who rule the brazen forest. Soft sounds bloom to life. Elves who hear this music sing to it wringing melodies from the resonances of the treesong. The target collapses into a sobbing heap. They are being wrung dry (poetically) from the beauty of the woodsong. When you’ve obtained comprehension of such extravagant, egoless harmonies what petty life squabble is worth donating your energy towards? The target cares not for your childish conflict any longer. They are possessed by the inability to remember the words to such an old song. One they recognize but do not remember. You can’t help them. They are no ally but no enemy. Pain cures all curses of the mind, though. Do not fetter them with continuing aggression lest you help them lose their place. If so, their hostility will quadruple.
68. Brave Explorer - the target has a distaste for the beaten path. So much so that it is unable to repeat any action, starting from this effect, becoming more and more unpredictable over time.
69. Leper - the target’s flesh becomes warped and scaly becoming an offense to your gaze. You can barely look upon them without vomiting on yourself. Unwilling to project your bile in any direction less it crosses your gaze once more. The Target gains expertise on stealth checks both active and passive. DC 14 Con save to resist puking at the sight of them. Once you succeed a check, remain immune to their image for 24 hrs.
70. Antithetical Spirit - the target’s emotional attachment for the world and its inhabitants become reversed to their present disposition. Do they hate you? Now they love you. Do they want to kill you? Now they want to fuck you. Do they want to eliminate everything you love and make you watch? Now they will kill everything you love in tribute to your limitless beauty and knowledge. Careful how you treat people.
71. Chadwick - the target is just...un-fucking-bearable to listen to. When they say your name it feels dirty afterwards and you just want to wash your parent’s mouths after the fact. They go on about bird calls as if they don’t have to take a breath to keep going. The target becomes an energy vampire and drains you of any optimism you have for the day and all you want is for this goon to go back to their home to watch the paint dry and not inform you of the oxygen reacting to the resin causing polymerisation of the paint leading to it’s lack of sheen once it’s settled. The rage in you is that equal to a Berserker and you gain the Frenzy trait. But you also suffer the effects of the Slow spell until you save on a Wis DC 15 at the start of your turn or kill the target.
72. Johann Smiff - the target immediately becomes a stranger to you and anyone who can see them. Their face and identity are so familiar and on the tip of your tongue but sooner to become dismissed as deja vu then remembered. They know who they are. But they are a face in the crowd before anything else to you. The one you knew them to be still exists in your mind but it is certainly not the target. The effect will wear off after the next long rest.
73. Bay Dolphin - saltwater, freshwater, the target can breathe in either and requires one or the other to do so at all. The target remains highly intelligent, as dolphins are, and retains it’s motor skills and muscle memory. The target will rush to find itself a suitable environment to be able to breathe once more, as a blowhole begins to peer open upon their scalp, but will be able to do so without panic for several minutes. Once they get into the water their constitution and dexterity both become 20 and they are immune to fear.
74. Atticus Aurelius - the target is imbued with the soul of a famed gladiator from several eras passed. Skilled with any weapon as Atticus was, the target becomes proficient with all physical weapons (improvised or not). Able to command the applause of an audience at the drop of his helmet. If a crowd surrounds you (of any humanoid, undead/constructs or not) the target can command them to boo you and your allies causing you to suffer from the effects of Bane. Or they may cheer the target applying the effects of Bless. No saves. If the audience is unsatisfied at a poor showing or cheating habits their boos and riot will suppress you further applying the effects of Slow. Put on an absolute banger of a show with flourish and skill and their cheers will apply the effects of Haste. No saves.
75. Jäegerjog - the target’s soul becomes the one born to die at your hand. Sewn into the never ending tapestry of time it is their fate to perish by your influence alone. They know it though you may not. They also know everything about you and they have advantage against you in every aspect as you suffer disadvantage in every reflective aspect. They also can’t be killed by anyone but you.
76. Dracolich - the target becomes an unwilling phylactery of an ancient Dracolich. Watch the skies…
77. Rook - the target and all who can see them become one within The Parliament. Each individual is now on trial and must provide a story to be judged by their peers. As the anecdotes unfold more and more blackbirds will arrive and encircle the lot of you to listen in. At the DM’s discretion the one who told the least captivating tale will be pecked to death by the encircling birds, and attacked by any affected N/PC, for 15d10 dmg before they flutter off. No save can be made less you reveal yourself as an outsider and ally yourself with the guilty. (WIS DC 14 for the most rebellious of you). Any shiny trinkets you can throw within the circle will decrease the DC by 1.
78. Nymph - the target becomes a beacon of inequitable beauty. Their form becomes statuesque to each individual who gaze upon them. Their desire to fight dissipates and they become concerned only with judging others for their beauty. Weak in the knees to the target’s newly bestowed sex appeal, you unwillingly confess to them which part of yourself you hate the most. Confused by their Nymph aura, though they are none. Whoever they take pity on most reduces their CHA score by 1. The target then runs away, believing the mere presence of such filthy, struggling adventurers despoils their presence just by being near. The air of death and rot on you is more present than it’s ever been. You cannot help but stay on your knees as you watch them flee. You are free from their hold once they leave your sight.
79. Übermensch - the target can perform any action perfectly with mathematical efficiency. Consider every one of their ability scores and rolls a 20 without the proficiency modifier. The target lacks heart and chaos in their soul from this point forward. They can execute all required of them perfectly. There is no surprise in their execution. They will always perform at maximum potential except in the dealings of art. They can be taught, certainly, but without thorough guidance all of their CHA rolls equate to zero regardless of modifiers.
80. Star-Crossed Lover - a soul torn asunder, the target becomes one half of a harmonious pairing that will bring light and love into this world. A larger piece of the puzzle than you are at this moment. The union of the target and their mysterious lover are victims, but vital players, in a blood feud. Their death(s) will shift the tide in a grand conflict unseen...
81. Woodland Eidolon - the target's eyes become ovaled and protrude subtly from their head as a nervous fawn’s would. Their skin molts and grows fine ivory hairs as they shiver and freeze. Unblinking. Shallow sharp breaths. A spirit of the woods stands before you and you have the span of a blink to claim your kill or else they are lost to legends told around the campfire once more. Their DEX Skill becomes 20 and all DEX checks and saves are criticals made with advantage. They can outrun your magical influence and know when you’re going to act before you do. But….if the stars are aligned and you land the killing blow (any successful attack is a killing blow)...their trophy will bring you gifts of which you only dreamed
82. Antlers - netted in a spider’s web wet with morning dew, the glistening beads and weave act as a dream catcher for the most malicious nightmares protecting you from magical influence as you sleep
83. Pelt - it warms you as a campfire would and as long as you are blanketed by it you are immune to cold and your health regenerates for 4 for every round of combat it’s equipped
84. Horn - left lying in the dirt it is a sign of something terrible and conquering walking the grounds, an obelisk of bone that prevents predators and ambushes alike within a mile radius. But if you are caught carrying it you are seen as a dishonorable scavenger and your name will be besmirched within the wilds. The pheromones from it act as a subtle aphrodisiac amongst humanoids (not including undead/constructs) and you have prof. in CHA checks
85. Scrimshaw - an ivory tusk from a Mother Walvis decorated with a sailor’s tale of his time on the seas. The carvings are half finished leaving most of the tusk bare. All stories have an ending and this sailor’s is now yours to tell. This tusk will bring you a boat when you have none. All you must do is find shore. It will also allow you to hold your breath for up to an hour.
86. Broken Night - the target becomes bored by all they know well. Any extraordinary item they have on their person that they are well acquainted with will equal the value of trash immediately. If they know you well, then their pursuit of you, or risk thereof diminishes entirely. They will respond to threats accordingly but otherwise would prefer something strange and rare to busy themselves. Especially if it is of a teasing nature. If they hold something of interest to you then they are always willing to trade for a more interesting object. Or even a story perhaps.
87. Neogi - A Neogi can smother a weak mind with some ease. The target’s mind becomes weak. Prey for any who have the ambition to use it for their own bidding until the body collapses. The target becomes cowardice prey. If so inclined, you’re welcome to impose your will upon them. Though so can everyone else. The blank-canvas-welcome of their mindscape has too much potential to pass up. Greedy minds can sniff out the glove-fit of their embryonic potential like a shark for blood. Who says no to a soft body that asks for it?

Yesterday I had to get some new jeans & tees--had been putting it off but then I had a house fire and my clothes got ruined by smoke. So I went into Kohl's. Levis jeans (311 shaping skinny) 31x30. (Pre-Zep, it was 33x30 and they were tight). Levis Bermudas: 30. Sonoma denim jacket: S. And tees? PS.
Oh, and a scale victory: I'm now at goal! All on 2.5. (First thing I rescued from fridge after the fire was my 3 pens of Zep 5mg & 2 boxes + 1 pen of Mounjaro 2.5mg--I presciently had my insulated zipper shopping tote in my car trunk and was able to take a gel ice pack from the freezer).
No "before" pic, as the one I'd planned to scan was in the fire and I have no time to get dolled up for an "after." So you'll have to take my word for it until my life gets settled down.

Hi reddit! I’m on a throwaway but technically this is my first post, because I’ve never actually made a post on my own personal account. My best friend is on vacation right now and I haven’t had anyone to talk to, so I guess I just wanted to get this all off my chest.
kinda a lot to unpack here, so I apologize if this is kinda ramble-y, but pretty much exactly what the title says. A few days ago I found that my (28f) boyfriend (33m) of 6 months has a flash drive with easily hundreds of photos of female acquaintances, ex hookups, ex girlfriends, pretty much anyone he “used to have a crush on/fantasize about” (his words), all meticulously organized by name, all within a file titled “Known”. What freaked me out the most was that only very few were intimate photos - most were fully clothed, otherwise innocent photos that looked like they were pulled unknowingly from these womens’ Facebook profile photos. Seriously, matter how well you know someone, when you find a dusty old drive with 20 hidden folders each with a different personally-known woman’s name on it, you get a little (a lot) shook as a woman yourself. Like, I was completely by myself and actually said “what the fuck is this” out loud to no one, like in a movie, I didn’t think people actually did that lol but I was just.. stunned.
Sooo, naturally I’m incredibly creeped out by this, and I confront him about it. He immediately started sobbing and saying he didn’t want to lose me, that he forgot it existed, that “when he was younger, he was weird about sex”. So now this becomes a whole other thing to unpack cause I’m like what tf do you mean by that and how does it apply here lol. The part where he forgot it existed, I believe that, because although I didn’t check the “recently viewed” dates when I found it, it was definitely all dusty.
But the more I think about it, the more it bothers me. Like I know when we’re younger sex is weird, I know dudes sometimes either accidentally or purposely keep a recent ex’s nudes, people have pasts and keep memories but like… These photos were amassed over a span of time between 2011-2016, and collecting and organizing photos of close female friends to jerk off to over a 5 year span just feels different than some kid saving spank bank material so his parents don’t find it. This gets worse when you consider that at 33 currently, 8 years ago my boyfriend was 25 - I tried explaining by making an example to him, that it’d be different if it was 20yrs ago, we were all weird at 13. Shitty example, but you get it. But he was 25, at 28 myself, I know I certainly wasn’t collecting pics of my guy friends off their instagrams to save to a flash drive flick it to at 25 years old.
It gets worse. From 2011 to 2022, he was in a long term monogamous relationship with someone he dated high school and after that he ended up marrying. Which means that in the time he was saving and using these photos for masturbation material, he was in a relationship. He says to him it was just porn, a way to fantasize about women he couldn’t have, not cheating - I asked him to explain that one to me. Because how is being in a relationship and locking yourself in a room to jerk it to photos of yours and your wife’s friends not cheating in some way? That made him cry more, and the extreme reaction to me finding it all instead of just being like “yeah idk I was a weirdo” made it all the worse somehow. He said he wasn’t happy in his relationship so he’d save these to look at later.
I believe that he hasn’t accessed this flash drive in years. But I still can’t get it out of my head. 8 years ago or not, this didn’t feel like just random spank bank material. It gave me a “pattern of behavior” vibe. I dug a little more into the names in the flash drive as well, and some of them weren’t even his own friends, but his then-wife’s. Gives me goosebumps just typing it. He says it was a “long time ago” and that, technically, he “didn’t do anything to betray my trust”. Again, I believe he hasn’t accessed it… but I can’t stop wondering if he’s just gotten smarter and instead of keeping a flash drive, maybe now he keeps these folders hidden on his phone. Maybe there’s one of me from before we dated with my instagram photos in it. Maybe my best friend has a folder of her own. Maybe our female coworkers have one too. I just… have no way of not knowing, and I can’t shake that this isn’t just one-off weird behavior from nearly ten years ago. It just felt like… something more We live together, and it’s difficult for me to just pack up and go, although my gut tells me maybe that’s what I should do. I dunno, I don’t really have anyone to talk to, so I guess I just wanted to get that off my chest.

I am in no way paid or endosed by AGS. I am also not high on compium and I will list the negatives here as well. Remember, people will ALWAYS find a way to complain about something. This is just my honest opinion.... in Novel form (sorry)

TL;DR
New World is a very fun and addicting MMORPG with massive potential though it lacks a lot of repeatable end game content. It continues to have regular development though usually has some bugs that need to be fixed after each release. The dev team mostly listens to its player base and have steered the game into a direction that reflects that though they continually let down their players.
The game needs more PVP content ASAP. PVPers are hardcore lovers of the game because of its unique combat system. The game also needs more PVE content delivered regularly. AGS actively communicates with the players on social media. They are transparent for the most part and publish regular update videos from devs, community managers & a series on lore and different aspects of the game. They publish roadmaps from time to time as well. The game has a list of pros and cons but I feel it's moving in the right direction now despite it's problems to date.
If you play the solo content, group content, seasonal and special events, season passes, open world PVP and PVP game modes then it is my opinion that you'll easily get 200 or more hours from the game. I think that's worth the price of the game.

The people making the posts bashing the game & the developers are likely people that have a lot of hours invested into the game and are upset about the (lack of news) announcement yesterday and how it was delivered by AGS. We really have put up with a lot of disappointment from AGS over the last few years and there are some things that were bad but most have been ironed out during that time. I have over 5300 hours in New World and I still love the game. The community is toxic but I think it's becuase people really do love the game and want it to succed. Otherwise, why are they still around in Discord and Reddit talking shit? This game has massive potentital and I'll explain why I believe that below.
NW is currently is #7 on Steam Charts for Most Peak Players at just over 900k concurrent and while that's not important right now, it's proof that a lot of people own the game and had high hopes for it. If AGS can find a way to evolve into that game then we might get those kinds of numbers again. Those days were wild. Hours long queues and towns jam packed with players. Since then it has majorly come down to like 8k players or so during peak hours so find group content right now can be challenging.
If you love MMORPGs and decide to buy this game, it is my opinion that you'll easily get a couple hundred hours out of it (minimum) if you do all of the available solo content and also participate in group content, seasonal events, season passes, open world pvp & group PVP modes. Even just leveling up the trade & refining skills will take you a long time especially if you're a completionist and the crafting system is honestly amazing in this game. The gathering & refining is awesome too. Gathering can get monotonous at times espeically if you get bored easily, but it's a part of the game and you can do it as little or as much as you want. There is a mini game mode called "Invasions" as well. These are a nightly PVE event where players fight "Corruption" enemies that attack the forts in a given zone and if you don't beat them in 30 minutes then the town perks get downgraded (that's the jist of it).
You'll also get things that we never had like swimming, a pvp only zone that offers better rewards, a reworked backend for large scale combat & new combat and movement animations, a fully revamped storytelling approach with enhanced dialogue, cut scenes and stuff like that (though this was sort of done once before because it really, really sucked prior to that), a bear mount & there's more but I can't think of it right now.
There is quite a bit of PVE content that will be available when the console version releases especially now that Soul Trials (solo boss fights) will be repeatable with drops & rewards. There's also the new raid coming and I believe they are also re-working the Sandwurm raid which I haven't even had a chance to do once yet because it's pretty hard and the rewards aren't worth the effort so no on wants to do it. There are currently 12 Expeditions (aka Dungeons) and a handful of Soul Trials (can't remember how many, maybe 6) and that isn't a lot when compared to other games but they do atleast have rotating mutations that are progressivly harder versions that offer better and better rewards. It's the same dungeon but harder because there are also random mutators in there like enemies getting buffs or resistance to certain types of damage, random player debuffs... stuff like that.
PVP on the other hand is a different story. There is not a lot of current PVP content in the game. There's virtually zero open-world PVP unless you count Influence Wars (PVP mini game that your faction tries to win) which take place in the open-world but only occur at certain times of the day. There are also some repeatable PVP quests you can do and you may occasionally run into another player doing the same quests but in my experience this doesn't even result in a PVP fight. We ride right past each other and finish our quests. I think if the server pops were really high this wouldn't happen as much.
The other available PVP content is 3v3 Arenas (currently not worth doing because the leveling & rewards are really bad) and Outpost Rush (a 20v20 team-based capture-the-point mode). There is also a PVP mode called "War" however the chance of you actually being in a War is slim to none due to the politics system in the game. What I mean is, there are 3 factions in the game that can compete to own the territories of the map. Within the factions are Companies which are groups of up to 100 players and a warring Company's goal is to capture a territory on the map. The main problem is the companies only slot the best players in Wars. If you're not the greatest pvp player, then most Governers will slot players from another faction before slotting a player from their own company or faction. It's kind of a shitty system in my opinion. Don't expect to be in a War unless you're really good at PVP or if AGS finally comes to their senses and adds a 50v50 War mode. That's honestly all there is for PVP. Pretty sad.
PVP is optional however there is one caveat... There are some Artifact weapons & gear that are locked behind PVP activities. These are some of the best weapons & gear in the game and the only way to get them is to do the content they are locked behind. No way around it. AGS really needs to devote manpower to creating more and more PVP content because the PVP players are dedicated and love it. This is because PVP is incredibly fun due to the combat system in the game. It's unlike (and better than) any MMO on the market in my opinion. You can try meta builds or create your own setup by combining any of the weapons, abilities and perks together. There are no forced classes, you can choose whatever setup you want.
You'll constantly hear players claiming "AGS doesn't listen to us and they never add new content" and that just isn't true. They do add content regularly and it's not always a big update but it is regular development and AGS is very transparent. They are more transparent than any other studi as far as I'm aware. They have frequent Dev update videos, community update videos, community Q&A videos, another video series dedicated to different aspects of the game, the lore and stuff like that. They also actively participate on Reddit and in Discord. They aren't perfect but I'm not aware of another studio that does all of that stuff. In my opinion they put up with way too much shit from toxic people in this community constantly bashing everything they do.
In the beginning AGS moved super fast with updates and content but the updates were always littered with large bugs. There were a lot of game breaking bugs that resulted in exploits, disabled weapons and abilities, the in-game market being shut down due to inventory dupes, and lots of other wild stuff. There was a really old bug where you could insert html code into the chat and embed a photo in chat. That was.... an interesting time for the game, lol. (You OGs remember that sausage pic!)
Players complained and AGS listened and announced that they were going to slow down with speedy updates and proceed with higher quality updates but moving a bit slower. Everyone I've talked to was fine with that but the problem is they slowed down and we still got the bugs, over and over and over. Literally every update I can remember has introduced bugs (maybe I'm wrong). This always results in upset players that end up bashing the devs on Reddit and in Discord. But while AGS is a relativley new studio, I think they're just working with what they were given and they're trying to make the best of it. The game was designed in Lumberyard which is a homebrew game engine owned by Amazon (based off CryEngine). I'm not a dev but devs I know say that Lumberyard engine was a steaming pile of shit. It has since been reworked & optimized and turned into the Azoth Engine. We also just saw the combat and animation systems reworked to new code which was rocky at the start but seems to be getting better with each update.
AGS hasn't given us everything but they do listen and have delivered a lot of things we have asked for tho also a lot of things we didn't ask for... like Musical Instrument at a time when playable content was badly needed. I feel that way espeically since I've played since the very beginning so I've seen everything they've added since then. I think the game was released like 2 years too early in my opnion. It felt very beta up until like the end of last year. It feels a lot more polished now tho there are still bugs and things we want that have never been addressed. Isn't just about every game like that at some point though?
This is getting too long so here's my other Pros & Cons:
PROs

• The game audio is out of this world. Just about every sound is real captured audio. If you're in the wild chopping trees you'll hear birds, water falls, wind, people fighting in the distance, enemies. It sounds amazing.
• There are still fan-managed websites devoted to the game with wikis and maps
• The game has transmog
• The economy is player driven so we set the prices on everything sold in game
• Regular QoL updates. It's the little things that count!
• The housing system is really good. There's a ton of furniture and decorations available to decorate your house however you want
• The transparancey and regular development by AGS
• Still a lot of bigger streamers that love & play the game (Asmongold, Xaryu, Sequisha, CatContii to name a few)
• No pay to win
• Way better weapons & gear in the game that ever before (drops and crafted)
• The game has massive potential. I feel if it had a lot more content and AGS was able to address the things that players don't like faster then this could be one the best MMORPGs ever

Cons

• Bugs. Every update there's something broken even if it's little
• Mounts locked behind DLC. These should be available for everyone becuase running this huge map sucks. Fast travel helps tho
• The player community is mostly toxic. Everyone complains, including me but there's no reason to utterly shit on AGS staff especially in their own forums when you don't like what they have to say
• New content doesn't get delivered fast. We often have to wait for real content
• AGS has a habit of delaying updates to fix bugs found just before a release
• AGS also has a habit of letting down it's most loyal players. We have waited months for this big announcement yesterday and it was drummed up in several of their update videos and then we all got slapped in the face after the announcement because we aren't getting much new content. Another let down but we're used to it at this point
• Not enough people particpate on the PTR test servers to test the new features and find bugs
• Poor customer service. I'm pretty sure it's just regular Amazon retail customer support people
• AGS sometimes adds random stuff like musical instruments to the game or revamping the cooking trade skill tree. We asked for content and got instruments & new recipes XD
• There are still farm bots in the game despite AGS banning them in waves
• No ability to change character name or appearance (so choose wisely)
• Some copy/paste buildings and enemy models & abilities in the OG areas of the map

Okay so before I get started, I did like the series. And I am glad that a series about SA (sexual assault) awareness is getting so much recognition. But why is it getting praised so much? I liked it but i'd give it a 6,5/10 MAX. when it comes to how much it educated the watchers.
SPOILERS: I forgot his name but why did Alma forgive him for r-wording her? His excuse is stupid, HE WAS being extremely selfish for taking advantages of her. He knew what he was doing. Someone with genuinely good intentions would've waited for her best friend (Greta) to come back. Not being able to give consent is r4pe. Why is it showing us that a simple apology is enough? Theres plenty ways and situations of getting SA. I was genuinely happy at first to see that we're getting the "Feeling guilty for the r4pist" situation, because I know a lot of people deal with that. Not knowing whether to ruin your r4pists life or not. Breaking down because you can't tell if you're overreacting or not. And then I WAS HOPING for the series to show us that we're not overreacting. Because for some stupid reason we're just too human and feel guilty for people that dont deserve it. Its important to be heard. I was hoping that their "friendship" is gonna end up with Alma noticing that he has to pay for what he did.
Again, would've been an amazing representation to see someone being manipulated at first by their own guilt-feeling / or by the r4pist, but then noticing that they have the right to report it. But he ended up being on the side of the SA-victims... are you kidding me? He's calling Alberto an asshole as if he didn't r4pe his own friend. (Which btw yes Alberto is an asshole too obviously).
Now to another Issue I have: Age-Gaps.
So if that was a romance-series about some barely legal relationships, then thats one thing. But isn't this show supposed to be educational? Raising voices for victims? Grooming exists too you know? And its especially very very often connected to SA.
So then why is the main character being shipped with a 23 year old (correct me if im wrong) while being 17. And her best friend with some mid-aged women.
Sadly I have to admit that their chemistry was amazing, I sometimes forgot about their age difference but that's exactly what you SHOULD NOT teach your watchers. Now call me dumb for thinking that some people are gonna get influenced by this, but yes deep down that's how it is. What we see does infact influence us. And in this case all the praise towards this show confuses me. Why is NO ONE talking about it? We should not normalise a 17 year old with a 30+. We should not normalise forgiving your r4pist. This show started off good, its entertaining. But honestly its not that good if you judge its educational purposes.
Its like 3am for me so sorry for the typos I've probably made. But I'd love to hear what you guys think about this series or about my "points".